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from jammybastard :
On Pornotube -- http://www.pornotube.com/media.php?m=11620 -- fabulous site, that.
from pyroguysr :
I noticed that you were one of Tony's (T85225) friends. Perhaps you read his blogs about his battle with cancer. I'm sad to report that he succumbed and passed away this week at age 49. He was a good online friend of mine and will be sorely missed. I left some details on his D-land diary notes.
from jammybastard :
Ah, the many splendors of the crop. Methinks cruelty suits you, my darling.
from jammybastard :
I love your "payment" plan with the Porter. Very nice idea. You have the makings of a very clever domina.
from jammybastard :
Ah, you're a darlin'. You keeping alright?
from jammybastard :
You've been quiet for weeks, babe. You okay?
from jammybastard :
I'm sorry you're blue, babe. This time of year I think we're all particularly vulnerable, and when there are other factors bumming you out, they just get magnified. But fret not -- you will love and be loved again. And with any luck this time he'll appreciate just how damn fortunate he is to have you around. Patience, darlin'.
from jammybastard :
So did your dry spell end or not? It's nine days later -- you're not tied up in some dank dungeon somewhere, are you?
from jammybastard :
Sorry I can't help you out, doll. Apparently we have a blizzard coming in, so my emergency booty call services will be suspended the next couple of days. I'm guessing some clever boy will figure out what you need before then.
from jammybastard :
It's true, the years have generally been good to me. It's just that my satisfaction only seems to extend back as far as the last trick, and that's getting to be quite a stretch. Must...have...sexual...affirmation.
from jammybastard :
Now come back and tell us what the hell is going on!
from jammybastard :
Bravo, darling. You did what had to be done, and I salute you for it.
from t85225 :
No answers, no advice... just a hug :)
from jammybastard :
You and me both, sweetheart. This man's capacity to frustrate me would be admirable if it didn't suck so bad.
from jammybastard :
I think you might be the most patient person I know.
from jammybastard :
Hard to imagine a hot tamale like yourself going without for any period of time. I'm an ugly old married guy and I still get laid, so clearly there's hope for you. Be strong, kitten!
from marinka-mp :
Hello Sunshine....There is no such thing as invasion of privacy when it comes to your thoughts, and personal diary. As long as you do not share his emaill address and name....this is your home and your personal escape. Write as you please...Miss you!!! I thought i was going to lose you. Glad to know that you are still writing
from jammybastard :
Jeez, if he knew all those wonderful things about you, how is it that he was so dismissive when you told him how you were feeling?
from jammybastard :
Ugh, I'm sorry angel. Silly man probably has no idea what a gem of a sub (and a woman) you really are. It says a lot about your character that you were so willing and happy to commit/submit. I know it hurts, but I've never met anyone who was ultimately happy having chosen the path of least resistance. Over the long haul, the highs of taking chances (i.e. loving and trusting) more than justify the lows. But it's still okay to feel crummy about it right now. I'll be sending you warm fuzzy (albeit leather-clad) thoughts, kitten.
from thatgrrrl :
Sorry to hear it, but what you were going through and what you were getting from him didn't seem to be worth the pain of being basically ignored. There are doms out there who will give you what you need, so don't give up hope.
from t85225 :
hugs... you know where I'm at if you want to talk.
from t85225 :
My condolences... I know you're hurting. Drop a line if you need to talk... t_85225 at yahoo dot com
from jammybastard :
Ouch. Just read this morning's entry. Existing merely for his pleasure is NOT the relationship you've described to us, and certainly not the one he seems to have been a part of until a few weeks ago. Yes, a submissive lives to serve her/his master, but the devotion MUST be reciprocated. Honestly, he's giving doms a bad name. I'm sorry, sweetie -- I know you must be hurting quite a bit just now. Try not to do anything too rash, but by the same token feel free to do what you want to regain a little self-esteem. Sometimes a little sexual healing goes a long way.
from jammybastard :
You have every right to be upset with Master, my dear. Clearly your submission to him is about more than recreational BDSM; you've demonstrated your willingness to commit, and he needs to do the same. Bit foolish being jealous when he can't make the time to give you what you need. Ugh, boys!
from t85225 :
A word of... I hesitate to call it 'wisdom', but I feel it's a notch above 'advice'. No matter if a relationship is D/s, nilla, or something in between, there are still laws that govern relationships between individuals that apply. One of these laws is... if BOTH parties needs are not being met, the relationship will suffer. If the neglected party suffers long enough, that party will begin to search elsewhere to obtain what they need but aren't recieving. As I pointed out, I feel this 'law' transcends the fact that this is a D/s relationship... it's a basic 'relationship' law. Maybe Master needs to be reminded of this fact.
from jammybastard :
I'd be going out of my mind. Why offer total submission and devotion to someone if he can't pencil you in from time to time? Your patience is impressive. How did it go with the Pupil?
from jammybastard :
So what's up with Master these days? Seems like you never see him, which must be astoundingly frustrating.
from jammybastard :
Baby, where for art thou?
from t85225 :
Hell hath no mis-directed furry like that of a 16 year old girl with unresolved issues concerning her birth parants. Hang in there... they DO mature eventually and you --can-- end up as good friends (this from someone who's been there, done that, got the t-shirt to prove it)
from jammybastard :
You're mighty quiet, missy. Tell us a tale -- there is so much left dangling just now!
from thatgrrrl :
Hello.... just added you as a favorite, I think I found you thru JB. I have been in the same situation as you, absentee dom, altho at least yours isn't married, that really makes it hard. Looking forward to reading more of you.
from jammybastard :
That is quite the dilemma. Not so much about the Doorman, per se; sounds like he's a fairly inexperienced top, which really isn't what you need right now. No, the problem is that whatever his qualifications, your Master isn't around enough to provide the discipline and structure you need. An absentee dom sort of defeats the purpose of submission. That said, don't feel you have to rush in to a new relationship just because your current one isn't quite there. Especially with a master less familar with BDSM than you.
from jammybastard :
Hmm, okay, that email bounced. Send me one you use and I'll give you the goods.
from jammybastard :
Wow, a whole week without your master. You're considerably more patient than I. In my mind the trade-off for being a dedicated and devoted sub is the constant assurance and structure provided by a dom. An unspanked sub is surely the saddest of all creatures! Hope the drought ends soon, my dear.
from t85225 :
Hey... found your pages from somewhere the other day, and just now from a comment you left for KFK. ALways nice to see others in the lifestyle here at DLand. Nice layout, and I enjoy your writing style... I'll be back :)
from jammybastard :
I'm loving your diary, by the way. A slave kept in collar and heels really is the most divine thing on Earth. I think you'll be glad in time that you've given yourself to your master so completely. Power exchange relationships rarely thrive as half measures, after all. Buona fortuna!

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