messages to jpop:
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from lovaliss :
Just leaving you a sad and/or funny note so you know I've been here, digitally speaking, how else could I be here? Unless I'm actually Chris Almond's ghost pranking you so hard right now as Lovaliss. Whose to say?! Forever and ever more I will always and forever suggest EVERYTHING is the doing of Chris Almond's aka All Man aka Allman's ghost.
from lovaliss :
Here, here! Mr. Edmond Seymour Ground--indeed the ground is where it's at.
from cannet :
Also liking Dewey doing that thing! Go JPOP Go! Your friend, Coco
from whitepants :
Love to you! Both for being sober and for referencing Dewey doing his thing!
from whystinger :
Just stumbled on your diary. No drinking? Wow and congrats. I'm not a big drinker much anymore, but I once went sober for a while in a relationship where she drank a lot. She kept drinking and I got laid just as much. Same with a few other relationships. Perhaps I got laid a bit more as I was a bit more witty when sober and they kept drinking. I will tell you, love is good. Hell, just dating is good, love can be great and sex while in love can be excellent.
from dangerspouse :
Good to know you're still here if we need you. One less worry in life now!
from leotard :
DUDE. You are THEE DUDE. You have always been the most fun and truly kind and really funny. Not to mention THE HARMONIZER! Love you, buddy.
from lovaliss :
Hey buuuudddyyyyy
from stepfordtart :
and......? s x
from cannet :
God bless this site. The only quiet internet left.
from dangerspouse :
So where ya been, Big Butt Jeff? School going well?
from panzuda :
jeffffries. thank you.
from rupeshow :
Jpop, i logged into diaryland to read some old post and was pleasantly surprised to see your post. you rule!!
from thegorbott :
one day we will all be done with school and will look back on the college years with nostalgia
from thegorbott :
jpop, i live in cambridge, massachusetts, which is next to boston, which is where i go to school. where are you?
from whitepants :
Welcome back!
from hold-it :
Jeffers I can't believe it's been four years! Doesn't that blow your mind? I miss you living in my house.
from panzuda :
i have the hots for your brother then!
from asyourghost :
THANK YOU!!!
from whitepants :
But the difference was that the art show was loud and crowded! A bus everyone can hear your conversation *even if you don't want them to*!
from l-alle :
welcome to 28! as someone who is halfway thru it- i can tell you with confidence that it gets even more radical! happy birthday. [i only pop in to say 'happy birthday' to someone, it seems.]
from asyourghost :
jeffowrd, remember how every couple of years of so i ask if you know your grandmas candied apple recipe? and then you say you could get it from you mom, maybe, and i say ok but no rush whenever, and then we both forget. it's that time of year again! (seriously, can you ask you mom? i want to make it this year) you can ever post your recipe as a diaryland entry for all to enjoy (if it's not a big family secret or something). happy almost november.
from l-alle :
happy hundredth helen!
from thegorbott :
its too late to enter heaven's gate
from l-alle :
mmmm that doesnt sound good. [i dont think we know each other, just stumbled and saw 'pioneer day' and did a double take.]
from l-alle :
pioneer day? i smell utah.
from helian :
Kari is playing a show tomorrow: Greenpoint, BK at Tommy's Tavern, which is at 1041 Manhattan Ave. on July 26th!!!!
from thegorbott :
it is 1:38 in the morning. my favorite hour. then i thought. 'i wonder what jeff is doing?'
from stupidmuffin :
did you like hard candy? i did, rick not so much. remember when we used to talk about movies?!
from jpop :
i miss you too man. yeah, us grown up utah kids are pretty weird these days. weird and RAD.
from panzuda :
grown up utah kids! miss you jeff.
from stupidmuffin :
thank you uncle jeffword!! we were going to go to the met and eat lunch at red bamboo by washington square park. you and helen were going to be invited to my birthday lunch but then it rained and we decided to stay in nj and go see iron man, and eat vegetarian peking duck. plus, i got your # from helen but i dont know if it is right.
from stupidmuffin :
when it is a little warmer you should come to the shore with us! judah wants to build sand castles with his uncle jeffword and get stung by jellyfish together!
from stupidmuffin :
yay east coast! i bet it is much more interesting than new jersey.
from stupidmuffin :
what state are you inhabiting these days?
from gigihodges :
remember when me and magnus stared at each other for fucking five days straight?! hahahaha. man your hair is long and john lennony in your gmail picture. take two yokos and tall glass of milk (the boy not the drink) and call me in the morning.
from panzuda :
you wish you had invented middle school????
from panzuda :
we never really hung out much, but i miss the days when we might have.
from helian :
Jpop, if you are in New York I want you and Magnus to come over for hambergers on Sunday evening.
from cannet :
i liked the most recent one-liner, about loving you the most.
from paperfriend :
'read some books' really funny. that entire entry was pretty damn funny. damn damn damn. hell damn butt crap.
from cannet :
hey hey and all that
from thegorbott :
october is also the month of my birthday. but these days it is november. the month of thanksgiving.
from lovaliss :
You didn't mention that you said that sentence to the girl! Why didn't you tell me that part!? That makes it funnier!
from hold-it :
what are you going to askl your roommates for?
from hold-it :
when is your birthday?!
from hold-it :
mrseverything.blogspot.com
from paperfriend :
jeff. you might want to consider becoming the real bardhi. just a thought. also, i sort of live on a farm. sort of. there are chickets and several big gardens and tons of black berry bushes.
from zoodude :
It's good to hear from you. I hope you like it in California. I used to like cities a lot, but I'm not so sure if I do anymore. So I hope you can like it for the both of us.
from asyourghost :
thanks jeffword! were going in the middle of october. good luck wherever you are!
from whitepants :
Hey Jeff, have you seen the clip from Fox News where the news anchor starts yelling at one of the ladies from that church? You can find it on YouTube. It is pretty amazing.
from helian :
No you signed it. but istock want you to sign their particular release. Um, I could email you the release, if you don't mind getting an envelope and stamp. I was going to provide that when I mailed it to you. It is your call.
from helian :
JPop,member when I had you sign that model release? Well turns out it isn't good enough, can I mail you a new one to sign?
from mymess :
if i was going to die, i think i'd drown. rocks in my pockets. like on the movie the hours. that gave me the idea. because when i was really depressed a few years ago i actually tried to drown in the bathtub by my own will power, figuring that if i could do it with will power than it really is time to go.. but i could not. anyway. i am starting to think that maybe there are sometimes just the wrong chemicals that make me feel insane/suicidal.
from lustydork :
I watched a lady jump off an overpass in September of 2002. She aimed for a semi, but he saw her coming. She did not die, but there was a lot of blood.
from helian :
I just put The Bridge in my net flix queue!!
from hold-it :
I update a lot on blogger.
from thegorbott :
i am back. i am a ressurected man!
from asyourghost :
p.s. turtle pie is pie made with that turtle candy so its all carmeley & chocolatey and whipped creamy. I haven eaten one in an entire week.
from asyourghost :
yeah there was a twist, but i kinda liked it. it was cheesy and rick guessed it from the beginning though! i know what you mean about longer hair getting flatter, i had long hair once! but guess what? right now i have a SHAVED HEAD!!!!!!!!
from asyourghost :
i saw your picture on a tag attached to a Zurich Tshirt. you hair is really big, is it that big exactly right this minute too?
from asyourghost :
i seriously want it! like seriously! (but i probably wont make it until the weather cools down because as delicious as your grandmas candied apples are i dont know about it in this heat!)
from cannet :
i really miss you right now. my old provo is gone. can quinn and i come visit?
from asyourghost :
do you still remember the recipe for your grandma's candied apples???
from panzuda :
if you see cool tatooes you should send me photographs (discreetly!) because right now i feel like every tatoo i see is pretty lame.
from jpop :
muffy, its okay! life is okay! people change and its okay! also, this is a public diary, so good and bad things come out of it, which i don't mind sharing.
from muffy2 :
sorry this is a sad note. i stumbled upon your diaryland today and i started reading entries until i started crying and decided to write you this note. i remember being excited that you were coming home from your mission. i remember going surfing and you playing songs on your guitar. i remember sitting next to you in history class and you sharing a bag of skittles with me. i think it is these memories that make it so hard for me to learn about what you are going through now. or maybe its the fact that i know your parents. anyways, i'm losing my nerve, so i am going to end this. god bless.
from mymess :
oops! i live in davis but i am thinking of moving to utah.
from shinythings- :
I hope they're not your own really cool tattoos.
from mymess :
yo dawg do you know we live in the SAME STATE!? i was thinking of trying to go to la later this summer. what is up.
from paperfriend :
what was the good memory? remember the l.a. homeless guy who recognizes me?
from whitepants :
As I was signing in I was thinking "We haven't heard anything from Jeff in a while." So I am glad you wrote!
from asyourghost :
jeffword! Rest In Pieces!!!
from paperfriend :
jeff. it is so so so funny for me to think of you, or probably anyone, but especially you reading the 'where the red fern grows' whenever things go bad.
from asyourghost :
maybe i am already dead!!!!
from asyourghost :
i have not! is it a band? all i listen to is raffi!!!
from kindbegger :
scott won't talk to me! talk some sense into him.
from kindbegger :
jeff, did you know that i am prescriped adderall? and that just a few weeks ago an entire bottle of my 30mg extended release capsules were stolen from chris' house and it was probably the worst day of my life? man.
from helian :
JPOP your diaryland is one of the few things that is keeping me going. Keep'm coming.
from passthison :
i was about to say that alissa and i have been doing double features a lot lately! but she already said it! jeff, i LOVED zodiac so much! mark ruffalo was giving me schwings the whole time! i love you
from lovaliss :
Ashliegh and I have been seeing a lot of double features recently...we saw Zodiac this weekend as well. She saw 300 the night before, I didn't like Sin City so I wasn't interested in 300 either.
from walkingalong :
this is neither a sad or funny note, but i thought i would write one anyway. you know, for old time sake.
from kindbegger :
even though i bet paperfriend meant what he said below, i think he might have been on shrooms at the time. hey, were you talking about you and colby in that last entry about the booger beard and the burping? i sure hope so. scott and i have a crush on you guys. well, scott has a crush on you, jeffrey logan owens, and i have a crush on colby (mckenzie?) wiggins.
from paperfriend :
jeff, i really miss you. you are such a good friend and great guy.
from adelie :
please send me an email about your life! don't forget! also, don't forget that i don't live in provo anymore! but i do live in utah. 8 years! i can't believe it's been so long.
from adelie :
I was wondering if that was the case, but it's so different from your other short stories. In any case, it was good and heartbreaking. Keep it up. I'm still disappointed about the made-up new candy, though. Jeff, I'm in the middle of a quarter-life crisis! I can't eat or sleep or think or breathe! Help! How are you doing?
from lovaliss :
I still want to cry!
from cannet :
i wanted to cry reading your entry too. it sounded like a story from TAL
from lovaliss :
I feel like I know what you're talking about, I wanted to cry when I read your entry...because I feel that way a lot lately. Yeah...rude candy man, I'm with Kari, is it any good!?
from kindbegger :
i love you jeff and you make me happy. i hate when people say that because then i want to reply "then why can't i make myself happy?" and then i'm like, "boy, that was a stupid thing for me to say."
from adelie :
Jeff, that candy man is so RUDE. You are right, this is a really tough time of year. The dead of winter, you might say. What is this new candy? Is it good?
from helian :
hey jeff I just want you to know that I enjoy reading your entries
from kindbegger :
jeff! that is so weird. i JUST moved to kosovo and i am drinking tea right now with mr. and mrs. bardhi.
from lovaliss :
I can't believe that...it gave me no indication that it wasn't actually recording my message! What an outrage. I was laying on the couch mumbling to you and describing what everyone was doing...Chris and Georgiana were playing magic...Chris had two goblets full of water and he'd dump the water from the bigger one into the smaller one and THEN he'd drink it...I told you all of this in the message you did not get.
from lovaliss :
Wait..what!? Are you serious!? I left such a long and stupid message...you didn't get it? Ask Chris he was sitting right next to me when I called you!
from thegorbott :
i knew that one day you would be an anchor-person for ksl news! this is so exciting!
from whitepants :
Deal! You had better make good on that promise. I love sleepovers!
from whitepants :
I am mad that you never stopped by to say hello when you were in town, especially since I heard you hung out with Russell Johnson who was not even your friend!
from asyourghost :
jeffword we are staying in the land of salt. as much as people complain that the east has everything and slc is a barren wasteland being back in the nj/nyc area made me realize that everything we need is already here. also having a family changes things. id rather be able to buy a house in the near future than work multiple jobs just to barely be able to afford an apartment and not get to raise my own kid. hmmm.
from thegorbott :
this is no joke: i love you too, my man. too bad you are not here for my wedding. you could be the ring bearer. like frodo was for the whole world!
from asyourghost :
jeffword! merry christmas from me n rick n judah!!
from lovaliss :
What!? Jeff I was there last weekend! Friday and Saturday actually. I thought of you when I was there and wondered when you were coming back...and you were there!! I'm going back to CA on the 25th, and I'll be moving the first of Jan. I might be going through LA though. Is your # still the same?
from mymess :
i was thinking about it--it is a coincidense that all of us.. you, me, christopher, ended up living at home (or just plain old broke) just after figuring out our doubts about the church. or is it? those are rough times. but they get much better and i will let you know here and now that i think that you will be fine, you will start to feel able to be responsible. now you are living in the real world and it makes a little sense. that is all!
from walkingalong :
OMG! i figured out how to write notes! lame nothing, check your email.
from lovaliss :
Are you serious!? I am going to be a social retard for a year!? This sucks...the LDS church should supply all returned missionaries with a shrink. I need one.
from paperfriend :
jeff. that widebart story was so great. keep them coming.
from mymess :
i hope you write it too! i hope great things come our way. and they will. you are cool!
from paperfriend :
i hope you write the story. and i hope you place it in davey jones locker 200 billion trillion thousand leagues under the sea of tranquility..
from mymess :
next time we hang out i bet we will have much to talk about!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE MUCH TO TELL YOU!!!!!!!
from lovaliss :
-I accidently posted this on my own...I don't know how that happened........ Dear Babe: Yes, sometimes I think I'm too honest about how I feel on the screen/paper and regret it later on, then sometimes I think, "NO, this is how I feel! Living is feeling! WRITE!" And I don't mind at all. However, I do have a new secret, super sexy, journal that I write all of the "unsafe" things in. You are one of the few of my friends that I wouldn't mind reading it. If you want a password I'll give it to you.
from cannet :
i really like the last handful of thoughts jeffrei/jeffrey owens
from thegorbott :
release the bats my man. release the bats
from mymess :
are you pissed at me for saying i am poor but still going to concerts? i guess i shouldn't feel the need to defend myself but in case you want to hear a reason one might behave in this way... i sacrifice important things for momentary pleasure. so for now i am feeling real poor because i have a huge hole in my tooth and not enough money to go to the dentist. i sometimes have enough to go to a concert or buy some beer, and if i avoided doing those things from day to day, i might be able to save enough to go to the dentist. but feeling poor in this way sometimes puts me in a very bad mood, which makes it easier for me to justify spending small amounts in order to have a good time. i guess i give myself much sympathy a lot of the time. i don't want to feel sad, therefore i endulge and do what i want. hope it's ok i wrote this defense.. i am not seriously worried that you think i am dumb for saying i am poor because i know that you and i are cool. but i just wanted you to know that there are things that are complex when it comes to everyone's individual finances and emotions regarding them. how are you? did you get paid? i wish you came to bonnie billy w us in anacortes! maybe i should have tried harder to convince you.
from darthuae :
neil diamond knows, "funny thing, but you can sing it with a cry in your voice/ and before you know it, start to feeling good/ you simply got no choice" - song sung blue.
from hold-it :
i think people say they're poor (although they may not be TECHNICALLY so) when they have less money than they are used to- so they can't live the way they like to
from lovaliss :
THAT'S IT! Email me the beans right now. Come on Jeff, buddy? I am almost begging you to. If you had the same phone number I'd be calling you non-stop right now.
from lovaliss :
Maybe we almost dated...I'm not sure though, mostly we just hung out a lot, got shots, ate out, bought garments, and talked about kissing...MAN those days are GONE! And yes, it is true, John Garlock and I like each other as more than just friends. Although he is a pursuasive point to me moving to CA, I really just want to go to CA. I was thinking about San Diego, but he talked me into San Luis Obispo--he is a good salesman.
from cannet :
we are still together, though rarely together. marriage in december. what made you ask that?
from adelie :
Aaron Cometbus has written a little bit about people who complain about being poor. He says there is a difference between being "poor" and being "broke." We're (general reference to kids our age who we are friends with) pretty much all "broke" but when we're really down to the wire, there are people, family and friends, who would come to our rescue and prevent more dire circumstances for us. Poverty is something that few of us have experienced or will experience. We are really all so very rich. We really have so much!
from lovaliss :
Jeffrey Logan: You asked me before if it was weird for me to hear you talking about getting high and drunk, the answer is no not really because remember how I found you drunk in your room before I left anyways...and remember when you wrote me emails at the beginning of my mission telling me about you and Chris getting drunk and then going to see the missionary movie? So it isn't a surprise or that weird to me, I could see it coming. If I had a choice I'd wish that you didn't do those things because I think you're easily prone to addictions and that's scary to me, and I think people hide behind that stuff a lot and claim it makes them happy but it makes them happy because it helps them escape...and I think if an individual was really so happy why would they need a reason to escape reality or alter the way they feel? It seems to be a deep-rooted disatisfaction with life. Or maybe they just like it and think it's fun. Either way you know I love you and am your friend no matter what. HEY! I'M MOVING TO CALIFORNIA!
from mymess :
jpopizzle, i am going to seattle tonight to see the dirty projectors, what are you up to? want to come? call me! maybe bonnie billy soon.. haven't decided on that one. why not though right? we should.
from adelie :
You are my oldest friend! And I never ever forget that! Sometimes I get insecure about whether or not people are really interested in my music. Thank you for quothing me on your diaryland!
from automatos :
I got married on September 15th in the Las Vegas temple to a certain Brett Rasmussen who is most certainly unknown to almost all Provo kids. We live in Victorville, CA. :)
from mymess :
shit! if i knew i would have tried to celebrate. can we celebrate somehow? i have a free movie pass too somewhere, i forgot till just now! cool. what's upp!! want to hang out soon? i shouldn't until the 10th but it is possible to take a bus for cheap i bet.
from cannet :
happy late birthday; i didnt know. what an age.
from lovaliss :
Truth is, in the end, I have loved it.
from lovaliss :
Hey Jeff! For the most part everybody has been really great and supportive about my decision...so much in fact that I didn't even think about it like I was coming home early. CHAUNTE IS THE ONE TO BLAME FOR THIS! GET HER! I think that a lot of people probably think I didn't like my mission and that's why I came home...or I think from reading my diary it could seem like I hated it non-stop...one diary entry once a week could never explain or cover my feelings on the whole matter. I think you know what I mean.
from sickidivall :
jeff I had 2 dreams with you in them recentley and you were very mean in both. It is wierd because I have never seen you be mean. Here are the dreams 1. You were hitchiking and I picked you up and you were mean in the car. We were having an arguement 2. You convinced my younger sister to move away with you and I called to talk to her on the phone and you got on and were mean- we were arguing then also. I hope these dont come true! Weird huh!
from whitepants :
Jeff, I will write an entry just for you sometime soon...but I don't think that will make diaryland any less boring.
from cannet :
jpop remember when you had a corner and life was simpler?
from helian :
hey jpop. I wrote you a message on myspace. I need your help. I would like it if you read it and resonded or gave me a call. I hope you are well.
from kindbegger :
i hate the bitches that point in their pointy toed shoed feet whenever they get their pictures taken. the bitches!
from mymess :
jeffrei! thanks for the shout out. come see us today! love you.
from paperfriend :
shut up. j/k.
from thegorbott :
jpop, last night i had a dream that you and i were eating at a fancy bar and we stepped outside together to talk and to have a smoke. but in real life i dont smoke. but sometimes we do talk.
from thegorbott :
i love looking at maps also! especially nautical charts since i have become really into sailing. i want to sail to all different kinds of places.
from lovaliss :
Correction: They're not trying to find out IF something is wrong with me...more so if there is anything they can do to help me without having me come home.
from lovaliss :
Jeff, it is still up in the air whether I will come home early or not. Either way I feel really good about. If I do come early it may be as early as 2 weeks from now. I have another doctor's appointment this Weds to see if they can find out what is wrong with me. It's a good feeling to know my friends support me, thanks for telling me AND FOR READING MY DIARY!!! I thought you had forgotten me. (Heart)
from thegorbott :
if you are interested in tattoos i know of an artist named mike giant. he is a great tattooer. check out his website (mikegiant.com) and he has a blog on fecalface.com. check him out!
from whitepants :
There is a kid in law school who looks sort of like you...reminds me of you...I can't tell you how much I would love it if we truly were going to law school together!
from kindbegger :
jpap... jpop... i am in a library, too!
from sickidivall :
where are you moving?!
from kindbegger :
bizarre in the sense that i didn't know 80% of the people, that it was my house (i've never had a show at my house!), and none of my roommates were present. sometimes even i wasn't present. sometimes i was in closets.
from lissinski :
great show last night. you rock my world. -lissa
from mymess :
hey jeff baby jeff! you are beautiful and young and talented. you will be fine, it might take time and work. i hope that i don't sound like a dumb old parent. i'm serious. i've been working very hard for a few years to pull myself out of all that built up when i was super irresponsible and it is hard and it is shit but it feels good to be improving, it is hopeful. and if you mess up a lot i don't think you will go to hell but maybe it'll be hell on earth or something. it really is harsh but true that intentions count for little--what is real and what is "now" are so much more.. i am not articulating anything as well as i'd like but yeah, keep it real, hope you listen to the things you tell yourself when you intend things. much love!
from cannet :
i would like to see that shirt!
from chrisalmond :
studies very clearly show that woman have many more chemicals released during sex. also, i think you are probably not aware of what situation i am reffering to and why i don't think someone else could do it.
from angelicagirl :
your entry about summer swims made me sad, but i liked it. <3
from cannet :
if you decide to go back; i will sit next to you in class! we can drink sangria or caffeinated soda and just get to finishing school. sometimes it is too much for me. see you in the fall baby jeff and baby jesse
from helian :
jeff lets hang out i miss you
from paradoxed00 :
=) not weird at all, just different from the lives around me..i don't write here now if you're interested. http://users.livejournal.com/___relieve/
from pandajune :
that is from a willie nelson song!
from paradoxed00 :
Hey, I'm a stranger who found your diary on the recently updated list and thought it was quite a read so decided to add you to my list! hope you don't mind!
from miobravo :
I am 99% sure that BYU would let you come back if you really wanted to. I know what you mean about not being excited for school when you have been there for 5 years, and you don't totally relate to the environment it offers. I feel that way a lot with BYU. despite all of this, i think it would be worth it to finish your degree. it will be an asset to you for the rest of your life. on the other hand you will be okay without it of course, so do what your heart tells you!
from kindbegger :
I LOVE YOU, TOO. we will be the coolest, safest road trip mom and dad.
from thegorbott :
all the grass i see is green my brotha
from panzuda :
this information has not only expanded my knowledge of the hooligans of spokane, but increased my fear of them! thank you jeff for the tip!
from pandajune :
I am doing hot yoga and going crazy with love for it.... maybe more love then the one I have for you, but that is pretty strong too.
from thegorbott :
it is good to hear that you are doing well my man! summer is going to slow! know what i mean?
from cannet :
jpop i was just reading your diaryland and thinking about you. the only reason i know diaryland exists is because i was hanging out at davis' old house on 300N late one night with you/lissa/davis/& the seawrights, and you were updating. summer 2005. and playing on your powerbook. those were power days and updating times. we are not much more than associate friends but i feel like i miss you right now.
from panzuda :
jeff pop! well, edan and i will be there in a month and a half. i don't know where we are moving yet, but it will be good!
from whitepants :
Jeff, by far you were my favorite act last night. I thought your set was very moving and I love your songs more than anyone's right now.
from stupidmuffin :
jeff, ive been watching a lot of the world cup. some times the players are such babies and this surprises me. i think especially italy. did you watch argentina vs germany? its my favorite so farr just because it went to penalty kicks an even though germany winning made me sad. p.s. did you move to el lago salado?
from paperfriend :
jeff, even though you think of me as 22 i thought your set last night was your best i have seen!
from panzuda :
i was walking to the library today, listening to a mountain goats song that is really a silver jews song and i thought of you! look at that!! p.s. the normal studios at the covey are really small aren't they?
from chrisalmond :
you might work at starbucks!?!?!?!
from goldfriend :
hey jpoop, i am too lazy to add other diaries and i might not keep up with this. the only thing i remember so clearly about you ever is that you love grilled cheese sandwiches, chris and i even talked about that. good luck with starbucks, those stores always play the worst music.
from cornbrain :
i would pay you 20 high-fives an hour!
from panzuda :
that is one of my favorite songs.
from hold-it :
i am still in the dark jeffrey! i wish you could text! (i also watched part of the mexico angola game and it was so intense!)
from thegorbott :
jpop, i like what you said about comparing yourself to others. i had a boss, who at 25 had been married for four years, owned a business, and just sold his first house and took out a mortgage on his second house. at the time i was almost 23, single, working my ass off for him, and living in a crummy basement. i thought to myself "well quinn, you're a piece of shit." but then i realized that his business was not doing great, he had only dated one girl his whole life (the girl that became his wife), and that mortgages are can be pretty crappy. so i thought, i'm glad that i am where i am. and now i don't compare myself.
from paperfriend :
jeff! i think that is a great and healthy out look to have!
from thegorbott :
jeff, i can see your point. again, i think an exception can only be validated by god and the individual who is pursuing the exception. i don't think it would be terribly healthy to try and exempt ones self from rules, but i think some special cases would require an exemption. as far as talking yourself into an exemption i am not sure how that would all pan out. i feel like if you know you are talking yourself into an exemption, and are doing so in order to excape consequences, then you would likely be able to talk yourself out of the exemption and be able to live up to the consequences and handle whatever it is you are trying to be exempt from. but if it is something beyond your control, that seems to me to be a valid reason for pursuing exemption. does that made sense? on an unrelated note, thanks for your congratulatory note. marriage to me is exciting and new. i am looking forward to it. if i come across any girls that i think you would fall in love with i will pass them on to you, as i am spoken for.
from cannet :
i remember the first time i talked about why boys like lesbians. it was at girls camp of all places! and all i could think about when you said "a boys dream" was that dave matthews song? you know? you know?
from mymess :
jeff i was reading in a note somewhere, to chris, i think, about how you feel you could end up two ways (in or out of the church) but either way you feel you would worry that you had lived the wrong way and whatnot. and i just wanted to say that i believe i am more at peace with my beliefs now than ever; i think once more time passes (maybe you'll need to study a bunch first, i'm not sure..), you will be more clear minded, be able to step back from the church as an outside observer, and not really feel anymore that it is likely true. that quote chris just posted in his journal, the, "i am much bigger than this church" one, is really a feeling that i've had and i get. god is great and the church has it's good parts but the church is like a closed container of confusion. it feels good to get out for real but it is challenging, for sure. so yeah i could be wrong. but this is how i personally feel. it's reality for me. i strongly recall what it was like to live in the church, with faith and all. and it was always more confusing than things are for me now. even though i do not think i know anything, i still believe things, feel things, feel good, feel bad. it's just life and it's really beautiful. honestly.
from kindbegger :
Extroverted Sensing Thinking Judging
from cannet :
i love that note you left max today. i feel the same way a lot of the time. my diary is full of lies that are half true and truths that i half made up. i wonder if that makes sense? i feel like i can have indefinite opinions even though i make definitive, concrete statements because of perspective
from pandajune :
I am just at home! Watching Entourage... I am having so many nights in.... I love the nights in! I love you!
from panzuda :
jeff. i promise i have watched more movies than even you this month. last night i even went to a GLBT film festival to seal the deal!! p.s. i totally saw that mountain goats line in your comment for pandajune. you know that i love all hail west texas! hOoot!
from lovaliss :
I love you Jeff.
from kindbegger :
i agree with everything you said about friends' art, music, etc. one of my best memories i have of you is when you played that song for me on sunday that you had just written. i was dating KARL at the time. i love karl. i love you, jeff. i love jp. i even love drew on occasions! i love all of my friends, whether or not they make art or music, but making art or music is pretty cool.
from thegorbott :
jeff, if you would like to know my feelings about jesus and his posterity please feel free to ask me. personally i do not doubt that jesus was married, nor do i doubt that he had children. i just dont think that audrey tautou was his descendant. in regards to chris's statement below, i dont think the church will make an official stand on it because it bears little relevance to salvation.
from paperfriend :
are you saying your mom won't believe jesus was married, or that some early church leaders taught he was? because about if he was married, that is debatable, and a few statements by early church leaders in no proof at all that he was, and is not something taught by the church today as shown by the statement by church spokesman dale bills. but if she won't believe that some early church leaders taught that... well, that is indisputable and even mentioned in dale bills statement.
from mymess :
bring your cat!
from paperfriend :
jeff, you can tell your mom that many early church leaders taught jesus was married and had children: George Q. Cannon of the LDS First Presidency said, : "There are those in this audience who are descendants of the old 12 Apostles, and shall I say it, yes, descendants of the Savior himself. His seed is represented in this body of men." but the church did release this statement in response to the davinci code: The belief that Jesus was married "has never been official [LDS] Church doctrine," church spokesman Dale Bills said this week. "It is neither sanctioned nor taught by the church. While it is true that a few church leaders in the mid-1800s expressed their opinions on the matter, it was not then, and is not now, [LDS] Church doctrine."
from kindbegger :
oh, and any kind of ritz chips. the sour cream and onion ones are sooooo good. the wheat thin veggie chips are really so good, too.
from kindbegger :
jpopper, i feel the exact same way when i am home... which is a problem because i have been home for a couple of months now. but it has gotten better. when i first came home i was eating so much and i was so overwhelmed by the amount of food that we had at our house. but now i have beeng getting pretty nauseous from effexor, so i usually just stick to my diet of handfuls of cereal, pretzels, carrots, and healthy choice mint chocolate chip ice cream.
from panzuda :
yes. lean men are sexier than beefy men. besides, who can really find tom cruise attractive these days? have you seen the da vinci code??
from paperfriend :
i figure you read it as vicious. all is forgiven jeff. forgiven 100%
from paperfriend :
"viscous: Having relatively high resistance to flow." that means my diarrhea was thicker.
from cornbrain :
yo?
from msea :
dear jeff, i hope your journey to the darkest of dark places has left you okay. and that the sweet blessings of ice cubes and mowing lawns brings you joy.
from cannet :
dear jeffrei o. i always liked being your friend, even though we were never good ones. in something i received as a blessing that it is passe to talk about it says "life is not always easy to live but the opportunity to do so is a blessing beyond compare." i dont know what your so-called "purpose" is, and im not even sure you have one, or need one, but i hope you stop feeling useless. also, i was wondering what your thoughts on the da vinci code are?
from paperfriend :
oh, i see what you are saying now. maybe i wasn't speaking clearly. my point isn't that sticking by principals is inherently bad, but sticking by principals even when it becomes harmful just to stick by principals is bad. so the key to knowing when to stick by principals is stick by them when they help, don't stick by them when they hurt.
from chrisalmond :
what i was saying about jews. is someone who would refuse to lie to a nazi about having a jew in the their house. causing the jew to be captured by nazis just so they would not have to lie.
from paperfriend :
the point is just that sticking to princepals for the sake of sticking to princepals is unwise.
from dekafuck :
I went to see REM in the 7th grade, and they played the song Nightswimming... Projected behind the band while playing this song was a scene of early 20th century pornography!
from cannet :
that is the truth! i dont know why we are weird, but we are weird. i can never tell when he is joking. how are you? q baby will be in provo tonight. you should try to hang out for real maybe?!? maybe!!> life is such an adventure
from mymess :
j..pop! in the 90s i was also wearing baggy pants! (super wide baggy bell-bottoms, really. they covered my shoes) and big t-shirts! dark lipstick! no bleached hair, though. darn. well we could have always been friends. know how hannah said when she first met the gooch you were the most conventionally attractive? i thought the same thing when we first met. but my opinion might have been swayed by the fact that we went to see paintings you "modeled" for. so i thought you were america's next top model. no joke.
from mymess :
haha! i did not know that people knew i loved the cranberries. coincidently, today i listened to "everybody's doing it so why can't we." i am so serious. but it happens only rarely.
from whitepants :
You were "the most conventionally good-looking."
from mymess :
rem forever!
from panzuda :
i love having a new comment on someone's profile! i will update my comment about you jpop!! hoot!
from analogette :
i mean THIS is me
from analogalena :
happiness is minimum wage. i was just thinking. anyway, this is the real me, take whatever precautions necessary..most importantantly delete alena-andrea out of this blasted dairy-farm.its time for the flesh tone
from hold-it :
i thought only girls "queefed"
from alena-andrea :
two words: BUDDY, and LIST. you are mine and you are ON mine. did you forget a couple a' things?
from pandajune :
use protection
from alena-andrea :
"we are high and low.. we are high and low" i know what you are feeling my friend. i just want to sleep. But this is why we are artists. Is it better to have loved and lost? or to have been boring 9-5 mother-fuckers.
from rupeshow :
that was a bomb entry you wrote the other day. i just read it.
from alena-andrea :
you wore a really precious shirt the other day, you are really making me start to yearn for small rabbits and soft kittens. Hey, if i get kicked out I should come with you and drew and be a roadie. We could totally get our grizzle on! you know, grizzle-free, that is.
from cornbrain :
i'm going to protest you. -mindmaize
from hold-it :
it's so true.
from panzuda :
i really identified with your last entry. there has been a lot of drug abuse in my family which always led to escalating negative behavior and negative use. good observation.
from kindbegger :
jeff, do you remember when you and i watched about six or so episodes of "saved by the bell" in uberkit's den? just you and me watching "sbtb". those were weird and good days. those were the days when orem meg and jeff owens would watch "sbtb" in the living room of uberkit's den for about 2hrs. and 45mins.
from cannet :
alex mack!
from mymess :
hey jpoop, what's going on. i am back home now. ACK! if you want you can tell me more about what makes you anxious. i felt somewhat relaxed in providence. maybe i'll write an entry about it. i hung w/ bad boy for a few days. he was there when i was most anxious, in fact. we played a show together and i did horrible which made me feel horribly anxious for the rest of that day and the next. and he took us to guitar center to find a last minute recording setup. brendon selected the setup very meticulously while i paced around and tried to stop freaking out. he seemed more anxious than me, though, and this sort of made me feel better than i would have otherwise (i knew he'd make a good choice). but it was funny being a bunch of freakers together at guitar center because drew was also purchasing a bunch of recording gear and we were demanding the attention of all their staff. ah, good times.
from all-is-light :
i've had it since i was born! 24 jan, 2006. it was "secret" for awhile, as an experiment, then it just was and if you found it, you found it. then in thebid, i mentioned i'd be writing here mostly. so i guess if you missed that bid entry then you were left out in the cold! how did you find it on your own, just curious? and, how's it going? guess what? we forgot to put our garbage can out again!!!
from gigihodges :
actually there are no spaces in the password. it is just thedeathofadiscodancer.
from gigihodges :
to get to my diary the username is "gigihodges" and my password is "the death of a disco dancer" (with spaces).i really dont care if others read this bc it is just one person i am blocking out. and not for selfish reasons either.
from pandajune :
sometimes we forget
from adelie :
have you heard that this summer is dubbed "teenage summer" with that song by yellowcard as the theme song? evan is mostly in charge, he even is making a website called teenagesummer.com. anyway, they are making a band of the same name and i think the pop cult murderers would be a good addition to all of this. please, let's do this!
from hold-it :
you should see max, john cusack is in it which is a little weird...but it's good. it's about hitler before he was anyone, and provides speculation as to what could have fueled his hatred (and you almost like his character sometimes and really DO feel sorry for him) but it is a good movie.
from pandajune :
lets go to the bodega
from hold-it :
i have not seen wicker park, but i do like the soundtrack...
from cannet :
can i tell you that i love you? i meant to comment you back a few days ago but in my bad-friendness, that i have such a strong propensity for, it slipped me. i apologize. i will be back in provo in the fall if not sometime in the summer. i am out and about and around. nothings particularly new with me. just DC-ing and drooling and being bored and busy simultaneously--i think you know what i mean. i looked at a website full of your pictures today at work (i linked it through jessie's myspace-to-old livejournal-to you) and it was beautiful. beautiful old friend/new friend faces and in my heart i seriously missed provo and summerrrrrr.
from msea :
jeff, i like when you write about something that your not sure of and then write, "let me check" and then you check and correct yourself if needs be. i like it more than if you checked and didn't write about checking. i noticed this in a comment on my page, have you done it on anyone else's? let me check. YES! you have! ... on courtney's
from freightcars :
jeff- i'm in LA (santa monica) staying with an old friend and checking out the grad program at ucla. i'll be back on friday so maybe we should hang out soon.
from lovaliss :
<3
from lovaliss :
Even if you don't I'll still love you, although it may be faulty as well.
from lovaliss :
Jeff...remember how I cooked you chicken and potatoes as to entice you to keep the Sabbath day holy? Do you want me to cook something now? You name it and you got it...if you'll come back and stop drinking alcohol...pretty please Jeff...come on baby, don't leave me hanging out here on a mission!
from msea :
What's up Jeff?!? I miss you!
from gigihodges :
i regret most of my entries....the only ones i dont regret are the really abstract poetic ones...the ones that you dont like.
from thebid :
that is what christ's mercy and grace is all about--giving his love even when we think we don't deserve it. aren't we lucky? i've been thinking a lot about christ's love these past few days, too, and how it really is the center of everything. i think we complicate the gospel adn the church WAY too much. what ultimately matters the most here and now, with or without eternal perspective, is how we learn to accept that love, to become vessels for it, and to emulate it.
from freightcars :
jpop i haven't heard anything about who else...it says "special guests" on all the tickets...
from gigihodges :
i sent you an email but i am not sure if you check that account anymore...can you send me the 3 or 4 super8 clips you did last year? the ones with me in them. i am vain but i want to watch them. thanks. p.s. remember that grip that looked like gian? and we called him gian? he was in my dreams last night.
from passthison :
bruce willis is one of my celebrity crushes. and so is mila!!
from cannet :
i am just writing to let you know that i am thinking about you...right this second.
from hold-it :
i really like ryan adams so much. jeff you are so many things!
from mymess :
jeff, listen to come pick me up by ryan adams if you get a chance. it is not that hopeful but it is so good and heartbraking. i need to hear his newer stuff. it's been a while. seeeya
from hold-it :
i bet lots of girls in provo wish you would date them...and that would make your momma so happy
from bikeride :
im glad you liked it too. im not a big crybaby, but i cry every time i watch it. it makes me love people and feel that all anyone ever needs is love. unconditional.
from panzuda :
that's a good question. the heart i was inviting myself into was not a romantic heart and was in fact many hearts of girls around me. lately i've been wishing i had more female friends to do "girl stuff" with. but really i mostly just go to school, work and do homework so even if i had the chance to develop those relationships i probably wouldn't.
from hold-it :
more sad than weird. what's up with that dawg?
from pandajune :
that wolf parade song, where they sing "god doesn't always have the best goddamn plans does he?" is really catchy. all their songs are really catchy. did not somebody post that line before? i am trying to remember who, but i forgot. ... it was Mike Kelly, fancy that!
from hold-it :
jefff i never see you you anymore.
from marmarpants :
how would you know what i look like?
from dekafuck :
Jeph, I haven't had opportunity to light a fire in days, and funnily enough, I'm burning up! Burning!
from paperfriend :
do they really play sufjan stevens on the radio here? what station?
from panzuda :
my favorite thing you ever do in your entries is write something very straightforwardly and then sneak in an outrageous comment without sayin "just kidding." i love that!! never say you are just kidding because sometimes i like to think that you are not!
from paperfriend :
jeff, i wish your favorite place to live was with me!!!but that is okay. i will forever be younger than you, except, maybe, in heaven. i am going to start treating you so great that our house is your favorite place to live!
from pandajune :
Baby, you're my peacetrain!
from troymccool :
I like listening to what you have to say. More more more.
from miobravo :
yes, we should have one of our 7 month anniversary talks.
from thebid :
yes. it's similar to what i wrote about walking with earphones in and passing other people with earphones in, and it's weird and kind of sad.
from pandajune :
WHO AM I.... "Babbbbbbby....but baby i love you, I miss you...oh but baby bottoms you are so owww ewwww oweewwoooo baby!"?????????? Right now I just made a Cleaning House mix. I am about to clean house. I think you would like it.
from pandajune :
Shut Up! I am going to see you on Sunday!
from gigihodges :
soynuts,peanuts and FUCKNUTS!!! i think it was so really very healthy that we broke up when we did (in retrospect)think of all the things we have been thru etc....are you still in new york? i wonder if we would ever be friends like some or most people in provo are when they are broken up...i dont think it is really in our nature to do that or be that though...we are both semi jealous types that are impulsive....a dangerous combo.
from bikeride :
jeffword-> my dad had a checkup today. he is doing well. i think that i may be going to california in a few months to go to the doc with him. i think that it will help me to deal with it and sort things out a little. ->elaine
from hold-it :
that last post really spoke to me. i hope you're alright
from cannet :
whats wrong? f word at 5 am
from cannet :
whats wrong? f word at 5 am
from hold-it :
let's have a heavy talk sometime.
from cannet :
jeff i didnt know you were in ny. are you still? can quinn & i come visit you?
from thebid :
i feel similarly about cops. it's weird how authority figures do that. well, maybe not. once i was a security guard in a museum, and i always felt like i made people nervous and hated that i made them nervous. i have a huge crack that goes all the way across my windshield, so hopefully i keep steering clear of those cop guys.
from weatethesea :
that is very weird. here is something else that's weird: 2 million people give or take, know who ted danson is. that's strange, isn't it? he is just one man! also i have a hypothesis for you: maybe when ted was talking on his cell phone, he was trying to call YOU but you had your telephone turned off. i am willing to wager this is correct.
from sickidivall :
you should switch to firefox. safari is obsolete.
from gigihodges :
jeff, though i know it was a really good thing to break up and though i know we arent meant to be romantic...i really really miss you and your sense of humor and your winnie the pooh laugh. yesterday, in a time of sadness and low self esteem....i thought of how i wasnt funny enough for you. and i embraced it.
from gigihodges :
what are you doing in new york? i havent saved your new phone number yet...call me if you want. i want to know how the big city is. what the fuck man.
from thebid :
jeff! i don't have your phone number! why not?! but we are watching ghostbusters tonight at the soup kitchen. i told chris, so maybe he told you. come over and watch it!
from panzuda :
i think you are pretty cool.
from cornbrain :
ok you can sleep in our bed, only if i am in the middle, in between you and carie. and no funny business!
from elledyal :
I don't know...we heard that he has a drug problem...but nobody really knows...it is kind of on the DL...
from asyourghost :
i know a movie was good if afterwards i need to sit silently as the credits role
from cornbrain :
come on over! you are welcome to sleep on my couch or in my bathtub.
from kindbegger :
i agree. we will one day live in the weirdest, biggest, sexiest cities and we will probably be best friends with a couple of gay black men. no joke.
from luityler :
jeff, i'm pretty sure you already have left
from asyourghost :
i know!!!! i had to look away! actually i had to look away for a LOT of parts! i used to have a strong stomach but lately i am squeamish. oh, so you know the part where the intruder sticks the dad's head in the railing and then pushes the dresser towards him? i was like 'no, they won't show it popping his head off, they wont!' and they DO!! but one thing that gets me... so when he and the girl are in the greenhouse fighting w/ barbedwire sticks and crap, what do you think about that? i think thats the only thing that really angered me. because... was she bashing her own face in??? was it in her mind??
from jpop :
yeah the scene where the mom comes in the room and the guy comes behind her and slits the throat and rips the head back is definately probably the craziest thing i have ever seen gore wise. it shows the whole thing you know!
from asyourghost :
ok, so i HATED the split personality part at first, but then i really liked it because it did such a good job of making me so f-ing mad. i realized that because it was gross/scary/disturbing i had been tensing my muscles and clenching my jaw and really uncomfortable the whole movie, so i'd consider it pretty successful. home-invasion-type stories freak me out!
from automatos :
I really don't like them. I guess I would rather explode their music and not the people themselves. I'm hating on the only person that I could get close to wanting to punch in the face............... You told me once that you had Dr. Calagari's Cabinet (I think), so I was wondering if you like silent film. Do you?
from thebid :
yes, jeff, i remember that now that you mention it. maybe my subconscious remembered that and subconsciously i really wanted to be like you and so today my subconscious mind inserted it into that entry. and how many times can i use the word subconscious in this note...i am your princess leah, you are my luke--twins separated at birth. . .and now my subconscious mind has brought us back together.
from cornbrain :
your father is a genius
from pandajune :
No You!
from cornbrain :
pops- the main thing that makes our friendship so deep and lasting and profound is our experiences together. the time we spent being together, just you and me. the countless times it was just jeff and ricky, ricky and jeff. inseperable to the end. remember that.
from gigihodges :
peacetrain: most definetly a sign.
from mymess :
jpop i was just singing peace train in maine, believe it or not. i like it because it is more hopeful than almost any other song i know that deals with the topic (war) that usually fills me with the most dispair. so it helps me feel good in an area that i need help with. just having hope instead of anger that comes from my feeling helpless.
from panzuda :
i did! i will again tonight!!
from gigihodges :
hey remember when you would always say you were going to go pee pee on your poo poo or poo poo on your pee pee? kind of funny. very kind of funny.
from kindbegger :
jpop, i have such a crazy story to tell you! it totally involves peer pressure!
from final137 :
"it's funny how i can be on top of the world and the next moment not." That's because the world keeps turning. ;)
from virtu :
Some of your most recent entries have been so strikingly beautiful to me recently. Also I wanted you to know how so sincerely good it was to hang out for the little bit at helen's party thing. Helen once told me one of her regrets (when moving to New York) was that she and I had never really gotten the chance to really know one another, and I was thinking (as I'm moving to new york) that you may be on the top of my list of people that I already know, but wish I got to know better. Hopefully you move to New York so I can have a chance to remedy that, but I'm not saying this because you might...I was just thinking about it. Actually, I didn't intend to leave such a long note like this, I just wanted to say that your diary is so so pretty, I think you're an amazing person, and I love hangin out when you're around. Just so you know. love geo
from thebid :
jeff, i just finished watching that movie too! merry christmas! merry christina!
from saintjeor :
Jeff, Meghan downloaded one of your songs. It's great. You're one talented guy. Have a Merry Christmas. And, no ... I don't think you're a rEtaRd.
from paperfriend :
jeff, what are the controversial ones? you and gigi french kissing?
from panzuda :
this is the best idea you've ever had! glory road! ain't no mountain high E'NUFF! where are you in seattle? edan is going to be here in seattle in THREE HOURS!!!are you coming to spokane for new years? or is that a controversial subject?
from mymess :
jeff i agree about families. when i went to vegas for thanksgiving i was not able to see any of my friends, because i had a lot of family in town and ever sense i lost a sense of trust with the millionth friendship, i have my family as top priority. i don't think they know that though, so maybe i should tell them. anyway, i hope you'll still hang out with me tomorrow night even though family comes first! if you want you can imagine i'm your sister. soul sister. my real blood brother's name is jeff!
from thebid :
jeff, singing with you was so great. so! especially when you made us all say what we wanted for christmas as part of that song and i got to say world peace and also make a funny joke! even tho i am not really part of that group of friends, i sensed how nice it was for you all to be together, and i felt sad that i had missed out. i liked being around all of you and wondered why it is that going away and coming back so often results in such great gatherings like yesterday.
from saint-erin :
who hung out last night? i love old provo!
from mymess :
jpop did you get an e-mail from me ever? just checking. we are both up late. i really do not think you are an ass.
from mymess :
it is a new kind of light! but surprisingly of the same essence.
from luityler :
maybe we'll be able to save them
from thebid :
jeff, that is my favorite entry so far.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ! signed, christina ricci
from mymess :
why are you so happy lately? if it's a secret, still tell me.
from pandajune :
tell me good things! tell me all sorts of good things!
from msea :
OH BOY!!! OH BOY!!! this is the jeff i love!
from msea :
jeff, what is a whino?
from rupeshow :
thanks so much man. dude i can't wait to be roomies with you. i feel like we would always have something good, bad or sad to talk about. if you want to talk about life you better believe i'm down.
from marmarpants :
have you seen "last days"?
from cornbrain :
im sorry the shoutout was because you were now in the house (of my favourite diaries) but i will definitely give you a shout out for what you wrote
from pandajune :
Spencer is the brother that is married with a child, but he does not live in Utah. He lives in San Diego. Let me just say one more thing... We are Amazing and I don't think anything could get in our way of Amazingness, not even MK!
from gigihodges :
refreshing entry and might i add to the forumn that "oatmeal cookie" is also a ben and jerry's must...along with brownie batter.
from asyourghost :
jeffword, you are one of the truest of hearts!
from asyourghost :
jeffword, i've never had their chubby bunny-- i bought marsha marsha marshmallow at smiths because it was on sale and it is only just ok. but caramel sutra is SO good. im giving up a lot of things for health/medical necesity for a while, tiri misu is definatly my favorite food in the world-- rick used to bring it home from work for me all the time (california pizza kitchen's is sooo good but for some reason the cheffs are always really extravagantly heavy on the rum) but i think out of everything that is what i miss the most. meh :-) p.s. i am getting married in 3 days! be there!
from pandajune :
Laughing out loud is the best thing ever. I bet Jesus laughed out loud.
from gigihodges :
i wasnt saying that it was okay for me to think that. and it really isnt about looks (you know that about me) it is more about the way someone holds themself and their attitude about smoking. the person i was fantasizing in my brain about was doing it in a different fashion (not like "fashion fashion") than the kids around here. it was very non-chalant in my daydream of that guy.
from whitepants :
Maybe the breath was never *that* bad. Or maybe I am a dirty freak. I dunno.
from marmarpants :
i have a lot of oops, but not sugar. coconut cake with shredded coconut covering the outside is my favorite.
from helian :
Jeff if you want to hear more about quitting go to www.thislife.org then go to their first year '95 they have a show all about quittting.
from saint-erin :
jeff, you are not scum! you have a great heart and a light in your eyes
from saint-erin :
jeff, you are not scum! you have a great heart and a light in your eyes
from mymess :
jeff, people are not made to go days without eating, you are not week or feeble. you know your clense has nothing to do with the celestial kingdom: not only that, you must remember that intent and heart matter so much, even within the mormon religion. i know you have a good heart and should not suffer like this. i am rambling. i just want you to feel good about yourself.. see you later!
from lissinski :
jeff this is my only way of contacting you at the present moment. it is midnight on tuesday night (technically wed morning). for a specific reason that i cannot tell you, i have to stay up until about 2:30am and maybe as late as 4:30am. therefore, if you get this tonight please come over and we can watch the rest of AD. i will be bored out of my mind just sitting here waiting for the thing i have to wait for. AND as an added bonus, I will tell you this secret when you come over. hurry!
from marmarpants :
please dont quit diaryland and now that you arent on myspace anymore you wont be able to add me as your friend. too bad.
from rupeshow :
i feel you last entry... you're a good friend.
from gigihodges :
jeff, i am sorry for you but also happy for you. i know you and i both love to "feel" things. and some day when life feels a bit dull....you will draw on these times to make you feel sick, excited, relieved, happy, learned and strong. i like those last lyrics a lot too.
from hold-it :
life is so weird. and sometimes too much.
from lissinski :
i'm on day number 2 of my juice fast.
from rupeshow :
yeah i'm planning on it. it will be so fun. i hope we all become skaters.
from mymess :
what happened to your diary? did you fall in love? with chris, perhaps? with poop?
from marmarpants :
i'm really good at being cool too.
from panzuda :
i was surprised to read your recent entries. i have been doing a lot of art with dark angels in it, would you be interested in a collaboration? a project?? an activity or object lesson????
from lissinski :
dark angel? i didn't know you liked that show
from mymess :
dear cryptic jeff, i liked your last entry a lot.
from lovaliss :
I dont' read the entries...I promise! I don't have time...I would if I did! You can marry me, I'll bring in the dough!
from gigihodges :
yeah, agreed. but if we are truely the christians we think we might be then dont we believe that we can be changed/refined by the fire of the holy ghost? if ice can turn to water....if physical things in nature can change states of being....i guess they are ultimately made of the same material.....and are the same element but are used in different ways? do you get what i mean? our spirits can also be changed and used in different ways but will they ultimately always be the same? we are such scholars.
from whitepants :
Jeff, you write well in the abstract.
from whitepants :
What Jeff? Is your post a joke? Did you really see an angel?
from gigihodges :
jeff, do you think christ can help you change your core? (i am seriously asking...not rhetorically)......and maybe if a girl can bring you closer to christ, then it is up to you to rely on god/christ to change your inner core....prodigal sons, changes of hearts....how do they have the change of heart that i have thought i have had so many times only to make the same mistakes over and over again? (i agree with you about the 'core of us' thing...i am a prime example)
from adelie :
jeff, i don't remember ever saying that. what's more, it doesn't even sound like something i would say!
from passthison :
i love you jeff!
from stupidmuffin :
happy birthday jeffword!
from thebid :
happy day o' birth brother owens!!!! and, i like what you wrote about relationships and think it is true about being able to take those risks, to show weaknesses and strengths and not be ridiculed.
from gigihodges :
happy rocktober!! happy birthday on monday!! i wish i could send a crusty albertsons german chocolate cake through the mail. but i know your mail man (chris's dad) would take a bite. you are a quarter of a century old! weird! (a century is 100 yrs-not 10-right?). what are you going to do? i agree with chris about making your font larger. and darker. i highlight it on my computer so there is a contrast so i dont have to strain to read it. everytime i come to the library i have to sit on my foot so i dont poop in my pants.
from freightcars :
i don't really enjoy talking politics with anyone. it is such a touchy subject so nobody listens as much as spouts out their own pount of view. the exception being my dad probably. jeff- i don't think i can come down this weekend for practice! sorry. i have some papers to write and eva's having an art opening saturday night! but i'll work on our second hit song!
from lissinski :
thats funny because i've seen you eat at all three of those places during the day
from hold-it :
stop being such a hardass.
from rupeshow :
i don't think i understand your comment about chris knowing a lot about midgets.
from rupeshow :
i don't think i understand your comment about chris knowing a lot about midgets.
from paperfriend :
jeff, i wish your font was bigger on jpop. everytime i go to your diary i have to enlarge the font size on my browser!!!
from hold-it :
i really love broom people- that's a great one.
from troymccool :
my mom moved over here 6 months ago and my sister has been here for a year. I'm here with my brother visiting them and the rest of my family. Luaus, Hula dancing, and pork galore.
from rupeshow :
hell yeah, be a hard ass... do what you got to do. if you want to ease up for a minute from being such a hard ass and wouldn't mind telling me your motives behind this, that would be cool. why a hard ass?
from lissinski :
ah! you are really doing this hard ass thing? i forget, what's the reasoning behind this?
from msea :
come to my brother's shows with me. it may make you feel like you want to be more hard-ass
from lissinski :
jofer- i hate hard asses! don't turn into one!
from saint-erin :
jeff, american history x is one of my favorite movies!
from mymess :
is your prof. bro bott? maybe you were just taught the same thing i was once.
from eyesout :
No, i havent seen it yet. Yay! Something to look forward to! My mom bought The Aviator, and I haven't seen that yet either, so I think I will tonight.
from ellamae :
his name is craig. i don't know his last name. he was a quiet nice boy on the german study abroad program from the u. he wasn't rowdy like the rest.
from asyourghost :
hey jeff, did you find another job? today is my second day working full time for nuskin as a production designer! haha i get my own cubicle... weird!
from eyesout :
It was absolutely lackluster and did not hold together well at all. I was also really disappointed in everyone's favorite bad boyz. Maybe I just expected a little bit more from them. Have you seen any new movies that would be good to see as my last movies for two years? There are many good ones on DVD, but I would like to see a great one in the theatre. I might try and see Grizzley Man.
from kimholmes :
i want to make a friendship bracelet.
from gigihodges :
p.s. CORPSE BRIDE comes out today. i bet you still love going to the movies!!! popcorn!! coke!!! movies!!!
from gigihodges :
JEFF!!! i didnt realize you got into the art program!!! that is so great. isnt it weird how things turn out?? i wish i could take credit for the page set up but it is just one of the new "preset" standard ones or whatever....but i like them. and i like how they have a "random entries" link. i suggest we all turn over our diaryland lives to this set up. it is so much fun. i really do miss you a lot. you really are a fun fun fun person and you are so open minded. i like that you like mostly all people. (except for anne.) you are a great guy. and i mean that in all sincerity. not in a generic "what a great guy" kind of way. i want the world to know that JEFFREY LOGAN HEART SHAPED BIRTHMARK GRILLED CHEESE OWENS is one hell of a guy. and he's funny to boot. (i feel sort of left out with this whole friendship bracelet craze.....)
from lovaliss :
Fresh faced Jeff...I can always count on you to check your notes...should I take this whole CD thing as a "No"...yes? no? yes? no? maybe?
from adelie :
i wasn't trying to assume everyone is feeling the same way socially. i'm so glad you love life so much. i do too! it is clear to our eyes! lately i've just heard a lot of people vocalizing a similar weirdness about being social/social events and i really honestly believe it has something to do with fall.
from paperfriend :
that fresh face picture is weird. you look SO fresh in it. in real life you don't look that fresh.
from eyesout :
joopop- I won't turn back! Even if you encourage me to. I love this gospel and I love the Lord. ps I have made one shirt in my whole life. If you want one you can ask Dean Chessman. Hes in the film/sound program. He put on Guitars Plugged and I made a shirt for it.
from msea :
i'm not sorry about fall fest! nothing new IS good!
from paperfriend :
jeff, i hope you don't end up like mike kelley or drew danburry, giving super long hugs that make girls uncomfortable.
from lovaliss :
I can listen to almost anything in my mission as long as there are no "romantic overtones". In need your help. Will you burn Sujan Stevens and Low for me and any other good music like that and send it to me...please please please...I'm dying here!!! My district leader listens to country!!! My address is 3110 Willit St. #1 Omaha NE 68112...want to smooch later...kiss me kiss me kiss me...I'm the perviest missionary...I'm a perv I'm a perv I'm a perv
from panzuda :
it could very well be.
from whitepants :
Jeff, I didn't want to name specific individuals because doing so in a public arena where other people (aside from the people I might name) would read it and potentially judge those people or judge me for naming them. I didn't want it to be about pointing fingers or making people choose sides. I don't know if I feel comfortable pointing out to people something that I know am not guilt-free of, especially something that people DO get so defensive about (honestly, who feels okay about being considered racist or sexist?). I guess this calls into question why I wrote the entry at all...the reason I did was 1) because I felt the need to do/say something 2) I hope, maybe naively, that people will recognize themselves, or at least question themselves. I think that EVERYBODY can benefit from self-examination on whether they are racist/sexist without knowing about it, or maybe they do know about it on some level. 3) I think that dialogue can generate from something like this. And I hope it does. Or at least it gives people something to think about. And maybe others will be able to speak up. Jeff, if you think that you might have been someone I was referring to, then I would be happy to talk to you about that in e-mail ([email protected]). I would rather do it in a less public sphere. I am happy to talk to anyone about these issues, particularly sexism, since it is something I feel like I know more about. I am still learning and growing, and I feel this most especially when it comes to issues of racism. Sorry for the long note! But thank you for replying to my entry. I would have been sad if it had been completely ignored.
from adelie :
jeff you are in marriage prep??! tell me how it goes! also, i saw the note you wrote on hannah's page. i have often seen that when people are directly confronted about a sexist/racist comment, they either get extremely defensive or they act like they are completely joking and try to make the confronter look foolish. i am one to believe that the jokes are not 100 percent joke-y. one recent example, though ridiculous in context, is luke confronting racist "jokes" on jeffs corner. i know that is not direct person-to-person confrontation, but i feel like it is indicative of what happens in real life.
from paperfriend :
jeff good entry. it was funny how you said i wanted to bawl in everyones face. i love when my name appears in other people's diarys!!
from eyesout :
Yeah, I was on rottentomatoes hoping that other people would also hate it, but so many people who reviewed it had so many good things to say. They mentioned that it really made them feel claustrophobic and that it was a nailbiting, suspenseful hit. I couldn't believe it! ps I haven't congratulated you yet on the art program, so: Congratulations! That's so great! I am so happy for you and know that you will be able to contribute a lot to the program. Make the most of it and have a blast in school for me while I'm in Paraguay.
from hold-it :
you missed the cake! don't worry, there's some left on the counter. its covered by a big bowl...please re-cover it if you have some (COCONUT CHOCOLATE!!!!)
from lovaliss :
Congratulations Jeff! You really love me!
from asyourghost :
congrats on the art program!!! that's great that you're in! i think my best classes were with Peter Everett and Joe. do you know Wulf? his classes are quite entertaining because he's CRAZY but i dont nececarily reccomend them because you wont learn anything! hey i definatly didnt know that about pf chang's was a mon tues thurs deal, so thanks for the info, yeah let's both go and work there... hey if you work there do you get free food or 1/2 off? because i would be ordering crispy honey shrimp and the great wall of china EVERY DAY!!!
from asyourghost :
hey jeff, yeah i dont know how excited my parents will be. my dad's just 'ok' with it but i havent told my mom. maybe today? (thats what i say everydasy and then i say "maybe tomorrow...") im not going to school right now, im not going until next spring! until then i am still looking for a job! im thinking after i cut/dye my hair and buy nice job interview clothes i will find something. im thinking about hostessing at pf changs...???
from mymess :
jeff pop, your song was good and you have a nice voice.
from eyesout :
dear jpop so true. Jefferson doesn't dress very weird, and he has great things to say. Same with Nate Graves. yours, eyesout
from thebid :
phew, jeff. ! i was worried at first that somehow you were going to be endorsing the importance of physical looks in how we judge people and upholding the idea of the "monotonous and generic" mass. i think that too, sometimes, about everyone seeming the same, no one seeming interesting or different or whatever. but that is so dumb! (saying this to myself). the mass is only monotonous, generic, and mainstream when we are worrying and focusing too much about ourselves and what others think. when it comes down to the essence of who people are and what they think, dynamism replaces the monotony. when i actually get down to talking to people instead of just looking from a distance, i don't often find what we expect. anyway, i like that you wrote about that.
from asyourghost :
i think it'll be the 1st week of Dec, in the Salty Apple but maybe provo, but exactly where i havent even gotten around to yet-- you are definitly invited! im not selling my jetta, sorry but i totally need it! maybe at some point i will sell paintings im not sure i havent thought about it. what does that have to do with being married? well, i am poor... P.S. i am still looking for a job, i need one soon because i'm only allowed to work at mine for maybe another week at the most!!! did you ever get one?
from asyourghost :
so true, jeffword. i watched this movie on amc, Marathon Man, with the main guy from jaws and dustin hoffman-- i dont know why but i kept thinking that in this role dustin hoffman looked a lot like you. weird. it was slow but in the end it turned into a good movie. hey jeff, ever feel like you just dont want people knowing about you at the moment but then maybe you'll surprise everyone in the end. do you know that im getting married in december?
from stupidmuffin :
i read life of pi 2 summers ago, i liked it. a buncha girls i worked with had to read it for school and they hated it. oh well.
from mymess :
dawg, you and erin are both babie crazy! maybe you two should start making them? if you had two you could both keep one.
from lovaliss :
HOw did you turn gay while I've been away? SUrprised to hear from me!?? BOO! My mission president let's me do whatever I Want!!!! YEAH
from lissinski :
babies are great! i love them too!
from msea :
jeff! roomie! i wanted to be roomies before you did! i don't know when jon gets back, at the latest sometime in September. Unless they have changed foreign ministry visa policy in Brazil. i email him but he doesn't respond because... A) he may not use his mission myldsmail.net email address, or B) it is against the rules Is it okay for me to expose his email address that I found in the church NetWare Admin? I think so. Everbody write jon at [email protected]
from lissinski :
we will eat greek food as soon as i'm home. i love it. i love it. i love it. and chicago sounds great. i've never been more east than utah.. lame! so i'm in man, just tell me when and where and i'll be there. (ok, that last sentence was mostly all talk because i'm starting school so i can't just up and leave if you say "when!" or "where!") anyways, NEW CAR!? tell me tell me all about it!
from kindbegger :
man, i know what you mean about the seriousness. really, why all of it? we are at the age where we shouldn't have to be like this. we are at the age where we should spend our days picking berries, not picking fights.
from asyourghost :
also, today the daily herald is saying locals called it "Gollum's Cave". weird?
from paperfriend :
jeff, it was the kids who had dubbed it the cave of death. according to the daily herald.
from thebid :
i always wanted to be christina ricci in the addams family. do you remember once i drove you to the mall? but really i was thinking about that "greatness". don't you feel like a lot of what sufjan stevens has to say and sing about is like that greatness in music? at least it makes me feel like i want to be that way all the time. !
from elledyal :
best entry ever. no, really, i think it the best entry you've ever written.
from chrisalmond :
byu housing is for suckers
from elledyal :
hey jpop, sorry you had to go to work. i'm serious, training is just awful. but pretty soon, you'll be the president of great harvest and you'll love it! because you'll make bread on your own terms. what more could you want than to bake bread on your own terms? good luck, jpop, i know that you'll suceed at great harvest because you have high self esteem and morals and baking capabilities. nards out, elle
from chrisalmond :
it won't be that bad, you might run into me on campus!
from jpop :
i have been realizing a lot of things lately, coming to conclusions on some and leaving others to be concluded. it is a great feeling. if you ask me personally i will tell you one of them! lately i have found that sometimes things just aren't worth it. i don't think i have ever felt so strongly about that in my whole life. not that i feel that super strong about it, just that i have never felt really any way about it before so now that i feel one way about it seems like more of a stronger feeling. i really do love provo. the closeness of people and the centralization of all of them. it is a simple way of life and i enjoy that. i know things won't eventually be so simple. i have lived here for the past three years. including the summers. when people tell me that they don't like provo i use to get mad, since i enjoy it so much. but now i realize that people are different and enjoy different things. some people don't have friends which makes them not like it; others may find that the mormon popluation is too much or they want to live in more of a city environment. i will live here for at least another year and a half. and when my time here is over i will be really sad but also excited to move onto other parts of the world and my life. i use to watch movies on dvd so much. now it is really hard for me to watch a movie that isn't in the movie theatre. i think one reason is because i don't have a tv/dvd player. maybe i will buy one! for my new house! god bless wherever that is!
from sickidivall :
jpop i am so unpopular, you are the only one who has left me comments the past 3 times... what should i do?
from passthison :
it is true! also; congrats on your new job doughboy!
from sickidivall :
you dont think clay and i are envious?!
from passthison :
i will tell you in person.
from passthison :
the most peculiar thing just happened to me...
from virtu :
hey jeff, can we exchange mixes? I would be really really interested in music that you feel is important. To me you have always seemed so passionate in some of the best ways and I feel like it surfaces when you talk about music and movies. I imagine a mix by you would be so life-presence enlightening and worth it. Let me know.
from mymess :
your everclear joke was great enough to make me laugh.
from elledyal :
Hey JPopper, I just read the note you left on Meg's page about guilt...I wanted to comment on it, I hope that's okay. I believe that everyone has the gift of discernment. I don't think guilt is imposed by parents or by religion or by anyone, I genuinely believe that every human being is born with the ability to choose between right and wrong. I am talking about right and wrong at it's most basic level, not smaller issues like morality, etc. I think that even if there isn't a God (although I firmly believe there is) that it's an undeniable fact that humans are born with an understanding of what a positive action is and what a negative one is...and I think guilt is a natural reprecussion of acting out negatively. I think this relates to your comment...if not, I'm glad I was able to sort my thoughts out on the subject. Well, I'm gonna go try out my gym legs and then maybe my sea legs. Nards out, Elle
from gigihodges :
are you back or what?
from paperfriend :
jeff, today i was thinking that you are a very good friend. i have never directly thought this before, but i thought it today. i was walking around provo feeling sorry for myself, thinking i really wanted to hang out with someone that i felt liked me, and would be interested in what i would have to say. and you are just that sort of guy. jeff owens: a great friend.
from paperfriend :
do you need me to give you some money?
from paperfriend :
jeff! why am i a fuck nut? because i write so many poor me entries?
from lovaliss :
I'm not erasing them...you've gone loco...I don't know what you're talking about
from elledyal :
hey jeff owens! i thought that was really sweet of you to think of me in guatemala. i can't wait to jump in a car with you and jj to find employment...i think we should work for the governor. i don't really work out here. jj and i just hang out and watch tv series on dvd. how are you? i bought a car and jj and i are driving back to provo on monday. if meg and i move into your house and you come home and say, "what the heck should i do??!!", we'll say, "you can stay here as long as you want! we love you jeff!" i hope that works out, if you don't want it to, that's okay. have a good time, jeff owens, i'll see you at the governor's office/the capitol.
from lovaliss :
pissy piss miss
from kindbegger :
it's true! we really saw them today! but it was actually scott, not dave. and they didn't call us wussies. the whole situation was brief and pretty casual, but since we were hoping that they wouldn't see us and that they yelled, "hey!" and rode up to us on their bikes, it felt like they were bullies and that we were trying hard not to be recognized by them. we truly live in a wb drama where anything is possible. write me an email!
from gigihodges :
i heard that you and alissa myspace everyday. that is good. it really is. i am happy that you have friends that care about and miss you. it is true. they do. and i do. those alone moments really strip you down to your bare self. you have nothing to hide behind. and even if you did, it wouldnt matter because no one is there looking at you in your stripped state. but the big guy upstairs is. i thought of you today as i sat on my bed in the stagnant heat. i wondered what you were doing.
from lovaliss :
Are you gone yet? I wish I wouldn't have come to MT...it is awkard
from luityler :
yes i do. i've been wanting to go back to guatemala. p.s. even though i know it is called progresso, somehow i still can't except it. like i'll remember the real name any second, even though that is the real name
from virtu :
thanks so much for the note jeff. It's so good to hear. I guess I'll keep trying to be totally honest/open even though I'm not very good at it sometimes and in certain relationships. I honestly hope your life is going well, or o.k., or whatever, but hopefully the best. I told flux to f-off for you. jk. I hear you are going to central america!?! I'm so happy for you. adios the amigos for me.
from passthison :
when is sufjan stevens playing??
from sickidivall :
jeff what is your fav ak3 song and album... my album is definitly "goshdarn it" if you know what i mean. I listened to it all of freshman year and beyond. do you have their first album: self titled? I havent heard their newest album but is it good? Do you see the big change from when they were on asian man to when they went vagrant... i dont know what my favorite song is,... maybe sanfransico
from helian :
jpop, I don't think swearing is funny. I just don't get it. any who, I like reading your diaryland. I watched all the real girls. I don't understand why people like it. I would like you to tell me why you liked it.
from fuckbowser :
yes jeff that is why we are roommates and back eachother up 100%! isn't james figurine so good? who all was watching curb your enthusiasm?
from kindbegger :
hey [email protected], don't you mean luke bastardhead coates?
from miobravo :
jeff! i have made the goal to drink 64 oz. of water every day too! i bought one of those jugs that is just the right size. believe me it gets easier, i only go to the bathroom about 4 times a day now.
from paperfriend :
i want to see the enron doc! let us see it together.
from passthison :
you are right. nothing has to be final right now, and that is such a good thing to hear. i think we are overdue for some serious AslashK time. i think i will really call you tonight. ps: if it is as good as you say it is...then i also want a gmail invite!!
from kindbegger :
jeff, my oldest friend! will you send me some gmails at [email protected]. i already know your s is [email protected]. the real baby monster knows that, too.
from panzuda :
i have been missing out! i will be reading all of your old entries. in the meantime this is my dad playing saxaphone and the bagpipes: http://perso.wanadoo.fr/musart/jazznomad.html
from lovaliss :
The funny thing is, I have been to Wy only about 4 times within the last 12 months, it just happened that 2 of those times were these last two weekends.
from gigihodges :
i know all of those lyrics.
from whitepants :
that is exactly, EXACTLY, how I feel Jeff...
from kindbegger :
why, yes, your hair does look french. seriously. and i also think your pretty good at not caring what other people think of you, even if at times you get self conscience (like we all do!). and i'm glad that you feel, too. i am also glad that you can say "schwing!" so freely when little rachel could very well be right outside the door, her virgin ears pressed so innocently against the screen.
from asyourghost :
maybe the funnier part about 'closer' to me was that about 3 weeks ago rick borrowed it from him mom to watch it and i refused to watch it. then randomly ikumi was watching it so i sat down w/ her and watched it-- i guess it was mostly funny because rick was surprised i watched it when i was so adamantly refusing to see it before. i think it is probably pretty accurate to life because people can be so crappy-- i think before i didnt want to watch it because i dont like the idea of movies that are just about cheating, since thats why my parents got divorced, well the biggest reason, anyways, but i like to think ignorantly, that things like that dont happen or at least will never get that bad. p.s. are you going to come back to class? do you need help with anything?
from virtu :
Hey jpop. I really miss provo these days. Hope you're having a good time. I love yes and no questions a little too much (like half my entries). Regardless of how and why all my friends are or might be...I just wish I could know for sure. It doesn't matter how well I know a person I still feel so clueless. I need to start becoming a digger. Do people like that or is it annoying? Talk to you later.
from thatplace :
All of those movies sound good
from asyourghost :
jeff, somehow i just dont think that is really a thirteen year old kid.
from asyourghost :
im going to work on it tonight at 7 or 7:30 you can come with me and i can help you, no problem-O!
from sickidivall :
Jeff this is so wierd!!!! TODAY I TOLD CLAY THAT YOU HAD BREAKFAST IN BED EVERY DAY while we were eating breakfast. it was just so ironic that it happened today , the day that you wrote this entry.
from gigihodges :
i admire you smashing your phone. it must have felt so liberating. i am all for feeling liberated. let liberty ring!
from thatplace :
weirder Jeff--I just heard about stars today. I love the first two songs on the CD, Powerful and pretty. the rest of the CD was okay but not as good as the first two. Francesco had heard of them a while ago though.
from whitepants :
weird Jeff--I just heard stars for the first time yesterday
from kindbegger :
jeff, thank you for your kind note. a kind note for a kindbeggAr. your recent entry is so very honest (your other entries are honest, too, but this one stood out to me). relationships and love and communication are probably the three hardest, most complicated, sometimes the most rewarding (sometimes the least), and the weirdest things in life. by far. and you are probably going through so many different emotions right now... you want to be reckless, you want to not care, you want to get really angry, you want to laugh, you want to deeply love again... i guess i have no advice for you, i'm just regurgitating things that have been sung about in simple pop songs... but you like those kind of songs, right? listen to those songs. okay, so i guess i did have advice for you.
from paperfriend :
jeff i know what you mean, when you say you are happier you feel more. i think that is very true. each moment and experience becomes richer and more deeply felt. in a sense one becomes more alive. reality becomes more meaningful, reather than dull and uninteresting, as a person may feel when depressed. and that too me is when i feel the worst, when i feel so neutral in my feelings, and can not take joy from those things i normally take joy from. and i begin to feel hopeless. i think 'even these things that normally give me pleasure no longer do, how could life ever be enjoyable?' but then i get happy again, and everything is meaningfull and beautiful and while the sad things are felt more richly, they can be enjoyed rather than feel debilitating. on one hand, while feeling happy a person is unnaffected by there surroundings, as in can be happy all the time no matter what circumstances. strength, courage. versus when feeling sad a person is easily crushed and overwhelmed by circumstances, while simultaniously not feeling and experiencing them as richly.
from paperfriend :
jefferson rabashaw. i am glad you have become a regular contributor to diaryland.edu.
from mymess :
hi jeff, i do not always read your diary because i do not know you that well but i just read a bunch of it and i enjoyed it. you wrote a lot about music and lately i have been wanting to be more affected by it like i used to be. i am glad you are still so extremely affected by it. i can tell it is a lot by how much you wrote abuot it! sometimes i am too, just not as often as in the past. and i really miss that.
from adelie :
thank you for complimenting me. you bought two computers??!!! my texting machine wasn't working last night or i would have written that i wanted to hang out but i was too tired. before you answered me back i tried to write "screw you" but i'm glad it didn't work because that was rude. i was going to write that because you hadn't answered me back yet.
from asyourghost :
hey. remember when you got kicked out of class yesterday? i wish you were still in it.
from kindbegger :
dave and his target reds. it's what won my heart. you mentioned wanting to be as forgiving as elaine in "the graduate". i agree with you. i would also like to be as impulsive as elaine, too (even though i already am pretty impulsive). so when i marry a total square, i hope i will have the courage and impulsive nature to run away with the crazy-eyed 20 year old that shouts my name over and over again through the glass window of the cathedral. now that's true love.
from asyourghost :
no i havent-- i guess im just gonna show up (EARLY!) to the first class w/ an add drop card-- did u hear back yet?
from asyourghost :
p.s. photoshop is stupid anyways
from asyourghost :
i think you should take it-- and i think everyone knows a bit about design. there arent lots of secrets about it, like, you look at a cd cover or a poster and like how it looks or you dont. i think its that simple. if you take it i will help you if you need help. p.s. i dont know how many seats are open in the class still, you should try to find the prof. at his office and get him to sign a card before class even starts, like, maybe this week. thats what im thinking about doing.
from kindbegger :
i agree with you that we all might not be friends if we had known each other a few years ago and that style tends to determine who we are, despite our best and worst efforts. currently, i have no interest in surfing or roxy clothes (i got through so many phases so quickly), but i still love simon and simon and garfunkel... and birkenstocks. it's true! i did go through a phase in high school and my freshman year where the only shoes i wore were my birkenstocks that made duck noises everytime i walked. you have to admit, they are some of the most comfortable shoes in the world. anyway, do you ever get the feeling that even though we think we are coming into our own and figuring out "who we really are" that we are just going through another phase and that we will look back on it in a year or two or ten and say, "yeah, back when i was in my early twenties, i was into the glendale rabashaw." joke. but i think you get what i mean.
from kindbegger :
jeff, my new entry is about you and your corner! sincerely, anonymous
from kindbegger :
"Felicity Porter (portrayed brilliantly by Keri Russell of the short-lived NBC series "Malibu Shores") is a freshman at the fictitious University of New York. She's a California native with two overbearing parents who have made Felicity's every decision. Her first decision on her own - traveling to New York City for college - greatly upsets her parents, who had assumed she would be a pre-med student at Stanford. Felicity defies the wishes of her parents solely to attend the same school as her high school crush. That's what brings her to New York City, but it isn't what keeps her there. She is enjoying her taste of independence and freedom." i know that nyu exists... it's the one school i would go to if i could go to any school... besides, it's the university that mary-kate and ashley go to! uny is modeled after nyu, but it does not exist. there are state universities of new york, but no actual university of new york.
from kindbegger :
if you see my NEW entry, you'll understand why you can't go all ashton kutcher on me now. "whener"? i wish, owens!
from virtu :
"dispensable" is the perfect word for that feeling you were talking about concerning friends. I've been trying to pin it down for a long time.
from paperfriend :
what about davis? maybe you could give him a call.
from saint-erin :
p.s. i am also looking for a girl best friend. but it is hard and there is little one can do about it
from saint-erin :
i also think it is really nice having a best friend of the same sex. its harder with the opposite sex b/c there is always the possibility of it becoming something more. but with the same sex it is solely based on friendship and nothing more
from helian :
what? why dont' you like flux?
from jpop :
i would love to take the colon cleansing pill! where did you and gigi go this morning?
from miobravo :
jeff, there is a note for you on my diary......
from paperfriend :
jeff that entry was wierd!
from paperfriend :
dear funny guy. no, it started about two weeks before you left. how long have you been gone? one week? maybe more like a week before you left? i can't remember for certain. i got your message with your account number! i will do it! is it super important that it be done today? could i possibly do it tomorrow? if it needs to be done today let me know. i just have some school things i need to do. we are buds! did you see that i left your desired comment on my profile? sorry for erasing the jeffs corner entry! jeff, i am serious when i say that so much wierd stuff has happened since you have left!
from mymess :
jeff, were you listening to npr last night when lynn cheney was on? it was funny. not that it meant to be.
from saint-erin :
thanx for the message. i'm ok now. i am listening to the arcade fire cd for the first time and cleaning the house. i am going to make a skirt and a shirt this weekend b/c i start work a nordtroms right when i get back and i dont think i have nice enough clothes to wear. did u know i used to be really into drug movies. i had to stop watching them b/c they would give me the worst feeling when i was done watching them. merry christmas. e.
from paperfriend :
i am sorry about the film program. i feel simararto how you feel sometimes. it was funny what you said about working with bjork. i don't know if she will be there though. uberkit had babies, and i was out of food so i ate them!!!! yesterday i was with greg, and he said the f-word. you can put that on your corner if you want!!!
from sageface :
um, hi jeff. i once woke up in the middle of the night crying and it was very disorienting as well. all i remember is that it involved the death of someone i really loved. so, i empathize with you and hope it all didnt freak you out too much.
from paperfriend :
jeff, it means you are a psycho.
from saint-erin :
you can have the mattress but you might want to ask kelsey first b/c i think the mattress is both of ours. we stole it from RC willey via la dumpster. remember when i accidently wrote this message to myself.
from saint-erin :
which mattress is it? is it the big mattress or the little one?
from paperfriend :
jeff. i want to have a (white) elephant gift party!!!
from saint-erin :
i dont thoink i will like that band anymore. just b/c of the name.
from sickidivall :
jeff that was the ultimate grump entry... but it makes sense since you had just woken up from a nap. I can see myself writing a similiar entry after the said nap.
from adelie :
jeff, naps do that to me too, or other weird emotional manipulations. i know this won't mean much to you right now but i want to say that i really enjoy and respect your opinions and thoughts and ideas and how you are really fun. and i'm really glad that we have been buddies for this long and you are a good guy and it is okay to play video games. and i come over to your house to see you too but you are rarely there when i am. c'est la vie.
from asyourghost :
well then, we should go parallel parking sometime
from paperfriend :
i forgot to say it was so funny thinking of your phone using AA batteries. i told it to luke and morgan. both thought it funny.
from paperfriend :
happy happy holidays to you as well. happy franksgiving. sober buy nothing day. holy martimas. we will play magic. i beat paper mario!!! thanks for putting me on your film application!!!!!!
from gigihodges :
maybe i was counting natalie's. maybe not.
from gigihodges :
i wish you would make more diarys so i can get to know you better. nudge, nudge. wink, wink.
from sickidivall :
Ken Jennings gave an assembley today it was AWESOME
from gigihodges :
how deep are peaches? or do you mean peaches the musician? either way i will take it.
from sickidivall :
kenjen's mother is a school librarian, i personally know her. If that tells you anything.
from virtu :
kenjen-- Rumor has it he got a perfect score on both the ACT and SAT in high school. (it was either that or he only missed a couple--something like that....you'd think I'd remember...) Ken's always been as nice as he is smart. Bouns fact: his brother's been on Asian Mtv (when they lived in Singapore) and looks like Wolf Colonel, (ask Chris).
from sickidivall :
Jeff- Also Johnny Cash sings that song, hurt, i think it is better than nin but that is just me, the little teacher
from paperfriend :
jeff, i was kiddign about not letting ashley read my diary. what if a bunch o
from paperfriend :
jeff, please don't let ashleygigi read my diary.i will freak if she does. my parents are moving to day. i don't mind chauntealmond being on friendster, i thought it was pretty funny. bold. and you know how i feel about boldness. i saw anchorman. i probably didn't like it as much as you. definatley will farrell was the best part. he is funny and likeable like you say. but i think how un-funny everyone else was, really got me in the gonads. also i saw it with my mom, and so was uncomfortable most of the time since they had many sexual jokes.
from sickidivall :
jeff this is a note that there is a note for you on my notes.
from paperfriend :
jeff. you can alwasy get ahold of me through the internet. i i check my email about six times a day. whenever i began a new task, i first check mty email. i wold like to watch a movie with you. i am glad you like those drawings, you are the only other person i have known to like them. i am glad you liked anchorman. i really wanted to see it but have been jaded towards comedies after seeing dodgeball and 50 first dates, but now i will see it. what movie do you want to see, i still haven't seen farenhiet 911 or super size me, or many others.
from paperfriend :
as far as i know it was really kermit. he sent one to my mrbelvedere to. wierd that he was in olympia when i was right? wierd if i had ran into him.
from paperfriend :
about hiking a waterfall? if that is the one you meant i wrote that. me and chaunte hiked a waterfall. bridell viel falls. the bottome part is easy to climb. there was even a three year old girl climbing it.
from paperfriend :
jeff, will youi send me those pictures?
from greenfinch :
tv teaches you that mediocrity is ok and anything harder than mediocrity is too much work to be worth it. tv teaches you that your attention span is, and should only be, seven minutes long. tv lowers your level of aesthetic. tv panders to the lowest common denominator. tv only exists only to trick you into watching commercials. tv is furniture.
from paperfriend :
jeff. is stopgo gigi?
from jpop :
hey jeff. chris, thanks for adding my notes and makingf them available.

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