yes i

am back again.

vacancy that just did not belong..

oh it's just laughable now!

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oooh i

well i feel all slimy

like i'm walking out of puss

or i feel like

like a fruit tingle on your tongue

all i want

oh like i'm guilt free

and like i so so So badly want to talk right now

but well i don't really have much to say

like i should just white it all out right now

but i'm not going to do that i think i almost refuse to

even though

if you keep coming back for more after this i think i'd be thoroughly surprised

like i enjoy chasing things away, overwhelm - smother - suffocate.

feet on the ground

not one little bit

this isn't even me anymore

like maybe all you feel is sorry for me

i'm sorry i'm just overflowing

like i wake up with all this shit hanging over me today

wonder whats happening with the planets today

people seem crazy

people seem almost agrreeable

and none of you.

blocked but none of you.

-

drive it away.

fear fear fear.

it's such a stupid word.

designed to make you feel like an idiot just for saying it.

doofus.

scream your name into a pillow

scream ONE HUNDRED names

into a pillow.

one hundred.

like i'd hand it all to you on a silver platter.

break through and grab hold of all my internal organs, rip them out one by one and offer you All of me

in exchange for a longer than necessary glance in my direction.

for a thoughtful pause.

all blood drips and pink fleshy bits

romance

-

oh

it makes me stop and think

stop and fondle things

to know what this is but to not know if i want anything else

this is all lovely feelings.

what can i say

holding back the fool again.

take me away from all this.

silence me.

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