messages to nessus:
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from movingsands :
I thank you for straightening that up. Some of us are addicted to all these alien theories....*mumblemumblelikeancientaliens*
from movingsands :
Ah orgy. Vapor transmission. I remember staying up late to catch the video. Back when mtv would show videos at late late hrs
from sunstargirl :
Embassytown by China Meilleville is a book about an alien species incapable of lying (fiction). It gets interesting when humans teach them how. Your recent statement about sentience and fiction made me think of this book.
from madapixie :
hahaha I cannot figure out which would be worse...that I am an American or a girl
from madapixie :
Once its finished, I wanna see it published....seriously Chris!! Or I'll fly to you and you'll get your ass kicked my an American girl
from linguafranca :
Love it. The transition point where you realize it's ants is delightful.
from sunstargirl :
Your recent quest for good science fiction writing material reminded me of this article I came across of real scientific breakthroughs in 2012 that were once the fabrication of fantasy: http://www.buzzfeed.com/donnad/27-science-fictions-that-became-science-facts-in-2
from atwowaydream :
Beyond X-Files. The Chris Carter in me never wants to believe it, but I've seen almost three seasons of Fringe, so I can I kind of understand what you're talking about. I want a Walter loves Custard shirt. I LOVE him.
from gonzoprophet :
No, though i know there are instances where a person's used the internet to get interest in their writing at large, i've read that, in general, publishers don't like taking material that's been seen before. there's just the series of dreams at http://gonzoprophet.diaryland.com/storydreams.html at the moment...
from linguafranca :
Have you read Mieville's "Embassytown"? I highly recommend it. Unrelatedly, I once again assure you that there women out there who can speak plainly. The problem is that this communication style is highly stigmatized for women-- "unfeminine". A proper woman is supposed to be enigmatic and unable to articulate all those intense female feelings she has, you see. /sarcasm. Find yourself a grad student in engineering or the sciences-- there's a better chance she'll share your preferences in this regard. (You don't mind all this unsolicited advice, I'm sure?)
from gonzoprophet :
lmfao try living with the bizarre and horrific shame of being from the same state as those people!
from gonzoprophet :
LMFAO oh dear...i have a tragic love for that ridiculous little girl. i've daydreamed about rescuing her from the life of ketchup butter meals. but there's no fighting the backwardness of those tiny places in georgian woods...it's been like that far too deeply for far too long.
from gonzoprophet :
CHRIS. how are you? be happy, lovely person. i want you to immigrate to vegas and come be my bestfrand. yes? YES?!?! i'll be your wingman in clubs and we'll find you a gogo dancer with a heart of gold. really, this town would probably make you sick. but still. it has a sort of garish charm. and lots of concerts.
from madapixie :
I like the art work for the album
from lady-crystal :
I've only just discovered your diary and found your recent-ish ideas for a JLA film. If you need my vote as Director, just holler! Just one thing though; you aren't keen on the Green Arrow?
from college-kid :
I have personally been verbally by men in the gaming world, so this post hits a little home for me. From a female's perspective, there's really only three types of guys you can enounter: 1. Guys you know in real life and play with. 2. Guys that want to "get in your pants" or constantly hit on you. 3. Guys who are verbally abusive and think less of you for being a female. And really, I feel like that last group is verbally abusive to everyone they don't like-- not that they necessarily target females, though I'm sure some do. I may write more later.
from college-kid :
Those two articles made me sick to my stomach-- especially the first one. I'm amazed at the widespread violent hatred for the poor girl. Shocking.
from gonzoprophet :
Pater familias!
from gonzoprophet :
openings are so stinkin' hard. lmfao sorry to be random and pointless, i just felt the need to commiserate with you on that and i can't think of any clever advice to add to it
from thepeachtree :
I could really use a note, and your the only one online right now. You wont regret it. Thanks.
from thepeachtree :
I could really use a note, and your the only one online right now. You wont regret it. Thanks.
from linguafranca :
The right person for you will more than likely appreciate your forthrightness. Indeed, the aspects of yourself that you feel the need to suppress may be just the ones that someone will find endearing. And you don't want to be stuck with someone who can't deal with something that's a basic part of your personality/ way of being in the world. Plus, there are straightforward, logical women out there. Trust me.
from college-kid :
Would she keep going on dates if she didn't like you? Derp. :P
from atwowaydream :
Just listened to Symphony of Science, and I thought of you. Stay beautiful. I love reading your gentle heart.
from sunstargirl :
With the frequency of mass shootings in America, it really never ceases to amaze me that national reactionary movements for Mental Health Awareness HAVEN'T sprung up in the wake of ANY of these episodes. Obviously these are cries for help in a system without any good programs for the mentally ill. All I can see for our future is continued over-population, dwindling finite resources, and shootings like these becoming more the norm in a global society with deaf ears.
from sunstargirl :
How goes it in Canada-land? My brother is currently on an epic mission through your humble, yet super-expensive country and on toward Alaska. So far, he has lamented greatly over the price of beer. Ha!
from college-kid :
Thanks for the encouragement. :) And 1) I can't tell if that's a, "YAY! I LOST 9 LBS!" Or a "Crap! I lost 9 pounds and now I'm too skinny!" I'd like to think it's the former, in which case, congrats. :D Also, 2) That app sounds awesome! Makes me wish I had a smart phone to use it with.
from college-kid :
Poor rabbit. :( May he rest in peace.
from xnamehere :
jesus christ mauling ppl to death is pretty great. especially when you consider his rebellious teen years that go unaccounted for, it starts to make sense. you're lucky you're oblivious to that symbolism though... well until i brought it up. ;) sorry, my parents sort of beat it into me so it's something that i have to oblige for now, at least til i find me a copy of that new testament apocrypha and set them straight. from what i've gathered jc was quite a dick, wasting people right and left... sounds pretty awesome. hmm now it definitely seem like too broad a comparison. in my defense, i thought john carter was tremendous and the symbolism didn't really come until after the doses started wearing off. :P
from xnamehere :
john carter = jesus christ.. of mars
from college-kid :
Sounds hectic and crazy... But a LOT of fun! And did you speak to said cute girls? Or were too busy? Hmmmmmm?
from gonzoprophet :
woah! i second the vote for him as the glorious start to your vigilante career then
from atwowaydream :
i take comfort in knowing that every little flick of youth that I missed could somehow be relived in the multiverse.
from gonzoprophet :
is he some sort of impermissible charlatan, then? a man with elixirs and a traveling cart show, selling sugar water and calling it cure-all tiger bone paste?
from concerted :
Why haven't you dressed in so long?
from avantbedroc :
I'm sorry to hear Chris. Peace be with you.
from concerted :
I most certainly have a thing for the Ninth Doctor, so I say kudos.
from college-kid :
I never thought about it like that. o.o
from gonzoprophet :
your worth is internal. and abundant. and it takes more strength and fortitude to be open to your emotions than it takes to suppress them. never compromise. change only for your own benefit. you are loved, chris. and i look forward to you being on the other side of this too.
from college-kid :
I'll be your friend.
from college-kid :
Happy Birthday! (Belated, if I'm late. xD)
from college-kid :
Yikes!!!
from atwowaydream :
Sending you good vibe with your current situation, whatever the outcome may be. I went through something similar recently, and change can seem temporarily devastating. . . but I'm sure you'll chameleon your way through it all just fine.
from college-kid :
That made me smile. :) I wouldn't even know where to start.
from raven72d :
Note from a passer-by: excellent entries.
from college-kid :
You're so right! Sword cane is infinitely more sophisticated than cane with flames.
from college-kid :
Do you have a cane with flames? Tha'd be hot. :D
from college-kid :
Indeed! Movie colors are blue and silver while the book colors are blue and bronze. I wonder why they changed them in the film adaptation. D: PS: I'm not sure why, but I feel like I must own a pair of those boots.
from gonzoprophet :
your use of 'neckbeard' made me rofl for a good minute. and i also just generally love reading all of the interesting things you have to say
from gonzoprophet :
at the risk of being pretentious, i'm going to quote myself. 'it is of consequence to write a thing precisely when it feels the most alive and present to you...as such inspired feelings don't linger as you would have them...can't be called upon like quija board spirits. rather, they are uniquely present and should be implemented. better to sketch out such inspired words than to let it fade, unpenned, and force yourself to struggle to remember and evoke a feeling that has irrevocably passed.'
from college-kid :
Definitely agree. IF (and that's a very big if) Occupy Wallstreet DOES somehow manage to influence things and begin the process of change, it's going to be a very, very long process. I'm not sure if people realize how long it's going to take. Bureaucracy at its finest. I do think they need to restate their mission because people seeing it on the news are getting the wrong message (big surprise there!) It would be great if somehow the networks could decide to actually start broadcasting some legit facts about it, but it's mostly just a blip on the radar. You don't know what it's really about until you attend a rally. I just think in general, people are fed up with the way our government functions. They don't know where all the money goes until a news station decides to do an "In Depth Investigation". Which doesn't really make any kind of sense to me. The news corporations do these type of investigations to make it seem like they're on our side, but then when the people speak out suddenly they don't care about our response. It's all extremely convoluted.
from college-kid :
Having a bar on campus, really. I don't know if such a thing exists elsewhere in the US, but here in North Texas it's kind of unheard of. In fact, our campus just went Tobacco free (not that I'm complaining-- smoking is nasty). That being said, they're building a new area on campus that MAY POSSIBLY have a few restaurants that would serve alcohol. Thing is, here you can't sell alcohol within like... 50 yards of a church or something, and a local church (Southern Baptist... dundundunnn) actually gifted the University the property to build said businesses on... I have no idea how it's going to pan out. All fairly political.
from stepfordtart :
Waaah! Links wont work! : ( s x
from stepfordtart :
Hi! Im with college-kid re D'Addario. My husband uses their phosphor bronze guitar strings most times and has done for years (way back when he was a Takamine endorsee). Im assuming their violin strings are as good as their guitar strings - although I wouldnt know, as my violin playing is bloody awful! If you're interested, you might care to check out our studio: http://www.loustonehill.com/studio4_home.html - bit far away for session work, I think, but still might be interesting for nosiness's sake! s x
from college-kid :
D'Addario? Those are the strings I use. :) They're good, especially if you want a warm tone. If you're not accustomed to the violin, I'd recommend getting comfortable with it by doing scales before you worry about vibrato. Oddly enough, the more you play, the more natural vibrato will become. :)
from college-kid :
What kind of strings did you get? Also: You should practice vibrato without the violin, first. Flexible wrist, flexible fingers. You can do it. (:
from college-kid :
Hope you'll give us a little taste of what your band's working on. (: I'm always looking for new stuff to listen too.
from avantbedroc :
oh, so we are not stardust :(
from atwowaydream :
You have a good heart. I think some people think of certain things as beach accessories to take home and eventually flush down the toilet. But I'm sure your hermit crab is happy, as you've mentioned her before in your diary. It's sweet.
from college-kid :
Dooo ittt! Write it! Watchmen was the first graphic novel I read and I loved how the authors approached it from a realistic point of view and related each character's impact on politics and the social climate of the time. I think it would be great to present a super hero that doesn't just watch over one city, but tries to watch over the world. That would be awesome. And there would always be protesters yelling that he/she's "playing God". So much moral dilemma.
from atwowaydream :
Happy that you're enjoying your projector. and thank you, by the way. i have a soft spot for the club kids days, even if it's only through movies and chloe sevigny.
from college-kid :
Finished reading the draft and I liked what I read. (: I really enjoyed the way you paced the scenes, especially when there was more action going on. I'll be honest, I may have to read it again to get the full effect-- some of the politics behind it went over my head, I'm ashamed to admit. I think that could be remedied by a second reading, though. Ummmumummm... Enjoyed the characters. They're well written and the events in the beginning really give the reader a sense of what they're like, who they are. I also liked how references to corporations and technology of today kept the me grounded; that is to say, it was nice to be able to relate things I was reading to things I'm familiar with. I think that's all I have for now. (:
from college-kid :
Thanks for the Graphic Novel suggestions. I'll put them on my Christmas list. ;D And I'd offer to edit, but I probably wont do as nice a job as someone else. xD Nonetheless, I'm probably going to spend all day reading the draft.
from college-kid :
Ugh, I'm sooo envious of your writing. D: Can't wait for the next installment of Ouroboros.
from avantbedroc :
hello!! online but not. will update soon. HAVE TO CATCH UP!!
from madapixie :
Thanks for the link. Hope your doing ok after the fall.
from college-kid :
I know exactly what boss you're talking about. That thing was a pain. D:
from gonzoprophet :
Absolutely! absolutely. i think that's part of what's so twisted about the notion of some ultimate god who placed us here. it lets mankind feel like he has some sort of priority over nature in the cosmos. but that's getting into religion and politics and not very polite so i'll end abruptly
from atwowaydream :
i love when your sci-fi peeks all neon and technical.
from sunstargirl :
Ugh! That must have been so much more awful to have the doctor younger than you. That would definitely be weird. I'd be like, "Who the eff are you to say that?" I was just a little kid, so everyone involved was much older. But that had its own set of problems because I didn't always understand what was happening around me, only that all the adults were really freaked out. It was scary.
from sunstargirl :
dude! That sounds totally effed up!
from sunstargirl :
I feel the same way about voting in my country, but for some reason I still fill in my little boxes every other year anyway. It's irrational but I can't help it.
from jaysthoughts :
Hello nessus.
from madapixie :
Its a sad movie. I cry every time I see it.
from madapixie :
I love the pants and suspenders! I am a total sucker for suspenders though. And I am way excited Portal 2 is good. I have every intention of playing this week. I got some time off of work.
from madapixie :
Stitches don't look so pretty either.
from gonzoprophet :
have you seen the pyramid code series? it suggests the giza pyramids were stone electrical power factories, with granite tunnels as something of a radioactive element. i don't understand all of the science behind it but it's some fascinating stuff.
from atwowaydream :
"carved out of inhospitable prairie" -Love this description. Also love the idea of laming doctors so they can't run off.
from sunstargirl :
haha, that's funny. No worries, I'm a persistent enough note writer that eventually you would have had to add me out of guilt, if nothing else.
from atwowaydream :
Arrested Development. You, fine Sir, have a buddy in me.
from gonzoprophet :
ABSOLUTELY that's part of what had me thinking about it, I've been thinking about voodoo a lot lately
from sunstargirl :
DEFINITELY Burton's best, and one of my all-time favorites as well.
from madapixie :
That is a very good movie. I havent seen it in a while though.
from atwowaydream :
Also loved the suspended popcorn scenes. http://billsmovieemporium.files.wordpress.com/2009/03/bigfish.jpg
from sunstargirl :
I love that those black boots have the "fancy shoe" stitching across the top of the toe area. With some long trousers you could wear those to a cocktail party.
from madapixie :
I also have swype and I love it I have also gotten a little lazy withtexting. Hope your doing ok,
from atwowaydream :
Loved the Beautiful Garbage album when it came out. I remember playing "Bleed Like Me" on repeat for days. Dancing with the devils past has never been too fun.
from avantbedroc :
you; http://27.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lf6jy0qJ2F1qz4cuyo1_400.jpg
from sunstargirl :
DAMN! Tried seeing if I could stream it online, but can't find it. Then I went to my video store to rent, but they don't carry the series! I may have to fork up a couple hundred dollars to buy each season, which totally blows. Ugh, "Enterprise" just made me angry. I gave up on it in irritation after only a few episodes. Couldn't even get through a whole season. "Voyager" started out slow and cheesy, and ended with some serious whiplash, but the middle was okay (not great, but watchable). They introduced Seven in (I think) season 3 and her character was so cool (a reformed Borg) that I kept watching it just for her. Also, The Doctor was pretty funny. But their script seriously sucked ass, despite the talented actors (namely Tuvok and The Doctor). They tried this romance between Capt Janeway and her number 1, Chakotay, and then suddenly dropped it and never really addressed it again. Then they hooked Chief Engineer B'Elanna up with the pilot... I forget his name but I hated him anyway because he was so one dimensional and they gave him way too much screen time. Neither had the flare of Troy and Riker, which I'm sure is what they were going for. You just can't beat the TNG storyline, and shouldn't try. The series ends rather abruptly. You can tell they weren't expecting it to end that season, then had to scramble to write an ending in about three episodes. It's like 8 years of struggling toward home and being super lost in the Delta Quadrant and then all of a sudden BAM! they're right in front of Earth. Kind of disappointing, to say the least. They also should have explored more survival issues that would need to be addressed on the ship in that kind of situation, but instead they tried to make it exploratory like TNG was. The most they did to address the problems a ship meant for a 2 week mission suddenly stranded out in deep space without supplies and avg.'ed to take 75 years to get back to the Alpha Quadrant, was that they'd occasionally need to buy/salvage/or steal more dilithium crystals to power the warp core. But Seven was pretty darn bad ass. Oh! And they had Q appear in a couple episodes and I just loved him from TNG, so it had some nostalgia value. My favorite series remains TNG. The writers were top notch, the actors were amazing, and it was just really original. I think it is going to be hard for any addition to the ST family to beat TNG for me just because it was such a huge part of my childhood, plus anything now is a copy of the same idea (although older generations say that about TNG and the original, so I guess it just depends which one got you first sucked in). I promise to find a way to watch DS9 though. I will definitely start over with season one because it's been so long. I don't even remember in what season I fell out of sync with it anyway, so it's best just to start from the beginning. I felt mixed about the latest movie. I know it was supposed to be an alternate reality, but I wanted it to be more factually correct as a homage to the original. My fave movie might be First Contact, but I've liked all of them, really. First Contact just stands out to me because of the Borg Queen. I think I like all things related to the Borg simply because the whole idea of them terrifies the crap out of me. Also, I thought it was pretty awesome that the Borg Queen would seduce Data. He's probably my all time favorite character. Brent Spiner is so talented. Ah! I could go on forever!
from sunstargirl :
lol, I'm giddy with finding another Trekkie on here. People our age just don't understand it. Their loss because the ST's are the best TV shows ever invented. I mean, entire languages were invented for the show! My first car's license plate actually said "Jolechu" which means "beam me up" in Klingon. The few awesome people in the world would honk at me on the road and give me the Vulcan sign. We were in a special club of clued-in drivers on the road. I miss that car. I met Robert O'Reilly (actor who played Gowron) at a mall convention once and got his autograph. He's this blond haired, blue eyed white guy. I couldn't believe it! It was kind of fitting though, because the Klingons have always reminded me of Vikings. You definitely need to write this script of yours for a new series. Suggestion: recalibrating the shield harmonics cannot solve ALL inter-space travel problems! Haha. That started to bug the crap out of me with Voyager. They used it to get out of every single life-threatening situation. That, or messing with the warp core. Oh, this makes me want to sit down for a serious ST marathon. I've seen every episode of STNG at least 5 times because we have them all recorded, and I followed the Voyager storyline to completion, but I only got to see DS9 sporadically at first, then not at all, so now I really want to go back and give it my attention. I thought the whole idea of Dax as this host person was a super interesting character. I also liked Odo and Garak. I kept wondering if Garak would turn out to be some kind of double agent in the end or something. I just had too much trouble trusting a Cardassian. But maybe it's like the Klingons from the original to NG, because they started out as enemies of the Federation, but finally reached an alliance... That does it, I have to finish the DS9 storyline. There's just too many questions.
from sunstargirl :
OMFG!! I could hug you! I loved DS9 as well, though my mom didn't get into it. She liked Babylon 5, which was too diplomatic for me to understand at that age (this was like, what? 1993? So I was about 10). Socialist Farenganar?!?! HA! That would turn the entire universe upside down! Not enough PROFIT in Socialism to interest a Ferengi. You'd have to do a Hell of a lot of lobe rubbing to sell that idea.
from sunstargirl :
SCI-FI RULES!!
from sunstargirl :
lol, loving the little Trekkie reference, although I have to say, TNG will always have a soft spot in my heart. I grew up on that show. My mom was a huge Trekkie (we're talking home-made costumes for the conventions and everything here). She and I used to sit on the sofa painting our nails and watch the show each week. It's one of my favorite childhood memories. Patrick Stewart is a phenomenal actor. I also admit I kind of liked Voyager just because of Tuvok and Seven, but it definitely was not as good as TNG, hands down.
from flowermouth :
Check this out if you can: http://twitter.com/LaFilleMange/status/23341169928830977 It's my twitter, I admit, but it's from a couple of days ago--and your entry from today made me think of it and smile... :)
from atwowaydream :
The coolest people talk to themselves and then blame it on their animals. I change my voice all the time, too! I do a mean Cartman.
from flowermouth :
In that case, absolutely send him/her my way in the future. I have the worst luck, if you can call it that, with keeping computers alive. Mind you, my first one was with me for 8+ years--and what a glorious time we had. *sigh*
from flowermouth :
The Tech-Fairy seems to be treating you well lately. If s/he visits you again with some kind of magically free laptop, send her my way. :D
from atwowaydream :
I send you textual turkey need for ritual in you. I send you fruitcake as ammo. Use it wisely. Merry Christmas. ♥
from atwowaydream :
I love the ceiling at the pizza place. . . like going to a mcdonald's and being handed a menu next to the fireplace. The bay window thing made me giggle. Glad you're back.
from flowermouth :
One of my first tattoos simply says "balance." It's important.
from sunstargirl :
LMAO!! Did the Pentagon seriously asked for their files back? As I recall, the Pentagon INVENTED the internet!! How do they not understand how their own intention works?!?! Oh that is rich! This just made my day.
from sunstargirl :
Yeah, come to think of it, I don't remember them when I went on a road trip all over Quebec this past summer. I just remember them in Vancouver back in '05. Calgary, huh? Hockey fan? I have to agree, our currency has got to be the ugliest of any country, but up until recently it was considered among the most valuable. I guess it just goes to show there's no accounting for taste. My favorite was a Dutch note that had sunflowers on it, but then they switched to the ugly Euro and ruined everything. Conformists.
from sunstargirl :
Oh yeah? Well, I hate your damn confusing blinking green traffic lights -- what the HELL does a blinking green light even mean?!?! So confusing!! Also, half your country doesn't even speak English, so there. :P
from sunstargirl :
haha, yep, there's this great Mark Twain quote that goes something like, "The coldest winter I ever had was the summer I spent in San Francisco." But you don't know cold if you haven't been to Seattle, it's waaaaay worse. (I'm picturing someone from Minnesota laughing hysterically at me right now -- I guess it's all perception). What do you mean the US is weird, are you from Canada? What are you doing complaining about the cold? hahaha!
from sunstargirl :
SF is my home town, baby!! woot!!! give it a kiss for me!! I miss that dirty hippie city so much!
from avantbedroc :
are you good at keeping a straight face? i would be a terrible comic actor. i laugh too much
from avantbedroc :
kilt for patdown!!!!!!!
from flowermouth :
RE HP7a: I completely agree. Even the scenes that didn't quite match up conveyed just the right emotion--this is my favorite of the movies so far (at least as it pertains to its faithfulness to the story).
from sunstargirl :
Good for you! Simply put, I'd say it is important to keep overhead as low as possible while keeping one's prices competitive with the market. My biggest expense is advertising. You *might* want to take a general course on tax law if you're not already familiar with it, or check out a tax law for dummies book from the library in order to maximize your total profits and keep as much of your yearly earnings out of the greedy claws of the government as possible. Learning all the business loopholes for taxes has probably saved me an additional $10,000 in profits annually. I now mourn the loss of all that money I wasted overpaying my taxes before I knew what I could write off and all the loopholes I could utilize.
from atwowaydream :
sometimes i feel like that. memories become cartoonish, or put up impossibly high. you're not someone who won't make new ones. you have the kind of heart that will attract them like moths. ♥
from sunstargirl :
depends on what field you study. Computer science, engineering and business degrees are very much in demand. You're guaranteed a high paying job straight out of college. Arts, social sciences, humanities, not so much. Numbers make the world go 'round, not philosophy. My degree was art, and it has been useless in securing me a job, so I started my own business instead. (wedding photography). I didn't go back to business school to do it, instead I rented my second education at the public library. If I have kids someday, I will encourage them to study business. It is so vitally important to success in real life, and it is not a subject taught in school. School is very good at spitting out employees, they're not trying to produce business owners.
from atwowaydream :
in a word: yummy. possibly delicious. but yes, they are quite attractive.
from avantbedroc :
that is some nasty bad tire luck :-(
from gonzoprophet :
i have a project that i was in the middle of working on years ago that i haven't looked at since i last edited it. something that very much needs work. but it's too emotional to me and is draining to work on, so i haven't. writing can often be unnervingly similar to self-inflicted punishment. if you don't want to look at the old stuff maybe it's time to start something new.
from flowermouth :
One thing I've noticed is that life (or at least my life) is pretty cyclical: good, bad, good, bad, etc. And, to be honest, things aren't that bad right now. I was lied to and mislead and I didn't listen to my own voice about it--sounds like a lesson I needed to learn and now, I hope, I have :) but, truthfully, I'm okay. Thank you tho.
from flowermouth :
I swear, I clicked on your notes to say the exact same thing: I like you.
from sunstargirl :
:) I like you
from sunstargirl :
I understand, but I still think that argument fails to acknowledge the interconnectedness of everything. Obviously we do need certain things from the universe in order to survive during our brief existence, but we have to give it all back again with our deaths which gives life to something else (maggots, mostly). All we are is borrowed energy. I don't think the universe is hostile to energy. I think the universe is energy. Carbon life forms are only a more rare form of it than a star and not a very practical design either given the energy requirements we need to sustain ourselves, although I'm not quite sure I would try to argue that a giant, self-consuming ball of gas uses any less. Basically, my point is, stop thinking of yourself or of humans in general as in opposition to, and instead begin seeing how we're a part of, and I think you'll be a lot happier with our lowly lot in the universal food chain. Our existence is going to be so laughably brief anyway that even if we were to blow up our entire planet (highly likely), life as a whole won't notice anymore than I noticed the single death of an ant in the Congo yesterday.
from sunstargirl :
isn't life an essential part of the "whole of existence"?
from flowermouth :
In the 8 years I've been writing on Diaryland, I have probably written an entry like yours today (I am human and I need to be loved, just like everybody else does. [nice choice of lyrics, btw]) at least once a week. That things can change in the blink of an eye never ceases to amaze me.
from exexex :
Hi, back.
from atwowaydream :
aw. i talk to my cats like that, too. i'd like to think that in their heart of hearts, they understand.
from avantbedroc :
that is a scary mofo-in' costume
from atwowaydream :
i do have a rather severe hotel fetish, and they're fun and fleeting and anonymous. . . but can get expensive. be thankful you don't have an expensive hotel snob for a girlfriend. everyone should be thankful.
from avantbedroc :
goodluck tonight (12th)
from warpednormal :
agreed. rejection is hard enough. seeing someone actively seek someone else that isn't you..is heartbreaking. and...being mocked is effing lame!!
from madapixie :
Hey you thought the song was sad too.
from gonzoprophet :
lmao yeah i had a sort of rambling explanation of how the sun illicited our dependency on it and the light and then has the audacity to leave us without it for the night and the moon may just be a reflection of the brilliance but it's there when we have nothing or something like that but it didn't really make any sense so i left off with the rest lmfao i'm just compelled by the moon, probably going back to a childhood infatuation with artemis though admittedly you can't really just stop and admire the sun so maybe that's the source of the preference. i'm not sure why but whenever i draw them the moon is smiling & happy and the sun is crying
from atwowaydream :
especially when it's a nice healthy irreverent kind of humor.
from atwowaydream :
I giggled for a bit with the whole Missy the lost cat thing you posted the link to. I especially liked Missy posing serenely in front of an advertisement for Lost. It was great, thanks for sharing.
from madapixie :
Things are ok I suppose. I have two very classic names to recommend when you cannot tell two things apart. I recommend that their names should be Thing 1 and Thing 2...see I told you they were very classic names ;)
from madapixie :
Sorry you had such a bad day, I hope everything got better. What did you decide to name the gerbils?
from exegetical :
Creepy small world: that link is to my friend's sister's site.
from atwowaydream :
KMR Milk replacer powder for kittens simulates the mother's milk, maybe she would take to that? i truly hope she feels better soon. my eighteen year old cat nearly died last week, so i can understand wanting your kitten to be healthy.
from gonzoprophet :
i love you. even as you flail and stomp, you see things far more honestly than most people do and that alone would endear me to you, even if i hadn't already been fond. as much as i know that the supernatural route for explaining things has, in the past, simply been a way for mankind to settle itself on a matter while truly having no idea as to the truth, i believe that a lot of inner strife, the things that seem alien and sourceless, comes from past life experiences. maybe you were some worshiped philosopher in another life and now have some silly feeling of inadequacy, as you unconsciously, incorrectly decide that this life is the lesser of the two or three or million. lmao just an idea though
from atwowaydream :
well, most of all, to be surrounded by music is one thing, but to be surrounded by and helping to create good music, makes me envious enough to blow up my tiny ipod which is no match for getting to work with Ladyhawke. I'm Selena, by the way.
from seventhwing :
I won't say you'll find someone, but I will say, does it matter? The heteronormative monogamous standard of romance is not only over rated, it's also not the only option. Sate the human need for socialization with friends you feel close to, and the male need to fuck with a collection of willing individuals. If you're lucky enough, you could combine the two groups. Or something else that might better suit you. Just don't chain yourself down to that static definition.
from madapixie :
It was nice...I want to go back someday
from madapixie :
So I had to go promptly listen to Simple Plan...its been years since I have listened to that CD. The tattoo looks great! Hope your doing ok.
from gonzoprophet :
when you write your next entry, there's a little line with a check box in front of it that asks 'is this going to be the first entry on a new page?' you have to check this to get a fresh page - it doesn't cycle old ones. i think you could archive them too but i haven't fooled with that in ages so i have no swift answers
from seventhwing :
I didn't jump into it until recently, after True Blood finished out its season and I needed an Alan Ball fix. I guess it came at a good time, when I needed some perspective on death. And life.
from seventhwing :
What you have to say is interesting, which is rare on this site, AND you're not a sixteen year old girl, which is even rarer. And you should go with Six Feet Under, you can never go wrong with Michael C. Hall.
from felinenine :
How was the epica show?
from madapixie :
The tattoo looks great! I am so excited/happy for you. How many more sittings do you have to go? And most importantly are you happy with it?
from madapixie :
I think it looks lovely, post pictures so we can see it mmmk :)
from madapixie :
Aaah! I am so excited for you! What tattoo will you be getting?
from gonzoprophet :
i delight in the concept of an antimatter cat!
from madapixie :
oh no I know what you mean. It floors them to think that a person can go so long without some horizontal relief.
from avantbedroc :
how delightful, new friend :-)
from madapixie :
I like the new look
from madapixie :
Thanks. I think I am just so fed up with bullshit people and lousy dates. I want someone I get along with. Hope your doing ok. You going to play Bioshock 2?
from madapixie :
I like the haircut :)
from gonzoprophet :
oh man i'd thought of it, i was terrified the whole time...i didn't know what exactly it was gonna be, but i knew arthur was gonna hit him and hit him hard before he got taken out.
from madapixie :
Thanks, but as long as I take what they give me I don't feel anything. And congrats on finding money!! That is always fun.
from warpednormal :
i have to say, that costume officially takes the title of best thing ever. =) Also, you're in vancouver!?!?! I hope you have a wonderful time..we'll be breathing the same city air tonight. bye!
from gonzoprophet :
ah and rereading i notice one of my vague-ities. i make a fine distinction between goodness and what i called "fostering" goodness. i believe there is the good that is natural and honest in a human (and is, admittedly, present in greater levels in some people than in others) and there is what we force and train in ourselves in order to adhere to a principle... i had been trying to practice the latter. and must, inevitably, come to accept that i, personally, am a more *honest* creature than that. and truth, like a child calling santa fat, is often not necessarily kind or good.
from gonzoprophet :
i wasn't particularly trying to dislodge the valuable properties of goodness...it's just that i had to realize that that's not really what counts here. being a good person does not protect you from the outside world. you have to follow all of these arbitrary rules as well, that have little to nothing to do with goodness. you still have to worry about government retribution. saints can still get speeding tickets and the government will still demand their pound of flesh.
from warpednormal :
haha. yeah i think it's called....SEVERE ANXIETY. wicked fun stuff.
from madapixie :
Don't feel guilty
from madapixie :
Its worse when you know they don't care at all
from gonzoprophet :
I know, right!? Though whenever that sort of thought rings through me in a particularly new way, my words tend towards "absurd" and "bizarre" far more than "impressive".
from madapixie :
I am so glad you got Batman! Its a lot of fun. And I wish girls weren't so confusing too...we can be a little odd sometimes...I don't know why Have a good night!
from madapixie :
I liked that he made her flowers at the end of District 9. I hope everything works out with her :)
from gonzoprophet :
i just meant the abdul alhazred reference, being from kings quest as opposed to the character for which the KQ one was named, from h.p. lovecraftm where he is the progenitor of the necronomicon. in hindsight, my message was confusing. hehe my bad
from gonzoprophet :
kings quest vi? (i only guess that above its predecessor due to cassima rhyming with fatimah)
from warpednormal :
...but does she REALLY have really cool tattoos? i like your diary alot. peace out.
from katlefiya :
At least you know the girls that do that aren't worth your time. I hope everything is going well other than that. It was nice seeing you last night :-)
from madapixie :
Glad your doing ok, and yes buy the game
from madapixie :
It is a lot of fun and keeps me on my toes. I finished re-reading Arkham Asylum a serious house on serious earth, and I forgot how much I enjoyed reading it. How are you?
from madapixie :
Did you like Watchmen?
from madapixie :
I just ordered Repo off Amazon! I hope your doing well!
from madapixie :
hey! you came back!
from brianvans :
it's just a tegan and sara b-side i found on the internet of them covering cyndi lauper. it had no drums so i went to town. greg's going to do some bass soon hopefully.
from brianvans :
the everymen cover rules so hard
from yihatepeople :
ain't it the truth
from yihatepeople :
ain't it the truth
from katlefiya :
I agree. My msn is katlefiya (at) live.co.uk. I'll try to go on there more often!
from katlefiya :
I really like that circuit-board carpet idea. If I had the means I would definitely do one up for you. Maybe someday.
from tritius :
hahah, Chris, make an aesthetic exception and just buy some shoes that scientists designed for running and have actual padding and traction! Converse pseudoboots will hurt your arches!
from katlefiya :
Thank you
from madapixie :
its pretty
from madapixie :
I suppose your right it is only two years. Don't worry about your shows. You'll do fine. You know your job and it something you love, above everything else trust in yourself.
from katlefiya :
If there's anything I can do for you, just let me know.
from brianvans :
slag off, eh
from madapixie :
what did you do today?
from madapixie :
nail polish remover will remove the paint on a body part or just about an other surface. Also keep the room warm that has the oil based paint. If the room is cold the paint will never dry.
from brianvans :
i can't believe you have diaryland AND still update. we are a rare breed these days
from madapixie :
I used to dream that Alice (the one from wonderland) was cutting baseballs in half and frying them in my kitchen.
from madapixie :
Tu bruit triste. N'importe quoi Je pouvoir faire?
from madapixie :
Touch�
from madapixie :
Thank you for deciding to buy Bioshock! I have put in two days worth of playing and the game just gets better! I don't play a lot of PC games-I did try to play guild wars, my brother and a few friends play but I didn't have the time to put into it. your not a nerd-just a game connoisseur
from madapixie :
I have never had a problem with the 360 dying out...I think might have to do with how they are sitting while in play, I know that when they heat up and stay that way for a long time it can hurt the game. I usually turn it and put the fan next to it. I have no idea if it helps but it seems to work when it has heated up.
from madapixie :
I have an xbox and a 360, a PS3, and one of the new psp's. I LOVE Gears of War it was amazing. I did not like the ending very much, but I hope it means that a second one will follow. I love to play any GTA games (the third is my favorite though), I play Bloodrayne, Madden, God of War ,Halo, the Kain series (Blood Omen) for playstation, and I have just started to play BioShock and it is wonderful! Have you played it all? I want to get a 360 elite...maybe for my birthday...I don't know, but they are beautiful. what games do you like and for which system?
from madapixie :
For the Wii?
from madapixie :
I listen to everything. Some of its good and some it is bad and questionable. I think to me music is like food so why not try every nationality. Some of my favorite bands are social distortion, deftones, the distillers, fugazi, gogol bordello, rob zombie, shakira, the vandels, operation ivy, vercuca salt, cake, silversun pickups, Frank and Nancy Sinatra, flogging molly, the isely brothers, devocka (wonderful Russian band), swing music(all), and for the bad and/or questionable I would have to say spice girls, the rocky horror picture show soundtrack (I have no idea why. Sometimes I find myself listing to it and I have no idea how it happened), and fall out boy (see I warned you it was bad). I think I love just about everything.
from madapixie :
people like that should be tied to chair and be forced to watch someone cut the strings on their guitar until they agree to stop plaguing the world with bad music.
from madapixie :
"God I hate jam bands." I thought of the band Mars Volta. I saw them live once. They started a song and never seemed to stop playing. I all most pulled a van Gogh.
from madapixie :
Thanks! I now know what I am doing over winter break, reading the entire comic series. Don't feel lonely the world is full of people and they are fascinating to watch
from madapixie :
I haven't read up to season eight...I just started to read the comics a few months ago. Do they continue where the show left off?
from madapixie :
I haven't read up to season eight...I just started to read the comics a few months ago. Do they continue where the show left off?
from madapixie :
I hate it because to me it felt unfinished and I was so sad when Doyle died. Its not nerdy-its only nerdy to those that are not fans...and they suck :)
from madapixie :
I have all seven seasons of Buffy and all five seasons of Angel. I hate the last episode of Angel.
from katlefiya :
*drools*
from madapixie :
All seven seasons?
from madapixie :
My name is Natalie and I just happened to come across your thoughts.
from tritius :
all tings considered Calgary is a marvel of urban planning. there are vexatin' quirks but the grid, the quandrants, i never get lost for too long. Saskatoon seems like it was designed by methheads, Vancoo has sets of streets with weird themes, i dunno..
from trezzy :
You've always excelled at interacting with me, and I'm a human, mostly.
from how-to-fight :
"Desertshore" is the name of a really good Nico album.
from how-to-fight :
Oh, too bad, we would've liked to see you again!
from katlefiya :
"God I hate jam bands. I hate the whole "Hey lets get high and play incredibly boring repetetive music that is nowhere near as profound as I think it is for 3 hours!" mentality." No shit. Well said.
from how-to-fight :
Chris, I see you haven't been on in a while, still hope you get this--as you know, Ryan and I are moving to Vancouver, we're having a goodbye thing on Thursday, we'd love to see you! Particulars: Leah and Ryan e-mail When: Thursday Jul 19, 2007 at 7:00 PM -12:00 Where:: Hop In Brew 213 - 12th Avenue S.W. Calgary, AB Canada
from how-to-fight :
Bus...you mean, Greyhound isn't on strike? (Ryan and I were quite alarmed as we're moving soonish and require it.) I hope you're having a nice time in Toronton, whatever you're there for!
from how-to-fight :
Looks like I won't be attending Chimera, but have a marvelous time! You really haven't seen any ads for it? Gosh, I seem 'em everywhere. The other thing is, walking into Hmv, keep in mind that ALL of that is product placement. I don't know if it's calmed since the release, but all of that stuff is paid. On the release date, I noticed that the album, the banners, the signage, placemnt, everything, was ridiculous. Going in, it felt like the busiest marketing day in my personal managing history (that was the triple release of the white stripes, coldplay, and the black eyed peas). As for all of the stuff Trent's been doing, although it's an interesting idea and it hasn't been done, in my opinion it comes down to self promotion--and unfortunately, like I wrote in my blog, it doesn't matter if your album mows the lawn, gets rid of unwanted facial hair, and makes excuses for lipstick on your collar--if the album can't stand alone for the music on it, does it really matter? But then, that's the difference--I'm not really caring for the album, but what tracks do you think I should download? The production, I really don't mind. It's surprising he hasn't started producing rap, because he'd make geniunely interesting rap beats. I don't know if you read Trent's artist statement on the album but it ends with "you can dance to it, you can fuck to it..." and to me, that alone negates so much of what it could've been. I appreciate the effort and the marketing scheme (it's pretty clever and I wouldn't be surprised if more artists pick up on it, I don't know how sales are doing but if there's one thing the concept is doing is increasing interest in the band), but for me, the dealbreaker is, I just don't feel like it's authentic. But that's just my opinion--everyone thinks I'm a complainer.
from how-to-fight :
WOW, that was so bloated, I'm sorry, it's 4:44, I'm tired. I guess what I meant is--all of that's fine. I just wish the album, the focal point of all of it, was worthy to warrant it. That, and coming from a major label draw such as NIN, the statement comes across as a bit contradictory. Unfortunately, I think most people would see this as Trent's best album, it's certainly one of the most appealing to 'alternative thinkers' all of that distopian future chic is really catching on, and the album itself is catchy. No denying that.
from how-to-fight :
I probably wouldn't mind all the gimmicky stuff if the album was great. And truly, I want to like that album-I want to believe one of the old men I've looked up to is still making good records, but because the album (in my opinion, but clearly it's one of the more popular NIN records) can't stand alone, the gimmick appears as a self-indulgent marketing ploy to seem relevent. Furthermore, this is the biggest marketing push I've EVER seen Universal (though he's 'on' nothing/interscope records, he's actually just on Universal) give Nine Inch Nails, working at HMV so long, I know exactly how product placement works there and I know what that kind of exposure costs, so it seems ironic that he's pushing Year Zero as some great social statement when what he's really doing is making a fantastically palatable product (the production is really quite hip-hop like, not that that's bad) with an even better gimmick. There's something Warholian in how well the idea of it suceeds. Unfortunately, not on the level Reznor probably thinks. I just don't feel like it's authentic, you know? It's the same feeling I get from Mythmaker. All the cute little things he's doing, dropping records in bathrooms and hiding URL's, it's just self-promotion. A world where greed and power run their likely course? It's happened already. The fact that the closing two lines of what he says about the record is "You can dance to it, you can fuck to it..." just seems trite, and instantly gratifying to the listener. I used to like NIN because it wasn't instantly gratifying. Ah well. Everyone's trying to make back the money they lost in their prime that they spent on drugs. And I really thought printing that label on the back of the album... the US Morality Bureau or something? Was just embarrassingly wanky. I actually considered buying it if it was on a first cycle 9.99 solicit (which it was) but couldn't bring myself to do it given that sticker. The sad thing is, Universal never really had to push NIN this hard, he's always had such a tidy following without the agressive marketing campaign, but, I mean, I walked in to HMV, the record was everywhere, signage was everywhere, there was an entire rolling rack of NIN, and that's huge. It's all over the television, the internet, everything. Contradictory, considering the albums content, I should think. And yeah, I understand they're a major label band, they're a very sellable product, I just... didn't buy into it. I almost wish I did. It would be comforting. Anyways, I've totally talked way too long about it, and I'm sorry! I'm at work. There isn't anything else to do. That being said, it sure beats With Teeth, which I've listened to probably three times and find completely forgettable. The other thing? Trent seems to have appropriated the term 'sound collage' often applied to Skinny Puppy, but because Puppy's the new Linkin Park, I guess the term is up for grabs. Anyway! It would be nice to see you, Chris. Are you going to Chimera on Thursday? How's your music going?
from how-to-fight :
Is it officially out? I heard the myspace clip, it was awesome!
from how-to-fight :
Is it your birthday? If it is, have a really happy one!
from how-to-fight :
No kidding. I'm home all this week from a work-related back injury. I get compensation and all, but there isn't much to do besides lay down or limp. Hope you feel better!
from trezzy :
i used to have a shirt that said "reunite gondwanaland" (if i recall correctly pangaea broke up into laurasia and gondwanaland). i figured one day someone was going to see the shirt and start laughing hysterically and then we'd high-five. it never happened.
from tritius :
What below me said. C.S Louis aint shit but Christian Allegory. It's sad because they're still some of my favourite fantasy novels.
from trezzy :
dude chris, are you serious? aslan is totally an obvious jesus figure. the son of the emperor-over-the-sea gets humiliated, tortured, killed, then comes back from the dead to redeem everybody? lol! he actually says it outright in one of the later books, something to the effect of "i'm in your world but you know me by a different name there" or something. i actually was really pissed when i figured it out and i was only like 12 or something.
from tritius :
dude, come off that.
from how-to-fight :
No one knows what they want to do for a career!
from how-to-fight :
Your ideas cannot be invalid. No one's are--you bring alot more to the table than you give yourself credit for. Introspection begets personal growth--and that's good. But you are definitely not the wretch you seem to think you are. Ryan's next to me, and we both would really like to hang out with you, if you'd like. Ryan says he'll copy Chris and Cosey for you, which I can attest is startlingly good. Hey, be kind to yourself, mmkay? It sounds empty but if you'd like to talk, I'm around. I've been through this kind of thing myself.
from how-to-fight :
You think so? I've only heard sound clips but from them, the only one that sounds like it'll be okay is "Politikil", despite the stupid name. Have you heard the full album yet? Do you think it's weird that he says "Ooohh yeah..."?
from trezzy :
iOle! has permanently damaged my hearing, so I find I'm doing the "smile and nod" more than ever these days rather than try and get people to repeat themselves. When it comes to boring people it's probably a blessing in disguise.
from deflective :
Eee.
from deflective :
Theoretically speaking, an electron orbiting an atom of your body could be in Sudbury at any moment. It's just highly improbable. And electrons are kind of like little photon banks, absorbing and releasing energy according to what they want to do with themselves. So a photon travelling unmolested all that way through an atmosphere of greedy electrons is unlikely as well. Not to mention it would have to either curve through the atmosphere, be reflected, or travel through solid matter to get here. Maybe if someone in Calgary is aiming a beam of gamma rays directly at Sudbury. Even then, they'd probably all get absorbed by the time they reached Brandon, Manitoba. Now neutrinos, those could get here from Calgary no problem. But more importantly, I wish you were here too. I can't wait. PS: http://pdg.lbl.gov/2006/listings/contents_listings.html
from how-to-fight :
True... but it's still worrying. Ambientz? Oh my gosh. How the mighty have fallen.
from how-to-fight :
Oh my gosh, I hope it's good. Thanks for posting!
from polycount :
Would like to be AV nerd for HE.
from dope-slave :
Like a few of the other people here, I saw this film when I was nine.Sure the movie has some outlandish scenarios and loops in it's plot but I don't see anyone knocking Han christian anderson or the brothers grimm or even Mother goose for that sort of thing.What about this thing called a " willing suspension of disbelief" without it no enjoyment can be had from any sort of story, fiction or otherwise.It's that suspension that allows the imagination to play and to fill in blanks .The special effects for a low budget movie in the 80's was exemplary for the time and I'd much rather enjoy the theatricality of a laser beam garage door opener than an invisible infra red one, ( it got my mind racing )and even as adult it's admittedly still more engaging than the reality.You can hear the spaceships exploding in space in Star wars and yet it's common knowledge that there is no sound in outerspace.Kids can't drive but we can have skates or bikes and for a long treck some form of transportation is necessary.I was inspired to take up rollerskating from it, and that proved more fun than pretending a cardboard box was a car not to mention it got me outdoors enjoying myself instead of vegging out on cartoons and cheap cereal.It was also touching to see a story aimed at kids that had big and little kids of differing backgrounds overcoming differences and trying to remain postive, spirited and hopeful in a world that had so little promise. Today we have teeny movies of over primped,over priveledged, prissy teenboppers who are just bored, cynical, self absorbed, and desperate for peer approval who resort to copying from glossy magazines a lifestyle dictated to them by people who only care about their pocket books. They can't appreciate anything because they've gotten everything too easily resulting in stunted imagination and lack of drive. There is still only one black boy or one black girl around and the character of "Rabbit" to this day is still treated with far more dignity than contemporary versions. Oscar material this movie isn't;nor was it mean't to be.It was a flight of fantasy. It got my imagination going.In real life people in desperate situations often do gravitate to happy escapism it's what you do when you need a will to survive." Solarbabies" as a team name in such a place isn't so farfetched and I would know I've been to some desperate places and see what people do to keep going.It was inspiring, not banal,but necessarily elementary and yet VERY engaging and responsibly mindful of it's INTENDED audience.There are more hopeful and redeeming qualities in this film than many an oscar contender and my life was richer for having seen it as a child as opposed to making them richer from the currently inevitable torrent of merchandise that would have accompanied it nowadays.
from deflective :
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from how-to-fight :
How are things going down there?
from tritius :
Chaude(hot), froide(cold), possibly. If you were being serious I actually thought that for a long time, and I'd probably seen it on french taps before. It's not unheard of to resuse fixtures from far away I guess.
from trezzy :
lol you look amazing.
from trezzy :
lol. you'll have to explain neoteny to me sometime.
from trezzy :
whatchoo talkin' bout boy. that them there universe wuz created when our Lord'n'Saviour created it, on July 4, 1673.
from trezzy :
you know the entries i put up every 6th of december. what i don't write is how thinking about marc lepine makes me physically ill. if i think about it long enough i start to shake and get nauseous. fuck.
from deflective :
That's because you're sweet. Also, I've been meaning to tell you... when you're phased, you develop phantom surroundings syndrome. You still see and feel your old surroundings even though they're no longer in your dimension. It's just not explained at all on screen. How's that for subtlety?
from trezzy :
apparently japan has the wackiest and most backward laws concerning violence and nudity in media: you can watch a video of a guy cutting another guy's head off with a circular saw and taking a crap down his throat, but it's illegal to show genitalia. That's fucked. On a semi-related note, I installed a "better bodies" mod for Morrowind that makes all the toons look more like people and less like jerky hand puppets, but now when I loot their corpses, they're anatomically correct and I feel bad leaving their little wangs flapping in the wind.
from trezzy :
it's recommended that male astronauts masturbate at least twice a day. how's that for mundane?
from putmedown :
I did some research and a round trip ticket on the greyound to Toronto will cost you $227.95. That includes taxes and everything, but it must be booked at least 2 weeks in advance. It gets more expensive if you book it 1 week before you leave, and even MORE expensive if you book it less than a week before you leave. Book ASAP and it's cheap!
from how-to-fight :
Can do. What's the kitten's name?
from how-to-fight :
I hope Leia's stitches come out and she's feeling okay. She is Leia, right?
from how-to-fight :
I like it.
from trezzy :
chris, i decided it was time for me to enter the next generation of videogaming and so I bought Arc the Lad for Playstation 2. I turned it on and the theme song was some Avril Lavigne clone playing fucking bland prefabricated power pop rock. I almost fucking cried. Gone are the stirring symphonies and heart breakingly amazing orchestrated themes that Nobuo Uematsu managed to compose on a 16 bit piece of plastic . To be replaced by music that moronic 14 year old mall brats groove to. Oh well... we'll always have vgmusic.com ... sigh.
from trezzy :
i always wonder why a suspended D chord haunts my soul. why is it that certain frequencies of sound waves can trigger the limbic systems in our brains and make emotions? why does one combination of tones sound "sad" and one sound "happy"? "dark"? "angry"?
from trezzy :
shoulda invited me :)
from soflown :
That quote was brilliant. :)
from trezzy :
blargh. there is nothing more that i'd love to do than video game party it up tonight. alas, i need to go jam with ole. but have fun and please continue letting me know when they occur.
from trezzy :
axe body spray can get fucked. seriously. just when i think they can't objectify women more and insult men's intelligence more, they find a way to.
from how-to-fight :
I was hoping to see Gina! Fuck fuck fuck.
from how-to-fight :
Oh shit, I still really want to come even though Donald and I are on the outs. AGAIN. I may just come anyway and avoid all of the horrible people, and if I do, you have to talk to me. If I don't, I totally hated to miss it.
from skinpacked :
What time do you guys play on Monday?
from how-to-fight :
Yes! Do come.
from deflective :
Would you mind if I sent you an email?
from deflective :
I think the average soldier's ability to kill innocent people has a lot to do with a shift of responsibility as opposed to enjoyment or the dehumanizing of victims. The Miligram experiment (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Milgram_experiment) demonstrates how easily people will follow orders to torture and kill. Anyways, thinking about it in that respect makes me feel slightly better about the human condition. We're not heartless monsters necessarily, we're just kind of stupid.
from kboyer :
See, now why can't that last thought be liberating instead of crushing?
from how-to-fight :
Mmhmm. I feel dumber watching movies like that. Not television--I never consider them as real people, more like a sub-breed of pig people or an anthropological experiment. Yes, teen movies and country music always makes me feel a little more stupid. (I mean, certain country music.)
from deflective :
Thanks. I enjoy how casually you mention photons.
from tritius :
Hrm. I've been thinking the whole dichotomy breakdown thing has to do with our psychologies, too. If just because of self vs. other, or something along those lines. Two is a number people can understand, and noone wants to stop breaking things down that simply. It's necessary but it's annoying.
from nessus :
Unfortunately the tattoo I want is one full sleeve, and partly a neck tattoo.
from trezzy :
I disagree with the person who left a note before me. People are NOT cool with tattoos in any profession. I have two half-sleeves and I keep them 100% covered in the office. This leads to many extremely sweaty days at work wearing long sleeves when it's +35 out. That having been said, boys don't customarily wear tank tops to offices, so as long as you stay out of the forearm, hand, neck, or face area, I don't see why you'd have a problem.
from how-to-fight :
People are pretty cool about tattoos, these days, in almost any profession. It hasn't even hurt my stage work having a rather large back tattoo. They're pretty concealable.
from deflective :
Aw! If it makes you feel any better, those friends I'm going to be taking pictures of today aren't mine. Also, it's good to know that I'm not the only one who self-dissects. My name is Stephanie, but I respond to "???" as well. Thanks for adding me.
from trezzy :
you're probably the only other person i know who knows what an atlatl is. pee ess. in terms of methods of locomotion i wish our species swam, or flew. they seem a lot more interesting and efficient.
from trezzy :
rivet girls are hot.
from how-to-fight :
Yep! I'm sorry, I keep not getting back to you, but I really do mean to. I've been thinking about it alot. Later today, I swear I will.
from how-to-fight :
YES! We need to talk about this. Of course. I adore radio plays. Always have. Still listen to them alot.
from trezzy :
maybe i just said that to hide my shame: the shame i felt because i was addicted to that game. and the bitter sting of defeat, because i couldn't for the life of me get my cows to produce milk or my chickens to lay eggs.
from trezzy :
Which begs the question-- why would anyone want to play Harvest Moon (the farming sim)?
from trezzy :
that's a very keen observation. I agree with whoever left a note before me. And don't get me even started on people who are half human, half some other species, like Klingon. Of course there was that one episode of TNG where they explained about the archaic alien master race that seeded the galaxy with their genetic material and "guided" [sic] the evolution of life on some planets so the end result was anthropomorphic. I guess it's a more poetic explanation than "we didn't have a very big costume budget".
from tritius :
I've thought for a while that it's kind of silly that all popular sci-fi has anthropomorphic or human heroes and non-human looking/acting species as alien creatures that are not usually to be empathized with. I'd like to find someone who can make a blob of protoplasm without eyes or sound-based language a hero.
from trezzy :
I always root for the manifestation of evil.
from trezzy :
The only problem with living on a low grav world would be you'd have to exercise a lot more so your muscles wouldn't atrophy and you wouldn't lose bone density. P.S. On a world with no magnetic field, would fridge magnets not work?
from trezzy :
There's no reason to get so down when clearly we can go terraform Mars.
from katlefiya :
I think you underestimate the power of human drive and the limitlessness of technology. I can't think of any specific examples right now, but it seems every time we think we've come up with everything, we suddenly get this new burst of ideas. So right now it may seem like we're stuck exploring this little pool of technology over here, beyond the horizon is a whole ocean of possibilities. I didn't mean for that to sound so cheesily poetic, btw.
from trezzy :
OCD is often what average people call meticulousness.
from skinpacked :
Fuck! They did the same thing to me! Once we got to the top, it was, like, "That's the real mountain, ha ha ha." I almost killed someone that afternoon.
from how-to-fight :
Oh, yes, but in Natespeak personality doesn't really enter the equation.
from trezzy :
OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG!!! Nobuo Uematsu has the same birthday as you! Next year we will definitely need to celebrate not only your bday but declare it officially Nobuo Uematsu Day!!!
from trezzy :
regarding rising sea levels: if all the ice in the world melted, I figure it would cover all the land on earth. and then Kevin Costner would evolve and grow gills... and run around looking for a little girl with some kind of crazy map on her back... etc.
from trezzy :
LOL.
from trezzy :
"golem". that's like the most accurate observation ever.
from stephenbank :
I need my sister in the mouth!
from how-to-fight :
Is 'Herding Cats' based on the beat 'The Cat Dance'? I named that one.
from trezzy :
*plugs ears and rocks back and forth* nootttt lisssteenninnngggg.... nootttt lisssteenninnngggg.... don't make me cast Judgement of the Crusader on you....
from tritius :
Hehe, funnily enough I've often wished I was heterothermic so that I'd have to eat so much less. If I lived somewhere warmer it'd be alrite.
from zamblam :
Totally dope!
from how-to-fight :
It's lovely!
from zamblam :
Holy shit! Can you send me a link to that information? I've ALWAYS wondered whether I'd live to see fullscale volumetric displays in everyday life.
from katlefiya :
Ha! That Mirical is one of a kind, and everywhere.
from trezzy :
How far ol' Link has come. *wipes tear from eye*
from tritius :
Yeah. The Yanks made Khmer rouge keep existing. I was quite suprised when I found that out the other week.
from trezzy :
The Philippines has a long history of brutal subjugation by a variety of superpowers... Spain, Japan, America. The name is one thing, but there are some traditions that have very sad and awful roots. The barong (look it up on google images!) which is the traditional men's shirt for special occasions (my dad wore one to him and my mom's wedding) is see-through so the Filipinos couldn't conceal weapons from their Spanish masters and has no pockets so they couldn't steal from them. Oh and it is worn untucked because in colonial days Filipino men had to wear them untucked to identify them as second-class citizens. The practice of Kali (the indigenous martial art of the philippines) was outlawed by the spaniards; I think they were a little miffed that their firearms-bearing troops were being paralyzed, crippled and killed by short brown guys with metre-long bamboo canes. Then there's the indigenous writing system which was around for thousands of years, but the missionaries hunted it down and burned most examples of it because indigenous knowledge and history gives native peoples a dangerous sense of pride and identity . I guess the important thing is, we killed Magellan. Pee Ess I keep leaving you these crazy long winded notes.
from trezzy :
Further exposing what a nutcase I am: There's a microclimate around Creston BC that is actually subtropical. It is the warmest place we could feasibly get without going thousands of km south. (Besides in the event of the apocalypse I'm staying the hell out of the States.) Everywhere in the area, it's incredibly lush. Lots of foraging, trapping and fishing to be had. It's only about an 8-hour drive. This can be accomplished (depending on your vehicle) maybe on 3-4 tanks of gas. (Quite a few jerry cans to stash in the garage, but oh well.) You know, I feel a lot better knowing I'm not the only person I know with an "apocalypse contingency plan".
from trezzy :
2 quick things: Did you know that at points, the USSR couldn't afford to outfit its fighter pilots with G-suits, so they just didn't wear any?! Tough SOBs!! Secondly, the principle of warp drives (i.e. faster than light travel) is not that the vessel itself moves, but that it basically makes a bubble that makes the space behind it extrude and in front of it recede. Thinking about it makes my brain hurt, but I'm told the physics behind the concept are basically sound. (This is the point where you say, jeez Therese, everything always comes back to Star Trek for you, doesn't it?)
from trezzy :
Maybe we're both insane but I think about it all the time. Rather than hunting, though, I've been thinking about learning to trap and set snares-- small game seems more efficient, I wouldn't have a damn clue how to butcher a deer! And how to start a fire without matches or accelerant. The real key to survival, I think, is potatoes. They're a very hardy root crop and they're the only high quality carbohydrate that would grow here. But yeah, maybe we're both insane.
from how-to-fight :
Agreed about nubby stupid humans and cartoons. Religion isn't fucking stupid--people are.
from trezzy :
I'm guessing this is about that Danish cartoon. I'm going to go check the news now.
from how-to-fight :
At least you GET to be an old man. *grumble* If there's one thing I need it's another neurosis.
from soflown :
The micro store at the U of C is hiring. Just a thought.
from trezzy :
on a semi related note i love the fact that they named Sedna after an Inuit deity, not those boring old Greco-Roman ones.
from bluperspex :
mmm. i hear you on the government. that's why i don't vote.
from how-to-fight :
Mmkay, thanks anyway though!
from trezzy :
OMFG are you serious? When?? Where??
from trezzy :
I guess a flute would be more practical than a guitar, hey?
from trezzy :
CSI is the bomb in more ways than I could possibly explain, but the music is particularly well chosen.
from soflown :
That is pretty awesome, if I do say so myself. Surprisingly, there's a lot of good music on that show.
from trezzy :
Is that bone thing from one of the cholera churches?
from kboyer :
Sounds sort of like you're talking about popular justice, Foucault says a lot of things about it with an elegance I could never really muster. One of his historical surveys dealt with the deviations from popular justice we can see in todays judicial system. Well the whole thing seems like a deviation; judge, jury, laws, etc.
from how-to-fight :
He's auditioning? Brilliant. And by the way; that new Dismantled song is pretty catchy.
from how-to-fight :
Oh, Chris, are you still looking for a live drummer? It just occured to me that I have a really lovely friend who plays drums and likes industrial. I can talk to him, if you'd like.
from katlefiya :
Actually, I recently did get msn! katlefia <at> msn.com
from trezzy :
Me. I need to quit one of my bands first though.... sigh.
from trezzy :
they designed the 360 to be more yuppie friendly. i shit you not. since it's supposed to be a media center and not just an entertainment console for dorks, they wanted something yuppies would be proud to have in their living rooms. the xbox was all black and green and sinister looking.
from stellary :
poor metapod. always so helpless, useless, ugly, creepy, etc. ALSO. you're at 900 entries!
from miscellanity :
on the very rare occasion that i have an EMPTY day with nothing to do and nowhere to go, i always go to the airport. i just hang out. i love airports. :)
from miscellanity :
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from miscellanity :
oh no !
from trezzy :
That was a great episode. Zoidberg becomes a homeowner, lol.
from trezzy :
Can I use that as a song title? Please?
from how-to-fight :
It seems train stations would be ideal places to be confident; so little is expected of you from an outside point of view, only that you know where you're going. And in Calgary, it's usually just a choice of forward or backward.
from trezzy :
I was gonna get a tattoo of one of the Nazca Lines, but then it occurred to me that they are stupendous and beautiful and mysterious when drawn over hundreds of acres of land, and would probably look like a wobbly bunch of random scribbles when tattooed on me.
from trezzy :
I like Gizmo way better.
from kboyer :
What do you need silkscreened?
from katlefiya :
Yeah, the space battle rocked! I do have msn [email protected] I think, but I don't use it these days. Or at least, I won't until I've set up my wireless internet. which will hopefully be soon.
from trezzy :
the GNP of general motors was greater than that of the country of Poland last year. how fucked is that?
from trezzy :
ATI. A Sapphire ATI Radeon X550 to be exact. A steal for $100 at memory express. It probably wouldn't run Doom 3 very well tho.
from tritius :
Agreed on all counts. I'd like to try tuning a shopping cart to have it be more than just percussion.
from miscellanity :
you rule.
from trezzy :
you just said "wavicles". w00t.
from kboyer :
CHRIS, I have a QUESTION I would like to ASK you.
from kboyer :
I think the controller looks amazing!
from katlefiya :
The computer game company. The one in Edmonton.
from trezzy :
someday you may need to teach me to like DS9.
from trezzy :
yo, that was my all time favourite entry. bipedal locomotion is totally for chumps. furthermore, are you feeling any better? i know you were having a rough night last night so i didn't want to bother you.
from tritius :
I've always kind of liked the idea of returning to nature via whichever process, either getting lost in the woods, drowning in the ocean or just being made into fertilizer, and I kind of wanted to be thrown into a tornado, but with comparitively few organs on the market, your idea seems a bit better.
from katlefiya :
Me too! 53 days! Are you going to dress up?
from trezzy :
we had a mouse problem at my parents' house, we were tipped off to it by the skittering and scratching in the walls. as soon as it happened, my European dad went all medieval Old World mouse hunting master. I think he caught like 34 by the time they were done. if you start hearing some you have to get on it before they start breeding like crazy. personally i think the best solution is to get a cat.
from skinpacked :
How long are you going to be? I'm very hungry.
from tritius :
The other day, my buddy Steve said the Green Bullet looked kind of abrubt and awkward with the base. I've tried really hard but I can't help but feel a bit inclined to agree with him. Other people complained about the sound it had, not as incline to care/agree. Regardless I'm glad that it's old.
from polycount :
I definitely want some solar panels for when I have my own place. The guy behind modern books explaining Falun Dafa believes that aliens are making us as dependent as possible on technology. It makes perfect sense to me!
from trezzy :
that sounds really rad.
from im-a-cloud :
okay.. What station and what time is this show on? I have to hear this shit for myself!
from trezzy :
Best morning ever. I particularly love the cheesy midi version of a cello sound in Gau's theme.
from stellary :
right! that may be a toughie. I don't know if my hands can take on those octaves, but I will try!
from stellary :
okay. I can already play tetris fairly decently. which world 1-2? from which game, that is...
from skinpacked :
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
from trezzy :
it's only the advent of the internet that made everyone realize how illiterate we all truly are. pee ess i remember being seven years old and seeing my schoolbus driver put up a big sign at the end of the year that said "Thank's for being great kid's." It haunts me to this day.
from bluperspex :
mmm... aliens... yeah that would work. even better if one of them came rupturing through my bosses stomach. that. would deffinately work.
from manacrystal :
It's definitely all about this constructed sense of COMPETITION, which is instilled in pretty much every human at some point. Everyone is made to feel a responsibility to be their own person, do things for themselves, stand on their own feet, etc. If you only rely on yourself, it's harder for the actions of others to affect you negatively and I think people have, for some reason, a desire to be "strong" and that goes hand in hand with surviving on your own. That seems pretty ridiculous to me though, sometimes my mood can really be affected by other people and I see it as a double-edged sword. While every individual human prioritizes for themself, no one is an island (as you said), people are generally happier when they can share that happiness (and sadness and any other human condition) with other people. I dont understand why people think striving for isolation is a strength.
from trezzy :
in the philippines there's no nursing homes. NO NURSING HOMES. they just simply don't exist, because it's an elderly person's right to be waited on by their family in their old age. The elderly, and children as well, are treasured and cherished, which I think is the complete opposite of North America, where the only people anyone gives a damn about are the ones in their peak years of economic productivity. While I think this aspect of Filipino culture is beautiful, it's far from perfect. my grandma is 75, which is, oh, 20 years older than the average life expectancy for a woman in the Philippines, and she basically treats my mom like a combination servant/chauffeur/machine that coughs up money whenever she needs a new tailor-made party dress. Oh well. But I agree 100% on individualism being overrated. I have been accused by some of my friends of being "family-whipped", i.e., how at age 22, I'd call home if I was going to be out all night, and how my family's opinion of my friends, BFs, and life choices did (and still very much does) carry a lot more weight with me than the average North American kid. But I wouldn't have it any other way. And I think the overwhelming sense of alienation and estrangement from other humans is responsible for a great many social problems these days. But now this note is getting long and rambly so I'll shut up.
from trezzy :
when The Enigma tells you to do something, brother, you fucking do it.
from trezzy :
Dude, it's all about D&D: Tower of Doom and D&D: Shadows over Mystara. Back in the days before MAMEs I must've spent hundreds of dollars' worth of quarters on those stupid games. Pee Ess, I left the last four notes. I hope I'm not too stalkery.
from trezzy :
Not all cities are malevolent. There's a town in Switzerland called Davos which was probably the most welcoming-looking place i've seen on the planet. I swear the buildings were made out of frickin' gingerbread. But I guess that's the difference between urban North America and the European countryside.
from trezzy :
Or Napoleon farting. Actually, that one's easy.
from trezzy :
suddenly overwhelmed by an unbearable urge to play shadowrun. or read william gibson. either's good, but i lean towards shadowrun because a combination of elves dragons and magic, AND cyberpunk, is like this delicious irresistible cocktail of awesome.
from im-a-cloud :
*Bows* Doesn't it drive you nuts? I don't mind the debate, just don't be misinformed when debating me!
from trezzy :
the only way that could possibly get nerdier, would be if someone decided to LARP it.
from trezzy :
I guess that hadn't even occurred to me. why, you ask? because I LOVE boys with hairy chests. nothing like a little fur to run your fingers through and rub your face against! ...but then, i can admire pretty much any type, shape, size, colour or configuration of body.
from stellary :
I haven't even heard of it!
from stellary :
I figure if I don't get a Mac I'll do the custom-building thing. it seems like the next best way.
from xjerkfacex :
Oh, yeah, I know that there's proof of the existence of dark matter through its effects on other things (gravitational pulls being the best example), but I just figured that it was pretty unchartered territories scientifically. I was thinking about the matter that gives up no light thing, and, yeah, I guess that does make sense for that to be what would be the existence of dark matter.
from xjerkfacex :
I wasn't sure that there was that much knowledge on what makes dark matter up, and that it was pretty much purely theoretical.
from manacrystal :
That's fucking sad. It's terrible stuff that like this happens. <3
from miscellanity :
oh man. i'm so sorry to hear that. high school is fucking horrible. i'll earn advanced university degrees in my lifetime, but graduating high school will be my single greatest achievement. looking back, i can't believe i got through it. then again, i likely had it comparatively easy. take care.
from trezzy :
i'm sorry, chris, i hope yours and the girl's families pull through ok.
from im-a-cloud :
Olduvai Gorge is in East Africa. They've found many a fossil of early hominins there, such as Homo Erectus and the likes. It proves that humans originated in Africa.
from theyknow :
Hey, do you mind if I plug the April 1st HE show on DarkAlberta? I know I wasn't asked or anything (and I don't think any of the other acts would really appeal to that crowd). I just think that music is cool and I want to get more people who may be interested in that sort of thing to come along. Good/bad idea?
from miscellanity :
i don't fear pain, but i do fear SUFFERING, and that sort of out-of-control overwhelming helpless ANGUISH. hah. oh happy day. :)
from putmedown :
*faints* god you're lucky.. i effin love that city! i'll be there in march. xo
from trezzy :
I always thought that if the resources funneled into maintaining the status quo were instead put into, oh i don't know, PROGRESS, we'd all live in some kind of magical space utopia of peace and love and hydrogen fueled hover-cars. Planned obsolescence is the worst idea ever.
from im-a-cloud :
Like in Olduvai Gorge?
from theyknow :
I like that I'm reminded that this world isn't completlely mundane when I read your diary. Although, if all of the technologies you speak of ever became possible, wouldn't that increase self esteem issues for a lot of people? I'd just imagine that there would likely be a whole class of people who wouldn't have access to the technology you speak of. Although, it is neat to think of what that might be like. Goodnight.
from trezzy :
Cosey Fannie Tutti has been one of my greatest heroes, my entire life.
from pinds :
What about Heidegger? Keirkeggard? Nietzsche?
from im-a-cloud :
I'm sorry to hear about your mom. I hope you have a good Christmas though. (By the way, I always thought the same thing about turbulence; I thought I was the only one).
from im-a-cloud :
where are you going?
from lwnpartyrebl :
sounds good to me!
from xjerkfacex :
A lot of soccer stadiums, when they were standing only, held much more than that. For example, Azteka stadium in Mexico, or the Camp Nou in Barcelona.
from im-a-cloud :
all hope
from stellary :
every time I come across it at a rental place or store I think "I really have to play that game soon" and then I think "Chris McEwen is really rad".
from im-a-cloud :
And before those tribes we lived in trees!
from im-a-cloud :
God I hope not. We're not adapted to the lifestyles we live. Frankly, our civilizations evolved much faster than our bodies have and I hope one day we'll destroy our way of life so we can go back to living in small tribes, working 10 hours a month.
from trezzy :
guess who's a futureshop employee now... and gets all PC and console games for cost + 10.
from lwnpartyrebl :
thanks! i've already summed up my results for the paper i have to write.... but it's awesome to have a larger sample for interest sake!
from im-a-cloud :
What was?
from antistar- :
gotta love futurama
from trezzy :
Pee Ess. YOU SAW THAT EPISODE TOO? HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
from trezzy :
Yes, Ian is correct. I never wear it so you may have it.
from unarmed :
Dude, that's totally Therese's shirt. I'm assuming you can have it if you want. ;)
from lwnpartyrebl :
i've often thought the same things about cars and being bipedial. the world is weird hey?
from im-a-cloud :
Autistic savant is more correctly (politically) known as Savant Syndrome. And Austistic people are not "unintellegent" but they just have developmental disabilities in the area of social interaction and communication. And most of the skills that you mentioned are only found in about ten percent of people afflicted with Autism.
from tritius :
I'm pretty sure they have the same (potential?) problem there as they do in many post-colonial countries made of different nations, in that defining borders fairly is very difficult and could end up being as arbitary as when whichever imperial power decided to put three distinct peoples in the same country. Making permanent boarders would cause more War. It's not as if India and Pakistan are on the best terms. I dunno, just an idea.
from manacrystal :
That show is awesome, people aren't put into nearly enough situations in which they actually have to deal with fear. And I believe that movie is called "The Game".
from im-a-cloud :
Hey.. that game rocked.
from kilowatt :
In a random twist of fate, I discovered your dairy. I appreciate and admire the aesthetics of your layout. Additionally, your writing style is delightful and very entertaining.
from asper-gen :
Hey. Anyone who loves industrial is immediately in my good books by default, not to mention that I had a quick flip through your writing and I liked what I read, so I'm gonna add you to my fav list in order to read more of it in the future...
from trezzy :
Thank you! By the way, there is only one L.
from im-a-cloud :
Hey, the next time you see Kirsten, throw a hi to her for me, kay?
from trezzy :
I have definitely worn out many pairs of pants. Then I turned 21 and got too fat for all my pants.
from manacrystal :
I have an old sound card or two lying around, I think at least Adlib/Sound Blaster 16 compatible.
from thecomputer :
Ahh yeah I forgot about that! When I was writing that I didn't have your parties in mind, as they're pretty much the only ones where everyone stays sober. I was thinking about everyone in Riley Park, or any other gathering really. It all just revolves around the substances, and your parties are more fun because they revolve around the people.
from im-a-cloud :
Isn't it cool? And the fact you knew exactly who I was talking about! Wicked.
from im-a-cloud :
I worked with a girl who knew who you were.
from skinpacked :
Turns out that the $45 gloves they charged me $80 for are also USED. That's so cool.
from trezzy :
8000 years ago, there was a city in what is now Turkey, called Catal Huyuk. Well, that's what we call it, who knows what they call it. Their doors were in their roofs, and their dead were stripped of flesh and buried in the living room. Painted and carved on the walls of Catal Huyuk was... Catal Huyuk. Like, a landscape of it. The first ever known instance of landscape in prehistoric art (before that, it was people and animals with no background). The first known city springs into existence, and it becomes aware of itself, and immortalizes itself within itself.
from confrere :
Nice template.
from trezzy :
If it ain't got big jugs, I ain't playing it. Hyuck-hyuck. ;)
from trezzy :
prince of persia? not sure about the 2nd one tho.
from sourcandies :
when did you change the picture on here?
from stellary :
oh, no. I'm absolutely NOT moving back to edmonton, but I have to find somewhere else to live in Calgary.
from trezzy :
have you ever read "ender's game" by orson scott card?
from trezzy :
maybe i won't stick with it. who knows. i'm just mad right now.
from theyknow :
those venus flytraps are cute. they seem so excited to be alive.
from miscellanity :
don't! :)
from miscellanity :
hey i came up to you at the show and you didn't recognize me! this is understandable because i am utterly unrecognize-able with my changed hairstyle. you were with some guy who looked like nutsagz with mirrory cop-glasses? heh.
from trezzy :
the band that opened for the human marvels... i know those dudes from elementary school. next time you're online i'll tell you a funny story about them.
from trezzy :
i think it's very important that people in the first world go to places that aren't the first world. after being hounded by preteen crossdressing street beggars in Manila and seeing the cardboard boxes they live in, or buying chewing gum from juvenile amputees in Tijuana, suddenly you gain a whole new perspective on your life and your "problems".
from im-a-cloud :
We're hardwired to love children because they're our offspring. Children are the reason the human race will live on. We're here for only one reason and that's to reproduce and take over the world. If we don't reproduce or if all our children die (by being hit by speeding cars by playgrounds for instance)then the human race dies out. To protect the stupid reckless things that are kids is instinctual.
from trezzy :
My dad has a backpack from his days in the Swiss Army. It's 30 years old, and still in better shape than anything I have. Also: my uncle, the Singapore Airlines pilot, has a pair of sandals that were made from used tires by prison inmates. He got them for the equivalent of 50 cents and he's been wearing them for like 15 years. I admire people who ignore the siren song of consumerism.
from lwnpartyrebl :
at the island that i go to, there is no electricity. no streetlights, no pavement. if your flashlight burns out you had better hope that you know the path well, or you follow the line of stars that is made by the parting trees. if you wanted, you could live there, on your own. there is a clean spring and lots of vegetation, and shellfish. its always been my backup when i feel i might get too frustrated with civilization.i think one year, we should get a bunch of people together on a challenge there. we could bring camping gear and some vitamins and minimal food supplies (e.g. rice) and see how long we last!
from trezzy :
I've often dreamed of the end of civilization and a return to the state of nature. Unfortunately, without civilization to provide me with powerful prescription lenses to combat my severe myopia, in a state of nature, I'd be totally fucked and incapable of fending for myself. Plus I'm afraid it would turn into Fallout-style anarchy. (If you haven't yet played the Fallout games I highly recommend them.)
from janet-nadine :
Hello! So, I know that you wanted to have a zombie march sometime this summer, but I was thinking that it would be really opportune if we got together for the next home Flames game and went to 17th. I know that a lot of people are interested. And it would be really hilarious to terrorize drunk fans!
from putmedown :
prince ali, fabulous he! ali ababwa...
from trezzy :
Let's not be too hasty. Still, I think he's rather tasty.
from trezzy :
It makes perfect sense if you think about it. Being alternative gives us everything that a "real" culture would. Unique apparel, rites of passage, dietary restrictions/alcohol prohibitions for some, even a unique dialect. But mainly and most importantly, a sense of belonging and a building block to shore up our identity with.
from trezzy :
For instance, how many of the crew of the starship Enterprise have laid down their lives in the line of duty? ...Sorry, had to get that one out.
from manacrystal :
"The Xinhua News Agency in China reported the development of a new male birth control method in 1987. According to the report, it has proven to be 99 percent effection on 10 000 treated patients, with no reported side effects. The spermatic duct is blocked by an injection of elastic polyurethane. This procedure is easily reversed." -Biology Directions Why don't we have this 14 years after it's development? Most likely due to North America(America) being too proud to accept anything from a country associated with Communism. Fuck.
from stephenbank :
false
from katlefiya :
We shall see....
from whenyouare :
We shall most definately find a day you can come.
from whenyouare :
Wanna go to a piano/keyboard museum with me and Dave?
from trezzy :
As far as I know, if you print in HTML, then the address being printed along with it is something you're going to have to live with. An alternate solution: Upload your resume in .doc format and include a link to it on the html one. Newer browsers can read .docs just like they do html, and it'll solve your printing problems.
from trezzy :
Senor Schindler es bueno. Senor Burns es el diablo.
from kboyer :
Apparently being able to dream in another language is the final step to mastering it.
from katlefiya :
Cats are the soul-friends of cat-people.
from trezzy :
oh jeebus you saw that commercial too??? how the fuck can some sort of institution promote adultery???????
from manacrystal :
christ!
from manacrystal :
I've read a lot of that guy's stuff! apparently he was in calgary last year or something, it's totally awesome.
from thecomputer :
yesterday like 5 people talked to me about Krispy Kreme within about half an hour, and they were all 'I'm eating Krispy Kreme right now and it's so good!''I just had 6 Krispy Kreme in 10 minutes!' etc. So now I decided I never want to eat the stuff. I mean, it's not like they tell me about when they're eating a sandwich so I don't see why I need to know that they're eating fad donuts.
from im-a-cloud :
Heya. Just thought I'd drop you a Happy Birthday! I remembered cause it's spring. Oh! Happy spring too! yay.. spring..
from christinam :
My play is Saturday march 6th at eight. 1703-1st NW Info: 276-1657. In case you would like to see.
from stellary :
the birthday party plans excite me. !!!
from dork-wad :
thankyou for not freaking out on me on saturday. it was nice to see you.
from christinam :
what kind of tatoo? I hope the show went well on Sunday, thank you so much. sweet dreams.:)
from donotwanthis :
...i was in airdrie...didn't see you...oh well.
from jinx1 :
I am also in love with the idea of annexing them. Do you know why the mulloony gov't rejected the thought?
from manacrystal :
I've been to the Turks and Caicos, probably in 1992 I think. From what I remember, it was a neat place, I got sunburnt all over my body and the doctor told my parents I could have skin cancer. Yay!
from whenyouare :
Teeth falling out in a dream often means you regret something you said/didn't say.
from nightradio :
:)
from booz :
and who might you be? and how do you know my name?
from lwnpartyrebl :
hey, i'd like to teach you about firearms, except that i don't have a license, and there is nowhere that i could do that where it would be legal. maybe one day we should go to the range, they let you use any gun you want for free, (you have to pay for ammo, and entrance) and one of the employees will teach you, and watch us(they are required to do that if neither one of us has a license). i had been thinking about having a group trip over there soon, because there have been lots of people who wanted to go shooting with me, and i sorta expected to have my license by now.
from nessus :
I'll probably be there. I am most weeks.
from soflown :
I haven't checked my notes in awhile, so next Wed (the 26th?), maybe I'll try to go. But I'll give you a call.
from manacrystal :
Strong nuclear force is the force that overcomes the repulsion caused by the similar charges within the nucleus of an atom. Otherwise every nucleus in every atom would repel apart and life could not exist. So Strong Nuclear Force is the name we give to this anomaly; that for some reason nuclei retain binding specific forms.
from tritius :
I hope you have ridiculous fun tonight..
from cinda-rella :
half the time i havent even the slighest clue what youre writing about. i like it.
from whenyouare :
It sure is!!! Are you gonna come?
from imajoke :
I love that entry.
from putmedown :
track listing: monochrome, call the ships to port, bullet, invisibe & silent, prometheus, we stand alone, rising sun, winter comes, we want revolution, scared, and atlas.
from im-a-cloud :
Thank you for the note. It meant a lot to me. Sorry it took me so long to respond.. :}
from downtodie :
You must be the hottest thing since toast. I love teagan and sara. The kids always make fun too. *shakes fists at the kids*
from soflown :
You want to go to Machine sometime? I would like to get to know you again.
from xskinpackx :
Imagine my surprise to finally notice that Karl Mohr was responsible for the electronics on Tegan & Sara's This Business of Art. But I still don't like that lame Four Seasons rendition.
from trezzy :
we are currently on hiatus. i didn't know you worked there. are you hiring?
from im-a-cloud :
You know what? I don't know if I told you already, but my uncle knows one of the guys from KMFDM. I forget his name.. My cousin knows him too now. I should ask.
from trezzy :
who's your manager?
from whenyouare :
If I were in Calgary, you'd be with me. I don't like you being alone on Christmas.
from trezzy :
hares run through my neighbourhood all the time because i live near nosehill park. i see them far less in the daytime. actually now that i think of it, i almost got in a head-on collision a few days ago because i slammed on my brakes to avoid hitting a hare with a particularly lax sense of self preservation, slid on some ice, and just barely missed a pickup truck.
from putmedown :
whenever i see bunnies dart across the road, or the sidewalk, or anything at night.. i let out a delighted shriek! every time. animals turn me into a shrill, irritating excuse for a female.
from pinds :
I'm in town. We must (MUST!) see eachother at least once.
from whenyouare :
I get that feeling. Catgut, computer code, what have you.
from im-a-cloud :
Hey you. I rarely come online anymore since I'm never here.. But whenever I read your entries they still seem so sad. Here's a bit of advice.. It doesn't matter how you alter your appearance or how much you spend on clothes.. Actually.. It does. The more you spend the less people like you. It just makes you out to be shallow and needy. No personal offense. Just be yourself. You're a cool guy. You really have nothing to worry about.. I guess you just need to boost your self-confidence, and the clothes, the hair cuts, the dye jobs.. They're not going to work because they obviously haven't been.
from x-y :
this diary so far seems stark and tragic. you're damn right i'll be back.
from putmedown :
i'm a tragic hero in this thing called life, my changes go to zero but i always will survive!!
from thecomputer :
you have a brilliant mind chris. absolutely brilliant.
from donotwanthis :
..mine came pretty close...I mean, we're zombies now.
from zamblam :
I know sometimes you make music that you REALLY want someone to hear, because you know (or at least really hope) that it will stir something deep inside them - or at least make them relax and think about something other than the daytodayshit for a couple of minutes. But, i think there's merit in making music for yourself - it's liberating - sort of like writing a book that you have no intention of publishing. A very personal thing.
from imajoke :
I don't ever know if you care that I care.
from miscellanity :
nope
from christinam :
you are not
from miscellanity :
you have the coolest dreams. i mean they seem super-vivid and horrible, but cool when i get to read about them and don't have to dream them myself. take care.
from xjerkfacex :
Mine does.
from sarahford :
yes. tis lyrics.
from imajoke :
I care. A lot.
from okradio :
I'm a Heather Laird, again. =/
from kboyer :
Me neither buddy, but at least we understand the new Matrix. WE because it was a group effort.
from manacrystal :
That's such a fucking brilliant song.
from nowait :
You can send the images to [email protected].
from nowait :
I work on a by-donation basis if you're not a "client". Whatever you want to pay over, say, $5. If you have a t-shirt you want to use already, so much the better. I don't really know what size you'd want but I'll probably be buying sizes that fit me and then maybe a size up.
from nowait :
Of course! And you're in luck too, I'm buying some cheap/nice ones this weekend hopefully.
from tritius :
Seriously though, what do the money dreams mean?
from miscellanity :
that's effin' awesome. (do guys actually do that??)
from dork-wad :
hi chris
from ripvanfish :
I've always enjoyed those long conversations. You are a great thinker.
from xjerkfacex :
Someone didn't get a ticket to go on the C-train!
from tritius :
I have alot of dreams where I find coins. I wonder what it means.
from cinda-rella :
Dear Chris: You owe me a hat. -xo
from putmedown :
yay you get your boots! finally!! that's so rad hun
from trezzy :
Best Concrete Blonde album, too.
from trezzy :
I do love that Heinlein quote. Too bad he was a totalitarian fascist asshole.
from trezzy :
I work 7 to 3:30, Tues-Sat. Location is not an issue since I have an automobile. You?
from manacrystal :
I find you radical.
from punkinqueen :
It won't give up, it wants me dead. Goddamn this noise inside my head...
from trezzy :
you name the time and place, yo. :)
from zamblam :
Yea I know, what the fucks' up with that? And also they keep the Batmobile in a BARN... A FUCKING BARN!
from trezzy :
i actually find that moderate alcohol consumption can serve to liberate one from the shackles of societal mechanisms as opposed to binding one more tightly into them. for instance, after having a beer i stop thinking "does this make me look fat? am i acting stupid? do these people like me? do i fit in here?" and start thinking "i think i'm going to go talk to that cute boy over there in the Wumpscut t-shirt." that having been said, after reading your latest entry i felt like a big jerkass and i hung my head in shame for like 20 minutes straight.
from imisstheusa :
Saw that you read Anne Rice so I figured I should just leave you a note to say that is definitely chill. I am totally obsessed with her books, really dorky I know. If you or anyother Atheist Anne Rice fans you know wanna chat somtime that'd be cool. Look me up, I'm a new "memeber" here. lol. Bisous
from kryptress :
Y'know...you mentioned something about not knowing what's appropriate and what's not. Maybe ya shouldn't give so much thought as to what other people think. If people don't like what you gotta say out loud and forthcomming than maybe they shouldn't have bothered to begin with. You're a gem. A fucking Gem Chris. Hell, I'd be lucky to have you if you liked me back... but go gettem tiger! You've got a great voice and vision when you direct them. By this, I mean, when you let them out of your mouth once in awhile and share.
from trezzy :
have a drink or two. you'll notice your social skills will improve immeasurably. or, your ability to go up and start randomly talking to people, which in my opinion, constitutes 90% of what social skills really are.
from punkinqueen :
...I think it's getting better for the two of us Yes I think it's getting better almost everyday.
from http :
Re: splitting a brain completely in half: http://www.uncc.edu/psychology/UJOP/UJOP%201999/Boppel%201999.html
from punkinqueen :
chancha!?!? ha! at least I got to watch you burn your nose with a piece of gum, you deserved it!
from imajoke :
Can I help your feeling of badness go away?
from miscellanity :
dear chris. please send me an email to [email protected] and tell me your mailing address. i would like to write you a letter. unless, of course, you find this all to be just too creepy- which i'm hoping you won't. thank you.
from imajoke :
Girls = suck.
from im-a-cloud :
Jesus. What the hell happened?
from miscellanity :
nope.
from whenyouare :
I've always thought you were pretty damn cute. Short list: The Maytals, Jimmy Cliff, Desmond Dekker.
from punkinqueen :
...I like you, it means absolutely nothing. You are not repulsive.
from miscellanity :
because girls suck and you don't.
from miscellanity :
what have you been thinking about?
from nutsaqz :
The world is ending.
from imajoke :
???
from lwnpartyrebl :
hi. come to my party on the 27th.
from putmedown :
if me spending nearly every day in tears means i'm happy.. then yep, holy crap i'm happy!! (except not)
from imajoke :
I'd love to see you in a band
from tritius :
also, I'm sure someone has called guru gay.
from tritius :
all we need to do is get markus sad about girls and everything we play will be hyperbole..
from pinds :
I miss you.
from im-a-cloud :
Downtown's such a great show. I used to watch it all the time, but they only ever played five different episodes. Stupid YTV.
from http :
Hello from Victoria; things are very strange here. I don't know very many people and I'm spending most of my time in my little office reading about the phonetic alphabet, etc. I hope Calgary is reasonable and pleasant.
from ripvanfish :
ahaha, yeah. I actually just found out about that the other day. and OHH!! the University bookstore sells a calendar that has a funny Dubya quote for each day of 2004. (best calendar ever!)
from cinda-rella :
Apparently Johnny (sp?) Cash also died. Wtf. I just saw John Ritter on Canadian Idol.
from imajoke :
Hey you. See you tomorrow you. When is movie night?!
from ripvanfish :
Funny how you and I never seem to be able to coordinate our moods. When one's happy, the other's sad. It's unfortunate. I wish we could just both be happy. And in my case, I also wish I was not currently hungry. Urrg....
from whenyouare :
I'll always be really fuckin' fond of you, remember that.
from kboyer :
Ooooh burn!
from ericnic :
the cool one with cool glasses and cool everything.
from dork-wad :
well, that makes sense. but donald really likes you, and i really like donald. i always find myself observinging you when i see you. like at millenium on canada day, or the emo show recently when you had your head in your hands and that dog went straight towards you.
from ericnic :
tell me, why did you have to go and make things so complicated?
from dork-wad :
i totally own american beauty. i watched it last night for the 89th time. i always say hi to you but you never acknowledge.
from imajoke :
The book!
from soflown :
maybe we should hang out sometime.
from xskinpackx :
Babyland.
from im-a-cloud :
It's the fires in Okotokes. They make the sun look like it's dieing. The moon is a sickly yellow and the stars are red. It's beautiful though.. You can stare at the sun and it doesn't hurt your eyes.
from im-a-cloud :
Um.. Christina Ricci? I'm a bit confused..
from manacrystal :
i said hello to a tricuspid valve.
from im-a-cloud :
And sorry about jetting so fast.. I was just leaving to go to the doctor.
from im-a-cloud :
It'll never fly again.
from imajoke :
I was looking for someone to talk to one the phone this morning, but no one gets up early now adays.
from xskinpackx :
And by "in-your-face" I mean "dynamic" but I didn't want to use the word twice in one sentence, see.
from xskinpackx :
What would be cool is if you were to swing by sometime as so we could drop each individual track of the .XM into Cubase and mix them in 24Bit and upwards of 94Khz. Access to Cubase's VST dynamics and effects would result in a much more in-your-face sound. Also, we would be able to control panning and equalization of individual tracks for the sake of finding room for the vocals to sit.
from xskinpackx :
That's pretty hip. I haven't given it a listen on my monitors yet, but it sounds good regardless. The Plasticity-style vocals were accomplished by vocoding numerous layers of a single recording upon itself. We could try something like that [the MicroKorg features a vocoding preset that resembles Plasticity's vocals... I think I played it for you] but I really need to pick up a new mic. I intend on doing so soon. Really.
from xskinpackx :
Bookkeeping.
from putmedown :
family tree, eh? YOU BETTER BE SCOTTISH
from miscellanity :
sometimes i think that too- if my appearance became more specifically representative of who i am and my personality/interests/morals were more visible, then (in addition to the personal feeling of satisfaction and self-expression that comes from body modification) people would understand me more easily. other people might start making the first move rather than the other way around. i think it's totally reasonable, but super expensive. and i always tell myself it's a cop-out, the easy way, but playing hard to get is often lonely. take care.
from ripvanfish :
That piano music that played during the King's part of the cinemanimation? I thought it was absolutely beautiful.
from imajoke :
Make an ice jacket.
from ripvanfish :
at work we have this book that has listings of all the known ghost towns in BC. I read through them all in fascination the other day. Let's go explore ghost towns, shall we?
from pinds :
And here I always thought it was "definately"
from justmouse :
you remind me so much of a friend i used to have.
from im-a-cloud :
what's a hangabber?
from tritius :
I quite enjoy "The secret police".
from im-a-cloud :
Thanks; simple's good no? I've found that the main reason a person will become offended in a religious discussion is if you're trying to convince them your beliefs are the right ones, and theirs are wrong. But I often worry about offending people too, because I sometimes come across as cynical if not open minded.
from katlefiya :
Is there any way that I can help or get involved with the bringing-michael-moore-to-calgary thing? Also, would you like to go out for coffee sometime soon after I get back to Canada?
from hedoniste :
Indeed, that's me. In the end I spent the money I was going to spend on an old Dr. Rhthym on a saxophone rental. Probably for the best I'd say.
from putmedown :
i think i'm going to investigate you being wonderful. YEAUP! sounds good to me. xoxoxo
from cinda-rella :
Llama
from manacrystal :
You're an awesome guy, Chris.
from lancesroom :
Very unique knowledge from a 20 something like yourself.
from trezzy :
i was always partial to hieronymus bosch's signature two-headed herons. i was thinking about getting a tattoo of one.
from xskinpackx :
I was skeptical of it at first, and while listening to it, Mike and I got into this really stupid argument over what DHR is [I maintain that ATR are the only true digital hardcore band, but meh!], but I was really quite enjoying it once the ball got rolling. Yeah. I'll have a disc for you on Thursday.
from christinam :
one day until i see you next :)
from xskinpackx :
You heard me. Whaile.
from xskinpackx :
Oh fuck, dude... Have you this band called Mad Capsule Markets? They are this Japanese Punk/Digital Hardcore/EBM band [distorted vocals, live guitars, live drums, sampled breakbeats, and TR-909/TB-303 action] that Mike dug up whaile in Europe. He has a copy of their most recent disc and it's absolutely stellar. I'm getting two burns of it on Monday--one for me and one for you. I think you'll dig it assuming you haven't heard it already.
from trezzy :
seems i owe you a "thank you". :)
from whenyouare :
OH MAN IT'S CHRIS AKA NESSUS HOW IS THIS CRAZY FELLOW DOING!!?!??!!?!???!!!??!!?!?!!???
from jadewolf99 :
dude you're hot!!!!!!!!!
from othelladub :
black t-shirts are cool
from pointydance :
dood you look so badass. like billy fucking idol or something.
from xskinpackx :
LEEB
from im-a-cloud :
Don't be an ass.
from xjerkfacex :
The Dreamcast was originally codenamed Katana. That is all.
from im-a-cloud :
Huh? Charlie's Angels? I'm confused...
from trezzy :
confidence is sort of like "arrogance lite" (diet arrogance, if you will) and skill is a function of repetition. and if you're lacking, it's only in the former... and there's no good reason why. still. you'd be amazed at how much your note brightened my day, and i thank you.
from ripvanfish :
Hey, I saw that cartoon. It was in our newspaper today.
from im-a-cloud :
Okay
from nowait :
I'll explain the process to you if you want! It's sort of like making microchips actually. Same principle.
from nowait :
I'd rather scan them myself, if that's alright... That way there's no compression invovled in transferring them over the internet and I can borrow the albums to actually hear what they sound like, because I've never *knowingly* listened to ATR before.
from manacrystal :
Wow, fucked up.
from manacrystal :
I always have dreams like that. I'm the only person left and everyone else is secretly something in disguise. Then I find out they aren't who they say they are and no one else believes me. Then something totally unrelated and unimportant takes up the rest of the dream.
from katlefiya :
Unfortunately, I do not believe that the fabulous Blixa was there, no.
from trezzy :
Oh, I agree. And the whole "every girl needs makeup, contact lenses, and a man in order for her life to be complete" aesthetic. Still, being a member of a large, loud, weird ethnic family, I can relate to a lot of it.
from quiettown :
Chris. It's Jeffrey. Can we do something soon?
from manacrystal :
Word, Chris. Word.
from miscellanity :
i hope your car is okay. mine has hurt feelings.
from trezzy :
which aesthetic? pee ess, i like baklava.
from themark-up :
what reminds you of the simpsons? How are you?
from putmedown :
haha except that i'm not... *pfft*
from manacrystal :
I felt like I was in on something important but it was just Earthbound. Ah well. Do you also feel like some sort of reptile shedding it's skin and being somewhat repulsed by the shell it once was? Or is that just me?
from manacrystal :
Here's to learning things and Earthbound references.
from putmedown :
*hug* i'm sorry baby... xoxoxo
from im-a-cloud :
I'm sorry to hear about your gerbil.. Are you sure she's dieing? Which one is it?
from tritius :
They speak spanish in Peru, a good friend of mine was spanish when i was little, last time i passed him on the street we pretended not see eachother.
from ripvanfish :
hehe....Domo-Kun!!
from nessus :
Actually we were having problems getting Brett's vocals loud enough for the Buzzing Bees set. We're still not sure what happened. But FPZ and the failure. sounded amazing, in my opinion.
from pinds :
Christopher = Cute!
from kboyer :
It was good to see you Chris! Though I thought there was too much feedback when the Bees played but I'm just a prick so pay no mind.
from manacrystal :
great entry, this tapestry is decaying faster than it is being formed, but for a moment there is such incredible beauty that it's all worthwhile.
from trezzy :
"nerdy woman" song = genius. i applaud you.
from nessus :
Well I figured the video game thing might be pushing it.
from manacrystal :
and a girl who can talk about video games for 38748374 hours straight.
from trezzy :
hey, i'm all those things. except i drink occasionally. oh, and my style isn't especially unique.
from im-a-cloud :
You are who you love, not who loves you.
from iloveme13 :
wow that's crazzy putting up your phone number like that but ok cool. whatever. BEWARE OF THE CHOCOLATE MILKSHAKES!
from iloveme13 :
wow that's crazzy putting up your phone number like that but ok cool. whatever. BEWARE OF THE CHOCOLATE MILKSHAKES!
from tritius :
"So I broke his neck with my legs and kept walking to the front of the bus." Tight.
from christinam :
you should have called me, i should have been there i'm very sorry... i'm so sorry
from manacrystal :
$15?? That's harsh, you should've busted some kneecaps.
from zamblam :
Perfectly reasonable conditions
from anti-gens :
i.m really really happy right now. and for whatever reason, i thought that might make you smile. just to read that at somepoint sunday night/monday morning i was elated.
from zamblam :
Captain Star was certainly a good show. My favorite was the one with the carpet/rug thingies that hypnotized them to shampoo them.
from manacrystal :
I loved Captain Star. The plots for each episode were funny and unique. They always had the ambient low tonal music that just set it up perfectly.
from ripvanfish :
I love stir-fry!!! Chicken stir-fry...mmm... peaess; I am not a Commie!
from trezzy :
i have "the book of d'ni". just can't seem to get into it for some reason.
from mais-oui :
you really should.
from im-a-cloud :
Are you happy?
from mais-oui :
"and no one applaudes." brilliant, chris.
from xskinpackx :
Yeah. Givey.
from xskinpackx :
I don't have my MSN set up so I'll ask you here--Would you be interested in starring in Bioptik? We want you to play the role of the Ghost. He's a bad-ass and stabs things. I'll givey you the lowdown on the film sometime soon.
from im-a-cloud :
Just thought I'd leave you a note for no particular reason. NOTE!
from manacrystal :
A COCKROACH WENT INTO YOUR GAMECUBE?!?!?! JESUS FUCK!
from miscellanity :
yeah, joke. hope things are well with you.
from ripvanfish :
*clapping* - see, plural abbreviations aren't that hard!
from christinam :
MilSpec, why?
from xskinpackx :
I mean, "composes". Not "composed", because said band doesn't actually exist and hasn't written anything yet. You know, like the Skinpact.
from xskinpackx :
That photo -is- Carbon. We should start a band that composed music only with a bunch of DX-7's and an RX-11.
from trezzy :
japan is really bright.
from zamblam :
Hey, it's spike from that Buffy show.
from xjerkfacex :
You always look for people to complete you, Chris. If it's not friendship you need, it's a girlfriend; and vice-versa. I've known you, say, a year and a half, and I've always noticed this about you. Well, fucking stop it, Chris. Just fucking stop it. Take god damn control over it. Come on: now is not the time to hide behind your self-pity. Do I respect you? I respect the Hell out of you, Chris. If I could list 10 people in this world I feel have the most passion and beauty in them, you'd be right up there--and that is why I hate seeing this out of you. We'll hang out sometime, okay?
from manacrystal :
I'm glad to have spent some time on this chunk of rock with you, Chris.
from cinda-rella :
Legend of Zelda is my favourite game. And probably the only one Ive ever beaten.
from trezzy :
why chris, i'm touched. we like having you do sound for us. if we had enough money to pay you to do it full-time, we would. and consider it a term of endearment that i initially referred to you (okay, sometimes still do) as a character out of Greek mythology. pee ess, i certainly hope you'll be knob twiddlin' at the closet monster show. (one of these shows you should come out with us after, we usually go to BP's and plug the jukebox full of AC/DC.)
from trezzy :
if it makes you feel better, chris, i got my license when i was almost 21, and i only got it on my fourth try.
from putmedown :
oh chris, i have wonderful news for you.
from manacrystal :
And Q asked Picard to validate human existence or he would screw up the slimy green bubbly primordial soup. Some of the TNG effects were really crappy.
from trezzy :
i stared at that picture of the sea for almost 9 minutes straight. it made me think about the fact that once there was only a primordial, barren, volcanic proto-earth, plus the ocean, and life randomly one day came out of the chemical sludge contained therein. then i started thinking about the Star Trek TNG episode where Q takes Captain Picard back to the point in time where this actually happened, but he poked the sludge so it didn't happen. Bastard.
from manacrystal :
Triforce tattoo?
from im-a-cloud :
You're weird.. But I mean that in the kindest most sincere way possible.
from im-a-cloud :
The "x-it" button in the corner of the screen is throbbing. I've been staring at it trying to think of what to say. I came up with this: You leave me speechless.
from billyclit :
Holy crap
from nessus :
You're the first person who didn't think it would look good.
from kboyer :
Nah, I don't think light hair would suit you too well.
from trezzy :
the penis mightier.
from putmedown :
*leaves you a note* when you're happy it makes me happy. seriously. i love it. AND YOU!
from jstorey :
I'm serious Chris. Movies.
from nutsaqz :
y'know that sometimes I read your journal and I'm all like "he's totally right damnit, I want to be able to tell people things on my mind too. And all that hubbub. and then I keep reading and slam, I hit a wall. I REALLY need to increase my vocabulary (I probly spelled that wrong). Anyhoot, Iwish thee well things. (Not wells like water wells or wishing wells, hell I should have just said "good things")
from jstorey :
Do you want to have that 24 movie session soon? Because I really want to see it. Or we could just hang out this week.
from mais-oui :
ditto baby. i am the ultimate buffy fan.
from trezzy :
you look so fine sans hair.
from kortnay :
.! I haven't seen you in a long time Chris... It is weird. I want to see you soon.
from ripvanfish :
Yes, I'm positive on the abbreviations. Unless it's something like "how many S's are there in scissors?" in which case you need the apostrophe to avert confusion. Well, S isn't an abbreviation anyway. But I think you get it.
from mais-oui :
p to the sizzle : The Chronicles of the Mayfair Witches were by far rice.s best works. Go. To. New. Orleans.
from mais-oui :
Chris, welcome to my links. Email me for a password to my journal. [email protected] email me for a story about standing on two feet. i.ll email you for light beverage rendez vous and expect more. you know how it goes. - lauryn
from vivalamande :
Punctuation NEVER inside the bracket. Unless (like previously stated) you are posing a question, or separating two different thoughts within the brackets. IE: He came over (I thought that he would leave, but he didn't) to say hi. AH. Don't quote me on that. They have spies!
from nessus :
Are you sure about the abbreviations? Cause I always thought it was "CD's, mp3's," etc.
from ripvanfish :
The punctuation USUALLY goes outside the brackets, unless you are posing a question or making an exclamatory statement, in which case the punctuation is within the brackets. Oh, and a sidenote....plural abbreviations only use apostrophes to show possession....! English class is useless; this is why you have ME around.
from im-a-cloud :
I think I've figured it out; the period goes inside the brackets if you finish a sentence with it, but if you continue the sentence you use a comma, inside the bracket. Yeah..
from kryptress :
<i>I want to face evil</i> You face the worlds evils everyday, just by waking up.
from im-a-cloud :
Looking inside and seeing it all black and falling apart was chilling.. in a way. It's been snowing all day. It's supposed to snow all weekend.
from bratcore :
you see how you love me.
from im-a-cloud :
Of course Montreal would kick.. but it's cheaper to go to BC and it takes less time. I was thinking.. a week or so and drive to the coast or something.
from sarus :
i <3 kitties. -sp
from zamblam :
It means that Tom waits Is spinning in his proverbial grave
from stephenbank :
who is she? I'm glad you look fairly happy in that picture.
from sourcandies :
Nice Hoodie, I've got the same one.
from putmedown :
awww love you *mew* xoxo
from lovebereft :
It's a good thing that you are listening to Children Of Bodom now (as you may be able to see by looking at my profile). -Mike
from im-a-cloud :
The truth is gonna give up the world.
from katlefiya :
Did you know that I've wanted to be with you for a long time? -Kat
from im-a-cloud :
Can you hear the Dolphin's cry? See the road rise up to meet us; It's in the air we breathe tonight.
from putmedown :
valentines day.... leaves me not having any idea about anything.
from im-a-cloud :
Thank-you. Me too.
from jstorey :
I hope you don't die in a plane crash tomorrow.
from im-a-cloud :
One time when I was staying at a friend's house, I couldn't sleep. When I was tired of tossing and turning, I snuck out and walked to the playground behind his house. There was this huge hill that I walked up and found that it overlooked the city. I layed in the grass and star gazed until the sun came up. It painted the houses gold and so bright it hurt my eyes to look at them. I can't remember how many times I've looked into the mirror and said that I hated myself. Which is funny because I really don't.. Society makes you think that you have to.
from im-a-cloud :
That's good then. I almost took a night shift thinking since I don't sleep anyway, might as well work. But I can't imagine not seeing the sun, aside from seeing anybody else. Sounds like fun to do that. You gotta love Showcase. Isn't it awesome how sometimes you just so happen to be in the right place and time and become part of something .. bigger? And for just a couple of minutes you feel as if you are witnessing the universe in its completion and you feel as if some things aren't just coincidence.
from xskinpackx :
Like a fox.
from im-a-cloud :
Do you work a night shift? Have you ever tried Lindor chocolate? It's expensive but man, I'd kill for it. We have these Valintine heart chocolate things at work and they're THE BEST. They have some kind of fudge in the middle that melts instantly. You should try them.
from jstorey :
Clubbing at The Warehouse and clubbing at The Metro is the exact same thing. People go to dance and hope they meet someone. Except, I think that there is whole lot less Date Rape cases at The Warehouse.
from im-a-cloud :
Many people have to work hard in order to remember their dreams. Dream researchers figure that people who really wish to remember what they dream about, remember what they dream about. Perhaps there is something in your latest dreams that you want to remember. You mentioned you might have unresolved issues with your friends from school.. what might those be? Or perhaps you just miss them? Or miss school? Dreams are fun!
from nessus :
Sure.
from zamblam :
Chris, can I put your diary entry (the plant worth one) in my zine?
from jstorey :
Well, it's simple: There wouldn't be animals without plants. They're connected, as are we to them. Ohh, spooky.
from kboyer :
Woot! Box Car Racer rip!
from im-a-cloud :
Me too. My new favourite site: http://www.eurotrip.com/index.html
from im-a-cloud :
What we expect can often turn into something we want. But, the amount of ice on the roads makes up for the lack of snow. Dreams can mean many things.. or nothing at all.
from nessus :
Keeping in mind there are 4 other games in the series: Metroid, Metroid II: Return Of Samus, Metroid Prime, and Metroid Fusion.
from nessus :
Yes, Ridley is an officer or Leutenant of the Space Pirates, while Mother Brain was a symbol. There are several tiers in the Space Pirate hiarchy. There is "Command" which seems to function autonomously from the Mother Brain after she is defeated, in fact Command seems to be the real authority, ordering the restoration of Zebes, Ridley, and Kraid after Samus defeated them the first time. Now I suppose it's possible "Command" *is* Mother Brain, though it's never made clear. I concider Command and Mother Brain two seperate entities, because it is Command which assumes control over the Space Pirate forces after Mother Brain's defeat, or perhaps it was always there. Perhaps the Mother Brain is more of a number cruncher or symbolic, and Command are the ones who actually make the decisions. The statue is most likely a play mechanic, like you said, a device to let the player know what they have to do.
from nowait :
Why is there a captain and a mother brain, then? Is Ridley an officer of the mother brain? Does the statue with the gems that break each time a boss dies mean something specific or is it just a construct in the game to help you know what you have to do? Also about a week ago I passed that game in 2 hrs 59 minutes! (Samus has awful hair in the picture it shows you.) Also, it's 7-11, yes.
from nessus :
Ridley is Captain of the Space Pirates. The Space Pirates tried to use Metroids as a biological weapon to bring the Galactic Federation to its knees, but bounty hunter Samus Aran stopped them. When Samus had exterminated all but the last Metroid hatchling, she delivered it to the lab so the Federation scientists could study it. Right after she left Ridley broke in and stole the hatchling so he could bring it back to the Space Pirates so they could make more, and resume their plans to use the Metroids as weapons against civilization.
from nowait :
Why does Ridley want the metroid larva?
from nessus :
Yes you Jeff.
from jstorey :
Jeff as in, me?
from im-a-cloud :
Actually.. I was wrong. They're arachnids.
from im-a-cloud :
A kick ass rock band.. But I think they're insects..
from im-a-cloud :
The circle is a vicious one, and an unfortunate one, where so many people find the security of a job is too good to give up. "You work to live and live to work." When you have bills to pay, a mortgage, car payments, school fees, etc, everything you work for goes towards those things and you have nothing left. Stopping to smell the roses becomes trivial becuase there are no roses in a concrete world. It's one thing after another once you fall into that hole; Until the end is retirement and your means supports you, dying alone in an old age home where technology is keeping you alive long enough to watch yourself decompose. That sounds pessimistic, so I try everything to avoid it, however you can't avoid it completely. I suppose the point would be is to not lose sight of how important those roses are.
from im-a-cloud :
Thanks. I always appreciate random compliments from strangers. I am friends with Amber, Ashley, and Matthew. I was at your party last year.. well, the year before. We piled into my car and went to Denny's. You have a good memory. It gives you a whole new perspective when you understand just a little on what a star actually is, and what the universe is composed of. It makes terrestrial matters seem to pointless. Humans are a lot of things... You have some interesting writings yourself. I enjoy reading them.
from ripvanfish :
You have a gerbil named Samus Aran?! You're even cooler than I thought. I [heart] Chris.
from scar-ling :
And I hope your loneliness goes away. Because you seem pretty swell. Don't worry. This too, shall pass.
from scar-ling :
I enjoy your writing.
from regginrepus :
http://www.hightruth.com/faq/mfaq14.html
from theyknow :
i thought the new year's party was fun. i liked the low-key element. i actually got to talk to people i haven't seen for a long time(like you). maybe not too much, but still.
from metsakansan :
you sound like a fun and interesting person :) I dig Pink Floyd, too. -Tuuli
from kboyer :
Wanna do something this week?
from wateronsand :
I echo your sentiments.
from putmedown :
babyface this is my new diary and you should read it sometimes.
from miscellanity :
i love edward norton too. i hope you are well.
from kboyer :
And I love that you love Edward Norton...I mean "HI CHRIS!!!"
from christinam :
can do next week, i miss you chris, i miss sound....i care about you alot i hope you're doing well.
from pointydance :
Just so you know, that song is actually called "Bottle of Humans" by Sole. They just lump everything under anticon for the sake of the mp3.com page. We should kick it soon.
from zamblam :
Agreed
from xbratcorex :
i sent you a long email. i replied to the address you sent it from. [email protected]. that's where i sent the other email (about the lyrics to GSHANR &etc to. i'll send it again from another email. hopefully that works., if not, if you have another email could you send it? yikes.
from kortnay :
I wish I could've been at the show yesterday Chris. How did it go? Damned freaking work...
from xbratcorex :
chris, do you ahve that course tonight? if not, can we practice? (i left messages for j&k. if you do have the course, we'll probably just hover around a computer and get ready. also, my costume's looking very zombie-like. off twith the pretension and on with the dead walk! (obvioudsly now just simply being a zombie. see you tomorrow, if nothing else!
from zamblam :
Except Jesus...no wait
from pointydance :
That is a pretty fucking intense analysis of Metroid. I'm living with my mom now, the number here is 720-6237. I'm gonna be out of town until saturday though, maybe we could arrange practice for saturday evening or sunday?
from nowait :
Am I driving for you on Saturday? Are you doing sound for that show instead of the in-house people?
from recklings :
i can't really come, i feel sick. but i'll work on the lyrics and come next week sometime.
from xskinpackx :
Lord of the Leeb.
from xskinpackx :
God bless Leeb.
from xskinpackx :
Yeah... Apop tends to cover a lot of stuff these days. Somehow, I think Groth makes Leeb seem a little more credible.
from zamblam :
What the fuck is a mendicant seal?
from xbratcorex :
sorry chris, i was in vancouver.. AND i have nearly-no voice at all due to physical sickness that may or may not include bronchitis... send me your number somehow and i'll call you tomorrow and figure out when we can practice.
from kortnay :
Eep! Let me see this wound of yours...
from zamblam :
Better than the Next Generation.
from xbratcorex :
thank me? why?
from kortnay :
I don't know if it helps, but I think you are awesome in every way, not superficiial in the least.
from zamblam :
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU LOST THE MAP?!?!"
from kortnay :
Thank you for doing sound for us Chris.. you were awesome. Good show. THank you again. How does a couple october shows sound?
from spoonbender :
Monday, august fifth, dh5 are putting on a rock show at the horsemen's club. Wishing Well, Hot Little Rocket, My Project: Blue, (vancouver) St. Tibs Day (vancouver), I think therefore I can, (Vancouver) Rubella, (Portland). It would be lovely if you would join us for some rocking out.
from profphedd :
And what makes you think no one does?
from zamblam :
Awwww
from kortnay :
I think you rock. Are you still up for doing sound for us on August 5th???
from zamblam :
Behold. Now I have invaded Diaryland. Calpunk and Diaryland are my whining bitches!
from recklings :
chris, thank you so much for the nice note. i'm really sorry about being rude to you last night. i just got some shocking news and it really upset me. i'm going to be talking to the person the news is about. thank you for the concern, i deffinetly hope we get to be a bit better friends because i think you're a very nice person too. and it's very wonderful to know that you think that about me.
from mockorange :
MY MASSAGE IS BNETTER THAN YOURS!
from christinam :
There is know way you weight 120 that�s more then I do and you couldn�t possibly weight more then I!
from hedoniste :
A secondary character, I know what you mean.
from xbratcorex :
i got an email from kyle, saying that he picked up the dont fuck with us compilation... heh. anyway...
from xskinpackx :
I don't know what just happened. Meow.
from xskinpackx :
WOW ARE YOU THE MATRIX ?? HUMANS KILLING GODS WITH TECHNOLOGY ?? FUCKER VOGT FUNKER VOGT !! WHAT
from recklings :
it was really nice talking to you. although i'm sure i sounded like a complete idiot.
from intellijence :
I think it is funny that you were the loudest most obnoxious person in the car.
from cute-clanger :
Heya, i just thought I'd tell ya about a new NIN site thats up, they're lookin for affiliate sites, messageboard/chatroom moderators and news people. If u are interested it's at http://www.nineinchnailschat.com . thanky for your time :) x cya
from xbratcorex :
if i'm the rachel you are worried, about.. don't be. that wall is very easily collapsible. if not, then this note is here to serve the purpose of asking for more information regarding asphixia. so: may i please get more information regarding asphixia?
from kortnay :
Wow. This is a long entry. The Police were pretty depressing. But the landlord thought that the complaint may have been about him, and thye went to the wrong place... he noted that we were very good. Basement next time!Chris, you are great... I hope one day I talk to you more.. I think it is funny that we don't talk more, considering I have known you now for over a year. You rock. Love, Kortnay.
from xbratcorex :
thank you, chris.
from mockorange :
I call bass! and sexiness!
from mockorange :
that fucking brat beat me to the punch, ill return the favour though. don't you worry.
from xbratcorex :
the period does not need to be included at all if there is an exclamation mark in brackets.the exclamation mark does the job of all end-of-sentence punctuation quite well.
from christinam :
chris? i'm glad you're around.

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