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My Purgatory

What am I looking at?

Is any of this for real?

It's like I'm dying inside with all

this pain I feel.

A hundred thousand same old smiles.

And I am tired of all the games.

But I have dignity as well.

So I will not give any names.

Here I am waiting.

All of this is for you.

Doesn't any of it matter, at all?

Because I thought you loved me too.

It's okay, I don't mind.

Nothing else seemed to matter.

The worst part is knowing that I'm in

a bind.

Sometimes, I can hear the little pitter patter-

of small little feet.

And the sounds slowly drifts away.

But all I know is there are marks

burned in heat,

Into my heart,

is where it shall stay.

And this is my world,

May's World,

the World of May.

My favorite diaries:

nasciamor    profile - diary
comments:  "why, why do i allow myself to be consumed...i can already feel it pull on my throat, wanting me to swallow its loathesome negativity, wanting to drown me. "(My sister)
gloryxxfades    profile - diary
comments:  "in the world of conformists & paperdolls; i don't fall in line."
rosyg    profile - diary
comments:  "...we also switched neighborhoods and coasts and climates and so of course clothes and grocery stores and, oh, everything about our lives. But all that stuff was nothing compared to switching schools."
hushedtears    profile - diary
comments:  "i hope that the rain beats down like fucking razor blades on your wrists. it's an endless scream crumbling down walls of your love. hurt me again."
slow-down    profile - diary
comments:  "I don't know. I guess some days are just harder to live through than others. There are some I think we shouldn't have to live through at all."
foomannchoo    profile - diary
comments:  "It was understandable if I hated myself, not only my physical appearance, but my emotional and mental status as well, weren’t much better, if not worse. "
sea-secret    profile - diary
comments:  "Remember when we promised things about roommates and how we’d never forget each other, marriage and living in a cardboard box, but YOU CHANGED. Not me, I am still the same displaced person and you’re everything you used to ridicule with me."
virulency    profile - diary
comments:  "In other news, my vagina doesn't hurt anymore, although I am still a dripping bitch. It's a very pleasant experience not having shooting pains that make one nauseas when one moves, or even breathes!"
montigogal    profile - diary
comments:  "I wonder what has happened to the old days even two months back, when I knew who I was. Maybe we're both lost, just trying to find home. Home, where there is no pain, where the lessons stay without regret."
cherrybomb7    profile - diary
comments:  Just, sometimes, you feel alone and you don't know why. And you feel crazy, and you feel like one of those artists that's going to end up going insane and writing their life stories on the walls of their broken down house.
cryinlilgirl    profile - diary
comments:  "*PrElUdE to a KiSs*-the kiss-*the end* now everyone applause because that was the most sensual and pleasureable thing that has happened in weeks."
glasspromise    profile - diary
comments:  "one day you will ask me which is more important, my life or yours, I will say my life and you will walk away not knowing that you are my life..."
safetyxpins5    profile - diary
comments:  "how about i save you some trouble? i;ll lock myself up. then you won;t have to worry about locking me out. && then i won;t have to worry about anyone trying to break in."
khyarete    profile - diary
comments:  ""

My favorite music:

The Postal Service
comments:  I want so badly to believe that there is truth and love is real and I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
Mae
comments:  Summer time, summer time, brought me back to thinking you were mine, all those times. We laid it down and left it all behind, we were blind.
The Used
comments:  The cup is not half empty as pessimests say. As far as he sees nothing in the cup. A whole cup full of nothing for him to indulge, since the voice of ambition has long been shut up.
Saves the Day
comments:  Death Cab for Cutie, Bright Eyes, mychemicalromance,The Beautiful Mistake, Sense Fail, mewithoutyou, Matchbook Romance, Taking Back Sunday, Armor for Sleep, Hey Mercedes, Azure Ray, Dashboard Confessional,
Bright Eyes
comments:  Beloved, Anberlin, Spoken, Copeland, Yellowcard, Slow Coming Day, Thrice, Jimmy Eat World, Blink-182 (Yes, them too...), Brand New, Thrice, Thursday, Finch, Incubus, Hoobastank, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Watashi Wa, Norah Jones, 311, TCHAIKOVKSKY (yes, classical)

My favorite movies:

Sabrina
comments:  L: So your little poem, what does it mean? S: It's the story of a water sprite that saves a virgin from a fate worse than death. L: And Sabrina's the virgin. S: Sabrina's the savior.
The Shawshank Redemption
comments:  Let me tell you something my friend. Hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a man insane.
What Dreams may Come
comments:  Occupational hazard of soul mates...one's no good without the other.
City of Angels
comments:  I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. One.

My favorite authors:

Shakespeare
comments:  <3"If words be made of breathe and breath of life I have no words to breathe what thou hast said to me."
Stephen Chbosky
comments:  "Not everyone has a sob story, and if they do, it's no excuse."
Chuck Palahniuk
comments:  <3"I am not myself I am a collection of everyone else." (Something like that, I don't have the book on me)
Peter S. Beagle
comments:  "But the true secret of being a hero lies in knowing the order of things. ....the happy ending cannot come in the middle of the story."

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last updated: 2010-02-03 06:33:29
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user since: 2003-10-03

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