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You're asking some very intriguing questions here. I'm still a little "manic" (if you caught my earlier WordPress posts -- and here too, I guess -- having been triggered by a nasty email from my sister recently. But I'm starting to calm, and once I can calm to the point of better focus, I would like to peruse this journal further. Great template too.

from notme2000 :

Hey, if you still read my diary the username is "reader" and password is just "password".

from psychik :

I�m very intrigued by your last post, the visual you received and the interpretation of it seem to work well. It is very sad. Much love to your friend who might need it if he�s still �there�. Also, someone mentioned something about numerology, and how some numbers seem to follow us, isn�t that the truth! I have a number that since last year won�t leave me alone, I SEE IT EVERYWHERE!! I read into numerology a little but didn�t get too much out of it. Still, I�m intrigued by this number.

from adarkshadow :

That reminds of me of how I was in my French class the other day and my right ear just stopped hearing (my left ear was just fine) and then it sounded if someone was trying to talk, but they hadn't talked in a veeeery long time and wasn't sure they still could. It lasted only about two seconds before my hearing resumed. I just wish I could have made out what "he" was trying to say to me.

from nepenthean :

god damn diaryland just reposted my note! augh.

from nepenthean :

you might want to explore numerology if you're interested in why you're attracted to certain numbers, such as 1994. it really is a science, and it's just frankly bizarre how certain numbers can follow us around. my numbers, no matter what, are 1, 3, and 9. you might try reading _numerology and the divine triangle_ by faith javane and dusty bunker, or look at the following url for the meanings of individual numbers. by the way, 1994 adds to 5 in numerology, and that is the number of progress! so! wonder no more: http://www.numerology-guide.com/numerology_number_meanings.htm

from nepenthean :

from candoor :

1994 might be called the year of the end of the innocence for me, though it might have lasted more than a year, forwards and back...

from candoor :

yes, here again... you? :)

from angelichate :

lol wow I just found you again, odd huh? I was the first who read this and left a note, which is a nice thought for me really. Still loving your diary, after looking through the past few months, you always have something good to say :)

from keilakeren :

I absolutely enjoyed your last entry, but then again I enjoy everything you have to say. You might not update regularly but when you do it�s always a real treat. 8o)

from candoor :

time again :)

from adarkshadow :

Nice to see you're back.

from funda :

This is a test. (beep) This is a test of the Emergency Valentine's Day System. (EVS) This test is to see if leaving notes around DLand will make this a wonderful day (and weekend) in spite of not particularly being with anyone romantically at the moment. (ummm) May the results be that all this love in my heart found some productive use. (smile) And maybe a giggle or few (Happy V-Day from my other persona too :)

from ginko :

doesnt the mystery drive you crazy? i want to know how yer grampa did it.

from datura93 :

Wow... What a wonderful memory you have of him. Do you feel as if he has passed his gift along to you somehow?

from elektra712 :

u so rock. The Time Machine is my very favorite movie, but is very underappreciated but many who fail to see it's beauty and creativity, making itself different, and as perfect as the original novel. It's very refreshing to see someone else who appreciates this movie's philosophy as much as I do. Laterz!

from rageofmysoul :

I seemed to have found that the evil acts of man based on religion doesn't tend to stem from religious principles, but more the non-believeing leaders that use it to manipulate their people to do those acts. But, who can really know how it all actually works. We live in a world and a time where it's all about proof, and if you don't have that, then it can't be real. So, who knows?

from celtickatt :

That's an awesome dream! Wouldn't that be aweful if that's what hell is like? You'd think of all these wonderful things and come up with great ideas and plans, only to suffer because your chance to make them happen has been stipped away? Ugh. You'd get so fed up after a long time of that that you would desperately want to kill yourself, but you coudn't do that either! There'd be no way out! Man... [shudders] I bet you didn't see Heaven for a good reason though...

from kidofkingdom :

Hey, i have that problem a lot, can't shut the radio in my head off, i find it more annoying than useful though. *.* :)

from celtickatt :

Lol. Well, it WAS 8 years ago and it didn't last long when I heard it. I couldn't figure out if the wind was carrying it from somewhere or what. And it wouldn't have been so bad had my boyfriend at the time been awake to see if he could hear it too. But after that I DID keep the TV on for a while because I didn't really care to try and find out exactly where it was coming from. That house was seriously awesome, but it DID always feel a little off to me.

from celtickatt :

I forgot, there was one time I heard child-like music as I was trying to sleep, probably 8 years ago now. It was weird because none of the neighbors had children, and especially not little ones that would listen to that kind of sound. That freaked me out. Especially because right after that, it sounded like the sliding glass door behind me flung open and a few minutes later, I felt a hand or something in the middle of my back. Shit! Now I'm half freaked again! lol

from celtickatt :

It's amazing how some of the things that used to happen to me, you talk about and then I remember them. Every so often (pretty rare) I hear stuff too. It's more like someone saying something though, but it sounds like I heard it from outsite my head. It always kind of freaked me out.

from funda :

You are intelligence.

from sistercookie :

You ask about intelligence which is one of my favorite things because many people have a brain but don't use it. Intelligence is the ability to take what you have learned and apply it to something else, otherwise you are just repeating. You need to be able to hold two opposing thoughts in your head at the same time according to Mark Twain. You realise Albert Einstein didn't speak till he was 6. Normal is just a setting on the washing machine. I am just an odd duck. I like your diary and your mind. Come visit my mind. I will be reading your diary from now on. See banners do work even on intelligent people because you are speaking directly to your audience. LOL Snarky is a word. My banner is running is says "What a weirdo. She is a computer geek, painter and a drummer." Cheers.

from wolfgirl88 :

I think about that all the time.

from celtickatt :

Awww! I just noticed you added that Calvin & Hobbes entry to your faves! Thanks! I plan on adding plenty more cause I'm in love with a trillion quotes of their's!

from wolfgirl88 :

I had a similar experience before 9/11. I was using a Ouija board with 2 of my friends and it alerted us to the numbera 747 and 752 or something like that. It said planes would bomb something. That was a week before the 11th. Yep. I believe in dreams like yours; I've had them before.

from qtkt2992 :

that dream thing spooks me out a bit because i had a dream that Turkey (of all places...) bombed my school. I know what you mean about THAT FEELING

from akv05 :

I clicked on your banner thingy and the picture on your page was so disturbing that I couldn't read about your dream b/c I kept thinking someone was behind me. That's so awesome.

from ginko :

lets do the time warp yeaaaaa.... yea u definately make me think way too much. in a good way though. if thats possible.

from celtickatt :

That was in that Sagan link you gave a bit back, yeah? I thought all of that was interesting. I'm not the most fimiliar with his stuff, but what I have read is quite interesting- thought provoking to say the least. As far as your ad goes, that's funny as shit! Even if they could do that, I don't think a recorder would work though. Because if you killed your grandfather- thus killing yourself (if that's what happens) then essentially you would have never "gone back" to that time to have record it. I guess if it worked out though it would be cool. (Ye know- with the exception of seeing your grandfather's murder!)

from qtkt2992 :

wow. These are really ineresting stories. I take it u beleive in paranormal, me to. ;)

from lmno :

Very intense , and intresting story.

from osirisbed :

if you check out the message board at www.westgatenecromantic.com, you can read about similar experiences--i hope this comforts you! sounds like you had a special experience...

from banefulvenus :

woah, I clicked on your banner and the site was great...

from kidofkingdom :

Again, I believe you had a real contact, keep up with those memories, and yeah, i bet laughing was induced because you werent supposed to tell, adults never believe us anyway.

from kidofkingdom :

Well, I believe that all things created and uncreated come from god, and that the potential of a human being is that of God's, because, we are created in the image of God, meaning if we believe, we can do just what jesus can do and more, Jesus said. But what I mean by PERSONAL POWER ( no yelling intended), is what you have gathered into your consciousness on your way through, and personal power grows, by understanding the limitless infinity, and whatever experiences you have gained knowledge and personal power from, such for a mundane example, after you have married an abusive person, when you come out of that "bad dream" (as it really just is) you have personal power with the knowledge of how to escape abusive marriages, if you are a Warrior, that is, and use everything in your life as a challenge and a lesson to be learned, you may gain personal power in that same way, but as I have said, I know that all things come of God, and I would have it no other way, because on my own, i really dont know whats best for me, only God does. So I want God to guide my life in every facet. I hope that gives you some idea of whether our pathway is similar or not.

from kidofkingdom :

God isnt "intangible" to me, I have a working relationship with Him. And I have to disagree about that. Me on my own , a very stupid being I assure you, is no good without my Father. He says the smart things because I allow Him to. I want my will to be His. My words to be His. So in this, I let HIm take control of my life, and I am utterly happy with it.

from sjk :

you make me think. that's why i read your diary.that entry about the eighteen wheeler wasn't too disturbing. : )

from night-fall :

I read your haunting tale about the 18 wheeler..very facinating=).

from kidofkingdom :

Hey, I have a new entry, worthy of being checked out.

from kidofkingdom :

hey, thanks for writing me back, yeah, I don't rightly know particularly what to think about this, we are made in the image of god, which means we are creators as well, and he said that we continually create from the evil of our hearts. What I dont know about is that, he has control over things like that, so he either let it happen for a reason, OR you were picking up on subliminal thoughts of the accident that was to happen. Like I said, I dont know everything, God does. So I dont know, but hey, at least now you know to check your thoughts least the evil therein happens to you or others. I have to do the same, or I might get raped a lot, lol.

from kidofkingdom :

Hey! You know what, that is about personal power and gifts from god, he says to live it one day at a time, i dont think you should give your pearls to future generations, those are your gifts, doll, take them and ask for more!

from kidofkingdom :

Wow! I forgot all about Carl Sagan, he really was a whipsmart guy. I'll check those reports out later. :)

from celtickatt :

"For one thing, history would become an experimental science..." That's a crazy factor to think of- all around. I think everyone would try to change so much that we would be stuck in some sort of obvlion. Example: Country A would try to change being defeated by country B, and country B would be changing it back. Our worlds would be so unstable every second. Actually, at the same time, if history was changed, we wouldn't know any different. Maybe it's already happening? Ugh. So many thoughts spawn from that one idea. Sagan was smart.

from sjk :

wow!

from kidofkingdom :

The nipple thing is hilarious, always wondered about that myself, ladies, unless you want a man with milk, no nibbling!!!

from kidofkingdom :

yeah, i didnt have them on, or something, i keep thinking i have all my notes on but i am always finding one that doesnt work, lol. Yeah, i know, i am struggling with knowing his will for me here, i have no question about the other side. :) I guess thats where we are different, but hey, He says ask and ye shall recieve!!

from dalyrical1 :

I like reading your diary...and you're dream diray is awsome...someone else that dreams of vampires....cool. I hope you don't mind me adding you to my faves so I can come back. Stop by and see me sometime...

from funda :

An astute obsevation, love it, thank you... it shouldn't matter too much that funda's often asexual over-thinking mind is leaking out of a head found at the top of a male body, but just to prevent future misunderstandings (that happen surprisingly often), I thought I should let you know :)

from funda :

life is lucid dreaming, isn't it? (and as the strange looks turn in my direction I wonder - oh no, is it time to wake up?)

from kidofkingdom :

Right on, keep on keeping on.

from kidofkingdom :

great diary, i like the way you think, but seriously, god has things under control.!

from ghanima :

A very interesting diary, I must say. I hope you continue, philosophy saves what soul there is. Come and see me anytime.

from erasefate :

very, very cool.

from advice4u11 :

O my gosh! You have the best diary I've ever read. Sorry if I sound so shallow, but you write things that I've been thinking about often. Keep writing!

from hot-crumpets :

I also get those voices floating through my mind as I lay about to sleep, but I feel as though mine are snatches of thoughts from the living, not from the dead. It's something i'd like to explore further one day.

from celtickatt :

Wow. You're off to an incredibly awesome start! Sometimes I have flashes after I close my eyes to sleep. Sometimes they are nothing more than a black nothing coming towards my face and they startle me- Much like an unexpected bug hitting your windshield while driving at night. And sometimes (rarer than the nothings) I have somewhat gruesome images of random people. Say, a lady I've no idea who she is and but her face is somewhat mangled looking. Thank God that doesn't happen often! Those images are harder to rid of. I've no idea why I get them and wonder a lot about why I have the nothings. They sometimes get annoying. I sound crazy now! :p

from celtickatt :

Ohhhhh! I likee! You know you have 3 index buttons though? The "can't alter your past" "can't escape your destiny" and the "present." (Which, by the way, I really like the alter your past and escape your destiny bit!) Anywho, I really like that idea. Seriously. I've thought of making some sort of journal like that but I'd have another one that I wouldn't write all that much in! Sometimes it's weird and I'm too lazy to put thoughts like that in my diary. Mostly just lazy though! Can't wait to read more! Luvs!

from angelichate :

lol I was just looking on the members area link, it shows all of the recently updated diaries and stumbled across yours because i thought the name was interesting.

from hot-crumpets :

I know I am going to enjoy reading this :)

from angelichate :

You're very welcome, and I'm looking forward to you writing many entries too. I love reading diaries. Thank you for those two links I shall try and check them out as soon as I can ...I was thinking of setting up a dream diary myself lol. Again you're very welcome :) You may have yourself a first fan lol.

from angelichate :

Hey, I know you have just started your diary and its quite an honour to be writing the first note because that entry, the Welcome entry - that is just amazingly written. I don't normally say this about a writer from just one entry, but I hope you carry on because from what I have seen...you have true talent. Plus yay David Bowie rules.

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