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I love how positive and wonderful you are. How are things now? Are you back together? Have you both moved on? I hope everything is exactly how you need it to be right now. *hugs*

from whystinger :

Two of the three recent updates are just beautiful. And yes, I do know about that booty stank. Booty stank is not beautiful... Damn glad to hear from you Girl!!!

from acornotravez :

Wow, girl! I'm so happy for you! (PS it's saying I have to enter a PW to leave you a comment.. ?)

from realsnoopy :

knock knock! Let me in!!

from realsnoopy :

hi sweetie!!!!

from idontpretend :

Yeah, it's not to meant to be judgemental or anything at all. It's just better that way, to make a break from Hombre before getting fully involved in a relationship with another man. It's safer and making a clean break will help keep it from getting messy and confusing. Less than if you're sneaking around anyway. =D Other than that, go for it chica!

from ingridwrites :

This is not meant to sound as judgmental as I'm sure it does sound. I think you should not get involved with him while you are in a relationship with Hombre. What are you expecting will happen? Where can it go? Let go of the past first, then move forward.

from whystinger :

Hey, it is his loss... You deserve better anyway. I am glad you called him though. Maybe this is a wake-up call for you to go and start living again.

from x-centricity :

A GOOD quality man wouldn't care what you looked like. What you need to do is get rid of Hombre and find a man that you could have a real relationship with. You are worth more then some lay on the side. *hugs*

from vxxen :

THat shit makes me mad! ( the way he did that!) he aint even worth it for real! if HE cant have the decency to say what he feels, like a man. and cant see how kind, patient and loving young woman than he needs to be put to sleep!

from x-centricity :

Breaking it off is really hard to do, but once it's done....it's like lifting the world off of your shoulders. *hugs*

from whystinger :

I am sorry that things are back to the old... I feel bad for you. did you know that I started teh process to file for divorce? I see you changed a few things AND unlocked... glad to read you again.

from vxxen :

Oh...My ... God!!! I missed the *SHIT* outta you! Im sorry that your daughter said that! but im keeping good thoughts in my head for you!!!!

from whystinger :

Girl: where the fuck are you???? I miss you.

from x-centricity :

It's easy to forgo all of the things that are good for you when you're feeling upset or down. Just keep in mind that you are working out and going to meetings not only for yourself but for the good of your family. *huggles*

from whystinger :

I am glad you puked because of the beer and smoke. That is NASTY. I do think it probably helped you get the emotional poison out of your system. Did you toss the cigs or did you keep them? Keep doing the Al-Anon thing. I am sorry that your daughter was such a brat. Keep your head up and be as positive as you can be. I'm counting on ya and prayin for ya.

from x-centricity :

*hugs*

from lonelylatina :

where are you at?

from fightn4life :

If you are still writing I am at the same address and had to rebuild my computer...I lost your PW and UN when I reformatted my hard drive. Sorry...could you resend? Sandyz

from fightn4life :

I don't have your user name-pass word. My �address is [email protected] Put "pass word" in subject line if you allow me into your world. Your hombre is just like the man I am married to, he is so kind and loving when he first starts drinking. He talks about how much he loves me, how he'd do anything in the world for me, blah happy talk, blah and then he continues to drink himself stupid and talks trash. As you said who would want to "be" with someone so drunk they piss on the floor missing the toilet. My heart is with you, I too hope you can find peace, my world right now is not so peaceful, Lord the waiting is hard. Take care and let me know if I can walk back to your world, I worry about you. Sandyz

from whystinger :

No notes turned on? Demanded, drunken sex is not a good man showing his love for his lady. With an alcoholic, those bets are off. He can't really show you love as he can't show himself any love. When he is drunk, it is just satisfying an urge and YOU ARE NOT AT FAULT. I don't want sex with my wife when she offers it as a manipulation... Love the new one too!

from whystinger :

so, do I have the password or other needed info??? If so, I have to check my inbox.

from whystinger :

When she make the comments like "maybe you need a different wife" or "I'm sorry I am such a disappointment to you," these are her manipulations, trying to put the fault on me... You probably go through this with Hombre, you receiving the manipulations, not giving...

from cera-jeanne :

Actually, it DOES sound like people are under water somewhat. Basically it is just like when you go up or down a hill and you need to yawn and pop your ears...but they won't pop. It sucks. :(

from fluttrbykiss :

Everything is fine... User is: babe and pass is: pig if you want in.... ;o)

from whystinger :

Thanks for the note... it was YOUR turn to write a note. I left you an email a few weeks ago... I also tried to call, but you were out... In fact, been up to Michigan (Sloan museum car show) a few weeks ago and thought about you. Yes, send me the password, you still have the email, don't you???

from grt8f84me :

new diary created, not in D'Land, however. For those that are already in my buddy list here, and would like my new address, please e-mail me. Newbie's will not be given info. Thanks!

from marinka-mp :

That is TOO funny. But yes please let me know. Come to Wordpress its awesome. you get comments, its more friendly. And I get to be your neighbor.

from grt8f84me :

I have locked my diary, and will create a new one. One of my kids found the diary when they googled a website I had linked, and one of my pages came up. I will pass the new diary info on when I have a chance to create it.

from fightn4life :

How strange isn't it that a song can trigger a memory. No matter what road you go down it feels lonely and empty, with them or without. They say it is only for a brief moment in time but day to day, it feels like forever. I hope only the best for you. Sandyz

from marinka-mp :

You know sometimes when you are working on an old building, in your case a whole list of dilemmas, its better to tare everything down and start from the beginning. You know what I mean? I wish I could help you.

from fluttrbykiss :

I'm feeling ya sista... I know where you are... It HAS to get better. Please tell me it has to get better. I mean... It does... Right??? RIGHT?????

from fightn4life :

I swear you are living my life or you are living mine�so much sounds like I just lived it. You know my husband left didn't you. Now I go through all the weird feelings of being walked out on. Good Lord I wonder if I'll ever be happy in this life. I looked for your e-mail address to send my password and couldn't find it. Sorry. Mine is [email protected]. Listen, all my life I have got that second job or worked all the overtime I could. I figure it did no good, when I was unable to work like a dog that AH left. One second I am in a swirling depression�the next mad as hell. Please take care of YOU! Sandyz

from bunny828 :

If divorce is in the picture, careful about getting another job. Look up some divorce prep info online. You could end up having to pay him alimony and that really wouldn't be fair. See if there is anything you can do to protect the assets you do have and not put you in the position of having to be responsible for any debt the 2 of you have incurred.

from bunny828 :

Good Job!

from ingridwrites :

I am glad that was the worst of your day! I also hear you on the Urkle pants, I don't like wearing those anymore either. Remember when lower waisted pants felt funny? Now its the high waisted pants.

from x-centricity :

I'm worried about you. *hugs*

from marinka-mp :

Girl...your comments dont like me. All this time i think i am leaveing you messages, but im such an airhead that i never went back to check. But i wanted to stop buy and give you a HUGE hug.

from x-centricity :

*hugs*

from x-centricity :

Oh, Hita. I understand the spiral of emotions you're going through right now when dealing with the possibility of being sick. But think of it this way. As soon as they figure out what's wrong, then the problem can be treated. Things are different now days. People with serious illnesses can live VERY normal lives. Modern medicine is a miracle. And there are so many alternatives to drugs too. Look at me, I'm proof that a person can be sick AND live a very happy, normal life. *hugs*

from x-centricity :

I'm glad things evened out a bit with Hombre. *hugs*

from second-love :

**hugs** pretending IS hard and exhausting...

from fightn4life :

Lord, I hate that I understand your pain, yesterday�Mothers day I had to ask my husband to please stop drinking. I already had a bad start to the day and here he was putting icing on the cake. My heart is with you. I am so sorry you were hurt so bad. Sandyz

from whystinger :

Sweeeeeeeet new template! I like it. Does this mean you are going to start fighting for yourself and your rights in the relationship? so he was away and you missed him. Can he love you back while he is doing his alcoholic thing? Wanna hear something funny? When Honi goes out of town, I really enjoy my time apart....

from x-centricity :

I'll be keeping you in my thoughts. *hugs*

from marinka-mp :

Dahling�..First of all you have to move your blog to somewhere where its easy to leave you comments. Secondly, for the above mentioned reason I haven�t left too many comments, and finally�.babe at the end of the day be it Mr. Man or Hombre you are left alone to yourself. If you were to ever be faced with a decision I would say pick the one who completes you, makes you happy, and is your soul mate. Other than that I miss you.

from x-centricity :

*hugs*

from x-centricity :

Thank you SO much for the note you left me. LOVE YOU! As far as the you not calling Hombre, I wouldn't have called him either. But that's just me.

from cera-jeanne :

You know, one of the hardest things to build in a child (especially girls) is self-confidence. Having teachers like her for a role model is definitely not going to help! I'm glad you're around to boost the girls back up!

from x-plicity :

Chula, you are allowing this man to kill you emotionally. This is suicide, hita. I understand you have reasons to stay but there are so many more reasons to leave. To kick his ass out. Love you.

from x-plicity :

If you talk yourself down, of course you're going to feel "beastly". You're beautiful, you're hot, you're a spicey mamasita!!!

from second-love :

I like your template too!! Very cool

from whystinger :

I like your new template!

from whystinger :

I do hope you feel better and get to a doctor. You may have to try one in a neighboring town - a bit out in the country. Email me if you need some suggestions. I think I know of one near Frankenmuth... AS for POTP and POTOP, POTOP should be better, much better. Remember what they say "use it or that thing will close up..." and yes, sex IS good for both males and females...

from x-plicity :

I hope you can find a doctor soon. I'm really worried about you! By the way, you totally have the POTP!!!

from fightn4life :

I hope all is well with your health...keep us updated. I love those personality tests but they always wrong. Sandyz

from whystinger :

If the new guy give you any shit, then poke his eyes out with your breasts...

from whystinger :

Fuck him when he is sober. First, tell him "you make me soooo horny when you are sober" then fuck him good! Do it again a few times, even if you don't feel like it. When he is drunk, then stay away. Maybe you can train him. Give it up freely when he is sober and maybe that will help push him to sobriety or at least show him the consequenses.

from x-plicity :

Damn! I even had my fingers crossed!!!

from x-plicity :

Even worse!!! What if he's sexy and available!!!!! LOL

from whystinger :

Your Feb 19, entry... you know, where the dude was trying to blame you for his alcoholism... that is something else we learned. They always try to blame someone else....

from whystinger :

Good for you and stick to it. Remember what I learned when I took S to his Al-Anon meeting. You love Hombre, he cannot love you because he is too busy with his drinking. It bothers me that he accuses you of having a guy on the side. That is usually a sign and not a good one... When they accuse you of cheating, they usually are paranoid as THEY are cheating... By the way, get an attorney and file for child support. Know this also, he may have to lose you in order to get better. Sometimes they have to lose everything, which will help them learn...

from fightn4life :

Good Lord I could have wrote that myself, they don't get it,it isn't I stopped loving I got sick and tired of him drinking himself stupid that I can no longer stand. He I think can't stand his self sober. Today is nice day, cooking me breakfast after the crappy way he treated me yesterday-the day before-shit the day before that. Sigh...I understand you longing to have peace away from him. I want to take off, fly away. My thoughts are with you, Sandyz

from x-plicity :

It's time, Sweets. *hugs*

from cera-jeanne :

big big hugs to you...

from whystinger :

an apology and a belated happy V. D. to you. I am sorry, because I was going to call you and tease you a bit, but ran out of time.

from second-love :

Enough said. Happy V day

from whystinger :

Come on, I know you are pretty, gimme a little peek;)

from beckybaggins :

Wanted to say hi and send a hug. Not sure if any of my emails ever made it through. Was having yahoo troubles for a while. You've been on my mind.

from whystinger :

By the way, can I see you undressed? Pretty please? ;)

from whystinger :

It sounds like depression love. You are in a depressed state because of Hombre. You are doing right by getting your finances in order. Take it one step at a time. Do you have anywhere you can walk? Moderate exercise is a very good depression fighter

from fightn4life :

A grandma? I would never have guessed. You sound like you're in my rut, feeling overly fat, sleepy all the time. Some one at work told me I have sad eyes. I don't want sad eyes, I want them to sparkle and appear as though I love life. I want to feel like I used to in my pictures from the past. If I could find some of that get up and go. My thoughts are with you. Sandyz

from cera-jeanne :

I'm sure you are just as beautiful now as you always have been - but I know what you mean. If you don't feel it mentally it affects your whole life. Good luck! :)

from x-plicity :

You ARE sexy!! But you are right. You need to feel it too. Just walking every day helps my self-esteem. It's surprising what a little self help can do for you. *hugs*

from fightn4life :

God hears your prayers, it will be clear to you one day. For now try not to be bitter, this iron guy wasn't for you. His loss. Sandyz

from x-plicity :

Thank you so much for your sweet note. I Love you!!!

from fightn4life :

Ouch! At least you got the bikni wax. ;) Sandyz

from futurenurse :

Girl...you shouldn't be putting up with that!!! I had issues such as that and I went to my doctor. Mine was a hormonal thing. He put me back on the pill and it's been smooooooth sailing ever since!

from second-love :

hahahahahahahaha omg :)

from cera-jeanne :

oh that's funny.... :)

from fluttrbykiss :

Aaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! How painful!! Yerg!! I have definately done THAT before... Thanks for the condolences... (((huggles)))

from cera-jeanne :

i'm sorry to hear about your BIL...But I liked your entry. You're so right. Happy New Year to you...

from x-plicity :

How sad.... *hugs*

from whystinger :

Hey Kitty Kitty Kitty, you gonna update? I hope all is well

from cera-jeanne :

Merry Christmas. I wish you all the best.

from realsnoopy :

Merry Christmas sweetie! I was just checking in on you. Some day you won't be tired anymore. Things will happen when your ready! Love ya!

from marinka-mp :

thats my girl! I like it when you smile or frin as you put it

from x-plicity :

I want you to be happy, Sweetie. Just make sure you don't get yourself hurt in the process. *hugs*

from noaddedme :

didn't you just see him w/his woman a few weeks ago? What is the story on that?

from second-love :

WOW we really ARE living the same life!!! Try to NOT get caught back up in it if you can because its awesome to FEEL those feelings and that connection, but its also hell balancing it with "real life"...take it from me.

from second-love :

sigh...i know just what you are talking about. DAMN that connection

from whystinger :

Hmmm, sore shoulder... could be a symptom. Birthday for Hombre? I guess a blow-job is out of the question. Something nice for him??? Let me think on that one...

from cera-jeanne :

sometimes when I am very sore a nice hot bath helps a lot...Hope you have a great weekend! :)

from realsnoopy :

I think letting him whip you over the ceiling fan was enough of a gift! LOL!

from x-plicity :

So, Hombre is a scorpio too?! How funny! I know this sounds wierd but try putting an ice pack on your shoulder. It'll reduce the swelling and the tension. *hugs* X

from realsnoopy :

You are so sweet! I got my gift in the mail today! I love it! Thank You soooo much! *hugs*

from fightn4life :

Be glad you did dress up�someday you can look back and laugh about it. We are suppose to be laughing right? Sandyz

from sinslaidbare :

Great Etsy shop, btw! I love browsing through Etsy shops... love craftster.org too. ~Z

from sinslaidbare :

We're back! Not exactly a funny entry, but I think it's one worth reading. It has me all pissed off, but then, I seem to get that way about a lot of things. Just a part of my charm! ~Z

from realsnoopy :

HAAAA! I just read the sewing foot entry! I know you feel bad, laugh it off. You were in a spot. We have all done shit like that at one time or another. *hugs*

from realsnoopy :

Thanx for the e-mail pics! They were too cute!

from second-love :

Oh...and i stole a shower curtain once from T@rget - now THATS lame

from second-love :

THIEF!!! hahahahahah thats funny

from x-plicity :

Naughty naughty! *grin*

from whystinger :

I really hope you can't make enough dolls to satisfy the customers and it pushes up the price and MAKES YOU SOME MONEY!!! MAD MONEY!!! Sorry about Mr. Man, but did you expect anything else? Honi gives me plenty of "I love you's" and stuff like that, but she doesn't give me much sex. She used to and I have not cheated, but she isn't meeting my needs and I am afraid I will. I still try to make things better. I know a few guys who have chicks on the side and they cry to the chicks that their wives don't love them and shit like that, but they usually don't leave... They want their cake and to eat it too. You deserve better than him

from second-love :

Oh boy...well at least i KNOW in my situation that he IS happy. Ive never kidded myself about that. Its hard to accept...but at least i know if we are ever both on our own...we would be together. Im sorry for your realization :(((( And oh yeah...... he'll be calling for sure. They always do. Be strong if you can - but who am i to talk...im the weakest person i know *sigh*

from x-plicity :

*shakes head* I'm sorry, Sweetie. *hugs*

from realsnoopy :

Make yourself happy hon! Please!!!!

from second-love :

You and I are in many ways living the same life. Its hard...hang in there!!

from cera-jeanne :

You are a much stronger, nicer, person than me. I can't believe how strong you are sometimes. He doesn't realize what he has....

from x-plicity :

You are putting up with way more then I would ever dream of doing. *hugs*

from sinslaidbare :

Thanks for the add! That entry was almost as much fun to write as it was to research! ~Z

from marinka-mp :

Have i ever told you that I love you? No? Well I do. Sweets i still have not received the box. You want me to call UPS?

from realsnoopy :

LOL!

from x-plicity :

Have a fabulous weekend, Doll!! *hugs*

from second-love :

Yeah, mine is VERY long term also...like 20 years long term. But there were a good stretch of years in there where i refused to see him because it was too hard. But i softened up 3 years ago and its been downhill (and sometimes UP...but mostly down) from there. Now im 41, hormonal, needy etc etc and i cant get him out of my life no matter how hard i try.

from second-love :

awwwwww BOY do i know what you are talking about. I do the SAME thing!!!! Get all dolled up with stuff he likes...and for WHAT??? I pretty much never get what i want or need *sigh

from x-plicity :

Love you sweetie!

from whystinger :

Where you be, you Halloweenie????

from razor-vixen :

Unfortunately, you just have to let them grow in a bit! If you could try to let them grow in where you want them back, just tweeze around that area. You're going to have to go through a period of having some stubble, but you'll have to suffer through it.

from second-love :

Thanks for your comment. Your entry today sounds alot like me - i agree we seem so similar. There are so many times ive done this...pulled away from him to finally end it because the happy times dont surpass the pain anymore. They used to. So when im tempted to call him and tell him i need him...i try to remember how bad i felt on monday...how bad ive felt on many days and that is what is keeping me from dialing. Im adding you to my dland list :) Thanks for reading...im thinking im gonna need all the support i can get.

from x-plicity :

Of course I'll vouch for you. Do you mind sending me an e-mail so that I can give you the address? Love you!!!

from whystinger :

I bet he will accept you for who you are. Terese is pretty heavy - over 200 lbs and she is much shorter than Honi. She still lights my fire and I am still fiercely attracted to her. I accept her for who she is and the weight doens't matter. But, congratulations for not cheating. It is sooooo tempting. Thank goodness Terese has a strong conscience... that is why we don't see each other much anymore - so something doesn't happen.

from marinka-mp :

Sistah! I love you. Have i ever told you that? Now that i have it out of the way i have two things to say. Both of them contradicting one another. Thing One You should NEVER let your thoughts of appearance get in your way. If a person does not like you because you looked a little heavy, or your eyes were not blue enough. Than FUCK them. Basically, if they judge you, and change their perception of you than they are not worth your time. Thing Two I see what you are saying about not wanting to stray and take advantage of opportunities because you have a commitment. But love. At the end of the day you have to think of what makes you feel happy. What is GOOD for you. What brings a smile to your face. What makes you glow

from realsnoopy :

I understand! I have gained 30lbs since I met Abe! He doesn't notice that much because he see's me everyday, if he hadn't seen me, he would notice. I know you don't care, but your beautiful regardless. Do you really think he cares?? Or are you using it as an excuse???? Love ya!

from x-plicity :

*hugs*

from whystinger :

Fat??? Is that any way to worry about a man who accepts you for who you are??? Fuck this I am fat. You are a pretty woman and he wants you. Don't worry about fat, 'cause he is cool with who you are and it sounds like you light his fire... How come you never answer my emails anymore... And the Golden Whore, si, I can understand now and the name fits...

from cera-jeanne :

you're a very strong woman. i guess it must feel pretty nice to know he wants to be with you so bad, even if you decide not to. :)

from fightn4life :

I believe we all fantasize but seldom do we carry through when our young ones and husbands may be in the direct line of hurt if acted upon. Still day dreaming can help us through some troubling times. You may want to think of you and a way out of that rocky relationship. I wish you peace. Sandyz

from x-plicity :

Oh, Sweetie...you need to get away from this prison you built yourself. The door's not locked. You could just give it a nudge and you'd be able to walk right out. *hugs*

from realsnoopy :

That's tough! When things are so shitty with hombre, turning down sexy man has to be hard! Sometimes I really wish you would leave him. You deserve to be happy, and with a man who treats you right. *hugs*

from cera-jeanne :

i just checked out your dolls and wanted to tell you they are great! i hope you do really well selling those. :)

from x-plicity :

*hugs*

from realsnoopy :

i'm open

from fightn4life :

We never know how the future will unfold�that is the glory of life. I hope wonderful things find their way to your world.(SOON!) Sandyz

from thedetails :

I'm so glad to see that you're alive and well. It's good that you got to see your family, spending time with loved ones really does lift up your spirits when you are down.

from cera-jeanne :

good to see you are alive and well! :)

from x-plicity :

I really missed you!!! I'm glad you found some happiness. *hugs*

from realsnoopy :

No breaks! LOL I need to read ya!!! Come on Mamma!!!

from x-plicity :

Thanks for the note, hon. *hugs*

from realsnoopy :

[email protected]

from x-plicity :

Hey, hita. Hope everything's ok. *hugs*

from realsnoopy :

Try having your Birthday on 9/11. I woke this morning to all the footage of it. Happy Birthday to me! LOL

from fightn4life :

Moments of silence, hearts in prayer, never forgetting when planes took to the air. America attacked, lives forever changed, the tragic of loss is something we share. Never forget. Sandyz

from x-plicity :

It's totally me, I've disconnected from EVERYONE in the last month. I just haven't really had time to leave notes except for the occasional *hug* once in a while. But I'm back, Baby!! *grin*

from x-plicity :

I'm gonna have to get my grubby hands on a few of those adorable dolls!!!

from realsnoopy :

I saw a show last night. Physic detectives. It was about a beautiful Mexican that was murdered by her X. The physic was helping to prove the X did it. "true story" She had sweet little kids and reminded me so much of you, it freaked me out. They couldn't find her body. The story bugged me so much that I ended up having a dream that it was you! I was sooo upset it woke me up! I know, stupid I guess. It's just that she looked liked you, loved her kids like you, and the way they described her personality was like you! I'm glad it's not you! At least you know I love ya! On the flip side, I didn't sleep well cuz of you!!! I'm tired and it's your fault!! LOL

from whystinger :

poquito loco mommie???

from marinka-mp :

Oh My God! you had me on the floor laughing my ass off. i had sealed ny nose shut so that i would not snort. I love you.. Thank you for the laugh......you are too cool

from cera-jeanne :

ha ha, thanks for the link! Very funny t-shirt! :)

from realsnoopy :

Laughing... You are too cute! I love your doorkable self! We are all like that, your just honest about it! *love ya*

from cera-jeanne :

ha ha, that is so funny! That's something I would do! :)

from realsnoopy :

LOL! Silly girl!

from marinka-mp :

I LOVE it when ma girl (you) is happy

from realsnoopy :

That's great to hear!

from fluttrbykiss :

GOOD FOR YOU!!! I'm sooo happy that you had a good time... (((huggles)))

from realsnoopy :

Hey sweets! Whats up? No entries for four days! I'm going through withdrawl! LOL *kisses*

from realsnoopy :

I Love the comment below! LOL!

from wifemotherme :

I hope you don't feel the need to follow through with the "No fussing about hombre" thing. Its your diary. Use it as free therapy since you have it. Some times, simply bitching it out is all the help you really needed. (of course some times a cast iron skillet upside his head might be all you need)

from marinka-mp :

Hello my lovely! I just wanted to stop by and bless you with my presence. But in reality i wanted to say, "You too?! Whats up with these boys? IS the moon finally aligning correctly and they are calling to say all the right things? what took them to so long?" Anyway, you know how to get a hold of me. Dont hesitate to use it, if i can help i will certainly do so. Love ya -M

from crazyblueyes :

sooo i don't want to write you a whole entry on your notes lol so i will make it short and perhaps write an entry about it soon. i don't know who mr. man is, or why your apart but i have a good friend that i would love to be closer to but we live states apart. so it's confined to the phone and he seems to be the only one who can make the world stop spinning for a moment so i can catch my breath. In all thats been going on with me i've have to find me strength because no one can hold me up but me. you'll find yours, it's there... it really is.

from realsnoopy :

HI! I was wondering, why are you not with MR.Man? I was wondering that. He sounds wonderful, unless there's something I don't know. *hugs* Lock the diary, unlock the diary. Someone needs to really grow up! Games are for kids! And so are Trix!

from fightn4life :

Your comment page didn't work so I'll leave a note here. Lord I understand those hopeless feelings of need to do and what I have the courage to do. It took me 15 years to get the nerve to trust myself enough to take flight. Some times wingless angels are around for you during times you need a listening ear. Don't feel guilty you rested a bit on his shoulder. You need a place to vent, whine, cry, and laugh; this is your place to feel free to open your heart. Don't worry about what you write about good, sad, or indifferent, your life, and your words. I relate so much. Sandyz

from whystinger :

That is fucked up Honey. I think he has more of a problem than alcoholism, or he was really plastered... I hope you do the meeting soon. Hey no email back???? Also, send the file back and let me see if I can open it... or try using "paint" in accessories. Perhaps your system killed the file...

from adam-selene :

the "enabling" thing is exactly right. as long as he has someone to fix his mistakes, he'll keep making them. this i know from my own mistakes, and the loving caring wife that always tried to help, but ended up helping me keep making mistakes. once she stepped back, and left me to fall on my face, i was able to see, for the first time, what i was doing.

from whystinger :

Here is a few for you. Don't chop off the hair. Trim an inch or two if you want to, to just form a nice end. READ more of the book AND go to the meeting. It will help. You will SEE that you are not alone. Do not be afraid. The worse that will happen is YOU WILL BE HAPPIER. I'll send the rest.

from crazyblueyes :

haha yeah there are soooo many great lines out there. i love cheesy pick up lines, they just make me laugh. To me it can be a sign of a good sense of humor, any guy meaning it seriously is just trying way to hard. And i look forward to having you as a lurker ;)

from wifemotherme :

If your keeping up with your stats and see some stalkerish activities I wanted to let you know its me read the archives.

from whystinger :

I LOVE long hair on almost any woman. True, there are certain women where short hair looks better, but if a lady has long hair, it is great. If it is long dark hair, Oh, God! It is even better ;)

from crazyblueyes :

i can't even tell you how much i relate to all of this. even though the only baby i have is still in the oven, i've just been so inward and dissatisfied, then upset that i can't do or find something to satisfy

from fluttrbykiss :

Awww.. Sweety. Hang in there it'll get better, I promise... ((((huggles))))

from cera-jeanne :

I know exactly the feeling you're describing. It is a tough one to shake. Maybe you could have a nice long bubble bath? Or paint your nails? Sometimes even just that helps a bit. I hope you feel better soon.

from whystinger :

Get off your booty and get reading. I am holding you accountable for reading the book and a bit more... Don't make me come up there and pester the BOOTYJUICE out of you :p

from realsnoopy :

I'm proud of you!!! What your doing is hard work! It's scary too! You are a strong woman and I'm proud to be your friend! *warm hugs*

from fluttrbykiss :

WoW!! That is some heavy stuff there... I grew up with an alcoholic/recovering/relapsed/alcoholic and on and on and on... Father from the time I was one year old until I moved out at 19... That is a very hard road to follow. It is important that you do this, not only for you, but for LilMama, BabyGirl, BabyBoy... and LilAngel... But, I don't need to tell you this.. Obviously, you know or you would NOT have taken that first tenative all enpowering step for YOUR family... Many (((huggles))) for you on your road to recovery... If you need me, know I'm here for you.

from whystinger :

I hope so... are you truthful with me, or just shutting me up???

from realsnoopy :

Amen sista!

from realsnoopy :

I miss you!!

from fightn4life :

Your entry "Broken, bruised soul," brought back so many emotions I struggle with. The wondering if he loves me, if he can openly care while sober, and the feelings of having a broken spirit. I often lose myself in a work world to avoid being in a position of hearing hurtful words or watching his sad eyes knowing the bottle will not give back the life of his daughter. I am always swaying between wanting to stay and longing to leave. I felt like you did yesterday, my husband stayed at home not going to work and I felt it was "my day" He has so much alone time with being a part timer while I spend most my awake time at work. I was angry he took a day from me. How sad is that. Sandyz

from whystinger :

I didn't get a chance to finish the long entry 'cuz I gotta go to work. Do you think that maybe HOmbre is suffering from a mental illness and the drinking is "self medication?" Maybe pushed into a depression from the death of his brother? He definitely acts depressed. YOU need to research. www.nami.org. please visit it. Also, go to the library and START reading about the alcoholism. GET INTO A SUPPORT GROUP, that will help you deal with it.

from marinka-mp :

I love you too. if i didnt i would not hunt you down all the way from here and seduce you with my accent. Muah! Be a good girl

from realsnoopy :

He like you sweetie! He loves you! He doesn't like himself! *warm hugs*

from fightn4life :

Thank you so much for adding me to your favorites, I had a chance to read a few two of yours. OMG�so much in common, I will add your Dairy in the am, it is 1:15 am, I just home from wok. I do like your style of writing, it grabs a reader and takes then to your world. (Be back tomorrow.) Sandyz

from marinka-mp :

Come here I need to give you a big hug.

from cera-jeanne :

i'm sorry....you don't deserve to feel this sad. he's lucky to have you, that's for sure. hugs.

from futurenurse :

This is Joey, used to be thruthefire. I read your entries and it hits home because my mom has been married to an alcoholic since 1989. There is no changing him. He isn't going to stop drinking because you want him to. I hope you go to Al-Anon and deal with it, my mom did and it helps. She realized she can't change him but instead she needs to change her life and how she deals with him. That was the life she chose and she isn't willing to leave him either. He's not going to quit drinking even one millisecond before he's ready, not even for you. It's sad that that is the way it is, but unfortunately that is the reality. My mom has her own life, her own interests and does her own thing. And she's finally finding some sort of happiness, even though it isn't 100% what she wants. But she knows she has no control over it. I hope you learn lots from that book. While it sucks, it doesn't mean your life is over. Don't feel guilty about anything.. it's not your fault he is the way he is. You just remember that. It's HIS issue. You can't change him, you won't. But what you can do is enjoy YOUR life with your kids and grandchildren and maybe, just maybe, someday he'll figure it out. My stepdad is almost 60 and trust me, he hasn't figured it out yet. He'll die of liver disease or something medically related to his alcoholism before he even figures it out. Life is too short. Enjoy it while you can!

from realsnoopy :

I just read hubbys note. If you didn't know, he's talking about me. I think your on the right track. In your own time sweetie!

from adam-selene :

i personally know someone who grew up with a father who was an alcoholic. being the eldest child, she often found herself being the parent when her dad was drunk and her mom too scared to do anything. she never forgave her father, and probally never will. it took her quite awhile, but she did forgive her mom. but as others have said, the time has to be right or going to meetings or counseling won't do any good. however, usually the hardest part is recognizing that there is a problem in the first place. you've done that. you have everyone's support.

from xevilsuziex :

You're right, you HAVE to do something. And the longer you wait, the harder it's going to be. Every day his problem becomes more established. Every day the problem weighs more on your mind. Do something about it before it gets even further out of control. Think about the kids. They deserve a Mom who will fight for their happiness and safety. Do it. You know you can.

from cera-jeanne :

I know whatever you decide will be what's best for you. And I know you have the strength for it to. I wish you all the best.

from realsnoopy :

I know people who havn't gone to meetings or lived through what your going through don't understand. It's easy to tell someone what to do. I won't tell you what to do because you already know. You will be ready one day in your own time. When your ready you'll know. It sounds like your getting there. *hugs*

from x-plicity :

Those Al-anon groups are so helpful. You should go to just one meeting to see what it's like. You don't have to say anything if you don't want to. It can change your life. *hugs*

from marinka-mp :

Hey there! Long time no talk. I have a question for you. Its more like I NEED YOUR HELP. Dont laugh. But can you email me? Please! [email protected] Thank you. I will owe you my life and soul. -M

from realsnoopy :

combos are my fav! If I can't eat them you can't either! that's what you get! LOL *hugs*

from cera-jeanne :

hee hee. that's funny. i hope your head is ok. nothing like trying to be normal & doing things like that. yesterday i tried being nice & said good morning to my neighbor, & as I looked up & smiled I tripped over a hose and went flying across the grass. So graceful. :)

from realsnoopy :

I got your e-mail. I wrote ya back! :)

from realsnoopy :

[email protected] try sending me an e-mail.

from whystinger :

You and I should both just leave our situations...

from realsnoopy :

I mailed ya! LOL!

from realsnoopy :

PS- I Love ya!

from realsnoopy :

Good lord! I don't judge you for that! Hombre would make me want to jump off a cliff!! That's not what I meant. I meant the fact that one of your readers, "x" is the one I'm refering to as the other woman in my diary. The one who slept with my man! I didn't want to make you feel uncomfortable. Your husband has caused you sooo much pain, I would NEVER judge you for wanting or searching for love!

from realsnoopy :

My new entry may make you feel compromised, if so I am sorry. :(

from fluttrbykiss :

Oyyy... Do I EVER know where your coming from on this one.. Except, it hasn't been 18 years for me, its only been close to 3... Oyyyyy... I soooooknow that feeling that you are feeling.. Hurt, insecure... (((huggles)))

from realsnoopy :

I know the feeling! Nothing would give more pleasure than beating her down. Sad thing is, woman should be able to trust women. When their married and have kids, stay the fuck away! They reep what they sew! It will happen to them one day! I wish I could be there to see it! *hugs* (whatever)

from ingridwrites :

Yes, he is the one who does deserve it. Not that she didn't have her part - and the irony is we never totally blame the one who hurt us the deepest - but he was the one who made the vows to you. She didn't. Although, do not get me wrong, hitting her would have felt good ;)

from x-plicity :

*hugs*

from realsnoopy :

You hit the nail right on the head! *hugs*

from realsnoopy :

Where are you sweetie??? I miss ya!

from x-plicity :

*grin*

from bunny828 :

I think hombre is just reacting to the anniversary. It's a shame he has been living in that grief for so long. Life didn't move on for him and it's destroying your relationship with him.

from x-plicity :

I'm praying for you 'hita. *hugs*

from cera-jeanne :

I'm sorry...I wish I even had something useful to say. I'm thinking of you & hope things get better. Hugs.

from realsnoopy :

hugs to you sweetie....

from realsnoopy :

Grrr! Punch hombre! *hugs*

from lovemyfriend :

.. you deserve so much better than the shit that you put up with .. you are to good of a person ..

from x-plicity :

So glad you hear you are back. I really missed you! *huggles*

from lovemyfriend :

.. looking forward to hearing how you are doing .. Your friend, Michael

from whystinger :

Have a great trip!!! and we should chat...

from realsnoopy :

I'm never mad at you!!!

from x-plicity :

Sha! Baby's are so adorable!!!! Thanks for the lov'n. *hugs* X

from cera-jeanne :

I hope you have a great weekend! :)

from lovemyfriend :

.. thank you for leaving me a note .. and thanks for caring .. it makes me feel good .. sorry I've been away for so long .. kinda' lost touch with some of my online buds ..

from noaddedme :

I'm so sorry for the shit you are going through. I can't make anything better, just know that I'm thinking of you ok?

from marinka-mp :

Sweets you have too much drama in your life. Way too much. And yes the guy/il looks like a very shy ay dude. Cute....but he still looks like a dude. Love ya

from ingridwrites :

((hugs))

from x-plicity :

You need to give that man a good as beating and then kick his ass out. *ggrrrr*

from fluttrbykiss :

I know EXACTLY how you feel... Hang in... It'll get better... Honest. it HAS to right??? (((huggles)))

from fluttrbykiss :

I am saying.. After looking at HER again... She's a CHICK-a-DEE... Plus, the purple kinda makes it girly too... (((huggles)))

from lonelylatina :

6/21/06 - definitely a chick because of the way she is posing. hombre needs to step up his bill paying game. he does live there right? he does have a job right? those are his kids right? then why hasn't he been taking on some of the financial burden? take care girl. i hope things start getting better.

from cera-jeanne :

Looks like a girl to me! I like it. :)

from x-plicity :

The pic likes like a waif of a girl. I really do like it.

from fluttrbykiss :

Looks like a chick to me... She just has really small boobies... ;o)

from bunny828 :

Now that you mention it, I'm not sure if it's a guy or a girl.

from marinka-mp :

No clue but i have snet him an email

from marinka-mp :

Damn! Why doesnt your comment thingie work? It should by now

from x-plicity :

Oh, sweetie. I wish there was something I could do to help. *hugs* X

from whystinger :

Nice template. Very interesting. Is it significant of anything???

from x-plicity :

Yeah, I can see it fine. I really don't know why you wouldn't be able to see it.

from marinka-mp :

Hey loveliey! I just did the supergold thing for you but i think i f*ed up. can you tell me when you start getting notification saying that its up and running.

from fluttrbykiss :

Love the new layout!!! I tried to leave you a note yesterdqay about it, but you hadn't turned them on yet... Oh... Ii CAN see your image... (((huggles)))

from ingridwrites :

Oh those cash advance places are evil! My girlfriend got stuck in that cycle. It took her 2 months of biting the bullet and going without to get out of it. It was like she was coming off crack ~ except it was her living with no money. She had such a want to just go get some money from the check place. She doesn't do that anymore. Good luck. I know it can be hard.

from x-plicity :

I love the new layout. *hugs*

from darkeyeszz :

sorry it took me so long to comment back, I didn't know you did until now. Anyways, you can use your username as both the username and password for my diary, I'm about to go add you to my locked page thing. Have a good one!

from whystinger :

Sorry, busy, really busy. Will write later if poss.

from x-plicity :

I knew he would know that cd was from you.

from lonelylatina :

6/14/06 - work it girl =D i know exactly how you feel. after talking to my "mr. man" i always feel beautiful too.

from x-plicity :

Sassy girl!!!!

from whystinger :

Be very careful of folks that claim to be your long lost sibling, especially since their are discrepancies in her stories. Could be a con.

from whystinger :

God! You had me laughing my ass off about BootyJuice." So much that Honi hollers up the stairs "what you laughing about??? you had to be there to see it, but it is funny. thanks

from fluttrbykiss :

*sigh* If you're Fiona... then I must be... DONKEY!!! lol... I totally know how you feel, girly... Hold your head up high... You'll pull through in no time... (((hugggles)))

from x-plicity :

Here's a little bruja for ya, if you want it. Wrap Rosemary and a cinnamon stick in a square of muslin fabric. Pray over it asking that inner beauty be restored to you. Say three Hail Marys, one for faith, one for Hope and one for Charity. Then place it between your mattress and your box spring. Do this for three days before you go to sleep. Also, find a good ginseng supplement, but don't over do it. This will help with your sex drive. Hope that helps!

from realsnoopy :

I understand. The thing is, if you don't do something to make yourself feel better you won't get out of your funk. This usually happens to me when I neglect myself. You know, no makeup on, hair ect.. you are beautiful. It is in your mind. Maybe being emotionally unhappy has made everything seem bad. I understand you. *smooch*

from x-plicity :

You are NOT an OGRE!! You are latina! Therefore automatically one of the sexiest women on earth!! It's all in the mind. Love yourself and enjoy your newly waxed upper lip!! *hugs* X

from lettynow :

hey there. hope you are doing well just trying to catch up!!

from ingridwrites :

((hugs))

from whystinger :

Yeah, tell us about Booty Juice. You never answered my last email, so did you get it???

from cera-jeanne :

Hope your week gets better...:)

from x-plicity :

Ok...so why do you call her BootyJuice? I HAVE to know. LOL

from realsnoopy :

I know sweets, sometimes the just can't stand a WHOLE weekend getting along!

from x-plicity :

If you need any help raising money, just let me know. Praying for you!! *hugs* X

from adam-selene :

yeah the finger-prink does hurt worse!! i don't even feel it when they put the needle in my arm anymore!

from x-plicity :

I bet you were amazing. *hugs*

from realsnoopy :

ooooh! I would be hot!! Do you see the child?

from whystinger :

I can't find my profile and look at the picture without signing in. I don't know why. I can't pull the pic out and email it and it was on my old hard drive which crashed. I know I can put it on IM (Yahoo)when I am messaging, but don't know if you IM and right now, till I get me own pc b ack, I am off IM/// Frustrating/

from whystinger :

Damn, I left you a comment but it wouldn't take. Yeah, I have felt like that. Did the email work, or do I need to try again?

from cera-jeanne :

I also sometimes feel like beating someone. But I think that if I were to actually do it I would feel bad, I just like to pretend and have the visuals. :)

from realsnoopy :

HAAA!!! I didn't do that on purpose! My subconscience is working overload!

from realsnoopy :

all the time sweetie! I usually end up punching someone with my verbal skills!

from realsnoopy :

I understand. A brand new relationshit is always exciting. The old one looses it's luster and excitement. If you could feel better about you, the rest falls into place. Maybe try some drastic change for yourself to give yourself a big boost. I know the better I feel about me, the better everything else seems to be. Feeling good about me is a constant challenge!

from x-plicity :

*hugs*

from whystinger :

I did say I needed some dirty talking women in my life! Talk dirty to me baby! Thanks for the notes...

from ingridwrites :

Thank you so much for your understanding and support! ((hugs))

from x-plicity :

I wish I could have seen the production! I bet she was fabulous!!!

from realsnoopy :

Where are you?? Anyway, I posted some pics- thought I would let you know.

from whystinger :

Happy Mother's day. We all need a little crazy in our life. I need some crazy dirty talking female in my life!

from realsnoopy :

Happy Mothers Day!

from x-plicity :

Wow...Sassy...

from realsnoopy :

LOL! I thought I was the only one who did that EXACT polish thing!

from realsnoopy :

hahahahah!

from x-plicity :

Thanks for thinking about me!! Love ya, Hon!

from realsnoopy :

I hear ya on the wight loss thing! I feel like a jello-jiggler! GRR!

from fluttrbykiss :

thanks for the *peppy talk*... You make me smile... I knew that was a reason I <3 you... ;o) ((((huggles))))

from realsnoopy :

NO! Save your money! I have some neat jewelry I have sold. I'm under i.love.snoopy I think that's it anyway. I have made some good money but I did get kinda screwed on a few things. I guess that's the chance you take though. What's new with you? I hear ya, broke is not my middle name, it's my first! haha

from cera-jeanne :

No new shoes for tonight unfortunately. :) Have a beer for me. I'm taking cold medicine so no alcohol for me. Hope you have a great weekend!

from realsnoopy :

HAAAAAA! Flat tire! That's a good way to put it!

from cedar-avenue :

wowwwww... looks like i missed quite an entry on the immigration stance.. in my standpoint, if you work hard for what you have... you're all good in my book.. no matter what color you are or country you live in. land is land, and God is the only owner of it all. xoxo

from realsnoopy :

I'm glad your feeling better! It's a new day, and I still love ya!!

from realsnoopy :

Read x's notes before they get erased again. Good lord!

from adam-selene :

I tried... but "someone" in X's notes thinks I'm a dipwad. Whatever :)

from adam-selene :

Hi! My wife talks about you to me sometimes when you have a bad day or she feels something shitty happened to you. I read your diary sometimes when she's reading it. Not sure if you know this but realsnoopy is my wife :)

from realsnoopy :

Sorry for all the notes, I keep having thoughts. I dedicated an entry to you today, just wanted to let you know.

from realsnoopy :

You may not want to listen to me, after all I'm just a Wiccan, honky ass white bitch! "I hope that made you smile a little." *hugs*

from realsnoopy :

PS- You bust your ass everyday! And yes, your Father was a great man! I'm sure someone will be writing you and telling you it doesn't apply to you so you won't be pist off! Bullshit! Your mexican, it applied to you! This may be a diary but lets have a little respect for our "supposed" on-line friends. If you need to name call and say that shit, write it in a private entry! Fuck them! Now I'm mad!

from realsnoopy :

I agree with you sweetie! Please don't let it get to you! That name calling really pisses me off too!

from realsnoopy :

Me too. The end.

from x-plicity :

Thank you so much for your prayers and thoughts. It means so much to me. *hugs* X

from realsnoopy :

Take me with you when you leave. I'm sorry your going through shit too. Take care.

from ingridwrites :

Ah yes, the gov'ment cheese days...I don't remember eating that very fondly. And, yeah, it did last forever!

from realsnoopy :

that was good! have a good day sweetie :)

from hello-pussy :

just a note to let you know the diary has moved. if you want to read its now some-lovin. I divulged too much info to friends too close in drunken stupor one evening, hence the move. xx

from realsnoopy :

ya!

from lettynow :

I'm the same i noticed she was gone from myspace.. than I checked here and she's gone so I emailed her hoepfully she'll email me back. :( I have no idae what is up...

from realsnoopy :

ps,I'm happy you had a good time with hombre- I know you still love him and the feelings are still there. Marriage is a hell of a lot of work!

from realsnoopy :

Thanx! Some times these spoiled brats drive me nuts! Sometimes I wish they could have walked a mile in my shoes as a kid!

from realsnoopy :

That was a beautiful insight to who you are. You had it very hard too. You are a beautiful person. Keep going, I Know you can come up with the other half of your 100!

from whystinger :

I remember asking if I could ask, but I can't for the life of me remember what it was!

from x-plicity :

You need to come visit me one day! We can X the town red! As far as the play, they don't record the shows here. I wish they did, because that would be really nice to have.

from realsnoopy :

OOOOOOH!

from slug123 :

The picture on your layout, is it part of a larger work of art?

from x-plicity :

Ok...reading that made me gross out. *grin*

from realsnoopy :

thanx! Im gagging now! you should have asked him if he wanted fries with that!

from realsnoopy :

ditch that bad self image!!!

from realsnoopy :

Your entry made me crack up!!!!

from realsnoopy :

I am soooooo proud of you girl! It's all very hard work I know. I grew up with alchoholics all around me! Keep it up sweetie! *hugs to ya!*

from realsnoopy :

where do you live that they put the man in jail??? I have problems getting my child support, but I agree with you, what good does that do!

from x-plicity :

Right on, Hita. Now let's see if Hombre will be smart enough to really change his ways. *hugs*

from whystinger :

He would be in the beer can even if you were not there - it is not your fault at all. I hope he wakes up before he loses you. In fact, he may have to lose you before he straightens up... Join a support group. Do a Google or Yahoo search for alcoholism family support groups... try this: http://alcoholism.about.com/od/fam/ it can help and let you know that you are not at fault and are not alone.

from fluttrbykiss :

Man... Have I so been an THAT side of it too... *Go pick out something pretty for yourself...* and then walk away to look at something HE wants to get for HIMSELF!!! GGRrrrrrrr!!! MEN!!!!!! (((hugs)))

from x-plicity :

Happy V-day! *heart* X

from marinka-mp :

I Love ya too. Happy V-day

from realsnoopy :

By the way, you are beautiful inside and out! Some day soon, you WILL have a Valentines Day you DESERVE!

from realsnoopy :

Same to you sweetie!

from x-plicity :

Love Ya!!!!! Happy VD Sux DAY!!!!!

from x-plicity :

I wish I could tell you something that would make this all better. I just remember going through the same shit and wondering if it was ever going to end. The only way it will is if you DECIDE to make a difference for yourself and your family. *hugs* X

from realsnoopy :

oh sweetie, I don't know what to say. Your in so much pain. Give yourself a hug from me.

from realsnoopy :

good luck sweetie!!!

from x-plicity :

So I guy goes into a talent agency....

from whystinger :

Ok, I fixed it... I need to email you a question later...

from realsnoopy :

your forty and hot!! :)

from x-plicity :

Isn't that how it works though? They treat you like shit for long periods of time, but as soon as you get the guts to do something about it they change. Fuckers...*grin*

from marinka-mp :

babe user name ad password is the same

from realsnoopy :

I'm sorry your so sad :(

from lettynow :

your last couple of entries about your husband have made me sad.. I'm sorry.

from darkendlight :

I just wanted to let you know that I look to you as insparation in this world and you and your life gives me strength and courage everytime I read your journal.

from myrealname :

I just wanted to tell you that I really like your new layout... the colors are easy on the eyes. And I love that picture. Cool stuff, man. smooch~~pj

from realsnoopy :

Good lord sweetie!

from whystinger :

I need to get drunk too!!!

from cedar-avenue :

awwwww... amor a todas horas is my FAVORITE piece of his. that was the first one i ever saw and I instantly thought "when did my mom pose for that pic?" haha... the reason i didn't use it for my layout was it didn't suit my writing style... i'm weird that way.. i felt the chismosas of the comadres was far more appropriate for a journal ;)

from marinka-mp :

Hi there sweets! How are you? The answer to your question is, California cops are pre-Madonnas thats why they are hot.

from mzsalcedo :

hi,i just started reading your diary,but for some reason when i link to your older entries it wont let me start from the beginning. and im dying to know how mr.man came in the picture!!

from x-plicity :

Dagh! That's because it wasn't from that movie!!!! LOL No, it was from the Exorcism of Emily rose!! You had to have seen that one!

from cedar-avenue :

sweet merciful jesus, i hated the oompa-loompa song when i was little.. it creeped the hell out of me... (ok actually it still does) i think in order for me to get my ass up to workout I'd need one of the original oompa loompas chasing after me....

from fluttrbykiss :

You are so silly sometimes... You make me smile. :o)

from realsnoopy :

I love the template!

from whystinger :

Thanks for the cool note. I will have to read and check you out when I get back...

from marinka-mp :

Hey Sunshine! I hope all is well with you. I get the feeling that you live in LA. DO you? Am I right? If you do, I have the perfect thing for you and your baby. EMAIL me!

from cedar-avenue :

thats quite a situation chica :( I'm sorry times are so difficult right now. Previously you've posted that you want to do better things for yourself.. to feel like a real woman again.. you deserve to feel appreciation and be respect.. just make sure you can appreciate and respect yourself before you jump in or out of any situation... (son mis dos centavitos) i only say this because i'm in a situation myself where I can somewhat relate... lately i have butterflies going crazy from my chest into my stomach... sometimes theyre good butterflies.. othertimes they're worried butterflies..and yet other times they're rambling butterflies that leave long ass notes on peoples diaries... just be strong and keep venting whenever you need to, it helps :)

from x-plicity :

*hugs* Miss ya!

from cedar-avenue :

and a happy new year too you as well! hope you rang in it with joy.... if not, take this weekend and re-ring it cuz you deserve it :)

from realsnoopy :

You as well chickie!!

from realsnoopy :

I saw a pic of you, your HOT!

from marinka-mp :

Hi Sweety, email me at [email protected]

from realsnoopy :

I HATE that song! Now I must go slit my wrists!!!

from x-plicity :

I'm going to tell you what my momma told me, "Go find a good nice white boy, hita. They treat women better."

from x-plicity :

Miss you!!!

from realsnoopy :

AWWWW! Your a sweet mommy. *hugs*

from realsnoopy :

You go girl!

from realsnoopy :

oh sweetie! I'm so sorry! What a fucker!! That money is going to be even harder to come up with right before the Holidays! *hugs*

from fluttrbykiss :

No problem, girl... (((Huuggsss)))

from fluttrbykiss :

Go to the left hand side of my layout and click on Photo album... It will take you to my photobucket site... From there click on family and all the pics will be there... If you still have probs let me know... {{{Huuggss}}}

from lonelylatina :

11/04/05 - that would be a great ringtone for christmas time. the song that i really liked in the movie was "all i want for christmas is you" loved it =D take care girl and have a great weekend.

from fluttrbykiss :

Hey... Have you tried to look at the pics again?? If you can't get them on the page, they are in the Flicr badge... I still need to add my link for Photobucket.. I think... lol... After I do that you can follow the link on the side that says photo albumn and they will be there too... :o)

from jimmysworld :

You could chop off your head. Just a thought. But in a nice way.

from fluttrbykiss :

Your welcome... You're hangin in like I am... By a nosehair... But... At least we are hangin in at all... Right?? (((Huuggss))) :o)

from lettynow :

Feeling narcicistic so I checked to see if any one had added me, cause I'm a dork Like that! Thanks.. Keep me here cause My ego's bruised really easily!

from realsnoopy :

Good for you! :)

from endthelies :

Hey, I think that was a brilliant comeback.

from bunny828 :

LOL! You do have all the luck don't you? And I thought your comment was funny. When I was around 16 I was riding my 10 speed down the street and somehow ended up between a parked car and a car driving by (meaning I couldn't get away). The guy in the passenger side slapped my butt with his hand. That was bad, but I figured that was it until I got to my friend's house and they were laughing so hard that they couldn't tell me what was wrong with my pants. Here I had a grease hand print on my butt. Nice.

from lovemyfriend :

Congrats on the nomination .. and don't worry about the others, at least you were able to laugh at yourself right .. I do that to .. take care and let us know how things go ;)

from marinka-mp :

That was funny. Thank you

from grt8f84me :

Hey, Big-Up's to my ride or die chicks, RealSnoopy and X-plicity. I love you guys...you always make my day! And I want everyone to know this! heh-heh!

from realsnoopy :

Hombre needs a swift kick in the ass! I saw a pic of you, your a knock-out! It would take five minutes to replace him. Not to mention your strong and intelligent! I don't want to sound like I'm judging you, god knows I have my own problems. I do think you can do so much better for yourself! Take care sweetie!

from x-plicity :

Does Hombre have a job? Is he planning on helping out on the house payments? Do you have a way to sneak money away from him? Maybe you should let him know that if he doesn't help you're kicking him out and finding a roommate. Can you tell you're entry made me 10 types of pissy? Hombre reminds me so much of Vince and his family...I just want to...and...break...stuff...ARGH!

from realsnoopy :

Good luck chickie!

from x-plicity :

That's beautiful!

from realsnoopy :

Your beautiful DIANA! *wink*

from imissuamanda :

.. its just me my friend (summersands) .. bored at my office.

from x-plicity :

My heart aches for you, sweetie. I'm going to tell you something that my mom once told me about Vince before we were married. We had a huge fight and another guy had vied for my attention. I told my mom how tempting it was and she said, "Hita, You aren't married." Maybe advice from someone else's mom might help you out. *hugs* X

from realsnoopy :

You need to write a book! You have a great talent at writing! You are both serious and funny. You pull them both off so well! *hugs*

from noaddedme :

I was trying to read your archives & all your entries before Nov. 15, 2004 are the same :( Just wanted to let you know!

from realsnoopy :

WTF is he gona do with your wax remover??? LOL!

from realsnoopy :

You never let me down for a good laugh! *hugs*

from x-plicity :

Maybe you'll find that all of those feelings will occur but in you. Maybe you'll find that you ARE better without the battles and the drinking. Change is scary but sometimes it's necessary. Then again, Hombre may come back as a completely different man, for the better. *hugs* X

from realsnoopy :

hahahahah...sorry :)

from x-plicity :

You so had me rolling on this last entry. LOL

from realsnoopy :

Congrats!

from realsnoopy :

Good for you! I'm happy for you!

from x-plicity :

Well Congrats on you're car. It's good that you aren't going to share the car with Hombre. *shakes head* I am restraining myself from using foul language. *hugs*

from realsnoopy :

Good luck!

from razor-vixen :

Ahha....I understand now! Thanks.

from realsnoopy :

Ok, that was just wierd!

from x-plicity :

Too Funny...

from realsnoopy :

Your so sweet! Loved your survey!

from nerimon :

I'm gonna use your survey in my diary, ya said to let yah know if anybody did so ^^

from missy-17 :

hey, how ya doin,. me i am fine, just wanted to say hi

from x-plicity :

You have a great weekend too...Snoop Grt. That sucked. I know. X-out. yo...um...yeah.

from realsnoopy :

Have a good weekend sweets!

from chimerical-- :

Why do you hate skinny women? thats wrong. You should embrace all body types, we are all beautiful.

from x-plicity :

No problem. Ask away.

from x-plicity :

Oh, Sweetie, I wouldn't use a derogatory word about a race unless I belonged to it. Although I do call Mike a cracker once in a while. LOL. Soy orgulloso de mi herencia. no se preocupe. Esta bien? Yeah...I still suck at spanish though...

from realsnoopy :

I love your template!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

from cedar-avenue :

oh nena, thats some strength you have there.. I dont know what I would have done in that situation... either he'd get taken away by paramedics or I'd get taken away by cops.... prayers out to you and the little ones.

from x-plicity :

Wow...Hombre reminds me of my soon to be ex-huband.

from my-solitaire :

It didn't show my comment!!! Well this is what it said: Just try and remember: he's a man, and men do lots of stupid stuff =o)(that's supposed to be a comfoting comment, but I just read it and saw that it can be taken completley out of context.)

from jimmysworld :

Still Reading? Yes.

from cedar-avenue :

ah, you must be from a part of mexico where they pronounce the "k"s with a good fluidity... i'm jealous... even though I can pronounce it too... K! K! K!.. see?? oh damn.. i think i just figured out why my family refuses to pronounce the K... hehe

from darcy-farrow :

I found that diary, too! I have missed tha last couple of Big Brothers. Hopefully I can catch-up tonight! Meet you there! ;)

from summersands :

Big Brother 6 was OFF THE HOOK tonight!

from summersands :

I'm a Big Brother 6 nut as well .. can't get enough of it!

from g-o-t-h-i-c :

Love your diary! and your layout...really cool! ^_^

from cedar-avenue :

it used to be i'd click on banners and my luck would be a teenage flowerpower dreamer with wishes of rainbows, and pots of gold... that or just washed up dlanders in dark corners with their laptops with wishes of pots of pot.. i swore i'd never click another banner-- but being of the same compulsive mannered type, i clicked into yours and found myself amused. i believe i have another favorite to add to my collection

from tattodcherry :

I love my addictions, they make me such a dork!

from rotted :

ah... got it now. no i try not to watch that damn show. it's just so stupid... i don't get it. i guess i'm too old for that shit now or something... hahahah...

from darcy-farrow :

I have a Mr. Man, too. I run into him on a regular basis. I know how you feel. I am in a great marriage now, and I still can feel the pull. I can only imagine how hard it must be for you. Stay strong sister! xoxox

from whiskeygirl9 :

I'm glad to offer my help. I do understand what you mean about problems and issues just building up inside and around you. Nothing seems to be going your way and you feel like there isn't anything you can to change it. You are not alone and you do have the ability and strength to change your life. First you have to recognize what is wrong and identify what is causing the problem. Sometimes it's extremely hard and it's not gonna be fun. But denial will get you no where but deeper into a place where you don't want to be. I know that from personal experience. Be strong and accept your mistakes, take responsibility and own your actions. That is the only way your life will get better. Sometimes you have to do some spring cleaning and get rid of things that pull you down. Give ultimatiums. Make hard choices and stick with them. I believe that sometimes life does get us down, but only we can make the choice to bring ourselves out of the deep water. No one is gonna help you unless you choose to help yourself. "What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."

from whiskeygirl9 :

I am a friend of idunnone1 and I interpret dreams. She gave me a little background about Hombre and Mr. Man. Some times dreams don't mean anything at all, just a bunch of jumbled mixed up thoughts. But other times it's as plain as the nose on your face. You kind of have to break down what each thing means to you. Sometimes it's not the action in the dream, it's what that person or specific things means to you. Just from reading your last entry I'm getting that you feel guilty about Mr. Man...that you are still in contact with him. It's obvious that your afraid Hombre will find out and go balistic. As for the 2nd dream, you are transfering your guilty feelings over to him, which makes you the victim of him cheating on you. You are making him the bad guy and you the innocent bystander. If you want to anaylze more in depth, just break everything down like I said before. Don't look at the dream in it's entirety. Seperate it into blocks, like a comic strip. I hope this has helped a little. If you have any questions feel free to contact me.

from sunny2005 :

yup i like getting a bunch of the trial size stuff - and still end up spending 40$$$$!!!

from darcy-farrow :

You read my mind! I think our remotes must be psychically connected. Oc just told me about a new show on MTV called 70's house. I can't wait to watch it!

from sunny2005 :

ooohhhhhhhh bridges of madison county and like water for chocolate - mhm yes good flicks. i remember seeing the latter in the theater and almost walking out when we realized it was subtitled. glad we didnt!!! and streep and eastwood glorifying adultery? dont think i could do it but they sure made it look like fun!

from sunny2005 :

find me on dland chat most evenings and i'll give you the secret password ..... 'the password is .....' or i'll see if your email here works. i can read 'the adventures of hombre' and you can read my boring life and 'fun filled nites shopping at sally's beauty supply' aint life grand??? :)

from ingridwrites :

Thanks ;)

from sunny2005 :

'a jehovahs witness .... a jehovahs witness' oh my girl you are a riot!!!!!

from darcy-farrow :

Thanks! I may have to take you up on that! I think prayer is GREAT! I just think it should be personal, you know? Love to read you . . . xoxox

from sunny2005 :

oooh your diary is fun to read - i will add you so i just have to click the link to read - fun fun and keep up the good work

from darkenedhell :

hey its me again..i love that trick you played on your neices. lmao thats pure evil i love it!! man wish i could of came up with that when me and my sisters were little! --KiTTy

from espagnola71 :

Gracias por a�adirme a tu lista de favoritos. Y suerte con el "reaprendizaje" del espa�ol ;-)

from voodoochick :

I love your artwork!

from morbidalily :

Miss grt8f84me: I would love to fill out your survey but I can't seem to find it. If you could point me in the right direction of where I could find it, I would be more than happy to fill it out. Sincerely, Morbidalily @>----

from darcy-farrow :

I would, but I can't get into any of the surveys. :(

from darcy-farrow :

There is no way you believe that you are seeing your situation in a less-than-real light! That must be Flo speaking. You are more aware and in touch with reality than most women in your situation. Use your strength, and do what is right for you. Of course you are not alone xoxo

from darcy-farrow :

you are silly today!! XOXO

from darcy-farrow :

Good for you! I am so glad you finally told hombre how you felt. I always say you can't get what you need unless you are willing to ask for it. Keep strong xoxoxo

from beckybaggins :

Cool! Can I email you? I tried to be good last week but we ordered out a lot over the weekend (my excuse is that it was too hot to cook). Found my Weight Watchers stuff this morning and am starting today!

from beckybaggins :

Good luck w/ Body for Life! I'm starting Weight Watchers, and have the same problem with motivation. Wanna buddy up to try to keep each other motivated?! :-) And congratulations to your son! My nephew graduated just last weekend, and he had to be pushed to finish high school as well. If it means anything coming from a relative stranger, I think you did the right thing encouraging him to focus on school. Have a wonderful time this weekend!

from minnapop :

I love the picture you have on you page. Reminds me of one a very good friend drew for me once...Only he said it was what he thought I looked like on the inside...So I don't know if I was flattered or not...*shrug*

from beckybaggins :

Thanks for your note! Well, I don�t know if I�d say you�re cracking up. Well, okay, maybe a little! ;-) Seriously though, after reading only 2 months worth of your entries (I know I�ve got a lot of catching up to do!), I think you�re a very strong woman who deserves much better in a relationship. Were I in your shoes, though, I know I�d be dealing with everything pretty much the same way you are. I know you have the strength to do what you know you have to again. *hugs* :-)

from sushibar :

Dear grt8f84me, I just happened to clicked your banner and have been reading your diary for like an hour!(cuz I have nothing better to do sadly ;_;) anyway, all i want to say is that you really deserve to be treated better. I know that there are things that no one other than yourself would understand and we are total strangers and all, but I want to sincerely wish that everything will work out the way you want it one day! ^-^

from beckybaggins :

Clicked on your banner earlier this evening and have been reading you all night. Wanted to say hello. :-)

from darcy-farrow :

Thinking of you (((((waving)))))!!

from darkenedhell :

hey just passing by and i love the pic on your diary. lol i'm pretty!! thats so cool. talk to ya laters! --KiTTy

from darcy-farrow :

OMG! You cracked me up!! Thanks for the shout out.

from darcy-farrow :

Congrats on the new john! I hope you can find your way through. You are too valuable to be treated like this! Hang in there, XOXO

from hannahlore :

Always remember that duct tape can fix anything. -Seshat Starr

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