xemowhorex's Diaryland Diary

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\"The secret of success is the consistency to pursue.\"

weekend weight is a bitch. up four pounds since my last post. it's expected. i'm always up after my days off. that's what i get for eating normal right? well i'm hoping most of it is just waste and water. so i'm upping my fiber and diet pill intake. maybe get a little visit from the poo fairy, and boost my metabolism at the same time. plus i'm not eating for a little while. i'm hoping that way i can be rid of that extra 4 pounds by tomorrow night. i'm sure this isn't healthy, but it's only a day or two and, hell since when has anything i've done been healthy? so if that works i'll have 20 pounds to lose for the month of march and i'll be back on target. wishful thinking, right? who knows it could happen. i just have to keep myself in check on my days off... plan for march is about the same as the plan for every other month. try to stay between 300-700 calories a day make it to they gym 3-5 days a week.

i skipped my depression group again this week. i know i said that i was considering stopping the whole thing but i think i've changed my mind again... reason being i skipped taking my prozac over my days off... mostly i just forgot, or couldn't get to it with matt around. anyway as a result i was super bitch all weekend. depressed and irritable, making myself and matt miserable. that is something i can't seam to control. therefore i suppose i do need help... i should at least give it a try right? plus an e-mail friend of mine is going in to therapy soon so we're making a little pact, i guess, to try to stick with it and work through our problems. maybe that'll help me too...