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from thelongreign :
i love you so damn much
from dangerspouse :
Merry Christmas to you too. May you always enjoy the gifts of sobriety and inner acceptance.
from atwowaydream :
Yes. everything in your entry. . .yes. You are going to make it, and you're going to be so fucking lovely while doing it.
from atwowaydream :
Beautiful entry. You should be really, really, really fucking proud.
from atwowaydream :
I always pay attention, believe it or not. And always keep up.
from atwowaydream :
not much in common? Why the fuck not?
from atwowaydream :
many hugs to you, something that is actually okay to borrow. Also, glad that you liked Lucas. . . definitely good stuff.
from thelongreign :
I wrote
from atwowaydream :
I remember receiving your email, and I also remember responding, however. . . my state of mind might have altered your email address.
from atwowaydream :
glad to see you are still here. really.
from atwowaydream :
"Watch your backs, motherfuckers. It's the quiet ones you have to watch out for." Ha. Definite truth.
from atwowaydream :
i was seriously just letting you know how I could understand what you were writing about. thank you for saying nice things! i really do want your friend to be okay, and with you again.
from atwowaydream :
your feelings are definitely not boring. you've had a tremendous change and loss to your life, when everything else was the same only days ago. it will take some time, and it's always good to vent. he sounds like an awesome person, and a really good friend, and i hope he comes out of all of this like the determined mofo he is.
from atwowaydream :
no matter what, everyone gets hurt. it's almost not worth it to actually pay attention to any sort of emotions.
from thelongreign :
"why do i have to want and long for more? why can't i be content with what i have?" We're so the same brand of fucked up :0)
from atwowaydream :
I really, really appreciate your offer to punch the pillow for me. That touched my heart.
from thelongreign :
I've been chasing fairytales my whole damn life...don't you know? One doesn't stop such things all that easily...and it's never enough. It's such a tough place to be when the person you're with is so "good" -- comes home every night, works hard, never has random text messages from other women on their phone, patient with the kids, GOOD -- but doesn't start your heart to beating, doesn't give you butterflies in your tummy, doesn't inspire bedtime chats until 2 in the morning...and ugh...there's always someone who does that, isn't there? and it's never the right person...UGH Love you, so much!!
from thelongreign :
maybe by saying that she didn't understand how someone could love someone who didn't love them back she was actually chastising herself, rather than you...Just a thought. I different perspective...You're quite easy to love. And you're quite hard on yourself. When we're as hard on ourselves as we are we find it really difficult to accept love, to let it in, to embrace it fully...that's all we are ever doing is flirting with being in love. Wonder if we'll ever grow up and get over that? I sure hope so...because at some point I'd really like to be in love...like really and actually IN it...
from thelongreign :
I always pretend you're writing just to me...:0) I'm proud of you for being you, for spending time with you...starting to figure out yet what I've already known? You know...that you're kinda awesome?
from atwowaydream :
i can't stand what the media does in nearly any form. Catapult them into the limelight so we can stone them till they fall to their death. but yes, she is extraordinary, and i wish people would remember her for that, rather than her misery and self-destruction.
from thelongreign :
i'm not sick of you, not tired either...I love you, mucho...always, always, always
from atwowaydream :
I adore women, too. And anyone who has a problem with that can pretty much suck it.
from atwowaydream :
Mauve is a really good color. Honestly, I have no problem with anyone and their religious convictions. . . I just like to be silly, which automatically makes me blasphemous. I read you and type in your little password. . . so I'm glad you read me sometimes, too.
from thelongreign :
honest and faithful to? and OMG that's when the devil gets me too...
from thelongreign :
i'll play therapist anytime you need/want...and i have unlimited minutes :0) love you
from atwowaydream :
I can certainly understand the duality of wanting love and being fearful of it. I'm happy that you have someone who is helping you accept it, because I'm sure that you're worth it. ♥
from atwowaydream :
skeleton key?
from thelongreign :
fear sucks the life out of us...please be happy. I love you
from thelongreign :
who is this person? do tell
from thelongreign :
if this is how you feel...make it better. At least try. Don't not say this to her out of fear of 'rejection' or the 'no' -- I realized all of the things I should have already known well after it was too late to change a damn thing. don't do that to yourself, my darling.
from thelongreign :
although it does not every surprise me anymore, it does still amuse me how alike we are..>I too am a prefectionist...throwing out so much hard work for it being just a small bit off of what I was going for...I hope for you peace and contentment...and calm inside your head. There will come a time in which the relationship you are in is no longer such a challenge...and as much history as you have with G...I feel that it's not where you belong...because the reality is...you may not 'step over the line' until you feel something is wrong...you spend a lot of time with our toes in the water...and I can say this to you, because I'm the same. Once you feel no need to dip a toe in, test it out, play it out in your head...and then dismiss it...once you have come to a place where you aren't seeking new connections, new 'rushes' somewhere else...when you are satisfied, sitting peacefully in the silence of companionship...that's when you know it's right...at least for the here and now. I have that for the first time in my life...and when you do too..you'll know. The questions will stop, the wondering and guessing and rethinking..it will all stop. The analyzing...and then over-analyzing...it won't be required. And you'll just BREATHE and life will be good, in regards to that, if nothing else. And you will have that, because you deserve it, and you want it, and you know better how to risk than anyone i know...but for now...you do what you need to do to be okay...and then, take some time to figure out how to get to great. Because you are wonderful and you deserve it
from thelongreign :
although it does not every surprise me anymore, it does still amuse me how alike we are..>I too am a prefectionist...throwing out so much hard work for it being just a small bit off of what I was going for...I hope for you peace and contentment...and calm inside your head. There will come a time in which the relationship you are in is no longer such a challenge...and as much history as you have with G...I feel that it's not where you belong...because the reality is...you may not 'step over the line' until you feel something is wrong...you spend a lot of time with our toes in the water...and I can say this to you, because I'm the same. Once you feel no need to dip a toe in, test it out, play it out in your head...and then dismiss it...once you have come to a place where you aren't seeking new connections, new 'rushes' somewhere else...when you are satisfied, sitting peacefully in the silence of companionship...that's when you know it's right...at least for the here and now. I have that for the first time in my life...and when you do too..you'll know. The questions will stop, the wondering and guessing and rethinking..it will all stop. The analyzing...and then over-analyzing...it won't be required. And you'll just BREATHE and life will be good, in regards to that, if nothing else. And you will have that, because you deserve it, and you want it, and you know better how to risk than anyone i know...but for now...you do what you need to do to be okay...and then, take some time to figure out how to get to great. Because you are wonderful and you deserve it
from thelongreign :
why does your daughter hate her? I know how you feel...how scared and lost...I went through that when I came home...just me and the boy. And his behavior tailspun (It still does from time to time) -- and how it hurts to hear those things...but it's okay to feel hurt. AND it's okay to feel scared. You're strong and smart and beautiful. And this is all transition...
from thelongreign :
maybe it wasn't an entry you were meant to reflect on or remember in a year...or even tomorrow. Maybe it was about getting it out and letting it go....and losing it is the only way that could be accomplished. And now it's out...and not trapped inside of you...but it's been put into the universe...rather than locked into the retelling of your story.
from thelongreign :
things will be so much better than fine...because you deserve that. It takes time, but I promise it will happen. Love You
from thelongreign :
you're writing at least...that's always a good place to be...single or not. I miss the process and I suppose I should start again...someday ...soon even. I miss you. You text me and I'd text you back, only to find my response in my outbox, unsent, a week later. Too late then...should have sent a new one but it was late (so even later there) I will right now. Love You
from thelongreign :
falling in with falling in love -- or the possibilities of love when so much is unknown....i love you, just sayin
from thelongreign :
i love you - lets catch up soon
from jlpisces :
Thanks so much for the insight. You're so right! I need some space, and I need to take it so I can think. Already, I feel like I'm sucked in and it's exciting, but it's also really scary!
from thelongreign :
a slippery slope...it's all such a slippery slope
from jlpisces :
Hey pridegrl...you have great taste in music! ;)
from thelongreign :
I'll see you there, I can hardly wait :0)
from thelongreign :
hey babe, I just wanted to let you know that I'm writing HERE now. I know I know. Last move though. And really, the LiveJournal I wrote you about will probably be updated more often....and we always have myspace. So sad. lol
from myself--asis :
lol trust me...it was all in there anyhow
from myself--asis :
You made me cry. Jerk :-) I was so glad to see you online last night. Thanks for saying hello. And...for sharing. Love You -- Des
from myself--asis :
Hey there...It was great to see you all lit up today. I am proud of you for accomplishing a goal. You are too good to write under any kind of restrictions anyhow. As for going back to factory work...You did something you had to do. Tried something new. It taught you somthing. How great is that? You are so much braver than I am. -- Love You!!! Des
from myself--asis :
You know what? I'm damn glad you are good with being you because I find you to be fucking AMAZING. Not that MY opinion matters. It is yours that does...but, I concur. And, there is so much of me in you, or you in me...that it is comforting and frightening all at once. (and thank you for the comment about me on your profile. It made me smile :-) ) I adore you!!!
from myself--asis :
Hey girlie, I've done some bouncing around but I think I'm where I'll be staying here in d-land. I was so glad to see you update!!! --Des
from head-unbowed :
you make me smile. Thank you for that.
from daze-of-rain :
Ahh, yes...pride. It's gotten me into trouble plenty of times. I suppose avoiding your initial reaction was a very good thing...but here's the thing, maybe YOU don't do this...but I do. I sacrafice myself as not to cause trouble here. Then again...there is trouble always, so i'm just attempting to make the situation livable...But all that sacraficing? It leaves me resenting the fuck out of Brian.
from daze-of-rain :
Chrissy, I also want to thank you so much for the compliments on my poetry. It always means more from someone that I consider so completely talented. Thank you, again. You made my day
from daze-of-rain :
Ahhh, yes, ladies. Know something else? Ladies lie...about who they are and what the truly want. And you strike me very much as not a "lady"...and neither am I. So, at least I'm in good company. Seems fair, since we are going to be 'burry i head in the sand sisters' together.
from tater-fay :
Happy Birthday!
from poetscene :
i hate those mixed feelings.
from poetscene :
hello - this is poetichealth - this name is my new one, in case you read my diary. how r u?
from ladylazarus- :
just stumbled across your diary and thoroughly enjoyed what it had to say. i like the way you express your thoughts.
from samgrey :
All you can do is be true to yourself and not worry about making everyone else happy. You'll only suffer for it in the end.
from to-my-heart :
People over analyze songs. Might I add you to my bl?
from to-my-heart :
you're a talented writer.
from tater-fay :
OH! Now I totally understand!! Eek!
from tater-fay :
I enjoy reading your diary when you up-date and now it seems to be locked. Would you give me the password? If not, I understand!!
from daze-of-rain :
You don't update nearly enough. I love the way you write, even if it's not always sunshine and light. I wanted to thank you for the note you left at true-to-self. It meant a lot to me.
from starlight42 :
so sorry to hear what's been going on!! I hope things get back to normal for you soon. It sounds like you're in good spirits though, which is always paramount.
from tater-fay :
I took your survey on "passion" and really liked it and now that I'm reading your diary, I think you are a very insightful person. I'm going to add you to my favorites:)
from starlight42 :
where've you been? Time to update! Hope everything is ok.
from starlight42 :
sorry to hear about Dennis! i hope things can get on the right track for him.
from starlight42 :
That's so great that you're working through things and asking for help and having some faith...I know that's hard to do. Keep working at it, you'll get there :)
from starlight42 :
Sorry to hear you're going through a tough-time. You're doing a good job though, working to stay sober, if you put in the hard work now, maybe one day it will be much easier.
from prissy-pants :
Thanks for voting for my entry. I will be sure to read your journal sometime.
from starlight42 :
ya, we had a live bird get in the house once, it was no fun trying to get him OUT!! Spidey is a cute name for a cat.
from starlight42 :
Congrats on winning the POY award for June!
from starlight42 :
Well, I see I am not the only person to come by and say how much I enjoyed your pieces of you summertime memories entry! You write beautifully. Your summers with your dad sound wonderful! It sounds like we grew up in the same era too- with madonna and the jelly bracelets. I also had a uniform :)
from lunarshadow :
I absolutely adore your Summertime Memories entry. I was smiling from ear to ear. The good ol' days. :)
from impetuousme :
thank you... so much... hearing such things from you... makes me grin out loud... so proud.. thank YOU...
from impetuousme :
i was relieved to see the automatic message... telling me of your journey... relieved after reading about all the stress and heartache... before you left.. and remembering how... Sedona was supposed to be a proposal... and wondering now... how it all must feel... inside you... and wondering... if she knows... what HE is doing inside you... and wondering... if HE knows... and... wondering... if there are words.. that might convey... some bit of understanding... so that you might know..that someone... somehow... understands... and sympathizes...and cares... and so that you might know... that someone is here... always... rooting for you... silently.. holding your hand...
from impetuousme :
you ok???
from say-good-bi :
hi. I came across your name doing surveys and wanted to come say hello.
from wench77 :
Your four kids and her two?? Wow that is a housefull! My house just has kitties a doggy and lots of ants and spiders. :)
from inkdragon :
Thanks for taking my FYI survey. I took your survey also, it was great!
from impetuousme :
i would, if i could, but you would only hate me...

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