DiaryLand members area

Hey - maybe check this out - Robert Irwin "The Emergence of the Islamic World System 1000-1500" in The Cambridge Illustrated History of the Islamic World - I've just been reading another book by Irwin, a sort of general survey of Islamic art, and like it a lot, so this essay will doubtless cover the Timurid period & I think Irwin would be a good author, contemporary and reliable but not dull.

from metonym :

So I've been thinking about this Timur thing. I don't know if I can give you a nice little overall history...but you have access to a library, right? If so, you should look up "Timur and the Princely Vision" - this is about an exhibition but the essays will give you the kind of general overview of the empire & a fairly comprehensive look at the culture. Slanted towards art, of course. There's also a book "Women in the Medieval Islamic World: Power, Patronage and Piety" that has at least one essay on Timurid women ("Timurid Women: A Cultural Perspective"). I'll tell you if I come across anything more.

from metonym :

The Great Scott *is* odious, and in a calculated and cultivated way - but I don't think that he's aware of his own insecurity, or the extent to which it drives him. I think that he is fuzzy on the line between telling it like it is and sheer nastiness; his criticisms are never, after all, untrue. What is calculated is his ambition, and the extent to which he is willing to do anything in order to achieve whatever measure of success he has set his sights on. That allows him to justify his ruthlessness to himself. Anyhow, I can't answer the question about a Timurid book off the top of my head, but it's definitely close enough to my realm of expertise that I could find a good reference in the space of a week or so.

from raven72d :

Nope-- there is no way to diplomatically say those things to anyone.

from metonym :

hey - thanks - it works! I'm so glad!

from metonym :

Hey - could you try giving me a password & name again to your diary? It hasn't been working. I think that your defense of romance novels is a good one - it must be true that if you're constantly indulging in impossible romantic fantasies, you're likely to demand at least a little more from reality. But I wonder about learning about your sexuality from them - a lot of novels feature heroines who are just really, really selfish sexually - heroes who are 100% dedicated to their pleasure and don't really demand much in return & women who are happy to accept that. If you're reading that to escape from a situation which is the reverse - well, fine. But as a lesson, I think it's dangerous. Plus, I've been doing a better job lately of finding fun/adventurous/kinky novels, but the vast majority are just so vanilla...like, if there's even the slightest hint of fellatio it's a scandal and maybe just maybe they'll do it doggie style. Hmmm.

from raven72d :

How is late winter?

from raven72d :

I miss hearing from you.

from raven72d :

Don't dare vanish... I still read you on a regular basis... And do e-mail me. My Notes may be off, but I do welcome your e-mails.

from metonym :

I take the LSAT on Dec. 3. I don't know when I'll hear back - a lot of law schools have rolling admission, so you can potentially hear immediately, but then at the same time, I might hear at the "regular" deadline which is in March or something. I'm trying not to think about it. BTW, the password to your diary that ou gave me doesn't work.

from raven72d :

You do need time to be alone. "Dating" is always a bad idea. Have affairs, go out for drinks, but never tie yourself to one person.

from raven72d :

Istanbul is a favourite city of mine...

from raven72d :

I feel exactly the same way about being an historian and/or an attorney. That fear has destroyed both careers.

from sea-change- :

I read one other book of his - The Calcutta Chromosome - and it was really much worse. I think that In An Antique Land is supposed to be his best.

from raven72d :

I'm not a vegetarian, but ponies are Our Friends.

from raven72d :

I so need a seminar on remedial flirting...

from raven72d :

Amharic would be fun... And robots are vur' cool... especially Gir and the little Tachikoma robots.

from raven72d :

I know all about Psyducks, why girls should be panty-free...and things Mongol.

from raven72d :

al-Juvaini... Are you thinking of al-Juvaini? The book may be called "A History of the World Conqueror".

from sea-change- :

Could you possibly be talking about a world history written by a guy named Rachid al-Din?

from sea-change- :

Do you have any more info about what it is? A translation or an author or a date or something? I don't know it from the title but it sounds Persian, which I don't speak.

from raven72d :

Ummm... I hope it all works out... And, well, *how* did it happen?

from raven72d :

Ummm...stuck? Dear God.

from raven72d :

I'd love to see the Persian/Arabic calligraphy website... And, ummm, what is a divacup?

from raven72d :

Ummmm... I seek low levels of interpersonal conflict and assume that any criticism is based on the discovery that I'm intellectually, personally, and sexually without value.

from sea-change- :

hey. I think I need a new password for your diary. And yes, Arabic works exactly like Hebrew - they are both semitic languages. Very closely related. Most things you would know about grammar/not writing vowels/etc., would apply to both languages & a lot of the words are quite similar. For example, the word for building in Arabic is 'binaya' - and I imagine that a proper Hebrew dictionary would be arranged by roots, but I wouldn't be surprised if they make Hebrew-dictionaries-for-mostly-English-speakers that are arranged alphabetically.

from aneides :

such diversity of specializations means there is someplace for almost everyone - but it's totally unreasonable to expect every beginning graduate student to know exactly where they're going to fit. unfortunately, most people whose interests diverge from their departments seem to be told either, "you will stay here and follow our course of study, even though your interests are markedly different from ours," or "if you continue pursuing these ideas, we don't want to invest our time in you." why not start from the premise that we're intelligent, rational adults and help us find the place where we'd be happiest and most productive?

from raven72d :

Darkness, yes... Darkness and silence are necessary-- and finding a place for both is rare and precious.

from aneides :

i moved because i am sneaky! i realized that there were certain people who could be reading my diary, and i didn't want to potentially give them access to so much information about me. i am glad you tracked me down!

from raven72d :

are you still out there? i'd love to be able to read you...

from asitwere :

I'll show you mine if you show me yours! (APNY74 at AOL)

from thole :

oh dear, that is frustrating. i hope things are straightened out soon!

from thole :

it lives in just two pools there, making its habitat the smallest of any known vertebrate, right? its latin name - E. sosorum, for S.O.S. - struck me as a lovely and fitting tribute. i really wanted to include it in my study, but i couldn't get permission to clear and stain any specimens - alas! that said, no, i haven't been able to access your diary recently, but i don't think i have a current p/w.

from raven72d :

You may just have to e-mail me more... I do enjoy hearing from you...

from raven72d :

You keep changing passwords, and I never get to read you on a consistent basis.

from thole :

named for the "save our springs" conservation group, right? i know the genus Eurycea is in the midst of revision right now, and it will be interesting to see where these little guys fall out.

from raven72d :

I insist that any girl in my life and/or bed be intelligent and literate. It's only girls who are well-read, who are bright and clever, who'll see anything attractive in me. If they can see me as a literary character or see being with me as part of a complex game, or being inside a film, then...I have a chance. I've dated science girls-- computer and geology and engineering types don't like me, biologists and physicists and complexity theory girls do find me fun. And since I talk about books and films and ideas and jeux d'esprit, I can get responses only from bright, clever girls. If anyone cares about money, sports, building/repairs, cars, local events, careers, local politics... well: I know nothing whatsoever about those things.

from raven72d :

e-mail me soon... i miss exchanging thoughts...and i still don't have a p/w here...

from raven72d :

All the best at Chrismukkah, lovely one! Stay in touch!

from raven72d :

Do drop me an e-mail once in a while...

from raven72d :

Happy November... I do hope you'll update soon.

from this-is-real :

Hi-ya Tia I leave my diary on myspace now, just so you know. I was very sad to follow the election on Tuesday night and Wednesday morning. I�m even more sad knowing that several of my friends back home (well, they were friends years ago) voted for Bush. The worst part of it all, of course, is that I still live in Texas, otherwise known as Red County. I almost visited you�or I would be almost visiting you next Friday. There�s a big music theory conference in Seattle that I was going to attended (but decided I couldn�t afford it). That�s my new discipline, btw- I�m going to study music theory at one of the following schools next fall: University of Chicago, Yale, University of Pennsylvania, Columbia, CUNY, Madison-Wisconsin, or, if something goes terribly wrong, UT or Harvard. But so far all my advisors and professors are leaning towards the beginnings of the list. I�m very nervous, but my papers seem to be pretty good, and I have taken the GRE (I�m taking it again in two weeks�this time I�m actually going to look over a practice test and sleep the night before...oh, and catch the bus)�my score is �good enough�, but not top tier. I think I was in about the 12th percentile over-all for my discipline. I�m hoping to get in the top 5 at least. I hope your schooling and life are going well. I haven�t been keeping up with your writing, but I�m guessing things have got to be pretty good- you seemed to be very happy around your last big trip around the world. I still think of you�you�re not forgotten. :) joseph

from raven72d :

My own hope is that Cat Stevens was deported by security agents who'd been forced to hear "Morning Has Broken" one too many times on 8-track when they were kids. If so, Cat Stevens ("Yusuf Islam" = "Joe Islam") was lucky not to be summarily executed.

from thole :

i was more captivated by how the story was crafted than by the story itself, if that makes sense - the means by which the narrator seeks to create a sense of order in an uncertain world, and how his emotional disconnect heightens the emotional impact of the story. i'd say "the curious incident..." is definitely worth reading, even if i wouldn't put it on my top-ten favorites list of all time. if you decide to pick it up, i'd be very interested in hearing your thoughts..

from raven72d :

and where have you gone?

from raven72d :

everyone needs one. and a pocket theodolite.

from raven72d :

Everyone needs a lithotripter.

from odalisk :

just something my family does every year. The fewer people around the better, IMHO - that's the nice thing about the backcountry, why it's so pristine. The Sierra Club might organize trips of some kind though.

from raven72d :

I so desperately need a pocket theodolite...

from raven72d :

Consistency... I'm too fickle and moody and tactically-oriented for consistency.

from nicoleprice :

Hi Amarantha! I hope you are doing GREAT. I started writing in nicoleprice again. Life's been great and hope you are doing well. Wonder if I could have a password to read your diary? Of course, don't feel you must. I would understand if you'd rather not give it out. At any rate, take good care. -Melissa

from thole :

it was a wonderful field season, but homesickness struck hard at the end. i am happy to be back!

from raven72d :

I know the feeling. Garage sales are always more trouble than they're worth. When do you make the final move?

from raven72d :

The garage sale sounds scary...

from raven72d :

how's the weekend?

from raven72d :

My parents always felt the same about me... That I'd thrown away my potential...

from raven72d :

What is it about "how you turned out" that they object to?

from raven72d :

I'm not good at all with people. I don't do well with people at all. Puppies are better, and I do well with them. And I have stufflings. My small stufflings will last unchanged as long as I last... And they are my best friends, these days. I read to them some nights.

from raven72d :

I treasure a doggie as a friend, and I'm kinder to friends than to the abstract world...

from raven72d :

I grew up with sci-fi, and I discovered Japanese anime in my later years... So robots have always meant something emotional to me. But a doggie isn't a soulless machine. They offer affection and loyalty; they're worried about us and can sense our happiness. Right now I only have my stufflings, but I'd treasure a real corgi or basset hound as a friend...

from raven72d :

Four months of sunless winter is the kind of weather I like... I'm utterly averse to heat and humidity and bright sun... But-- do send your p/w again (please) and do stay in touch!

from raven72d :

Seattle sounds lovely.

from raven72d :

Short stories by Susan Minot... Always excellent. And Eve babitz's short story collections, too.

from raven72d :

I haven't heard from you for a while... How have you been? And what are you reading?

from thole :

i study old-school anatomy and functional morphology in a phylogenetic context. i'm specifically interested in the interaction between skeletal structure and function (there's the physics!), and its implications for the study of evolutionary relationships. recently, i'm becoming more involved with molecular systematics and the technical aspects of determining phylogeny. so basically, i'm your most generalized breed of nerd - i get to play with animals, fossils, quantitative models and cool machines!

from thole :

it's so nice of you to care :)

from nous :

I'm glad you enjoyed that entry! 'Twas an unforgettable weekend for all in attendance. All I know about you/your diary is via your notes and profile pages. But at least I know that I got you smiling :)

from odalisk :

yeah, the pecan pie ice cream was either at Toscanini's (which is right on Harvard square) or Christina's (which is in Inman square - a little harder to find, but they have better ice cream). I'd guess Toscanini's for the pecan. The veggie restaurant I like the best is Veggie Planet, which is right off Harvard square...yeesh, how to describe where? if you walk through the Coop Bookstore, enter from the square and then exit at the back, turn right, Veggie Planet is right there. They have really good, fairly cheap veggie fare, nothing ethnic though. Central Square is the place to go for ethnic foods, there's lots of selection. Glad to help! PS - I am so jealous! I've always wanted to visit Dubai! And what are you up to in Cambridge?

from odalisk :

If you want to hear Australian music, listen to JJJ. They play a lot of Australian alternative bands and a lot of them are pretty good. There are also a whole host of Australian soaps, TV shows, etc. And the Australians don't have a *bigger* drug problem - they just deal with drugs differently. For example, marijuana is decriminalized. Every citizen has the right to grow two plants for personal use, but dealers can still be arrested. I think they're trying to find ways to deal with harsher drugs that don't encourage their use but also discourage side-effects. There are, I think, shooting galleries in Sydney where a nurse is always on hand, for example. Tattersall's is an English institution of venerable old age.

from this-is-real :

can't access your site anymore, didn't know if this was intentional. hope you are doing well! joseph

from odalisk :

Hmmm. Quite a mountain of questions. If you are very particular about your facial soap, yes, I would bring a six month supply. I've never seen Aveeno outside the US, but I've never looked, either. Facial soap tends to be more compact, so it's possible to carry it...but for things you'll use in more bulk, shampoo, body soaps, etc., unless you'll die without exactly your brand, it's always fun to try the stuff you can get in different countries. As for clothes - I always end up buying clothes when I travel, and I never have a hard time finding clothes to buy, but it all depends on what you think 'expensive' means, and your familiarity with a place...these are *sooo* dependent on your means and tastes. Then there's the time issue. Just thinking of the Paris sales makes me drool - but they only come twice a year (january & july), so you either are there at a time when you can buy designer duds for less than the cost of a t-shirt at the Gap, or you aren't...Australia, just as a rule of thumb, is about half as expensive as the states. So whatever you expect from a particular environment in the States - say, expensive city or restaurant or cheap city or restaurant - just go 50% and you'll have a fair idea. And there are definitely cute boutiques. Keep in mind that travel in Western Europe is *exceedingly* expensive. In places like Paris & London you will spend MUCH more money than you think you will - at least, my experience is that if you want to get by on like $40 in London you're eating two bags of fries a day, trying to jump the turnstiles on the tube, and only going to the free museums. And I had free lodging. Maybe if you have more specific questions I could give you better advice. Like, I know some cool stores in Paris, for example. And there are some European chain stores that you'll figure out on your own (Zara and Mango)...if you are interested, plan on buying Camper shoes in Spain, they are MUCH MUCH cheaper there, I've never been to Portugal and it never occured to me to shop for clothes in Greece...as a rule of thumb, my dad, who has always been a big traveler, always told me to pack less and buy stuff when you're there if you have to...and it's a piece of advice I've much taken to heart, it's always fun to come back with things, even if it's just a toothbrush or deoderant. Hmmm. I don't know much about good clothes shopping in Italy. Or shoes, for that matter. I don't buy leather. Hmmm. Well, I hope that helps and just ask more questions if you want more particular advice that I could maybe help out with.

from nicoleprice :

Hi there, you wonderful gal, you. I'm sorry I haven't been in Nicole Price for so long. But it's just not where I want to write anymore. I just feel so ... done with it. I'm sure you can empathize... Your Austin peeping Tom wasn't me. Do you think it just might have been Ursa Minor 2, or Knock-first? I hope you discover it's just a nice, normal cool person, and not some knucklehead looking to bother you. Hope your job & studies are going well, and more than that, I hope you always demand the best for yourself. You deserve it. -Melissa

from thole :

your very nice note cheered me up quite a bit. thank you.

from thole :

as i watched her walking up the street, wearing marc jacobs heels and dragging my trash bin behind her, my first impulse was to check the bushes for people with lab coats and clipboards. it felt so much like one of those classic psychology experiments that tested social norms.

from odalisk :

Bostonians may not grow pecans, but they do eat more ice cream per capita than any other population in the country. On average, about a scoop a day, every day. So there are lots of funky, local ice cream stores all over the city.

from thole :

i am in an interdepartmental phd program in anthropological sciences, so i take courses through the anthropology department, biomedical engineering, anatomical sciences and the medical school. it's a great setup. (mostly, i just tell people i study biomechanics, so i don't have to explain that i am not the kind of anthropologist who studies other cultures.)

from thole :

did i ever mention how much i liked your diary? i always meant to.

from odalisk :

Thanks for your message. I think that what you wrote is pretty much exactly right. It's like being put into a crucible; I'll be torn apart before I get put back together again. And I guess I'm hoping I'll like the results. But that doesn't make it fun.

from this-is-real :

Sorry to hear that your living situation isn't so hot...when I called you several weeks ago it was about that- I was going to see if you needed a place to stay (you mentioned in August having to move out). I happen to live in a five bedroom house. Anyways, I wish you the best. Good luck with the apps...I have to fill quite a few out myself here in a few weeks. And good luck with Mic...he's a nice guy. bybye.

from odalisk :

I'm just having problems obtaining groceries here PERIOD. There aren't a lot of places that are accessible to me; I either have to walk 20 minutes or take the subway...thinking about having to spend an hour buying milk every time I want milk is just depressing. Usually, rennet is rennet - if you want vegetarian cheeses, look for "Microbial Rennet" or cheeses that say rennet-free or are marked as vegetarian. Places like Whole Foods usually have some. As a rule, hard cheeses are rarely vegetarian and soft cheeses (like mozzerella) are much more likely to be. So if you have to guess...there's a sort of rule to work by.

from raven72d :

Well, I miss you. And I want a 14-oz. veal chop. There's no connection... I just like the thought of Smith & Wollensky.

from odalisk :

hey. Would you mind emailing me the password to your diary? At odalisk and diaryland.

from raven72d :

Definitely read Gibson's "Pattern Recognition".

from raven72d :

I can use sines and co-sines... I just don't know what CSC and SEC *do*...

from raven72d :

I've lawys been afraid of secants and (especially) co-secants. I like arc-tangents, but CSC and SEC scare me. I have no idea what they *do*. They may be tools of the Manx or the vile Andaman Islanders.

from youaremystar :

I think that the scientist you list in your profile would spell his name 'Alessandro'. My name is 'Alessandra', and it's spelt with the traditional Italian spelling. Most people try to spell my name like you spelt his though (except feminine obviously) or like this- Allysandra. But, it is Alessandra/Alessandro.

from raven72d :

I learned languages when I did my History doctorate. I want to learn more of them-- Japanese, Persian --just to know them, to be able to read in the original.

from raven72d :

Ummmm... because Estonia is actually Valinor? Because it's mist-shrouded and forested and fascinating?

from raven72d :

Estonia. You must visit Estonia.

from raven72d :

I thought you had, but I can't access my yahoo e-mail here on the library computers, and I hadn't written anything down. I'm glad you liked the Musil... I hope you'll read Murakami's "Wild Sheep Chase" and "Wind Up Bird Chronicle"...

from this-is-real :

howdy :) tried to address your question a bit in my last entry. Hope all is well with you...stopped reading your diary, so I have no idea what's up. best wishes- this-is-real.

from ursaminor2 :

hehe your last entry made me laugh

from nicoleprice :

Hi Sweets! Thank you very very much for your words. I am grateful for them. And respect yours as well. Tanks, Sis!

from ursaminor2 :

Ick you must feel very voilated....I am so sorry. How did she know you had one to peek at!? Do you think he went snooping around in your computer? Or did you tell someone about it? I hope you have given him an earful!

from ursaminor2 :

That is awfully strange tia. I want so badly to do the same thing, but I am afraid to hurt peoples feelngs. Many of the people I want to password protect against now, read my stuff every week, and requested password..I don'tknow what to do. It kinda sucks. How do you know how many people are clicking on your diary? Is it just a jelly counter or do yu have something through diaryland? I could really use that info....

from raven72d :

Tell me about your classes... And go to Europe if you can!

from ursaminor2 :

Stopped by to drink in a bit of you. Glad to see you are well.

from raven72d :

What lovely writing! Never let stories slip through your fingers. Carry a notebook. Remember everything. And write. (I like beat-up old Volvos, by the way...)

from ursaminor2 :

good good she is back! Mel is leaving her job in two weeks........

from nicoleprice :

BAD-ASS SISTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh, how good it is to see an update, old girl! You may not have known it, but your presence was missed. Hope your walkabout was fun and relaxing.

from ursaminor2 :

sorry to hear about your friend. that is really, really sad. I am so sorry. I do know how you feel. I lost two of my good friends. One I write about my journal "brandon" he was only 20. The other the hardest one for us so far was mike. I wrote about that in "just another ordinary day". It is alwasy a terrible shock when something like that happens. Makes us wish we were closer, maybe said more, I dunno did something....more. No matter how close you are, it is never enough. LIFE is never enough.

from nicoleprice :

Hi Beautiful! Did Diaryland ever send you any kind of notice about your password? I assigned you one. Didja ever get it? Or is that my job, to notify people of their passwords.... Hmmm.

from ursaminor2 :

Thanks for coming out last night it was fun to meet you. As for the prank contest, hmmmmmmmm, theres the fish under the backseat of the car....that is always effective...it could take him a while to figure out where the smell is coming from if you are clever and can actually work it up inside the underside of the seat. Yupers bones scales or anything make a mighty fine smell. It need not cause damage either, so that none of it isnt easily removable, keep it inside a baggy just make sure it is open. ta-ta

from ursaminor2 :

YEAH! FUN! I will be there as well and yes your picture worked and you are most disgustingly gorgeous! I think melissa (nicoleprice) may be coming too, so you will get to meet her with some luck. If the date on your tickets is no longer good don't worry. I will tell the door guy to go ahead and accept it anyway. I used to have a picture of me linked to my site but took it off. Did you ever see it? I am about 5'8 auburn hair and it will be kinda curly/wavy tomorrow. I could have emailed you a picture if I had remembered to save your email address.....te-hehe...sorry. I wonder if it is linked to your page? I will look. If not you can get mine from my diary. Take care!

from barefootsage :

I think Lawrence was the Prince of literature,and Prince is the Lawrence of music. Have you ever read any of Lawrence's "fascist novels" (such as Kangaroo and The Plumed Serpent)? Does sex as religion culminate in human sacrifice?

from nicoleprice :

Hi sweet thing! I am plodding off from diaryland now. If you like, you are most-definitely welcome to note me at (written-out for security reasons) flightlinegirltwothousandthreeatyahoodotcom. If you choose not to, I certainly would understand. Have a fabulous semester and never forget: You are the Jaguar. The boy is just the Blaupunkt. I will keep that in mind myself as well. Big love from me to you, sis. -Melissa

from nicoleprice :

Hi Girlie-Girl! You were right - Scoob is a cat. Did the Dramamine help with her/his nerves too?

from ursaminor2 :

Glad you got them but don't let that make you feel obligated. We could always send ya more or leave your name at the door anytime. I just want you to always feel welcome.

from ursaminor2 :

whew! Thought for a second there you would hate me for having red hair. hehe. Sorry to hear about the school stuff. Hang in there. If ya email me your address I will mail you two tickets for free entry into our next show. Use them whenever you feel the need to get out. It sounds like you need a break.

from invisibledon :

Thanks for playing in the neighborhood

from iamemilie :

Thanks so much for the guest-book-note support you've been giving me. It helps to have people who don't know you, but care about what you're going through. Especially when sometimes you feel like the people who do know you, don't care.

from ursaminor2 :

It is humbling for me to have your respect. The fact that you remember to stop in once in a while and always have something nice to say makes me happy. Thank you and thank you for the encouragement that you always offer me either through your comments, or through your writings. Every time I stop by your journal I come away with something insightful and positive.

from odalisk :

Are you sure it wasn't Claude Levi-Strauss? That's who I'm reading right now. He's important. Chomsky is good. I think he owes a lot to Bourdieu, who I think is better, but Chomsky is a much easier read and has a very similar, and more American-centric, content.

from nicoleprice :

awww...smiling now. You ROCK, Girlie-girl. Thanks!!

from nicoleprice :

I'm a new fan of yours. I sure like your mind. And am now hooked on your diary. Thanks for keeping one! Have a great weekend! - Melissa

from refusal :

I can't believe you just made me search the web for "laughing at small penises". But anyhow. With that google hit you had, the Google computers only check web pages every so often, so they don't see every diary entry, and it's quite random as to whether they find a specific page or not, since they have to follow a link from somewhere else (like another diary page, someone else's diary, or a diaryland index thing). But I don't think anyone's been posting your entries anywhere. The Google spider (the bot that looks for and indexes webpages) just stumbled across it by chance. (And it displays without a "www" at the start because diaryland pages don't have "www." at the start, since that kind of thing is optional for whoever runs the site to specify.) If you want to stop Google showing up your website, there's instructions on Diaryland under "Help Section and FAQs"->"miscellaneous stuff", but I've never tried it, since I'm a hits slut. Hope this helps. And I like your diary (even if, for me, Texas=hell).

from ursaminor2 :

not at all, thanks for the compliment! I hope you are having a great spring break! take care!

from ursaminor2 :

ick, you are kinda making me regret deleting that yesterday without saving it to my private journal at least. You must have read it right before I did that. I want to be honest and say exactly what I am thinking, but sometimes when I do it just reminds me more what I want to forget. Everytime I came to my journal having that there reminded me. It made me feel sick so I erased it, leaving only the quote. Maybe I made a mistake....who knows, yet another unanswerable question.

from ursaminor2 :

hehe, I just read your last entry. My husband as you know, I am sure, is a pianist. He had a crush on me for a year before I even noticed him. When I did, it was because I was walking through the student union and I heard this music and followed it to the source. The source was Nic. We have been married 8 years now. He is still my best friend and fills the house with music everyday. Right now he is doing a reworking of vivaldi's movement, Winter. He was never what I would have called "hot" but he has it where it counts, and through everything there is music. You said some things in my notes I hadn't thought about. EW! @#$%*&! Thanks for the understanding though. I am still very unsure about this whole thing. I tagged an update on yesterdays entry and will continue to do so until it is resolved. Wish me luck! I will be thinking about you in your quest to understand what you are searching for.

from ursaminor2 :

Thanks for the birthday wishes! I know he is playing here in town soon but I can't remember when. I will let ya know when I find out. I go to read your diary now....why don't I do that before I note?

from a-splinter :

Amarantha -- reading YOUR entry about your molestation made me sad. I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I could spout off some advice, but I don't think it would be very helpful in the long run. I'm glad my entry made you feel less alone. Because you're NOT alone. Maybe that's a point I should have stressed in my entry as well. There are many women, men and children that experience what we have experienced. And, it's NOT your fault at all. NOT at all. Thank you so much.

from odalisk :

I think that everybody with some amount of talent has to struggle with the issues that you're struggling with. Oddly enough, as far as I can tell the people who are best able to cope are ones who have suffered in some way. People who have been totally despairing tend to be more mindful all round, don't get teary-eyed at minor pitfalls, etc. But being a smart person and wondering if you're not smart enough, if you're getting overconfident, etc.; the problem would be if you weren't asking those questions. It's self-regulation; how are things going, how should they be? Anyhow, Lille isn't far from Belgium or Paris - maybe only a few hours on an express train - but I've never been. If you've never lived abroad before, the word on the street is definitely: you will not leave your home-city nearly as much as you imagine that you will. Just the train fare - which must be at least $35 each way from Lille, probably with a discount thrown in - is enough to make a young girl think twice.

from odalisk :

That's what all the people I visited in Rome were doing...the F scholarship. Where is your person headed?

from angellivia :

I'll have to remember and read that book! Glad I made your day, and thanks for stopping by... Liv xx

from bejaluna :

Anyway - thank you for filling out my survey. :) Glad you enjoyed it.

from bejaluna :

Eons ago you answered the "oddalphabet" survey - and asked this question of me: "name the most beautiful person you can think of. why are they beautiful to you?" My answer: Tori Amos. I have always found her incredibly beautiful both inside and out. She has this deep, thoughtful beauty - smart as a whip - and she has a real body, not one of those anorexic stick figures. She has hips and a belly and when she used to show her heart to her audience, it was raw and exposed. I am in awe of beauty like that.

from odalisk :

I didn't know you were also applying for grad school. Good luck! When do you find out? Is it sort of...er...right around now?

from iamemilie :

I totally know what you're talking about with the sexuality thing. Boys act as if girls aren't supposed to want it, they should be happy when they are with those of us who know how to be sexy. Bah on them!

from ursaminor2 :

hmmmmmmm hang out in smokey bar....see history in the making....smokey bar....history......smokey bar....ya, good choice, hope you have fun, take care!

from ursaminor2 :

IIIIIIIfffff ya plan on coming.....check out the new link on my site called "me and mine", so you know who you are looking for....

from ursaminor2 :

EEEEKKKKKK! You saw the new website before I did. IT WAS HORRIBLLLLLEEEE!!!! I took it off my site temporarily until we can work out something else. DAAAAAAAH.... see examples of PAST work before allowing someone to design your site. WHEW! Thanks for the kind words as always. I DO hope to see ya out there, if you feel up to it. If not, I am sure there will be other opportunities. You live in a co-op? Which one? I lived in a co-op called "V" when I was 12-14. I know weird huh. My mom was going back to school at UT. The co-op voted to make an exception to the no kids rule. I lived in a green room down the hall from her. It was cool. I think a frat house bought it out after I left. I go to poke around your journal now. Have a good day! (all of austin says: PRETTTTTTTTYYYYY sunshine!!!!!!)

from iamemilie :

I understand what you mean about Darcy and Elizabeth having sex, I just can't imaagine it at all (although I wouldn't mind having sex with A&E's Darcy, Colin Firth :) Anyways, thanks for the note and the guestbook comment, I enjoy reading your diary also.

from a-splinter :

Hiya. Thanks for signing my guestbook. And I'm glad you could relate, even though it sucks when you get those one or two line e-mails per every 7k or 8k e-mail you send. Really, nice friends they are huh? And then when you bring it up to them they have NO idea what you're bitchin' about. :o)

from ursaminor2 :

as for the Uncircumcised....er umhumm...presence lurking unseen in pants around the world. I quite agree, a very unpleasant surpirse. However, I would like to argue that even those can be gotten used to...maybe....not that I know.....well I have seen one, but...ew, yuk nevermind....

from ursaminor2 :

Happy Birthday! For some reason me and 90% of my girl friends all have birthdays in feb. weird huh? UMM band, oh ya gideons press is... sort of hmmmm similar to Yes or Rush, with a bit of Cold Play mixed in. That is the best I can do to describe it. It is what I call math rock. Music for musicians, because it is very technical. As for where the Steamboat is.....hmmm if ya go to my diary and click on the gideons press link I think there is directions on the web site. Anyway, I would love to meet you sometime. The nice thing about diaryland, is that you have everyone's life story on paper and it is easy to weed out the weirdos. Yeah for that! Take care!

from this-is-real :

happy birthday! if you needed a kiss that bad, you should have called! hope you get what you need!

from ranul :

actually, yes it was.

from ranul :

thanks, I read that poem in high school and it's always stuck with me.

from ursaminor2 :

I was just reading your diary and I must say you are SOOOOOO awesome. I am a bit sad that you are majoring in engineering. You would be a great writer if ya tried. So ya, I am reading, reading, reading, thinking la de daaaa.....she is so very cool, when all the sudden POW! You live in Austin! I do too! Maybe you can come out to one of my husbands gigs sometime. He is playing at the Steamboat Feb 12. 10:00 kinda sucky night, but it is a new venue for us and I guess giving crappy nights, to bands new to town, is an unwritten rule amongst club owners. oh well (sigh), I have a link to his band (Gideon's Press) on my site, but I am not sure if it is done being revised yet....I will have to check. Anyway, I will be reading you also! Thanks for the compliment, hope to meet you some time. Take care!

from ursaminor2 :

you left a note in iamemilie's diary that sounded just like me....dang......

from jason75 :

wow.. I am seeing all names I recognise and stuff.. a lesbian recruitment movie! ace! I cant really comment on facials and stuff but I love having female friends

from sianni :

I like noses too, sometimes the first thing i notice on a guy is his nose. I love well-shaped beautiful noses with character! none of this little poncy plastic nose thing, noses have to be well shaped and full of character :) Roman noses are tops! Ahhhh... noses :)

from ciaramyst :

Thank you for such a beautiful note. I really appreciate your support!!!

from odalisk :

I'm the same way with boys: it's not like I really want to get married anytime in the foreseeable future, but I have a hard time with relationships that I don't believe in. There's got to be some sense of possibility. Also - ack! - I blush to admit that I used to do *exactly* what you described in your last message: I would go to the library and hide, and shuffle in a corner, to read trashy romance novels (mostly Jude Deveraux, too: I've read everything by that woman...yikes) and then, more recently when my binges tend to come few and far between, sometimes I'll buy the books and rip the covers off so that nobody can see what I'm reading. Anyhow, it sounds like you are *very* mature about the men in your life, and we all make stupid mistakes (oh boy...), and, on top of it all...how hard is it to get over a creepo ex when you don't live in the same country as he does, hmm?

from this-is-real :

howdy girl. hope all is well with ya this semester. i read your journal for the first time in a while and it seemed like things were going well. i finally have my own room, thank goodness, so i'm much happier and more subdued than before. i hope your situation is better, too. take care!

from ciaramyst :

from odalisk :

that last entry was really beautiful.

from odalisk :

I find that getting better at masturbating made me enjoy sex much more...like, I had a longish dry spell and so it was worth my time and effort to work on the manual stimulation, and then the next time I had sex I just felt much more open and had an easier time enjoying myself. So...it can be worth it for many reasons...and I find that it does get better, I mean, it can be nice to work out some kinks in private...argh, sorry, I'm embarassed. Anyhow, thanks for you entry from yesterday.

from odalisk :

Hello. Thanks for the nice comment you have about me. I just read your entry for today and related to it on about a thousand levels...I mean, if you've been reading my diary you've probably read me saying most of the same stuff in my own way. It's strange, fluctuating between the need for stability and the need for risks and uncertainty, and being 21 is - as far as I can tell - about this tremendous craving for both.

from this-is-real :

Please don't give my stuff to goodwill. I would appreciate it if you would return it. I also have some of your stuff. Thanks

from dick-thehomo :

Is "joe" free tomorrow night, 7-ish? He sounds sex-ay...(especially if hes a birt boy, mm mmm) Chadwick~ xoxo

from blueeyedboy :

From your writing that I have read, you are an exceptional person. Normally I would spout off some advice or some such about your current situation, but I think you understand what you should understand. I do wish you luck though. And a peaceful resolution.

from jason75 :

Ithink the easiest way to define love is to not bother, to nbot think about it and to just wait. You know when you are in love, you know the feeling and it is so overwhelming that it is impossible to miss it. Just enjoy it, sit back and smile and let it engulf you.

from this-is-real :

hello how are you.

back to amarantha21's profile
recommend this diary to a pal?

Other diaries starting with the letter:
a b c d e f g h i j k l m n o p q r s t u v w x y z

Back to Diaryland