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from doctoredjnr :

I think you can tell a lot about people by the way that they treat and relate to their pets. I'm inclined to believe that those who treat them like humans are better people than those who treat them like animals.

from doctoredjnr :

I'm sorry to hear about your Nikki.

from angelichate :

Hey babe, I know you're in hospital and everything - I hope you are doing well! Can't wait to talk to you when you get out, love you lots babes....xxxx...

hey... I am still here for ages so dont worry! I will be in touch again soon... work is killing me!

from stoner-girl :

babe? it's tarnia by the way. i have a new present diary. i noticed you haven't updated for a very long time, i hope you're okay...

I want to see you soon.. will call you early next week with the aim of catching up the week after.. am working nights for the bank and sleeping.. hopefully finishing soon though

BELLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I didnt get it and have no contacts myself goddamn it... maybe the phone book will work! email me again!

I am here.. I need your contact details! owe you that hug!

from doctoredjnr :

I am told breaking things down into small pieces/goals helps. Just break things down slowly and work towards completing the small pieces/goals.

from doctoredjnr :

I'm 19, I will be 20 in August. I'll take it as a compliment as long as you take me thinking you're pretty cool as a compliment too? Deal? Good luck with your assignments tomorrow.

from doctoredjnr :

I have many cricket bats (well two at least) but I am not sure about whacking you with them. I can't honestly remember what it is like to take drugs with some one else. It is just a bit of pot, but if you wanted to come along then, sure it would be nice?

from doctoredjnr :

I used to love English when I was at school, until we had to read and reread all of the good books, totally killing them for me. At the moment I am working out how to transfer my course over to something so I can become a librarian and get my arse back to Uni. I've had the last two semesters off and at the moment I don't know if I want to go back or not, or even if i can.

from doctoredjnr :

Sorry I seem to have lost my manners, I meant to ask you how your two weeks of Prac went? Also what are you going to teach when you finish?

from doctoredjnr :

Thanks :) I plan to keep having fun, just in future I hope to find something to do so when people ask me what I did that was so fun I can say something other than "I thought about writting a story about sea otters".

from doctoredjnr :

It is a Placebo song, If I think too much about how you would interperate it I get worried about you would think. It is a clumsy way of saying I am (searches for words) quite fond of you.

from isthisblood :

hey... i found your diary linked from a TF-er's.. i'm from perth too.. ~chelle

from crosover :

Hey, I'm glad you're feeling better. Its me KAT writing from my fiction diary.

from angelichate :

Lol I can understand why you're confused. This diary is my old paper diaries, starting from New Years 2000. I'll be typing up my paaper entries up to June where then my hippiegirl entires will be cut and pasted. Then following my hippiegirl will be my me-always. To make an uber-diary lol. Anyway I hope you're taking care!

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from me-always :

Sorry sis, I didn't know what passwored you wanted. You'll get an e-mail now with one on it okay?

from aropax :

Hi, you left a note on my page. Thank you. I didn't know anyone would be reading them. That's part of the reason I stop writing. Went through some of your entries and found the amazing similarities in us. Would like to hear from you again, please email me if you like. [email protected]

from potireviews :

Are you stin interested in a review? If you are please send an email to [email protected]. Thanks!

from me-always :

Thanks Bella. Umm what do you have in mind? I got my layout from bratdesigns maybe if you have a day spare you could go on beautify.diaryland.com have a look at some templates, choose which one you want (which is always the hard bit), send me alink along with your password and I can put up and make sure your links and everything are on it. I will be sending you a christmas pressie and card, but i don't know if it'll get there in time. I haven't sent it yet.

from britneypink :

Hope things work out. All the best.

from myhappiness :

Good LUCK. Remember you gotta tell us about it. Please WRITE MORE.

from life-in-mind :

Hi Bella-amor. Your survey was fun to take. I unlocked my journal for you. I must warn you though it is not very good since I hardly write in it. Take Care.

from kymee :

I know, my ex-fianc� and I bought a house together in Connolly and used to go to Margaret River every once in a blue moon, although he used to go down there for work all the time. I only bought it because it was named "Mad Fish", which I thought was rather odd. It sits rather nicely next to my tres expensive South Eastern Australian wines (I'm a NSW wine snob), blame Bill, it's his fault. Now, you pet are breaking my heart, I truly wish I could help you see yourself the way that other people do. This disease can kill you if you don't grab it by the neck and shake it loose and diet pills aren't going to help you, they're just going to fuel your obsession hun.

from britneypink :

what happened? you're in my thoughts. I wish I was a millionaire or something.

from britneypink :

I'm so glad you have the puppy to look forward too. Woooooo...that guy, geeze, you are tremondously strong no matter what the other factors do to you. I hope things work out at home. Its good to see you have such a solid plan. A new job in the works. Take care of yourself. Stay strong. Winter's coming. Hopefully the revenge stuff hasn't taken a toll on you like it did on Willow from Buffy.

from me-always :

Bella cariad, you are a wonderful person don't lose hope! There's all of us rooting for you. I'm sure you can neaten up your hair if you want, make a new spunky style or something. Remember you have to get better so I can come and see you soon. It will only be in 4yrs and then I'll be travelling the world for a year before I go to college or university. Later.

from sb1rustybg :

thanks so much for the message.... I hate myself so much now....but maybe i'm just sitting in self pity. I really wish there was someone i could talk to in person about all of this...someone who would just hold me and support me. i would love to be pals with you.... except we'll have to do it back and forth through diary land becuase i use the comptuers at my school and they will not allow me to access my email accounts. I'm 18 and from the united states... Originally from north dakota, but right now i'm in Texas. I've been here, in treatment, for the past about six months. I'm so scared of success it isn't even funny. I'm also scared of failure. To sum it up, i'm scared of everything. Scared of myself. I think i can feel my thighs getting bigger from allt his sugar free candy i'm eating. Last night was horrible....my stomach HURT so bad because of all the candy i ate..i. could hardly move. I'm guessing my weight will be up a pound maybe, at the most. Either way though- it's not good. My counselor will probably notice something, and i will rationalize the weight gain with a 'i'm on my period' or something to that effect. I desperately want to get better...but my actions speak otherwise. Tell me more about you...about how you've tried to get better and about what hasn't worked for you. I'm here for you---

from me-always :

Bella don't cry, you have to accept the idea that someone likes you. You ARE likable and by god I shall tell you this everytime I talk to you if it gets into your head. You are extremely likable and I wish I was there in person to protect and comfort you through your bad patches. To give you hugs and nice cups of tea (I make good tea) but you'll have to settle for a virtual hug which is pretty sucky for I give excellent hugs too but it will have to do. Until I get older, travel the world and visit you that is. :oD Cheer up, feel loved for it is what you truly are!

from sb1rustybg :

Hey bella...i had a really rough weekend here in treatment, but i was able to go throguh it without turning to my disease. I read your entry about the boy... And, well, i'm just beginning to look at the effect guys have in my life. I am a love addict. I get my feelings of worth from guys....if they look at me or pay attention to me. So i guess we can relate in that way. I have been kind of unwilling to look at it for the whole time i've been here... It's a really shameful thing in my family to get your self worth from guys. I can understand the feeling 'dead' that you lef tme a note about. I understand totally. Just the feeling of emptiness......uselessness in life...worthlessness. I hated my life...i hated living. Then i realized that i wasnt' living at all...that i really WAS 'dead'. I wasn't living at all, i was just existing. I had to experience life before i decided whether i wanted it or if i wanted to physically die. I can proudly say that, by the grace of God, i am living today. It's not easy, and things aren't all 'happy happy, joy, joy', but i am living without the obsession of my eating disorder. It stole the life from me....it sucked it out of me, leaving absolutely nothing left. I do have hard days...but i have support and i know how to treat my eating disorder now. I have tried many times to recover before...mostly on my own, one other time in a 30 day treatment facility. I failed every time. But i want recovery too badly to let my failures stop me. I care about you and i want the best for you. Did you go to that website? Let me know what you think. I"m here if i can help you in any way- let me know.

from me-always :

No Bella, YOU ROCK! You really do, and its so sweet calling me your little sister for sometimes I do feel that way. This boy sounds really nice, you deserve love and adoration. Welcome it. Keep up the great work, you're doing brilliantly sweetie!

from sb1rustybg :

Hey sweetie...i just read your entry....and, as you can tell from my diary (if you've read it lately), i'm doing about as good as you are. But i know that you need help. And i think you know that you need help. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, if there is even the smallest part of you that wants to recover, go to shadesofhope.com/. Recovery is possible...it truely is.

from sb1rustybg :

I just read your entry about your job...about how you didn't go. Could you find a job somewhere else? Are there alot of job opportunities where you live??? I jsut dont know what to say.....except i'm sure things aren't as bad as you think they are. Theyr'e not as bad as they look right now. Keep your head up...keep looking for a job.

from kymee :

You're back!! *HUGS* That's so brilliant!! I'm glad someone understands and it's so great to see you back in the world of the dlanders!!

from me-always :

You added me! That's so sweet, thank you! You didn't have to though. I would try and promise not to grow up fast but sadly I think I already have, I feel like a 18yr old stuck in a 13yr old body. Its not good. I have to admit I only half-believe that you and Jason talk about me, I'm not sure if I still believe it. He said you asked about me which was really touching to me. Luv ya sweetie, hope we talk on MSN sometime. Stay sweet.

from sb1rustybg :

It was great to hear from you...and to know that you're doing good. Keep leaving me notes...let me know about the hard times and the good times. I'm always here if you need anything; i understand.

from sb1rustybg :

Bella... I'm so happy for you. Recovery seems like it sucks at first... But it WILL get better!!! If you read my last entry... It describes the joy i feel becuase I AM FINALLY OK WITH ME. I'm starting to love myself. I hope you read this... I am very very proud of you... Lean on God for help, He has more power than you can even imagine. You are in my thoughts. And write me when you get back!

from kymee :

Good luck with your recovery Bella, as one who knows, it's one of the hardest things in the world to over come. Thanks to Jason, I will go back and read your writing. Keep the pen to the paper, we all aspire to be the greatest writer we've known, and we all are. Kxx

Bella, I will definately call you. I willmiss you entries and now that Ilove ya

from sb1rustybg :

Hey! I'm a bulimic...and i was just reading your diary. It reminds me so much of mine. For the past four years i thought i could beat this thing on my own... IF ONLY I had more willpower...iF ONLY IF ONLY IF ONLY. I would beat myself up becuase I COULD NOT STOP doing what i was doing. Every day was filled with constant binging and purging... It was the only thing i lived for. I was miserable. I wanted more than anything to die. I realized that i wasn't living at all... I didn't hate life, i just hated the existance i was becoming. The relentless obsession and constant failure. I didn't even know what life WAS...how could i hate it? I decided to go to treatment in May. It was the best decision i've ever made. I learned to live again. Read my diary... And if you want help, let me know. Check out www.shadesofhope.com/ (thats where i'm at) There IS hope for you. YOu have a disease; it's now your responsibility to treat it. I'm here, and i'm living... and there is help and hope available; no matter what your head tells you. I am living proof.

from silver-blue :

Dear Bella, I was just passing through and thought I'd send a warm little hi. I'm having a bit of a binge myself because thats what happens when I get miserable. Life sure does suck sometimes, but nothing worthwhile is ever easy. - Leonie

from hippiegirl1 :

Sweetie, you're never alone though you really have to use some of that amazing self-discipline you have and stop this. Be strong cariad. Be happy.

from hippiegirl1 :

Bella I'm glad you're feeling happy again, everyone deserves to be happy and I am thrilled that you feel that your life is changing for the better. Keep that feeling close, don't let it get away cariad.

from fieldsafire :

Hey I wrote more in my diary. I miss you. KISSES

hey Bella, I am still your number one fan.. have just been a slack ass with note droppng! haha! Need to find you online again for a chat

hey gorgeous, I am back!!!! Sorry to hear about the boy, he will be back.. trust me on the technically married thing! shit happens... It wont take a life time to find love.. it is never far away.. just trust in fate

Bella, dont be so hard on yourself.. ok? everyone can see your beauty except you.

from doctoredjnr :

Hey, I am sorry about what happened to your dog. I think most dogs that I know are a lot better than most people I know.

Brits... there is no new audrey hepburn and noone will ever be better!!! EVER!!!.. anyhows.. lol... sweetheart, all the things u r looking for are buried within. Much harder to find that way.

from britneypink :

To bad I can never remember ..nor pronounce Audrey's last name. But I love her. She's like this new audrey hepburn..but better..I think.

would be cool to have you there. I love Felix by the way.. so underrated in the age of crap cartoons

from britneypink :

Good question! how about Audrey from Amelie?

from britneypink :

You are brave...I think you face things much more up front than what I read in some diaries. Take one day at a time..as my MOM would say. And feel really good when you conquer each obstacle of the day. For me..this might mean turning off the alarm.

nothing worse than 20/20 hindsight is there? if he knows what is good u guys will pick it back up

from hippiegirl1 :

It was a really good poem. You are worthy of such praise and you are very welcome. I too am very scared my songs will get plaigerised but I just put up the few that I think show ho I feel more than I could say myself. take care.

from hippiegirl1 :

Bella, like Jason you too are a beautiful person. I feel so insignificant with my problems and worries compared with yours. Did you write the poem Would you fuck me in the morning? Its really good! I wish I could give you hug and yell to the world what a wonderful person you are but I guess I'll just have to settle for telling people in my diary. Its open to the world so I guess in a way I am shouting it out. I'm glad to hear you're getting better, keep up the fantastic job, you have so much strength its unbelievable. You deserve to be happy.

I think you would more than qualify! you know when I finally get home and meet you there will be the worlds biggest hug!

you know you can call me anytime you want Bella, you will not lose, you are too beautiful

Bella, I am so sorry to hear about Chanel, wish I could give u a huge hug.

Hey gorgeous, interesting questions but if you are a romantic and you believe in love then it wouldnt matter what the mess was and what the flaws were.. you are so beautiful I dont think it would matter

from britneypink :

Thanks so much for the note. I'll keep reading you, too.

am thinking of you and mum sweety. Hope everything is ok

from britneypink :

Hope your MOM gets better. Great..your drinking water. You're eating healthy..but not so great that you feel like crap. Hope you have a fun day off. Lucky you. Just the thought a day to myself makes me dizzy. I have no idea what I'd do. Possibly..just stay in bed...well, for an hour or so then I'd want to do something else.

I guess the guy can see what eeveryone else can and that is how amazing you are... tell him to fuck off tho! :P

hey bella, too much speed? lol.. hmmm

from eurochild :

perth eh? how are the funnel web spiders?

I am immensely proud of you gorgeous, I know you can beat it, you are one of the strongest people I know. Keep on punching

sorry I havent been around much Bella but have missed chatting or catching you, hope you had the great night out u wanted

from s-p-a-c-e-s :

thank you =) i'm flattered. i intend to read your diary the next time i am online and have some time. thanks for reading mine and leaving a note. notes make me happy.

from sugarfrosted :

I admire your incredible strength.

hey spunk, I have had an entirely fuzzy day.

Hey bella, if only I was half as beautiful and strong as you. You know you are my inspiration.

hey beautiful, I am losing my place as your premium note dropper! what is going on!

from hippiegirl1 :

Hey bella, my favourites isn't working either so don't worry, its not just you. Keep smiling babe.

from tick-my-tock :

Hi Bella. I haven't read your diary for too long! I was away for 2 weeks and just got back a few days ago. Your new layout is very pretty! I hope you are well.

where is my entry! ha! hope you arent working too hard babe

I loved talking to you in MSN, you rock! Say hi to mum and dad for me

from deadpassive :

your diary is sad. remind me of my self..I wish you all the luck in the world. you really deserve to be happy.

from sugarfrosted :

Hi there! I found your diary in the strangest way...I read this girl's diary and I read who lists her as favorites, and there was a guy. This guy had you under his favorites. That's how I found you! And I enjoy reading your diary. yay! much love, annie.

I think now dearest Bella you need to come over to my unit and start over here! it needs a good cleaning!@

my typing is always going to be an issue babe, just happy u can decipher it, what is with Kate MOss?

hey psunky girl, hope everything is ok over there, maker sure you enjoy your days off, you have earned them

I love your layout, cet your guestbook link on the side isnt working properly! still loving everything though

good luck with the jobs sweet, you deserve something like that to go your way. Dont give up on writing. I would read whatever you wrote even if it was cigerette warning labels.

love the new look, you have outdone yourself!

hey gorgeous, thanks for your note, I love that cartoon

from pxsy :

Bella, hello... just looking over ur profile, about to go to ur diary, u seem cool. going to your diary now, talk to you soon.

I have faith in you Bella, you are ne of the most amazing people I have never met.

Bella, good luck with all you are doing gorgeous, have missed you. SOrry the pic is such a crappy one. Love you to bits and hope you are smiling just a little over there. Have missed ur entries

from dumbdavid :

Hello, I keep getting emails rejected back. Not sure why that is happening.

Hey Bella, just wanted you to know I think u r beautiful. Am glad you had a great Sunday

from disharmonic :

Thanks sweets... Sorry I don't have any strong words to say or anything like that, I never really was good at that kinda thing. Only, remember, stand tall. Life is a cave of fear and hate; don't be irrational, and mind, there is always light at the end of a tunnel.

from disharmonic :

I got the link to your diary through Jason's... Kia kaha. Stand strong. (Something like that anyway heh. I'm not the best at other languages...)

hey gorgeous, hope you are doing ok, have missed your entries and mail. Am working again on a Saturdaynight but this will be the last time for a while... can start to relax

Bella, I know there isnt much I can do but just know that there are people that care, there are those who really want to know what is going on and would love to give you a huge hug! DO what you feel is right, I care a lot.

Hey Bella, your honesty is so beautiful, love your diary so much. Please keep fighting and keep looking within. Introspection can hurt but your answers lie there.

from tick-my-tock :

I'm sorry you're so lonely. There are tons of people who love you, Bella, although it's often hard to remember it. Please keep in mind that you are loved and that you're special. You make the world special because you're in it. *Big Hug*

there is always someone who cares Bella, wether you believe it or not

you are far from nothing, your world are wonderful and you are still reaching in and touching me via this wierd cyber world.

Hey Bella, how are you hun, have heard from you in a couple of days and wanted to make sure everything was ok.. keep smiling for me

from dumbdavid :

Sorry, yahoo email down temporary. Will try contact soon, when restored. Sunrise now and lake is calm, hope you are well.

from tick-my-tock :

That dumb Josh! Of COURSE he doesn't deserve you. Kudos to you for putting him in his place! Oh, by the way, if you get a puppy what will you name it? :)

from dumbdavid :

We all deserve honest, respectful, mutually satisfying love! Even if in our own minds we don't think we should ever have it. The past is the past, the future is yet to be. Please read my last entry. Hope meeting went the way you wanted to. No one expects the Spanish Inquistion!

Other poeple have caught on to you, Looks like I have to share! have missed your entries honey, good to see you writing again

from dumbdavid :

Thank you for the nice comment. Yes, I am honored you would like to add me. I haven't been writing much recently but I am on vacation this week. I almost got some carboard cutouts after my divorce like Steve Martin in the Lonely Guy. Talk to you later. david

from tick-my-tock :

Hi, I found your journal only last week but I've made sure that I read them all up to that point and all entries since. You are such a strong person. It's wonderful to read your diary every day because of a strength I feel from your entries. I know you've been through some very rough times and I know you're still going through them. I like to think that if things are so bad, they can only get better. And yes, maybe it doesn't seem like that's always true (and believe me I know it's very hard to believe)... it is true once all the horrible things are over. I know it's hard to have hope! I wish you ALL the best, dear. I wish you ultimate goodness! I just wanted you to know that I really like your diary. And I'll keep reading.

from enidhere :

Jason definitely loves you! Looks like you are getting to the bottom of things with your surveys.

I have no idea who Bella Amor is but I know she is sweet and brilliant! Stop teasing me with half entries!

Hang in there sweetheart, just trust in fate ad everything havng a way of coming together if you hang around long enough.

sometimes I love being a guy, the joys of chromosone dispersion.

Thanks for that, it was Sarah and she wont hear me, I was out of line. I think I have lost her. The overwhleming need to cry but I cant.

I hope you got my email, it hasnt come back or anything. I live in Melbourne now as you know but am actually originally a West Australian and actually lived in Leederville for a lot of my life before moving to Mandurah and then to Melbourne. Is wierd seeing you talk about places I know!

I just looked at the typing from my previous not eand am disgusted, also, your email address didnt work, I sent you an email but no luck with it!

I am back, has ben a few ays since I posted you a note, just want to say something amazing to cheer you up but nothing comes out, I dont know if it helps but I am still reading and still thinking about you.

Congratulations on the job, you deserve a lot of luck.. keep it going! made me smile big time to read that entry

Hey Bella, I am the only one sending you notes! tell everyone off, I think you should have way more. Am still reading your diary hun....

I am in love with your writing. You have me on the verge of tears but at the same time Iknow how much strength you must have. Keep going, life is worth the battle

I am sure you will experience happiness, you certainly deserve it. Just try and belive in the whole Kharmic balance of the universe which means eventually if you put yourself in the right position you have some great times ahead.

I am from Melbourne in Australia, where r u from? you write from the heart and dont hold back, that is what makes you so intriguing and interesting to read.. keep it up!

you write so well you leave me speechless, I am blown away and torn apart at the same time. I want to add you to my favourites if that is ok.

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