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from f-i-n :
Wish I had a 976 voice. Better than a 1 800 voice.
from haloaskew :
Wow...I had trouble keeping up with your New Year's. You remind me in my youth. Good lord, I just stumbled downstairs after a few rum punches to try to see if the cute tall guy with the blind dog was home... (and if he might have any beer), and looking back, thank god he wasn't. I would've made a complete ASS of myself. I had this notion at the time, that maybe, you know, I could seduce him. HA HA! Then I bumbled over to a neighbor's apartment, to see if she wanted to have a drink (and if she had any beer), but she was babysitting her daughter and three friends, so sorry, no can do. I was more than happy to hand over the rest of my rum, cuz I don't really like hard liquor. All I wanted was a cold beer, dammit. But it wasn't to be. *sigh* I'm sorry that chick stole the guy from you (he's a bastard and she's a whore), but hey, you already know you were better off and I'm sure she has a nice case of VD right now. YAY!!!
from f-i-n :
happy turkey day
from freshhell :
Thanks for your note about my kids' names. Their pseudonyms were created because when I was pregnant with Juliette, Madeline started to get up in the night and crawl into my bed (anxiety, I guess). We moved her sleeping bag into the room so she could "bed down" there instead. My husband refered to her as Dusty Trails and it stuck. Juliette got her nickname when she was born - with red hair! I was shocked. She's a blondie now but the nickname stayed. :)
from freshhell :
Har. Five years ago, to a five-year-old is the meaning of "before your time." But, it kills me when she refers to things in my childhood as being so old timey it was the same as before electricity or something. I stopped watching Sat morning cartoons back in the early 80's - when I was in high school (ouch) and had to work so my only reference is my own experience - which may have nothing to do with actual reality. :) Anyway, I still will never get Tom & Jerry. Just doesn't do it for me. But, in its own way, it's harmless. It certainly hasn't turned my daugther into a knuckle-dragging moron. Yet. :)
from la-the-sage :
That was certainly not a perspective I've ever had. Been lucky, I guess, to never have gotten it bad for a taken man. Interesting. Cool of you to post it. I've always wondered what the thought process is in a situation like that. ~LA
from haloaskew :
Thank you so much for your comments! I tried to write you last night but my keyboard went all wonky again. When I read your words, it was like "Yes...yes! This is what I need to hear!" A voice of sanity outside myself. Of course, you agreeing with me helped all the more. :) I still haven't come to a decision, and won't for some time. I can always wait, but I can't undo. I have a few other barrels to tap (tiny wee barrels) that could help out while I bide my time. Is it pathetic that I'm looking forward to an $8 check from the state for taxes? (when I get around to filing them, that is). That'll sure help ease the brunt of my $162 owed to the gov'ment. (DAMMIT!) You know, after writing my entry and reading everyone's comments, I realize how comforting it is to know that I HAVE options. Most people have it so much worse off than I do! And it's not so much being able to use the money, but knowing it's THERE. Maybe that's what I need to be reminded of all along. Oh, while my keyboard is still working, I'm gonna add you as fave! Thanks again for your kind words. Really put a smile on my face.
from freshhell :
I've hit ruts like this in the past and they appear monumental at the time. Then, things change - for the better - and I look back and think, wow. Glad I'm not there anymore. Get rid of the car, the boy, and go back to school. The future's bright and you need to go for it while you can. Take full advantage of being unattached and able to do...whatever!
from badgrip :
Hermaphorite...Stephen Lynch Am I a sick mother fucker for knowing this? :) PS- Your Christmas card is already in the mail
from f-i-n :
don't stop writing! maybe you need to write something else for a while...new characters or whatever
from beltwaybelle :
The Pill makes me suicical. 'Nuff said.
from freshhell :
You should seriously talk to your OB/GYN. There are a million different kinds of bc pills now - some are generic so they're cheaper - and she might be able to find just the right one for you. Just be sure to share all your symptoms and concerns so you can find a solution you can afford. Good luck.
from la-the-sage :
Yup. As crazy as I am now in the deep trenches of peri-menopause, the Pill made me at least 50 times crazier. Violent, suicidal, can't get out of bed sad, oy I was a mess. Happened every time I tried too, so it wasn't just one brand or one dosage. They all made me whack out. Good luck sorting your stuff out. ~LA
from inacrumbling :
... looks like i've run into another writer! thank you so much for adding me to your diaries list ... i know i haven't posted in quite a while, but i've got other things going on at the moment. keep an eye out, though. i shall return, and soon.
from freshhell :
As a fellow novel writer, I can only offer support in terms of: Just Write and worry about the outcome later. Maybe, the story goes in both directions, like one of those games where you are given a set-up and choose the course as you go along. Perhaps the main character can make Choice A and things go along that way. Then, go back to the beginning. A never happened because the character chose Choice B. Or, one of them can be a dream and the other reality OR she invisions both as possibilities and we follow her thinking down both paths. Anything's possible......unless you don't just write, write, write and worry not about outcome.
from beltwaybelle :
You are going to LOVE NaNoWriMo!
from beltwaybelle :
Yep, it's hard to leave a major part of your life out of your diary. I can't tell you how many times I've wanted to spew about a bad date or silly work thing. Hang in there!
from badgrip :
Holy Shit, I couldn't believe my eyes, we are tied, yes *tied* in entries on our diaries...I hope you know this means War right? Much love to you babe 'cause we both know I am gonna kick your ass Texan.
from la-the-sage :
How exciting and scary! My most fervent wishes for good luck. ~LA
from curiouoso :
Thanks for checking out my pages. Midnite says "woof" (Hi). Curiouoso*
from pandionna :
Amazing, what someone's death brings out in people. Hugs!
from freshhell :
I know it probably won't help but the poverty thing doesn't get any better as you get older. I never thought I'd be THIS poor at almost-40! But, mortgage, daycare, two car payments and this insane gas pricing nightmare have turned my checking account hollow. Sucks. Maybe we'll both win the lottery soon!
from la-the-sage :
I've never defaulted on a debt either. The whole concept of bankruptcy grosses me out. Hard as it is to struggle on while so many seem to blow off their responsibilities, you'll be glad later. Took many hungry years to get where we are now, but sticking with our values got us to a place of no debt, a comfortable life and going to the mall to buy shoes whenever the urge strikes. You'll get there too! Be proud you live rightly. ~LA
from freshhell :
Oooo, groovy new design! I'm almost tempted to steal it -- but that's not right, is it?
from f-i-n :
hugs and kisses
from pandionna :
I adore you enough to tell you that it sounds like you do have a diagnosable mood disorder and I would get it checked out if I were you. There are different subtypes of bipolar according to symptoms and severity.
from la-the-sage :
Hey, nice to see you! ~LA
from hissandtell :
Hi - thanks so much for reading me. I've only read a few of your older entries so far, but I really enjoyed your frankness about the Schiavo case and the pope, so I'll be sure to make time to visit again very soon to learn more about you. Love, R xxx
from kellbelle :
Hey thanks for adding me to your favorites :)
from devilsdealer :
you're just reminding yourself of this for later: http://www.drorism.com/pessoa-baudrillard-postmodernism.php

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