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Just stumbled upon your diary and relate so much to the latest entry. Those last couple of paragraphs <3 And I love how diaryland feels like a space where time refuses to move forward.

from erases :

well, I’ll be.

from teacher-dyke :

I hope everything is okay, sock!

from stellarose :

u o k ?

from erases :

thanks e! you rock! i want to see more artwork! now! biggity bam!

from sunstargirl :

I like your paintings! Are you on deviantART at all? If not, you should join! It's like a facbook/diaryland combo, but for artists. Check out the link on my page that says "art" to see what I mean. You can sell prints on there too.

from erases :

you've been awfully quiet.

from erases :

happy belated birthday! now is the time to rebuild.

from stellarose :

grumbly noise, inability to read your updates.

from old-story :

hey, can i have yer password, darling?

from erases :

maybe you should get new pockets

from outer-jessie :

Damn, your picture links don't work anymore!

from outer-jessie :

You are a very enjoyable read. I'm up to June 2002...which you probably already know thanks to your devious site tracker skills. Anyway, wish I'd known you four years ago. Oh well! We seem to have gotten along just fine without each other. Wow. That was a really weird thing to say to someone you don't know. Ok, please be kind and remember that I've just been reading a year of your life and kind of feel like I know you a tad now. Ciao! OJ

from outer-jessie :

Holy...serendipity...I am almost thinking that I might have another diary that is a secret from me, and that I've just been reading it. What a very weird feeling.

from politiko :

We're so much alike.

from stellarose :

uh oh.....what...?

from crapstein :

sad :(

from stellarose :

password?

from erases :

baby i put the smooth in peanut butter

from stilldunno :

dude you still don't know me, but man am i happy for you! lovely people exist and find each other eventually. i'd have gotten off the train if i was in the same position. awesome!

from politiko :

Please update, or I'm going to start wishing bad things for you! Just kidding. Sort of.

from toastcrumbs :

Hmmm, do you think she'll notice?

from juiceandjune :

ack! what happened?

from stellarose :

what?!?!?! killed her cat????? WHAT!??!?!

from politiko :

I'm happy that you're happy but I miss your updates!

from samson111 :

sorry I haven't left you a note, I am kinda new at all this and when I signed up for dl I didn't really realize how addicting this damn thing could be.........I hope everything works out for you and the girl.

from annanotbob :

Hurrah! Hugs xx

from politiko :

Maybe it's cause you're in control and you're not used to it.

from erases :

go get em, tiger.

from politiko :

Update now! (as in, not later)

from politiko :

Le advice: enjoy it.

from politiko :

Mmmhmmm. Ditto 1. 2. and 3.

from politiko :

What's this talk of a locked diary? What I really came here to write: yay for liking our lives and being at peace--a daily effort, I know.

from teacher-dyke :

oh my! how can i go about reading your locked diary? i will die without a sock fix!

from erases :

do you have e-mail?

from erases :

actually i meant the girl that i asked out had a boyfriend. don't even know what is going on in the ex's life right now but i'm sure that'll happen soon, too.

from erases :

thank you. i needed to hear that right now. i'll keep reading. you have insight that i know you wish you'd had. i know i will appreciate it. thanks again.

from juiceandjune :

have you read Everything on a Waffle?

from juiceandjune :

i have an affinity for the melodrama lately, i guess. nothing earth shaking outside my head. just a new friend with eerie commonalities. women!

from kanyooceemee :

pumpkin pie is good for gas ;-)

from unclassy :

any possibility your username is a reference to the mutts comic????

from politiko :

You're on facebook? Where? Stop listening to sad songs!!! And just ask her out.

from sassers :

Right.

from sassers :

If I was closer, I would come be your arm candy.

from stellarose :

fyi: your username/your real name

from toastcrumbs :

Hmmm, now where exactly can I find such a magical hat? I mean I have a hat, but I think when I wear it people assume I have a brain tumor.

from politiko :

hey, I don't have a password yet, but when I do, how should I get it to you?

from juiceandjune :

happy birthday, sock.

from stellarose :

boo, i am so sorry that it was such a let down. hang in there, lady. i know it's been really tough recently. :(

from kanyooceemee :

Best wishes to you. It sounds really exciting!

from toastcrumbs :

Good luck! I was in Chicago last weekend being forced to do all sorts of tourist-y things in the heat. Not as bad as Florida heat, but still hot enough to make my elbows sweat. . . have fun and drink lots of alcohol - I hear it's a great way to stay hydrated in the heat, ;)

from politiko :

Wanna come over and cry on my couch with me?

from sassers :

I agree! I think that it could be an awesome way to get your art out there. Clearly, unless Debbie is a total fuck, which she might be, she is not trying to be rub your face in her being with Ex; she thinks you have incredible talent that the world needs to see. Maybe it is an olive branch as well, but the main part is that your art could be out there! I like that part for you, no matter how it comes about.

from kanyooceemee :

To me it sounds like a good opportunity for your work to be seen. Make it a good thing for yourself, I know easier said than done too. :-)

from f-i-n :

hugs

from kanyooceemee :

I hope you have a good weekend with as little crying as possible. :-)

from readersguide :

hey -- found your diary through harrietspy and didn't want to be rude --

from kanyooceemee :

No harm in trying. Hang in there ;-)

from kanyooceemee :

things will get better. i know that when i draw it usually does help.. A LOT.

from fridayfilms :

I know exactly what you mean. I was in that same place when P and I split up. It was complete and utter emotional anarchy (and anarchy of other sorts, all manner of sad, pathetic kinds in my case). I think it's normal to revert back to whatever age you were when you were last single. I think I must have turned 23 that day. Anywhatever, tuff it out, because what lies ahead will likely be much, much better. Enjoy the odd limbo in the meantime, because it never lasts. x

from kanyooceemee :

i really like what you wrote. excellent emotion.

from annanotbob :

Thank you so much for that - really helpful, but fucking awful too. If you haven't read it, I commend to you 'Boy Meets Boy' by David Levithan. The main story is about boys but it's set in an alternative reality that is a great place to visit and dream about. Wishing you well xxx

from annanotbob :

I am on a search for happy novels about lesbians (as opposed to the grim sagas of survival against all odds that seem like The Only Story That Can Be Told). Do you have any recommendations? Hope things are perking up for you xxx

from stellarose :

i'm here! i'm here! i'm sorry....i'm just ....augh. life is insane right now. i'm so selfish and so confused at the moment. when i have something to say that matters, i'll be back. and i hadn't read in a long time, and just did all the catching up. you'll be okay, it sounds like you are already on the mend.

from dinosaurorgy :

Whatever happened to notafinger?

from annanotbob :

Just wanted to send you a hug from over the water - writing sounds like a good plan - as does Cure by candlelight and I'm envious of your opportunity for dawn yoga. Hope you feel good again soon xxx

from omayao :

best best best best best best BESTEST post break-up song ever: just by myself by greg brown listen to it. that's an order...from someone you've never met and knows very litte about you.

from omayao :

(is your guestbook working?) missing your ring...when i was sad and i thought nobody loved me, i went out and bought myself a ring to remind me that i love myself and i will be with myself forever. it was a promise to myself that i would eventually get over being sad and i'd be ok. and even now that i have a wedding ring, i still wear my ring i bought for me.

from old-story :

hey, i keep having dreams about my ex, who pretty much did the same thing to me...except we weren't living together. it just sucks to think of the "other." to think of what they do together and how they interact. that's even worse than thinking about sex or whatever. i don't know, it'll go away but it takes so much time. i hate that. and even when it does go away it'll flare up somewhere else. hang in there, i know this note probably didn't help much.

from the19thstory :

hey stranger. i just now tuned back in after a long, long absence and wanted to drop a line of support after reading about what's going on. sorry to hear that things are rough right now - if you'd ever like to vent over a drink or two (or just need a night on the town to forget about things), let me know.

from old-story :

god, i'm sorry. people suck and relationships suck even worse. i'll tell you what, if i liked girls, i'd love you.

from bi-pet :

HUG

from crapstein :

sending you postive thoughts/vibes/whatever. . .

from teacher-dyke :

ohhhh. i KNOW that there's nothing i could say to make it okay or even better or even start to take the hurt away. i'm so sorry to hear this news. give her her space and let her decide if she really wants to make a foolish decision.

from annanotbob :

Sending hugs and good wishes xxx

from politiko :

I can feel the feelings you're feeling when I read your words. I'd try to console you but I don't know how.

from sassers :

I wish I knew what to say. Having more relationships in the past doesn't make it any easier, just so you know.

from bi-pet :

just stumbled across your diary. just like that... and it felt kinda comforting that you had a discussion with your girlfriend about similar issues as i had with my boyfriend the other night. your situations seems to be a lot more resolved than ours is. but i guess, that's more mine than your problem. keep up the good work. i'll step by sometime again...

from kanyooceemee :

i couldn't agree with you more about yoga!

from old-story :

i HATE that feeling. the emotional roller coaster. just pick one way of feeling, brain.

from sassers :

1. If you could arrange a dinner party with 5 guests, who would come and what would you have them bring? For example, Anne Sexton would come to my dinner party and she would be in charge of dessert. 2. Have you ever had any sort of ghostly encounter worth noting? If not ghostly, have you ever had an alien encounter? If not alien, have you ever had a heterosexual encounter worth noting? 3. Name a place in Chicago where you would be honored to walk in and see one of your paintings proudly owned. 4. What is easier for you, letting go and moving forward or holding on and staying in one place? Do you ever make yourself do either? 5. Where in Chicago have you never been that, as a resident, you really should have gone to already?

from kanyooceemee :

i would love to see some of your paintings.

from sassers :

Me please. [email protected]

from sassers :

Do you ever use etsy.com? You could sell your paintings there.

from dragnflytype :

Apparently, the Terebithia trailers are totally misleading. Some one who saw an advance screening said that it actually follows the book pretty closely, which I'll buy given that her son was involved in the making, and it's based on him and a childhood friend. So that's comforting, even if the trailers ARE utter crap.

from sassers :

Here, listening.

from stellarose :

stupid all-the-things-i'm-not game. grr. x c.

from sassers :

That is me! That is how I feel! Thanks for putting it into the words I couldn't seem to find.

from teacher-dyke :

man, i totally sympathize with you about the birthday blues. birthday gifts are nice and all, but i wish people could remember that it's a day to celebrate who a person IS -- his/her very EXISTENCE. gifts (however thoughtful) somehow just don't ring as true as a beyond-thoughtful gesture, a sacrifice. this will probably seem just as plasticy as remarks from coworkers, but i wish you a very happy (belated) birthday.

from ann-frank :

Hi there! Ya know the whole anti narcolepsy medication incident isn't really all that interesting from another person's perspective I am sure--I think the story would be like hearing about another person's dream (zzzzzzz!) but what it basically boiled down to is a really bad day made worse because I my mind couldn't stop racing and I didn't get to sleep til about 4 am and had THE worst medicinal hang-over the next day, like I'd polished off a case o' crappy beer all by myself kind of feeling. So, I guess is you throw in some of my usual self deprecating anecdotes in with that, you might have an entry, but not really. Thanks for the note!!! xox

from politiko :

So, how many days left until season 2 of Veronica Mars?

from teacher-dyke :

oh gosh, i certainly HOPE i'm a different person in a few years. otherwise my life will be dreadfully boring. but on certain subjects, like childbearing, where my feelings have not only to do with a general ickiness i feel on the subject but also where they kind of bleed over into the murky area of my own gender identity...i mostly just wish people would keep their traps shut. when i am older, i hope that i never, ever discount peoples feelings because they are only in their early twenties.

from teacher-dyke :

today i presented on Am I Blue, Annie on my Mind, keeeping you a secret, and alex sanchez's "rainbow books" (rainbow boys, rainbow high, rainbow road).

from irreverent1 :

I stumbled upon your diary via the members area. (Like the comment before mine, no, I swear I'm not a creepy stalker.) Anyway, I just thought I'd let you know I was causing increased page views. And? Your entry (the open letter) really hit me - I basically wrote that same letter to a friend not two weeks ago. I ended up with a new diary out of it (abandoning my previous incarnation) because this person was hurt by my letter and I didn't feel like she needed (or deserved) to read about my life anymore. Catty? Perhaps. But, sometimes people don't like to hear opposing view points. I hope your friendship survives her ravine jumping...

from teacher-dyke :

occasionally you stumble across a diary that's been going for several years. and you get to read all the back entries. yay! no, i'm not creepy. i swear.

from sassers :

I know what you mean when you say you feel small. It is one of my favorite words to describe how I feel.

from preshusthorn :

i added you, i hope you don't mind. -L

from sassers :

You are not allowed to leave forevah. That will not work. PS. Even if you are a "real" librarian, you still have to shelf dusty things and pack 17,000 books into boxes and wear black pants while doing it.

from stellarose :

hey! go you for telling off the big schmoss! yay!!!

from f-i-n :

That's so cool, selling a painting.

from fridayfilms :

Oh well. I may ask anyway, just to satisfy my own curiosity.

from fridayfilms :

I know someone who's working on the L Word. He has virtually no clout, but I can still ask him if he knows what the hell is going on, if you'd like.

from fridayfilms :

Good lord. I just howled with abandon at my place of work. Thanks for that. Or does this keep you up nights? Because maybe they have special toilet paper. That rings or says "YOUR ASS IS CLEAN. YOUR ASS IS CLEAN. PLEASE REMAIN IN A SEATED POSITION UNTIL DISPOSAL IS ACCOMPLISHED."

from politiko :

J'ai vote (with an accent on the e).

from spitfire79 :

i liked yr entry. i haven't spoken to most of my college friends in such a long time. i just related to it a lot

from fridayfilms :

It sounds like you and I had the same exact evening. No tummy ache for me, but my eyes currenly feel like two gaseous balls of car exhaust.

from juiceandjune :

maybe this will cheer you up. i'm currently paying $3140 per class to get my MLS. yikes! ok, so i know that won't cheer you up either. but i will say that i am DEFINITELY loving library school. YA lit this fall - yay!

from politiko :

I love your diary.

from f-i-n :

I'm still in my pjs right now...and I'm burning CDs!

from sassers :

Road trips to Ann Arbor will be fun. That is my town, yo.

from smoke-screen :

Girl, I'm I feel like I'm in the same position as you. All I can say, or what people keep telling me, is that you will get yours in due time. Good luck with whatever you do.

from sassers :

I just got the Killers too and I can't think of better driving, fuck you, head nodding, music. They are like Vegas, baby.

from fridayfilms :

His Dark Materials beats Harry Potter hands down, if you ask me. Oddly enough, I don't recall a religious aspect to the series. Which is not to say there wasn't one. That BA in English Honours wasn't good for much in the long run, I guess.

from almostreally :

Ah hahaha yes the ProjRun!! I love it!! And on a completely unrelated note, when I came back after my long internet hiatus and found you were happy and coupled--ah yes, happy times, I was so glad, my man.

from sassers :

I think it is awesome that you were harrassed for being a nerd. That totally made me laugh. I want to be nerd-bashed.

from venusonearth :

i feel you. i can never write when i'm happy. but the blank spaces remind me that i was at least content at one point and time. by the way...hi

from sassers :

You are too close to the situation to write about it. Writing about love when you are in love is not a good plan. It just turns out being cliched. That is what my creative writing teachers always told me, and I tend to agree. Try writing about love you observe and not your specific love. Maybe that will help?

from fridayfilms :

Fridays always seem a bit too quiet, but more of a winding-up quiet than the winding-down quiet of Sundays. I saw the filmic version of Go Ask Alice when I was a teenager and it disturbed me profoundly. That bit where the old couple hold their drugs and make them scramble on their hands and knees for them in some sort of twisted game that results in an ambiguous punishment for the loser creeped me the f*** out.