messages to secret-motel:
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from se7enchance :
"Meditations" is one of the most timeless, enduring and insightful treastises on the human condition. I have to imagine you liking it very much. You're still one of the best authors on DL, by a wide margin. Inspiring, and a privilege to read. Congratulations on your tiny drinking paradigm shift. Sobriety has it's own lens, yeah?
from dramathighs :
i so admire your abstinence. and i'm impressed. you can always go for a sober october and leave those like me even more envious. really though, congratulations. and cheers.
from jimbostaxi :
Yep, I know that feeling that’s why I’m having miserable fuck carved on my headstone. No name no dates just miserable fuck :0)
from jimbostaxi :
I betcha that brandy tasted like the best bandy you ever had in your life or close to it right?
from jimbostaxi :
Congrats on day 19 keep up the good work spend that extra money on and excellent vinyl record :0)
from jimbostaxi :
Awesome note you got me I "unquit" I herby rejoin the ranks of Dland :0) now I just have to motivate myself
from raven72d :
How is September going?
from orangepeeler :
2017-09-08 - re no 1 - well done!
from sky-rocket :
thanks, I'm in portland.
from sky-rocket :
me too, thank you! where are you located, anyway?
from sky-rocket :
hello
from orangepeeler :
The solitude in your scribblings is resonating with me right now.
from orangepeeler :
The solitude in your scribblings is resonating with me right now.
from moonbaby8u :
youre not ignored ....but im drunk and high ...so of course I notice.....i feel ya.
from jimbostaxi :
thanks for the note! :0) these fuckers think it's the Wild West over here if I was just off the street and got hired to work I'd think they were all crazy no sane people would act like that. Luckily I have like 15 years taxi experience and Nithing fazes, One moment your driving the bus next minute someone could be over dosing on junk keep your cool dial 911 and let the pros do their job. Yep, some days I think what would life be like working out of a cubicle ,,, I'd probably feel like I was in jail,,
from dramathighs :
hope seems absolutely tangible almost all the time. not that its accessible, but tangible. lest one is sitting at bus stop. and then it is fleeting and totally dark and ugly and unreachable.
from dramathighs :
i love that you have deemed it a portal. malkovich, malkovich?
from atwowaydream :
I've emailed you.
from atwowaydream :
I've missed you, so. Harold. I miss our two am conversations about cosmonauts and bartenders in space. We both believe in records and the artistry of delivery and sound. I think my number is the same since we've last spoken, but I'll send it to you again, just in case.
from atwowaydream :
I've missed you, so. Harold. I miss our two am conversations about cosmonauts and bartenders in space. We both believe in records and the artistry of delivery and sound. I think my number is the same since we've last spoken, but I'll send it to you again, just in case.
from shoelacepunk :
i enjoyed reading this. thank you.
from dramathighs :
also i can't figure out how to add anybody again. its like trying to rewind an mp3.
from dramathighs :
i am so sorry you did that. it sounds like two hours of your life lost. that you could have been writing or thinking or otherwise engaged in this crazy little thing called life. you have the best tools to forge ahead. i can't remember what brandy taste like btw. maybe i should try brandy again soon while i have a hand to play.
from dramathighs :
hey wow, i absolutely like the words you make. and of the say, 4 people who still diaryland, at least 2 like mark strand.
from atwowaydream :
I'm at the same email; we can exchange everything else via that strange portal, no? By the way: I have missed you and every single goddamn day wish you a happiness that's tantamount to hardcore vinyl.
from atwowaydream :
We should talk soon, my eccentric space cadet.
from bridgecity :
I was just about to go pick up "Death Song". I'm excited about the glow-in-the-dark vinyl.
from jimbostaxi :
Always love reading your stuff, dropped in to say hi
from witty-remark :
How about I move in across from the secret motel? <3
from whystinger :
Good to see you post.
from dontremember :
Oh good, oh good... you are still here
from u-saved-me :
hello darling <3
from misfitstray :
Thank you!
from jimbostaxi :
Your too kind Harold her only job is to get better and I'll handle everything else, I only wish I could do more so she wouldn't have to feel any pain or hardship. When she used to be sick a lot I used to ask God if he had to take someone let it be me ,, nothing has changed I would gladly go in her place so she wouldn't have to suffer.
from jimbostaxi :
I spend all my off hours at the hospital and she is improving , but they just called me and said she might be there to at least Monday or Tuesday it all depends how fast she improves and a test that they want to do. Thank you very much for the note! :0)
from witty-remark :
You're drinking, but I'm the one seeing double ;).
from witty-remark :
I was waiting for your note. I somehow knew you'd leave one. Likewise. Please haunt this place forever with me.
from whystinger :
She has known for a while that you loved her. Try to embrace joy for her, grieve for your lost love and move on, which is so fucking easy to say and write but so fucking hard to do. I do feel for you as I have been there. Some of that is why I stayed in a fucked up marriage for so long, tolerating abuse and shit because I loved her. The pain of live shapes us and helps us feel what others are going through.
from jimbostaxi :
Locked up for the moment I'll send you a password if you want or I can give it to Selena to give to you
from jimbostaxi :
What did she say when you told her that ?
from atwowaydream :
I'll email you soon and find out about this technological gadget that is now in your possession! You are one of my favorite people in the world -- and now, ::gasp:: I can text you ridiculous memes and random quasi-philosophical sober or drunken ramblings.
from jimbostaxi :
Harold man, how young doing dude? Thank you very much for dropping by ! Dude don't be a stranger jimsean2006@yahoo.com if you do email Hope your doing ok :0)
from atwowaydream :
Thank you for your last note. I really, really needed it and I'm so glad that we're friends. I could write some poetic shit but just know that even if I'm not writing it, somewhere in my dark soul I'm thinking it.
from atwowaydream :
If anyone ever asks whom I'm talking to again, I'm going to be like, "IT's HAROLD, MOTHERFUCKER" Also, I wish all is well for you.
from atwowaydream :
<3 I hope Secret Motel is still full of books, scientific theories, vinyl records,and a happy Harold. Or at least some good liquor and some soul-satiating music on balconies with beautiful, complicated souls.
from atwowaydream :
The video excerpt gave me a good chuckle and a righteous Fuckin' A. It's been a while since we've caught up -- I hope all is well. Let me know when you have some free time.
from jimbostaxi :
I have to confess your note made me smile thank you very much! I never thought any part of my life would be inspiring I'm just fighting for survival on this big blue marble. Every day I would wake up and say I hate this shit there's got to be something better and in the last few months the stress was begining to affect my health. So one day I drove by a help wanted sign and I said fuck it pulled in and filled out and application, I figured I needed to at least try and improve my situation because if I don't help me then no one else will. You and others here were my rock after a hard day with no sleep i would come here and read everyone's kind words and that would give me strength to carry on. You can do it Harold!! I know you can I'll be here to root for ya! You just got to take that first step :0)
from jimbostaxi :
I'm rotten to the core I just put on a good facade :0)
from whystinger :
I pretty much knew which one it WOULD not be, LOL #NotACannibal
from jimbostaxi :
I've made many different versions of this note but I think the main point I wanted to get across is this we're here for you buddy! We're not one physical human being we are many and we will help you fight the emptiness.
from whystinger :
I had to read that twice, guess I am getting tired. First reading I could have sworn that you wrote "I want to eat her..." and I re-read it and realized it really said: "I want her to eat and relax..."
from jimbostaxi :
Thanks, :0) hey if you ever in a email mood here's mine jimsean2006@yahoo.com us good guys got to band together :0)
from jimbostaxi :
Your a great friend I hope she knows how special you really are. :0)
from whystinger :
Dizzy was also one of my early trumpet heroes, as I took trumpet lessons in grade and middle schools. I loved hearing the trumpets, coronets and flugelhorns. Almost any brass in fact. Herb Alpert and Dizzy Gillespie, while they had different music, both were great to me. Jazz and Blues is still a favorite of mine.
from longitude :
I'm very happy to read your latest posts. I think it's time to change the layout to something brighter H.
from jimbostaxi :
Was watching a documentary on Muscle Shoals and all the great artist who came through there and thought wow S.M probably has all there albums :0)
from whystinger :
Dizzy Gillespie, one of the first albums I had on vinyl back in the day.
from atwowaydream :
Bwahaha! Yes, one must commit to Sparkle Motion or one won't be taken seriously.
from atwowaydream :
Harold, you know you will always have a skeleton key, no matter what. Just email me and I'll give you the password. Your trip should be coming up soon, no? YAAAAY.
from jimbostaxi :
Thank you very much for the note Harold! Wishing the best for you on the IL situation :0)
from whystinger :
IL sounds pretty good. You are not in love with her quite yet, but you are smitten. Actually, you may be as you seem to be happy for her betterment. You may want to try to not be quite as available. On the other hand, you may be getting what you are going to get. Other thing is she may want more, but also really needs to get to Ohio and is really focusing on that. Tough call my friend.
from atwowaydream :
You were so unbelievably giddy last night and I am so elated to call you a friend.
from raven72d :
16 March 16--- good entries.
from dontremember :
missed this
from bethshort :
I have such fond and conflicted memories of the Pacific....still charmed by your writing.
from atwowaydream :
As soon as I saw Canon City, I knew I wanted to throw my soul over its coat-rack. I'm enjoying the series - I think I'm on episode four and I'm really trying to stretch it out just so I don't fall into some deep depression when I frolic through it. Yes, I'll definitely be checking out the books.
from atwowaydream :
Aw, thank you. If I could glide over to San Francisco and give you a hug, I most definitely would.
from jimbostaxi :
When it rains really hard I leave the safety of my office to just stand in the rain the people I work with stare at me in disbelief they will never understand :0)
from atwowaydream :
Aw, it wasn't my birthday, silly. I have little bitch ass family members who complain about stupid shit like whose birthday is next? Who really gives a shit? Harold, you have been probably the only friend I've had in a very, very long time. Thank you so damn much, you little space cadet.
from whystinger :
D.O.A. This entry made me think of Bloodrock's song, DOA. A lot of misinformation on that one... The one you posted was something!
from whystinger :
Funny, but I totally understand the 11/20 entry :-D
from atwowaydream :
We both know that once in a while I'm allowed a skeleton key. I would always, always give it back.
from atwowaydream :
Someone in Diaryland is getting a message from me that it is going to seem quite misplaced and totally irrelevant (I posted it other someone else's profile notes). The message was supposed to go to you: You are a true friend to me and I can't tell you how much it's appreciated. You are always here for me but it's not like you need to be. You just are.
from atwowaydream :
I'm picking up what you're putting down. That isolation and despair that kids go through -- we find ways. I'm glad you found your way out of that hellish little tunnel.
from atwowaydream :
I thanked you for that video in one of my drunken posts with an equally drunken and irrelevant song. But I deleted it. I feel like a child, "I had a cupcake to share but then I ated it." Thank you. As for your imaginary twin, I'm a little busy seething with jealousy to adequately comment.
from misfitstray :
Thank you! I do feel a lot better and I am really glad that this kind of pain is history. I hope that you are well.
from atwowaydream :
I don't think I realized how much a diaryland note could mean until I read your last one. I remember microscopic stories of Bjork, but I don't think you sat down and told me the whole wide world of it all. Harold, you owe me a story.
from atwowaydream :
This is a rather irrelevant DL note, but Amazon Prime does have Boardwalk Empire for free - although some of their other streaming features are lacking, there is that. I seriously thought about how wrong I was for a couple of days now and had to rectify it. Hugs to you, Harold.
from misfitstray :
I don't know that movie. I might give it a try. Maybe ;)
from misfitstray :
Asian women and men are quite beautiful. Love you for loving them
from mallorysana :
Your diary is quite beautiful.
from misfitstray :
Just wanted to say that I have a vinyl in light grey too. It's from Depeche Mode if I remember right? Or maybe OMD? I don't know exactly. You want it? I'd send it over? ♥
from misfitstray :
Thank you! But there's no end of sleeping in my car as I still do it when I'm in Munich for work. I really hope that you'll find a new and lovely place for yourself soon. Please don't stop searching.
from longitude :
puahaha.. omg you're terrible. that'd be a horrible picture!
from atwowaydream :
oh, how i've missed you, dearest Harold. I may not have had the best year, but you were a bright and burning celestial nebulae in my lost haze of the universe. one night when you're least expecting it, "Hi. It's me, Selena. Hi."
from longitude :
re: dreams.. yes. the sighs that linger. i suppose the hope of making a dream come true is also hard to shake off too..
from longitude :
phew!! i was afraid this place was crumbling
from jimbostaxi :
Hey, dland is up and working thanks for the test note :0) I've feel way behind in everyone's diary have a great day :0)
from atwowaydream :
would you email me your intergalactic bachelor pad address again, dear friend? miss you and our after hours stream of consciousness star nebulae ramblings.
from the-grey-one :
! great story !
from misfitstray :
♥ Awesome!
from mallorysana :
I adore your writings (A+!)
from longitude :
Uhehehe I'm a big ole nerd that's going to look like a llama in a tutu. But thank you!
from whystinger :
The dead probably visit for a reason, to watch over you, not that you are a disappointment.
from longitude :
Hahaha! Whisky goes in the belly! Not on the ear. I actually twisted my arm in a way that I created a nest for my ear and was able to sleep on my right side. Amazing what the body will do for sleep.
from atwowaydream :
Let's have us a bowl of non-mixed cereal and turn up the non-youtube volume!
from atwowaydream :
Thank you, my dear. I really needed to hear that.
from misfitstray :
Hope you'll find a nice apartment for yourself soon. It really is hard to find something suitable for a reasonable price in the greater areas of popular cities. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you! :*)
from jimbostaxi :
Ty for the note and the idea! I need one of those voice activated recorders this way I wouldnt have to fumble atound while im driving. Those two drunk guys talked about their vaginas for 15 minutes im sure I could have spliced up the funniest parts for the internet :0)
from longitude :
TRANSMISSIONS FROM OTHER WORLDS. That makes perfect sense. I wish this world was better suited for some of us. But, to know, there are people out there that can create sounds for us that make us feel like we aren't where we are... that's pretty magical yeah?
from longitude :
I dunno how I felt about that track. A little too sparse? Maybe I wasn't in the right mood for something like that.. I've been listening to Glass Animals lately. There's this one song.. Gooey.. it gets me. Watch here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QbuBIPYKSu0. I've never been so attracted to a bunch of skinny white boys before. I love their ridiculous lyrics.
from atwowaydream :
Glad to be your after-hours headphones. Always.
from longitude :
Mazzy Star & Chad Van Gaalen = top picks H. I'm interested in the Pop Yeh stuff... I'll have to check it out. I've been on a huge JPop kick the last few months - thanks to my friend's encouragement to watch anime. Hehe
from atwowaydream :
I guess I didn't like it because the quiz described me as "shiny and new" or some shit, and I don't like to think of myself that way, and on top of that, when I think of hardcovers, I associate them with political thrillers, and then that carries over to my mom. I wanted to be the old, battered go-to book, and when I saw in the comments that some people ended up getting that book on the quiz, it royally pissed me the fuck off. I felt an inane jealousy that made me want to go to their houses individually and let my dog take a shit in the middle of their beds. Then again, I'm not mature, and this was my reaction to a Buzzfeed quiz, which quickly drop kicked me off of my high horse. But old hardcovers, the ones that are worn, the ones that are like you. . . that's just different.
from longitude :
Bunch of Japanese pop, Little Dragon and Port St. Willow.
from longitude :
Your note let me breathe a sigh of relief. Thank you H.
from permeation :
Interesting dream. (Hi stranger.)
from atwowaydream :
miss you, my fellow interstellar wayfarer.
from longitude :
Heh heh heh... sankyu friend for always sending your positive vibes my way.
from longitude :
Following me means you eat what I eat and I eat weird stuff H. :) I am ready for more adventures!!
from longitude :
that would make me unbelievably happy.. bunny island princess. :)
from misfitstray :
Why oh why did you pw-protect your diary? Could I PLEASE get the pw? You still got my email adress? if not it is rkriebel AT gmx DOT de x
from longitude :
This cold is crazy. Lost voice. Fevers. Chills. So not fun. Tea and honey and oranges are my staples. Thank you for the well wishes Harold!
from atwowaydream :
I must always remember just how anti-facebook you are, even though I already know. Already knew. Anyway, your voice has really gotten me though a lot of shit this year, not just because things were shit. You're a beaming little fucking ray of sunshine in the center of a black hole, which is nothingness, so let me try another analogy. You mean a lot to me. Thank you so much for being here.
from atwowaydream :
I want to facebook like some of the comments below this, but this IS NOT facebook and you'd probably kill me if I ever convinced you to join. Anyhow. I love talking to you; you're one of the few connections that I really have faith in keeping for this year. And more. Dude, I love you, bro.
from lifeortheatr :
i'm definitely going to give it a try, thanks.
from longitude :
Happy new year Harold! Hope this year is filled with mire good music and a fog that brings better feelings to your heart.
from lifeortheatr :
also, now i will definitely have to read "infinite jest", which people have told me i should but i'm embarrassed to admit the size of it kind of intimidates me. i've read some of his short stories though and loved them ...
from lifeortheatr :
wow, best comment ever, thanks :) but you're wrong because i wish i could write like you, compact and elegant and able to express thoughts in less than 5,000 words ...
from u-saved-me :
happy fustercluck darling hrld, good to see you survived another of its passing. <3
from lifeortheatr :
what se7enchance said. "reptile" is perfect, thank you.
from se7enchance :
You don't know me, but every time I see you post a new entry, I am ravenous to read it. Your words feel like they are arranged in the structure of an ancient puzzle; something that everyone interprets differently. And I find your writing inspirational. Thank you.
from atwowaydream :
East side in da houze, boyyyz. ::throws up little blank box finger signs that look more heart shaped than anything else::
from atwowaydream :
Yes, it was much needed. I high suggest you pack up your secret motel every few months and unpack it at a random hotel with some wine and some good room service.
from atwowaydream :
how did you know that i needed to hear JUST THAT? You are a mystical creature, indeed.
from atwowaydream :
i will certainly call soon. I hope you are thankful for having such a fucking beam of unpredictable (yet amazing) sunshine in your life. Seriously, though. We will definitely have some serious holiday chat sessions.
from longitude :
:) hope things get better at work soon... for both of us.
from longitude :
New job? Or new takeover? You'd be an awesome listening to records buddy.
from atwowaydream :
Hell, at this moment, I'd settle for a decent lobotomy. At least performed by someone with some ambition and shit.
from longitude :
I wish the same... (thank you harold)
from longitude :
Per recommendations: Wool series, Cuckoo's Calling, and a couple of Faulkners.
from atwowaydream :
When not in use, I will leave it in the womb of a sacrificed child. There it will sleep well, and I will be happy.
from longitude :
Thanks H! Celebration is definitely in order!
from longitude :
I love Mimi. Low is the only band that has soundtracked so many years of my life. They are truly so special to me.
from longitude :
I am very happy you saw them. And that they played one of my favorites. <3
from atwowaydream :
send me your number via mail? I'd like to talk with you tonight if that's okay.
from longitude :
thank you thank you thank you harold. all the support and love keeps me going.
from bridgecity :
Beautiful vacation notes. I've been thinking about them much since they were posted. Listing it all out that way is like watching Faces of Death. I commend you on your writing.
from atwowaydream :
you really went out there-- you really did it and made your own little snapshots. Big snapshots. if you go again, perhaps there will be more.
from longitude :
Notes from Utah - heavy. I'm glad you shared your trip. And I completely know what you mean about not understanding anyone or anything.
from atwowaydream :
it makes me happy that sometimes our own little vocal telegrams penetrate the fog.
from mainsqueeze :
Delivery did not go so well but fortunately we are both here and healthy. I will tell you all about it someday. Hope you are well. When the babies are no longer babies I will have time for late night calls again. Hearts.
from atwowaydream :
I had a dream that you were around me, and you were blowing wisps of fog out of a tiny bubble wand. It was lovely. No need to respond or anything. Just thinking of you.
from weetabix :
shhhhhh
from animejournal :
Dude, missed reading your journal! Now I'm addicted again. Been watching Network for the hundreth time, and going to watch eXistenz!
from longitude :
:) thank you for birthday message!
from longitude :
Thank you so much H. :)
from longitude :
I am sorry. I know she will move past whatever it is that is bothering her. I hope you can both be okay soon.
from longitude :
Did you end up going?
from dontremember :
And you! Beastly Beauty burning such borrowed words so sweet and dark/ all illiciting responses/ like like/ that/ and some kind of deep and deeper/ letters feel like hands and fingers
from atwowaydream :
Thank you, darling. That really meant a lot to me, and it has most certainly been quite a ride. I won't knock medication, either, because some people truly need it. But I just don't know if it's a necessity for me any longer.
from atwowaydream :
aw, i get like that sometimes when people tell me about sudden "new wonderful changes" that will soon be occurring. i can understand the hesitation. maybe she just got a little nervous, too.
from atwowaydream :
pj harvey has a place in my heart for troubled little dark times. love that she's in your ipod. listening to "the devil" right now.
from longitude :
I'm just sorry you missed such a good show H. Hope you're in better spirits my friend.
from misfitstray :
<3
from longitude :
Thalia didn't become a fave of mine but she wasn't bad. Low was incredible. The visuals, the sound.... so beautiful. I hope you're going!!
from longitude :
I am. It's been so long since I last saw them. You should go Harold! And thank you for your recommendations. I've made a list and will start purchasing the books tomorrow.
from dontremember :
Agreed on easter and just you. Oh, you.
from longitude :
Faulkner was one of my favorites in high school. I should dl a book to read on my flights... Suggestions?
from atwowaydream :
It is eerie, and strangely beautiful. Just the atmosphere of something with that much damage, that much tragedy, there always seems to be this all-encompassing mist that follows places and sadness. I have missed you, will be writing you soon.
from longitude :
Imagine? They'd ban me from the internets. (u_u) hehehehe
from longitude :
I hope you do go and visit R. And I've accidentally hit the Back button before and lost entries too. x_x
from longitude :
Sellin' jurry and will provide link!!
from longitude :
No no. No negative things about Low!! We still <3 them dearly
from longitude :
What a great break from the routine. I'd love if any band came to play in our building. Well... not ANY band but still! Fun. And thank you for being there.
from bridgecity :
That's surreal about Black Angels playing in your building. For several years I've been thinking they might try to have a "radio hit". Christian Blands' two albums are great also.
from atwowaydream :
I'm glad you went too. :::hugs::: I've missed you on here.
from longitude :
The moon says hello and I hope you are well. Cheers northerly friend.
from jimbostaxi :
Just dropped by to say hi, hope all is well with you.
from longitude :
Thanks Harold. Me too.
from atwowaydream :
Yes, but there must be more dedicated (and possibly talented) devotees to the vagina. Who are girls. Who can write. Lesbian erotica writers are few and far between. . . I'm not talking about Hustler shit, just one woman fucking the shit out of another woman and writing about every explicit and delicious detail. WHY is this so hard to find?
from longitude :
I'm very glad you have R.
from atwowaydream :
we would have gotten along quite swimmingly as school playground kids.
from longitude :
I was thismuchcloser to touching the moon. I love flying.
from longitude :
Save a glass for me!
from u-saved-me :
happy fustercluck, I'm a little late this year. Glad to see you survived another round of it, though. good start to the new year.
from atwowaydream :
email me your address so i can molest you with unnecessarily retarded Christmas presents. Or a present. Plural seemed to imply I could afford more than one. . . I can't.
from jimbostaxi :
Ty for the note:0) its good to be back. Hope santa dropped by the motel and left you something nice.!
from longitude :
I'm a walking bundle. :)
from longitude :
Your note was needed and taken to heart. Thank you H
from longitude :
It hurts. I'm still so upset.
from longitude :
Go to the light. I think you'll enjoy yourself more than you anticipate. And seriously, drink All The Beers!!! Merry Christmas Harold.
from atwowaydream :
I see no problem with having a beer or six when mom's and holidays are involved. If you feel comfortable enough, you should send me your address so I can send you a late (but eager) Christmas gift.
from longitude :
The lighthouse. I need to make my way to one. See if it offers any answers.
from longitude :
I think I'll read that.
from longitude :
Thank you for honesty. And making me wish to see the northern parts of this state soon.
from longitude :
Satellite dish array. The imagery reminds me of stuff I make up in my head.
from longitude :
Plain suits me. Fancy makes me crunchy. Thanks for being kind.
from longitude :
I wish I was high enough to see the fog come in everyday. I like that most.
from longitude :
Peach colored storm. Here we are having grey grey grey. Perfection.
from peggypenny :
Hi. I randomly clicked and read some of your diary. I liked it. I would like to tell you that if you are a writer and interested, there is this interactive whodunit247 web site that you can play. You write the story, you send in an entry and it is added to the story. I know it sounds crazy, but seemed like something you would like. Bye. Peggy
from atwowaydream :
d'aaaw. thank you, Harold. that made me smile.
from atwowaydream :
"I want to roll my thoughts as flat as oil stains." - this is lovely.
from weetabix :
You are here. I am there. Hello.
from asmo-deus :
Isolation takes the nip out of the air. Getting cold where you are now?
from permeation :
I was just thinking about you, is all. I've been really bad at keeping in touch, I know. I owe you a phone call. Long, long overdue.
from kll :
Rejection is merely the embrace of misunderstood success. Popular opinion is surely not something worth admiring or aspiring to champion. Most people are fucking idiots. Keep writing, this idiot enjoyed at least one of your poems.
from witty-remark :
It's always a pleasure to return to you and your beautiful words.
from longitude :
Cape Disappointment sounds like an excellent locale.
from asmo-deus :
If you leave, I fear I may have to find you and eat you.
from longitude :
Hello Harold.
from misfitstray :
PLEASE DON'T LEAVE!
from asmo-deus :
Mishima's work is incredible. And seppuku is excellent dinner conversation! I could go on about it for a while. Telling the story of the Fourty Seven Ronin is a favorite of mine. I haven't seen Harold and Maude, though I believe I will now. Thank you for the unintentional recommendation, you've filled the rest of my day with something to obsess over.
from asmo-deus :
you are a pleasure.
from atwowaydream :
I wish he would appreciate me. But alas, without rotted flesh, it's hard to make him happy. Much like a crocodile.
from darthuae :
you have the ability to turn off all the lights in my head, pull all the tattered curtains down, despite the awful sun coming through from the real world, and leave me sitting here in a chill, crying for a soul. i wish you were a book on my shelf or a poem under my bed. there's so much in you that defies my numbness.
from atwowaydream :
well, of all the days.
from misfitstray :
I would hug you too - daily if you wish. So far away *sigh*
from lostasyou :
Thanks! I'll have a look in a bit when I stop being so lazy and use my computer properly haha
from mainsqueeze :
I don't come on here much anymore. Just read your entries for the past couple months. Actually, fuck this note. I'm going to email you.
from lostasyou :
Hahaha nice! BJM are good also :) thanks for the recommendation, I'll get round to listening to them soon!
from lostasyou :
Do you like the Black Lips? I got told I need to listen to them on Saturday night and WOOOOOW, I can't believe I've overlooked them for so long! So good, ahhhhh.
from atwowaydream :
::so many hugs you can't even stand it::
from u-saved-me :
heya, I might actually be around, present-tense. trippy. be well, darling.
from atwowaydream :
Aw, Harold! These little twats needed a dancing coach from Dance Moms or some shit. They thought that they were IT. Who watches the guy who is possibly watching you from a window? These girls need um, Dazed and Confused hazing, possibly.
from lostasyou :
I am downstairs using my phone but OOOOH songs for me :D I am honoured haha I like what I hear but I'll have to listen properly later. I like, yeeeeah!
from lostasyou :
I am downstairs using my phone but OOOOH songs for me :D I am honoured haha I like what I hear but I'll have to listen properly later. I like, yeeeeah!
from lostasyou :
What about the King Khan & BBQ Show? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uMx9SW0Xu1I do you like this? Soo catchy
from lostasyou :
Do it! Go ahead :)
from atwowaydream :
No worries, diaryland chat is all a big giant asshole farse. one day we will both use the same IM chat thingie at the same time.
from atwowaydream :
wish you could add me double in Diaryland chat, you brat.
from lostasyou :
No way! I only just listened to that album the other week as well! Haha that's amazing :) we must have good taste! Or I've just been finding some real gems lately :)
from lostasyou :
Aw no! That isn't so good. I also recently got into Ty Segall, if you know him? I think they're supposed to be quite similar, I'm not actually sure haha. But I recommend the song Imaginary Person and the album Melted :) was quite cool. Probably not to everyone's taste though, hmm. And haha really? CD's? I don't even own a CD player anymore :( but thanks! I don't understand why you'd ADORE me hahaha! :)
from bridgecity :
I also got "Watch Out Boy/I'd Rather Be Alone". Except at Waterloo, which was not nearly as crowded.
from lostasyou :
Ooooooh vinyl :) also I discovered Thee Oh Sees about a week ago haha I like what I heard!
from atwowaydream :
thank you for making me feel slightly less perturbed about my books and their missing slots on my bookshelves. they are like children, but ones I want to keep forever. AND, I lent her like, ten of my favorite books. When I saw her, the first thing I said was, "I was about to send a damn witch hunt out on your ass, but you're here now". Oh, books.
from darthuae :
you're excessive, dark, a condensed sufferer in modernland, a beauty of a creature with a mind of worlds. i've missed your words.
from atwowaydream :
Ooh, that sounds perfect if we add the Hormones and fat food and spit.
from permeation :
Always call your friend in London. She'll always answer.
from atwowaydream :
rabbits and sharks. As soon as I find the planet, you will be the first to know.
from atwowaydream :
does this mean you're feeling better?
from longitude :
Harold.. I hope you're okay. I can't imagine having to go through that even though it's inevitable to have to experience that level of pain. Sending good thoughts northerly.
from atwowaydream :
hugs from someone out there in the great blue distance.
from darthuae :
i'm sorry babe.
from atwowaydream :
You have an amazing voice in your angel, R. You will mourn your dad in your own way. . . and your friends will help you through it.
from lostasyou :
I'm sorry :(
from longitude :
I'm sorry Harold. I hope you are okay.
from sky-rocket :
love that.
from atwowaydream :
Mondays. You are strong and brave and I wish I could hug you until neither of us initiates conversation. I'm glad you're home and away from big, empty rooms. You're in my thoughts.
from dontremember :
You have my sincerest thoughts and worry. I hope this year doesn't kick your teeth as much as it means to
from sky-rocket :
thanks for writing. your diary's one that, back when i was on drugs, i thought was written secretly by someone i knew and had encounters with on a daily basis. glad my mind's not there anymore.
from misfitstray :
Thank you! x
from lostasyou :
Hi secret-motel :) I just saw you in the online users list and I remembered I had you on my old account - "omfggwtf" - months ago. I moved aha so I'm going to add you again. I forgot you had such a good taste in music :)
from atwowaydream :
So how did that chocolate puke turn out for you?
from atwowaydream :
Good Sir, your choice in fresh-water fish fucks is quite the marvelous selection! But you've always had such sophisticated taste.
from loladesilva :
The Suburbs have always been one of the few places that frighten me at four in the morning.
from atwowaydream :
get aim so i can annoy you with nineties viruses.
from emperorincxt :
greetings from the long past, hrld. I hope the Fustercluck season has not crushed your darling spirit, and I'm just passing by to let you know I'm sending you happy thoughts, enough for you to fly on. Hope you are well. xo.
from atwowaydream :
I will be writing you a proper email soon. In the meantime, I offer you my drunken spurts.
from longitude :
I like reading about you with other people.
from misfitstray :
you coughed blood? Man, you should see a doctor! I'm worried about you! You really should take better care of you.
from atwowaydream :
"She ginned her way through the days and into the nights, falling asleep the way a sky diver plummets to earth when his chute fails to open." - this is like some sort of rare and beautiful dessert.
from witty-remark :
"Kill the diary in its sleep." Don't you dare. <3
from atwowaydream :
wow, you have some nasty friends, Hrld. Or two or three. um. . . or five.
from dontremember :
Thank you for your wellwishing and embraces. Much appreciated on all levels
from longitude :
she gives you a thank you slobberin' :)
from atwowaydream :
thank you so much, but this job can suck i.
from atwowaydream :
no topsiness here! Cheers to mad hatters.
from atwowaydream :
I bet you have a certain sort of piano hands, though.
from mainsqueeze :
Oooooh, I get top billing on the favorites list! How are you? When the boy sleeps longer than 20 minutes at a time I will call you. Maybe I will even get a babysitter and we can have a tipsy phone date.
from atwowaydream :
i wrote you this email that somehow never was sent. I get mad at the internet. I get mad at the world. But yes, a face cannot hold still, and that's okay. Tends to be the best faces.
from darthuae :
(secret penis death ray) no words. just a strong desire to be afraid. but impossible.
from atwowaydream :
You, the last man, and me, the last woman. Books are my sanctuary. Kindle can die a fiery death.
from starzero :
i agree about the magic of books. since moving this summer i've made time to read and i've been happier for it. i've been absorbing raymond chandler for the past week.
from redsilk :
I found your diary through a random search and I'm really pleased that I did! Wonderful writing! I'll be back for more. xx
from misfitstray :
I so love to read about your real world. xo
from longitude :
Glad the motel still stands. Fist fight!? Dang dude. And look at you, mister compliment. I hope things are well.
from darthuae :
"I think it is wise that I minimize my contact with Earthlings." i think it is unwise to say that many an imaginary reader is in love with you.
from atwowaydream :
i wish i had a secret-passage doorway to help you get out. i know the feeling and it's crushing. just know that you are cared about here. very much so.
from witty-remark :
Long interludes always seem better when I return to a note from you, you, YOU! <3
from atwowaydream :
i will be writing back soon. death becomes us all, no? as long as i get to be meryl, i'm perfectly okay with the world.
from longitude :
(thank you) i'm sitting by the sea.. when i'm alone here, i don't feel so afraid of it being like this always. it's actually comforting.
from atwowaydream :
"Sit close together and listen to the moon's emergency broadcast." -beautiful.
from longitude :
You're absolutely right. I think I've been searching for what wants yo remain hidden. (admitting defeat)
from longitude :
The fog keeps all of my confessions. Anyone I've ever loved gets lost in it and doesn't return. I have to stop wanting something I cannot find.
from longitude :
Too much family time stresses me out. How old is your niece? Hope they enjoy the city.
from jimbostaxi :
nice job getting her digits! now give her a buzz :o)
from longitude :
virtual high five - for getting that girl's number. if she hasn't called you, i hope you call her. made me happy for you to read that. :)
from permeation :
This is just to say I was thinking about you. x
from atwowaydream :
you're right about "the right cartoons" - there must be people who exist who know of all the right cartoons to watch on saturday mornings. with a bowl of fruit loops.
from jimbostaxi :
Added you to my list couldn't stop reading your entries :o)
from atwowaydream :
I had to think about it a minute, but yes, I suppose Leo can die. Loved Heavenly Creatures, such a wickled little film. Watching reruns of Firefly and wishing friends like you weren't so damn far away.
from longitude :
I've talked to them about it and no one would be willing to let me give her up so looks like I can travel without a guilty conscience.
from bethshort :
love the title of the latest.
from akasha90 :
lovely entry. but i'm too broke to have a glass of anything so it's cheap beer for me.
from atwowaydream :
one day we must drink wine or brandy and watch pretentious movies and watch the feathers descend.
from atwowaydream :
Facebook me, as junior high as that sounds. I understand everyone needs a break, but I want to annoy you with comments and Likes. You must come back. Take your time, but always come back.
from atwowaydream :
In real life, you and I would really kick it, I think. Your writing is lovely, don't ever stop.
from loladesilva :
The line about the aging parents voice breaking over the phone, brilliant, on an somewhat unrelated note, you have an excellent taste in music.
from longitude :
Best remedies: sleep, sleep and more sleep. But of course, I'm not getting enough. Maybe a trip to the moon would help.
from atwowaydream :
Ooh. ::stands in line:::
from longitude :
The first time I saw that skit, I was like, dude, that's totally me talking about the nail salons! My impersonations are spot on. And yes, I thought of that video when I made my entry too. Heh
from atwowaydream :
Sadly, her mother promised her first-born grandchild to the devil to remove all evidence from the internet. So. . .no.
from fridayfilms :
I worry when I read your posts (because I wonder if you're partially serious) but I love them for being so spot-on. Don't ever stop.
from omfggwtf :
ooh, thanks. i shall have to have a look on google aha.
from omfggwtf :
haha thank you :) and yeah the job is going well, i quite like it! it's not really an office though.. just a massive room with computers scattered about aha.
from weetabix :
Whenever I drive past the secret motel, I wave. Except that I've forgotten exactly where it is, so I wave whenever the mood strikes, usually cresting over the tops of hills or peeking down dark alleys. You never wave back.
from atwowaydream :
DL is acting shady lately; I am perturbed. I put your book recommendation in my Amazon cart days ago, and it sounds crazy and unconventional and definitely seemingly endless! Thank you.
from misfitstray :
PLEASE, don't leave!
from atwowaydream :
:::nuzzles::: you're a puppeteer of words, light, and shadow or some shit. I will most certainly add that book to the list of what I Will Read Soon.
from permeation :
Great great great video/song.
from longitude :
hooray for wireless connectivity
from mainsqueeze :
I hope so. It is so scary to think about, and it is coming up so fast. Did you know that dark beers, specifically Guinness, aid with breast milk production? I think, for the baby's sake, once he is born we will have a phone booze date. For the baby. HA!
from witty-remark :
Hello again, Harold. I hope the new days shake the old daze out, and I hope that you are well.
from permeation :
I love the 'second entry'.
from atwowaydream :
"in the dust of second-hand paperbacks and LP's." -- I love this. Beautiful.
from omfggwtf :
thanks haha. i think someone was a little too drunk and silly last night.. oops!
from candoor :
an eerie write you present, and as always i wonder as i read a diary or journal or blog or anything, really, how much is fiction and how much is fact, for every work of fiction has at least the thread of fact or experience running through it and every fact in real life starts out as fantasy, rarely leaving fantasy completely behind... such is the nature of perception and reality, especially in a word of words... i often long to connect with the physical people behind the words, to encourage enjoyment of the process and creativity and share the secret of knowing more of what is real and what is not, but even then, it is merely shared illusion... i often long for shared illusion... today i remain a new reader in the distant unknown, intrigued by your words... thank you for that...
from dontremember :
i'm just... still here. still reading. thats all
from omfggwtf :
i doubt he knows, aha.
from omfggwtf :
haha! really? how is this possible?!
from mainsqueeze :
We keep missing each other! I am a lump and I sleep all the time anymore. Yes, I am pregnant! HOLY SHIT WOW! I will try you again over the next couple of days. You can drink a beer for me. Sigh. I miss beer.
from darthuae :
are you ok?
from strayrecluse :
hot.
from thisisjohn :
checking in
from atwowaydream :
yes, and instead of getting sleepy from tryptophan, i get a little woozy from all the sparkles.
from weetabix :
Whenever I'm in SF, I drive slowly through the Haight, craning my head to see if I can spot you, hidden in the shadows. You're always/never there.
from u-saved-me :
I have to search my phone for the number too. I think of you on days like this, its dark almost all day, cloudy. People are wrapped in fog. mmm winter. cheers hrld! happy new year, if i don't wander back on time.
from permeation :
H, that sounds like the only place I'd like to be today. Most days, even. I'll bring my camera if you promise to let me keep the windows rolled down the entire drive. Let's get sand caught in every strand of hair.
from atwowaydream :
I don't know my own cell phone number, either, so don't feel alone with that. Also, sometimes Denny's is better than some random chicken brandy dinner. Maybe even almost always.
from longitude :
Is it me, or does the image on your diary look blurry? Especially "motel" and the keyhole? Hmph.
from witty-remark :
I really enjoyed that video you posted. It was a great mix.
from permeation :
Of course, H. You'll have something in the mail (that isn't that) coming your way very soon. I've been working on it for ages now. xx
from witty-remark :
Articulate drunk with great movie suggestions. No complaints here!
from witty-remark :
Never mind, now I understand. Richard Edson being in it is a pleasant surprise. Beautifully strange film, too! It embodies so much of the subtleties you don't see in movies today.
from witty-remark :
Your wish is my command. I'm about to watch it now. Why do you reccommend it, though?
from omfggwtf :
also, your music taste!
from omfggwtf :
i love your layout thing, ooh!
from strayrecluse :
i think about that too.
from starzero :
fictional biographies are heart-wrenching things to write.
from longitude :
I remember what going away was like. I hope your coming back is easy.
from atwowaydream :
:::shovels you a spot to climb through::: Yay.
from starzero :
welcome back
from anenigma :
You were missed.
from catsoul :
Glad you're back....
from u-saved-me :
miss you, i hope this year's fustercluck hasn't claimed you..
from permeation :
Where's H gone? x
from bethshort :
intense work, more then a little menacing. i like it.
from longitude :
To let some light in.
from longitude :
I should've made your layout hot pink and lemon yellow.
from dreamwall :
you are just an amazing and inspiring writer.
from longitude :
Teehehe! I got it! Thank you very much!!
from longitude :
Tent space #2 is taken, but you're welcome to have a roasted marshmallow
from longitude :
Baths' Cerulean and Sleep ∞ Over's self-titled album
from longitude :
Thank you for the support. I appreciate it very much.
from atwowaydream :
Exactly. Because everything descends, I suppose.
from atwowaydream :
sunsets are possibly one of the most beautiful things in the world.
from longitude :
thanksHAROLD
from witty-remark :
The notes you leave me might as well ring out of a music box; they sound so sweet and captivating. <3
from u-saved-me :
stunning layout, darling. I love it. I'm going backwards, looking at all of your words in the pretty new display...
from catsoul :
"A dim light in the ceiling of your mind...." nice flow of words. I liked that. =^..^=
from atwowaydream :
I'm more than a little jealous that got to tour the mansion, even if you were five. I had a similar experience at a wax museum, only I was twelve, and ran out when we got to the Wizard of Oz Wicked Witch Woods part. That's right, twelve. And yes, that's correct, Wizard of Oz. It's those damn flying monkeys.
from biggoomba :
even alienation needs typography new look is easier to read and retains all the dark kookieness diary spooks have come to expect
from atwowaydream :
I get that way around people sometimes, too. I just want to fold myself all origami tiny and fling myself into a large body of water. But for every few women or people who don't understand you, there is always one or two who may be able to read you better than anyone else. I try to take a little bit of solace in that. Also, some women (and men) really are quite vapid and it's endlessly exasperating. Perhaps you are just better than them. ;)
from u-saved-me :
did i not give you the key?! how awfully rude of me... send me a letter at sixhourwalk at hotmail and I will.
from atwowaydream :
I completely agree. Sometimes if I think about it for too long, I actually get sick to my stomach. We been in a zombie apocalypse for a while now, and the zombies are out for blood.
from longitude :
I feel thawed.
from atwowaydream :
i should like to give you hugs. shovel power, darling.
from orgami :
there are rusted hairpins bleeding iron in the turqouise corners and in this flourescent atmosphere this echo chamber room catchs vermillion reflections at the pipes mouth the moisture waits gathering from the darkness like a kiss scratched chrome pop up drain bright as Venus wavering in the night the clouds like flags unfurled in a hurry banners wrestling dream angels from swift ragged chariots with russet hair and vermillion love their ache will stain like roses pressed in thorn lanced palms rich and bright precious and hungry
from atwowaydream :
I have not read it, but I love gothic horror mysteries, and I will most definitely check it out. Thank you.
from opposure :
Your writing feels very natural, effortless, and real; the content seems sadly familiar to me.
from atwowaydream :
He almost looks like a five-year-old trying to get Mario to swim under water. Yes, one must have restraint and sophistication when refueling, one must give the impression, "I'm far too cool and foundation-like to slur my speech as I wait for you to brown-bag my bottle". At that's when I usually trip over the door mat.
from fridayfilms :
I wish you would write books. Or maybe you do? You are incredibly gifted, so put that on a shelf next to your shovel at night and remember you've got so much more than most.
from atwowaydream :
I think there are two different types of people in this world: those who born with shovels, and those who were not. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better, as I could certainly relate to your entry. . . but sometimes just knowing there are other people with shovels out there, we're all around you, and not many of us are happy with the world, either. :::hugs:::
from longitude :
I don't think she will forget you. And you shouldn't want to be forgotten.
from u-saved-me :
ps, i lovelovelove bright disguise. When i get my printer printing, i will make it real by putting it on a sheet of paper, so I can tack it near my computer and read it in moments of despair.
from u-saved-me :
When I was one of those service people that got treated like dirt, I lived for customers that were polite. My day was tolerable if only one customer like that came in.
from longitude :
Re: sick - I have a weak heart.
from permeation :
Ps, http://8tracks.com/tornado/the-sun-is-god-wearing-a-hood
from permeation :
Harold, I love 'far from home'. I'm going to borrow one of the lines from it, if that's ok? I miss you dearly...x
from xorbit :
I am totally in awe of your imagery. Your writing reminds me of someone I know - his style is different, but the scenes you write are reminiscent of his life. It's just one of those things - I don't think you're related :)
from mspersephone :
I can tell that you would look good in a suit. May I be so bold as to add you to my favourites list?
from permeation :
I'd like to see you in a black suit, standing beneath the hazy fog of San Francisco. I'd like to dance with you there, just before dawn. Both of us humming the imaginary words to a song we don't remember but both know so well. We could die, just like that you know.
from atwowaydream :
cartoons are much less discreet these days, i suppose. but yeah, it did seem like there was a moral agenda for all of us kids to follow. i wonder if anyone was on MDMA when they made teletubbies or the backyardigans? not nearly as existential, i suppose. surrealism is one of the most beautiful things in the world, and your words are always so beautiful, too.
from dreamwall :
place and a time, i'm all arms
from witty-remark :
The first thing that always marks my return to my own diary is flipping through the virtual words of yours. A secret-motel with the light always on.
from dontremember :
o those 21rst century things. i guess i'm a 20th century girl.
from dreamwall :
i need the same boat
from atwowaydream :
i tried to find pictures of the moon with a lighthouse on it, but my internet searching skills suck for all eternity. don't worry, of course there's a lighthouse on the moon. and if not, i will help you blow it up.
from longitude :
Time for space travel...
from misfitstray :
red light absence - that so very wonderful - sad. I love it!
from longitude :
ouch.
from axde :
fuck, i love when you write things in that style.
from leesah-likes :
I very much enjoy your writings, thank you for sharing them.
from mainsqueeze :
I will be where you are in two weeks. Wear your suit!
from dontremember :
o boy, you ought. vespertine is the bjork's knees
from dontremember :
mmm the taste of bjork on waking lips
from animejournal :
Excellent movies! Thanks for the recommendations! your diary is awesome!
from permeation :
Ha! Well you didn't need to blow *that* much smokeup my ass, but yes. :-) it just looked a little barren. x
from permeation :
Is it wrong that I'm a little sad I don't have a long, lovely description of me in your favorites? Probably. x
from animejournal :
I listened to some of your favorite musical artists, and I think you would like a singer like Laura Marling.
from animejournal :
I really loved the two movies you recommended! Do you know any other movies that are similar? Please let me know! The movies are enlightening! I even posted Network on my journal!
from dontremember :
siiighs. allaround. and love is there too
from longitude :
that's quite a write up for me, herald.
from permeation :
The new place is falling together nicely. Now, I just need a certain someone to come round and break in the new record player with. You bring the vinyl, I'll supply the wine. Ps, you keep calling me when I'm fast asleep... xx
from pettyquarrel :
Winged predators carried away my brain. I was never the same after that. I was desperately uncool. And weird.
from pettyquarrel :
I like Mark Strand, too. "We all have reasons for moving. I move to keep things whole." Your journal is awesome. You're too cool for me. Even if I were imaginary. Still -- you'd be too cool for me.
from longitude :
I want a skull necklace. And an amputee ballerina.
from animejournal :
I love Videodrome better! Thank you! It's awesome!
from witty-remark :
And I've similarly missed you. I couldn't wait to catch up on your entries. I was contemplating leaving a note, but I had nothing noteworthy to leave.
from animejournal :
are you leaving the sand? Are your moving? your journals are very interesting. Do you have any other movie recommendations? I remember the last movie you posted was awesome about the TV having an influence on us.
from misfitstray :
where are you going?
from permeation :
Dearest Harold, I returned from Australia late, late yesterday and the only thing waiting for me on my phone was your voice on my voicemail. How wonderful! I've been in a state of haziness all day (and the wine and Moon Duo isn't helping) so I will promptly phone you tomorrow evening for a chat xxx Miss my lovely friend.
from fridayfilms :
She must've misunderstood and thought you meant your skills were greater than what they paid you for and was just agreeing with you! It would have been an incredibly mean thing to say otherwise. In which case the old adage couldn't be more true: not worth your adoration. Worthless, in fact. Or is this fiction?
from mainsqueeze :
Lovelovessss. Give me a call tonight? For your key? Plus, I have missed talking with you during my Lost Years.
from longitude :
The ocean wants to swallow me whole. I've floated too far away.
from dontremember :
blankets and sheets where eyes meet- a moment to pass into non-passing, not a moment too soon
from mainsqueeze :
I have been thinking about you lately, but I lost all of my phone numbers when my last phone died. Call me sometime soon. <3
from permeation :
Hello dear. I'm in Texas now. It's mild here and snowing back in Brighton. Lucky escape! I've not had the internet (even on my phone now...) so I'm sending my love via DL vibes. xx
from animejournal :
I really enjoyed that vid you posted on your diary. The Death of the Individual sounds interesting. Is that from a movie?
from misfitstray :
too bad, that we live so far away from each other
from misfitstray :
I think you are wrong, it can't be, that you were together with Jim Morrison and Col. Sanders. They already left to play with Curt Cobain on Ganymed. I met them there...
from permeation :
..at least I'm keeping busy. It took me a while, but http://8tracks.com/tornado/heat-sink-body xxx
from longitude :
thank you..
from permeation :
...my Harold, I miss you. I've been terrible with keeping in touch lately. x
from longitude :
Warm stuffy rooms make me ill.
from dreamwall :
wow you
from girl101 :
i'd like a drive-in theatre on the moon too. this is lovely. xx.
from axde :
you have so many themes in everything you say. for instance, fog. i like it a lot. i'd write a great paper on it if i studied you in english, and i hate papers.
from longitude :
:) Bun did always love a good nuzzle..
from misfitstray :
if your words were a painting it would be a masterpiece
from permeation :
"the finer mechanisms of needing". Brilliance. Im not leaving you, just closing down. This woman needs freshness and clean paper to write. Not now but hopefully soon. I'll ring you this weekend, say hello, hi, how are you. xxx
from longitude :
GOOD EFFING GOD. MY GRAMMAR. PLEASE EXCUSE THESE LAST FOUR NOTES. I AM NOT MYSELF. OR MAYBE I AM! AAAHAHAHAH. I HAVE TO LAUGH.
from longitude :
I've watched so many of his films yet not once did I make the connection that they were all his. I am so bad at remember directors. But it makes sense.. and I think you're right. So.. why don't you write a screenplay and send it to him? Hmmm!
from longitude :
"SANS"!? Oh my fingers and the tiny keyboard... I mean, sand. :)
from longitude :
Batteries for my flesh include but aren't limited to: salt water, sans, sun, rain, other flesh and a good hearty meal. Flesh is kind of an icky word all of a sudden.
from dontremember :
an underwater lighthouse makes me think of dethklok's album for underwater sea-creatures. anyways, its kind of you to think of the fish. i would like to be on the moon. in moon dust up to my ankles. see the earth as a marble with tiny human molecules.
from longitude :
underwater lighthouse!
from darthuae :
you're too 3am. 4am isn't bad either, man.
from darthuae :
i think you've been played with hands that are as tender as hands will ever get.
from darthuae :
let's make a mixtape out of you. the first time, you're going to play right. the next time, the sounds you make will be mildly different. the third and final time, the magnetic tape will come out and end the whole thing.
from darthuae :
"hoping it never does." you keep reading my mind to me.
from nakedpride :
If you have read House of Leaves, you remind me of the narrative that might speak from the labyrinth of the house.
from permeation :
Harold, my friend. I'm back online. Slowly, sure, but I'm here. I shall email this weekend. (Ps, I too am in 'detox' mode. But I would never cut out the caffeine. That's just silly.) x
from longitude :
[behind the wall] I am not sleepy. I am missing something too.
from permeation :
I'm keeping this; "Someday we'll all be nostalgic for dreamless sleep." Is that ok? x
from permeation :
TALK TALK TALK TALK. miles & miles.
from permeation :
Is Mr H online at the moment..?
from atwowaydream :
My God, and to imagine his horror if he found out that an even more Aryan band, Ace of Base, is no longer with us. As for aliens, one movie scarred me for life: Intruders. They may be many things, but their faces scare the holy fuck out of me.
from permeation :
Ah, that Hitler/Oasis video is brilliant. Hey. You should call me tonight. I've got nothing but DVDs and ice cream. Kind of fancy some company. x
from witty-remark :
Whatever you are, human or not, I like you. Sometimes it feels nice to get attached to being withdrawn.
from permeation :
Indeed she has!!! The Lonesome Crowded West is on repeat. And This Is A Long Drive AND The Moon & Antartica. Oh you get my drift. Seriously though, what happened to that band?! Modest Mouse-isms!!! My heart is a bitter buffalo too Isaac. Mine too. x
from longitude :
The image of someone semaphoring to me with flashlights is hilarious and amazing.
from longitude :
I'm on the other side with a broken flashlight, and only the sounds of the ocean to guide me to where I need to be.
from misfitstray :
Asian woman are the most beautiful. They always seem to be so ageless and calm. Transitions... hm, there must be a reason, I don't like them so much ;) I guess I'm as normal as everybody else, to not like changes in life very much, even if they turn out to be good. There's always some kind of work to do for changes, work in a state of physical or psycological way. I guess I have to work on being more flexible, or?
from wtng4lezlie :
Bam.
from avantbedroc :
haa... *that* walk
from atwowaydream :
Neko is one of those musicians who make me remember why I love music, you know? (thank you-- music is the best drug for inspiration.) your writing is dark and apparitional, then light and concrete. . . and always quite beautiful.
from permeation :
..it's day seven now. And yes, I'm going to the doctor. Maybe I have some kind of brain tumor or something. Hmm. x
from dontremember :
i've been reading alot of faulkner and it makes me narrate everything in my head.
from permeation :
...how can I know you by any other name than the one I've come to know so well all of these months? It's well past late. xxx
from longitude :
[chemical station] beautifully written harold. really beautiful.
from dontremember :
i'm still digging the diary and pretty much everything. xo
from axde :
unfortunately i quit after i got bored of flying around and whatnot. i almost wish i didn't, though, because of the weapons. at the time i was heavily involved in other video games. i quit those, though, because they took up so much of my time. now i'm predominantly a halo player. does second life count as a video game, or just another way to social network? who knows. it's fun dancing, at least.
from axde :
http://i515.photobucket.com/albums/t359/napoleorg/secondlife3.jpg
from longitude :
quit and i'll cut you! no, i won't. but don't quit. come on now.. we're supposed to play badminton on the moon harold. pack a rucksack and come south.
from whaton :
i've always imagined the neva river to be a person with multiple face-features, but never really dressed it up in character before. i say toss the yellowed newspapers out the window (perhaps you'll give someone guilty a paper-cut).
from permeation :
Do you remember all those times I told you about how much your poems move me? Yeah, that.
from darthuae :
oh, that's the lovely cher. i hear she makes pretty little roadtrip mixtapes too.
from permeation :
You're so amazing. 3 instead of 1. I love your words so, so much Harold. x
from permeation :
Dear Stranger, you haven't replied to my last few emails. Everything at secret motel ok? Love, me
from longitude :
thank you harold.. hugsqueezehug
from permeation :
I've gone so AWOL. I'll be back soon. I promise. x
from misfitstray :
Thank you! ox
from permeation :
..the doors open. Make yourself at home. x
from longitude :
{hug}
from misfitstray :
tried to write you an email, but failed with the on from dland
from permeation :
I wish I could fling my arms around your neck, Harold. I just may never let go. x
from permeation :
Oh, my dear Harold. I hope I...well, you know. I just hope we're OK. x
from witty-remark :
Hmm, for some reason, it's always so comforting to read your diary.
from permeation :
(Sometimes, I worry that all of the ellipses' in the world could never explain this.) x
from permeation :
Do I ever tell you thank you, Harold? If not, thank you. From the very bottom, to the very top. xx
from mainsqueeze :
Diaryland tells me in this little box that you are online right this very second.
from misfitstray :
it was the first time I tried Valerian-tea. It helped me to sleep through. I really was astonished about that. I didn't recognize any side effects. I haven't heard about depression in this connection. St. Johns Wort (tea) is good against that. That helped me a lot.
from permeation :
I wish I could talk to you, right this very second. xxx
from permeation :
Interesting...
from permeation :
It's a little on the weak side upon re-listening, but I'm glad you're enjoying it nevertheless. What's your take on that Japandroids song? I'm really digging them at the moment. It makes me feel like I'm 15 (which is kind of fun). And hey, you need to update...xx
from longitude :
i love tiff and you and you and tiff k?
from permeation :
I think we are awake together - this very second! I also just sent an email your direction. Insomnia, yet again. It's 3:25 in the morning, and I'm bored of not sleeping. So very bored. I hope you're well right now - and you know what? You're awesome too. x
from permeation :
Harold, my dear Harold. I can't sleep. The minutes have turned into hours. I feel like I'm going blind. I made a jet-lagged-insomnia-inspired mix tonight, hoping it would put me to sleep. Instead, I'm just staring at the wall with headphones on. Wide awake & dreaming. http://8tracks.com/tornado/355-am You know. xx
from permeation :
Hey stranger - I've missed you too! xx
from sunfuck :
i do so enjoy your diary. and hey, i just saw acid mothers temple a few weeks ago! and wow, a friend of mine from high school was in a band with genesis p-orridge of throbbing gristle! sorry, i like your taste in music, it makes me wanna talk about music
from permeation :
In, like, 15 hours I'll be on the same continent as most of my favorite people. (You're one of them you know?) Take care of you while I'm gone. xxx
from misfitstray :
you should not give up
from nakedpride :
i have dreams about your writing
from permeation :
(so, so much to write you, my dear friend.) x
from misfitstray :
Thank you. And I will get it! :)
from permeation :
Tonight I'm in the mood for the crackling of vinyl - maybe something like Cannonball Adderley. I think your company would suit me just right. Someday, huh? Someday.
from axde :
oh, but i believe the desires that have never been fed are the strongest of all. keep yourself well.
from misfitstray :
hm, you are lost and hungry where you are now too. Homes can be build everywhere where the heart is. Is your heart there where you are now? People are not so different. I think it would be good. Traveling/Moving (on) is good for knowing. Knowing people, knowing mentalities, knowing landscapes, knowing smells, knowing culture, knowing yourself.
from misfitstray :
oh! Why? - And, I'm asking myself, why you don't move over to Europe?
from misfitstray :
Did you take the 45s? And the poems? And the polaroids?
from permeation :
That's either the best find ever, or a really good dream. Ps, may I join you for breakfast? I'll make the coffee, keeping yours black of course. x
from permeation :
Come back to me Harold! Come back. Get well & let those fingers talk. I need it. x
from misfitstray :
I would send you a gift in black and grey and forrest green and navy, when I find something adequate. I think those colors are matching pretty good together. Nothing's wasted and everything goes where it belongs.
from witty-remark :
I love that you read my diary.
from permeation :
...I'd die trying in your sea.
from bethshort :
Danielewskis latest is called Only Revolutions. About a couple whirling through history & their stories meet in the middle. Its written sort of like an epic poem---a worthy read. I love your writing like snapshots of frenzied moments.
from permeation :
(tomorrow morning I'll have all the time in the world for the second part.)
from misfitstray :
I send you a huge rainbow against discoloring
from bethshort :
all the talk of hallways reminds me of "House of Leaves". Read it, I think you'd like it.
from permeation :
Did I ever tell you much how I liked long, dark hallways? It's almost as if you knew.
from axde :
i fully support your wine intake on a friday night, it's actually more interesting than you'd expect.
from permeation :
I love when you write stories for me Harold. Can you whisper them in my ear as I fall asleep? I think I'd like that. . .
from misfitstray :
Thank you!
from permeation :
Jenny was right, you really are a romantic Harold.
from longitude :
Thank you kind sir..
from witty-remark :
I thought secret-motel only had room for one.
from permeation :
(is it weird that i'm missing you this very second?)
from misfitstray :
You will always be welcome! And of course, you can use my bathroom if you need to pee or anything else ;)
from darthuae :
i know. you make me so sad. and i don't even know you. i guess everyone in dland makes me so sad with their beauty.
from darthuae :
i had to write that last sentence of yours somewhere. i've been staring at it for a while. oh man, you make my mind wonder... i'll prolly give this to someone as a note (i hope that's ok?)
from permeation :
...now you're just showing off.
from misfitstray :
I would let you in, even if you would be a human - if you would like to come in...
from misfitstray :
Thank you xo, but I'm not quite sure about that.
from longitude :
You're quite a romantic.
from misfitstray :
I love your thoughts.
from permeation :
Well spotted. Anne Sexton is my all time hero. x
from misfitstray :
nothing serious really, don't worry :) but thank you anyways for the note. I would be very very sad if something would happen to you or if you would stop writing here.
from misfitstray :
At least no pills of that kind you would like to get... they might have samples of OTC-products or so. You should try to go out more and get some sunshine.
from misfitstray :
I swear you, that the admins etc of the pharmaceutical industries don't have free samples of pills on their office desks! At least not in Europe/Germany. I know that, as I work in such a facility... So, you have to look for an alternative
from darthuae :
i think you just described my dream job right there (or how one's s'posed to feel for the rest of his life.)
from axde :
you've got it exactly right. it's like they know their duty in life and it's to be good story-tellers and all around entirely pleasant. i hope you know that you are a beautiful and sad storyteller on your own. your imagination goes places mine never went or wanted to go, but now i get to see what i lost in the process. it's renewing at the very least.
from longitude :
The fleeting encounters you write about leave me with such longing.
from misfitstray :
you should be more brave! What would have happened, if she would have said "no"? Or even if she would have said "yes". Now you'll never know
from axde :
i found one of those hubs where you can get all sorts of free things. there was a box with 40 something weapons in it. i was glad about it, but i think my second life, um, life is over with. i'm tired of insulting hobos and getting kicked out of sex clubs. you enjoy your fat spliff and flaming sombrero out in la la land.
from permeation :
H, your words constantly move me. I want them in ink all over my skin, to always remember. Never forgetting. I never laugh, but I'm sure you're incredibly funny.
from axde :
i think the highest peak of awesome would be that shotgun you gave me
from starzero :
or, smarch.
from starzero :
i think the mayans had lunar months, which meant they had five or six days leftover at the end of the year. they'd party the whole time.
from axde :
i'll be honest with you, it's not a game i respect. i think it's actually incredibly dumb and close to terrifying. i am a wow player. some would argue equally as dumb, but at least we are GETTING SHIT DONE in game rather than just hanging out in clubs. or whatever. anyway. my name is eldwick woodford. add me and we will raise hell.
from starzero :
i usually wait for june before reviving those xmas songs. half-remembered words to slightly wrong tunes.
from darthuae :
1. maybe he couldn't get that House episode out of his head.
from longitude :
{Expectations} is a beautifully written piece H. Ocean sounds coming out of a radio can't ever be bad.
from axde :
that's so strange. i had a dream two nights ago that there was purple in the trees and i have been wondering what that would mean since. happy late birthday. i hope it was wonderful.
from misfitstray :
Happy belated birthday to you and a big birthday-hug. I wish for you that you will find the joy and love in life again.
from longitude :
I send hugs.
from misfitstray :
I thought about that fact too, who will get all my books and CDs and DVDs after my death, as they are so very precious to me. I do have 100s of LPs too but I rarely listen to them anymore. Maybe I should do that more often.
from hijayxx :
"I miss the person I once imagined myself to be. And I'm already sick of the person I have yet to become." Hey, you are really hard on yourself. Why not be content with who you are for once? Accept the moment, yourself, and your way? Ciao ; - )
from permeation :
Pattern Sickness: Me too, my friend. Me too.
from misfitstray :
no because you make me so sad so very sad It is such a waste of your body and of your wonderful mind you are doing
from misfitstray :
you make me cry you know?
from misfitstray :
and please tell me what is "isolation fluid" I really don't know
from misfitstray :
Started as normal as it ended. With sports, training and longing for someone I can't get. Nothing too serious I guess. So, what are your wishes for 2009? I so wish for you that your wishes will come true no matter what they are. You know what, you are my all time favorite "Provokationsandroide" ;) (I don't know an appropiate word for that in english)
from misfitstray :
Happy new year to you! Wash your hands and hold them in the wind to dry. You can feel the winds gentle and cool touch. That is amazing, you know!
from u-saved-me :
hello darling, happy new year, is fustercluck over yet?? may this one be better than the last. love.
from misfitstray :
I was told that the night is always the darkest shortly before the sun rises. So that would make it to differnt times of the night depending on the season. No matter how it is, that p-thing isn't the nicest place and pretty lost. At least you do skateboarding.
from misfitstray :
and totally forgot to mention, that you won't make it to purgatory. It is reserved for the mindless gray masses. And you are neither mindless nor gray.
from misfitstray :
hm, purgatory at 3am - hm that's not the worst, it's more worse at 5-30am, when the night is the darkest
from u-saved-me :
I have a key, but you will have to give me an email address if you want it. lock420athotmaildotcom
from misfitstray :
it's a quote by Vivekananda (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Swami_Vivekananda)
from permeation :
Accidents can happen, and I'm glad that one lead me to you.
from misfitstray :
That is a really good idea. Let us sleep together through it. And thanks!
from misfitstray :
I was wondering about that going missing in Christmas time too. It really is very strange.
from longitude :
I was thinking about people who are gone and it made me very lonely. I don't know how to undo this feeling.
from u-saved-me :
Happy Fustercluck, Hrld. (I'm emperorincxt, do you remember?)
from longitude :
Hand-crushing handshakes happen to me often because I have small hands, but I don't think "jerk" when they happen. Handshakes that involve shaking my entire body suck bad. Real bad. Mostly though, I avoid shaking hands as to not be subjected to the dead fish. Scaly dead fish handshakes are worst of the worst.
from misfitstray :
it appears to me that I know that place in the fog...
from dontremember :
i just read alot of your lots. and i like it alot. and i will continue to read.
from nakedpride :
I never update because I'm usually on Myspace or Livejournal.
from longitude :
I wanna join you down there, for a little while. You are a dark magnet.
from nakedpride :
send me a postcard i'll send you one in return.
from mikehunt :
for your 10:56 a.m. - 2008-11-05: yes, exactly. my feelings on the election mirror yours. yes, good call.
from permeation :
Anticipating...
from axde :
excellente. i am curious, when the liquor store closed, did that body and mind change take place?
from emperorincxt :
did you make it to halloween?
from longitude :
It's just the kind of dessert I'd expect from a man like you. I was hoping maybe, peut etre, you'd have a sweet tooth, but I am wrong. It's twenty five minutes until midnight, are you where you need to be?
from longitude :
What is your favourite dessert?
from longitude :
Raincoat: check! Now if I can just find my way..
from longitude :
I can't say you're modest, because I don't know you. But, take the compliment gracefully and know that I wouldn't mind getting lost up there for a little bit. Adjust the contrast.
from longitude :
Your posts are so cinematic, do you know this? I wish sometimes, we could watch scenes of your thoughts. It'd make for a deliriously long sequence of heart-wrenchingly tragic yet achingly gorgeous moments. And the soundtrack? Whoa.
from longitude :
Harold, I officially dedicate Cat Power's "Half of You" to you tonight. Cheers
from longitude :
I need to detox as well. But I'm afraid my conviction isn't strong enough today. I hope you are successful.
from permeation :
...i haven't quite decided. keep an eye out for smoke signals and calls in the dark.
from waltzingyeti :
hi. i just wanted to say that i really like your diary entries.
from longitude :
After reading your entries, I am always curious as to who you really are and I imagine peeling your chest cavity open to find blood, guts and dark stairways and I'm simultaneously sickened and fascinated. This isn't some ploy to get you to open up to me or anything, it's just something that comes to mind when I read your diary.
from permeation :
wanna make an exchange?
from permeation :
stop going quiet for so long mister.
from permeation :
Dear H, stranger that you are. Please write stories forever. 'The radio volume is adjustable, so the body doesn't have to listen to it's own dying.'.
from nakedpride :
your latest entry (which will tell nothing once this note is buried) is a nightmare i want to have.
from salution :
Perhaps you may die, unoriginally, of a jawbreaker.
from permeation :
thank you. & you know? that's pretty much one of the greatest things someone could tell me. imagine, if little ol' me were to make an album cover for the likes of fly pan am or something?
from permeation :
remind me to never cross paths with you on a darkened street. you know, unless intended.
from longitude :
I was wondering why I haven't seen an update from you in forever... I accidentally erased you from my list! What a fool. I'm catching up..
from floorplan :
'Fog is an integral component in my diagnostics laboratory. The mirror always hints at subtle shifts in loss and accumulation. I'm not sure what happened to me. And I don't understand the life I'm failing to live.' this is the perfect example of why i always greatly anticipate what next will come out of your head.
from permeation :
(you have mail). as if you wouldn't get the key to such a heavy door.
from permeation :
wait, how presumptuous of me...
from permeation :
H, I don't quite know how I missed your 'dot dot dot' entry. I'm keeping it, locked safe inside. Nobody else can come in..except maybe you. Thank you.
from permeation :
more so the vision - which was a woman in a blue dress (maybe a skirt?) who was walking through a large abandoned house - over broken televisions, mirrors, furniture, wood - and was completely lost - slow motion running sort of style. there were other elements, which slip my mind all this time later - but upon telling you now i wonder if the dream says more about me than it does you.
from permeation :
no lie, last night i had a dream that i was reading one of your stories. but the words overlapped a vision of the words, almost like it was being narrated. strange, but good.
from longitude :
I've been (sort of) job searching for the last couple of months.. I hate it. What sort of work do you do?
from permeation :
i'm so glad you approve. that song always brings my body to a quiver.
from permeation :
even at 2.09am, your words are more than i've ever known/written in my lifetime. my small little lifetime.
from idividedbyi :
i'm with you my friend, [everyone needs a hobby...]. i tip my glass to you, and make sure you do not drink alone.
from longitude :
I wish you had taken the bracelet.
from permeation :
i've said it before & i'll say it again: . . .
from permeation :
(psst, my last two entries are for you. letters, and letters II)
from permeation :
you remind me so much of someone i used to know. it's difficult reading you, without thinking i know all of your back story. of course i don't, but in a way it makes me feel like i know you more than i know myself. weird, that.
from permeation :
you do it to me every time.
from permeation :
there are many diaries that i like for purely aesthetic reasons. pretty pictures, interesting stories, friendly people..but yours, yours has captured something so much .. more. when i read your latest entry - about driving a pretty young thing to LA - i found myself so instantly transfixed and placed inside of that world, in your stories and poetic song. you're a writer. it's refreshing, and energeticly sombre, and i'm so very glad to have found the entry to your dark room.
from permeation :
'isolation vacation'. that's a title for something really great. a book, a badly translated french film, an album. really.
from floorplan :
amazing
from permeation :
with you, there could be no other way.
from permeation :
"Soon the sun will rise from its hole and re-spool the wind." This really gets to me...
from permeation :
thank you H. unfortunatley, it's an old polaroid, about 7 years old. i captured the same shot on film, but can't seem to find it anywhere. guess it's gotten lost over the years. shame, actually. the picture means a lot to me for some reason. x
from permeation :
i'm pretty sure i was conceived during Love Me Tender or something - my entire family has always has a love affair with elvis' music. i remember watching blue hawaii when i was like 7. back in february, my friend marie & i went on a mini roadtrip from dallas to kentucky and on our way had to swing through graceland. we couldnt actually afford to go in so we just stared at it from the street. alls well though because i got that bitching postcard. x
from u-saved-me :
RIP George Carlin.
from permeation :
. . .
from longitude :
Let's listen to Tarentel's Ghosty Head, then complicate each other into puzzles too deep for others, solving one another just in time to still lay on dewy morning grass.
from longitude :
I want to crawl through the barbed wire, risking skin and flesh to get closer. That is what your words do to me.
from permeation :
oh, there's definitely creepy places like that but i think i'm more drawn to the creepy religious aspect of small town america. you definitely don't get that in the UK. i'm from texas, so i have a thing for dirty small towns with over zealous people. you dig? ps: thank you x
from permeation :
that's what i miss the most about america..small places on the sides of highways, off on strange roads. england doesnt have any of that.
from nakedpride :
I can't believe I had not encountered you until now, since we share a couple of diaryland friends.
from permeation :
it's taken me all this time to notice sun ra in your already stellar lists. at this precise moment in time, we are nodding in harmonious agreement.
from permeation :
..and then, surely, your body would become star dust.
from longitude :
notes on a lavender background are just wrong. but you, are so very right.
from permeation :
something like that shouldn't be painful.
from permeation :
i know. she says with a grin. post script: give us all keys already. the weather outside is drab and we need a good, warm place to sleep for the night. we need a night full of sound and hands and fucked up dreams. a morning full of confusion and clarity.
from meek-rage :
Your alternate universe is terribly logical. I'd be more unquestionably functionable there than here.
from longitude :
I'm ready for my key. I need to check in.
from permeation :
today's mix partially inspired by your good self (This Will Destroy You, The Boggs). http://adaysmix.muxtape.com/
from crestone :
i've started a treasure hunt around the house for small mixed media artworks. when i find them, i'll chew each one until i figure out what they depict.
from crestone :
the utensils are polished and i've just bottled the morning fog and poured it over your Life cereal. i'll be the one sitting next to your empty chair studying the box.
from bridgecity :
did i send you a copy of Atlas Shrugged some years back? I'm pretty sure it was you. I mean, I would be surprised if it wasn't is all. good to read you again.
from permeation :
i've never loved a crazy capitalist so much. (rand, not you. i would never accuse a stranger of such a thing.)
from permeation :
Listening to John Cale LPs will forever remind me of being 19, jobless, Washington DC, and determined... I also wanted to mention that I'm in awe that you've got Ayn Rand listed as a favorite. That woman inspired me like few others have. I remember reading The Fountainhead in between traffic lights.
from longitude :
As long as it's got huge windows and a writing desk, I'm good. Performances? I'm there. xxo
from longitude :
I need a room here.
from permeation :
damn. kicking Lou out & all, huh? that IS fucking righteous.
from crestone :
i will reserve a chair for you at the head of our round table, allow you to drink orange juice from the container when your isolation fluid runs out. if you get too cold, you can borrow my oven mitts. they are red and white and go well with ties and stoicism. i am developing an addiction to black screens adorned with small white letters.
from crestone :
a very intriguing diary that i've just spent the last hour contemplating.
from longitude :
I found your diary through T (aka permeation - my favourite girl across the pond). I wanted to leave a note letting you know how much I felt you through your writing, but through these Diaryland notes, things can have such an air of contrivance.. I dunno. Maybe I'm too self conscious, but I really just want to keep reading. Yes, I do. Thanks for sharing.
from permeation :
(new blooming favorite.)
from mainsqueeze :
Hi Harold. Do you know why I love you a jillionzillionbillion times? Because you would understand if I were to say that sometimes it is hard not to just give in. Maybe you would. Maybe you wouldn't. I almost called you just now, but you work in the morning. Hearts. Surprise me with a phone call someday?
from permeation :
yeah, i'm pretty into your space.
from mainsqueeze :
My car is not over the hill, it is jammed in the side and rusting out. Plus I live in there with my two dogs. HI HAROLD SKAROLD!
from raven72d :
Lovely intricate intriguing entries.
from emperorincxt :
when Im reading your words it feels like a dream. I can see everything all around me yet nothing is clear, cant focus in, but I know whats there by what you write. keep writing so I can keep dreaming friend. there is nothing like procreating to lose every dream in your heart. except for love. well, love for the first ten or so years, until the child learns to hate you for your mistakes. luckily i have time left. and your fogdreamweaving..
from emperorincxt :
ghosts arrive too early. I like that line.
from engelchen :
I was very lucky in New York in every way. My tooth healt quick enough, no pain at all or any problems with it. I didnt need painkillers or a clinic. But it was good to know that there is something like that, just in case. And I am quite sure that one day I'll go to San Francisco. I have no idea how to cope with that flight then tho. 8 hours to New York was long, but it'd be so much longer to California and the movies they are showing are usually so bad.
from mainsqueeze :
Is that the overpass that smells like pee? Cause I miss you like crazy but I can live without the urine-soaked overpass. Thank you for the birthweek wishes! Kissy. -Ang
from decolour :
i'm relieved to hear it. thanks.
from decolour :
is there any chance i can get a password for your diary?
from thisiswhy :
are you trashing this diary as well? could i get a password if i sent you a polite email? also, what's the chance you'll let anybody (i.e. me) read one of your stories? sincerely, imaginary reader.
from mare-ingenii :
That made sense to me.
from peripeteia-x :
i sent it october 4th. it's not spam (not really, anyway), but it did contain a series of odd dots and exclamation points as subject. which is basically a stupid idea if you want to contact anyone. my bad. either way, i sent the email again with a sober subject. take care. - j
from peripeteia-x :
do you ever check the email associated with d13? i sent you an email and urged you to reply. i still hope you will. i hope you didn't read it.
from engelchen :
The system sent nothing to me :( And I like the sun and the sun likes me. Thats why I'll go and walk around now. Its rarely summer in this city. I need to enjoy those few occasions.
from engelchen :
I promise, no, I swear, I wont tell it anyone. someone_to_blame <at> hotmail.com.
from engelchen :
you are password protected now? Forever or just ... now? What do I have to do to get the password?
from weetabix :
I miss your words.
from emperorincxt :
thinking of you and sending happy floaty hearts..
from emperorincxt :
oh indeed it is not! A Merry Fustercluck to you as well darling one! this celebration can be as loud and long as we wish it to be.
from pchan33 :
you're very poetic.
from pchan33 :
you're very poetic.
from mare-ingenii :
"You could use a HAIRcut, young man," she said. "You're getting to look like one of these crazy HungARians or something getting out of a SWIMming pool."
from emperorincxt :
Last night before bed, I went outside to have a deep lungfull of carcinogenous air, and I thought of all the places I have stood outside in the cold and snowy neighbourhoods, puffs of smoke above my head. I thought of you, and how you may have liked the calm quiet dark street I was looking at. nothing stirring, the twinkle of coloured lights across the street and down the way. not even a car disturbed me until I turned to go back into the house..
from mare-ingenii :
That one left its mark.
from emperorincxt :
judgemental postmans? what is this world coming to...
from emperorincxt :
yay :D i can keep your secret dear hrld, i promise.
from engelchen :
That made my day. Great to have you back. <3
from mainsqueeze :
Heyyyy. I know you. Kissykiss.
from weetabix :
I've missed you.

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