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| from dangerspouse : |
| I hope your mom is alright, Vince. My best wishes for a full recovery. You're a good son being there for her. (ps. time to update your profile, unless you want to be forever 13 years old.) :) |
| from valasaurus : |
| Sorry for your loss..stay strong. |
| from samantha-m : |
| This is cut right from my diary --- Speaking of crying, I cried earlier tonight. Well, last night. I was feeling bitchy and I had just sat down to the computer when my brother told me to help my mom record a show. He knows how to record stuff, so it made me really angry that they had me go all the way to the living room to put in the tape and press record. I was cussing a lot [my mom lets me now, which is a relief, but odd] and my brother followed me to the computer and was saying something [I forgot what] and I said something, then I said "I don't love you. Or anyone in this stupid fucking house." And immediately I felt bad because my brother is super connected to me and I knew I had hurt him a lot. Even though hurt is what I was going for, I felt so fucking awful. He left and as soon as he did I almost cried. I was going to try and be tough, try and convince myself I wasn't lying, but I was. And so, a minute later I called him in there. At first he didn't want to come, and I knew he'd been crying. And I felt even worse. And so I yelled at him to come right away, and as soon as he did I looked into his eyes, which were red because of me, and I said I was sorry. He came and hugged me, just like I knew he would, because he is so fucking awesome that I don't know how I deserve him at all. And I told him that I didn't mean any of it, and that I was sorry to be hurtful. And I told him something I don't think I'd told him before. I told him how he was the one person I loved more than anything else in the whole entire world. And I started to cry, because as much as I hate to admit it, he is my world. And as much as I try to distance myself from him, I love him so, so, so much that I'm sobbing right now just thinking about it. And it's so awesome because he's 14, he'll be 15 in September, yet he is still my little boy. I'm practically his mom, and he is still so amazing. He has his moments, like anyone else, but overall he is a better person than I could ever hope to be. And it still amazes me how much he loves me. I don't know what I ever did to deserve love like his. I'm crying and I feel so much for him that I don't know how to put it into words. So I'll take my last words from Barry White. Vincent, you are my sun, my moon, my rising star, my kind of wonderful that's what you are. And even though I locked this from you, I hope you know how much I love you. And I'm going to try with all of my might to tell you, and mom that I love you more often. We used to say it every night, what happened? I will help us say it every night again. Because I love you both so much. Mom, I know you have no idea I even have this diary,. but I love you so much, too. And you having that stroke scares me more than I'd like to admit. I'd be lost without you. Please take care of yourself, I really don't know what I'd do without you.---[the end] I love you Vince, don't ever think I don't because I love you more than anyone! I'm just a teenage girl going through teenage girl crap and I don't quite know how to handle it all. We'll talk later, ok? Love-Sam aka your lovely sis :) |
| from samantha-m : |
| I love you too, more than I can express. I write about you sometimes in my diary, but you can't see it 'cause it's locked. I'm gonna paste what I wrote on another note. Love, Me :) |
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