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soft gentle stop.. I have missed you. I feel that soft gentle energy this morning.. the stopping.. just before the gathering of much needed energy.. stay away from the reds today. because today all our focus should be on the peaceful resolution of what is to come.
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so we are back.. it truly has been a very trying time.. how odd we seem to both have been in the doldrums at the same time.. I am glad you are back.. that maybe you can see the light thru the denseness of uncertainty.. I am merely tiptoeing thru the light hoping the shadows do not find me again for the light feels so good.. and the old man of my sleep is ever guiding,,, I have missed my friends of words.. glad we have stumbled back...
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Lovely to read your diary again. Best wishes.
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Good to see you updated. So sorry to read that you have had shingles. A friend of mine had it earlier this year and she was very ill. Hope yours has got no worse and you are not suffering. Best wishes. Elizabeth
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Thank you so much for the sweet note! :) It does make me so happy. It's my extreme sport of choice. I figure I'm not much different from people who spend every free weekend jumping out of airplanes. (Except I probably have more orgasms... *mwa-haha!*) **HUGS**
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My other diary has been updated but please only read if hard S&M stuff doesn't bother you? I write mostly about that aspect of my love/sex life in there. If you still want to read let me know and I'll give you the password. 'Tis always locked. :)
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Over due for a visit to Savannah aren't we? Or is it only in the swelter of August that you prefer to go? We'll be back to Forest Row late summer/early fall. Miss you.
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Your kind note was much appreciated. I enjoyed reading your last entry. It's the tiny comforts that get us through our days, isn't it?
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I don't mind this hunter so much.. he only kills what he eats or gives to those in need.. many families have eaten much more balanced because of him and his sons. He pays the expense of having the animals cut up and then thru organizations that are in the know distributes the meat. I guess everyone needs to do their part in their own way...
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Winter indulgence was such a beautiful entry - thank you! And happy '08 to you too. Hope your new year will be filled with love, laughter and good things. (But NOT zombie chickens!)
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thank you for the smile this morning.. it seemed the weather gave you a chance to pamper.. one could say the silver lining and that can't be bad... and thank you always for your kind words.. I am never as you say.. but love thinking of the possibilities... Enjoy the day.. you had a glimpse of my world here in the northeast.. while I enjoyed the occasional spot of blue.
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Hi, hope you are well. Emanuella Mary Rebecca Vandenberg was born on 28th December at 7.28pm weighing 7lb 6oz. Since then she has regained her birth weight and we are both doing well. Very best wishes. Hope to hear from you soon. Elizabeth xx
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I hope you are ok...
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thinking of you x
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Gosh... definitely a color cocktail is needed here. Of course my dear there will be plenty of orange.. laugh heartily until the tears fall and your sides ache. Sink into the green visualise the wind blowing thru the forest combing the tree limbs of all that is not necessary for new growth and let it restore health where needed... now add a dash of blue and let serenity take you to that center of life.. and then contemplate purple, it will at least take your mind off all bad that is happening around you.. for who understands purple? Grab that golden cord connecting us each to all that is and hang on tight and you will be fine.... for you are important.. special.. and loved by many... remember that... and the world is a better place because of you.
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I have never been so offended. That elegantly wasted and bored by the whole thing appearance is not studied, I happen to look that way naturally. I'm not commenting on "The List" other than to say one whinning little poof objected, citing the fact that I'm no longer a permanent resident. Jealous.
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Cheeky. Besides, if I were simply listing guys I've been in lust with over the years I'd have listed Damon Albarn, Alex James, Brett Anderson, that American boy who sings for The Killers, and um...well that just about sums it up I guess. My point being not all of them look like me, poor sodding bastards. So your theory goes down in, well, flames, appropriately enough. Ahem. I seem to have forgotten where I was going with all this. Get back to you later?
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Everything is going well thanks. I had a scan yesterday (31st Oct) before my clinic appointment and she was now head down and weighing approximately 4lb 7oz. I am having to be monitored carefully as I have gestational diabetes which means testing my blood three times and day but thankfully I am not on insulin yet and hope to avoid that as I also have quite a lot of low blood sugar days. The baby was right on the line of the graph they did for me at the beginning based on my weight and Bex's weight when she was born at 37 weeks and so she is putting on the right amount of weight. I was 32 weeks as of yesterday and everything seems to be fine and I am keeping faith that it will stay that way. Hope you are well. Very best wishes x
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much much better but it was the strangest feeling not to be able to make any kind of vocal sound for 2 days... my son called & panicked when he couldn't hear me - just knew I answered... aahhh... text messaging.. saves the day.. who would have thought.
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I keep seeing butterflies here in Warwickshire too. Its nice to know other people notice things like that too.
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Good for you - I am sure it was a wonderful ceremony.. and yes.. I believe purple was there quietly smiling in the background.. I understand your thoughts on purplr.. they almost mirror mine though over time I have realised I have much anger toward purple.. and all knowing purple knows this and has waited patiently for me to understand.. and everynow and again.. I do glimpse a little of the truth. It was my choice.. just like it is everyone's choice.
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How many times have I told you that you need to get away from those stupid hippies? It doesn't even matter what this is about, they are going to ruin your health. QUIT YOUR JOB BEFORE IT KILLS YOU! I won't say any more. Well, also I think I hate your profile and I really wish you would change it. I go away for a little while and this is what happens? See you in two weeks. P.S. I love you.
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My dear faceless friend... Sionce i have nothing but thoughts and dreams to send.. Catch in your dreamcatcher all oranges and laugh at what is beyond our control, catch the golds of life itself and look to the sun ..a life giving source we can choose to accept or deny... I give you reds to energise and give you the courage to face life... but most of all I send you that spot of purple.. remember our connection and know... you only have to look behind and it is there.. guiding.
Go get your Gohonzon... Or not.. but get thee out of bed and face today. You are cherished.
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I have been single most of my life and while the romantic notion that my soulmate is out there, prompting my excursions into the dating world, I am always amazed at who and what I meet. Makes for great stories and lets me go to sleep at night easily and content that the person I greet in the morning may only be one of the many mes of me.. but it is enough. I am glad you sound so happy and content... for me it is the best time of year so I will happily paly.. kicking the leaves of life for the moment before the starkness of the world of contrasts comes into being and I lay dormant once again.
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Wish I could've been there with you, but I'm glad you went. We should do something when I get back to Charleston in October. Miss you.
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Lots of best wishes and beautiful thoughts for you and your daughter. Thinking of you x
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my dear friend, who we are has nothing to do with circumstances.. it is that essence deep inside us that remembers, feels, and just knows. I am sending you orange and a spot of the deepest healthiest green one can find... and then wrap yourself in the purple of all existance and know .. you are.. you just are.. and that is OK..
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Thanks so much for the sweet note and for the add. Adding you too :) And you might like reading the new diary (mentioned in last couple entries). I'll send you the usernams/pass if you like. Thanks for creating guineapigluv. I miss my little bright orange guina pig Woodstock so much and looking to adopt another piggy ASAP.
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I am so glad you sound so happy... and content... good for you.
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Thank you for your lovely message and please do check up on me, it will be lovely to hear from you. x
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the reiki thing is going well... lots of plans and adventures ahead because of it. My path seems all the more cobbled and happiness completes my days most days...
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Things are odd here but in a good way it seems at the moment. I am 14 weeks pregnant and was rushed to hospital on Saturday as I was bleeding and thought I was having another miscarriage. No-one could do anything on Saturday as it was the weekend and this is the UK! But on Tuesday I had a scan and oh my god, the baby was alive and fine! I nearly jumped off the scanning chair in absolute shock. I still cannot, absolutely cannot believe it. The baby is due 27th December. Seems I can only have December babies! Bex was due the 26th, so that is funny in itself and it took me and my husband four hours to realise that the 27th is in fact our wedding anniversary. We were so in shock. There is nothing I can do but have faith. I was so shocked that I didn't even have any money for a scan photo but they very kindly gave me a free one. Now every day that passes and things seem fine is a massive bonus. So keep your fingers crossed for me. Lots of love, Elizabeth x
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I don't know what to say.. I am so sorry for your loss and please.. if there is anything more than positives I can do for you.. please let me know... you will be in my thoughts and prayers...
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thinking of you x
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Oh God! I have that pikachu but I don't have that guinea pig! What a sweet picture. I should put some of my new dog on here sometime.
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Thanks for thinking of me... It has been a rough few weeks, but we are getting thru... and must tell you.. this reiki thing is great.
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Hi. Thanks for your note. I have just had two weeks off for the Easter break so am due back to work tomorrow so I have been stressing today and trying to work out what I meant when I planned certain work for the Year 5's! I should have done the school work first and the spring cleaning second. Also spent last night helping Bex write an essay based around Pan's Labryinth. She has very few weeks left of school now so she is even more stressed than me! I think her study leave starts in two or three weeks so she will be moving up here then. I am happy things are good with you. Thanks once again for your note. It was really nice to get because I was feeling lonely today. Take care. Best wishes. Elizabeth x
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I am so happy for you... smiles and orange and sunlight.. and yes, warm temps my thoughts for you.
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it sounds storybook wonderful...how grand for you.. enjoy the moment and the spring.
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Hope you had a good time!
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I read about Blue Man Group in the paper today. Hope you have a great time!
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Their names are Panda, Niblets, Antonio and Angelina. I used to have a template up on my diary that featured a pic of Niblets. I'll have to put some more pictures up later, too. The problem is getting them to hold still long enough. haha I have plenty of Antonio, he's such a photogenic boy... ; p
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Thanks for the add! :)
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oh yes... four of them LOL
but i dont know about the names, it's possible though. i'll have to check and see. how many do you have?
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thanks! finally there is a guinea pig ring!!! lol do you know of any others?
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Hi,
I added you as a favorite diary. I hope that was okay.
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Bex got an unconditional offer from Bournville art college today!
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Thank you for your thoughts.. I am fine, maybe a little on the scattered side and am merely spending time trying to gather back my energies... but I will.. as soon as I can focus on one thought.
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Hi,
I also live in Columbia. And my foot is much better. Thank you for mentioning it.
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The dog is an absolute angel. The sweetest dog ever. He is a black labrador/collie cross and so clever. He loves cuddles more than anything and gets a bit bratty because of it constantly nudging me and huffing down his nose like a dragon and whining. He is four years old and a rescue dog. Apart from gobbling up the lino in the first week, he is perfect.
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I read your note after I read your diary and left the 'I'm sorry' message. I really am sorry. I felt terrible when Elvis (our guinea pig) died. What made it worse was that I had dreamt just two or three days before that he died but he was in fine health then, or so it seemed, so I paid it no attention. It could have been a coincidence but it didn't feel like one. Bex has her interview at Bourneville art college this coming Tuesday. Thanks for you email address. I will write to you. My dog will not stop nudging my hands off the keyboard! Take lots of care, Elizabeth x
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I'm sorry.
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I am so sorry.
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oh poor thing. I hope she gets better soon.
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I hope your guinea pig is better.. animals can play such important parts to our lives..
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I am sorry things did not work out as you wanted but where there is chance there is promise so I am sure something great is in store for you... I am fine.. and yes, I will still be writing.. I have just had a really bad bout with ill health and the medicine they put me on.. steroids did as much harm as good. Just trying to get me back. That's all.. but mentally I am fine though confused as to why I am not able to deal with all of this better.. I mean its not like I haven't gotten my own way lots of times... but I am wearing orange even if I can't go out and dance in it and laughing often
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I am really looking forward to hearing what this big thing is. That is well exciting and I am pleased for you. Things are fine here. Bex has an interview for an art course in Bourneville for this coming September and hopefully she will get one for Warwickshire college too which will mean she can move back home with me. I am rehoming a dog called Buddy who is a black labrador. He is adorable and I am hoping he will be able to come home with me this weekend but I am waiting on the dogs trust to do a fence check. Thanks for leaving me a note. I do appreciate it. Lots of love, Elizabeth x
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ooo... sounds like something exciting is happening...
I am fine.. had a bad bout with asthma (have to admit at least to myself that I don't have this whole illness/ wellness thing quite figured out )you are often in my thoughts also.. sending you positives and lots of orange.
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I am so sorry.
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thank you, as usual your positives felt like a warm fragrant breeze caressing my soul. Thanks!
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an Indian blessing I give to yu this new years eve:
May the long time sun shine upon you, all love surround you and the pure light within you guide you on your way this new year and this new day.
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the holidays have been quiet.. small get togethers with family. .. but it was enough and I felt completely happy and peaceful.. just me and the kid.. no sadness any longer for what might have or could have or should have... My wish that yours have been happy and peaceful also.
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throw out the positive to the universe.. consequences are just stepping stones reminding us we may be on the wrong path or another path is ours. Do not worry or stress over what may come until it is an actuality otherwise you have wasted a day that could have shown promise or enlihjtenment.. welcome gladly and accept.... you will make it thru and soon be able to sing and dance and laugh... and if you look you will find the humor in even this. thinking of you as always.
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It's not going to be like that. I promise.
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Hope you are happy and content.... Think of you often.
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You honestly care about that? I doubt one in a hundred households would recognise my name. Face maybe but not name, print always used Alex K. Anyway, you're a doll for caring.
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Savannah for our birthdays on the condition you take the week off.
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pj's until noon... great music... your cocoon sounds wonderful... it will nourish until you are ready to again greet the day.
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I had a seventies funk and soul cd that I took to a friend's birthday party in the summer. She liked it so much she thought it was one of her presents so I never had the heart to ask for it back!
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I'm sorry. I am thinking of you x
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I am sorry for your loss... I don't have the right words to say.. but you know my thoughts are with you and sending as much positive as I can.
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What, I'm not list worthy anymore?
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thank you for a much needed laugh today. since at some point we have lived as both male and female persons it might explain different gender dreams.. though when they happen.. isn't it a hoot.
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changes always frighten me especially when it comes to new dwelling places, I suspect it has to do with safety & childhood issues... maybe it is the same with you... some never cross over... I suspect it is for the same reasons... or maybe some are like children that have to be forced out the door to something new only to find they can't imagine life without the new. Whatever you decide do not worry about others.. seen or unseen.. sometimes what looks as if it is the end is actually just a rebirth.. and we know how painful that can be,,, but the results.. ah.. the results.
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how truly good you make me feel... thank you. you make me want to be a better person.
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Wonderful.... they will enjoy your hugs... Have a great day... it sounds as if you will..
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thinking of you and wishing you all the best x
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I wish for you that eternal peace and laughter... Whatever works.... use it... it is not about being what anyone else believes or thinks it is about being the best you can be and sometimes it is about chemical inbalance that until you can find the right combination of natural then you use what you have to use. We each have to walk in our own shoes.. unless someone has figured out a way to walk in someone else's... Smile today for you are very important.
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you are far too kind... thank you... love your layout.
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I am really dumb but do you reckon if I copied and pasted the html from my old diary's layout it would work on a new one? My only problem is looking at it to see because when Bex comes to visit she will find it because she is like that (she keeps saying she is going to apply to MI5 and she is partly serious!) but no offence to her, she wouldn't mean to tell Alain, she just would because she is like that. And so if I can't look at it I won't know if it has worked! I think I would like a diary again though.
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I don't know about the writing something. I keep thinking about it but Bex's father always read it and mocked me and since Bex wouldn't move with me and so I rented my house to him (reluctantly but it seemed best to put her interests before my dislike of him) well, since that all had to happen to keep her happy and safe I am even more averse to being mocked than before. Mainly because I feel pretty mocked by him having everything that once was mine. And I feel really petty and awful saying that and I worry that if I write I will just write awful stuff. You see, his parting words to me years ago were something along the lines of: I won't rest until I have destroyed you. I will take everything that is yours and leave you with nothing. And then on a level of complete vanity (as if all the above is not vain enough!) I have no clue how to do a pretty layout - Bex always did them for me and if I ask Bex she will undoubtedly tell him and then he will laugh at me again. Do you know, he kept the whole thing on cd rom because he thought it would prove me mad?! Which it probably would but I always relied upon the internet as being shaky legal ground and I would just have denied it all as a giant work of fiction anyway because well, me and bex always said we would set up a site called justify.com. Got a problem - send it to us - we will justify it! What a ramble! Sorry. I bet you wish you'd never asked! I have to go to work now. I have to go teach some year 6's in north Coventry. I hope they do not eat me alive. Lots of love.
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Thanks for adding me. I love the new name and layout.
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