messages to drascus:
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from angelspit609 :
i use this. and you use this. and that means that somebody uses this sometimes.
from college-kid :
Famous? And that's a ridiculous reason to get canned.
from college-kid :
You're not talking to yourself.
from sadistiksoul :
those who have time should leave messages. why do you hate me?
from halfbaked :
Rotten Peaches
from halfbaked :
Fuck the what?
from halfbaked :
[email protected] or here [email protected]
from halfbaked :
Your wasting your time and your life if your longing after things you cant have instead of enjoying things you can
from halfbaked :
Wanna get together sometime and break some glass?
from halfbaked :
When is it time to cut the rope and run? I drank what?
from sadistiksoul :
tell me a story
from halfbaked :
It a sheep's stomach. How's your life-long task of breathing treating ya?
from fragilerain :
Just so you know... its never too late.
from moonbaby8u :
yea...in the long run...we all do lose.
from moonbaby8u :
i win
from fragilerain :
i don't think you're going crazy....
from nelapsi :
Miss you.
from moonbaby8u :
well...then...that explains ALOT.
from halfbaked :
Ok... Ok... so you're not a puppet... but can I still stick my hand up your ass?
from moonbaby8u :
I cant breathe either.Ever.
from sadistiksoul :
it feels good to be needed. we are blind, deaf and dumb, sir, and born to follow.
from talkingmoon :
i hope you don't
from halfbaked :
You'll choke on what I have to give you... that was too easy... now I've made myself sad...
from fragilerain :
All I wanted was someone to talk to. But thats okay. Honestly, is it so bad that I want you as a friend? You seem to think you have nothing to give, but you're wrong.
from fragilerain :
I need you.... or someone rather....
from halfbaked :
Well the path to unity lies in enlightenment... or subjugation... given human nature the latter would be easiest.
from talkingmoon :
I think it was in high school when I was at Jessica's house doing the ouija board. They said something about you talking to people on another plane. I don't remember who.
from talkingmoon :
I hear you can do amazing things. Keep that energy up. I think mine has turned a bit cold, but with time it'll warm back up. And I'm glad you write often. Talent like that should never go wasted.
from neostar421 :
Remember to hate yourself.
from talkingmoon :
What? I know we never really talked, but I never hated you. I'm sorry if I did anything or said anything to make you think that.
from talkingmoon :
You don't know me well. Actually, you don't know me at all. We met in high school though, had physics together, and you hung around some of the kids I hung around. I stumbled upon your diary by being curious and wanting to know if anyone in the Seattle area (since I live here now) still updates. I am aware that myspace has taken over. I wouldn't recommend perusing my diary because I've gotten uncomfortable and stopped writing what I feel and only really writing about my day. But I just wanted you to know how beautiful your writing is. Really, it's amazing. There are a few people that still update today, and it seems as though they try to have beautiful writing but they just sound like idiots. You don't try at all, and it's poetry. Anyway, take care.
from halfbaked :
You smell like the inside of my momma's purse...
from halfbaked :
Turn me on dead-man...
from halfbaked :
pottery
from halfbaked :
There is no God - The Universe will one day die - There is no eternity... Nothing you do in life will matter worth a damn to anyone but yourself. All things come to an end - will you be happy when it comes?
from sadistiksoul :
a long time ago you told me that those who have time should leave messages. i had time. Come back and write, please.
from halfbaked :
I am Jill's nipple.
from msbitters :
it seems that ACI has swindled me out of enough money to be able to give monitors away for free. if you want one tell me/help yourself.
from melaniemo :
shall we float together?
from im-a-idiot :
email me sometimes [email protected]
from sadistiksoul :
shhh. You are so angry.
from halfbaked :
I think I'll need a phone card...
from im-a-idiot :
you make me sad.
from halfbaked :
Well... If you want to walk all the way here...
from im-a-idiot :
so there's some light at the end...of what?
from halfbaked :
It was about... one mans triumph above all odds, his glory, and his love for small pieces of raw fish wrapped in rice and seaweed... it was about honor and courage in the most trying of circumstances... and true fiery passion that only burns it the hearts of gods... it was about little girls with straight white teeth on a quite summers day... and that proud tingling feeling you get thinking about America... It wasn't about the meaning of life... but it did come close...
from halfbaked :
Silly Billy... cartoons don't contain the meaning of life...
from halfbaked :
Ok... here's the thing... I told them I wounldn't tell anyone... but... The secret of life is 42... Don't you just feel like you've wasted your life? I did... How's your musculoskeletal system functioning now bitch?!?
from sadistiksoul :
you're a trip
from halfbaked :
Memorial Day Weekend in Jail! I'm so happy!
from halfbaked :
Well I haven't been up to much lately - I got a DUI, and had to go to some chick in the courthouse here to see if I am an alcoholic... and I have to go to court on Thursday the 18th to get sentenced... you know... the usual...
from monkiwitagun :
Wow! It's like I'm trapped in this fucking box and this is the only way to get my message through. Hi Chris. You should call me not the other way around.
from halfbaked :
What's funnier than a dead baby? A dead baby sitting next to a kid with down syndrome.
from im-a-idiot :
I've been online for so long that people's spelling or grammar rules don't amaze me at all. it's pretty stupid too, since most of the words they shorten don't save any time. people are lazy, this shouldn't surprise you.
from sadistiksoul :
you should tell zac that my diaryland url isn't toast.diaryland.com....
from msbitters :
oh boy, you make me crazy. i wish i mattered enough to help you. i wish i could just stop caring like i know you want me to.
from im-a-idiot :
ever wonder if you can pass for normal?
from neostar421 :
Hey, this could be fun! I'm Thinkin' Party!!!
from neostar421 :
hey, the possibility that i will end up living in washington this fall is not a farfetch'd one. Seattle area, even. Just thought i'd let ya know, seeing as how you live there and all. Figured it might give you something to look forward to. You know, another friend within a 20 mile radius of you. Yeah.
from halfbaked :
That explain it?
from halfbaked :
"It's about a young girl who will stop at nothing to be the valedictorian of her class. It's very dark and very wicked, but it's got a great part for a kid, and a great part for an older woman." -Kevin Williamson
from im-a-idiot :
boo find me if you can
from sadistiksoul :
that was beautiful...so far from abrasive
from lady-dra :
I wish people would get bored of me. Things would be a lot easier. But see that's our problem. We're too interesting. It's why I'd notice if you were gone
from halfbaked :
I wish I could live and someone would notice...
from halfbaked :
How you doing there big guy? You hungry? You need a soda? There isn't a God... and it really sucks being dead... this is the time you have in heaven - before you die and go to hell... use it...
from sadistiksoul :
Everyone likes to think they know more. The secret is to find the ones that really do.
from lady-dra :
none of us know anything more then you. We might know less. We all just keep going though, in hope of finding something that makes us smile.
from lady-dra :
ever what happens to someone who fades?
from caldwell-kid :
wow... hollyshit... dear god here it com... *loud explody sounds* Holly shit that was a close one!
from halfbaked :
I'm never going back to baskin robbins again...
from halfbaked :
I got drunk, started punching people, and woke up without it... my fault - but for some reason I haven't secured a replacement yet...
from halfbaked :
Well my cell phonage is none existant so my home phone would be the only way you can reach me... at 455-2182
from halfbaked :
Shall I fill you full of crumpets? Oh what a lovely tea party...
from halfbaked :
Well let's hook up, and see if we catch some fishies... or a venereal disease... both?
from lady-dra :
then kiss me =). silly you. or rather silly me.
from nelapsi :
You took the right pill.
from halfbaked :
You're right?
from nelapsi :
*teary eyed* What appropriate timing...
from lady-dra :
thanks I had a great birthday :D
from thebloodlust :
from the moment i laid naive eyes on you...
from lady-dra :
that didn't sound honest at all. that sounded like something already written in a book.
from halfbaked :
You're not a father Chris... you are just a sperm-donor... I'm sorry I have to say that to you, but that's how I feel...
from lady-dra :
a good goal..how come nothing looks like it should?
from halfbaked :
And why we are on the subject... Episode 103 "The Corbomite Maneuver" is alot better than Episode 119 "The Sqire of Gothos" No matter you say about Episode 119, we both know it doesn't even compare to the genius of Episode 103... I just thought you were man enough to admit it... Granted you had a good point when you said that Episode 215 "Journey to Babel" had better lighting design than Episode 103... However - "Journey to Babel" is from the second season, so clearly you can't hold "The Corbomite Maneuver" to the same standard...
from nelapsi :
*bares teeth and bites* But I love you, Chris! :)
from halfbaked :
No pain no gain... If pain is weakness leaving the body... then you are indeed weak... just another one of my happy thoughts...
from lady-dra :
..maybe pain is gone but something replaced it
from halfbaked :
And you are not becoming an animal... because they are much better than humans... just a though...
from halfbaked :
Well if I was where you are... I'd do so damage... In the form of Love... and akward sexual favors...
from lady-dra :
secrets are no fun if they're not shared with everyone
from lady-dra :
really what is it?
from lady-dra :
I doubt I'm the only one. later babe
from lady-dra :
yah, I still read, I just didn't feel like keeping entries for a while, and I have left you notes here and there. anyway later
from lady-dra :
nice results....I'm guessing like mine...they look true to you
from halfbaked :
I think I'm going to go claim my first victim...
from sadistiksoul :
sick as it may be, it was erotic nonetheless.
from halfbaked :
* Suicide was the 11th leading cause of death in the United States. * It was the 8th leading cause of death for males, and 19th leading cause of death for females. * The total number of suicide deaths was 29,199 * The 1999 age-adjusted rate** was 10.7/100,000, or 0.01%. * 1.3% of total deaths were from suicide. By contrast, 30.3% were from diseases of the heart, 23% were from malignant neoplasms (cancer), and 7% from cerebrovascular disease (stroke), the three leading causes. * Suicide outnumbered homicides (16,899) by 5 to 3. * There were twice as many deaths due to suicide than deaths due to HIV/AIDS (14,802). * There were almost exactly the same number of suicides by firearm (16,889) as homicides (16,599). * Suicide by firearms was the most common method for both men and women, accounting for 57% of all suicides. * More men than women die by suicide. * The gender ratio is 4:1. * 72% of all suicides are committed by white men. * 79% of all firearm suicides are committed by white men. * Among the highest rates (when categorized by gender and race) are suicide deaths for white men over 85, who had a rate of 59/100,000. * Suicide was the 3rd leading cause of death among young people 15 to 24 years of age, following unintentional injuries and homicide. The rate was 10.3/100,000, or .01%. * The suicide rate among children ages 10-14 was 1.2/100,000, or 192 deaths among 19,608,000 children in this age group. The 1999 gender ratio for this age group was 4:1 (males: females). * The suicide rate among adolescents aged 15-19 was 8.2/100,000, or 1,615 deaths among 19,594,000 adolescents in this age group. The 1999 gender ratio for this age group was 5:1 (males: females). ---just to let you know... you're not alone :)
from sadistiksoul :
it's like coming down now. this is like your personal counselor. the people here are here to listen. they bathe in what you pour out, all over, and they like it. I will never look at my watch and wonder what else i could be doing instead of listening to you. You have things inside that sometimes i wait for...keep spilling your blood here.
from sadistiksoul :
it seems to be a recurring theme in your journal, but i think you need to stop focusing on the innocents and wretched and focus on yourself... so there is no more pain...or less of it, anyway.
from halfbaked :
I got the whole yahoo messenger figured out... my sn is caffeinatedsmoke... Weeee
from halfbaked :
yeah but if I came out of you... you'd remember...
from halfbaked :
Funny... I don't remember coming out of your vagina...
from sadistiksoul :
i searched your sn on google...it was interesting...
from thebloodlust :
hmmm. ♥
from thebloodlust :
cyanide. its the answer to everything.
from lady-dra :
why fix something when it's not broken?
from sadistiksoul :
Dear Savior: I want to get inside you. I read your life again, from day one, last nite. I noticed that you want a lot of things, and they aren't always delivered. But we who ask much of you often get everything and then some. You need one of you. Your guitar was sweet to me... I can see why you love her... You don't really need a reason to hate, and it's hard to love, but it's worth it. Know that you are adored, adulated, worshipped even. Yours Truly, a kitten of yours... a child...
from sadistiksoul :
i am going to copy you. I think that says much in itself.
from sadistiksoul :
i want to hear you play again... i miss those days.... i can not wait
from naima101 :
Don't worry, there's no God. :-)
from sadistiksoul :
dear drascus: she told me something i wanted to tell you...
from lady-dra :
dear santa this year I just want my mom to be alive again...... it's why I don't make christmas lists.
from thebloodlust :
sometimes i know how you feel... ♥
from halfbaked :
death, taxes, and passing glances... is it standing up... or is it sitting down? Because you know that there's a pill for that...
from lady-dra :
....this is your would called diary...look behind you there's someone waiting to hold you, don't let go there's someone holding your hand, and if you just opened your heart, maybe you wouldn't have to think with your head. and if your brain didn't work, would that be as bad as it seems? or maybe instead it would be better having feelings not thoughts that get messed up, stop looking ahead.
from sadistiksoul :
you are more pale, skinnier--more buff, your hair is dark again...it was nice to see you, to lose to you, to be in your presence.
from nelapsi :
...?
from sadistiksoul :
those who have time... You are always running from me... walk like you have a purpose... I can't tell you something I don't believe.
from lady-dra :
.....about my poem or yours?...people seem to be curious about it....I don't know what to tell them.
from lady-dra :
"..." tells me nothing, but neither does anyone else .... so I might as well not share my answers with them
from halfbaked :
Don't sleep with your eyes open... And don't be awake with your eyes shut... subway? carpeting? marketplace? foreskin? Miami? Get running and try to catch the train... or sit here and wait for the next bus...
from nelapsi :
It was nice talking to you the other day. I wish I could had talked a bit longer and had more of your attention but then who can compete with Seattle? I was getting attacked, they threated throwing my phone out the window if I didn't fight back. Hope your dad gets better. Have some happy thoughts, I wont tell anyone.
from sadistiksoul :
i wanna hear it...
from lady-dra :
:D glad to be of assistance
from lady-dra :
you know what sucks you opened your eyes but the light wasn't on.....there's not much to see in darkness....someone should pay the electric bill ;)
from sadistiksoul :
i enjoyed that...and put me in there and took everyone for whom you might have meant it out...hah.
from sadistiksoul :
there is no love here and there is no pain, everyday is exactly the same
from sadistiksoul :
i've already answered
from lady-dra :
why try and stick to the present when it's boring
from sadistiksoul :
yay for knowing who we are...and for hating ourselves nonetheless... you should ask me what I said about you today... maybe you'll get a kick out of it.... I miss you terribly...thank you.
from lady-dra :
hehe everyone does at times, but still, there's nothing there for you to see
from lady-dra :
you could love me, but why would you bother..and beside....no one wants to try
from thebloodlust :
behold.. i am the scum of the earth. at least i'm not alone. ♥
from lady-dra :
the pasts seems so far away when you look upon it, and the future farther then before....no oen can ever stick to the present.
from thebloodlust :
you are missed ♥
from sadistiksoul :
you should tell me...you know i'll listen
from lady-dra :
there's always a missing piece, the irony of it is that it's the same with everyone.
from lady-dra :
but...you sounded happy in your entry
from lady-dra :
so how does joy feel?
from thebloodlust :
i had a random urge to throw the door open and find you there nonchalant... and my emerald alibis conveying pretense... ♥
from sadistiksoul :
broken bruised forgotten sore..... I miss you already....i hope it's good for you.
from thebloodlust :
my heart just broke a little...
from laucian1 :
I can think of some things you don't remember. Too hot for these peoples' eyes, though.
from laucian1 :
Well,now that we're off fallacies I shouldn't need help for a while. Unless you remember everything about 13 days and the federalist papers
from laucian1 :
I don't need the help you can give me. I'm just unable to get a grasp on these damned fallacies....after this unit, I should be alright. If I read the books.
from sadistiksoul :
you will be gone. But you've been trying to be for too long. This will be good for you. I really am going to miss you, no lie.
from thebloodlust :
you bring tears to my eyes... ♥
from nelapsi :
"You're such a beautiful fucked up man. Yea, workin hard, building a mystery..."
from sadistiksoul :
for you:14. for me:16...
from lady-dra :
...wonder what you're doing...
from sadistiksoul :
godfuck I miss you.
from lady-dra :
AHHHH I"M MADE OF GLASS!! [giggles] thank you darling...hope things go ok :)
from laucian1 :
Hey fuckhead. If you ever do end up dead, Just come back and tell me.
from sadistiksoul :
there's a festiva here...be my shooting star... I won't forget....Is there something I can do for you?
from sadistiksoul :
11:04 a.m. - 2003-10-17...are you still that person?
from sadistiksoul :
". You can never really love someone without thinking about them naked." Interesting.
from sadistiksoul :
sometimes I want to write you a message with meaning.
from sadistiksoul :
**looks at the time** humorously enough, we were still up when you wrote that...
from thebloodlust :
yeah... too bad we love you too fucking much. ♥
from sadistiksoul :
i have to mow the lawn....and I still haven't done it... you should do it for me.... except I think you're getting a real job. Have fun with that.
from thebloodlust :
thanks for lettin me hitch a ride w/ you guys. mr.gasmask face. *crazy madperson giggle* i swear i'm not on crack. ♥
from sadistiksoul :
those who have time to leave messages, should. no? the concert sucked, but sims made me laugh. good times. thank you.
from thebloodlust :
i happen to hate those people too.
from sadistiksoul :
remember when you said you became your own server? not so. it doesn't show. I'm still debating whether or not to laugh....but how could I survive if you changed your template?
from lady-dra :
sympathy for the devil :(
from sadistiksoul :
you made me feel good by taking me to mashies... thank you...everything else you already know
from rough-beauty :
I know how you feel sick. I've been feeling the same way. Some shit is happening to a friend of mine, and I feel so sick, like everything is spiralling down into an endless abyss and going horribly wrong. Forgive me for not introducing myself. I'm Tiffy's friend Kristin. --Kristin
from hissandtell :
Thank you for your kind note, darling. Your diary is extremely appealing, you know. Love, R xxx
from lady-dra :
you think way way too much
from sadistiksoul :
please disregard any idiocy in the message you are about to read: Sometimes I want to be your diary. I love you, but probably not in the way you need to be loved. Sometimes when my world has gone to shit, I know that I don't have to be happy and cheery around you, I don't have to be fake. You inspire me, and I want to be more like you...But sometimes I wonder why you don't seem to see the little things... The people who like you, people who care... The people who don't judge you. One time I was one of those little things. You seriously don't strike me as one of those emo-cutter-suicidal people, at all. I think you're too intelligent for that. I also believe you give yourself too little credit. But what do I know?
from laucian1 :
Hey Chris...I just read your latest diary...and realized how much alike we think. Except for a few subtle differences, it sounds very much like something I would write... I'll talk to you later...
from lady-dra :
I wouldn't pray if I were you, you never know who might answer...
from laucian1 :
Chris...You won't hear me say this again for a long time... I love you.
from lady-dra :
*hugs* poor dearie. everyone gets hurt and everyone hurts, it's life...or maybe it's just a dream that never seems to end
from fragilerain :
HALLO!!!!! i just wanted to say hi. you should leave me a note sometime to say hi. if you want you can pet me on the head, or the belly. whichever you prefer. :)
from sadistiksoul :
you fascinate. that's why. is there anymore to it? no. you intrigue us.
from thebloodlust :
...there's more behind the eyes of a fallen angel eyes of a tragedy...
from lady-dra :
why pretend it takes to much effort :)
from caldwell-kid :
Ur Life Is Fluid And Like The Water U Shit In Ull Flush It Too
from sadistiksoul :
yay! ...wait... what did you call me?... a "secret fan" haha.. not so secret, but that's cool. So yes, let's be friends. whoooo
from sadistiksoul :
by the way, I took the time to go thru your entire journal. I am amazed by your writing. I have to read your story now.
from sadistiksoul :
hi chris. you inpired me. so I got one too. aren't you proud of me. now I have four of these things. though not necessarily here. I've read back your entries past my knowledge of your exsistence.
from lady-dra :
misery loves company. it's no big if you want to be alone. I always want to be alone, this is what rooms were invented for. like my room. later
from lady-dra :
it's always quiet
from lady-dra :
b.t.w. which stands for by the way, who the fuck shortened three words to three letters? do I ever have a point in anything I say. don't think so oh well. bye bye :P
from lady-dra :
the screams only lead to tears
from lady-dra :
darling blood is always better then chocolate because it never really melts away. quite an exquisite thing you wrote, but if you do go away there's someone who'll look for you. I live in ohio or my room or mars, I'm not sure, I'm not really sure I'm awake, maybe I'm dreaming all of this. maybe I'll become a deaf mute or will I?
from lady-dra :
I need directions on how to get to idaho
from nelapsi :
Honestly, I didn't realize how close the note I left you was to the e-mail I sent Sterling, I'm sorry. I can see how that would be pretty shitty. Just realize that this is me and my mind and memory and they generally don't work well together. Wish we could had cought up...
from neostar421 :
ok, creepy...
from xmydefiancex :
Chris, this is Sterling speaking. First of all I have not forgotten your number. I mearly choose not to call you. I have too much shit going on right now, and too many things to deal with right now. I choose not to call you because you bring a side out of me that I hate, although I do like hanging around with you. I thank you for the roof over my head, but that brought you just as much pleasure as it did me. One thing I must say now, I agree with Julia, you do have to grow up. being intelligent does not make you mature. I realise that my maturity is not as high as I would like it, but I am growing up. Me calling you has nothing to do with being a boy or a man. For if it did, you are nothing but a boy, for you never call me. I know you have my number. Jed has it, and he hasn't called either. You are not anybodies god, anti-christ, massiah, or toilet seat, you are my friend. I don't call anybody not even my family. So when your done being high up on yourself, and can stop throwing insults, give me a call. Sterling
from neostar421 :
Listen ass, i dont need you telling me whats up. You arent god (dispite what you may think) and you dont know whats going on. heh...God..it never fails me..What the fuck inspired you to write me a note now? Of all times? Was it the fact that my entry consisted of lyrics from a band you like and are appauled at the fact that i may like them too? No? I dunno. Jesus chris...its nice to hear from ya every once in a while, but you need to work on timing and content. I have enough shit to deal with that i dont need yours. What you dont understand, is that by leaving me that note, you may very well be feeding fuel to the very fire i am trying to put out. So if it is no difference to you, i am deleting your note.
from xmydefiancex :
as I remember , I did not insult you. why are you insulting me? if you want to talk about bad "mojo" go look in a mirror. it wasn't in your diary.. which ,by the way, I don't read because stupidity angers me, I found out thats all these are, mindles blatherings. I can't believe you have the gall to sit there and tell me to get my nose out of your ass when firstly I would never brown nose an incomprehensibly idiotic prepubessant male such as yourself,and secondly you haven't pulled your head out of your ass in years so you have no room to talk about who is being a boy. I would suggest becomming a man before dissing on your so called friends for not being one. oh, and chris, if you wnat to hate anyone for "being a negative person" hate yourself.. as I remember your good at that. right? or is all of the black clothing, be scared of me I'm a spooky goth boy that wants to kill himself shit... just a sham?? get a grip.. anyway I will always remember you as the sweet geeky boy, not the analretentive ass that you seem to be now. what happened to that sweet person that I could talk to? the boy who drew a heart in the sand... is that pure heart dead in you ?
from nelapsi :
I'm in Caldwell until Thursday... miss me?
from xmydefiancex :
in my opinion thats what this is.."Just don't end up like Sterling... Have some ambition for Christ's sake"... is that how you like your friends talking about you? or are you even friends? hell, its not my place to have an opinion.. but thats just me, I tend to care where people normally wouldn't give a shit. why don't you tell me, what is right?
from xmydefiancex :
don't talk crap about sterling.
from lady-dra :
ah you lucky sob having sex in your dreams!!! *me pokes you with a stick* :)
from neostar421 :
HA! i am trying, senior` house-on-a-hill, I am trying. But the big guy wont let it die.....
from lady-dra :
you make true angels stop to look twice
from nelapsi :
I have no sunligh in my days anymore. :) My sleep mainly comes from cat naps throughout the day. Now I'm in English waiting to actually learn something new. Crap. Good morning.
from purrrtykitty :
Well, poo then.
from nelapsi :
Close... And if perhaps in this dream each turn I made you apeared in front of me but each time I ran into you, you were a different version of you, maybe a different personality. There were hundreds of you scattered out and I thought I was trying to get to the cliffs to jump and each time I'd get to one "you" would stop me and I'd run off. Until at the very end of the dream I made it to the cliff and "you" pushed me off but I held on because aparently I didn't really want to fall. This dream has been driving me crazy. Usually I can figure out what they mean but this one is lost to me.
from purrrtykitty :
Hi! Sorry I wasn't awake when you texted me. I wish I would have been. Call me sometime and we can talk...or I'll call you. Either way. I disagree with the whole love/naked statement. I'm uncomfortable with nakedness, but does that mean I can't love?
from lady-dra :
*me pictures you without a shirt on* that's as far as i can go :) heh thanks sweets
from nelapsi :
Question: Does a forest on a cliff with tall, dead trees and constant heavy rain fall mean anything to you?
from lady-dra :
what would you have anyone talk about?
from halfbaked :
Varsity Football!!!! WOOOOOOO!
from rainscadence :
i know how you feel. grrr. i hate high school. (this is ashley if you didn't know) i wish that i could leave all of this sometimes.
from lady-dra :
you sound happy :)
from nelapsi :
Meeeow?
from nelapsi :
Remember the little black umbrellas? Where have they gone?
from neostar421 :
Chris, any attempt to forget about you would be a battle in futility. Besides, why would i want to? You are so cute when you are trying to convince people you dont love them ^_^
from fragilerain :
thank you.
from nelapsi :
If it helps any, I'm falling and awaiting the hit.
from la-pendeja :
HEY!
from lady-dra :
I've been thinking to much lately I mean just go to my recent entry and see. Really thought is overrated I should stop think I should just be, you should stop thinking. thought makes us unhappy, knowlege makes people unhappy I feel like I'm in a ray bradbury novel, crap I'm thinking again!!!! make it stop! make it stop!!
from summer-donna :
chris... you are a jelly bean!!!
from nelapsi :
Hello...
from lady-dra :
and you aren't alone. subcounciously you know there are many around you, it's just you don't see it that way at the moment.
from lady-dra :
*huggles* you've returned!! :)
from neostar421 :
The world is large. greater than our minds allow us to grasp. you cant really be alone. If that were the case, your lungs would dicipate out of lack of oxygen. But for whatever its worth, i am sorry. And i wish this was something that i could remedy. But even so, my company would not cure this unless you accepted me. And i know that i am not the company you desire. Just do me a favor chris. Dont ever forget to love, and dont ever convince yourself you never knew how to.
from lady-dra :
ah come back the idiots are killing me! they're smothering me!
from lady-dra :
no thoughts on your mind while you stopped by? or maybe they weren't worth saying.
from lady-dra :
just kidding ;) later
from lady-dra :
oh wait I'm just girl now :( and I thought you loved me :( *tear*
from lady-dra :
:) I'm always there when the obvious needs to be pointed out :) heh
from lady-dra :
happy day you were born after nine months that you were actually concived.
from summer-donna :
Christopher Dean... I need your home address. E-mail it to me please. [email protected]
from summer-donna :
Happy Birthday Christopher Dean!!!! WOOT!
from lady-dra :
not to sound mean, and I'm a terrible speller. did I spell that right? ah fuck.
from lady-dra :
I would be thankful if that entry was never writen
from italiansoda :
Where did the good times fly off to? And why did they leave me behind? Remember the good ol' days? Damn it.
from la-pendeja :
Hi!
from summer-donna :
you silly boy... you would do that. He, he, he, I can just imagine you right now with big chimpmunk cheeks because of your swollen mouth... poor baby.
from lady-dra :
God? *blinks* you honor me to much. :)
from lady-dra :
well if you need a shotgun I have one :)
from fragilerain :
okay mister person guy! you need to follow up on your story! damn it! he's calling me a hooker slut! pitty me. only not really. now he's saying that i'm not smart! AHHHH! okay, i forgot my reason for leaving you a note.... oh yes, you need to follow up on your story. and pay no attention to mister guy over here. he's just being dumb.
from fragilerain :
i told you once that you could try to kill me and i still wouldn't hate you. and despite all the shit that has happened between you and i, i still have a fondness twards you. thank you again for going to see the show. it meant a lot.
from nelapsi :
Wow, I've been here a lot lately. I had a question, then it acured to me that you may not read this in time and time will bring my answer, I just don't wanna wait for time. Fudge. Are you coming here with Krystal? I think that you should based on the fact that I want you to. :P
from nelapsi :
*in a serious voice* You threw a shoe at a sleeping Germen. Were you not expecting him to be pissed? He was sleeping and you threw a shoe at him. While he was sleeping. He's German. And you hit him in his sleep with a flying shoe. I love it!
from nelapsi :
I'm headed home in a few moments. I'll call you tomorrow sometime for our coffee date. Love you.
from fragilerain :
....
from summer-donna :
oh how I love thee christopher dean
from nelapsi :
Perhaps, if you'd be willing, the next time I come to Caldwell we can have some just us time. One on one chats are always the best. I miss you and love you, too. Keep well.
from lady-dra :
when the world ends it won't be because of nature, it'll be because of people.
from nelapsi :
Thats too bad. If you couldn't have spoken I'd of liked to have had the chance to say hi, maybe even let you know I miss you and stollen a hug which you've been keeping from me lately. *wonders if the feeling is mutual, too scared to ask*
from myagi :
With Franz like this, who needs anemones?
from lady-dra :
strange isn't it.
from fragilerain :
awww, its okay! swamps are gross anyway, i mean, who would like them....? but i do like to squish my feet in the muk...
from sundance-99 :
"I arrested Zach today. Go me." What the fuck fuck is that shit? I can't believe you let that happen asshole. I really wish you'd learn that other people matter besides you. Maybe than you'd quite with this whole "poor me" attidude, take some enjoyment in life, and QUIT BEING SUCh A FUCKING PRICK. Have a nice fucking day loser.
from namerman :
how could u be happy about that just curious
from fragilerain :
never mind... don't worry about what it is that i need to know or what it is that i think i need to know.... one question though.... could i get an explanation? or at least something close to it? its up to you.
from twistedtears :
it's not your fault. we both had conflicting schedules. but this guy e-mailed me and i guess is kinda interested and wants to know the specifics. I can't find that damn book with all the info. eh. love you.
from pinktink9386 :
Hello Christopher. You're invited to my birthday party, September 3rd. Get ready to have the night of your life! woo hoo. Amanda
from fragilerain :
realy? thats nice to know, because i havn't been told everything about what it is that i need to know.
from summer-donna :
how could I stay mad at someone as sexy as you?
from lady-dra :
bah you care that's why you say you don't care
from al-bal :
Hi, Drascus. it's been w hile since I've talked to you. Missed you. How've you been? What's new? reply. I changed my diary, leave me a note!
from summer-donna :
Everytime I tell you something it is always repeated back to me... through someone else. I thought I was your friend. Do you know what a friend is? Thank you for hurting me. It finally showed me that it is true... you only care about yourself.
from purrrtykitty :
YOU'RE INVITED! See my diary for details! Also, I love you and I miss you and I want you to come in to Flying J to see me sometime!
from nelapsi :
Good. Love you!
from nelapsi :
I get home tomorrow! So excited. Around eleven at night we're going to Shari's. If you're interested in coming! Love you and miss you lots!
from rockrebel :
So, this is the notes page of the famous Chris(AKA)Drascus. I am bestest best friends with Kornstarch, and I would like to get to know you, my special immortal
from bang-o-rang :
chris, it's joey. i have a new diary. password pretected. call me for details of the password so you can read it.
from bunny46 :
god... i'm so freakin sorry about yesterday. we went to emmett earlier than we were suppose to, and yeah. but, let's see, tomorrow is monday and i'll call you, because i don't have any plans other than sleeping in. loves.. xoxo
from nelapsi :
hello... :)
from al-bal :
Hello drascus. How are you? It's been a while since i've talked to you and I just wanted to say hello. So, hello. i hope you're well. -Alyssa
from twistedtears :
CHRISTOPHER!!! My computer is fucked, everytime I try to call you, it stops. My phone isn't working and HP is being an ass. I'm leaving for the weekend but you need to get a hold of me apparently, so call me tomorrow or Monday. Much loves.
from nelapsi :
Wow, that must be really happy how I make you feel! Anywho, wanted to tell you I was thinking of you and I miss and love you lots! I'll be home in 18 days! (July 5th 04)
from neostar421 :
that was an excelent entry, mr christofolis..but one thing..quit telling people to punch me..i am geting a little sore..*burst*
from nelapsi :
I can't call you. :( The only way to make long distant calls is to use a calling card and mine are all dead. I should be getting a new one soon. I had a dream and you were in it last night, wonderful timing. But, if your cell phone ever gets free long distance you should try to call me and keep calling until I answer. 1(208) 885 - 2662 I did read your entry, and I wish I could be there for you... I come home in 19 days. Perhaps we can have our "date" then. Love you!
from summer-donna :
mmmm... jerky mmmm... tea (giggles)
from lady-dra :
love is only good for some, I am not one of thoes lucky some, I am glad you are. I figured something in common with you when there's a problem everyone comes crying to me for help, I wonder how long I can keep giving it until I myself need it, but like the saying goes thoes who wander aren't always lost, :D anyhow have fun in love.
from nelapsi :
I miss you! Seriously, I was thinking and even talking about you today. I hope all is well. Love you lots!
from fragilerain :
just because no one else thinks you're beautiful doesn't mean you're not. you are beautiful. you always have been, and always will be. i miss you. and i have a question for you. but i don't know if i should ask it. simply because i don't know what your reaction would be... but isn't that how life is...? not knowing. i like not knowing. anyway, i'll probably call you sometime soon, so be ready.
from summer-donna :
um... yes... new diary... xoxo
from walkingxby :
you're interesting. ♥
from fragilerain :
aahhhh! i am so hyper! just wanted to tell you hi! so HI! *giggles to self*
from fragilerain :
hi. ummm.... yes. i miss you. but you already know that. i love you. but you already know that too. come see me sometime. i promise my dad wont kill you. maybe we can do stuff together, like go see a movie or get ice cream or something to that effect. kay? mmm... anyway, i'll talk with you later. don't be afraid to come around, i miss you and wish you would. kittens are cute, there is a white one on my lap.... :)
from bunny46 :
your a silly boy... except you aren't a boy. Yay! Hmm, that doesn't make much sense. I like gummie bears!!!!!!!!! xoxoxoxo
from naima101 :
I just ate a plumb, a wonderful juicy plumb! My legs are hairy.
from naima101 :
what exactly did u delete me from?
from naima101 :
I tend to delete things which don't serve a purpose.
from bunny46 :
Call me... I need someone to talk to.
from bunny46 :
Christopher Dean, I love you. And I will never love anyone like I love you. Please don't distance yourself from me ever, because I will always need you. Promise me that if you ever move millions of miles away that you will still write me. As long as I know that I always have your shoulder to cry on, than I will know that I will never need anything else.
from fragilerain :
i'm glad you are happy. i will always have our memories. happy new year.
from lady-dra :
that was very sweet, thank you. :D
from naima101 :
okie dokie
from fragilerain :
what can i say? you were right? but i already knew that. thank you for the hug. i needed it. thank you for bitching at me for my bad habits. thank you for careing enough to leave me a note. i can't breath.... stop.... it hurts.... stop.... i can't see.... stop.... i feel weak.... stop.... i.... it.... hurts...*gasp*
from lady-dra :
by the way I'm not a crazy I'm just...something else.
from lady-dra :
being forgoten doesn't mean I'm dead, it just means I fled
from lady-dra :
Read my entry, and thank you :) I miss you.
from lady-dra :
this place is addicting that's why I've been here for a year :D I should leave one day no?
from bunny46 :
Cough... cough... cough... cough... ew. I'm sick. I don't like it.
from lady-dra :
trying to be better is what life is all about acomplishing things getting through experiance but sometimes simplicty tops everything.
from fragilerain :
thank you. realy, thank you.
from nelapsi :
"The greatest use of life is to spend it for something that will outlast it."
from neostar421 :
hehehe...fucker.this milk shake is way to crunchy
from kornstarch :
your entry, shittin kittens, made me giggle. teehee. but, sorry about your coat! this is egyptiandoll by the way, much love, mwuahs, bye.
from bunny46 :
kitties are cute!
from neostar421 :
the LAST thing the world needs, or the FIRST thing the world needs?..ahhh..chew on that, mr. okinawa
from neostar421 :
its really to bad that i read the title after i have already read the entry....i'd say im here for you, but that wouldnt make anything different for you...if you even belived me....but ill say it anyway.....if you need someone to talk to...i know a jew with a very large nose...you know better than anybody ..kepping things bottled up leads to........
from nelapsi :
Thank you.
from fragilerain :
okay... but only because you said so...;)
from fragilerain :
sorry i took your green light thingie. i didn't think it was gonna make you that upset. but i did give it back... so you can't be realy mad at me.8)
from neostar421 :
indeed, antichrist...but remember, greatness is not achieved by great words alone...remember the holocaust..and i am a jew, sir...
from caldwell-kid :
you owe me nothing
from naima101 :
I'm glad love is stronger that hate. That's not usually the case in hihg school. Of course, I suppose neither could really be called "in" high school. Anyway, I love you. And I will fit in that fucking ride if it takes a hammer, 33 feet of rope, cupcakes and butter. You'll see...
from lady-dra :
you're more like a ghost then the devil
from fragilerain :
okay...? peanut butter and jelly are good! shhh! its a secret!:)
from neostar421 :
I envy you, look down on you, love you, hate you, and will always listen and follow you, captain antichrist. I wish i didn't make you feel the way you do about me and her, but i thank you for doing what you did...you know that. maybe someday i will be relevent to your life on this stupid fucking planet...and maybe someday i'll be a kitten...and if not...then..oh well.....lifes a bitch..and i have gotten used to it...i will not forget you...take that as you will...good or bad...and i will always ask you why, not matter how many times you say "99%-blah blah blah"...because ...someday...i will understand you...and then you will love me...or really, really, really, REALLY, hate me...
from neostar421 :
ahhh..god.....my nuts itch..scratch em for me...^_^
from lady-dra :
I was sent to Limbo as well. You- are sometimes to strange for me, sometimes to dark, but sometimes you're the best there is, because it's you, what else can I say or do. Don't change, you're good this way.
from fragilerain :
it does mean alot to me. thank you. don't ever leave me.... happy new year.
from neostar421 :
do you think that i could ever be one of your kittens?
from neostar421 :
alright, alright, alright..point well taken, and i have said all i can for now...but lets chill for just a sec..i havemnt fucked up as of now,....so don't go using my insignia thingy against me just yet...not to say i will fuck up...because i won't...not this time....but...yeah..you get it... no need to belittle me now...I am going to have a fun time proving you wrong on this one....^_^
from neostar421 :
ok. I usually am pretty good at thinking before i do shit, and i know i've been slacking lately. I am not going to fuck up anymore though. I can't ...it's starting to get to me...but i will promise you that. It's like i said last night...i am not going to do anything unless it means something...i promise you that...i think you deserve at least that much...i won't hurt your kittens..i really just wanna share some of them with you. and most animals like me..hehe...p.s....these are sober thoughts im thinking...and i remember everything that was said last night.....so please...just keep that in mind..i don't want to hurt anymore...or be hurt...anymore...
from sundance-99 :
Smile! It's happy day!!
from bunny46 :
if i die... you better shed a tear or two... ok?
from lady-dra :
you're like a glass rose, you shine better in the moonlight then when the sun is gleaming brightest. I am in awe of you.
from moonblaze :
i'm sorry i never understood. i wish i could have. but wishing never gets one anywhere. you see it? see what? nevermind, don't answer that. i wouldn't want to bother you with my stupidness and wanting you to care.
from fragilerain :
thank you....thats all i can say. i'm sorry that you don't care anymore. i'm sorry that you don't want to care. i have to go now....
from halfbaked :
Sing a song for me kitty... Do animals believe in god? The answer is in the form of a question. Luckily those that don't look before they leap, die not knowing what killed them. And all the world's a stage. What is your purpose... that of a porpoise? Jesus died for our sins, let's take advantage of that. On a chess board would you rather be the king or the queen? We are the kings, you are the queen. Metaphor... a great tool to use. No I'm not calling you a cigarette. Stop for a moment and see what you've been missing. And no, I have regained my soul... the fucking bastard slipped in somehow. Love, Peace, A flock of geese...
from lady-dra :
love is silly. don't try looking for it to hard. by the way the best turtle is the one strong enough to live without a shell later
from al-bal :
Why do you think I am obbsessive.. because i join the diaryrings of all of the things i like? Well, I might be obbsessive... what do you think i'm obbsessed about? if not marriage... date?
from al-bal :
Hello my love. How are you? I just wanted to ask you something..... Will you marry me? xxxoo, Alyssa
from myagi :
I see you've caught the attention of Lady-Dra--she's awesome. Anyway, wasn't Brad adorable? He was worried that he might be too far out for the CAldwell crowd, but I knew he would fit right in.
from al-bal :
Hello Drascus. How are you? I found you in my heart. In a dark corner. Well. I am craving chocolate... damn these horomones.... so I'm off to munch on a cupcake.. or jello...or..chocolate death
from bunny46 :
no... your a dork
from al-bal :
hello my love. How are you? I ust wanted to say Hello. I shall be on my way. reply if you'd like. xxoo, alyssa
from lady-dra :
your problems aren't that big, they just need a little work and they'll get smaller. everything is fixable with some crazy glue :D I know this used it many times on my small heart :) or scotch tape but you don't want nothing falling apart later.
from myagi :
delete that one, please? (you know what I'm talking about).
from al-bal :
So.. if i stare at you in the eyes... you will come for me? If so... *stare*
from al-bal :
Hello! Hey, I can trust a man in black, unlike what you said. I could trust you. Do you want to give friendship with me a chance? You should look at my diary and tell me what you think.
from kornstarch :
hey, its egyptiandoll, your new kitten :D. i just thought i'd leave you a note to say hi. you know what i hate? people always thinking i'm depressed or angry at the world or something, when i just need a fucking nap...i'm always tired...thats why i sleep at lunch time :D
from moonblaze :
sometimes i feel that you are a bitch. you know that already though. so yeah. friends? you decide.
from parlance :
I do that most of the time, too. It's easier pretending to be happy/content than actually going around and BEING happy.
from moonblaze :
so long as you're happy doing it.
from moonblaze :
good.
from fragilerain :
be happy with yourself. i know i am....keep in mind that yes you are wonderful and yes some do cower in front of you but i think you were thinking of the wrong person. bleed as much as you want...
from neostar421 :
I think you missunderstand me, chris. My attempt to "belittle" you was not what you think it was. I don't know (or care much, for that matter) what you think of me. I guess you think that i am constantly trying to prove myself better than you, or that i am constantly trying to understand you. I just ant to set the record.I read your little commentary about me in your profile, and i don't like it when people assume they understand my motives when they have no clue. the truth is that i have stopped trying to understand you, adn i never really wanted to be like you. True, i found you interesting, for a time, untill i realized that the cloud of confusion you carry around you was starting to effect me. I don't like that. I have no reason to cower to you, because i do not feel as though i am opposing you. I just want to set the record. i want you to understand me. Do you get that? whether or not you are being over dramatic...well....that's all in perspective anyway. who's to say what is or isnt over dramatic....i will say i was a bit out of line by saying that. for that, and only that , i apologize. I don't know why you think the way you do aout me ...or anyone for that matter. I don;t know what it is that gives you pleasure..and i don't know why you are in the mood to kill someone you love. but he point i am getting at, is that i don't really want to know...maybe there was a time....but not anymore....i'm done. call it what you will...im a coward...im stupid...what ever the fuck you will say...(and you will)...that's fine...i'm done man. So i will go, find myself a nice comfy hole in the ground and burst...but only because i can. Because i know how to take the things in my life i don't like, and change them, instead of letting them wear me down and showing them to the world.
from neostar421 :
I'm not you...i dont want to be..and i never did..there is nothing about you that i crave for myself...good night chris...the overtly over-dramatic
from rainscadence :
dearest chris~i read your diary. thought i would let you know. i enjoy your thoughts. they frighen and delight me. your template is somewhat gruesome but i'm sure you noticed that. made me think of the royal tennenbaums. ever seen it? i liked it alot. you should check it out. love for you, ashley
from bunny46 :
Boogie woogie choo-choo train
from al-bal :
Hello. I like your diary a lot. i feel the same way about myself. I used to be suicidal. I am looking for a friend. I am always alnone it seems, even though, i am not. I get abused, and im depressed. Be my friend, my soul, please?
from caldwell-kid :
Morality is your agreement with yourself to abide by your own rules; rules are ment to be broken. My old man claimed that the more complicated the rule the more opportunity for scoundrels.
from twistedtears :
I'm sorry I couldn't talk last night. My mom was on, I passed out. Call me tonight, or I'll talk to you later 'cause I have to work. And I think I'm going to stop reading diaries of people I talk to often and only read the ones I don't get to talk to. Bye hun.
from nelapsi :
If you'd like I could possibly offer better advice if I knew that was what you were looking for? DON'T KISS 13 YEAR OLDS!!!! If that has anything to do with anything. I'm in class at the moment. Isn't it great? I thought soo... see you in a few hours...
from caldwell-kid :
Ok chris it goes down like this. I can sit here and give you all the advice in the world and it still isnt going to have an affect on you. I would tell this to your face but you would probably try to walk away from me. You can not live like this anymore. you need to stop living in life and start living life. to exist isnt to live. the hardest thing you will do in your life is get out of bed the rest is simple as 3.14! so I am going to give you one piece of advice that helps me. SHUT UP ABOUT YOUR SORROWS. Never update your diary when your depressed. its your diary so this is just my advice. So you know how to fight... dont let everyone know. Play the fool and noone wants the anwser, play the genious and everyone wants one. The perks of being a wallflower is knowing what goes on... its having an effect on what goes on. You will go down in history but its how thats up to you. dont be infamous. dont be famous... just be. stop living retro actively... wake up get out of bed and give life a kick in the ass with a smile. thats all you can do. I want to hear about your pains... but I want to hear about your happiness too. you always focus on the pain... depression is self caused. so self fix it. Black:producing or reflecting comparatively little light and having no predominant hue. I think you have a hue... you are just hiding it. damn it be who you are stop hiding or when you are find out its going to be worse.
from cataliena :
Why should I listen to you? I mean really... There you are... thinking that you know everything and that you are better then anyone. That you are smart. Ha! You may have brains but no common sense. Life has a lot to teach you still. Yet, it is up to you to be willing to learn.
from cataliena :
Wow I really must have pushed a button. Your cockiness is going to be your downfall. I don't pretend that I know you. I don't even want to know you. I'm not trying to impress you but if I have... more power to me.
from cataliena :
You say I'm misdirected... interesting, considering you yourself are misdirected. As for understanding... it can only get you so far.
from cataliena :
Color... what is color? You say black does not show any emiotion... it depends on the person. The color black (in my opinion) shows hate, despair, solo... You are so angry at the world. You hate yourself and you hate others for loving you when you do not love yourself... I do not care about all that. Thats you so what move on. I see black. I see you. You care though, otherwise you would not be here. I've probably confussed you. Don't take anything that I've wrote personal... it wasn't.
from the-director :
Come talk to me tomorrow. You don't scare me. I just think we need to talk, and I don't think notes are the best way for us to have this conversation. :)
from caldwell-kid :
we only except the love we think we deserve. Do not shame those who do not take love for they cant give love. Do not chastise the stupid for they never had a chance to learn. do chastise the ignorant for they had a chance and didnt take it. Do not chastise the one becuase the tried to solve there ignorance but got hurt in doing so. I say this as a friend. If you do not care then why keep going on it?
from halfbaked :
"Immature love says, 'I love you because I need you.' Mature love says, 'I need you because I love you.'" -Erich Fromm
from nelapsi :
I think your forgetting that in order for me to have him he must want me in return... but thanks anyways...
from halfbaked :
You should never stop caring about those that care about you... And you should never stop showing how you truely feel about others... Just because you forget about the world, doesn't mean the world will forget about you...
from caldwell-kid :
thank you.
from twistedtears :
HP is asking all these crazy questions and have all these crazy requests and I think they're trying to drive me insane! I'll tell you more about it later...
from twistedtears :
Ok, they sent an e-mail saying they're going to mail a new harddrive. Sorry I didn't talk to you last night on MSN but my mom was the one signed on. I'll talk to you later, though.
from twistedtears :
I got the HP Recovery discs or whatever and I'm not working tomorrow (yay!) so call me!
from myagi :
Cookie the person? Or Cookie the treat? I'm having two conflicting images battling for residency in my head. Stop it! Stop it! AAArggh!
from twistedtears :
The whole purpose of my last entry is to get the rumors out of the way. *Muah*
from bunny46 :
wait... scratch that, i don't really smell my socks... usually
from bunny46 :
CHRISTOPHER DEAN PENDLETON!!!!!!!! (there now everyone can know your entire name...) I love you like I love to smell my clean socks!!!! Yay! Everybody dance!!!!
from missafaye :
chris i love u did u ever find any shoes
from twistedtears :
I still love ya. Call me damn it!
from caldwell-kid :
By bettering the rest of the world I can better myself. Karma is my force.
from purrrtykitty :
He he he!!! Mega turtle!!! He he he!!!
from nelapsi :
Chris! My mommy told me that Chris called, and I asume it was you Chris because out of all my Chris friends (a total of 2) you're the only one who usually calls me. But I am unable to call you back because I don't know what number to call. And if it wasn't you, then pin a rose on my nose and call me suzy. Love you...
from bunny46 :
I was just thinking I should tell you you're pretty. So... you're pretty mr. dean
from naima101 :
i just wrote this entry ( i think its called "hmmm..." in case i already wrote a new one by the time you read this) and i tihnk u wuould find it quite interesting. its big, imprtant shit for me, although u might consider me quite naive for thinking so. anyway, love u lots. Peace Love Soul ~ Ben
from bunny46 :
And where is Mr. Dean today? Well, I'll tell you where Summer is... Summer is at school, like all the good little children, and Summer is wondering where her hommie Chris P-Lo is. If you're playing hooky, you better get your ass back here. If you're sick, take some medicine, If you're dead, well, I'm sorry, but your ghost better get here to come help me with our project. He, he, he, I'm just kidding. BE HAPPY! AND SMILE! :) :) :) "Analysing dreams is a very useful and powerful tool in uncovering unconscious thoughts and desires. The purpose of dreams is to allow us to satisfy in fantasies and the urges that society make us to suppress." - Sigmund Freud
from nelapsi :
BOO!!! AWHHH!!! Muawhahahaha, I scared you didn't I? Well, I still feel like shit and I'm very bored. I plan on going to rehersal... if I can stand for longer then 5 monutes without passing out like I've been doing. Have fun at school. *muaw*
from myagi :
Oh my heavenly hell, Caldwell-Kid. What you know about the world, I could just about stuff up your ass. Chris is way more "on top" of things than you are, and my friend, you suffer from "orange civility" (cite the Shakespeare Play and win a block of cheese). There is enough love in Jessica to share with many more than just the two of you.
from cdghost :
i enjoyed reading some of your entries..all the best..cdghost
from nelapsi :
Your entries scare me, not in a bad scare but a scare scare... does that make since? And, what makes you think that you hurt and cause dishappyness to the people you love?
from halfbaked :
I like you chris... no not like... respect... yes, I respect you... Life is what you do with it... I just hope that you as a person, you as a human being, aren't completely lost within the mask... the mask you show to others as the representation of who you are... defensive mechanisms are funny that way huh? We all have them, we all exploit them whether we know it consciously or not... I will not pass judgement, nor will I dismiss you all together... But I hope that you put aside your mask and show us all what kind of human being you are... or atleast shape your mask into something the better reflects you inner self... I admit that I don't know you aswell as I wish... however actions speak louder than words... and I believe that your actions have lead me to these conclusions... I may be wrong...
from nelapsi :
This thing is silly... seriously you guys! If ever you get a chance go to www.homestarrunner.com it will make you happy. You called me a few hours ago but alas, I cannot find your number... but I'm home now if ever you're able to read this tonight... mmm... its oct 17th, 9:30. Sleep happy...
from caldwell-kid :
I never said I knew you. I never said I wanted to figure you out. I am just simply letting you know how the world works. That�s what older people do with the younger generation. The older person helps the younger person understand life because the older person has already been there. I just want for you not to get hurt because with the attitude you have now you will get hurt and its not going to be pretty. As I read your diary I see that you are writing about being depressed and all that. Yah some fucked up things happened in your life� but everyone has fucked up things happen in there life. That�s what makes someone who they are. But you take what happened in your life to an extreme. You are forcing your self onto people when they don�t want it. There is truth to these words my friend but do not be naive and dismiss them for lies. Life is a tragedy for those who feel, and a comedy for those who think. So going by this thinking you think your life is a tragedy� so we can conclude that you feel. Where as I think. I know I don�t feel. I don�t feel because feeling clouds my creative judgment.
from caldwell-kid :
Chris... I have nothing agianst you but you are what you want to be. if you want to feel then simply feel. You are not allowing yourself to see the full picture... you are mearly looking at the dots that make up the picture. dont question how or why they dots work... just admire the beauty they creat in a hole. By starving emotions we become humorless, rigid and stereotyped; by repressing them we become literal, reformatory and holier-than-thou; encouraged, they perfume life; discouraged, they poison it. You are trying to hard to be something your not. it breaks me to say it but you are drowning yourself in others. Be you for you not for anyone else... cause really, whos going to be around in ten years?
from bunny46 :
(this is frank's...) What did the left cheek say to the right cheek? Damn, they guy in the middle is a real ass hole! ~ Summer
from naima101 :
hey, i just gopt back from reno, so i don;t have anytihng intelligent to say, sorry. although, this might help: steph was having a dream, and this dude in the dream told her to reach to her right and grab what was there. she was sleeping in bed with sarah, and she grabbed her ass in her sleep. Peace Love Soul ~ Ben

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