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from theshivers :
Thank you! I am doing much better :)
from theshivers :
thank you <3
from theshivers :
I am SO glad you're OK! Happy birthday--here's hoping hoping your next trip around the sun is one filled with calm, love and all the good things xoxo
from theshivers :
I'm very excited about your trip! Please tell me more so that I may live vicariously through you :)
from theshivers :
Sorry, I know I'm being annoying! I'm just so excited. Annoyingly excited.
from theshivers :
I really wish that weight loss could be that easy. At this point I'm fairly confident that everything I do--including diet and exercise--actually leads to weight gain :(
from theshivers :
I'm fairly confident that JM comment to D was a compliment. He just seems like that kind of person. Also, here's to figuring out how to carve out that creative space. If it makes you feel any better I'm wrapping up my fourth week of summer break and I've barely done anything creative AND I've really got no excuse save the sinus infection. Life, I tell ya....
from theshivers :
"Terrible Wife Moments: A Memoir" It would be a bestseller, of this I'm 100 percent sure. Relatable as hell.
from theshivers :
Oh goodness, how scary. I'm so glad she's OK. Big hugs.
from theshivers :
PS, honestly don't worry about patterns! You have a job you like and you get to go to the U.K. You got this!
from theshivers :
Congrats on the new job! It sounds like a good fit for you. And, hey, catalogs are nothing to sneeze at! Now, of course, the challenge is juggling it with being creative. You'll get there. In the meantime, enjoy having a job you like :) Happy for you.
from stillill :
still locked
from theshivers :
A cleanse?!? For a cold? Ugh, in any case, I'm in that same phlegmy boat--though the sore throat has thankfully gone away. Sending you healing vibes.
from theshivers :
Also, I don't say this often enough but I think you're pretty amazing. Smart, funny, empathetic and complex. You went back to school and got your masters, you have varied interests, you are a good mother--and I can't even imagine what that is like and it leaves me in awe. xo
from theshivers :
They did go---they had a great trip! I'm so glad you got to see that show last night. C. is a huge fan and he's going to see him Friday night. I elected to stay home if only to have a night at home to myself. Now I'm questioning that decision :)
from theshivers :
PS, did I ever thank you for donating to my students' trip? If I didn't then I am SO sorry! Huge thanks, belated or otherwise. It means so much to me when others support my students and I know it means the world to them. In short, you are the best. But of course, I already knew that.
from theshivers :
I meant to leave you this note--but somehow left it for myself instead? Erg. Anyway, the message was "Playlists really are excellent therapy :) I want to hear yours! xoxo"
from theshivers :
It was autumn-like for a blissful moment and now we're back to heat. I love the season but for some reason it also makes me feel a little down. Playlist is a work in progress AND it is available on the music service in question. Title is same title as diary entry. Let me know if you need a link :) I really would like a weekend of chilly weather and soup and good movies and writing and reading and generally feeling better about life. A good night's sleep would probably help xoxo. Also, I've never seen the movies you mentioned--but I'm intrigued now. Oh, and yay on getting some work!
from theshivers :
Only $19? What a sweet score! And it's totally cool to enjoy that shopper's high. I know I would.
from theshivers :
I am right there with you on these fronts and I don't even have a child, which just makes me feel like I'm unnecessarily whiny. But there is truth tot that imbalance in a household problem and, damn it, I wish I could stay focused and positive or move on. Anyway, solidarity, sister, solidarity.
from theshivers :
I do hope my American Beauty-styled pep talk technique worked for you :)
from theshivers :
If you get a random text from a number you (probably) don't recognize, it'll most likely be me xoxo
from theshivers :
I need more of your entries, too! I actually thought about sending you a text today and then realized I probably don't have your most recent number. Anyway, I'm thinking of you. Oh, and A. WILL find that which brings her joy. Sometimes that journey can be oh-so-winding though. xoxo
from theshivers :
I know you do--I'm just hormonal and dramatic and maybe feeling a little isolated since I'm off work for the summer. Life is weird. In any case, yo're the best ... xoxo
from theshivers :
I hope you feel better soon and that more hours in the day magically appear xoxo ~s
from theshivers :
Would like to hear your thoughts on just about anything. Your brief Tw1tter and [email protected] updates aren't enough ...
from theshivers :
I hope "my staff" didn't sound jerky :( I worry about sh*t like that. Also: I am really missing your posts right about now...
from theshivers :
For some reason I thought of you tonight--maybe the days of DL of old and coming here to find solace. Spent as well. Exhausted with sorrow and anger. Love to you...
from ceildah :
Knock knock? I see red! Let me in!
from stillill :
locked?
from kayemess :
boy do I understand a locked diary but I'm still sad. but understanding, can I be both?
from theshivers :
No apologies necessary. You've read my rants long enough for this all to be fair play xoxo
from theshivers :
Locked diary : ( Do you know how sad this makes me? OK, I hope that doesn't make me sound like a stalker...
from theshivers :
I'm bad at the keep-on-writing, too. My inner critical voice wants to edit, edit, edit. On a different note: Screw October and all those bags-of-d*cks. M0rrissey once sang that N0vember spawned a monster. Let's hope it's monster creativity and good karma xoxo
from theshivers :
Intrigued...
from theshivers :
thank you xoxo
from theshivers :
You never have been, never will be awful. This heat, though...dreadful up here in the northern state, too.
from theshivers :
<3
from theshivers :
This recounting of your dream about DD has made me very happy.
from theshivers :
Ack! Diaryland neglected to tell me you left me lovely notes. So far no C diagnosis for C. Still no real answer, but the doctor says wait it out. And a cellar IS dreamy! I love that word so much more than 'basement.' xoxo
from theshivers :
Maybe there are bits of things that give you a small spark or inspiration to try something new, to add just a tiny bit more to your plate. In a way that's not crazy-making of course.It's not that you're not making good on all that you have to offer, maybe it's just that you're growing/changing and discovering new things about yourself....in any case, I'm always rooting for you...xoxo
from kayemess :
Hurrah! I thought of you today when it rained so hard on and off but I hope you managed to have a decent holiday. It's a funny place but walking by the water today with my kid running all about in her rubber boots in the tidepools and then going for a delicious PNW beer afterwards - not many other places we would live. I hope you saw a tiny bit of that.
from kayemess :
Yay for being in Seattle, boo that we will have totally typical weather. The usual downtown stuff I imagine is Pike Place and waterfront - I can actually recommend the ferris wheel if its a decent day and your kiddo likes rides, you feel like you're going down into the water. I'm a nerd but I like touring our downtown library, it's still kind of amazing 10 years in and it's free - go all the way to the top. I have a soft spot for the Seattle Art Musuem and there's a good kid area but if you want free, walk up some big hills to see the city and visit the free Frye museum - a contemporary mash-up with Euro classical collection and I think right now is still a pretty darn interesting take on brush painting via collaboration with Western artists. My most favorite thing to do with visitors is catch the Bainbridge Island ferry because you can walk to the pier and walk on for - maybe $7 and it's like a little adventure, 1/2 hour sailing, and you can walk into the sweet little town with some seriously good ice cream and food - and then back again. I've done with a Salumi take out picnic - heaven. The Water Taxi to West Seattle is fun too - that's my side of town and it lands at the pier where Marination Mai Kai is, delicious Korean/Hawaiian casual joint - Simone LOVES the pork sliders and shave ice with Husky Deli ice cream and so do I. If you walk further down the seaside, you come to Alki Beach, the beachiest part of Seattle. We always go to the Ballard Locks with friends (this would be a bus ride), watching the boats go through the locks is always really interesting for kids and adults, there are salmon ladders and grassy hills and Totem Red Mill Burgers across the street for kid friendly burgers and fish and chips. And then you're down in Ballard where I highly recommend Populuxe Brewery, good for kids and adults, if you're into beer. Amy used to write on Dland as Mrs Roboto oh so many years ago - and we're still friends! A bit out of the way, but they truly make the best IPA in town and the foodtrucks are always good. If you need an in-person guidance, help or company, feel free to email me, would love to help! Have a great time! kyla dot sweet /gmail
from theshivers :
You and me both, re: Driving oneself crazy. But maybe that's the point; going crazy to get to where we don't even know we should be. OK, that's confusing but what I mean is that maybe the "path you should be on" isn't THE path after all. At least that's what I keep telling myself.
from ceildah :
I love my smartphone. It keeps me sane. I can read about something cerebral/trashy/inspiring when I'm having one of those bored/lonely/frustrated/ moments that happen when you are home with two toddlers full time. If it wasn't for my smartphone I really would have no idea what is happening in the Ukraine/Syria/uk right now which would not matter much but it makes me feel better that I do know.
from stillill :
I'm not sure if it's sad but i think things were so much better when we were younger (20s and less)
from ceildah :
Oh phew!
from ceildah :
'ang on a minute - your child is 5 yrs or your have 5 kids now!? If its the latter is that two step lovelies and 3 birthed babes of your own? Either way, hats off m'dear. Not sure why this note has English accent overtones, perhaps it's bedtime. Hope you post soon too! Xx
from ceildah :
Hey! Hope all is well. Do you know if Myra-Lee is blogging anywhere these says, I miss her writing too.
from ceildah :
I've started coming here again and it is SO exciting to see 'your buddy list' written in read. Your recent post could have been written by me, or, at least, I get all the sentiments. I KNOW what I'm doing (mothering full time and little else) is worthwhile and I would not be completely happy if it was reversed, but it IS very difficult because society doesn't value people like me much, and there is no glamour, or headlines or financial rewards... Hang on I should probably write all this in my own diary.... soz! Great to 'read' you again and sending love and solidarity! X
from theshivers :
Now if only I get could get *you* to update :)
from stillill :
nobody is updating. sigh
from theshivers :
Thank you! Once I stop freaking out, I will celebrate in full!
from theshivers :
Sorry it's taken me this long to catch up with you--I totally understand that crossroads but I trust that you are so lovely and smart that whatever you choose will ultimately be the right thing...xoxo
from ceildah :
just noticed the message I wrote to you below some months ago and have noooo memory of doing so....bizarre.
from ceildah :
hey so since your lovely 'nudge' I've found sometime to catch up a bit on your archives.... I just read your january entry about the job offer (my heart swelled on your behalf) and then the logistical/confidence/heart strings related ending (eyes pricked a bit with empathy there)...sigh. I so get where you are at now that Im in a similar position. Just wanted to tell you that. hugs and don't shut up shop here ok? xxxx
from ceildah :
thanks I needed that xx
from theshivers :
ok, A) whew and B)I totally understand. I had coffee with a friend yesterday and thought pretty much of the same thing as she revealed a few things to me and I realized how much she tends to keep from me while I tend to open and up and just blah, blah, blah...I don't know if shutting up is the answer. I wish I could be more mysterious too but I don;t think it's in my nature....
from theshivers :
um, please don't close the book--I like you and your so-called rambling...
from theshivers :
I'm so glad you're getting this weekend away...I hope it gives you even the teensiest bit of rejuvenation, of lightness...
from theshivers :
On the one hand I feel your job angst...on the other hand--congratulations for obviously rocking. It just shows that there are so many opportunities out there for you...you deserve them all.
from myra-lee :
P-L! This is really exciting! Congratulations! The fact that this new_media_director person has already approached you about a side project seems really promising. It sounds like you can do work for them on a freelance basis and then ease into employment when A. is of an age where it works for all of you. That sounds perfect, really. Maybe I'm adding facts to this fact pattern. But seriously - congrats! The combo of new media side project + work-from-home kind of silly writing gig sound like the ideal combo for you right now?
from ceildah :
Hey Edwin, just read your entry and I feel for ya. Im going to have a go at being a fulltime mum, but am also going to try and start my own small business (have never done anything like this before!) because I dont want to put E in daycare and I dont want to be a stressed out working mum either (I will be a stressed out self employed mum instead :) Am enjoying this motherhood gig so far...especially on days like these when he sleeps for 2 hours..... :) thoughts and best wishes to you xxx
from stillill :
And happy birthday tomorrow!
from stillill :
And happy birthday tomorrow!
from stillill :
Hello Hello! It's been so long since I've logged in. You took away your livejournal but it's back to the original I guess. I'll have to read up and update me. Take care.
from theshivers :
so much I want to respond to in that last entry but here's what I'll focus on a) you ARE clever--I totally believe that you did it. I'm duly impressed but not surprised! b) I often think the same thing, re: being alone. Few people get how much I like to be alone. Most of my friends put up with it but I don't think they really get it. I don't have kids as a justification for this desire--which brings me to, have you read Doris Lessing's "To Room 19"? It's a short story about this very notion--wanting to be alone. The central character is a mother of twins. It's brilliant and also very sad but I completely relate to the character...anyway, love to you...
from myra-lee :
If it's only the fear of the tests that's holding you back from going for the multiple subject credential, you must go for the multiple subject credential! Must. Then, you have summers off for novel/biography/what-have-you writing. If you took AP calculus in high school, you're not dreadful at math. Seriously, you will hit it out of the park. (Lawyers love sports metaphors, speaking of dreadful.) Go P-L!
from theshivers :
it is, i think, that horrid but truthful realization that one must stop writing the moan-y entries and just cut up the damn veggies already that gets me going. Just do it. Cliche? Yes. But eventually you'll get in such a rhythm you'll have time for both veggies and moan-y entries...
from theshivers :
A couple of things. One: I go through that same swearing-off/giving-in to Forever 21 and Target cycle - for the exact same reasons. Two: I am finally using that book you gave me. Thanks again (what, two years later?) I really appreciate it! Now, here's hoping something actually comes of it!
from achren :
Oh, you just made my day. And then I started remembering how I wrote here and wondering if I trust the place to stick around long enough to come back. LiveJournal isn't doing it for me right now, and I keep thinking about starting over ... well, I keep convincing myself I don't have anything to talk about, when it's really that I feel like I'm not supposed to still be talking about all these things and all these days. Growing up is strange. I have the terribly unsuitable name of habiliments over there. I should change it, but I'm stuck with it now... xoxox.m.
from achren :
I love, love, love your post about identity, and it made me want to stick my head up and say Hello, and I'm still here, reading, though not writing in the same place (I think you know where to find me?). It's good to read your words. I'm struggling with a lot of things lately - not family things, but big-picture, what-do-I-want things - and what you said resonated. A lot. xoxo.m.
from kayemess :
is there room for a toddler bed situation? I was worried about transitioning to Simones "big girl bed" but it has gone tremendously over all - we did it at her 2nd birthday but I can see some kids needing it earlier - we got a cheapie from Ikea with a rail and it's been great. But I know what you mean - when you're USED to that all night sleep, it's worse than when they were always up all night. So hard!
from myra-lee :
I feel like I could just repost this as if my own entry, just replacing references to child and motherhood with job and career. All the feelings of being overwhelmed and losing my identity apply. And the knowledge that I'm happy, but it's so hard to remember because each day seems so overwhelming. Was there also a mention of feeling like you're in jail, or am I adding that? Anyway, you're so close! I'm just amazed that you're doing this while being full-time careperson for A.
from ceildah :
oh do they really return to normal? Mine look like someone elses these days. But all for good reason, actually I think it's sort of miraculous. Did you know they darken so that they stand out more against your skin for the colourblind new born? amazing. Would be great to have an update on your life with little one and juggling everything else you've got goin on. I need to do some thinking, I need a new career endeavour that makes me happy and sparkly yet will bring home the bacon, yet will fit around the kid. surely this exists.... x
from theshivers :
thanks for the note : ) I moved on to happier Wilco...I may consider that Gilmore Girls option however...
from ceildah :
thanks love. Will do!
from stillill :
3 words learned, and probably 3 words I'll never use. Hope you get better and hang in there.
from ceildah :
I loved it. Wes did a good job.
from ceildah :
Mwah. Thank you for that entry. Feels nice not beingthr only one going through the entrails of her life and examining what went- differently to how I'd hoped in some respects- but crucially not all.
from myra-lee :
I know what you mean. My conscience can be very bitchy, and it's exhausting. I find myself looking for a way out.
from ceildah :
thesis! good on you. Little and often, as they say! (And also lots and less often if you can manage it) x
from vodkatonic :
I love Alan Cumming!
from kayemess :
I'm online so instant-advice! But first, I'm really sorry to hear about your Grandmother, that's very sad. I would definitely go, definitely. I was stressed about traveling with her when she was so little, but actually, I look back on those days fondly for airplane travel. I wore her in a sling, which helped a lot in the airport and security line and all that, and people were SO nice when they saw the little baby. Even when she cried, they understood. It was much easier to travel with her then - now (14 months) she is more than a lapful, a wiggle monster, does not like to sit, and people don't have the same tolerance for a willful toddler. Now is a perfect time to fly - however, I say that not having breastfed on a plane and that does sound stressful, if you're next to some business guy in the middle seat etc. Security is MUCH cooler about liquids for kids these days so maybe pumping first would be good...also, our airport had a special security lane for families which made that whole trauma less traumatic. We survived almost 24 hours of travel, three take-offs and landings in one day, and we made it out alive. Imagine how happy your family will be to see the new baby at a sad time. I'm not saying it will be a piece of cake but trust me, if it could be that easy again...I didn't know how good I had it... good luck, and again I'm really sorry.
from allmadhere :
Let me know if you want someone to come over and hold that kid for an hour or two. *hugs*
from kayemess :
dearedwin, it will happen! but now I look longingly back on the time she was small and mobile and not so willful - even though this time is fun too. I hope your little family is doing well...
from kayemess :
ah, failure to thrive. For me, it involved weekly trips to see the Dr. and the lactation consultant who were both really nice but ultimately, their worries led me to "supplement" her with formula which was good in some ways, because it stopped the crazy screaming and obviously she was hungry, but bad in others because while for a good while she did both (and it stopped the 2-hour nursing sessions that never really seemed to satisfy her) eventually she stopped nursing all together. The pump did not work for me, I always had scanty scanty milk, fenugreek helped a little but overall it was a pretty lame experience - like failing my first motherhood test. Of course she is just fine, 9 month check-up Dr. pronounced her "terrific" and "thriving" so whatever gets them there - do it. No guilt!
from theshivers :
Can't believe I am just now catching up on the birth saga! Glad to hear she arrived safe and sound...can't wait to see pictures! xoxo ~r
from kayemess :
oh my lord lady, the first 6 months are like some kind of crazy dream of hardness, at least it was for me. Then it gets really, really awesome. Hang in there. It tests your mettle but I'm sure you have mettle to spare.
from ghost-song :
Congratulations! :-)
from allmadhere :
I'm sorry to hear there have been all these bumps in the road, but I'm glad you have all that family around to support you. Encourage little A. to take after me in the weight-gaining department. Wish I could offer more concrete advice, but, well, you know. I am always here cheering you on.
from kayemess :
wait - you had the baby??? congratulations!
from ceildah :
yaaaaaaaaay!!!!! cant wait to hear more
from theshivers :
i know you're otherwise occupied but i locked my Twitter for political reasons..i'll unlock after the election but, in the meantime, try to update more here...or you could just create a twitter account because i'm sure you have tons of free time right now ...congrats sweetie!
from ceildah :
it was truly so good! how's things? how is the bump? :)
from allmadhere :
I think the baby's getting to you, not the yoga. :)
from theshivers :
thank you for your sweet and, as usual, wise advice. Leave it to me to look a gift promotion in the mouth, right? Or something like that. OK, hereby trying to enjoy the rest of my holiday weekend -hope yours is fabulous
from theshivers :
Never apologize, re: Rory...
from stillill :
Funny, Reprise has been playing at my theatre but it ends tomorrow. I haven't seen it yet but people seem to love it. I guess I'll sneak into my theatre and watch it in the off hours tonight.
from myra-lee :
Yes, the model! She's lovely to look at (despite the hats), but she's so obnoxious and self-congratulatory in this show. Do you guys get Planet Green? It's the channel formerly known as Discovery Home. You have to watch this show. It's absurd. By the way, I've been longing to see 'Reprise' at your recommendation. It's playing at one theater up here and I'm worried it's going to go away!
from theshivers :
just sending you good thoughts - hope you get those TLC days....and yes the first George Michae1 album rules!
from stillill :
You know what, that is a pretty good name for a band or book. I guess you can copywrite it if you want. Don't worry about the weight, I finally lost about 10lbs after indulging in the slacker lifestyle. Yeah it's not baby weight but it's something.
from allmadhere :
I think anyone doing freelance work has those same worries. I think it comes with the territory. And I think, next time Aaron stresses out, I'm going to tell him "Why don't you watch your George Michael video?" but only I will realize why it's funny. That first George Michael album ruled.
from ghost-song :
No idea why it blew up - neither of us are very good on technical stuff unfortunately. I love Rupert too, and i believe i've got a better chance with him than you have, so there! ;-)
from allmadhere :
A mini-M! Yay!
from theshivers :
oh good lord, I am so sorry to hear that! I know you'll get through this and figure it out, but still, frankly, it sucks.
from kayemess :
Congratulations on almost being 3rd trimester - tho it is shocking and lame to be laid off, not terrible timing with the babe on the way. I can promise promise promise you, thought it's been said a million times, it's awesome and every day just gets better and better.
from ghost-song :
I hate the internet!
from allmadhere :
'nuff said. ;)
from stillill :
I thought it was the 18th yesterday!
from allmadhere :
1st time out? This one's my FOURTH. Always a bridesmaid... ;)
from ghost-song :
Dog town sounds great though :-)
from theshivers :
seriously, i think you're gonna be the hippest, most loving mama, ever...
from allmadhere :
I was hanging out reading theshivers and something just told me to click your diary link on her page--and there you were! WTF? I'm dland mind-melding with you apparently. I'm glad you're back. :)
from theshivers :
Now you just need a smoking jacket and the Crane-ification will be complete : )
from ghost-song :
Congrats :-)
from theshivers :
a be11y book?!? oh good lord...
from theshivers :
i'll tell you what's 'oh sweet jesus' - you've posted! hooray...and who *doesn't* love and covet a little Martha St8wart?
from myra-lee :
So glad you're back in the land! It sounds like we have the same gardeners. Ours kill everything. I'm pretty sure they could kill a cactus.
from ghost-song :
I'm glad you're back - this place is like a ghost town these days! :-)
from theshivers :
you always make me feel just a little bit better about everything (teaching, anti-social tendencies, friendships)...so, thank you.
from but-whatever :
it's ok with me if you're the only one leaving me messages. In fact, I think i like it better that way. Anyway, maybe I'll give that book a go.
from discodave :
M, my dear, if you feel better on dland, then come back, by all means. After all, a bit of me still doesn't want to leave here either. Dxx
from ceildah :
uh...exsquease me? are u like, too cool for us these days hmmm? or is it just a std case of diaryland apathy or life to busy-itis. Either is understandable. Hope you are happy and well anyways... x
from discodave :
If anything, you're more emotionally attached to the place than me, so I feel bad for knowing what's happening more than you...it's really horrible right now... Hmm - 10 Things I Hate About You or Ferris Bueller? Dxx
from in-my-life :
I finally watched Dig! and absolutely loved it. Not so much sex, but lots of drugs and rock & roll. Yee ha!! I especially liked the commentary provided by members of BJM. Even though I had previously been a bigger fan of the Dandies I found myself really annoyed by their commentary track. So much so that I couldn't listen to all of it and have since taken them out of rotation. But, I'm still having a Brian Jonestown Massacre listening party on my iPod and waxing nostalgic about the time I saw them at the Purple Onion. Good times.
from all-on-paper :
Phew, I'm not the only one who's a fan girl for Austin. :P
from ceildah :
ooh you're online! cool. One too many mojitos I think...went and left a note FOR myself...durr. It was pure luck. they are your archytypal hot gay dancer couple. v nice. hoping for some free tix to the Billy show but my have to just pay up, sounds good.
from ceildah :
my landlord is/was the choreographer for Billy Elliot. hows that for some A1 name dropping...huh?
from in-my-life :
There were lots of pictures of him on the faces page, but this is easier to link to. He's Dr. Scott: http://www.satisfactionclub.com/section/space.aspx
from all-on-paper :
I'm hoping its all just minor worries somehow surfacing out-of-the-blue. Anyway, thanks for adding me. :)
from stillill :
Oh my god, I was waiting for that specific entry to finally be written. Congrats on the engagement, and stay happy.
from in-my-life :
How bittersweet. Probably a good idea to leave it alone, but I can see why you would be tempted to reach out. Last night before I drifted off to sleep I was obsessing in my OCD-like way about contacting a friend from the past who's LJ I found. Then again, I can't remember how badly we left things.
from theshivers :
I know, I know...in 2 days I'll probably be high as a kite and happier than a clam...just riding the old emotional rollercoaster as usual...btw, I've been wanting to e-mail you to see how you are...but I didn't necessarily want to bug you with pesky questions such as 'how the hell are you and why aren't you writing...?'...just know that I'm thinking of you and i hope all is well.
from shadowdress :
there are worse places you could get a pickle stuck. but no, seriously, that was really funny.
from stillill :
That's cool that the link is useful. I had a feeling you might of had some live songs already but if it helps, I'm very happy! Happy new year!
from discodave :
I still haven't read all of it, but the introduction's gig was the first time I ever saw them and my name is somewhere in the dedications at the front. I only made one fanclub show - apparently Kenickie were dancing up the front ;) Dxx
from miralogue :
your story about giving away the beatles cd made my heart bigger. and probably that guy's heart too.
from girlypop :
Thank you, sweet you.
from worldwar24 :
Well... think about what was in it. I don't know what I'm doing right now M, really I don't.
from discodave :
I meant to say thank you for the ridiculously nice comment on your profile. Thanks. (And I sound like Pepsi!) Dxx
from vodkatonic :
i quite like foucault. what are you reading?
from almostgoldsf :
Another SMG internal error message. Grrr. Anyhow, another easy way to get active is to use working assets as your telephone provider -- they give you updates on issues every month, and you can use their letter writing service (for a fee) to send a letter to your local representatives.
from miralogue :
i want to change things. badly. and i'm heartbroken. and i agree with you. but don't lump middle states together. i'm in minnesota, and there are a LOT of disappointed people around here.
from almostgoldsf :
Last night, I was trying to think of ways to stay involved and try to keep working for change if we ended up with another 4 years of the same. My urge to flee the country is there, but if I do, and you do, and all my friends who care do, then this country becomes a huge WalMart lovin' Republican playpen. Although I'd love to work on getting California to secede from the Union, I don't think that would happen. So, what I came up with was this: Ask likeminded friends to print out that electoral college map. Memorize which states are red (or at least just FL and OH where there were pre-election dirty tricks aplenty)...and avoid them at all costs. Don't voluntarily go there on vacation. Don't book a work-related conference or event there. Economics is the one tool all people understand.
from discodave :
I wouldn't ponder too much, no. Just enjoy yourself (and remember that 2005 may see an album by the Tears - something to look forward to there, no?) Dxx
from dominguez :
i'm not going to be reading diaryland anymore so you best make sure to double post your entries into lj or something.
from pattyb :
thanks for that little note a while ago. i didn't reply sooner because with notes from people i don't know it almost feels like i should reply with a "thank you for your note [insert name here], it was carefully considered and it may make next weeks publication" or something along those lines. anyway, i read it's your birthday coming up, but it had better not be today (oct 25), because that's mine and it would be creepy.
from dominguez :
happy birthday in advance old timer.
from almostgoldsf :
hehe. i *thought* you'd appreciate that wording... ;)
from shadowdress :
oh i'll spread the romance baby. it's called the San Remo. i think you would really like it.
from theshivers :
eh, those people "who seem on the level of the professor" ...don't worry about them...they work really hard on cultivating that particular image. Not to say that they aren't nice, decent, very smart people...but really...they go out of their way to be a part of the ivy tower crowd...
from discodave :
Heh - I wasn't nagging, or forgetting you were travelling, I just kinda like the vicarious thrills from hearing about other people's journeys. Dxx
from almostgoldsf :
Any good shopping or museum-going in London this go-round?
from but-whatever :
oh, probably not...nothing majorly life-changing for me at least, it's only that (other) people are having babies, moving and moving on...i always think I want change but then it also makes me sad...
from discodave :
I covet them too. Mainly because I'm always working ;) Dxx
from worldwar24 :
Knowing me? Probably, and soon. For now, it's nice to have a place to play and rage and scream a little louder than usual. But you'll be the first to know <3
from vodkatonic :
Sorry but i've had to lock my diary. The username is matthew and the password is trustnoone.
from mariamania :
OMG! You guys are so funny -- I'm so glad that you two work together. We have a guy like that at the office too. I always say that he was born with a pencil up his but.
from discodave :
Heh - I'm sure you will at some point in the future. Bruce was cool, too. Dxx
from discodave :
Glad you clarified that - I must admit, although I thought not, a little bit of me wondered "is she...?" ;) Dxx
from stillill :
that last paragraph on the 7-19 entry is almost exactly me. I'm probably missing out on the world
from lastyeargirl :
That post-exams glow is the best feeling in the world... here's to a lovely and lazy summer (did somebody say "dissertation"?!)
from discodave :
Don't get sad - get pissed off. That way, at least, something might get done. After all, Bush doesn't want to piss off you Americans - you all buy the gas he sells (metaphorically and literally). Dxx
from discodave :
Me too, even though I don't think he's quite as much of an auteur as his IMDB bio would have you believe... http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0004965/bio I'll always think of him as the insane roommate from Friends, sadly. Dxx
from discodave :
OK, I meant Sharon Stone, not the more Lovecraftian "Shgaron, ice blond overlord of the seventh level of hell"... Dxx
from discodave :
Apparently, Shgaron Stone was meant to be kicking round Coachella with musical pretensions - any sign of her? Dxx
from discodave :
My username is Suedejesus - didn't think you'd forget THAT! Does this mean you have one too? Dxx
from discodave :
No VH1 for me, unfortunately- I'm just a poor boy, after all. Still, she was 30 or so when Blondie were at their biggest (hope for us all there), so she doesn't look that bad considering. Have fun at Mr Bowie tonight. Dxx
from in-my-life :
I'm very excited for you! What a big step -- I admire that you're so open to change. And I loooooooove the red/orange combo.
from discodave :
Glad to hear it - you're more likely to make it back across here than I am to over there, after all. Dxx
from discodave :
Quick note so as not to distract you from your reading - congratulations on the apartment and becoming all grown-up like. I guess I should think about doing that soon ;) Dxx
from discodave :
It was kind of random. I son't know? Maybe they're signed to the same label in the UK as each other? Still, at least they made an impact - I doubt people are going to forget them, which has to be a good thing, right? Dxx
from discodave :
I guess they just didn't fit in with our expectations, is all. They really were not feeling the love at the gig, mind you - I've never heard boos quite that loud before. I'm sure they lovely guys, though. Dxx
from theshivers :
ok, so stupid question - just how would you split the tip? $20 to the stylist, $10 to the blowdryer/shampooer? I have no clue on this. I feel etiquette impaired....help!!!!
from theshivers :
ok, so how does one tip on a $135 haircut??? I tipped $30 and figured they could figure out how to split it. Was that too much?
from discodave :
Yeah, I did try to explain it to Ellie, but she just looked at me as if I was mad. If you get the chance, watch the all male version of Swan Lake - very good stuff, though I didn't find the bums quite as attractive. Dxx
from girlypop :
Hey! Thanks for writing. I'll have to catch up with everyone but I'm so glad to be back and to be reading about your adventures again :)
from discodave :
That one passed us by, I think. We had Stig of the Dump instead - which was good, but unfortunate for the Swedish boy (with the same name) who'd only just started at our school. Dxx
from discodave :
Heh - the good thing is, even if I couldn't speak English, I'd know which paper I should be reading by the pictures. The one that has Iraq on the cover and not Beckham. Or the Royal family... Dxx
from unhappyboy :
my response to the email? it was this 'are you insane???'
from shadowdress :
oops. i just edited that to sound a little less suicidal hoping no one had gotten to it yet. then i got your note. sorry for the drama. thank you for caring.
from shadowdress :
wow. i didn't even realize it had been that long. i haven't even been reading other people's diaries. secretly, i'm feeling a little sad about the whole idea of trying to connect with people and a little bored with hearing myself talk (not just in my diary). self-pity--that's boring, too, huh? well, as Eyeore would say, thanks for noticing :)
from ceildah :
Im unlocked. I liked your advice! Its probably just some saddo IT guy...ick.
from unhappyboy :
<a href="http://members.diaryland.com/edit/showsurvey.phtml?name=unhappyboy-survey01">my Survey</a>
from outbox :
hello. just wanted to drop by and say thanks for the note in my guestbook. i think we'd need alot of sandwiches. last time i drove by the line was around the block. yay!
from allmadhere :
You really want a love affair to end up like it did in Cold Mountain? ;) I think the nicest part of imagining having an affair like theirs is that Jude Law is involved.
from allmadhere :
You'll be fine. If you stress about food, take her for fast food. Every kid has an opinion about fast food. She'll let you know what she wants to eat. And kids do need to go in the back seat cause of evil air bags. There's a kids museum somewhere in Lakewood or something. Ask V.--she knows where it is.
from discodave :
If that picture is a fake, I'm going to be laughing - the guy who rediscovered it is taking the piss (I think I mentioned him last year, as he kept "rediscovering" things a little too frequently). And I'll keep an eye out for Babbit, thanks. Dxx
from discodave :
Deal - just get over here and I'll be your guide. Aside from Wales and the Islands, I've been pretty much all over. Dxx
from in-my-life :
Here's one idea: http://www.futurememories.com/futurememories/mbe-20028.html And then this is the sort of cheesy v-day stuff that I think people only buy when they absolutely can't come up with anything else: http://www.futurememories.com/futurememories/lovekits.html
from discodave :
Well, I did manage to go to 14 of them in the space of two weeks remember - I didn't really spend all that much time in any of them. Hey, you've been to Britain a hell of a lot - that's more impressive than Wisconsin, trust me ;) Dxx
from discodave :
Not terrible at all - Richard Oakes, whilst good, was never a patch on that moody bugger Bernard. Dxx
from theshivers :
ok, i'm really glad that i'm not the only one who initially thought it was Faith the country singer and not Faith the rapper/R&B diva...
from in-my-life :
I think it's great that your so clear on the whole being friends with the ex issue. Most people are wishy-washy or even sneaky and that's when people's feelings really get hurt. (Or at least that was my experience). So, no you don't get a "C-" in that department. You just need more men in your life with the right amount of confidence and trust. Just make sure it's a two-way street and you'll be in good shape.
from in-my-life :
I liked that quiz. First I was a Celebrity, and that didn't sit well, so I went back and took it again. Then I turned out to be a hippy! Eeeeek! Why can't I have been an intellectual?
from in-my-life :
Oh, those are the worst sort of nightmares! I think for good measure I'll go call my mom too.
from discodave :
I can't claim responsibility for that name - it was thrust upon me. Three cheers for Myspace and you, however! Dxx
from discodave :
I'll still sned you a postcard, though, never fear. Hope you have a good time, hon. Dxx
from discodave :
Hope you got into the cold, wet and grey of the UK alright and are suitably excited for the gig. Dxx
from theshivers :
your mom rules!
from discodave :
Thought you might be interested: http://www.suede.net/xfmsession/ 3.00 for 3 tracks. Dxx
from discodave :
I deny that completely. I had a blouse... Dxx
from almostgoldsf :
Like the other 2, I tried to leave happy birthday wishes in the guestbook, but it was not cooperating.... BTW, my closest H&M is in NYC, so I am very jealous. Can I come with you next time? Only 6 or 7 weeks 'till I retrace your steps though...
from discodave :
I second vodkatonic's problems. Happy birthday M. you jet-setting glamourpuss, you. This is the start of good people birthday month, by the way - it starts with you and finishes on the 28th with me. Dxx
from vodkatonic :
I tried to write Happy Birthday in your guestbook, but it didn't work. So happy birthday in here instead!
from discodave :
Don't apologise - that was a great entry. Just thought I'd pop by and mention that, if you have a few more Euros to burn, Live Forever (that Britpop documentary) is out to buy on DVD. Have fun in London, hon. Dxx
from but-whatever :
you can have a but-whatever too...this is the place for the thoughts i dont feel like i can tell anyone else...the horrid, ugly thoughts that seem to want to ruin everything....x0x0~S
from discodave :
What's with that? You're a cynical romantic - same as me. Dxx
from lastyeargirl :
I hate guestbook signing restrictions... the same thing happens at the store where I work (well, used to work... I'll never get used to this). The checkout girls all seem to be in there whether or not they're working and I suppose it's because they're all friends outside of work, or we all have to eat... I laugh at them for it, and then have to realise I do it too.
from discodave :
Heh - me too. Hey, when you've cleared the back log of questions, do you wanna trade some? Ooh - and I don't know if I mentioned, but I'm seeing Suede on the first date of the tour, so I'll give you the heads-up on what to expect, OK? Dxx
from panicbird :
oooh champagne breakfast. How very lovely...
from bother :
my notes got burnt. it was very sad.
from stillill :
good luck with juggling class and travel. Not me, I'm the world's #1 procrastinator.
from smartypunk :
Thanks for the note. Even though I'm too old to be going to so many shows, I still do. That's the curse of having 90% of my friends (like-minded music lovers) who are motivated enough to be in bands - you have to go see their bands play! Only one other d-lander has found me on friendster so far. I don't mind it. You should be able to find me via my e-mail address, which is carefully hidden on my d-land diary due to my poor html skills.
from dearedwin :
do you let diaryland people look at your friendster profile?
from discodave :
Um - oops... Well, I figured me and almostgoldsf could come down and surprise you both. Or, at least, I would have done if I was clever. Dxx
from discodave :
I dunno - I just grew up not liking them and find it a hard habit to break. I don't know if I still loathe them, but I did at one point. Mind you - I used to dislike the Smiths (I know, I know) - so there's hope for me yet. I wish I hadn't ditched the Suede fanclub sometimes... Dxx
from almostgoldsf :
hang in there.
from stillill :
wh0 has time to search g00g1e 1ike that?
from kbaa :
:)
from girlypop :
Thanks! It definetely has to do with stagnation and probably insecurity. "Does anything lead anywhere?" and the like... It's good to have a new diarypal. Your diary is very interesting! And you're a Smiths fan. This definitely helps :)
from torch :
Welcome back to the land of Diary. Yes.
from panicbird :
Am loving reading you. What you have to say is very relevant to me, despite my very different situation. Everyone seems to know you from of old...Did I know you in your former life?? I don't think so... But glad to know you in this one!
from discodave :
True, true. Good to have you back, hon. Dxx
from discodave :
I'm thinking you should have used a Suede lyric... Dxx
from panicbird :
oooh thanks for adding me! I'm adding you right back right now! cool.

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