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from godmoney :
We are two ships passing in the night! Please email me at vpk9de at virginia dot edu so we can reconnect xx
from godmoney :
I peeped that your diary needs credentials--if it's still active, Lauren, please reach out <3 <3 <3
from godmoney :
You're latest poem (Decade(nce)) speaks to one of my deepest fears: that my true love is past tense and that I will not be my future husband's true love.
from the-grey-one :
thank you so much for the note. <3
from godmoney :
"[W]e walked that way in silence/ Passing others/ Who were saying the things/ We longed to say." I'VE DEF'LY BEEN THERE and it's so painful because I can sense that we both want to be in love with each other but neither one of us is and only one of us is trying.
from godmoney :
My painless, expensive, hassle of an abortion was the result of botched withdrawal. Consider a non-hormonal IUD: from what I hear, it makes your period more painful, but less so as time goes on, and maybe shorter. There's also a big campaign for female condoms.
from godmoney :
"the low drone of the universe/ that lonely OM"
from the-grey-one :
just wanted to let you know that your writing is absolutely wonderful. i couldn't stop myself from rifling through your archives and sighing at all your lovely words.
from godmoney :
stark, lovely
from ashtraygurl :
If I was the protagonist in a chick flick, it would be titled "Cook Eat Run".
from godmoney :
Since when did you become the protagonist in a chick flick?! (Attractive pastry chef in hippie clothes that's natural w/children and has a husband who buys her jewelry.)
from godmoney :
Didn't you have another poem after "September, Baby"?
from raven72d :
do come back and post again...
from godmoney :
If you haven't already, you need to read The Unbearable Lightness Of Being. I'm intensely interested in which of the characters you relate to.
from godmoney :
I struggle a lot w/the question of whether humans are meant to be monogamous over the course of a lifetime but I can’t imagine being “on the market” at age 50, you know? That’s terrifying. That can’t be good for society–roving old men and lonely ladies? Will the more successful ones take on houseboys or something? Will we turn to other womyn for companionship? Throw ourselves into community service and careers? Will we be content because in this alternate society there’s no pressure to pair off and maybe our sex drives have naturally subsided during menopause anyway? I agree that passion is important–passion is sparkle, passion is soft fur–but I don’t have enough experience to say that it’s sustainable. But maybe priorities shift. Maybe passion is important at 20, intellectual stimulation at 30, morals at 40, and kindness at 50 (or something). I had to recoil when you said the bit about “family member”–gross. I always want to retain a bit of elusiveness, it’s true, and that goes against my “unconditional” bit... But maybe that’s because I never dared to hope that someone could love me without my feigning elusiveness? Which is what you’re saying except I think I could love someone who wasn’t elusive so shouldn’t it work in both directions? You say that you sense that men are only good for one thing but your poetry belies that shallow approach. What would that one thing be? Not sex because sex is limitless to us–we can essentially have as much sex as we want since we’re young and attractive. Sex within a context of a passionate relationship? So you’re saying that you get other forms of fulfillment (someone to listen, someone to introduce you to new music, etc.) from other sources?–I guess that’s healthy. But do you want to find a guy that’s more than a good lay to defy your attitude...?
from godmoney :
I can see how alpha guys base some of their masculinity on their ability to womanize. And perhaps we’re attracted to them in part because of their ability to womanize. That’s just never been me, though. I like the persistent “nice guy” types. The closest I’ve come to an alpha fantasy is w/Rob, thinking that I could transform him w/my purity (and intelligence and uniqueness) like a romance novel. So it’s hard for me to imagine the kind of man who puts womanizing above their s/o and the kind of woman who elevates the ability to be virile over the ability to be nurturing. Not to cluck my tongue at you or anything. Maybe it’s the old “I wouldn’t join any club that would have me as a member.” I am letting my bourgie roots show badly but as for nonmonogamy... doesn’t it get exhausting to constantly put on you’re A-game? Wouldn’t you want someone where you can let your guard down around and soak up that unconditional love?
from godmoney :
I like, "saddled with the weight of both our destinies." Take your time replying-- I'm just glad that the em addy is still relevant :) I'm trying here first but I'll email you tomorrow if I don't get a response to this particular question: ARE YOU IN NYC? I'll be there over the weekend and it would be lovely to meet-meet you. The best-best time for me would be Friday between 1pm and 6:30pm but Saturday before 7pm works as well. I hope you respond to this!
from scaryice :
Hey you too, I haven't been here in so long, it's sad. Glad to see you're still writing too, you were always way better ;)
from godmoney :
Do you have an email address? I'd love to hear more from you and this being published business...
from ceilings :
do you have facebook? i want to be your friend! facebook.com/clementinecannibal
from ceilings :
i know what you mean. let's be friends. do you like zines? i'll send you some. you can write for my compilation zine too if you want. i'm feeling rather ... cut off myself.
from godmoney :
reading your last poem was very moving because now i'm in a relationship approaching 2 years. now i feel so much more mature than when we first began contacting and i want to tell you about all my experiences and see where you are in life. here's a start: i am in dc working as a paralegal. your turn :)
from kawaiinoir :
fairwell the ashtray girl/ forbidden snowflake/ beware this troubled world, control your intake...
from godmoney :
you know how they say "the best way to make a friend is to be one"? well, the best way to hear dirty talk is to say it.
from ceilings :
awwwthank you so much hun! <3
from godmoney :
i love the new haircut... the bangs retain the femininity... only girls w/as pretty face as you can pull off short hair... i love the eyes: i think over-the-top makeup (like very red lipstick) reclaims makeup (so many boys complain that they want the girl to look "natural"). i also love that you titled it "pwned." i less than three you, l.
from ceilings :
<33333333333333333 RIOT GRRRLS UNITE. thank you for the note, it means so much. it restores my faith to know all us grrrls are surviving, somehow somehow through all the bullshit. i'm glad i helped you feel better and you in turn have made me feel better. riot grrrl can be so subtle sometimes, sneaky, us grrrls typing out our hearts, getting away with things, listening to each other. <333 we will survive it all.
from raven72d :
I'm glad you're still out there.
from ceilings :
i love the way you write
from godmoney :
i'm writing a letter to you in my head. this is a horrible habit because when i've finished rehearsing and proofreading and settled on a cutesy hook and pared down to my brightest anecdotes i feel such a sense of closure and fulfillment that it's as if i licked the envelope and did send it to you instead of it just rattling about in my brain. an email is on the horizon. like tomorrow.
from godmoney :
question: do you not get notified when i leave comments on your page?
from godmoney :
hey you... i was perusing your old entries today in search of inspiration. i also learned how to pronounce MaDM's name. hm!
from aeka :
Hi. I've locked my diary, so if you still read and would like a password, please e-mail me at [email protected] Thanks.
from missfemme :
email for new password if you wish [email protected] please delete if you can
from godmoney :
you know i think some1 has been fucking around in my accounts--can you email [email protected] and i'll get back to you? by the way, we need to take this relationship to the next level and become phone buddies or something.
from raven72d :
I have missed your entries.
from godmoney :
where's the nirvana cover from?
from missfemme :
you make me want to bound my hands so i never get the urge to write again. You make me want to lose my ability to read so that you words are the last that i ever take in. You make me want to pretend that we will one day meet over coffee and you'll praise my last effort at creating emotion. Again, you are lovely. Too beautiful to put into words really.
from spoiltangel :
I've been listening to Placebo recently and was just wondering whether your username came from the song This Picture? You make me love poetry! "The dull greys of reality Were always easier on your sensitive eyes." Never stop writing...
from cunegonde :
I can't get your email off site, you have the right click block... and I don't have MS outlook... so email me: [email protected] if you still want the stars...
from cunegonde :
Oh! I'm retarded, excuse me... those stars... ha! I'll give YOU the code if you email me... but only you...
from cunegonde :
I'm afraid I'm a bit outta the loop- what stars are we refering too?
from theautoclave :
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from ezeeminhas :
nice diary dodo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from littlesprite :
Beautiful
from alswelinhell :
i'm lovin' it... seriously.
from godmoney :
thx...i really rel8 2 the last one right now in my life... where do u need directions 4rm?
from littlesprite :
Just in case you wondered who? and thought this was really random (which it is!) I added your diary to my favourites because the way you write is just amazing. I hope you don't mind.
from cunegonde :
i just wanted to say hello. i wish you well.
from x-thirteen-x :
My mom brought me back from my doctor's appointment and I felt ashamed at the news that she gave my mom and I thought my mom would be angry but she was more concerned than anything and I felt stupid about the way the whole thing originated.
from spoiltangel :
I absolutely love "Fucking Lovely," its going on my pinboard, file, and plastered in my journal. Thanks for the inspiration...
from devouredsoul :
you're so pretty! yay!
from cindreviews :
Yay... your diary review is completed, courtesy of Andreia. Please read it, and rereviews will be given out upon request. Thank you very much!
from not-tuesday :
Hi, did you make your layout or did you get it somewhere? It's really cool.
from fan4 :
I'm happy to hear you're feeling better.
from volleydahl :
i am in love with your words. they're better than good.
from candoor :
Happy Valentine's Day :)
from krazieespy :
Hi. I just wanted to say that I LOVED LOVED your michael moore banana banner.. made me laugh :)
from fan4 :
Get well soon!
from paperbullets :
haha, you've got nothin' to worry bout.
from lady-frenzy :
Yum on both accounts!
from hel :
Thanks. I like your layout too, especially the 'Through the looking glass' image.
from cindreviews :
Cinderella Reviews is a brand new review site. So if you would like a review please come and check us out at http://cindreviews.diaryland.com/ . We hope to be hearing from you soon. Thank You!
from homeboy5 :
very well put - the persona emanates from the person but needs to be distinct and separate on a certain level; in any case, i'm not going to lock the diary right now, but i'm going to stick with entries on the theme of homelessness, because that was my original intent - thanks for your comment
from homeboy5 :
Oh cool, somebody's read me - now I can finish the story. Thanks for adding me. :)
from homeboy5 :
i stopped by because i always see your notes among godmoney's, and i wanted to see what you were all about - very cool poetry!
from godmoney :
ooh i love it
from aeka :
:) I feel the same way about ED.
from almostbutnot :
heyy..thanks for the note on my journal..I'm not really sure how long ago you left it because I haven't updated in a REALLY long time..but..still..thank you none the less.
from coma-lies :
Hey remember me? I'm the girl who loves Auf Der Maur and Courtney :D Have you ever seen Auf Der Maur live by any chance? Esmerelda xxx
from godmoney :
i love from lines "hey" to "soft brain tissue."
from godmoney :
"punch me in the face because i won't flinch." listen 2 fionna apple.
from aeka :
i locked my diary, but i will be emailing you your password. : ).
from iamhubpluh :
yea it is. Apearently the guy shot him because Pantera broke up. What's even more fucked up, is that it happened either on the day, or the day before the anniversary of the John Lennon shooting. Since Dimebag is gone... it makes it impossible now for Pantera to have a reunion tour. They had the best shows. It really is a great loss. My heart goes out to his brother, Vinnie- who was on stage that night with him. I live in Dallas, and they are going to have a memorial at the Clubhouse (Pantera's strip club) I'm going to go there this weekend to pay my respects. I'm still in shock. :'( Have a good day, Darling.
from godmoney :
are u insinuating that i'm not well-versed in 90s music? sophie b hawkins--I HAVE HER CD. "i wanna meet you barefoot barely breathing as i lay me down to sleep"
from godmoney :
worth the wait + so totally heard that quote before.
from my-vada :
"farewell the ashtray girl, forbidden snowflake, beware her troubled mind...make room for earthquakes" :) kisses xxx
from godmoney :
like the title-quote. u ne'er update favorite nemore.
from godmoney :
i like the top images best. how'd u make it?
from godmoney :
ummm... just checking: you're pro-choice?
from starofwinter :
Hey, I would love to join a diaryring! But, erm..not quite sure what that is...if you could fill me in...btw, awesome diary!
from violetdollz :
hey you have great taste in music. I love Hole, Melissa Auf Der Maur and the cure. is it ok if I add you?
from waiting-poet :
thank you for the note...I appreciate it very much.
from cleo-boo :
yer welcome :) I love your writing. take care
from hamiltonian :
nice journal, great design and I love jim carroll
from hamiltonian :
thanks for note, though I didnt understand what you meant...
from crazy6mofo9 :
no problem =P. thanks.
from godmoney :
i'll find a way 2 quote all of "untitled."
from godmoney :
"I'll steal the blankets sometimes, just to watch you freeze." and insecurities/ tea leaves
from rue25 :
Liked my rant huh? Men are so low on the totem pole right now. I absolutely can't stand them. I just don't understand ya know. It's not that difficult to be honest with someone.
from godmoney :
i like it--ALL of it! it's something meant to be performed. very stream-of-consciousness. i like how one thought segued 2 the next. ~Vin~
from themarassa :
Good luck!!! I'll be sending warm, dry, non-breezy thoughts your way!!!
from godmoney :
cerulean was my favorite crayola crayon back in the day. meanwhile it's still fun 2 try 2 pronounce.
from pugsnhugs :
That's the saying that went through my head when I saw it. My dad used to always say it at night when the sky was every shade of red.
from devouredsoul :
you attract fans...its crazy. your writing is wonderful!
from godmoney :
i like "he said he could hear me crying from miles away."
from ginfizz17 :
I like hostess cupcakes too.
from forbidensoil :
no problem. your wrods are beautiful!
from pugsnhugs :
hope your safe from the storm...:-)
from suicideinc :
yeah, we got out of school on friday because of it. one of my friends and i are probably going to go surfing or do something. i'm pretty sure all of manatee county is out. it looks like sarasota was evacuated along with a bunch of the islands. so, that's lots of fun?
from evaluate-you :
Your review has been posted at Sandpaper Reviews.
from evaluate-you :
You're now on our Pending list at Sandpaper Reviews! We'll let you know when your review is posted. Thanks.
from cdghost :
stumbled across your words and enjoyed them very much.. have a good one and two..the cdghost
from aliop33 :
Who is this Madm? why do i never hear of these people? what kinda music is it?
from aeka :
May I have the password for favoritegirl? Thank-you.
from raven72d :
I love the layout photo...and I love the images you create.
from raven72d :
Great writing...
from suicideinc :
i actually didn't know that she had that tattoo. thanks
from aeka :
Thank you, I have yet to view your diary, but I will do that as soon as time permits me. Take care. --aek
from suicideinc :
jolie is delicious! the quote at the end is what nourish me destroys me. i'm not sure if she said that ro not. one of my friends told me that.
from eloquent- :
welcome to eloquent! <3
from aliop33 :
thanks, me too.
from aliop33 :
so yeah, lets meet up when you come out this way next time. just let me know the day before and we can work out the details....ok?
from godmoney :
"scarred" was great...
from godmoney :
ur note brought a tear to my eye. did u read "ray romano dream"? i will appoint u like-Pharoah if u interpret it.
from missfemme :
I think I adore you...
from missfemme :
I think I adore you...
from suicideinc :
wow! i couldn't believe that my writing could ever inspire you, at all. the things that you have produced have knocked me off my feet!
from aliop33 :
Your poem made me remember a friend from college whose b/f killed himself after a horrible stint with heroin and jail...I miss her and I know she misses him. such a tragedy. when you coming back to wpb? we should get coffee or something. my wife and i would love to meet some more people down here. but ya know, if you don't want to, i wouldn't be insulted. internet can be scary..
from hamakosan :
7/3/04 11pm: Lauren you're such a sweetheart! I feel so bad i haven't replied to any of your notes- i've been horrible with reading everyone's recents posts as well. i need to catch up! Anyhow, i wanted to thank you for all of your notes.. you always manage to make me feel like SOMEONE out there cares. That's such an amazing power. I can't say thank you enough. -Casey
from godmoney :
i like "It could just as easily Have been a kiss"
from suicideinc :
thank you :) i love every single line you write.
from godmoney :
i like "And when he writes back He responds in royal blue And misspelled words"
from facetag :
nasty sweaty Georgia. FL has some big ass bugs *shudders*
from facetag :
Where in this hot humid south do you linger?
from godmoney :
just a warning: ur "see-thru heart" is going to surface in my diary at a l8r date (w/credit 2 the wonderful poet which is u, o'course).
from facetag :
ack! I'm sorry. Both of my parents are from Ohio, I never lived there with them (thank gods) but I have such a great time living in southern states. ...(save me)
from facetag :
oh yes! Ohio was LOADS of FUN..><;
from scarlettdoll :
I joined both diaryrings cause I love both courtney & auf der maur. Thanks for your note! ♥ scarlett
from aliop33 :
florida is awful in the summer. i agree. i have to go to the post office and bank everyday at 11 am and it is so fucking hot out i feel like i am dying every time. ugh. come on september!
from rue25 :
Thanks for the thumbs up on the layout. Maybe it is a disturbing factor in regards to high school girls… disturbing to wonder if I truly acted that way.
from thevictim :
hello :)
from itsjustmeliz :
Well you should have bloody well won! Or at least won runner-up. Were there runner-ups? Yeah! I'll buy you a souvenir! One of those lil hong kong key-chains with 'Lauren' on it. I'll send you a pic of it... Love and s'more, Liz xox
from godmoney :
REALLY like "cancer"
from itsjustmeliz :
Hello sister. I've come back for a while. Did you ever hear from that poetry comp? Love you, Liz xox
from madamewolf :
lol im sorry. i didnt mean to really i didnt. Spiders are just evil like that. *hugz*
from facetag :
Everyone loves bondage, it is like cake...but different.
from facetag :
don't you just love photographed memories? of course but only when it includes bondage. ♥
from harmedself :
Oh la la! how tres amazing is your diary? And indeed your musical taste and your layout! I adore Placebo!
from suicideinc :
thank you. <3 i agree with a lot of the things you say in your diary. you also sound very smart.
from facetag :
Aww! <3 much love <3
from godmoney :
i like ur l8st. and, no, i'm not one 2 just say that.
from aliop33 :
that is weird. i would think more people would have agreed with you on the fact that smells and stuff trigger memories. maybe they don't think about it like we do? strange.
from godmoney :
u quote c-love: i love u more.
from suicideinc :
i just thought i would let you know that i love your template.
from suicideinc :
you're beautiful and you have awesome taste in music. placebo is the best band by far. i heart you like crazy. <3 jacq
from godmoney :
::pouts:: but i find jennifer lopez SO endearing...
from pugsnhugs :
I think it is hilarious that you think Jennifer Lopez is a whore. We have a bet going at work to see how long each of us think this marriage will last!!!!!!!
from godmoney :
would it be okay if i copy/pasted ur last poem 2 my blog + credited u (however u wished 2 b credited)--because i loved it. w/b!
from hamakosan :
Lauren, you're such a sweetheart!!! ugh how i wish i were in florida.. hehe thank you for the birthday song. it's the thought that counts (regarding the staying up). -Casey
from godmoney :
WESTLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and the labyrinth kicked ass. and return to oz was positively traumatizing, i've heard.
from stats01 :
cheers to that. thanks for reading.
from centaurlord :
We are going to downtown orlando tonight, you should go bar hopping with us. you have my phone number if you want to. if not then that is fine:). have a good day
from godmoney :
"obtainably unobtainable." i love that. have u seen the indie movie "camp"? it's 2003 or 2004.
from lovely-freak :
no worries... you have not offended me. i meant that in that i often word things in a caustic manner... in doing so i provoke an undesired response from him. i learned this from my mother and have yet to be able to nip it in the bud when i'm doing it. i'm certainly not making excuses for him to act any certain way that would be unfair to our relationship. i just know that i push buttons in the way that i say things sometimes and since he is the closest person to me he is the one who gets the brunt of it. in all fairness i have to take responsibility for that because our fights certainly aren't one sided nor are they all his fault, ya know? thanks for caring tho! i really do appreciate it. :D
from itsjustmeliz :
Trust me, they weren't nice. But have one anyway why don't you? *hands you a cookie* Strawberry kisses, Liz xoxo
from godmoney :
LOL @ funny memo...
from themarassa :
Oh, I have the feeling there is a special spot in hell reserved for me and how I snickered at that memo.....
from itsjustmeliz :
You are very beautiful. Liz xoxo
from centaurlord :
hi, thanks for the note you left for me. I seed you [ictures:). I'm going on vacationt oo on monday to Florida. You shoudl e-mali me. I'm pretty drunk rihgt now:). ha ha. Have a nice night.
from godmoney :
thanx 4 readin', boo!
from aliop33 :
what is even funnier about the Check Engine Light is that when we were up in NY on vacation my friend Kelly's car's check engine light is stuck on - the dealer can't fix it although nothing is wrong with the car as well as her dad's! i hope mine isn't stuck like their's. then i will be forced to cover it with duct tape like they have just to avoid seeing that awful orange glow!
from hamakosan :
LMAO seriously yo, i wonder who the hell it is.. they've been doing it for over a week and a half now. i'm so curious. lol
from godmoney :
i LOVE the line "abductees are new age prophets." (love it)
from godmoney :
my fave thing ~ jco: (spiritually) we r 1 in the same. :)
from themarassa :
You confused me so badly this morning! "Ashtraygurl? She's not locked... no wait, she IS locked. Am I sure it's her? Ok, go back... yep... no wait... No. Crap." Anyhow, I hope you find the bit of privacy that you're looking for. I am still crossing my fingers for you with the contest!
from hamakosan :
You're locked! hmm. and what a bad diarist i am.. happy (belated?) birthday!
from lovely-freak :
heeeeeeeeeyyyy;yyy.... you're locked!
from corroding :
wheee birthday greetings. you is an old one you is!
from pugsnhugs :
happy birthday!!!!!
from itsjustmeliz :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! *blows one of those birthday things and hands you a cone-hat* How come you never bloody told me? I could have sent you a card! Well, you have a FABdabulous time, I'm sure, and I'm prayin for you to win. *waves a fairy-wand at you* Mint kisses, Liz xoxo
from godmoney :
in the words of my baby daddy fiddy cent, "go shawty, its ya birthday."
from itsjustmeliz :
you do that! at least someone cares about my bloody libia! Liz xoxo
from godmoney :
p.s. they have FREE COURTNEY shirts out now. and i'm trusting u have the l8st Blender.
from godmoney :
(!) i've always seen ur "live thru this" button, but i assumed that it was coincidental--i thought it was some suicide ring.
from pugsnhugs :
I work for a HUGE insurance company, and there are around 800 people in our building. It is like a preschool there. People tattle and tell all day long over the most childish things. Plus it is mostly women, which in my opinion is bad. Women are so backstabbing and conniving. Sorry you had such a bad day. I hate people who think they are in control, and hold it over you...hope tomorrow is better... :-)
from hamakosan :
You're the sweetest- thank you so much for the messages.. you shouldn't have, but you did and it meant a lot. so thank you lauren!
from pugsnhugs :
Kids are so honest with what they are thinking, and that makes it funny. She's the greatest though. Glad you like my new layout.
from aneladdam :
hey there, just went a looking for a snippit of someone elses life, i appear to have found a very interesting one. Your diary is lush. Just thought i'd let you know. x
from atomicbuddha :
Thank you so much for the sweet note!!
from godmoney :
i LOVE "cashmere." And i GET it!
from godmoney :
Hey! When do u hear 4rm the contest peeps? i hear in MAY + only if i'm THE WINNER. that's mean.
from godmoney :
just came back 4rm my vacation + wanted 2 say i love u!
from centaurlord :
You don't ever e-mail me! you must be e-mailng the other Centaurlord... I hate that guy... wait I'm the only one... Are you e-mail cheating on me?
from muse11 :
thanks for the banner. i love the smoke theme. cheers!!
from facetag :
thanks for adding me back
from highxglitter :
ahaha i love the description in your profile. i can relate {except im not really rich}
from itsjustmeliz :
Just so you know, my fingers and toes and everything crossables are crossed for you! And I'm praying too! Love and all that jazz, Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
I am back and spiritually revitalised! Btw, am heartin the new layout. FABulous daaahling! Kisses and all that jazz, Liz xoxo
from themarassa :
Your new layout is beautiful, by the way. I thought that I would miss the naked men, but I really dont. For some reason I REALLY want a cigarette now though.
from themarassa :
SO I was just looking through your links, and I got to wondering who exactly IS "Iron Chef", hmmmm??? I tried zooming in on the back but alas and alack, IAM only zooms for members, which apparently I am not.
from reevo :
*courtney. damn you blasted typos! sar xx
from reevo :
no problem - i pretty much agree with all your musical, film, and author choices on your profile. all that and a coutney ring too? you rock! sar xx
from violetdollz :
I think its great that theres finally a courtney love diary ring she's my idol ♥
from hamakosan :
4/11/04: ex·traor·di·nar·y (adj.) 1. Beyond what is ordinary or usual: extraordinary authority. 2. Highly exceptional; remarkable: an extraordinary achievement. 3. you.
from hamakosan :
4/10/04: thank you SO much for the sweet message you left me. it was VERY thoughtful and you didn't have to.. but it was VERY MUCH APPRECIATED. you're such a thoughtful, sweetheart!
from themarassa :
Maya is a pretty name. Where I am from, it is pronounced as you say it. I think it is a tradition that carried on from a closer tie with Britain, or something... we tend to say a lot of things kind of funny compared to The American Way.
from vlademir :
Thank you, it's good to be back!
from itsjustmeliz :
I'm sorry that you're ill. Drink plenty of fluids. Love, lil sis Liz xoxo
from themarassa :
I'm proud to say that my blood is clean. In addition to NOT getting AIDS/hepatitis, the proud new owner of any pint I donate usually gets the free gift of a bit of a wine buzz and a nic-fix. Hey... I go above and beyond!
from purex :
Argh, I didn't get my tongue done! Wish I was as brave as you
from itsjustmeliz :
Thank you for the comeback. Unfortunately, if I did say that my teacherbitch would probably refer me for being insolent or something because he's horrid to me like that. I've also been looking out for your banners but I haven't found them yet. Lotsa love, Liz xoxo
from not-tuesday :
You have an awesome banner and layout!
from xsilvamoonx :
I am 14...but not too angsty...nice banner anyway! but your diary sucked. nah, im just kidding...maybe...anyway...have a nice day!
from ndthsmdy :
you would, therefore, be the coolest person on the planet
from purex :
Ahhh dentists are EVIL!. EE-VIL. I'm 18 and I still have to go to a children's dentist 1 1/2 hours out of town whenever I have to get work *cavities* done. lol..
from lovely-freak :
the girl who got her's removed.... her name is kacey and i sorta "know" her from the explantation.com site. we've talked at length on the forum over there and i was very happy to put a face to the boobs... lol! lots of women get sick from the implants (the shell of ALL implants is silicone) but no one wants to admit that it's true... yet.
from itsjustmeliz :
Yaysy yay yay!!! For the people who are coming over. Love, Liz xoxo
from hamakosan :
3/27/04 9:31AM>> oh congratulations on the houseguests! i'm so jealous. i wish i had my friends here. yay for you!
from itsjustmeliz :
OH you!You make me feel mucho better! *hugs you lotso* Luv, Liz xoxo
from elysium1982 :
clicked on your banner and found your lovely diary. great stuff. good luck with your work and saving the animals. someone has to care enough to do it.
from lovely-freak :
no that's right
from vlademir :
Congrats!!!!
from hamakosan :
Yay for nookie! hehe..
from lovely-freak :
THANK YOU! i wish you lived closer.....
from vlademir :
*Reaches through the screen and pinches you* hehe, you don't have to be Irish... everyone falls into the Irish catagory on St. Patrick's Day...lol "Have A Happy One *smiles*
from itsjustmeliz :
I am cheered up, thanks to your kind, happy words. I did my scary speech today, WAY! and I got a 1. WAYWAYWAY!!! Mucho love, Liz *hugs and kisses*
from vlademir :
Awww...I miss Johnny Bravo, Courage, Cow N Chicken...those were good.But I can't get cartoon network :(
from vlademir :
Actually just my fangs, pent. necklace, and basic black attire (boots, pants,shirt & duster). But in these parts it takes very little to spook these commoners. a few yrs. ago they had a bad problem with "wanna-be" Satanists (they were a far cry from the real thing). Now that was a time to remember...lmao.
from centaurlord :
I was going to go to FL for spring break becasue my friend lives there, but i don't have a job so i can't pay for anything right now. :(
from vlademir :
ty, glad you enjoyed it :)
from pugsnhugs :
thx for being so nice. I have a friend at work who knows about HTML so she can help me. Actually she is the one who got me into this
from madam-rose :
lol no way i love reading diaries lol besides i update tons too hehe
from pugsnhugs :
thx. I'm new at this and your name attracted me. I'm a Marlboro girl. But you do remind me of myself from your entries.
from vlademir :
Hmmm, that was almost how my updated was going to sound...lol
from itsjustmeliz :
I'm here to console. Make some special tea or chocolate or coffee, have a big bath then go to your bed. Don't worry, I've already informed the Karma demon to get your back on the horrid sales-people and here's a hug. *Squeezy hug* Mucho love, Liz *kiss*
from itsjustmeliz :
Thank you for caring. *hugs* Oh yes, I forgot to tell you that I like you new layout with the naked people prancing about the glen... Liz xoxo
from vlademir :
Yes you may, & ty...
from madam-rose :
awww ty so much and those are all my old ones im about to start doing some new ones. I just redid my sites layout and did vlads site so now im all design mode lol. Ty again. :)
from itsjustmeliz :
Hey! you're fave girl aren't you?! *laughs* May I have the password? *smiles sweetly* Luv ya, Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
Ok, I know you said 3 but I picked 5- Someone elses dreams, Woman, Hope Chest, Our Voices and Birthday Card. I read through all your entries by the way, it wasn't until later i realised your poetry was split into recent and old... D'oh!!! *hugs* Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
*taps you on head with my magic sceptre* Dear Lauren, you are forgiven but there was nothing I had to forgive you for anyway, silly lamb. But you just reminded me... SHIT! I was mean to have read through your poetry then told you which ones were best! Meep! Sorry! I've been forgetting so many things recently! Ok, I'll do it now! I sooo hope it's not too late or anything! Mucho love, Liz xoxo
from molko-love :
*Smiles* they are fucking amazing. Brian is the one.
from aidawrites :
i ran into yer site and i must say...sweet ass template!
from themarassa :
I stumbled on your diary, and LOVED it... mind if I add you??????
from threereviews :
if so... that would be sooooo gross!
from threereviews :
i think it would be a neat entry if you wrote one explaining that... i've got one on my links page (of my personal diary) that says where my name came from... blah blah blah... i'm glad you liked your review as i really really enjoy your diary!
from threereviews :
your review is finished!
from anglewings :
WOW, your looking good ! Latezz
from lovely-freak :
anywhere for the link for the review is fine! thanks!
from centaurlord :
I would like to read your new diary. please:) you can contact me on my diary.
from grunge999 :
Nice taste in music! Soundgarden totally rules!
from ediblmercury :
random hello good taste in some movies there :)
from itsjustmeliz :
Congrats on the 2 pound weight loss. Woo! Liz xoxo
from madam-rose :
thank u for the kind note hun.
from itsjustmeliz :
Wow! Thank you! *is embarassed yet flattered* Luv, Liz xoxo *hug*
from ameoba-queen :
Yes, I finally got my poem written out so it's here if you still wanna read it. This is a very big honour- me inviting you to read my poetry. Because usually I hate people reading it, because I'm afraid. Tell me what you think, EVEN if you think it's shite.
from itsjustmeliz :
I've been questioning wether or not to say something to you coz I know you're feeling very broken up right now. I decided to note you coz it's not as scary as email. I know you probably think I have no idea how you feel but I do. My friend did the exact same thing bout 3 years ago. Her name was Penny, she was only 16. I'd known her since I was a lil kid. We used to hide under tables and play mice. We kinda drifted apart when we got older- she was 4 years older than me. Our parents stayed friends though. In fact, the last time I saw her was 3 years ago- 3 months before she died. I saw her in a bookstore and I said hi but nothing else. Now I just feel so, so bad for not saying anything more, you know? I feel that maybe if I'd said more I could have reached her or something and maybe she could have told me about how she was hurting so much. Maybe it would never have happened. Ahhh... sounds kinda dumb but it makes sense in my head. Hang in there. It will be alright in the end. *hug* Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
Waha! I did that quiz and I got borderline too! I did it again to check and I got avoidant. Liz xoxo
from ameoba-queen :
Lil sis Lizzy to the rescue! Hmmm... are you troubled with your past? Or something in your past? The fact that you're in your old neighbourhood (when you were a kid?) and the angry people might mean that you feel people are invading your private space? Or maybe you feel people are hostile towards you or are challenging you for something you KNOW you're right? Or for something that's not your fault. Houses are meant to represent security, in general or with yourself. I don't know what it represents here. Ahhh... I'll think more about this for you. Oh, and when you get this note please tell me if anything I said was even remotely right or a pile of shite coz I actually used to be very into dream interpretation- even got loadsa books out the library on it. Just tell me if what I said made sense. This is a very long note. Maybe next time I'll email you if it's gonna be this long. Ok, I'll shut up now. Liz xoxo *hug*
from lovely-freak :
i have not seen big fish. it just didn't seem to grab my attention for some reason. i'm not sure what all the hype is about... i've watched the tv and i've seen the commercials & reviews... it just didn't grab my attention... of course, i have the attention span of an insect so that could be the problem...
from ameoba-queen :
You better take that secret with you to the grave... i know that was a little secret but still. luv ya! *hug* ,Ameoba Queen.
from itsjustmeliz :
lol! Thank you, that really made me feel better. If you want the password I'll email it to you. I have this paranoia that someone I know will get it somehow and then read the diary. Luv, Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
It doesn't matter. I logged on as molko-love and tried there but it still didn't work. Rarrrgh!!! I'm feeling rather cross! Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
I just got a new diary it's ameoba-queen. I tried to lock it but I don't think I did it right. The first time I tried to gte in the pop-up came up and that was fine bu the second time it didn't. Can you try to get in for me and tell me if that pop-up pops up? You're a gem. lol! Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
Oh yes. Question: what size boobs do you have? And do you ever have trouble folding your arms across your chest? Or anything like that? You don't have to answer this question if you don't want to. Mucho love, Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
Perhaps one day I will let you read my poem. In fact, once I've written it out you can be the first one to read it! It might take a while. And I'm not just saying this the way people say stuff then conveniently forget about it. I really mean it. Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
Hey ya, wow. I just read your entry. *tear... sniff* I feel compelled to say something being your lil sis and all. lol. I know I'll prob never know how you feel or what it's like. I'll try to understand. I feel like a prat for writing this. And for writing about my problems which are tiny in comparison to yours. Anywayz, I felt like I had to say something. Maybe I'm saying the wrong things? I don't know. *hug* Mucho love, Liz xoxo
from wild-n-crazd :
well i got in a situation with a pregnancy thing and i was only 13 at the time. im glad what ppl say actually mean something to you. i left a note 4 someone and they were like "whatever you don't understand". i love reading your entries uz they atually have point in writing stuff down. my friends and mine are just us bitching and complaining about life.lol. well later, k*k*
from twist-o-fate :
yea mine is by lucky designs also....... but i dunno how to make it work right...never mind i got it now.....hey wild-n-crazd is my best bud...hehehehe she musta got u from my profile... well cya..ps you should read some of my entries and tell me what you think..i have a few poems on there that ive been told are pretty good... ciao tish
from wild-n-crazd :
i was touched by your brandon micheal entry...truly touched...how old are you now? im 14...:)
from twist-o-fate :
hey i added you... ilove your entries..their great.... i was womdering if you could help me with something...my template is all messed up....
from molko-love :
*Sigh* I can't wait<3 -Clare xox
from itsjustmeliz :
WAY! *hugs* Liz xoxo
from gwenllian :
I was in no way referring to you when I made that remark about regular readers. Like I said, those women know who I mean.
from itsjustmeliz :
You should be like, my Dland big sister or my net big sister... Or something... *hugs back* Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
Wow! Do you know that for sure? Is it true? Haha! No wonder kids in those days believed their parents when they said they came from boxes and stuff! Lotsa love, Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
NICE LAYOUT! Love, Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
Wow, that was a long note! Anywayz, thankin you again. I'll heed your advice. Mucho love, Liz xoxo
from corroding :
I am apologizing profusely *apologizes profusely* for the complete and utter lack of typing skills. 'Tis fixed.
from itsjustmeliz :
Thank you mucho. The book that my teacher gave me had Lady Lazarus in it and daddy. Do you know of any other poets that I would like? Tell me! I'm new to the whole poetry thing, see. I'm also wanting to start writing my own poetry some time. Anywayz, fare well... Mucho love, Liz xoxo P.S Welcome to molko-love. I loved your entry!
from molko-love :
Password is HelloPretty. Enjoy updating. -Clare xox
from molko-love :
Thanks doll,wanna join?
from itsjustmeliz :
Thank you, dear ashtraygurl, for enlightening me on the ways of scratching. Have you joined molko-love? You should! With mucho love, Liz xoxo
from corroding :
your music is also spiffy! (nightmare before christmas rocks the socks).
from itsjustmeliz :
dear ashtraygurl, i enjoy reading your diary so much i even put it as one of my fave diaries. i don't know if you said your diary was crap just so someone would say otherwise but it's not. now read my diary! luv, liz xoxo
from ambrosiah :
Nice name (:
from anglewings :
Hi hope you have fun with your diary . Latezzzzzzzzz
from jt- :
I really enjoyed reading your journal, good luck getting into that diary ring...

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