messages to justanother-:
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from life4rent :
hey, i know it's been a while, a really long while since you last blessed us with your presence on these pages of diaryland that you could call your own. it wasn't till i was flicking through my old notes that i thought to come look at your diary, i can't believe it's been almost two years since you were last here. don't really know why i'm writing this or if you'll even read it. hope your ok. much love <333
from firestar05 :
Your diary is one of the best I've read since I came to diaryland. I can relate to it so well, especially when you talk about how you are always responsible for your friends' safety, even though you wish you could be as carefree as them - that's exactly how I am with my friends. I get sick of it. I like reading your diary cuz I know I'm not the only one dealing with that. Sometimes it feels like I'm the only one who worries.
from suicideinc :
i know you aren't updating anymore and i really miss you on diaryland. ::Sigh:: i just thought i would let you know how i enjoyed reading your diary.
from dragonwing88 :
Hi, I am adding you to my buddy list because I like the way you put things. I think that we have the same role with our friends, both of us are like rocks and mothers to everyone. ~Whitney
from spiffyclub :
hey madyson. it's alycia, from spiffyclub. i see that you've shut down this diary. i hope that you'll go and put up the new URL in spiffyclub. if not, i'll probably take you down in about a month or so. SO, i hope to hear from you soon, because i love your writing style. love, stars, and spiffiness, alycia
from lovemetwice :
if you move to somewhere else, will you let me know? ♥ iloveyou.
from cut-deeper :
You should honestly come back :(
from cut-deeper :
I love your diary so much. It's so beautiful. <3<3<3<3
from dangelic :
& i still haven't found another diary as good as yours. Honey i miss your words, come back one day? xxx
from dangelic :
& i still haven't found another diary as good as yours. Honey i miss your words, come back one day? xxx
from insanegerbil :
marilyn manson Slut Garden lyrics are messed up(melyrics.html)...he's not saying 'definate waste'..."I'm a VCR funeral OF DEAD MEMORY WASTE"..see?makes more sense now, doesn't it.
from elysium1982 :
look at my layout...isnt that something?
from guitarphreak :
hey....this is quite possibly the best diary ive ever come across-honestly. i love. your layouts are sooo amazing. do you let anyone use them?�?(hint hint, nudge nudge)..lol... anyways. take care. -nix
from gloryxxfades :
hey girl! you better tell me if you end up writing anywhere else. love yooou<3
from breathe-salt :
awww but...i'll miss you. if you end up somewhere else, let me know, mkay? love you dollface FOREVER<333
from morceaux :
darling, i'll miss reading your lovely words. if you care to share you're new home, i'd like to follow you there. stay beautiful, exoh.
from life4rent :
I'm going to miss you gorgeous. If you start to write anywhere else would you let me know where you are please? <3333333
from velvet-heart :
Where ever you end up going doll, I hope the change does you good. *hugs* Altho I'm not here at this diary anymore, you can find me at cross-wind if you like. In the meantime I will miss your heart warming words. Good luck on your journey love. ♥
from fadedxme :
aww. *blushes* you're too sweet. xoxox
from complexlogic :
Yet another layout that kicks ten kinds of ass :) And as for the last note you left me, of COURSE I'd be ok with you using one of my photos in a layout. In fact, I'd be super honored (but no pressure). And I definitelyDEFINITELY understand that whole roller-coaster feeling you're talking about. It's like we strive for so long looking for this perfect infinite happiness, often doubting it even exists, and when we finally grasp it (or something like it), we are stuck in disbelief. And our eyes shoot scared glances around us, wondering when everythings going to fall and disintigrate into nothing. Life's tragically ironic that way. But alas, it doesn't stop us from trying to find whatever it is that makes us feel alive. Take care love.
from takexmyxhand :
smiles** thank you love. i should track you down and make you not so lonely anymore. ;) i'm loving that new layout, mads. awesome. ♥ ♥ [[and pshht. i love you more.]
from breathe-salt :
oh gosh, i know how you feel. believe me. <3
from anhnie :
because you deserved some notelurvin too ♥
from x-girl-falls :
youre fucking beautiful.
from fadedxme :
i don't wanna be the rock for any other freaking person in this life either. hey, chickface, i know how you feel. I WANNA BE RECKLESS! i just wish it was easier. *many hugs* <333
from neon-nation :
one day me and you will go wild and forget all our worries. just me, you, laughter, pschydellica and the most incredible sunrise. <3<3
from heartslashed :
thank you so much for adding me. you make me smile. i'm adding you right back gorgeous. lots of love, xoxo Kait
from breathe-salt :
you're too kind, dollface. [and thanks for adding me. ♥]
from fadedxme :
thank you for adding me. you're more beautiful than anything i could say. xoxox
from takexmyxhand :
it seems as though we're going through the exact same thing. it's so good to know i'm not alone. i love you more. ♥
from parlance :
Go on and save yourself; take it out on me.
from takexmyxhand :
aww dont be sorry beautiful one. its okay. & just for the record, i love you more. ♥ ♥
from takexmyxhand :
ooh i fixed it. i'm so happy;) hugs. for being amazing. ♥ ps:add me to yr favs? [it would make me smile even bigger than i am right now]
from gloryxxfades :
you make me blush!! &i remember how you said you suck at html. you fully rock!<3
from takexmyxhand :
the font in my entries, sweets :)
from takexmyxhand :
ive got it up. looks damn amazing. only thing is,i cannot read the font on my computer. :( thank you though. i love you
from tiger--lily :
i love plastic tiaras, they rock. xx tigerlily
from and-i-said :
thx a million <3
from addict21 :
xoxo
from tiger--lily :
y'know... i honestly wish i knew someone like you. I want a friend like you to do all the things you do with. And i know this note may sound a little stalkerish... but i'm just a bit friend deprived at the moment.. all my friend's are too normal, they never wear jackie o sunglasses.... love always, tigerlily
from limestars- :
i am utterly in love with everything about you madyson. YOU ARE EFFING AMAZING. words don't even come close ♥
from takexmyxhand :
well, little lady, you've mad me blush red red red. and smile real big. and the layout you made me is fucking beautiful. im in love with it. can you send me the html via e-mail? thank you thank you. an amazing job. i love you. like..cookies. ♥
from gloryxxfades :
i am sooo jealous of your layout. especially your warm gun one<3
from complexlogic :
Sorry it took this long to respond dearie. So now onto the actual note. No worries that you don't remember the name of the band- namesless good music is still good music after all. And I simply adore your Sic Transit Gloria layout. Loved your last Beatles one as well. In fact, all your layouts are visual seduction (perfectly accompanied by visually addictive words). So fill me in on how your life is going, lovely, even if it's something I've already read. I miss us talking. Take care sweetie.
from and-i-said :
could you tell me where you got the font for the word "trigger" on your old layout? i lovelovelove it [& your diary].
from myxtherapy :
i'm typing another meaningless note while im supposed to be watching wrestlemania on my pretty colored tv. but oh well.. here i start. i was listening to a rock radio station and listening to words of hate and complete bullshit on in my head.. when i heard nirvana... soon after, a guy's broad voice came on there air.. yay me. guess what? he spoke about an interview kurt had done 8 months prior but was never release... and guess what again... kurt was gonna leave nirvana and join hole. kinda weird huh? guess courtney didnt know what she was gonna be missing. oh. oh.. i forced kenny to say hi.. even if he doesnt know u.. and now im freaking myself out simply because im hyper.. me with sugar is bad.. maybe its the diabetes.. or the weirdness i get when i am hyper.. but yeah.. as they say in spain.. chow.
from takexmyxhand :
you.take.my.breath.away. electric, stunning, real, raw, amazing, beautiful. waking up to yr words is like waking up to a goddess. & i just thought you should know
from amber-darko :
Hi! My name's Amber and I'm 23. I am writing a book about my personal account of self hate and self harm. I'd like to include some personal stories from different stages in healing, different sexes and different ages to show that no one is the same, but we all are hurting in ways that we are unable to convey. I do not intend on printing names, there is no length restriction and I will not censor. I have decided to also include poetry or just general opinions. Please email me if you are interested. [email protected]
from tiger--lily :
thank yooooou, i added you to my faves... keep writing and i'll keep reading. love always tigerlily xxx
from takexmyxhand :
<3 i heart you like no other. we'll just be beautiful together, okay? resolution: have no idea. aren't i sooo helpful? hehe. love you beyond words
from limestars- :
mads you really are absolutely ravishing. seriously, i love you to death <3 xoxoxoxoxox
from blow-me-away :
I found your diary on someone's favourites list and just dropping by to say you write amazingly. I could browse through your entries for hours <3
from mylostangel :
i do that to my sister all the time <3
from takexmyxhand :
you've got to be kidding, right? you, mady girl, are the epitome of beautiful. yr words are exactly what I'M feeling. and trust me, you say it much better. believe dat. [gangsta me]. i adore you so much. and i'm addicted too. about the layout, don't worry about it. just take yr time and i'm more than confident that you'll do an amazing job. because that's what you are. amazing. i love you so much. i'm done. xoxxxooo. always
from tiger--lily :
mind if i add you to my favourites?
from tiger--lily :
hey, i just stumbled accross your diary and had to say that your day sounds great.. I especially like the wings on the shoulderblades thing... love tigerlily xx
from myxtherapy :
today has been one of the bestest days for me in a long time.. and its weird. everytime im happy i feel like i have share my happiness with someone else... anyone. and whats also weird is... the person i really wanna share my happiness with.. is you. i know sorry isnt good enough.. and i know i have nothing to be sorry ovet. its weird cuz i miss you.. but i dont. i want u here.. but i dont. i talked to jake and he said maybe this was supposed to happen.. my friend nick said the same thing. and maybe it was spose to happen. i dont. i miss you allie. but we can't be friends. ill still care about u.. despite me being a fuck up and everything else. im starting to love myself its weird. but hey, i am that too. but yeah, now im ranting. i just.. needed.. to say that.
from takexmyxhand :
young love is so beautiful. and you deserve it. yr words are intoxicating.
from complexlogic :
Sounds like you had an amazing night. (Then again, any night involving good music and SF automatically qualify as a great night.) So dear, what band did you ska-skank to? Sorry it's been so long since I've written. I hope you're doing well. Take care lovely.
from velvet-heart :
you ARE beautiful Mady. Always have been. So you better get to believin' it sweetface. I miss you hon. *hugs you tight*
from limestars- :
madyson, i miss you... ♥
from takexmyxhand :
I've flooded yr notes. :)for my layout..something dark, black backround but bright colors. i really like the pink in yrs. or any other pretty color. umm..words:[font:allegro BT or AvantGarde BK BT] "please take these hands/ throw them in the river,/ wash away the things they never held" [thursday/for the workforce, drowning]. does that sound silly? image..have no idea. i'm so not creative. just take yr time and see what you can come up with. thank you thank you thankyou. yr the bestest. ♥
from takexmyxhand :
i feel stupid for asking this..but could you maybe make me a layout? just wondering, cos all of yrs so far are amazing. i found yr other diary and wow. yr magical
from takexmyxhand :
I'm so so glad your back. i've missed you so. i no longer use moongazer17 as my diary, i use this one. just so you know...also, yr layout is so stunning. it fits. stunning layout for a stunning girl. love you love you.
from eternalscars :
ack! looove it. pink is the rawk. <333
from reject88 :
lovely new layout. <3
from tiger--lily :
long distance love? it sucks. And i know that you don't know me but i was reading ur diary and just wanted to say hi.. much love, tigerlily
from limestars- :
oh, madyson you're beautiful... <3
from takexmyxhand :
are you okay, sweets?
from suicideinc :
i really love everything you do. sometimes i just wanna reach through the computer and hug you. you write so crazy good. i'm so very jealous. <3 jacq
from takexmyxhand :
I'm going into madyson withdrawl.
from reject88 :
aren't the lyrics "if i could find you now, things would get better, we could leave this town, and run forever.." from yellowcard "ocean avenue". just asking, because in one of your entries you said that it was blink 182. but what do i know? it's your diary, you should be able to write whatever you want. just ignore my insane ramblings. -xx-
from moongazer17 :
i love you just as much, if not more, than my boyface. but shhh..he might get jelous. i heart you, sweet mads. so much! come sing to me!!
from electric-x :
right on <3 [password= wereelectric] &&yr welcome to add an entry whenever you please. loveYOUdarling
from killingyou :
:) thanks
from x-girl-falls :
thankyousomuch, love. [+yr layout is pretty && yr words are prettier] <33 ♥ kimia.
from morceaux :
aw, i'm flattered - of course i don't mind if you add me to your favorites. stay beautiful<3
from electric-x :
yr beautiful. say, would you like to join the group diary? we;d love to have you. <3333
from limestars- :
thank you, love, for thinking so. iloveloveLOVE you like no other &you are incredibly beautiful.. honestly <3
from moongazer17 :
how freaking adorable! he tries to get ME to sing for him, but i refuse. boyfaces can be so lovely..not as lovely as you though, doll. you have my heart.
from killingyou :
that entry was so sweet. it gave me goosebumps. ((and hooray for black hair!)) xox
from breathe-salt :
oh doll....thanks so much. that means a lot to me. &i'm so glad you've figured out who your best friend is. you're amazing. <33
from x-girl-falls :
yr fucking lovely, sweetie. :) im adding you to my favorites list, mmk? kthnkxbye. ♥ kimia.
from morceaux :
i found you through limestars- &then i found you take my breath away, beautiful. mind if i add you to my favorites? <3
from moongazer17 :
dahling girl, it's so funny cos my boyface sang to me too last night. the misfits. we talked for two hours and it still wasn't long enough. i know the feeling, love. i love you
from limestars- :
sometimes it's a good thing to be alone for awhile sweetheart. i love you girlface <33 you rock
from down-fallen :
i watched girl, interrupted on tv last night too. and your absolutely gorgeous. xoxoxoxoxoxox
from velvet-heart :
Madyson I think you've forgotten about me. Tis alright- I forget about myself all the time. I'm just not that lovable- Tis a shame actually. A person that can love so much that can't have it returned even if by a spoonful of sugar. I miss you. I hope you're doing a lot better than you sound.
from limestars- :
oh my god prettygirl... that is one gorgeous layout you've got there. you're beautiful, really. <333 love you like crazy
from electric-x :
holy fuck. yr layout is hot girlface <3
from moongazer17 :
well you take my breath away, so i guess we're even. i love your layout so damn much. hot!
from breathe-salt :
you are so beautiful &i absolutely adore your gorgeous prettywords. i love you doll. <333
from electric-x :
thank you sweets <3 that means a lot coming from a prettygirl such as yourself
from complexlogic :
I'm so happy for you about North Dakota and your boyface :)
from electric-x :
wow. safe to say i;m completely envious of you &&yr prettyasfuck words <3
from moongazer17 :
you are so stunning. absolutly stunning. i can't even breathe when i read your words.
from moongazer17 :
oh, and by the way. he breaks your heart, i break him. i got your back, girl. always.
from gloryxxfades :
aww. thanks madz!! &right when i read your entry about becca i felt the exact same way. i have a lot of broken friendships, or at least friendships that aren't the way they used to be. you = inspiration.♥
from moongazer17 :
that sounds so perfect, sweets. i love ya, girl. really, with every bone in my body.
from limestars- :
thank you for thinking so dollface. but i'm not even half as beautiful as you are.. <3 i love you
from moongazer17 :
i miss you mady girl..
from myxtherapy :
meh, im just writing to u to tell u that Shane McMahon had a baby...
from oceans-depth :
Happy Valentines Day Mady you are a rare beauty never change. love you Deja xoxoxo
from limestars- :
you are so beautiful mady, nothing compares to the beauty of your words. seriously, you're amazing <3
from gloryxxfades :
argh, i know. i don.t think i.ll ever fully understand html. but don.t worry mad, it gets easier as you go<3
from lovemetwice :
xoxoxox i love you.
from moongazer17 :
mady girl, i'll be your valentine any day of the year. ill get you a huge box of chocolates and write you some crappy poety. okay? love you for fucking ever. ♥
from moongazer17 :
god girl, you make me breathless. latest entry=my thoughts exactly. fuck, i love you
from gloryxxfades :
the new layout rocks the casbah<3
from moongazer17 :
Oh, how i want to dance with you. And smother you with so many kisses. You are beyond lovely, i love you with everything in me. ♥
from eternalscars :
ohmygod. lol! that cracks me up. you rock me. ♥ xoxox
from mylostangel :
definately, its a power rush. i'm trying to figure out what i should do for the new one i want.
from lovemetwice :
you're adorable.
from velvet-heart :
And you my love, you stole my heart a long time ago. Red kisses and pink hearts display themsleves from your heart into my mind, and I cherish every single one. ♥ to you too and more. (((♥)))
from complexlogic :
Honey, have I told you how much I love you? No searching-for-infinity trip would be complete without a girl like you.
from eternalscars :
ohmygod. i ♥ the new layout. and i love this new entry almost as much as you. it hit me really hard. i love ya!! xoxox
from velvet-heart :
Has anyone ever told you that you're a magnificent writer? You manipulate words with such care and understanding until their meaning seeps from your soul onto a black and white screen and paint themsleves in a pretty pink array of stars dancing around your heart like a crimson halo of angels singing the most unforgotten tune of love as your lungs exsaperate stardust onto the screen. You're beautiful. Simply put. And, I heart you. ♥
from mylostangel :
i like the new layout
from gloryxxfades :
i love those little things you say. i.d love to be you for a day<3
from moongazer17 :
the crystle club sounds damn amazing. so here's an idea, lets have an crystle and madyson club. and the pretiest members will be..us. hehe. and swing dancing to rock and roll is a must. you'll have to teach me. i love you. for fucking real.
from avantbedroc :
hey you! how on earth do u get love hearts to turn up on your notes page- i'm in envy of your messages i see on other peoples notes page
from oceans-depth :
check your email Doll Face xoxo Deja
from mylostangel :
what type of layout do you want?
from moongazer17 :
darling, if we start an i love crystle club, we HAVE to start an i love madyson club. we'll meet everyday && have cookies && brownies && light candles--because we can--&& listen to rock&roll && dance together. && get drunk. i love you with every ounce of my being.
from vexmix :
Youve been approved for XIDEALX. Check your email for the code. Merci.
from oceans-depth :
I have some great graphics you might like but they don't have any html but if you can figure it out you can have them. Just hit me up dollface and there yours. xoxoxoDeja
from gloryxxfades :
haha me too. LJ is so confusing in the beginning<3
from complexlogic :
Fuck dear, it HAS been awhile. I've fully missed you too. And I'm sorry I never responded to the last note you gave me. I remember my computer freezing as I was typing one out. I suppose I forgot that the note never did get through. But don't think I've ever stopped reading your beautiful words. Anyhow, that's enough rambling. Tell me about what's been going on in your life- the things you care to share anyways. And don't hold back- I love our long notes to each other. As for me, I suppose I'm doing well, the only problem is I've been feeling a lot less passionate about lovepainLIFE lately. It all washes over me. But I guess that comes with stability. I'm just hoping to feel reallyREALLY alive and inspired again sometime soon. Take care love, you know I always mean it :)
from limestars- :
i want to go outside and scream at the sky how beautiful i think you are. you are amazing.. <33333
from gloryxxfades :
:] where.d you learn all that LJ html? it took me a while to learn!!<3
from moongazer17 :
oh fuck yes, vegas is a must. and we won't lose money, we'll win money. and well fall in love completly and get drunk and get married, and trust me hun, i'll remember every second of it. i love you!!!!!!!! can i say that enough?
from takexmyxhand :
pssst: i love youforalways. ♥ ♥
from takexmyxhand :
ppstt..mads, it's crystle. shh.♥
from breathe-salt :
gotta get my two cents in...damn you've got gorgeous eyes. i'm jealous. you're beautiful and so are your words. <3
from andwebreathe :
Pft. Lemme see. Gorgeous AND humble AND absolutly insanely talented. Chyeah, shutup you know you rock ♥
from gloryxxfades :
aww you.re the SHiT. on the good way. &your LJ is sweet.<3
from moongazer17 :
adore* i can't spell. wanders off...
from moongazer17 :
you ARE hot,beautiful,sexy,lovely,amazing,stunning& everything i'm not. i aodre you to pieces & i'm crashing vegas with you ASAP. weehee.♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
from velvet-heart :
W o w ♥ you're so b e a u t i f u l HeartCatcher. *smiles* And I still adore you.
from gloryxxfades :
aww, madz you really think that? your latest entry is Sweet. yeah with a capital h. cleverclevergirl.
from oceans-depth :
Hey Mamacita, You are one Hot Tamali. xoxxoxo Deja
from andwebreathe :
Hotttttttt!
from moongazer17 :
you are so goddamn HOTT, mads. Rarrr...hehe. iloveyoufor always. & what is the fucking milkshake song about, anyway?? hehe. ♥ ♥ ♥ ps: when are we crashing vegas?
from stoner-girl :
lol wow its quite unfair i must say, you're beautiful inside AND out!! I'm glad you're okay, I'm quite happy lately which is quite odd. lol
from stoner-girl :
Is that you? It's a brilliant photo, she's gorgeous!! Hope you're doing well babe
from jadedfreedom :
stunning..me? coming from someone as fucking beautiful as you -- yeah. that means a lot. YOU are so amazing you fucking GLOW.
from xwords :
thanx for having us in your buddy list! in return, you're listed as our friend here: http://xwords.diaryland.com/extras.html take care love &don't forget, our eyes are on you ♥ Li
from moongazer17 :
I'll never, ever get used to YOU calling ME beautiful. makes me blush everytime. and i've changed my mind..i want to tatoo your name on my ankle instead. and ill never have to worry about wanting it removed, because i fucking love you forever. ♥ ♥ ps:your shoes ARE the sex!
from andwebreathe :
Ohman, this sucks. None of the overrides I'm doing are showing up, and I hate when I can't catch onto things quickly. And it made sense what you said, but actually carrying it out is the hard part.
from moongazer17 :
i love you for fucking ever and ever. i miss talking to you too, rockstar. ♥ ♥ & id tatoo love on my nuckles just for you too.
from breathe-salt :
i <3<3 you ever so much. you're beautiful and so are your words. your boyface seems so amazing. lucky girl, you are.
from justanother- :
dear madyson;; it's 3:44am. please go & become unconcious somewhere near your bed. also, change the radio station. also, stop talking to yourself. kthx
from eternalscars :
thanks chickface. i ♥ you. sometimes it's all too easy to forget to breathe. <333 you rock me.. =)
from breathe-salt :
wow. thank you for the note, that made my day. to have someone say my words are passionate is the ultimate. i love your words so much, they are not and never will be nothing. you're beautiful.
from oceans-depth :
You = Strength and Beauty. I would hug you ever so tightly if it would take away some of your pain Sweety,If you ever need a strong shoulder to lean on then Im your girl.Love you xoxoxDeja
from moongazer17 :
damn, baby girl, that's a whole lot of love.hehe. && you walked away ALL by yourself, cos you're strong like whoa. i loveyoualways. ♥
from lovemetwice :
sweetheart. you are far too sweet. i feel amazing that someone like you would even look at my words. xoxo
from eternalscars :
i'm SO glad you walked away, hon. it takes a lot of strength to resist things like that, and i'm so happy for you. <333
from moongazer17 :
that's right darling, you walked away. it took guts, but you did it. && i love you for it.
from breathe-salt :
hello dear...i love you and your beautiful words, i'm so glad you walked away.
from mestupchick :
you make me smile and reflect and smile again. 2 smiles in a row are rare for me, bravo! (((alana)))
from moongazer17 :
i love you. like hot cocoa and sparkly pens and toe socks. i love you like rock and roll and stary nights. yeah, i love you.
from oceans-depth :
Have I ever tell you that I find you Facinating because i do xoxox Deja
from limestars- :
thank you for being you <333
from oceans-depth :
I love the way you write Dollface. xoxoDeja
from life4rent :
I'm glad you decided to open back up and I'm it was something I said that helped convince you you should. It's nice to know that the words I have to say have an impact on someone. And a good impact aswell. <333
from moongazer17 :
i don;t think you realize how much i really do love you. and oh, sweets, how i can relate to your latest. he calls you beautiful& showers you with sweetnothings, & you can't help but think "what does he really want from me." exactly. i;m rambling..i loveyou..duh. stay beautiful. ♥
from lovemetwice :
you're so entirely a favorite. it's fabulous. xoxox
from limestars- :
and once again, your words take my breath away. i don't know how you do it dollface but you have magic like no other. i love you likeWHOA [forverandever//i promise!] MWAH! <333
from lovemetwice :
you're. wow. you're everything. xo
from this-emotion :
one day, you will be truly happy. because girl, you deserve it. <3
from andwebreathe :
♥ ♥ ♥
from moongazer17 :
i love you.
from oceans-depth :
Everybody needs some alone time. It's just that we love you so we worry and Miss you. Some of us are just addicted to you Mad so get used to it. love you xoxox Deja
from andwebreathe :
Don't apologize to me. The first reaction we have is never a reaction anyways. It's always an overreaction or an underreaction, but never just a reaction. I wanted to apologize again for being such a bitch. Forgiven? &I'm so glad you opened your diary again ♥ ♥ ♥
from life4rent :
I'm glad you decided to let us back into your life gorgeous. <33
from gilgalad :
thanks for opening it back up, we all missed you. <33 hope everything works out well for you.
from reject88 :
yeah!! thank you so much for letting us read again. i love you girlface...xx <3
from limestars- :
thank you for opening it back up sweets <3 really, your words are beautiful and i was beginning to go through withdrawl. i looooove you! take care of yourself. you're a strong girl. xox
from complexlogic :
I'm so glad I can read your pretty words again, love. I missed them dearly. Not to mention I grew tired of clicking on your name only to be confronted by a crazy gray box. It was like you went away or something. I honestly missed you, which sounds somewhat odd, I suppose. Anyways, it's been awhile since I've heard from you love, so do be a dear and write back.
from xx-mandi-xx :
you know...anything that could shake you so badly as to try and shut people out...yea...that reason isn't stupid. you're strong madyson. sometimes i forget that i don't really know you, because your writing is so amazing i'm convinced i'm watched your life like a movie. but good always triumphs. and you are good. you are the good character in the story of your life, and you will win.
from justanother- :
ok...*takes a deep breathe* instead of going through and writing personal notes to everyone i'm just going to say it's open now. thnx for the love & support. it was locked for a stupid bullshit reason that i'm not going to go into. but thnx for caring/reading etc. xoxoxox <33
from eternalscars :
...and i just died because i can't read your stuff anymore... ## i still love ya. xoxo
from limestars- :
amen to the notes below. i miss you prettygirl <333
from gilgalad :
life4rent said it all better than I ever could... so ditto to that. <33
from life4rent :
21 people who've written you <3 notes since you went away a couple of days ago, saying how much they miss you and want you want back. Please listen to their cries. I'm sure we're not the only ones who are missing you either gorgeous. If you don't want to come back then I'm sure we'll all understand but just remember we'll miss you and that we <3 you.<3333333
from life4rent :
I'm still missing you.<3
from reject88 :
Oooohhhh.. please come back. i love you too much. reading your words was one of the highlights of my day.. and i know that sounds pathetic... but it's true. I MISS YOU. <3 xx
from gilgalad :
may i have the password? (aerochick2003@hotmailcom)
from down-fallen :
can i please please pelase pretty please have the password? i love you so much. xoxoxoxoxoxo
from xx-mandi-xx :
hope you get unlocked soon <3 don't lock your lj!
from paperlove :
ok i thought i could make it. but i really miss reading your entries. so if you're handing out keys would you mind sharing one with me? if not that's ok i thank you. take care darling. <3
from sadangel14 :
hi, may i please have the password to your diary?
from oceans-depth :
Hey where did you go my pretty girl? Hmm I miss you far too much Maddykins.. why locked? Be home soon love you xoxoxDeja
from bloodyvisage :
hey, may i have the password to your diary?
from limestars- :
oh fuck. oh no no no. dollface, i will not let you delete your diary. you're an amazing writer &reading your words is definitely one of the highlights of my day. <33 i love you prettygirl. a whole fucking lot.
from bleditdry :
Hi, umm... I really enjoy your diary. It's something raw and beautiful, and it occasionally offers me some comfort. I was wondering (like a lot of people on your notes, I noticed, lol) if I could maybe, possibly, perhaps have the password? I will completely understand if you don't wish to give it to me, because you don't know me, and I know just how personal diaries can be. I want to thank you for putting what you write/wrote out there, even if the lock is forever, because it was wonderful. .Ash. [[email protected]]
from damagedxsoul :
i noticed you locked your diary? i love reading it <3 could i have the password?
from suicideinc :
i miss your diary like whoa, dollface. your words are my favourite. :( <3 jacq
from reject88 :
oh. no. i am very very sad.... i love your words. please don't take them away... please? <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
from moongazer17 :
password, my love? i need your words.
from mylostangel :
can i have the password? you can e-mail me at [email protected] so its not on my notes page. please?
from velvet-heart :
Let me in, please?
from adarkthought :
oh, please could i have the pass? i read your diary alot. i think i'd miss it too much.
from andwebreathe :
Hi. I'm still here. Stalking your notes.
from girlmess :
Oh man, I am getting so fucking tired. But I'm not going to break the boycott. I'm staying awake until you e-mail me back and say "I've unlocked my diary"
from life4rent :
Can I have the key please? <3
from girlmess :
Oh yes, I forgot to tell you, I'm also boycotting sleep until you unlock your diary. And it's three a.m. so I hope it happens soon. Although, I suppose you do have the right to.
from girlmess :
I
from girlmess :
AM
from girlmess :
SORRY ♥
from girlmess :
I'm not writing again until you forgive me and unlock your diary and start sharing your pretty words with us again. ♥ It's like a protest until you cough up some of your beauty. Mhm. And I'm first in line with my picket sign.
from stoner-girl :
hey, could I have a pass? Hope you're okay.
from complexlogic :
Password, love? Please? Take care either way dear.
from moongazer17 :
i was going to ask you if you had any sporks i could borrow..Grins* but it's okay, love, cos i don't care what they think anyway. never have and never will. i love you and your latest entry..wow is the word to explain it. hugs and kisses, beautiful one* ♥
from reject88 :
ah... thank you. it's not true... but thanks anyway.... xx <3
from complexlogic :
It's good to hear adjustment isn't proving too difficult. And try not to be so hard on yourself when you say that you wish it didn't take depression to wish for a change. There's nothing wrong with that. It's quite logical, really, because unless we feel like there's something wrong, why change at all? I suppose I'm just trying to say to take it easy on yourself and try to shatter that magnifying glass you're holding in your hand. Better yet, don't break it, just hold it over the beautiful things about you, the things you love about yourself. And you've got plenty of things to choose from, dear, let me tell you. And screw modesty. Love yourself just like you deserve. As for me, I'm surprisingly following through on my own advice. I've stopped zooming in on everything that makes life shit, and instead have set my sights on wonderful little things that won't always be around for me. Like singing in the halls at school. Like playing cards with friends. Like writing lyrics on the soles of my shoes. Take care love.
from moongazer17 :
hey mads, wanna know a secret? I FUCKING LOVE YOU. hehe. now everyone knows. ♥
from limestars- :
whoa. i ate chocolate cake for breakfast today too. that must mean we are meant to be <33 love you girlface
from reject88 :
your writing is so beautiful i absolutely love you. <3... xx
from jadedfreedom :
i swear. everytime you update. i stop breathing until i'm done reading. you are that fantastic.
from complexlogic :
Oh ok, thanks for explaining. Sorry I didn't get that on my own. So how are the new meds treating you? I agree that feeling rage and sadness can often seem better than feeling nothing at all. But like you said in an entry, you don't want to be depressed either. I think we all just want a balance, a happiness. Hopefully the new meds don't make you feel like you're losing your own autonomy and emotions. Write back dear and let me know how you're doing. Take care wonderful.
from eternalscars :
thank you, darling. ♥
from velvet-heart :
I've been away for so long, and haven't even read anyones diary 'til today. I read your words and I feel my own relfections sparkle from your heart like mirror life like images and I wish I could just hold you and take all of your aching and sadness away. It sucks that I don't have MSN anymore, but I never forget the important people. People like you- who steal my heart away and breathe words of essence into my icy lungs and give me life. I adore you- always, even when you're not yourself. Hang in there Mady ok? And if you ever EVER need me you know where to find me.. I'm just a call away. *I love you*
from life4rent :
"losing my religion - r.e.m. " I absolutely LOVE that song. {sorry just had to say that} <3
from moongazer17 :
girl, you are the sweetest little thing. and your words..continue to amaze me. loveyouforever. ♥
from limestars- :
i love you. i really do <333
from limestars- :
nooo, YOU are the beautiful one here. taking my breath away & making my heart skip a beat with those lovely words of yours. i love you oh so much dollface <33333 thank you for always being so kind.
from spic-n-spam :
aah crap.. sorry... i think i got your username mixed up or something...
from spic-n-spam :
thanks for adding your two cents
from limestars- :
you're so effing gorgeous. &i'm aware of the fact that that sounds so cliche and over-used, but darling, it's the raw truth. oh yeah, &i abso-fucking-lutely love you xoxox
from bloodyvisage :
no prob :) we all do it. i hate all that cliche shit..and here i am spewing it out at all ends.
from girlmess :
short entries = addicting, no? ♥ &you're much prettier :)
from down-fallen :
bah, it's ok. i was so worried though. xoxoxoxoxo
from bangyrdead :
well i am glad you don't mean it anymore. <3333
from moongazer17 :
dont ever leave, mads. i'd die without you
from moongazer17 :
JUMPS UP AND DOWN AND DOES A DANCE.*
from down-fallen :
THANK GOD (if there is one) you're ok! i love you so much. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
from eternalscars :
wow. i looooove your diary. you are so pretty.. <333
from sadangel14 :
i'll pay my life for you... it's not as much as your worth... could never be... don't leave... please don't.......
from bangyrdead :
what do you mean goodbye?! :[ i'm hoping that was just an ending to an entry :/
from moongazer17 :
goodbye? good fucking bye? what are you talking about..mads?
from down-fallen :
Goodbyes are bad. please, no goodbyes? only goodnights. please, what ever your going to do, there are obviously tons of peopel who love you, so please please please don't hurt yourself.... or worse. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
from complexlogic :
Honey talk to me. What's happening? Sorry it took so long to write a note. Everything has been swirling around me at infinite MPH. Please no razors. And definitely no goodbyes. Enough beautiful things get crushed in this world. Talk to me dear, I'm ready to listen. I miss you.
from bloodyvisage :
i feel you, i do. but what's the opint. it's an easy out. i hate that phrase but its too true. i wish i had the courage to do it but i cant yet, not when i think about all the plp ill affect. i cant say anything else. --AJ
from jadedfreedom :
i can't take it. your beauty is ________.xo.
from moongazer17 :
oh///youre so beautiful//loved your latest//loveyouforever, sweet girl. you keep me coming back for more. i'll never get enough of you. ♥
from velvet-heart :
Youre awesome :D
from bbreviews :
Would you like a review? Why not try BBreivews?
from limestars- :
thank you for adding me. oh love, your writing just keeps getting better. i'm in love with everything you say <333
from limestars- :
hellooooo beautiful <33 //this is liz {asweettale} just dropping by to let you know i've moved and to tell you that you are gorgeous like no other and i love you.
from moongazer17 :
love you, my little rock star.
from stoner-girl :
Wow, I hve to say that concerning guys we are so similar in so mny ways that its quite freaky. I read that entry as if it was my own (lol wishful thinking.) Its not just the jealousy and possesiveness that I almost want out of my boyface...in an earlier entry of yours...where you want him to doodle your name on notebooks and be sick with jealousy over you kissing someone else in his dreams... I am exactly the same. It's crazy huh? (P.S Yes I agree, it did send out that message which pissed me off aswell.)
from velvet-heart :
Dearest Mady, I agree with the anger hurt and jealousy thing when it comes to love.. without them you wonder what you have and wonder if that other person cares enough. I was once where you are now, but please dont do what I did ok? I lost the greatest person I ever knew. In love that is, not in friendship. Shes still an amazing person, and I still get those infamous flutters in my belly. But it doesnt erase the fact that I worried so much that I used her and took advantage of everything left floating in between. She once told me something and I shared it with someone else... a great lesson learned on my part. Loving too much breaks your heart. Live in the moment not in the thought, ok? Think about that and get back with me. And, I dont think you'll go to the prom with boy to make your boyfriend jealous, because you love your boyface too much. Just hang in there babes. *hugs*
from complexlogic :
Yes, you can definitely email me your address for the prints- [email protected]. As for your lyrical inspiration running on empty, all I can say is when I lack inspiration for photos, I just go out into the world around me and take little everyday things and capture them in a rare beautiful way that nobody else would see otherwise. You could possibly do the same with your writing, but of course you shouldn't force anything. I'm sure great things will come to you on their own. When you mentioned going out to pick up a copy of "Bridge to Terabithia", it brought the biggest smile upon my face. I suppose it was just the idea of connecting with someone out there through something as seemingly mundane yet truthfully magical as a book. Or maybe it was the fact that something I mentioned spurred an action of yours. That sounds quite vain and conceited, and that may be the case- I'm not sure. I suppose it just made me realize that you as well other note-leavers are real people, not just lovely words comprised of binary code projected through a glass monitor. And as for the actual book itself and the whole idea of instictive optimism and the longing to keep blind innocence, I must say I feel the same way constantly. Often times the harsh reality of life become so overwhelming that it gets to the point that I wish I was blind and apathetic and void of all autonomy. Often times I just want to be in denial about all the hurt and pain that goes on in the world- because when I do focus on it, I just end up with uncertain conclusions that all life is futile. And sometimes I do believe that it is. But I want to live my life like it's not. Because if I live with the idea that nothing matters and that often times the bad guys DO win, then I lose all motivation and forget the potential joy there is in life. Lately I've been able to achieve a balance between insight and innocence. I have the insight to see the imperfections and flaws in life, but I still retain the innocence that allows me to hope for a better day. And I think I'm happy with this balance- it's just a matter of keeping it. I hope that you're finding your own balance as well- between the insightful realizations of love having to include anger and hate and jealousy, and the more innocent sentiments of optimism and hope. Take care love, and thank you for every single word you type, whether it be in notes to me or through your diary. Talking with you has become one of my more simple pleasures in life that I've come to be grateful for.
from cheap-irony :
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from stoner-girl :
Thats a good point. We don't force them to read it. lol. I noticed you have The Breakfast Club as a fave film of yours, didn't it annoy you when in the end they changed the weird/goth girl to a prissy popular looking one? Personally I thought she looked fab the way she was at the beginning.
from moongazer17 :
oh oh oh, i love you so effing much. your beauty overwhelmes me. and a new diary? weee hhhee. must must go on the favs. i heart you forever and ever, lovely one. [please excuse me, i'm hyper]
from neon-nation :
you create magick. inlovetothemaxwithyou. <3
from complexlogic :
I'm also telling myself not to break promises made to the girl in the mirror. Very glad to hear you're keeping yours (and I, mine, for the most part). Thank you sososo much again for saying such nice things about my photography. It's one of the few things I have a genuine passion for, and feel a sense of pride in. But I probably already told you that. That dark hallway one you're talking about was actually one of the first photos I ever took and it was at my sister's dorm at the University of San Francisco. Hopefully I'll be there once I graduate and out of San Jose. Anyways. I'd be glad to send you a print of any of my photos you like. Only thing is you'd have to give me your mailing address and so that's up to you. About The Bridge to Terabithia- yes, I remember having the same reaction when I read it in something like fourth grade as well. It's one of the few children's books with an actual tragedy. Good book worth re-reading at any age. I recently found it while I was at a second-hand book shop and I bought it for a dear friend of mine. She loves the book. It looks that we both have a habit of leaving long notes. (Now if only all our habits were as wonderful and made people just as happy.) Keep sending me the notes love, and I'll keep sending you the hopeful wishes.
from stoner-girl :
yeah :D I'm glad the garbage got taken away. A new start. I'm not really sure how i am. A torrent of emotions really. Plus i nearly told rory about the ed thing. not a good idea. also i feel like im cracking up. but other than that im fine. lol and thanks, its nice to be reminded that whining is okay. im so hard on myself sumtimes.
from velvet-heart :
I want to see your song Mady pweese?
from jadedfreedom :
i leave about a halfanhour from san fran. quite the city. &your writting. is also. fantatstic.
from complexlogic :
Infinite. I love that feeling.
from velvet-heart :
Sometimes the way you describe things in your mind Mady leave me breathless and I usually wish that by the time I finish reading your hypnotic words I wish that I would have written them myself. The way in which your mind lingers in my thoughts, I just... I have no words. Someone once told me I was far more hypnotic than any drug, and I didnt know what to think at the time they told me that. And, now I hang on every word they say because I want to be remembered by that person, and others the way thet see me. See me further behind the shadows after I lose myself to bad memories. Only difference between you and I is that I want to be remembered by my words. My words that hold secrets and tells tales of things I never reveal. Once upon a time I knew this lady that I thought was a little girl, and while I lingered in the shadows lost behind the mirror of images I didn't see her for her beauty, I was blind, and while I was blind to her, that lady that I imagined as a little girl grew into a woman, and I missed out on the greatest thing ever. Her being who she really is, and now I sit here day to day and think of where we would/could be now if I would have paid closer attention. But due to my selfish nature I lost her between the curtains of shameless behaviors within myself, and I miss her. Yes, we still talk, but the flame that was there has long since burned out, and I fill like I'm the one who took the flame of happiness inside of her soul and drenched it with mascara run tears. I will never know how she feels about me, ever. I don't even know what runs through her mind when we speak. Because at those moments I wish I could dive head first into her mind, and swim in the waves of her thoughts. But alas I created a violent thing between us- Jealousy. And, I don't know if I will ever have the courage to tell her the words I want to tell her, because I still guard myself when I talk to her. The fear of never knowing that brings this wanting to need to know everything, will always leave me speechless as I still continue to read her diary, and see more than just her words now. I think she was right about my love of words. I didn't just love hers, I loved everyones. *sigh* I miss the person I knew in her not so long ago, as my mind races with images of what was, and not yet to be. I hope that we are friends, but I never can tell if we are just social with each other, because we're both afraid to say what we really want to say. You will burn like the star that you to be remembered as, because you are already a bright shining ember in the sky. Never see yourself for less that what you are - beautiful. *Love you hon*
from cheap-irony :
HOLY SHIT-------HOLY SHIIIT! you rock the stars from the skies babe! glad i found you love-going on the favs.
from complexlogic :
I understand the whole concept of the "hero" role perfectly. And I know because I try out for the part way too often. I know I don't know the specifics of the situation, all I can say is that it's hard on both sides of the glass, including the one where this non-understanding girl resides. I really do hope she realizes everything that you do, realizes that she can only be there to support you, not save you. Like you said, that's your job. And you CAN do it. I read your entry about throwing away those shiny sharp objects your skin craves for. And the part where you mentioned how in control you felt- well it just struck something in me. I think I've felt that control before. (It feels fucking good doesn't it?) And the fun of spending a day with a friend away from school, just sleeping in a queen sized bed together and living in your own world. I definitely know that feeling of blissful detached escape. So keep on with your wonderful spontaneous adventures, love, and remember that everyday is a new day. Never stop trying to love yourself, especially considering how much passion I see in you (and even if just through a screen of pixels). Honestly, you make pain have this unusual beauty to it, but when I read words about you that talk about smiles laughter HOPE, you just multiply that beauty to the point where words become unworthy and the only thing that's left to express that beauty is emotion and connection. That's what your diary is. That's what YOU are. YOU are an amazing package of emotion connection and BEAUTY.
from asweettale :
i love you so much prettygirl. your words are beautiful, just like you. i was glad to hear you got rid of that box-- that's something i've been meaning to do for a while now. take care sweets. xoxox
from jadedfreedom :
cause i saw you said something about san fran &that's near me and stuff. so yeah. you're writing is lovely bytheway.
from moongazer17 :
youre so very welcome for everything. i'm so happy that you threw them all away, that took some serious guts. YOU CAN DO IT. i should be a cheerleader..loveyoulikewhoa. ♥ ♥
from stoner-girl :
woo you go girl! That's great news and I'm sure, if u try, it will stay there, in the bin where it belongs. Love who you are :) cuz the rest of us sure do. Xoxox <3
from jadedfreedom :
where do you live?
from down-fallen :
your day sounded a lot like mine. well mainly taking the bus woth a cool girl, and a boy with questionable sexuality. but yours is cooler. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
from suicideinc :
even if you do date boyfaces that look like kurt cobain it's alright, he was a hottie (and i date guys who look like brian molko...) you are fucking swell and don't give up on anything. ever.
from asweettale :
thank you so much sweetie. you're beautiful, but you don't need me to tell you that. i love you with all of my little heart [[dont forget that k?]] <33 MWAH!
from soul14 :
your words are just so amazing. and i think that you are beautiful. just so beautiful
from complexlogic :
Even if only through pixels on a computer screen, let yourself shatter to me. No lectures, not even advice (if that's not what you want), guaranteed. Just someone there. A witness. And when it's over, your problems still won't be solved but at least you'll know that you weren't the only one. The only one who knew how badly you were broken. Break like a teenage heart in front of me and I'll sit and be here to watch for as long as you need someone there. And I'll be there with super glue just in case. But the super glue will probably fail just like the tape boyfaces have tried to stick you back together with. I can still be your witness, though, and you can still keep in the back of your head the fact that someone shares your secret of being broken. Then maybe you'll be a bit less alone and a bit closer to putting yourself back together with something stronger than tape, stronger than glue. Take care dear, pardon my gibberish.
from moongazer17 :
mady, i love you. be strong. don't cut..youre beautiful with or without the scars. [[i'm going to take your razors]].loveyousomuch. thank you for commenting my livejournal
from stoner-girl :
thanks babe thats really supportive of you. lol thje problem is that both make me happy and both make me erally unhappy so...wat to do. Anyways ive pretty much told ed now that I'm not going to leave rory for him, i had a good time last weekend up rorys and yeah okay he pissed me off a few times but i know i won't leave him. I'm glad you're staying strong against not cutting anymore. The good thing about being stubborn or obstinate is that if you think the person is trying to drive you into hurting or feeling hurt, do the opposite just to get back at him. You are beautiful - not just skin deep either but i do understand about how you feel. *hugs* be happy and safe and im glad ur doing relatively okay.
from asweettale :
i'm so happy you had a great day <33 you're so beautiful &deserve nothing but the best sweetheart. i looooove you
from gloryxxfades :
i don't exactly know what it is about the julaina theory. they make me feel alive. what's your favorite song from them?♥
from moongazer17 :
ooh a perfect day, huh. good for you, Mads. I'm sorry I don't know what a spork is...hehe. not much of a taco bell fan here. but you still love me, so it's all good. [effing loveyoulikewhoa]
from asweettale :
wow.. thank you, love. honestly, you have no idea how great that note made me feel [especially coming from someone as beautiful as you] i love you so fucking much &i wish i could smother you in one million hugs. just because. xoxox
from andwebreathe :
I made it by stenciling, I've already e-mailed a couple people directions on it, if you want to send your e-mail address over I can forward it to you as well ♥
from velvet-heart :
You are not nothing.. Some day you will see that you are everything. *hugs dollface*
from asweettale :
i wish i could put into words how beautiful your writing is. how i starve for more every time i finish reading one of your entries. believe me when i say you are one of the most talented writers i've ever came across. &i love you so very much [xoxo]
from moongazer17 :
know*
from moongazer17 :
Mady, I do smile..all because of you. Grins* oh, and i'm so willing to go to the mall with you and poke people with umm..sporks[did you mean fork?lol]..can we get drunk too? wee hee.loveyou sooooo[etc]fucking much. ♥ ♥ ♥ ps: Keith sounds awesome..I now a few boyfaces he could beat up...hehe.
from andwebreathe :
Ahh! thanks so much, it took me FOREVER to make, so I was really happy with how it turned out :) You're such a sweetheart ♥ x infinity!
from velvet-heart :
Hang in there Mady. Its going to be okay girlface.
from moongazer17 :
[[A note from Lovely Mady everyday//Is sure to keep Crystle's saddness away]]. He he..I'm a dork. I see, Beautiful One, that it is your birthday..so Happy Happy Birthday to you, Mads. I hope it is lovely for you, of course.you're awesome/beautiful/amazing/sweet/&special...iloveyoulikewhoaxinfinity. Hugs and crimson Kisses* ♥ Crystle
from asweettale :
haaaaaappy happy birthday, beautiful girl! your words are so magical and cause chills to run up my spine. i'm in love with everything you say. i love you! [waytoomuchtoexplain]
from andwebreathe :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
from myxtherapy :
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIN!
from complexlogic :
Happy New Year to you as well dear. Thank you for writing the beautiful entries and notes that you do. You're nothing short of wonderful. And as for your latest entry (01/01/04), I just want to say how happy I am for you. That's wonderful that you've discovered just how much you love your boyface, even with a past boyface waiting and willing and open. Even more wonderful is how your boyface makes you believe in forever, makes you want forever. That's when you know it's real. Hold onto him love, and have great adventures this year. Take care sweetie.
from velvet-heart :
Happy New Years love. May this new year bring you more happiness than your last and may you have a greater learning of more things to come. Much love, Huggles
from moongazer17 :
You do realize, Mady, that only you could make me smile this early in the morning. I hope this year is beautiful for you..i love you so much...and yes, you do kick some serious ass. [[loveyoulikewoah]]♥ Crystle
from oceans-depth :
happy new years dollface. xoxoxDeja
from gloryxxfades :
i say the exact same thing for your name. & you really like it? thankksss! do you like juliana theory?<3
from thrasher246 :
hey. just wanted to say hi and happy new year. like ur diary by the way. i pray that god will bless ur life with the new year. and for the reast of ur life. take care and god bless Thrasher
from complexlogic :
Alone in an empty theater. Wow, I've never been lucky enough to have that happen. Must be amazing though. And I'm glad you got a chance to look through my photography- it's one of the few things that I actually have a passion for. Take care dear and have a Happy New Year.
from asweettale :
oh love, you are the beautiful one. really, you're so strong..& i KNOW you can make it through all of this. because i know how amazing you truly are. believe me when i say things will get better. the pain will eventually let up. scars eventually fade. and one of these days, the tears will let up to. i looooove you so much darling girl. i hope 2004 goes the way you want it to, because you deserve to get everything you want <3
from moongazer17 :
Mady, you make me smile! i fucking love you. dont worry about my boyface, hes a really close friend and it's all good. youre beautiful, not I
from stoner-girl :
thanks babe, I'm sure things will get bette - I already see the next few days looking up. Though I hope you feel the same, you can't keep holding urself in this depression or i wille at u alive. its starting to already I fear. ps. you're the one who's fucking amazing doll! xoxoxox
from moongazer17 :
i fucking love youxinfinity. you are everything i'm not and everything i wish i was. ♥ ♥
from down-fallen :
cha. i'm so unpretty. but thats ok. because you are the most gorgeousest awesome girlface ever. xoxoxoxo
from down-fallen :
you are so gorgeous. i hope this all works out. it will work out. i love you xoxoxoxoxoxoxo.
from asweettale :
holy fuck. your writing makes me weak in the knees. honestly dollface, how do you do it? you are so damn beautiful.. <333
from suicideinc :
i love your diary. i realize you probably don't do it to please other people, but it's really good. vivid. and i love the kurt cobain suicide pic. it goes really well with the tbs line. you're amazing. i'm sure you'll work everything out and it will be for the better as it usually is. <3jacq
from velvet-heart :
Hey dollface :) I think you're truly amazing. You dont give yourself enough benefits of doubt- you're so ready to critcize yourself rather than praise yourself. And why is that we are so much alike and are drawn to each other like we are? Are we more alike than opposite? You're simply amazing- try not to get yourself down so much.. and I'll try to do the same. You can be my savior and I will be your girlface downfall. *I hearts you*
from moongazer17 :
No, no, YOURE fucking amazing. I heart you so so much. and about boyface..we're not together..but i so wish we were....he's wonderful. you're wonderful. i love you my pretty mady. ♥ Crystle
from gloryxxfades :
mad, you make me SMiLE sweet. &i know how you feel. because i would've been sad like woah if you didn.t tell me where you were off to. thank godd you did. :0) &my name is charlene. blah, but it.s a name at the very least. i really like your name &would really consider it if i ever did have my own kid!♥
from complexlogic :
Hello dear, just wanted to say hello and see how you've been doing. It's been awhile since we've left each other notes (and I miss it). I've read your diary more since we first talked (typed) and I must tell you that your words never cease to glow and have beauty (even through the painful subjects, if not even MORE beautiful through those subjects). I'm in love with your words thoughts feelings, dear, I really am. Let me know how you're doing, or just say hi. I miss your notes. Take care.
from velvet-heart :
I'll be your girlfacebestfriend love, if you ever want to call.. but alas I know those last minute delay reactions.. Hell Jessie won't even call me and we're a unit... pity. And I love her so much... sigh Hang in there babyface- its all going to work out. I promise. Its going to be okay... and you keep that special box of razors locked up under your bed, and only take them out to look at the prettiness when you need to- to hide behind those fears and doubts because I know those lryics you write along your skin and in the end - You're gonna be a shining star and in the palm of your hand those razors will become a guitar pic as you sing your songs. I love you girl. Muchly
from velvet-heart :
Youre still awesome on the outside of those scars and cuts my love- always and shall forever remain in my book. Good luck with your vist with the forner boyface.. I'm sure you will have a blast
from asweettale :
thank youuuu so much.. <3 you always made me smile &feel all pretty. i love you so much, beautiful girl. someday.. we'll both get the love we deserve. [because you, my dear. deserve the entire world] xoxo
from andwebreathe :
Doesn't it just always seem people are drawn to self-destruction? It's like a part of us WANTS to be mistreated, you know? ♥ guess the human race is just totally fucked up.
from myxtherapy :
<3 *hugs* I love you.... (oh hell, im never gonna be hip.. *pouts*, ah well, there's my attempt to at least try.)
from myxtherapy :
oh for the love of flying furballs.. i'm never gonna be with the "in" crowd.. [pouts].... you still wuv me tho, right? [gives you puppy eyes] pretty pwease with pretty pink poodles??? you know it's tempting Kin, give in to your inner self... Chester will be mine, oh yes, he will be mine.. muwhahahaha! you already know he wants me Kin, he's words reach out to me and say 'Rena, I want you and only you, you will bare my second child.'... so there, mine. get it.. MINE!!! always and forever! Hey!! When I go to that Linkin Park thingy, I'll take pictures for ya.. or try to at least. yes yes, i will.. but anyways. i'm tired, and do you know anyone who can hack either Kevin or Ashley? I think ashley.. we can hack her.. we NEED to, yes, we. but anyways. someone lost a testicle from you note, I didn't do it, i swear [innocent look]... but yeah.. i'll tell your boyface if your not on.. see yaz Kin..
from leely :
dont worry about it. you make perfect sense<3<3
from moongazer17 :
Mady, I laughed sooo hard while reading your note. I love the use of "holy fucking cheetos." but i'm still jelous of you & your pretty words, love. and i fucking love you more than yesturday, if thats possible.. i ♥ you like whoah. [i'm stealing all your cute little sayings]...
from brokenxbones :
pretty template. [mine's takingbacksunday too]
from stoner-girl :
I've never seen the movie of IT though I really want to. Ever had a craving for something to hurt? Something to shock the shit out of you and wake you up from this numb state of mind in which you have been walking in? lol Well that's how I feel recently. Everything is just so cold and blank. I miss my boyface. btw you're even more awesome babe <3
from leely :
my past is what keeps me writing. i have a great memory and no sadness from my history escapes me. music is my escape as well as alcohol and drugs. but i think im still rather a virgin to several drugs and the real world. im too scared to set foot out there because its really hard to trust when the two people who are supposed to care about you most gang up on you and shatter your heart. oh dear, ive gone off subject [again]. i guess most of the things that keep my writing going are my feelings about everything and music. and the fact that without writing, id have too many scars on me. sorry for rambling on&on. take care mady♥
from embersfade :
Hey. Just so you know. I'm not a girl haha. But it's ok, no offense taken. (in response to the note you left me)
from myxtherapy :
<3 (thats like in style to, right? =S i dont even know what that means, but yeah.. that too)
from myxtherapy :
you take chester and someone somewhere loses a testicle... so how bout i take him, that way.. we wont be mean to anyone? remember i'm the birth carrier.. so that automatically implies that HE WILL LOVE AND WORSHIP ME!! Muwhahaha!!! oy. five hours on the phone wares me out... remind me to do that during the day.. or.. or.. maybe some caffine? mmm.. caffine [drools]... Kin, i'm kinda scared.. you know, with he-who-should-not-be-named. i dont know what to feel towards him anymore.. and that worries me. [sigh] sorry.. itz just... yea.. i dont know, im dumb.. but im still rena, so thats a plus.. yes.. happy happy happy happy hapyy.... bye 4 now, see ya whenever.. toodles. oh yeah!! i still have to be like sooo totally in style and say i love you.. but im me, so ill just say.. me wuv you..
from asweettale :
ahhh pretty pretty girl! thank you so much for your lovely note. [[i hope IT rots off too.. hahah]] you make me feel so damn good about myself &i love you to death for it! THANK YOU <33 i can relate to almost every word of what you say and that's amazing because YOU can put into words what i can't. everything that you write, is beautiful. just as you are. <333
from velvet-heart :
Oh Mady. I know exactly what you mean. I've been there too. And, still when we hide behind that sheild of rain we still wish we could reach out and touch that one person, to have the fun, danger and illegal mischief we had always had. But the door to the pain of hurt always slams us back into reality and we realize once again, we are alone. But you're not alone Mady- I'm not alone, you're not alone. We just seem to welcome hurt more than happiness because it's all we've ever known. You're still an awesome star- shining like a diamond in the darkest night, showing your brilliance through your luminous sparkle to the next day. Haven't you realize that it's you that's making you hold on longer and making you just that strong enough to fight- even though behind your silver lining you don't know what it is you're fighting for- your existance, your soul, your heart- everything that's in you that makes you that creates one more splendid piece of art in you- it all lies right there- in your heart, in your hands, and in that music you make that makes you smile during your most silent moments. So, play that guitar and write your beautiful songs and cry those lyrics of black and red as you make your place where you want to be. It doesn't really matter who notices you as long as you're noticed. And, I notice you - because I love you. ♥
from moongazer17 :
will you teach me how to write, mady? please? my words pale in comparison to yours..but i love you so fucking much anyway...i'm just a tad bit jelouse. big grin* hugs and crimson kisses, sweet girl. ♥ Crystle
from leely :
why thankyou. you know ive read a lot of your diary. you write really well. i was just wondering what it is that inspires you. id love to hear back from you ♥
from myxtherapy :
can i say me wuv you?? pwease wif pretty pink poodles??
from asweettale :
locked. for family issues.. username= hands password= down
from my-trigger :
i'll fill your box with love and happiness. xoxoxoxoxo
from moongazer17 :
iloveyou iloveyou ilove you. [i want to shout it from the rooftops]. fuck fuck fuck youre beautiful.
from life4rent :
I stumpled across your diary a little while ago and it's just fucking amazing. I've added you to my favs, hope ya don't mind.<3
from down-fallen :
you rocked my socks around the clock. xoxoxox
from oceans-depth :
Merry Christmas Doll Face, I wish you all the Love and Happiness you deserve. xoxoxo Deja
from embersfade :
Merry Xmas to you.
from andwebreathe :
Rawr, hey hey pretty girl ♥ hope you're enjoying the holidays
from complexlogic :
That is utterlycompletelyfully great to hear. And it's not boring or useless whatsoever. I love notes that let me know you're doing well, so never hesitate to leave them. Wishing you the best Christmas and New Year. Stay lovely.
from moongazer17 :
i love the idea of us taking on the world together and kicking some serious ass. woo eeh. Feeling inspired, huh? well write that book hun and i want an autographed copy. Love you, sweet thing. ♥ Crystle
from asweettale :
dear god.. you, darling girl, are so.fucking.gorgeous &i wish i could hug you and make everything better! xoxo I LOVEEE YOU SO MUCH DOLLFACE! <3
from myxtherapy :
can you do me a huge favor tho.. please dont call me rennerz.. sorry, im not trying to sound like a bitch.. but thats what kevin calls me to annoy me >.< we seriously need to shoot him... [pouts]
from myxtherapy :
yes, phone talk is always great with you Kin.. but we need to get more intimate.. *winks* LOL, I'm just playing, even if you are a sexy bitch.. but anyways.. your indian name is spelled like this... dibikong abinoojikwe... ok? maybe one day you'll actually learn how to say it, maybe i'll try to teach u on the phone sometimes... maybe.. just maybe.. only if you give me a cookie tho.. and now for me to jump into the crowd and say.. me wuv you *blushies*
from velvet-heart :
You know what miss?!!! You need aim lol or do I already have you on my list *I forgets*
from down-fallen :
you rocked my socks so much i lost them. xoxoxoxoxo
from gloryxxfades :
aww i love you mad. &of course i wouldn't leave diaryland. i think i'd miss you too much. it means so much that you actually care!♥
from asweettale :
thank you thank you thank you. for your sweet notes. for putting me on your favorites. for being such an inspiration. you're beautiful darling, really. love you xoxo Liz
from myxtherapy :
well here i am, i told ya i was gonna write to ya Kin, so whoosah... LOL, sorry, i was watching Bad Boys 2 today.. but anyway.. hi, hey, how's ya.. hey! i was looking tho pictures and i found this one chick.. Shannyn Sossamon.. i was looking at her pictures.. and she kinda looks like Aimee Allen, with the hair and what not.. and i was thinking you can use her as for brytain.. or another character... i dunno, i think too much.. if ya do, i'll help ya with a banner... now im rambling.. oy, so yea.. this is me, oh, i got a different diary.. the other one didnt feel like... me.. so yea..
from complexlogic :
Thanks, dear. And I'd love to be on your favorites list- I shall do the same with your beautiful diary. Take care always.
from moongazer17 :
I turn up the radio real loud and think of you. "on my own" plays and i wonder if pretty maddy is okay. and she is. she will be. because you and i, grilface, we're going to get through this thing called life. i've got your back love. and i fucking adore you. and if anyone rocks, it you. ♥ ♥
from neon-nation :
i love you just as much. xoxox <3!
from asweettale :
oh course it's okay darling, i'd be honored <33 you're going on mine as well. xoxo you are so absolutely kind &i adore you
from asweettale :
you, jealous of me? dear god, how come? you're words.. they are all so much more deep than mine and are so full of passion that they break my heart &put it all back together again. i'm addicted to everything you say, and the fact that you are such a sweet girl just puts the icing on the cake. xoxo love you dollface!
from moongazer17 :
mady, every single one of your words is beautiful. i know you get tired of hearing this, and i know you dont believe it, but honest to god, you are BEAUTIFUL. i heart you times infinity, sweet girl
from stoner-girl :
Amazing as usual! You make me want to cry everytime I read your words. I wish I could express myself as beautifully as you do. I can relate so well. lol you should get more sleep - then again so should I. <3 Keep going Madz :) don't give up on yourself.
from complexlogic :
It makes me smile to know that you're beginning to as well. And I'm glad that just being an outlet for you to vent through ended up helping. And just think- if something as little and mundane and insignificant as these notes can make you feel even just the slightest bit better, then soon your scabs will heal, inside and out. When that day comes, not only will you forget not to smile, but you won't even have to mention the act of forgetting because it'll become an everyday occurance. Remember those hours days weeks I mentioned in the very first note I left you? It already looks like they're well on their way to passing. Good luck healing love, people will notice. Your words are already glowing beautifully.
from down-fallen :
i love you. forever and ever. xoxoxoxoxoxo
from x-fadedangel :
your diary is amazing, just wanted you to know.
from complexlogic :
Yes, I can definitely understand why you keep trying to tell yourself lucky in order to move on. And that's a good thing. Just always remember that it's ok to have all these emotions feelings thoughts rush through you. And you're not stupid, it's not your fault. You just had hope in another person, just wanted to believe that maybe he had changed. Just because he hadn't, it doesn't mean that it's your fault. It's his fault that he didn't deserve the hope you put into him. Just keep on living dear, and as much as you can, try your best not to take it out on yourself with seemingly friendly cherry red stripes across your skin. They're just another way that bastard has control over you. Show the world, show YOURSELF that you are stronger than him, stronger than this. You are beautiful and will rise above. Hugs and happy thoughts coming your way eternally.
from down-fallen :
you must be lying, because you're so fucking beautiful. xoxoxoxo
from moongazer17 :
If* it's supposed to say if...
from moongazer17 :
oh fuck mady, i love you. i dooo so much. and dont leave this place, please. it thats what youre thinking...♥ Crystle
from half-hearted :
girlface, you;ll ALWAYS be beautiful. <3
from complexlogic :
Whether it "could have been worse" or not, you have every right to feel anything and everything that you do. I don't know if you've ever read the book "The Perks of Being a Wallflower", but there's this quote in the book: "And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have. Good and bad. Just like what my sister said when I has been in the hospital for a while. She said that she was really worried about going to college, and considering what I was going through, she felt really dumb about it. But I don't know why she would feel dumb. I'd be worried, too. And really, I don't think I have it any better or worse than she does. I don't know. It's just different. Maybe it's good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there. Like Sam said,. Because it's okay to feel things. And be who you are about them." Although you were more of comparing your situation to a potential situation rather than to another person, but the message is still the same- "...it's okay to feel things. And be who you are about them." Take care dear, continuously wishing you the best.
from stoner-girl :
I agree, that fucker should have his ass kicked! Be thankful that you're strong enough to get through this. I know you are madz. *hugs* sounds corny but I believe in you.
from moongazer17 :
♥ ♥ ♥ I looove you Mady!!
from down-fallen :
i've said it before, and i'll say it again. he needs his ass kicked. and you need a hug. -hugs- i left him a mean note. teehee. but everything will be ok, and if it's not, i have more asses to kick. you deserve everything to be perfect, so it will be. maybe not today, or tomorrow, but soon. i love you forever and ever and ever. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
from velvet-heart :
If words could heal I'd repeat I love you a million times and watch your face smile and shine behind glitter of tears running softly down your cheeks. Then I'd take your hands and show you how your scars are gone and you only have beautiful lines of hearts drawn over your body. I love you - I love you. I love you so much I want to shout it so you can hear me through the network lines, but still I know you can't. *huggles baby* I'm here if you need me. Just always rememebr that. ♥
from dylanwashere :
Really intense stuff. I'll be back for more.
from complexlogic :
Please dear, continue (if you want). No note is too long when they're filled with emotion and honesty. If you don't want to talk about it further, then don't. But if you'd like to say more, by all means, go for it. I'm still sending happy thoughts your way. I hope those minutes hours days that I mentioned before are passing by with increasing ease. Or until then, take care love. Have a Happy Holiday.
from ransgirl15 :
oh my fucking god. I cant believe that happened to you, I really dont know what to tell you even though I wish I did. [[I wasnt as lucky as you to escape]] But iknow how you feel and i want you to know that that bastard is gonna burn in hell, and the rest of his life is gonna be hell too. You dont deserve that shit, babe. && if you wanna talk, im here. You can scream and bite and yell and cry and do whatever you want with me. Im here for you. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox I love you [[♥ ♥]] dulce
from gloryxxfades :
your new layout is soo pretty!<3
from down-fallen :
you may be lucky compared to some people, but it doesn't mean you can't be upset. i want to hug you right now. xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
from moongazer17 :
aww babe, i would do anything, anything to make you feel better. seriously. YOU DIDN'T DESERVE THIS. i'm hoping ill get to talk to you..that would be just amazing. i adore you. hugs love. ♥ ♥ Crystle
from oceans-depth :
And I mean you my Beautiful Butterfly xoxox Deja
from complexlogic :
Your latest entry (17th)- I don't know what to say. If you want sympathy, I'll openly give it to you, but I'm going to assume you've had enough of that. I'm not going to lie and pretend that I know anything about what it must have felt like to be in a situation like that, but I do know that if you need to vent or ramble on to some stranger, I can fill that position. People who write beautiful words like yours always end up in pain. Why, I don't know. Maybe that's what makes you beautiful (sometimes the truest thoughts are the most twisted). Hope you're healing as minutes hours days pass. Drop me a note if it's something as simple as hi or something as complicated as spilled out thoughts. Take care love- I'm sending happy thoughts your way.
from neon-nation :
thanks for adding me <3!
from moongazer17 :
babe, im sending you a million and one hugs. i love you so much. i do. stay strong, Mady. show me those muscles. ♥ ♥ ♥ Crystle
from stoner-girl :
Yeah I don't think he could ever hate you for it. He loves you very much from what I have read. Not surprised either :p
from tear-fucked :
.how bitter-sweet are you,how you are sweet and bitter.
from down-fallen :
i'm going to kick that fuckface's ass. but are you ok hon? it's not your fault... at all. xoxoxoxoxoxox
from moongazer17 :
dollface, this was not your fault. don't blame yourself. if you need to talk IM me, okay. i loove you babe. stay strong
from mylostangel :
oh my god lovie.... AIM me if you wanna talk: DarkMoon1342
from arsenic-kiss :
oh thank-you so much! & thanks heaps for adding me to your list, i'm just adding you right now! <3
from somberdsign :
Go here (http://somberdsign.diaryland.com/justanother.html) and tell me what you want changed, or if you just want this one scrapped & for me to start over.
from half-hearted :
wow. just fucking wow. you&your beauty leave me breathless. <3
from moongazer17 :
my admiration just grew for you because of that entry...you are so wonderful mady...i love you, adore you. you are a breath of fresh air. ♥ Crystle
from andwebreathe :
A-FUCKING-MAZING entry.. again. ♥ ♥ ♥
from embersfade :
Thank you, and you're amazing....Love
from killingyou :
thanks for adding me to your favourites. i read a couple of your entries and didn't want to stop.
from xx-mandi-xx :
hah yes, i should update. but this is like my secret diary where i write things i don't want my friends or boyfriend to see. my real diary is: http://www.deadjournal.com/users/gcgirl
from complexlogic :
Thanks :) And it's so hard to pick just one song. Either "Cute Without the 'E'", "Great Romances of the 20th Century", or "You're So Last Summer". But everything that spills out of Adam's mouth (and out of the rest of the band as well) is pure genius and beauty.
from complexlogic :
Hooray for good music :)
from leely :
hope your birthday rocks & stuff♥
from complexlogic :
I love your Taking Back Sunday lyrics strewn about. Wonderful.
from gloryxxfades :
ahh you &keith seem so great together. oh man, i want to makeout to bikescene!♥
from down-fallen :
xoxoxoxoxoxox you are the greatet and prettiest and coolest, ETCETERA. your boyface seems amazing. xoxoxoxox
from moongazer17 :
ps:your boyface seems wonderful. woah
from usedpolaroid :
of course! <33
from moongazer17 :
shhh..you ARE beautiful. more beautifuler thean i will ever be...i love you to pieces pretty girl. ♥ ♥Crystle
from xx-mandi-xx :
yesum, i am. see...veletheart [or something like that] had you as a favourite. and i recognized the - after the name and thought it might be you, and sure enough...it was. but that's good, because i like reading your journal. you're awesome!
from stoner-girl :
he doesn't undestand why i do it but he doesn't condemn me - he just shakes his head and says he knows im better than that. I'm alright thanks and lol same as for you, definitely hooked. <3
from xx-mandi-xx :
the only thing that takes pink hair dye off hands is orange cleaner or bleach...stupid hair dye ;)
from gloryxxfades :
sorry it took awhile to get back to you! &i love your use of "dahling". i can relate to your relationship with your dad. except not ALL the time. but for the most part.♥
from leely :
thats my favorite taking back sunday song<3
from intofantasy :
darling you're beautiful. keep on writing. you're deffinetly going on my favorites. <3
from moongazer17 :
and i love you more than i can even comprehend...♥ Crystle
from usedpolaroid :
thanks, doll! you are AMAZING too!
from its-me-123 :
ha, i'll add one just for you! :-D toodles!
from conversedoll :
i came across your journal and i want to tell you that you are an amazing writer.
from ransgirl15 :
yeah we do. We should put up lil " boi[s] wanted" signs on our diaries. hee hee. But chyeah.. your name is far more prettier than mine.. and your beautiful[er] than anyone. oxoxox
from suicideinc :
i would love that, just so long as i could add you to mine.
from moongazer17 :
psst, madyson. just wanted to leave yet another note to remind you how much I love you. Youre the best and i &heart; you x1,ooo. and hugs too pretty girl
from suicideinc :
you are a lovely writer with amazing talents and wonderful taste. this seems as if it would be so insignificant with all the lovers you have, but then again what could it hurt? keep writing. <3 jacq
from oceans-depth :
ya know now you got me thinking maybe i should aproach hallmark and ask them if you and I could write a new line of cards.hmmm I would love that .Hugs sweetie xoxoDeja
from its-me-123 :
hi. i was ust randomly looking thru diaries and i liked yours. you write beautifully. i also liek your taste in books and music. well toodles.
from enjoyaudrey :
awww. you are too! mygod, you're wonderful♥ and eavesdrop... mMmm. i only know those 2 songs, as well. but man, those songs are awesome. i cant wait to see them live =)
from stoner-girl :
No no no no no that will not do - your writing is far more beautiful. I cannot just sit by and let u write something like that :p Yeah it sucks when that happens with friends but I guess all you can do is just accept it in the end. I hope you're doing okay - keep writing babe <3
from oceans-depth :
I think you should be writing your own line of Cards. You know Bastard you broke my heart kind. I would buy alot... xoxox Deja
from down-fallen :
so damn beautiful. xoxoxoxoxoxo
from andwebreathe :
♥ ♥ ♥
from moongazer17 :
Don't worry, love..i convinced my nanna to let me stay home. *big sigh of relief*. By the way, this was stunning: "I want you to ache like I ache & dream fevered nightmares, your face flickering on the backs of my eyes. I am saturated with you." You say EXACTLY, EXACTLY what I'm feeling. only you say it so much better and i love you fot it. ♥ Crystle
from gloryxxfades :
thanks, mad! it really helps to hear that you care. do you get along with your dad?♥
from moongazer17 :
god, i love you pretty girl. ♥ ♥ I can't even put it into words. Crystle
from ransgirl15 :
oh sweetie, thank you so much for the notes. Yourre beautiful too.... 10000000000000000000000 times more than I am I LOVE YOU! [!!!!]
from enjoyaudrey :
"im just bent, not broken" wow. mindblowing, i love it <3 and likeohmygosh you like eavesdrop?!? i dont know anyone else who listens to them! and yes ive heard of laura's car... i only have 2 songs from them, though. but they are amazing beyond belief. totally stands out from the scene. awww, you make me smile, sweets =)
from velvet-heart :
Password is in my profile
from stoner-girl :
lol same here, i haven't really ogtten used to it. thanks for the good luck, tho i feel asleep and din't do fuck all *blush* im pretty sure im in deep shit now. same to u babe, seriously beautifful words - keep it up :)
from oceans-depth :
You left out a beautiful fragile flower that needs love and nurturing to grow. You will shine again one day my little star* And I will still be here looking at the sky to see you.xoxoxLove Deja
from punchdrunken :
thank you, love. <<<33333
from moongazer17 :
beautiful Madyson..I'm writing this because of your latest entry, just to let you know that you ARE beautiful. I just want to lift your chin up and place a mirror in front of your face. You have such a kind, gentle soul. And this way with words that just leaves me with my mouth hanging open. And dollface, I'm going to leave you a million and one notes if it means you'll smile. I ♥ you, Mady. xxCrystlexx
from stoner-girl :
lol yeah so you can see why I was so confused for a while over which one I wanted. I agree, Ryan does sound a bit like Rory from what I've read - especially with calling me beautiful. He said I had to get used to it aswell. I don't see it either in myself. <3
from heartshaped :
(thank you).
from punchdrunken :
just like you, darling. <333
from velvet-heart :
You are a far better drug than any other narcotic
from down-fallen :
your the best high i've found. and your free. right...? you intoxicate me x1000000000. xoxoxoxoxox
from gloryxxfades :
beautiful like you.
from gloryxxfades :
thanks! i can't get over how alike we are. &how your guy says your beautiful.. my boyfriend says that too &i don't know why. i wish i WAS beautiful.♥
from stoner-girl :
Yep the right picture - it says it's you. :p lol the problem is that im not asking Ed to wait around forever for me, he swears that he will be anyway. Lol! Relationships! True, hey are so damned complicated. You too babe, keep up your great writing <3
from ending-here :
i know what you're going through. please just be careful. try to hold on to something to keep yourself sane. xo
from down-fallen :
you're far, far, FAR prettier than me. your words are the truth, but it's beautiful. XOXOXOXOXOX
from gloryxxfades :
thankyousoosoomuch for trusting me with your new diary. i'm gonna add you, okay? drop it like it.s Hot!♥ [i.don't.know.where.that.came.from]
from moongazer17 :
I am flattered..and at a lose for words. God, you're amazing..♥ ♥ (& kisses and hugs) ♥ Crystle
from velvet-heart :
Oh Mady ((Tuns n tuns and multiples of hugs) I do wish I was there for you. *kisses your heart amd takes your hand as we go walking and talking along the deserted fields of your emotions* You aren't alone. I still love you for who you are. Forever and always
from punchdrunken :
of course i wouldn't mind, love. infact. i'm flattered. <333
from down-fallen :
you're so beautiful... xoxoxo
from punchdrunken :
aww, thank you, darling. as are yours, xo <333
from moongazer17 :
Your nice comments go right to my head and leave me breathless. Thank you, beautiful lady. i fucking ♥ you!!!!! xxCrystlexx
from stoner-girl :
Lol! You give me advice anytime if you want, honestly, feel free. :) Yeah Ed is adorable, you wouldn't believe he's 16 from how mushy he sounds. *blush* The google html thing is on here: http://members.diaryland.com/edit/faq/misc.phtml and its right at the bottom. I saw your pic and wow you're so pretty but I'm not going to say what a shame or a waste or whatever, I know the addiction to cutting. Anyways <3 keep writing hun, you're doing it so well!
from inaptbeauty :
girl, although your diary isnt opening for me... im sure its so good! &yeah, you are so pretty ♥ ♥ ♥
from velvet-heart :
Im supposed to remind you to leave me a purdiful note- so here yah go- get to work love. *smiles*
from asweettale :
wow. your writing. you.. it's.. god, i can't describe it. you're beautiful, darling. <3
from moongazer17 :
Your last two entries were stunning. you continue to amaze me. ♥ ♥ love you, Madyson xxCrystlexx
from velvet-heart :
I am *that* funny.. Tisk tisk the talents I have hiding under my sleeves.. lol
from oceans-depth :
Ok just a quick name change and Ive added you. Glad you didn't leave Sweet One. xoxox Deja
from moongazer17 :
Aww..I hate to see you leave your other diary! That sucks but at least you're still writing your amazing words here. ♥ ♥ ♥ love you pretty lady! xxCrystlexx
from stoner-girl :
Yes, I can definitely relate to that - my old diary me-always I had to leave because of the sheer amount of people who found it (my whole class.) There is a code, if you didn't know to stop people finding your diary on Google, which I belatedly found after I deleted my whole diary lol.
from velvet-heart :
And love you most when you're hiding in the corners where I least expect it. *sighs* Now all I have to do and put you in my pocket and carry you around closer to my heart and pull you out into the open in the daylight hours so you can heal me under the rays of the sun and your striking words and beauty. I ♥ you!
from moongazer17 :
by the way, are you leaving your other diary for good. just curious xxCrystlexx
from moongazer17 :
Thanks for letting me know about this diary, it's definantly going on the faves because i would die without your stunningly beautiful words. [[[love to you, babe]]]]. xxCrystlexx
from mylostangel :
<3 you're beautiful
from open-scars :
thank-you for adding me to your favourites. unfortunatly i dont have many words or emotions right now to write as good as i expect. so i'll be on hiatus for a short while. thank-you <3
from stoner-girl :
hey, I love your layout for this diary - it looks a lot better than your old one. Then again I love Black and red together. Glad you've got a new diary, so now you can keep writing .

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