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from pyt223 :

did u get the pics and oh yeah read my diary when ya get a chance

from gracieskates :

i knew hugo wouldn't last that long as the "friend" you are such a hoe bag! that is why i love you!!!

from barbiewoman :

I had to lock up so e-mail me at [email protected] to get the password

from gracieskates :

What up bitch??? Glad you are doing good. you need to send me your new address!!

from pyt223 :

cnote, it's me, Amoney...val hooked me up. i've written 2 entries. and i love what u wrote bout dj...holla at ur girl

from lifeasme66 :

Good to know you are doing well, girl! Sounds like you're having a fun time =) I was happy to see your update, missed ya! **HUGS!!**

from skinnylizzie :

You're back! YAY! Sounds like you're having a good time, can't wait to hear what else you get up to!

from silverscorp :

Hey I'm moving to another diary. If you would like the url let me know. Also may I have your password?

from skinnylizzie :

Haha, we do the normal/crazy pose thing too, although I usually end up looking like a twat so don't show anybody it! You'll have to let me know how you manage to still look nice :). Anyway, nice pictures!

from lifeasme66 :

Hahaha hilarious pics, girl! **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Awww... I actually feel like you're really leaving! Isn't that sad?? Although, I gotta say you will get no sympathy from me for having too much sex! =P Have a great weekend, girl, and safe trip if you don't post right before you leave **HUGS!!**

from barbiewoman :

Yeah- I got in- I was just hung over that day and did something wrong- You should be getting my pic anyday now! Let me know when you do! When do you leave?

from skinnylizzie :

Hmm, I'd go with the suggestion below if you're lucky enough to have Photoshop! Unfortunately I'm not. I'm using Windows XP and MS Paint is usually under Accessories. Sometimes it's listed as Paint, sometimes as MS Paint. Still, if you have Photoshop...I'd definitely use that. Sounds like far less of a hassle!

from lifeasme66 :

Resizing is super easy if you have Adobe Photoshop, and you can retain the quality of the pictures too. Still, I enjoyed yours! Cute Cute! **HUGS!!**

from skinnylizzie :

Erm...I resize mine using the incredibly unsophisticated Paint. I know there's probably quicker ways (and much better programs), but I usually cut and paste the picture into Word, resize it and then copy it back into Paint and save it. If you lose some picture quality whilst copying back into Paint, take a screenshot of the picture in Word (press the 'print screen' button) and then press copy in Paint. Right, have probably made a complete arse of myself now, but that's how I do it as my laptop doesn't have any sophisticated software! Hope it helps (will understand COMPLETELY if it doesn't...)

from skinnylizzie :

Yay for the pictures! Glad it worked, your dog is so cute!

from skinnylizzie :

Hey, I use photobucket.com for my photos, it's not too bad as long as you don't exceed the bandwidth (I never have). Just sign up, upload a photo and underneath it gives you the code that you just copy and paste into your 'add an entry' box, and voila! I think it's the middle code underneath the photo. Right, this probably makes no sense, but hope it helps a little if you did want to upload any, it would be nice to see some! If you need anymore help just leave me a note or email me :)

from barbiewoman :

Ummm-yeah- I am too hung over- I got it! baaaahahaha!

from barbiewoman :

DUDE! I have been using the password- "suck" and its not working! NOw I know its been a while since I have been on here- but damn! Did I forget it or something or am I too hung over to type straight?!Let me know- I gotta catch up on you! XOXO- I mailed the pic today by the way! YAY! 3/29

from lifeasme66 :

HAhaah, seriously girl, that was like me taking a walk through my old journals. What a trip. I totally agree with you, if I only knew what I know now about how to deal with guys. Not that it's perfection now, but it's a whole helluvalot more than it was then! **HUGS!!**

from silvaciv :

Yes your diary is still locked! :-)

from lifeasme66 :

Yup, girl, your diary is safe and locked! Wow, you are leaving soon... will you still be able to post? Hope so, or I will miss you terribly! **HUGS!!**

from skinnylizzie :

Thank you for the birthday wishes! Not too late at all, m'dear, it's just nice to get some birthday love! And I too would like to see another year full of Frank Lampard lookalikes, hehe!

from lifeasme66 :

I wish I could help you feel better, but I know how hard it is. When my cat of 19 years died, I had that same empty feeling. And for the longest time, I'd see something like a white plastic bag on the floor or a white pillow on the couch from the corner of my eye, and my first reaction was that it was him sitting there. It's really tough, but I can tell you it does get better. Eventually, it stops being sad and you'll only think of the good stuff when you remember her. **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Aww sweetie, I'm so sorry. I know it's tough, you can get so attached to a pet, they can be like children. I wish I knew what to say to make it better. But at least you'll know she is in a safe place with people who will look after her. **HUGS!!**

from skinnylizzie :

Molly sounds so cute, I'm so sorry you've got to leave her behind - I know how that feels. Also dropped by to say a huge THANK YOU for that kind note, it made me feel so much better than most of my friends have. To quote from my lovely Geordie friends here at uni, you're a 'canny lass' :) (trust me, that's an honour from a Geordie!). Anyway, have a safe trip, and thanks again. xx

from lifeasme66 :

Wishing you a safe drive, and hopefully not too much heartbreak from parting with your pookie... but I know how sad it feels. Warm thoughts to you, hon **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Ooooh, have fun on the cruise, girl! I've always wanted to go on one. My family went to Alaska a few years ago on a cruise, they loved it. Great food, and yeah, you can dress up for parts of it. Make sure you take some sunscreen though!! **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Sounds like you had a good time! And that J behaved himself the whole trip =P **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

I'm happy you got flowers! I've always wanted that too. Yeah, it's typically cheesy v-day stuff, but can't help it if it makes a girl happy! Hasn't happened ever to me yet, I guess there's always next year =) **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Sounds like fun V-day plans, enjoy!!! **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Wow... I loved that story. You'll have to remind me to tell the story of Jaime sometime, reading yours brought back all sorts of crazy feelings! **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Hehe, I'll have to snatch this survey from you... cuz I got nothing interesting to write about! **HUGS!!**

from skinnylizzie :

I feel so loved by the taggedness! Hmm, I read a few weeks ago about Orlando and Kate in a British tabloid mag, I haven't stopped celebrating yet. No more beaus for me!!!

from lifeasme66 :

Haha! Thanks for doing the lame survey, girl! I think you might the only person I tagged who will actually do it... why can't they all be as cool as you? ;) **HUGS!!**

from silvaciv :

Hey, yes that was you I was talking about :) I'm glad you weren't offended by it - I know I'm a complete stranger to you and some people wouldn't exactly like hearing a stranger tell them what they think about their life. But anyways, I just read your last entry and feel so bad for you that you're going through this hard time. I know how much you'd like to leave your boyfriend. I can only imagine how trapped you feel. I dated a guy for 5 years and for the last year, I lived with him and felt so trapped that I eventually couldn't take it anymore and had to get out...so it must be so much harder for you to not be able to leave the relationship. And you definitely don't deserve to be treated the way he treats you!! I'd be happy to talk to you about it more if you'd like..email me at [email protected] if you want. I know you sound very willing to get out of the relationship, so maybe I can help. Good luck!

from lifeasme66 :

Oh hon... I'm so sorry. I know what those crying fits feel like, happens every time I cry too. I think your argument sounded like, to him, that you didn't believe you were giving him enough. In which case, his argument will be "yes you are." It doesn't put you in a position to fight for what you want. I dunno if this makes sense. I've tried to break up this way, tried to tell him that I wasn't what he needed. He only argued back saying that I gave him more than anyone ever has, he feels more for me than anyone else, blah blah blah... it's nice, but it isn't a way out. The angle to work should be based on what you want for YOU. "I deserve someone who treats me like an equal. Someone who doesn't constantly make me feel bad. Someone I look forward to being with." Then, it isn't negotiable. I know it's hard... and yeah, I should follow my own advice. But if you really want out, I think this is the way to do it. Wish I could offer you more than an internet hug... **HUGS!!**

from x-plicity :

Wow, the boyfriend is just a little toxic, isn't he?

from lifeasme66 :

Geez girl, I'm amazed you get anywhere with him. I didn't read anywhere in there that you were giving him attitude or anything. *shakes head* Honestly! **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Me again, thanks for the shout-out! Dude, I totally agree with you about the Bachelorette... and definitely, something about JP's mouth really bothers me too. I can't help but stare at that the entire time he's on the screen. Personally, I think she should give Ben more of a chance. I bet he's a total sweetie! Anyway, just a little bit of unimportant crap here... hehe! **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Girl, I got so mad just reading your entry! I dunno how you put up with all that! 'Course then, I've been there, and I know it's hard to leave. Yeah, eventually you kinda do just shut down and stop caring. That's when it's easiest to make the break. In any case, I agree that he is totally lying to you about who he's hanging out with. It's like they always say, he feels guilty so starts acting super nice and calling and checking, and HE's the one accusing YOU of cheating... so maybe HE really is! Anyway, you could totally use all this recent stupidity concerning the roommate (who is totally reasonable with her compromise, in my opinion) to really tell him off, if you feel up to it. Cuz seriously, now it's affecting more than just you and him. Stay strong, girl, hope it works out! **HUGS!!**

from barbiewoman :

GIRL- You best be doing some PI work- The fucker is LYING! Make him take his car- or let him take yours and have a friend come by and pick you up and ride by where he is supposed to be at. And check the cell girl- check his cell!

from weaselgrrl :

Thanks for leaving a note for me in my diary. :) Feel free to read it whenever you want. Sorry if I tend to jump around alot with my thoughts in it.. Its hard for me to stay on track sometimes. LOL.

from barbiewoman :

Well- Your mom already knows you are going to Germany right? If not tell her and HIM at the same time- If she does konw then make her act like she doesn't and go there and tell them both. That way he can't flip and if he's gonna flip he'll do something or say something there. Eat dinner at your mom's or something. one of your family members.

from x-plicity :

Good idea to wait until monday to tell the boyfriend. Just try to be as honest with him as possible and remember that lying to him will only drag everything out more then it has to be.

from lifeasme66 :

I'm sorry, hon. I know it's hard. I wish I knew what to tell you. Sometimes, the right thing is the hardest thing to do. Hey, you know I KNOW all about that! Thanks, btw, for your comment. I think you're right about us girls... we may know what's best, but that doesn't mean we're any better at doing it. **HUGS!!**

from skinnylizzie :

You're such a sweetie. And as I'm feeling better today, I'm here to return some hugs. You're not a weak person at all, I think you're far stronger than I could ever hope to be in that sort of situation. Keep on smiling :) *hugs*

from x-plicity :

AWWW!!!!!

from barbiewoman :

Heh heh- "He's gonna be needing a big box of tissues". I like that shit! You should say it to him next time he pisses you off just so you can write it in here- Say like fuck off and get a big box of tissues to wipe your cryin eyes- I'm out beyoch! HAHA! That would be funny. I am kidding tho- Its kinda mean. He'd so die if he ever read this shit! I am getting my pic of me and my dog soon- so I just gotta wait until they take em and develop them.

from lifeasme66 :

Word. I've said the exact same thing about the racial quota on Bachelor/Bachelorette. They shouldn't even bother with the token non-white guy/girl, cuz they always get cut at the second round anyway. Yup, I definitely say they need a non-white Bachelor/Bachelorette. I'd tune in! **HUGS!!**

from skinnylizzie :

Ah, I lived in Germany for six years as a kid, it's a great place (even if the language isn't the prettiest I've ever heard!)

from lifeasme66 :

Wow, hon. What a venting session! =) I hope it felt good. And man, Germany, how cool is that? **HUGS!!**

from x-plicity :

A prayer: May your evening be uninterrupted and may the wine flow freely from the bottle. Amen.

from x-plicity :

Hey, Hon! I was wondering if you could share your password. I Know I asked before, but I'm not sure if I gave you the right address. Unless you don't want to share. Totally understand. :) *hugs* X

from pipersplace :

Thanks for making me a favorite.

from skinnylizzie :

Y'know, the worrying thing about that 'end of year' quote is that I can't really think of a certain thing for it (with the possible exception of my stupid A Level exams)...it just fits. And the song rocks, dammit! Thank you for the merry Christmas message, glad you had a good one :)

from barbiewoman :

AH- I got your pic! You are SOOOOO Pretty! And far from fat girl let me tell you- and if the camera puts on 10lbs then you really need to EAT not go on Weight Watchers! I am getting pics done in January of me and my dog! And I have your address so I'll send em there! I have you in a pic frame I got for x-mas! My internet love! XO!

from lifeasme66 :

Welcome back!! So glad to hear you had a wonderful Christmas with family... and I hear ya about how addicting the site is. It's kinda cool that now I can put a face to your writing =) **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Hey girl, got your Xmas card. Thanks!!!! You and your pookie are the cutest!! Thank you for the well wishes, I hope you have a GREAT New Years too =) **HUGS!!**

from skinnylizzie :

Hey, I know it's early (I like to be prepared, hehe), but have a great Christmas!

from lifeasme66 :

Have a safe trip! Happy holidays! **HUGS!!**

from barbiewoman :

Um- Yeah I have a hang over if you must know! Sorry for the typos!

from barbiewoman :

Hey- I didn't know you were catholic! ME too! So yeah- If ya wanna sed me and X-mas card- I'd love to have one! Me? I am too cheap to buy some- HEHE! But If ya wanna send one I'll give ya my address!

from lifeasme66 :

Hey, if you're looking to get rid of extra Xmas cards, you can send me one! I wanna see the doggy! =P Oh, and thanks for your comment, hon. It's nice to be happy for once =) **HUGS!!**

from thegoodbiboy :

It's always good to be added! Glad you are reading. Feel free to drop a note whenever you like! Thanks again, and HI back to you.

from lifeasme66 :

I wanna see the doggy! =P Happy holidays, hon! **HUGS!!**

from x-plicity :

Can I have the password to your diary? You can send it to [email protected]. Thanks, hon. Take care of yourself.

from lifeasme66 :

Oh honey, I just read your entry before last, before last... yeah, I know, I'm a little behind! But I just really felt what you were saying about J. You know, it isn't you. Yes, there may have been things that you did which you believe have made the relationship worse. But we are all guilty of such things. Nobody can be perfect all of the time. And there is no relationship out there that doesn't have some conflict in it. What it comes down to, is how the people involved resolve the conflict. Do they talk things out? Do they try to understand each other? Do they love and respect one another enough to forgive the mistakes that are made? You don't deserve the way J is treating you. If he refuses to ever let this go, you have a right to be upset. It's not like you can go back and change what happened. He needs to forgive and concentrate on how you guys are now, not how things were before. But you know, there's something to be said about people like him. No matter what you do, how much time you give him, how much you try to be exactly what he wants, it won't be enough. The one you are with should accept you for you. Because YOU are all you can be. You can't be someone you're not. **HUGS!!** p.s.--so sorry for the long dissertation here!

from irishblueyes :

Thanks so much for adding me and saying hi! I'd love to read yours as well if you'd like to drop me the password!

from lifeasme66 :

Oh man, Dr. K sounds like one of those doctors we (as pharmacists) can't stand. They don't like changing meds, they don't like us calling and telling them that a patient needs something else... And, maybe it's doctors like him that keep writing pain scripts for these patients who are obviously abusers. We always wonder how they get refills for controlled medication when they're all strung out! **HUGS!!**

from barbiewoman :

Wow- I read your older entries from when you locked up and your situation sounds like me and my ex. It just got worse honey- He won't let this go, he's gonna keep digging and keep digging until he knows it all and he's gonna drive you nuts. My ex wanted to read my diary and this shit was from when I was 12- yeah thats a long time ago- I was still a virgin then and so it has all my deepest darkest secrets and feelings and things I did- and I told him he had no business reading it, cause they don't and it killed him not knowing anything, but think about it- would you want to know about his past and personal life...before you. No I didn't think so. He has some issues- obviously he does not trust you and reguardless if it is your fault or not, its true and if you don't have trust it's hard to make things better. You know? I think when you go off to Korea you'll be able to seperate yourself from him and realize that you're happier with out him. But you should not have thrown out your old planners and diary's. When he is not in your life anymore you'll wish you hadn't. Hell I keep notes and diary's and things like you did, those are memories honey that you'll forget as you get older. Hell I can go through it and be like damn- I forgot about that! I even dated some guy Jeff, not too long ago, with whom I would have never known I datyed him in middle school and he only dated me to get close to my slut of a friend and he dumped me. LOL- U know its things like that- someone who loves you should not make you throw away your most cherished memories. It's just not fair- Jealousy kills realtionships- look what it's doing to you. Ok- shit next time I'll just e-mail your ass! Sorry! I lava you! Think about what I am sayin tho. XOXO

from lifeasme66 :

Wow, read your reasons for locking up. Yeah, I agree it is for the best. It's funny how the real reason any of us locks up is to keep people we know from reading. Everyone else, perfect strangers, are free to know everything about us. Isn't it weird? **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Thanks for the 411, hon. Sorry J is giving you so many troubles =(... I hope it gets better, and I'll be sure to keep up with ya when you lock up! **HUGS!!**

from barbiewoman :

Dude man! I was getting worried about cha! I was gonna write something in my diary about it but I got wrapped up in my story yesterday. But yeah- Can I please have a password? I hope everything is ok! My e-mail is [email protected] XOXO

from skinnylizzie :

Hey, hope everything's okay. I'd like to keep reading your diary (been a devoted reader since you started!), my email is [email protected] if you need to email me the password. Thanks and again, hope everything's okay x

from lifeasme66 :

Honey, you locked up! I hope everything is alright... **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

About your entry, that understanding you speak of? You will find it! **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Girl, thank you so much for your comment... it makes a lot of sense. And I do think you're right about me wanting to like him more than I do. I dunno, again, too much stress to accurately figure this out just yet, but I think the answers are right around the corner. Thank you so much for your clarity. **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Wow! I like the layout!! **HUGS!!**

from skinnylizzie :

Hey, like the pretty new look! :)

from skinnylizzie :

Aww man, you're so sweet. *hugs* Thank you!

from lifeasme66 :

Can't wait for your 101 page, hon. They're fun to do, and even more fun to read! **HUGS!!**

from barbiewoman :

If you want a pretty page all you gotta do is go to a search engine and type in free layouts for diaryland and you'll get links. Or go to a page like mine and click on the person who designed it they are somewhere and it takes you to their site. You just copy the html shit and change your template and boom its pretty but follow the instructions cause some of the stuff you gotta fix. And if you want to post pics look on a search engine for free picture websites like photo bucket and get a free space to upload pics or even on yahoo. And to link it this is what you do <a href=http.//www.thewebsiteofyourchoice.com </A>the word you want in red like on my site here</A> U see it's pretty easy and there are some cool sites that teach you basic html- just look it up! Hope it helps! And I wanna see a new pretty page since you are bored!

from lifeasme66 :

Girl, that is seriously f*cked up!!! I dunno what his problem is although, I can guess that maybe he thinks YOU are that way in bed? Like, maybe he thinks you just lie there or that you do it without loving him or something like that. And he's trying to give you a taste of your own medicine? I'm not saying that you do this, but it sounds like he might think you do... all his asking about "can you feel a difference?" It's like saying, "This is how it feels. How do you like it?" Either way, I think it's really stupid and immature that he plays this shit out instead of just talking to you and telling you what's wrong. I mean, if he expects you to fix it he should at least tell you what the problem is, right??? Gah, I hope you don't let it bother you too much... cuz really, it's totally his choice to handle the situation this way. Not your fault in the least! **HUGS!!**

from clarity25 :

I know what you mean about feeling old, I've been having that alot lately. After last weeks halloween party I felt like death, an old lady all partied out. Instead of going out, alot of nights I just want to stay in a vegetate. There was a time when that just wasn't a possibility.

from skinnylizzie :

Aww, thanks for your lovely note, it's nice to know somebody doesn't think I'm completely mad for being this upset :). She was ill for a while but not seriously, I was told she had another couple of years left and then it kinda happened out of the blue. But I appreciate the kind note, thank you

from lifeasme66 :

Wow, hon. Thanks for the inside look at J, I can see why it's hard for you to leave. I mean, I understood before cuz you know I've been in the ole emotionally abusive relationship and I know how difficult it can be. This was nice. There's no excuse for someone treating you badly, but it was good to see the other side. And you know, I'm sure he will look back on your time together fondly. Even though all the crap I went through with Jon, he told me he remembers the good stuff. It will be okay =) **HUGS!!**

from barbiewoman :

Hey Girl- Sounds wonderful- Sorry about the rocky beginning but guys always turn kinda sour before their birthdays! To end your entry eater problem before you click done or whatever highlight the whole thing and copy it in case it fucks up you can just paste it and there it is again! It happens to me too!

from lifeasme66 :

Hey girl, glad the birthday thing worked out even if it was a rocky start. And I agree, dude... a playstation and a room at the casino??? Girl, you spoil him rotten! Makin' the rest of us gals look bad =P **HUGS!!**

from clarity25 :

Wow, you ARE the bomb..I can't let Eric read that, my birthday presents are rather inadequate in comparison. Playstation 3! but..how?!. I envy you, Eric's eyes would have dropped out of his head if I presented that to him on his B-day. Plus the room at the casino sounds insanely romantic! I hope the day turns out wonderfully and thanks so much for your last note.

from lifeasme66 :

Congrats! Now, in keeping with Ebay courtesy, make sure you pay the seller in time and leave appropriate feedback ;) **HUGS!!**

from skinnylizzie :

Lol, well done on your fantabulous 'win' - if your bf's anything like my brother (or any other male I know, actually), that playstation will be well loved :)

from lifeasme66 :

Girl, ebay is the bomb! I used to sell tons of stuff on it, and I bought stuff too. Just be smart on it, it's all good! **HUGS!!**

from clarity25 :

Thanks for the "cool" comment, that made me smile and brightened my day. (because I REALLY don't see myself that way) I'm also trying to figure out what to by "the ball and chain" (lol) for his birthday coming up this friday. He's turning 30, so it's a big one. Wish I had more money. But I guess underneath it all, it's the thought that counts, right? Hope you're having a great day!

from barbiewoman :

I got the red riding hood costume! Whoo hooo! What are you gonna be for Halloween!

from clarity25 :

Hi, Thanks for adding me to your favorites. I thought I would drop by and say "hi", I'm working my way through your archives and I really like your diary. Btw, It would really bother me too if some girl was calling my guy over and over calling him "baby" and not stopping. Your frustration is understandable!

from lifeasme66 :

Oh, I didn't know you don't have the password info! Give me your email addy, hon, and I'll send it along to you! **HUGS!!**

from barbiewoman :

Girl- You are a trip- Get my sexy ass in the shower! You sound so much like me! Hee hee! I'm glad you had a good weekend- And I like your "cowardly" plan- although it is not cowardly- men like that make you feel you can't talk to them face to face- you do what you gotta do and fuck everyone else.

from lifeasme66 :

So glad you sound much happier today! I wanted to say something in response to your last entry, something along the lines of what your previous note-leaver said... but I know it's hard. It's hard to get out of a bad relationships, especially with emotionally abusive people. Girl, ya know I been there!! Anyway, I'll just say that any man who makes you feel that way does not deserve you. Period. It doesn't matter that the good times are really good when the bad times are SOOOO bad. You should never have to walk on eggshells, you are who you are. And if your man truly loves you, you'll never have to worry that you're not ___ enough or doing ___ enough. Anyway! Long note here, glad you are feeling happier! Hope today is a happy day too! **HUGS!!**

from barbiewoman :

Hey hunny- I read your latest entry and I had a relationship kinda like what you're in but it was flip flopped- He cheated on me after we were official, he fucked his ex of 5 years (Molly AKA Amazon Bitch) while I went on vacation and I did my share-(after I found out of course) he just doesn't know...he suspects but does not know- and I am still shaking him off...the longer you hang around- the worse it gets. Trust me on this one- and your man sounds alot like my ex- he makes you feel like shit and cuts you down and hurts your feelings- some bastards get off on that kinda shit. And what's fucked up is that I never did anything to him in the first place- I was a good girlfriend and I got screwed. He's since then fought with me ALOT, yells (I am a yeller too- LOL That sounds red-neck!) and cusses every other word, pushed me down the driveway- punched holes in my walls when we lived together- it's only gotten worse- and I really have no room to talk cause I have went back and shit but if you ever wanna listen to anyone- Find a new man- He's not worth the hassle. Once you have trust issues it either falls apart slowly and very painfully or you end up in a nut house- Rarely does it ever work. Even though you do not think about what he has done to you it sits in the back of your head and burns a hole there doesn't it?? And call that bitch Laurie! Shit- Ask who she is tell her it was in your phone and you wanted to know who she was calling, and be NICE- the nicer you are the more you'll get outta her like "well maybe I know you- where do you work/live(town)". U know- You gotta be creative- we always get what we want, we're women- hear us roar! Grrrrrr!

from mirroredfate :

I changed my password and cant find your email address. Email me and I'll give it to you.

from skinnylizzie :

Hey, thank you for the nice note, it's nice to be back! I've spent ages catching up with your diary, hope you enjoyed Spain. I can't wait to see what I get up to in Newcastle either, hehe!

from lifeasme66 :

Ah, I loved The Village too... gotta get that one on DVD when it comes out! Have fun with Nap Dyn, tell us how it is! **HUGS!!**

from girls-on-top :

I love your diary! It's funny.

from lifeasme66 :

So good to read you again, hon, I've missed ya! Wow about Spain, that is soooo cool! I've gotten as close as France, but never Spain. Your orders are kinda shocking, I feel bad for J... but I guess he kinda knew stuff like that could happen, your being in the service and all. You guys will figure it out, I'm sure. And please! Don't talk about being old at 27! I just turned 27 too and I'm not married nor have kids (hey, I don't even have a boyfriend!). Really, you're not old! =P **HUGS!!**

from mysdevious :

I changed my diary, if you'd like the new one email me at [email protected] and I'll give you the new name.

from mysdevious :

Lol, from the looks of your notes you are the reader I've been paranoid about. Nice to know it was alot of worry for nothing. I'll try to keep up with your diary.

from silverscorp :

So you are the infamous af.mil reader!!!! Looks like I wasn't the only one paranoid. We wouldn't be paranoid if we weren't on the government computer posting in our online journals lol! Haha. That'll teach us. Anyway nice to meet another local. Thanks for the congrats. Take care~Jen

from mysdevious :

Would you happen to be the af.mil reader who I've been paranoid about? Thanks for adding me to your buddy list, although I dont know how long I've been here, I'll have to read you more often. If your boyfriend gets mad because you're going alone tell him about all the unlucky people like me who dont get to see their husbands and wives unless they're on leave so he should be happy to have the time with you he gets, the hubster and I would trade places with you in a heartbeat....take care

from lifeasme66 :

Hmm... I can answer your question from two perspectives. For you, it'll be more fun if you go alone. She is your friend, and you're the one paying for you, you're right. Also, for your friend, you're right when you say she wants to see you and not "you and J." Especially if you guys had a little trouble in the past because J was taking all of your time away from her. Believe me, I know how this feels! Always being the third wheel when my friend brings her boyfriend, when it's just supposed to be me and her. I had to leave my ex behind twice when I had to travel. He didn't like it, but I told him he wouldn't have fun cuz it would be just me and the girls doing stuff for work. He'd be bored and he knew it. So, even though he didn't like it, he got used to the idea... Hope that helps. Good luck! **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

This seems too long of a point to leave in a note like this, but just wanted to say that you shouldn't settle for anything. I don't know what your relationship is like with your boyfriend, beyond that which you write in your diary here, but if you find that you're unhappy moreso than you're happy, that says something. I loved my ex... even though he had serious insecurity and emotional problems, I loved him dearly... But I finally came to realize that the situation wasn't healthy for me. To constantly be watching what I say (so that we wouldn't fight) and to always put his needs before mine, I mean, you can adapt to anything. But what ultimately matter is, "Do you like where you are?" I don't even know why I'm saying all this, it's really none of my business... I don't want you to breakup or stay together on account of something I said here. I guess I just want to warn you that it's easy to get comfortable with the familiar, even if it is unhealthy for you. I'll shut up now. **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

I know exactly what you mean when it comes to sick patients. Well, I've been both the patient and the healthcare worker, so maybe it all depends on which shoes you're wearing at the time. Pharmacy is like that too... everybody wants their prescription filled NOW, and not only that, they want it for FREE. And they think that by yelling at the pharmacist, it'll give them what they want faster and cheaper. Fuckers. Anyway! I think you mentioned you wanted my password =) Email me! [email protected]

from skinnylizzie :

I think it's a perfectly good rule. That and the one about being nice to your dog :). People who don't play by the rules of shotgun drive me up the wall!!

from lifeasme66 :

Giving up the front seat? No, totally not unreasonable! He should want to impress your friends/family with how cool a guy he is by OFFERING. I mean, who wants his girl's friends/family to know that she's dating a total baby??? I don't think it's an unreasonable request at all ;)

from lifeasme66 :

Thanks for answering the survey! And for leaving the note, yes it was difficult to deal with him, but I think I'm both stronger and weaker because of it. I'm glad you're bf isn't suicidal... it makes things so much worse. Even still, I think you deserve to be with someone who makes you happy. **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Aww, thanks for the sweet note, hon! I'm hoping too things work out, but my life is never simple like that... *shrug*. You know, your boyfriend reminds me more and more of my ex, Jon. Read this entry: http://lifeasme66.diaryland.com/back041704.html and tell me if it sounds familiar. **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

"28 Days Later" I totally LOVED that movie!!! And yes, it scared the shit outta me too... and yes, everybody I told thought it sucked. *shrug* They wouldn't know a good movie if it bit them in the ass! **HUGS!!**

from lifeasme66 :

Hiya! Just wanted to say thanks for visiting and reading, and no problem about adding me, the honor is mine!! I just read all of your entries... man, your boyfriend sounds a whole helluva lot like my ex. I totally understand how hard it is to get away from somebody like that (I still can't seem to shake mine completely). But you know, you deserve somebody who lets you be YOU. I'll be readin' ya, hon **HUGS!!**

from whitetiger90 :

you also have many of the same intrests as me and my other sisters. we're triplets!

from whitetiger90 :

i think that is so cool that you want to serve your country.

from skinnylizzie :

Hello! I tried to add a note before but you didn't have them switched on then...oh well. Thank you for taking the time to read my diary and sign my notes, it was much appreciated :). I've added you to my favourites too

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