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you have so much history in this diary, it would be sad to move it/delete it (can't you just lock it?). But anyway.... count me in! sharneeATgmailDOTcom thanks!!

from applerobot :

the guy from work does sound nice indeed and i think it's probably a good thing that he's eager to take things slow! dont fret, just see what happens and know that everything always turns out for the best, always! oh, and if you lock yourself -- please don't lock me out!!!!!

from girle :

screw the cop guy. the only "relationship" you had was sexual anyway. if a guy cares about you, he makes time for you, the way you let him interrupt your life by coming late at night just for a booty call. his whole schedule deal is too suspicious too. Have you ever even been in public with him?The guy from work sounds nice.

from applerobot :

being on top is a scary idea if youve never done it, and it can be quite hard on knees and wrists, but it really is awesome. I doubt you'll have breathing issues if you change positions! Gosh, this is a bit of a vulgar note really, but it's also fun from behind, but if he's big... you should just buy some lube yrself (ice lube is fun for BOTH of you!!). Good luck!

from applerobot :

Yeah, Lovestreet is right, it takes some time to get used to being on the pill (the Dr. told me it took one month to work so I should use condoms as well). Periods are a dream - I think - on the pill but in the end the moods got too much for me and I went off.

from lovestreet :

About the pill: I'm surprised they didn't tell you that it can take 6 months until your body had "accepted" the pill. I mean, you can have a few months that you can have a bit side effects. But you are lucky that they gave you the Yasmin one, because it's famous for giving no side effects! I had Yasmin too, so I can know but I had to change after one year :(

from applerobot :

you should tell him these things because i guarantee he has no idea how youre feeling

from applerobot :

I hope you paged him and I hope he came over!

from lovestreet :

Ok, I may sound a bit old fashioned but I would never invite a complete stranger over to my house. First because it's not safe (even when you have been in contact with him for a while), people aren't always like you think they are and second because it's just giving a signal that "something could happen because we are alone and nobody can see us"...Men are men and if I would invite one to my place and certainly when it's the first time I meet him, I'm sure he will think that "something" will happen...Certainly when he's a stranger, then he hasn't a big change of hurting someone because there aren't yet emotions involved between them...But like I said, I could be a bit old fashioned so don't be mad at me for saying this :)

from applerobot :

Yeah you should really do it. Be all cool like and take control of the situtation and if he's weird then you can know that it is HE who has problems (like SO MANY boys!) and find someone else! Good luck though, you deserve to be romanced!

from applerobot :

I have an idea! I think you should call him up and invite him over again! you dont have to start anything sexual or anything, but just hang out and make him dinner or something and just hang out... I think it would work! Don't fret about it because it wont help!

from applerobot :

Don't think so much. Once I ruined a potentially good relationship by being too (!!!) weird after we'd been intimate! Just relax and see what happens!

from girle :

I'm amazed that you tell your sister and your mom about the guys you date!

from basal :

from applerobot :

woo hoo! awesome! see! I told you there was nothing to worry about!

from applerobot :

just jump in the deep end and meet him! stop thinking that it's HE who has to be impressed with YOU, and not the other way around. Your intelligent, cute and sane...! Nothing to worry about!

from girle :

I sometimes think I see an ex...and freeze and get nauseous. I know that feeling...suck. We sold a total of around $1500 on the auctions. Some things the Mr has collected over the years (military stuff).

from orlith :

I wouldn't try to sew the buttons on... use a hot glue gun. It would hold better. And if you're wanting the look that the buttons are sewn on... just wrap thread through them, tie it off, and then glue them on.

from life-at-24 :

I have to say, I took a look at the pics you have up at the personals site and you look fine! Just like me, it couldn't hurt to lose a few pounds, but you are still a very beautiful woman. It's easy to see why any guy would be interested in you. =o)

from applerobot :

hey there... look, seriously i do not think you have anything to worry about! youre such a cutie! I do understand where you're coming from (because, dude! I'm a fattie!), and I even had a little rant in my diary about it yesterday. I don't think that it should even be an issue when you find someone who cares about you... but I also understand how thoughts can plague a person! I guess I'm ranting a bit now, but seriously... don't worry about it.. it's really not as much of an issue as you imagine it to be!

from girle :

If I were you, I'd get a very young cat - 8 weeks maybe? It's best to start as young as possible (the youngest they'll do is 6-7 wks) so you can train the kitty, since you are very tempermental about where the cat goes. I don't mind if my cats go up on my tables...but they don't get on my counters. A kitten takes a lot of watching and care though. You'll be a mommy! I also suggest that you get a girl. Boys can get really territorial..and piss...

from cedar-avenue :

wooooooooowwwwwwwwwwww... aint been here in quite some time. I'm the chic in ur favs list formerly known as bratz- the local chic as well. you stayin local? i'm such a nosy ass... glad to see your still updating though!

from girle :

sorry you are feeling down. this is the time of life when we have to realize that life isn't about what we get from other people (relationships, jobs, etc) it about what we do for ourselves. Life is all about what you do for yourself. Speak up to your doc and therapist - they can't help you if you don't open up. Open up when your sis's bf walks in front of you. Don't let yourself disappear, but make yourself known in the world. I know, stupid sounding crap...but it's true.

from girle :

Same addy.

from girle :

we should totally meet up. you can teach me the violin basics

from girle :

You're just fine. :) It will come at the right time. I know, BS, BS...but it's true.

from yentl22 :

Hey that girl who asked where I'm from ... I'm from Hammond, Ind.

from bethany9 :

what part of NW Indiana? I am from Munster.

from orgami :

dont get upset with me I am a dude but I loved the last part of your entry today that little paragraph said so much and adults can mess up a persons head YES that is certian i am learning to relearn everything as a male about my own being and sexual function and I have found a girlfreind whose mother was physical and mentally abusive so I try to be there and read books about this to help her anger sparks through you but that is good getting grounded is hard well bye for now Im out of time

from banyonbebe :

Hey, I just started to read your diary, and i'm hooked

from pinkvirgo :

so I would like to state that this is the first time I ever left a note.Let alone read someones entry on diaryland. but this is what I have to say. when it rain to pours but wheres the exitement without the after affects. You have a nice life that most people would like to have. Yes there are parts where no one would like to have but I love thunderstorms.. but whoever said you can go out and dance in it right? plus with your strained ankle it would add to the way ppl preceive you. even for a second. like wow that girl is still living life working, even with that ankle. She must be a tough gir. so have good days ok? theary

from beelucky :

God has a way of humbling you, doesn't He? Whenever I'm feeling all "cool" and acting "great" I usually trip/fart/rip my pants-sometimes even all three at once.

from saladbowl :

Damn,I looooooooooove the way you�re cursing.

from alethia :

I hear you about strapless bridesmaids gowns. Dammit. One of my friends is getting married next year and I'm crossing my fingers. My DDD's do *not* look good in strapless. :/

from girle :

When I went to my gyno, I kept my shirt on and just had to put a paper thingie below the waist. They didn't do a boobie exam (I think unless you ask, if you are under 30 or something) and it really did just take 5 minutes. It will be fine. They see ALL KINDS of stuff, don't feelweird!

from tnt692000 :

Just wanted to let you know I think your diary is very interesting. I'm actually going through pretty much the exact same things you are right now. I don't think there's much anyone can do or say to make things any better, but if I can make it this far so far, ANYONE can!!! :) Even though we don't know each other, I'm here for you if you want. Hang in there!!!

from applerobot :

I'm proud too! Good on you for taking big steps. I think you've made the right choice about the boy. It doesnt sound at all like he was making you happy and you DO deserve to be happy. Of course things are going to be hard, for a while, but hold in there and things will be sunny soon! xx

from lovestreet :

I'm proud of you girl :) Talking to a therapist can help you a lot when you aren't feeling well. I've never been to one but all my co-workers are therapists so I know what kind of "miracles" they can bring to people. I think it's never a bad thing to search some help. I've even thought about it myself and maybe I will do the same. I still don't know. I've been having my cry days too, you know. Horrible isn't it, that you walk on the street or sit at the bus and bang! there you go: cry, cry...Big hug!

from applerobot :

if you start a new diary, make sure you let me know!~ very (!!!) cute little house too!

from applerobot :

you should start a new (ultra private) diary. i miss your entries!!!!!!!!!

from girle :

I can't believe it. I'm glad your guy was understanding. A shock, I can understand...but he knew about it, and he should have told that person he didn't want to know.

from applerobot :

oh dear. that is so horrible that someone found it and read it to him!!!!! I dont understand at all why people do things like that. Gosh, you must be so ANGRY with that person!!! It's such a pity that you've locked some of it up because really I love reading your diary: I admire you a lot (sound corny? sorry!). I freaked out the other day and worried that a close friend (and someone who I was totally in love with - he had no idea!!) had found my diary and read all about it. I freaked out! But then I thought "no. i have nothing to hide". You're relationship is relatively young and it's likely that you don't share completely everything with each other yet. In 30 years time this won't be a big deal, as you'll both look back together and laugh because by then you will tell each other everything. You have regular readers and I think we're all going to be sad if your thoughts are censored from now on. xx

from lovestreet :

Oh my God, that's just HORRIBLE! I was admiring you so much that you have been able to put everything you think in your diary, so true and so honest! Your thoughts are private and there are some things your bf doesn't have to know because we all have our thoughts and doubts sometimes. Most of the times those thoughts even last for a few hours but we may not ignore those thoughts because it's good to think about things in life and it's good to think about relationships. You only get better from it. So let nobody tell you that you thoughts were "wrong" because you are the only one who knows what the meaning is behind them...

from applerobot :

are you going to stay locked?

from girle :

a)forget v-day. is he obligated to get you something? it's just a silly, made-up day. why are you really so upset that he didn't get you flowers? i wouldn't want my hubby to waste the money. b)both of you are afraid of being alone at this point, and both of you will do what it takes to hold on, even if you aren't happy. c)remember that a relationship isn't supposed to be what you want and what you get. it's supposed to be about what you give him, and that you truly support him unconditionally. and of course, vice-versa. you seem to expect a lot from him and get pissy when things don't go your way.

from girle :

Ah, the beating hearts and giddyness is slowing down and the real relationship begins. It's hard when you feel like you are putting in more and maybe you aren't getting back what you think you should, etc. Keep the communication going. Hard part is making sure the relationship is at the same level on both ends, and that both of you are putting in 100%. You aren't feeling 100% so you are questioning yourself, and your intentions (sex). It is a big deal. Take your time with everything in a relationship. You've been through so many emotions and physical notions just in the past few months and it all takes a while to truly understand in your head.

from lovestreet :

My God, I've wrote so many mistakes in my last post!! Sorry, but it was a long work day :)

from lovestreet :

I'm sorry to hear about your garndmother :( My thoughts are with you... and about something else: I wish you a great weekend. You are doing it so well, I'm sute that the things that must happen will happen and if not, don't worry: you've still a whole future behind you! Btw: the advice you got from Girle: a good one :)

from girle :

I suggest that you get a lubricant, like K-Y Jelly...definitely.

from applerobot :

good luck with the big event, incase you do decide to do it. Don't think too much, don't worry about anything. remember that if a baby can come OUT, then... well, don't worry. You'll be fine. Just don't fret, enjoy it.

from applerobot :

Do you have to go to the GYN for the pill or the regular GP-type doctor. I just got mine from the GP.

from applerobot :

hey there... I have one comment & one question: have you ever thought about going on the pill to regulate your period? I did and now there are barely any cramps (nothing like they used to be!), and it only lasts about 3 days! Awesome! You don't have to look at it as a comtraceptive thing, just a hormone regulating thing. Also... I know you've had trim spa before.. I just wanted to know what you think about it... I mean... is it worth trying? Thanks! xx

from lovestreet :

I wanted to write you a note earlier, but anyway...It's a stupid comment but I was very surprised to read that you already gave your boyfriend a BJ! I took me 1,5 year until I did that for the first time so don't feel weird about it :) About the divorce papers, I really really understand your feelings about the divorce..You should know I'm a lawyer and a lot of people like your boyfriend are my client. If he gets a bit pissed when you talk about the divorce and the fact that he should do some things about it, I totally agree with you! There are so many men on this world who say that they will divorce but eventuelly they don't want to do an effort for it! Good luck girl, you deserve it! And a little advice: don't expect to much from your first time. Just enjoy the little things that will happen between you two. I won't be perfect, but you will have plenty of time to make it perfect!

from girle :

I agree with appleroot - I think you should do some exploring on your own. Don't expect him to just get below the belt and work magical wonders and you've never experienced anything alone. PS: the pillow under the butt thing, I highly recommend anyway, especially for your first time. It has nothing to do with being fat, it's an angle thing. okay *blush*

from applerobot :

okay, some advice (sorry if you didn't want it): you should definetly start exploring your own body. Touch yourself - see how and where you have to touch yourself to get pleasure and/or an orgasm. I find that those kind are much more intense than when I am with my partner, although it is a learning experience for him so I don't expect magic straight away! Maybe you're mid-cycle? That's when women get extra *meow* like they could rip the pants off a hunky man and have their way with him. Normal! The egg just wants to be fertilised because it's ready! If that makes sense. Sorry, that all probably sounds extra crude. just want to help! xx

from applerobot :

your diary is my favourite diary these days and I am SUPER excited about the photos! What a cute couple! Yay! Thanks for showing us!

from applerobot :

ooooh.... isnt it exciting? im very happy for you that things are going good.

from girle :

He hasn't told HER about you? Where's all the openness and honesty? Apparently, she would probably freak if she found out...and he knows it...and so he's not being honest with anyone. It's not fair to you. Sounds creepy to me. Update...

from lovestreet :

You've experienced in the last days how your feelings and thoughts can change. That�s a very nice thing, because the things where you were afraid of don�t seem to be so scary :) But when your sister talks to you about condoms, don�t be mad because there is a truth in her message. You always have to pay attention to what you do, even when you have been having sex for years and you meet someone new. There are some men who are only interested in one thing and I hope you found someone who is also interested in other things about you! Good luck!

from applerobot :

Yes, be careful. It's so easy to get wrapped up in the moment but *some* boys (and I stress some, and not all) are bad boys. You should tell him that you want to have a talk about the relationship or intimacy before it gets to that point. Does that make sense? But don't fear intimacy - it's so very beautiful when you no longer fear it... be strong & have fun (and show us a pic of him!!!). Good luck! xx

from girle :

Just be careful...he IS still married. I don't want to say rebound...but it's all to truthful a concept. Be very careful. You are fragile. Plus you WORK with him and will have to suffer seeing him every day if something negative happens.

from girle :

There you go! :)

from applerobot :

OOOooohhh! romance! yay!

from girle :

Just do it. Just go out with any of the guys you're interested in. You can date more than one guy at one time. Just for fun, experience, and free dinner :) Have fun with it. It's just dating, you don't have to be so serious about it. Just have FUN! Look, you've got game, take advantage of it.

from goldn-eggsit :

hello.

from applerobot :

good luck.

from applerobot :

oh! its locked?!?!?! please please dont lock me out! i like reading yr diary!

from girle :

I saw that jacket this past weekend...I really thought it was nasty, just my opinion...did you see it in person? And polyester and acrylic...ick...it will pill up and look shabby. Sorry, I just didn't like it at all, too flashy for an interview and way too much money. MHO, of course! I just wanted to make sure you saw it in person!

from applerobot :

oh a pretty pic! you have nothing to worry about at all (infact i think you should worry about *him* not being good enough for you... never the other way around). I had a lot of issues with my body too... but when you meet someone whos "right" its not even an issue. You should meet him soon. Good luck!! xx

from girle :

Something should come up. Go to a temp agency and do some admin work in the meantime. I wouldn't want to go back to that boat and miss an opportunity!

from girle :

If you aren't happy there, don't go back. I think jobs are getting more plentiful right now. You could move back home and give it a shot.

from gonzostar :

i took your survey, just thought you might want to know. :)

from girle :

Hey there. Just thought I'd say hello and let you know I'm reading. I'm on Aol IM: Naomer if you're ever on. You'll make it..time will fly by!

from madam-rose :

good luck hun. your dairy makes for a great read. Just hope the images show back up.

from rurisue :

Ahh, your diary is fantastic. And I feel an odd connection to you, because I just left for University, and my first week I got sick, had a sore throat and lost my voice, was on my period even though I had *just* gotten off (and it was heavy, too), and well, yeah. Although I don't have the sex issues you seem to have (by that I mean people constantly bringing it up), I'm still a virgin and so is my boyfriend, and we plan on staying that way until we're married (we've been together for almost four years now). Yeah. That was probably too much information for you, but your diary is just so open and honest I ended up getting all geeky in your notes section. Anyway, good luck!

from applerobot :

why are you going on the boat if you dont want to have to deal with accents?? wont there be lots and lots 'o foreigners? dude, im a foreigner!! remember, english is "english" and not "american" xxx

from applerobot :

4 months on the boat will fly. it will go so fast you wont even know it (my little stint in japan turned into a 5 year one, and ive only been home twice!!). i hope you update your diary from there, if you go. i like reading it :)

from applerobot :

oh god, dont do it with him just because hes there!! you have to wait for someone worthwhile to come along... it doesnt matter how long it takes!! they will come along eventually. anyway, i just wanted to say that. i enjoy reading your diary and I think your a great writer!! xx sharnee

from applerobot :

youre cute!!

from girle :

What is the job you are waiting for? email me. :) Girle. I know what you mean about the waiting!

from applerobot :

i think you are cool. and your skin looks amazing. keep away from creepy internet guys. if you find some good ones (and their hiding spot) let me know....!!!!

from mojo1915 :

Hello! I don't like this new sierra mist drink. I hope you have an awesome day! :)

from girle :

Happy Birthday! I always get depressed on my birthday. It usually ends up being a depressing day anyway *sigh*. Just think of the things you HAVE accomplished, which is a lot!

from girle :

Congrats on the interview. Just remember that $40k in Chicago isn't as much as it would be elsewhere. You'd have to live in Chicago and it's more expensive, but it's still good pay. Just be realistic and don't get too excited...I do that and my little heart gets broken. Just have a great interview!

from girle :

You should post a pic of you in your wedding outfit! Sounds cute!

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from yentl22 :

Yes seeing if this thing works .... <b>blah blah blahhhh</b>

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