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Does Imposter Syndrome have a YouTube channel or anything else public? My searches return nothing other than offers to help me with my affliction, lol. Oh, and start posting those shagging colloquialisms, willya? Some of us need fresh ones. Thank you.

from browndamask :

Thanks! I fully acknowledge that my relationship is at least 75% fate, dumb luck, whatever you want to call it. I made a series of out-of-character, impulsive decisions when I was 24, and somehow it all worked out. Having the right person makes the minutiae a lot more tolerable. Heather sounds amazing, btw. Having someone that truly listens to you is so important.

from browndamask :

My husband has been playing with the same guys for almost the last 20 years. Even when he says they’ve had a ‘bad show’… 9 times of of 10 the mistakes are things the audience won’t pick up on. They’ll remember the energy you brought more than a couple of slips.

from browndamask :

mental snapshots are the best

from alliprincess :

Thank you so much for your message, I really appreciated it! Also, I think it was probably the first message I've received on here in about a decade. The Empire Records quote was perfect. I flipped through a few posts of yours and really loved them, especially your most current, I know exactly the feeling you meant, and felt like I was on my 16 year old self's bed, listening to Everclear. I loved that you commented on your diary's 20th birthday. I used to acknowledge this diary's birthday, and it will turn 20 next month!

from talkingmoon :

❤️

from jimbostaxi :

Well, if that position ever needs an assistant I'm qualified. Lol

from littlesushi :

Hammock is totally up my alley. It gives me mogwai vibes, one of my very favorite bands. Thank you :)

from jimbostaxi :

With all this turmoil going on a bowl of hot soup and a carefree child existence is looking mighty good right now. Lol. Thanks for the note! :)

from littlesushi :

Thank you for the rec :) will check them out!

from littlesushi :

disintegration never fails to amaze me. and yes <3 pornography <3

from jimbostaxi :

Hahaha I know right. Thanks for the note I'm glad someone can relate. :)

from littlesushi :

i really like your writing.

from jimbostaxi :

Yeah, it's like if I have to self-censor my posts then what's the point of posting anything? I've had this very same discussion with a few of my Dland buds.

from dangerspouse :

Dude, if you're worried that you can't write in your own diary without suffering judgement...lock it. Only give the password to those you trust - or fuck it, no one. Don't just throw your hands up and sulk off. Hey, congrats on the kid! I personally would have lobbied harder for "Zebra", but...well, that's probably why my wife doesn't leave decisions like that to me. Ah well. Good luck with the new album, and hope you guys had a rockin' Christmas!

from jimbostaxi :

Thank you for adding me. :)

from catsoul :

12.18.2021. Hi there. Just wanted to let you know that I have started to read your words. I also see that you read one of my friends, Jimbo. He was one of my first readers a couple of decades ago on here. So you write from your soul as it should be. Peace within yourself man. =^..^=

from loveherwell :

i think you're absolutely right. thank you for that note :)

from jimbostaxi :

I'm back at the hospital right now and I'm going to try and shut my eyes for a few minutes. Thanks for the note! :)

from jimbostaxi :

It's your blog if people don't like the content they should go somewhere else.

from jimbostaxi :

If you are giving out passwords It would an honor to be one of your readers. If not I totally understand the need for privacy to vent one's thoughts. Have a great day!

from talkingmoon :

Josh.....I never ever ever meant that your friendship was a burden. And if Hailey thinks you should tell me how you feel, why not play it for Hailey and have her tell you how she feels. I don't want to feel guilty about our friendship. You know I read your diary, so in a way I feel like you're trying to manipulate me. You have held your friendship hostage over the years, been rude to me when I haven't been the friend you wanted me to be... I tell you in a message how I feel and then you make me out to be the bad guy? This isn't fair.

from zenayda :

March 15 2021: Comment from a rando, this time a middle-aged woman in the USA. Seems like the most you can do is apologize and, if possible, make amends. To her, yes, of course. But also to yourself. I am learning the art of that these days, myself. Forgiving oneself is probably the most difficult kind of forgiveness there is. P.S. If you are talking about StepfordTart in your previous entry, AKA Stepfie, she was an amazing woman and I miss her--dland hasn't been the same since she passed. A lot of the fun went out of my Facebook with her passing, as well. I hear you on reflecting on how you will be remembered. Thing is, that's the first step. Now I'mma get all hokey here because I am floored by something I recently tripped over on YouTube that made such utter sense to me that I am still a bit gobsmacked by it. Who knew Matthew McConaughey was such a philosopher? Not me. But here: https://youtu.be/p0p1fjLPjYQ

from jimbostaxi :

Scrolling through saw your diary clicked on it. Stepfordtart was good people and I was fortunate to have exchanged a few notes with her before she passed. Being a dad is a wonderful thing don't miss a second of it.

from princesjazmo :

someone you went to school with DOES still come here, albeit not regularly. i'm sorry to hear about the divorce, that super sucks. i'm not great at the advice, but i can listen. or maybe i can interest you in a sarcastic comment?

from stepfordtart :

Deffo go for the audition! The worst that could happen is nothing! s x

from stepfordtart :

Try telling her she's an amazing friend, maybe? Its always nice to hear that from someone. And then maybe spring for pizza after the show? ;-) s x

from stepfordtart :

Hey! I just took a stroll through your archives. The entry "A questionable narrator" is absolutely SPOT ON! I laughed far too much, in a 'been there, done that' kind of way. As Im married to a musician I can identify with some of the other stuff too, so Im going to add you, if thats OK. s x

from myagi :

Thank you! I have really amazing students--they work really hard, on and off the stage. I'm blessed every day to come to work with my heroes.

from princesjazmo :

i agree with you being objective here. i don't care who it is, if one parent is going to talk shit about the other's ability to parent or love their child IN FRONT OF said child, they are an asshole and are automatically a bad parent not matter what else they've done. it is our job as parents to show our children how to treat others less fortunate, at least to a certain extent, because its also our responsibility to show them when to stop taking the shit that we are being dealt. i hope starla breaks some legs in the court room, that 'father' doesn't deserve to be one.

from nelapsi :

Its a toss up between Science and Command. I admire Dr. Krusher and would love to work along beside her. But the excitment that thrills me is on the Bridge! Sure I could be a science operator on the Bridge (Like Dax in DS9's Space Station) but I want to be in command! Captain Geiger. Such a ring! :) How about you? If we had a Star Fleet Acadamy, would you join? I fancy flying a space ship, fighting the Romulins... would be similar to flying over Gotham seaking crime!

from princesjazmo :

about your last entry, i always imagine myself as the 'superhero auditor'. i meet a superhero at a coffee shop and ask him if it was necessary to fight near the newest skyscraper. why doesn't he just fight in a park, landscaping is so much less expensive than construction. in these day dreams i am also a short, balding middle-aged man who uses a hankie to dab the sweat off his brow!

from nelapsi :

I've embraced my inner Trekkie and enjoy long discussions on Cardassian terrist practices, Ferengi Rules Of Acquisition, and Klingon spelling b's. Its good to be a geek, and even better with a geek to geek-out with. Although, rather a geek or nerd - I fancy myself a Trekker. :)

from talkingmoon :

update your mufuckin diary. i check at least once a week

from nelapsi :

I still read, Josh and I like that you update.

from talkingmoon :

i think you are a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for. i don't believe the doctors for a second and i don't believe that putting a label on things is going to make you any better. i think you should call in sick and drive somewhere beautiful and touch the actual earth and water. not man-rolled grass. i think anyone who doesn't feel that they are losing their own mind is actually losing it. i think you're just fine and nobody is letting you be.

from myagi :

Google "Desiderata." It's a beautiful view of life, an amazing poem, and a bringer of peace.

from myagi :

Have you read Thompson's "Better than Sex: Confessions of a Political Junkie?" It's actually my favorite of his, but I don't know how fantastic it would be if you're not from the Dukakis era--if you read it let me know what you think.

from myagi :

"And how the fuck did Jennifer not get fired? I remember protesting Tim Rosandik's efforts to get rid of her, and calling all the news stations to try and reprieve the punishment. But, looking back that class wasn't really the most ethical education. Her students were dry fucking each other, for Christ's sake. We skipped class, we hung around the teacher's house. I'm surprised Drama wasn't shut down and written out of the curriculum." Wow. Thanks.

from princesjazmo :

hello. when i check my buddylist i always look over at the users online and i only recognize myself. but here you are! it has been quite awhile.

from kibitzer :

Gurgle and some stuff about a bird... I miss you Josh! We should hang out again. For real this time. Chat and catch up. Small group coffee date maybe. I'd like ta get to know your new girl!!! 04-10-08

from phatgrrl :

tried to leave a gbook entry got an error, so sorry if this is duplicated. Interesting read and nice layout. I like that you have a lot to say, some diaries are short. I was out searching for new reads cuz everyong on my list hasn't written in months.

from sadistiksoul :

tiffy -- manda's friend.

from sadistiksoul :

can i be in one?

from princesjazmo :

I would like to hold the boom! If you don't have one, I will make one! And I would like to also hold the clapper thing "scene 2, take 74 HIKE!" I will make on of those too if you don't have one!

from myagi :

That is absolutely amazing. I leave tomorrow for my month in Washington...I'd love to see it when I get back? Pizza, beer, and catching up mayhap?

from talkingmoon :

Hello sir, I just wanted to say hello and wish you a happy belated birthday. I am so sorry about the belated part. It's so embarrassing, almost insulting. I really should keep everyone's bdays in a notebook. But anywho, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! My 21st wasn't great either. AT ALL. But we've got the rest of our lives to have happy birthdays, and 21 is just a number.

from nelapsi :

Happy Birthday!!! (three hours and twenty minutes late) Kristy has been trying to get a hold of you for a few hours but to no avail. *this is her angry face*

from talkingmoon :

WHATEVER FUCK NUTS!!!!!!! I'm going to find you a leading lady that's 1000000000x prettier. So fuck you cinco sexual wannabe!

from princesjazmo :

ya know, it really hurts to be removed from a buddy list!

from princesjazmo :

you should check your myspace mail if you haven't already

from nelapsi :

Yes. Thank you.

from nelapsi :

Seriously, I think I should be higher up on your buddy list. :P

from talkingmoon :

hey josh. i'll probably be giving you a call either sometime this week after 9pm, or this weekend sometime. sorry i haven't called you back yet. a lot is going on lately and im pretty stressed. i hope you're doing well.

from myagi :

PLEASE let me be in your films! I'm so glad you're coming home...I miss you.

from talkingmoon :

i tried to call you a couple of times, but i guess your not in a service area or something. i am currently out of minutes, so if you want, you can contact me sometime this weekend. we will lay down some chit chat

from talkingmoon :

one more thing. throughout all of the things that popped into my head about why i should or shouldn't quit my job, one of the things you told me came to me. our customers were just so despicable. just "too stupid to live".

from talkingmoon :

i guess i was just waiting for the word to spread around. i called jessica, mike called me, i updated my diary just wanting you to stumble upon it. i really didn't think you'd be offended, but I see what I've done now. i should've called you because you have always been so supportive of me, but so many things came up and things were crazy for a while. i love you josh. thank you for always helping me reach my dreams just by your encouragement alone. there are a few scenes i've come up with for your movie just by the ideas real people riding the bus and coming into work give me. a lot of beautiful mistakes, a lot of crazies, a lot of everything. i update when i think you should know something, because i know you still come around here. i apologize even though it isn't worth much. but you're one that i owe a big thank you to. i hope you can forgive me. but i know what i need to do is call you and make it right

from nelapsi :

I would love to.

from nelapsi :

I do.

from talkingmoon :

Joshua! Hello buddy! I miss you too! And I hope all is well with you and J-dawg. Haha, I'm so suave. Just kidding, I'm retarded. There's a lot to do here, but nobody to do it with. I'm finally shaking off my freaked out spell. Turns out that when you turn on your confidence, everybody doesn't attack you all at once. Did you read that entry of mine? Anywho, you take care. Oh yeah, I have an audition coming up soon and I have no idea how to blow them away. Any suggestions?

from nelapsi :

Thanks for the invite. I wont be able to confirm anything until I have more information, so let me know when you have it.

from myagi :

And let's not forget singing "Origin of Love" with the fabulous Ms. Jennifer Miller!

from myagi :

Saw Clerks II...returned your phone call but couldn't understand the other number on your voice mail. Give me a call. What's the time difference?

from talkingmoon :

The sister of yours that I had never met... I met her yesterday at Cliff's Country Market.

from myagi :

Oh no, no, no...Batman Begins rocked my whole world. I had huge expectations for it and it exceeded every one of them. Am I the one that didn't like it? Surely you jest, good sir! I heard the Heath story from a friend, and found a discussion board about it, but I haven't found an "official" source yet. Have you?

from myagi :

I am so excited to see this movie, but I am forcing myself to wait until I get back to Idaho--a reward for finishing my first year in the MA program. Now I don't know if I can wait...I was so scared it was going to suck, but if you, being the Smith Afficionado that you are loved it, then I know it will be awesome.

from myagi :

What happened? I love you...

from myagi :

Sometimes I worry that nobody finds my penis impressive...love the layout, by the way.

from italiansoda :

You should come to the restaurant more often and say "Hi!". And eat. Food is good.

from shwroder :

hello. good times? going good? fill me in. its been a while. :)

from nelapsi :

Wow, thank you. I seriously needed that. Its been an amazingly difficult week and that put a good smile on me. *kiss*

from nelapsi :

Could you do me a huge favor? Tell me one positive thing you remember about me. I'm despritly trying to remember/rebuild myself and who to help me better than you?

from italiansoda :

Alright, now let me know how much, where, when, and all that fun junk! [email protected]

from italiansoda :

you'll have to give me more details on what it is forme to decide if i want it!

from princesjazmo :

leave eric estrada and bob saget alone!

from naima101 :

Wow, that's a mean hangover. Hey, put me on your list...bitch. ;o)

from nelapsi :

It was worth the wait. :)

from sundance-99 :

Hey Josho, I left a message on yer machine yesterday, didn't know if you got it so I thought I'd leave a note. *smiley face* As you can probably tell by this moment I didn' make it back to caldwell this weekend. We watched robin hood though, fuckin awesome. It's in good hands and sitting on my dvd shelf safely, so you'll get it back soon in the same condition you left it. *smiley face* Well, I love you and I'll see ya soon. Later sexy Josh!

from littleafrob :

i would like to part of any project you can come up with!

from naima101 :

Okie dokie. Not sure when I'll have time, got fuck loads of homework. Call me and I'll see what I'm doing.

from naima101 :

That could be most fun. Sounds good.

from nelapsi :

Perhaps I'm just over emotional. I wouldn't consider you inhuman or malicious. I have had the impression that you are against me; I'm glad to hear you aren't. To be honest, Its taken me fifteen minutes to write what I've wrote. Mostly everything got deleted. You should come to our house, everyone misses you, including myself. And thanks for signing the notes, it was FYI I needed to read.

from littleafrob :

Oh, there will be much calling. Lift

from talkingmoon :

Go Netherlands! We will win the war!!!

from mannymctowny :

hi josh. so, i see you all the time at hollywood video and i'm friends with your co-workers, but you and i never even acknowledge eachother. maybe we could change that since we're going to the same college and all. i really do miss you.

from littleafrob :

when you do your demo give me a copy! All Upper Body!

from myagi :

I miss you...not in a crazy stalker-type way which is what you might be thinking after my encounter with Steve at Hollywood, but in a profoundly deep way, like I've lost part of myself. My foot maybe, or my spleen, or my music.

from littleafrob :

give me a buzz sometime look me up or something!

from littleafrob :

dude i read the death and life of superman. i had no idea anyone else on the planet had ever read it.

from littleafrob :

dude i read the death and life of superman. i had no idea anyone else on the planet had ever read it.

from littleafrob :

ok i changed it!

from nelapsi :

"Consider the postage stamp: its usefulness consists in the ability to stick to one thing till it gets there." Love you...

from bunny46 :

So... we don't know eachother, but, I was talking to, well, I don't remember who, but, we were speaking about writer's block, and they said you were having one right now. Well, I also have suffered from this enough times to almost declare my writing abitlity dead, but, yet, I have some advice. Learn how to do a back flip on a trampoline. It gets your mind off everything else. It clears your mind and your soul and spirit... helps you find what's deep inside you, the stuff you really want to write about. It's what helped me, then again, I'm more than silly, but anywho, if you try it don't break your neck. Oh yeah, I'm summer by the way... so yeah. Good-luck and such.

from shwroder :

MISS YOU JOSHUA!! I want to see you sometime. No more hiding from me K :)

from myagi :

I miss you...please miss me as well.

from toddbooboo :

oh and by the way Knibb High Football RULES!!!

from toddbooboo :

Thanx for the advice. I really appreciate it. It means a lot to me. Thanx Josh. Honestly

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