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from i-am-jack :
I am not sure if you still get notes or anything from here, but I guess I am just visiting my old friends "grave stones" on my profile and saying hello, and that I remember you. I may add new living friends here but your grave stone and many others will be here as long as I am.
from moodswing :
i too am behind the times. i've had this feist cd sitting on my computer untouched for a few weeks now and i think now i will have to open it up
from time2 :
I found myself reading you again, it's good to see you are all doing well. especially the little one.
from moodswing :
i got your envelope the other day and i wanted to say thank you but i have not been able to do anything but write this book.. but today i hit my mark, the first time and it's good, it's really good... especially because i gave up at the beginning of the week and when i finally checked the mail, there you were, scribbly lines and scribbly words and i decided not to quit after all, so thank you and what i read, here just now, about mothers and daughters, is the best thing i could have read after writing 19000 words in two days, and it will help me keep writing past 50000 words and until this book is finished :)
from moodswing :
i ask because i am also an unlikely capricorn.. but i've been seeing more and more of its influence upon me.. even though i still don't feel that straightforward business manner applies to me.. i could definetly use a personal assistant myself.. i may just send you a pony, i have a few to spare.. i don't think i know any january thirds.. i'm an eighteenth, my self. we are special, you know.. and we have a great year coming up. a fantastic year of fantastic proportions. in conclusion, if there is going to be name-calling, then it damn well better be classy, and i think calling someone 'a wreck of man' is pretty damn classy. hehe.
from x-centricity :
There's no Martha Stewart????? *pout*
from moodswing :
hm. i love you. or at least, i love the delight of finding someone new--or being found by someone new--who is still active around diaryland.. most of the people in my 'buddy list' are quiet and the few that are not are locked. anyway. terrific. when is your birthday?
from pirategirl :
Hey, thanks for stopping by and thanks for what you said. I seem to only write when I'm sad nowadays. And I'm usually pretty happy, so I end up having this infrequently updated sad journal thing. I've come to discover that being jobless gives you lots of time to think about what you've done wrong and things you can't change. I was good at that before I had plenty of time. But thank you. What you said made me feel better.
from miedema2002 :
*thumbs* up to your current entry! We totally need to love ourselves first and foremost! Go you! :D
from and-darling :
Well, I'll heed your advice, but I do see my relationship with Raven much different then yours may have been. I'm not one who's easily influenced sexually, and so you don't need to be concerned about my little girl whims getting a hold of me. We all start out from somewhere before we become fully aware of womanhood and sex and as experienced as you are. For myself, I may not fully understand everything it is, but I don't "give it away"; in other words, I'm not one of those girls. My interests and curiousities dealing with older folk and their sexuality has nothing to do with sexuall exploration involving them and myself, but my understanding of a person's psych through elements of aging and life. No one is going to control me, and I don't need to have been around to know that. Thanks for the reply. :)
from i-am-jack :
I can not express, at least not in a redundant way, how much I have been enjoying your entries lately.
from i-am-jack :
"it is always nice to have a kindred spirit - i'll paint if you write -" You say the most beautiful things to me.
from and-darling :
And I find the idea of lechery somewhat fascinating... Especially from intelligent folk. Call that strange, I'd think the same in most manners, but he's not in the least bad. Just obsessed with beautiful women. What man isn't who escapes the throws of homosexuality?
from and-darling :
I recently just started to tag things. A lot of people see it as pointless, but my encounter with innter street and homeless kids has given me a different sight on tagging.
from and-darling :
Ah yes, philosophy and soda. My philosophy proff had a vendetta against Coke Cola, and would convince his students to also be against it-- which resulted in the vandalizing of coke machines. Some even think he did it himself. Haha.
from i-am-jack :
I have been wondering what would happen if I stepped off too. I guess my problem is that all I see is a never ending conveyor belt. I do not have the intelligence, luck, money or courage to just jump off. I have really been relating to your entries lately. I not so secretly dream of my version of a perfect life, and it clashes painfully against reality.
from i-am-jack :
Yes, long time no cyber see. I have been pulling my invisible act again. There might not have been any evidence that I was around, but I have been reading all this time. I know the feeling of loathing my job and then feeling guilty (as well as trapped, it doesn't get any better than this) about it. But when it comes to work, I lack work ethic, the way a serial killer lacks a conscience. Any job, no matter how "cushy" or how well it pays, is a shit job if it makes you miserable and keeps you from doing what you really want to and should be doing with your life. So do not feel too bad, or guilty even if there are worse things happening in the world. That should not take away any more of your human nature, and humanity than some job has already taken. I have always had a problem with work, I am your classic disgruntled employee. I just have not killed anyone, lol. The irony is, this feeling has escalated higher than it ever has been in my life, and I am not really working that much, just very hard, (and being underpaid) during the hours I put in. You should be painting, I should be writing. We should be living life.
from i-am-jack :
"why am i still here -oh that's right, the bills..." Wow you do not know how much I related to that. I almost laughed out loud, from the sheer irony, though the sentiment is hardly funny.
from snow666white :
Hey :) I have locked up my diary if you are still interested please send me a note with your email address and i will mail you my password. Or if you wouldn't mind emailing me snow666white@hotmail.com and i will reply with the details. Thank you, I hope you are well...
from chaosorder :
Always great to hear from you. I hear your own passion, and it's good to hear that.
from aeka :
Hi there--I locked my diary (yet again)...if you'd like a password, please e-mail me at chang.libet@gmail.com. Thanks!
from x-plicity :
Happy V-day! *heart* X
from x-plicity :
Missing you.
from mixedup :
Hope you're doing ok and having a good new year.
from time2 :
I'm no longer a student at the U, I had this teacher during his first semester at the U. Don't worry, I don't know you, I found your diary searching by location, but if you don't mind I would like to continue reading.
from time2 :
Oh yeah, I'm assuming that some of your entries are your artwork and they are beautiful.
from time2 :
wa? hu? erm...how come you deleted your last entry? I hope it wasn't my comment, I was just a little suprised to see that name on D-land. He was once my teacher.
from x-plicity :
Beautiful!!
from x-plicity :
Follow your heart. You're mind will always have it's opportunities, the heart has so few. *hugs*
from raven72d :
Lace-top thigh-highs, yes. Even the black over-the knee socks girls wore with plaid mini-kilts a few years ago... But knee socks...no.
from raven72d :
If you're going to do sabre fencing on high-wire platforms, try to avoid the really bad knee socks.
from raven72d :
Such incredible memories and visions...
from x-plicity :
Deseo dormir el sueño de las manzanas.
from raven72d :
What's happened in your life? Why are the little dachshunds feeling abandoned?
from raven72d :
I wish I could get cards like that from anyone upstairs.
from hissandtell :
What an incredible diary you have; I've never seen another like it. Your writing is superb and your art amazing, and you also happen to be totally stunning and brilliant. I'll come back soon to pore over your archives; so far I've only read back to January (and your "Sylvia" entry from October, of course). Thanks so much for reading me, too. Love, R xxx
from resonant :
you are amazing<333
from aeka :
I think it's that whole transition phase I'm going through right now. The thing is, I am not quite ready to accept the fact that I'm growing up...and, that men will no longer ignore me as a "cute little girl"...but rather, they'll think of me as an object of desire. I can't handle it. I *know* I shouldn't, but I feel dirty...and perhaps it's because I still need more experience. Yet, I know quite well that I'm not prudish...but this situation with a man who's substantially older than I is dreadfully uncomfortable. And as I type I feel that I can barely explain to you how I feel: tossed from the comfort and safety of being a carefree girl (who is starting to experiment with womanhood) to the seriousness and--to me--depth of being a woman with experience. And now I'm realizing that I feel comfortable with my boyfriend because he grows with me, instead of waiting for me at the end of that tunnel. But I take your words to heart, and each day I am trying to ease my way into things--to become comfortable with my sexuality and that of others. But it's still strange...yet, I feel that I'm not the only one who feels this way. Thank you for your kind notes--always appreciated.
from i-am-jack :
I have been around, just not writing. This is actually almost twice the sabbaticals I usually fall into. Soon, it will be almost triple that. What started as a lot of noise in my head, became writer's block. Writer's block slowly melted into blackened disenchantment, something close to resentment.
from raven72d :
wuff!
from i-am-jack :
You scared me there for a minute!
from ceciliaruns :
Hello everyone. Not to worry about the locked state of things. Just doing some updating of my template and wanted to wait until I'd made a decision about things before I opened it for viewing. I've been a little slow on time this week so it's slow going but I promise it will be up by Monday.
from raven72d :
suddenly...you're locked? may i be allowed to read/view?
from raven72d :
I'm a great believer in lovely girls in hiphuggers that show hipbones and...no underwear. I love kissing hipbones and the coccyx... Thongs above hiphuggers-- unattractive. Bared hipbones/pelvic bones and the indication of being panty-free: vur' vur' sexy.
from raven72d :
The new photos are so incredibly beautiful...
from snow666white :
hey there, thanks for letting me in on Rilke. I;ve been reading up on his works and I am fascinated, you are a tasteful lover of the arts. oxox
from raven72d :
we add ghosts every day...
from raven72d :
*sigh*... PJ is sexy.
from raven72d :
...though I'm fascinated by the glass globe plugged into the wall... is it one of those lightning globes?
from raven72d :
I just wish I could be valued enough as attractive to have someone offer me money...or try to bribe me... Thighboots at a gallery opening-- nice image. Just as the photo is quite attractive
from doc-sarvis :
Did you see "Frida"? I think you'd like "Frida".
from i-am-jack :
;^{' No, you are not crashing my support group at all! I do not know what gave you that idea. You are always welcome, hell you are one of my biggest supporters. I have just been having another one of those silences.
from aeka :
That's certainly something I don't hear everyday. : )
from i-am-jack :
Of course I have read him. Not all of his books, not even close. But I have read Fight Club countless times. It is well worn and has grown affectionately broken in and shabby. I actually keep Fight Club here at the computer desk, so that it is right here, for me to look through for quotes for entries. Or just for inspiration. I started reading Choke earlier this year, but got interupted when I moved then moved again. I was about half way through and it was really great. Lots of amazing lines in there that could have easily been in Fight Club. He really is an amazing writer. I want to get Stranger than Fiction sometime soon.
from aeka :
Thank you for the insight, although I have a feeling that I'll probably end up finding these out through experience (now that's sad)...until then, I can probably *try* to stop making fun of myself as a writer. --Aeka ps. is it this difficult to be an art student?
from raven72d :
Yay, little dachshunds!!
from raven72d :
Have a drink for me at work!
from raven72d :
Thanks for the Xmas card!
from doc-sarvis :
Re: Career Moves. The only reason I'm in this position is because I wasn't totally 100% dedicated to being an artist. You seem to be a little more focused on achieving that I was. All I can say is, take as many computer design classes as you can. Start your career in a field related to art (design), stay in it, and you won't have to wrestle with "The Insurance Monster".
from ohclaudine :
Will do darling! And once I have some decent photos up I will link you.
from ohclaudine :
I like your diary alot. *from one art student to another*
from raven72d :
JH-- I think I just got an e-mail from you...
from raven72d :
Ohhh... I've never received anything... You might e-mail at my diary name here [at-symbol] yahoo-dot-com...
from raven72d :
One day soon you must e-mail me...
from raven72d :
www.feelsuite.com-- lovely photos...
from aeka :
Hello. You have me listed as a favorite diary...but since I've locked it, I'll have to get you a password. Would you like me to send it via e-mail? Thank you for reading. --Aeka
from jt76 :
was that a yes please, you want the password? userID: everyone password: paula
from doc-sarvis :
Yup. That's me. I'm glad those suggestions got your juices flowing. One caveat though- Those suggestions are highly subjective- you may not find the same value in them that I did...BUT. You can always learn from an artist suffering to create and produce, even if it's in a different medium. I've always found those trials to be incredibly inspiring. Good luck!
from jt76 :
Hola- Happened across your diary through someone elses, and once I read your post-election entry, I knew I had to add you to my faves list.
from i-am-jack :
;^}'
from i-am-jack :
That was such a beautiful guestbook entry that I hardly even know what to say. You fit so much, into only a few sentences. I feel like you know me, better than you should. Well better than most people could take away from words anyway. You knew another silence was sneaking up on me, before I even saw it coming. TV personalities. That meant so much to me, on so many different levels, it is not even funny. Thank you, for your words and your encouragement. I don't know how you do it, but somehow you help me break through those silences. I hope I can stop this one before it starts.
from raven72d :
I'm a major fan of Eliot... And that was a good choice of lines.
from snow666white :
Hello deary, thank you –always- for your words. You never fail to stimulate thought! And I’ve missed you and your intelligent pieces. Anticipating for more –Your fan of art, Natalie. oxox
from raven72d :
E-mail me... And I'll teach you German.
from raven72d :
The portrait in "Ophelia" is stunningly lovely... I love the paired lines of legs and cheekbones...
from raven72d :
What books have influenced your art?
from raven72d :
Are you the nude?
from schmutzie :
Thanks for picking me. My morning with the flu has been considerably brightened.
from snow666white :
Sorry hon! My diary is open now... I will explain soon oxoxx
from raven72d :
Your photographs are beautiful... And the Rilke you quoted ("Und wenn dich das Irdische vergass...") is just maybe my favorite thing to whisper aloud alone at twilight: "Zur raschenden Wasser sprich: Ich bin..."
from raven72d :
I just found your diary via a banner... One of those random choices. But the diary is brilliant, and I love your art. I will be reading here...and trying to infer your backstory from your art and entries...
from i-am-jack :
Sorry it took me so long to answer this, I have been moving for the last few days. Anyway, as usual, your note made me think. Those Tyler entries really are like lucid dreams. I never really knew how else to describe it. Thank you for clarifying something for me.
from snow666white :
Hey there, hon! Thank you sooooooo much for your wonderful notes -they ALWAYS without doubt make me feel a lot more happy and satisfied with my little pieces. No i have not had the pleasure yet -BUT i will check this german poet out, rather soon! That poem within your entry of late was beautiful and has even moreso motivated me to check out more of his works! Lovely indeed! And might i just add that your artworks are indeed complete with talent...i am your biggest fan! oxox Natalie!
from breadisdead :
it was a quarter of orange, like a segment, you know when you cut it into 4 pieces? oh yes. well hey, i got sick on the bus once, i was down the back and it was really packed so i had to sit there covered in puke for whole bus ride. Fun times eh?
from iamhubpluh :
Wow. I have just gone through some of your entries and noticed some more of the artwork... are they 'You Original'S? They really are amazing. I'm not blowing smoke, they are beautiful. warm and cold. Take care.
from i-am-jack :
;^}' Thank you, for helping me come out of that dry wordless rutt.
from girlinshadow :
Hehehe...thanks for the note. -Shadow
from snow666white :
You are so damn talented! Your musings have offered me much inspiration to continue with my short story! All the best -Snow oxox
from snow666white :
Hello, lovely! Thank~you for the note... I'd be honoured if you used the idea inwhich I had expressed within my poem... I wish you luck -with that and look forward to seeing the results! Please do post it up here in dland... -Your fan of art Snowie oxoxxx
from i-am-jack :
That and I feel some of those "can of worms" entries coming on, and those always draw too much attention from the people who know me in real life, and read this. This tends to be my outlet for darker, more destructive thoughts. Sometime I just need to kick my own ass verbally. Needless to say, its hard on the people who know me personally to read. I do not want them to know certain things I am thinking, because I feel like it would just upset them, and I would get another "talking to".
from i-am-jack :
I was not really asking for advice, I was just talking. Trying to relate I guess. Anyway, thank you for hearing me out, and offering encouraging words. Sometimes, I think that I just apply too much pressure to myself. My own inner editor gets out of hand and covers everything with condeming red ink before it ever even makes it to any sort of page, that or he stands there, waiting for me to say something, so he can write a big red X on top of it. He convinces me that I anything I have to say, is not worth it. Don't bother. It sucks. I am hoping that I am starting to come out of that, at least for now.
from i-am-jack :
I know exactly what you mean by your emotions spilling on their own volition. I have written many entries, where it was just like I went into this trance. Those are usually the ones that end up being my favorites. However, I just can not make that state happen, it happens on its own. Lately, I can barely seem to cough up even mediocre entries. My head gets so full of static and frusration that I can not talk at all. The longer I am silent, the worse the static gets, its a vicious circle that is very hard to break.
from ifyougo :
Her writing gives me hope.
from snow666white :
no-ones ever thanked me for writing poetry...yet as a writer i am compelled, and ought to thank you -the reader for simply reading! Whether you love/hate it! You are very kind! (And very talented...don't you forget it)<333 Your fan of art oxoxo -Snow.
from snow666white :
You deserve shit loads more credit than what you recieve for your artistic works -as they never fail to astound me! Your a true artist -in every respect of the meaning...<33333333
from macabrelove :
it's always nice to see that someone actually likes what you write. thankyou<3.
from snow666white :
I don't know how you found my diary but thanks for adding me...Your diary is unique, indeed~! You are very well expressed and rather talented...I might have to add you back :) oxox Snow-White.
from breadisdead :
YOUR WRITING IS AMAZING! IT MADE ME GO ALL CAPITAL-Y! AAHH! Please write some books.
from roklobster :
Hey! Hi! Thanks for adding me. I've wandered through your diary and damn. I think you might rock. *grins*

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