2003-07-04 - 2:07 a.m.
today is just one of those rough days. everybody has them and it doesn't help that i have a bit of a depression problem. i have so much going on around me but i choose not to talk about it or share it. it is my own burden and is not for anyone else to have to deal with. i refuse to show weakness. but today was just a rough one. i made it through it though. it is 2:30 am. tommorrow is going to be better. i can feel it. i am off to bed. i am sure glad though that i didn't stay up late tonight b/c i would have hated missing someone NOT CALLING b/c it isn't like MY ENTIRE FAMILY'S SCHEDULES ARE REVOLVING AROUND WHEN HE GETS OFF WORK TOMMORROW. so i get to leave my mom a note to tell her that i don't know when we are all going to atlanta. i am sorry and it is all my fault. maybe he will call tommorrow....early. but probably not.
