Insanity's Wall of Shame

Sometimes the things in my head get too powerful for me to handle. When that happens, either I shut down completely, I've finished writing 10 pages in my journal, I end up bleeding, and or just crying. So, out of those options, keeping a journal was the least harmful to me and probably most beneficial.

Every one deals with pain in their own way. Some never learn those necessary tools needed to cope. I'm just starting to learn. It's quite difficult being in my 20s and just now learning those things I should have learned almost a decade ago. That's what happens when one has to deal with many "grown up" issues at an early age. You just shut down.

I'm far from reality, but right smack in the middle. I'm a dreamer, caught in a nightmare land.

What power would hell have if those imprisoned there could not dream of heaven?

Dream, in Preludes & Nocturnes

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My favorite music:

Metallica, Tool, NIN, Staind, Incubus...
comments: Faith No More, KMFDM, Nick Cave, Sevendust, Type O Negative, Stabbing Westward, Deftones, Limp Bizkit, Megadeth, Marilyn Manson, System of a Down, Godsmack...
Cure, Ben Folds Five, Counting Crows, Live, Cake, Bush, Depeche Mode...
comments: Dave Matthews Band, Moby, New Order, Radiohead, REM, Smashing Pumpkins, Orbital, Butthole Surfers, Lou Reed, Velvet Underground, Police, Violent Femmes, Smiths & Morrissey, Everclear, U2, Ween...
Tori Amos, Ani Difranco, Poe, Fiona Apple, Garbage, PJ Harvey...
comments: Bjork, Pet, Drill, No Doubt, Portishead, Delerium, Dido, Plumb, Mazzy Star, Pixes, Enigma, Enya, Concrete Blonde, Letters To Cleo, Natalie Merchant...
Beatles, David Bowie, Pink Floyd, Queen, Rolling Stones, Doors, Cat Stevens...
comments: All 3 Mortal Kombat Soundtracks & too many other soundtracks to name. I'm a soundtrack junkie!
The list goes on and on and on and on.....

My favorite movies:

comments: "Just fear me, love me, do as I say, and I will be your slave."
Breakfast Club
comments: I can't even tell you how many times I've recited that movie! Ok.. let's just add almost all of John Hughes 80's movies to this as well.
Alice In Wonderland
comments: "We're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad."
Fantastic Adventures of Unico & Unico in the Island of Magic..
comments: Legend, The Princess Bride, Dark Crystal, Care Bears movies, What Dreams May Come, Neverending Story, Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, Peter Pan, Rainbow Brite & The Star Stealer, Black Cauldron, Edward Scissorhands, Space Ghost Coast to Coast & Brak
Harold & Maude, Clockwork Orange, Dark City, Requiem for a Dream..
comments: Pump Up the Volume, Heathers, Hackers, American Psycho, Se7en, 12 Monkeys, Interview with the Vampire, Lost Highway, The Crow, Memento, Dream With the Fishes, City of Lost Children, Delicatessen, Perfect Blue, Dancer In The Dark, Cube, Monty Python stuff.

My favorite authors:

Neil Gaiman
comments: I have a sick obsession with the Sandman! I'm a cross between them all.
Sam Kieth
comments: The Maxx!!! How can I not relate to Julie, the Leopard Queen & Sarah. Creating an alternate reality, where you cannot be hurt. Running from and hiding from the pain which can kill us...
Lewis Carrol
comments: Alice's Adventures In Wonderland & Through the Looking Glass!!
Jhonen Vasquez
comments: JTHM!!!! I'm X's Nail Bunny! Not to mention he's the creator of INVADER ZIM!!!
Alan Moore - Swamp Thing, Roman Dirge - Lenore...
comments: J. M. Barrie - Peter Pan, Roald Dahl - Charlie & the Chocolate Factory & Tales of the Unexpected(short stories), L. Frank Baum - Oz stories, Anne Rice, Martin Amis - Time's Arrow...

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last updated: 2003-09-25 06:01:30
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