Here is a list of gymnast247's favourite diary entries by other members:
Philospthical, shit i think mum knows, and i'm a ratty bitch by
hazel-wiccan
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"Lately i'm finding i'll be thinking of something, then someone will say something to me, and i'll kind of nod and not even look at them, or something along those lines. It just makes me come off as really rude and hostile, and when for some uunknown reason i start thinking about it later, i'll kick myself repeatedly in the shins over why didn't i listen, or respond intelligently, or something." |
LIE by
wire-ending
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"I am energetic and "always happy" but inside I am the exact opposite....I lie to my friends. I lie to my teachers. I lie to my family. I lie to everyone. But i can't help it....My whole personality that i show to others is a lie." |
someone make the room stop spinning... by
someday-
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"*Sigh* I'm so horrible. I think I'm just trying to push everyone away, subconsciously - in real life and online - just to prove (to who... to myself? I don't even know) that people don't really care about me, that they'll turn away, that they'll give up on me eventually. I don't feel that I deserve to be loved or respected or anything, and now I just keep accidentally hurting everyone who says they care about me, as if to remind them that they have no reason to care." |
down on my knees by
pinkgashes
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"everything i remembered hit so hard that i was knocked off my feet. it is a painful journey into the past. " |
each day i continue to fade away... by
someday-
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"I deserve to be depressed, that I'm selfish and stuck up, that I think too highly of myself, that my biggest problem is egotism, that I will always be alone and miserable for the rest of my life,...that everything is my fault, etc, etc. ...I can pretend not to pay attention. I can pretend it doesn't hurt me. I can pretend to brush it off as a temper tantrum that isn't really about me. But it won't make any difference.
[It. Doesn't. Matter.]...I already believe all of these things about myself as it is, and hearing them just re-enforces those beliefs. [I've heard these things]repeated over and over until they became some of the most definite "facts" in my head. For my entire life, I have been told that I am selfish, egotistic, heartless, hopeless, deserving of misery and loneliness... how can I not believe it?!"
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Listen to Their Bellies Cry (poem) by
hungryangel
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"*Listen to Their Bellies Cry* Teenage girls with empty eyes Living lives consumed by lies Their true selves have long been lost So their bellies pay the cost Listen to their bellies cry They feast on hunger through the day Than binge and purge the night away In their hearts they know they're thin But in their heads they just can't win It's just a price they have to pay They hate the girl that's in the mirror They just want to dissapear Can't get fleshy, can't get fat Can't get fat, no, can't have that The pressure just brings them to tears It's almost like they want to die A perfect way to say good-bye It's kind of like a sick sad pride A slowly painful suicide Withering as time goes by Teenage girls with empty eyes Living lives consumed my lies Their true selves have long been lost So their bellies pay the cost Listen to their bellies cry" |
Twisted Mirrors by
hungryangel
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"Twisted Mirrors
Plastic smiles and salty tears
Skinny bones and twisted mirrors
Diet cokes and sunken eyes
Laxatives and crafted lies
Hungry bellies, firm and tight
Tossin, turning, through the night
Diet pills and fat free food
Highs and lows and, and awful moods
Hurting, starving, lots of mirrors
Diluted, wretched, twisted mirrors
Starfing, barfing, so much pain
Coughing, choking, staying sane
Crazy thoughts and long cold days
Voices that won't go away
So much drama, lots of tears
And dirty, evil, twisted mirrors"
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look inside me by
thinmia
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"I have no guidance, no clues no hints as to where i'm going or where i should be going. I attempt to feel it out but i'm so damn numb that i feel nothing." |
delusional? by
just-fine
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"I know i should be flattered but i am not, i feel as if i'm being lied too, as if everyones in on some big conspiracy. Any other explanation seems even more ridiculous." "Facts can stare me right in the face but it never gets through. It's like i've been programmed to hate everything about myself so no one will every be able to persuade me any differently. I've become quite stubborn in that sence. People can tell me i'm special and worth they're time but it's so hard to try to learn something new when i'm so used to being ignored, and criticised by myself and people i thought cared."
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