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from readnglst999 :
Where is clarity25? Recent vacation blog - http://twoshotsoftequila.blogspot.com/ "Eric's" Photobucket account - http://s795.photobucket.com/home/sketchbookshark/index
from bloodstream :
good to see you happy
from gavin-joel :
yeah i'm still here, well actually i'm not, i've been over at livejournal for quite some time now....and where are you?
from gavin-joel :
i thought you were gone forever......then again i though i was too! HEY=)
from stillbeating :
my dear, how i've missed you.
from gavin-joel :
hey hey there, freakymandy!!
from her-story :
welcome back... sorry it took me so long to respond, i've been up to my eyelids in work.
from stillbeating :
wow. you have no idea what this means to me. i started a livejournal in some attempts to run away from what was in this diary. but i think i might start it up again. i need updates on everything. ♥
from bender87 :
hey mandy! it's me nash...remember me? it's been so long! coz now i've moved and went to college...it's a long story. u read my diary only you know...btw can i get the password to your diary please? i missed reading your diary...reply okay? love xoxo
from oceans-depth :
I miss you where have you gone my little flower. Take me with you ♥. xoxo Deja
from stillbeating :
i would love to know the new diary!!
from her-story :
Still not ignoring you :) I stop by when I have a chance... You sound so down...what the hell is going on here? I leave for a few and come back to cookie eating madness... and NO ONE invited me. *hmmpf* Hey, kiddo... is all ok?
from i----------- :
Just for that I am not going to tell you about my date at the opera!
from i----------- :
You owe me an email, waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
from stillbeating :
i don't know if i'm necessarily an insomniac...but when i get the opportunity to sleep, i'm wide awake. or maybe i just never have the time to sleep? vicious cycle...absolutely.
from radiogurl :
Just wanted you to know I'm not ignoring you. When my computer went ka-boom it took my passwords with it so I can't access your diary :(
from stillbeating :
you seem so much happier. and that is amazing.
from radiogurl :
Happy belated birthday and I LOVE the new diary design! Very cool :) Also nice to hear about your V day date. Hope you have fun!
from her-story :
Happy be-lated bday, Mandy.
from ablossomfell :
Happy Birthday Mandy. I was just thinking about you today. You need to write in your diary more often, I miss it. I hope 16 is your best year yet!
from beety-queen :
[feb 5] Happy brithday Mands!!!
from radiogurl :
No worries - I've been so immersed in work, myself, that I've barely had time to do anything else. I told our new guy today that I am still reserving my one free minute a day for sleep. He said he'd laugh but he knew it wasn't a joke, lol.
from stillbeating :
yay! you're back, and happynewyear! <3.
from her-story :
Hey kiddo! Welcome back. And, happIER 2005 to you. :)
from beety-queen :
Happy new Years!!! Love you hunny bunny! Laterz!
from beety-queen :
[dec. 21] You're still beautiful, no matter how hateful their eyes may be, you still take a load off of mine. =D
from ablossomfell :
hang in there mandy.
from stillbeating :
please be okay. <3.
from beety-queen :
Hey hunny bunny! I just thought I'd say hey.... hey. I'm sorry about recently purging (yeah I'm a bit late). You're strong, you'll get out of it. Laterz Mands!
from stillbeating :
he actually got me the international superhits..but i have heard american idiot, sooooo amazing. i agree. and your past entry scares me. please be okay. if you ever need to talk my e-mail and my screename is in my profile. <3.
from her-story :
Hmm... I'd suggest finding someone else. Sometimes school counselors aren't prepared to deal with certain things. Do you have a school psychologist? I'd recommend seeing him/her.
from radiogurl :
Hey, a good day! Nice to know that you had a reprieve :) I haven't been ignoring your email but I haven't had time yet to write a coherent reply. I don't want to write something flippant and irrelevant and I'm so fried right now I don't think I could be coherent if my life depended on it.
from stillbeating :
smile. days like that always end at some point <3.
from jackthripper :
Email me if you want the password to my diary JckthRppr669@yahoo.com
from stillbeating :
considering i was working 9-7, it isn't a bad highlight.
from dark-doll :
awww... wow. This last entry sounded just like some of my old stuffs. :( I'm sorry... I really am. I know exactly how it hurts :( *hugs* I hope you'll feel better soon hunnie ♥ ♥ -Clau
from stillbeating :
i know it's hard to believe..but please don't let boys ruin you. they aren't worth it <3.
from stillbeating :
two weeks without music? gasp! <3.
from beety-queen :
lol thanks for the username and password. lol And the advice! I should probably talk to him, but like... lol I never see him except when he goes to football practice. Anyway, I'll talk to you later.
from radiogurl :
Ugh... 4am? That's a little excessive :( I hope that things even out for you soon... :-/ You'll be 18 in three more years. It will probably take you a little while after that to become self-sufficient, but hopefully once you do, you can keep going and never look back. *Hugs*
from her-story :
Moms nag because they can... and unfortunately, kids are selectively deaf... so repeating "clean your room," "pick up your dirty clothes," and "wash the dishes" are commonplace. HOWEVER, I usually tell my kids they have a choice: do their chores or hear me nag them relentlessly.
from bloodstream :
have fun learnign about selfharm? do u understand now? i doubt it. noone can understand. I don't understand. Sorry this is a bit late, havent been able to get on!!!
from radiogurl :
I'm glad you emailed me, and that you're having a better day. I had to work late tonight (It's 2:45am here and I have GOT to go to bed, I have another long day tomorrow) but I will answer you, too :)
from dark-doll :
mwahahaaha let's do it!! (ur super cute and funny!)
from dark-doll :
Don't be ashamed of you believing in Santa Claus for so long hun. Nothing wrong in that. How would be life without imagination? I still hope love at first sight exist... *sighs* Take care xoxo
from jackthripper :
Of course, my dear. My email is JckthRppr669@yahoo.com terribly original, I know. Merci, petite ami.
from jackthripper :
well hello, my dear mandy. I noticed that you had added me to your favorites and I thought I should drop you a line to thank you:) I was also very curious as to how you find my "humble" abode. I tried to take a peek at your diary but of course, it was, to my great dismay, locked.:( Still I thank you from the bottom of my little black heart. *leaves a bundle of roses at your feet*
from stillbeating :
that's so weird! the only time that i really swear is in my writing. otherwise, i rarely do <3.
from gavin-joel :
pic?
from dark-doll :
Nov7th. Thanks a lot for your advices Amanda. They're greatly appreciated and I believe they make sense. So I'm going to try and do this now! She does love hugs... Love, Clau.
from stillbeating :
i think the more random i write, the more i understand what i'm thinking. i think that's why i understood your last entry to an extent <3.
from bloodstream :
That's so great you could talk to your family:)
from gavin-joel :
from radiogurl :
Our Internet friends can be a lifeline. No one online judges you for how you look or how old you are. Granted, we only know you by your words, and words can be misleading - but more often, they give a clearer insight to who you are than meeting you in person. I care about you, worry about you. My heart aches when I hear about some of the things you're going through. I wish that there was something I could do to help. :(
from bloodstream :
OMG u care about me:) i care about you too. I sometimes think i care more about my net friends [ie YOU] than my real friends, definately my family anyway. Netfriends are the bestest!!!!! *hugs*
from beety-queen :
Hey mands! lol thanks for the comment in the diary. It was cool. Anyway, yeah!! Why is your diary locked!?!? Anyway, could you email me your lovely password? =D littleelf55@hotmail.com I don't know your email. Ok, ttyl.
from stillbeating :
i think the fact that you know the feeling is indescribable makes me feel so much better. it's such an odd feeling, and i'm happy someone knows what i'm talking about. thankyou <3.
from her-story :
Being a teenager sucks sometimes, doesn't it? I was one, too, and you eventually survive it. And, being one isn't easy... but it sure is interesting to look back on (tho, it's starting to be fuzzy for me... I remember... the 80s... my first car... my first kiss... my first association with a criminal activity... but I can't remember the OTHER stuff...like... what makes me sad sometimes. I guess it's the experiences we have that make us who we are. (If it makes you feel any better... I worked at Burger King as a jr.in high school... and I worked there MAYBE a month. They had me doing all the gross and nasty jobs. One day, I remember getting locked in the freezer by the dirtbag night-shift guy who thought he was "cool" and "hot." And, I ended up quitting because they kept me in the dining room where it was cold and I ended up getting really sick.) I always did want a daughter, but I have all boys... and if I kept on going (this birthing thing is painful, btw), I'd probably have a starting lineup. SO... the only girl I have is my dog. I never thought I'd be a good "boy mom," but after the first one, it gets easier. Unfortunately, the first one was also a "stairs diver" and a "food stuffer." I figure that since I survived HIM, I could survive anything just short of QUADRUPLET boys. *grins*
from alwaysinhim :
I am honored that I've been added to your favorites. may you enjoy your stay.
from dark-doll :
Aw I appreciate how you let us read your diary sweetie. You seem to be really private to others in your life. Don't worry, I think you chose us well and you know that we're not here to judge you :) xoxo
from dark-doll :
um... I meant that as a friendship way lol... if any confusion lol... I shouldn't have put that wink and that heart at once mwahahah :P
from dark-doll :
*You and I* could be good friends ;) :) <3
from bloodstream :
*Hugs* I hope your OK
from radiogurl :
I was going to email you but that wasn't one of the options. Darn. Email me: leilani@twisterjester.com. I have to go to bed tonight but barring catastrophe I can talk tomorrow.
from her-story :
You're the SECOND person to want to be my kid. Well the first didn't want to be, someone thought she was... even tho we're like....7 years age difference. That was kinda depressing, tho. However, I've always wanted a daughter... *grins* BUT... not another teenager... hehe (j/k) I think I reacted to my son in that way because I knew that when I was his age my parents didn't. They ignored me or yelled at me, and usually I was blamed for everything... eclipses, tax increases, my brother's bad behavior, dog poop, and my nasty meatloaf dinner.
from dark-doll :
Woah. That was quite the long and extremly deep entry... I think a lot like you do at some points. Be strong... Luv, Clau xoxox
from her-story :
*HUGS* I kinda felt the same way you did when I was your age, except my dad was kinda mean and my mom did kinda ignore me. However, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. And, even though I HATE that saying, it's more or less true. I've never felt that I was a strong person, but apparently everyone else thinks I am. And, after the week from hell with my older son (he's been acting weird), I think that sometimes wanting something you can't have is worse than wanting something you CAN have. Don't wish for abuse, because anyone who has can tell you that it's better to be ignored than beaten. If your grandmother is a bitch, then remember that's how you don't want to be when you're her age. I constantly have to fight the whole 'turning into my father' thing every day of my life. Sometimes I don't fair as well, and other times I'm victorious. I want to be different w/ my kids and I hope that I can consistently do that. In the meantime, I am human and am doing the human thing. Like forgetting #2 son at school, or finding a depressing poem by #1 son in his clothes. It's things like that which make me realize that I'm not perfect, but I sure as hell will damn well try to do better. And, I think that's all we can do is to try to be better than what we had... I hope things get better for you soon. And, like radiogurl says, it's the teen thing. When you're older, you'll realize that... I hope. *hugs*
from radiogurl :
Thanks for letting me in - I've been running so crazy, but I've been worried about you, just the same. I'm sorry your school life has been so crappy. Being a teenager is rough, no matter how you slice it. The good part is, it doesn't last forever (though I realize it feels like it at the time.) Hang in there - it will get better. It will. Promise.
from stillbeating :
yeah, labels are lame..but they're everywhere. i try to think of it as ignorance, which is basically what it stems from.
from her-story :
I really think you're coming down on yourself for no apparent reason. You are the BOMB, girlfriend, and if the boy can't see it, then he's not worth the time. (Tho, that's hard to do when every fiber of your being is screaming for this guy to just smile atcha.) How's the job thing going? (I keep forgetting to ask.) And, I'm not funny... I'm a spaz. And, spazzes experience the unexperienceable... or something like that. I wish I were more funny, tho... then I'd share it with you. Unfortunately, this kinda humor comes after years of being the one on the outside. (You know what they say about people who make a joke out of everything?)
from bender87 :
thanks for the password! oh man, don't feel that you're not good for him. just go for it! who knows he could be your boyfriend? just don't think too much, okay? good luck!
from ablossomfell :
What's all this silliness about not being good enough for him?! You are an amazing girl and if he ends up not being interested in you, it's his loss. In highschool I used to lose my appetite for weeks at a time and get nauseous whenever I saw a crush, believe me, it will get easier! xoxo
from xxwhyxx :
hey i'm a friend of bloodstreem's diary, cat. I was wondering if i could have your username and pw even tho i dont no you..but my name is mallory and im 13. my diary link is http://xxwhyxx.diaryland.com and you can email me and malibu4b96@aol.com and my aim sn in sim2babygirl thx
from dark-doll :
*sighs* That's right. it's so me ;)
from dark-doll :
Oh I know. Me same. That's what I explain later on... That was something I was wondering as a child. Now I know how silly it is.
from dark-doll :
lol it's alright. thanks :)
from dark-doll :
HaHaHa! I winked as to make you notice that I still here trying to read your diary but I don't have the password to get in :(..... :)?? I know I'm not too obvious for certains things lol.
from dark-doll :
*winks*
from stillbeating :
nope. i definitely live with my two brothers and my mom and dad.
from gavin-joel :
where's my password missy, i've been waiting for like 2 weeks now, can i have one pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeease?
from her-story :
Thanks for the password... I love the new layout! Fabulous!
from bender87 :
heya mandies! maybe ur surprised, but i still do read your diary! can i have your pw? sorry i didn't keep in touch with you for a long time, but i'm soooo friggin busy right now...and hopefully it will be over in december. okay take care sister!
from her-story :
I thought I was losing it or something... can you email me the password thingy? ooherstoryoo@hotmail.com Thanks!!
from stillbeating :
it's Xohmyfacex@aol.com. thankyou <3.
from stillbeating :
did you lock your diary? i don't know if i'm completely being oblivious to remembering if you locked it or not..
from stillbeating :
uniforms are always dorky. no worries..i wear a muumuu to work. oh yeah, i said it.
from radiogurl :
Oooh - new job. :) It might not be great and there will probably be days you hate it, but it's worth it to have enough money for things you want, without having to ask your dad.
from radiogurl :
Politics are just sad. Some of the media is no doubt sold out, especially here in the US. But not all of us. A few still worry more about the truth than about the status quo.
from oceans-depth :
Do you know that I think You are adorable! xoox Deja
from dark-doll :
Oct16th. Oh thanks you so much for your support <3 This is so kind of you... Don't worry it was the first time... I was feeling unwell yesterday, that's all... :/ um, yeah. I doubt it'll happen again. Take care too hun
from radiogurl :
Wow... interesting set of factoids! You're a fascinating young woman, very unique. Take care of yourself. Don't let the urge to self-destruct take over, because life will change drastically for you in a few years, and by far most of the time, it's for the better. *Hugs*
from stillbeating :
awesome. :) and good luck <3.
from her-story :
Ok, I didn't mean to say that the money is lame. Any money is a good thing. However, if it's KFC, aren't they bound to pay more than 2.50? Isn't the minimum wage over $5 now? And, my dad never gave me money. I started working at a pizza place at 15 (but quit because the old guy who owned the place was a flaming pervert). I've had my share of crappy jobs, trust me. So, I wish you all the best in your job... knock 'em dead, and remember, WASH YOUR HANDS AFTER PEEING. *grins*
from her-story :
Gee... I don't think they have a hiring requirement for KFC (but, what about MINIMUM wage? Geez....$2.50/hour??), other than- show up, be dressed, smile, and wash your hands after peeing. I will wish you all the best with your job tho... just remember, don't try to show up the boss. (I'd be smiffed with the $2.50 tho)
from radiogurl :
Ugh... Your dad really needs to get a clue if he griped at you for asking him for money for those things. Then again, he's a man, and a lot of men never get a clue. I hope you get your job and can manage the clothes and food you need. God knows now I understand the eating disorders in your history. I did the same thing, just did it a long time ago. Don't let them destroy you inside. You are better and you DESERVE better.
from her-story :
I'm not always nice, it just seems that when I try to do a good thing... so that I don't get punished as often... not nice things happen to me. (Proof of meanness: my comments about the fat-ass that drives the suburban like it's a porche) Anywho... I'll be ok, it was a bad bad day culminating a stressed out weekend. Thanks for stoppin' by!
from radiogurl :
Honey, most of us wrestle with those same questions for our entire lives. You're asking all the right questions. Trouble is I have yet to meet anyone with the answers!
from dark-doll :
Oh? I read your resolutions. One surprised me; Don't you like tanning? Good luck with everything, that was quite a list :/ Take care and believe in yourself! xoxo
from stillbeating :
yesterday was just one of those days where i couldn't stop laughing. my friend was over and i was just being stupid. but it was worth it.
from her-story :
I can cook...I'm sorry if my story was misleading. I've just never made potroast (I guess I had to do it sometime...)
from stillbeating :
i have the same problem..and it sucks because i get so jealous of "normal" people. it must be nice to not have to worry about your stomach..you know what i mean? <3.
from her-story :
I think if you end up abusing laxatives, the only severely bad thing is that your butt will hurt from pooing all the time. Did you talk to a doctor about the con-sta-poo-tion problem? Have you tried non-iron foods? Like........coffee and chocolate always make me po...um... there are certain things that are like a laxative without it BEING a laxative. My death is combinations of caffiene. Try some apple sauce, graham crackers, and juice. If you're laxtose intolerate, DRINK MILK... 2 glasses should do you in. I know my husband has to poo as soon as he walks into a Home Depot, but that goes without saying. Hmm... Try the chocolate and coffee with milk in it. It ALWAYS works for me. And, stay away from those store-bought lax's... you don't need any crap going in that will make what comes out a habit. (*wink*)
from radiogurl :
Eep... You're right, that's too long. If laxitives aren't working you may need to do something else. Sounds like the old eating disorders wrecked your system's ability to deal with food. You also might need to add some veggies to the mix - if you're doing Atkins, you're supposed to have a salad or cooked veggies at LEAST once a day. I have actually eaten *more* veggies than Atkins called for and I *still* have lots lots of weight. And because of that I really haven't had a lot of problems with constipation or anything like that.
from dark-doll :
I'm sorry what poem?? Unless you talk about my "You got no rights to tell me these things." entry ?? I don't know ?? if it is, I just wasn't considering it as a poem :P... But thanks? Um It's late. I should go to bed now lol... I'm not sure what I'm saying. Thanks for the note anyhow <3 <3 Good night (even though you might read that any other time of the day...blah lol I got no point tonight I may as well shut up :P)
from radiogurl :
You're lucky to have two best friends! Doesn't come much better than that :D
from dark-doll :
Oh that's sweet I just noticed you linked me on your template :D! Thanks <3
from dark-doll :
Bahahaha! That's kinda funny :P But it's fine too I guess. I mean, it doesn't mean they can't still love each others :). By the way, thanks for the comment about my template :D I appreciate. I wouldn't have imagined that people would like it this much. Teehee it's exciting ;) Especially because it took me few hours to make it! Anyway take care xoxo -Clau
from radiogurl :
Oooh, spiffy new layout! Gotta love Star Wars :D And I like the insight to your parents. It sounds like they're doing reasonably well, even after being together for several years. That's pretty amazing, in and of itself.
from dark-doll :
Oct1st. Aw that was a cute conversation with your parents :P:) It's great that they're still together. (Nowadays so many couples don't seem to last. It's nice to still find exemples) Take care xoxox
from stillbeating :
i'd chose writing any day. it helps so much. and thankyou. <3.
from her-story :
Hey, anytime... as a veteran in the war on food, I've come to appreciate myself, food, and criticism a lot better than I could as a teenager. I've harnassed that beast and am working my way through the nitty gritty. I'm here for ya if you need some support... as are many others. ~g~
from her-story :
Ya know kiddo, don't be afraid of food... I grew up a closet eater b/c my family was mean and nasty when it came to food. (And I've overcome that part on my own...) The sad thing is, women are misrepresented by venues that show us eating a pint of icecream in one sitting when upset OR hogging down on something chocolately. Ya know what? Chocolate does NOT do anything for me (cept give my butt a reason to apply for it's own zipcode)... I have a hard time dealing with stress also... and I usually resort to binge-eating. HOWEVER, I've been working on not seeking comfort of the prepackaged type. We need to make a big stuffed man-dummy to beat up when we're feeling like that. Personally, I'd like one with a certain person's face on it so I can take a bat to it occassionally. (Did that make you laugh? I hope so... because if you only imagine me beating the poop out of a dummy that looks like someone I don't like... in my garage... with the dead spider... then I bet you'd laugh. A lot, too.) Keep ya head up kiddo... *wink*
from dark-doll :
actually no :P I don't mind him. My brother and I normally get along <3
from stillbeating :
i'm so happy for you. and don't let some perv ruin it for you. have fun. <3.
from radiogurl :
Awww *hugs* I am just glad to hear that you are doing healthy things for your body and your mind. I nearly lost one of my daughters to a suicide attempt. Life is so precious, even though it is not always easy. But one thing I have found - no matter how horrible things may look at any given time, it is only temporary. Hang onto that and know that it WILL get better. You are doing so great! I'm proud of what you've achieved. :D :D :D
from stillbeating :
sometimes working out gives you more energy..but maybe your body just needs sleep. sleep is good. <3.
from radiogurl :
I promise, I'll shut up in a minute LOL! I'm glad you're eating better, but remember it's okay to have SOME carbs. Let yourself eat some whole-grain bread, or a bowl of oatmeal. Those things aren't bad for you and will help balance you very well :) That's especially true if you exercise - if you do, your body MUST have more carbs than if you are sedentary!
from radiogurl :
LOL, no, I'm long past 20+. I'm an old fart, but an old fart with an attitude. ;)
from radiogurl :
Good for you! Sounds like overall you're striking a nice, healthy balance in terms of food. Keep it up, keep eating healthy, and you'll lose the weight. According to some studies, you actually lose weight FASTER on Atkins than you do by fasting. If my experience is indication, I'd have to agree.
from dark-doll :
First 'sex' dream? hehe That's always fun :P... Beside the betrayal thing :/ Anyway :) Good luck with that new diet I guess...
from radiogurl :
If you have done induction, then yes, it's fine to go to ongoing weight loss. Just remember you won't lose weight as quickly that way but you will be eating a little healthier overall. However, you're not eating enough for the induction period. It's good to vary what you eat a bit and to eat a little more. You're permitted to snack on cheese, for example, which was what I did. And I lost 30lb in two weeks on induction, literally. And yes, I was anorexic when I was a teenager and it completely screwed my system up. But nobody knew then what it was, really. I lost down to about 85-90 lb. at one point. I'm actually healthiest at about 115-120lb, and even that skinny I had big boobs, so you can imagine what I must have looked like.
from radiogurl :
I'm glad you're still sticking with Atkins - it's definitely a better alternative than purging, or anorexia (which I did before anyone knew what it was) or any number of eating disorders. Just remember that you CAN be too thin, no matter what the old saying is. I hope you are able to reach your ideal weight and that it's a healthy place to be :)
from stillbeating :
alex band = true love. sigh.
from radiogurl :
*Hugs* Sounds like Atkins is good for you. I know I am healthier on it, losing weight, and still don't go hungry. Hang in there, and expect that there will be times that your weight hits plateaus. It will stick for a while and you might even gain back a little bit, but you WILL lose, just stick with it. And I cheat somewhat, but only with whole-grain stuff like high-fiber oatmeal now and then. Your body needs small amounts of carbs, long as you don't overdo it.
from dark-doll :
*drools* Mmmm peanut butter cookies. So good. Well your mom isn't the nicest person around :/. Didn't you talk back?...I've read a little bit through your diary and I think I like you already!! <3 :) Take care xox
from dark-doll :
Sept21st. Hey thanks a lot for adding me on your fav list :D I appreciate xoxo
from radiogurl :
Oooh, peanut butter cookies without flour? Recipe, please? ;) And I'm sorry about the nurses. You're right, some of them are just sadists to put the Marquis de Sade to shame. I hope that you get on the right meds to help you, and soon!
from radiogurl :
Hi Mandy! No, I didn't cheat during induction, but I do occasionally cheat now, lol. However that's precisely what I like about Atkins - you can cheat and then go right back to it :)
from love-metal :
Hey, I was just reading your profile. Since when do you like The Offspring?! LOL! I saw The Offspring like a month ago [August 20st] and they totally kicked my ass! Glad to know you still have a good taste in music ;) -Steef
from radiogurl :
Yes, I'm doing Atkins, too. I've lost 65 lb since April 1!
from radiogurl :
I'm glad you're doing Atkins - just eat all of the veggies it recommends and you should be doing well. But I don't know whether you're overweight or not. The whole world isn't cut out to be supermodel-thin. Please take into account what is healthiest for YOU! :D
from radiogurl :
You're allowed to have crummy days. We all have them. Anyone who says they dont, is lying. *Hugs* Just hang onto the knowledge that not ALL days are bad, that you're normal for feeling hurt and horrible, and that you will have good days ahead. And that there are people who care about you.
from stillbeating :
i won't judge you.
from stillbeating :
iknowhowyoufeel. all too much. you can talk to me anytime.
from stillbeating :
you definitely read my mind. i don't want to do something that i'm going to hate. money isn't everything..especially when it comes to happiness.
from stillbeating :
i couldn't agree more with you.
from radiogurl :
Woohoo - that's a lot of days of being healthy! *Applause* And the rest of your life isn't like fifteen, I promise. Weird that when I was your age, I had to fight for the right to wear pants instead of skirts. So I can understand your desire to be and wear and do what YOU want! That's normal for you - and if someone else doesn't like or get it, that's THEIR problem. :)
from inaptbeauty :
hi :)
from radiogurl :
I'm so glad you're feeling better! And the exercise is a good thing on soooo many levels. It helps you to lose weight/inches, obviously makes you look better - but also boosts your body's endorphins, which in turn makes you feel better emotionally. The ideal anti-depressant!
from stillbeating :
that means so much. <3.
from stillbeating :
that means so much. <3.
from spikea :
The note to me that u left in cat's notes...I don't understand what it meant at all...
from spikea :
ummm....I just asked what it was. I don't get what ur note to me in cat's diary ment...plz emplain!
from chicagojo :
A hedonist is someone whose sole purpose is to do things that make him or her happy. Doesn't sound like such a bad thing, heh? However, it's often used to describe people who sleep around, spend in excess, and drink a whole bunch.
from stillbeating :
you sound so happy. and it's beautiful.
from rosytears :
Hi, thanks for listing me as one of your favourites and adding that beautiful comment about me. It really lightened up my day, and considering how my life is at the moment, in the dumps, it really shone a pathway through. I appreciate being told that there are others who will appreciate me, or rather, my diary. Thanks a million. =))
from radiogurl :
*Hugs* Your poem is right. Sometimes silence IS the loudest cry for help. I am sorry for the situation you're dealing with at home - but not all of life is like that. Hang on. Hard as it is, hang one. Life DOES get better. Maybe not easier, but definitely better.
from he-left-me :
feel free to leave in entry in my public diary. if you have any comments leave me a note. im sending this note 2 every1 so they know bout this diary...i just started.
from stillbeating :
thank you. i'm adding you..<3.
from xlxclownxlx :
Im sorry if that was harsh, but you are a moron, or a girl wanting attention via internet by trying to get people to feel sorry for her.
from xlxclownxlx :
You're the first alleged eating disorder sufferer that flaunts it. You're like "OMG!!!!111 look at me, i got my finger down my thoart!!!11 te-he!!!11 look at me!!!!111" If you do have a eating disorder. Get off yer ass, and get some help, moron.
from p-o-y :
Welcome to Pieces Of You!
from clarity25 :
Thank you for adding me to your favorites list. First of all, I love your diary, you have an amazing way of expressing yourself, your entries really make me think, I only read a handful so far, but I'll be back to read more. I loved your "10 minutes about me" and your timeline where you reflect on the past months..I love that idea, I might do the same in my own diary. I was sincerely surprised when I read that you were fifteen, with the depth of your thoughts, you're so much more mature than the average person your age. Truly. I was NOT writing like that at 15. I'm impressed. I just thought I would say "hi!"
from radiogurl :
*Hugs* I hope that you're feeling better today. I wish there were a way to lift the depression. I know how miserable it is. All I can tell you is that it's not permanent, and that it DOES get better with help. Go to the school's med center, or to a local mental-health center. I believe there are federal programs that require them to treat you regardless of your ability to pay. You have nothing to lose except the ongoing unhappiness.
from oceans-depth :
Hello my pretty xoxox Deja
from radiogurl :
I am sorry it's taken me so long to get here and read your diary - I wish I had the time to read more tonight. The things you're describing are things that I've dealt with, including the eating disorder. I hope you find a happy medium that permits you to be healthy. *Hugs*
from blsaltie14 :
Hi. I'm a 16 year old girl. I started my diary yesterday because I was feeling a lot of what you are feeling. I feel like I just need someone to listen and care about me and not feel the need to judge me. I have gone through a lot of the same things you have, but fortunately I have come out of a lot of them. I will be honest and say it has left me feeling sad and alone but I have realized that is better than hurting myself. I too went through eating disorders. Mine, I believe, were for different reasons than your's but we all have them initially for the same reason. We aren't happy with ourselves for one reason or another. Mine was not about the weight. I have always been small and have always had people telling me to gain weight. I am a very stubborn person so this always made me really mad which I think may have contributed to my decision, but the ulitmate reason I did it was because of control. I feel very out of control. Right after I got my drivers licence everything started to fall apart. People I hung out with stopped calling because they knew I could drive and no longer needed rides from them which they aparently enjoyed having to drive all the way out to get me and now they didn't have to. Other people started calling. Those who couldn't drive. I was now a personal taxi service. This didn't seem so bad for awhile but.. I don't have my own car and soon my mom put a stop to me taking it therefore putting a stop to my social life. I then started getting calls from my friends with all the messed up things they were doing and they all wanted my help. I couldn't handle it all. It was all out of my control. The only thing I could control was my eating. Without even thinking I stopped eating and when I did it made me sick. I told myself I had the flu or something but I knew I didn't. I knew it was bad. I didn't have to use my finger like most people. It came up on its own, thats how bad it got. My mom totally didn't get it and somehow thought I had the flu for months at a time. But, I soon realized the one thing I thought I could control I no longer had control over. My stomach could no longer take food. So it became my goal to eat food again. It took a long time. I still haven't gained all the weight back. And I feel lonely and a failure because I cant get over this quickly. I know your situation is different than mine, but I realized if there had been someone there to listen to me it would have made it a whole lot easier. I know I don't know you or anything but something told me to write you. Maybe I can help. Just by listening. I really would like to help you get through this because I didn't have anyone to help me and I figure... maybe by helping you, I wont feel so alone. Email me at Blsaltie14@yahoo.com. I'd love to just listen. I hope this isn't too weird but I just had a feeling about this and I think I could really help. Good luck with everything if you choose not to respond to this.
from hamiltonian :
dont be so down... goals take awhile.. keep the faith
from ablossomfell :
i have to have secrets too. if i don't i'll go crazy plus it's always better to be mysterious right?? :)
from bleedinbitch :
OMG! i sooo agree with ur love slash hate poem!!! [or was it hate slash love? ANYWAY!] I know just how u feel, but we gotta stay strong!!!! LOVE U!
from nateboxley :
You are only depressive because you are truthful
from tidal-review :
your review is done. Thank you for allowing me to review your diary ♥
from zigglett :
it's easier for one who's upset to spill their angst out on paper/online because if you're that upset/depressed/annoyed about something, no one else wants to hear it directly. you have company when you're happy and feeling good because you're pleasant to be around and you talk of easy matters with everyone else. but nothing loves company more than misery. it's kinda sad that someone who usually writes very whiney posts will profusely apologize for an entry saying "i look really pretty today, i went out and enjoyed myself and got positive attention" rather than the redundant complaining.
from buzzkillrevu :
Hi! Your review is up. Thanks for requesting. Cheers!
from tidal-review :
This is Heather from Tidal Reviews and I just wanted to inform you that my scoring system has changed. Please check it out and if you change your mind on the review drop me a note, otherwise your review will be based on new point system. Thanks.
from bobsreviews :
Your review is up at Bob's Reviews. -Lacy
from pacific-view :
Your review is finished, sorry it took a few days, I wasn't home.
from bobsreviews :
Is Lacy OK?
from icedmilk :
Your review is finished. Sorry it took so long. It isn't up yet because I can't get Diaryland to let me add an entry, but it should be up shortly. Thanks. -Kelsey
from bobsreviews :
What reviewer would you like to review your diary...Jennifer is at camp so it might be a little wait but request her if you can be patient! -Lacy from Bob's Reviews
from ohmyjetsabel :
sure thing. it's here and it's no big secret anymore. xoxo, rollerqueen (bex).
from buzzkillrevu :
Review is on the way! Thanks for adding Buzz Kill to your... rather extensive list of Review Sites. Give me about five days to sink my claws into your diary, and your review will be completed. Cheers!
from silverbiker :
thanks for signing my gbook! and thanks for adding me as a fav :) you're pretty cool! tehe stay in touch!
from oceans-depth :
Thanks for adding me Doll. I love the blue toe and cat and i think your adorable. xoxo Deja
from prettysprite :
Hey Darling! Yeah, I remember you. You're unforgettable! =D So, howz it been? Lauren~
from nateboxley :
Hi mandy. how have you been doing. i hope well. sorry...
from prettysprite :
Hey buddy~! Forget me? =D So, what's up? I'll add you to my list soon. I didn't know you were still updating. It's been a while. TTYL.
from nateboxley :
How could I forget you?
from allilee :
hey, i was passing ur diary to beg u for a password and ur diary was open! i havent read ur dary in about a year so it was refreshing to see it again. i used to be an avid reader. its so nice to hear that ur happy in life at the moment. hopefully u wont lock it again. im looking forward to reading all ur entries. take care, xxx
from gavin-joel :
thank u muchly over and again, for your very kind words, i dont know how to thank u for them and who knows miss mandy we might meet soon enough!! thanks again miss hope all is well and keep up the great writing!!
from nateboxley :
I haven't forgotten about you. I have just been so confused lately that I haven't updated much. However, I do read. It's just that I never leave notes. I will more now on. Thanks for staying with me. *smile*
from gavin-joel :
ouch, what did we do to deserve that entry???
from liquidblaque :
hey dearie. hash here. i've shifted. x)
from hilaryjordan :
I'm still a reader of your diary. How long will this new diary last? =D I'm sorry you don't agree with me, I'm not sure I agree with myself at times. Does that make sense? Probably not. Anyway, I will keep reading! (Both now)
from allilee :
hey, i use to read ur diary a heck of alot. im just getting back in2 the swing of things and 2 tell u the truth i would love 2 read ur diary again. is it possible 2 have ur password? if u dont want 2 then its really no problem but u were a great read. tc xxx
from atgaspain :
Oh... you just got a new username. I just left Diaryland for good.
from atgaspain :
I feel you. I quit my diary on December 19th at my 330th entry. It's a great feeling, but I'm writing this note because I stumbled upon your diary now just by accident.
from hilaryjordan :
When you locked your diary I never got around to asking for your password. So, can I have the username and password to your diary please? Thanks!
from bender87 :
hey there mandy! i really miss you so much! it's been a loooong time. it's just that my modem got struck by lightning so i can't go online. but now it's all fixed up! can you tell me your password? i wanna know what you've been doin' and how have u been when I'm gone..i'd really appreciate it! hope to hear from you soon!
from musesremiss :
Hey mandy, remember me? This is musesremiss, formerly known as nikki-leigh. It's been a while since i've been to diaryland, and i would like to read your diary again!!! (if you don't mind, of course :D) Can you please stop by and send me the password? thanks a bunch :)
from bambi-eyes :
MANDY! Eeek, I've been gone so long, I know. I've finally made my way back to diaryland, and I'd really love to start reading your diary again! Can you give me the password, please? :) *Hugs* I havent talked to you in AGES! ~Catherine~
from evermind :
I just wanted to thank you for the favorites listing, which I don't think I ever did, and which was very bad of me since I am very proud of you listing me as a favorite; humm, that sounds a bit odd written out, but it's true. Anyway, I was wondering if I could possibly have the password so as to have a little look see in your diary? Thank you either way, or both!
from winetalking :
this is my other link miss mandies :) please please tell me where miss melia's pretty diary is, thank u :) (wow, alot of smilies)
from gavin-joel2 :
MANDY!!! you have to tell me where she is!!!! pleeeeeeeeeeeeeease tell me where i can find her, it would be muchly appreciated - thank u
from gavin-joel :
you found us???? i didnt know we were missing hun, well i knew melia was....... how the hell did you find her, i (we danielle and i) have been looking for her for sooo long, how on earth did you find out where she was?
from rollerqueen :
i'm still around.
from icesprite :
Sent the p/w to your msn addy..only one I could find..got it from your pofile.. mind if I have a p/w for yours hon? Hope everything's ok *hugs* - Vic
from gavin-joel :
hey miss mandy, yeah i know there is all this stupid pressure to have sexc, i dont get the whole going into chatrooms and guys just getting horny guys are totally stupid believe me!!! (well most of us, there are some exceptions)
from icesprite :
I'm glad things are working out for you hon *hugs* - sry my diary's locked..lemme know if you wanna access it, i'll set up a p/w for you :) - Vic
from funky-monk :
mandy, dudette! You're alive! lol I miss talking to you and I miss the way we showed eachother [hot] guys and rated them! you're never online anymore? how come? or is it just the wacked out different timezones? I bet it's that. I really need to talk to you bout some certain stuff.
from psychobilly :
hey i would love to read your diary and you can read mine. send me a password. please. -ALLISON
from gavin-joel :
miss mandies, where is my password.....can you email it to me please!! thank u
from caitlinaiken :
Will you be giving your password to people who have you listed as a fave? Or are you not going to use that diary anymore? If you are, I'd like the pass if it's okay, I want to read it! But I understand.
from ohrachel :
oh, no...i went to see who was still linked to me and felt cool that you were....but then you're locked. locked? oh no. __my new username is waterpins. ohrachel has died. hopefully. ____ [love and so on] rachel
from randomsnark :
This lockage is no good mandy. NO GOOD.
from tims-reviews :
Heeey. Your review is finally up on tims-reviews.diaryland.com sorry it took so long. I'm a slacker & a bad person.
from ktownsimon :
thanks for the note about me not quitting. You were close when you said basketball is my life. I like all men spend 99.9% of my life focused on women,sports,and movies. In that order. I appreciate what you said about the movie reviews. I know you hate the template, but I am 250+ entries in and I still cant figure out how to change it.
from nateboxley :
I called in today too. Sometimes you just can't go. I wouldn't think twice about that.
from gavin-joel :
miss mandies, come online and talk to me!!!
from nikki-leigh :
HI!!!! I'm soooooo sorry I haven't left any other notes lately, but I haven't been to Diaryland in quite a while. Even though I can't physically do anything to help you, and I have nothing to recommend that might help, I can tell you that I hope you feel beter soon!!!!!!!!!!! I send lots of love!!!!! *HUGS AND CHEERS UP* BE HAPPY!!!!!
from floweryfairy :
haha. im so smart. kidding. hmm. didnt see u online. argh. =x.
from painreviews :
Your fucking review is up at http://painreviews.diaryland.com/freakymandy.html.
from floweryfairy :
hmx? must have got it from your other sg friends yarh? haha. nah. different schools have it at different times. mine is over. lol. =).
from floweryfairy :
hahaha. yeah i know its him. so im like what ever. ask him to get a fucking life. and a brain too. he doesnt seem to have one. =). hmmm. i've been ok. hahaha. up-s and downs here and there. lol. anyways, see ya round'.
from floweryfairy :
hey mands. haven't talked to u in a long time. hmmm. screw that arsehole phatphonx or what ever his crappy name is. what the crap. fuck off freak. stop bothering her. if she's such a bitch why'd u wanna talk to her in the first place? sheesh. anyway mands. leave me a note or mail or something to at least lemme know ur alive. hahas. kidding. yeah wells. c'ya round'.
from phatphonx :
gay?!? uh-oh was that homophobic...and i didn't know it!!!you fuckin female dog...your gay...
from icesprite :
Heya :) Love the new layout. Follow your dreams! (Anyone say beefcake?) Ignore the losers..any way I may avenge you? :D
from nateboxley :
Mandy you are very nice. But I just read your comment, and I wanted to say that I really like you and your diary as well, but you have me all wrong. I am a fool and a coward.
from phatphonx :
what area u talkin about!?! u fucked with me first!!! i don't even "no" who you are?!?for all i "no' u might be a hermaphrodite...bia!!!
from iluvatraeu :
ANDREW WHO UR PROB LIKE 12
from iluvatraeu :
UR A DICK ASS MANDY IM A DICK ASS WERE ALL DICKASS'S!! SO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GO KILL SOME MORE HUMMINGBIRDS YOU AIDS INVESTED BEACHBALL REMEMBER WE ARE WATCHING YOU WE ARE WATCHING YOU!!!!! AHHHHH HOW DID I GET IN YOUR NOTES FUCK THE RAT FUCK IT GOOD IM GOING TO EAT ALL YOUR CAPTIN CRUNCH....WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO SAY NOW BIA! HA BIA WHAT A GAY WORD OKAY TOOTLES!
from phatphonx :
damn it!!!so why are u in my notes too!!!bia!!!
from rotten-views :
http://rotten-views.diaryland.com/freakymandy.html Here's your review from Rotten-Views.
from honestadvice :
Your advice has been posted! http://honestadvice.diaryland.com/freakymandy.html Thank you for your patience :)
from newbody :
Hey hey ... I enjoy reading your diary, pouring out your feelings is the best thing to do... I dont want to sound harsh or rude but I noticed that you said you wanted to be a phychologist, that's a totally great profession to get in and I glad that's what you want to do , but in order to go that far your going to have to get help for your illness, no phychologists have eating disorders... just a point I thought Id bring out.. no hard feelinds.. I am going to add you to my favs :)...... take care...((hugz)))
from phatphonx :
yeah....um...i don't even know u....
from mojo1915 :
Hello. Have a great day! :) ~Jesse
from ohrachel :
Thanks for the note! You were very, very sweet.
from uclafan87 :
is it just me, or am i the only one to be amazed(still) that there it is 10: 30am on the 2nd, and here it is 10:30pm on the 1st. Okay..im just retarded. bye!
from wildereviews :
Your review is posted! "We are all in the gutters, but some of us are looking up at the stars..."
from vicki-views :
I'm done your review :) Go here to see it: http://vicki-views.diaryland.com/freakymandy.html
from ericintervw :
Sorry about the bad link. I did fix it though and wanted to let you know. Eric Anthony Perceptions(s)
from ericintervw :
Thanks for letting me Interview you. Yours is posted right now at: http://ericintervw.diaryland.com/030623_79.html Thanks again and smile =)
from sex-eyes :
Uhhh I dunno. www.fuckinlove.diaryland.com So umm...try that, or go to my profile for sex-eyes and try my fave list and click on fuckinlove in there.
from para-reviews :
Hi, sorry, but I posted the wrong site on your guestbook. it should be http://para-reviews.diaryland.com/freakmandy.html
from sex-eyes :
floooood away when it comes to my notes. I love em. They make me happy. I am really pathetic. i have a new diary but it is all about love and chris because one diary was just not enough to talk about chris in. lol. if u want ta check it out it is, fuckinluv
from dreammeaway :
correction.. i left you a note** lol..
from dreammeaway :
Ha! I left you a not^.^ Now you have to come visit me again. 'Tis the law. Just kidding. And stuff. Have a great day!
from fae-reviews :
Hey, your review on Fae-Reviews (http://fae-reviews.diaryland.com) is up.
from dea-lamia :
Hey Mandy, your review at Compendious (http://compendious.diaryland.com) is up.
from breakthedark :
Your review is completed and should soon be posted on http://diary-viewer.diaryland.com! Great job.
from squishyvan :
just wanted to say I am enjoying your diary
from phatphonx :
aids infested beachballs with lesbian seagulls
from spazreviews :
Hey, this is tessa, from spaz-out reviews. You review is up at: http://spazreviews.dairyland.com/freakymandy.html/ Enjoy
from i----------- :
you better have overslept!~ thats the only excuse im acceping for not emailing me back :-P yay softball, we are definitely going to have to talk about sports more
from nikki-leigh :
Hey Mandy! Sorry I haven't left any notes, but I was a bit distracted. Thanks for leaving me so many notes though!! I mentioned you in my latest entry, so you can read it if you want. BTW: I really like your layout; it kinda reminds me of the "window of chance", or something like that :) Any-who, love your diary, I added you to my favorites, and I hope to hear from you again!!
from neuroticaa :
very rarely do i lock my journal but once in a while i will -- username= neuroticaa, password=upthewall / <3
from i----------- :
Playing hard to get , eh? Check my diary for my sn. But I won't be online because I have to go and catch up on my sleep at work.
from i----------- :
Put your screen name in my guestbook so I can harrass you on a more real time basis :-)
from i----------- :
I am known as lover boy to strangers, but my close personal confidants call me Dan. I do believe now the rest of my diary will be devoted to seducing you.
from i----------- :
i made a new entry just for you! password/username freakymandy
from nateboxley :
do you think that near brushes with death are a sign of God, or a sign of no God. This is a question I have been struggling with. I tend to think that its not related. But I don't know. Hi.
from lilchrissi :
Its all good m'dear. Have fun reading it lol...so who IS doing the review?? huh huh?? :P
from review-world :
Hey, your review is up at review-world. Sorry about the wait. It can be found at http://review-world.diaryland.com/freakymandy.html
from nateboxley :
Hey thanks. I appreciate that. I never have really had too much luck with the ladies. I think I am in the lab too much. But thanks again. I am gonna check out your diary now.
from lilchrissi :
Thanks for your guestbook entry but umm *heh* Im not a lesbian lol its just that Im stuck in limbo in between trying to figure out what I am and what I want- but, yes you are very right in what you said about the other reviewers out there. And Im impressed that you think I am standing my ground in something...its something I dont see in myself- I often times feel like I am lost behind a window pane with broken shards of glass as I lose myself in my own time. Its just... diffucult. I hope that you enjoy reading my diary. And if not - thanks for taking the time to read it just the same. I am always welcoming good criticism. Thanks again for your words of wisdom. I appreciate them a lot. *hugs*
from i----------- :
i just wanted to let you know that even though im pretty much done with my diary, im still going to read yours!!!
from uclafan87 :
Alright, Poo is ALWAYS funny. but not your bloody feces, thats so horrible! im sorry..but still. poo is always funny. you crack my shits up mandy..keep it up'! HA!
from sweetiepie34 :
oh I forgot to give you our little award lol its just a button. lol :) <a href="http://sweetiepie34.diaryland.com"><IMG SRC = "http://momma3.diaryland.com/images/hbsrbtn_ani1.gif" border = 0></a> You don't have to put it up its just alittle something. :)
from i----------- :
You and I must have been seperated at birth or something! Your shits are bloody. My shits are bloody. You are trying to gain weight. I am too. I ate so much yesterday and refused to take a shit also! Did I gain anything? Of course not. One trick I like to do is weigh myself before my shit and then immediately after to see how big my shit was.
from the-noise :
Hey there Mandy. :) Thank you so much for the mention in your last entry! That's so sweet of you!! I wanted to tell you though that the few entries that were in un-numb I transfered into the-noise when I first got the gold account. So all of the entries from both diaries are in the-noise. I'll be deleting un-numb entirely soon, and I wanted to tell you since you have it linked in that entry and in your profile... :) But yeah, thanks again! :)
from sex-eyes :
Hey, thanx for saying that u missed my diary!!! That means a lot to me! he he he...
from i----------- :
aahahahhaa, your pants cling to your crotch. I wouldn't mind having that problem. I would look manly and stuff as it is I have to stuff a sock down there so it looks like I have something.
from bender87 :
it's okay mandy...i'll learn HTML and get back to it later. sad to say my school doesn't provide all students with a computer class and anyone who wants to learn have to pay special fees. hmm..maybe i'll try to learn somewhere else..anyways, thanx and see ya!
from bender87 :
heya mandy! do you know how to copy and paste the code to the change your entry page? i don't know it at all! I'm technology impaired. i wonder if we have to write the code down on a paper and then type it in the box? that would be very long! And most of the designer ask to link back...how do u do that? thanx for all ur help! love, nasy.
from floweryfairy :
hey man-ddddy! *hahax* i missed you too gal. urmx.. i am like damn now. got so much stuff going around me. oh wells. i haven't spoken to u in a long *and i mean LONG* time. just arrange a time or somtink ya? okies i sorta gotta go so see ya gal. -hash
from bender87 :
i added u to my contact list! Wow..that's kind of u to give me lotsa notes. I don't know how to change more nicer layout in my diary. I don't wanna pay either coz i don't have credit card. I also dunno how to put up a guestbook! Can u teach me? Hmm, about CSJ, I don't think i can get him anyway..:)
from funky-horror :
A BIG JUICY HELLOOOOO TO YOU!! ^_^
from bender87 :
It would be nice if we can chat on msn messenger! What's ur sign in name? i can add u on my contact list. CSJ's real name is Chuah Seong Jin but I call him Seong Jin. He's a chinese...I had just talked with him this afternoon! Hehe..but I'm lazy to add an entry for it...okay see ya later mandy!
from applescruffs :
hey. i love your diary, you're a great writer. keep it up.
from girl-aflame :
Thank you very much for the suggestion about honest advice. I appreciate it coming from you especially, since you were the first advice site here on Diaryland. That I know of, at least.
from fallenorra :
hey thanks for the note. I'm glad that you like it. Some people dont' seem to.
from neuroticaa :
thanks for the faves addition, sweetie, come talk to me any time... <3
from uclafan87 :
Eepity Eep! I had to lock my diary...(stalkers arent good) Username:green -password: jeep
from the-noise :
Hey there, thank you. I read your review, you did pretty good yourself too! :)
from evermind :
Hey! Oh, thanks for the favorites addition, I feel so proud to be on your list! Cheers
from uclafan87 :
hehee..nice boomletters entry..it made me chuckle...oh poop is ALWAYS funny. and i cant believe ive never had you on my favorites list! gah! im such an ass!
from moo-review :
Your review is now up at http://moo-review.diaryland.com/freakymandy.html
from bender87 :
Hi Mandy..sorry coz I didn't get the opportunity to write to u for a long time. I'm kinda busy this week. Well, you know...I like the song from Daniel Bedingfield-If you're not the one. The song is very touching and I always fantasize about CSJ when I heard that song. I think ur ex-bf, Mark is so sweet and innocent looking. Too bad he's a liar..ur so sweet and kind..he's stupid for didn't appreciate you. And about Pubic, I think he's hilarious! Does his face like the drawing u made? If it is...he's certainly look disgusting! BTW, where do u live in Australia?
from floweryfairy :
urm.. teenbopper? im like what da hell. i always spell stuff like "anyway" as "aniwaez". i mean ive spelt it that way for as long as i know. and da "kewl" thing i didnt even mention it in da note*? itz just a natural thing that my friends and me say. "guai" sorta means a goody-too-shoes anyway. and my english grades wont change coz i talk in full and write in full. AND i think my english grades are good enough. anways.. hope to see u online again. oh yeah. im gonna change my email soon.
from quitenasty :
Your review is done.
from moo-review :
My apologies, I've just realised I was reading a different review sites notes. I thought it was the moo-review notes *slaps self*. Sorry anyway.
from moo-review :
Could you read the rules first and then request again. Thanks.
from fan4 :
What is Westlife?
from pinky-angel :
Hi! I read that a little while ago you gained 5 pounds in one week... The main reason for that sort of weight gain is if people don't eat enough, when they finally have a regular intake again the body stores ALL the fat it can, because it doesn't know when it will be fed again. I have had some serious issues about my weight in the past, just as you have and I can honestly tell you that a healthy eating plan is the only way to lose & keep off the pounds. It takes longer but it is worth it. Hope you don't mind my advice :o) Kelly xxxx
from fan4 :
Boomletters is a place where people can be anonomous. Why'd you reveal who you are in your entry over there?
from boomletters :
BTW..(its braedon, i just dont feel like signing out again..) i love your new layout, AND the london guy is REALLY hot! take care home g.
from pastagirl2 :
your review is up at pasta reviews http://pastagirl2.diaryland.com/030413_43.html
from laudien :
Hi! I really appreciate the message you left me on my guestbook...I'm glad you like my diary! :) I liked yours as well. Take care, and I meant to tell you, I like the layout! xoxo
from uclafan87 :
hi! i just created a public diary, where anyone can post anything!! Its kept completely anonymous, come by and post..it will make me jump for joy!!! http://boomletters.diaryland.com
from p3-reviews :
Your review is up said I from P3 Reviews. It's located at: http://p3-reviews.diaryland.com/freakymandy.html Enjoy.
from captivated- :
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from floweryfairy :
hey girlie! me? sweet? now thatz what i call flattenin'. aniwaez.. havent seen u online for so damn long *come online more often*. okies.. i'l talk to ya some other day. adios.
from sex-eyes :
I totally know how you feel when you talk about Mark. How I feel about Chris. You are young, but I am only two years older then you, and I know it is possible to be in love that young. I am not gonna say u will move one because I still haven't moved on from Chris since I met him when I was..drum role... 14!
from plaidpride :
This is Lindy from Dark Reviews. I didn't feel like switching to the Dark Reviews screen name. I know I just signed your guestbook for the second time but I just wanted to say that the score I gave you wasn't the lowest I've ever given. I was looking through everyone I've reviewed.
from i----------- :
"Naggings are the music of my ears now. Scoldings are the rock genre... jokes are pop. Whining is sentimental."--- That is some good fucking writing.
from bender87 :
hey mandy!! i'm sorry if i piss u off or somethin..i really didnt mean to...forgive me. i really dunno what i'm saying. i can relate to u so much...not just the anorexia thingy. there's many more...the cybersex...the vegetarian stuff..and most of ur opinion on something i feel the same way too...hehe, maybe coz we have the same star(Aquarius)..i really like u for who u r and hope we can be friends...i wish u good luck in all u do and all the best! see ya and sorry!
from sex-eyes :
Wow, you wieght as much and are just as tall as me and you still wanna lose wieght? U gotta b kidding me!! Everyone always tells me I am really skinny. Don't be so obsessed with your wieght. I am sure you are beautiful. So u r a vegetarian now? That's great. I have been one my whole life cuz my mom is like an extreme hippie. She goes to all those peace protests and shit. I think I will go write about that in my diary right now. LoL. Joy for the treadmill!!
from nikki-leigh :
Thanks for leaving me a note!!! I love notes (even though I only ever got one) and you just made my day when I saw it!!! :) Your diary is very interesting, and I hope that you update soon!!!
from funky-monk :
heey mandy! I just want to tell you that I have a poem diary too. It pretty sucks and I'm going to change the layout tomorrow cause I don't really have time now. http://deathpoems.diaryland.com cheers! :)
from emaciated- :
Hey there, this might be a really retarded request, but would you mind spelling "amount" properly in your description of emaciated- in your profile? I'm not saying that you spelled it wrong, I know I did and you just quoted me, but I'm incredibly anal about those things and for some dumb reason that really bothers me. I suppose I'll understand if you care little enough not to do anything, and I don't blame you. :) I should pay attention to the things I type when I type them. :)
from uclafan87 :
woohoo! thanks! i love getting notes, so yay for that....i have teh best april fools joke for my parents...a day of ISD for yelling profanity and hitting another student...theyre going to flip!! hahahahahahahahaha! have an awesome tuesday! bleeeee!
from funky-monk :
hi mandy! Happy april fool's day to you too! I don't really know what to write, but it sucks that you can't stay online till after midnight anymore cause of your bro. Guess I'm happy now that my brother moved out of house last year :). School tomorrow...BORING!!!! well I'm gonna write another useless entry so if you would like to excuse me :)...PEACE!!!
from badcop :
Hi, Mandy :) This is Lauren from badcop reviews! Thanks for leaving the note, and I've finished your review! http://badcop.diaryland.com/freakymandy.html Good job!
from circlesdeep :
Hi Mandy! This is Chloe, and my new username is circlesdeep. If you're wondering the usrename came from two incubus songs that I adore, Circles and Deep Inside. I wish I could have done CirclesDeepInside, but it's to long to I had to get this one. I'm probly boring you now, so I gotta go. Talk to you later! ~Chloe
from hotcop :
That's fine. Thanks.
from sex-eyes :
Thanx for the good luck to me and SG!!! LAter...
from sex-eyes :
Thanx 4 reading my diary and adding me to your fave list. I love how you see superficiality and how fucked up it is. U will read my diary sometime and think I am totally supperficial sometimes, but that is only so I stay undepressed a lot of the time. Thank god u arent anorexic anymore! Dont know u, but proud of u. Stay true!
from emaciated- :
And also... after reading your little 101 bit... I commend you on your waiting till marrage decision, but the "just wear condoms and everything will be ok" thing? Christ, that's why people do have so many abortions!! I'm totally for the right to have an abortion or not, but... I mean, abortions happen from accidents. And faultly condoms, missed bc pills... and other things of that nature are accidents just waiting to happen. People rely too heavily on birth control when they should just be practicing self control. It's good to see that you are, but just for the sake of some stupid, careless girl who might stumble upon your diary and take everything she reads as the complete truth, you might want to change that little bit. :)
from emaciated- :
Hey there. Just wanted to say how nice it was to see that you'd put a quote next to emaciated- and un-numb (though un-numb, obviously is pretty much dead and gone, though I'm pretty sure I transfered that entry into the-noise) on your buddy list. It's just nice to know that you actually read it I suppose. I usually just assume that people list me as a favorite to return the favor... or out of pity, but not to read. And the few that do, and have little quotes by my name, typically have really bad taste in my entries, but the two you mentioned happen to be two of my favorites, or ones that I'm pretty proud of rather. So thank you again!!!!! :)
from o-towngirl22 :
Hi, Mandy Thanks for signing my guestbook.. Come back and read my entries any time.. Yes I love Just Timberlake and O-town ... But I like Justin a whole lot better.
from bender87 :
hi mandy! i didn't know that u have friends from Malaysia. Btw, my name is Nasyariah but u can call me Nasy. i hope we can be friends and i support ur decision in not obsessed with weight and fat! I agree with you!!
from crazybaby123 :
Sorry, musta missed that entry, but I'll know from now on! Talk to ya later. ~Chloe<3
from rouge99 :
I went to go thank you for the tag on my board but your diary is locked! You better be giving out passwords girl cause I don't know if I can survive without your diary! Anyway, thank you muchly for the tag, I like Christina better too :) XOXO Melia
from funky-monk :
i'm gonna write it in your notes page cause I can't sign your guestbook cause some stupid reason. But here's what I've wrote: ow mandy! I think you are too obsessed with losing weight! Well atleast it's good that you loose weight the healthy way instead of throwing up after every meal. I know a girl in my class and I love her very much and she thought she was fat and stuff. She lost 10 kg's [dunno how many pounds that it] now in 2 or 3 months, but I've seen it wat for hell she's been living in. She only eats 2 slices of bread each day and that is way to less. I'm really concerded about her. Please don't get to obsessed with losing weight cause emotionally your dying of it! Take your time with losing weight, don't rush it cause if you will you will come weight as fast as you lost it. Love steef
from bender87 :
hi mandy! how r u? i'm happy that u drop me a note...maybe u dunno what r the problems we have in common by just reading my diary...but i'll be very happy if u read it though...Actually, i really care about my weight and all that so i thought that ur like me too. sometimes, the thought of my body can make me wanna be anorexic or bulimic! but i never did coz i love food so much i can't control myself! Okay talk to u later! nice to know u!
from funky-monk :
damn it mandy! I dunno why his brother! He's cute too and i know I would never be able to be sander's gf cause he's too fucking HOT!
from funky-monk :
oke I updated my profile. and thanks for made me realize I already wrote my 100th entry after my previous entry got found by some major teeny-boppers in my class...
from funky-monk :
heey mandy! Yes I'm here! so the tagboard thing worked out huh? good for you;) Ehmm I think I don't have a crush on sander anymore..it's somebody else though..And it's pretty embarrasing to say..it's his little brother!!!!! WAAA! I'm crazy!!!
from funky-monk :
darn it! I'm screwing everything up! But anyways. As I was saying [but didn't get posted] did the tagboard thing already work out? If it didn't just copy and past the tagboard html code in a entry and link that entry on the right side. PEACE!!!
from funky-monk :
*tagboard
from funky-monk :
*right side.
from funky-monk :
aww mandy! I loved your tagboard. Can't you just make an tagboard entry en link it on the left side.....*begs*
from krazeygurl :
thanks for helping me with the next and prev thing!!!
from bodymindsoul :
thanks for the review and all *hugs*
from wpololuvr :
jsut in case u were wondering, pet peeve= something that pisses you off a lot... it took me a while to figure it out too :P
from crazybaby123 :
thanx much!
from crazybaby123 :
Just wanted to let you know that I filled out your survey thing and that I hope you win. My answers are on my diary currently, and if I am to late, I appologize. ~Chloe
from crazybaby123 :
Hello~Just thought I'd tell ya that I've added you to my favs and that I love you're template, it's real cool. And you think for yourself. (from what the entries I've read have told me) Which is even cooler! Talk to you later. ~Chloe
from stitch-revus :
Your review is up!
from funky-monk :
So you have a crush on my crush how huh? Lol ahh well I don't really mind cause HE IS HOT!! and I'm gonna see him again tomorrow:P:P. PEACE!!!!
from glowygale :
yoo freako! gr8t plesure knowing ya!-oh no i sense some 'mushy' praise coming. Cutting it short, haha ur a weird weird gal. NO OFFENCE
from funky-monk :
heey thanks for the note! I'm gonna read your diary now. I bet I'm gonna like it, hehe PEACE!!
from january-3 :
Well being a fan of our site has made me a fan of your site... if that makes sense! I'll be sure to keep up with your posts!!
from january-3 :
sorry, I didn't mean to be rude, I'm just so dreadfully surprised we actually have 'fans'! lol -Jake!
from wpololuvr :
argh ignore the last entry its really stupid (the appearances part).
from wpololuvr :
i really like ur diary... i just wanted to say that cuz out of like 50 ive visited, its actually worth reading. ^__^ u seem to be really obsessed with appearances tho. even now, after ur anorexic stage... just something i noticed
from u-n-i-q-u-e :
you're saying being anorexant taught you how to be responsible and stuff, which kinda makes it good in a way..I doubt most people ever have GOOD effects from being anorexant, but at least someone did =)
from freakymandy :
uh hullo
from emaciated- :
Hey there. You asked about how models stay thin, yet relatively healthy, so I thought I'd just explain to you that these girls are naturally thin. Jaquetta Wheeler for instance is incredibly thin, 5'11", has super-thin arms that go on forever, but she often munches on pizza and choclate. No supermodel you've ever seen was ever anything but thin. Granted, they probably have to keep a healthy diet and excersize to stay in shape, these people aren't all starving themselves into oblivion. You said that at the BMI of just over 17 your hair was begining to thin out. I'm 5'9" and the highest BMI I've ever reached is 16.2. Some people are just naturally thin. I'll often get letters talking about my progress and things. That I'm getting "pretty bad" when I'm only a few pounds away from what I naturally am. People often find it hard to believe that it's possible to be thin AND healthy, but it is. It deffinatly is. People come in all different shapes and sizes, and just because one particular body shape is more desirable dosen't nessasarly mean that the people with these bodies went aabout obtaining them by unhealthy means. :)
from u-n-i-q-u-e :
You're an ex-anorexic? Some people think I'm anorexic. I don't think I'm fat, just I have a little extra skin on my stomach and thighs . I could possibly loose it by exercising, but I tire easy. Lazy lazy me (: I don't see how my note to you helped you, but I'm glad it did. Finally I can please someone without bending over backwards.
from u-n-i-q-u-e :
I can so relate to your last entry. But everyone ignores me when they are around the "cool" kids and then be my "best friends" when the "cool" people leave. I'd rather have no friends than fake friends.
from r-tralins :
Hi--Someone from the Beyond Belief: Fact or Fiction show said that you considered me your favorite author and this is to thank you for that. As you may know, the show is being aired Wednesdays from 7 pm to 9 pm on the SciFi channel this month. The stories will be rerun continually. Most of the stories that you see depicted are mine. During the first two years the show's producers culled stories from the ten paperback books on the paranormal that I wrote many years ago. I have been collecting these weird stories ever since I was a kid, after having had several unexplainable things happen to me. I have over 3,800 stories that I collected from people all over the world that I probably will be writing about in my future books. During my career as an author I have published 251 books under my own name and a dozen pseudonyms. During the past ten years, after my wife died and I moved ashore and put my sailboat up for sale (upon which we had been living for 20 years), I have been writing several serious works. My literary agent has been withholding the sale of the original books I wrote about weird paranormal events and I hope soon that we will be seeing them in print again. Many of my fans have been buying used books I've written by ordering them through Amazon.com or Barnes and Noble. Most of my books are men's adventure novels that the editors retitled to make them more appealing to the male market. Your diary is most interesting and I look forward to hearing from you. Have a fantastic day, Robert Tralins robert14520@msn.com
from emaciated- :
Hi there. :) I just now read your responce to my note. Sorry about the misunderstanding. I just didn't exactly know how to take that note of yours. Nice to see that you only meant well by everything you said. Now that it makes a bit more sence to me, that really does mean a lot. If I've helped even one person then I've done my job. Thank you so much for reading, and responding. Keep in touch alright? And stay healthy. :)
from freakymandy :
check out my latest entry titled "emaciated-" i have a story behind dat really.
from emaciated- :
What in Christ's name was that note suposed to mean?
from emaciated- :
Just wanted to to say thank you for adding me to your favorites list. Your lil comment means a lot. :) Thanks for reading. -Jen
from mikkimai :
Hi! You left a note for me so i decided to check your diary out! It rocks! The layout is cool and i like your current entry! 'tis true! Weird people rock and have a LOT to say :) Keep up the good work! -Sakura-
from perceptionss :
Kinkie Sexie Mandie would be a cool porn star name. You seem like a down to Earth person, so don't change:) Booby

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