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| from loveherwell : |
| so much of that entry hits home right now. but seriously -- congrats on the driving AND the guests! every step gets us there. |
| from zoela : |
| Thank you for still being here. <3 |
| from hitch-hike : |
| Greetings!! |
| from theshivers : |
| I'm glad you're still here. |
| from raven72d : |
| I'm glad you're still hear after so many years. |
| from hitch-hike : |
| I’m also trying to embrace the tumbling like the spider! |
| from erases : |
| -_0 |
| from hitch-hike : |
| Thank you… let’s live to tell many things!! |
| from browndamask : |
| Congrats & best of luck! |
| from babyhead : |
| I reacted the same way after finishing the first season of Flowers with Olivia Coleman. It was so complete that I forewent the second season, not wanting to ruin what I had just experienced. |
| from browndamask : |
| "I can exist in the middle" - I feel like my entire adulthood has been forgetting and then remembering this. |
| from loveherwell : |
| the middle is where it's at. |
| from orangepeeler : |
| Ah, I hope you enjoyed writing your fairy tale. |
| from theways : |
| i mean, life just really is better with snacks |
| from loveherwell : |
| this sounds like such a perfect little break -- just reading and gaming in someone else's house! |
| from browndamask : |
| The idea of the mid 90s being historical fiction - Yikes. |
| from lust- : |
| Congrats on finishing the short story! I'd love to read it if you're willing to share. :) Also, a love party sounds super cute. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Lol, but do I get to pick the actor who will portray me? :) Off the top of my head ill say Joe manganiello. |
| from hitch-hike : |
| Congrats on your very blessed day! |
| from zoela : |
| haha!! |
| from loveherwell : |
| i feel that. |
| from raven72d : |
| December-- glad you're still posting. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Happy Thanksgiving! I hope all is well! |
| from linguafranca : |
| Oh my, I know this struggle. See my unfolding recent arc of “what do I do with this stupid jewelry business and why?”. |
| from zoela : |
| i love that you chose purple. my walls are purple too!! :) |
| from zoela : |
| thank you. hope you're doing well too. <3 |
| from hitch-hike : |
| Congrats on the casa and getting engaged! May the transitions (and recovery) be smooth and joyful!! |
| from chakra-nadi : |
| wow! lots of changes for you. I hope you will settle into your new suburban base and have many many happy years there. congrats on the engagement and I hope your guy will be feeling better soon! |
| from lust- : |
| Congrats on the house in the 'burbs, which sounds lovely & on the engagement! I hope you will take time and put energy into celebrating both of these accomplishments.xo |
| from loveherwell : |
| congrats congrats!! i hope covid isn't hitting him too hard. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Congrats on the house and the wedding! 🥳🥳🥳🎁🎁. How is Dan doing with the Covid? |
| from chakra-nadi : |
| that's cool. good luck finding a good mower. We use electric, and it's got pros and cons for sure. Maybe just don't get Worx brand, their quality has really declined the last few years. hope you will enjoy having a yard and garden, it's one of the best parts of being in a house (aside from mowing the grass). |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Morning, loving vibes to start the day!❤️❤️ that's a good thing!:) now if the rest of the day follows we will be in luck! :) |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Awwwww❤️❤️❤️i wake up and the first thing I see is your note!❤️ love you too! |
| from zoela : |
| you know i love a sunny jungly room! but a SUNROOM even!!! you'll be so happy there and i am so happy for you! <3 |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Most days my normal routine is to scream followed by lots of tears. I feel dumb saying “I want their pain to be equal to or greater than mine” but that's the truth. Thanks for the note :) |
| from catsoul : |
| 4.9.2022. Oh my gosh, I am mentioned in someone's writing, thank you. Eternal raking is getting out of your body space and into your Zen space. It all becomes one. Now taking care of the Woods, taking care of the birds, animals, and small critters of the Woods is just being there, only cleaning up the fallen trees. I think about Mother Nature and I do what I feel would be alright by her. I feel the most free and one in the Woods, maybe that is a way for you to start being at peace within yourself. I just do what I can, when I can to help Mother Nature. So again thank you for the mention in your writing today. Peace within yourself. =^..^= |
| from zoela : |
| I had those thoughts too. I thought 'oh no, maybe we should have exchanged emails or something so we can be neighbors at some other journal site. Maybe the site owner died' etc. But then I was told a cool trick: Next time just type "thisisunsafe" (no quotes) to bypass the error page. Also that post awhile back about the trumpets outside made me laugh out loud (in solidarity.) Too relatable! |
| from erases : |
| fuggin’ a, right? |
| from raven72d : |
| Always check the pockets. |
| from zoela : |
| "There is no wrong way to do this, except to not do it." I LOVE that. |
| from raven72d : |
| I hope you'll write about the cards you draw. |
| from raven72d : |
| I have really liked the last couple of entries. |
| from zoela : |
| thank you for that. i enjoy your writing style so much. if you publish anything, i'll buy it, and i'll tell everyone i know to buy it, and then you can buy a REAL boat, then maybe the sensation of two boat movements will cancel each other out. :) or if not, throw your doctor in the boat and push 'em out to sea. |
| from loveherwell : |
| thank you so much!! :) :) |
| from chakra-nadi : |
| Thanks for the note. I am sorry you have "mystery symptoms" too, but it's comforting to not feel alone. You know, my brother had mystery symptoms for over ten years and no one could "find" anything wrong with him. Some doctors basically said he was just nuts. But he kept trying to get someone to care. Then they came up with the Fibromyalgia diagnosis and now they treat him for that. So, I keep that in mind. No one wants to be the first one with some new disease, but our environment keeps getting worse, keeps changing, new things are bound to happen to people too. Most modern doctors just don't have morals and are very lazy, IMO. Hang in there. |
| from blueisnotred : |
| LOL! We must find the humour in these things eh |
| from loveherwell : |
| i feel such kinship with that last entry |
| from zoela : |
| that is funny. i found the entry you were talking about. i hope you deleted it and freed up space lol. --P.S. a curse on your enemies! *witch cackle* |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Hope your knee feels better! Was the slippery sock dance like the one in “Risky Business? Or something else. :) |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Thanks for the note! :) I never developed the proper coping skills so I'm.a bit of a mess. Trying had to figure out how to control the self-destructive Impulses that rule my brain. Xo |
| from babyhead : |
| Nice to know that I drew your eye. Many thanks, your long time fan. |
| from zoela : |
| i have love for you. thank you for that much needed well-timed note. that nudge helped me through a real bad moment. very appreciated. i like that you have singing bowls! i've always wondered about those. are they helpful? |
| from lust- : |
| Sending you lots of love & good vibes.<3 |
| from catsoul : |
| 11.16.2021. It is tough, oh so tough, to be at peace within yourself. Seems like there are moments of insanity, and that is alright, just breathe through it. So very hard to calm those thoughts. A person does need to hear those thoughts, to process through them. You do you, and continue to be your true self. Breathe, center yourself, and continue to work at being at peace within yourself. =^..^= |
| from hitch-hike : |
| 11/12/21: I see, grief is something life grows around. That makes very perfect sense! XO |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| I was thinking about you the other day and I was going to write you when I saw you pop up here. I'm so sorry for your loss I know that I should have written sooner,,, if you ever need to vent,,, I'm around,,,anytime,, xo |
| from chakra-nadi : |
| I'm so sorry for your loss. |
| from zoela : |
| thanks for saying that about my rants and making it feel like a safe space for me to vent. <3 i'm hard on myself about it sometimes. i like tumblr. i like how it lets me hide anything triggering in my feed with keywords/tags. a useful feature these days. |
| from chakra-nadi : |
| yeah we have ordered Djarums direct from some guy in Indonesia for about 20 years off or on. They aren't exactly illegal, but you have to do weird payment options. Never had a problem not getting them, though. They got stolen in customs in CA once, he sent replacements. I can give you the website if you want, but if you're trying to quit smoking, that's probably a bad idea. If you want to quit, I wish you luck! |
| from loveherwell : |
| it's truly so lovely to watch. and roy. oh, boy. haha. |
| from zoela : |
| It was around 2017-2018 when Tumblr emailed users a list of all the fake Russian accounts we followed, after they were caught trying to interfere with our election. Turned out I'd followed a lot of them. That's when I stopped trusting infographics on social media. |
| from chakra-nadi : |
| the lady at the clinic really bothered me. they've always taken NO as a good enough answer, or they just throw the lead dress on me. |
| from chakra-nadi : |
| exactly! |
| from erases : |
| Hey, y’all grass ‘round here? |
| from che : |
| good morning |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Yeah, sometimes it's like what do I say that can match the feelings I'm having. Hit me up with an email and fill me in on how u been doing! :) It's good to hear from you! |
| from raven72d : |
| 22 April 21: how are you doing? |
| from hitch-hike : |
| 2021-04-17: I wondered how you were doing with all that was going on in your area, especially with last summer and the trial. I cannot watch it because it is like Rodney King in 1991. I wish I could say something encouraging or supportive, except that I want to stand by you (virtually) while you stare down your past scrapes with LE, and that you find the safety and security that should be a given for all. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| We all avoid this place from time to time lol. It's like that with me right now as well. For me, it's either I'm in the zone churning out entries or I'm not and I just let stuff eat me up. There is no middle ground for me and that's a shame because someone out there in cyberspace may have something insightful to say. They could also just as easily crush our feeling like a nutcracker, lol. Hey, I hope you stick around, and if you ever get too lost ill email u and see what you're doing. Peace |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Hope your backs feeling better and go for the luxury, you only live once. Anxiety in doctors and almost bolting,,,, Jimbo does the same thing lol. |
| from zoela : |
| wow at your knife-in-the-shoulder dream. i hope your back feels better soon. i had a stiff neck for a mere week and i couldn't even handle that. i agree, this stuff tends to be at least partly stress related. isn't it funny how we treat mind & body like separate things but they're literally one physically interrelated unit? either way, be gentle with yourself. sending magic woo woo healing vibes through the interwebs and into wherever it hurts. do you feel it? :) |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| I would love to see red but I would be dead so not much seeing or knowing going on then. Lol |
| from erases : |
| I knew you were an outlaw. |
| from lust- : |
| On coffee: I was a barista for many years, so I know what I like. I invested in a gooseneck kettle, a three cup Chemex, a grinder and some sub-par beans (from the grocery store 'cause I was too lazy to go to the local roaster), and reusable Chemex filters, which are better for the environment, since the city I live in doesn't have the resources for compost. Anyway! If I wanted to truly get into it, I would get a mini weighing scale and I would have got one of those grinders with the settings, but ya girl is not that invested. Hah. I'm just playing around and hoping for the best. Thanks for the link! I got through half of it and decided I know what's up. Also, thanks for sharing Shaina Shepherd. She is a delight! Hope the yoga helps with your back issues. I pulled something in my lower back a few years ago at the gym and it hasn't been the same since. It was already a little aggravated from years in the Hospitality industry. Age does nothing for us, I swear! |
| from portlypete : |
| From the UK, I am happy for your country and relieved for The World. |
| from hitch-hike : |
| I'll cry with you about having actual adults and others who know what they're doing in terms of our public health and governance!!! **Provides a fresh Kleenex** At least these are tears of relief, if not joy! |
| from erases : |
| Never changed your password, but it’s not like I’d know how to update it now anyway, considering any link I click on here takes one through a loop of insanity. Carry on. |
| from secret-motel : |
| You have magic and diaryland is an effective tool. |
| from zoela : |
| so much of what you write and the way you think is so deeply relatable. also we are very close in age. also, i second the note below mine: fuck capitalism. |
| from lust- : |
| Ugh, yes, fuck capitalism. Would be nice if there was another way to get your words out there and get paid for them, instead of turning to Amaz*n. Hmm. Have you ever thought of doing freelance editing work? Could bring in some sort of cash flow. I hear ya about not wanting to go back to customer service. It's soul sucking. Hope you're able to get outside and get some fresh air today.xo |
| from bridgecity : |
| I had the same idea about writing genre fiction for money. It's a good idea! It can definitely be done. Best of luck to you! |
| from frankie123 : |
| ty! |
| from raven72d : |
| Best for the Year Twenty-One. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Hey, hope you guys have a wonderful Christmas! |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Ohhhhhh mannnnn,, A nice Xmas themed D&D game would be awesome right now! :) |
| from zoela : |
| If the "woman in a velvet robe sitting on a velvet couch in a badly lit room" happens to be the one mildly inspired by me, I actually have a velvet robe and a velvety-fabric draped couch in an intentionally dim room with several *improvised* lamps. (Are you the one watching in my window in my dream? LOL.) <3 |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Congrats on Nanowrimo! I Hope Dan keeps them headphones on so you can keep writing. Ugh, I am so sorry to read about his mom being sick. Hopefully, they get their act together and start treatment. Tuesday will be Soccara’s last treatment this year which will give her a small but welcomed break for the holidays. |
| from secret-motel : |
| I did the nanowrimo thing a lonnng time ago. Like early 2000's? I finished with this 165-page fustercluck about crime and sexual violence in the 1950's. The organizers lived here in SF and threw a party inviting everyone who had finished and/or participated. I went to the party and got the hell out in under five minutes. The people there all seemed nice enough, but I was never a party person. Over the next year or two, I managed to carve my 165-page abortion down to a 50 or 60 page abortion. I think I still have it tucked away in a box somewhere. I need to get rid of that thing before I exit this planet. |
| from hitch-hike : |
| Congrats on finishing Nanowrimo!! I tried it one year, and I was surprised how the momentum carried into other types of writing and expression, so GO YOU!! And, I'm glad the writing about healing wounds really registered! xoxo |
| from loveherwell : |
| congrats on nanowrimo!! |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Heyyyyyy!!!! Happy Holidays!!! Do you like egg nog? Well if not just imagine I passed you a high-proof holiday drink and gave you a big hug back. ( we are out of ice sorry) I erased some entries about Soccara’’s pain meds being taken and a family member slitting her wrist. ( unrelated events) For the most part, I've been missing from here. The update that I haven't shared with anyone was I rushed Soccara to the hospital the day after Thanksgiving. They did emergency surgery because of the pain caused by an infection and a blockage. It was all directly related to where the cancer is located. Well, needless to say, I was a mess, I’m glad she’s back home. I'm glad to see you back around and sorry I haven't been in touch. Life sometimes has a way of getting in the way. |
| from hitch-hike : |
| Yes, Ma'am, it sounds like we had the same game plan for Election Night, even down to some of the music we used for ambiance!! I'm keeping my fingers crossed!! It's not going to be easy, but at least I have confidence that one side can managed the sh*tshow better than the other (and I think we agree on which side). |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Awesome! :) |
| from zoela : |
| i usually listen to silence unless i fall asleep to a guided meditation. if you use spotify there's a button to keep a playlist playing on repeat. i have a playlist of only long melodic continuous hums like what you'd hear in a planetarium because i noticed when i'm overstimulated i like sound that doesn't start or stop. even piano can be too jarring after a noisy day. i've seen 8+ hr long white noise type things on spotify too. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Halloween party and I wasn't invited ugh :( I would have brought the beers!!! Lol. Apple juice is high in nitrates that could have caused your headache. |
| from zoela : |
| there's also disposable silicone earplugs if you don't mind feeling like you're underwater. thank you for the hug. i didn't let go yet, we're still embracing, just so you know. i hope you vote(d)! i didn't yet either but i will, and i feel exactly the same about the impending election, and 2016, the year my whole city just leapt out of our houses in universal anxiety to march immediately. also: midsommar <333 |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| We used to have more close moments when she was younger but everything is so stressed nowadays. She has her own life and it's so very hard to reach out but I'm glad I did too. Thanks for the note! :) |
| from loveherwell : |
| i relate so hard to the politics entry you just posted. i was a complete and utter mess on election night 2016, my bf at the time was so high he literally could not have a conversation about it with me, and i was so neurotic and anxious for the next six-ten months after that i literally had to force myself to stop reading the news for a while. i am pleased to say it doesn't feel as dire as it did then, and yet... it still does. |
| from zoela : |
| LOL. i agree, it is not ideal. I alternate between fancy noise canceling apple earbuds AND noise canceling headphones, and often both simultaneously because i live in the very noisiest urban place. i prefer sleeping on my side or stomach so it's not comfortable but, i attempt to bunch up my pillow and cradle my head in my hand... it's ridiculous but. it kind of works. some nights i manage without either but i always keep them next to my pillow if i wake up. |
| from secret-motel : |
| Oh! I have yet to re-visit that book. It's been 21 years, so the whole thing is a vague fog. But that part is now starting to form in my memory. |
| from secret-motel : |
| "but what about kevin's dead cat" I'm a dum-dum. I don't know what you are referencing. Best I can come up with is that it's some sort of Eyes Wide Shut passphrase. Like I approach the gate of a secluded mansion. An armed guard confronts me, tells me to leave immediately. And I say, "But what about Kevin's dead cat?" The guard nods, opens the gate. I enter the mansion and discover an enchanted evening of costumed whores blowing senators and CEO's. Fuckin-A, sounds like a Friday night. |
| from lust- : |
| I dig Japandroids, too! Saw 'em at Laneway Fest in Singapore about 8 years ago and was super stoked 'cause they're fellow Canadians. |
| from zoela : |
| the gratitude lists REALLY do help overall, even if you skip days. be nice to yourself on the skip days! maybe it's even healthy to skip it sometimes to fully acknowledge whatever we're feeling, so that the gratitude list doesn't become like, a form of suppressing valid emotions. thank you for your note. it makes me feel not as alone in my ramblings, and it was exactly what i needed to hear today. |
| from chakra-nadi : |
| I get really manic during ovulation, and it's just getting worse the older I get. It's exhausting. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Why couldn't you sleep? |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Awwwww flowers for me? Cool, will they be the kind I can smoke or just decorative? :) |
| from chakra-nadi : |
| I don't have TV, so I have to go out of my way to hear news, but last time the cities blew up it was all over the internet. Not this time. My heart goes out to you living there. I left a big part of myself back in MN. I hope things will progress more peacefully. Take care and be safe. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Hahaha, I had a lady call me back like that at work. She was like ”why did you call me a few hours ago?” I said, ”that it wasn't me and I don't know who called her.” She was so annoyed about it that we ended up. arguing for a few seconds. Thanks for the note xo |
| from frankie123 : |
| oh pls don't feel pressured to reply! it's no biggie. my hands are ok i just feel a bit mortified that i really did that lol |
| from chakra-nadi : |
| thank you. That's what everyone is telling me. That I have to take care of myself. I'm not so good at that. I sure do miss Minnesota. I'm glad I came here just to get perspective outside the Rochester bubble. I hope things up in the cities are returning to normal somewhat, I haven't heard any news lately. |
| from loveherwell : |
| that was lovely, and 100% right back atcha (i feel like i'm in a 90s comedy when i say that) |
| from deadish : |
| hullo! thanks for the note, yay. hahaha, my site is based around a single line of CSS that my good friend alexis stephens wrote in 1999. i have carried that one line of code with me through all manner of layouts and websites. it still works, so why waste it?? and i am from the crop of teenaged girls who called themselves "HTML goddesses" back in the day, so i cling desperately to my old codes that i still know. i still haven't learned any new code in ages. thanks for visiting meeeeee. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| How is your back feeling? |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| I'm trying to get back to posting more frequently but, it's hard when I'm in a funk. Thanks for the note :) |
| from lust- : |
| Wow, thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it so much. I think it's the pure essence of pleasure that comes from being mindful that fills me with joy. |
| from loveherwell : |
| oh, that's so lovely about "raise high the roof beams, carpenters." that made me so happy to read! and i often feel that no matter what state my body is in, it is not in the "right" state -- whether that be the "right" kind of fat or the "right" weight or what have you. what a strange place to be in... i agree with your summary: bodies ARE weird and the way we think about them is even weirder. sigh. |
| from frankie123 : |
| it seems to oscillate in phases for me whether the emails go to my inbox or to my spam, which kinda does suck, cuz something about getting email popups from Diaryland Notes is so endearing and sweet. IRT smokes: it is fucking hard to quit! i consider myself now a "non-smoker" but i still think about it more-or-less daily. treating that craving like a mosquito in my head, mentally swatting at it, sounds silly and childish but seems to work quite well for me once the physical cravings stop. |
| from frankie123 : |
| oh i'd never heard of that one! i just set it up and scrolled thru it and -- lol -- it just keeps telling me how at risk for overconfidence i am! niccccee |
| from loveherwell : |
| yes, it was a rather devastating response. i still add random diaries to my buddylist all the time. even though we're in such a tiny corner of the internet, there are so many updated diaries i've never read before... |
| from lust- : |
| I used to smoke, too. Don't do what I did when I quit and substitute it with sex. Hah. Good luck! Hope you're able to stick to the not smoking. I believe in you! |
| from frankie123 : |
| i believe in you! |
| from catsoul : |
| 8.2.2020. Hi. Quitting anything is so, so hard. I smoke. The longest I quit was for two years. Don't get down on yourself, that is also easier said than done. For myself, I am my own worst critic. Do what you need to do, and do it for yourself. A little at a time. I hear you. Take Care. Be Safe. Peace. =^..^= |
| from hitch-hike : |
| A releasing visualization isn't too different than cutting cords, except you don't cut off people, only the energy that you no longer want. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| I will be sending you an email later on xoxo |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| That was so beautiful,,, thank you xoxo If you could see my face it has tears coming down,,,your words are much appreciated. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| You're too nice. I'm going to make a note of your email and erase it off notes when I have a minute. I'm kind of embarrassed to write falling apart like that but it was too much I couldn't hold it in. Thanks for the note and I will be in touch. |
| from frankie123 : |
| today: george michael bluth |
| from frankie123 : |
| eeeee it feels so weird to be sort of mentioned in someone else's diary! |
| from loveherwell : |
| a long time ago, either in high school or college, i found and read a diary on here that i became lowkey obsessed with. i loved the way he wrote and the way he looked at the world. then, there was suddenly a new entry after a long time of no entries. it was his girlfriend, saying that they’d discovered he had a brain tumor, and he died. and that i think started that same fear in me — what if something happens to someone i care about and no one ever tells me? for a year after breaking up with my boyfriend, i checked his fb nearly every day because i was terrified he would die and no one would tell me. anyway, this is a long drawn-out explanation to say i understand that anxiety. and i’m sorry about your friends. and your city. i wish i had something better to say, but here we are. |
| from lust- : |
| Thank you.xo Also, just realized now that I didn't add you back as a 'buddy.' Will get on that! |
| from hitch-hike : |
| (June 5, 2020) Thank you, in solidarity! |
| from loveherwell : |
| yes...something like it. :/ also, your last entry (5/28) is truly evergreen. |
| from tsulnagrom : |
| thanks so much for remembering and for thinking of me. i'm safe! things are absolutely crazy in minneapolis but solidarity has been REAL and we're so grateful. <3 thank you. |
| from chakra-nadi : |
| yeah I saw some footage on youtube. crazy fires! the cities have been volatile for some time now. we all need to prepare for some big changes, I think. |
| from frankie123 : |
| from the protests for floyd? are you ok? |
| from hitch-hike : |
| I've been avoiding the news but I heard what happened in MN... I hope you are safe, at the least! It would throw anyone off they had had half a conscience! |
| from orgami : |
| hi just letting you know steven passed away in june 2017 |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| I'm for anything that works. Sign me up! ::) this is heartbreaking and don't wish it on anyone. Take care and stay safe. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| Let's hear more about your game :) |
| from zoela : |
| my thoughts after catching up on your entries: "i like diaryland people." |
| from chakra-nadi : |
| yeah, I'm stuck in Minnesota for the time being. Rochester, to be exact. Have been since 1998. |
| from loveherwell : |
| your entries don’t have to be exciting (i struggle with that too). life isn’t always exciting and these spaces can reflect that. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| :) You are too sweet! Tomorrow I’m walking into the owners office and demanding a cape and that ”Believe It Or Not” by Joey Scarbury be my official song! |
| from raven72d : |
| Lynch has always had such a great aesthetic vision, and I like the bits of music I've heard that he composed. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| The thought that there might be an infinite amount of timelines with me unhappy in all of them makes me smile.🤣 |
| from raven72d : |
| I know the feeling. |
| from loveherwell : |
| i think that's actually a decent place to be -- not easy, but good. i am hoping your 2020 is amazing! |
| from sky-rocket : |
| hi baby! |
| from loveherwell : |
| i am glad it's been helpful. it's just so interesting that there are some days that feel SO good, and some days that feel SO bad, and i never know which kind of day i'm going to have with it. and it fluctuates even with the same people - like tonight i spoke a lot of french with my friends who often speak english to me and i felt good about it, but tomorrow? who knows. (i have realized i do best when there's only 1-2 other people there, too many is overwhelming to me, so at least there's that.) it is honestly very scary, but very worth it -- and the best part is that *most* of the time, people are just happy you're trying, and they're willing to accommodate you because you're learning. regardless: i've really liked your last two entries, i love the #waronwinter, and the thing about weight loss is something i relate to. often, even if i'm doing it on purpose, i discourage anyone from bringing it up -- if they say something, i just reply flatly, "okay." and then change the subject. can you believe it's almost 2020? where even are we? i'm wishing you well. |
| from boyecho : |
| the most intense magic i've ever performed brought me here. |
| from hitch-hike : |
| Thanks for the add! I'll be sure to stop by soon :) |
| from raven72d : |
| Autumn is strange here--- too warm, then too rainy, then odd random cold days. Fever weather, I call it. |
| from boyecho : |
| the second e was a bit different, however; last night a whole new eric came into existence with the strangest of stories told face to face in a whisper. |
| from raven72d : |
| How is autumn going? |
| from frankie123 : |
| hi i don't think i've ever left you a note before, but i like your diary! i use a tracker app called "day by day" on my phone and it's super simple, you get a notification once a day to open it up and then you just click on the things you've done/felt that day; takes like seven seconds. it's cheesy af to admit but i really think it helped change my life. anyways, xox |
| from raven72d : |
| Loved the poem in the latest entry. |
| from raven72d : |
| 19 August 19 --- I'm glad you're still here. |
| from zoela : |
| thanks. :) i like your diary. i got all caught up reading it just now & thoroughly enjoyed it. i'm glad this website still exists. |
| from loveherwell : |
| it's good to see you back, though. none of us ever know what we're saying :) |
| from raven72d : |
| well, damn. I thought you'd left TX, but I may be completely brain-dead these days. |
| from raven72d : |
| How is DC? What brought you there? |
| from raven72d : |
| I've had to lock up for a bit, but let me know where and I'll send you a p/w. |
| from raven72d : |
| Dolphins? Volcanos? |
| from loveherwell : |
| thank you, friend :D |
| from raven72d : |
| Duck fat popcorn... Must. Have. Now. |
| from loveherwell : |
| oooooh! i hope at the very least i was fun. |
| from raven72d : |
| Editing is key. |
| from raven72d : |
| I'm trying to get out of a years-long rut. |
| from loveherwell : |
| SAME THO. and ABBA. |
| from boyecho : |
| not for too much longer. trying to write about it is hard |
| from loveherwell : |
| do come back. |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| It was “persnickety” :) |
| from jimbostaxi : |
| I just stumbled across your diary and was reading though random posts and I got to the one with the headphones with no sound ,, that is truly awesome :) |
| from raven72d : |
| How's life? |
| from sky-rocket : |
| hi |
| from raven72d : |
| How are you these days? Are you doing the TinyLetter? |
| from orgami : |
| FRIDAY OR THURSDAY dont know...Went to work..a month away..just made it so I get my hundred on my ODSP cheque..Work related a hundred....just made it...we get our cheques from work on the day of the last of the month..talk about the edge..Reading your stuff...love your writing...how you look at things...and the struggle.....selling your guitar..Jazzmaster...I had a Tokai Stratocaster ivory..had a lot of expensive goodies added and a hardshell case..was in excellent condition..I cant lay..two chords..but just plunking away and picking on the strings was comforting....sold it to a guy who builts custom guitars....still think about it though..At Least We Had Them!! some dream..and some have their dream....too dream about...Today is beautiful out....everyone back too school...city clunking away doing its cool stuff...On on the bike..dressed up...writing everyone..taking it slow...if Im lost still..Im kinda getting used too being lost....its like its own location in away....anyway Moodswing...just stopping in to say Hello! and Happy fall day and all of that!....Mr Wolf! |
| from orgami : |
| aah...I Love U too Moodswing for your great writing! and for who you are....The Struggle Right! samey same..I just want to feel wanted and comfortable and safe...always afraid..And Im like a six foot one dude.. Long enough hair..I look like a biker from the sixties..early seventies..but inside Im that kid still listening to my parents yell on Friday nites...Still got their words of dissapointment in my ears..even though they loved me...We of the Now matter to the We of the Now I say! You have the coolest way of looking at things and phrasing it in your writing....It was your writing that prompted me to find the poetry site Im on now...your poetry is so damned good! back when I was afraid of my own shadow...Not so much anymore...I walk tall and in charge for the most part...I Love the friends I have made here..I dont have anyone like creative as much in my city..why the internet is so cool! I shall try too keep my head above water here..Fall is beautiful and xmas is so hard..But I will focus on the beauty of the weather...snowflakes..the scenery..the few people that are good people I talk too on the trail here and there! (my small voice inside says...Believe in myself!!) Thank U Moodswing for your beautiful inspiring honest writing through the years here...Mr Wolf! |
| from orgami : |
| Bunnies and Wonderbread...Here I am a year later....been through the mill! out the other side....still here....and here..writing from Bunni..my womans nickname...Even the fear is fearful out here...Even if ur six foot one with a scary character face like me...Moods do swing in me...high manic today...singing...agressive..listening to music...writing..writing...and then I came here and its like...Oh...yes...it is scary...it is more then okay too want softness and cessation..Wrote a poem on FB titled this...Best part about things now..fall...more quieter and busier...but different...more clothes to hide or be expressive in...books reading weather...movie watching on tube..or other tube...atmosphere....the sky more alive with the clarity and dusks....We got bread from the foodbank....the plastic wrap..the sofntess..simplicity and a purity...bunnies...an innocence and beauty...softness....I hear U Moodswing....Ur writing is real...Thank U |
| from orgami : |
| 2016..another month stupid halloween almost here...(secretly it would be great to dress up and be some character...) read your latest poem..write..its awesome! We...My Bea and I have been paying Sleazyhome..called Easyhome In Ontario Canada...your matress You wanted...say retail for a good one...And I know my matresses would be about six hundred..bottom end Moodswing! You want too sleep like a princess on the pea...You pay Fifteen hundred...But trust me...Ive got friends...her matress was twenty five hundred and it was worth it..money was nothing too these birds though....I shall never forget the night....Back to Ur dream....and my depot of No creditland...We have bought computers...couches...computers..air conditioners...xbox game....pick a number..Hundred dollar item..WE have bills..cannot afford to just throw out hundred dollars...so we pay eighty a month on items...we pay three times what anything we eventually own is worth and by then its useless to sell...worn out..got the EASYHOME engraved shit all over it anyway...and we always need money and sell this shit when my baby gets tired of it for fifteen dollars...Yah thats my life....But I love my old baby..and fifteen dollars...we get something new...on too the next right!! life is about change man...cant get hung up on the itty bitty things....But yer dream is awesome....Lazy boys....oh..I had one.....it got taken over by my baes kid...but the kid had a rough life...we grew up with seventies version of lazee boyz...my big friend owned this one..My baes small..her kids smaller...five one...im six one...she slept in that huge assed easy boy....no one gave her a decent deal....I did...it was like a big huge reclining red nest...anyway long story short....we paid off all Sleazy home bills lately.....kid moved north with grampa gramma..got a job at a gym..shes in shape..dances about.a mining town..maybe meet hardcore steroid alpha male that wants too give her what she needs and keep her in line ..make her happy...here the momma I keep in line...tough full time joh..but its interesting....White suit....Bet U looked good..probably a prompt from Helen Degeneres for that beauty product..I watch it often of late.....Matress...here is your peaceful sleep bitch....U need it!!....ha ha ha.....sit or sleep......rest or observe...ultimately we have too be standing too make our decisions not just for us but for your life ...they are two dif things.....Im fifty three this year....fifty four next..I know.....and I had nice matresses and nice easy boy chairs..and wild princesses whom we spoiled whom slept in MY chair..but I gave it too her....after school that was her comfort..safety chair.....I sat with her Mother..rubbing mommas feet...while cats..slept on my shoulders.....I like that U told them...U can have my nice sleep for your shitty Anti Human service!...always cover your ass Moodswing and Look after what U got...no matter how comfortable the rest..rest is just rest....go for the good...the ultimate that will provide U with most reward...Because...U are worth It! ...how Do I know.I dont..dont know U...history...face...nothing about U other then my years here since 2004...But I got intuition coming out my wazoo....we get old we want a good matress..not some couch where we lived...loved as kids...not some bed that is a wife..sisters...brothers..fathers..teams..gangs...OURS....get it!!!..but never sell....that bed...the bed that is URS is the best! |
| from raven72d : |
| At war with whom? |
| from orgami : |
| spring...june 2016....reading ur works...incredible logic..poetic verse... |
| from raven72d : |
| Boxes.... Boxes are always good. |
| from raven72d : |
| 13 March 2016--- do stay in touch. |
| from raven72d : |
| Still out there? |
| from orgami : |
| 2015..stupid halloween almost here...(my opinion of this holiday) my chums whom were creative and I..they brilliant me cave man bright...liked halloween...restoring some car in a shop on a friends mom property..made a pumpkin..i had a two door..or some big old thing....always in out with the girlfriends..they had a candle and it kept blowing out in it up on the fencepost by the road...fuck that said I..took a flare sawed off the end..and put that in the pumpkin..sparked it up ...of course the pumpkin melted but they were horrified and ghasted out by it all...the wind didnt put out that puppy...I love your line MOODSWING about looking at life like this...probably got amazing eyes and people do come forward too help....they do for me..how I exist....drifting in and out of thoughts... but your writing is brilliant...and madness is a brilliance....I know some very sharp people whom have businesses...they like me because I just wear my madness...and if they dont like it I shall just doff them with my walking stick and bonk them with my top hat...being careful to dump out the bunny first! this is the perfect attitude to have for the first snows!! I met someone online and they were nasty after awhile..all they said was..."First snow..it will melt.." no imagination at all....glad they went away..I like creative people...I was in the rain today..hurricane remnant..cold but beautiful...the snows will arrive I will be memserized like always....I see Im hogging all the space here....but I really love your writing... gazing at people..... my favorite thing to do...I spend hours at the mall....people are so cool...and yet that isolation about the feeling of not relating..personally I think its a creative thing...but then Im no my meds good now and have been not too far out with other issues.. sorry for just going on like this... |
| from orgami : |
| "spectacular" yes...linked arms..protests of sixties..raw emotive expressionism..intellecualism and the careful works of histories..two fronts eating dinner...Hot and Cold! Daniella mongst the lions....My city summer madness here..moneytime..party time..crazy time...I like it.. kind of |
| from orgami : |
| snowflakes and Ice...bald tires and slippery dress shoes...Suddenly the days trip on speeding streets becomes something to live for!! Long live mountian bike winter long!!! |
| from dangerspouse : |
| The Mouseketeer? |
| from orgami : |
| yes...we are friends....fall is here..winter arriving ...the brilliance of the cold and moon...the clarity.....the maturity of the seasons.... |
| from jaysthoughts : |
| Maybe we should all be friends. |
| from orgami : |
| "how are we not all friends now" that is a dear saying! because we are familiar in such a way..the poetry site is all over..facebook gets altered regularly..like a crazy busride..nice to get off and away from those...but here..like a static place...like a book or photo...the way life used to be like...not distracted...its more focused here to write things...besides that im doing okay...we are well..bills just paid..food...basics and some extra..enjoying your writing as always...and its nice to have mystery about each other... |
| from loveherwell : |
| <3 |
| from catsoul : |
| 8/2514....So glad that you had an awesome day. Take Care. =^..^= |
| from raven72d : |
| Get the ice trays. And an a/c. My own life involves microwaved Asian noodles rather than rotisserie chicken, but I see your point. Get the ice trays, though. Bourbon with no ice kills the literary impulse. |
| from raven72d : |
| a bachelorette pad? |
| from loveherwell : |
| i love all advice!! especially from people who have already been through it :) |
| from loveherwell : |
| they've met him once, but to me, once is not enough. sending good vibes your way. |
| from boyecho : |
| working on getting 'the' cat. I miss him dearly. |
| from raven72d : |
| spires and squirrels? |
| from erases : |
| hi doc |
| from loveherwell : |
| yeah...i am pretty sure he realizes that was a bad idea... |
| from ping-island : |
| thanks! i recently discovered colourlovers and it's SO EXCITING |
| from orgami : |
| may 15 2014..ere be yea at moodswing! ha...like hunter s thompson more and more...kerouac..sure they had their reasons....but when they were alive..when they knew they were been heard..they spoke...i wear my shades..the tinted aviators everywhere almost now....i gave up trying to be normal and decided i will enjoy my fifty year old self more as a crazed writer or poet.....thank you for your writing and poems.... |
| from raven72d : |
| so what are you leaping into? |
| from raven72d : |
| yes! my favourite penguin. |
| from erases : |
| Pneumonia damn near killed me recently. Hospitals are scary places. Be well. |
| from raven72d : |
| Learning to take risks is a key thing. |
| from raven72d : |
| Kisses and best wishes for 2014! |
| from raven72d : |
| Write about it all. |
| from raven72d : |
| Chinese restaurants are a classic Xmas Day place to be alone. Bring a book and call me from the table. |
| from raven72d : |
| Thanks for the late birthday wish! And I hope things go seriously well for you in the Year Fourteen! |
| from ping-island : |
| it's especially funny since one of the symptoms of head injury is memory loss and the app's reminder system doesn't work. |
| from ping-island : |
| this is the one i use: https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.t2.vas&hl=en it's pretty okay except i wish the graphics were prettier and the alarm (to remind you to track your moods) doesn't work. |
| from raven72d : |
| However the Year Fourteen begins, you do have supporters... |
| from raven72d : |
| Music is always salvation. |
| from erases : |
| i want to be in that sound-space |
| from orgami : |
| novembers embrace..the dragon rush furnace.. blue tongues and old coffee..laundry machines.. old comp waiting for a new screen and this hacked together mouse..headphones..tiny screen from the kids school laptop..still i arrive to read and notate the glorious wraith of winter..how mortal it is and beautiful..i carry the fire..i carry the tools...the heavens burn bright for dreamer dancing.... |
| from erases : |
| http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wKiIroiCvZ0 |
| from atwowaydream : |
| You have my most sincere congratulations! As a writer, I know how much of a dream it is to do what you're passionate about. Cheers, luv! |
| from loveherwell : |
| congrats! |
| from orgami : |
| Octobers goodbye also...thinning down..the ghosts can enjoy my hunger..cigarettes and caffienne..learning to smile in the long ahead miles...chewing the pain pills to keep me going..the road of wrack and ruin played on me like a blues piano...just a dusk busker in a black leather coat..pockets full of poems..still love Diaryland and these works..Thank You |
| from loveherwell : |
| thank you! i certainly go through my moods, and this one is a good one. :) |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I didn't even know you were still updating. Thank you, though. I worked it, too. Maybe just for the night, but sometimes that's all you need. |
| from raven72d : |
| It seems to make sense, the Grey Matter idea. We'll see in a few hours. |
| from erases : |
| you. |
| from raven72d : |
| do update...and yes, fig newtons are wonderful. |
| from tsulnagrom : |
| I locked my diary. Username: star Password: wars |
| from orgami : |
| may something.....love your short entry...living by ideals again...harsh and simple...cash costs...no idle waits...been three days since I was here...try to arrive more often...!! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| whenever i can't make a decision, i must refer to it as "dark pencil". |
| from erases : |
| BOO! |
| from raven72d : |
| I hate that Netflix has shed so many wonderful titles. |
| from orgami : |
| snow falling..its cascade damp and peaceful..the ice offshore waiting in its pack..the islands distant and full of dreams..walking..my bike needing repairs..time to muse..to meet others and chat..I have a character face..I meet characters..My life is a character...I arrive here sans constable cat now to read your works remembering...Well to your venture!! creativity goes on vacation sometimes and we are left like tourists in the mausoleum of the waiting rooms...glass and echos...... |
| from orgami : |
| thanks for the heads up on our winters....sunshine today...love your latest entry...off meds till mid May...what a trip..wish me luck... |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Warm = soup Cold = dip. Yay, I look forward to your expertise! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Okay! But you must bring the cucumber sandwiches, because I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing. |
| from loveherwell : |
| feel better soon. x |
| from raven72d : |
| Thanks! I'll have to listen to a few tracks from both bands. |
| from catsoul : |
| Nice tat. I also have a number of tats, I have left some black also because after thinking about it, I like the contrast better without color. =^..^= |
| from loveherwell : |
| that tattoo is awesome! i'm jealous. |
| from erases : |
| Honey wine? YOU MEAN MEAD? Ah-HAH, yes MEAD! We shall feast in the realm of the kings and drinkith of much MEAD, young one! Hah-HAH! Hip hip Hurray! |
| from loveherwell : |
| YOU ARE PRECIOUS THANK YOU :P |
| from loveherwell : |
| reminding yourself to breathe is a lot more difficult than most people make it sound |
| from zoela : |
| "Listen I wasn't happy about it but sometimes you have to squash things in a dish." <3 I want to live in your basement and play with eels. |
| from erases : |
| Well... shit, now I know. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I'm a horror buff, so I like things like horrible horror movies that can admit that they're bad. . . but when there's nothing but remakes of remakes I get a little sick to my stomach. For every Hatchet and Tucker and Dale Versus Evil, there seems to be twenty Chernobyl Diaries. |
| from raven72d : |
| Champagne and ice cream? Absolutely! |
| from loveherwell : |
| do it!!! |
| from raven72d : |
| Will we ever see a photo of the Giant Furry Hat? |
| from orgami : |
| ws so suprised at Hunter Thompson leaving as he did....like Cobain my then three year old and I would dance about the living room..the old fifty eight bungalow huge living room with wooden floors....big picture window..but Curt didnt get the big picture...he caught the last bus..and a close friend tried to slash his neck and arms..but his wife caught him in the tub..hes alive though...made it through to think anew..another ryhme saying of mine..suicide sucks and its easy to leave...harder to stay and deal with the pain.. but the pain does go..i lived long enough to say that and see that...although I will always be haunted.... |
| from erases : |
| whenever i think of you i think of portishead's glory box. |
| from punklola : |
| congratulations. |
| from erases : |
| it's a dead link. oh shit, i'm goin' to hell. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Diaryland is the shit, yo. And I'm going to go check out your friend's work now. Been in the bathtub, with jagged things in my hands and pretty much nothing in my heart. Awesome that you're sharing it. |
| from boyecho : |
| iie? |
| from erases : |
| consider me vine-d. now, it's your job to find me. |
| from tsulnagrom : |
| thank you very much! what is your tattoo of? |
| from orgami : |
| rain fell..a winter flurry of tears..the creek wild and alive its voice full of pleasure...there is nothing certian left...there is everything... |
| from loveherwell : |
| thanks, I think so too!! and just a nice reminder: i love reading your diary. you're wonderful. xx |
| from erases : |
| Thank you! Oh, how I miss those days as well. -- oh! And by the way: http://youtu.be/yTVsnK8RGvs |
| from erases : |
| yay for us Capricorns! |
| from orgami : |
| moody mists clinging to the woods..sticking at home..walking dogs and cleaning house...and reading refreshing clarity...Thank You Moodswing..you are a brook..a river..where I can visit..read and think...invaluable! |
| from raven72d : |
| Yes. Indeed so. |
| from loveherwell : |
| awh awh awh that just made me smile so much :) |
| from loveherwell : |
| :) |
| from loveherwell : |
| when i got your note i was literally in the process of making my brother listen to that song, i can't stop playing it!!! |
| from erases : |
| you should fuckin' come over cuz I'm bored over here SHIIIIIII |
| from loveherwell : |
| oh man, me too. in fact i think i'll take that up. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Seriously. If you can have an actual cupcake, fuck Hostess. |
| from erases : |
| that's even better |
| from loveherwell : |
| for some reason that just struck me as hilarious and i am sitting here giggling to myself like a maniac. |
| from erases : |
| check your mail again before you go gettin' all pouty on me. |
| from erases : |
| you're a butthead, butthead. |
| from loveherwell : |
| do it! just write anything that comes to you. :) |
| from silverluna : |
| I am so late. I've been catching up on some reading, and I had to comment. Congrats. |
| from loveherwell : |
| she's a sweetheart :) |
| from orgami : |
| quiet saturday..moon decaying into the shade..stars bright as ice drops on Novembers barren arms..yet three short months away. just a writer writing.. |
| from orgami : |
| the focus is on the few I know now here...I wanted to drop this not long ago for Neopoet..but there is this random expanse of creative non edge that is here ..a creative horizon mirage of thought that I never shall tire of...or of the writings I read..meaning so much to me..thank you! |
| from loveherwell : |
| yep, totally not paranoid. they asked for a handwriting sample even before doing an interview for a personality test... sigh. |
| from orgami : |
| Im glad you write here Im glad I never leave here writers realms our works the harvest worth meaning and mystery |
| from orgami : |
| I am very happy for you Moodswing! |
| from loveherwell : |
| WHERE IS THE LIBRARY?! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Eek! Congratulations, with a big whopping side of love and happiness. |
| from cymbals : |
| for realz? |
| from loveherwell : |
| wowza, that's awful! people just kill me sometimes. |
| from orgami : |
| tenth of july 2012 Hello Moodswing! its a generous summer day outside and I'm taking it in..grateful for what has been provided..for this life I have..and for this Friendship! Thank You! |
| from loveherwell : |
| it's out there though. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| yay, fellow ears with feet. |
| from erases : |
| thought you'd like that one. check your email |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I had a tiny bit of faith in the Che. . . nevermind. nobyl diaries? And yeah, that shit really, really sucks. |
| from orgami : |
| Thursday End June sunshine and pockets of doubt I read your words and in knowing Poet language skill and intuition a landscape realm of travel that has far been removed and yet tangible and alive I want rains and fall Snow and the quiet tranquil emotion |
| from atwowaydream : |
| one would think pay as you go phones would be awesome. . . but I let them die and lose the charger so I never find where the hell I've left them. secretly, maybe I just want to be left alone, I don't know. |
| from loveherwell : |
| great scott, you're right! i was so close haha. |
| from tfs-fx : |
| Thanks for reminding me this still exist. ;) Glad to see you're still around. |
| from loveherwell : |
| i agree--there is no other place quite like this one. and i've got high school friends who still use this site once in a while, but not nearly as often or as seriously as i do. i'm sure i'll stay here, i just get moments of freaking out and wanting to run away. i appreciated your note very much, and i'm hoping you have a nice day. :) |
| from erases : |
| boy, I tell ya: life ain't easy right now. every day's a kick in the nuts. but like you, I get up. Don't always want to, but I do. Having a Mad Men marathon. You watch that show? |
| from erases : |
| well looky here: the golden girl's come home to roost. how the hell are ya? |
| from orgami : |
| drowsy eye of moon... placid.. skulking down... family invested in me..fresh Schwinn..Bourqiouse but I need to roll..rain falling in the thick warm mists the forest waking up too..im just stretching too remembering how it is to still be a wild human out where the wild things are... |
| from orgami : |
| Thursdaze Avril Fifth 2012 one twenty four in the post meridian time zoned..Listening to TEARIST "civilization" somehow this is cheery I can see this being played out on loud speakers in a post apocalyptic truck..winter jackets up here with duct tape and ski googles shotguns and rifles at ready..the sky smiling down..out hunting and gathering..tinned food..water..firewood..watching out for the zombies....Been sober three months and not intaking the pain killers as much..Only have so many contacts out there..still working a half day job..rear axle of mountain bike broke in two..I dont want to throw it away I just put a skull sticker on the hard tail frame...reading poetry ...reading diaries.. cant afford to buy books from Coles every paycheque..Our unit here needs every twenty....glad your still here makes my day to see the people i like posting still.. |
| from erases : |
| i've missed this place, and you.. thank you for the birthday wishes.. who is the man i'm becoming? |
| from atwowaydream : |
| every little bit of happiness must be slurped up with straws. i'm glad you're happy, at least momentarily. it can really mean something. |
| from raven72d : |
| short, happy dreams. yes. |
| from orgami : |
| listening to Dream baby Dream by Black Tambourines...window open letting out spirits letting in the night calm descends the witching hour..and my dreams are keeping and waiting at the pier.... |
| from orgami : |
| winter dreams in the stillness a smokeless ideal fretting sizzling like a damp transformer on a rainy night..where arethe dear velvet gloves of snow to touch upon the heart that glows...this gladness like slush that ruins in runs and ruts the trench works of it all Like the badland echos that chase forever the ghosts breezes on hills in moonlight nights that are slurried with snow the gold of gideon the worry of the lost |
| from sky-rocket : |
| your diary name is really familiar... added you to my list. |
| from papersails : |
| OK, evidently there's no way you can look at my favorite entries. They were "Saturday Night in the House of Sara" and "Not Out of the Woods Yet." One of the "reviews" I turned into an entry. |
| from papersails : |
| I recently added a couple of your entries to my favorite entries. To see them, go to "my favorite entries." :) |
| from orgami : |
| watching sountrack footage from SUCKERPUNCH I know Warner Bros large company old "family" systems today the rains fall Im at house pet watching apartment watching..Lori and Step Daughter 17 year old Taya up north with grandpa He is dying of cancer Gramma Brenda and family gathered about him now..My addiction killing me in so many ways..addicted too to 222's and have had my share of life on the road..born an outlaw and die an outlaw I say..I love writing..I love writers and people that are very very interesting..some people have auras that glow..My intuition has served me well through the years but it cannot save me from the simplicity of the flaws of humanitys basic sins..I shall keep posting.keep writing and reading..in this there is a terrible beauty that leaves me awestruck at times..and a gentleness like this rain and our Shapei eight month old puppy..my shadow of late.. thank you for your notes..sustaining my own here..I love you too Moodswing!! poet Orgami.. |
| from raven72d : |
| i hope you'll let me see things you do write. |
| from orgami : |
| wandering in the mind caverns of sky with painted constellations and plaster angels docile gazes narcotic conjunctions like jewels on crowns and halo's summits ..there are black winged whispers where ink has ridden..vellum photos crisp as engravers edges..a sun filled with a diamonds fury coveted by sanitys fair eye...I want to drink dreams and be drunk in histories of divergence...feel that rush of urgency at the edge and stare into the light of the far distance.. a place where the soul shimmers hearts glimmer............... |
| from raven72d : |
| what are you writing these days? |
| from xxiii : |
| uh |
| from raven72d : |
| rum-and-peach... sounds nice...I may try it. |
| from raven72d : |
| It seems Krampus was good to you! |
| from raven72d : |
| I love Book of Disquiet. |
| from orgami : |
| the wind sighs through the trees like gentle magic the light is painful and pure the shadows black like a thick bruise LIke night has remained brushed against in passing I want to remember the edges of stillness in the company of my favourite muses the hesitant breaths the phone static reaching between heartbeats but I recall only the blurry colours of the aches and rich happiness and time evades articulation of wavelengths like forgotten wishs |
| from orgami : |
| paper sonnets paper love cut with scissor tears rusting on the winter rails the highland trees keen their song fulfilled with spirits like the beasts that watch and fill their lungs with cold Up higher the stars are closer the view is further the water is purer |
| from orgami : |
| paginistic i think of you in your autumnn pools the russet afternoons here there is garnish stars there is an emptiness between tommorrow and yesterday that I exist my ghosts waxs in the mirror and I wan der down my halls of haunted retributions dont look back but I did and now am cursed I wait for the satin blossom of winter to shed like tears of angels but there is stillness a waiting a hunger to the nights that fills my appetite and my soul spites a redemption on trail the hours come and go like winds like silent nights like red running over white and I search your words |
| from orgami : |
| winter blossom falling down past the funnel of hot brilliant light the new city lamps on the street leading down the length of our old Motel..where is the falling wonder casting shadows mottled like appaloosa hides..I dream instead of stars in the hive of night of Nutt stretching across the universe in her far off warm fertile valleys but I am here beneath boreal skies on glacial sculpted bedstones |
| from raven72d : |
| thank you muchly! |
| from orgami : |
| feeling moody like the sky this pre winter pause and watch the hawk race across it all The murder of crows drifting like random black chasing their ideals and routes...sitting here lost and enjoying the library..my bottle to soothe all the unrest and whitecaps of whats left of my conscience....Diaryland always the refuge when Im pondering..and wandering..this peaceful powerful place of intimacy..thank you for being here Moodswing..I love your writing.. |
| from orgami : |
| Lykki Li, Jerome wearing Fila black baller shoes feel corporateness oozing walk on all levels sometimes watching listening writing reading meeting so many swimming in the fountian such a grand design not quite a pool not quite a stream and yet there it is a momument for indulging I like the pools of Pompeii still preserved the harbour rich enjoying fresh water a break from seawater the rain gives a wave to my straight hair I love the jubilant and sombre clouds that rake across in a brisk rush or slumber along like great white ghost ships |
| from orgami : |
| was just randomly writing on google search a list of things and I mentioned Diaryland and found old links..everything is kept on the internet Test one two three..listening to Placbo its raining out and cold damp winds The great Fall the subtle winter I have housework to do and am just looking in diaries and poetry sites to avoid starting.. Sending this note for more of a memory then anything else I still enjoy your entries |
| from tsulnagrom : |
| by the way, your recent entry...we have a lot in common. :) |
| from tsulnagrom : |
| thank you so much. i really appreciate your support <3 <3 |
| from orgami : |
| exhausted so much summer momentum Why have it any other way Why run an easy life when a hobby of untangling yarn is so much more tactile and rewarding the love of random precious |
| from erases : |
| every step forward gets two steps back |
| from tsulnagrom : |
| locked diary: username: username. password: cheerup |
| from orgami : |
| sunshine spring is back the winter was so long and lovely in its stay biking shifting travelling the days excursion full and never dull |
| from tsulnagrom : |
| hey! i was wondering if you would delete a note i made a long time ago? i just don't want my full name on here :) thanks |
| from orgami : |
| went to our Lake and its still ice bound although the wind will soon break it up I found a large chunk of coal from the days when the railyards where up behind the beachs A coal fire smells sweet and bitter and romantic much better then deisel I wait for swimming also last year I went three times A Record! |
| from dinahsoar : |
| It's April. Are you swimming? |
| from ping-island : |
| you'd think so, right? but it's weirdly common for people in stories and things to sell their souls in exchange for artistic ability of some kind, which you'd think would have to come from the soul! i mean, how could you create art that speaks to humans when you lack the thing that makes a person human? |
| from raven72d : |
| excellent! yes! |
| from dinahsoar : |
| Excellent! Thank God! |
| from raven72d : |
| the future is in rooibos tea. |
| from dinahsoar : |
| This is a lot to bear. I'm so sorry. I'm glad that you could say what you really mean, rather than going with the glib answer (because, even though it is still there, after reading your real thoughts, the cardboard facade is all the more poignant). |
| from raven72d : |
| Happy Year Eleven! |
| from orgami : |
| thirty days the moon cast slides like an illusionists eyes these star qaurter palmists read the flight of ravens in the night these dreams soiled in sweet perfume and window damp aperature where souls gather in ice tipped winds like invasionary ghosts of bother and in the birch stands righteous purity is poetry carved on subtle flesh where the keen edged word was put to the test and love was tasted best... |
| from orgami : |
| wake from the lair the labrynth of hope and dreams fed with Jupiter gleaming how the fire grows like haunted love graced in its tomb wake waiting and now sun gutted and flamefilled summits her throne casting the shadows of midnight promise I read these lines you send me and how like happy rays between the crevice of slate enormity they find me warming one eyelid at a time awake awake the wind whispers in its thin reed hunger voice ruffle mane and truncheon wave still beating on her frozen beachs the cobble stone sob drenched in vacous reasonings how it goes and how it is on this gorgeously wide angle day and a sky filled with ghost rampant rags ... |
| from ping-island : |
| i loooove tumblr. just because you can find a blog about basically anything you like just by typing in "fuckyeah[interest].tumblr.com". do you write things on tumblr also? |
| from dinahsoar : |
| Loved today's entry! I recently got a singing bowl, but haven't been able to inspire it yet! |
| from raven72d : |
| 21 November 10... lovely, lovely, melancholy entry. |
| from orgami : |
| Rain Cascade the grey of dream the pale of all gathered bowed like dead flowers and whiskey coloured creek beds Memories flow like water and all turbulence sings it deep melancholy.... |
| from raven72d : |
| singular moments... we all need more of them. |
| from dinahsoar : |
| Funny, smart & sad! I love your diary (found it through a friend of a friend of a friend)! |
| from raven72d : |
| "Kontroll"--- yes! |
| from orgami : |
| movies from Library such a busy place downstairs "Kontrol" a Hungarian movie from 2006 about the subway Finishing "Phantom of the Opera" slowly Bought a tin of Expresso instead of coffee four dollars twenty nine cents for three hundred grams How much is a poem worth I wonder per page?? never thought of that before.... |
| from orgami : |
| I sit at Twiggs More to listen a fixture I am over hearing all the conversations so interesting people are so madcap and the coffee there is so good and alone No one to drag me away to distract as I listen to the ravens talking way up on the microwave tower the wind in the awnings |
| from erases : |
| fuck yeah. |
| from bean-burrito : |
| glad i was somewhat inspiring. even if it wasn't really me, and more just the name. i'll take the credit though, thank you. |
| from orgami : |
| date is September 10 2010 Time is 5:17p.m. although much green exists its fall birds are happy singing there is that light that says cold fall weather fast approaching I read your diary and then came here Okay "How are you" Moodswing?? sounds not too good Ill and all that nothing like puking on the roadside to feel better or worse Maybe a better kind of worse I hope something can cheer you up some kind of large essence or small joy filled detail Reading your diary has uplifted me on most occasions I did sleep for almost a week on and off missing days from work and dropping out of life here with the little family nothing like souldestroying depression and sometimes its just nothing then laying in that trench filled with water that does keep me going and writing at this place I remember when they had a Bunny or Rabbit cartoon mascot here and a little flower I thought this was just for girls at first I love writing here there are not happy things going on for this weekend but Im going to just make it through it anyway and keep my appointments and maybe read more diaryisms sometimes its what sustains me ... |
| from raven72d : |
| i like the two tiny notebooks. |
| from orgami : |
| last entry in three lines you tell what takes others days and so much words like rain and Im a desert ... |
| from gomerx : |
| Yay! I've had zombie dreams! My favorite one is the one where I escape into a parking garage with this guy and I hot wired a car! (good times) Anyways, your zombie dream sound like a movie! "Zombie-Mall" "We just want to be accepted" It's totally Orwellian! I love it! |
| from killsoft : |
| skeet skeet |
| from orgami : |
| I follow you read you novels are all there paper words its in us like building ships the keel the hull the deck each one more detailed more sleek more flow YOu do not write inconsequential at all I have two favourites on diaryland and a few on NEOPOET.COM username ORGAMI there also two only Floorplan and Moodswing I need no others yet grace the pages of some but favourites???? I cannot fully describe how special the Diaryland is too me I miss the cat logo they had up here long ago I used to dream of having a logo but I love having the free template its so democratic so simple retro I can just say that your writing will always continue to be the staid for me here Thank You for this Moodswing Your freind Orgami |
| from orgami : |
| Interpol spools in pools in my ear there are flies in here fall they are seeking seeking shelter for winters cool breath and birds are sitting on fat black cables slung between the grey facade of pole totems No irish tomb full of sea eagles no roadkill pigeons they are living shadows flowing over hills over towers of concete and brick the lake is shinning their eyes are full of life seeking seeking the landing of shelter |
| from papersails : |
| I moved recently as well. I feel your pain... but in the end, I promise you all the hassle will be worth it. |
| from orgami : |
| Im writing on the electric Kneeling like a catholic Its not plugged in a poem unfolds through the ten fingers singing shoppers in value village ignore the poem there is no paper its a BROTHER cheap and ordinary and wonderful its voice would rattle Hell and wake up Heaven stoccato like a Sten gun fast as a riveteer and then Im done Ive left a poem for only those with true faith those with romantic blood TYPE POET |
| from orgami : |
| moon a dish of tarnished culture like a saucy pearl riding the hub of nectars belonging jubilant strident with a petulant air letting down your glare (o-moon!) |
| from erases : |
| 7/26 my favorite entry in a long time |
| from orgami : |
| half vampires in gold glitter and lost FM beats my life shudders along not fallen quite in the gear and the cogs turn by the higher order waiting for the drop the overcast like vellum im waiting for the designs for walk on cloud height viewpoint and the buses growl up the grade and the green trees darken in this falling light My coffee tastes great and I need a shower There were Ravens on the tower |
| from corposant : |
| I prefer my vampires in the classic mode: charming they may be, but they must always be damned bloodsucking monsters. Definitely nobody's boyfriend or girlfriend. |
| from orgami : |
| what what rammsteins Engle plays the lyrical voices the strutting beat im half bemused tired damp from the thunderstorm laundry going round three foors down and now this this spectacular world of surreal thoughts where would my day be without this?? |
| from corposant : |
| I'm adding you to my list of favorites, despite the possibility that you may be half a vampire. |
| from xorbit : |
| That long long long list of "users online"? I have a very similar screenshot. Freaked me out as well :p |
| from msjessica : |
| i know right... thing is i am still only reading 2010's entries! It's nice finding a diary I can read like that though. And yeah, hi :) |
| from xorbit : |
| Please don't go. I will miss you *sniffle* |
| from msjessica : |
| hmm so over the last two days, i think i have spent about 5 hours reading your diary...thanks for your words xx |
| from erases : |
| sounds like i'm taking the red eye to where you live today then!!!! |
| from orgami : |
| just when I was thinking I was writing in mundane mode I actually wrote nothing in particular then went in search of the only two people I read in the last seven whole years and find the beautiful going nowhere style of the bohemian modern (a lah george gershwin ) sell Facebook accound delete the car and travel in the sun walk in the snow and wonder where the is of the go nowhere land yet here for the time on diarylander -ataya was here |
| from silverluna : |
| Hello. I wrote an entry reflecting on one of your entries...http://silverluna.diaryland.com/100629_4.html |
| from raven72d : |
| ouzo and skin. yes. |
| from erases : |
| sometimes mugatu |
| from moonsocket : |
| too cute for their own damn good!!!! |
| from erases : |
| you sure you don't want to be ........ a TWISTER???? (points to large picture of bill paxton) |
| from erases : |
| you underestimate the sneakiness.. |
| from orgami : |
| When In not writing Poetry I work with plaster moulds in the orthopeadic lab mad scientist assistan sanding smoothing sculpting to CBC radio and Jhoemann Geshi (sp) My fair maiden wanted a fan so we bought it in its box and it has little fan blades and little light bulb And after much doubt and trial and error It works Thank God for 1985 (last wiring attempt) says its too small "but honey it works!! I did that!!" |
| from tsulnagrom : |
| haha no, it wasn't creepy at all! where do you live? maybe you HAVE seen me. (not to sound creepy lol) |
| from orgami : |
| City buskers singing in Melodic harmony the lake a mirage of silver and flicker fire suns helio dance and the islands the mystery blue lengths that float on mercury Northern Bay |
| from raven72d : |
| i agree about thunderstorms and writing. |
| from raven72d : |
| t-storms. yes. |
| from trainyard : |
| aahhh... your entries are gold. plain gold. love the humour and play with words and everything.. the honesty.. |
| from silverluna : |
| Wow. I didn't realize how much I miss reading your words. :) It makes me want to write more. |
| from bliss-sad : |
| I just spend an absurdly long amount of time perusing your diary and going, "Oh my god, that's ME!" So kuddos, for being exceptionally odd, a ltitle bit crazy, and getting things back together. (PS, Instead of 7 months playing video gamse and guitar, I spent 15 months on pot and painting) |
| from modin : |
| Just wanted to say your journal rocks! I have seen you online a few times a day while I was going to the pain and agony of updating my journal and getting it set up... :D <br>Missy |
| from raven72d : |
| i'm a great fan of Hesse's "Steppenwolf" and "Magister Ludi". |
| from raven72d : |
| water, girl. and tea. |
| from raven72d : |
| apple butter on pancakes is amazing...give it a try. |
| from raven72d : |
| pancakes, fresh pancakes with butter and apple butter. |
| from riverun : |
| keep writing yo. i still love your journal. - s. |
| from raven72d : |
| i've spent years convincing people that there exists a video of Jessica Biel having sex with a dolphin. japanese and american otaku boys will believe...anything. |
| from ping-island : |
| i would not have sex with a dolphin, because dolphins are assholes, but i would eat one, for the same reason. and i don't even like seafood. |
| from orgami : |
| sleep and awake rise to meet the gentle light of day coffee and digital set to black and white calm now and reading writing trying to leave addiction replace with meditation rest putting power in where i burned up all energy before so intense must go enjoy Diaryland for its unique settled peace its vibrant writer world thanks Moodswing! |
| from punklola : |
| Aww thank you sweetie. To be honest, it's quite nice to be back, and it's so nice to be happy :) I just noticed the date on my layout though, 2008!? Definitely needs an upgrade, yo. Hope you're doing alright :) Also your matey down there makes an excellent point, Dragonette are dead sexy xx |
| from raven72d : |
| i do love dragonette. fun, wicked, danceable, sexy. |
| from floorplan : |
| it was last night we first set them. we put three short glasses half filled with apple cider vinegar + dish soap (the dish soap is supposed to ensure they drown,) around the apartment. surprisingly, the most landed in the glass on the coffee table. the other in the bathroom (which is next to the entrance/kitchen,) caught quite a few. the least were caught in the kitchen. I'd say we caught around 50 so far over night. worked pretty well. good luck! makes me itch just thinking about them all :( |
| from floorplan : |
| all right, i will. |
| from floorplan : |
| i think i remember, but i can't quite. reading along tonight..have been away from this place so long but your stories are bringing it back to life, for me |
| from erases : |
| i like this new old you |
| from boyecho : |
| it'd be extremely nice if wave files would again replace mp3s... |
| from teatray : |
| You know what's really sad? My CPU doesn't even have a place to stick floppy disks. |
| from teatray : |
| Thank you so much! It has its flaws, but overall I'm happy with it. I happily make layouts for free! |
| from orgami : |
| yes day before christmas and here I am wandering looking for something that may already be here as Jim Morrison borrowed probably from someone and said what is most strange and surreal is that it was a beautiful snowy sunny day cold in our fair north city im exhausted but awake still and was writing about writing being just basic "play" that I had to work even harder at painting and sketching becuase I need too and then come here and went looking in the favourites list for some odd reason and went link to link to see whats physicaly relevant here as terms of connectenednes and relevance and Viola!! and answer see I never completely got away fron diaryland with its out here ness this place is so different then Neo I have only gone to these two places Myspace is not my cup of tea and or is twitter or Bother blogs as I call them Have found Andrew which is interesting to me how long has the connection been there to look at and for some reason Christmas day before is the day to come look five year to make the contact wow thats a long time anyway im very very tired and need sleep badly i need to come here and write more!!! miss this place and people like you! |
| from raven72d : |
| still out there? |
| from zoela : |
| adding you on lastfm... |
| from nepenthean : |
| at least you have good taste, if not consistent serotonin levels. i would recognize those four words anywhere and sing immediately. well, now you know how how joan of arc felt anyway. |
| from erases : |
| ECHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! |
| from raven72d : |
| Apollo...yes. And good music. |
| from silverluna : |
| wow I am so amazed at how quickly you send me a message every time I update. I think that's one of the reason's I stay with DL. :) And yes I will do it... |
| from raven72d : |
| i love your layout... and want to read your writing--- the novel... |
| from raven72d : |
| Haven't seen a Zero bar in years and years... I like Kit-Kats, though. Though that may be for wicked reasons. |
| from raven72d : |
| It is a prequel...and very, very David Lynch. I so wanted to date Laura Palmer... |
| from raven72d : |
| Owls and blue roses...yes. And you must watch "Fire Walk With Me", too. |
| from raven72d : |
| i suspect you'll have a good List. |
| from raven72d : |
| please do comment. i enjoy having you there. |
| from ceilings : |
| thank you my dear <3 |
| from raven72d : |
| the robot problem is scary... but i do want there to be new life here, and lots of notes and exchanges... |
| from gonzoprophet : |
| I'm both glad and horrified that this has been brought to my attention - the robot problem I'm just noticing. What IS going on here?! This makes me want to raise some vicious cybersword with which to bring down these imposing fools! |
| from orgami : |
| Im ecstatic to read those lines of course HOW does an entire summer go by and one doesnt at least make it once to the wonderful beach unless ones a vampire and swimming in the rain would be preferred my life was so busy I was lost in the business of losing almost...so much everything actually but hung on always at the edge the start of the dark that keen edge well you know your writing too is written of this which is why I like your writings here so well Been gone over to Neopoet where its just the usual there and yet here there is a quiet repose that cannot match the wild shunt of day to day over there okay...my brain just shut down Im at the mall the kids got the computer now at home the world of the teen is ongoing twenty four seven unlike an old fart like me yet here I sit with aching back at the mall like a lot of others while the blaze of fall colours ignites in the moody mists inextolerably beautiful and haunted lake full of mirages of light of depth and dreams running out of time I must be someplace its all on foot I refuse to take the buses now learning so much from walking and its good for me and Im getting back to being the thin person I always was before domesticity and the meds to calm the mind filled the body too changes progression we are the matter of the material must be running Its been a great reward reading your existance again |
| from wtng4lezlie : |
| Word. |
| from girl101 : |
| quiet, yes, but alive. hope all is well with you. x's and o's. |
| from raven72d : |
| GFE is interesting... I'll write more about it tomorrow... |
| from punklola : |
| only 'cause my ex is terrifying. punklola/cherrycola ;) |
| from punklola : |
| ack? why ack? |
| from raven72d : |
| send to my user name here at yahoo. thanks. |
| from raven72d : |
| Yes, please. |
| from raven72d : |
| thank you for the Mono offer. |
| from punklola : |
| jeez! i hope you're alright. |
| from erases : |
| yeah what is the name of that song? it rules! |
| from moodswing : |
| yeah! that trailer has my murder by death in it! <3 |
| from sunfuck : |
| haha i did that already! but thanks a lot for keeping a loook out |
| from erases : |
| i forgot to tell you, when i make appearances in dreams, it's always as a cute movie star. |
| from jonathan : |
| Hi to someone who's been here as long as I have ... nearly a decade. So I appear to exist somewhere if not in reality any more :( |
| from spires : |
| yeah? thanks!-i'll have to check that out once i find my way through all of these |
| from sunfuck : |
| HELL NOOOOoooo my friend! nothing's ever permanent!! i don't think you're on my friends list for some reason...i'm gonna add you & umm.. oh yeah: you, the user: LOCK he, the password: KEY! peace |
| from silverluna : |
| Why are you so sad?? I think I missed something... |
| from gonzoprophet : |
| The version of The Holy Mountain I could find had horribly synced sound...a good twenty seconds off at least. The 70's produced some strange films...it's such a shame that the strangeness didn't stick through the decades. a movie like that today would look CRAZY. I'm going to keep looking though, my interests are piqued |
| from erases : |
| oh god, oh god sara............ oh god.................................................................................boobies |
| from orgami : |
| Summer seems to finally be here and Im here inside writing Diaryland as if just jesterdae Hey love the colours Love Tom Waits too Neopoet.com has taken me over of course Orgami there too Ha funny but seriously yes how I know it is to go all night long and then sober moments like lately im at the age that its affecting everything for me (44 years old this summer) Kids are doing good One in Spain One living here One working in a distant town all good kids all artistic adventurers sort of a combined family i havent been painting lately but did and will again the youngest is here and is a fab photo grapher I will try to keep up my diaries I only have three here Myspace and the other and I have two main muses at the moment life is grand take care Moodswing Orgami!!! |
| from erases : |
| i mean true. y'know whattaamean |
| from erases : |
| oh i read it. i read it good. and it's true. so very trye. |
| from erases : |
| yeahyeahyeahYEAHYEAHYEAHYEAHyeahyeahyeheahyeahyeahyaheyhaeyheyhahyeyheYHEAYHEYhayehhaeyaheh!!@!@yehaheyheyeahyyeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh ---- lil jon told me to say that to you |
| from gonzoprophet : |
| the core form of buddhism is marred by the times. he wasn't working now, when mankind has had the benefit of the centuries between here and there. as, surely, you've met people who, for some reason or another, are on a path that lacks a hint of wisdom. men who kill and blunder and consider nothing. women who gossip and twitter and invest in nothing but the most inconsequential aspects of living, like appearance. the buddhist doesn't really want to neuter anybody emotionally. it's just a matter of getting things straight and expanding your perspective so that not only your singular life experience is present to you...but the whole universe becomes a thing that you can grasp and make peace with. and the natural progression of things is that this makes things like anger or greed seem trivial. to say life is suffering is simply someone trying to communicate with those still lost without placing blame. so that they, unattacked, can find the bliss too. maybe you're fortunate enough to not know anyone lost to themselves. maybe the good fight is winning. but i doubt this somehow. heh, though i know that information can only be ingested when the time is right...and don't expect you to feel any differently, i just couldn't help but defend buddhism a touch, as i had many of the same feelings towards it at one time. and though i ultimately think it better to subscribe to no one school of thought, i likewise feel that this particular one would heal so many whose hearts are being burned up by trivialities. as it did for me. |
| from trainyard : |
| your entries are beautiful, packed with emotion - a sense of action and melancholy.. |
| from orgami : |
| Was in a bookstore in New Liskeard far from North Bay a week ago and saw in their most popular list a book by William Burroughs and Jack Kerouack called "And the Hippos were Boiled in their Tanks" the book was about an aqauintance whom had stabbed a lover to death (male to male) in New York early fifties and they collaborated on the book together after the investigation and charges were finished They got the title from a newspaper clipping about a circus fire Think of wooden bleachers flammable hay the heavy tarpualin with all its doused water repellent wooden boxes wooden beams poles and the poor Hippos Maybe it was a zoo fire have to google this the book came out in 1953 Joy Divisions Ian Curtis read Burroughs and I have never read any of his works but lots of Jacks funny and sad will have to look into this anyway CBC did a northern radio broadcast from the bookstore the next week I love the place the town and the bookstore so glad to see you are still about Moodswing I saw Fear and Loathing In Los Vegas just a clip awhile ago and it was hilarious want to see the whole movie one day and Big Lebowskie of course Tidelands is so awesome too He and his daughter on the bus a classic scene with my goatee big gut now and long hair I dont say I look like him but a resemblance is there hes my hero and my Chloe is seventeen and peirced and tatooed working still in school and an amazing artist (Slayer Cannibal Corpse etc t shirts) My wild child!!!! so good to see you here thought all my freinds here were gone |
| from orgami : |
| I thought you were gone and here you are ohhhh I wish you well moodswing bestwishes Orgami |
| from orgami : |
| the grey of eve settles still and quiet the joy of moon soon to light above the cover cloud the trees still want to bloom the flowers slow the rains still falling another summer with my love my job my poetry here and on Neopoet.com where I am also Orgami but Ive been with Diaryland since 2005 wow three years here |
| from erases : |
| i can see you married |
| from erases : |
| miss your words here sugardoll |
| from boyecho : |
| oxes on voxes |
| from boyecho : |
| you motherfucker. now it needs a good amp. |
| from silverluna : |
| No, I don't have pictures of mountains on my profile picture. But if you want to add me you can... |
| from silverluna : |
| Really? How did you find me? Did you add me?? |
| from erases : |
| i never left. |
| from boyecho : |
| neko case is touring with crooked fingers. they'll be in mnpls the 26th or april, or thereabouts... i plan on catching them in savannah... |
| from erases : |
| YAYURBACK!#@!$ |
| from punklola : |
| if you ever stop chasing your dreams, that'll be proof that there's no hope for me. |
| from erases : |
| leaving? so soon? |
| from silverluna : |
| What's your username for NaNoWriMo? I'm silvercchile. Look me up. I'll need the help... |
| from orgami : |
| P.S. Neco Case just makes my heart and Time stand still Furnace Room Lullabye Maybe Sparrow i have them on my facebook and i listen to them a lot they are so beautiful her voice is angelic and more and that red hair |
| from orgami : |
| Amy Winehouse Wow cool and original and possible she may be dead soon (sad hollywood) Like system of a down's Old School Hollywood a year or more come and gone i write like to maybe three people from diaryland Mostly I moved to Neopoet where I am well recieved as a poet still in same place same woman new part time job longer hair back in touch with all my ex's Wow they are like all great women with fantastic intelligence and creativity and they all write awesome poetry Amy Winehouse has a great voice I like her better then Bif Naked who just seemed to flame out after Spaceman song ah well take care Moodswing |
| from punklola : |
| Oh my god you are a legend, I love you. Amazon here I come! |
| from erases : |
| and the door man said: "ding dong!" and sara said, "bling-a-long-a-ding-dong!" in return and the door man said "bing-a-shing-a-sing-song!" and sara said "oh no you dee ent, schlama lamaa ding dongggg!" |
| from erases : |
| you one kinky bitch! |
| from silverluna : |
| oh my goodness. NaNoWriMo is coming up! I have to start getting used to writing! I'm not a very descriptive person. Last year I got over 2,000 words. An accomplishment for me, but not enough for them... |
| from erases : |
| what's up, stinky? |
| from punklola : |
| Why, I am living my dear! Existing in the dull, boring, soul-destroying monotony that I wanted to avoid for another five/ten/fifteen/forever. |
| from boxx9000 : |
| I want everything, too. |
| from silverluna : |
| wow, you sounded excited/tired/confused/i-don't-know-what today. It was all that hidden lingo. You knew what you were saying so that everyone else could be confused. And right now I am very confused... |
| from silverluna : |
| well i don't know if you realized it, but I was in a bad boating accident on memorial day. a boat propeller cut the back of my leg. It's been 4 months already, and my leg has completely closed. But the doctor said I couldn't swim for a year because bacteria might try to Get in the wound again. As long as I am able to swim one day, then that's fine for me... |
| from silverluna : |
| I haven't been to the beach in so long. Maybe abouet 7 months. I used to drive to a smaller beach after work, just to walk and breathe in the air. I'm glad I can still feel those moments. The doctor said I could swim in any kind of water for a year. But that won;t stop me from going to the beach. Soon I will have my car. Soon, I will be able to discover the missing piece of my heart. I need a vacation, for real... |
| from punklola : |
| Sounds to me like you need goddamn rollercoasters. |
| from punklola : |
| well if the wedding actually goes ahead, then you are more than welcome to come over and be my beautiful evil accomplice for the day. i <3 dresses so much, does that make me a bad dyke? |
| from erases : |
| i find it strange, too. but he does it because he's a pimp. and he's scottish. i read in a little interview he did for our local magazine that he's a good writer because of "years of alcohol abuse" it was really a great experience to meet him. |
| from erases : |
| blow me |
| from erases : |
| you always know if a stereo system is good if it passes the tomorrow comes today test |
| from punklola : |
| i dare you to get a prison tattoo |
| from punklola : |
| Nothing exciting, just working in a baby/maternity shop part-time. I'll be surrounded by children all day, my patience will be truly tested. |
| from erases : |
| "It's a twister!" - Bill Paxton |
| from punklola : |
| I don't know yet, the date's not been set but it will be a weekend. (I totally just posted this in my own notes by accident too. Twat.) |
| from punklola : |
| If you are in Chicago in August, while I am in Chicago in August, then we should totally go get coffee in Chicago in August! |
| from silverluna : |
| wow that's crazy, and awesome. I live in Tampa, and i'll be 26 in 2 months... |
| from punklola : |
| Yeah, eventually you'll have the motivation and the reason to quit. I only managed it because I shut myself in my bedroom, did not leave my bed for a week and a half and ate approximately half my own bodyweight in chocolate. I do feel like part of my personality is missing now though, and I definitely feel less artistic and a helluva lot less badass. |
| from punklola : |
| :O No more sideways piano? Not that I blame you for changing, I can hardly leave mine alone for a month never mind a year. |
| from erases : |
| exactly. |
| from erases : |
| exactly. |
| from punklola : |
| pepsimax this is on the strict deal that you leave your password in a note for me if/when you lock yours again, by the way. |
| from punklola : |
| "we will ride GODDAMN ROLLERCOASTERS and then i will drink a lot of rum and pass out with my typewriter in the sand" some of the things you write remind me of me, and some of them just make me grin. this does both. :D |
| from erases : |
| AKG |
| from erases : |
| believe it or not, street spirit came on random on my ipod last night as i was walking around my neighborhood, and i was hit with the same feeling. |
| from sky-rocket : |
| thanks. |
| from tinkernutt : |
| i like that you are all tech savvy but you forgot your chord on my table where it is currently "marinating" muhahahahaha |
| from alivetoyou : |
| wow, I really didn't think it would happen that fast. thank you. |
| from iamhere682 : |
| Minneapolis is a good place. Lots of stuff to do. |
| from moodswing : |
| maybe i'd be a copycat if i hadn't had this layout for like EVER.. i want to change it but it reminds me of adam turla |
| from moodswing : |
| maybe i'd be a copycat if i hadn't had this layout for like EVER.. i want to change it but |
| from boyecho : |
| years ago i had a picture of the moog running up the left side of my page, all big. copycat. |
| from ceciliaruns : |
| There is nothing more powerful to me as an artist than to feel I have been influential and inspiring to a fellow artist. Thank you for sharing that with me. Best wishes with your book. When it is published, I would like to know. |
| from boyecho : |
| indeed. it's what happens when six elder gods of death/afterlife are circled around a campfire at night. |
| from ceciliaruns : |
| ooooh! an adventure. what is it so i can live vicariously while scraping baby poop off the ceiling? |
| from ceciliaruns : |
| ha! shall i sent you some rose quartz on a necklace chain, some japanese incense and the latest deepak chopra video complete with BAD digital effects and even worse music? (Because I have ALL those things in my personal collection if you'd like to borrow them sometime) |
| from ceciliaruns : |
| Freudian slip - mean to say HATE |
| from ceciliaruns : |
| when is my birthday? unexpected question. are you going to send me a present? maybe fedex me a pony? or a personal assistant or something? i was born january 3. i am a capricorn. tight assed - boring as hell capricorn or at least that's what they say. which is why i don't put much stock in astrology. i am soooo not tight assed. except when it comes to dishes. i had unclean dishes. |
| from ceciliaruns : |
| aye - there will indeed be more to follow if the relationship is worth anything. husband and i like to deflate the wieght of it all by laughing over coffee about what was said - much later on of course. our favorite to recount is one conversation between us before bed when we were both deeply over-stressed, in which he called me 'a bitter angry woman' and i called him 'a wreck of a man'. ahhhh, good stuff. |
| from atrandom : |
| I had to clear away the dust; I've not been here in several eons. I'm tucked away in thee burg of saint peters. Not so far off from you, it appears? Your page is delicious and challenging. I'm determined to peruse the nearly hidden, microscopic print. |
| from orgami : |
| odd to see my very old old note been out of the school since last summer and here it is glorious spring fresh life pushing up to seek the sunshine and warmth i cannot wait to see the flowers back and the trees in bloom my fourth summer in newfound love ..O.. |
| from chaosorder : |
| Your post from yesterday afternoon was moving in its honesty. Thank you. |
| from basal : |
| I hope you did not have anything of real import in that notebook, like a list of people to hug before you die. |
| from desolicious : |
| HAHAHA spatula. <3 |
| from orgami : |
| who are you?? hah I am only old Orgami sitting here at break during work typing on the school computer almost time to go things are good here just getting back to my diaryland world finding the old contacts and favourites ..O.. |
| from cheekyash : |
| disconnected - that might damn well be the word. i'm adding you back. excuse the delay, i'm searching for something. i was born july 24th 1989. i was born head first. |
| from cheekyash : |
| i really liked your words. and your layout's great too |
| from itineration : |
| casino = i lose. i think i need to find a new job. this mood that i'm trapped in is looking for the significant side of everything and never finding it. it's laying in my bed and closing my eyes trying to sleep as much as possible. |
| from itineration : |
| casino = i win. i think i've found a new job. |
| from itineration : |
| i was just sort of there. in general, i am just sort of here. i am taking pictures with my polaroid, i am walking because my car is broken, i am twenty, unemployed, not looking forward to getting a job, almost broke. |
| from x-yamroll : |
| i like rain because nobody can tell im crying |
| from orgami : |
| out there at the edge of the night where the light slows to fall upon the waving grass there is an animal place where they live their animal lives and we walk our lit shovelled world in our streetlamp safe streets and sometimes wonder whom is whom and what is when and how forget the whys saw some rabbit tracks the other day down by the railyards something semi wild and then saw some black birds together in the middle of the street pecking dirt and salt made me feel human somehow Crumb makes me reminds me of how predatory our small little predator is her sharp needle teeth her long claws her prowling ways when I play with her "mouse" we bought her at the dollar store she is precious like life each hour that slips past in furtive shifts ........ |
| from itineration : |
| apologize for drinking wine? drink is good. very good. canada = something useful to do with the age of 19. |
| from caughtpurity : |
| I like the way you tell a story. [Short Desc. Here.] :) |
| from aroundmyneck : |
| i always say jesus lately too didnt quite understand what you were getting to i just turned 15... and are you saying im lame or uhh you know not |
| from maybessmash : |
| there can never be too much tori. |
| from boyecho : |
| you simply must do something about your spelling of the word "Impermanence". |
| from boyecho : |
| what do you need to borrow your neighbors for? |
| from orgami : |
| writing all my audience Love the lamp photo reminds me of haunted houses not much to say except Lori and I are moving way the hell up the hill maybe mean less writing at the library will see how far it is to walk the half mile to here everyday good exercise if it goes well well thats about it We are doing well still In Love still talking marriage Chloe My daughter and I are in contact again with one another She is going into grade nine this year She and I went to a Green Day COncert I was a blast we had lots of fun ...O.. |
| from baby-worms : |
| Sory Sara! It's changed now! |
| from orgami : |
| impertinence god I need a dictionary its so hot out today hope we dont have another blackout people collect and people throw away freedom rather then a dictated dictatorship about what colour set say hair length size dimensions of what one can be or cannot but the great thing that loss is about personal freedom when people have it and they forget to risk and reach for something like an adventure momentum to be to aspire and perspire from exertion brainular and physicular hmm what is it I am saying should I BE doing this myself answer:Yes |
| from orgami : |
| saturday cool and serene slight wind off the lake sails denote a good day for such excursions on the large lake Nippy North Bay moderately busy My Bunni and I on an outing to the library She to check her e-mail freinds I to check my Diaryland freinds we have an hour to write to be creative to answer enquiries and make sentences and fill them with grammar library is filling up now with old and young alike Nice to be busy here to be in the bub hub of activity I like your Pick Me Or Else male attitude notifications of behaviourisms We like to think we are the answer to most womens troubles and can banish all worry by our instruments between our legs Pick me or else and they write that ditty in the good ol' bible about a woman scorned I think they mistook our male madness and idiocy and calculating drives We males have more scorn then women Well not all males there are some good out there anyway Lori and I are going to be moving and we have little in the way of furniture so all what we get we shall make a new place It reminds me of a dollhouse or the SIMS this apartment for us First real living with someone experience I've had with any woman All the others came with Chattel and income and tons of stuff collective materials I of course brought my charm and good looks..Hah it is so exciting to think of us together getting a new place coming up in July we will be one year together Thank God we are still together all that has come to pass water under the bridge and all that Our daughters will likely be coming to visit us too in July I am so very much looking forward to this Chloe is Fourteen and Ataya is ten Nice to get back in touch with everyone anyway must be going now again But I see I have written you much e-mails take care until MOnday or better (sunday the library is closed) Bye for now Orgami over and out.. |
| from orgami : |
| twenty two so young innocent of years I am what I am forty eighties were my teen years ronald ray gun Billy Idol siouxsie sioux alcoholism and death idealixation now I just wander around the city with or without Lori and look forward to the beach where I hope the wind is not too strong where I can crash out and listen to people talking all around me the mothers with their young the older with none grandkids and punks and all the grand collusion of strange attractions and the water ohh the grand depths of water murky hazy greens and ambers like tea or flavoured fog banks |
| from burnthememry : |
| hey, yeah i really like Starflyer 59! i've never heard denison marrs, but i'll keep that in mind and check them out. thanks for the comment! how did you happen to find my diaryland? |
| from dgr : |
| hello. i feel for you. chin up. :/ |
| from orgami : |
| slushy puddles under the railroad bridge rails torn up on top snow and birdshit down here underneath and garbage people seem to empty their pockets at this point of their trip coming from downtown or going out of town pigeons up there on the rusting steel the wooden ties thick and heavy in warm days you can smell the cresote car exhaust writing you today because I see you have written me as a favourite and I write tons of people sometimes and never really expect a response but there you are and here I am Lori and I are fine getting along well summer will be here in this little damp city soon the lake is dark so the ice will be gone in twenty or more days or less candle ice creeping up over the breakwall at the goverment dock people will be out in droves along the water walkway and beach stone wall for the more adventurous to travel upon has diaryland been around for five years?? well any rate I must go soon I have a pot of coffee on at home still and delivered a package for Lori's little girl to the mail what a suprise she will get in a few days time I did a sketch of her from photo so that will be sweet all is well enough here suppose mellow today must be the rain maybe Ill have a coffee downtown and flirt with the Subway shop woman again harmless i'm too old to be of danger anymore .... |
| from itineration : |
| great authors; also, i have noticed as well that girls seem to love my comment areas. i am not complaining. |
| from basal : |
| hi |
| from talk-hard : |
| Brilliant, darling, brilliant. That makes me so happy that someone as articulate and neat as you would want to spend time looking through this doodle pad pulled out of my arse. And, Tom Waits is fantastic. I always pretend he's my Tom Waits and he's telling me stories. Something in the voice. It's very theatrical and detached, and all the same, instensely personal. Stay beautiful--and I shall comment more on your diary. I read it, you know, and then think about it to myself and don't message, which makes me feel oddly voyeuristic. Stranggeee, that. |
| from talk-hard : |
| How do you knoooww I'm not an old man at a typewriter? Well, naturally, I'm on a computer NOW, of course, but otherwise, I could spend all of my time on a typewriter. Or, something. |
| from dgr : |
| right. very wise. |
| from nysocialite : |
| wow, your funny..and awesome to read...note me..ttyl |
| from pezpunka : |
| You're awesome because you like Fugazi. |
| from jfsuperstar : |
| like the stripes, moodswing. i'm browsing around diaryland instead of doing my job. don't tell on me. stop by and visit anytime. |
| from rhyme : |
| oh that sounds like MUCH more fun than being stuck in various concentration camps all the time. it gets to be depressing, really. and you mean besides the "sticky nutz loves me" shirt? 'cause steph passed that along already. say thanks for me if i can't make it next week (but i will try, i wanted to go yesterday but seeing as i had a test this morning i thought it would not be wise). |
| from boyecho : |
| how dare you talk about how your day was on your diary. for fucks sake woman. |
| from wovangel : |
| Jesus, my last note was horriable, sorry.. I can relate to your diary, but, you need to have a bit less of a: "this-was-my-day" Feal to it, it's cool though. :D |
| from wovangel : |
| I like your layout, I like you name too.. -------------------------------------- Eruumm.. well.. your brothe rtryed to fix your comp? My brother wrecked my comp too, it got fixed by hif friend. :D --- Stacey |
| from gas-station : |
| i love your layout |
| from pezpunka : |
| A little horny. Thanks for asking. |
| from tfs-fx : |
| A wise old philosopher once said, "Anger is a gift". Oh wait, that wasn't a philosopher at all. That was Rage Against The Machine. |
| from tfs-fx : |
| so I have this friend who is always touring and I asked him where the best places for shows were. He said Florida. He said lots of people come out even for local and small unknown national acts. |
| from tfs-fx : |
| Keep swingin' at 'em, kid. Eventually you're gonna hit one outta the park. |
| from sstephanie : |
| love the new look, i check you daily! :) |
| from unsweptroom : |
| guilty as charged :) my birthday is on the 8th. are you a pisces? |
| from rhyme : |
| i've left too many silly notes. oh well. it's 'cause i like you! |
| from rhyme : |
| yeah, but sometimes the bits that aren't nonsensical make me tear up. actually that was just today's entry. but that's still quite an accomplishment. (i'd tell you why but really i'm not sure. heh.) |
| from rhyme : |
| what's with your guestbook? or is it just me? not that it matters because i've completely forgotten what i was going to say. eh. |
| from audrelorde : |
| my diary is moving: unsweptroom.diaryland.com |
| from tarabelly : |
| hey you sarabear, sara lee and saralicous. i am not up to date i know with all of your new nicknames. how are you my sara dear? i rather miss you, and miss talking to you. gettting you to email is is futile i know. i don't know why because you live inside the internet or something. i don't know, having a car is great, you are great, my life is great hooray! well, i was gonna tell you something, but i don't want everyone to know, and i would give you my password and username to my diary so you can know everything, but i don't want everyone to know, maybe i will email it to you, and you can read about my life as it is yo. hee hee, peace and hair grease, your tarabelle. ps I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from jason75 : |
| hey there Moody one.. just had a quick read and wanted you to know I loved your diary, was great. Thanks. |
| from sickofshadow : |
| I'm glad you like that joke...it made me laugh too:) |
| from invisibledon : |
| I have a survey would you take it please, it is called invisibledon |
| from miss-miami : |
| Thanks for joining the crushes diary ring! Please add the HTML code asap! |
| from invisibledon : |
| thanks for leaving me a note back in my notes -- I just randomly did that to 5 people to see if anyone would sign mine -- you were the only one --sorry I don't have a prize for you but I can say thanks again ;) |
| from invisibledon : |
| thanks |
| from bug2099 : |
| thank you, i love you too! |
| from moodswing : |
| just leavin' myself a message. word. |
| from smackahoe : |
| i really just don't get you sometimes. |
| from rhyme : |
| happy birthday, love! |
| from un-bad : |
| Fat Albert is just too cool. |
| from boyecho : |
| and thank you for telling me you think i am good at guitar :) teehee. that made my day. |
| from boyecho : |
| again i thank you for helping me in a time of need. an emergency! who would have thought that meatloaf would be the answer to my 'quick give me a cheesy love song!' plea. oh sara. thank you so! |
| from shady78 : |
| i just wanted to say that your diary layout is very cool...keep up the good work... |
| from cylee305 : |
| i love your site. i don't know, there's really nothing else to say. bleh. sickness sucks. continue to write, continue to live... -peace- |
| from rhyme : |
| ooh, pretty |
| from rhyme : |
| although i guess :D isn't exactly menacing, is it. o well |
| from rhyme : |
| Yeah, you better be. :: menacing look :: :D |
| from moodswing : |
| i'm okay. mmhm. i promise. :) |
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