messages to x-razor-x:
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| from razornotes00 : |
| gimmie the password mannn |
| from pamperedpuma : |
| Awww...I've forgotten the password for this one too! You've been gone WAY too long girl! Good to have you back ;) Cxx |
| from ethereal-red : |
| Ah, I see. Well, I hope Hayley doesn't get back together with Taylor again, either. Especially since you love her so much and Taylor's a slut. If Hayley loves you as much as she says she does, you guys will be just fine. Even if you can't get married or have a civil union, you could have some kind of private committment ceremony. Just an idea. |
| from ethereal-red : |
| What's with your entry? What's going on? |
| from razornotes00 : |
| You have gone so many days in a row now, that you haven't binged and or purged...even though you wanted to. I am so proud of you. You are doing so well.. B/ping is just a reaction, just a tempoary solution to the circumstanses in your life. It's not real, and it doesn't work. It's not the be-all-and-end-all to how you have to deal with things or how you have to live your life. You keep doing it because it's what you know. You have to learn..teach yourself, something new. something that doesn't harm yourself. g2g |
| from ethereal-red : |
| Hey, I'm proud of you for not b/p-ing or cutting. Smoking is bad for you, yes, but it's not so mentally dangerous like the other two! And I am so sorry Linda's being a total bitch about the money. You need that money. |
| from ethereal-red : |
| Even though Nikki IS a voice in your head, I think it's great that she's there since she is so comforting and loving. |
| from ethereal-red : |
| I wish I could fix your family for you. I really do. It makes me sad that they're so fucked up. |
| from xeison : |
| Hey, im gong to email you back, do you have time to talk through that? |
| from xeison : |
| May i ask what this discovery was? Is everything ok? |
| from xeison : |
| im sorry that Jayna has been causing problems, what exactly did she do, may i ask? |
| from xeison : |
| im glad that you do. im sorry. i love you too. |
| from xeison : |
| "But when I'm remember it, I'll be happy. Because from now on there will be great things to more than make up for the bad. I made it through that shit and now it's time for me to be happy, because I deserve it...Keep trying to bring me down. It won't fucking work." That is what makes you amazing, and im glad you realize it at least logically. You have been getting really far despite all the odds. i wasnt wrong in saying that you are strong. You keep working and you are going to get things that are more than good enough to make up for the bad. i love you. |
| from ethereal-red : |
| You're right. You DO deserve happiness! |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Are you talking about me? I'm sorry, D. I'm trying, I really am... You have to remember though, I'm fucked up in the head, in more ways than one... |
| from xeison : |
| i disagree with you, i think that what you say does matter. You have really good ideas and you say important things, and even if you didnt, what you say would still matter, because you matter. The things you say do have an impact on things and thus they do matter. |
| from xeison : |
| If i didnt, i would be lieing to you. id be letting you believe what is not true. You think i am something that im not. i dont know how to prove that to you because you just refuse to see it even though all the proof is there. |
| from xeison : |
| Its not the same, i had ample warning, i just failed. i was just stupid. i just didnt react fast enough. |
| from thatgirlx : |
| What about me, you assie! |
| from xeison : |
| You know though, you are strong enough to get it back. You guys can get it back. You are going to be graduating soon and that opens the door for a new life for you. That aside though, you can make it, and i think at least that you will. i have faith in you, i hope you will some day too. |
| from xeison : |
| im sorry that you dont still have it. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| believe in what? what don't you want to believe in? |
| from razornotes00 : |
| pppffft yeah ok if u think so |
| from xxsorrowxx : |
| You're not alone.I'm here... |
| from razornotes00 : |
| No, you shouldn't. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| it's not power, and it's not weakness. it's neither. so what's the point in doing it Danielle. none. |
| from xeison : |
| im glad you changed your mind about the Monday entry, i was going to talk to you about it, but it seems you have already thought about it. Thank you so much for changing your mind. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| dude what is going on in your life? you're spozed to write that in ur diary lol. come on man, what's happening? are you eating? are you hurting urself? are you goign to school? you never say anything about who you are staying with.. what's going on dano? I love you sso much dude |
| from razornotes00 : |
| No, no you won't be a disaster. You'll be happy and eat healthy, and you'll rub that in her face. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Your dream sounds really scary. It would be a good video clip. Try not to let it concern you too much. Usually when you have to realy really search for meaning in a dream, it doesn't mean much. I know that this dream means something to you, but that you can't quite put your finger on it, huh? Maybe you just have to wait until you dream again. Sometimes dreams come in sections, ya know? :) I'm sure you'll find out what it means soon. Have you seen Hide and Seek? |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I am sorry that you don't have much money at the moment. I feel really sad hearing that :[ I don't know how expensive ciggarettes are in America, but they're really expensive here. Like $30 a packet, and people smoke about 2 or 3 a day. So maybe if you can cut down on them, or stop all together, then that will give you some extra money to use for whatever you need to survive. I know it sounds daft, but ask around your neighbourhood if someone needs something done, or get a job or something (but with school that may be difficult to handle aswell). I reckomend that you (even though I'm sure you wouldn't think of it) don't steel any money though. Just keep your mind clear and gently focus on finding some money, or a way to help you live better (americans have 'coupons' or something right?). Don't be affraid to ask people if they need something done for money, because ya gotta get out there ya know. I know you can do it :] As for the clothes being too small; I promise you it is all ok. I know you think because your 17 that you have finished puberty, but you haven't. You will not fully develop until your 20 or so. I have always thought that I had finished the whole puberty thing, but I now realise that I am still moving about, finding my shape and all (I am not talking about just growing in height btw). There is no way that you should feel bad for the size you are. Every person in the world lives their life being fat, medioka, skinny, fat, skinny, medioka blah blah blah. It's all a part of life and it's ok :] I have felt like the way you do before. Like (can't remember if it was this year or last..OH! itwas last year) last year I like, ballooned up sorta and my 8 and 10's wouldn't fit me, or they were a little tight to look good on me, so that made me stop going outside and I wore all my mums clothes (..even her undies) and I wore my brothers shoes and stuff. Even though it was all stupid lokking on me and I must have looked like I was from the RSPCA, I just felt so embarresd about my fat (mostly because i was with Aaron at that point and yeah..) and even more embarresed to ask for clothes, but it was a little different, we had enough money for clothes, but you know how i am with money.. It's gonna be ok. Tell me what size you are and I will see if I have any spare clothes or anything else you need, ok? ok :] I love you! oh, and about the family counselling, I think it's a good idea, but i don't know how well your mu will cooperate, ya know. but it is worth a try. 2-3 times a week will make it hard at first, but ok in the end i think. anyway, mum's calling me and i gotta finish getting ready/dresssed. I love you so much! |
| from ethereal-red : |
| Hey... you deserve love. I firmly believe that. |
| from x-dead-x : |
| I love you more!! lol. I misses you! I'm back today! |
| from thatgirlx : |
| I LOVE YOU. |
| from xxsorrowxx : |
| Ooh!The spikiness of my hair is awesomelicious!Do you think so?Yes you do.I know it.I wants to kiss you right now.But I can't.It's because you're there and I'm here and the camera will catch me if I do that.*makes kissy face*You know you like me being a dork.You do.Ahhh!!!!!!!I totally want to win a million dollars playing Monopoly.I better.If I don't I'ma be pissed at the Mickey D's people.Damn Mickey D's....I'ma go for now.I love you. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Nice layout dude :] Now look, I completely understand how you feel Danielle. I know what it's liek not to know how to deal with anything. But the promise I made ages ago to you, still stands; Everything will be ok. Yep yep :] Whe nI said that, things were really bad, then they got better, right? Yep. And now they're bad again. You have got to understand that you are not made to fix everyone. Fixing people makes everythign worse, not only for you, but for them too. Only they can help themselves. I said the same thing to HAley the other day too. You can talk to them and make them feel happy, but you can't fix them. You know, you do not have to 'deal' with anything Danielle. Everything will come to place soon. Dealing with everything....??? .............The type of 'deal' you want is an over night fix to hating yourself, right? (and other stuff) You can do that, you know. You really have th power to look at yourself and decide who you are. Yuo can be a different person every single day! You get to create who you are. You can't let the past stop you from making yourself. Every single thing in the past is in the PAST!! It's not happening right now, so it doesn't matter. It is the past that is making you hate yourself, so if you can give up everythign from the past, then you'rte free to be whatever. Each time you hear yourself say that you hate you, you'll notice that it is the past coming back, right? Sometimes its the future that makes you hate yourself too. Shit! I have to go now. My brother has given me 2 seconds notice to get ready to go out. fucking faggot! >.< I hope you will be ok while I'm gone. I love you so much. It is ok that you b/p. Yuo do not have to feel guilty about it now, just make tomorrow different, ok? :] I love you so much. You're a beautiful person.. <3 |
| from x-dead-x : |
| I LOVE YOU! |
| from x-dead-x : |
| I know I know. Joey is a douche and he deserves to be kicked in the balls again. Haha Friday afternoon an itty bitty kid kicked him really hard in the balls and he fell down crying and i laughed. So he dead legged me and I fell down crying too. So the 2 older kids were laying in the floor holding various body parts crying while the little kids ran around laughing and saying "haha! cat and joey are pansies! hahaheeheehahahahaha!" twas funny, yet painful. lol. I think we might come over to your house this afternoon if you're feeling better. |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Awwwwwwww.... don't worry so much goofy girl!! I'll be FINE!!!!!!!! Okay? OKAY! I'm not gonna kill myself, I promise. If I ever get the urge, like real bad, I'll come and I'll find you and I'll just hug you real tight so I can't do anything to harm myself, okay? I LOVE YOU!!!! And I'm gonna get help as soon as Linda decides to get her lazy ass in gear and make me an appointment. ♥ |
| from ethereal-red : |
| Thanks for your support. :) And, I know, I was a very naughty girl. :P |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Link? tar bro :] <3 |
| from razornotes00 : |
| That's not true. Sometimes we have to leave the people we love. Thankyou for concidering how I'd feel about you drinking. I realise that it's your life, so I can't make you stop, so go ahead. I was just worried and all. I am not scared of Angel, I don't even fucking know her! And it is BEACUSE I don't know her, that I have to be weary of he seeing it,ok? But I don't care now, you can leave it up :] Yes, I do remember that you do not believe in God. (But he is real btw lol :P) |
| from enurta : |
| sweetie...you are beautiful, kind and special! Don't forget that. A lot of people love you, including ME! And I haven't even met you...you affect *me* and we don't even know each other in real life. I would feel like shit and try to kill myself if something would happen to you. that's how much I care. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| :S that confused me. When you're on next (which is now..) go read over that entry, ok? But if I can break it down, you're saying that people are FRIENDS with YOU because you're WORTHLESS and FAT? and there's no COMPETITION in that? Well, let me tell you something for nothing!!! People are not friends with you because of that, they're friends with you because you are so caring, funnier than Chirs Rock, you're smart and you are easy to get along with. The icing on the cake is that you're very beautiful, and not fat. The whole world doesn't base who they want their friends with because of what they look like, and you know that. Do you base your friends on what they look like? (no! coz u got me!!! lol). You honestly shouldn;t worry about how people think you look, because when you do, it doesn't make you happy, does it? No. Yuo are you, you were born how you are, and that's all there is to it. God made everyone perfect. Just because people associate perfect things with porcaline and shit like that, doesn't mean it's true. God made us perfect in HIS view of what perfect it, so accept it and work with yourself, not around yourself. Ya know what I mean? Just take one day at a time Danielle (if I ever have to say that again,and you don't do it like you have not been doing, I will dis-own you!) Ok. I love you so much! |
| from xxsorrowxx : |
| I LOVE YOU!!!!! See.Someone finally left you a note on here.And i don't have anything to really talk about so I'm just going to put random shit on here.Is that ok?I don't care if it is because I'ma do it anyway.Dude...you keep hitting on me.YOU LESBO!!!J/k.I love you!!!*hugs* You're a very mean person, ya know that?That's quite possibly why I love you so much.♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ |
| from ethereal-red : |
| It's funny- your kitties look JUST like my parents' cats!!! They're so cute! And do is Aida! |
| from x-dead-x : |
| ONLY POSERS DIE BOB! |
| from x-razor-x : |
| FINE THEN. NOBODY TALK TO ME. I DON'T CARE!.....bitches.... |
| from razornotes00 : |
| If. You. Don't. Reply. To. My Notes. I. Will. Hurt. You. BAD. wtf is going on with you and Angel?????????????!??????????????? Man my feet smell so bad!!!! >.< |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I am sorry if all my shit that I have been writting lately has triggered you to feel this way. I will try my best to cut down on all my negative talk, I promise. Ok, so whenever I say "this will NOT happen again" or some sort of other command to myself, I find that I don't stick to it and everythign turns to shit again. Take it all one day (or one hour..whatever is good for you) at a time. Like seriously, it helps so much. Just take everything really slow and don't think ahead to tomorrow or the day after, the year after etc. Just focus on what is happening right now. You'll find everything is less overwhelming that way. I love you so much Danielle. <3 |
| from pamperedpuma : |
| Don't worry hunny, getting better takes a long time...a very long time. Everything will be OK. I promise =] Cxx |
| from xxsorrowxx : |
| One day I'll find a way to make you feel better. |
| from x-dead-x : |
| because we rock and you know it. |
| from xxsorrowxx : |
| I locked my diary again.The username and p/w are the same as yours on this one. |
| from x-dead-x : |
| i love you more than that freak! tee hee. Just kidding. PLease don't let haley smack me!! |
| from xxsorrowxx : |
| Ha!I'm sitting right next to you! I'm sleepy....I love you more than anything.You make me happier than I've ever been and I would give anything to make you the happiest woman in the world.I can't wait until I'm able to hold you close to me every night.I want to be with you forever.You're my everything and that will never change.I love you, Dani, so so much more than anyone else will ever know. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Well maybe not tomorrow, or thet day after, but things will get better.I love you xxx |
| from xxsorrowxx : |
| I love you.You're amazing.The end. |
| from xeison : |
| Danielle, i know its really hard to fight against your Friend. i know that sometimes it just seems so much easier to relent and just let her do a bit of damage. The thing is, you cant let her do this. Today its just a cut, but what about tommorow? You need to try and fight. You cannot let her gain any ground. You cannot relent. i know that that really sucks, that you can never take a break from fighting her, but it is neccessary to win. You cannot let her win. You are engaged to Haley now, you have a life to work for, you have to fight. We are all here for you on this, but you have to do it. im so sorry that she came back. im sorry that you cut your wrist. Please Danielle, please keep fighting, no matter what anyone around you does. You are worth it. She is wrong, so for a lack of better words, fuck her, she should go to Hell. im so sorry that Angel went off, i think that might be partially my fault, im so sorry. May i ask what she did that you called slutty? You had every right to be upset about her doing coke on Friday. Just because your Mother was there though and did it with Angel doesnt mean you should lose respect for her. She did something really dangerous, but to be honest, she isnt all that different than us is she? She uses drugs for what we use cuts. Your Mother was just irresponcible enough to let Angel do it too because Angel used to do those things and i guess in some sense, your Mother figured that Angel is an adult and makes her own decisions. i dont blame your Mother for that. i wish she hadnt taken that view, but i dont blame her. i understand that you are upset with her, that is fair, but all the same, i think she has been much better than what you described of her before. i think she is trying her best, but she is fallible just like all of us and unfortunatly her mistakes sometimes have high costs. That being said, what she said to you that you quoted in the title. Please tell her this for me, "If you are suggesting that coke is no big deal, than neither is cutting. Cutting has never killed someone the first time they did it, unless they were aiming to kill themselves, while coke has and does kill many people on their first time. It is not something that is no big deal, it is a serious problem." The do care about you though Danielle, and you know this. i know you are upset right now, but just try to remember that ok? im glad that you are thinking about yourself right now, that is what you should be doing. It does matter Danielle that you are being put through this again. This shouldnt be happening, but it did, all we can do know is work with what we got and try to repair the damage. Youve won before, and you can win again. i have faith in you and i hope that you do too. YOu need to remember though, you are worth fighting for. You, your feelings, and the things in your beautiful, amazing, and kind head do matter. i understand that the urge to just throw it all away sometimes seems really strong, but your life is worth fighting for. Dont throw it aside. You are worth fighting for. i hope you will see that. i love you *HUGS*. |
| from xeison : |
| im glad that you feel better now. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Talking over the phone won't solve anything. I sent you some messages, ok? Ok. I am really happy that things are working out for you now :] I am proud of you and ANGEL (yes, I did notice that) for creating all that you have :] I am sorry I couldn't come. If I had the MONEY. I totaly would have. I wouldn't have cared about naything else. But I don't have the money and I am only 15. How am I spozed to make my way to America? I don't even know where it is on the map, or how to spell Tenesee. One day I will have enough money to come over though, and I will stay a long time. I am proud of y6ou for everything you've done. I am really happy for you :] seriously. I love you. |
| from enurta : |
| Oh!! DOGMA!!! I love dogma!!! But only because Jay and silent bob are in the movie...hehe have you seen clerks 1 and 2? Or mallrats?? I really love jay and silent bob! |
| from xeison : |
| i do hurt you guys, i made Angel think that she is useless because she couldnt answer this one thing i asked her and now she thinks she is useless and worthless and i cant even talk to her without her doing that and saying im sorry im worthless and then she leaves :'(. i ruin everything :'(. You never believe me :(. How can i be helpful when you dont believe me? i know this is kind of random, but do use youtube? We had a schoo project for US History to like make a movie about Rock and Roll in the 1950s and the movie the group i was in made is somewhat funny if you want to see it, maybe it will make you smile at least :/. i love you, i hope one day you will believe me that you are an amazing beautiful person versus thinking its just because of the picture. You and Angel are both so much alike, all the things you tell her she is wrong about, same applies to you. i love you. |
| from xeison : |
| im honored that you consider me a Brother, but what kind of Brother am i who just hurts his Sisters, especially Angel, and i dont even help you. im sorry i havent been good enough. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| P.S It rained here today ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Yeah I have one of those books too. It's not really THAT graffic or anything. Just something I take a peak at every now and then. I write my food and exercise intake sometimes too. All the people who've said stuuf about my weight, I've written in there too. There's a picture of you in it too. I hope that doesn't freak you out :S. I haven't looked at the book in ages. GRRR, mum and rob are tlakin gabout me in the lounge atm. I wanna hear what they're saying , but whenever my bro's talking about me, it's not a good thing. I'm tyrna type softly because I get the feeling mum will tell me to get off soon :[. Do do do do dum dum dum dum. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!! How long were your holidays for??? To me it seemed they flew past uber quick. You like Mr Been?? He's my idol :] I swear we're related in some way or another! I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Grr in xxplaydeadxx you said someone said you had lost weight again.. Duuude, stop denying it!!!! This is really bad that you're loosing weight like you are. Dude, please try to get better.. You're killing yourself. I think maybe it's outta your hands now, and let someone else try to help?? Likeeee.. a hospital, or a docter, or some sort of recovery/rehab centre. I'm not saying this to be mean or anything Danielle, so please don't take it that way :[ I just want you to be healthy and happy. Is there anything I can do?? I am always here for you. A million percent of the way. Never forget it. I love you with all of my heart Dani. I love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sweet dreams xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
| from ethereal-red : |
| Hey, it's your journal. You can put as many links on there as you want. It's my fault that I clicked on it. Don't worry about it. It's not your fault, and there's no need to be sorry. You didn't do anything wrong. I hope your appt with the psychologist goes well. :) |
| from enurta : |
| If he or she isn't nice then they're not doing their job right. My thoughts are with you, I hope things work out sweetie. I was so nervous before I started seeing the doctor I see now. But she has helped me so much with everything. I think everything will get better for you, atleast I hope so. <3 |
| from xeison : |
| im glad he was ok today. Everyone is dieing :'(. How can you guarentee that you will be ok? You dont know that :'( and then youll leave and youll be part of everybody who dies too :'(. i dont want you to be gone :'(. i do have to worry, i dont want to lose you :'(. How i am doesnt matter. They arent doing too well. i hate school, i suck at it. John is dead :'(. It doesnt matter if im ok, i dont matter :'(. i want to die, thats why i said it, i hate me, i destroy everything, i should die :'(. You should hate me. You dont need me, noone needs me, im a failure, i failed Angel horribly today even just to back it up :'(. Why feel pain over me, im like the the piece of dust that gets blown away in the wind, im worthless. Please let me hurt myself :'(. i love you too so much *hugs*. |
| from xeison : |
| Well, your ever so brilliant Uncle should know that it is smart to talk to strangers versus those who know you because the stranger has no biases and doesnt make judgements that will affect you permently and could hurt you. It is safer to talk to a stranger than him. Please dont die :'(, i dont want you to die :'(. *HUGS* |
| from x-dead-x : |
| It totally would have bit my hand off though.. IT WAS HUUUUUUUUGE! |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Ahh, I am so proud of you! ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Duuuuuuuuuude! I totally understand what you mean when you say that you are scared of being happy, and that you just wish you didn't have anyone so that you wouldn't feel guilty if you wanted to kill yourself. When I first started to think of killing myself (the first 5 months or so) I thought there was nothing stopping me and yeah.. But then slowly I met people and yeah.. *shifty eyes* *gets scared* :( NYARRRR!!! Um um um. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10... /yeah then my mum, docter, nanna and kate said that it'd really hurt them if I killed myself and stuff. Aaron always said that if I killed myself, then he would too. I still to this day, sometimes wish ?I had noone, but really.. I need you guys. Not my docter and Aaron and stuff, I mean YOU. You're everythign to me. Me saying that I'd hurt if you killed yourself isn't me trying to make you feel bad, ya know? I just thought it'd help and stauuf. But I know it doesn't. Well, not in the short run it doesn't. It's your choice. You're the one who's life you're in charge of, so yeah.. You decide what you want, and if killing yourself (or something along the lines of that) is what you want, then so be it. I can't stop you from it, but I can be here, supporting you into happiness and hope. I love you so much. Danielle, I do not care that you think I'll leave you one day, duuude, it's so not true!!!!! Once I love someone, I never leave there side. The love never lessens, or gets weak, you have to trust me that I'll never leave. Besides, why would IIIIIIII leave YOOOOOOOU when IIIIIIIII can't live without YOOOOOOOOOOU!!?!!??!!??!?!?! =D I feel like eating ice-cream. My neck hurts. so does my head. Bahahahhahahaha. OI!!!!!!!!! It's ok that you don't have the energy to reply or to get into depth with what you're feeling =D I understand that you're going through a rough time, and it's totally ok. GOT IT!?! GOOD! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| What the fark?! Baby you DO totaly deserve Angels love! You do!!! Trust me, you do. She loves you, she really loves you, why do yo umake that a bad thing?? I love you too, ya know?? Don't ever forget that. I understand that things are getting worse lately, but yo ugotta stay strong. Just take one hour at a time. You can do it. Angel and I are here for you 100% of the way. We'll never leave you. Nothing you do or say will make us stop fighting with you. We're stuck on you. You're in our hearts like there's no tomorrow! You're so important to us. Seriousl, you are. Nothing in Angels and my life would be the same without you. She'd be starving to death in a gutter somewhere on the streets, and I would've dropped outta school and would've become a whore. You are such an amazing person. I love you so much ♥ |
| from thatgirlx : |
| I forgot to say I love you. Oh, and... I have a plan. Well, me and Xeison. We're going to come to Tenn together! If you'll have us. :) Whenever he can get here, that is. |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Hey, why'd you post that. Or, more importantly, why'd you say it's another thing you don't deserve?! You deserve the fucking world. And IIIIII don't deserve you. Because you're just too amazing for words. |
| from xeison : |
| Angel and you both deserve that. |
| from xeison : |
| Please take care of yourself |
| from xeison : |
| i wrote this initially for Enurta, but i think it might be helpful to you too. (The way i see it there are three steps to fighting an eating disorder, if i havent told you im a history nerd, im sorry. But they are very simular to Franklin Delano Roosevelts New Deal during the Great Depression. First, keep in mind what he said, "The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today." It is true, you can win this fight and you are worth winning this fight for, because you are a good person, an amazing person, you do not deserve to be hated. The three steps of the New Deal were Relief, Recovery, and Reform. im going to break these down for you and you can decide if this helps of not, i hope it helps at least a little. Relief-This is the immeadiate short term actions that must be taken to keep you healthy, such as trying to stop purging and binging, try to lower how much you eat and instead of purging, try excercising each day. Excercising and not binging will allow you to have things still in your hands, but now Mia will be in your hands too. Excercising also supposedly helps ones mood. i know it is hard for you to resist binging and purging but try to minimize how much you do them. Recovery- This is the full on attack against Mia. You need to consider and think deep and hard about what is making you do this, why are you doing this to yourself, what are you trying to cope with? It may be painful, but identifying the problems is critical, once we know what they are, we can attack them. We need to get the things you no longer have control of back. One, by allowing you to express your emotions, which im happy to say you already do well by writing; two, by getting control of the problems and fixing them or if we cannot fully control the problems and fix them, then we will try to look at them in a different way so that we can accept them, adapt to them, and therefore make them no longer problems. This will be a hard fight, but you have the strength to win it and you can and will, this will be the hardest step. Reform- This is the final step. This is where we find you new coping mechanisms and ways to deal with future problems and help stabalize your life, so that you will be able to respond to the future without relapsing into binging and purging. We will build up your defenses so that next time Mia will not be able to do the damage she did this time.) Please take care of yourself Danielle, i love you and when i return i want be able to know you are still here. i LOVE YOU *HUGS* ♥ ♥ ♥ |
| from xeison : |
| im ok, sort of. im so sorry, i didnt fix it, im so sorry. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| HELLO!!! I already accepted your friend request! =D You look so beautiful in the photo!! I left you a comment aswell. Private?? Oh, Matt must have done that part. I'll see if he'll make it go away tonight. How come your blogs are locked ya wanker!!!! *shakes fist* Can I read them, or are they just for you, and haley or something? I really like your lay-out. It's so pretty! How did you go with your tests today? Did you "bomb" it (whatever that means). How is Hales these days? She ok?? She still go to school, right?? .... Danielle.. *sigh* I love you so much. Your arm.. :'( *hugs you* *plays with your hair* I love you so much.. OH..MY..GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ======DDDDD FRIDAY NIGHT/SATURDAY IS GREAT!!!!! I'll call you in the morning tomorrow (my morning). Oh wait. You'll still be at school. Wait, no you won't *shifty eyes* *thinks really hard* Um.. if I call you about 8 or 9am here, then itwould be about 5, or 7pm at your house. What would be the best time for me to call you? Will Aunty Kim mind if I call you?? Will the reception be ok? Because I want to hear every single word yo usay perfectly!! OMG! I'm gonna be so nervous!!! I bet ya all I'll be ableto say is "um.. are.. errr. SHITHOUSE!" Speaking of shithouse: SHITHOUSE! I love you! lol I'll have to go through my e-mails again to find your number!!! AHH! WOO HOO!! I gota go to the library now. I love you so much! |
| from thatgirlx : |
| How freaky is it that we both updated at like almost the exact same time? Um. Anyways, I LOVE YOU! And don't worry about your Uncle, he's just a fucking fuckhead with nothing better to do with his time then to start static. Seriously. When I come visit y'all, I'm going to smack him upside the head, maybe knock a little sense into him. I hope you had fun with Cat!!!!!! LOVE YOU! GOODNIGHT! ♥ |
| from xeison : |
| You have nothing to be sorry for, you havent done anything wrong. What are you guys doing in Chemistry? |
| from thatgirlx : |
| You are NOT selfish. Not even for a fucking second. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Bull shti mate! I know that I haven't lost my mind! Well, certianly not about THAT anyway. Look at what is happening to you and your body miss?? Pffft I'm not stupid Dani! Just because you ate today, doesn't mean that you're all 'fixed up' and stuff. Sure, it's a great start, but I don't think you set out to eat to make yourself better, right? It is good that you ate though =) I have no idea what any of the food you said are. Egg rols?? Are they just mushed up egg in a roll??? :S RAR!!!! IIIIIII ahve been up for 3 hours and I have had 2 mini pizzas!!!! SO THERE!!! I haven't had my tablets yet :( So today will be crapola. I always get down when i have them way after i wake up. AHHHH! Georgie boy!!!!!! =====D He's so cute!!!! I can tell by just looking at him that he's a keeper! *nods yes* :P You're painting is amazing too.. Wow. I want to see it in person please, when I see you. It's really good. You said you weren't good at art ya twat! Oh yeah, that reminds me! Why did I call you a twat?? Um.. I don't know.. I sowwy. Noone ever leave poor fat Georgia notes in x-crime-x so I never look at it anymore, I will reply to ALL of that note later on ok? :) WHOA! 7 horses!!!! WOW!!!! How big is the land you live on??? what's it al look like? What sort of horses are they?? Are they pets or for product usage/farming??? I am gonna have a shower, cal mum and see if she'll let me off cleanign the house so I can go see matt, and then yeah.. I dunno then. Woo hooo! I love you Danielle!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| SHIT! :( I'm sorry you are having a bad time. I want to help. I NEED to help. We're so far apart, and I don't know what to do. I'm so worried for your physical health, I already know it's fucking your head/mind up! Dude, I think you should go to hospital.. Don't get mad at me saying that, please, but, maybe it's time to let someone else take care of this illness for you, ya know? Just help you out.. Dani, please.. I love you so much. You are not fat and you don't need to do this. Noone does. you're beautiful and so talented. You're amazing. You don't have to suffer so much, you can loose the weight you think yo uhave in a healthy way. I know you've tried it already, but it shouldn't be boring ya know? "Healthy diet" yes! It DOES indeed sound boring, but you can make it fun. Try new foods. And just I dunno, walk around the block once or something? I miss you Danielle. UGH! There's no WAY that you're goin back to your mum's house Dani! Not now, and not ever! Dude, ugh, it makes me so angry to hear her say all that shit. Don't worry about going back, ok? BECAUSE YOU AINT!!!!! I swear I'll be there for you! We WILL work it out! I will coem over or I can pay for you to come here! There's always Angle or Anya aswell, ok? No effin way are you going back! Even if you EVER wanted to, you're not going! You have me/us and we're SO EFFIN behind you all the way! I promise you. When hales cam over did you kiss her, huh? HUH?? HUH?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! =P You HAVE to answer that btw. Oi, have you got any pets??? Maybe an inexpensive pet would kinda take you're mind off things and you could, ya know? Um, it'd help you to get better? Just a thought. hm.. I am gonna do an entry now, and you have to start replying to my notes Miss Dee! I love you so much! Sweet dreams xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
| from xeison : |
| You dont have to read my paper. i love you too. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Well SORRY Miss DEE!!! :P I shall try and write back to your notes sooner. I am eating soop right now. Well, I tried to, but I burntmy toung really bad on the effin spoon!! I probably won't be tasting anythign for a few days now lol. Ok, so who was that entry about???? I assume it was Hales (judging by xesions note). Dude.. ugh! You and Haley are great together. She loves you for effs sake! If sh didn't care about you, she wouldn't be with you, or do the things she does! Dude, you DO make her feel better, just the stuff that you do scares her. And she doesn't know how to deal with scary stuff, so cutting is the only way she knows how to ease it all. Ya know how she was stuck in the "preppy" (or whatever ya call it over there) crowd before?? Yeah, well 'preppy' people don't accept others. It's all about what ya look like. There's no time for feelings or obscurity. But with yo, she CAN/DOES express how she feels. It's is NOT your fault! she still would have the SAME problems in her life if she was with the preps!! She wouldn't be able to talk to anyone about that stuff in that crowd, but with you.. dude, do you get it now!?!?!? Ugh. 'm sorry to say this, btu she needs to see a professional :( Sure, we're all here for her and gonna support her all the way, but she.. I think she should see a docter. If not to TALK to someone, she should at least get checked out to see if she's got her dad's illness, ya know?? Can you talk to her about that, please?? Whoa, ya mum got out today?? Shit. Do you wanna talk to her?? Why hasn't she done so already? What was she in for in the first place again??? Do ya reckon she's learnt her lesson yet?? Oh thank you for the link to the painting, I am gonna load my notes page again, because I forgot to highlight it :P I remember when you were talking about it last year (the yellow brick road thingo). Ugh, Aleesha came on msn today, and so did Matt, and I was sorta talking to Matt, then i went to pee, and he logged off, and I wanted to talk to aleesha about him and stuff. But she logged off too :( Grr, the one time I want somethign from her, I can't have it. Oh my God... I keep forgetting to mension this in dland, but th past 3 nights I've had the same dream where I get gang rapped. It scares the hell out me. The two men cut my arms with a massive knife and um. it's all a blur really. But I ahve a dream book, that tells you what ya dreams mean, and I looked up every single object and thing in my dream so get a definite answer, then I went to the library and looked at their dream books, and then I cam home last night and did a tarrot reading.. Everything from the books and cards said that I was gonna be in heaps of shit soon. There's was so much in it all about me breaking up with a boy, and that I'll get hurt, and I'll hurt someone. Fuck. I'm so scared! I dunno what to do. I so desperatly want things to work out with Matt and I, but... It just won't. I have you, and only you. I miss you. I know you won't leave. But.. If you did, I seriously don't know what I'd do. I love you so much. You're everything to me. You're all I have. Thank yo for being there for me Danielle! I love you! ♥ |
| from xeison : |
| Well, i got sent to this Childrens Hospital yesterday, and there were these two six year olds painting, so i thought i would help them, so i went to go do that, and one of the kids accidently hit the powl of pink paint that he was using and it landed on my hair. i do have to ask you, before i go to school, they said i have to write a paper so that im not too far behind, and i was wondering if you would read it and see it is ok? If you have time. You did not cause her to cut Danielle, and i have people who have killed themselves because of me, so if we are going to punish that way, i should be eliminated. Just from now on, you know not to make that face anymore, again remember what i told you about mistakes? We can change and learn, or beat ourselves and not learn, which one is better for Haley? Learning right? So please dont beat yourself up over this, instead just try to change it ok? i love you too *Hugs really tight* |
| from xeison : |
| Also, please try to eat more, you are just hurting yourself like this. |
| from xeison : |
| i am stupid. im glad that the last few days have been good. As for overreacting, i understand, just please try not to in the future punish yourself, especailly when you do not know whether your actions justify the punishment. im sorry that i have been avoiding your question. im not doing great. im really not smart enough to be a Dr. i love you too *hugs* ♥ |
| from x-dead-x : |
| I'm cooking my insides you dork! I'm not TAN-orexic! ;) |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Hello! I am so happy that you left me a note! =) I have missed you so much! It feels like forever since I've heard from you. Yeah, I was still using xxplaydeadxx, so that's why I couldn't get in. I DO remember a while a go you told us all that we COULD use the new one, but I already had the old one stuck in my head like there was no tomorrow! So I just kept using it. I now have the new one in my head, and all shall be fine :) Ok, serious busines: FUCK YOU! *slaps you* How could you do that!?!? How could you get so worked up over that weight shit!? Danielle, I told you that it was fine that you said that. It didn't hurt my feelings or anything. To be honest, the day you said it, was the only day that I thought about it. Dude, I really don't care that you said it. When you weren't updating and I couldn't access your diary, I thought it may have had something to do with it, and that you didn't wana be my friend, but then I thought "No, whywould she be upset over that? I said it was ok." But obviously it wasn't, for you :( I feel so bad for being the one who made you feel like that. I cannot belive you hurt yourself because of me.. I hate myself for it. I wish you didn't do it :'( Why were you still upset over it, even after I told you it was ok? ..Please don't, don't EVER hurt yourself because of me, ever again. Please, I'm begging you, don't do it again. Please. you mean so much to me, you mean everything to me, and for me to cause you to do that, makes me feel like.. I dunno. Shit? Nah, that's not the word. I'll stop talking about this now, before I get you thinking about it and you'll get sad again. Xesion is right btw, don't beat yourself up for telling the truth. It's awonderful thing to be truthful. Orrite! I got my ears peirced miss DEE!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAAH! Now I have 5 peircings (not including my belly, cause it's gon now). Woot woot! Have you got ya ears peirced? While I was reading eveyone's diarys this avo, I was eating watermellon, and now I feel so bloated!! ..Least I didn't get it all over the key board like last time! lol. DUDE! I love you so much!!! I'm glad you've had a couple of good days =) You freaking deserve it! Well, ya deserve much more than that, btu yeah, um, ugh! WHY CAN I NOT DISCRIBE ANYTHING!?!??!?! Dude, we have a new kid at school! Everybody thinks he's hot :S I don't think he is. He's quite an asshole. Yes indeed. Won't be long before everyone else sees it. How are you and Hales going? You said that y'all were gonna go to out together, but I didn't hear a follow up of what happend the next day, so you musn't have been alowed to go huh? ..WTF dude! If everybody is saying you've lostweight, they ain't saying it just for the fun of it! Dude, you'll have to go to a hospital soon. All the things that are hapening to your body, are so bad Dani. You'll die. You'll die earlier than you're spozed to even if you do recover from your ed, because the damage of yourbody is perminant. Do you not get that? don't you want to spend more time alive? I know right now, being alive isn't too fun atm, but it will be. Ok, I'll stop talking about that now. You and Brittany still fighting??? Y'all getting along ok? How about you and ya Aunty Kimmy? How are things at school???? Anyone giving you shit? *puts gangster outfit on, gets gun out of pocket* HUH HUH HUH???? ... The phone has been ringing for ages now. It's run out 4 times lol. It'll be my nanna wondering when I'm coming over to dye her hair. But I didn't wanna stop talking to you :( She's gonna crpa her dacks though, so I am gonna have to go now darl. I love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU! |
| from xeison : |
| im sorry, im stupid, i thought you meant Haley. That mistake, is not worth beating yourself up over, and for the record, i made the same mistake with Angel a while ago too. i argued with her about whether she had eaten too much food on this one day, and she had eaten too little calories, but too much fat, and i was honest with her and told her, and she got upset and was going to "fix it" as well, i should have been smarter : (. However, we cant beat ourselves up over it, the thing with that is when one beats themselves up over a mistake, they tend to miss the moral, which is to just not make the same mistake. Being Human entails making mistakes, but the amazing thing about Humans is that we are engineers of our selves, we can change and adapt by learning from our mistakes and therefore, while nature takes millions of years to allow for evolution, we as individuals can evolve within minutes by learning from our mistakes and adapting. So now, you stand a fork in the road, along one path is beating oneself up and not catching the lesson, but instead just destroying oneself and in effect causing that influence over the ties you hold, or the second path where the idea is learning from mistakes and then moving past them as a new person who is a little wiser and has that influence over her ties that she holds. im glad my theory made sense to you, but my question is do you believe it, or do you still see life as a sick game? How have things been lately? i love you too. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Danielle. Please don't egnore me. Why won't you let me read your diary? Are you mad at me? Are you ok? Please don't do anything to harm yourself. I'm really sorry for whatever happend.. I read Xesions note... Something about Haley, I assume?? :( I love you Danielle, please be ok. I love you. |
| from xeison : |
| The thing about suicide, is that it hurts so much more. You didnt hurt her, i think you might need to read what i wrote to her, but even when youthink you are making things worse, you are still the reason she fights, think of how much worse she would be without you? May i ask what happened? i Love you *HUGS* and i would be hurt horribly if you left/ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! :-O IT WILL NOT WORK!!!!!! I hope you're ok Danielle... Are you ok?? what is happening?? If you changed the password and don't want to tell me, I will kill you! I WILL I WILL!! :P Aww, I love you so much Dani! EH! I have homwwork tonight. so there's no time to update :( Well, I'm off now. Sweet dreams Danielle! I LOVE YOU! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I swear if Xesion says he's a bad friend/person one more time, I will STAB him!!! Grr! He's the smartest person ever! And he's incredible thoughtful and kind! Speaking of smart! Dude, Cathrine left me a note saying how you always keep her out of trouble and stuff :) And how you're really smart! I KNOW that you're freaking smart, but it was so nice to hear her say that :) she really thinks highly of you =) Whoa! Mum just came around the corner dressed in her nickers and a singlet and said "Do you care if I go around looking like this? *pulls cute face*" ude, she does the best "cute faces" ever! she is home sick at the moment. She's been working too much I spoze :( ...................... DUDE!!! *angry face* YOU CHANGED YOUR PASSWORD!!!!! :"""""""""""""""""""""( WHY?!?!?! AHH! Dude! I am so not mad or dissapointed or ANYTHING like that about the weight thingo :P I wasn't trying to make you feel bad either. It's not like I didn't already know that I was overweight lol! YOU'RE A TWAT! =P AHH! You said something somethign something "FAT MOUTH!!!" GRR! I would know if you had a fat mouth because I stare at your picture all the time on the back of my door!!! It IS NOT FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! You have a beautiful mouth, beautiful lips and everythign about you is beautiful! Did I reply to the rest of your note yesterday???? I can't for the life of me, remember!! AH! That e-mail I sent was just a bunch of crap. I will send another one soon, though, ok? :) I'm gonna try one more time to get into your diary, then I'll be back. I love you! |
| from xeison : |
| im so sorry that this has taken so long, the wires got all messed up, and i suck with wires. You have nothing to be sorry for, you are not a moron at all. im so sorry about your Uncle, im so sorry that im useless and stupid and dont know what you can do. The way i see it, you need to view him in a different way, you need to see him as someone you wont have to be with much longer. Only a year and a half right? Everytime something happens, just remember you will be rid of him in a year and a half and be in control of your own life. Ok, i feel like im going to be preasching a religion, becuase im now cool enough to have made my own theory :P. Tie Theory by xeison (If only it was Dr. xeison, i would seem so much smarter :P). Anyways, the way i see life is this, everyone holds ties to other people, things, hobbies, passions, or something, but everyone has ties to something, and in life our actions exert influences over these ties, which in turn, however small, has an influence upon all of the ties connected to what you influenced. Life is not a sick game though, it is really just how you choose to influence those ties and leave your mark, and how you react to others influence upon you. Does that make sense? By the way, i will put it on your other diary, but i had a conversation you might like to hear. i love you too *HUGS*. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Dude! You talk about me "getting better" like I have an eating disoerder!!!! Bloody hell! that's the stupidest thing I've ever heard! Dude, you have to be at it constanly for over 3 months for ya to have one! I have nothing to "get better" from you silly twat! I love you! Hm... Matt and I? *sigh* Who knows? Never mind. Don't wanna think about it. AHHH! I feel so full! It's really hot at the moment. I feel so dizzy! My head hurts. HOLY MOTHER OF FREAKING KIWI FRUITS!!!!! I just weighed myself. God. I can't do this I can't. WHY?!?!?! AHHHHH! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!! I need to not think about this. STOP STOP! Um, I am listenign to THe Used atm. God, I love that band so much! "Take take take it away! Take my hand,take my life!" la la la la.. So beautiful :) Oh yeah, ya know that book?? Um, The luckiest girl in th eworld? The one about the ice skater? Yeah I finally got that book from the library a few days ago. I've read 100 pages or something. It's good so far. weird though. Normally I'd be all for reading books about that stuff, but when I'm reading this book, all I want to do is just throw it away and forget self harm even exists.. There's a book I read in grade 8. It's caled Glory. It's the best book ever! You should read it :) Which book do you like better: The luckiest girl? Or the best girl? huh??? HUH?! Do you know Birds Of Tokyo?? They played on Sunday, but I didn't get to go :( Oh well. You know 'em? AHH! i have so much to do before mum gets home, but eveytime I get up, I want to fall to the ground and curl up. Feeling so sick. top complaining Georgia. Hm... OHH! I like that new song you put on xxplaydeadxx!!! =D It's very pretty! Oh yeah! Yesterday you said somethign about a cd you made for me.. Dude, don't be sily! I don't want your shitty music! god, what were you thinking?!?! ha. Just kidding my dear! I love anything you do for me. I would love to hear what you have put on it :) Thank you for doing that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hmm... EEEK! Dude! All that stuff you wrote in yuor diary last night was a load of shit!!!!! All it means is that you can spell mean words! You have nothing in common with those words, at all! You're beautiful, you're smart, you're kind, caring, gentle, you stand up for what you believein, you are creative, you're funny, you have great taste in music (minus Strawbery Gashes :P!!!!), you have a beautiful smile, you're thoughtful, you always help people, you always make time for people even when you don't have the time in the first place, you always put in so much effort! DUDE! You're the most special person in the world!!!!!!! You really are... I love you so much |
| from x-dead-x : |
| hey ass hole! get on yahoo!! please?? ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| G'day! It's 5pm now, so that means it's 8 where you are, all thanks to your wonderful computing skills! =D Lol, I looked at all the thingos/links you sent me just then, and they didn't take long to load at all. I thouhgt the first one was extreamly funny because of the dude talking! Lol, his accent was super funny! And the.. err.. Evil Strawberry?? Well, I didn't find that funny! I wanted to freaking murder that little boy!! He wouldn't shut th hell up!!! The rest were quite amusing too :P How did you find them? I'm eating water mellon at the moment. But I am too lazy to cut it into tiny peices, so it's pretty much all over myself! You like watermelon? What about strawberries? AHH! Dude! I sent you an e-mail last night!!! You better have bloody gotten it!! Do you check your e-mails everyday?? Err... thank you for telling me that it's ok for me to talk and ramble away.. With you, I'll always do that anyway! You CANNOT ESCAPE ME!!!!! =P Owie! I took my peircing out because I couldn't eat like a piggy with it in, I thought it'd be ok, but i have finished eating and I can't get it back in. BRB. Back, I got it in, but the front part of it won't go all the way through!!! HELP ME!! Dude, I've told you how much I weigh before! :P When we first started talking and stuff, I said I'd never tell you, but a couple of weeks ago, I told you!! I shall tel you again though! But I do not want you saying "blah blah, that's not obese blah!" Or anything like that, ok? Because I am short! And I am obese for my height! AND AND AND if you were around me all the time, you'd see that I am fat. I weigh 61kg *hides face* that is obese! I am (last time I checked.. um.. begining of last year) 1.67-68cm tall. I am fat Miss Dee. If I wasn't fat, then I wouldn't have stretch marks, I wouldn't have celulite, and I wouldn't get called fat! Dude, I remember a while back Cathrine was going through a phase of her thinking she was fat, and she said she wanted to be at LEAST 50kilos or something. I kate wants to be at least 50 kilos too. I weighed 50 kilos in grade 7. I used to think I was fat then! AHH! i do not know how I thought that! I guess it was cause others were skinnier I spoze. Meh :) I would like to weigh 50 kilos again, too. But I doubt that'll happen. AHHH! I haev to go now! I'll try and come back tomorrow morning! Omg.. Matt just said I am a bitch and he doesn't want me anymore... Fuck. Why am I not happy??!!!?! I am nearly crying.. I need pun.. ever mind! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! :) |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Nope :( I didn�t reply to your last e-mail. I said that I didn�t in an entry I did a little while back. I�m sorry I didn�t.My head is just going around and around. Esspecialy today. But I need to be a good person and deny what is going on in my head so that my actions aren�t what I�m feeling on the inside. HA! That doesn�t make any sence. Like, I am still going to talk talk talk talk to you :P And talk talk talk talk in dland, but outside, I�m just gonna try and be perfect. I�m typing this note to you in Microsoft at the moment, but I can�t see what I�m typing because the screen has minimised the page too small for some reason :S Danielle, dude� I want to thank you for telling me about how the food will just stay in my stomatch and make me fatter. It really opened up my eyes. It made me see that this really isn�t going to work. Scared me to death, but for good. I now know why my weight is all over the joint too! Grr! This morning/late last night it went down.. I was really happy about that, because for about a week now It's been really high. This is my last chance to get healthy. I have to get down to a healthy weight for my height. hank you for telling me this Dani. It seriously opend up my eyes! I am scared to stop though. I feel like I am a little bit better than all the other fuckers at school when I'm doing it. I know I'm really NOT better, but it's like I have somethign that they don't, sorta thingo?? Ugh. I'ts so hard to explain! I really want to call you and talk to you! I love you so much. Someone (can't say who here) is also doing it, and I don't want to be fatter than her. So I just... Ugh. Never mind. Dude, I jut logged off msn, because kate had a go at me because I said to matt on msn that I was scared about her, Liz, Catlin, You, Racheal, Kathryn and that I was still confused about why he was being a nutter to me this weekend, and he just said "Ok" to that, then I had to go, but I logged back on about 25mins ago, and he went to her and said that I was scared about her and he asked why I'd be scared to her. But her and I have a secret, and it's my job to protect it.. And she got mad at m for saying I was scred and she just had a go at me and stuff. So I asked matt why he told her that! And he didn't reply, he went straight to Kate (she coppied and pastedthe convo they had and gave it to me) and said "You swore to me you wouldn't tell her I asked you about it!!!" blah blah blah. So then Kate was like "dude, you always screw things up! If you just left it, then everything woud've been fine!" So yeah.. I logged out without saying bye to either of them. And I deleted my msn account. I'm quite mad Miss Dee :( Grr. I don't want to be with him anymore. I just want to die. I want to kill myself. I want to kill everybody! .......... Dude, I know yu'll get nervous talking to your mum, but it's something that has to be done. No matter how she takes what you tell her, remember that YOU were the one who stood out of your comfort zone! YOU were the one who took the stand for a better relationship. You were the one who kept trying. Just be strong. I know you can do it! ..verything will be ok. YAY!!! I'm so glad that you got to talk to Angel!!!!!! ====DD Dude! that's awsome! what did y'al talk about!? What does she sound like??! TELL ME ALL!!!! =D =D ........GRR! *stabs you* You want to get better? Yet you're setting up sites for eds? Why? People are probably gonna tell you to keep doing that stuff.. then you will, and it'll get worse :( I am heaps freaked out that Brittany sent a request for it aswell :S Please please keep an eye out on her Dani! eeek! sorry this note has been all about me! NOOO! SORRY MISS DEE!!! I will go now. I love you so much! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sweet dreams/happy days! haha! *HUGS YOU TIGHT!* xxxx P.S I EFFIN LOVE THE RASMS!!! 9think I spelt that wrong :S Oh well, but yeppy yeppy! THEY'RE AWSOME!!!!!!!! |
| from ethereal-red : |
| sleep sounds good to me too... |
| from xeison : |
| And i guess you have to flick my nose, becuase i have been a bad Friend, i failed my duty and was negligent, im so sorry. |
| from xeison : |
| i know you know that isnt the way to fix it, and i know you know that weight is not the issue. It is easier, becuase, going back to my war analogy, it is easier to defend and use the one city you still hold Weight, versus trying to take control of the cities held by the enemy like Relationships and Actions of Others. Well, i am not sure what to do about your Uncle. You could try talking to him about it, though from what i see of him that likely wont work. The other thing you could try is to manipulate the power play, becuase your Aunt Kim seems to be pretty nice, maybe it would be better for you to appeal to her and ask her to talk to your Uncle about it and help fix the problem, especially with him trying to tell you how to deal with your parents. i know you know that you do not control Mia, but do not think she has control over you, you have the power to beat her and have control. You have nothing to thank me for, i have done nothing. Of course i would work through this with you, we are Friends and i love you, and becuase of that, we are fighting this together, becuase i dont want you to be hurt, and so i have been, am, and always will fight along side you and with you against anything, including this. We are fighting together and we will beat it. That answer was perfect, exactly what i was looking for. Would you be mad if i tried to change your philosophy by proving it wrong and offering an alternative theory? i love you too *hugs* ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Hello!!! =D Dude, I want to let you know that I think what you wrote in your diary was very corageous. You really are something special :) I love you!!! OH MY GOD! That picture of you in xxplaydeadxx is so damn beautiful!!! I'm so jelous!!!! You have beautifyl eyes, a realy cute nose, and your hair cut looks lovely!!!!! ==D You're really beautiful Danielle! ou have a wonderful smile too! I love you! .......Ok, um, about your parents... I know how badly you want them/her in your life, but you have to keeps trying to get her back.. I dunno. Maybe she just will not put in any effort, btu she is the mum/"mom" you have. There's nothing you can do about it.. You can only try to build a relationship with her. Give up everything that has happend in the past. I'm not saying you have to give up being right about the situation, I'm saying just let it all go... If you do this, you'll be able to create so much. YOu can invent anything you want. You can make new possibilities for you and your life. I dunno if you have already dismissed what I just said, but if you have, just stop. Stop now and look at it, think about what might happen if that's what you were to do. You need to fully sepress yourself to your mum, tell her how things are for you.. I know that when we (soem of us) express ourselves fully, that we can feel like we're giving ourselves up, but really, you're not giving up, you're just begining to be true to yourself, and no being in denial. It's a sacrifice that you gotts make for this relationship that you want.. As a matter of a fact, it stands for any relationship you want :) Ok, i'll shut up about that. Um, I don't remember not replying to your e-mail :( But I shall do that now. I love you so much!!!!!! I really love you! |
| from pamperedpuma : |
| I just want to give you a hug and tell you everythings going to be ok. Cxx |
| from ethereal-red : |
| Good luck... I know you can do it. You have the determination and drive to get better! |
| from xeison : |
| Oh, i know this may seem kind of random, but i forgot to put this into my note that i just wrote, i was wondering if i could ask though, how do you see Life? What is your philosophy as to what Life is? For example, i have heard some people say Life is like a game, that must be played well in order for success to occur. i personally do not agree with that one, but i would like to know what your philosophy is, and please if you are going to answer, answer honestly about yours, do not try to see if ou can figure out mine, unfortunetly some people do that, and it makes this kind of diffecult. Ultimately, the way you see Life might be something we might have to consider changing as part of this fight, i do not know though, im sorry, im not really that god at this, im sorry. |
| from xeison : |
| i know you know what you wanted to control, that is why i asked you, i am glad you were able to find the answer as well as you did though, that makes it easier to fight. No, i do not know how much you weigh, but i doubt you are overweight, and even if you are, this is not the way to fix it. i figured it would have to do with your Mother, Father, Uncle, and Jesse for the most part, especially your Mother and Uncle. Unfortunetly, you are right, you cannot control others, but you can control how you see others actions and how you choose to respond and thereby influence their actions. You can control what you do though, right now it does not seem that way, i know, but you can, and you will, we will beat this, you will beat this, and all the control of yourself will be yours. May i ask you to explain to me how your Uncle is controling you? For the record, you dont control Mia, i know like it feels like you do, but you do not and we both know it, but what you do control is so much more important, who you are, who you choose to love and not love, what you choose to believe in, what you choose to like and not like, all are in your hands, and can stay in your hands. i know you like to feel you have control over it, but again we both know that when it comes down to it, you have to fight to take your choice of action. i am very proud of you for eating today, if that is appropriate for me to say, otherwise im sorry for traversing age lines. i am glad that you have kept fighting and you do not deserve to be hurt, you deserve to be happy and loved and all the things that you mentioned, which by the way take note, you are the one who chose what those things are. You should be proud of yourself. i know you feel somewhat guilty, but remember, you are the strong one, you do not deserve this to be done to you, you deserve to win and have control. As to your question, from what i hear, a treatment facility could help, but here is my honest opinion, you can beat this, without a treatment facility, you can win the war, you have identified the key points of the war and you have al;ready won the first skirmish as you told me, ultimatly each battle comes down to the skirmishes, so every vctory means that much closer to winning, even though it does not always feel like that, and dont forget that ok? Ultimately in these battles we have two choices as i can see it to win, either strategy one, which is to take control of the aspects of your life that you do not have control over now and giving you control of them by taking the initiative, and strategy two, which is for thing that you cannot take control of, which is to change the way you view that aspect of your life and respond to it, so that you can at least feel ok with your lack of control over it and feel good about your ability to control your responses to those aspects and make a difference that way. You have nothing to thank me for, i have done nothing, and i was a bad Friend, i am so sorry. i love you *HUGS*. |
| from xeison : |
| "Help me. I need so much help. I'm scared. I'm really really afraid. I have no idea what to do now." im no master of warfare, but in war, there are two ways to fight your enemy. One is to send your army to fight their army and try and defeat them in battles, but this means that their armies are supplied and at full strength, making this a hard battle to fight. The second strategy is called war of attrition, the essential strategy is to win the war with minimal fighting, it basically works by captureing the enemy key trading posts, ports, roads, rivers, and other infrastructure to cut off their supplies so that their army cannot fight or put up resistance. Basically cutting off the their main vessel. The first way is possible to win, but at immense cost and diffeculty, while the second way is much easier to win with and minimizes losses and ultimately in my opinion is more effective. Mia here is like your enemy, she is the commander of the enemy. Mia is smart and tries to draw people to attack her at the city Weight, but ultimatly, Weight is not the issue, it is just a disguise or decoy for the real source of the issue. In order for us to win this war, you must think deeply upon this, i know it will hurt, and i know it will be hard, but you need to think very hard and ask yourself, what is making me upset, what do i want to change, what am i lacking control of that i want control of? i have some ideas, but i need to know what you think, becuase these things you come up with, they are the key infrastructure, they are the points that are in Mias control that we must take control of to defeat her with. You must first figure out what these are, then we can make our plan of attack to retake control of these key points, these aspects of your life, and in this way, limit Mias resources until she has nothing left to fight with, and then we will destroy her. Does that sound like a plan to you? You think we can try this? Am i making sense at all? i hope you are ok right now, im sorry i have not been a good Friend these days, i love you *HUGS*. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| LMAO! I ment get out of my boxers and go have a shower!!!! But I got side tracked (as always) and changed mi mind to "I am tired." So err.... I will STAY in my boxers and go to sleep! HA! I LOVE YOU!!!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ok, I'm back now. Sept it's the next day! haha! I am at home today.. I have been throwing up all night, I keep shaking, getting stabbing pains in my chest, and it's hard to breathe :( Mum said I could stay home if I wanted... And who am I not to take up that offer?!?!!!!? =P Yeah, but no, I am quite sick. My HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Make it better Dani-pooh-boob-ooop-a-doop!! PLEASE! I love you! Whao, person finally spoke to me!!!! :) Um, you're a little peeved with person, so should I be? Or is person just like that with YOU? Hmm... I wonder what you're doing right now. We're BOTH awake! SO maybe I could wait on here to talk to you? But I dunnno, cause you update later and later these days. Like, way last year I would getup, and you would've updated before I went to school, but now, I come home, and you've like JUST updated! lol, or about 2-3 hours before. It's hard to get hold of you Dani-pooh, ya know? haha, I cannot waituntil I meet you. I just want to do nothign with you, ya know? hmm.. prolly not. I hope you're not feeling down on yourself today :S I hope your feelings have changed. But it's ok if they haven't, because I will always be here for you. I won't et 'mad/angry' at you, I won't ever give up on you. AND... YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU will NEVER be able to drive me away! No matter how hard you try to! I ain't going nowhere! ............... ................... ......................... ................ .............................................. ............................................ I got an owie! :( FIX IT!!!! *gives you a pice of paper that says "kiss it better!!!"* Oh for efff sake! I can't get over how your WHOLE school is off because soem people are sick! Our school would never do that! We have, I think, just over 5000 people in our school. No way in the world would anyone want that many effers roaming the streets! Dude, they'd steel the freaking golf cars of the old people playing lawn bowls! :-O Poor little old people :( *takes key out of old persons golf car... walks away with head down.. Sprints back and takes a black bowling ball!!!* *evil laugh* AHAHAHAHAHA! Do you see!?!??! Do you see what could happen?!? =P Oh man, I was asleep about 5am this morning for about 1 hour and a half, and I had sooooo many dreams! It felt like I was asleep forever! I was a check out chick at mi local store and I ran after thia dude who stole a milk carton, then brouhgt it back t the shop (even thoguh it was empty!!). Um, people kept gettign mad 'cause I didn't know how to cancel the items, then ugh. I won't explain the rest lol, I'll go on FOREVER!! Haha, then I ahd another one: It was really dark, mi pop, nanna and I were driving around Perth. We were listening to Tim McGraw (mi fav dude ever!!!) but mi pop was avign heart problems. It's hard to discribe, but like, his heart was movign all over his body, it kept going really small, then it would expand and nearly come out of his chest. The weird thing was: He was the one with the hear problem, but I was the one who was feeling the pain :S So everytime he moved, I'd feel a shit load of pain. Um, it went of for ages. Eventually we tried to get help from someone, but pop got weaker and weaker. He couldnt' talk. Couldn't breathe.. My nanna was geting worried. Crying. I was scared to see nanna live a life alone if pop died :( Then pops head just rolled back. Nanna burst into tears. Then I died too. Hm.. Weird. Oh well. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My mum made me a warm drink thismorning, and she put it next to me, on a try, on my bed. She told me (wheni woke up) that her and I had a convo about me not spilling the drink. But I don't remember any of that. Um, I went 'back' to sleep, and woke up later on to find me soaking wet!!!!! :'''''''''''''( Lol, I spilled the drink thta I suposedly knew about all over em and the bed! Mum didn't get mad, but she said I have to wash the sheets today. SHe's gone to the hospital now. My aunty (the speacial one) is in hospaital again. SHe's been there for a couple of days now. YAY!!!! I have that LandMark corse this weekend!!!! .....DAMMIT DANIELLE!!! I want you to effin get the stuff I sent you already!!! One more day, and I'm gonna cry!!!!!!!!!!!!! GRR! Whao!!!! You like faries!!!!??!? YIPPI!!!! =DDDDDDDDDD I remembered you didn't like butterflies (haha, memba that drawign you/hales did?? Where the butterfly died because it was shot with a gun!!! lol). Um, well, in that case, I can send you fairy stuff now! ===D OMG!!! If you come here, I HAVE to take you to this little hop in Freo!! It's called The Pickled Fairy Shop!! It's so cool! =) .....aHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG! Sorry abotu the bathroom thingo! I thoguht it was the other way around! DAMIIT! Well, I had good intensions behind it, right? lol :P I do indeed have a mad memory. Well, I should prolly get out of my boxers, and go back to sleep.. I'm so tired. I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| No Danielle, I'm not going to egnore it, because it is in fact the way YOU FEEL, and it's not a nice way to feel, is it? *raises eyebrow* You do not cause me, or your friends grief! We don't worry about you to the point where we get pissed off and hate you!! We'd never do that. Never. We're all in this together. For eternity. You said you were going to make us all hate you, then yuo could kill yourself... Well, you're going to out-live the entire freaking world if that's what you're planning! Gosh! We could never ever ever hate you. We ain't the kinda people who treat love as an everyday thing. We're all a little messed up.. and we know what it's like to lose someone we love. So you are stuck with us Dani-pooh! =D I've been thinking about you all day! No joke! Well, except for about 10 minuites 5mins ago. I just got back from the clinic and.. grr. Didn't go well for me. And I was thinking on the way home: I just want to eat. Make the pain go away. Make me feel full. But I told myself I will NOT eat when i got home. But I did :S But I threw it up. I hate it when it explodes out of my nose.. Is that supposed to happen? Ok, moving on. Dude, that e-mail you sent me today :-O I was really supprised that that person (will write it in an e-mail, just incase 'person' is reading this) would do anything like that! God! I want to punch person in the face!!!!! I thought person was nice! I thought person was unselfish! I thought person was your best friend.. But obviously not... LMAO! You said IIIIIIIIII was!! Haha, I know that you were only saying it because you were up so effing late and were bored or something, but I will never forget that! =D And I'll never let you forget it! :P I love you! *head spins* whao... me no feeeewwwl weeeewo :( AHHH! Dude, in art we get to do a FREEE choice drawing/painting!!!!! HOLY EFFIN CRAPOLA!!!!! ======D I have to many ideas for it, but I can't decide on it.. I wanna do a painting of YOU, I want to do a sad eyes one, I want to do a painting of 'the pain of an ed,' I want to do a painting of so many things!!! Dude, this is gonna be awsome!!!!! Oh, btw, I did a grid drawing of Marilin Munroe. Bu tit doesn't look lik her at all :S Anyway, I painted it today! But we had to use flat bases and abstract colours. I did green and a pinky purple. IIIII think it looks cool though. I've never done any art like it before. Like, never even knew 'grid art' existed. So yeah.. I'll shut up about that now, and finish telling you about you =D Ok... You don't make anyone mad Danielle, you always thik you do, but you don't! Haley loves you so much! People (despite being really intelligent) really do not know how to cope with emotions. There's been so much study done on it, but we'll never fully learn how to cope (Well, definantly not in this generation). When people get worried, they turn it into anger, sometimes.. And that's just what Hales is doing. She's probably not "worried" as such, but just really scared for you. The thought of anyone loosing you is... so powerful. Powerful enough to mak someone want to cry (just at the THOUGHT!). Truth is, people don't alway like to cry, so they get angry instead. Dammit. Mum's home. Be back later. I love you so much! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ok, now piss off and go read the other notes I left you below, or this won't make sence!!! GO NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!................................. ............................................................................ ................................................... . . .............................................................................................................................................................................................. *watches you scroll down* .............................. .......... OK!!! DUDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're a load of wank!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you so much! I simply cannot express how much you mean to me. I'm not sure if you were targeting someone in particular, or all of us :S But you KNOW that the people who read that diary love you dearly! Anya adores you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haley, well, God, we all know she's down right in LOVE with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cat loves you!!! You're her wikkid ass friend! =) Brittany loves you! That boy she went out with that said he loved her and wrote about her in his diary.. he loves you!!!!!!!!!!! He said you were his best friend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REMEMBER IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (... because i was jealous lol :P). Dude, you have always ment so much to me, and all of us (there's more people, but i just can't think right now, sorry). You are a part of me now, and I am a part of you! (even if you don't want that lol). If something happend to you.. God.. I'd be so sad. I really can't predict what would happen. but I do know I'd be effin hearbroken. You're the most important thing to me in the entire world! You always help me, and so many others! YOU CANNOT DENY THAT!! You never fail to make others laugh! Remember that time when Megan was really upset and you sat in the bathroom with her and you held her chin.. you made her happy, you listend to her, you made her feel safe, you made her laugh!!! That is a priceless gift Danielle, and you have the ability to give it! You make everyone happy. You're an amazing person. You're gonna be the best damn shrink ever!!!! You're so beautiful. I love you with all my heart. I really do. Don't ever leave, please... You mean so much to us ALL! You're not stupid, you're not a dissapointment, you're not a waste of time, you're not a failure or anything like that! I'll say this now, and I'll keep saying it until you're safe: Danielle Nicole Parker, I will not give up on you! I love you with all of my heart! ♥ ♥ Sweet dreams! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Whao. Long note. :) I'm quite proud!!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Holy Shit! I love yo Danielle! I haveso much to tell you today! I want to write you a letter and post it, but it won't fucking get their for ages *sticks finger up at postie* Bloody hell! I feel like I AM waiting for a letter, but I'm just excited for you to read it. I don't even remember what it was about... I know I ripped the pages out of my papper diary to write to you :P It's not long though. It was a late avo spare moment thingo, ya know? :S So I appoligise for that. OH! And I was spozed to send you a pair of fairy earings (lol, only because you don't like faries :P) but I found them in MY room yesterday!!!!! :( So that means you haven't got 'em. Oh well. haha! Ugh. Ok ok, rub it in cow!!! -.- How coem you don't have to go to school tomorrow?! I have that song on your diary on at the moment. I haven't heard it in ages! OOOOOH! Last week I was at the library and I went on Dland and was I clicked on your diary, and the music blared out of the speakers! I was quite embarresed :P Everyone was staring at me :S And to make it worse, I took ages to figure out how to turn it off! It wasn't this diary (if it was I would have let everyone listen :P) but it was the other diary... I'm srry to say this, but that song pisses me off. Ok. I said it. I hope you don't take it in a bad way. We don't always aggree on the same thigns, right? HAHAHA! Sorry. WHAT!??!? You're not gonna say thanks to Haley's mum! NOO!!! Lol, you have to suck up to her!!! But I do understand why you wouldn't wat to anyway. She's never been nice to you :( Ok, have you noticed that I haven't gone off my nut yet?!!? (well, I'm always off mi nut, but I mean about what you wrote in your diary today! Grr. I am outraged!!!!!! I will give you a lecture about that later though, ok? Ok). Whoa.. Today was so crazy! I didn't go to sleep last night, at all. I stayed up doing homework and writting a letter to Liz. I never really explained that I don't think.... :S Err, but I'll say it once to you, ok? Ok. Err. last year she was one of the people that saw my cuts when they were bleeding, and I got busted for it. So after that I wrote her a letter saying I didn't mean to cause trouble and stuff for her (cause she burst into tears). She replied and now we are really good mates. Well, we've never really spoken to eachother (a few convos,but that's it) because we're really nervous around eachother. It's not just a friend relationship her and I have.. It's really something. Our letters that we STILL wrote to eachother are hell deep. Yeah... err.. we've started to get closer and stuff. Like, we've smiled at eachother and said Hi, btu before we were too scared to even look at eachother! ....anyway, I gave her a 12 page letter today but i didn't get to finish it, so i gotta do that tonight aswell) but she was really sad. I could tell. I asked her if she was ok, she sorta smiled and said "yes," then she looked away and said she'd write it down for me. I said ok, then we went our seperate ways. Then in last session she was super sad. When she's sad, she pretends like she's fine to everyone else, but I see straight through her. anyway, we were lining up outside of Maths (last session. We're in the same class.) and when everyone went into class, she turned around (but left her bag inside) and walked out. I got worried, butI waited a few minuites to see if she'd coem back. She didn't, so I asked the teacher if I could go to the toilets. She let me!!!! =D I ran really fast to all the toilets around the whole school, with freaking cardboard (really big piece) attatched to me, saying I went to the loo :P I couldn't find her, so I ran back to class and I saw her walking, just about to open the door, and I shouted "LIZ!!" She didn't hear, so I yelled louder. SHe walked up to me. I asked her to tell me what was wrong. She looked at me for a while, then cried a alittle. We went into the bathroom and really REALLY talked!! =) WE talked about so much. I hugged her so tight, so many times. SHe SAID that she loved me =') Aww. Yay. Dude, we seriously talked about so much. It was so nice. I love her. She's so beautiful. We made a pact to say I had diarrhoea if the tacher got mad at us for taking so long :P Dude, we walked into the class and the teacher had her back to us, the class was really loud, and she didn't even notice!!!! She said I had been working all session well!!!! Far out! is she thick or WHAT!?!?!?!? Dude, we were gone nearly the whole session! Like, 10 seconds (no joke) after we got inside, the bell went!! AHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHA! AWSOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D I was so happy when I was walking home! I was smiling and laughing to myself the whole time. I must have looked like a crazy person.. Well, no difference, really. OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! Today there were these two boys in one of my classes that were chating up this girl called Victoria (bit of a user, I think. SHe's mean to everyone, but nice when she wants something), and one of the boys goes "Oi, you know he likes you!!?" And she goes "mm.. whatever." And then he goes "HE LIKES YOU! I'm gonna be the best man at your wedding!" I looked at him and smiled, then he (lol, the "BEST MAN") asked for ehr number! He said it really weird, in a "I'm gonna kidnap you" kinda way, and I busrt out laughing, and snot came flying out of my nose! It went on my papers and on my lip!!! It was so gross! But I kept laughing :S He looked at me for a second, then went to Victoria and said "I thought we were friends. Can I have you number?!" I'm not quite sure if he saw in come outta mi nose, but I was quite ammused by it :) lol. OH MAN!!! Please tell me you went looking for pictures of pancakes/waffles on the internet!!!!! Or do you really remember it off by heart??? Er.. It's ok if you do lol, it's funny. But a little freaky. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh gosh, you like Marilyin Munroe?! Whoa, Kate has a big admiration for her too. But I've never really been told about her. SO I guess I don't really understand her(MM), if that makes sence??? Everyone says she's gorgeous, and that she had a good figure. I do think she is very beautiful. I watched a show a while ago called "Skinny Celebs" and they were saying Marilyin would be concidered 'fat' today, compared to the celebs today. Dude, I don't think she's fat, alone, or compared to others! Haha, I pasted the last 3 notes you left me into word, so I can read off them to reply to you :) I'm up to where you said you're gonna kill Juy and you said it's a test.. Well, if it is REALLY a test, then how come he even thinks it?? What makes people SAY it? I didn't do anythign to him. and if I'm really the 'good' person you think I am, then how coem he said it? You know, it's not the first time someone has said stuff like that to me, so what the hell! If one person thinks it, hundreds of others will. And not because thewanna follow the person who said it in the first place, btu because they believe it. The clinic?? Well, I am going back there straight after to school tomorrow and I am staying until 6pm. But I highly doubt they'll do anythig major. Just talk to me. Keep on making appointments, as usuall. But. Meh. I won't be going anywhere Danielle. Everyone would laugh if they saw that I was gonna stay there! I have told mum that everyone will think she can't handle much if I go there. They wouldn't accept me. I'm no where near "mental/insane" enough, ya know? What movie did you and Haley see? Was it good? Or were y'all too busy looking at eachother?? :P Does Haley drive a car??? :S I am getting my licence this year. Woot. Go me. aHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I want a lock on my door!! How did you manage to score that?? Lol, you don't like George Bush?? Hehe! I think he looks a bit weird.. Then again, so does John Howard! How come you don't like George? Does he make bad decisions for your country?? OH MY GOD! You're so funny!!! DANDILION???? It's so cute! :P But I am pretty sure Dandilion wouldn't want to hurt you! Or do any of those mean things to you! I L♥VE YOU! haha, my brother is on the footon behind me. He said he was bored. Then sat down, and fel asleep. I used to always watch him sleep. It's pretty much the only time he looks peacful. He looks like an innocent baby boy at the moment *pats him* Hm.. I don't know why Nicky did all that. She's beig a weirdo to me lately. She told me that i have to start coming down often, and I DID! Yuo can vouch for that too! You know that I spent like, 3 weeks down there on the holidays, right? And she's still saying that I never come down. She keeps saying she wants me to move in, and that I should be away from here. Oh well. I'm not gonna follow her rules, nor am I gonna "disobey" her. I'll just do what my dad and I work out. I dunno why I took the pills. I didn't do it because i wanted drugs. I just wanted to punish her, by punishing me, I guess. I don't think about it. I can't think about it. I just do it. I'm like that with a lot of things. I guess it's good in a way, btu kind of a bad charaistic to have. Messes things up, ya know? But everything is fine. No harm done. Except I still have a tight head/feeling and a fat throate.. but maybe that is from throwing up. Meh. I'm sorry for upsetting you though. Please don't stop lovign me. I know I can be bad, but I love you, and we've been through a lot. I want you in my life. I need you in my life. YOu're everythign to me. Please don't worry, ok? If I need help, I will coem to you, don't you worry :) ... The whole thing about me blaming myslf for all the bad things. Yes I know that I've talked you out of believing it was your fault when you felt like that, but it seriously had nothing to do with you. t's hard to explain.. But it just IS different. Nicky got mad at me because she was jealous(??????) of me being at Matts house, so she got mad at him, me Georgie, everyone. And that was all because of me. Bad things happen all because of me. I have to admitt, like you said, tht not EVERYTHING is my fault. Like... I don't know. But some thigs arent' my fault. But so many things are. It's not just a coincidence that bad things happen when I do bad things Danielle. It just isn't. Not all bad things, but when I say a bad thing is my fault, 95% of the time, it's true. If somethign wasn't really my fault, the I wouldn't bother getting upset over it. Why on Earth would I want to punish myself for something I didn't do?? Ok, you said that you didn't want me to say "until I'm punished," well. I will be punished Danielle. It won't always be severe. Soemtimes it's just me doing extra homework (or actually DOING homework lol), soemtimes it's throwing up, cutting, excersise, cold showers for a week, no blankets for a week, no sleep, no tv, no scales, sometimes I give all my money to my mum, writting out that I'm a bad person hundreds of times. Anything really. Yesterday I said I wasn't gonna eat. But I have eaten. I had grapes and 2 plums at school. But they're gone. And I had HEAPS of yoghurt. It's still in me. I shoulda kept the grapes and gotten rid of the yoghurt. Oh well. I'm not gonna throw up again today. But my punishment is no blankets to keep me warm at night, I need to sleep on the floor next to my bed, I have to clean out my room again, and I will have cold showers for the next 3 days. I'm not alowed to sleep tonight either. So, everything is ok :) NOW...............................I need to talk to YOU about YOU!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRR! You're so naughty!!!!! I Love you though :P |
| from ethereal-red : |
| I know. I'm sick of fighting too. |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Danielle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHH!!!!!!!!! I am so flipping ecstatic, you get to spend some time with Haley! That is so fucking amazingly cool! You better be having a kick-ass time! I LOVE YOU! ♥ |
| from x-dead-x : |
| I'm so gangster. Peace out home dawg! My casa de home dog! my homey g french fry! My g money! ha ha ha ha! lmao. I'm gonna stop now. ♥ |
| from x-dead-x : |
| We have been stood up =( Whitney no le gusta nuestra. I think thats how ya say it... lol. But cheyah. Call me some time tonight I got some stuff ask you... I get so confused. I think my brain is just fucked up right now. so yeah peace ♥ |
| from tutu13 : |
| well email me at [email protected] and ill give you the 411. :DDDD ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| What the hell are waffles?! Are they a pancake? 'cause if they are, dude! You're nuts! You gotta love pancakes! =D I will make you some when we meet!!! =D YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! YOU GET TO SPEND THE DAY WITH HALEY TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES! *does happy happy happy happy dance!* I hope you have a wonderful time Danielle! I love you so much! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
| from idontpretend : |
| That's what happens when people don't listen to you. You have to repeat yourself. |
| from x-crime-x : |
| Oh freaking really?!?!!?!? You haven't thrown up eh?? :| *sighs* Well, you're just starving yourself then?? Ok, I DO understand that you have to get out of this on your own, but it's just so hard to see you doing it, when there's nothing I can do.. I don't know what to say or anything. Um, I sent you a "pakage" this avo! It's got the book in it! It's got a photo, and two (or one.. can't remember :S), um.. it's got a little lettr in there for you, um, nd the little red bag thingo i made you a while ago. I can't wait until you get it!!!!! OH!!!!! I nearly forgott!! ha, I put some cotton buds in there too... I don't know why, but I got really excited and started shuving random stuff in it! Um.. I put a bandaid in there too.. I found it on my floor *smiles evily* I hope you don't get a disease.. I used it for my thumb a while ago.. about 4 months... *looks away guiltily* ... BUT YOU HAVE TO LOVE IT, ok?!??! PLEASE!!!!!!!!?? Um, I wrote a poem for you by the way.. but I lost it :( Ok, moving on! Anytime you want or need to talk to me about the eating or anythgin else, please don't be affraid to. I feel a lot better when yo uopen up to me. I'm always here for you. SHIT HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'''''''''''''''''( I forgot to put that movie in the package!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ha! I'll send it tomorrow, eh? Dammit! For ages I've been typing so freaking stupidly!! Everytime there's an "ing" I have been doing it as "ign." I don't knwo why I do it. I think I just keep slippng up or somethign.. FUCK!!! There we go again!!! <<<<< Look at that!!! I did it wrong again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I'm gonna cry if I do that one more time! Or I'll do something else. Today when you said I was perfect, I know I'm not perfect, but I felt like that maybe I was an ok person.. even though mum doesn't think so. SO I just wanted to say thank you for that. It means a lot to me. I wrote more about it in the letter ;) Oh, by the way, the letter's not very long because if I'd kept going, I'd still be writting, and I didn't wanna bore you. Gosh. Aleesha just singed in on msn. She's upset. :( Dammit. God, Danielle, I want to be with you forever. I love you so much. I reall hope you're doing ok at the moment.. Oi, about that aim thingo, do you mind if I just use the one that you have, spare? :S And then, I'll get my brother to down load it, because I'm too stupid to do it. Ya know that note i sent you, but it was for Katie?? Yeah, did you delete that?? I tried to find it, but I couldn't the other day :( That's the 3rd time I've written that note!! lol, each time something happens to it :( Oh well. I love you. I'm gonna do an entry now. I love you so much! Sweet dreams!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Oh Gosh.. I can't do it. I kept calling the number and just hanging up. I thought it would be easy. But I just don't know what to say to them.. I have to do it though. I have to try and help you. I'm gonna try again.. I'll come back, hopefully and tell you what they say, ok? ok! But before I go, I want you to please TRY TRY TRY TRY and stop all this. YOu really mean so much to everyone and I do not want you getting worse. I love you so much! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Lol, you don't need to worry about hurting him, because if somethign does happen, I WILL hurt him! Trust me, I will! Any excuse for me to hurt someone :P *evil laugh* Err, that book Massive that I want you to read?? Yeah, well i was thinking about one second ago lol, that I should send it to you instead? Want me to? I still haven't sent you that little bagy thingo i made you dammit!!! =( I have to, because it will make you feel better.. I wish I could take care of you. I can't stand to sit here watching you get sicker and deeper into your eating disorder. Are you going to decide to get beter soon Danielle?? Are you going to get help. OMG!!! I'll be right back! I just rememberd I said I'd call the help line for you ages ago, but I never did it. brb. I love you! |
| from xeison : |
| Are you really sure she knows? Sometimes we think things should be obvious to others, but we have hid it so well, that it isnt :/. |
| from xeison : |
| Why does she say it is "wrong" to be homosexual? If you are going to insist on losing weight, please be careful, i dont want you to be hurt:(. i love you *hugs*. |
| from xeison : |
| im glad you didnt throw up, and you are not getting any stupider, and you are not stupid, you are very smart. Intelligence really has nothing to do with any of it, intelligent people are as vulnerable as anyone else, emotion, not logic, is what drives such things, and emotion cannot be intellectualied, it must be dealt with on its own plane. You are not stupid. i guess you have not been feeling better though, im sorry. |
| from x-crime-x : |
| That girl I write letters to at school, remember?? Elizabeth. Yeah. La la la. I love you! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Then it's time to stop hiding Danielle ♥ I love you! |
| from xeison : |
| It does, may i ask what you are trying to hide? |
| from xeison : |
| Congratualations on 10 months with Haley, im very happy for you :D. The worlds you put in your other diary did pretty well at decribing your love for her. i hope you felt better today. |
| from xeison : |
| im glad that you at least have this as a haven. |
| from x-crime-x : |
| No one pissed me off dearie! Everything is good! :) Um, i emailed you the new password by the way. Um, and as for your entries missy.. *sigh* quit with the short entries!!!! YOu're scaring me! I hope you're ok.. I love you so much! XXXXXXX |
| from xeison : |
| Its not horrible, but its not good. At least for now, please know that i love you, and others do too, as i am sure you know, and it makes all of us happy when you do something good for yourself. |
| from x-dead-x : |
| Danielle I'm getting so frustrated!! Who sings the song on your page??!?!!?! I KNOW I've heard it, but my mind's drawing a blank!!! aaaaaaaaaah! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ |
| from xeison : |
| im sorry that they are doing that. You are not inferior to anyone, and you are your own person. im sorry that you cannot be fully open about how you feel at home, though you can be here at least right? i hope you can :/. i think sometimes people feel the need to associate us with other people, rather than understand that we as people can change on our own, becuase that is harder for them, i dont know, im sorry i cannot answer your questions. |
| from xeison : |
| No reason to thank me, i havent done anything. im sorry that you are feeling this way. i know it probably wont matter, me asking this, but can you please try and eat a little more frequently :/. im sorry. |
| from xeison : |
| How long have you been starving yourself, may i ask? i honestly probably have no right to say this, but is it possible that you are doing this, because maybe if you meet their expectations of you, they will pay attention more? i dont know the technical word for it, but usually people try to meet what others expect of them. Wanting attention is not stupid Danielle, but the way you are doing it is not the best way, it is dangerous, but you already know that it is dangerous. Wanting attention, though, is natural, after all, what is the point of being when noone cares? People do care though Danielle, i know we are not there, and it is not the same, but people do care about you. Also, i think you wrote in your other entry that it is stupid for you to want a Mother, like i said before, wanting to be loved isnt stupid Danielle, it is practically a neccesity. Wanting a Mother isnt stupid, i lots of times wish for a Mother, does that make me stupid? Do you want to talk about anything? i love you, i hope you will be ok *HUGS*. |
| from x-crime-x : |
| You're not fucking anything up. I love you |
| from razornotes00 : |
| P.S That new song you have put on your diary: I really really really really REALLY like it! =) It's beautiful. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| No. No. No. No. Danielle, this has gone on long enough as far as I'm concerned. I miss you! I miss the beautiful, strong, kind caring girl that I love dearly. You're no a bad person. You're not a failure, you're not ugly, you're not stupid, you're not pathetic! You're the reason we're all here, still. You help everyone so much. You alwys do. I don't EXPECT anythign of you, nor does any one else, you're just so kind yourself, and always do such great things, for everyone. YOu're truly wonderful. I don't care if you don't think it at the moment, I just want you to know that you're none of the bad things you say you are.. I love you so much. YOu're everything.. everythign great. I love you xxx |
| from xeison : |
| You are a wonderful person, just because you have trouble eating, does not make you a bad person. Yes, it worries us, but that is what happens, because we care about you, because you are a wonderful person, and so we worry, but that does not make you a bad person. You do not do it on purpose, and we know that. i hope you have been ok lately, though im not sure whether you have been :/. i love you |
| from razornotes00 : |
| How come you haven't replied to my notes?!?! It's been 2 days and I miss you!!!!!!!!!! I need my Danielle fix! I love you! I'm sorry that your birthday sucked :( But Happy Birthday anyways! XXX |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ok, moving on! OMG! I was.. um.. browsing through your notes.. and I saw that Hales left you a note!!!!!!! =D But I got the feeling she was thinking I was/am a total freak when she saw that I wanted to see your legs :( *crosses eyes* What would make her think I'm weird??? BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA! Ugh. I was hoping to make myself laugh then, but it didn't work :S Ok, sorry for wasting your time with that! :( Sorta.. not really, well, kinda :P Well, I got back from Scarborah today. It's 4:03pm. My back is hell burnt, and I have a freaking pimple on my face :'( I want to burn it!! Lol, nah, I do NOT like The Betles! But I like the shirt, so I got it.. Plus, I didn't bring many clothes down (stupid stupid!! It was a hint to them to say I wasn't going to be staying long, but the buggas are a bit slow, eh?) Yeah, so I got some new clothes with my money from Christmas.. Yup, it's a new year and a new grade! :) Oh, um, nightmares.. ugh. just about Aaron, and how this year will turn out (badly) and shit like that. I keep seeing 2 dogs attacking a little kitten. I run to scare it off, they run away, but the kitten is still alive, panting, covered in blood. Then it keeps trying to get up and run away, but it dies. I keep seeing heaps of kids running up to me (not in a dream, just at any time.. :S) and trying to take my clothes off. I keeps hearing Jake's voice.. "It's all your fault, Georgia. It's your fault for making me do this." *sighs* Whoa. You're the first person who I've told that to.. :S I hope you don't mind though? Anyway. Never mind. It's better if I just egnore it. I pretty much HAVE to anyway, because I'm constantly surrounded by people here, ya know? Oh God, I would kill to be with you right now and just vegg out.. (that means to like.. Laze around or something. Like, um, AHH! EAT AND WATCH MOVIES!! lol) You're so beautiful. Please don't ever get bored of me. I can't live without you. I AM gonna see you, so don't worry doll face! =) Ok, so about 30 mins ago, you wrote a short entry about you nearly telling Aunty Kimmy about the ed.. Um, dude.. Farquad. Yo are no faluire! YOu're wonderful. When the time is right, you'll feel a lot better about telling her. Maybe you should admitt yourself into a hospital.. or like a care centre or something, rehab? They could help you get better. Or prahaps just a shrink? One that youcan open up to. YO uknow the Help Lines? I dunno if you have em over there :S Yeah, call them and see what they think you should do about telling her or not? I'll call them as soon as I'm home alone when I get back home. I promise Danielle. Everything will work out soon. Just keep trying to get better. One day at a time baby :) Ugh, I know what you mean about Brittany copping you all the time. Georgie does it too. She always has and always will. Like, yesterday I bought a side bag, and then bought a heaps of band badges, emily badges and heaps of others, and she did the SAME thing! Grr. I was quite pissed off :(. She always tries to dress like me, and do her hair like me, listen to the same music, say the same things etc. OMG!!! She keeps threatening to scrath herself because she knows I have done it. And I tell her not to do it. I say it's pathetic. But she always says "Well how come you get to do it!?!?!" Grr. It pees me off. But I get sad when she says it too. she just doesn't realise what threatening to do it can cause for me. That' sone thing that has always gotten me: when people threaten me. It's usually when I get really angry at OTHER people, not myself, ya know? Meh. Probably not. Anyway, long story short, is that I understand how you feel lol. I don't reckon Brittany would do it if she didn't have some sort of respect and admirance for you.. ya know? Hm... Nope. Not telling Angel! lol :P Oh my God, I was totally gobb smacked when you told me about Xesion... *shakes head* Whoa.. It's unbilieveable. It's so sad.. How did he end up talking to you and Angel on here though? Gosh, well I know it's hard for the both of you to have to deal with it, so you're welcome to come and talk to me about it, not that I'd be of any help, sorry. But yeah.. :S Oh, I can't wait to see the wristo!!! I will wear it all the time!!! =D OMG! I can't believe it's your birthday soon!!!! I will send you a birthday card, but it won't get there on time, will it?? :( OMG! When it the 10th????! Is that Wednesday?? Ugh, I've lost track of the days. I gotta go hang out the washing now, before someone touches my clothes. I'll brb &hearts: Alright, I'm back :) Ya know, um, ugh. never mind. I got the "how am I?" entry btw.. but I have to go back and read it, because I didn't quite understand it, then I'll reply to it, ok? Ok. Well, are, I'm gonna go update now, then read your entry again. I love you so much! Sweet dreams!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ha, I am too, that's why we make such a great little relationship! =) (ugh, hate that word! It's so weird!) |
| from razornotes00 : |
| You are crazy!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Who the hell does stuff like that?!!?! *points to the note you left yourself* Bloody hell Dani! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| YOU ARE SUCH A FREAK!!!!!!!!! |
| from x-razor-x : |
| hi me. how's it goin? WELL, IT'S GOIN. yeah, i know what that's like. SO YOU GONNA SLEEP TONIGHT? i sure as hell hope so. I GUESS YOU'LL DIE IF YOU DON'T. guess so. NOT MUCH OF A TALKER, ARE YOU? you should know, idiot. i'll talk if i like you. WHAT ARE YOU SAYING? that i don't like you. BITCH! why, thank you. so kind. *PUNCHES* *kicks* *BITES* *screams and falls* *STOMPS ON FACE* *gets up, pulls hair* *SCREAMS, CALLS A TRUCE* *bothAPOLOGIZEandGOtoSLEEP* ♥♥♥ |
| from thatgirlx : |
| :( |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Sorry I can't stay here long my dear Dani poo :( I LOVE YOU!!!! =D Um, you said you wish I'd stop doing this.. What does that mean? :S I haven't thrown up in 2 days, I'm not shooting, I'm not taking non-prescribed pills anymore/recently, and the panodol thingo wasn't on purpose, I haven't cut in what seems like forever!(just the recent thigh thingo, you know about that anyway). I'm not scratching, pulling my hair out, or clipping my nails so short that they bleed, I hardly bite them now. I'm not punching walls anymore. I'm not hitting myself with a ruler until it bruises anymore. I though I was being better than I normaly am.. But. um. O well. I'm sorry that I dissapoint and scare you. I love you with all of my heart, and I always will. I'm sorry Dani. Dude, you can't not notice your but!! =0 I wanna SEE!!! I'll ask Hales what kind of but you have :) haha, I have a stickie-outtie-bum ! =D When I look at it in the mirror, it looks like the moon! But when I'm wearing pants or something, it looks like a big African butt! lol But I like big buts. Ha, last year, I reckon I had a pretty snazzy but! Even my brother said it was nice! But then I got fat this year, and it just looks big. Haha, dude... aww :'( The scars on your legs, they don't make your legs any less attractive to me. I don't know how to explain it! Um, eek! AHH! Idk! Um. They, nope. I'm screwd!! lol, I'm sorry, I just can't think of how tp put it into words! I just want to see your legs, no matter what they loo like. Plus, why says white isn't sexy!?!?!?!?!?!? :P I love you!!!!!!!! Um.. What else did you say?? Oh yeah! CD'S!!!! hahahahahahahahahahahaha!!! Coool bannanas!!! =D Do you like Marilin Manson?? Lala.. OH YES!!! Dude, I DID DID take your test!! =D I took it the first time I saw it, but some of the stuff confused me.. You like pizza, but you like lasange, so what was I spozed to pick?? Um, I'll take it agian lol. And I'll submit it this time :P ♥ AHHH! DUDE!!! I have no idea what your favourite amimal iis!!!!!!! =O Um, moving on. La la la la la la la la. Bloody hell. Christmas is tomorrow!!!! Hm.. dun dun dun dun dun dun.. I LOVE YOU!!!! =) Whao. the computer is freaking out :S Hm, I shall atke your test now! I LOVE YOU! |
| from x-dead-x : |
| PLEASE get off the internet!! |
| from xxsorrowxx : |
| Georgia...wants to see...your legs...WHAT THE HELL!!!!Ahhhhhh!!!Hannah just fell off a chair!*pokes*Ok she's alive.=)I love you!!!!!!!My grandma has a can of whipped cream and I was squirting some into my mouth and I got it all over my face.=( I'm such an idiot.But you love me for it, right?Mmmm....I wanna call you but I can't cause you're at your dentist appointment and even if I did call you I wouldn't have anything to talk about because I haven't done anything that's worthy of talking about besides watch stupid PBS shows.I have to watch Hannah.She's being a little arse.Bleh.Um...I love you and I miss you lots and lots and lots.If I get too bored I'm walking to your house and I'm bringing some acid with me.Not the kind that you take to get high but the kind that you burn people's eyes out with.>=)I love you.I say that too much don't I?So what I don't care.I'll say it as much as I can.I love you!!!!!!!!!I'm thinking about unlocking my diary just because there's no point in keeping it locked anymore.Oh fuck!That's not good.Gotta go.Hannah just broke something.I love you. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| BACK! :) Thank you so much for the advice about Matt! It all made so much sence when you said that not everybody is born with being able to communicate well in a relationship. Thank you :) But how do I learn to, like.. um, be nice? lol Idk. EEk! ha, it doesn't really matter anyway. I don't think we're (matt and I) are a good idea again. grr. um.. lala la la la. I know how it'll end up. The same as it did the first time. I'm just not fit for relationships :) That's it. I can do it on my own (without dudes I mean!). Yup. All done. Ok, what else??? HA! MAKE UP! lol, you use the runny stuff?? hehe, one time I bought a runny eye liner thingo, and I put it on and it got in my eye, and my poor eye went black! I never wear lip gloss or the blushie thingo, I've worn foundation about 3 times, but it always turns out to be disasterous! As for eye shadows, I only use browns and natural colours. I've tried pink and blues, but it doesn't suit!! :"( OOOH LA LA! I wanna see the green eye shadow on you!!!! =D That would look so awsome!!! Bloody hell Danielle, you said you have bad skin!!! MAN! Trust me, from what I've seen, you DON'T! I have bloody permanant himalayers everywhere!!! Your skin is so pretty, and WHITE lol :P You have a beautiful smile, and nice big, dark eyes!! Man, what do your legs look like?!!?!?!?!? huh? huh??? HUH??!?!? I wanna see! Wait, I'll re-phrase that: I wanna see your legs without somehting covering them! OK? Ok :) hahahahahahahahaha! Do you have a 'stickie-outie-bum?? Or a flat bum?? I wanna see it too!!!! =D Lol, that bracelet I made you, haha, I made it because I couldn't think of anything else to do, and Kate was over, so we both made some stuff :) It looks SO childish, but that's why I like it. It's cute! :) Dude, do you know Jimmy Eat World????? I'm listening to it now :) The albam is called 'Stay On My Side Tonight.' There's a song on it that reminds me of you and Hales! hahahaha! It's called Disintegration. The music to the whole album it so beautiful and brilliantly put together. The sound effects are amazing and well set out :) It's all so calming! la la la la la.. I feel like chocolate!!!!! Ha, you like while chocolate????!?! Yippi! I used to love it ♥ It was my favourite! But then, I dunno, I stopped and moved to the normal/medium/milk chocolate. Yummy! Baha! Dude! I made a little cd thingo!!! hahahahaha! I took apart a cd cover, and glued material all over it, then I put it back together again, then I put pictures inside it!!! haha. Whoa.. that's sounds shithouse. Oh well, it looks GOOD! Do you think we'll ever like, die down?? Do you think we'll ever run out of things to say?? I don't mean to scare you or anything, it's just, the other day I was thinking about it. I know I'll always love you and no matter how things get, I'll never give up on us/you/me, but are you sure you won't ever get bored with me?? Ok, I'll shut up about that nbow. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha, so will you teach me how to put make-up on one day??? =) AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAHA! I cut my hair off again today =D But it is ok. I didn't do it becaus eI was sad, I did it because it was annoying me. I'm thinking of getting it cut really short (seeing as my mum won't let me shave it all off :() I love you! Ha, kate stayed over last night, and she went home around 1pm. It's 3:33pm right now. It feels a lot later.. maybe it's just 'cause the lights are off..? AWW!!!! :( I figured Angel was upset. She misses Xesion, and someothers? Or just him?? Man, she's so cool! I hate that she has to have problems with eating though. I have to stay out of it thoug, don't I? lol. I can't help her with it.. It's up to her, right?? hm.. Darnit!!! When was the last time you hugged me!!?!?!?!!?!?!?!? *runs up to you and jumps on you* *you fall down and start to cough in your weird "itchy-throat" way :P* *I pat your back* *you cough harder* *I poke your throate* *you stop coughing and hit me* *I run* *you jump on me* *I pull one of your eye lashes out* *you cry* *i say "I'm sorry Dani, I love you!"* *you cry harder* *I take one of my eye lashes out and give it to you* *you stop crying* *you tell me you love me* *WE HUG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!* YIPPPI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D hahahahahahaha! I love you! *hugs you* Um, loobers... um. they're a drug :S An extreme muscle relaxant.. Rrr. I didn't take any!!! HA! You got Cd's from Angel!?!?! YAY! What ones?? =D How long did it take for them to get to Cats house????? hm.. la la la la la! I love you! ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| G'day! I'll reply to your note later, but first of all.. That letter to your mum.. um.. I think you need to give it to her. Perhaps it won't change much, for now, but one day, I think she'll talk to you about it. When she reads it, I think it'll get to her. It'll scare her and make her think about a lot of things in her life. *sighs* Actually, I'm not sure about it :S But I do know that something WILL happen when she gets it. I think you writting that letter was very mature and responsible of you. You're truly on of a kind. YOu're anazing. You are so strong, yet so fragile. You're beautiful in everyway. You've done the right thing Danielle. I love you so much. Good luck! :) |
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| aaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!! *put fingers in ears, says lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala!!!, and runs around in circles* *crashes into a wall* *danielle laughs alot* *I take back the paramore cd* *danielle cries alot* *I give back the paramore cd* *danielle starts luaghing again* *I kick her in the shin and run away to hace el venir* *danielle is still laughing as hace ella venir* haaaaaa haaaaaaaaa haaaaaaaaaa. We hacemos el/ella venir! ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| I opsted the cards by the way! =D And I gave you your blasted wristo *mumbles* :P |
| from razornotes00 : |
| You're perfect! ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| You're an inspiration |
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| You're beautiful |
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| I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO proud of you for eating and not throwing up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you so much! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Baby, I love you, and it's ok to wonder what it's like to have two loving parents.. It's ok, you have the right to do it. I love you! |
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| I love you!!! |
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| I'm back! But it's morning and I have no idea what your note said, and what else I was gonna say :S |
| from x-dead-x : |
| hey man, get off the computer i gotta tell you seomthing really important and something that you're gonna freak over. so get off and call me! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Lmao! HALEY SAID "Oh my fucking bob!" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! That is so cool! Ugh, the shrink.. strewth. I don't like her. I want to hurt her really bad. Man, when I listen to her, I can feel my brain cells dying! I have no disrespect for HER!!!!! Just the way she WORKS, you know? I don't thik she's doing me any good, no. I saw her thismorning and.. God. I dunno. I know I hate change and that want Sarah back, if I had a choice, but I don't think it's got anythign to (MUCH) to do with the change, just the way she presents herself and the way she talks.. She treats me like I'm 2 years old. I don't care. I'll go back once more, then I'll tell hjer I don't want to.. I hope they won't take away my pills though :S I need them. It's 4:45pm right now, and I'm gonna send your cards today, but the won't go 'til tomorrow, because it's too late for 'em today :( I went to the city today (ALONE! :() and got my nanna some stuff :) The train ride home wasa quite scary.. There was some skater poofs sitting accros from me and I stared at them the whole way home (about an hour) and these aboriginals came on the train and started to crack a shit with them, and I stared at them, and they called me fat, and I stood up, and walked infront of the Sk8er's,(because one of 'em was getting nasty and gonna hit 'em) and stood infront of 'em. And the aboriginals, tried to nudge me, but I just stood their, they were all staring at me! So I stared back :) I said "back off" and the got off the train!!! HAHAHAHAHAAHHA! Now.. I dunno if that was because it was their stop lol, or because I scared them :P Haha, the assie sk8er's said that those guys were always on their backs for no reason. I said "shhh" lol and just stared at them again. Danielle, I'm going CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why did I do that!?!?!??!?!?!?! I don't know what the "bob" got into me! O well, noone got hurt. Can I read the letter you're gonna write your mum?? It's ok if it's too personal though :) WHOA!!!!!!!!!! Congrats on your mid-term score! YAY! *high five* I'll try come on again later and reply to the rest of your notes, but I'm gonna take your cards up now. I love you so much! |
| from ethereal-red : |
| I so know how that feels. I mean, to feel weird because things are going better. I thought I was the only one who felt like that. |
| from x-dead-x : |
| Are you pissed at me? It really seemed like it in Chemistry. |
| from xxsorrowxx : |
| Yes!Finally I get to get on here!Oh my fucking Bob!Nine months!Can you fucking believe it?!I've been thinking about you all fucking day.I wish I was with you right now instead of here with my uberly awesome cousins.But you're way way better then them!I miss you so much!Do you think I'm a fucking retard?I think I am...I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!I feel sad now because I'm here and you're there...='( NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Mucho sadness.... *cries awesomely ginourmous(sp?) emo tears* I'm gonna give you a gigantasmic (I freakin love that word!) hug tomorrow!No!Monday!Cuz I'm not gonna see you tomorrow...='( *more mucho tears* I miss you. Do you miss me? No. You don't. I see how it is. You only want me when you can frustrate the hell out of me. Fine! Be that way! Ok done with the retardedness. I LOVE YOU! I saw a llama today!!!!!! Go me!!!!!!! And a zebra...>=( Stupid fucking zebra... But HA! I saw one and you didn't! I AM THE SUPREME RULER OF THE UNIVERSE! Bow before me!!!! This is still really retarded, isn't it? I'm trying to make you laugh. Is it working? You probably just think that I'm an idiot now. That's ok. I know that I'm an idiot. But apparently you like that or else you wouldn't be with me. =D I love you.You mean everything to me.Without you my life would be completely worthless.There would be no meaning to it.I'd give up anything and everything just to be with you for a little while.All this stuff that I've had to go through with Jayna and everyone else...It's all been worth it.It doesn't matter how much shit I have to go through for the rest of my life.It'll all be worth it just as long as I have you by my side.I'm so in love with you.I never thought I could feel this way about someone.I'm so incredibly happy that I do though.I love you, Dani.I'm going to love you forever and always.You can count on that.I love you.Sweet dreams,my love. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| G'day! I'm back again. It's just gone 12am. ha. Anyway, I've got a list of Aussie translations for ya :) Crook : sick, or badly made. Cozzie : swimming costume. Crack a fat : get an erection. Cranky : in a bad mood, angry. 'Mad as a cut snake': angry. Dag : a funny person, nerd, goof. Daks: pants. Dill : an idiot. Deadset : true. Dingo's breakfast : a yawn, a leak and a good look round (i.e. no breakfast). Dinky-di : the real thing. Dob (somebody) in : inform on somebody. Hence dobber, a tell-tale. Freo : Fremantle. Fremantle Doctor : the cooling afternoon breeze that arrives in Perth from the direction of Freo. Fruit loop : fool. lol, you'll probably know this one because I've used it heaps! G'day: hello! :P Galah : fool, silly person. Give it a burl : try it, have a go. Greenie : environmentalist. Good oil : useful information, a good idea, the truth. Good onya: Wll done. Grog: Alchohol. Holy dooley! : an exclamation of surprise. Hooroo : goodbye. Hottie : hot water bottle. Hoon : hooligan. Jackaroo : a male trainee station manager or station hand. Jillaroo : a female trainee station manager or station hand. Knock back : refusal. Knocker : somebody who criticises. Lippy : lipstick. Liquid laugh:vomit. Longneck : 750ml bottle of beer in South Australia. Long paddock : the side of the road where livestock is grazed during droughts. lob in : drop in to see someone ("the rellies have lobbed"). Maccas: Mcdonald's. Mate's rate, mate's discount : cheaper than usual for a "friend". Mate : buddy. Moolah : money. Mozzie: Mosquito. Mystery bag : a sausage. Blowwie: Flies. Mull: Weed/grass/dope ect. Nasho : National Service. No Drama: No worries. Not the full quid : not bright intellectually. No-hoper : somebody who'll never do well. Nipper : young surf lifesaver. Never Never: Aussie's outback. Nut out: Work out. Pav: Aussie dessert. Pig's arse! : I don't agree with you. Bring a plate: Take a plate of food to a party. Pint: large glass of beer. Piece of piss: Easy task. Pom, pommy : an Englishman. Pommy bastard : an Englishman lol :P. Porky: A lie. Postie: Postman. Make a quid: Earn money. Rapt: Happy. Rack off: Get lost! =D Rego : vehicle registration. Reffo: Refuge. Ridgy-didge : original, genuine. Rip snorter : great, fantastic - "it was a rip snorter of a party". Rock up: Arrival. Roo: Kangaroo. Skippy: A kangaroo cartoon. Root: Sex. Rooted: Tried. Root Rat: Probably someone who's a sex addict.Scratchy : instant lottery ticket. Screamer : party lover. Sandgroper : a person from Western Australia (ME!) Snag: Sassage. Seppo: An American (YOU!!) lol. Shark biscuit : somebody new to surfing. She'll be right : it'll turn out okay. Sheila : a woman. Servo: Petrol Station. Shit house: Unenjoyable. Shoot through : to leave.Sickie : day off sick from work. Sook: Someone who whines a lot. Spag bol : spaghetti bolognese. Spit the dummy: upset. Sprung : caught doing something wrong. Spunk: Good looking person. Squizz: look. Stickybeak : nosy person. Strewth: Um.. this can mean anything really.. Like, ya kinda say it instead of "wow." So like, STREWTH! I can't believe that! Ya know? Ok! :) Tall poppies : successful people. Too right! : definitely! Top End : far north of Australia. Trackie dacks : tracksuit pants. Truckie : truck driver. Tucker: food!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Remember!!?!?!? LASANGA! =P Uni: university. Vee dub : Volkswagen. Vejjo : vegetarian. Vinnie's : St. Vincent De Paul's (charity thrift stores and hostels). Waggin: Skipping class. White pointer: Bathers. Wobbly: Overbaring Excitment. Yabber : talk. Yobbo : an uncouth person. Yewy : u-turn in traffic. Ace! : Excellent! Amber fluid : beer. Ambo : ambulance, ambulance driver. Ankle bitter: A Kid. Arvo: afternoon. Avos: avocados. To "big note" yourself: Bragging. Bingle : motor vehicle accident. Um.. I'm sure there's a shitload more, but I can't thnk of anymore.. :S AHHHHHH!!!!!!!! I knew you were putting off telling me about what to write!!! GRR! WHY?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!? lol, I am gonna write a card to my rellies in South Australia this arvo, so I yeah.. I might do yours then to, if my mum doesn't come home. Oh yeah, I had a look at that aim thingo.. Dude, it's the same as msn! And i have msn!!!!! But, because I love you, I will download it anyway. But I dunno like.. um, I dunno what name to use and stuff. What's yours???? It's not like a page thingo, is it? Not like MySpace or anything aye? It's just a chat thingo?? What sort of chocolate do you like??? I gotta wash the dog in a few minuites aye man. Ugh. Smelly doggy! Man, he's grown so much (Charlie, the dog/puppy). He used to be able to fit in my hands, now he's taller than up to my knees!! Oi, Danielle, in movies, people sometimes say "he went down on you" and stuff.. What does that mean??? Is it that they had sex?? I want a kitten to play with today :( Or a little tiny weenie puppy!! =D I like puppies. OMG! ahahahahahahahaha! When you come over here, we HAEV to go to the ZOO! What do ya reckon?!?! I was watching a docco the other day, and it was about lions and cheetas :) I want a baby lion to play with too!!!! Hmm. You haven't updated x-razor-x yet.. Maybe that's good though! :) Well, either way, I hope you're alright. I love you so freaking much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sweet dreams!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Well I shouldn't have been doing that stuff in the first place, so I ave no right to feel proud of myself, ya know? And just so YOU don't use that against me (like you did with "you can't judge how long you'll feel love for someone" remember??!!!! grr :P) you have to know that that's just ME, not you! Ok? Ok! :) FREAK! lol, looser Aussie language huh?? huh???? HUH!?!?!? Well, when you see that movie, you won't understand any of it! hashahahahahahahahahahahahha! So I guess I have a lot of teaching to do, but I dunno what you DON'T know :S .............. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU AND HALEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Aww, it's so great to see you happy and peaceful when you 2 are going good! =D Wow, nine months?!?! Duude, that's crazy! I remember when you said 6 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-0 Man, time flies huh? Haha! YOu and Haley are so cute together! *pats your head. pokes her nose* I love you both so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha, Alyce just came in the office.. Um.. what to say, what to say.. I'll coem back in a few minuites. I love you!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Everything will get better, soon Danielle. I love you! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I'm sorry. I love you ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Hello my early bird! I love you so much!! Ok, so I have a thing called MSN.. is that the same thing??? We can talk on their if ya want?? If it's easy to download and 'sesnisble' then mum will let me downlaod it :) OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU HAAAAAAAAAAAAAVE to see The Gaurdian!! OMG.. *sighs* beautiful..(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) Ok, so heres the plan for today: Have a shower, get on my bike and ride to Armadale, get some bordies, change my friends undie set to a smaller size, get soem lettus and watermellon, then ride-ride-ride-away home, make a salad, then ride to Kate's house, and we're OFF to Cotteslo beach fr the day! WOOT WOOT! Now, what is Dani deary doing today?? hm.. Sorry?? *puts hand behind ear* What was that?? Ohh.. You said SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahahahahahhaahahahahaahhahaahhahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!! Haha, sorry :( Well, at least at school you get to perve on hot chicks (Hales) :P We don't have many hottie here, and if we DID, the wouldn't be at the beach! lol, they'd be infrount of the mirror at home, or snoggin with their bfs! Ok, sorry about that! ha, in your entry you said you were worried about me. Duude, get that off your shoulders!!! I'm absolutly fine! :) Worrying about me won't change anything, except make you feel worse. So stop it! :P Babe, I love you too much to not include you in my life. I will tell you when I need help. You just talking to me makes me feel so much better. I love you with all my heart :) *takes Georgia off your shoulder* Hm.. I wonder what you're doing right now.. What are you doing, huh? huh? huh?!?!?!?! Do you get to have the medicine tonight??? I love you! I love you so much Danielle. I love you! Sweet dreams! ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Whoa. Good thing you told me about the 4 enties, or I would've missed out!!!! Poor me. Haha, dude, I'm sending you a movie called You And Your Stupid Mate. Have you seen it? I doubt it, because it's an Aussie movie. Absolutly crap, but funny :) I reckon you'll like it. The tall dude with the freaky teeth reminds me of me :( ..... AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! MOTHER ^$#*&%*&^ FRIDAY WAS AWSOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I so wanted you to be there!! YOu would have gone nuts at karnovool and you would have laughed so hard at CowTown!!!! Man, they were so funny. I'll give you the link to so of their music. They're a hip hop band, but WIKKID! http://www.myspace.com/dairyfarmers their ya go! :) Go look at it now! GO SON!!!!!!!!!!!! Ah, dude, have you been to subway before!??!!? YUMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's my favourite food place! You need to have their cookies! Kate and i rode all the way there just to get one today lol :P Yummy! PIZZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YUMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thismorning I woke up and sat on my bed for a few minuites and whispered "pizza.." to myself. And kate goes "mm.. me too" lol hahahahaha! hm.. ugh! Screw Christmas this year. I'm so unorganised! If I wasn't so selfish and fucked up, I could have had my job still and would have at least $500 buks to get everyone in my family something decent! God. I'm so pathetic. I HATE me! *sighs* why does Christmas have to be about gifts anyway?? It's not what it's about.. I can never do anything good for my family. I'm useless. I'm too fat and far too ugly to go out in public! I can't do anything right. Everything is dirty when I am here. Oh shit, sorry. I'll shut up about that. Ugh, you don't like freckles??? :( man, i do. They're pretty, and CUTE! Whoa, I knew about the eating disorder and the drug and alcohol abuse, but not that she cuts. How do you know?? Jolie too??? Farquad! But her skin is so spotless!! Where??? Aw, poor Johnny :'( I love him!! Yeah, aparently Princess Diana was suffering from depression.. How come I didn't know she was cutting though??? Her body would have been inspected by the Ambos, for medical reasons. Wouldn't they have found scars or cuts? And then told everyone? *mumbles.. except me* lol. Dani-pooh, my shoulder hurts, can you kiss it better!??!!? :( hahahahahahahahahahahahaha, I think Haley is really sexy too :D She told me how y'all met too by the way lol :P How did you both know you were gay? I don't get it. When did you figure out you liked girls? Did you know she was gay too? Or were you just hoping to corrupt her lol?? :P Who do you wanna stalk, huh? huh?huh? HUH?!??!?!?! Hm.. we need to make toilet papper binocklulars (shut up, I can't spell that either/too lazy to look it up). I've got heaps of them. It's one of my obsessive compulsive disorders.. I have to have them.. Just like all the power switched have to be off, and I have to make sure all the pictures are straight, and i have to sit in the disabled spot on the floor in the train, and i have to flinch my shoulder when the side walk bell goes off, and I have to blink an even number of times, I have to AWLAYS read the words "stared" and "start" 2 times each. I have to tuck my shoe laces in or something bad will happen. I have to get off my bike before I actually stop or something bad will happen. I have to eat the crust of pizza no matter what (even if I don't want to), and I always have to sleep with my teddy bear Silky, or I have to stay up all night drawing him. I( can never listen to a full albam from the start to finish, like, I have to start at number 2 or 5 or something. The towels have to be hung with the labels on he outside. The bath mats have to be on the first tile out from the bath tub, and 2 tiles from the wall. The soaps have the be straight all the time, the microwave has to be turned off all the time. The air con can never be on full, nor can it be on just 1. The washing machine has to have only powders, no liquids, but mum used the liquid ones :( Wich is why she's not alowed to do it anymore! lol. I can't drink out of purple cups. OMG!!!! I just realised I was telling you all that!!!! EEEK! I'm so freaking sorry! I had no idea!!!! Oh please forgive me, please Danielle! I'm sorry for being so selfish to you. I lovce you! Well, while we were on the subject, you may as well tell me if you have any cumpulsive disorders :) Do you huh? huh? huh?!?!?! Man, I love you so much! Bah, things have been so shity for little Cat huh? Aww, love her! I hope she DOES do it the healthy way. She diserves happiness, so do you my dearie! OMG! Dustin huh? hehehehehhehehehehhe! What a bad ass name! =D ha, doesn' it feel cool to know someone likes you like that? hehe, it just, like.. um.. I don't know, gives ya something to think about ya know? :) Hm.. Man!!! Don't you worry, we're gonna meet eachother!!!! =D And we're are going to make our own pizzas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG!!! We're gonna make pizza! And cakes, muffins, fancy salads, SOUPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHH! You have to try a tuna and corn pizza!!!!! lol, it's so good! I made it with my dad when I was little (right before I fell out of the kitchen window [2 story house] and landed in the rose bush!!!!!!!!!!) What sort of pizza do you like???????????????????? Whatever it is, we will make it!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOME MADE PIZZA IS THE BEST!!!! Oh yeah, I was in the shower thismorning and I was thinking about you (as usuall!) and I have got your stalker name! Mwhahahahahahahahahhaahahahhahahaahahaha! In the office, you're called Agent Parker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D That is such a snobby name! It suits so well! Gee.. Angent Raph... BORNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha, we can change our names when we're 'on the job' though :P haha, we're on holidays now. We go back on the 31st of January. So.. nearly 2 months off we get :) When do you go on holidays next? Wait, I already asked you that! SORRY! When is your bro gonna leave your crib?? I think your uncle is being an assie in frount of him because he wants to show off to him, so forget about ya uncle. We'll stalk him one day! So bad that he can't sleep. So bad that he will cry. Danielle, you're so strong. You put up with so much. I woulda killed the bastard by now!! Do you have a photo of him so I can put it in the Stalker book?? If not, what does he look like? I'll draw him :) What drinks do you like?? Do you like fruit???? What fruits??? Meat?? Oh wow, you like saussages!!!?!?!?!?! ME TOO!!!!!!!!!!! lol :P We gotta have lots of barbies when we see eachother =) It's gonna be wonderful!!! Man, my mum is really sick at the moment. She's been off work for like.. 2 days or something, and she isn't going to work tomorrow, she's made her room, the kitchen and trhe lounge SO messy!!! I want her to get better soon. She's annoying when she's sick lol. Oi, will Aunty Kim mind if I send her a Chrisy card too??? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! CHRISSY CARDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I still haven't written 'em. I don't know what to say!! HELP me figure it out! I don't want it to say juts "merry Christmas" nor do I wann go on forever :( Aww man. What am I gonna do?? I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're so beautiful! I love you to death. You're the most important thing to me in the entire world, you will always be. I love you so much. Hm.. I better be off now my dearie :) I hope you'll havea great day tomorrow, and sweet dreams for tonight :) I love you ♥ |
| from cheekyash : |
| i'm sorry. i never meant to make anybody cry. coming on two years now, i won't ever know the exact date but i think that's pretty precise. that's the only way i hurt myself. i've gotten to the point at times where i retch up blood, i didn't mean that i took a blade to my skin. yeah, i'm pretty okay considering. just sort of floating along i guess, same as ever, if not just a slightly little bit better. |
| from xeison : |
| im so sorry for what happened. You are not at fault, i know you already said this, but i wanted to be sure you know, you are not at all at fault for this. im sorry for what Denna did to, it was very insensitivve of her, she sounds pretty immature. You do not need to thank me for anything, i didnt do anything. i love you too. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Lol, you sound so evily excited when you're talking about hot girls :P HAHAHA! Did you know, that I've never actualy thought throughout a movie "Oh God, she's so hot, I wanna %^#&&* her... blah blah" It's always just kinda.. like been their. Like, I'll get movies out with people in it that I think are hot, just because of that, but I don't sexualy fanisise about 'em, ya know? Ok, ths is gonna sound so gross, but... EEK! LINDSAY LOHAN!!!!! *covers face* I LOVE HER! I love the way she looks and I fall head over heels with the way she talks! AHH! Even in The Parent Trap I thought that!!!! lol God! She's gorgeous! Who else??? Um, Jenifer Love-Hewit is cute, but kinda in a 'pretty' way, not sexy :P AHHHH!!!!!!!!!! KIRA KNIGHTLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *drewls* Um, Jessica Alba's ok. Racheal McAdams is cute. Christina Napu =) Sally Feild!! Um, geez.. Kinda hard to pick on the spot! Um.. Guys. JONNY DEPP!!!!!!!!! Patrick Thomas!!! Heath Ledger.. Ugh, dude, Ashton Kuture (can't spell his last name, sorry) I never used to think he was good looking, but ever since I saw The Guardian.. FAR OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ha, you so have to see that! Hm. dunno who else. \Who is the friend that you think you've fucked up?? You said that in xxplaydeadxx 4 hours ago. Is it someone I know?? BAHAHAHA! I really feel like eating chocolate! I love you! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bye bye! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| DUDE! I didn't know you left me a note in x-crime-x do I just thought you didn't have time, or didn't wanna talk to me, so I just left it. I read the note you left me yesterday (in x-crime-x), but couldn't reply to it. AND NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I am NOT mad at you!!! FREAK! All this shit about the 'eating' (or not) has kinda made you busy :S And I thought you were mad at me! haha. Just after I wrote an entry about me hrowing up, you did an entry "It's too easy." It ment that you're stronger than me, and that you can just throw up straight away, but I thought about it, which made it harder for me, thus easier for you.. does that make sence??? Yeah, so I just felt a little bad about that and didn't know what to say. I know I'm weak, and trust me, I hesitated with that entry 1 million times, but in the end I just did it :S Meh. Yup, then with my shoulder injury, I haven't had much time to come on here and look at my notes page :( I'm sorry for everything Danielle. DUDE! I'm scared about Cat :S How far is she gonna take this eating crap?!?!!?!?! She'd be so much healthier if she didn't smoke. She doesn't need to starve herself (nor the fuck do you!). Pfft! lol, 2 pounds! YOU FREAK! That's nothing! It's just a lucky day. I look fatter. The scales are probably broken or something. I tried to figure out how much I weigh on the internet (to translate to your weight unti of measurement) but it came up with really crazy numbers :S I'm probably 300 pounds or something. Whoa!!!! I just found a site that got my weight! EWWWWW! It's horrid! In Australia it's only 2 numbers, here it's like, 50! haha, I can't tell you the number though. Because in Cat's entry she said she wants to weigh around 130 I think, I can't remember. So yeah.. She would be happy with that nd think her body is ok, but I weigh more than that! So y'all will know I'm fat then. SO IIIII WIN!!!!!!!! =D Now missy, why the fuck won't you just loose the weight you 'say' you 'have,' in a healthy way!!!!??!?!!?!?!!? Why do you have to do it by throwing up and starving yourself!?!??!?!?! You need a slap accros the face! Eating Disorders piss me off so much. Just like cutting. Just like alcohol and smoking. Please Danielle. Do it the healthy way. We can do it together if you want, just please don't do it the way you're doing it. Man, I love you so much!!!! I'm gonna go read the note again you left me and I'll come back and reply to it. I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| No way you freak! I won't leave you! A life without you is just.. i couldn't imagine it anymore. you're everything to me. I do understand Danielle, i do. i love you and we'll help you the best we can. this IIIIIIIS your dicision to make, and yours only, but we'll be here for you to lean on throughout it. so what's it gonna be??? well.. i hope it works out soon. it will :) i love you so much! i know your angry at me and that's why you are not talking to me, but it's ok, i can give you space or something :S I love you |
| from x-dead-x : |
| I'm not gonna drop you. I want to understand this all. But I can't. I want to help you, but I can't because I don't understand. I know I'm stupid alot and say mean things, but I'll never ditrch you. I understand you have to make the choice by yourself much like me and my problem. You have to want to quit. And when other people are there doing the same thing encouraging you, its damn near impossible to do. But I'm here, I haven't always been, but I am now and I'm not going anywhere. ♥ You're not a fuck up. you didn't waste anyones time. We care that's why we read. If we didn't care we wouldn't be here int he first place. I'm sorry I can be such a bitch, please forgive me and keep trying. ♥ |
| from xeison : |
| You have no been selfish, you are not weak or pathetic, and you will win this fight, you have not wasted anyones time/ |
| from x-crime-x : |
| P.S About the Haley thing, do NOT bloody worry about it!!!! Have you ever heard of DINIAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????????????????????????????? Duude, it's some randoms word against yours! They're full of crap! Just act cool about it if someone tells :) Or if it comes out, get one of your guy friends to pretend y'all are dating :) DUH! Just cause some assie at school is gosspoing, it doesn't mean anything. Who cares if you like boys or girls. We're all the same! I gota go now, I love you so much!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ok, I thought it may have seemed weird if I just went on about that and then went to a different subject, so I'm doing another note :) But I don't know what the subject IS this time.. Maybe there's no subject(?) Hm.. Arrr fuck sake! Daylight fucking savings is so bloody SHIT HOUSE! The government has brought it up like 3 times in the past 3 months or so, and each time we've all voted against it! But NO, the stupid government keeps pushing us until we give in :( So we gave the bloody hell in! It will go for th next 3 years each summer, and then we vote agian, but by the time that happens, noone will give a fuckeroo and it'll stay the same!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-O GRR! Oh well... AHH! Bloody hell! I have to do my science homework!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOO! I don't want to do it! It's a speech and I'll fail! Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you that my Glandular Fever is back! :( I feel like shit! I just want to sleep, but I'm too sore to sleep lol. Meh. No sleep for Georgie! :D :) :( :'( I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| *rips off jumper, kicks off shoes, takes of shorts* I'm back! :D It's so bloody hot! Um, where was I??? Hm.. I got no idea!!!!!! BAHA! Sexy girls DOOOO matter!!!! lol, I have watched a movie over and over just so I can stare at SOME of them! :P But "hot lesbian sex" doesn't really float my boat lol :P Neither does guy sex, nor does GIRL and GUY sex lol. Ha, I'm not a fan of sex full stop. :) Do you still love me though???? Well I still love YOU! :) You're.. just.. wow! DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUDE!!!!!!! NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!!! Get the fuck off those sites!!!!! Jesus, Danielle, please don't do it. Be strong. Why won't you stop? I know how you feel about seeing skinnies eat and wishing them to eat more, but really Danielle.. Well "really" nothing, I don't know how to make you see it! Instead of wishing to be supper dooper skinny, how about you just be healthy????? Don't starve yourself.. There's nothing wrong with healthy, is their?? Well, to you there may be, but it's a good thing Dani.. Ugh. I dunno. I love you so much! Please just keep trying to fight the DISEASE of Anoroexia and or Bulimia.. I have faith in you.. Not having those two diseases in your life doesn't make you a falure or any less of a wonderful person, it just takes away who you are. I would die if you lost that.. if you lost you. Do you really want to be spinning around for the rest of your life.. Pretending to be someone you're not.. Do you really want to spend the rest of your life being in one room trying to be perfect and happy, and in the next room purging your brains out.. Looking in the mirror at a face you don't recognise because it's so drawn out and tired??????? I love you so much, please just try.. I know you can do it. I'm here for you every step of the way. I love you ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Oh man! My foot is so itchy! I've been scratching it heaps but it just gets itchier! hahahaha! Their's something evil that died in my foot and created an itchy thing! (lol, I kid I kid). You and I need to grow our toe nails really long, then get mullets and go on the train in bare feet! Paint out teeth yellow, put parsley in between out teeth and then wink with our mouths open to everyone!!! HA! Sound good?? GOOD! You should become a stalker with me too! :-D So what we do, is we find someone we wanna follow, then get out stalker kit and follow then. But so they don't know how we are, we walk behind then, then they'll look behind and see us, and we quickly get into another outfit and put a mashtash (I can't spell that, sorry!) so the next time they look behind, the won't be able to tell it's us! Am I brilliant or what!!?!?!?!??! :D I'm glad you aggree my dear! I LOVE YOU! OK! I shall make it snow! *puts rain coat on, talks through microphone* "Ok y'all! No school today! It's snowing!!!! *flicks white paint at everyone. throws eyes on 'em all* "Do get your skinny asses inside!!!!" *turns to camera* "And back to you in the studio" *smiles with yellow teeth* Ok, is it snowing yet!?!??!?!?! :) Should I become a weather man??? *bites big toe nail and throws it at the computer screan* hm.. I love you Danielle! Woooopa!!! You have holidays for THAT long!!!?!? Whoa, I thought y'all had holz at "thanks giving" and 2 days a Christmas time, then the 3 month "summer" thingo?!? Obviously not lol! Um, have like a wikkid 7 weeks off school in 3 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) Then back to school on the 2nd of Feb (I THINK). What ya doing in the holidays huh?? I hope I can sun bake and work out the whole time, but I need to be responsible and get another job! Oi dude, do you like Hello Goodbye????? You have to listen to them! They're so cute! :P Oh man, you so have to OMG OMG OMG! I'm so stupid! I was about to say you have to come with me to the concer on Friday, but I just realised that you DON'T live next door :'( aw.. SCREW YOU!!!!! WHY AREN'T YOU HERE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I love you and I miss you so much! you're the most important thing to me. I can't live without you. You're my everything. *sighs* I spoze I could just TELL you what happens on Friday if you want... *evil stare* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHahahahahahahahahhahaahhahaha! I just got a vision! You were sleeping and I was watching you with a baseball bat in my hands! BAHA! I'd never hit you though :) Well, not with a bat or anything... Oh bugga! Nanna just called an she wants me to meet her at the shops. Bloody hell *puts on jumper in 40* heat!* I hate having to hide my arms from family... It's a waste of time. O well. I best be off now. BUT!!!!!!!! I shall return!!!!!! *puts on superman cape* I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from thatgirlx : |
| P.S. ♥ |
| from thatgirlx : |
| DOWNLOAD AIM!!!!!!!!!! Fuck Myspace and fuck Yahoo! Download AIM so you can talk to me and Xeison!! Come on! You know you wanna!! DANIELLLLLLLLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I like those sites too... I sort of felt like I belonged somewhere was I was a part of that community, but also at the same time I feel like maybe I don't. Because my eating issues and so messed up. Like... one week I'm starving myself and the next I'm fucking bingeing... I think maybe I figured it out though. Like.. I'm trying to punish myself. If I eat a cookie, it makes me feel bad, makes me feel fat, so I say, hey fatass eat some more. And more more more until I'm really fucking full and bulging. And when I don't eat I DON'T eat and I have to feel empty. See? That's messed up right? RIGHT! Why do I have to take everything to the extreme? I don't understand. Why can't I jsut be satisfied with feeling content? UGH!I've eaten so much today. I tried to puke but it didn't work out... And I don;t understand why I can't fucking do it and as horrible as this is (you can lecture me if you want) sometimes I wish I was bulimic instead of THIS. FUCK! Sorry... I'm just really frustrated with myself right now. Anyway... *hugs* Your school thing sounds like how I've been with work lately... I feel like quitting... I don't know why, I just am so sick of all the people and the bullshit and the drama... I mean I feel like just not showing up anymore. But I can't do that... FUCK! Ummm? The panic attacks... I don't know what to do... The only thing I've found to help is to hold on to some object and just concentrate on it in my hand, the texture, squeezing it, etc.... But.. it's usually just a matter or waiting it out and silently coaxing myself along... I'm pathetic, huh? I had the worst nightmare ever a couple of days ago.. I dreamt someone was trying to rape me... a guy a work with... now everytime I see him it's awkward... which is weird, huh? I'm holding a grudge against him for something MY MIND fucking created. I wrote something today but I don't know if I want to post it.. I keep thinking I sound retarded and too depressed and too... too something. I don't know. I used one of your layouts in my private diary... the pretty one with the rose.... :) In case you care... Sorry for the uhhh.......... whatever this shit was........ I'm trying not to be so negative, fuck this shit, but it's just not happening. I LOVE YOU DANIELLE!! NOW DOWNLOAD AIM DAMMIT!!!! |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Danielle please please please try to stay away from those sites... they can really corrupt your mind... take you above and beyond to another level... and just... mess you up if you let them. I... well... I know from experience, okay? Just... be careful. I'm worried about you. ((Sorry, I was trying to not sound all lectury, but I don't think there's any better way to say what I need to say...)) I LOVE YOU!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Wow.. It's horrible for you. I'm sorry I put even more pressure on you with my bullshit. I am sorry that you have to go through all the bad things. I'm sorry people in your family don't see you for who you are. I'm sorry for everything. I wish I could take away all your pain, and give you peace and happieness. I hope today was a better day for you :) Thank you for the e-mail you sent.... I'll try, for you. For you and only you. Dude, that was a lot of tears the other day. At the time it probably didn't feel good, but does it now? Like.. to get it all out once in a while? I had tears in my eyes when I was reading it. There's so much pain for you and in your life. You're so beautiful. Just focus on the main things in your life Dani.. the ones closest to you. the things that are important to you. Don't overload yourself with everyone's problems. You can't save them, they can only save themselves. I wish for you to be happy. Things WILL get better Danielle, trust me, they will. I love you with all my heart and soul. Forever and always. I love you ♥ |
| from thatgirlx : |
| *****************HUGS**************** Danielle I love you love you love you love you love you... and I love love love the new layouts, too especially the uhh.. one you like, too... this time imperfect i think it's called... it's really... uhhmm what's the word? i don't know... but i love the picture and the words and the way it's put together, you did a great job! AS ALWAYS!! AHH! I want to fucking talking to Xeison but Ishaan took over and he won't GO AWAY and he's fucking pissing me off because he thinks he knows me but he doesn't and he's being a jerk... talking badly about Xeison... :( Dammit.. I was so totally going to do an entry but I... am so fucking retarded I can't write anymore or something... I give up. Fuck it. Ummm... shit.. are you okay now? I want to just hug you and hug you and hug you and tell you I love you I love you I love you over and over again... yay! I would totally send you that CD if I had somewhere to send it to........ WAITING!!!! Don't let them make you feel guilty! You didn't do anything wrong. It doesn't matter how "significant" anything is.. we all react different to different situations... you know? AHHH!!!! Can I e-mail you something? |
| from x-dead-x : |
| are you on??!? Get on myspace IM! AHORA! por favor? |
| from xeison : |
| i will end up destroying you all :'(. i am disguisting, you just do nto know it yet. im glad that you are doing better now/ |
| from xeison : |
| im sorry that you had breakdown, i hope that you are going to be ok. If you need anything, or if there is anything i can do, you can ask ok? |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Sorry about yesterday... I've been weird lately... mood swings and panic attacks and nightmares and blah blah blah... Can't think straight really. I start to write and my mind just goes blank. I don't feel like me... I feel like I'm trapped in some alternate reality or something... it's weird. I need to SNAP OUT OF IT! I'll leave you a nice note later or tomorrow or when I can. I LOVE YOU!! ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| *sighs* No Danielle, it doesn't mean that at all. It means that you're just doubting yourself at the moment. You ARE stronger than you think. But you won't know how strong until you least expect it, when it happens, you'll feel great! :) I love you. I'm sorry for everyhting. I wish I could help you more. I wish I could fix Haley (she still hasn't replied :S). And I wish I could make your life perfect. You're so beautiful. So kind and wonderful. I love you with all my heart and soul. I love you. sweet dreams xxx |
| from xeison : |
| No, you havent, you have just proven, that you are stronger than you think. If this confuses you, than you can ask me to explain, but honestly, all you have proven to me is that you are extrememly strong. Love you ♥ |
| from xeison : |
| Thank you so much for answering my question, just one more thing, this will probably sound stupid, but does it help? |
| from thatgirlx : |
| That's a really good question... |
| from x-dead-x : |
| dude. That convo makes me sound like a retard. I was totally off on everything =/ =( ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Hello Miss Parker, I'm about to head off to school now, but I just want to let you know that what you wrote in xxplaydeadxx and in here yesterday, well.. You're none of the bad things that you think you are. I'm sorry I said you were'nt fat (even though you're not) and it made you mad. I'm sorry. I get like that too, so I understand. I'm sorry about all the times I've saidf you were beautiful and it angered you. I love you with all my heart and soul, I know it's not much to offer you, but it's all I can. I love you so much. I hope today has been a better day for you and I really hope you have a great night sleep tonight =D I love you! You're the best thing in the entire world! Thank you so much for everything you do, I love you Danielle ♥ |
| from emsgurl13 : |
| Oh, oopsies, I think I denied your friend request. Send it again if you want. I don't usually accept adds from people especially since they're usually bands or people who whore themselves everywhere. So, I usually do the adding. Anywho, sorry. |
| from xeison : |
| i cant believe that Danielle :(. You are the good one, im the one who has so many things bad about me. Everything you think is bad about you is not, but they are bad about me. |
| from x-crime-x : |
| I'm glad it made you laugh! =) Thank you fo reverything Dani-pooh. You're the best freaking person EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love you! Sweet dreams! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| I don't know what to say!!!! GRR! I will write you a letter later tonight, and the next day, and the next day, and the next day. Then I'll send you the calander, one of my diaries and a Chrismas card and I dunno what else.. OH YEAH! The wizz fizz! I'm sorry I ahven't been of any help today for you. I wish I could do something for you. It's just gone 2pm here. I'm sorry to have kept you up Dani, I love you so freakin much! Please try not to hurt yourself tonight, please, try your hardest. You're so important to me. I love you so much. |
| from x-crime-x : |
| I just sent you an e-mail through my mum's account. I look lovely *coughs* |
| from x-crime-x : |
| I'm not sure how to help you here Danielle :S I've sen a full body photo of you, and you're not freaking FAT! But I will stop trying to make you see it, for now. We need to figure out how to make you happier, right? So what will help you?? Hm... at home, do you have a fixed rutine?? Or is it like you get home and do anything you want??? How about we make a rutine together?? One where we can both do it? Or we can make one seperatly, it's up to you :) Ok, so this rutine will help us/you to I dunno. But what do you reckon? I love you too, Dani, you're the best thing that's ever happend to me |
| from x-crime-x : |
| That's ok.. You're not fat Danielle. You're definantly not ugly! You're gorgeous :) I'm not just saying it because I love you so much, it because it's true. You never eat anything anyway. Just forget about wanting to loose weight, stop thinking you're fat, and just live as an athlete.. Does that make sence??? Like, I dunno, have breakfast every morning, and be active or whatever. You'll feel better on the inside, then you'll feel better on the outside. I love you |
| from xeison : |
| i am bad, why cant you see that? Why cant Angel see that? On the other hand, you are not bad. There is nothing, and i repeat NOTHING, wrong with you. |
| from x-crime-x : |
| OK OK OK!!!!!! miss bossy boots! :P I love you! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| Oh, yeah, sorry bout that haha, where do you want me to leave the notes?? Here or in mine? Here, aye? Yup, here. I want so badly for you to be here!!!!! I want to see a movie with you!!!! What are you angry at? Or WHO are you angry at? Ok, so when you're angry, you need to scribble it down on papper! :) Get out a pen and paer now!!! NOW!!! I said NNNNNNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And scribble all the words down on it. Lots of angry words, or happy word, whatever you want. Just scribble away! :) I do it all the time! I shall send you a picture of some, aye? Hm.. I wonder if I could scan it and e-amil it... I love you!!!! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| Now, darling, you're sad right now, huh? So, is it because of what you're uncle has done? Or is it because you think you're fat, and you're fighting hard to not hurt yourself.. What's going on? What are you thinking? I love you! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| WOOOPA!!! you replied! Wait, phone's ringing, brb. BACK! Wrong number. Gina, pffft! Sucks that she's bulimic :'( If she's a bitch, then you shouldn't be jelous of her! :) Oh, yeah, about that thing who you said you wanted to be a shrink in E.D Clinics, I think that's so freakin GREAT!!!!!!!!! I love you! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| hmm.. I wonder if you're replying to razornotes00...? If you aren't, then I better close it, but then if you DO reply to that one, it means tht it'll take forever to see it, coz yeah. I'll shut up now. Don't reply to razornotes00 please, I'm closing it now, I love you!!!!! |
| from xeison : |
| i feel like i NEED cutting, but Angel tells me i do not, she says i just think i do. You love me, because you think of me as good, just as i think of cutting, but i am bad, just like cutting is. |
| from x-crime-x : |
| WHOA! I got off the point for a while there lol, what I was gonna say, is that the other day I got those two calanders of Perth and Rotto, and they're like a special additon or some shit, did you want me to send one to you? Oh ok, cool =D What one do you want? The Rotto one? Or the Perth one? Wait, you do know that Perth is a city, right? Ok then, so yeah, what one aye? I love you!!! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| You know what would be so great?? To got riddin gon bikes with you!!!!! =D That would be so fun! I could ride close to you and run you off the road! hahahahhaahhahahahaahhaha! I do that to everyone! Oh, duuuuuuuuude, I got a Perth and Rottnest (Rottnest, othersize known as "rotto" is a little island just near Fremantle (otherwize known as "Freo" lol) Yup, everything ends with 'O' :P We got Gossnels, witch I call Gozzo's, then there's the Gossnels Markets, witch I call Gozzo's Marko's lmao. Train Station is called a Traino. Pay day is called a 'fortnight,' wich is 14 days. That when most people get paid. Yeah, you probabaly didn't wanna know any of that, but now you do =D I love you so much!!!! |
| from xeison : |
| That is because you guys just do not realize how much better it would be. i am worthless and detrimental. im like a disease. im a parasite. You shouldnt thank me. i love you too. |
| from x-crime-x : |
| Who the bloody hell cares if she's thin or not!!!! Grr. Ha, you. Sorry. Well, I bet she's jealous of YOU darnit! YOu're the smart. loving, creative, gentle, perfect one!!!! I love you so much! Please odn't do anything bad! I LOVE YOU! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| Wake up sleepy head! It's Saturday for you, you don't HAVE to go to bed now! *sobs* Who's Gena, huh? huh? huh? huh? I love you |
| from xeison : |
| Everyone can. i will keep fighting. im sorry, i just, i messed up yesterday, i just i couldnt fight anymore, im so sorry :'(. |
| from x-crime-x : |
| I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please talk to me! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| *puts nostrila down. cries* |
| from x-crime-x : |
| *flares nostirls* |
| from x-crime-x : |
| where the bloody hell are you!!??!?!?! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| Oh yeah, the new user for x-crime-x is: silent pw: dreams um, you umissed out on one of my entries lol, so go read it!!!!! It's the one in razornotes, beofre the one I did today. It's not special or anything, but you gotta read all my entries!!!!! :P I love you |
| from x-crime-x : |
| lol! HELLO! I hope you're still here :) dude, I have msn, is that the same thing? I love you |
| from xeison : |
| It hurt too much, im so sorry, i couldnt fight him anymore, it hurt so bad :'(. You can lose me, everyone can. im worthless. |
| from xeison : |
| im not going away, i just, i tried to go away. im sorry, im so sorry. |
| from thatgirlx : |
| NOTHING is wrong with you. NOTHING. You got that!? Good! :) I LOVE YOU! ♥ |
| from xeison : |
| To Angel, to keep fighting, i broke that promise. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| P.S Yeah, that due was genuine about how he liked me. It wasn't a dare or anything. But he doesn't really like me. It's just a crush. He doesn't know me, he doesn't know how bad I am, so yeah.. He just like the idea of me. Nothing else. Um, I'm not sure if he's smart. Is he nice? Um.. NO!!!!!!!! He is always calling people names and saying shyte behind peoples backs. But, I'm sure he'd be a nice guy if he didn't have so much peer pressur and crapola, ya know? No, I don't really like him darl :P I love you!!! Haha, um.. I'm kinda seeing someone at the moment anyway :S Meh. I love you so much! Sweet dreams! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I wonder why we never get to talk while we're both on lol. Must be some kind of sick twisted fate :P I dunno, maybe we're being 'preserved' for when we actually meet..? OH SHIT!!!!!!! I really hope that if we send letters, that they don't 'mysteriously' get lost, or the Post Office burns down or something :'( Ok, immagination ia goin gnuts right now. I'll shut up about that now. Haha, I'm listening to "FU right back" by Frankie. Ever since it came out, I fell in love. It's just.. like, so bitchy and I get where they're coming from. Meh. I bet you hate it :p Ha, now American Idiot is on. Um, it's ok (not really lol) about you throwin gup that night after I left you that note. I'm sorry I was too late to talk you out of it, and to make you feel better. Danielle, I do love you so much, but.. throwing up won't fix things for you.. It won't give you control or peace. Ugh. It's so hard to tell you that it won't give you all that, because I know that when you're going through it, nothing can really get that out of your head :( Ya know? But really, it won't help. Just know that whenever you get the erge, just know that I love you and that you have so many people here that love you. Draw or scribble when you get the erge :) I told you to SCREAM!!!!!!!! Have you? NOPE :( lol, make a journal or something. A paper one, not on here. Maybe it will help :S I'll make a list for you and put it in my diary, ok? Good :) I love you! *cries* Cat usually updates after you do, but you haven't updated today :( It's 10am here, Cat posted an hour ago :'( Where are you? Are you alright? i love you so much!!!!!!!!! Please be ok! I love you ♥ ♥ |
| from thatgirlx : |
| You got the new MCR CD? Danielle! WTF!? Now I have to rack my brain and come up with something else... AND I WILL and don't argue with me because my head hurts and I don't want to argue or have to beat you. ;) Do you like that shit.. Vault? I used to drink it everday at work for energy, like three or four but then it just stared making me sick so I'm sticking with my Mt. Dew... the first time I drank it it made me really fucking hyper. Um.. you're feeling shitty? *hugs* I'm sorry hunny. You know that offer (which you're probably going to soon regret) goes both ways.. anytime you need to talk or vent or WHATEVER... i'm only a note/e-mail/letter away. And P.S. I feel fucking distgusting too, but I don't really think either one of is disgusting, I think it's just all in our heads and that fucking sucks because even if you or I were to lose weight.. we'd still be unsatisfied, you know? Like.. when you think about it, there really is no way to win. Um.. so Thanksgiving. Maybe I'll do an entry on it. If not, I'll just explain later... I wrote some shit in my notebook from that night but I haven't typed it up or really put it into.. uh.. sentence structure.. or whatever. Just random blurbs. It wasn't as bad as some of the past Thanksgiving, but I just... ah. I hate holidays.. and I'm so not looking forward to Christmas either, but what can you do? Anyway... I ♥ you! Are you okay? ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| FUCK YOUR UNCLE!!!! God! I'm going to kill him! Danielle, you belong with me, hales and CAT!!!! We love you so much! Hell, I love you so much! I could never make it without you. I'd die straught away, of a broken heart. I love you! Please don't hurt yourself! I love you. You are SO beautiful, Danielle. You have beautiful eyes. A beautiful smile. Beautiful hair. A beautiful heart. A beautiful soul. Danielle, I love you so much. It hurts so bad, but I do, I love you so much! You're the most important thing to me in the entire world! I love you with all my heart. You're the only one who can make me feel the way you do. I love you. You're perfect. YOU'RE NOT FAT DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Got it?!?!?!? GRR! I love you! Everything will be ok soon... I am sure of it. It will get better Danielle. You're so important to me. I love you more than my low class words could ever express!!!!!! Dammit! I love you! Talk to me.. Please don't be sad.. I'm here for you. I love you. |
| from silentshout : |
| Hi! You wanted the password to my diray, but i'm not sure if you'd really want to read it. It's just a bunch of teen angsty entries. If your REALLY want itrweq, i'll give it to you, but could i have yours too? That'd be quite spiffy. See you around! |
| from x-dead-x : |
| Danielle, please don't. I swear that if you were gone I could never make it. Who would I talk to? Who would I look to for advice on how retarded I am or how stupid something looks? Who would help me through my tough times? Who would I laugh with? Who would I cry with? Please don't do anything. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! I'm crying just thinking about losing you. please its 2 more years then we'll both move out, we'll go somwhere glamorous, somewhere like Austrailia. *wink* And then the bastard can never hurt you again. Please... =( I love you danielle. please don't do anything else.... *hugs* |
| from x-dead-x : |
| ok its taking all of my being to not go over there right now and punch that stupid fucker right in his goddamn face! FUCK! I am so telling my mommy. She will handle that stupid dyky-old-transvestite-son-of-a-bitch-fuck face-i-wish-he-would-die-uncle of-yours. DAMN HIM! Know what? You're coming over here for Thanksgiving. I don't give a fuck what the bastard says. aaaaaaah! And the stupid fucker wonders why you don't wanna be over there. Damn him! damn him to hell! If you ever do anything really bad (like cutting really bad or worse) I swear to God I will go over there and bitch slap him and tell him its all his goddamn fault. and that he's gonna burn in hell because I don't like him or his attitude. FUCKER! ok gotta calm down... goosefrabbah... Think happy thoughts... Calming.... ok I'm good. You tell him that I want to schedule a meeting to talk him him about his behaviour and if he back talks I'll send him to my mommy, and let her handle it. If that happens he is fucked. =) hee hee hee. OK UI'm going to bed and I'll c-you tomorrow. Bye. I love you danielle. |
| from xeison : |
| To Danielle, about your Mother, from what you have said about her, she was abused by her Mother, this may likely have had a lot of influence on how she perceives things even now. Often people who are abused come to think that abuse is the way one should care for a child, please note though that this is no excuse for them to actually do it. They also, often come to think they deserve the abuse, as may be the case with your Mother, who stay with Jesse, who you said is alcoholic and abusive. This may have influenced, why she stayed with him, and maybe as you stated it chose him over you, but honestly, i think she may be a bit confused herself, she may regret the fact that she abused you and may be upset with herself for failing, and may have chosen him becuase she thinks the abuse is deserved and that she is a failure as a Mother. In other words, it may not be that she chose Jesse over you, but rather that she chose punishment over reward. You know her better than i do though, and i do not know the whole situation, so maybe this is completely incorrect, you have to be the judge of that, but those are my thoughts on it :/. Based off of this, the action i would take, is that same that you are doing, which is avoiding getting close to her, until you are sure it is safe, that is the best course of action, but i also suggest talking to her. Mainly, if you are feeling willing to, as these are painful topics probably, you should discuss with her, one, how she expects you to just take her back after how she abused you, and two, why she is still staying with Jesse, if she says to this, that she is leaving, you should site all the previous times she said that but didnt leave, and i woud reccomend saying you just cannot believe her on that and want to know why she You probably have tried this already, and know all this already, in which case this whole thig was utterly stupid, im sorry if this was a complete waste of your time |
| from razornotes00 : |
| The girls are in my room at the moment, watching Video Hits or something. They're making wried nosies lol. Kate's all good, Alyce is good too. Her mum has only called four times! =D that's amazing!!! She usually calls 4 times an hour! She gets a little upset eachtime after she calls though :S She's happy here though :) Um, as much as I'd like to say I'm doing just fine, I'm not :S WHOA! Girls are calling me, brb. =D hehehe! MCR was on =D woot woot! and guess what?!?!?! Apparently Jacko is releasing a new albam soon! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!! =D I can't wait! I'll be the first one to get it for sure!!!!!! mwahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha! Ok, were was I??? hm.. Oh yeah, iz I ok? Nah.. well, I dunno. everything is just weird. Or maybe it just cause I haven't had my meds yet. Yeah, probably :) I love you ♥ |
| from xeison : |
| May i ask, how do you feel about your Mother? |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Georgia is really pretty! And DAMMIT! Cat! (I'll harrass her later) I want pictures! Of you and Cat. And of you and Haley. Aw. I wanna see you two together, I bet you make a cute couple. ;) Anyway, I'm so proud of you. I wish I had your strength... I've been doing so shitty lately. Like I'll restrict for a couple of weeks, then I'll go on like a one or two day binge and then the cylce will repeat... :( But I have faith in you. YOU CAN DO THIS! I know you want to lose weight, but you have to do it the RIGHT way or not at all. Because I don't want anything to happen to you, I want you to be okay and to be happy and healthy. And I know I've said it a million times before, but I'll say it again, I'm here for you. Always... And I'll do whatever I can to help you fight. Okay? Okay! But you're doing great. And I'm glad you're starting to feel better about yourself, even if it's just a little. These things take time, but I know you're on the right path. I am SO proud of Danielle. ♥ (I'm going to reply your note now!) |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I freaking love you Danielle! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| :| No.. I'm not mad. Just dissapointed in myself. I planned on talking to Angel soon, but now she'll hate me because I'm so ugly. I nearly threw up when I saw that. Whoa! Yes!! That duuude IS FREAKING HOT! lol :p I love you |
| from xeison : |
| Thank you so much. ill make it, done worry. i love you *hugs* |
| from razornotes00 : |
| :S You're even more mature now.. I've noticed a massive change in you recently.. Like, firstly it started with just a few words, not you can proudly say/write those things, and I can proudly read it too :) I'm so glad that you can see what's real now :') You're so beautiful in everyway.. I'm not sayin gyou're cocky or anything lol, so I hope you don't take it that way :P I am just so proud of you.. I feel like you're all grown up and ready to leave me.. Please don't leave me though. I love you too much.. You'd make a great mommy one day :) But don't have any until I say so lol, you have to be at least 35 before I allow you to. Ha, I bet you're thinking "I'M NOT HAVING KIDS!!!" haha... we'll see :P la la la la la. I've painted my legs a thosand different colours tonight. I was painting that picture I'm working on, and got distracted and yeah.. HAHA! I look like a dirty colourful grub!!! OH YEAH! Before I forget, I wanted to ask you what a "snitch" was yesterday (you wrote that in your diary), and I wanna know what.. hang on, yesterday I wrote them down so I wouldn't forget to ask you, so I'll just go find the paper now. brb. BLOODY HELL!!!! I can' find it! I swear I saw it today somewhere.. hmm.. UGH! Mum AND Robert are home tonight. It feels so weird. Like.. I dunno, I just feel scared and I can't act like myself, ya know? I dunno. I miss you so much, Danielle. I love you so much that it hurts my heart so badly.. Don't ever leave me ok? GOOD! :D *kisses your cheek* Aww, God Dani, you're so sweet the way you talk about Haley. Tomorrow, I am Gell Host (which is where students run erins all day for the school) so I don't need to do class work, and if I'm in a good mood and feel clean, I will most certianly be thinking of you all day lol. Whoa. What a great day it will be! :) I hope so anyway. It's sad about how your mum is with you these days. I hope she can get better and realize how wonderful you are. I love you so much Danielle. I hope you're sleeping well tonight :) I love you. |
| from x-dead-x : |
| that was quick! But he is =) and he has a plan. That's what I need a friend that acutally has a plan. And that could help me with a plan. My little brother gave me a gazillion hugs today. and me and Chris got into a fight about whose little brother he was. I won. =) Well, I declared myself the winner. Whatever. I'm going to bed too. Kids sure know how to wear you out *yawn* night night. |
| from xeison : |
| i dont know how to tell you either, :'(. im not a supergenious. |
| from x-dead-x : |
| Oh today was hella lovely! Why do I always miss the fun stuff in Chemistry??!?!!? FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKIN FUCK! lol. Caleb called me and asked me where I was. He was looking around at school for me =D ha ha! I said "I'm almost home!" and he's like "Oh yeah! You went to Eastside today!" Yeah DUR DUR DUR! ha ha. Smack that! all on the floor! smack that! gimme some more! smack that! till you get sore! smack that! oooooooo! smack that! someting about a lamborghini gallara... I ma no longer a myspace whore. I deleted about 100 friends. =) I got tired of all the bulletins and crap. If they hadn't talked to me, they were GONE! lol. So Uncle Fuckface being a hard ass again? Anitfreeze=koolaid= GREAT IDEA! *thumbs up* |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I'm such a smart cookie, I deleted your note =) Do you think I'm clever?? *serious face* Hell no! Gosh. Um, ok, so I only got to read the first line :S I LOVE YOU TOO!!!!! =D And the Aaron story, well it's pretty obvious, I though lol. How else would I get his pubes stuck in my braces?? :P I'm a slut, remember? hahahahahahaahaha! *snift* I'm so sorry that you have to put up with everyone and your family :'( I wish there was something I would do to make it all better.. Gosh, I have such rage towards your Uncle.. Farquad, I want to kill him so much. How can he treat you the way he does?!?! It's so wrong! Doesn't he know you've been through so much already?! Why can't he just be nice to you?! Why can't he appreciate you??.. Golly. GRR! How is Aunty Kim treating you?!!?!?!?!?!??! *flares nostrils* Hm... I love you Danielle!! I love you so much! No matter what happens, I'm always gonna stick by you. I love you so much, Dani. I love you. |
| from xeison : |
| i think maybe, you should try writing down how you feel abotu her, just all the words you think of when you think of her, like when i think of you i think of Friend, helpful, nice, good person, someone i love and care about and who does the same for me, amazing, this could go on and on, and then just say, the words like this. This is what you mean to me Danielle, Friendship, kindness, helping, love, caring, good, amazing. Maybe im just being stupid again :/. Sorry :(. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Good morning! I hope you had a GREAT day, and sweet dreams tonight! I love you so much, Danielle! XXX |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Lol, when I was reading the notes you left me when your keyboard was having a heart attck, it was soooooo cute! I laughted so hard! OMG! You know how you sometimes write "*ponders*" ??? Yeah, well, THAT is the... I just can't explain it.. But when you do that, I get such a happy feeling. You're so cute when you do that. I love you so much. I get butterflies when you do it. I dunno why. But from the first time when you did it (that was when you were "pondering" because I chainned you up so you could never leave me) and till now, it just.. I dunno. When you do it, I'm reminded of how special you are to me, and how lucky I am to have you. I love you so much. Ok, just thought you'd like to know that =) Anyway, moving on.. OK OK OK! I made a typo with the phone thing, but you should be used to that by now!! So did you need my HOME number or my MOBILE mumber? Ok, screw you! I decide!!! :) AHHHHHHHHHHHH! Kates' here, I hav to go now. I'm sorry. I love you so much!!!!!!! Sweet dreams my darling! xoxox |
| from x-crime-x : |
| Haha, funny you ask that! At first I was like "hmm... Aaron??" but within a milli second I was like "FUCK NO!" then I thought about two other dudes I know, but ended up being a no too. I KNOW that I'd get hurt by one of them, and I don't want to be hurt :( (Which is why my only romance is with a keyboard lol) So yeah.. A stranger is the best way to go :) It leaves room for mystery and HOPE!!!!! la la la! I'm going to shut the fudge UP now!!!! Ok, well, only about THAT! lol hehe. UGH! I'm so pissed off that you have to deal with everyones pain and trying to help people when they won't listen (haha! I'm a hypocrit or however you spell it :S) I wish you could just rest for a while.. *sigh* Whatever happens, you must stay strong. Please, never give up. You are the perfectestera thing EVER!!!!!! I can't say it enough (A; because it's not in my vocabulary. B; It cannot be expressed in words. C; I HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL!!!!) hahaha, shit I'm so sorry! I promise I will reply after school! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| OMFG! Danielle! I love you so much! I am in a very love-struk mood thismorning! It feels so nice :) *sighs* No, really, I do love you so much. You are the best thing to me in the entire world. I love you with all of my heart and soul. You are perfect in everyway (apart from not liking Micheal Jackson *evil look* but I will corrup you soon enough lol) You are everything great, you're everything beautiful, you're everything wonderful, pure and amazing. I love you so much. You are the best thing to me, and to everyone else. You're so kind, caring and nice to me. I love you so much. YOU'RE FREAKING.. perfect. You are. In everyway. I love you, I love you Danielle, I do. |
| from x-dead-x : |
| what? I can't change my mind? Its not set in stone that that band sucks. I listened to 1 song. I didn't like it. I listened to more. I liked those. |
| from xeison : |
| She is like you and Angel, i am assuming you are talking about Georgia, maybe im wrong, but it is unfortunate that she does not see it, just like you and Angel do not see it. i hope that maybe your diary entry will help her see it, at least a little. |
| from x-crime-x : |
| Good night!!! ♥ |
| from x-crime-x : |
| La la la la la I'm going to get ready for bed now, it's 8:44pm and I gotta go to school tomorrow :( Oh yeah, I forgot to tell ya that I'm getting a new shrink!!! NO!!!!!!! I apparently am seeing her Tuesday after school! grr. I love you so much!!!!! OH CRAPOLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I forgot to reply to your e-mails!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so sorry! I promise I will do it tomorrow after school! I love you so much! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| :P Can you please go read this and tell me what you think and what I need to work on?? It would mean a lot to me *puppy wuppy face* I love you Danielle!!!! I love you so much! ♥ Aww, you'll be sleeping right now, huh? hehe, I bet you $1000000000 that you look so beautiful when you're sleeping *sighs* I can't wait to see you sleeping one day soon! UGHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!! I love you so much Danielle! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| *serious/jealous facial expression* Wh are your new friends by the way, huh? huh? huh? I love you! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| But if I was Anya, I'd be gorgeous, friendly, hell SMART, skinny, and perfect. You say you love Anya, so you'd have to love me still, becaue I'd be Anya! DUH! WTF!!!!! :'( Please don't give up on me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why'd you say that!?!?!? "fine, georgie. i give up! you won't talk now!!! urrrrgh!!! =P i love you anyways!" :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( I said I'd punch you in the face for some reason, because you said in your diary "for some reason my wrist won'r stop bleeding." WELL NO SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It won't stop bleeding because you cut it you dumbass!!!!!! :( I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *kisses your cheek* I love you Danielle Nicole Parker :) |
| from dope-slave : |
| Like a few of the other people here, I saw this film when I was nine.Sure the movie has some outlandish scenarios and loops in it's plot but I don't see anyone knocking Han christian anderson or the brothers grimm or even Mother goose for that sort of thing.What about this thing called a " willing suspension of disbelief" without it no enjoyment can be had from any sort of story, fiction or otherwise.It's that suspension that allows the imagination to play and to fill in blanks .The special effects for a low budget movie in the 80's was exemplary for the time and I'd much rather enjoy the theatricality of a laser beam garage door opener than an invisible infra red one, ( it got my mind racing )and even as adult it's admittedly still more engaging than the reality.You can hear the spaceships exploding in space in Star wars and yet it's common knowledge that there is no sound in outerspace.Kids can't drive but we can have skates or bikes and for a long treck some form of transportation is necessary.I was inspired to take up rollerskating from it, and that proved more fun than pretending a cardboard box was a car not to mention it got me outdoors enjoying myself instead of vegging out on cartoons and cheap cereal.It was also touching to see a story aimed at kids that had big and little kids of differing backgrounds overcoming differences and trying to remain postive, spirited and hopeful in a world that had so little promise. Today we have teeny movies of over primped,over priveledged, prissy teenboppers who are just bored, cynical, self absorbed, and desperate for peer approval who resort to copying from glossy magazines a lifestyle dictated to them by people who only care about their pocket books. They can't appreciate anything because they've gotten everything too easily resulting in stunted imagination and lack of drive. There is still only one black boy or one black girl around and the character of "Rabbit" to this day is still treated with far more dignity than contemporary versions. Oscar material this movie isn't;nor was it mean't to be.It was a flight of fantasy. It got my imagination going.In real life people in desperate situations often do gravitate to happy escapism it's what you do when you need a will to survive." Solarbabies" as a team name in such a place isn't so farfetched and I would know I've been to some desperate places and see what people do to keep going.It was inspiring, not banal,but necessarily elementary and yet VERY engaging and responsibly mindful of it's INTENDED audience.There are more hopeful and redeeming qualities in this film than many an oscar contender and my life was richer for having seen it as a child as opposed to making them richer from the currently inevitable torrent of merchandise that would have accompanied it nowadays. |
| from xeison : |
| i know that the nightmares are scary, and they are horrible, and that you want them to stop, but, maybe i am just stupid, i think they are peoples way of coping with things too hard to cope with. They remind you of the voices you said, which i agree, the first dream resembled them a lot, the dreams seem like your way of coping with the voices, i have had a lot of simular types of dreams, which are probably my way of coping, i know they are horribly scary, and im sorry that you have them. May i ask, what is usually the last thing you think before you go to sleep? That may sound weird, but sometimes your last thoughts, influence what you dream. im sorry, ill stop being stupid now. im sorry that i dont really know what to say :(. |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Ugh! Is it wrong of me to want to slap your mom across the face and lecture her about how she has such a wonderful, beautiful daughter and that maybe she should pull her head out of her ass and take notice? Because that's exactly what I want to do. But you know what, Danielle? Don't let her ruin your good day. Fuck her. She doesn't determine your happiness, YOU do. So BE happy! And don't feel guilty about it. Okay? Because you do deserve it. And I'm glad that the pills are helping you, I really am. Did you sleep okay last night? I.. had one of those nightmares. I woke up at like 3 in the morning shaking, with my jaw clenched really tight. At first I couldn't remember and I started panicing, then I remembered what I dreamt. I don't remember much but I was in this really weird place, and someone was planting bombs. And I saw them, but this place was huge and I had to run away from them. And then everyone knew I knew where the bombs were, but I couldn't remember. Everything looked the same. And everyone was screaming at me that they were all going to die because of me. And I just kept running through the place, trying to get out or find the bombs or something but I couldn't. Then I woke up... :/ It was fucking intense! I was so scared... I had to pee but I didn't wanna get out of the bed... so finally I just got up and turned on the lights and went to the bathroom. The really fucked up thing is, I was watching CSI today, and guess what it fucking dealt with? BOMBS! I was like HOLY SHIT! It creeped me out. And dude, the other weird thing is, you know how I asked you about that movie, Rolling Kansas? I was making some soup, and I turned on the TV and it was on! But it was like half over which pissed me off, but I was like WHOA! I was just talking about that. I think I'm psychic or something.... Um. For real. No, I haven't seen SLC punk. What's it about? I'm in a movie watching mood, but there's no movies here that I haven't seen like a million times.. I just got done watching Gone in 60 Seconds. Um.. I would totally come and visit you if I could drive!! I'm not THAT far away. I'm in Michigan.. that's kinda close, right? C'mon, you're the one in school... how far away are we? Huh huh huh? Damn, I forgot what I was gonna say. Oh, yeah... Damn! I've been getting headache (migraines?) bad lately. I think I'm immune to Tylenol.. or getting there anyway... fuck. My vacation is... the opposite of what a vacation should be. But whatever. I knew how it was going to be. So it's okay. Anyways... I ♥ you!!! |
| from x-razor-x : |
| fine, georgie. i give up! you won't talk now!!! urrrrgh!!! =P i love you anyways! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Hmm.. and for some reason I'm going to punch you in the face if you do that AGAIN!!!!!!! ... I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| OI!!!!!!!!! ARE YOU STILL ON!?!?!??!?!?!?!!!! I'M HERE AND I'M NOT LEAVING!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE BE ON!!!!!!!! =D |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Aw, Danielle, that was beautiful what you said. It made me smile. It's one of those statements that really makes you think. It is definelty true in your case, and in Xeisons. You both have so many people who love and care about you. You both are intelligent and beautiful and caring and both of you have such potential to do really great things with your lives. I know that you love me, but I think you just love the idea of me... because trust me, I'm not really a loveable person. I have you, and I maybe have Xeison, I'm not sure, I think he's mad at me, I must have offended him in some way, I don't know, I haven't talked to him in a while, I IM'd him last night and he didn't respond. So. I don't know. But that's it. So... yeah. I know I see you me differenty than I see myself, and that's okay. I just... I don't think I can ever see myself like that, you know? I'm not really that girl. I feel like I'm slipping... *sigh* Why am I telling you all of this? I don't know, sorry. I have listened to the Rasmus, not a lot, but I've heard some of their songs and they're pretty good. :) I finished that book, too. It was crazy, has one of those endings that you don't expect. I need to go shower now... it's like 4:30 and I've just been louging around all day, dirty and in my PJS... um. I love you! ♥ |
| from xeison : |
| You ask where i live, honestly, that would require me to explain a lot of things to you, and it would take a long time, i may do it later, but not right now. My birthdate is April 25. You also asked how i have failed, basically in the most condensed form i can put it, many people have been horribly hurt and destroyed becuaswe of my failures, i am responcible for many Deaths and a immense amount of pain in the world. i am evil, a pain bringer, i am the very definition of scum. |
| from x-crime-x : |
| Hahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahhaaha!!!! You FINALY have realised that you're an AWSOME BEAUTIFUL PERSON, WHO HELPS SO MANY PEOPLE!!!!! YAY!!! I love you!!!!! =D the keyboard is working now. yippi. I'm proud of you (even though Xeison would tell me I can't say that to you because i'm younger.. but I WILL!) I'm so proud of you for everything you are Dani. I love you. |
| from x-crime-x : |
| Thank GOD you left me a note!! I just got home from school and needed my dailt dose from you, but their was nothing. So many things rushed through my head. I litteraly yelled "SHE HATES ME!!!" and then I punched the wall hard. I felt like giving up and never coming back to Dland again lol. Then about 20 minuites later I went to see if anyone loved me on x-crime-x .. haha.. you loved me. Even though you said you didn't want to!!!!!!!!!!! :'( I don't get it. Please explain it to me before I have a nervous break down! :S haha.. I saw that you didn't reply to my e-mail aswel, and I nearly cried because I din't know if you were trying to punish me. But you said you ran outta time to. Thank you for telling me that. Phew. Haley is mad at me. I don't know what to do. Well, um.. I should stut up now. I'm annoying myself. I love you. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I shall talk to that guy now :) Leave him a note or something :) I had no idea he was only 15!!! I'm sorry for everything Danielle. I love you. |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Shit that was really long... *insert apology here* I didn't say it so you can't get mad at me. ;) |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Oh, hunny. *hugs* I love you. Don't lose hope okay. I know that you're doing all that can for your Georgia. I know you. I know you'd give nothing less than your very best. Just keep doing what you're doing. With you by her side, she's not alone. She's got backup, someone to hold her hand and help her fight the demons. I know it's not the same as being there with her, but I know if I was in her position, I would feel so much better knowing I had someone like you right there with me. You are amazing. A wonderful, wonderful friend. Don't ever forget that, okay? And if there is anything I can do for her, just let me know, okay? Because if she means that much to you she must be an amazing person, too. And Xeison... :( Gah. I feel useless. But I'm working on it, even though I know that nothing I say is even breaking the surface. He is so much more than he thinks he is, but I just don't know how to make him see himself through my eyes, through your eyes... I just don't know what to do and I feel like I am running out of options. I just... I understand how you're feeling. But please don't think that this (any of this) is your fault. Because it's not. I promised Xeison I would help him, but I can't. He is my fault, not yours. I don't know how much he has told you about himself and his situation, but it is tough. He is... well, he's under custody right now. The people who have him, they're horrible, horrible people and they torture him. He is locked away, with barely given the time of the day. He feels like he is never going to get out of there, that he is reduced to that space and that he will never escape. All he has ever known is tragedies, and I can't seem to convice him that the rest of the world is not like that, that there are actually decent people out there. But I'm the worst example anyone could ever ask her. Here I am, the "sister" he looks up to, telling him the world is not tainted, and yet I don't even really believe that myself. I don't even want to be here. How can I convice him that his life is worth living? All I'm doing is filling his head with my pathetic stories and telling him of my pathetic life and how I hate myself and my life. How is he supposed to believe me when I can't give him proof? Besides you, you are proof that the entire world is not full of self-absorbed scum. And he is also that proof to me. But he doesn't believe me. And I keep telling him I'm sorry, I'm a poor example, a horrible influence, terrible sister, but he thinks it's him. But it's really me. I am what is wrong with Xeison, I will fix it, I will take the burden off your shoulders, I am trying. I promise you that I am trying to make amends. It's just so hard sometimes.. I just don't know what the fuck to do. I can't lie to him, I can't pretend like I'm okay... he thinks it's his fault I'm so fucking messed up in the head, that he's done this to me. But I told him, I told him I've always been this way, ever since I can remember. What the fuck? I just... I don't know. Did you read the entry, the one De Sheng wrote? Xeison says he is basically me, created out of my will to keep him alive. I can only hope that he will help Xeison through this, take over him when Xeison is too weak to fight off the rest of them. Ai, she is trying to help him, too, but he's afraid of her... I'm trying to make him understand she is just trying to help, but I'm just spitting empty words in his eyes, he doesn't want to accept that. Fuck, I'm sorry... I didn't mean to go off like that. I love you so much, Danielle. So fucking much. The book, it's by Gillian Flynn. I'm not quite half way through it yet, but I think it's really good so far. I don't know if the Library will have it, I think it's pretty recent. But it's wonderful, I think you'd like it. I'm sorry if this note was... um.. depressing. I'm not in the best mood today either. I talked to Cat earlier on AIM and she cheered me up a bit, made me laugh, but now noone is online, and I'm worried about Xeison, and I want to give you a great big hug and I just want everyone to be happy. You guys are so wonderful, you don't deserve this shit. ♥ YOU SO SO SO SO SO MUCH! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| Replying to what?? I love you. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Aww. I know how you feel about being numb. It's horrid. Blah. Don't get angry about your mummy dearest, it's not worth it. Don't hang on to her words, she's lied to you too many times. Just let what will happen, happen.. Does that make sence?? Probably not :S La la la la la! If you start to feel numb, come here and I'll write you a bunch of things that will make you smile! I love you! |
| from xeison : |
| You have no reason to be sorry. My brithname was ashwin, but it was changed to xeison, which is now my realname. i have failed you :'(. You will see soon enough :'(. Cutting that does not leave marks does not make you wimpy, i do not know if this can help you or not, if it cant, then just yell at me later. Look at cutting logically though, if you want pain, becuase it is a punishment for being an unworthy person, which is completely untrue, then think about it, if you want the cutting, it is not really a punishment is it? It is almost a reward. If you really want to punish yourself, you will not cut, becuase cutting is a reward to you, cutting is not punishment, becuase you want it. If you are going to punish yourself, then try your hardest not to cut, i know how diffecult it is, but try not to, becuase it will not change anything, it will not make a difference, in the end, it is just another flash, a blur, a dot in the vast expanse of time and space, it changes nothing. That probably did not help you, so you can yell at me later, im sorry im a failure, im so sorry :'( |
| from thatgirlx : |
| P.S. And there is to be absolutly NO killing of yourself. You got that!? I haven't even sent you your gift, yet. Geeze. Aren't you curious!?!?! C'mon!!!!!!! Danielle!!! I ♥ YOU!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from thatgirlx : |
| It doesn't matter how deep you cut or how visible the scar is. At all. My ex, when I confessed about how I used to cut, he said to me, "I don't see any scars." And I can't remember what else he said, but basically he implied I wasn't really an "ex-cutter" because if I was there would be obvious markings and evidence. And like you said, I felt like a "sissy" As if I was making it up or something... It fucking pissed me the hell off. Just because I'm not scarred (which actually, if you look closely, you can still see some scars) doesn't mean I wasn't serious about it. I slam my head against the wall sometimes... obviously you can't tell from looking at me... but it doesn't mean I didn't feel the impact or acheive what I was trying for... Am I making sense? I mean... to harm yourself in any way, that's serious. So don't feel bad, okay? It IS a good thing... safety wise. You know? I'm just going to shut the hell up before I confuse you any more than I already have. Okay. Bye. ♥ ♥ ♥ |
| from x-dead-x : |
| No don't do it. Fuck them. If they don't wanna get to know you, its their loss. I know it hurts, but just know that they're missing out on somthing awesome: YOU! You are the best friend I could ever hope to have. I know we've had a few problems, but we're still buddies, and come what may, nothing will change that. You're like a sister to me. I love you with all of my being. Don't ever forget that Danielle. Why can't you see what everyone else does? We all see a beautiful, knd, caring, amazing person. Try seeing it our way, please? Look, Mitch did the same thing. He thought "Well, nobody cares about me, so I'll make them care." And look where he is. He's in the hospital fighting for his life. Figting for the control of his life, rather. Don't get in that position. remember Jake? He though nobody cared about him, too, and he'll never get the chance to see all the people he touched in his life. Don't do it. I love you! |
| from x-dead-x : |
| i realized that after i pushed enter =( i love you queeen of the lollies!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Lol, you're a funny buggar! Did you get the e-mail I sent last night, cause it was cool, and long, but i can't remember if I sent.. my CD player was being an assie, so I think I may have pressed 'X' hmm.... I LOVE YOU! |
| from x-dead-x : |
| fank you =) I lub you! OK enough baby talk. THANK YOU. I LOVE YOU. ♥ I'm watching Saved! Its on the tv. =) bye bye. |
| from x-dead-x : |
| No I didn't mean that linky. I meant where you put the url of a site in there type what you want to be the clicky and it takes you right ot the site. |
| from x-dead-x : |
| how do I do the whole link clicky thingy again? |
| from x-dead-x : |
| nyah nyah nyah. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| NO!!! Please keep writting long entries! I love it when you do. It makes me happy :) I love you so much. You just updated all-falldown, but you won't still be on :( That's ok though. I'm always here with you Danielle. I love you so much. You're everything to me. I would do anything for you. I would live, just for you, and I would die for you. I love you so much. You're my everything.. I miss you so much. One day, I will be able to hold you. You will forget your past, your future, and we can just be happy.. I love you Danielle. |
| from x-dead-x : |
| I'm finished now! lol. K. I locked it again, but the user name and password is the same. So yeah. =) Toodles! |
| from x-dead-x : |
| deleting all these thingies is quite a task disastrous danielle. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Oh, I've been meaning to tell you for about 5 weeks now, that I've found a song for you :) I was in bed AGES ago and there was a song on Video Hits by Anti Flag, and as soon as I saw it, I thought of you!!! They're a punk band (don't really like that stuff, but they have 3 good songs) and the song sounds meaningless by itself, but with the clip, it's amazing! It's inspirational, and I want you to see it. It's called "This Is The End" ok?? :) OH, and YES!!! I DO LIKE AFI! :D They're gorgeous!! Oh, and I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE your new lay-out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Danielle, I have done something bad. I've pissed off Haley. She says she thinks it's funny, but I know she doesn't. Does she often do stuff like that?? Like, kinda deny it? *sighs* I sent an e-mail that was ment for YOU to HER and it was ABOUT HER. So now she'll never trust me again. She won't ever talk to me about things that really matter to her :( What do I DO!?!?!?!!??!?!?!?!?!?!?! I love you!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| *serious SERIOUS face* I see you have lots of notes now.. *narrows eyes* ... I guesse that's ok. For now! |
| from xeison : |
| Yay i got to work, im sorry i took so long. i ♥ you. |
| from xeison : |
| One last try... ♥ |
| from xeison : |
| i seem not to be able to get it to work, so i geuss im still stuck with this <3, im sorry, im stupid, i jsut do not understand how to do it, im sorry |
| from xeison : |
| &hearts |
| from xeison : |
| P.S. i love you too &heart |
| from xeison : |
| i guess we do need to work on that, you, Angel, and i, using your metaphor forgive me, could be the Three Blind Mice, unable to see ourselves. No, i have no medication to help me with the voices and the people, and i have noone here to help me either, i only have you and Angel. |
| from xeison : |
| i, my Father, he hurts me so badly and i cant make him stop and it just gets worse and worse, i need him to stop, but i dont deserve the relief of that. im not beatiful, smart, or wonderful. You are all of those things and more, you are much more than me, you are so much better, as a male version of you, i am just a speck in something so much greator. |
| from cat-45 : |
| oooooh........ Either cherry or sour apple (preferrrably apple, por favor) *bows down before the greta queen of lollies* Oh great queen of lollies! I am your humble servant! ♥ lol. I'm going to take a shower. and break something =) toodles! |
| from thatgirlx : |
| P.S. I ♥ you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! You deserve a cookie for making me smile. Err.. well.. you probably don't want a cookie. Dammit! You can't send me something if I don't you give you my address! Haha!!!!!! And I'm not telling.... ;) So unless your phsycic (sp?) .... it ain't happening! But you still have to give me yours cause I SAID so and I already know what I'm sending you and you'll LOVE it!!! Trust me. Um!? You're just too beautiful, too perfect for words. You really made my day, you know that? *BIG BIG BIG HUGS* |
| from x-crime-x : |
| JA-HEE-VERS Danielle! That was so.. unbelievably freakin amazing of you to write that about us all. I do NOT know what to say. I could never top that, that's for sure!! I need to make you a tape too. I'm making Haley one for when she's sad sometimes, did she tell ya? so what do you want your tape to be for?? Happy times? Sad? OMG!!!! I can do you a relaxation tape for you!!!!!!!!!!! YES! YES! BRILLIANT! It'll make you laugh out loud! YAY! Dumbass me has just gotta figure out how to record it on the tape. I haven't got one where ya can record it :( O well, I'll find one :D I have to write you a song/poems soon too! But it could still never show you how much I love you.. That's something my words cannot express.. Um.. I have to go *scowls at my nanna. Sharpens knife. Gets out pill bottle with "nannies pills" written on it. Evil smile.* Grr. She gets really annoying.. I shall try to come on later, ok? I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| Wow, you know how to make a girl feel loved. *tear* happy tear, of course. Hee hee. Xeison made you become what you really are! A super cool HIPPIE! Just kidding. I'm trying to make a shirt. And doing a kick ass job, if I might toot my own horn *beep beep* lol. Hope fuckface didn't yell at you. *gets anitfreeze ready* OK, so I'm proud of you for beating your "friend" last night. Just keep beating them. Never let them win! We all know you can win! You- the one who could out-smart GOD- can definately out-smart your "friends" Just hang in there! I gotta go. TOODLES! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Damn right you can do it!!!!!! I'm so so so so so so so SO proud of you for fighting! I know it can get hard sometimes, and you've got that nagging thought in the back of your head, like 'What If..." But you can't do that. Obviously, like you said and know, you have a ton of people who really really really care about you. Even if YOU don't love YOU, there are people who DO love you LOTS and LOTS! And lots. :) Which has to stand for something, right? Right! So don't give up. Not ever. You owe it to yourself to give yourself the chance to experience the rest of the world, new opportunities, meeting new people... (Like me.... someday, maybe. Or your Georgia!!!!) you can't cut that short. You're such a beautiful, amazing, genuine, talented, sweet, kind-hearted, funny, always cracks me up and makes me smile girl! :) You got that!? And if you have to plaster every inch of your bedroom wall with pictures of Haley and your friends, well dammit! get to work! I LOVE YOU!!!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ |
| from x-crime-x : |
| BYE! *waves* I love you! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| ♥ |
| from x-crime-x : |
| Bye bye! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| I love you. |
| from x-crime-x : |
| I bet you can tell that i'm avoiding the shower, huh? lol I DON'T WANNA GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OK OK OK OK OK OK!!! I'm going... It's your fault if I'm grumpy in the morning!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| I hope that wasn't too confusing for you lol. Hmm... i think i got the American emerg number wrong. I had to think back to some movies I've seen and shout out "CALL 911!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" then it was "CALL 991!!!!!!!!!!!" and so on.. Took me a while, but I think 911 is right :) 000 is our emerg number if you didn't know :P I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| But if a young girl.. bout my age.. comes upto you and lets you lick her lollie pop, then you need to be nice to her and take her home with you, and let her sleep in your bed with you :) Then she might let you have another lick.. She will tell yu she loves you, and you are not to freak out, because you love her too.. You will live happily ever after :) And you will never call 000/911 on her!!! Even if she tries to stab you *innocent smile* |
| from x-crime-x : |
| If you get picked up outside of school but an old man who offers you lollie, make sure you take the lollies, then run!!!!! If he tries to catch you, drop kick him in the face and call 000/991!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OK!?!?! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| I LOVE YOU! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| IEST EVERRRRRRRRARRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| DANIELLE IS DA SEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| *whipmers* I miss you already, and I haven't even washed my hair :'( I WANT YOU TO WASH IT FOR ME WHILE I SLEEP!!!!!!!! Pretty please?? *yawns* I love you Danielle!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you so much! Sweet dreams my little one :) I love you!!!! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| Ooops! On the 78th line and the 6th word accross, I made an error. I wrote "could live without you" but I ment "couldn't!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" haha, sorry about that!!! Oh and also, at the bottom of that note I worte "I'll shut up not" but I ment to say "I'll shut up noW" ok? Yeah, sorry bout that too!! I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from x-crime-x : |
| AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You added me to x-razor-x! OMG!!No one was ever added in THAT profile! Why am I there? Eeek! Thank you for adding me DANIELLE!!! Thank you for my awsome note you left me too :) I love you so much. You are perfect. Thank you for everything you do for me Danielle. i love you so much. You're the most amazing person in the entire world! :D Um, I'm gonna reply to your e-mail here, because i'm too lazy :S i hope that's ok. You can delete it if there's stuff you don't want others to see :) Ok, so first off you said you shouldn't have asked me that stuff.. WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU TALKING ABOUT!?!?!?!?!?!? Ask me what? That you wanted to talk to me??? Baby, that DID NOT worry me, I was just scared for you, and I wanted to know if you were alright. Don't feel bad Danielle :) I will never get angry at you. Even if you write stuff to me that doesn't quite make sence (to you!!!!!) I always ponder it for ages, trying to figure it out :) I love it when you tell me things, and I love that you love me. I could NEVER forgett that! It hasn't even crosses my mind :) No matter what happens, I will always love you. It would be the worst mistake of my life to let you go.. Bloody hell, you're not a 'fuck-up!' Just because Jayna thinks that, it doesn't mean it's true. Everyone knows it's not true. You are FAR from a fuck-up. Nofin' of da sort ma darlin!! :P Jayna has problems Danielle.. you know that, and her way of coping is to get angry and hate others, when really, it's her that she hates. It's her way of dealing with things, don't let it get to you, ever. How could you say you upset me????? lol, you didn't! I'm never gonna dump you Dani-shmoo-moo-moo-ma-moo! You are the most important thing to me.. Seriously, you have no bloody idea where I'd be if it wasn't for you. I'd have more scars, more suicide attempts (if not already succeeded), I'd cry, I wouldn't laugh, I wouldn't know what it'd be like to have someone love me the way you do, I would be bored shitless in class if I didn't have you to think about, you help me understand things, you help me believe, you help me to be honest, you help me to open up, you help me to not be affraid to start over.. I love you so much. I could live without you Danielle. Got it? AHHHH!!! You're not over-emotional!!!! PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFTT! Bull shit! You're far from over emotional, just you wait until we meet!!! That'll be OVER EMOTIONAL lol. Oh yay, I'm glad you got the whole disorder thing I was trying to say :) Pheww! OH RACK OFF YOU SMELLY RACOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will seriously KICK your ass when I see you for all the times you say "i'll shut up now!" Grr. I'm gonna stab you really hard. It's gonna bleed and get infected!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahhahaahhaahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahhahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!! Grr, Danielle, you know that assignment thingo that I have to start again for Social Structures??? Well I've done heaps of research, but I still can't seem to get anything to stick in ym head. I can't write anything down. I'm gonna end up rushing it on the due day, as always. O well.. I'll get there. I have to. There's no way I'm not gonna not do it lol :P Um.. I really wanna stay and talk to you more, but it's hell late and I have to go to bed. I miss you so much. I would KILL to have you sleep with me tonight!!!! I love you so much. *SCREAMS* My eye keeps twitching! It used to twitch HEAPS at the start of the year for about 5 weeks non stop. It was really annoying!! But it started yesterday, and it really hurts!!!!! Next time it does it, i'm going to punch the fucking wall! Grr. Oh man... I wonder if I should wash my hair now, or in the morning? If I wash it now, it'll be dry for tomorrow.. But it's cold n late and I can't be stuffed! But that means I'll have to get up earlier tomorrow if I don't!!! So I may aswel just do it now, aye? yeah :) Ok, I guees you didn't really need to know that, but aren't you glad you DO!?!?!?!??!!?!?!?!??! :D Haha. I love you so much Danielle. God, I am going to go even more nuts if i can't hold you soon. I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha, I'm quite proud of myself :) I worte a long note to you! Yay! did you notice?! Ha, most of it was about ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME though grr. I'll shut up not. I'm annoying myself!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!! ♥ ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I nearly DIED when I read that!!!!!!!!!!! I didn't breath the whole time!! Baby, you scared me so much. I love you! Don't let those voices hurt you. Distract yourself somehow. Don't let them bully you into sadness. You can beat the crap outta those stupid assies! I KNOW YOU CAN!!! *does cheer leader dance in a minni skirt and granny knickers* I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!! Oh God, Danielle! I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo glad you told me that you sent that e-mail to nraph! THANKYOU! It would have been a disaster if anyone saw it! nraph is my mum's account thingo, and I sent the pictures through that one because I'm too stupid to figure out how to do it on my one lol. Thank you for telling ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D I LOVE YOU! I had to print it off when I got it, and I took it to school and read it. How come you like having dreams where you get told you're mean things?? And you also said in xxplaydeadxx that you were glad it was your evil friend that spoke to you instead of the 'nice' one.. What do you mean???? Why???? I love you.. HA! I love you Dani-shmoo-moo-moo-ma-moo!!!!!!! :D ♥ ♥ |
| from x-crime-x : |
| Hi Danielle, it's Georgia! :) I was just wondering if you could be the first (that i know of) to look at my new diary.. When you get a spare moment though :) Um, my profile is boring, I shall change it when I can find the time, and I'm sorry about the boring lay-out too. I tried to look over my entries, and i had to STOP lol, the blue was really getting to me :P Yeah, well um.. I was hoping to make it a diary about Jake, but it turned out to be about fatty here :P Quite a lot of it is boring to read aswel, but i just would like you to read it, ya know. I love you Danielle, I love you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I love you Danielle! I really hope you're having a GREAT time a t Cat's house!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU! I miss you so much :S *licks your cheek* |
| from razornotes00 : |
| AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tell 'em to go clim a bloddy tree!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They suck and don't let them get to your head!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry this is short, mum is calling me :( I love you Danielle, sweet dreams! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Hello again, Danielle! :) I'm back from school now. I have done my homework already and it's just gone 4:18pm! I feel special. You now your new friend..? I don't remember the name.. but it starts with xe.. something something :S Yeah, well, I read that diary (only two because dland was being mean) and.. WOW. He/she is so freaking smart! He (we'll just leave it as a 'he' for now) is so amazing. He thinks about things in such a deep and passionate depth. Geez. What a beautiful person, huh? I don't understand how he could hate himself though.. Man, he's awsome, aye?! :D I wish I could be as great as him. So my darling, you got your poor little teefers cut out today :'( What does cut out mean, by the way? Like, do they just CUT if off at the base, or actualy pull the whole toof out?? :P I've had heaps of teefers pulled out and it sucks! You must be so saw :( *hugs* I really hope you feel better soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Take lots of panadol and get heaps of rest, ok?! OK! I love you so much Danielle :) I'm always here for you. I love you! ♥ ♥ ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I ment YOU, not YUO! I love you! xxx :D |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Good evening, I'm back (remember? I said i might come back later in your other diary's notes page?). I had some pizza yesterday!!!! :D Ok, I love you Danielle!!!!!!! Um, the teacher.. well you can figure it out on your own. It's not too hard to do. I hate men. Ugh. YesterDAY and the night before, I thought things were getting a lot better :) But then, mum started again. and Robert tried to choke the dog.. You must think I'm the worst person in the entire worl to let people treat Charlie like that, I know. But I've decided that I'm going to stand up for him more than I normaly do. It's the only thing I can do, so I will, eh? Um, I really want to be a good kid. I don't want to take drugs anymore. I don't want to be worried about food. I just want to be something special. Like, I know you think I'm special, but.. ya know? It's different.. I kinda have to KNOW that I am :S I just need to be good for a while.. You said I should try and fix thigs with dad.. So I called him tonight, and even though he told me how dissapointed he'll be if I ever turn out like a stupid ass with bad grades, it was worth it. I needed to feel punishment from him in anyway. It is, after all, me who's screwed it up. But I can say i tried, right? Should I try again..? :S I haven't heard much about you, your father and your mum.. What's going on there? Your mum has broken promises again, right? :'( What about your dad? Have y'all spoken yet? Letters? Is aunty Kim doing ok, or still really stressed out? Oh that reminds me! I need to send y'all Christmas cards too.. I have no idea how long it takes to get their though. Probaly about two weeks?? 3 maybe?? Yeah, I think 3, because Kate sent a letter to Luke a few weeks ago and he got it last Tuesday. Hmm. Ha, sorry about that. Um, what else was i gonna say? Oh yeah.. I love you. I love you so much! Sweet dreams my beautiful one ♥ Ha, I sound 100 years old!! I don't care though :P I LOVE OYU!!! |
| from xeison : |
| im sorry for what happened. Also, i noticed you seem to think of yourself as a waste of space, i know this wont change your mind, but you are not a waste of space, you mean a lot to a lot of people, at least i know to me and Angel, and it seems like you have Friends where you are to, like Haley, im sorry if i spelled that wrong. Please try to remember that, i hope you are doing ok. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Geez.. :( Are any of the suicides related in anyway?? Like did any of them know eachother, is what I ment?? It's so sad. I love you Danielle *smiles* I hope you're alright.. I love you!! XoXoXoX |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ugh. just because other people think it's disgusting, it's only because they don't understand it. I don't think it's disgusting, I think it's sad that you think you have to do it. You are certianly NOT disgusting either!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You never will be and you never have been. You're so kind, smart, funny and beautiful! You're not anything bad like you think you are :) I love you so much. Got that? ..... WHAT!!??! You don't like Tim Mcgraw?!?!?!? hmm... dunno if I can deal with that.. :P lol DUH!! Of course she'll be interisted!!!! That's why it's not really a good idea. Don't asak me what to do!!!!! Golly! It's up to you Danielle :D hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah!!!!! Yippi!!!!! *does little dance* I got thingo stuck in your head?!?!?!?!? YAY! lol, what are hicks?? Are they like the little farm people?? OMG! I saw the pictures that Cat put up today, and you are so gorgeous!!!! I got to see your whole face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D IIIIIII win!!! What the hell... :( You threw up today? Aww.. *kisses your cheek. Slaps you in the face* Why does pasta make you sick?? I do know what you mean about knowing something makes you sick, but still having it anyway though lol. Did you want to punish yourself, or just throw up then?? Is it the best thing for you to be reading that book that you are now?? Won't it like, make you want to do it too?? Danielle, you're so important, and I love you to death.. Thank you for telling me that stuff today. I felt really good :) Like you trust me.. Dani, please just take care of yourself. Don't listen to the voices. When you said "everyone makes mistakes, right?" well, was this really a mistake?? AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! You don't need to make yourself sick or stop eating because you're not fat!!!!! You're beautiful!!!! You're everything great! OMG!!! I saw your teeth today too!!! Holy COW! They are PERFECT!!! I want them darnit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D I love you so much!!!!!! What else?? Oh, you asked where I went with my nanna. Um, she took me to my mum's work and I stayed their until the the roster changed over, then Aunty Di (the special one) was getting violent to everyone at her group home, so mum and I had to take her away for the day. We went and saw BoyTown. It's was a lot better than I expected it to be :) Yeah, then we took her to my nanna's house for 20 minuites or so, then mum was home with me for about an hour grrr! Then she went back to work, and dropped Di off back to her group house. Now, I'm here talking to you. And now i'm not going to lol. Sorry! I LOVE YOU DNAIELLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you so much! |
| from cat-45 : |
| I don't think you're disgusting at all. I never meant to hurt you and I'm sorry. In my personal opinion throwing up is disgusting because it makes me feel more disgusting. Its like some people don't like to sneeze... I like to sneeze! It makes my nose feel all cool. lol. I noticed you were crying, but I just didn't know what to say =( I suck at that kind of stuff and you know it!!!! nyeh. YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING nyeh. Its probably a good thing you didn't come over.... I fell asleep and wouldn't have been much entertainment at all! But, look at it this way... Es possible that she might let you stay like 2 or 3 days during fall break! =) If I be a good girl =) Which I think I just might.... I feel like being a goody goody now.... IDK why.... strange? very very. OK... I wanna go watcha movie... IDK what though.... |
| from thatgirlx : |
| You're not disgusting. Some people just don't understand. They never will. Not unless they've actually experienced it, lived it. People don't realize, when they speak, that they might be tapping into our hidden secrets. I can't tell you how many times I've heard refrences to anorexics or bulimics. And I can't SAY anything, I can't discount their words. But it hurts, hearing what they really think. Try not to let it get to you, okay? I think they just mean that throwing up in itself is a disgusting act. Which I'm sure you'd agree with. But it does NOT make YOU disgusting. I'm sure they didn't mean to hurt you. *hugs* (I'll leave you another note in your diary when I have more time, answering your question.) ♥ you!!!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Morning Danielle! I love you :D Um, I want to know what you were talking about in xxplaydeadxx was the first one Haley???? Please tell me, e-mail me dammit!!!! :) Pretty please! And I will tell you what I am sad about so i would b just down right CRULE not to tell ME what's going on... I would fink you down't wuv me no more.. :P hhahaahahah! I love you ♥ I love you so much! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Hey sexy! How are you? *laughs for about 5 minuites* WHAT A STUPID QUESTION! :P Don't worry, you do not have to answer it! haha, I'd be quite pissed off if you did anyway. I was just being stoopid! OK, so you new friend.... Well it can go to hell. Simple as that. NOO! FUCK SIMPLE!!!!! I'm going to kill that stupid freaking assie!!!!!!!!!! I hate her! She's a bitch! Don't bloody listen to her :( I know it's hard not to, but please try.. You're not insane *licks finger and tries to erase the stapm on your head* I love you so much.. That girl is not your friend and she's not a SHE!!!!!! She is just a chemical in your head at the moment! Fuck it/her! Please don't do what she says! She'a a stupid fucker who hasn't got any real friend becuase she's been mean to all of them and lost them!!!!!! AND DANIELLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That does NOTTTTTTT mean that you need to feel sorry for her lol, she'll only hurt you! Crappar! She already has!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She's not nice at all. I want you BACK! I want you to be happy! Danielle, why is this happening???!?!?!? Why??? You've been a good girl! You have! you have! I know you have! :D duude, sorry to ask, but what is it with you and counting your cuts and scars!??????!!! I mean, I understand a little beause I count pretty much everything EXCEPT them! lol, I really don't get it.. :S Help me understand, aye?? I love you so much!!! Please don't hurt yourself. I wanna be able to kiss you all over and not hurt your scars.. When people do that does it hurt?? It hurt when Aaron did it all the time :'( I don't want to hurt you.. I don't want you in pain for ANY reason!!!!! OK?? I love you so much Danielle. I want you to stop hurting yourself and be happy.. You're beautiful, smart (refer to freaking recent marks in schooool dammit!!!!!!!!!!!!), kind, caring, funny, gentle, creative and the most honest person I've ever known!!! You are so amazing! You are so beautiful on the outside and on the inside tooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Stay strong baby.. Hang in there.. Just wait, ok? I'll be there soon. I swear.. I love you so much Danielle.. Always and forever *kisses your cheek* I love you ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Aw, Danielle. *BIG BIG HUGS* |
| from cat-45 : |
| she said she wouldn't tell you =( |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Aww :( What's wrong Danielle?? Why are you scared?? Don't listen to any discouragment from anyone, ok??!!! It is us, the people that love you, who are the ones who know who you really are, so don't pay attention to their crap... Don't listen to your 'friends' in your head ok?? *sighs* I love you.. Talk to me Daielle!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *licks your cheek. Kisses the other side.* I love you xxx |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Well, thank you for all the notes today sweetie! :D I love you so much! Oh shit, btw, about your xxliesxx diary, I don't remember the %^*&^*( password! I know it vaugley, but it was wrong.. apparenty!!!!!!! I'll check the e-mails, see if it's in their.. doubt it though.. Might be in one of my notes.. hmm... I'll figure it out :) OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D Idol Choice night is on tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't watch it though, much :P But I'm going to watch tonight's! Because I love Bobby and the little Ireland guy.. Fuck all the rest though!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) I love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fliptie-didely-DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-O I think my brother's home!!!! lol he just blew his nose!!!!! Golly. It's like he's playing the trumpit (is that spelt right?? don't think so..)!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He's crazy! For some reason, like, all the guys in my family (ha, the whole 2 guys!!!!!!!!! *does scarcastic face*) all blow their nose like bloody whales humping or something... Hmm.. DANG! I just got a nasty image! :S |
| from razornotes00 : |
| *giggles like a little school girl* |
| from razornotes00 : |
| LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "Floats ya boat" AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhahahhahahhahahahhahahahahahah! I laughed so hard at that! Hmm... Funny stuff :D |
| from razornotes00 : |
| FUCK SAKE!!!!!!!! Ya know how many bloody time I've listened to I'll be?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!? I still don't know it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Normally I catch onto songs easily, but this??????? GRRRR! WHY CAN'T I!?!??!?!?! All I know is the start ("Strands in your eyes"), "I'll be better when I'm older" ... "and tell me, we belong together"... "I'll be your cryin sholder" AND "I'll be, better when I'm older.." Bloddy hell aye???? PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT! Screw it! I still love it though. I told Kate about it today when we were walking home, but she called me insane and said "It better not be flippin' country!!!!!!" I laughted and said "no" and then she goes "well... whatever floats you boat then..." |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Whoa! Y'all were talking about me today? Ya know what that means?? Ha, y'all non-window lickers have NO LIVES! Surely ya got something better to talk about??!?!?!? lol :P Sometimes I really want to yell to everyone everything about you, but then if I did.. I would feel kinda weird.. :S I don't think anyone here understands, ya know? Ugh. Today in girls rec, I started to talk a little about you to Racheal, and she just called me gay :( She was probaly joking, but.. like.. ya know? lol :P I think, though.. I prefer not telling EVERYONE SOOOO much about you, because I adore thinking about you all the time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bloody hell... The places my imagination tends to go, is NUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But good places though :) I love you.. I love you! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Aww.. you cut yourself again? *sighs* Oh how I would give anything to be with you right now.. I love you so much. *head spins* I wanna make you feel a hug from me. I wanna make you feel my kiss this time, dammitttttttttttttt!! Why did you do it? Why did you hurt yourself??? :( I love you.. I really do :) |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ok, hello Danielle! :) I can't open my notes page again today.. for some crazy reason :( So I'll have to try and remember what you said... Hmm... I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Um, I can't think right today, my head hurts really bad.. FOR THE 5th FUCKING DAY!!!!!!!!!!!! :( *cries* Ha, you'll regret saying that my nose is cute after y'all see me. I promise that you will! I know it. Anyway, I didn't mean to come accros as a bitch when I said you were "lying" to me, sorry. It's hard to explain.. But I dunno. Never mind. Thanks anyway.. HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I sooooo DO NOT think that it's a bad thing for you to eat all the popcorn lol. I KNEW you'd say that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Grr. I don't think that it's bad at all!! It's just annoying for ME!! :P Like, sometimes I eat heaps and don't give a crap, and other times I'll eat nothing and think I've eaten too much. I actualy don't think that popcorn's a bad thing to eat anyway. It's not unhealthy :) Wait, except when I eat it lol. I sometimes like to eat it with icing suggar. My brother says I'm a suggar addict :P Oh yeah, when you wrote the entry BEFORE today's one, I wanted to say that I think it's great that you're not so much affraid of food. A huge weight was lifted from me when I read that.. I felt so proud.. You might feel slightly scared of it still (?) but try not to be.. It's a good thing :) (eating, I ment). Ugh. I make no sence! I'm sorry.. Thank you for not being affraid and angry at food so much anymore.. I hope it lasts a long timew for you babe :) I really do. Um.. Oh, why did I delete that entry??? Well, first off... HOW THE FUCK DID YOU KNOW!!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! lol and secondly, because I was only writting shit in it and it was all angry stuff in it. I don't like when I do that. Half the time I don't even mean what I say, ya know? When I wrote it, I didn't really want anyone to read it :S So I kept thinking about it last night, wondering it I shoud have gotten rid of it.. But I didn't.. Mum was home :( THEN, in the morning, I got up and went to delete it and saw that you and Anya had updated, so I was pissed 'cause it ment that y'all had already read it :( So yeah... PLUS!!!!!! lol, Racheal is going nuts at me and demands to read my diary.. I really don't want her to. But it's only fair, I guess.. OH DUUUUUUDE!!!! :D I read the falldown diary :) Wow :) I like it!!! Sad, but I like it!!! I love the layout too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Grr. I was thinking AGES ago that I wanted to start another diary, but I couldn't think of a really "catchy" name for it. Ha. You cow. You always think of good ones!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *pokes you in the eye* OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!! *holds habd to head* Shit, that really hurt MY EYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cries* I don't know why.. guess my imagination is very lucid. I'm sorry Danielle! I didn't mean it!! Well, I did.... But I didn't mean for it to hurt :S SORRYYYYYY! *kisses your eye really gently.. * I love you Danielle. I'll love you forever.. *hugs you for a long time* |
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| Oh Cat, you say I'm halarious then, huh? huh? huh? Well see how "halarious" I get when I've just had corn!!!! It makes me go wild......................................................................................................... :P |
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| ha ha. Georgia is freakin hilarious. |
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| *sighs* I wish I was the humble sort of person.... Well I better go do an entry now. It's 3:41pm and I gotta go at 4:20pm.. I love you ♥ ♥ ♥ |
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| LMAO! :D Do you know what that said??????? It said "hmm.. there are lost of typos in these notes today.." but backwards!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhahahhaaahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahah!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 |
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| ..yadot seton eseht ni sopyt fo stol era ereht ..mmh |
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| Hmm.. There are lots of typos in these notes today.. |
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| Hey, guess what? I have 4 Diaryland pages up atm! :) One of your picture to stare at, of corse. One of my notes page (because it's still fucked up, and I have to always open it on a seperate time to read my notes, after they finally decide they want me to see then after 15 minuites or so...). Another page of xxplaydeadxx because I'm listening to tht song again :D Anmd I have this one up!!!!!!!!!! Where I'm writting you anothe pointless note! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I have to go to the docters today :( I hate going to the docters! Fucking been there for half my life.. Stupid people. Haven't been feeling well lately, so I have to go their for scans and shit this avo. GRR. No matter how many times I keep telling mum that there's nothing that can be done about glandular fever, she still insists on me going to the fucking docters all the time! Maybe I should wear a really smelly t-shirt their.. Ha. I licked a furniture shores' window today!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahhaahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahaahaaa! seriously. No joke. I did. :) The guy saw me and laughed and mum called me a psyco. I said she needs to try it one day. She said no :( When she dropped me home today, I got out of the car and licked her side of the window. Ha, she dry reached!!!!!!! :D I'm clever. I know her weak spots :) I love you Danielle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| Whoa! :D you and Cat were laughing at my notes?!?!? When I read that entry, I thought y'all were just being y'all :P But y'all were laughing at me! Ha, that makes me feel good. Thank you! AHHHHHHH! Haley asked if I was hot?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Ewwwww! No no! Yukkie! Haley, if you're reading this note.. I'm not hot. Ok? There. settled! :) Hmm... are you hot though??? YOU WANT TO LOOK LIKE THE EMO MODEL!!!!!!! :D yes, Cathrine is gorgeous! *touches her hair.. holds out lollie pop to her.. she looks at me. Her eye twiches. Mine twiches back.. We have a "moment"... She leans in.. I lean in. I feel her faint breath on my lips. I scream in her face like a horny monkey. I kiss her. She kisses me. I go through her hair like a homeless person would do to the trash can. She see's headlice in my hair. She eats one. It crawls out of her nose. We kiss again. Gadge walks in. Cat looks at him. She says "DAMN! Let me at that ASS!" Gadge walks over to her............ He turns around. His butt is in her face. Cat sniffs it. He pulls his pants down... I say "WHOA!!! :D Lets all moon dance!!!!!!" We all have our pants down and are dancing to "sexy back." Gadge gets an erection.... Cat says "yippi!!!" and starts swinging off it... She puts her mouth over it and swings off it. She bites down har. "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!" yells Gadge! A pile of his pubic hairs falls to the ground. He runs off crying. "hmm.. maybe it's that time of the month..??" I say. "Geez! Probaly.. Lets go to Walmart!" says cat* :) Are you throwing up yet Danielle?? Or was that amussing? :P Ha, please don't say I'm pretty or anything like that. I'm not just saying it, but it's not true and it hurts when people lie to me like that. Um.. yeah. Duuuuuude, were you drunk last night?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?! Why'd ya keep knocking things over?? lol *stamps "alkie" on your head :P* I love you! aaaaaaaaaaaahahahahahahahaahahahaaahaahhahahahahah!!!! It wouldn't bother me if you had a crush on me anyway :) Oh yeah, I never got round to telling you about my flings, did I?? hahahahahahahh! ANYWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D I love you!!! Aww, you hate your nose?!?!?!?!? Why???? It's so beautiful!! Ha, least you don't have a nose like mine! It looks like I was hit by a freaking parked car!!!! lol, when I smile really big, it like, spreads over like, my whole face!!!!!!! Eh, and on days that I've not slept well, it puffs up too :( STUPID NOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want yous!!! *gets out scalpol... "hold still babe! :D"* What else was i gunna say???? Oh yeah! That photo had some numbers on it, so I thought it was a date.. 9/1/something something... :) Guess not lol. :-O I do so know when your birthday is you ALKIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't forget it even if I wanted to! :P *licks your cheek* AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! NO! You don't like the red butts idea!?!?!?!?!?!?!? *sniffs* OMG!!!! I just had another idea!!!!!!! *you say "oh shit!!!!!" and put on glasses that have open eyes on them... you fall asleep* My friend Kathryn was on a holiday thingo with her mum, and she sat in the snow for too long and her but went all red!!! So we call her Babboon But! :D lol so we could all do that instead!!! Huh? huh? huh? sound good?????????????? *you wake up after I poke you in the eye.. "huh??!?!?! What?!?" you say. "MY IDEAD!! What do you think? :)" "Oh.. yeah.. Great! *coughs*" you say* Hmm... I shall ask Cat what she thinks about the wedding then! :D Oh duude, I sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo want to see the pictures of yuo and Cat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love y'all so much! I have to print them off!!!!!!!!! ........................... whoa............... I sound like I really AM stalking you... :S hhahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahahahhaahahahahahahahahahhahaahahahhaahahhaahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahahahhaahahahahahahahahahhahaahahahhaahahhaahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahahahhaahahahahahahahahahhahaahahahhaahahhaahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahahahhaahahahahahahahahahhahaahahahhaahahhaahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahahahhaahahahahahahahahahhahaahahahhaahahhaahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahahahhaahahahahahahahahahhahaahahahhaahahhaahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahahahhaahahahahahahahahahhahaahahahhaahahhaahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahahahhaahahahahahahahahahhahaahahahhaahahhaahah! *coughs* Really, I'm not though..... *eye twiches* |
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| Ha, you like popcorn?????? YAY! :D :S you wanna know the bad thing?? Eeeeeeek! I ate the whole bag all to myself.. *covers face.. takes one hand slowly away.. GRABS HAND FULL OF POPCORN AND SHUVS IT IN MY MOUTH!!!!! :D ..... puts hand back over face.. "you didn't see nofin!!!!"* |
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| I went to falldown.diaryland.com but nothing was their.. What is it??????? |
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| Hey guess what Danielle?!?!?!?!? I kissed you today? Did you feel it?? huh? huh? Maybe when we meet you'll feel it :P I love you! You're beautiful xxxxx |
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| *licks Cat's cheek! :) lets her lick the lollllllllllie pop that I stole off Brittany! Oh wait!!!!! did I say stiole?!?!?!!?!!?!! coughs I ment SHARING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :S Yes, sharing with her!!!!! :)* I love y'all!!! |
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| *pokes her in the eye* |
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| *licks Danielle's cheeck* |
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| I love you too CAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ :D XXX |
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| Lol, I just read your entry. Ok then!!!! :D Have fun my darling!! I love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| omg!!!! gET ON!!!! TALK TO ME!!! i'M HERE!!! |
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| llalalalalaalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ahahaha. i'm talking to myself AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :P |
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| I wanna see you teeth please. And your whole FACE!!!!!!!!!! I wanna see you. I love you so much Danielle. You're beautiful! I love you! Sweet dream baby girl ♥ |
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| Leslie looks like a slut. Seriously. She looks like a bitch. A pretty girl, but a slutty whore!!!!!!!!!!!! *does cute little girly face* |
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| ha, I just sared at you for ages again :) You look like a good kisser... hmm... Are you??? huh? huh? huh? They look soft.. Nice lips! :) |
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| I've left you 13 notes today :) I WIN!!!!!!!! |
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| OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! This one time, on band camp!!! lol, just kidding!!!!!! Anyway, this one time, like, my mum made a calender for my pop 'cause he was gunna die. And it was all on the family and places we'd all been together, but the he stayed alive!!!! Grr! Stayed alive for what?!?!?!?!?!?!!? huh? huh? huh? To get drunk every freaking day!!!!!! grrr. Sorry about that. As I was saying, well, when we meet we're so gunna have to make a calender of us (you, cat, brittany, haley, myself... and whoever else y'all decide) WOOF WOOF! It's gunna be fun! Duuuuuudes! i wanna know what's goin on with our wedding too! golly!!!! Are we going traditional?? or not so traditonal?? huh? huh? huh? :D I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!! |
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| Oh yeah.. sorry.. I forgot *rolls eyes* You like being white!!!!!!!! Umm... How about we all get completely nacked, go to the beach on a HOT day (or anyhwhere) and put sun cream everywhere except our BUTTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D Then we can all have red butts!!!!! :D YAY! The Red Butt Crew..???? |
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| LOL, you're really white! hahahahhahahahahahahaahahhahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahaahahhahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahaahahhahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahaahahhahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahaahahhahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahaahahhahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahaahahhahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahaahahhahahahahahahhahahahhaha!!!!!!!!! You'd look sooooooo bloody cute when you get sunburnt!!!!! haha! I can just imagine it! LMAO! *throws popcorn in the air.. tries to catch it with my mouth! FAILS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! does it again.. WHOA! NEARLY!!!* Duuuuuuuuuuuuuuude, when we meet, we ALL sooooooooooooooooooooooo have to get burnt really bad!!!!!! Yay! It's gunna be funny funny! |
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| Whoa, that was taken 2 days after your birthday! :D |
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| Ok, I forgot what I was gonna say.. But it was about you, i know that!!!! :D OH yeah! I can't believe that photo was YOU! Man, after you told me, I stared at it for AGES! I had this goofy smile on my face. I can't believe it's you. That girl is the one that helps everyone. That girl is the one that's kind, caring, smart, funny as all hell!!! And so amazing! I love you so much.. I thought I would be calm when i saw your picture.. But I'm NOT!!! I feel so weird.. I can't believe it. I'm going to be in your arms one day.. I'm going to lick all your make-up off and chase you forever!! I love you so much Danielle. You are beautiful Danni. Let me tell you that!! Bloody oath! You're gorgeous. You have beautiful eyes... WONDERFUL HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D And the most snob nose EVER!!!!!!!! All curled up and cute looking!!! AWW! Snob school. Snob friends. Snob clothes. Snob NOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol, but I love it anyway :) You're beautiful. I love you so much! Let me look at you again! I'll be back! I love you! xxxxx |
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| YAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! :D Yummy yummy! |
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| *beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!* |
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| *puts little pinky to corner of mouth.... says "saggadelick, baby* in Austin Powers voice... waits....................* |
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| *tares it open like a savage doggy!!!!!!!!* haahahahhahahahahahahahahahah! *presses puttons on microwave.....* |
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| I feel like eating popcorn... Hmm.. *goes to kitchen... ponders... evil grin... opens popcorn packet..* |
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| Did you know I've been listening to I'll be all morning!?!?!?!? I love him/it/her whatever it's sung by!!! lol, just kidding! I love him! :) But I wuv ewe more!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| SHIT. I just wrote a fucking long note for you and pressed ctrlZ!!!!! AHHHH! Stupid me! hahahahahahhahah! Good thing I'm still hyped up about it! I love you!!!! |
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| LMAO! :D You are a very clever gal! hahahahahhahahahahahahahaha! You made me laugh so hard when you said "Who do you think bitchface is?" I soooooooooooooooooo thought it was Haley then, I didn't think you'd put one up of you!!!!!!! LOL! Funny funny! When I first saw that entry, I saw Leslie's photo and I thought about not saying anything about her, but I kinda know a bit about her.. So I thought Iit was ok for me to. I KNOW you LOVE Whiteny so I didn't think twice about that, but the LAST picture was of "bitchface," but I didn't know anyone by THAT name and didn't know who you were talking about, so she must have done something really mean to you, so I left it! SO THERE MISS "every-body-in-my-family-has-to-have-nicole-as-a-middle-name!!!!" Now that I saw a tiny bit of what YOU look like :D I can tell you what I honestly think!!!!! hahahahahahhaahhahahahahhahahahahahahah!!!! |
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| :) Sweet dreams |
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| I love you. |
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| Hey gorgeous, I wanna say I'm really sorry that you had to get sad about the.. um.. ya know. :S Someone autta steal all the ropes in America.. SERIOUSLY! That's al LOT of people that have commited suicide there recently. It sad :( I don't think anyone's done that at our school since I've been there. People hurt themselves and stuff :( But no suicide I don't think.. I love you. I really do Danielle. Thank you for puttin gthose pictures up today :) It's nice to see that sort of stuff. As much as I hate to say it, but Leslie is quite attractive :P STUPID COW!!!!!!! Whoa, so is Whiteny!!!!! She's beautiful! *waits................................. ............................ ............... paitently.......................... ................................................................ ............. for.................. ........................................................................ ............. a .................................. ........................................................................... picture............................... of................................................................ ............................................................. YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!* :) I love you Danielle. I really do. I love you so much. Sweet dreams my darling.. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ |
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| This ain't right man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( *goes into corner... cries.. becomes smaller and smaller... with the help of a potato pealer...* I love you! |
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| DAMMIT! |
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| WHY has no-one left you notes since I did!?!?!?!?!??!?! This is crazy!! Are you deleting them so I'll feel better or something!??! Bad. Bad.BAD. I love you! |
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| Wow... I don't know what to say AT ALL. I know I say that a lot and then end up typing a really long note, but this time, I really don't. I think I'm going to throw up.. Quite confused at the moment.. About you. Not in a bad way :) Just, I think that Good bye, and I'll be songs are getting to me. We have to have them at our wedding btw! How do you mean you feel stupid when you've cut recently?? What do you mean?? So, you cut after the whole Haley's mum thing, right? :S Well, today I learnt something.. I heard it on the train while I was listening to other people talk, of course :P "There's never been time for emotions to be shared in my family, so I thought egnoring them was the best thing to do. For a while it worked, but then when I experienced emotions too strong to comprehend, I didn't know how to deal with them. So I turned to cutting. I didn't know how I came up with it, but it worked. It was quick and it got rid of any emotions that I had." Does that make any sence to you??? Huh? Huh? Huh? :) When i heard it (and later joined the convo lol) it made a lot of sence to me and it made me think about it.. So do you reckon that you've done it sometimes because you don't know what else to do, or you know it "helps" sooner than anything else that you know of..? Gah, what am I talking about!!!!!! I'm so bloddy stupid! It's your life and I shouldn't try and say things like that. I'm sorry. Sorry Danielle... God, Danielle, you are so beautiful and smart. You're everything. You're the kindest person in the whole world. Know one will ever top you. You mean so much to me. I love you with all my heart. I'll never stop loving you. I love you!!!!!! Sweet dreams Dani-pooh :) |
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| As you can see, I got tired of doin the little hearts thingo.. I'm sorry :( But I do love you, and no amount of black hearts can show that! :) I love YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| from thatgirlx : |
| Wow. I could feel the emotion dripping from that entry. YOU FUCKING TELL HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate, hate, hate people like that. People who try to control things that are far beyond that grasp. What's important is that Haley loves you and you love her. FUCK what anyone else says. They don't have a fucking clue. She's got her head so far up her ass that she can't possibly fathom the idea that you might actually make her daughter happy. But you CAN. And it doesn't matter how many "problems" you have. Because let's face it, EVERYONE has problems whether they can admit to it or not. ♥ |
| from xxplaydeadxx : |
| but i HAVE to because NOBODY ELSE IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ='( |
| from xxplaydeadxx : |
| here i go talking to myself again...... :P |
| from xxsorrowxx : |
| if you don't eat it's not going to fix anything.all its gonna do is make you get hurt.please don't do that.i don't want to see you hurt.i love you more then anything and anyone.your family sucks ass.ya know what?you don't need them.you have me and cat and georgia.we'll be your family.i'm here for you ok?if you need me call me.i love you. |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Not eating won't solve anything. You know that. I'm sorry you're feeling so shitty right now. *hugs* But you're doing so well (eating wise) and I am so proud of how far you have come. Don't let anyone jepordize this for you, okay? You're better than them. ♥ |
| from cat-45 : |
| omfg! That emo boys layout is the SEX! I am so stealing it!! ME GUSTA MUCHO! MUY MUY MUY MUY MUY MUCHO! lol. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ |
| from cat-45 : |
| hee hee hee. What up diggy dawg? lol. I gotta get off the interweb and call mommy. Can you call me at about 1:30? |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Well I better get ready for work now.. :( I love you so much Danielle. Dammit.. More than you'll ever know. I love you, Danielle. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| *grabs baseball bat and gets ready to wack her over the head* *danielle runs behind me (slow motion) "N-n-n-n-n-n-n-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-ooo-ooooooo!" Danielle, grabs bat off Georgia and wacks her over the head with it! "Stupid bitch!!" she says* *"but I love you!" says Georgia* *Baby britt starts crying. "AHH! look what you did georgia!" says Danielle. "Ooops! I'm so sorry! :( Gives Baby Britt lots and lots and lots and lots of lollies and chocolate!* *"aww.. I love y'all! Lets forgett this and eat pizza!!" says Baby Britt* |
| from razornotes00 : |
| *gives Baby Britt evil look*.... |
| from razornotes00 : |
| la la la lala lalala...la la la lala lalala...lala lala lalala la la bumbumbumbum...bumbumbum..... ♥ Britt |
| from razornotes00 : |
| 7 people have left you a note since I last did!!! Grr! Stupid ASSIES!! *cries* I love you Danielle! ♥ Georgie |
| from razornotes00 : |
| What up diggy dawg!!?! ♥ ♥ See ya at school tomorrow, huh? Tata! Cat |
| from razornotes00 : |
| *HUGS* Take care sweetie! Anya xxx |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Can't wait for your "real" entry :) And I hope your day is going well! Sweet dreams! *HUGS* ♥ ♥ ♥ venting101 |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Whoa! Ya got a gorgeous cousin :) I hope you have a great day today! I ♥ you! P.S I WANT A PIC OF YOU IN YOUR DIARY!! xxxooo From thatxgirl |
| from razornotes00 : |
| YOU PUT ME IN YOUR DIARY!!! AHHHHH! Georgie told me you did!!! WOOF WOOF! I look rather pretty though *flicks hair* :) I love you!!!!! P.S I baggs the T.V tonight!!! XXX Britt |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Hi Danielle! Just wanted you to know that I love you so much.. Forever and always ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Haley |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ugh what a bitch that razornotes00 girl is!!! Can't believe you like her! I LOVE YOU! From wiltedxdaisy |
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| HAHA! *does Laiten Hewitt grunt* No one has left little Danielle notes since I last did!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOHOOOO! Or in Britt's words "woof woof!!" I feel good now.. Sort of. But bad for you :( I guess I really do prefer that people leave you long notes and stuff :) It makes you feel great! And it makes me freel great when you feel great!!! :D I'm sorry I got so jealous of all your other Dland friends. I'm a very jealous person :S I am sorry. Um, I don't know how to make lasagna :S but I do know how to kill it in the microwave! :D hehe! I DO know how to make pizzas!! When I used to live with my dad in Kalgoorlie, we used to make them all the time. I will make lots of pizzas!!!!! (or order them lol :P). You eat "NONSTOP" sometimes?? *coughs* I've not seen evidence of that Danielle lol. Last night I went to the movies with my Nanna, Robert and Mum, to see The Devil Wears Prada. And my Nanna goes "I see you enjoyed your little lollies tonight! I thought you would have put then away when they mensioned size two's and four's.." :( lol. Why didn't I???? Anyway, OH YEAH!!!! I forgott to tell you yesterday that I looked up your school and your area *does evil stalker face* and where you live is bloody beautiful! MAN! It's awsome! Lol, I also didn't know that nearly every flippin' place had the word "County" in it. What does it mean?? :S Is it just a posh word that y'all thought of?? huh? huh? huh? :) I love you Danielle! What's the are that YOU live in like?? Is it pretty like all the snobby picture? :P Whoa, Baby Britt is very pretty! :) Beautiful smile she's got herself there! :) I can't wait to see you! And yes, my dear, when I find my flippin camera, I will send y'all a pic of myself, my mum's doggy, my family, and prahaps some other stuff.. Along with a jolly Christmas card too!! :) Oh wait, I've got heaps of pics on my computer of my fam and the land here, I could print 'em off if you want. It might be quicker. But I dunno if they'll turn out good or not. Meh. I'll be patient!!!!! *bounces off the wall* Promise!! hehe! Oh yeah, ment to ask you if you have a gold member ship?? You do, huh? Anyway, Walmark would be like.. Um Kmart here then?? Do y'all have Kmart? AWW! How long is your bro down for?? Is y'all having a good time?? :D I hope so! You seem to be getting on alright with your mum now :) Do you think so? Well I hope so! :D Your mummy did a good job of ya ;) I ♥ you! Ugh. Am I straight?? Hmm... Well, I've had a 2 "flings" with a girl before, and i'm not grossed out by it all. But I don't really consider myself straight, bi, or gay. They're just words in the end. Um, I'm not like, walking down the street and thinking about girls or whatever, and i don't "check 'm out." But i guess i'm just not affraid of them in that way, if you know what I mean?? But long story short.. I don't think I'm gay.. I like guys (even though everyone calls me a 'man-hater' lol). Um.. What else was I gunna say? I don't know.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH though :) ♥ ♥ &heats; ♥ Sweet dreams |
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| HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHH!!!!!! No one has left you notes since i did! YAY! I feel so special! I'm the star of the day!!!!!!!! Woohooo! Oooolala! I didn't know you used "lmao." Lots of times I've gone to use it in your notes, but I thought it'd confuse you or whatever.. Oh, you ate twice today? Gee... That makes me feel great.. NOT!!!! Duuuuuude, it's ok to eat ya know? I eat all the time man! I'm eating now!!! It's baby food if you must know :S It's my new "diety" thing recently (for about the past month and a bit). Once, I had a veggie one, and it was fucking awful! So I hate eating it! I hate baby food all together actually. But that's the point :) Yukky foods make me not want to eat. So yeah. I probaly should NOT have told you that.. Do you know I like peas, and corn?? YUMMY! I want to live on that for the rest of my life! Oh, and maybe chocolate, lollie, ice-cream, tomatoes, chilly, lettus, carrot, beans, cucumber, broccolie (spellin'?), olives, lemons, oranges, apples and sprouts.. Ok, you can tell I like food now, huh? *looks away guiltily* You must be disgusted in all the food I eat. I can stop if you want. I don't mind :) What foods do you like?? Huh? huh? huh? I'm gonna cook you something that you'll like when I meet you :) And I want to cater for out double wedding too! What foods do y'all like in America/tennessee? hmm *thinks about how I'll set out tables* We having music???? What sort???? Moving on now!!! I went out with Racheal today and she asked me vaugely bout you. I told her we were all gonna get married and I said that I loved you and stuff.. I think that scarred her :S Like, now her and her sister think I'm not straight. Hmm... I don't think of you in that way, it's just the love I have for you. It's not a love that I think they know about.. What do you reckon? Ha, my mum, granny, dad, EVERYONE here basically says that their friends (that are girls) are their girlfriends. These days pretty much everyone's grown out of saying it, but I'm very old fashioned and am still saying it!!!! I said "my girlfriend on the net is wikkid!!!! You need to meet her! She's heaps freaky!" Yeah, so that's how I ended up calling you my gf. Mk? *sighs* It's really hot today. I have ice in my glass of water atm. Joy. How's the new CD?? T'is good? She was on the news here the other day. Something about how she likes her music touching people :) Anyway, please don't cut yourself, or throw up. You're so important! I love you to death! I never want you to be sad or feeling asthough you need to hurt yourself. You need to send me an actual PICTURE of you!!!!!!!!!! So I can tell you how beautiful you are. I know you're beautiful so stop saying that you are not!!!!!! Grr. I'm going to eat you one day!! Oops! Sorry! I won't eat you... I promise! :D *nibbles your toe* Freaked out yet? *evil grin* I love you! Oh, and thank you for deleting that crappy heart thing :( T'was a waste of space lol. I love you Danielle. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| OMG! It didn't work!!! Stupid bloody useless piece of shit!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ok, dat good enough? Probally not.. O well.. Now I will write how many "I ♥ yous" that i ♥ you |
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| from razornotes00 : |
| But.... |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I just saw that you wrote me A LOT of "I ♥ yous" I didn't see them before :( |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I looked up your school today. It looks nice!!!! Do y'all have a uniform? Huh? Huh? Huh? |
| from thatgirlx : |
| Danielle!? What's wrong!? You're not horrid and you don't hurt people. I LOVE YOU!!!! You're amazing. If there's anything you need to talk about... no matter what it is, you can talk to me. *HUGS* ♥ |
| from pamperedpuma : |
| Can I have the password please? Cxx |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ok, BACK!!!!! *sits with legs spead wide apart* Ya know it's Grand Final Day today?? And guess what??? I'm not whatching it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH! Stupid me! I've never not whatched the Finals! I just, well I'm sad today and I don't want to see it. Hopefull there'll be a re-match tomorrow or something, eh? Kate might be coming over tonight, because mum's on a 2 day shift and said I can't be alone because of "what I get up to" *rolls eyes* I'm INNOCENT PEOPLE! *coughs* I really want to to sleep over though! But I'm scarred that when we meet, that dream will become a reality.. I couldn't live without you, ya know? You're my everything. I'd cry forever if you left me. But it's ok if you want to leave me. I love you. Just remember that.. Hey, do you like Kelly Clakson? hmm. probaly not. Ok, well i shall go now.. I love you. Please be safe . Plase take care, and please know that I'll always love you. I love you Danielle Nicole Parker. ♥ ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I'm back. What's that song you were talking about from My Chemical Romance?? I love them, but I don't think i've heard it :S Lol, yeah Cat said we were gunna have a double wedding :P You and Haley, cat and I and is Megan going to marry Cat and I too? Or will Cat 2 time me?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!!? lol What sort of wedding are we going to have?? Dude, I'm excited now! Can we have lots of black? and red roses? Really good music! Um, how about we each have a dove and instad of freeing it, we can stab it!!! hahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!! HEHE! *evil laugh* Oh.. umm.. are.. well.. it's just so it matches with the roses.. Ya know *looks away like a puppy that's just been caught digging a massive ares hole in the garden* What else was I gonna say?? IDK, but I need to pee!!!!!!! *crosses leg tightly* BRB |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Danielle, darling.. Seriously, Haley does not NOT want to be with you. If she didn't, then obviously she woudn't. Danielle, Haley loves you. She's in love with you. And you're in love with her. Love does not come around easily (well, not true love anyway). So why don't you just have fun with her, enjoy eachothers company, laugh.. cry.. I don't know.. But the point is that you both really love eachother, and it's not going to stop anyime soon. I don't know what to say.. But AHHHHH! Danielle!!!!!!!!!!! Do you care if you see other people that are "fat" or "ugly???" So what the hell do you think we care for?!!?!?!?!?? We love you for who you are! No matter what you say, YOU ARE a strong person. You are beautiful. You are kind. You are smart. You are funny!!!! You are amazing. You are gorgeous. You are caring. You are NOT mean. You are creative. You are an inspiration. You are clever. Tallented. HONEST. You are not ugly. I will always love you. Oh and duuuuuude!!! How dare you do the 'guilt trip' with me!!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRR. That is a biiiiiig NO NO! You can't say if I died that you wouldn't have to keep your promise. Duh. That would mean you'd forget me. That my memory would no longer exist to you. If you dies before I did, then I.... well I'd.. I don't know what I'd do. But I do know that I'd never forget you. I'd always think of you everyday and all night. SHIT! I don't want to fucking think about you dying!!!! MOTHER FUCKER! I'm nearly about to cry! Shit shit shit shit shit. That's horrible. God.. I'm not going to make you promise me yu'll never kill yourself or anything.. becasue that's mean. I don't want you to have to think that I'd hate you for it or whatever, but it just.. crap. I don't want to think about this anymore.. I'll be back in a minuite.. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Whoa.. That note below me is.. umm. wow.. |
| from venting101 : |
| if you had hugs at your constant disposal, would that stop you from cutting or making yourself sick? |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Oh shit. It's like watching a little kitten being torchered and I can't do anything about it :( I really wish I was their with you. Dude, I'm coming over to see you. Actually, I'm gunna live with you :) There's no point in y'all coming here, it's easier for me to come to you. You got all your friends and family there, and I don't want you to leave anyone behind lol. I'm affraid you'll get sick of me though. I'm totally different to you and all your friends. eg: I LIKE COUNTRY MUSIC! And my fashion is shithouse! I'm not bothered with all the... what do ya call it?? Like new fashion stuff? Don't you think a group of cool gothicy/punky/whatevery people will be totally annoied with a chub-alub dressed in shorts and a cowboy hat, haning around uze!!?!!!! lol And that's just before I open my mouth! Where was I going with all that?? Um, IDK. Anyway, please keep fighting Danielle.. There's going to be a massive brawl fighting over you if anything, is.. going to happen and stuff.. I love you and if you wanna alk about anything, I'm here and would LOVE to listen/read! |
| from thatgirlx : |
| *hugs* ♥ ♥ ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| You. Are. A. FREAK. Lol, laving yourself notes :P "Hi me! Hi people that aren't me!" It was cute though! *cries* I can't get onto my notes page anymore :( It won't let me! Ok, so my sweet sweet little strawberry, I think ya should keep fighting those erges to throw up. You're stronger than the evil crapface that has migrated in your head, and you can beat it. I know you can. I love you. AHHHHH! NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO! You don't need a new razorblade dammit! You shouldn't hurt yourself. You're too important Danielle! What do you use, by the way? Does you Aunty hurt herself too?? :S Or wes she just using one? lol, sorry, I didn't understand what you ment. Umm.. Well I better finish my homework now. *rolls eyes* I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!! SWEET DREAMS! |
| from cat-45 : |
| gah. that's a long time! I told you I can fix it. I have a hot glue gun! =D |
| from cat-45 : |
| OK amiga, I'm going to bed and I'm taking my sexy stool with me. |
| from cat-45 : |
| oh no! I'll fix it! I'll fix it! |
| from cat-45 : |
| ha ha ha. Haley bit Danielle! lol. *kisses forehead* There. All better. ha ha ha. Gaabah Abah! |
| from cat-45 : |
| Ha, yep Scotty knows cause I told him. Ha Gadge was getting on my nerves so I told him that! |
| from cat-45 : |
| Why does your neck hurt Danielle??? |
| from cat-45 : |
| Duuuude. I wonder if he'd let me do it like Bert's?!?!?1 |
| from cat-45 : |
| la la la la la la |
| from cat-45 : |
| hee hee hee. But knowing me I'd muff it up and make it look freaking awesome! |
| from cat-45 : |
| dude, I refuse to write to you. You want me to dye your hair tomorrow???? =D Haha. Its funny the whore told me the other day that he didn't trust me to do his hair, and now look! I'm dying it! mwa ha ha ha! Should I muff it up? |
| from cat-45 : |
| My fault??!?! How is it my falut??!?!?! |
| from cat-45 : |
| Scotty doesn't know that Fiona and me do it my van every Sunday... I'm typing wih one hand and its extremely annoying! |
| from cat-45 : |
| you're a hippie |
| from cat-45 : |
| you're an assie |
| from cat-45 : |
| Its almost gone. |
| from cat-45 : |
| *starts sawing away at arm* |
| from cat-45 : |
| You're doing it again!!!! I'm gonna cut my arm off if I get 3 more in a row like that!!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| ha ha you like it rough. lol. I know 3 days grace. Hey, why didn't you kiss me? I'm jealous too. Ha ha Yep. Gonna marry my little "sister" ha ha ha! You are driving me insane with all those little messages!!! aaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!! GABBAH ABAH! |
| from cat-45 : |
| ah! Make him stop!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| Gah, Gadge is a WHORE! I don't love him anymore. I've made up my mind. But if I do that, I'm losing again... Oh well, I'm really winning cause I'm not with a WHORE! lol. Tomorrow it'll allbe different. I say these things and tomorrow I'll see him and bee like O_O I loooove you!! Dangit. I suck. Gahbah Abah! Catjibijah ge gahbah ahbah! |
| from cat-45 : |
| Yay! Brittany and Jacob! AWESOME! Um. Leslie just wants to go out with him cause I do. Freaking whore. Prostitute. Well, I'm dying his hair tomorrow, so I'll have plenty of time to talk him out of it =D And I'll talk to him about the talking about you and Haley as well. No worries. Dico does not rape my face. Dico is a sexy man with a nice ass, but he does not rape my face. lol. OK I'm finally painting my stool, I gotta go, but keep writing me and I might just answer you. If you're lucky. *wink* lol. |
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| i wanna leave myself a note like georgie does. haha. hi me! hi everyone that isn't me! how are you all doing? i'm sleepy. i need a shower. k buh bye! ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Haha, I left you 22 notes! :P ok, I'll go now.. BYE!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I wonder what you're doing right now... It's 8:09pm here. And I'm about to whatch Grey's Anatomy soon, with the "family." Ok, I guess you didn't really need to know that, but hey! :P Hmm... I should up-date now, eh? We'll I best be off now :) I love you so much!!!! I hope you're having a great time with whatever you're doing! XXXXXXXX |
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| Hmm.. What else did I wanna say?? Haha! Did you know that my foot is only 21cm long?? That's crazy. Ha. I'm a little foot!!!!!!! |
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| Ok, down to business. You know when you wrote about you throwing up recently? Well, I must say it was so... hmm... what's the word?? I dunno.. It was sad. But well written. Well discribed.. I want you to know that I don't like you hurting yourself like that, and I don't want you to keep saying we'll leave you.. I know is scary thinking that we'll go, but those of us who love you, will not go away, or leave you. I will always be here for you. Cat will. Haley will. Brittany will. Megan will. And your aunty will. We all will. We love you and hate to see you hurting.. Danielle, I know you got mad when people were saying you were beautiful and perfect and all that.. But if you think about it, perfection doesn't mean you have to be plastic and flawless! It means having the strength to recover and learn new things, it means you can be different and opinionated. You are perfect Danielle. I know you don't think so, but look at yourself. Look at all you do for everyone and how nice you are. Look at how you think. Look at your wacko humor. Look at all the people that love you. Look at what your dreams are.. There's not a single word that discribes you. You are just amazing! You mean everything to me. It takes so much for me to like someone, but dammit! Why is is that I fell straight for you??????? (not in a gf+bf or gf+gf way, but I dunno... You understand, right?). I dunno how to make you see what I see in you. But just know that you are not all the mean things you tell yourself.. I know'll you'll have slip-ups now and again with all this, but when those times come, just remember that we're here for you and we'll support you, no matter what. Scream instead of bringing it up DAMMIT! :P I told you that before!! Dude, when we meet, I'm going to give you screaming lessons, ok? :) I love you Danielle. ♥ |
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| LOL! I just read the second note I wrote you when I first met you and I said "Ok, enough about me now!" And then I went on talking about me!!!!! hahahahahhahaahahhhahahaha! I'm so stupid. Shit! It's late and I haven't doen my homework. Bugga. O well. I'll have to say that you ate it or something, eh? :D |
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| hehe! I iz very proud now :) I didn't copy and paste all that, by the way.. Just so ya know! :P It took me a bloody long time 'cause now I can't see anyone elses notes!!!!!! hahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah! |
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| *licks lolly pop* |
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| I truly love you with all my heart. |
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| If I were to die today, you'd be the last and the first one on my mind. |
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| And so much more. |
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| You are worth everything |
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| I will never forget you. |
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| Person in the entire world. |
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| Kindest and caring |
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| Most |
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| Wonderfuly inspiring |
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| Danielle! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ok, I'm really freaking jealous of all the nice notes people are leaving you! I can't take it!!!! Lol, so I will take up lots and lots of your note space so I can't see them anymore. Hmm... Sounds good! :) I love you! |
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| Dude! Viva La Bam kicks serious ass! I miss it. I USED to have the DVD, until some stupid boy left and took it with him. Fucker. Um. Anyways... *hugs* |
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| you know that song "call me when you're sober?" i can't stop listening to it... seriously, it fits so perfectly with everything right now. um.. ok. so that was random. anyways, i've never seen you, but i'm sure you're not hideous. it's just your mind playing tricks on you. & i'm so proud of you, fighting off the temptation. keep up the good work. i'm rooting for you. ;) |
| from wiltedxdaisy : |
| aw. that is really tragic. & it's also sad that sometimes it takes something like that to really open up peoples eyes. but i'm glad it has made you realize what effect suicide would have on those around you. anyway... *hugs* i'm glad i don't have to worry about losing you. you're an amazing person. things will get better. hopefully sooner than later, but only time will tell. <3 |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I get like that too :S I'll say something to someone, and I know it's wrong and I'm crossing the line, but I can stop until it's way too late :( Ha. I know how you feel with that one aye! Grr. I get called "medioka" and "not too fat and not too skiny." Then like, the next day someone'll go "run tubalubs!!!!" It pees me off. *sighs* When I was reading your note, it made me so sad.. All I can think is how can I help you, How can I make you happy, How can I make your pain go away, How can I make you see what I see in you, How can I show her how much I love her, How how how how how how! I don't know what to do... I need to TALK to you huh?! Maybe that's the only way to make you feel good.. To get everything out and stuff. *Sighs* I dunno. Ya know Kate? Well normally I have a fantastic time with her, but all I could think was how much I wanted to see you and hang out with YOU! How selfish is that!?!?!?! Sorry. She's still sleeping atm :S GOSH lol. I feel a bit lonely today... I just wanna be by myself and go for a walk or something. But I can't tell her to go or anything :S I'm so stupid. Ok, this note will seem real suss, so I'll e-mail it instead, aye? Hmm.. OMG! I haven't had my pills yet!!!!! That's probably why I'm mopeing around like I've lost my best friend!!!! Well I don't give a fuck. I'm not having them today!!! I'm sick of them! Ugh. I really hope no one reads this :S I love you... Have a great day my dear! ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Yes indeed! Anya is right! :) Thank you for using kilos. It felt good to understand what's going on for a change :) Ok, down to business! I can't believe that jackass called you fat!!!!! I'm gonna kill him!!!!!! *gets out polished gun and loads it up* 97 is NOT fat! One of my best friend weighs more than that, and she's not fat and she doesn't look fat either. Do you have a lot of muscule on your body? 'cause ya know that weighs more that fat! I've got plenty of both lol :P Bottom line is: YOU. ARE. NOT. F.A.T! But I'm glad you said you wanna loose whatever fat ytou think you have in a healthy way :) Not like others do by saying they'll stop eating forever. blah blah. OHH! :D I take ibuprofen too! hahah. My gland swell up often :S Hmm.. How about you? (hope you don't mind me asking).. What hapened today? I take it something with Haley..? Well, she'll always love you, so don't worry about that, ok? It couldn't have been too bad.. It'll work out anyway babe :) Oh, ya know that song you used to have up in this diary, called 'Goodbye?' Well, I WANT IT lol, who's it by? Does she have an album? Um.. Think that's all.. I love you so much Danielle Nicole Parker!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Sweet dreams! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| That's not classified as lying lol :P It's being a total backstabbing bitch!!!! Just kidding :) It's ok Danielle *checks mail box* DUDE!!! What is up with Haley's mum? Did she have a go at you and Hales or something? What shit did she throw? :S Aww.. Poor you... And poor Haley... Want me to bash anyone!?!?!?!? :D hahahahha! Whatever is going on, don't worry about what her mum thinks, because it's about you two! There's ahrdly any difference betwen girls and guys anyway! Well, except we have a hole and we're WAYYYYY smarter :) Of corse! hehe. You're stalking me?!?!?! Meh. I love you too much to care :P ♥ Well, I best be off now my dear! I love you! *checks mail box* XXX |
| from cat-45 : |
| yay! I fixed my diary, but I think you messsed it up.... I just copied and pasted. =( Lo siento. Maybe I did. IDK what I'm doing!!!! ha ha. I'm gonna put in yours the same thing I putin Brittany's about Leslie getting mad about somebody kicking Gadge's ass... This is what she said: "OMFG! WHO THE F$%^ DID IT??? I'M GONNA KICK THEIR @$$!!! AAAAAHHH! I BET IT WAS WOLFGANG! HE BETTER HOPE HE DIDN'T BECAUSE I'M GONNA KICK HIS @$$ MONDAY!!!" It was so funny. I was just thinking "Dude, Gadge is a big boy, he can take care of himself!" ha ha. She got madder when I told her that. it was great. so yeah, its 12:37 and I'm not really tired, but I guess I should go to bed anyway. Adios. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| *runs to mail box* |
| from razornotes00 : |
| YES! I am very proud of you! :D And for that, I'll show you how to do this ♥ !!! Ok, so you write & hearts ; with NO spaces! Then when ya post the note, it'll come up with that! :) AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Stupid cat won't shut up!!! Guessthatmeans I gotta feed it huh? :S lol Ok ok ok TENNASSE!!!!! You friggin snob! Ok, I your uncle is really making me mad. Can't you,like dob him in to the cops... Domestic violence or something. What are the chances of him hurting (physically) one of you guys? Ok, and the self harm... How deep are we going here?? Just so I know. And what's the Sk8er book you have? What's it called? I wanna read it lol! ok, I'll go now.. I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ask for the password is what I ment lol, sorry. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| And no i don't mind Haley writting too :) But I don't know anything about her, except that you two are together.. What's she like? I tried to read her diary before, but it's locked. I was too scared to ask for it. I ♥ YOU |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Stop it, please.. Please don't hurt yourself. I love you so much. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I love you. Don't ever forget that. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| :( |
| from razornotes00 : |
| OH MY GOD! Are you leaving?!?!?!?!!?!? Are you going to live with your mother now? What's happening? Please tell me! I'm freaking out! Am I going to loose you? Will you still update! Please don't go! Why do you have to go????! You can live with me!!!! Cat's going to live next door :D PLEASE TELL ME WHAT"S GOING ON! ♥ ♥ ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| HOLY FUCK! FUCK FUCK FUCK! I hate computers! I hate them so fucking much! I just typed out that fucking note all over again!!!!!!!!!!! And I deleted all over again!!!!!!!! SHIT. SHIT. SHIT. SHIT. SHIT!! Ok, this is the last time I try and write the note, and if it doesn't work, then fuck it. I'm not coming back on Dland dammit! Ok, so the pill thing: That's easy honey :) You can half the dosage and/or take it earlier than what you are now. That should make things a little better. But don't stop taking them because that can cause more sucky sight effects, trust me Danni-pooh, I know! :P If you really want to stop taking them or change your meds, then you have to see your docter about it aye. Ok, you say you're not beautiful, but baby let me tell you! I SOOOO know you are :P People with a beautiful, honest and pure heart don't go un-noticed with me! You've got one of those beautiful hearts nd it reflects all the way through to your outside so the world can see it! You are beautiful Danielle Nicole Parker! I think everyone is attractive in some way or another!! :P No, I haven't read Cathrine's myspace blogs... What the hell are blogs?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Um, but whatever they are, just show me where to go and I'll read them :D I'd be happy to! Oh yeah, the letter thingo :D I can't believe that y'all are gonna let me reply to her house! She's so kind to do that! None of my 'friends' would do that for me lol! Would it be ok if I write to Brittany too? Or would that just annoy her? Gosh, Cat said she wants me to write to her occasionally, but dude!!! I'll write to her everytime!! OMG I'm so excited about this! I'll send you heaps and heaps of pictures! Of... um... EVERYTHING!!!!! :D hahahahahah! I'm going to bore you to dath with my letters AND my photos!! I was up at the damn the other day, and there's some FREAKING great shots I could take up their fot you, but I didn't have my camera on me :( So I'll go again lol! Our damns are only at 35% now.. :( In about an hour it'll be like, at 15% 'cause my brother's having a shower at the moment! GollY, he could drown in the amount of time he's in their for lol! :P But one day they shall rise again!... Hopefully! When can I recieve your first letter??!?!?!?! lol how about right now? That would be nice :D Just kidding. Um. Just let me know and I'll give you my address, ok? Anyway... Danielle, your ENTRIES huh? Hmm.. You're cutting again? I know you feel a lot of tension babe, but it won't help in the long run.. You know that. It only screws it all up more. When Haley or other people hurt themselves, how does that make you feel?...............................................................................................*listens to your answer*................................................................................................................. THAT'S EXACTLY how we feel about you Miss Parker! You know that we'd all do anything for you and that we love you so much! We'll never give up on you sweetheart! So never fear that we will. We're always here for you! I'll help you in anyway possible, ok? Whatever you want me to do, I'll do it! Please don't hurt yourself.. Scream out loud and let everything out! You'll feel heaps better :) Sometimes I do it when I'm walking the dog at the park, it helps too. You could squeeze ice in your hand, which makes it numb.. You could sing out all your anger, or paint it out, scribble it out! Anything! There are so many ways to relieve you of your tension! It's just a matter of finding the right one for you :) I really don't know what to say to help you to stop cutting, but I'm here for you. Always and forever. I love you. |
| from wiltedxdaisy : |
| aw. :) i'm glad you have someone like Haley. you deserve her :) and you WILL win, because you're a winner and I <3 you! ;) |
| from cat-45 : |
| dude its 69 degrees outside. damn that number! STALKER! |
| from cat-45 : |
| If he yells at you, I'll kick him in the balls when I come to kidnap you |
| from cat-45 : |
| Ask anyway! I'm gonna come get you. |
| from cat-45 : |
| hey! dude I've been trying ot get ahold of you ALL FREAKING DAY! Can you spend the night tonight???? I know its late and all, but tomorrow we're going to the movies and I don't wanna go alone! Please ask and get back to me ASAP! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ok, first off: I'm so mad at you!!!! How come you find all the good diaries!?!?!?!? Grr. I bet you pay people to sit on Dland 24/7 to find the fasinating ones! Gah. Anyway.. Oh shit. I forgot what you wrote in your note. Hang on. Be right back! |
| from cat-45 : |
| don't worry. Consider yourself forgiven. Man I hate my parents. They do everything humanly possible to make my life living hell. I seriously just thought about ending it all so I wouldn't hafta listen to my mom yell at me one more time. Then I thought "hmmm.. If I was like Caleb that would piss her off AND make her look bad in front of everybody." 2 things she really hates. But then I figured "well, I can do more damage sober." So I decided against it all. I cried like a whole bunch. She has no righ to snoop in my private life, its none of her business what you and I talk about on myspace or on here. Just so you know she probably read all those messages you sent me from a long time ago whenever I first found out about the ED. I should have erased them all. DAMMIT! I hate myself for not realizing she would be nosy and read it all. DAMMIT! I'm erasing them all right now, just in case she figures out my new password. I hate having to erase my messages because of her. Now I'll never be able to look back over them and laugh or cry. dammit. 23 pages to erase. holy crap. That's gonna take a LONG time. I am erasing my entire myspace life, I have no existance now. ah!!!!! This is so gay. I'm sorry you don't get to go alabama with me. I hate them for that too. I didn't even do anything and they go being all bitchy, so I fight back of course and make it 10 times worse. Gah. I told tem I wasn't going, but they'll probably make me. The only way I was going any way was to have you come. If they do make me go then they are in for the worst trip of their lives because I'm gonna make them miserable. Man, I'm so evil. I am so going to hell. Dude, Imma call you tomorrow. I need to "do my Spanish homework" |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Hmm... Not quite sure what to say here.. You haven't lost cutting and you haven't lost mia, you've lost yourself Danielle. They helped you die. But I'm here to help you live again, just like you made me live. You're the most amazing person in the whole world, you're beautiful on the inside and outside. You're kind and mature. You're thoughtful and caring. You're intelligent and creative. You're funny and goofy :) You have a good fashion sence and GREAT taste in music. You always make people feel good about themselves. You're generous and giving. You stand out because of your bouncy and wild personality. You're strong Danielle. You can fight all this crap that is sitting on your shoulder and inside your head. I know you can, and you know you can too! Did it not feel good to say nice things about yourself? Did it not feel good to scare the shit out of Britt when you kissed Hales? Did it not feel good to tell your aunty those things? Did it not feel good to know that you're not alone? Did it not feel good to know that you have so many people that love and care for you? Did it not feel good to DICIDE that YOU DO NOT need to have mia in your life? Did it not feel good to succeed? Does it not feel good knowing that you can drive your own FREAKING CAR SOON? Lol Did it not feel good to look in the mirror and say �I like that I don't snap really quick when I get pissed. I like that I listen to people, I like that some people actually trust me, I like that I can be sorta funny at times. I love my dorkiness. I like that despite the times when I'm fooled into believing that I'm not, I actually am a strong person. I like the colour of my eyes. I like the weirdness of my lips. I like the straightness of my teeth.� Do you remember when you wrote that? Well I do, because I felt like a mother who saw her child take the biggest step of her life... You are the most awsome person Danielle. I want you to always know that. I've never felt like this about anyone before.. Look what you did to me lol! You made me live for something!!!! No one but you and Jake can do that. But Jake's dead, so it's just you :) I couldn't ask for anything better... I love you with all my healing heart, so please don't hurt yourself. ♥ ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Lol, I've read soooo many E.D books and sad stories too! It's crazy but I can't keep away! You got any favorites? :) I'm kinda glad that you feel guilty now (because of the cavities and the other damaging effects it has on your body). Sounds mean huh? But it made you realise that it does have both physical and mental effects. I take it that you're still doing that stuff? You can tell me, ya know! I'm here for you. Um. Well I have got a lot of people back, but by doing it, I have to act like someone else. Does that make sense? P well. No it isn't bad that you don't care about Tim (was it??) because he hurt you and you shouldn't feel you have to give him the right to do it again. You don't need to care. You're old enough to make that decision now. I think you don't care now because you now fully understand the situation and yeah... I'm confusing myself! Thank you so much for all the things you say to me in your entries!! They make me feel sooooo freaking special! I ♥ YOU! HA! lol You like stabbing people? Whoa! I've never done that before. What did you stab him with lol? I tell ya what though, I coulda stabbed some people today! hehe! <333333333333333 |
| from cat-45 : |
| holy crap. I just talked to my cousin and I have amazing news. WE (as in me and you and my cousin Emily) ARE GOING *drum roll*.......................................... ............................................... ............................................... ..I'm building suspense................... ........................... ............................ ............................. ..................... TO THE GIBSON SHOWCASE ON SEPTEMBER 9TH. You know what that means??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! FALLING FOR YESTERDAY!!!!!!!!! omg. I am so happy right now. |
| from cat-45 : |
| Danielle! You've already paid me back by being there for me through everything (and I mean everything)I know you can beat this, too. And telling Dr. whats his face about it might help. I mean, you never know. Is Aunt Kim gonna be in there every time you go? I think that's why you don't wanna tell him cause you don't wanna make Aunt Kim think its her fault. But I don't think Aunt Kim would think that. I think Aunt Kim would try to help you in any way possible. She's just cool like that. Well, I gotta go. treace out!! <3333333333333 Cat |
| from razornotes00 : |
| No darling, you didn't make me sad by doing that and stuff. I don't know how to put it, but it's just that I love you so much and I can't bare the thought of you getting hurt in anyway. There's so much worry. And that hurts. That's what made me sad. But now that i know you understand that this is not the right thing, then it's a lot better. I don't have to be an on-looker to your life.. Just watching you in pain, without being able to do anything. Ya know? I'm so proud of you for trying so hard. You're so strong Danille. You're filled with such strength, beauty, power, honesty, passion, kindness and purity. You're amazing. I love you!! Ok, "why is no one there for you?" Well, it's my own fault. I drove them all away so far, and now they're gone. So I did it. I made no one care. That's why I'm sorting piece by piece of my life out, so I can gain the support back. So I can be there for others. So they'll trust me. I'm so proud of you baby Dani-pooh! ♥ |
| from wiltedxdaisy : |
| i'm glad to hear you're doing better... or at least having a "happy" day. those are always nice. and you deserve it!! & i'm glad to hear you're really serious about beating this. you can do it, i know you can. it's hard, but it's worth it. keep fighting, okay? i'm not giving up on you & i'll be fighting right along with you. don't you forget that. *hugs* P.S. i don't mind you knowing my name... but it's sort of... um, unusual & i'm really paranoid about people connecting me with my diary (as if anyone would care....) i'll e-mail it to you though, okay? <3 |
| from wiltedxdaisy : |
| um... a while. i don't even know really. i think it all started in 2002. or at least i think that's when i realized i had a problem. but it might have started long before that, i just don't know. it hasn't been serious for a couple of years, but lately... i don't know. i'm not bulimic, though. never thrown up. ever. i've tried, believe me, i've tried... spent hours trying, but it just won't happen. i'm not technically "anorexic" either because of my BMI, or whatever... so I think I fall under the EDNOS category... ? anyway... i agree, you SHOULD talk to your psychiatrist about it... you don't have to go into detail really, but you should mention it. they're there to help you. they won't throw you into an institution. but they can help you work out WHY you're doing this to yourself, and that's a key element in beating this. i never sought professional help, i tried to beat it on own, thought i HAD beat it, but now look where i am (or where i have been all along?) i mean, i know was better that that i HAD been, but how much better? the details are so foggy to me now... ok, i'm shutting up now. <3<3<3*hugs* |
| from razornotes00 : |
| ok, I managed to con my dads wifes' daughter, to let me use her computer.. But I don't know what to say.. So what the fuck is the point of this note..? NOTHING. There's no point. No point in anything I do. But o well. I'm still really sad that you haven't eaten since Monday. I'm really sad that you are struggling. I'm really sad that you want to go down this path again. I'm sad that you don't see the wonderful person that everybody else sees. I know you're stronger than this. I know you're smarter than this too. Why are you doing this, again? You're not fat, and you don't need to have control of what you eat (in the way you're doing it at the moment). You're not really gaining control sweetie. I know nothing I say will change how you feel about all this "food, weight, life etc," But I care about you more than anything in the world. You don't know this (please don't feel 'sorry' for me after i tell you thought), but I don't have anyone anymore. No one that honestly can say they love me, no one who tells me wonderful things like you do. After aaron left, that was it. I know now what i felt for him wasn't real. But it's real for how I feel about you... Ya know? Ok, this note seriously has no purpose!!! I'm sorry. I just don't want you to hurt yourself and starve yourself. I love you Danielle. Take care.. |
| from wiltedxdaisy : |
| yeah. :( exactly. it's nice to know you're not alone, but at the same time it's something you wouldn't wish on anyone in the world, even your worst enemy. & yeah... i've been struggling with this for years... but i thought i was better. i thought i had beat it. i was so terribly wrong. i tried getting better because it was just too much, it was on my mind all the time & i just couldn't take it anymore, i was going insane... but now i feel like i did at the beginning, almost like i want it back, like i NEED it back. it's easier to focus on something like food rather than other issues going on at the moment... it's easier to control... if that makes any sense? |
| from wiltedxdaisy : |
| it's like you're inside of my head... i swear. it's so weird, reading your entries, it's you, but it's me, too... *hugs* it sucks, doesn't it? you want it so bad, but at the same time you fucking hate it. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Yeah. Not eating while taking meds, is kinda not the right thing to do. It saddens me that you aren't going to eat, and that you haven't eaten. I know you're not fat, or chubby or anything like that!! I don't know why you want to hurt yourself even more. But I am here for you Danielle. I will always love you no matter what you decide to do. Your name is stuck in my heart forever and ever. I love you so much. Please take care of yourself. <333 |
| from wiltedxdaisy : |
| you're not stupid & you don't screw everything up. weren't you the one who told me i shouldn't keep my mouth shut, that i should way what needs to be said? well... now i'm telling you. ;) at least you're being honest with her, i'm sure she appreciates that, rather than you trying to hide it from her. you know? she obviously cares a lot about you, and just wants to see you healthy. i want to see you healthy, too, but who i am to critisize? all i can do is once again offer my support... we can get through this together if you want.. anyway, to answer your question, no, i'm not okay. i'm... ??? but i'm used to it by now, so no need to worry about me. okay, enough rambling. *hugs* |
| from wiltedxdaisy : |
| p.s. i don't know if you have AIM or not... but if you do... we should talk sometime. i would like that. my s/n is jadedxxrose (& diaryland screwed up what was supposed to be sad smiley face... like always... just in case you're wondering what the fuck that was in the last message...) |
| from wiltedxdaisy : |
| aw... hunny, i thought you were trying to get better? i know it's hard, but i'm here to help you through it if you need some support... i'm not doing so well myself... :( in either aspect... |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ok, "What happened?" Well Danielle.. Nothing really. I just got a little angry and needed to do something about it. I dunno if you know about the e-mail..? But I wrote about that in my diary if you saw it. Um. I had to go to the hospital to get stiches. That's all. No big deal. Please don't worry about it. There's no point sweetie. AS FOR YOU!!!!!!!!! Tell that stupid stupid stupid 'friend' of yours, to get @%(*($!! I know it's hard baby doll. Just keep fighting. I know you can do this! :D I know you have the strength to stay strong! I love you so much. You're the kindest, strongest, sweetest, funniest girl ever! Have faith in yourself. I have faith in you Danielle. I always will. If you want to talk/write/e-mail me, please feel free! You're going to beat this lovey. I love you so much! Take care Danni-pooh-boop-a-doop! ♥ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| YES! It does help if you leave it in pounds. Duh. I'm not retarded *coughs* I know how to use google and a calculator to figure out how much a pound is! :P I feel special knowing that I can do that :) Ok, dude! Your aunty is tiny!! Lol. Dude! Friggin Britt! :-O Is she purposely "skinny?" :( I really hope not! you know, this whole pounds thing is making me want to see how much I am in pounds. The first time you mensioned it, I thought "hmm.. I wonder." Now it's like "Gimmy the darn scales you bitches!!" But I'm scared to tell you how many pounds I weigh. Anyway. MOVING OOOONNNNN!! So you did it because of them. Because of their defensiveness :-/ Well. I don't know what to say. But I do see where you're coming from. I know that I'll always struggle with cutting, burning and drugs. And I'll slip up sometimes. Esspecially with drugs, that's probally my worst habbit. :( I know you're trying really hard. And I'm so proud of you for it! I know you can beat this. I'm always here for you when you need, ok? I love you. I do. With all my ♥ XoXoXoXoXoX |
| from cat-45 : |
| Danielle! I <3 YOU!! Yes Andy roo is quite the confusing one. Know what's weird??? I was talking to Leslie and she said she missed somebody and i didn't say I missed him! I'm so proud of myself! I wasn't lying either! I don't miss him! He's like a disease. He won't go away!! But now he's starting to! Art thou proud of your little follower, oh great disciple of Mr Lorance??? Yay! Its ok if you slip up occasionally. It lets out some pressure and makes it a little better. FFY is amazing. I know you already know that, but they really are and I'm listening to them right now. Drowning is my favorite. OK I gotta go... school tomorrow =( BYE! <3333 |
| from razornotes00 : |
| God. Wow. I am so close to tears. But I shall resist. I didn't know you posted two entries about fucked up mia.. So I didn't see the first one. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. I'm disgusted in myself for, once again leaving you out by yourself. God. It's come back to you hasn't it? that "bitter sweet" piece of shit has started to comsume you again? :( I'm so sorry. I don't know what to do anymore. Don't you see that you're the most amazing person in the entire world. If I never met you here, I swear I'd be done. I love you. I really do. I miss you and I haven't even fucking met you!!!!! AHHHHHHH! No word in this entire world will ever discribe how I feel about you, or what you mean to me. I really love you. Stay strong. You can do it. ♥ |
| from cat-45 : |
| ok. Talk to ya tomorrow!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| ha ha. Sorry I made you laugh. =( Head aches are baaaad. Don't worry about Haley. She just doesn't want to make your life worse cause she probably knows your darling uncle is an assie and would kick you out if he found out becaue he's jealous. Nobody loves him that much!! About the shirts? He's jealous b/c he find any cool shirts like that with big enough neck holes to go over his fat head! ah. Got carries away again. Bob, you're Jesus. Yes I am. why do you ask? Satan is in my house. He killed my mom.... and turned her... into... a bull. *sirens* I'M SAVED!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| Georgia: I don't think its Danielle we need to operate on anymore! I think we should operate on her uncle to see why he bitches all the time. Danielle, do you agree? We might "accidentally" give him too much pain killer... whoops. I'm just not a good doctor. I don't know what the proper dosage is for an assie. Just don't give up because I'll be here forever just like Haley. So CALL ME IF HE STARTS BITCHING AGAIN! I'll sick my mommy on him. I told her about him being an assie to you all the time. She thinks he's "off his rocker" lol. |
| from jadedxx : |
| that statement couldn't be more true... i've been struggling with an ED for years, and it's starting to come back into full swing now. a part of me craves it, and the other part of me feels like a complete failure for giving in, to go backing to the hell i tried so hard to escape. don't give up, keep fighting. if you need any support, i'm here. *hugs* |
| from beatnbroken : |
| Of course I want to read this diary too! You can leave me a note or send it to me on myspace or e-mail it lol [email protected] love ya Danielle!! <333!! |
| from jadedxx : |
| since when does green not go with black? he doesn't know what the fuck he's talking about. wear whatever you want, make yourself happy. who cares what anyone else thinks. YOU matter the most. and everyone else can just go fuck themselves. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Danielle, I wish so much that I could just snap his neck.. Then when you've had a LONg break, I'll up-snap his neck :D I'm so sorry that you have to go through all this :( Is there some way that you could post all your pain in an envolope to me? I'd be happ to take it. :) I know what it's like to loose faith :( But just trust me sweetie!! You WILL get better! All this will end (and NO, I'm not talking about death!). I love you so much Danielle and I'm not just saying that! I really do love you! You are the most amazing person. You're beautiful. I love you. |
| from cat-45 : |
| I'm glad somebody finally proved the assie wrong!!! =D |
| from cat-45 : |
| Hey!! YOu're riding to school with me tomorrow! Don't worry about the clothes shopping thing! I know EXACTLY how you feel. It seems like they make things smaller every year so you hafta go up a size and feel like shit! um.. this may be mean, but Uncle Jackass should DIE! Wait a little harsh... He should be stung by fire ants a million times and then thrown in a tiny room with lots of angry hornets in it. Maybe living with your mom wouldn't be so bad. You might have more of an impact on her if you're there. Who knows? if you're there telling her to quit doing the stuff she's doing she might just listen. And then you won't have to listen to Uncle Jackass complain about everything. What he said to Brittany about you was just BULL SHIT! That pisses me off!! He shouldn't say stuff like that. I think that if you did leave he'd feel bad. And I'm also glad that you yelled at him and WON! WOOO! GO DANIELLE!! I think that's about all. I'm sure I left out something.... Ah well I'll tell you in the morning! BYE BYE! |
| from jadedxx : |
| because you're stronger than that. that's why. please don't give up. you are an amazing person, truly one of a kind. i'm so grateful to you, for everything. *hugs* |
| from jadedxx : |
| thank you. i was actually going to ask for the password, but didn't know if you'd want to give it out or not, so... but anyway, thanks. :) i'll be reading. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Oh. So I was wrong about your uncle then. Ha. No surprise. lol :P *woot woot* OH YEAH MAN!! I love this song!! YIP YIP YAY! Sorry, I'm listening to 'taking back Sunday.' Do you know them? Umm.. I've heard of Hocus Pocus.. But I don't know if I've seen it :/ What's it about? Yup, you're welcome! I was getting sick of having to go through all my notes to get to xxplaydeadxx then go and see if you'd updated! grr. lol then I remembered if I added ya, then I could just see the buddy list!!! hahahah! That's the smartest thing I've ever done! :D And it's NOT retarded! None of your diaries are retarded!! Well, I'm sorry about your uncle :( At least you stand up for yourself. That's good! :) I rekon you'd look really cute when you're going off your head! hehe! I always think people look cute like that :P(except most men). Aww you've got no one to talk to :( *snifs* Everyone's deserted you... hahahahahahahahahahaha. Aww. Poor you. Where's Haley gone? School on Wendnesday!!! :D Yay! What subjects are you doing this year? don't worry about it being hard darl! You'll hell flog everything! :) I know you will! Remember, you'll be with you friends again, so it'll be fun! :) Who do you hang aroung at school? With Haley and Cat? Or....? Ha. I hope I'm not being too nosy, but hey! I am nosy! :P And if anyone tries to spoil your fun at school or starts to give you shit and all that crap! Then please don't hesitate to let me know and I'll sort 'em out!!! :D No kiddin! Ok, well I better stop boring you now. I love you! Have a fantastic day/night! <333333 xoxo |
| from razornotes00 : |
| P.S Do you wanna know something REALLY freaky?! My birthday is 10 days after yours! hahahhahahahahaahhahahahahahahahahahahha! You freaked out yet? hahahahhahahahahahahahah! I make a good stalker! hahahahahahhahahahah! *woot woot* :P I love you SO much! Sweet dreams my little Capricorn (I think you're a Capricorn, right?) XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Aww thank you darling!! (for the note, for up-dating and for letting me stalk you!) I'm really sorry about your uncle :( I wish there was something I could do for you.. Have you tried asking him straight up "What is it that I have to do to get you to be proud of me?! Why is nothing I do ever good enough for you?!" Maybe that could work.. Or at least it may get him thinking about it.. I don't actualy think it's you who he's angry at. I think maybe when he looks at you he sees parts of his brother or sister (your mother and/or father). You know that sometimes happens with me. Like I get mad at my new dog sometimes when really I'm just getting sad about my other dog that I used to have :( She got too savage and I was made to give her up. I miss her so much. As a result, I turn the sadness into anger towards the new dog. I know there's a huge difference between a person and a dog, but I hope you get at least a tiny bit of what I mean :/ I hope you and your Uncle will get everything sorted out. I don't mean to place ANOTHER negitive into this note, but sometimes people just don't learn from their mistakes.. They never forgive or try to understand things life. Sometimes people just don't know how to express how they feel. You and your Uncle may never become "two peas in a pod!" But, inside he really does love you!! He really does care for you and respect you. Just because he may not know how to show it, it doesn't mean it's not true. I hope ya get what I'm saying..? I will always love you Danielle! No matter what happens! You are the best thing in the world to me! Eat a few chocolate bikkies for me will ya! :P Please! I love you, and I'm oh-so proud of you! <3333 |
| from cat-45 : |
| Danielle lets act like lesbians. When we graduate of course. I'm not really lesbian, or bi, but if it'll piss your uncle off I'm all for it. Like I said before, he's jealous because you have a better fashion sense, more friends, and a hell of a lot more hair. lol. And your life isn't gone all to shit like his. You don't hafta take medicine everyday that makes you go loopy like him. And we've got nicknames that are the shit! What does he got? Jim? whooooo thats a great nickname. ha. Maybe if he were Jim Morrison (he could pull that gay name off, but your uncle... NO WAY!!!) One day we're sooo getting an apartment and moving you aunt Kim and Brittany outta that hell hole. If he kills himself... well, its his loss. He shouldn't be a little bitch to everybody. He needs those 3 spirits from Scrooged to visit him. ha ha. I'll be the grim reaper!!!! WHEEEEEEE! Don't fear the reaper..... unless the knife thingy is real, then he better wear some kind of protective armor cause it might just go in his gut. *malicious smile* right Sonny? lol. I'm not a murderer!!! *crazy HO1000C laugh* I mean *cough* yeah. I gotta go back. Bye bye SONNY. <3 JONO |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Reply to the poor little note that got left out: That was a long note lol, so please forgive me if I leave anything out! I've read it so many times though! :D Ok, here we go... I'm sorry that your Aunty lied to you about your psycologist :( I think maybe your Aunty acts that way about psycologists because maybe she's had an experience with one and yeah... Or it could be because she feels like she has failed in some sort of way... and she thinks that she has to fix everything. If that's the reason, then it's sad because she hasn't failed! By the way you talk about her, she's a GREAT Aunty!! :) It's good that she knows that you're not just a "whinnie little tennage brat," because you've been through a lot and you deserve to have that respect and to be thought of as a wonderful, mature, strong young lady! Wow. You saw a psycologist when you were as young as 5? :( That's very young. If you don't mind me asking, what was it that troubled you enough to see one? Oh! That was a stupid question!!! Sorry!! Working with children and adolecents is great! YAY! You and I can become famous! "The Best Mental Help Dudes In The World!" :D Maybe we could go to the same uni to study! hahahahahaahahah! Just kidding. I know how you feel about not wanting to talk to your Aunt because she'll be constantly checking up on you and all, but it's only cause she's scared. Sometimes adults really don't know how to deal with things.. So they do it the only way they know how. I remember the look on my mums face when she found out about what I was doing :( She was so disappointed in me. GRR. Your Uncle, I'm sorry to say this, but what he said to you, IT'S COMPLETE SHIT! You can do whatever you want to do in this world!! Nothing can stop you! To be a shrink, you don't have to look, smell or act a certian way dammit! You'll be taught so many new things that you had NO idea about! You'll learn so much Danielle. And you have the power to succeed in this, ok? You're strong, experienced, intelligent, trustworthy, kind, caring, dedicated, mature and opinionated!! You can do anything you set your mind to babe! You can! Look what you've already done in this world! You are so amazing. Always keep up your passion for whatever you want to do in life, because you are worth it! You can do anything! I love you so much! *kisses your cheek* |
| from razornotes00 : |
| REPLY to most recent note: HA. I'm glad you know what I was talking about when I said how I felt when I tell people things :) Even though we may feel like that, the truth is, somethimes we just have to say it huh? When people tell you their "secrets" (or wehatever you wanna call it), you don't freak out and use what they tell you against them.. So your friends/STALKERS will understand!! Ok? HINT HINT! You can always come to me when you want to talk! If there's anything I can do for you, then please let me know! OH! YaY! You spoke to your Aunt?! WoW! Baby, I'm so proud of you. Ha. I know you must be feeling scared but really relieved now! It sounds like you two have started to sort things out a bit more..? Did she mension anything about you seeking professional help? I'm so proud of you Danielle. I love you so much (even if it is with my broken and roughed up heart :P). I love you. I love you, I love you. I love you!! *HUGS* I think I'm going to cry :( |
| from cat-45 : |
| otay. I'll call you tomorrow love. bye byeeeeeeee. |
| from cat-45 : |
| lol. I'm sowwy. Do you have that SLC punk movie? |
| from cat-45 : |
| hmmmm. I don't know. Maybe if i talk really squeaky... no no that's acid. OK I sound like me on acid =)jk jk. |
| from cat-45 : |
| I don't sound like Leslie. I sound like me on cocaine. |
| from cat-45 : |
| Guess what Jono! Mommy said you could come over here Sunday night and spend the night! WOO! We can plan the murder that shall be Kristen's. Stupid whore. WOO! You know what this means? You gotsta bring the Used cd (case too!) and I shall burn for you whatever cd's you heart desires. If I got em. =D And we shall watch Maybe Memories and Viva La Bam. woo! I'll call you tomorrow and we shall discuss this. I'll come get you, we'll put some swag around town, then we'll go home and plot murderous revenge stories. MWA HA HA! I'm being evil tonight... OK c-ya tomorrow!!!!! PS: Im glad you finally talked to Aunty Kim. Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| what did she say? |
| from cat-45 : |
| oh what bitch?!!? JUST KIDDING!! Ha. Sonny. Sucks that you can't watch it. Its the shit. |
| from cat-45 : |
| ah. girl boy. heres the link I put the wrong thingy... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VmH6gwG3aXE Watch. It is freaking hilarious. |
| from cat-45 : |
| which one? |
| from cat-45 : |
| http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5nZG3-vN8Is and another... the 1st one is funnier though. |
| from cat-45 : |
| <object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/VmH6gwG3aXE"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/VmH6gwG3aXE" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="425" height="350"></embed></object> |
| from cat-45 : |
| ha ha. You know I have to argue with everything... You're not an idiot. You're just scared and there's nothing wrong with that. |
| from cat-45 : |
| mwa ha ha! Doctor Satan ready to operate! lol. Don't worry we'll get lots of pain medication. For you. That damn voice is gonna wish she'd never messed with us *gives Georgia high 5* But you gotta tell Aunty Kim. She'll feel worse if something bad happens. If anything she will be glad you told her before something bad happened. Ha ha. Remember the note we wrote to Megan saying Aunt Kim was disappointed in her cause she was hanging out with mayonaise? And I signed it Aunt Kimberely Ann Duncan? Ha good times good times. I found that the other day, but then I lost it again. Man you sent me alot of emails today. I read them all and will eventually get around to adding them to my favorites. mwa ha ha! You know Matt from FFY? I think he might just be my new favorite. Almost as cute as DJS. And he talked to me. I feel special. Ha ha! He talkeded to you too! He liked that stupid movie.... =P OK bye bye "poppet" |
| from razornotes00 : |
| HOLY SHIT! Are you serious?!?!?!?! :D You wanna be a psychologist?!?! :D Oh my God! WOW! Dude, me too! Oh man! I've wanted to do that for about 3-4 years so far. I wanna help so bad! Plus I've seen a few of them and they.. lets just say... CAN'T DO IT FOR SHIT!! I mean, prahaps SOME CAN! But the ones I've seen ahve just caused more problems lol. But Danielle, I don't mean to give you a lecture, but you do realize you gotta respect yourself and look after yourself first! So please like yourself! :( You have a million things to love/like! What kind of degree or section/category are you interested in for psychology studdies by the way? :) I reckon you'd make a fantastic psychologist anyway :D HA. I could make up "issues" just so I could come see you lol! But I wouldn't HAVE to make em up cause they're already there hahahahahah! Oh, and no matter how hard you try, fight, and struggle... it will never be a waste of time ok babe! You are so worth everything and more! NIGHTMARES!!! GRRR!! Cat and I really need to make up a plan to opperate on you as soon as possible!! We'll take out your friend (and beat the crap out of it) then we'll take out the stuff that makes ya have bad dreams :D And whatever else you don't want inside your head! :D *pulls out a rusted old scalpol from draw* *evil smile* xoxoxoxoxoxo |
| from cat-45 : |
| There is NO possible way that you can look worse than me. I let Whitney dye my hair (BIG mistake) now the top layer is like a dark oragish blonde and the bottom is bleached. The bottom worked right, but the top is muffed up. Its horrible. Tomorrow I'va gotta go get it fixed by somebody who knows what they're doing..... Don't worry about anything. You won't muff it up and that stupid voice will go away with time. OK I'm going to look at that layout now. Bye bye. I'm still listening to The Used. I really do think Bert shall be my husband. We're soulmates. REAL soulmates mot like Cullen =P Ok bye bye. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Hey there you Cannon County SNOB!!! :P hehe! Don't worry, commas are cool :) HA! Feet are so weird! Short wriggely lumps of skin and bone! YUKKIE! My toes look like baby boy's parts :P (shit! Sorry about that if it freaks you out :/) and my actuall foot thingo is really ugly. Ha. Bet your feet are like a super modle's foot!!!! :P OH! Dude, you could be a super modle!!! lol With your straight hair, teeth, pretty face and amazing personality!! Oh but dude, you like doing computer stuff huh? You could do a deggree in I.T or something... Ok I'll shut up now! :) Umm.. STUPID DREAMS! I wish they'd go away from you for ever! If there's anything I can do to help with it or anything, LET ME KNOW :D I wanna help! I wanna be here for you! Oh man, I hope you're still fighting those thoughts and I hope you haven't thrown up :( It's really a good thing tht you keep reminding yourself, cause if ya don't, you'll end up regretting it. I'm sure you know that anyway. I love you so much Danielle! I love the way you think and write, I love all the funny things you say, and I love it when they make no sence! I <3 U |
| from cat-45 : |
| man, I loved that picture too. damn. Its not wasted effort. I just watched Bert on Fuse fuck ups. He is so gonna be my husband one day! He's hilarious and sings pretty. And he knows what I'm thinking. A beautiful person. Can I have the code for the green one? Please? I �� you danielle!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| ooooh. FFY and Through A Glass at Rocketown Friday.... eight bucks..... =D |
| from cat-45 : |
| OMG that guy is online. I am soooo glad to be invisible right now. |
| from cat-45 : |
| the one you made for me, although I loooove them all. They are beautiful! I especially like the green one =) But all it says at the top is image hosted by imageshack or whatever. I'm going to cry. |
| from cat-45 : |
| omg. the pic didn't work =( |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Ha. I only said brave because I have a short vocabulary and I couldn't think of a different word :P Umm.. well I mean it's brave of you to start to look at the positives and wanting to get better is a brave thing to do... by taking that step forward, know what I mean? :) HA! A letter is a good idea! :D I like how ya said it could just be a plan so you can figure out what to say if you don't give it to her. T'was clever! :) Yes I'm eating sweetie! As always! And yeah things are good down this end.. Just missing Aaron like crazy, even though I know if I keep it up, I'll just get hurt again :( O well, that's life! :) I <3 U |
| from cat-45 : |
| goodnight nerd bomber!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| uh oh. I was about ot put I was going to bed. ha. Go here and be on the team with me anus licker! im j/k... I hope.... hee hee. http://thestreetnetwork.sparkart.com/teaminfo.php?artist_id=79 |
| from cat-45 : |
| oooh. I'm now on the HIM MCR and the used street teams. |
| from cat-45 : |
| ha ha! I see miss spresser! Which one is her husband? |
| from cat-45 : |
| woo! I'm on the Used's street team!! woo! |
| from cat-45 : |
| serioulsy? |
| from cat-45 : |
| yep Velcro Stars. weird name... |
| from cat-45 : |
| ha ha! OMG. its so freaky. Stop stalking me!! aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! I mean it could be an unperverted number like 7 or something. why 69? haha it stalks you too! ha ha! |
| from cat-45 : |
| my mom's making shivering noises in her sleep. She sounds like a horse... |
| from cat-45 : |
| omg. on the Used website you hafta push either 666 or 999 to enter the site. Danielle its haunting me! |
| from cat-45 : |
| ha ha. I can see a baby danielle. Its kinda like that movie Little Man the grown up's head on a baby's body. ha ha! ga ga goo goo.... |
| from cat-45 : |
| man my arm hurts. Its like going all stiff like from where I had to hold Emma for forever b/c she wouldn't let me put her down. When I put her down she'd start the whole whaaaaaaaa! thing again. Why do people say I'd be a good mom? I get tired of the little rugrats after about 2-3 hours. Gosh. If Anybody ever tells me that again I'll rip their ears off. |
| from cat-45 : |
| Maybe I'll come see you tomorrow after "work" I haven't seen you in what? a week? too long..... ok the request goes like this: this pic: http://images.43things.com/place/00/03/98/235720lr.jpg In black and red With lyrics from Box of Sharp Objects. and with the loves hates thing. man. I feel like poop b/c I keep asking you to make me these layouts and I have nothing to give you in return b/c I don't have enough patience to make those things. Ahhh,,, Ville in leather is the PERFECT convo. Hey Danielle! Bert and Ville! lol. member that? |
| from cat-45 : |
| ooooooh Bert in leathers... ew, no bert keep the sexy short pants! wooot! DJS in leathers.... ooooh.... Ville in his leathers.... *drools more* |
| from cat-45 : |
| You're gonna make me 2?Danielle you really kick ass!!Can you make one have lyrics from Box of Sharp Objects? Oh my gosh. Danielle you are so cool. Black and red????? omg. I wish I could make you an amazing layout.... I wish I could bring you some chapstick..... I wish I could give you a hug! |
| from cat-45 : |
| aaaaaaaaa..... those leathers........ lol. http://my.opera.com/erkohler/homes/albums/26368/thumbs/Jim%20Morrison.psd.jpg_thumb.jpg |
| from cat-45 : |
| are you being serious or are you being Napoleon Dynamite? I get confused.... |
| from cat-45 : |
| i think its between this one: http://loserxkid67.tripod.com/sitebuildercontent/sitebuilderpictures/.pond/bertmccracken2.jpg.w300h376.jpg and this one: http://images.43things.com/place/00/03/98/235720lr.jpg oh they are all too prettifuls..... Berrrrrrrrrrt........................... |
| from cat-45 : |
| omg. you are a brilliant child. |
| from cat-45 : |
| so which is your favorite? |
| from cat-45 : |
| http://img417.imageshack.us/img417/3440/sdg4gg.jpg awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww |
| from cat-45 : |
| how'd you guess? I mean yep coooookies and milk... to help a growing boy..... ha ha.... |
| from cat-45 : |
| ah ha ha! I found the one I was looking for!!! Its not moving, but its so cute!! http://cute-bubble-freak.tripod.com/sitebuildercontent/sitebuilderpictures/bert.jpg |
| from cat-45 : |
| heres that one: http://xdd.xanga.com/06407570743b211215573/b7612707.jpg |
| from cat-45 : |
| yes you are amazing. Another pic? thought so. http://img473.imageshack.us/img473/9684/bearrick1ut.png |
| from cat-45 : |
| ah yes the loverly santa hat. I wish he would deliver presents to my house..... |
| from cat-45 : |
| which one the first or second one? |
| from cat-45 : |
| omg. I'm sending you lots of Bert pics.... here's another http://loserxkid67.tripod.com/sitebuildercontent/sitebuilderpictures/.pond/bertmccracken2.jpg.w300h376.jpg Pick out which one you think is the prettiest... I'll probably agree... Thank you sooo much Danielle. You kick ass! |
| from cat-45 : |
| very true. Jealous because guys are prettier than her hah! that's freaking hilarious *points and laughs!!!* |
| from cat-45 : |
| there are too many pretty ones!! http://i6.photobucket.com/albums/y206/2ndhartbeat/Who%20id%20like%20to%20meet/bert-link.jpg http://xdd.xanga.com/06407570743b211215573/b7612707.jpg |
| from cat-45 : |
| omg! http://images.43things.com/place/00/03/98/235720lr.jpg |
| from cat-45 : |
| or if he looked like Bert...... =D or Sonny.... or what about Andrew? If I fixed his hair like that, he'd become sexy and a bunch of whores would want his body. lol. thats so funny..... but back to the story.... they' would want his body b/c he had sexy emo hair.. OMG. I FUCKIN LOOOVE THAT PICTURE OF BERT!! Sorry. too excited. i pissed myself. No I didn't. I'm trying to make you laugh your ass off. ha ha! This is a funny note... Andrew and whores psht... and me pissing my pants! ha ha! Smile Danielle! You know you wanna!! woot woot! |
| from cat-45 : |
| ooooooooo I would LOOOOOOVE to fix Andrew's hair like that!! He said he would let me mess with it someday.... I was gonna gove him liberty spikes, but now I'm in love with that guy's (Ryan)hair. Its beautiful and he's not so bad himself.... hee hee. DJS shaking his ass..... awesome. Wish I could see it. Aww Whitney and her skank had a fight yesterday, but shhhhh.... Nobody's supposed to know. Oh wow. I'm having mental images of Andrew with good hair..... its cool. His hair now sucks..... Thats mean, but true.... Sowwy Andwoo.... Not like he's ever gonna read this anyway.... |
| from cat-45 : |
| wanna see my future hair??????? =D its gonna be loverly!!!heres a link b/c my photobucket thing won't work... =( http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/19430318/ The guy is pretty too. You think we could talk Andrwe into dying his hair like that???? lol. You like? |
| from cat-45 : |
| Danielle!!!! I LOVE the Ville layouts... Make a sexy Bert one next!! One that says We're Falling in LOOOOVE! Box Full of Sharp Objects!! I do love that song so. I need to learn to make layouts..... =D that would take time and patience, the 2 things I dont have........ Oh d-d-d-dear. I've fallen in love again. With Bert McCracken's delightful screams. And that little quizzy thing? ha ha! I bit Haley!! mwa ha ha! lol. Not in a bad way that you would be enraged about. ha ha! Danielle SMILE! My myspace won't load... =( I'm going through withdrawal..... Oh back to Bert.... THere was this one icon thing that I had it was soooo cool! You know in the video where he's like "WE'RE FALLING IN LOOOVE!!!" and he like sticks his tongue out while he's screaming? Yes it was so adorable. Oh Bert was so cute. I love him. I need a life size Bert poster. That would kick ass. And Whitney wouldn't try to molest that one like she does all the gerards. ooooo I did get 2 pretty posters this weekend... The Used and FromFirst to Last. hee hee! Me and Whitney came to the conclusion that I'm married to Sonny (who coincidentally is only 17!!) and Bert (who is my soul mate.... =D) and she thinks she's married to Gerard and Davey. ha. Gosh this is so long and I'm not 1/2 done! I get to dye my hair!! woot woot!! ummm..... Bleach blonde with black streaks. If only there wasn't a gay school rule, there would be red streaks too. I got the hair dye yesterday, but I think I'm gonna get a real hair cutter person to dye it b/c I don't trust my family at all. They all want me to be like them. Katie the whorey prep, Emily the bossy prep, Caleb the gang member, Bill the assie, Sam... well Sam mostly copies me...... But you knew that... Man the reason I didn't email you sooner is b/c last night I had to baby sit Emma. OMG I got absolutely NOOOO sleep. Everytime I'd get comfortab;e and 1/2 asleep, WWWWWWWHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! and I had to get up and rock her back to sleep. Geez, babies are hard work. I need new jeans. Mine are all too short. Looks like I'm wearing "high waters" ha. Good times with old Travis. Polly... ha ha! Man I love that guy. OMg the other night when I was taking Whitney home after guitar some kid freaking mooned us! Seriously!! It was so funny! Whitney didn't even see it so she was like "hey turn around!!" and I was like hell no! I don't wanna see an ass again! it was funny, OK well now that I've basica;;y written you a novel, I'll ttyl!!!!!!!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| AWW! Yay! I love your list of things you like about yourself! That was a very brave thing to do. That list isn't "too long" Danielle! There's no rule that says we have to like 10 things about ourselves and hate 8 things exactly! We can love everything and it won't ever be too much on the list dude! In my opinion.... I would have added... about... 50000000000 MORE THINGS THAT I LIKE ABOUT YOU!!!! :D But ya gotta like yaself too :) Keep trying to be positive. And about ya Aunty, write her a letter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xoxoxox |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Oh sorry Danielle, but I have gotta go :( I have to go for a ride now. I'm sorry! If that voice says something mean back, then this is my reply "Shut up! You just don't want her to eat, because you're the fat one!! PISS OFF!" :D Ok, you got that one? hehe! I love you so much! I think it's night time over ther huh? So sweet dreams my perfect friend XOXOXO |
| from razornotes00 : |
| People as good as us?!?!?! DUDE! We're all lucky to have found you and be able to know who you are, what you like and don't like. You're a beautiful person and your so strong! Give this message to your friend in your head for me please "PISS OFF YOU FAT UGLY MOLE!" Ok? :D |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Sweet heart, I'm not gonna say it was a good thing to throw up, but when you try and heal yourself, you'll have ups and downs through out the time in doing so... If you know what I mean..? But it's ok, and you'll get through this! :D You can't imagine how happy I am to hear you sy you'll try and eat and get better.. It really lifts my soul! I'm so proud of you, and don't worry babe!!! I'll always believe in you and respect you!! You are someone I could never loose faith in! I <3 U |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Oh ok, thanks for reading it then! :) Yes I DID read the lyrics that you put up too!! :P I like them, they're nice. I'm so proud of you for not giving in to your voice today, and for eating :) It makes me so happy to see the improvements that you make and how hard you're trying with eveything :) I hope you will feel much happier and safer soon! Still prayin' for you lil' one! XOXOX I <3 U |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Yeah, baby you are my everything :) And you are strong enough to get through this ok! I love you too! Thank you! Oh, and cause I wrote 2 entries today, you may not have got the one I wrote for you as my first one.. I hope you'll read it soon :) It doesn't mean anything, just kinda talks a bit about you "friend." I love you Danipooh! Sweet dreams! Oh, have you heard that song by Pink called "who knew?" Well HEHE! I like it but it's sad. I <3 U xoxoxoxoxxoxo |
| from cat-45 : |
| yep we made up.Makes me feel alot better. umm... I have a confession to you too... I smoked one yesterday. Yeah I know I promised I wouldn't, but stress and the thing with Andrew just overpowered my wee little brain.... Yes, but no more! For either of us. And I agree with razornotes00 (yet again) writing would be easier b/c "the pen is slower than the tongue" or whatever my mom says..... I'm listening to FFY. I've listened to them ALL afternoon! I love them! Mostly Drowning. Its my favorite. Very sad.... otay bye bye. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Write her a letter! Tell her that oyu're really not happy and you want help! That way she will have time to think about it rather than confrounting her with it.. I know what it's like when ya need to get help, but you don't know how.. But writting is easier than telling someone. In this case anyway. I think :/ |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Don't thank me! So what are you going to do? Will you talk to your aunty? |
| from razornotes00 : |
| And it's ok to cry! :) Let it out and scream! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Oh sweetie! It's going to be ok baby! I love you so much. From my toes to the tips of my split ends! :P You know you can always talk to me, ok?! But I know it's harder to do that when I know you just need someone to hold you.. And that's the one thing I can't do for you.. YET!!!! :D I was thinking bout you last night, and how I really felt like gettin a hug from you :) It would be the best feeling ever! If we were closer, I'd never let you go!! :) I think you should go and talk to your aunty, just see how it goes.. You don't want to keep feeling like this. Just tell her that you're NOT ok and you really need her love right now! Don't be nervous, don't think, just blurt it out honey!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Oh ok, I understand now! Thank you for that :) I hope you're alright... you sound a bit down or sad.. what's up honey? I <3 U XoXoX |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Hey honey, I'm sorry to be a pest, but I didn't understand that entry.. Did you take them, or did someone eles and you got blamed? |
| from smileymonkey : |
| Jeffy sorry but you were hitting me LOSER so shut up and you had the blinds closed so it wasnt broad daylight |
| from cat-45 : |
| I'm sorry. My computer is being retarded!!! Now I think I shall go to bed.... G'night. |
| from cat-45 : |
| Ew. WHY? You denied him right? Don't call me a tard!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| no no more guessing. OK 1 more Halet's little cousin Lord Cullen? |
| from cat-45 : |
| are you alive over there? I found Daniel John Schafer's twin. That's a few years younger than him. He's adorable, much like Mr. Schafer himself. Linky? http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=70860649&MyToken=a522e72e-e31b-4bcd-9f1e-b49ca1559826 Ummm... looking at your friend list and see nothing new........ Tom? lol. Tom's eveybody's friend..... Chris? IDK! Andrew? no no. I made you do that one... Mr Schafer? |
| from cat-45 : |
| britney rogers? |
| from cat-45 : |
| Yeah she can have it. What are these cute lil emo things called? |
| from cat-45 : |
| <a href="http://www.myspace.com/redjumpsuit" target=_blank><img src="http://i30.photobucket.com/albums/c324/rjabanner/rja_instores_450.gif" alt="The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus" border="0"></a> |
| from cat-45 : |
| man! You're a busy bee! They're all too awesome! Man slow down! I don't wanna hafta change my template every day!!! hee hee. Thnks Danielle. |
| from cat-45 : |
| that layout is PERFECT! Oh... I got a reply.... Wanna read it? Of course you do! Subject: Forgive Me! Im sorry about that, I didnt know your number by heart and I dont have a cell phone, but Im not mad at you, Im really sorry! I love you so much, so if your mad at me, its ok! But thank you for waiting on me, this is the first time, something like this has happen, but forgive me! Love you so much! Love, Drew |
| from cat-45 : |
| ok I'll ttyl! |
| from cat-45 : |
| Hope so. Maybe he'll feel bad and take us to Buzzfest.... =) lol. |
| from cat-45 : |
| now that you mention it, IDK. But it is Andrew... so you never know. |
| from cat-45 : |
| God I hope not. |
| from cat-45 : |
| I think I'm gonna hurl....... Seriously. |
| from cat-45 : |
| oh man. I feel bad......... |
| from cat-45 : |
| I clicked send......... |
| from cat-45 : |
| yeah.... what do you think he'll say? |
| from cat-45 : |
| gosh I really hate having to send this.... |
| from cat-45 : |
| and the PS: I don't mean to piss you off or make you sad, I just have to tell you how I feel. I'm sorry if it does piss you off or make you sad, but at least that way you'll know how I felt. Leslie said she thought he'd cry or feel like shit... |
| from cat-45 : |
| awww.... georgia's entry was like wow. Do you think that note will make him sad? I don't want him to cry.... |
| from cat-45 : |
| How's this for the final note? Yeah.... Music is better than movies any day.... But you know it would have been really nice to know you weren't gonna be there so we didn't waste ummmm...... what was it? 30 minutes waiting on you. So thanks. Yeah. Phones? We have them for a reason. To CALL PEOPLE TO TELL THEM IF PLANS HAVE CHANGED. Sorry I hafta get all bitchy, but you know I felt guilty. I felt guilty about leaving you. I couldn't watch the movie b/c of that guilt. I'm not mad. any more. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I hate getting mad. I hate saying things like this. I hate doing this kind of shit. I HATE IT! But at the same time I feel as if I have to. So I'm sorry. You have no idea how long it's taking me to write this... I think I started at 11 and its already 12:47. I'm not sleepy and I'm not sorry. Well, I am sorry I had to be bitchy, but I'm not sorry I wrote this note. I'm gonna go now...... even though I get mad sometimes....... I still love you....... Bye..... |
| from cat-45 : |
| what's georgia's password? |
| from cat-45 : |
| Emo-ness helps me...... I don't know why people don't understand..... Why do people (like Andrew) think that emos are stupid? I don't understand..... |
| from cat-45 : |
| the emo tears are coming again... They won't stop! Drowning further in my fears I can't atke it so I run away away fromthis afraid to see afraid to sleep b/c I can't be anything I can't be what you need... IDK if all that's right.... But it made the emo tears come back... |
| from cat-45 : |
| Yeah thats what I felt bad for.... AND FFY ROX.... I'm gonna hafta add them to my myspace.... =) |
| from cat-45 : |
| ha ha you'd be proud. I'm listening to Falling For Yesterday.......... And continuing the saga.... |
| from cat-45 : |
| Danielle I did feel bad. I felt sad, guilty, and angry all at the same time. Remember when I was all quiet and everything for a while? What do you think I was thinking about? |
| from cat-45 : |
| hows this for the ending? Sorry I hafta get all bitchy, but you know I felt guilty. I felt guilty about leaving you. I couldn't watch the movie b/c of that guilt. |
| from cat-45 : |
| ha ha. thats what leslie just said.... Man I really lost it in that letter huh? |
| from cat-45 : |
| yeah.... But I sound sooooo bitchy. What of that should I delete? What if he cried? I'd feel bad..... |
| from cat-45 : |
| no.... I gotta delete alot of that.... Really mean huh? |
| from cat-45 : |
| oops... I knew I shouldn't have started... read: Yeah.... Music is better than movies anyday.... But you know it would have been really nice to know you weren't gonna be there so we didn't waste ummmm...... what was it? 30 minutes waiting on you. So thanks. Yeah. Phones? We have them for a reason. To CALL PEOPLE TO TELL THEM IF PLANS HAVE CHANGED. You see? You've made me go and lose my temper again. Last time that happened I almost wrecked my car. Oh and that was your fault too, by the way.... You know what? Forget the whole music thing. k? Forget that I'm alive. Forget that I ever lived. k? That's what you're gonna do anyway. So lets just get it over with now. Ummm.... Wow. That escalated very quickly.... |
| from cat-45 : |
| what should I say? This is what I got so far: Hey! Yeah.... music is better than movies any day. Music I can understand... that movie, not so much... |
| from cat-45 : |
| danielle! I can't take it any more! I gotta leave him a comment!!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| yes I remember what I called your aunt. But I didn't realize it was your aunt at the time... and I was also in a bad mood......... |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Lol I know that! :) I just thought I'd tell her it was cool :) And it is! Both of ya have done great! SOOOOOOOO....... honey!! About your little/BIG thingothat happened last night.. baby, I think you should give your uncle some sleeping pills (like Cat said) and just go to a pro for a littlw while. It'll help! Can't you just say that you're going to her house for a while? :/ |
| from cat-45 : |
| Are you saying that I'm slow? |
| from cat-45 : |
| remember the hot guy that you and Brittany don't know's name thats on your coputer with the hat and the sexy hair and red eyeliner? Yeah his name's Matt Good. I think he's in FFTL, but I'm not too sure.... |
| from cat-45 : |
| ok. Would I be anything but safe when other people are in the car with me? |
| from cat-45 : |
| why? |
| from cat-45 : |
| yay! Danielle. YOU ROCK. I wish I could do that stuff.... but I get confused just making it fit my page..... =( |
| from cuttersblood : |
| thank you. and it has been killed =) |
| from cat-45 : |
| yay! I feel special too! A personalized layout from Danielley-poo Inc. lol. Suhi fish says 'Thank you' *bows* |
| from cat-45 : |
| awwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!! Its soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OOOOOOOOO..... Can I make a request???? The kitty one PWEASE!! oooooooo..... in blue and lime green? Danielle I would love for longer than forever! |
| from cat-45 : |
| http://www.ponandzi.com/image.php?img=37 Still my fave! |
| from cat-45 : |
| http://www.ponandzi.com/image.php?img=32 Good Pon and Zi website. I've been looking at it for like an hour.... We'll just hafta get him some stronger ones then. |
| from cuttersblood : |
| thank you very much. do you think i could maybe have the username/password for your diary. i would like to read it if you'd let me. |
| from cat-45 : |
| no danielle. no down the road! no across the street either! NO! idk. Lets just give your uncle sleeping pills that last 2 hours every week and get you help. With my connections (which I am usually not proud of) I'd say I could find you some. Put it in his food or something. and then I'll drive you.... =D |
| from cat-45 : |
| whattaya mean don't reply for a few days? Mannnnnnnnn..... Your uncle is one major assie. He is such an assie that assie is too nice a word to use to describe him. Does he really want me to tell my mommy? my mommy is worse than I am.... I don't hafta give her any details. Just that you need help, but your afraid to get it b/c he'll kick you out. She could go over there shotgun in hand and say "Get her the help she needs, and dont kick her out or your brains will be on the floor mother fucker!" Wait that's what I would do.... she'd be all nice. no shotgun. But I could tell her if you want. She might be able to help a little... Or you could tell aunt Kim again. And be serious. Do it while Brittany's not there, so she can't go tell uncle Jim. I don't think she would, but you never know. |
| from cat-45 : |
| well... they're gonna know eventually... but if you need help I don't think your uncle Jim will kick you out. We'll conveniently leave out the bi thing. I don't think he will kick you out. Not with aunt Kim there telling him not to. And if he does I'll kick his ass myself and rub Tobasco sauce in his eyes. and then you'll live with me. And the little anus licker is waiting for a reply to his message... I don't think he'll be getting one for a few days at least.... Hopefully I can go that long. I will go at least one day. OMG. Connie just now came to the conclusion that she has spiders in her house. I was like "Dur dur dur! Danielle got bit one you assie!" omg. idiots.... |
| from cat-45 : |
| Do you wanna talk to my mom? She could talk to aunt Kim for you and you can get help. I couldn't take it if you were gone. You're like the only one I can go to that I KNOW my secrets are kept safe. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Aww! Man I love that music on your diary :) Gosh it's so soothing! I come on here and just listen to it when I need to calm down! haha! It's so sad though :( *snifs* But that's why I like it! Well, just thought I'd let you know about that! :P OH, I locked my diary, if you want to read it still user: razornotes00 pw: alangibbons Ok, dude DON'T worry about B.B!! It's a phase and she'll get over it :) Take care xoxox |
| from cat-45 : |
| ah... Brittany! I figured that would happen. Well, I'm gonna go too, but I'm going to bed. So I'll try to talk to you tomorrow, unless I'm too emo for you too.............. |
| from cat-45 : |
| Golly ka gee. I've listened to I Dare You a gazillion times and I'll listen to it a gazillion more before the night is through. Oh wait, I just realized why he didn't come.... I'm just too emo for him. He was afraid I'd start crying and try to slit my wrists when Jack got eaten. Yep I bet that's it. How many times has he called me emo? So many times it's hard to count. "You're too emo, you need to cheer up!" Why do you listen to that music? It makes you emo." blah blah blah. Oh great I'm acting like an alky again. haha remember when I fell? |
| from cat-45 : |
| gosh I don't know. I'm clueless and heartbroken. What do you expect? |
| from cat-45 : |
| maybe that's what's wrong with me............ |
| from cat-45 : |
| mom and dad are supposed to be bringing something home. They had to go get the cable to fix the tv. What dorks. |
| from cat-45 : |
| I still feel like poop. And I'm hungry I wanna eat now. I'm hungry poop. how loverly. |
| from cat-45 : |
| yeah, well I'm sick of optimism. It gets you nowhere. Accept the facts and move on. The facts here are that he doesn't wanna hang out with us (me) and I'm not gonna force the little assie to do something he doesn't want to. This sounds really angry doesn't it? |
| from cat-45 : |
| on your myspace... go to sent. Its right there beside inbox and stuff. And look at the message you sent him. Does it say "read" or "sent" at the side? |
| from cat-45 : |
| No I think he's just being an assie. It didn't slip his mind, and he doesn't think its next Saturday. He's just being a damn assie. that's all there is to it. Maybe he just didn't wanna hang out with us, but then I think he would have made up a lame excuse when me and Whitney talked to him..... something like "Oh man! I gotta work!" Maybe he just stayed at Eckerd and decided that store was more fun than us. |
| from cat-45 : |
| see that's what happens when you get too close to somebody. They disappoint you. And it breaks your heart. again and again, but you keep searching for what you had before, but you'll never have it again. Because one of you has turned into an assie. And I don't think its me. |
| from cat-45 : |
| see that's what happens when you get too close to somebody. They disappoint you. And it breaks your heart. again and again, but you keep searching for what you had before, but you'll never have it again. Because one of you has turned into an assie. And I don't think its me. |
| from cat-45 : |
| well.... its too late for the emo tears. They started on the way homefrom your house.And I doooooo so hope it was something last minute b/c if he did just decide not to come then he IS an assie. You can do something if you want, but I prefer to just back quietly out of his life. |
| from cat-45 : |
| You dork! You put Polly on your xxplaydeaxx one!!! =( My illiterateness of Nirvana at that time is not funny! |
| from cat-45 : |
| ok I'm back it only took a second. |
| from cat-45 : |
| OK I got it. Fixed it. I gotta get off for a little whiile. I'll be back on in about 20 minutes. |
| from cat-45 : |
| No he doesn't deserve something mean. He deserves to be left alone by me. He doesn't like hanging out with me anymore, then great. I'll find new friends. |
| from cat-45 : |
| shit. I just wrote you a not and my computer went all gay. It said: Man, I feel like SHIT. I'm gonna go sit in a corner and cry my eyes out *emo tear* I'm listening to HIM And what song happens to come on? Love You Like I Do. I'm going to read the note you wrote me. |
| from cat-45 : |
| Hello my beautiful friend. I think that tomorrow is gonna be so much fucking fun that we shall pass out from merriment! ha ha! And after we come to, we're gonna have a Viva la Bam marathon!! WOOOOOO! ha ha!I'm listenin to Jim Morrison right now. He was amazing. see, you and him are alot alike. You both kinda wanted to end it all, him by drinking and drugs and you by starvation, but notice, when he tried to quit all the shit he did, he was too late, the damage had been done. I wonder if he even HAD a liver.... But you're not too late. You're just in time! wooo! And you, unlike him, have enough brains to do it. He was smart, but not in a way that would benefit him in the END. (Like my word puns?)hee hee hee! And we'll hafta have some of those serious talks about life and love and retarded families. OK I'll ttyl. I'll be at your house around 7 or maybe earlier, I'll call you and you meet me out on the porch b/c your uncle and aunt scare me. Not aunt Kim. Wait that lady isn't your aunt is she? No you told me that the other day. Britney's aunt. Got it. Your uncle and Britney's aunt scare me. OK Bye bye. I'll c -ya tomorrow!!! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Man, how can you do that?!!? You know, think of something like that in like one hour!!!! It took me nearly a whole day to think of the one I did :( You said you couldn't top mine, well DUDE you just did! Thank you for everything. I'd say more, but I'm speechless! I'm so happy that you've decided t fight this! :D Gosh it makes me feel like I can get better too.. Well, I'm going away now, to write you a letter. Yes, a real letter, with actual words, on actual paper :) lol I hope to send it to you one day, and hopefuly it won't become an 'un-sent letter' like all theother letters I've written. I have real modivation to see it through this time. Thank you. You're my inspiration! OH, and don't worry, I won't take you away form you girlfriend. :) Love always, a loving Stalker xxx |
| from razornotes00 : |
| DUDE!!!!! NOOOOOOOO!! Please don't write about that in your diary! Your diary is ment to be full of how you feel and what is happening to YOU! Don't fill it with replies to my bull shit! Please, write something from your baby heart.. something that will help you to feel better! :) |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I forgot to say, that I'm extreamly FLAMING proud of you for eating today and for not throwing up. Do you know how much that means to me!?!!?!?!?!? Well, more than I can say! I'm proud of you Danielle, truly. OH!!! AND I LOVE YOUR LAY-OUT!!!!! It makes me want to cry cause it's so beautiful! xxooxxooxxoo |
| from razornotes00 : |
| OH MY GOD! I can't believe it! I was wishing all day today, that I could be with someone and just be hugged in a nice happy way, and for someone to say I'm important *coughs* etc.. And you were feeling like that sorta too :) WE'RE NOT ALONE!!!! :) My "friend" (I call it my mental monster usually), was annoying me sooo much today too (like it was for you!). Aww I love you so much Baby Daniellepoo-boop-a-doop!! :) I was thinking a lot about you today aswell.. You know, what it would be like to be your friend, catch a movie, eat CHOCOLATE!!!!! And most of all, to hug you.. Why is it that I love you so much, and yet, I've never been capable of loving anyone? (well, not truly love). I fel like you won't judge me, ever.. It's like giving my heart to a stranger and trusting you enough to know you'll never break my heart.. If ya know what I'm saying..? Don't worry about Baby Britt, she's probally just hormonal or something lol She's not trying to hurt you in a crule way. She loves you so much, I can see it. She's happy that you're with her a lot and that you help her out! She really looks up to you, if you don't know that, then you need to get your eyes checked!!!!! Cause you know it's true :) Well, I've been thinking for a few days now (about you), and what do you reckon about letting a crazy stalker becoming your "pen-pal?" lol xxxxx Take care sweetie, I'm always here for you! |
| from cat-45 : |
| kip bring me my flippin chapstick! I need it real bad. Sorry, that just reminded me of Napoleon Dynamite. I hate to do this, but I'm gonna go to bed. I've got an early day tomorrow and its gona suck enough as it is without me staying up all night and geting yelled at again. So I'll talk to ya tomorrow. AND DONT LISTEN TO YOUR FRIEND! SHE'S A BAD INFLUENCE!! oh and I loooove the layout b/c its like our inside joke that everybody knows about.... lol. Goodnight! |
| from cat-45 : |
| ok dont pretend itts kristen then. yes it is very ironic. she actuallly does something RIGHT!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| ha ha.. Can you believe I might be working at the pig????? How insane is that? You know who I'll get to see? Yes you do. Thanks to Allison my life is gonna be almost perfect. until he goes to Columbia. to be a drug lord as my guitar teacher says. Whitney told him andrew was a druggie and he thinks that I also am a stoner. Don't listen to the little friend of yours. Think of her as being someone you never listen to and say something smart ass back to whenever she says something. Think of her being Kristen. ha ha! You have Kristen in your brain! ok seriously though, try it. maybe it'll work.... |
| from cat-45 : |
| otay. thanks bunches kiddo. hee hee. an again I'm proud of you! Woo! 2 days! YESSS! Danielle that is bad ass! gosh you learn stuff really quick...... |
| from cat-45 : |
| no how can I put the about and everything on the prettyful layout that you made? |
| from cat-45 : |
| do you know how to put the loves hates about the girl thing on the side of that layout? and how do I get the code? |
| from cat-45 : |
| you're using the layout I like! I wanna use your spider one!!!! wooooooo!!! But I just changed it. ah well! I want el spider! I loooove the emo guys. And I love when the emo guys kill ginormous radioactive spiders! woo! |
| from cat-45 : |
| omg! I fucking loooove the spider one!! and the Sonny one! and the Kurt one! Aw hell, I love them all! Danielle, you rock!!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| ok im going to bed, I'll ttyl! |
| from cat-45 : |
| ooooo I loooove the Johnny Knoxville one... |
| from cat-45 : |
| go lookie I fixed it!!! I'm getting the hang of this template thing!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| the cutesy little guys? Man that wasd sooooo long ago.... I don't remember.... =( |
| from cat-45 : |
| for a vewwy long time |
| from cat-45 : |
| aww man! I thought it was gonna be pretty! Its kinda oogly.... |
| from cat-45 : |
| ah yes. Now I'm trying to figure out how to make one my own. |
| from cat-45 : |
| I found a layout that says "When you're strange noone remembers your name" and has a pic of a gothic chick! Heres the linkage! http://velvetdesign.diaryland.com/t19.html You've probably seen it though....... |
| from cat-45 : |
| who said uber? |
| from cat-45 : |
| nver mind i got it |
| from cat-45 : |
| whas the link for the velvet designs? |
| from cat-45 : |
| ya know I dont know. |
| from cat-45 : |
| it reminds me of someone.... |
| from cat-45 : |
| I like this layout http://fsdesigns.diaryland.com/theone.html |
| from cat-45 : |
| no i thought it looked weird. |
| from cat-45 : |
| your uncle makes me wanna kick him in the face, laugh, and kick him in the face again. |
| from cat-45 : |
| gosh he is truly a moron, who would lie about not sleeping well? |
| from cat-45 : |
| I'm getting tired. I got like a 20 minute nap today while watching Emma. and then she started screaming at the top of her lungs. |
| from cat-45 : |
| yes I, too am alone in my awakeness. |
| from cat-45 : |
| ahhh yes SoCo. I shall bring that to you Saturday! I am sorry about the delay! I downloaded it onto my iPod and its in my CD player now. |
| from cat-45 : |
| I'm sorry. You cant see me till Saturday Dico. |
| from cat-45 : |
| oh otay. Yep Danielle. thats our song. |
| from cat-45 : |
| get stoned? that song always comes on while I'm talking to you! |
| from cat-45 : |
| who is defeating crackers? |
| from cat-45 : |
| oh crap! then yes. delete delete! |
| from cat-45 : |
| no i dont think she will. she can't b/c your on x-razor-x hun. Its blocked. |
| from cat-45 : |
| omg. I found the perfect layout for you!! http://fsdesigns.diaryland.com/him.html Its HIM and exploding dog! |
| from cat-45 : |
| It doesn't matter. I dont care who reads it as long its not my mom. |
| from cat-45 : |
| ooooooooooooo Kurt Cobain............. or Kurt Cocaine as caleb so affectionately refers to him as. |
| from cat-45 : |
| ha ha! baby britt! and baby danniepoo! I love that! I'm cold. Why do I always get cold at 11? thats almost as creepy as your right hand getting cold and your left not.... |
| from cat-45 : |
| woo! How do I lock my diary? |
| from cat-45 : |
| man I want chocolate too! Lets go get a hot fudge sunday at Sonic! woooo! man I made myself hungry. I is a dork. |
| from cat-45 : |
| the I'm Pretty reminds my of the corpse bride for some reason....... |
| from cat-45 : |
| Dico rapes my face? WHAAAAT?!?! aaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! Get him offfff!!!!!!!!!!!!! ha ha... wait "HARGY HARGY" I was reading a noite I found the other day that said that. |
| from cat-45 : |
| otay. I saw the one "is t so much to ask for you to paint me pretty?" and I liked that one. |
| from cat-45 : |
| theres one that saays we were better butterflies! You NEED no you WANT that one! |
| from cat-45 : |
| OK I never meant to say that. Dicamillo took over my brain. |
| from cat-45 : |
| check out this layout! http://fsdesigns.diaryland.com/greeneyes.html I have gween eyes! and sometimes they're filled with dispair, but its usually wonder b/c I am ammused very easily. |
| from cat-45 : |
| If only I knew. ha! voo doo would be coo! yes coo! not cool, coo! ha.... ys I would make people twirl and twirl until I was 100% satisfied and when I'm 100% satisfied I will make them twirl some more! ha. Dico rocks my sox. |
| from cat-45 : |
| Yes I feel bad. I dont wanna tell her its retarded.... maybe I just dont get it... maybe I should get her to explain it to me more... IDK sometimes I wonder if she smokes pot secretly. |
| from cat-45 : |
| no I havent watched that movie in years, but that part just sticks out in my mind....... Weird..... -_O winky! |
| from cat-45 : |
| oh yeah! fighters of foo! woo! I wanna be a fighter of foo! I wanna fight foo! ha ha. Mini stars!!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| b/c you loooooove him. you want to kiiiiiiiss him you want to huuuuuuuuuuuug him... and so on and so forth. ha ha! I'm kidding... -_O Like my winky face? I made it up all by myself!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| I was just kidding dont be insulted! Wanna hear something funny? Whitney tried to make up a band name. She wants us to be called "Mini stars" Its so retarded and I feel bad b/c I think that, but mini stars???!? she said itd be like many stars, only spelled mini. or something like that... I wanna be called the radioactive spiders in your honor. OOOOO that reminds me of the Foo Foghters! "In your honor I would die tonight!!!!" wooo!! Go Dave! |
| from cat-45 : |
| yes I remember... you licked Adam on the nose, I remember that one. J/k.......... -_O |
| from cat-45 : |
| ha ha! the website I was at said Aussies and I thought it said ASSIES!!! ha ha! |
| from cat-45 : |
| stop licking my ear!!! lol. I hear a bug. aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!! *twitch* *twitch* |
| from cat-45 : |
| OK calling him a monster tard is a little too mean. You know he does have speach problems.... poowr way way. And or course the poor little dear's name has to start with an r.... OK Now I'm feeling sorry for him??!?! WHAT THE FUCK?!?! I think I'm schitzophrenic. And I am serious. Dont worry about Jayna (thats kind of a weird name....) my grandma thinks I was sent from the depths of hell. She hates my skull shirts.... And now the baby has a skull toy that she got at Mickey D's today and i'm sure she'll think that I used my voo doo witch craft to make the people put a skull in her happy meal. I had to disconnect for a little while b/c my father has to use the phone. he's been talking for a while now, so I'll just keep typing and send it to you when ever he gets off. Which could be a while. Maybe not! He's hanging up! WOOOO! OK quit talking whoever's on the other line!! Uh oh. Now they're talking about Bill.... he' s an ass. He's probably the one who put ray up to telling on Caleb. He's always hated Caleb. Well ever since Caleb punched the shit out of him.... gosh stop talking!!!!!!!!!! I'm going through *twitch* withdrawal *twitch* sushi fish *twitch* eat *twitch* your *twitch* faaaaaaaaaaaaace *twitch* *die* X_X................ O_O ah! *twitch* |
| from cat-45 : |
| OK calling him a monster tard is a little too mean. You know he does have speach problems.... poowr way way. And or course the poor little dear's name has to start with an r.... OK Now I'm feeling sorry for him??!?! WHAT THE FUCK?!?! I think I'm schitzophrenic. And I am serious. Dont worry about Jayna (thats kind of a weird name....) my grandma thinks I was sent from the depths of hell. She hates my skull shirts.... And now the baby has a skull toy that she got at Mickey D's today and i'm sure she'll think that I used my voo doo witch craft to make the people put a skull in her happy meal. I had to disconnect for a little while b/c my father has to use the phone. he's been talking for a while now, so I'll just keep typing and send it to you when ever he gets off. Which could be a while. Maybe not! He's hanging up! WOOOO! OK quit talking whoever's on the other line!! Uh oh. Now they're talking about Bill.... he' s an ass. He's probably the one who put ray up to telling on Caleb. He's always hated Caleb. Well ever since Caleb punched the shit out of him.... gosh stop talking!!!!!!!!!! I'm going through *twitch* withdrawal *twitch* sushi fish *twitch* eat *twitch* your *twitch* faaaaaaaaaaaaace *twitch* *die* X_X................ O_O ah! *twitch* |
| from cat-45 : |
| Yes I should have killed him long ago when he brokeded my toy twuck in Kindeeegarden. hee hee. baby voice. I shall attack him with my fake sword as vengeance for breaking my toy! mwa ha ha ha *Dicamillo laugh* ha ha! *House of 1000 Corpses laugh* ha! I looooooove pirates. They are so barbaric! Arg Peter? Have you bean watching Peater Pahn? *British Voice* ha! I wanna watch that now! I think I shall! Wow. Its amazing how quickly I can get over being pissed off isn't it? |
| from cat-45 : |
| Old midget got pretty pissed. OK she thinks God is gonna fix her? Is she like a holy roller or something? So you will dress up like a pirate?!?!?! ARGGGGHHHH MATEY! Ye be bout to walk tha playnk! argh! ha ha! Shiver me timbers and all that what not. Are there any more good layout sites? The one you sent me was awesome! I only wish the Doors one worked *cries* grrrrrr.... You know how I've been working my ass of trying to keep the family from knowing about Caleb's little problems? Well they all know now, thanks to little Ray Ray. Or should I say BIG MOUTH Ray? He told my uncle that the reason Caleb's working where he is is because he can't pass a drug test anywhere else. Man it made me so mad! I've kept my mouth shut for ages and he goes and blows it just b/c he was bored one day at work and nothing else to talk about. Man I'm pissed now. I'm gonna call him and yell at him. RAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! lol. |
| from cat-45 : |
| You'rennot gonna get on my nerves! I like hearing people rant. Unless... never mind. she might read this... Anywho, Would Viva la Bam be enough return for getting bit by a radioactive spider? b/c I doubt she'll buy you a cd. Maybe we can burn you Nirvana and break the computer again!!! ha ha ha! I wanna go to Buzzfest so freaking bad now!!! aaaah! Man.. Saturday we gotta dress up like pirates! Are you in????? YOu can borrow my bandana! wooo! not bananana banDana. OK? ok. I'm getting a sword!! Afake one, but still quite effective when Zachary gets on my nerves. ha haha! |
| from cat-45 : |
| oooooooooooo BUZZFEST! Breaking Benjamin! 3 DAYS GRACE! ooooooooooooo.... Falling for Yesterday is cool! |
| from cat-45 : |
| I like your layouts!!! I like the number 3 one!!! and the HIM one!! and the ZIM one! and I dont really watch Zim much any more! |
| from cat-45 : |
| rawrrrrrr!!!!! ZIM IS GOING TO EAT YOU!!! RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| BAM! I'M BAM! WOOOOOO! And yours shall be Don Dico! ha ha.... No you wont sleep in the closet! You'll sleep on the bed and I'll sleep in the floor. As usual! Dur dee dur! |
| from cat-45 : |
| Oh please don't kick my butt! aaaaahh! ASSIE! ha. I'm just kidding. I watched that last night. I think that this weekend we should have a VIVA LA BAM MARATHON! woo! And I'm very proud of you. I know you can beat this. Do I sound like a broken record? I'm sorry. But I know you can. Danyelipoo you have strength, and lots of it to go through everything you've been through. I know you can use just a little bit to beat it! Gimme a D Gimme an A Gimme a N N I E L L E -E- P O O! WHATS THAT SPELL?!?!? DANIELLE-E-POO!! WOOOO HOOO! OK no more. The voice in my head sounded like Baby from House of 1000 Corpses when she was torturing that cheerleader... I haven't done that laugh in ages. I think I'll do it Saturday and freak Andy- roo out! mwa ha ha ha ha! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| *emotionless expression* I don't know what to say... This is stupid, but I'm going to need at least 24 hours to top that entry! And I will lol. Thank you so much for that. I wish I could just flippin' hug you! Yes, indeed, I was begining to wonder what baby Britt thought of how much you're hurting. And as I expected, she is strong enough to kind of 'detatch' from it in away that she won't follow. For her sake. GAWWWD!!! She's so darn cute lol! I can't believe how you two beautiful girls have changed me so much. You both need to be put in the world rcord books!!!! "The kindest people: Baby Britt and Baby Danniepoo!!!!" :D Thank you for the support my dear. Well, I'm off to work on my entry now! Love Stalker xxx |
| from cat-45 : |
| Hey! If Uncle Jim kicks you out I promise I shall kidnap you! mwa ha ha! You know what's funny? When you put "this is for you Georgia" thought you were referring to me. lol. I think you can both beat this. I believe in both of you!!!! Wooooo! I'm gonna be y'all's cheerleader. No no wait, If I was a cheerleager you would murder me.... and I dont wanna be murdered until after Saturday ok? ok. I'll be your good-emotion booster. woo! OK. write back Danyellipoo!!! |
| from cat-45 : |
| I guess you couldn't could you?..... Ah well me and razornotes00 will give ya a fantabulous surgery.... We'll hafta try and find some morphine b/c that would be very painful.... *evil dicamillo laugh* ha. I had to watch Dora the Explorer today and there was a squirrell named Dico.... I was laughing my ass off! And lil Emma was looking at me like "Who the hell is this crazy girl?!??! Get me outta here!!!" It was quite funny. Otay bye. Catherixie PS: I looooooooove the heartagram Danyellipoo! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| I am sorry that I didn't reply to your notes. I don't know what to say. It's so hard for you and I'm sorry it's that way. You will get through this and that vile creature inside your head WILL go away. We'll meet somewhere and cat-45 and I will opperate on your beautiful head! :D Just skip the fine print ok? hehe! Ok, so here are some places you can go to for help. And do, please visit some of them.. Even if you decide that you don't want them (which you won't do unless you want me to opperate without pain relief!! :P), just take a look, because there's no harm in that. This will be just the first step ok babe, then we can get you some personal help.. By the way, I don't think your letter is mean at all :) Just send it. It's how you feel and it will help you two to sort things out, if that's what you want. Ok: Helpline charity for eating disorders- '01458448600'.. 'www.maryhart.co.uk' Or Emial her at '[email protected]' 'www.eduk.com' or email at'[email protected]' 'www.first-steps.org' or email at '[email protected]' 'www.anorexiabulimiacare.co.uk' 'http://edr.org.uk' Ok, so that's SOME stuff for you. I have visited them all to make sure they're the right thing you're loking for. If you don't have an email thingo, just tell me to write to someone for you with my email address ok?! OH and if you want to keep it anonumous, then I can give you my emial thingo and password. I love you. X O X O Stalker |
| from cat-45 : |
| otay, you can beat that stupid "friend" of yours to death! We all love you and nobody wants you to die. Maybe I can be Dr. Satan and remove that little person from your brain.... mwa ha ha! Dr Satan!!! That place was totally boss! ha. Jerry was my favorite. OKy doky. Bye bye danyellipoo! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Thank you for clearing that up for me! :) It was a lot deeper than I expected it to be, but in a good way :). Your night-mares must really scare you :( I"m sorry that you have them too. I've been praying (since I found your diary) that they will go away from you, and for all your pain to go away too. I can't belive what your mum did :( You're coping extreamly well for all that you have to go through, I'm proud of you! I know what you mean about friends feeling obliged to say nice things to you, when really, they mostly end up patronizing haha! But I mean what I say, and I won't do that to you, I only patronize people that I don't like (but I like you!) I would tell ya if I was lying anyway :P I think I'm going to cry cause your going to cry!! If that makes scence? I hope you have a great day. Love always, Stalker! xxoo |
| from razornotes00 : |
| HA! Well my dear, don't get too excited about having a stalker, because I'm a good one! ;) My ex can vouch for that too! I'm in the process of seriously stalking him at the moment, to try and get hm back lol! (shhh! Don't tell!) It's actually quite fun though, and I get a good thrill out of it hehe! Anyway, THANK YOU for leaving me that note!!!! I get really excited when I get them! :D I love your diary! I love you too! (hahahaha! are you scared yet?) DUDE! You're probally FREAKING out now, sorry, I'm kinda on a high at the moment *head spins!* You're going to get better honey, you will! I'm sure of it! ok? Take care darl, and keep fighting those eveil thoughts! XXX Your very own stalker! |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Wow.. I don't know where to begin. You probaly will think I have NO idea about how you feel, but the truth is, I honestly do. So much of what you are going through has happened to me in the past. It's so saddening that I have to see other people suffering in silence, the way, you, I and may others do. Self harming issues have become my habbit now, my addiction. But I understand now why I do/did those things. Enough about me now!!! I see so many people with blood stained wrists, rope burns, carvings, slashes, slits etc, You name it! And each and every time, my heart goes out to them.. When I see there cuts, I see everyones cuts.. It probally won't make sence to you now, maybe later.. It hurts that I can't do anything that will truly have any effect on them. I've always wanted to make everyone happy and carefree. It takes so long to stop hurting/harming, and it's so hard to do! But when times get tough, remember how much you wanted to stop before, 'cause that one resistance is a massive step forward! You said God doesn't exist, and if he did, he doesn't care about you, well God is real! And he does care about you, he loves you so much, even though you probaly don't know it, he does! You don't need to be a full on worshiper :P but when your finding things hard, just ask him to help you get better and to take away your erge to hurt yourself. You need to ask God for forgivenss too. If you're truly sorry for hurting yourself, then he will forgive you and help you! Trust me!! U say you're having nightmares :( What are they about? Another thing (it's weird, but hopefully you'll think about it), who taught you self harm? Where did you learn it? That may help you/me undersatnd why you want to hurt yourself.. The blood is very pretty (as you say) but it does become less sweet to see, and the stitches become less cool, too. The voices you hear, baby, I hear them too! But do not give into them! It'll only drag you down deeper! Hopefully we'll talk soon :) 'cause I'd like to hear from you! My life is sooo NOT better without YOU! I care about you! Take care! Love Georgia! xxxoooo |
| from xxsorrowxx : |
| I hate arguing with you about this stuff, but I have to anyways.Don't think you don't deserve me.I know you think you're some screwed up freak who doesn't deserve love or happiness or anything good in the world.I feel that way too sometimes.You do deserve that stuff.Please don't do anything to yourself because if you do then it means you're giving up andletting all the jackasses who've ever called you anything bad or done anuything to you win.I love you. |
| from razornotes00 : |
| Hey there! I'm not bored, but I would love to read your words and inner-most thoughts of your locked diary :) I'm positive it's amazing! May I please have the password? xxxx Georgia |
| from xxsorrowxx : |
| I'm sorry I made you cry.I don't want to lose you though.I love you so much.I know you're trying.I love you. |
| from xxsorrowxx : |
| I'm not upset.Ok maybe a little...I love you.Cat's right, ya know?You are amazing.You're perfect.That's why I love you.I couldn't ask for someone better then you.There isn't anyone.I love you so much. |
| from sekritsquirl : |
| do u text message? |
| from sekritsquirl : |
| my hair comes out a lot to! it kinda sucks but whatever... i know what you meen about wasting peoples money on food. my bf will buy us dinner at expensive places and then i barf it out and alls i can say is, there goes fifty bucks...but i feel better ........................................................... |
| from xxsorrowxx : |
| You do belong somewhere.You belong with me.I love you so much, Danielle. |
| from sekritsquirl : |
| i feel so fucking special but i cant get in damit fuck fuck fuck i have to drive away now and go pick someone up then come home and then maybe leave again and i feel so clean after 2 showers and a bath AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH |
| from sekritsquirl : |
| what what what...r u still the other one, this one, which one are you and i cant see the bad stuff only the what the hell stuff let me in let me in i hope this is you and not some, some random person if it is holy fuck im not sorry |
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