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hungry. really. by iluvspeed comment:   Ironically, Boy wants to take me out to dinner on Saturday. Would it be rude to ask for the cash value of the meal, so I could eat for a week? when i see an Elephant fly by iluvspeed comment:   "And the pattern repeats. Identify the problem, do nothing about it, feel trapped in life, have another drink. " because i dont know how by meltingblu comment:   "I got drunk last nite. I thought i was a moviestar, pushing my hair behind by silver hoops. Laughing like I care. Losing count of drinks. In a booth of boys and booze. Someone called me beautiful; I was too drunk to argue." - by limes-sugar comment:   "I have eaten shittily today. Hangovers always always fuck up my controlled eating. I just feel too bad to eat a salad. I feel as if I will DIE if I don't eat Chipotle...McDonald's...." chicago... by drowningblue comment:   "I stuck with lettuce...it's amazing how much usual people eat!" OH BLOODY HELL by callmered comment:   "This situation could change at any minute. It's not written in stone. Or if it is, a very soft stone, like soapstone." my boobs hurt by meltingblu comment:   "I like distance. A 5ft emotional radius at all times, please." What is Progress? by fatnomore comment:   "I did a few of those head-jerks, y'know, one second you're staring at a powerpoint slide of 2002 company earnings, the next your body convulses and you quickly toss your hair or recross your legs to make it seem like it was completely voluntary. Sigh." by mylostdream comment:   "Ow. I just bit my finger. That isn't my pretzel." drinks and tips, too by thejanechord comment:   I can't pick only one quote from this entry: you must read the whole thing. Work News by cruel-joke comment:   "I�m debating as to whether or not I�m just going to tell [my personal trainer]: Pretend I�m a movie star. Now, make me perfect while I keep on drinking like nobody�s business." And on a side note... by limes-sugar comment:   "When I do work out it's like I think I am buying up free coupons to eat like a 300-pounder." push this over by meltingblu comment:   "...party tonite...id love to say i will practice moderation. and not drink. so much. but with these addictions...i've learned there is no such thing as inbetweens or balancing. its eitheir excess or nothing at all. be it food. alcohol. exercise. boys...pick your poison." Stuck down here by smallhanded comment:   "Yesterday was another b/p day much like the day before. It's interesting how it comes in waves. I feel so good, so strong sometimes that I cannot imagine allowing myself to fall backwards into that bulimia spiral. And then it slips just a tiny bit and before I know it I am sucked into the vortex and can't imagine climbing out again...Somehow in the past few days it has been so easy to bag the workout in favor of a b/p at home. I suck. I'm not sure where I lost my motivation and health but if someone sees it, can you pick it up for me?" shame shame shame by fluency comment:   "it was strange, cos i was just so sad and pretending to be happy. after a few drinks, pretending got easier." Hyperverbal rant by ophelia21 comment:   "I like to be very thin and lean and strong because only then what is on the outside expresses what is on the inside of myself." click the red slippers by meltingblu comment:   "i havent called josh back. its hard to break someones heart for no reason xcept maybe they're too good." saturday slip-up by meltingblu comment:   "the truth is-i need a boy who doesn't care about me. who doesn't want to take me out to eat or tell me im beautiful. and i know that with him, it'd be the extreme opposite- he'd want to more than just a title in my life and i cant. i just CANT." The rarity is normality. by weighted-up comment:   "Anorexia is merely a more fearful version of the normal human being. Like the faceless masses, we are insecure and unremarkable. We have no special glow because tragedy is the state of being of 90% of the world. Look around. Most of the world is in pain. Tragedy is common, and quite mundane, though it does take many different forms. The rarity is happiness, confidence, and comfort in one's own self. The rarity, in fact, is what is often perceived as 'normality.'" Even More Sharing by fatnomore comment:   "Control. I have no control. I am so good when I'm thinking about it. But get me into a social situation, I forget that I just made up my mind to have the steamed veggies, instead "Twice cooked chicken" comes out of my mouth. My mind slips on the paper-wrapped-no-fat salmon entree, instead "cheese soup and fettuccine" escapes. And I hate myself every minute that food sits in my stomach, displacing my waistline. Why can't I keep this self-loathing around? Like when I open the grocers' freezer door, and actually reach for a pint of cellulite?" kisses and control by meltingblu comment:   "i feel threatened when someone is so personally and emotionally intrusive. to the rest of the world its simply someone investing interest and care and love into you, but to me its scary as hell and uncomfortable to stand under the neon lighting of someones love..it makes consistantly naked..perpetually xposed and maybe thats the reasoning behind my past choice of lovers and the boys i try to break...the ones i know wont want to go digging. i dont why the idea of being both fully physically and emotionally involved and entrenched is so terrifying...i suppose it goes to back to control issues...which is at the core of it all" can't get it out of my head by visiblebones comment:   "I've still gained weight. I hate it so much. My pants are tighter again... my thighs feel massive and clumsy. I feel gross all over. I just want to crawl out of my skin because I feel just huge. My logical mind is trying to calm me down and convince me that I really can't gain very much in a week and that I'm not all of a sudden massive, but I feel it..." Streak Ender by smallhanded comment:   "If I could just allow myself to eat one cookie, maybe I wouldn't feel the need to binge on hundreds of them. I mean that is what "normal" people do. They don't eat all the cookies in the house because they don't want to get a big ass. I eat one cookie, start stressing about how I shouldn't have eaten that because I'm going to get fat, decide I have to purge but first eat all the cookies in the house then puke them up because I don't want to get a big ass." You Don't Bring Me Flowers by ecstasia comment:   "In regard to the tacky flowers he bought me - I threw them away in Babylon." go for broke by step-inside comment:   "If you can hide the fact that there is something wrong with you, maybe there really is nothing wrong at all. If you can cover up your scars, then maybe they were never there in the first place. Pretend to be something else, and maybe you will become it. The real self that was there previously will die out, and a star will be born. A new self with no scars, no problems, no nothing." water is not sugar by amongst comment:   "i dont cry in front of anyone. i hate it. i hate it so much because i feel weak & as if im letting people down by looking ugly." Grey Morning by wilyred comment:   "So I totally forgot to write about meeting Hungry-Hippo in person. She was really sweet and much better looking than her photo. I am surprised that she suggested we meet. We did and it wasn't even that weird. It was like hanging out with a friend because we know what's going on with each other's lives. She seems really intense: like someone who works hard and plays hard. She wasn't as shy as I thought she would be. All in all, a cool person." good day, b/p, thinness, & parents by someday- comment:   "Mmmm, I love bones. They are so beautiful to me, somehow. I'm constantly holding my own wrists, subtly feeling my hipbones, running my fingers across my collarbones. It just feels comforting and soothing in a strange, inexplicable way." glug glug glug by iluvspeed comment:   "The alcohol-free weekdays plan doesn't seem to be working. / Monday-Boy came over. Drank. Well, he was drinking. I was being social. / Tuesday-Boy didn't come over. Drank. / Wednesday-See Tuesday." ... wimper... by ecstasia comment:   "Am I fucking nuts or what? I mean one day I could fall in love with him, one day I think I am falling in love with him then this, then I think about Brad argggggggggg!" Crazily motivated & car problems� by drowningblue comment:   "�my car broke down again today. I had to call one of my guy friends over to jump it. He made me promise that I would go straight over to AutoZone and have it looked at. I swear I was headed that way but somehow ended up at the mall instead." An explanation for openness. by weighted-up comment:   "If this diary makes you ill: Good. If it scares you: Good. Just try to understand. That's all I'm trying to do. There is so much ignorance and misinformation surrounding eating disorders. My main goal is to clear the air as much as I can. To test what's true and what isn't, and show my findings to the world. Whatever they may be. Many thanks to those who've read this far. Even more thanks to those who've actually tried to understand my motivations, instead of dismissing me without a second thought." - by wilyred comment:   "I tried to check out hungry-hippo last night but much to my chagrin, she had it locked!...It was like finding out a good book was over without a satifying ending..." by ecstasia comment:   "Oh and I�m thanking Hungry-hippo for being there for me and for being so bloody cool and for being such a good friend and for being someone who I can trust." by ecstasia comment:   "He left the sweetest message � telling me how much he missed me, I could hear the words �I love you� lingering about his mouth." a good day turned bad by someday- comment:   "I should have just forced myself to suffer and used my self-discipline to resist eating, but instead I took the easy way out. I don't like that. I don't like bulimia. To me, that is not control. It feels like it occasionally, but not very often, certainly not at any recent time or in this particular case...I'm just having a seriously low-self-esteem moment. That always happens after I purge; I just feel so fucking horrible, physically and emotionally, that words can't even express it, and all I want to do is disappear from this pain and frustration. I hate feeling like this, I hate it so much!!! Why did I have to do this to myself? Everything could have been just fine if I'd been more careful, if I wasn't so damn stupid. Now I'm broken and feel like nothing in the world can put me back together." - by second-best0 comment:   "He didn't even get his hands down my pants which makes it feel a little more innocent. I got mine down his, but I always feel obligated. Like look what I've done to him, I better fix it....So this is what I do. I fuck around with guys when intoxicated and obsess about it when I'm sober....Sobriety causes so many problems." Pluses and minuses by iluvspeed comment:   "I am sort of waiting for the newness to wear off. The point where we�ve heard most of each other�s stories and we�re used to each other. What�s the old saying? Familiarity breeds contempt. That�s probably a bit much. I�m really trying to just live in the moment and enjoy being happy." baby steps by meltingblu comment:   "I'm afraid of boys that want to know me and still want to kiss me. I guess I always figured it was one or the other." Emotion Sickness by iluvspeed comment:   "*sigh* I miss him already. I hate feelings." there is nothing left by someday- comment:   "For the longest time, I have known distinctly what I wanted to be. I wanted to be smart and intelligent, to be thin and beautiful, to be mysterious, to be charming, to be loved by many yet understood by few, to be self-disciplined, to be respected, to be looked at with awe and amazement, to be Successful (whatever that means), to be Great, to Make It in this world. Of course, there was a catch - of course, there is always a catch - I didn't actually know who I was to begin with. For a while, I desperately tried to figure myself out, but I only got confused and depressed, so I decided fuck it all, and settled on a different method - I would simply create what I wanted to be, create the identity I longed for, and forget the rest. What I didn't realize at the time was something that I read in "Wasted" by Marya Hornbacher years later - by definition, in order to make up a new Self, I would have to erase any Self that there was to begin with. And so the story went, I stepped into a different world where everything is twisted and upside-down, only you don't truly know it until you're too far in to turn back, and then it is too late." I Suck. by prettyskinny comment:   "It's funny, but I'm so tired of the whole eating thing. I think that I've spent too much time thinking about it. It's gotten to the point that it's simply exhausting to think about how many calories are in this, and how many fat grams are in that, and if I need to eat this or that or anything at all or everything in sight, and blah blah blah." there is nothing left by someday- comment:   "Like I said, in my mind, I don't really have a problem. Yeah, I'm on a diet (even though I weigh around 102 pounds), and I starve myself, and I binge, and I throw up, and I obsess about food and weight...but somehow, to me, I don't have an eating disorder. The girl in the description does, maybe, but I certainly do not." Anorexia as weakness. A reality check. by weighted-up comment:   "Anorexia appeals to people who are weak to begin with. It comes to those who feel inferior, in one way or another. Sometimes these people feel inferior because of their bodies. Sometimes not. I doubt it's ever solely the body's fault, though, even in people who are brought to the disorder through dieting. There's always something else. Some inferiority complex, some weakness to keep the people here after they've achieved an ideal weight." b/p animal by dissolving comment:   "maybe we're just too different. they cry at kodak commercials and have planned their futures out.. i puke after i eat." little bit of lipstick by casey comment:   "not sure about what is going on here anymore. feeling like i have been dropped off in the middle of nowhere. keep looking inside the bottle for directions. oh well, youth i embrace thee completely. " by waitingforu comment:   "More than anything, no matter how much they say [or sometimes don't say] that they care about me, I feel like they dont. No one wants to hear what I have to say. No one will honestly listen without patronizing criticism. No one truly tries to understand me. No one wishes to bother with someone like me. No one will really be there for me or love me unconditionally." 250902 by nothot comment:   "hungry-hippo is sooo cool, i think i've spent more time chatting to her than anyone else on line in the past day (she's on as often as me) but yeah she's great and you put me in a good mood thanx :)" 127.5 by skinnyboney comment:   "how i hate stuyding law sometimes. i wish i could just read a book now, or watch tv, or visit friends at a cafe. but i have to learn. i always have to learn. what a fuck." Wired on caffeine. by weighted-up comment:   "Moderation? Ha. Whoever hid the key to that one was a very clever little duckling, I must say. I haven't been able to find it yet." Can you say LAZY?! by ana4life comment:   "Would of, could of, should of. That is what is going to be put on my gravestone one day." Crimson and clover, over and over. by second-best0 comment:   "I have emotional constipation." just stuff... by waitingforu comment:   "I know that it's harmful and dangerous, blah blah blah. But I'd rather throw up than be fat. Although I honestly am trying to restrict now, instead of innecessantly b/p-ing like there's no tomorrow. I think that I'm putting my perspective on purging back where it belongs - it's a safety net, not the real method. What I should really concentrate on is restricting, because that is more effective and gives me more control." Disgrace of disgust. Purge. by weighted-up comment:   "The point wasn't so much getting rid of the calories--okay, I'm lying. Getting rid of the calories was a huge part of it. But it also had to do with penance."I felt better when I was done. I'd gotten out at least half of the peanut butter monstrosity. My goal was just to get some of it out, because I couldn't handle having it inside of me at all..."I didn't even think about it this time. I didn't feel like I had a choice. I didn't say, 'May as well purge,' as I've always done before."I just. Had to. Despite my previous assertion that I would never do it again."I felt better when it was done. A bit cleaner, a bit more pure, a bit more safe."

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