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from jimbostaxi :
Added you to my list :0)
from dangerspouse :
Ol' Gordon's 77th birthday is coming up this month. Par-tay!!
from dangerspouse :
Is it good or bad (that your work never changes)?
from dangerspouse :
It's because, like all other living things, language evolves. Common usage determines "correct" grammar and vocabulary, not the other way around :)
from stepfordtart :
Check THIS shizzle out! http://www.whsmith.co.uk/products/parker-quink-fountain-pen-bottled-ink-blue-black-ink/33956626 Apparently we stiill have it! My life's complete. s x PS thanks for the add :-)
from stepfordtart :
You are not old for knowing Quink. I know Quink and I keep telling myself that Im not old, so you cant be old either. :-)
from dangerspouse :
Are all the restaurants you've waited at this bad? When I was a chef we took great pains to let the staff at the front of the house know how much we appreciated them. Partly because our jobs were much easier when they did theirs happily, and partly because most of us had waited tables at least once as well while working our way up. I hope things get better for you - either there, or somewhere else.
from dangerspouse :
Hey, I just saw you added me to your Big Bucket o' Buddies. Thanks! Very honored here. Impressed, too. How did you know about the belly? Dammit. Can't keep ANY secrets on the internet....
from dangerspouse :
Maybe you should try setting the boundries of your territory some other way, then.
from sunstargirl :
How can you be so sad when you have baby polka-dotted stripey piglets on your page? Just look at them! Instant happiness!
from gypped :
hey, titho, you're still here. it's me, claire.
from sunstargirl :
:( hugs.
from sunstargirl :
okay, I'll check it out. Thanks for the recommendation! I always love new books. Are you talking about personal alienation, like from a group of friends? Or societal alienation? I think there's a difference.
from sunstargirl :
nope. care to enlighten me? what's it about?
from sunstargirl :
haha! A friend of mine who's a dental hygienist told me she once asked a homeless man begging on a corner how much he made in a day doing that. She was surprised by the number, went home and calculated out an hourly wage to discover it was more than she made!! And he wasn't paying any taxes on his "income" either.
from sunstargirl :
glad to see you updating again. hope it lasts!
from giallothang :
How very, very odd. Our intervals of quiet were nearly the same in duration and our return within a few weeks of one another. Welcome back. I promise to be as honest as you can stand.
from imonlyagirl :
hi there.. not sure if you remember me or not. I definitely remember you. I'm back to diaryland and I'm really happy to see your still here. Hope all is well. -Kayla
from papersnow :
abandoned garden or not- i'm glad to see it's not all forgotten, and that you still write certain things exactly right.
from z0tl :
and we still do not know if one day you have the guts to fall in love with elipsis irl.
from candoor :
time passes...
from gods :
PKD talk is always worth a peek.
from antipodean :
Hi. I know you probably left this in my notes a fair while ago (I haven't been on here much in the past year or so), but in response to your question: 'How far into the PhD are you?' I'm now in my second year, looking at young people's experiences of a form of homelessness called 'couch surfing' in South Australia. The doctorate is based in the school of social sciences.
from sunstargirl :
what's your email dude?
from sunstargirl :
no, why?
from sunstargirl :
haha, no, socialized medicine will never catch on here because large corporations own the government in the US. Pharmaceutical companies have bought every candidate. Hilary Clinton says she's pro-socialized medicine and that she supports a time table for pulling our troops out of Iraq, but if you look at who is financing her campaign, it's mostly pharmaceuticals and war companies, so neither one of those things is actually going to happen. I've stopped listening to what politicians are saying altogether at this point and just look at which companies have bought them instead. I get a more accurate portrayal of their policies that way. It's funny, but I don't think the rest of the world realizes how bad things are here in the US. They seems to think we're all fat and lazy and rich. Most Americans are just barely scraping by each month. We don't get nearly the free benefits or vacation time that other Western world countries do. By making people pay for their own medical insurance, the government ensures itself a steady, complacent workforce. People aren't going to make trouble when losing their job means their whole family is screwed out of medical coverage. No one can afford to go uncovered. The government would never let go of that kind of power over us. You guys are all the ones who are living in luxury, not us. We're wage slaves. The average college graduate graduates with more than $60,000 in debt, thus ensuring a long life of slavery to the system. One of my best friends sold some of her eggs for $10,000 each to help pay off her college loans. It's not an unheard of thing to do here. I thought about doing it once, but my friend's most recently surgery got botched and it took her more than 6 months to recover. She was bleeding for 2 weeks each month. So I decided not to do it.
from sunstargirl :
I had to do a little research because I was confused at first by your question about law degrees. It seems that the requirements to practice Law are different in Australia than they are in the United States. In the US, you need an additional 3-4 years of school after regular 4 year university to get licensed. You also have to pass a really long test they takes a whole week to complete and many people don't pass it even after Law school and so can't practice. A Law degree in the US is called a Juris Doctor - it's a doctorate in law. Medical doctors get an MD (3-4 years of Medical school after regular 4 year university), psychologists have a PhD (3-4 years of psychology school after regular 4 year university), and attorneys have a JD (Juris Doctor, which is 3-4 years of graduate school after the regular 4 year bachelor's program). It seems in Australia and various other commonwealth countries all you need is a Bachelor's in Law. I'm really surprised, to tell you the truth, that that is your guys' system. Learn something new everyday! In the US you definitely need more than just a Bachelor's degree. A Bachelor's degree is what I have, for goodness sake! I'm wondering if a Bachelor's degree means something different over there than it does here. In the US a Bachelor's degree is obtained upon completion of a regular 4 year university program, usually following high school (also called "secondary school," not sure what you guys call it). Is that what it is over there? I can't imagine one would know enough about law, especially considering all the general course requirements that take up so much time during one's Bachelor degree studies, to be able to practice law with any kind of serious expertise. That's just really kind of shocking. I can't get over it. haha, wow. About people kind of shutting down about PKD, I think that they are probably very curious, but worry about it being a private/personal/emotional subject so they don't want to pry. That's why I asked if it was okay to ask you more about it. Also, I think that generally people don't like to show their ignorance, and with something like this I'm sure a lot of people are completely ignorant about it. I know I sure am. I had to look up what "PKD" even stood for. And then the other side of tragic stories and situations like this is that one's first inclination is to run up to that person and hug them and rock them while bawling one's eyes out, but you restrain yourself so as not to freak them out with such an emotional outburst, but then you don't know what else to do after that to show your sympathy and compassion. Everything you can say sounds so cliche and awkward, making both people feel uncomfortable, and then you also worry that the person resents it because you hear all the time that people in these situations hate being pitied. So, in the end, by not knowing how to respond in a way that doesn't make the person feel even WORSE about their situation, I think people just give up by shutting down/changing the subject. I've often thought that since death is such a huge part of life, that it's surprising we haven't found a way to better communicate and express our emotions about it in the millions of years that we've been dealing with it. There's such a taboo of awkward silence around the whole affair. Maybe we did know at one point and lost it as Civilization was born and began wiping out other cultures rather than learning from them. Western culture certainly doesn't have a good way of dealing with death though - we fear it instead of understanding it. I'm really curious to know what your philosophy is, that you came to that has helped you understand and accept your mortality. It sounds very spiritual, the way you describe it. I would love to hear more about your journey and your wisdom. I'm glad to hear that you have so many donor options as well. Is that most likely what is going to happen when you go into kidney failure? How long do people usually live if they get a transplant? I was also wondering what the health care is like in South Korea if you're going to move there? You really are lucky to live in country with socialized medicine right now. It's so funny that you mentioned that because I just saw Sicko, a documentary by Michael Moore about the US health care system, or lack there of, this past weekend and Bear and I have been talking about it ever since and seriously discussing whether or not we really want to continue living in this country.
from sunstargirl :
Wow, I don't know what to say other than I'm really sorry you're stuck with this, and how amazing you are for not letting it get in the way of pursuing higher education, etc. You sound like an amazing person - very strong and brave. It's not fair, especially considering how healthy you seem to live your life - watching what you eat, no meat, riding a bicycle every day. You live way more healthily than I do, that's for sure... Wow, geez, you really are amazing. I would be so angry and bitter and depressed... I'm sure you have dealt with a lot and I'm sure you have your down days, don't get me wrong, but you seem so well-adjusted, talking about this stuff, and just generally in your diary, that it makes me really admire you. You're really amazing. I know I've said that like a billion times now. Did you inherit this from one of your parents then? Do your siblings have it too? (Do you mind me asking you more about all this? Let me know if you don't really like talking about it and I won't say anything more. Don't have to answer either.) About the relationship stuff, I didn't mean to imply that you were seeking her out because she fit into a preconception. I don't know whether that would be true or not since I don't know either one of you. I was just speaking generally, having gone off on a tangent at that point. So I'm sorry for that. What I was trying to address in all that was that you said you thought nothing would come of it, and so I was just saying that if you think of it that way, you won't be as inclined to do the things to make something come of it as you would be if your expectation was that something more could happen. In other words, if you expect something to happen, you act in a way to make it happen, whereas if you don't expect something to happen, you don't put as much effort into it so it doesn't happen. Lastly, no my dad isn't a doctor, he's a lawyer. The other evil, haha. I guess technically he's a doctor of law, but they don't usually go by "Dr." the way other professions do, do they... We just tried it out as an experiment one year. I don't exactly remember how it all got started, just that we were surprised by the results. My apologies for yet another long note, but you do have a lemur now!
from sunstargirl :
I'm really sorry to hear that you are sick. How serious is your condition, like does it affect your ability to ahem, get it on? I don't know anything about PKD (only just googled what it is), so I may sound incredibly naive, but I wouldn't think it would matter unless it prohibited the full experience of lovemaking in some way... like people who have diabete are still able to have fulfilling romantic relationships, marriage, kids, etc, despite a serious genetic medical condition since the condition doesn't effect those organs. I don't think anyone would say, "Oh, you have diabetes? Hrm.. nevermind. Not interested anymore." Am I comparing apples to oranges here? (I don't mean to be so ignorant). While I can certainly understand your reservations about this new flame since you're moving to Korea in a few months, I would just like to say for future benefit that it has generally been my experience that one's attitude going into any given situation, really, is often the most powerful factor that dictates the outcome of the situation. In other words, if you pursue a new relationship with the expectation that it will amount to nothing, then it invariably will amount to nothing. To use an example of how much influence our mindset has on physical reality: the placebo effect. People take sugar pills, thinking they're real drugs, and like magic they get better anyway. To take it a step further, I think we also (subconsciously) seek out people who fit into our expectations. I see this all the time with my girlfriends, "Oh, Sunstargirl, I really like this new guy, but I'm worried he's just going to turn out to be another jerk." When in fact it is obvious to the objective observer that she's picked him out specifically because he is a jerk. Like to prove her point, or something, that all men are the same = bad. And conversely, my male friends pick out clingy, insecure women because those women give them the excuse to break it off after a certain amount of time without looking bad. Their objective here is to secure a sexual relationship while making sure to avoid a serious commitment. But then I have to listen to, "All women are crazy and high-maintenance and clingy!" So anyway, just my thoughts (not that you asked). I think you should enjoy the attention (someone likes you! relish the admiration!), and perhaps a fling, while you can because it's certainly not healthy to be working like a dog ALL the time. As long as you are a gentleman about it and let her know that you're moving overseas - you have to give her a heads up about that straight away. To me, that seems like it would be a bigger deciding factor to her as to whether or not she wants to get emotionally invested in you than because you have PKD. Finally, congratulations with your thesis and new title of "Doctor." I swear to god this works because my dad and I tested it, if you are at a busy restaurant and you have to give your name for a waitlist on a table, you will get seated an average of 10-12 minutes faster by saying "Dr. Tithonus' surname" rather than just your surname. You also get better and faster service throughout the rest of the dining experience.
from sunstargirl :
Am I barraging you with too many questions? I'm sorry. Poor Professor Tithonus, I've caused you a minor anxiety attack. I have a lemur for you, but if you want it you have to... **significant silence with a significant "look."** ;) (That means update your blog. Don't be dirty, you dirty boy). Have you ever been to a Korean BBQ? So good. It's really a neat dining experience. Oh, that was another question again, wasn't it... it's very hard to not ask you questions.
from sunstargirl :
lol, yes I'll draw you a lemur if you update again... but don't you think a grasshopper is more fitting for a man who goes by Tithonus? ;) You were becoming quite mysterious because up until your most recent note, you have dodged every question I've asked you about yourself. You really have this silent observer persona down pat though. South Korea, wow. That seems like such a random country to me. I know virtually nothing about it, so you'll have to tell me more, like what your favorite aspect of the country/culture is. As far as obscure animals go, perhaps you identify with them in some way? Are you an obscure animal, Tithonus? heehee. Also, I've been meaning to ask you, how does one bring up the offer of sexual favors to their teacher, exactly? I thought that was something that only happened on TV. Did she (or he?) confront you in person, or was it a naughty note, slipped between the pages of a poorly written essay? How do you take a situation like that seriously? I think I'd bust out laughing. Do you have to report these incidents to some higher authority? Makes me wonder if a student like that has gotten away with it before with another teacher at some point. One of our Spanish teachers ran off with a student my Senior year of high school. They were both women. The Spanish teacher was married at the time as well, to a man. It was such a scandal: Pedophiliac lesbian adultery. I heard later that it didn't work out... hmm, wonder why...
from sunstargirl :
glad you like them. Surprisingly, you were the only person to choose an unusual animal. I would have thought more people would try to stump me. I had my sleeves all rolled up, ready to draw kimono dragons and armadillos, but people requested cats and bunnies instead. Go figure. Also, you are becoming a very mysterious person, you know that?
from sunstargirl :
PS - I figured out what animal I was thinking of when you requested tapir... a lemur, another very unfortunate looking animal.
from sunstargirl :
lol, okay I drew you a tapir with its baby because I think the babies are more interesting looking. It's a South American tapir rather than an Asian tapir (I've learned so much about tapirs in the past 30 minutes, which is good because at first I thought a tapir was a kind of monkey). I really related to your entry, about feeling like everything up to this point has felt like preparation for one's real life to begin. I wish you'd update more because you have good things to say. What kinds of classes are you teaching? Sometimes I think I'd like to teach art at a university, but grad school kind of intimidates me for some reason... plus I can't afford it right now. What country would you move to, if you left AU?
from sunstargirl :
come play! (read the rules in *Operation Blogger Blackmail*)
from slumper :
I'm not sure at all what my Mum would think of this. She does NOT speak about my father and never has, no-one in my family does it's completly taboo. And I know you're probably thinking, "Just ask her!" but it's really not that easy. I've tried talking to her about it but she really doesn't like to and always get out of it. So I haven't bothered her about it for a couple of years. I just don't know how she would react, I know she wouldn't not want me to exactly, but I think it just might upset her. I think he was quite bad to her when they broke up or were together...that's the vibe i get from her anyway. I just don't want her to think I'm doing it because she's not enough for me. But for now I don't think she needs to know - I'm an adult and he's my father and what happens between us is between us. I just want to wait and see what happens first before I bring her into it.
from slumper :
Thanks heaps mate it was a big help :) Update on my page
from slumper :
Well, I haven't seen or heard from my father since 1996 and have no idea if these girls even know about me. I've been looking for them for years, called every listed number in the state with his last name (luckily it's not too popular) but have never been able to find them and so then if they pop up somewhere like Facebook and nothing comes of it, will I be able to march on?
from slumper :
Why not?!
from sunstargirl :
congratulations! It must feel so wonderful to finally have it done and turned in.
from z0tl :
it's weird that elipsis has vanished from this exrth without saying hello.
from sunstargirl :
how is it you're a sometimes Catholic marriage educator? That is weird. And look, someone else reads your diary as well! I've never known anyone who has never driven a car before, but I'm moving to the city so I won't have to use mine as much anymore.
from z0tl :
i says don't let 1 year go by without an update, what say u?
from sunstargirl :
Tagged! This is what you are supposed to do. Cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game. Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog.
from sunstargirl :
Thanks man, yeah, hopefully if they see that their behavior is only pushing me away they'll get the message to stop criticizing my lifestyle.
from sunstargirl :
thanks for the birthday wishes! I hope you are doing well and enjoying your summer (lucky).
from z0tl :
8 million dollar ?: is elipsis still alive IRL and if so why complete silence for so long & i don't mean just stupid blog, i mean all avenues of commlynking... huh, worried.
from slumper :
SO FUCKING MUCH!
from sweetmachine :
Eek! I am caught. Shh.
from sunstargirl :
what's your thesis?
from slumper :
Wahhh Dr Tit-Ho! Good work mister. What do you need to ask me? ashzuko@gmail.com
from sunstargirl :
how come you don't update anymore?
from slumper :
I estimate that I'll be ready for some truly bad advice in about 3 months. Get ready :)
from slumper :
Yeah I'm fine :) School's just not for me at all. It just doesn't mesh with me, the classroom, the reading, the writing, the teacher etc. School and I are simply not friends. I need to be doing things with my hands, I like learning about the world through people and experience not by reading textbooks. I think university is a fantastic thing, but it's just so not me. I like working, you know? I love my job, I love being with people everyday. So, here I am again :) I'll figure out something soon enough. Thanks for caring :)
from sweetmachine :
Oh, I've had you as a favorite for ages upon ages now. Web addresses may change but other things stay the same. Ta.
from shinodababe :
woot slaves! Too bad I'm not as blessed as that.D: YES I DO HAVE AN LJ. My username is shino_rei. Add me.:D YES I DO HAVE A REASON TO MISS YOU.(Because you are my friend.)
from shinodababe :
Because they will cause feet to hurt and they aren't sexy enough.:( Damn.I miss you!!
from shinodababe :
LOL. Shoes over $1000 aren't meant for walking.The shoes I want cost about $930+.so........they are not forbidden? ;)
from slumper :
Well by no means huge, we're probably going to do it at Shelly Beach in Manly because it's cute and CHEAP (like, $51.80 for up to 50 guests, not that I'll have that many guests). But it'll be white dress and veil and all that, but you know, a friend as photographer, I'll just carry flowers, and definately doing my hair myself (aka Arthur will do it because he was a hairdresser) and I don't wear make-up really so thats easy. And no reception unless my Mum takes over the plans :). Eeeeeee!!!!!
from slumper :
Yes, for real. As in, he wants to live here and marriage=visa. We've been talking about it for years now but yay it's actually happening now!
from gypped :
WHAT IS WITH US AND CAPS THESE DAYS??
from gypped :
hehe you're crazy.
from slumper :
Not rude at all I talk about money like it's air. They're not serious at all, it's just with waitresses wages and loving ebay, it's taking me a while. Only just over $1000 to go, which I could easily do in 3 weeks if I would stop being a loser! Actually you've inspired me. I'm going to be out of debt by next month. It's just like everytime I try to do it, something comes up. $250 for a gramaphone for my best friends 21st. $650 for a stupid uni course. $140 for clothes I don't need and probably won't wear. But the sooner I get out of debt the sooner I can buy my plane ticket! Everything is super exciting. How are you?
from bebeskid :
is it me.....or have you gotten a little potty mouthed since i left???......and i always thought you were such an innocent virginal boy...oh tsk tsk tithonus....say it isn't so....my eyes are bleeding.... (and yes...it's strictly coincidental i should return as you're writing about skanks in your diary....shut it)
from pink-pearls :
re: skanks. Uhh good for you? Heh.
from slumper :
Thanks for cracking that tricky code :)
from lighthouse8 :
Sure...whatever you say king tithonus *hugs*
from z0tl :
as one of 8 primary managers of her extensive dowry, i am pleased to see such eagerness from a young and happenin' youth such as yourself! other than that, get in line, buddy! it's about 8 miles long and counting. certainly if you were to pull her back into the dfold, i've been known to sneak people into the foyer and there's only about 8 people waiting there. in case you were wondering, yes, where i live, 888 is z number of z beast! now update, b4 i eviscerate your gutz thru your nose, beeeeotch!
from z0tl :
all i know is that you should still marry elipsis. & update, coz at least the two of us would read. cheer:z!
from pink-pearls :
Nope, I'm far too shallow for that, line dancing is a deal breaker.
from pink-pearls :
Line dancing would totally be a deal breaker. Totally. And the cycling option isn't feasible. I live in the inner west and work on the north shore. I wouldn't veen drive to work though, purely for the going to out of the way places, working late and avoiding horrendously inconvenient trackwork. You totally line dance don't you?
from pink-pearls :
Nope, already tried the chapter selection, cleaning the DVD, smacking the DVD and finally just tears. Nothing works. But it's not going to win.
from pink-pearls :
Ah, but it would only take a couple of days full time to perfect. Yet you probably still couldn't afford it. Lucky I am hanging onto my principles for a little while longer.
from shinodababe :
LOL...now I'm tomorrow's stuffus...... That..was for my friend who can never get the fact that I use LJ now. Anyway,it's okay~~~.XD
from shinodababe :
I didn't get what you were trying to say...anyways..HI!!!! and I'm still yesterday's yams? :\
from pink-pearls :
Is there any other way? :)
from pink-pearls :
you just like her because she's cute you dirty perv :)
from slumper :
The chefs at work who are Italian both pronounce it as it's spelt, but who knows, you seem to be an encyclopedia so I'm sure you're right. And I'm a shitty speller, sue me.
from justamephit :
Beautiful entry ... I'm glad you remember us Diarylanders on your birthday ;)
from lighthouse8 :
Happy Birthday Sweet Tithonus...I hope it was a GREAT day! *hugs*
from clocks :
hippy bday!
from caraxus :
Happy Birthday dude!
from erato :
Something about Diaryland makes it incredibly easy to be neglectful and cruel to our muses.
from pink-pearls :
Thanks for the offer of the desperate housewives, luckily managed to download the final episode last night. And the boy is promising, it just....i don't know. But thanks for the note.
from erato :
So does this mean you are going to come back to your poor, abandoned diary?
from erato :
You changed it! Love it!
from erato :
I don't have a description in your profile. I was going to suggest something really witty, but then I remembered how much silence suits me. And just then it came to me, "cigarettes and Chanel." Just like the song.
from clocks :
Mr Tith, I hope you find what you are looking for :)
from gypped :
those birds are lazy and unreliable. much like me.
from gypped :
mobile phones are extremely necessary, if only to keep me employed. also, how would I send drunken/cute sms messages??
from caraxus :
Here here!!
from gypped :
it's bad. really, really bad. I'm dealing with it by hiding from the world and eating chocolate. lots.
from justamephit :
Yay! Nice to see you have updated - and I'm glad you got my postcard. It seemed quite Tithonusy.
from slumper :
thankyou boy. it all means alot :)
from slumper :
There was the heavy metal boy packing me cones. And it was lovely but not a winner. And this one last night well, I don't know, I don't think it's going to go anywhere. seeing him again monday night but i don't know. there's boys all around, for some reason. and of course there is the texas boy, who is some kind of wonderful http://fellbehind.diaryland.com
from liadlaith :
I have an untidy room - it constantly slides into mess. It doesn't make me happy, it bothers me a bit, but it's definitely not a sign of my vast melancholia.
from slumper :
13, 15, 18, 20, and possibly 24? this said, i have absolutely no grounds to base this theory on. good luck!
from slumper :
Good work boy!!! There's a couple more in there I really thought you would get though :) oh and Hi hi!!! nice to see you!!!!
from justamephit :
Ironic (well, not really ironic ... appropriate) that you should mention Barthes. I'm currently reading Camera Lucida and lovin' it wildly. It's so good and so mad. But Tithonus, sweet Tithonus, why are you abandoning the diary? You'll be so very sorely missed.
from justamephit :
my dear Tithonus - hope you are well, and enjoying your solitude. It's been many days since we've heard from you - consider yourself missed but not pressured =P Sorry I have been so unresponsive of late - I am crap and ashamed. xxx
from caraxus :
Yo - cool song dude. Keep up the good work!!
from pink-pearls :
hey titho, surprisingly enough our IT kids are pretty good. It's not system or network problems my pc's been having but I've had a couple of viruses and unfortunately the pages I was visiting at the time the trojan bastard hit were diaryland ones. I personally don't think it's diaryland, hence why I'm keeping on visiting but if the lady protesteth too much they might look into the diaryland page thing more and find out way more than they need to know about me. Anyway username- open, password - now.
from invisiblepal :
:D Thanks for thinkin' that could be it!
from elipsis :
i started writing about him, then suddenly got shy. i think it's too soon to start writing sonnets about him, maybe. besides, i think you are just trying to trick me into writing more than one entry in a week (and thus get re-addicted to diaryland? hmmmm? ??) :) thank you, and i will write about him eventually. just not yet. it is nice to see you again, my beautiful friend.
from bebeskid :
...i take it the "more solitude" won....is this correct? BB
from mindriot :
nobody else picked up on that, Nobody reads me, I sad and will cry. :P "house arrest"
from lighthouse8 :
*hugs*
from candoor :
anyone with half a mind is somewhat insane and glad for it... that is, deviate from the status quo for more than a few minutes and you scare enough people so that they must, in order to maintain their personal decourum, label you insane... not you, particularly, just anyone with half a mind to ramble on about something beyond where it has been rambled on before... if you follow :)
from bebeskid :
...when i started to read being or beyond essence...i prayed to God to let me lose the book on the bus so i would no longer be subjected to the trauma... My theory is that the brilliantly insane bypass trying to convince anyone of their thought patterns......they simply confuse the hell out of us to the point where we don't question them... by the way....you talk as if going down is a bad thing.....what's up with that??? BB
from pink-pearls :
I've never been one of those girls who would dump a guy for watching porn, it's like dumping a guy because he has sex, to me it's just an extension of a normal drive. I really see absolutely nothing wrong with either a guy or a girl, either in a relationship or single watching porn, to me it's not something I even really give any thought. But I never watch the degrading stuff and in all honesty of what I've seen I've never been uncomfortable watching it or seen any exploitation, obvious or otherwise. I actually find those girls who are completely icked out or who have this major stance against watching it or by their partners watching are really very strange, I mean what do they do during sex? Cringe, hide their eyes and say it's disgusting and degrading? Probably thestill think masturbation will make you blind :)
from pink-pearls :
Ummmm, yes?. Is that a bad thing?
from justamephit :
And some just get squidgied into fossils *adds Mephit cheerily*...
from bebeskid :
p.s. you're gonna miss me when i'm gone... BB
from bebeskid :
Ok first of all......it is Thursday a.k.a. Tithonusís Neurosis day....so you are entitled......and for that, Iím gonna take it easy on you. How extremely creative of you to take entropy, a sub law to the 2nd law of thermo, to validate your self doubts....Swenson and Turvey would be most proud... However, the king daddy of all laws.....The first law of thermo or energy conservation, dictates all real world processes involve some sort of transformation of all energies and that the total amount of energy is always conserved and eventually expresses a time translation symmetry. From this continuum is born. Without continuum, there would be no unification.......and yet....with all the dictation spun from the first law....it is essentially indifferent to change....go figure.... For you...honesty is the first law.......and regardless how you try to sugar coat it, mask it........or throw lace doilies around it.........itís still unchanged and completely unaffected by any bullshit you may fling at it...... And by the way......complexity is not always beautiful......but it is meaningful......and it either motivates us or brings us to our knees to be honest.......either way....the goal remains the same... Be honest.... BB ďIf not for you...why not for me...Ē
from justamephit :
Oh come on, there's no viable concept of what counts as a sufficiency of work. I suddenly realised about halfway through my finals revision - while counting the carvings on the ceiling of the Rad Cam that somehow my brain had equated time-spent-in-library with time-spent-working. Then I realised everybody else had done something similar, so I stopped worrying. And, errr, the moral of this story is that you should stop worrying too. PS - It's amazing how much of my happiness is *not* dependent upon having a bike =P xxx
from bebeskid :
...no one truly knows how hard a person works...unless they're watching you and timing your hours..(which is also knows as stalking, but that's another topic)..the key is not to necessarily work hard, but to work smart... I've read you...and from what i've gathered, you are your worst critic and allowing what other people have to say to you, unless they have a profound place in your life, shouldn't matter......quit punishing yourself....you're "smarter" than that... BB p.s. don't work too hard!
from damodred :
Now I have to find out what Phenomenology means.
from bebeskid :
ď...if you WANT me to talk you out of it then of course I can...Ē Confidence is such an appealing trait......donít you agree? Something tells me you wrote that last entry naked. Sure, sure....you were hesitant at first, but I believe you threw caution and let yourself go.......please donít ruin it for me and tell me otherwise....k?? Sooo....what you are proposing is that from the very beginnings.......the curious stirrings I felt when I was but a child to the present day.......thatís what you would like for me to recount? Am I wrong for thinking that you have also offered to assist me with this......an elucidator of sorts? Gently lay me down and put things in perspective for me? What a giving soul you have....a true candidate for sainthood perhaps....... Iíll think on this proposal of yours........however, Iím not sure if I care to allow all eyes to see my ďpornographicĒ experiences.......some of the eyes may have been involved you know......Iím not certain it would be appreciated.... perhaps a quiet and private arena would be best.......a place where you can critique me relentlessly.....over and over and over again.........lol BB
from bebeskid :
i thank you for your input...but i have to say....i'm a little hurt by the fact that you've not attempted to talk me out of it.....it's enervated my thoughts of you being a sensitive and giving diarylander.....nothing personal mind you.....just an observation. BB
from bebeskid :
what do you think about sex? It is the universal language....or so i've read... BB
from bebeskid :
hmm..blaze of glory aye?? perhaps i'll consider that....and to further the momentous occasion of my last entry....i should probably wear my pasties with my shiny red panties whilst i write it......that would be "special", wouldn't you agree? But....hmm.....what to write about exactly....hmm a recap of my diarylife?? What are your thoughts??.....afterall, i do value your opinion you know... BB
from bebeskid :
So that you are aware... I have fulfilled 6 of my 7 contractual entries as per the diaryland protocol when announcing "this will be my last entry". Now I need your help for the last... I cannot decide whether to go out quietly....understated if you will....or go out with some life changing philosophical "bon mot" that changes people's lives forever.... either or....the pressure remains... what say you oh quiet, thoughtful one?? BB
from wildforests :
Thanks. He's not about to die anytime soon (I don't think), but I wanted him to live forever. As you do :)
from lighthouse8 :
Happy St. Patrick's Day!!! *hugs*
from lighthouse8 :
Ya think? Definitely!!!
from bebeskid :
sure sure...update less... then everyone will blame me when you start to wear army fatigues...quit grooming yourself.....have bizarre conversations alone on your way to the bus stop....next thing you know.....you'll be shooting up some 7/11 on a thursday afternoon........nope.......i can't take that responsibility. New Rule: Tithonus has use of neurosis m-w-f and every other saturday. Does that work for you? BB
from bebeskid :
new rule: you cannot be neurotic more than twice in a week's span. Save some for the rest of us...selfish. BB
from bebeskid :
"Who casts not up his eye to the sun when it rises? but who takes off his eye from a comet when that breaks out? Who bends not his ear to any bell which upon any occasion rings? but who can remove it from that bell which is passing a piece of himself out of this world? No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main. If a clod be dashed away by the sea, Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as well as if a manor of thy friend's or of thine own were: any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind, and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee." sui generis + passion = greatness now do your homework already....you're stalling.. BB
from justamephit :
Said with all the foolish naivetť of someone who has never spent endless soul-destroying months trapped in the sewer of menial employment...
from lighthouse8 :
Don't give up on your dreams, not a one. You can have it all and do it all. You'll make a wonderful Father someday, and an author, and song writer.....>hugs<
from damodred :
Great now I have Ricky Martin in my head. WAY TO GO! :-p
from damodred :
Thanks (belatedly) for the non-porno love. :)
from papersnow :
oh, four years. i don't have many people in my life i've known that long and still have contact with. we should drink and celebrate, except you live on the other side of the goddamn planet and stuff.
from bebeskid :
that would be pacific time darling........ just give me 12 to 14 hours to get there :) BB
from bebeskid :
:| Unesponsiveness or dumbstruck.....remind me again what that font face represents? BB
from bebeskid :
1-831-420-5030 call me BB
from wildforests :
I like it! I shall now work on bringing it into everyday conversation, and then into the national vocabulary :)
from justamephit :
(*reads the message below* Hmmm..seconded?) Alternatively, and no condemnation to your subconscious implied or even explicit, perhaps you seek out people who are likely to become dependant upon you to stave off the possibility of you ever becoming dependant upon someone else, risking, y'know, vulnerability and the possibility of failure or rejection. I suppose most functioning relationships meet somewhere in the middle, with mutual support rather than dependancy.
from bebeskid :
would i be brash to say you need to get laid, no strings attached? BB
from lighthouse8 :
You're not evil, you just haven't found the perfect gal yet! She's out there waiting for you, just keep looking!
from pink-pearls :
I know man, all I need to know is boys were writing poetry (doesn't matter if it was particularly bad poetry) about me. Doesn't take much to keep me happy.
from pink-pearls :
Um don't you have to be a hardcore sportsd freak to be a jock? Not that I'm doubting your ability to be a jock of course titho
from themoodswing :
Thanks for the note, my dear fellow. I agree with you totally, she's not helping him and she should have stopped a long time ago. I think she realises that, but I guess it's hard for her to let go in that sense. She doesn't want to see her son financially crippled or anything like that. I have to remind myself all the time that I'm not a mother so I can't understand her way of thinking. However, if antyhing was going to make her snap out of it, I would have thought drink-driving would have been it. But no. Nothing will do it. I guess the only consolation is that Brother is heading for a very big fall and is most deserving of it.
from pink-pearls :
god bless your geeky little heart. You made me smile on a bad day, that is a rare feat. So thank you. ps - And I do indeed rock.
from themoodswing :
I see your Cher lyric there. I LOVED her when I was 7. 'If I Could Turn Back Time' had just come out and she rocked my little world. She toured here in 1990 and played in Melbourne ON MY BIRTHDAY. I wanted to go so bad, but my mum didn't think it would be appropriate for me to go, and it was probably over 18 anyway. I tell you, I've never gotten over not seeing her ;)
from pink-pearls :
I honestly never knew there could be bad/boring slacking, thought it was an oxymoron. Alas. Have a happy new year titho, thanks for all your notes and comments this year. I love the titho love.
from dangerspouse :
Hey man, I want to wish you the merriest of Christmases. I hope you got that pile of cash you needed under the tree! Tom :)
from lighthouse8 :
Merry Christmas Grasshopper! *hugs*
from bebeskid :
6-1=5 bb
from lighthouse8 :
Graphed Graft? lol, is that a good thing? hehehe, I hope so! :-) *hugs*
from heartracer :
why thank you! your note was a nice little surprise.
from damodred :
So what IS your MSN?
from lighthouse8 :
Aw, adorable!! What a sight to see.
from justamephit :
Hail Sirrah! My computer has been an antisocial bastard and refused to inform me when notage is received, so I have been inadvertantly ignoring everyone and simultaneously feeling unloved - not a happy state of affairs :) As far as my association with the mysterious group is concerned, that crisis seems to be fading. I think I have managed to severe ties in a careful, rather than drastic way, and I still have a bunch of friends on the other side. So it's all good, after such wistfulness and the usual regrets that comes from moving on in any direction, even a positive one. And with ref to sci/fi books, I keep meaning to read Neal Stephenson, (Quicksilver looks like it might by a Mephit book) but I haven't as yet got round to them. So much trash, so little time :) I think I'm getting more and more of a populist in my old age (I guess this is what an Oxford does for you) but the more I think about it, the more I believe that a book truly gains value by how many people read it. Which is dangerous I know, but still, what's the point of making important points about humanity and the world and society and all that good stuff if you've presented it in such an opaque way that everyone has gone off to read Terry Pratchett instead? Anyway, this is the longest note in the world so I shall go away now!
from bebeskid :
7-1=6
from bebeskid :
Dearest Coadjuvant Confrere: I am a stew of emotion, hold the carrots please. Like a slow cooking stew, one must allow the pot to simmer on low heat until itís completion. Do you truly want to take the responsibility of me stirring myself up and turning into one big brown blob of mush? Incidentally, viva voceÖ.vivaciously verberatedÖ.thank you, it brought a momentary smile. BB (ps: I made up verberated, it was better feng shui)
from bebeskid :
i hate to sound ungrateful....but "F"? F is so cliche.......i could see a "V" maybe or perhaps even a "U".......but F?? I should be happy i suppose......i am now infamous afterall....thank you nonetheless........now i must nap after that hellacious scroll... BB
from bebeskid :
Perhaps i'm simply jealous of my name not being listed as a favorite with your clever comment, alphabetized no less. Would I be a challenging "X", or a fun "Y".....I guess we'll never know now will we.....Pity. BB
from ljungberg8 :
Mr Tithonus! I have said it before, but I truly dig this diary. Anyhoo, Miss 'Berg is hopping over to Clocks. Good to have you back in Oz-now you can watch neighbours for me, hehe :P
from bebeskid :
For the love of God......shorten your favorite diary list....I was so exhausted by the time i found the add a note section, I completely forgot the undoubtedly clever comment i was going to add.......i'm certain it'll come to me again in a week or two... BB
from lighthouse8 :
Welcome Home Grasshopper! {hgus} I'm glad it was a safe trip! How's your Dad doing?
from themoodswing :
42 degrees is a nice welcome home isnt it? :)
from lighthouse8 :
I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad, I sure hope he will be alright. It's a good thing you're heading home, I'm sure your Mom can use the support too. {hugs} travel safe!
from pink-pearls :
titho - I just read your grammar post at 7:30 a.m before coffee. It made my head hurt.
from papersnow :
It was great meeting you! You didn't come across badly at all. However, it's been so long since I last actually engaged in conversation, I think I talked a lot of gibberish. ;)
from lighthouse8 :
Sounds wonderful! I can't wait to see the pictures! AND be careful!! {hugs}
from ljungberg8 :
"I'm planning to live on my fat stores" is the funniest sentance I have read in a long time. Keep up the good work Mr Tith.
from lighthouse8 :
SpaŖ haben, sich amŁsieren Grasshopper! GruŖ und KuŖ :-)
from themoodswing :
Thankyou for your message. I didnt write that entry to get attention or anything, I was just crapping on and being miserable hehe
from lighthouse8 :
Sounds awesome and beautiful. A train ride too? Damn, I am really jealous! Sounds like a perfect trip for a perfect guy. :-)
from liadlaith :
Thank you!
from papersnow :
i love the sound of the more obscure european languages :) i think i might actually sign up for a course in bulgarian or something.
from j-leem :
*insert jealousy* I am a traveller at heart and have not yet been to Hungary....lucky bastard! :D I hope you're taking photos damnit!! Thinking about doing Japan in 2006-I have a fascination. You got me swooning over your "I'm having a good time in Hungary." entries. And *hugs* I love to travel, but I'm with you on the homesickness part yo. Been a while since we talked, glad to know you're okie dokie. Let's do some catching up soonish aye. ♥ - J.
from lighthouse8 :
I vote for the bus, what an awesome way to see the world. Stop here and there or any place you'd like. No schedules, that sounds great too! {hugs}
from pink-pearls :
I like how your mind works, I definitely prefer our version of Paris. Soppy romantic stuff makes me gag at the moment.
from pink-pearls :
Eeee heee you said lusty young wenches, you're so Renaissance Titho. You went to Paris without me?, but we're supposed to always have Paris?!!?!?
from pink-pearls :
I'll really bring them in though with "young naked nubile girls" "naked naked naked", actually this just might up your count even more. I wanna go to Paris Titho, smuggle me in your luggage k
from papersnow :
you will end up in norway, although i must warn you... you thought paris was expensive, right? i read somewhere that a good way to measure a country's price ranges is to check out the price of a big mac meal at mcdonalds. in norway that's ca 6£. and there's taxes on alcohol and cigarettes and, well, everything costs too much. but that's not meant to intimidate you, i still think it's a good idea for you to visit!
from lighthouse8 :
YAY for Grasshopper! Ya happy little guy! {hugs} Enjoy Paris!
from carla-star :
luna is awesome! she's my favorite apart from lupin because she's so out there
from mindriot :
thank you. :) I wasnt sure if I should have posted that but like I said I feel as though i owe my readers. All of you talk about personal issues and emotions that make me feel like I know you and I talk complete and utter rubbish that doesnt reveal anything beyond that there issues that make me angry and I'm vocal about them.
from justamephit :
Yes, it was quite an experience wasn't it? It was very lovely to meet you though - and you come across very much as one might except from your writing, a little shy, witty, far too clever and NOT A SERIAL KILLER! :) Unfortunately, I probably came across as full of cold :( Hopefully I will capture you again before you depart when I am 100% Mephit again. xxx
from papersnow :
i have that beef with women authors, too. i don't like ANY of them! most of the 'great women of literature' only ever write about, gee, i'm depressed or i'm oppressed or i'm stuck in a FAMILY, ooo! arrgh. um. i'm trying to think of any female authors i can name as exceptions, but i actually can't think of any. i quite liked the first books from Linn Ullmann, a norwegian writer i know has been translated to english, but then the third book came and it was horribleeeee. sigh.
from pink-pearls :
Aawww bless you, yep favourite away. She's very blatant with her snooping and has been reading mine for ages. But thanks for checking first. Aw I feel all squishy now.
from lighthouse8 :
Do you think New Zealand could invade the US too? Think it would help? Nah, nothing will help.....
from themoodswing :
We do suck *nods sadly*
from papersnow :
in this household we play a lot of games like "Zombies!!!" and "Ninja Burger". ;) They're hysterically funny (in ninja burger you must defend your franchise's honor by delivering burgers on time, and people ordering burgers includes elvis, santa claus and roleplaying game-nerds) - they're not highly challenging, but still, fun. Except for that... I've actually always liked Monopoly. ;)
from lighthouse8 :
I love boardgames too! No better way to spend a rainy day/night then curled up on the floor playing games! ;o)
from ljungberg8 :
make savings!put board gmes in your luggage! its cool!
from crazee24 :
Boardgames are AMAZING don't worry you're not the only one who thinks so. My boyfriend and I love to play them, especially Risk. I like Monopoly, but playing it too often gets very boring. Basically if you get the three orange properties you're more then likely to win the game. I haven't been able to go out there and try a large variety of board games though, however it would be awesome to see what's all out there. To clean up all info on that computer simply go to "Tools" then 'Internet Options'. Once there delete the history, temporary internet files, and cookies. Nothing's ever 100% because their are higher powers that can get into that computer at the cafť I'm sure but that will prevent other users to getting into your diary.
from forestdream :
OK, I take it back. Christian mysticism can be beautiful. The plain old everyday "marriage is good" religion though, can be icky.
from lighthouse8 :
lol, you are a NUT! :o)
from carla-star :
i got to see emporer and the assassin in the eight grade. had a really nifty history teacher!
from lighthouse8 :
Phew! I don't read Ann Tyler. :o) Are you having any fun? Are you finding any of your old friends?
from ljungberg8 :
are you english?i didnt know that!
from lighthouse8 :
Glad to hear you're safe! Sounds like you're having a pretty good time too. When do you come home?
from lighthouse8 :
How was the flight? Are you in England? Are you safe? Where are you? {{hugs}}
from justamephit :
Yes I did ... briefly. I was sublimely and irredeemably rubbish at it - my daughter was a complete wreck in less than a week and I felt too bad to continue ruining her pixellated existence.
from carla-star :
oh i don't know..chicken soup, lots of liquids?
from ljungberg8 :
when in korea-try some traditional korean herbal remedies-they work!
from lighthouse8 :
Do you have access to brandy? A hot toddy will snap you back into the ďfeel goodĒ world AND it will help you sleep! {hugs}
from themoodswing :
My family are from England. I love the country's history and want to go to a uni there to study history (don't like my chances somehow). Shame it's so damn expensive to go there :(
from themoodswing :
*begs on her knees* TAKE ME TO ENGLAND WITH YOOOOOOOOOU!!
from carla-star :
saw you listed me. thanks. i love you too! ~Carla
from lighthouse8 :
It sounds like a once in a lifetime opportunity. I bet you could suck it up and stay in the dorm too, to save a bit of money. Take a risk, and enjoy Korea just a bit longer. Sounds like it would make you happy, and nothing is more important then a happy Grasshopper! :o)
from pink-pearls :
Personally I'm with you on the to love Pride in Prejudice you've got to be jonesing on Darcy, simple as that. And with the marriage for money, for a societal belief so ingrained I think that she didn't give too much thought to it, it was just what you did. Hence why even Elizabeth the "forward thinking girl" is subtley in awe and impressed by Pemberly and Mr Darcy when she visits. Ummm yeah
from euphorically :
chanel is not permitted to win. i am not buying into her coy little act. i am coming to actually loathe her. however, i quite like that plastic guy now. its mostly to do with his work, he is a graphic designer and thinks macs are far far superior.
from ljungberg8 :
Good afternoon Mr Tith! I have not been to D-Land in ages-this is my first oppourtunity to catch up with reading diaries-you went to Korea! That must be exciting. Stay safe and happy-from Miss 'Berg
from carla-star :
coolishness!
from carla-star :
are you travelling all over the world and stuff? Do you have to think about those quotes for a while, or do they just kind of come to you bc you remember them so well?
from justamephit :
Actually, says the smug lit student, you're a bit on the wrong side, sweetheart. Only the eldest of the Bennett girls was entitled to be called Miss Bennett - then they took their first names so. So Miss Bennett is Jane, Miss Elizabeth is, err, Elizabeth and so forth *goes off to hide from the pelting of raw fruit*
from justamephit :
Eeeek...I'm slightly belated but fuzzy birthday love, darlin' xxx
from lighthouse8 :
YAY for you! Good job on the guitar AND the new place. Both sound like they've made you happy happy happy! A perfect birthday present for yourself. {{hugs}}
from crazee24 :
HAPPY... ALMOST BIRTHDAY!! HAVE A GOOD ONE ;) -Justine
from themoodswing :
Happy birthday, Chumblybum :)
from lighthouse8 :
Happy Birthday Grasshopper!! {{hugs}}
from damodred :
I dearly hope you took a picture of the shirt at least.
from giallothang :
Heh. Great minds think alike, I guess. :)
from themoodswing :
Good to hear you're (sort of) getting the hang of the lingo. I find being a vegetarian hard living in Australia because I'm such a picky eater. I would die of starvation if I went somewhere like Korea hehe Keep enjoying yourself and stay safe.
from eve-louise :
Yay, titho is safe and well. Glad you're enjoying yourself but remember low salt diet sunshine, lecture over. Keep safe and happy
from giallothang :
You changed to to what I suggested :) Yay! Am I the only one who has had this honor? Safe trip by the way.
from lighthouse8 :
Enjoy your trip and take lots of pictures! Be safe AND happy! :o)
from eta-c :
have a good trip titty. stay safe (and away from bridges) :) Vic.
from giallothang :
Ah, figured as much. If I could pick anything, I would have to go with "Jumbo Jahoobies"
from giallothang :
Ok, I've wracked my brain and I cannot fathom what Jolly Jet has anything to do with me. Please explain :)
from amberfalls :
I've been here for 8 months. If you're looking for work, you'll have no trouble finding it, but I highly reccomend getting in touch with a good recruiter. The advantage of a recruiter is that they will work for you to find you exactly what you want and they are able to negotiate with schools, which is very difficult for a foreigner to do. I'll try to get you some websites. Whatever you do, don't work for Berlitz. The hours are horrible, the pay is even worse and you're schedule changes everday. On top of that, they treat teachers like slaves. Also, stay away from a place called Wonderland. I haven't worked there but I've heard a lot of horror stories. Good luck and I'll send you some website links when I've got time.
from themoodswing :
I hope my Brown Belly is an attractive one *ahem* ;)
from amberfalls :
by the way, if you're in Seoul, you can meet me for coffee at the starbucks (evil empire) in yeouido.
from eve-louise :
Yay, I'm zesty zest, thank you muchly titho. Hope you're fit and well...or at least getting there
from giallothang :
Hey, I just noticed that you listed one of my entries on your favorites. I can probably guess the reason... ;) and thank you!
from lighthouse8 :
Donít be afraid to talk to your doctors, and question the shit out of them! If you donít like the way they are handling your case, or what they are prescribing, find a new doctor. Try to think positive, thatís the best medicine for you! HUGS!
from damodred :
It's not like lie detectors work anyway.
from amberfalls :
Hello. Thanks for adding me to your list. I'm enjoying your diary. Lots of interesting things to read.
from themoodswing :
*giggles* Awww, when I saw 10 messages in my mailbox telling me I had notes from you, I thought it was because you really liked me ;)
from ljungberg8 :
Hey Mr Tithonus. Long time no speak. Everyone seems to be saying "sorry to hear about your kidneys" or words to that effect...I will simply say enjoy your kidneys while they are there. I hope tht doesn't sound insensitive-I mean it in the best way. And I shit you not-if you ever some to England, I'll give you one of mine. Chin up chook :)
from themoodswing :
Sorry to hear about your health woes. The best thing you can do is read everything you can about the condition and see if there's anything you can eat/drink to help it. Also, would you consider acupuncture? A friend of mine has it as she's going through early menopause (she's only 25) and she swears by it. Could be something worth looking in to. Keep your chin up :)
from lighthouse8 :
Sorry to hear that Grasshopper. You can add my name to the list of donors! HUGS
from elipsis :
hey you... i don't know what to say. if, in your old age, you ever need a kidney, you can have one of mine. seriously, with love.
from lighthouse8 :
Very cute! However, how did you know that is exactly whatís been happening to me the last few weeks??? Oh! YOU did forget to add in the virus attacks! :o)
from lighthouse8 :
YAY for Grasshopper! Sounds like an AWESOME trip! Luck! Luck! Luck! AND how long is a little while???
from themoodswing :
hehe Yeah, you're right about the body of the book being perfect, although my idea of a perfect book is a really old one that's got a musty smell and is falling apart :) And going on holiday at the spur of the moment is the best way to do it. If you think and plan too much then things will always go wrong. Fly by the seat of your pants and everything will go great.
from papersnow :
scandinavia's an awful long way from korea, isn't it? have fun, though :)
from damodred :
What themoodswing said! Much envy. Some of us don't live in europe you know. :(
from themoodswing :
Korea! Europe! *JEALOUSY*
from themoodswing :
I wouldnt want to change my body or have sex with a guy that had a perfect body. Given the chance of doing either, I'd probably go and read a book instead *shrug*
from desiree655 :
Mmm.. don't really have time to go into this, but I found this link <br> http://www.utm.edu/research/iep/h/hedonism.htm that might bring in some more research for you to read. It's not exactly rocket science, but,, meehh..
from desiree655 :
I think I understand what you're saying. Let me regurgitate and see if it's about the same. Your saying that despair happens when the unconscious mind and the conscious mind compare notes and find that your conscious mind, who overrides or reroutes instinctual knowledge and avoids it, has done so to an important part of your core personality/self. And in doing that, you are making yourself less animal, which is against human nature? And after you've done this conscious-over-unconscious thought long enough, you confuse yourself on whether or not you're being selfish or selfless, which by definition is a social-trait. Your own mind.. your base lizard self will always be selfish, it's the instictual mind, keeps you away from hot things. But our conscious mind overrides it, as humans, to say... take the hot potato out of the oven so it won't burn even though it's so freaking hot we wouldn't normally touch it. Bah, sorry.. I'll have to come back to this, it's intriguing, but i'm not giving it my full attention, I've got to go to the vet in like.. 30 mins. I just had to say something though.
from giallothang :
Right back atcha. Seems like I joined your mass of adoring fans just in time. That warmth entry was lovely. Take care :)
from papersnow :
I'll get the max scheler book as soon as I can :) Thank you, apparently you're always my safest bet when I'm in need of philosophical advice/assistance.
from lighthouse8 :
Sounds like a perfect day, a perfect feeling!
from themoodswing :
I dont find food disgusting at all (with the exception of meat)... quite the opposite in fact. I just hate the way people behave when there's something for free on offer. It really makes me sick. Some people have nothing and most people act like they'd kill their mother for a free feed. *sigh*
from aardbei :
hey man. i'm back. btw, you said something about a review site? which one? love meredith
from euphorically :
i am finding civilisation impossible to figure out. the tutorial is a little helpful, though a game overview or something would be nice. what will you do now you have defered?
from themoodswing :
When friends keep asking for something after you've said no it indicates a lack of respect, as well as an attempt to control you (which you already know). I HATE it when people don't take me at my word, or turn things around and make my stance an attack on them. It's bullshit. I used to be something of a pushover, but I put my foot down hard and people very quickly got the picture. Dont bother with the subtle stuff..most people are too wrapped up in themselves to notice it.
from eve-louise :
Yeah man, I love being the IT Comms girl - I get all the nifty items. Plus I get all withdraw-ly when I don't have Diaryland for a few days. And thanks for the congrats *blush*
from dangerspouse :
Hey, thanks for stopping by with the great dead cow suggestions! Really, that was very thoughtful of you, and I enjoyed the URL you sent also. To answer your question: she does indeed get me something every year. In fact, she picks one from the "modern" list to give me, and WANTS one from the traditional side. So both are covered. Anyway, I'm just gonna hit a mall, close my eyes and point. Whatever it's pointing too, I think I'm going to buy. My head is about to bleed out from thinking about this. And hey man, if I'd married you, I would have gotten you a leather guitar. Because I appreciate you that much.
from themoodswing :
Buy me a guitar. I want a guitar. I cant play to save myself, but I want to learn *le sigh*
from lighthouse8 :
If it helps, you can blame me. If it doesnít help, you can still blame me. Youíre not alone Grasshopper!
from themoodswing :
Thanks for your note. Its accuracy is quite scary. *nervous laugh* I just read your current entry.. My friend Tom talks about his struggles with being "good" too, only when he was young he trained himself to be the 'good boy' that everyone wanted him to be. Now at 24 he feels like a fraud because deep down he's not the stereotypical good boy that he portrayed. He's currently experimenting with his Inner Bastard. It makes me sad that he feels so lost in himself. I want him to find who he really is but at the same time I want him to remain as the Tom I know and love. Alas, I think that Tom is already gone. My reason for saying all this is I think you shouldn't try to be anything but yourself, because even the most subtle change can have awful effects.
from liadlaith :
Alas, tis but a passing memory within the dank confines of my room.
from eve-louise :
Oh tit-ho thanks for the poem - although it made no sense whatsoever I loved it. Yep, maybe I'm not so commitment-phobic after all.
from im-the-mary :
I actually did work at a cinema complex when I was 15. I was pretty disenchanted by it. Maybe there is no perfect job for me. I'm just destined to marry a rich guy and spend my days being fabulous. I won't argue with that in the slightest :)
from eta-c :
and by the way, i'm good thanks. saw bo campbells bloody hell on satdie and still humming. You been to see him? I thought it would be up your alley.
from eta-c :
could be worse? what the hell kind of answer is that? you have both your arms and legs right? oh, damn, i forgot about that nasty paper shredding accident, sorry.
from eta-c :
gday tits, long time no stalk, hope you are well :)
from lighthouse8 :
Itís not a bad sign if the people youíre talking too are JT fans. Besides, watching an awesome movie is much better then chatting. :o)
from themoodswing :
You know, I've been trying to think of the perfect word to describe JT for a long time, and you've hit on it: slimy. *gags at the thought of him*
from themoodswing :
Thanks for your note :) I love that the Vatican think yoga is something to be worried about.
from dangerspouse :
What? And spoil the Joy Of Discovery for her? Give me SOME credit for being a gentleman!
from dangerspouse :
I needed someone to fall back on during dry spells. Plus, my clothes were getting dirty....
from dangerspouse :
See, this is where it helps not to have a sense of ethics. If you'd just do as your "jeweled javelin" does, you'd treat women like paper towels: rip off a piece, then crumble her into a ball and toss her into the the trash when your done. Then move on to the next one. Simple! Now don't you feel better?
from eve-louise :
Thank you muchly for the clarification, and I don't think any of this makes you a bad person. You're human just as everybody else, and you should stop being so hard on yourself sunshine.
from justamephit :
Hmmmmm...that's really complex, isn't it? Darling, you're a mess ... *tries to think of something intelligent and illuminating to comment ... fails miserably* I guess as much as you like being a "nice guy" and no matter how much it seems like any girls dream, it's not really a healthy way to forge a healthy relationship. There must be balance in the force, young Skywalker. Someone much wiser than me once said "never do anything in the first few weeks of a relationship you're not willing to do indefinitely" which I think is good guidance. After all, you exhaust yourself with nice-ness... also, that's not the way it's meant to be because it leads to a totally screwed power dynamic. Not, as you may think, with the girl having it all, but the other way round because fulfilling someone else's needs is often about avoiding one's own. Trust issues, perhaps, says Mephit, helping herself to a cigar in manner of Freud. Besides, the things that make a relationship special are the things you do for *each other*.
from im-the-mary :
thanks for what you said. But I want my writing to be funny because I enjoy writing as an art form, and not just as an outlet. Although I admit I am considerably better with characters and events that are fictional.
from eve-louise :
I liked that quote, I will use and claim it as my own - hope you don't mind. And I want to see a post about the boy-guilt you're suffering from, k.
from forestdream :
Well yeah - advice from wankers. But that doesn't apply to advice from tithonuses :)
from elipsis :
you're so wise! :) "The need to let go." THAT is my surfboard. no wonder i'm confused, here... :D thank you a million times over, and have a wonderful day!
from eve-louise :
tit-ho I refuse to be a man-hating scary girl who'll believe that. Besides we all know you're an absolute sweetheart, you can deny it all you want but I know
from dangerspouse :
If you're so generous where the hell's my subscription to "Boobs-n-Guns Weekly", huh? Sheesh, I've been asking forever. Oh well, I guess I'll console myself by continuing to read your entries. That's almost the same thing.
from eve-louise :
No see i loved Pride and Prejudice and I loved Wuthering Heights, I just hated the characters in Wuthering Heights. I mean Heathcliff - lovable?, Cathy - endearing?. Any of the Lintons? Nope hated them all
from justamephit :
Yeah, I should totally have sex with you :) I love the idea for cigarette porn ... I laughed so hard I had to explain it to my colleagues at work. Actually, let's take it up a notch, maybe it was the slash opportunities of the latest Harry Potter film but there should by Diaryland fan-fic I reckon. You could have Mephit/Tithonus and Lia/Mindriot and all manner of giggle-inducing combinations. Indeed, why stop at two? I personally would be massively up for Mephit/Tithonus/Lia. Also would have to be written in style of rabid American fan girls ... we would all have liquid, long-lashes eyes and huge assets. Also we would routinely hurt and then comfort each other. I can imagine the dialogue now "Your fearsome command of the subjunctive makes me hot for your rhetorical flair, dear Tithonus." "Oh, yes, yes, yes, Mephit, extend your metaphors for me..." Err, anyway, just getting really silly now aren't I? I think you're probably right about the mastery thing ... sexual prowess ties in with ego in a big way doesn't it? I guess I was speaking with reference to mediocre sex. Good sex is good without you haven't to, err, perform as it were. But casual mediocre sex ... well, you might as well let teh other person have as good a time as possible. And then get out of there. Anyway, take care. xxx
from lighthouse8 :
Hilarious! Perfect name!
from bebeskid :
may i quote you on that?
from bebeskid :
:|
from bebeskid :
hmmm unresponsiveness is a good response if you think about it.....right?
from bebeskid :
lol what does :| mean exactly?
from bebeskid :
I read your excerpt entitled Hypothetically Speaking and i had to comment because I too have had this happen to me....let me explain: I've always had a curiosity of the exploration of complex carbohydrate biosynthesis in bacteria, viruses, and animals using biochem tools. As you probably already know, most life on earth, from microbes to humans, utilizes the specific interaction of proteins with carbohydrates for recognition and adhesion between cells. My laboratory has been studying the biosynthesis of polysaccharides and oligosaccharides using the tools of biochemical analysis, carbohydrate chemistry and molecular biology. Although the main focus has been on glycosaminoglycans, a class of essential polysaccharides, which includes hyaluronan, heparin and chondroitin, I believe that too much time has been spent on these molecules and more concentration needs to take place in the extracellular space and/or cell surfaces throughout the human body where they play various roles in signaling, adhesion, recognition as well as structural elements. In computing the equations, i believe there is a tool that could be devised to cut through the time needed to gather necessary information to test specific theory, therefore pinpointing certain pathogenic bacteria coat themselves with the identical or similar polymers to enhance infection; I was giddy at the simplicity of it all and that my discovery and my name would be historically prominent forever and ever after i formulated all the specifics...unfortunately, sponge bob square pants came on and i lost my momentum...God, I hate when that happens.
from ljungberg8 :
original inspiration!
from invisiblepal :
Keep working on the first thing, not the other more pressing work. (I have a habit of rarely finishing the inspired things if I leave them to go do something else.) Good luck with whichever thing you decide to work on!
from eta-c :
you're up late on a school night titty:)
from lighthouse8 :
muhahahaha Lighthouse8-Custard-Eating magic Monkey beats Tithonus-Poison-Eating Killer Monkey...5.9 to 3.7 MUHAHAHAHAHA. Check it out: http://thesurrealist.co.uk/monkey.cgi?att=Lighthouse&def=tithonus
from euphorically :
thank you very very much, that was a lovely thing to be told. i always thought i wrote about the most banal boring stuff, but its nice to be told otherwise. though, it would be nice to have your intellect...
from lighthouse8 :
This may be a public diary, but that doesnít give anyone the right to spy on you. What the fuck is up with that? I hope itís not happening to you, Grasshopper! *hugs*
from ljungberg8 :
your mind works in an amazing way. thats a sincere comment-not a frivolous one. i enjoyed this entry.
from paleblue- :
tits-ahoy!
from liadlaith :
Your secret is SAFE WITH ME.
from slumper :
wooo! you da r0x0r boy!!!! do is the west! yay!!!! congrats xoxo
from lighthouse8 :
That is just wonderful Grasshopper! Congratulations! YAY for you!!
from gypped :
hehe we'll just leave it at that then, shall me?
from gypped :
well I would hope so, else we're all fucked. I completely understand your point of view though. and I never said I hadn't participated in self defeating stupid destructive behaviours, so I'm not all about preaching here. thanks for the note hey. I didn't expect to get an entirely warm recentption to my entry, so I'm glad you wrote to me.
from eve-louise :
That's what I thought, thanks for the advice
from lighthouse8 :
Your writing is awesome!
from penny-lane- :
Thanks for the note of support. It was much appreciated. :)
from angel-stars :
Hey, thanks for always commenting on my diary, it's good to have somebody objective who just tells it like it is. I'm sick of all the sugar-coated stuff, you know? Anyway, yeah after I wrote that entry about being angry, I did tell him how I was feeling...and even just letting him know made me feel a million times better. Maybe all I needed (for the time being) was for him to realize how I was feeling...if he actually understands it, that is. Meh.
from justamephit :
God, you're so right. So much of theory is theory of theory of theory ... it's academic masturbation, I tell you.
from lighthouse8 :
Thatís really cool Grasshopper! I think we need to get drunk together. :o)
from justamephit :
Thank you so much for for your kind words. I'm feeling much better after a couple of days curled up at home, feeling safe and loved. To be honest, I don't want to think about it too much - But maybe it was because he was threatened by this non-submissive dark-eyed white woman showing her legs and demanding the same respect as a man... and power is usually about hate and fear isn't it?
from lighthouse8 :
I couldnít agree more! :|
from elipsis :
It took me too long to respond to your note, left so kindly. Even when I can see the truth in what you're saying and know the purity of your intentions... well.. it's still a hard little morsel to swallow. There's something very cruel about love, I think. What other kind of animal eats you alive while expecting you to both enjoy and take responsibility for your own digestion? I mean jeez. :) Anyway... I don't know if my little issues will be resolved any time soon... but thank you for your words, your love, and your presence on this earth. I don't know what else to say.
from eve-louise :
tithonus, that's not advice man, that's something my grams would say. Give me a definite something, c'mon you know you want to, pplleeease
from slumper :
YES!!!! I ACCEPT!!!! but i'm just about to leave work early (w00t!), so i won't be able to reply till tonight. which is kinda sad for a friday night, but i'm not fussed :) weeee! something to do!!! go go go!!! entertain me!!!!
from creamblast :
It's some cheap retarded brand my mother bought from Sears. I thought you might also like to know that I used to be godisfemale.
from ljungberg8 :
sorry to hear that dude
from lighthouse8 :
I'm sorry :o(
from ljungberg8 :
thanks for posting that mrs einstein thing-it was really interesting
from lighthouse8 :
Only for you Grasshopper! :o)
from eve-louise :
I feel your pain, yesterday I was trying to say watch, as in " Anyone seen my .....?". Lucky I have smart friends who got the "you know, round the wrist, tick tick, time thingy". Meh, what do you do?
from slumper :
You've made a really gross day very much shinier :)
from eve-louise :
Oh good lord no, so not a mother.I'd probabaly leave it at the pub or bus. But I do own a cat and because I'm a retarded girl I use the mother term, same but different
from ljungberg8 :
that uberfeminist lady was married-so how hypercritical is she to condemn marriage!
from euphorically :
dichotomies. it wasn't even that hard. am so embarassed about my silly message before, please ignore, was feeling very fevered about it.
from euphorically :
shit, this is going to be a weird message, whats that word, i can't find it anywhere and its been bothering me all day...i am sure sturt hall mentions it a lot, 'di..' something. i think it means the opposing forces or an aspect of. i am sure you have no idea what i am talking about or its something obvious, its just driving me insane. thank you.
from euphorically :
If patriachy had been accepted in place of the woman's revolution, if people had agreed that talking about it would never changed something so entrenched, do you think women would have even some of the so called 'equalities' they do now? Badges like 'Save the Male' worn by women are for middle-upper class urbanites who are led to believe that because women have some equality, they should relax, and that infact, and then have the nerve to consider themselves liberals, freethinkers or humanitarians. Just because we are not starving in Australia, doesn't mean we should wear badges with 'fuck people in other countries, who are hungry, I'm well fed.' What I am saying is, in a roundabout kind of way, any form of accepting patriarchy, because things for women 'aren't so bad' is merely ignoring the world of difference between women's rights in Australia and 99% of the world. Does that many any sense? And I don't hate men, I just think wearing a badge saying 'Save men' is like wearing a Che Gureva tshirt, all statement and no fact.
from forestdream :
I liked the AA metaphor - it's a nicely practical way of looking at things. Thanks :)
from ljungberg8 :
in reply to your note a)i will keep checking in on you and neighbours! b) when im thinking, i think about how sad it is to see others leave. i almost cried thinking about when my cat dies! shes only 9ish. aw. i dont think about how they die-thats too morbid for me! i do think about how i die though. there is no mental picture-its just the feeling of death-argh, i sound so crap! thank you for your note :)
from mindriot :
I'm usually l33t. I just got kicked off before I could check my atrocious htmling efforts. :)
from lighthouse8 :
Happy Easter Grasshopper! Hope itís a good one!
from vividdreamer :
Thanks for the tip. I may just have to give the gimp a try. ;-) Been poking around a bit here...I'm intrigued. I have a feeling that I'll be back.
from eve-louise :
Thanks love, don't think we will need to do the bomb threat today, but I'll hold you to it if I need it later
from lighthouse8 :
Grasshopper, you CAN do this, you know you can! Just relax and let your creative juices flow! >hugs<
from forestdream :
I'd be happy to read it over - it's always been a big problem for me. silver_rain16 at hotmail.com
from eta-c :
haha, hey, thats cool tit, its good to hear track 9 again. :)
from eta-c :
hey tits :) thanks, it was a nice suprise at the end of an extremely crappy week even if the lack of postage did disturb me a little...heh, well, i will have to send something in return, lets see, i'll bet you don't have the best of Berlin? :0
from eve-louise :
Not really hot hot, but at the moment most men are looking good to me. Besides man if i say he's ugly then by default so am I, according to James's funky country spiel anyway. Trust me, it makes sense in my head.
from ljungberg8 :
:((((( im crying now-neighbours is the best. you should take some chill time-and watch an episode-and you must tell me what happens in it! i never miss an episode-and if i do i get my ma to tape it for me-its soooo ace! (btw-i just saw your updated profile, its quite funny!)
from lighthouse8 :
Anything for you! :o)
from ljungberg8 :
milk is healthy, fool
from lighthouse8 :
You never gave us your answer...which would you choose?
from jonathan :
I'm always tickled pink when someone puts me on the hit list. I wonder why?
from ljungberg8 :
i woud give my life for any living thing, im not so important! but ancient relics...i dunno, probably not, coz i dont really care about those-unless it was something i cared bout.
from lighthouse8 :
Iím selfish! I would choose to have a child.
from dangerspouse :
Did you REALLY write "marine animal", or did you go back and edit it, then claim you were right the first time (like I would have)? Hmmmm. Never can tell with you brainy types. Anyway, you're absolutely determined to phrase this hypothetical so that someone, somewhere will bite, huh? Ok, fine. Kill all the cockroaches so I can have some fleeting gasps of happiness in my otherwise miserable existance. And toss in kittens, too.
from ljungberg8 :
clearly-dont have children. there are so many endngered species round-cause "man" is killing them. tsk.
from liadlaith :
No, because I don't want a child. Stinky, sticky, squirmy little things.
from dangerspouse :
Um...Rays aren't mammals. Did you mean "Manatee"? Either way I wouldn't have the kid. Except for lunch, maybe.
from slumper :
she's such a beige whore (a beige whore who today has been strangly nice). woot! okey dokes, i'm free then, sounds good, time, place? well i'm about to head home so give me a call or i'll call you and we can organise da deets! :)
from forestdream :
Coriander! Herb of the devil! Not really. But it tastes like stink bugs, and is generally yucky. I'm gradually becoming more tolerant as my taste buds reluctantly leave teenagehood behind, but meals strongly flavoured with coriander are not fun.
from slumper :
you!! so the deal is, i'm a dumb bitch who went and got herseld wasted last night when she was sick, so now i'm sick and hungover and i know i'm a huge cunt but the only thing i can do is go home and pass out for many many hours. also, sorry for the horribly fucked message i left on your machine, as you can probably tell from it my head is a pile of mush at the moment. but i thought i'd leave a message here aswell incase you don't go home, anyway when you get either could you call me and let me know, if i don't hear from you, ahhh, shit, i guess if i haven't heard from you, fuck, what do i do if i haven't heard from you? please, for my sanity, get a freakin mobile. i left my work number on your machine aswell, i'll be here until 5. i'll keep trying to call! oh, and like i said on the message, are you free sunday night? or if not, tuesday?
from lighthouse8 :
Is big sister returning a good thing or a bad thing? A champion in your corner or an enemy waiting to strike?
from dangerspouse :
You're right - I did misunderstand you. "Diary as Catharsis" is much different than what I assumed. Sorry about that, I'll keep it in mind for the future. And thank you so much for the nice plugs for my diary! That was very, very sweet of you :) Of course, it figures the day you do this is the day I write a crappy entry, lol! Oh well, the gods play their little jokes, no? Take care, and thanks again....
from shinodababe :
Where have you been?I missed you.
from dangerspouse :
Great cartoon! Very witty :)
from lighthouse8 :
Within your heart there is strength and courage, and a wondrous beauty you have yet to discover.
from dangerspouse :
Gosh, I feel so bad for you! I was all set to leave a funny comment about the note you posted at my place, but it seems so inappropriate now. I hope you can resolve this demon in you - it sounds like a terrible thing to be constantly buckled by crushing introspection.
from dangerspouse :
How the hell did you know my javelin is jewelled? And how did you know that "javelin" is the euphanism I use?? I'm damn impressed.
from lighthouse8 :
Never stay away!!! :o)
from lighthouse8 :
Your writing is always supreme Ė drunk or sober!
from ljungberg8 :
Hmmm.../me thinks. Okay, since you apologised nicely I will forgive thee. But...to be COMPLETELY forgiven...you must watch an episode of Neighbours and tell me what happens.
from ljungberg8 :
neighbours is LIFE!
from ljungberg8 :
NEIGHBOURS IS NOT "FUCKING STUPID"
from euphorically :
absolutely, fire away with these questions..
from caraxus :
Hey mate - sorry we missed you too! Didn't have your mobile no. or anything and when you called/left messages you didn't leave a number to get back to you on to tell you we missed you. No sweat - next time man, next time!
from dangerspouse :
All drawings are inherently evil (per my Imam) so really, you're not dissembling at all. Besides, who cares if you disappoint someone who's searching for pictures of suffering puppies or something?
from typemoi :
I was totally expecting some evil pictures -mutter-
from lighthouse8 :
Aw Grasshopper...be nice to Auntie. (lmao)
from ljungberg8 :
OOOOOOOOOOOOOH HEAVEN IS A PLACE ON EARTH! love that song!
from eta-c :
O Crown of Light, O Darkened One, I never thought weíd meet. You kiss my lips, and then itís done: Iím back on Boogie Street. A sip of wine, a cigarette, And then itís time to go I tidied up the kitchenette; I tuned the old banjo. Iím wanted at the traffic-jam. Theyíre saving me a seat. Iím what I am, and what I am, Is back on Boogie Street... :) That's the one I love most off the latest. If you really could make me a copy it would make me very happy.
from lighthouse8 :
Oh man, that just sucks! Iím sorry to hear the night turned out so...so...so bad.
from lighthouse8 :
Oh man, that just sucks! Iím sorry to hear the night turned out so...so...so bad.
from eta-c :
hey tits, that man ray thing is def. worth seeing! and yay for the rain!!! hope all is well :)
from caraxus :
No! Come along - it'll be awesome, meet Eve and Ash and Adam!!! Yay - we'll be at the gate at 6:45. Email me and I'll send you my mobile no. - kelar_caraxus@hotmail.com
from lighthouse8 :
Thanks Cutie! :)
from ljungberg8 :
Yay for our yayness. How was Bowie?
from dangerspouse :
Oooh! You're seeing Bowie! Take me! Take me!! Rats, you didn't take me. Oh well. More vegetable soup for me, then. "Pimp's got a Caddy and a lady's got a Chrysler...."
from ljungberg8 :
Bowie Bowie Bowie!
from lighthouse8 :
Nope! I'm waiting for you! *wink* *wink*
from lighthouse8 :
YOU are hilarious! I love your stories.
from euphorically :
why are you not teaching this year? i think you have inspired me to pay the $15 for watchmen!
from dangerspouse :
I hope this doesn't sound like heresy, but...try PAR-boiling snow peas before you saute (or stir fry) them. Actually, what you want to do is "blanch and shock" them. Boil them for about 2 minutes, or until they turn bright green. Then quickly scoop them out and dump them in a bowl of ice water. This will set the color, keep the crispness, and allow them to be sauteed without risking burning the skin before the inside is done. This works for a lot of greens, btw, and is a staple technique in many restaurants. (Sorry I haven't been around, btw - MONTHS of computer probs! I'm enjoying catching up on your stuff now though :)
from forestdream :
You literary Nazi you. Not really. I shall take your advice in mind, and remember the values of a varied book diet.
from lighthouse8 :
I hear you, I feel your pain and I understand completely Grasshopper. Canít live with them, canít live without them. :|
from ljungberg8 :
im working on it ;)
from liadlaith :
And maybe this time I'll actually look up your books : )
from ljungberg8 :
67.50-how much is that in pounds? reading your entry made me really hope that i get tickets for pixies now!
from eve-louise :
You are uber-boy. You give me advice on contraceptive methods and bikini waxing. I think I'm in love with you
from eve-louise :
I hate you because you're beautiful, not because you corrected my spelling/grammar love.
from eve-louise :
I hate you because you're beautiful, not because you corrected my spelling/grammar love.
from lighthouse8 :
Iíd love to swap places with you! I guarantee you itís not anywhere close to being stupidly hot here. Brain freeze versus brain meltdown...hmm, which is better?
from eta-c :
hi tits, holy cow! could it get any hotter in town...uhh, im melting, its so hot here i can't write...are you outta ya slumpy thing? hope all is well Mr Onus?
from lighthouse8 :
I hope youíre feeling better, Grasshopper! xoxo
from ljungberg8 :
Thanks for your note Mr Tithonus. I have taken it into deep consideration! I bloody love Pixies, so I might just "scalper"-whatever that means. :)
from forestdream :
Well, hey! It's not so complicated after all. Thanks for explaining - I really can't have been paying much attention in first year :)
from sarika :
lol, actually the bit about friends...! x
from lighthouse8 :
Oh sure, make me out to be the bad gal. Am I the only one that misses your updates Grasshopper? Nooooo! You do have so much to say, you say it so well and itís so DEEP! I luv it! Thanks for the smile!
from sarika :
so very true
from eta-c :
mate, we don't talk anymore, we have drifted apart, you've changed, it's that new crowd your running with, they're wild, they'll get you in trouble...when are you gonna settle down?...are you on drugs?...have you been drinking?...come here young man and let me smell your breath...WOOHOO!!!!! IM BACK IN ACTION>>>LOOK OUT SIDINEE!!!!! i hope you are well tits, maybe if i get bored i will stalk you. :)
from lighthouse8 :
Not acceptable! No Way! You already had a holiday, and canít go again until next year, unless of course itís to Northern Italy with me. :o)
from slumper :
I think the reason it irked me so much is just because I havenít heard a comment like that in a long time. Probably because Iíve spent the last month with arthur, who is decidedly asexual and sees my boobs all the time and doesnít even look twice. It wasnít just those comments either, there was just this kind of sexual overtone to everything, just seemed like he was trying hard to make him and arthur have a boys club. He is far from wanting me back (thank fucking god), personally I think itís all because heís gay and canít accept it, all jokes aside. He tries to get it out there as much as possible that he likes girls, so much that it seems like he doesnít actually. Kinda like Peter Andre, you know? :) also i now know that i was about to get my periods, which probably is the main factor in my irki-ness. fucking hormones.
from eve-louise :
See you'd think that, but I took the Yasmin on the first day, ie last night, for the first time ever. I'm just naturally irregular and all over the place.I'm special. But thanks for being a boy who I can discuss the pill with, there isn't many of you but you guys rock my world
from j-leem :
Heh. Politicians have a special kind of dance they do with words, that is one international criteria for becoming a politician - if politicians start making sense when they talk, it would be as serious as breaking the Geneva Convention and they would be mauled by their collegues. Politicians remind me of food - looks really appitizing when presented but they all end up a long lump of smelly old doo doo. Forgive me for this rant - I'm medicated. :)
from ljungberg8 :
I clicked onto the notes thing, and saw the note beneath this-and thought "I did not leave that note!" But now I realise it was from lighthouse8 not ljungberg8. DUH! Anyway, hello! I hope you havenot been up to too much tomfoolery during my short absence.
from lighthouse8 :
Phew! :o)
from papersnow :
I'm grateful you write these things. I never seem to be able to give any other comment than a nod and general agreement, whether it's "The last time I saw Richard" or appreciating the yet unmaterialized relationship. You might not be Vincent, but I appreciate you anyway. :)
from eta-c :
ahh, good readin tits...!
from lighthouse8 :
Teach me how to be my true self and anything else you might want! *wink* *wink*
from lighthouse8 :
Congratulations on your liberation! Teach me? Teach me! :o]
from eta-c :
gday tits, hows the rat-man?
from elipsis :
:oD
from ljungberg8 :
hey man, being yourself gets you more friends. if you are phony-well, its obvious-you become a loser! be Mr Tith and only Mr Tith!
from lighthouse8 :
Oh yes! Much much better! :o) Thank You!
from lighthouse8 :
Well traveled? Damn Grasshopper, youíve been everywhere! I'm jealous! :o(
from lighthouse8 :
You are VERY welcome Grasshopper! xoxo
from ljungberg8 :
dude, your drunken rants are hilarious. but the thing about the sould and sex was quite interesting. have a nice, sober day!
from lovely-freak :
that's a good point about the pissing... when i was in my 20's i was very obsessed with my boyfriends peeing. i always liked to watch because it was so strange to me how it all worked... it sure as hell wasn't a sexual thing tho! so don't go getting any weird ideas about me so soon in our "relationship"
from lovely-freak :
uh-oh... what did i get myself into... well, i hope that my tame sex entries (and there are some although i've just looked and didn't come across any) don't disappoint.
from lovely-freak :
there's sex if you dig for it... it's just not all blatent and in your face. i'm an insanely sexual person and there are entries that discuss that fact. i'm sorry that you felt that my banner was misleading... just imagine the photo session my husband and i had to get those pictures... hmmmmmm.... it's not false advertising... it's just suggestive advertising and (with some digging) there is follow-up... it's more like a promise i guess....
from liadlaith :
You sound like Brad Goodman - which is another Simpson's ref, so don't worry. Your solution to your dilemma annoys me, as I can no longer give you my own 'sage' advice of "When you can't please everybody, please yourself." Tell us more about being loved.
from liadlaith :
Damn, you usually can't go wrong with a Simpsons quote : )
from eta-c :
aha ha...no prob bob:)
from liadlaith :
Screw it up in a little ball and release it at the appropriate time? Like when Daddy hit the referee with a beer bottle?
from lighthouse8 :
Welcome back! Iím glad you had a good time, and Iím anxious to hear all about it!
from eta-c :
hey tits, my dont you have a deep voice, you sound just like a young leonard cohen with a hangover...:) thanks for that...it was cool!
from lighthouse8 :
I hope you have a wonderful relaxing time up north, but hurry back! I miss you!
from lighthouse8 :
Grasshopper, look around you. You have lots of friends! Youíre a warm and caring man, and that draws us all in. I hope your smile comes back real soon.
from eta-c :
hurrah, i will tell my boy to fetch the donkey and go for the mail...will post a swap when i get to town, yay sidinee...
from idontexist :
Yeah you must preserve your energy so you will prepared if you ever decide to meet me, lol!
from eta-c :
hello tits, hows it hangin ?(and you dont need to be specific)...
from lighthouse8 :
Yea yea, rub it in! Although, Italy does sound wonderful! Iím game!
from lighthouse8 :
The frigid temps freeze my brain and the heat makes you lethargic....where is the happy medium? AND how do we get there?
from lighthouse8 :
Hey grasshopper! Iíll swap your hot weather for my frigid weather any day!
from idontexist :
There are two things I never want to hear in my life, 1) my mother having an orgasm and 2) you having a 'worst day ever' ok?
from lighthouse8 :
I found you while I was cruising through a few diaries. Just wondering around clicking here and there. :o) I have enjoyed your entries so much and Iím hooked! AND Iíd love to hear your music someday!
from eta-c :
wootie! /me wants to hear you sing Red Clay Halo!!!!...you send me yours i'll send you mine...and yes thanks, my nye was a right stoning...:) Yay Gillian Welch...
from sarika :
indeed. And thankyou. ALthough i was reffering to the people I know who abandoned diaryland...grr.. x
from ljungberg8 :
Hello Mr Tithonus! I want to thank you for your advice about my hair-I took it into great consideration. But I will be getting my hair cut, as I feel this is what is needed to be done. I rarely have my hair cut, so this will be a novelty for me. Thank you for your advice though :) One more thing-I am really diggin' your diary at the mo'.
from eta-c :
HAPPY NEW YEAR TITTY!
from lighthouse8 :
Thank you!! My note section is finally on - had a bit of trouble with it but the DL Techs helped me out.
from ljungberg8 :
yes-but mine is werdo! i was just being a whiny bitch-im over it now! do you think i should get my hair cut? btw-loved the latest entry
from eta-c :
yes...you seem more event horizonie than ellipse like :)
from lighthouse8 :
You are a very special man and your feelings make you that much more precious and exceptional!
from liadlaith :
I liked A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius better than You Shall Know Our Velocity
from eta-c :
MERRY CHRISTMAS TITTY! isnt Dave Eggers brilliant...
from eta-c :
i kind of fudged it in the end...malic acid is a fruit acid found in apples and cherries...mmmm...fudge..
from ljungberg8 :
Merry Christmas!
from eta-c :
/me chortles in my own grubby little way...har, har, har, har, (snort),(choke), har...
from eta-c :
well titty kaka, although I adore tools of every kind I was kind of taking a dig at the whoring side of this silly season.
from papersnow :
thank you :) it's all thanks to dylan.
from eta-c :
ho ho hoe
from eta-c :
sneaky...:) yes I am, and wait ! that means so are you...why are you not in bed wrapped around some gorgeous creature like anyone else with half a brain ?
from eta-c :
hey titular...darkblue and paleblue and Ms dont exist anymore...i trashed em and put some stuff into eta-c...i dont feel as skitzo now..;)...yes i hear you say i have ants in my pants...id say hello but i always feel incredibly boring on that msn thing...anyway...happy spearmint leaf to you.
from caraxus :
Spanks for the listing too - 'Blossoming'...I like it...'Brute'...well we'll have to wait and see eh.
from liadlaith :
Whoa. That's devastating. My sister got scared by the Tooth Fairy once.
from hijinks :
look at me leaving a note because your guestbook sucks dude
from paleblue- :
eeesh...you must feel bad if you are quoting leonard cohen ! ha ! well, i have a mixed bag of it too tit, only my mixed bag seems to be filled with too many of those yucky spearmint sweets that no-body wants.
from msparacelsus :
gday tit, long time no bother...how are things ?
from liadlaith :
No, it's worse than that: "The elf in bloom / is beautiful to see / He makes my heart go boom / And fills me with glee / With that bow and arrow / He's hit his quarry / His love I'd like to know / Cause then I'd never have to worry." Beat that for god-awfulness : )
from liadlaith :
Shut up, or I'll recite my Legolas fangirl poetry to you >; )
from stormyskyz :
nice banner. the squiggly black lines one.
from veryberry :
My friend once told me that we ALL end up just 'settling' for someone. I'm still not sure whether I believe him or not. X_X
from mechanica :
Yeah, i see your point. You're probably right. Meh.
from mechanica :
Re: Your note. I've never thought about it. What are the other choices?
from uzzih :
You raise an interesting question. But if you change your word ďcommitmentĒ to ďpromiseĒ, or as in www.m-w.com, it means to ďA pledge to do.".........If we interject the word ďpromiseĒ in, you will see how your premise takes on a whole new stance. THERFORE, if you made your pledge only thinking of instant gratification, then yes, you will surely break it. On the flip side, if you made your pledge holding firm to your word, then commitment is not a self serving aspect........What your supposition might be really questioning is a moral/higher good and if it exists, or if there is only a nihlistic morality based in self serving means and instant gratification............When you make a commitment, do you stick with it, despite self-serving temptations?.........For you, you believe scholastic endeavors are the higher good, therefore you will not break your creed/promise/pledge/commitment to your path to truth/salvationÖor break the ritualistic tendencies of studying that you chant like a catholic does their hail maryís........Now you will probably be telling me to fuck off about now, after interjecting my two worthless cents of rhetoric into the fray, but you got my hamster-wheel-running-of-a-mind working.
from liadlaith :
I like the first version best : ) Oh, and two of your banners (inc. the epileptic one) aren't working. You know, your writings on commitment made me realise we have two different ideas of it. When I say I'm committed to something, I mean I'm committed to trying to make it work. But if something better comes along, and it's not just better cause my current situation is going through a rough patch, hell yes I'm going to jump ship for it.
from ljungberg8 :
thank you :)
from cuillin :
Who, me? Bitter about Bush (Betty Beats Bitter Butter -- what's that rhyme?)? You know...I'm so appalled by this guy that it's nearly hilarious. I cringed throughout the 80's, what with Reagan and Doofus's father, and now this? I think we're all just gluttons for punishment over here. It's the end of the world as we know it (and I feel fine). Thanks for the laugh. Hey, what kind of dreams have you been having lately? Mine have been really freaky. Houses. Lots of weather worn houses.
from sarika :
b) It's funny x
from paleblue- :
may I have the password to your old diary? I would like to read it...also, /me doing a runner from dl...sick of being verbally, err, well, in print anyway, bashed and having uncopyrighted work stolen....i will however lurk around from time to time and read your diary.....:)
from paleblue- :
oh, i just thought that you may have chosen tithonus of myth, so, = she of the dawn (Eos)...I think tithonus was her main squeeze.
from paleblue- :
Gday tit, how are you? hows Eos? blah blah, blah blah blah..../me bored, and yes, I think I may have written myself half to death.
from aardbei :
yeah there...... i'm not sure i can count youre note as a vote though. and since youre the only note i received. and youre the only reaction i got... i don't know, it al just seems pointless. so i think i'm gonna shut it down xxxxxx meredith
from cuillin :
p.s. The way that he's not even flinching away from the turkey says an awful lot. Like he recognizes his kin or something.
from cuillin :
I don't laugh out loud at stuff very often...you got me there. And that was KIND to our fearless leader!
from paleblue- :
ahh, i was talking about the other junky story, not the one about the pub....ahaha...mix up, sorry, i thought what you said was a little strange...thats why. ;)
from paleblue- :
umm, opposite of pain..i thought it was old fashioned and romantic, yet its true my notion of romance could do with a hose down.
from paleblue- :
i see, i guess it does, but thats a shame because i was aiming for the opposite reaction but seem to have failed, oh well, take two, no wait, take about two hundred, how are you tit?
from paleblue- :
huh?
from paleblue- :
Hey there Tit ;)
from ambrosiah :
Hang the Dj, hang the Dj, hang the Dj, hang the Dj, hang the Dj, hang the Dj...(:
from papersnow :
1. Erlend Loe. Wow. That must be the one author I have been tempted to send hate mail. In Norway he's very popular, and there's a lot of young authors trying to copy his style. I think you might need to read some of his books to understand why I hate that trend in norwegian literature. It's too simple, too boring, too easy, too effortless, and people who claim to love Erlend Loe are, to me, people who are scared to death of anything larger than themselves and their lives. I don't know if that made sense. The book "NaÔve.Super." is ok, but the rest are just too much. Try, let me know what you think. 2. The tangled web of lies. I'm getting there. I hate the situation. I will have to hurt my friend eventually. Bah. And because I don't want to describe the situation in detail yet, I can't even ask for advice. Blaah!
from liadlaith :
Ooh ooh! And, "And if you feel / The tenderness I feel / You would know / It would be clear that / Angels brought me here" - couldn't you say that there he's saying "if you feel the way I do, then obviously we're meant to be"?
from liadlaith :
I assumed that when the singer says "angels brought me here" he mean angels have guided him to this moment, he's had God's assistance in his "long and winding journey". Perhaps even his love is inspired by God - and many theologians would concur with that, because all things spring from God, do they not? And God is Love : )
from liadlaith :
Indeed. I don't want to lose control.
from paleblue- :
umm, they have/had one thing in common but i forgot to elaborate, which i have done since then, so, yeah....
from shinodababe :
yup.
from ljungberg8 :
"Black Coffee"
from shinodababe :
And you are never online on MSN when I am...
from paleblue- :
could that be the rat man talking about being solitary or is it the other person inside, i dont know if i really believe the bastard thing because i dont find that kind of man attractive in any way, but....blaaah...i have too much too say for a note.
from worldgurl :
i saw your ad banner and read you. Um. I loved the Dan Bern quote. Nice!
from ljungberg8 :
Yeh, was reading your entry-and that lyric came in my head. 'Tis true though.
from shinodababe :
Heya..we haven't been talking..:(
from euphorically :
I daresay you are right about the atkins, although it is fucking great if you want to lose weight quickly. I was losing weight for my sister's wedding, and now thats over, I am back to pasta, baby!
from j-leem :
Erm...thought you were bugging out because of the exam you just did. Maybe I'm wrong. My bad. /me eats toast
from j-leem :
Hey man, don't sweat it - you'll be fine. Plus, if you fuck up on this exam you can always submit your first paragraph as a new song for System Of A Down and make millions. Cheers! =)
from ljungberg8 :
"Each moment is cool"
from paleblue- :
...crazy, crazy for feelin so lonely, crazy, crazy for feelin so blue, crazy for lie'n and crazy for try'n and crazzzzy for lovin you - patsy cline....i changed my mind, there doesnt have to be a point.
from paleblue- :
I think maybe it does need a purpose...a direct one, or maybe im just looking at it from the wrong way, dunno...
from forestdream :
Yep, I'm all up on who John Doyle is. Did you love the father? I loved the father - he was so cool.
from paleblue- :
god, now i look like the stalker :)...but umm...yeah...i dunno, what exactly does the thought count for?
from paleblue- :
;) ha, twisted is good, twisted is ok, sometimes.
from paleblue- :
Id best say "no" then...
from paleblue- :
You mean Beatrice Dalle?
from sarika :
if by today you knew "where you fit in", what would be left to do tomorrow? x
from murphykins :
Martin Buber, eh? I will find him, read him and learn a new philosophy.
from j-leem :
/me expresses interest *mangoes is correct - got a few julie mango trees in my yard actually*
from sarika :
I liked that entry. (I mean, obviously I like all your entries...) but I especially liked this one. You put ideas across beautifully. It's something I think about a lot. x
from sarika :
with that reasonong, why would men be any different from women? Wouldnt women do the same to "break away" from domination and therefore appear cold? x
from paleblue- :
umm, it would be almost impossible...words come out of our mouths aimed at each other sometimes but we never talk...but I do understand what you mean and well, thankyou, for saying that.
from sarika :
my fave line of that had to be: "I lack the necessary courage to eat an orange in a restaurant" My dear, you are priceless x
from j-leem :
Just wanted to let you know that your words possess a healing power like none other. Thank you. =)
from ljungberg8 :
yep-that was nice 'n' direct-good boy
from ljungberg8 :
you should just be honest with her-she should have been honest with you
from paleblue- :
Het Tit, I dont think its a jerky thing and after all everyone is kind of single one way or another. You should be open about it, maybe you have enough friends, maybe you dont need one more so-so friendship but then again any mention of the boyfriend usually means nothing to worry about, the boyfriend could be on the way out. The rules of relationship bother should be clear and I also think it would be great if it was treated like a lease and if you were not happy where you were you could give four weeks notice without any dramas...and kind of like fill out a spot report when you start one so your not responsible for baggage you didnt create...anyway, Im no expert.
from invisiblepal :
I think she's saying that she's not quite interested in you that way, but by reminding you about the movie she's also letting you know that she still wants to be your friend and do things with you. Unless of course, she's gently mentioning she'd like you to be her hot guy on the side. ;) (And if you got this message more than once, it's 'cause your guestbook kicked my butt.)
from paleblue- :
t :)
from paleblue- :
I dont know...maybe rat women have to lie to themselves about even wanting sex, I mean, to them the whole reason for it is a lie. hey, have you read much Kundera? hes got that whole thing going on in most of his books too but in a more kind of underlying way. I wanted to write until I read alot of him and then though, whats the point.
from ljungberg8 :
i wasinspired to do that questionnaire! if you dont mind...i'll be a-borrowing that
from liadlaith :
Thanks! Apparently my guestbook is hard to find, though . . .
from sarika :
i HATE mangoes. x
from paleblue- :
I havent read that Kureishi yet but I liked The Buddha of Suburbia, didnt they make that one you wrote about into a film?...and as far as the rat man thing goes, you know there are plenty of rat women too, maybe you might chance upon one and be able to have a cosy little "mischief" of your own. Stranger things have happened.
from sarika :
i love your honesty. I may have said that before. I think you're meant to be curious and interested, it's because you don't have any of your own...! x
from elipsis :
thank you for the answers! they were as beautiful as i thought they'd be. good luck! (and maybe she really is not not good enough for you.. ;)
from aardbei :
here's my suggestion, take her to this really nice place, like a park or something, spread out a blanket and bring a really nice wine with you and just talk. and then for dinner order a pizza to the spot where you are and watch the sun go down. then go for a movie or something. just have a lazy day with her. at least, that's what i'd classify as romantic.... as long as the company is great, it really doesn't matter if you hang out under a tree, or stay in bed with her all day. just enjoy her company and relax
from sarika :
i think the "quality of nothing" may be the best reason you could have. if yo only liked her for specific reasons, like pidgeon-hating, then what would happen if she overcame her fear? I wouldn't worry about the way you feel, or worry about over-analysing it. Sucks all the fun out of life. x
from elipsis :
p.s. i have a question for you (i read your latest entries backwards!): there is a lot in your diary about how you're worried that this new girl (who, btw, is not probably not good enough for you ;), but nothing about why YOU like HER. do you? what about her makes you smile? what makes you curious? what REAAAALLLLY attracts women is realizing that the guy not only RECOGNIZES key parts of her character... the quirky little things that most people don't notice... but REALLY LIKES THEM. if she believes that the only things making her attractive to you are 1) her willingness to go on a date with you and 2) her XX chromosomes, she's going to feel as though you are just as chancy as the next guy. so. i'm not saying you should publish a list of qualities that you find attractive about her... but maybe just.. oh.. invite her to see a movie that you think she'd really like (and mention why you think she's really like it, casually (ex. "You know.. there's this movie, "ABCDJDJ" playing tomorrow... and I think you, with your playful sense of humor, would really enjoy it. Want to go?") so she *knows* you know her. or at least that you know who she wants to portray.) That's my advice. Good luck! :)
from elipsis :
hello, friend. i would like to recommend that you travel. take a month.. or a year... and just go. (you can come to seattle, if you want! :) save up, if you have to. because i've found.. only recently.. that being very far away from everything that was once familiar to you is a GREAT way to shift your perception of loneliness vs. closeness. i used to feel alone in the middle of a group of acquaintances... now i think that would be impossible. i guess it's just... when you turn strangers into acquaintances, the acquaintances become more like friends.. the friends become more like best friends and the people you love become part of you. like you're sucking the entire universe toward you, one person at a time. on the other hand, of course, you're bound to lose touch with people and THAT can be sad. you don't lose the loneliness, i think.. but you gain something. i don't know what it is. i don't know what i'm saying, exactly... maybe just that you could perhaps use a shift in perception, like me. :) i hope today brings a smile to your eyes! ~me
from paleblue- :
...paleblue rushes through what she really wanted to say in this note...you dont sound mad at all.
from babycupcake :
eh...i'd say no...i really wouldn't want him calling my mobile or anything, but then again I'd have to say even if I didn't enjoy it I'd respond in some way instead of leaving him wondering.
from paleblue- :
Ahahaha, classy, Im super thanks for asking.
from paleblue- :
Hey Titular, hows it hangin?
from ljungberg8 :
good luck Mr Tith, may the force be with you
from aardbei :
i know it's like trying to walk on whater, but stay calm.... :p relax man. i didn't eat for days, and my thing turned out allright. so i anticipate yours is gonna work out great aswell :D chin up. why would she agree in the to go on a date with you in the first place, if she didn't like you? hypotheticly speaking of course.... ;)
from aardbei :
yaaaaaaaay!!!! i gotta email!!!!! he likes me too!!!!!!!!!!thank you man
from sarika :
"hypothetically speaking", i'm sure the "gentleman" involved would have nothing to worry about...It's kinda sweet x
from aardbei :
i need some advice!!! o.m.g, you read the entrie in wich i was rambling on a about this guy i like? well, i told him where to find my diary. he read it. yesterday. ihaven't had dan e-mail, i didn't get a note. aaaaaaaahhhh!!! i'm going completely insane!! does this mean he doesn't feel the same? or is he just being an asshole. i'm totally freaked out. did i do the right thing by letting him read it? or was i just being completely stupid? help me!!!!!!!
from angel-stars :
Thanks for your advice, I really appreciate it, and I agree with you.
from ljungberg8 :
good for you! take them risks!
from aardbei :
mine sometimes smells like schweppes ginger ale...or like a really weird milkshake. anyway.HOW DO YOU GET THOSE PEOPLE TO READ YOUR DIARY?!?!?!?!?! i've got a deal for you, you read mine i read yours?
from forestdream :
It moves! The mouse moves! How wonderful. Thanks for the advice - I pulled off the mountains of gunk with tweezers, and it's all working smoothly once more :)
from papersnow :
um. the urine entry reminded me of the book "love in the time of cholera" by gabriel garcia marquez. which I think everyone should read. (if only to find out how a book that deals with the smell of urine can be thought of as extraordinarily beautiful ;)
from liadlaith :
*Eyes go wide and blinky*
from iceblulover :
still awaiting the very first note ever from you...tsk tsk
from babycupcake :
I am expecting a birthday gift from you because I'm gonna be 22...its my birthday and you love me. And besides, you said you'd see what you could do. So see...I deserve it!! Yea I guess the new place is darker...isn't it?
from babycupcake :
yes...you've found it...and shhhh...don't tell or say another word about it! heh..and yes i know, its all blah and no good. neither was this one and you read that! its because you love me isn't it? *smiles* one more week and no present from you...tsk tsk *hugs* see ya later dollface
from achingfoot :
me? puny little mortal? scum of the universe? I think not. damn humanoids
from forestdream :
Well, it was about time I added you, seeing as evertime you leave me a note I read through all your archives until I get back to the last time you left me a note, and really, it just takes far too long ;) I think the crossed out commas were justified - I'm just going to have to be a bit more minimilist in future.
from babycupcake :
hey...miss me yet? i like your second story better...(had to comment)..i have a new diary..if you wanna know where it is or anything just email me okay. *hugs* love ya...and you're not going crazy...you already were!
from liadlaith :
International students can't vote in elections? I thought they could, afterall, they go to the uni, they belong to the union . . .
from hokusai529 :
it was nice talking to you tonight..........but i still think you're on crack! haha, jk. and don't be too mean to your poor students!
from papersnow :
yes, pirates of the carribean is indeed wonderful, I still want to be a pirate when I grow up. :) also, thank you for your comment to my last entry, you - as always - encourage me to think things through further.
from sarika :
you missed International Talk Like a Pirate day...was on friday. Could have used your "Avast me hearties!" then! x
from forestdream :
After flicking through old email folders, I actually discovered her email address, and am whipping off a letter as I type. Thanks for the idea!
from paleblue- :
...what i do like?...umm...well, promite for a start and caravaggio(which is touring,yay!) and also badly dated grindcore stuff...just an old fashioned girl at heart :) ha!...but people?, very few of them.
from paleblue- :
Hey Tit, i was at the Annandale tonight packed into a beer swilling smoke filled room and right before The Devoted Few finished i realized i dont really like Levi's work...i tend to swing towards Rousseau for that kind of "people are cunts thing"...but i know where you were aiming from.
from babycupcake :
ur a sweetheart you know that...thats why you're my favorite d'lander! *hugs*
from babycupcake :
hey...everyone else was talking about it so of course i have to be different and not talk about it...thats what i meant! well i'll email them to ya okay! you know...you should send me something for my birthday...don't forget its coming up in a couple of weeks...
from babycupcake :
Well, I'm not going to comment on the porn, you know I just can't follow in footsteps! So yea! Anyways, thanks for the advice on the headache issue. Most of the things you listed aren't hard for me to avoid....I hate chocolate...i don't hang around smokers...i don't drink coffee..and thats all I can remember. I suppose I am going to have to see someone about the headache. I have tried taking some migraine stuff but it didn't even touch the pain. Not even a little bit. I'll keep ya updated though okay! *hugs and loves* Oh...and I have those pictures ready if you're interested...
from starlight99 :
thats an interesting perspective, but I'd have to disagree. Porn that dehumanises anyone doesn't turn me on, being taken into the thoughts and emotions of the chracters does. What makes non-erotic literature really good is when the reader is transported into the world of the chracters. They're not intruding, they're just being taken on a journey with them. Throw some sex bits in and that doesn't change. For me anyway.
from sarika :
you're not supposed to read porn and think "That's beautiful." That's where you went astray. But I'd rather read something and think it's beautiful...! Thankyou for the honour of a link...although your readers won't find anything of interest there, unfortunately. x
from starlight99 :
dude, theres porn in your diary. you're turning into a deviant before our very eyes.
from sarika :
I don't think anyone's bored with your diary! And I wouldnt describe the "porn" you wrote as "filth," but i found myself appreciating you as a talented writer more than anything else! Less of the insecurity, mr tit. x
from babycupcake :
well i'm sure we could think of a lovely birthday dance or I could just surprise you! ;)
from shinodababe :
It's chio bu...you don't really have to call me that...I don't think I'm one anyway..
from sarika :
awww..penguins! x
from shinodababe :
Words...?The 'yan dao' thing?Can I email you the meanings?It's kinda awkward..
from ljungberg8 :
27 aint old! im 17 and i rant about the kids these days...bloomin' awful with their mtv and their strawberry milk. tut.
from papersnow :
happy birthday!
from babycupcake :
hey honey!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I'd give you a happy birthday dance...but its not very appropriate and well i'm not there! just imagine it though...there you go! love ya
from shinodababe :
Hey yan dao *winks*, Happpy Belated Birthday!(my friend...Milo girl...wishes you that too!) Love, Shino
from ljungberg8 :
im am totally living the 80s revival. dont try to ignore it-cos the ryhthm will getcha.
from sarika :
dont be silly, youre really no different from anyone else, just different from the way you percieve other people to be... OOh that was unintentionaly profound, better not let that happen again.. x
from paleblue- :
cheap ass :\
from aardbei :
hey there, remember me?? :D if u don't, never mind, if u do.... I'M BACK!! got a movie for you, it's italian (or spanish, can't really tell), and it's called "habla con ella" it's really good. starting my diary again i guess... see you around. greetzz
from paleblue- :
ha!...4 bucks huh!
from starlight99 :
well, coffee is ever so slightly cheaper than speed so, you know, beggers can't be choosers. And you're obviously unwilling to finance me [scowls].
from starlight99 :
theres a charge for my 'entertainment' service. $100 for a half an hour. Pay up or theres no entertainment for YOU, mister.
from babycupcake :
hey...you are not going to die...you'll be fine.
from starlight99 :
AHAHA I was right and you were wrong! PROOF that women are evil: Women= Time*Money since time is money... Women= Money*Money and we all know that money is the root of all evil so Women= sqrroot(evil)^2 Women= Evil
from spritopias :
depends on your definition of republic, really.
from babycupcake :
Hey again! Complimented..hmm I can go for that! Excited? Well anyone that knows me...ah you're right...I am a lil hottie aren't I? ;) Okay...you and I both know I have no ego so that whole line was bullshit. Go figure? Yummy Yak...can we discuss this? I'm not sure how I feel about being a "yak". Aren't they rather ugly, large animals? lol later dollface
from papersnow :
nah, all I know is he was a medicine student in 1984. medicine students were the only ones who were given the opportunity to, uh, participate. most of the time it just feels a bit like star wars - any minute now, Darth Vader's going to show up.
from papersnow :
I guess I should have explained, but I'm tired of telling the story. :p the person I'm one of those test-tube babies, born with the help of a sperm bank. The person I keep calling 'father' has been sterile for some 30 years. So you see, my cousin and I aren't blood related at all. =)
from babycupcake :
hey dollface! thought I might comment, not that I have anything important to say! Does that make me a bore? of course not...I have my looks! aren't i horrible? don't answer that! so yes, you seem a bit...excited...at the thought of more pics from dear me...should i be concerned or complimented? we'll decide later! well much love and kisses!
from starlight99 :
you are a SLAGFACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from starlight99 :
that would be preposterous, canal is pronounced cahnal, with the emphasis on the second syllable. So unless you pronounce anal ahnal, then no. which actually you probably do, because your accent is INSANE.
from papersnow :
would you mind if i tried to hug your brain?
from starlight99 :
dude, what the frood. banal so rhymes with anal. your accent is INSANE.
from damodred :
btw, did you hear about mechy? i heard what you sent her for her birthday and was very happy for her that people sent her things (also a bit jealous, hehe). if you haven't heard about the after part of the good birthday, drop me an email and i'll let you know. the poor dear.
from liadlaith :
Thanks! Aye, he did - although it doesn't really count as an "internet romance" as the romance stuff - well, never happened, but anyway, we knew each other offline for about 2 months before we started going out. Tsk, and this from the girl who once exclaimed "it's a diary, not a dating service!"
from liadlaith :
Hi!
from ljungberg8 :
yo yo yo my Mr
from papersnow :
it's so easy to get lost. sometimes i take refuge in the idea that the sudden bursts of sadness must be, hah, a chemical reaction, that i can't be held responsible for, but mostly that's too much like a fairytale. and then i go drinking instead. sigh =>
from paleblue- :
Aww Tit, your diary rocks my foolscap world.
from starlight99 :
since WHEN is msn and email the same thing, you closet mysogynist! And when you say people don't need sex, what you really mean is *you* don't need sex. I, however, do. And since I'm a female and you're a male that disproves any silly biological crap you might think. (I don't know, it does somehow.)
from starlight99 :
dude, I do not have, nor have I ever had, nor WOULD I ever have, hotmail. I refuse to be a cliche. I'm with lycos which is 100x better than hotmail and has an excellent spam blocker. My junk mailfolder gets twice as much email every day as my regular folder does. The 30 or so spam that gets through every day comes from the cleverest of spambots, thats all.
from papersnow :
it always feels slightly awkward to read something like this, something that might have been in the back of one's own head but too blurry (or too - painful?) to pull out into the light. but i am amazed. and i'm glad i got to read this now, i actually think it's going to help me. so thank you. :)
from darkblue- :
Yes i have but not the facts of life...theres a great little book by Nick Mansfield called Subjectivity...on theories of self...do you know it?..rd tends to tire me...id rather prop a copy of kant on my head and bash it against a brick wall...=)
from darkblue- :
I think i will go and read rds "knots" again...thanks for being...well...so inspired...my waste of time turned out to be not quite so.
from ljungberg8 :
better :)
from lolotte :
How about a Wonderful Woman? Huh?! Now beat that and stay fashionable... ;op Heheh
from ljungberg8 :
im a hut now! im sure thats not good
from lolotte :
Whisky Weaning?! ;op
from forestdream :
Thanks for the kind words. I don't really have any firm ideas about where I want to go in law, which is one reason I get so stressed about my performance at Uni - I worry about getting a job, and getting somewhere that I'm happy with. Although, I know I want to be a solicitor rather than a barrister. I'm not cut out for standing up and arguing in front of people!
from idontexist :
I will have to go with a) but as you probably know I am a nympho who finds anyone foreign attractive
from starlight99 :
why is there no 'shes gross and her boobs are too big' option?
from starlight99 :
however, what you SHOULD be ashamed of is liking someone with the name BEATRICE!!! Who the HELl has a crush on anyone with the name BEATRICE?!?! now THAT is shameful. (no offense to any Beatrices who might happen to read this).
from starlight99 :
theres nothing wrong with being sex obssessed. I used to be ashamed of admitting to that too, because I thought people would think less of me, but now I really don't give a fluttering fuck. If they do then I'll think less of them for thinking that. I'm not going to be ashamed of liking something I'm supposed to like. And you don't think less of people who have/like a lot of sex, do you? So why is it okay for them and not for you?
from starlight99 :
she does nothing for me. nothing! NOTHING!!!
from cuillin :
psssst...seems like it has been ages, just wanted to see how things are. xoxoxox
from starlight99 :
its illegal to smack children here too. what are you on, freakboy? :|
from elipsis :
haha.. umm... *me*, i think. :)
from elipsis :
thanks for the addition to my reading list! :) and wow... you peel away the layers with so much care, so much beauty. other peoples' pain makes me feel something almost close to love... not for the person or a thing but just.. i don't know. the feeling that makes you want to give everything you have for one thing. but with love, usually....you want to give everything away for a positive... to *have* something in your life. but this feeling i get... is like wanting to give everything i have to make something stop. to undo it. so strange...
from ljungberg8 :
Mr Tithonuuuuuuus! Aloha, my good dude. To answer your qu'-yes, all girls (on the Italien side of the family, at least) have had their ears pierced when they were babies. BUT-they continue to wear jewellery whearas I have rebelled! WoOoOoOo. Have a glorius day ^_^
from forestdream :
It was company law. Gah. I see you're feeling a bit overwhelmed by stuff at the moment as well - I hope things improve.
from elipsis :
:) for some reason, i never worry about whether you get me or not. either we're two of a kind, or you have excellent tact! i hope today is filled with *amber* colored sunshine and a nice spice-scented breeze. (i think that is a particularly enjoyable combination).
from x0lulu0x :
i'm still blushing from that note you left me. thank you (so much). i'm still trying to decide if i stay or go.
from forestdream :
I'm glad to hear your nipples are pain free ;)
from starlight99 :
bullshit, you can't say that one gender is better than the other!
from starlight99 :
is this an act or do you really think that women are goddesses?
from elipsis :
:-) you may just as easily be right! i've had paneer a couple of times and it tasted the same, both.. very strange texture. the yogurt stuff i ended up buying was very different... but i found a recipe for next time! if it turns out well, i will send you a batch. :) (maybe not...)
from babycupcake :
*hugs* i just love the hell out of you, ya know that? Well now you do! Anyways, I am feeling better...I think it was the drinks talking because I wasn't really mad. its all explained in my new entry though! love ya bunches!
from babycupcake :
hey...you are so bad!! I'd send you some pics to refresh ur memory but my scanner is locked away in storage and I don't feel like digging it out...I could mail them to you but i lost your address! so if ya want one or so you should perhaps...buy my a postcard...hehe and send it to me...*smiling all innocent* love ya hun
from babycupcake :
hey..thanks for ur opinion...ur right i suppose. I shouldn't get it done..more then a handful is waste anyway right? love ya
from babycupcake :
Hey! NU UH NO WAY! I just won't even believe you're a rat in relationships. So you've made some women unhappy, I've made more then my share of men unhappy too! I still think you're an absolute doll! ;)
from ljungberg8 :
hey, many thanks for your luck! it worked, ta!
from babycupcake :
Hey...you read? me I mean...I'm surprised. and how is it that men like you don't live where I do? They're all the same here. Well, around here it seems that teases have now fallen under the cat. of sluts too. I don't tease that often though! Thanks for thinking I'm not dumb or a bitch though...its nice to know someone does! talk to you soon i hope...
from elipsis :
that's exactly it!...but the good thing about it is that when you meet people who *don't* freak you out, you've got instant friends. maybe it *is* chemistry (i'd like to meet a noble gas!)... i tried jumping into chat, but i think i got your note too late, 'cause i didn't see you. it would be fun to hear your interpretation(s) of my dreamlife... i'm too scared to do it, myself. :O)
from tabs :
hmm.. a bit of both, depending on the situation i guess. i mean, some things, like hearing about a girls suicide.. that got me thinking, and so i felt hollow for a while until i figured out how i felt and how i could deal with it.. but other times i don't have the time or energy to dwell over things. thanks for the input.. i didn't expect anyone to reply : ) i think anti depressants are bad too.. i don't need to be addicted to anything else, if you know what i mean.
from starlight99 :
if you want you can send me the image and I'll host it for you.
from eve-elle :
well since i am still in a slightly angsty mood i shall quote nirvana 'forever indebted to your priceless advice' well its somewhere along the lines of the huge thankyou i wanted to pass on for snapping me out of pathietic self induced misery. i have typed up grandads eulogy and am being told off by friends for me not thinking they care - i get it, im an idiot! i admit it! but yeah, thanks muchly :)
from missmacabre :
Okay, I may have jumped the gun a bit. But it's still a long time between updates. ;)
from elipsis :
how am i? :) hmmm...i am different at every moment, but typically good. right now, i like how it feels to say word "liminal," even silently. i'm very familiar with the feeling you described...i think i call it waiting. maybe. i hope your wind not only comes, but smells good, too. :)
from elipsis :
that is such a splendid, charming story. it makes me wish i had done that... gotten down low and just whispered individual commands to "scram"... it would've worked, too, i'm sure. the young ones are so wise. :) how are you?
from idontexist :
lucky you didn't meet me while I was in Sydney, I was a tad bizzarre that week, I might talk about the shitty stuff later on, it's just puting it into an entry that doesn't contain mother-fucker as every second word that will be the challenge, but I will try, hey what's with my profile comment 'the goon squad' or maybe it's some thing subliminal
from ljungberg8 :
Yes yes, of course you are right-I'm not a strawberry, nor a chestnut. That's good thinking there, Mr Tithonus
from ljungberg8 :
hello, many thanks for adding me as a fave. but i must ask-strawberrys and chestnuts? is your comment a good thing? ^_^ hehe
from starlight99 :
my grandparents. they were married for over 50 years and my grandpa died less than three months after my grandma because he literally couldn't live without her.
from soap-box :
Well, I had decided not to, but since you command me to, I guess I should enjoy myself after all ; )
from angel-stars :
That would be the cover by Tori!
from starlight99 :
LIES!
from starlight99 :
you are fearless. i'm sending you oranges.
from elipsis :
i think you're right... :) and thank YOU. i think whatever happens...it'll be better. i've found that exploring the things that make me uncomfortable is *hard*.. but easier than i thought it would be... like the monsters in my closet can be trained to be pets. :) have a lovely day...
from missmacabre :
I, for one, will miss you if you leave. But I understand how you feel. And this isn't goodbye. Yet. ;)
from elipsis :
grrr... you know me too well! those were THE two things i was more than happen to leave behind. :) but.. wisdom can't be ignored. i'll do my best. i think your experiment will be a good thing in the long run... after a while it will feel like a holiday--for lots of people--to see your name in red...
from cista :
glad to hear you're not leaving, it would have left a big hole in my buddy list.
from idontexist :
you are closing the diary, it is because of what I said, isn't it? ok but if you do close down the diary you still have to let us know what's going on in your life... you have to I can't live without your diary
from starlight99 :
oy, what? you can't close your diary!
from idontexist :
you have to confess to her, in person, if she likes you back you will be extrememly happy, but if she refuses think about the amazing diary entry you will write... full of gut wrenching emotion, the stuff great entries are made of, but i am an attention seeking masochist who likes to be hurt just so I can talk about it. So it might be best to take this comment with a grain of salt, or better yet take the whole shaker
from cuillin :
I HATE THAT BOOK, AND NOW I'M NOT JUST CROSS WITH YOU, I'M GOING TO IN FACT KILL YOU. RAAAAWWWWWR GRRRRR RAAAAAAA i'm kidding. I'll check it out, thanks for suggesting it. Take care, you.
from starlight99 :
'we have a lot to blame the Americans for and the concept of dating is just one in a list of atrocities against humanity.' - Anon. Exactly. It just makes you nervous if you call it a 'date.' What really matters is whether you got any booty. :D
from elipsis :
aww shucks. :) i think it's a date if one or both of you blushes. i think it went well if one or both of you smiled or laughed after blushing. not good if someone ran away crying or screaming or itching. (well.. scratch the last one... depends on your definition of "good", i guess :)
from cuillin :
oooh, what book, what book? Needing reading.
from cista :
oh, in that case. I'm honoured to be mentioned. :)
from cista :
is it ok if I don't understand your comment on me in your profile? i hate admitting to blankness. ;)
from elipsis :
you're wonderful :) i had to think for a while about your question. there are some things that i do (usually "firsts") PURELY for growth or progress... to help me make more informed decisions about who i am. but (in general, at least) "growth" and "progress" are usually just words that i use to describe my process of finding positive value in things that seem to have none. :) like... turning dust into clay so that i can build something with it. in that respect, i think it's of PRIME importance in my life. because... there's a lot of dust in the day-to-day.. and i think it's possible to choke on it. does that make sense? hmmm. :) i hope.
from starlight99 :
aahaha thats the best idea EVER. You'd be speaking kiwi and fucking our sheep in no time!
from elipsis :
it made me sad, too... but i really don't know what else to do. and, in the long run, things tend to work out. :) thank you for who you are! (and for your note, i think i will definitely have to look him up!)
from elipsis :
someone told me that there are enough deconstruction workers in the world and that those who can build should do so. i think you're a splendid architect. you have a lovely mind. rest well.
from starlight99 :
since, like, forever. At least a year anyway.
from starlight99 :
just do what I do and pretend they're not there. Self-deception is awesome.
from x0lulu0x :
i understand now. that is actually the biggest problem i've been running into - trying to be as genuine as possible.
from x0lulu0x :
parody, darling? i really feel like that.
from elipsis :
i don't think so.. no! but.. i think i'd like him. i think i'd rather be a sparrow than a snail, too. of course, that depends on what it feels like to be a sparrow or a snail. i'll have to do some research. :)
from starlight99 :
reeeeeelax dude, you're not him and I'm not her.
from refundgame :
Oh and thanks for putting me on your favorites too!
from refundgame :
You're welcome! You remember me, though, right? We talked in the chat room that one time. I'm buramanshu...if that rings a bell.
from elipsis :
p.s. i borrowed a camera and TOOK A NEW PICTURE just for you. :) it's here: (http://elipsis.diaryland.com/images/me.jpg). shhh... don't tell a soul!) you can corrupt it as you please.
from elipsis :
yes...yes! that's it exactly! and yes, it would be nice to live closer. i'll be there tomorrow. :) i hope life is treating you well and that your dad on the phone is the worst of your troubles. sweet daydreams, me.
from angel-stars :
So are you always so serious?
from idontexist :
no no no, it's not a regular run of the mill orgasm, it's just a pleasure overload, and don't criticise Frankie Goes to Hollywood, not only were they brilliant pop musicians they were more importantly artists
from babycupcake :
its me again! best to leave it blank i agree! i'm so many dear sweet things how could you pick just one? ;) how are things with you? fabulous i hope! i miss talking to you...on that rare chance we'd get to talk! you're crazy...but its a good kind of crazy....just like the rest of us. lots of love, hugs and kisses
from babycupcake :
guess who hun? Thats right...its your dear sweet...whatever u wish to call me! lol miss me? I knew you would...ur such a doll! Crazy but a doll. I just wanted to say hi and let u know i was alive. *hugs and kissies*
from idontexist :
it's called a music induced orgasm, it happens to me whenever I listen to 'Relax' by Frankie goes to Hollywood, ooh i'm getting hot just thinking about it
from starlight99 :
ohohoh and, see the movie Chicago, thats an order. You have to for the song 'He had it coming.' You're absolutely right, men are evil bastards and women can do no wrong :)
from starlight99 :
you are intensely paradoxical.
from elipsis :
i was thinking about surprises last night and...yes you're right... we keep trying to catch them :) i was thinking about how we seem to be living in a time when anything is possible. people can fly. worlds can be created or destroyed. life is at the tips of our fingers and knives, waiting for us to decide. and... it seems...we are NOT responsible or wise enough to handle this power. but then i wondered... has it always felt like this? has empty space always held the promise of miracles? has time always wrapped around us so tightly that our breaths fairly explode from our lungs? have we always felt ourselves to be on the brink of apocalypse? i would have to say that if we haven't, we never would have gotten this far in the first place. but that's rattled me speaking (or thinking out loud without a purpose). thank you for your note. you are always so full of kindness.
from starlight99 :
*frown* be careful or I'll cut off your gonads. *frown*
from tithonus :
Testing
from starlight99 :
whatever for?
from heartshaped :
jim croce = yum. <3
from smokinblues :
it seems the guestbook doesn't like back to back entries...but anyway just wanted to say thanks for stopping by. Just read some of your stuff. Interesting, it is. (occasionally guilty of Yoda speak. and I hate star wars) Oh, and Bad English used to kick ass.
from elipsis :
i used to do that when i was little...but i'm too much of a perfectionist. i'd make a mistake and "improve" my work until i looked like a boy (which is fine because boys are nice)... but my ears turn pink when i blush. they can't help it. they need curtains.
from soap-box :
*sigh* You're impossible, I give up : P
from cista :
aaaa! I want to see ani, too! (jumping to the conclusion that you're writing about ani difranco)
from lklittle :
Hey Babes! *fake wink & thumbs up* Have a nice one!
from soap-box :
You suck : ) Think about it, when you're eighty, would you rather you had or hadn't taken the risk?
from soap-box :
Oh just quit whining and do what you want. If you like her, go for it. Everyone has their faults. If my boyfriend had listened to all his doubts and fears, we would never have gotten together. And that would supremely annoying and not good. So shut up and make yourself happy.
from starlight99 :
oops, no I'm not cross, sorry that note came off sounding a little nasty. Its just...you seem to think men are worse than women which in a twisted kind of way is almost offensive. We are just as capable of being as mean as you so hah!
from starlight99 :
I disagree strongly. I don't know why it is you think women are the victims here. Men and women are not that different. For every man whos violent, a drunk or a cheat theres a woman just as bad. Women 'can't, or won't, or don't'? Bullshit. You even said it yourself, a woman is trying to latch on to any man just to prevent from being lonely. How is that different from buying a mail order bride to prevent being lonely?
from elipsis :
you're way too kind. :)
from starlight99 :
'I've deleted the diaries of anyone who hasn't updated in 5 months, but read carefully: the entries are still in the database and the accounts are still open. If you have a diary you haven't updated that doesn't show up and you want it still, just use the tech support form and we'll regenerate the html files for you.' adjjhdsfhabiduvfhb!!!!!!!!!!
from starlight99 :
OH MY GOD THEYRE GOING TO DELETE ITYLUS *dies*
from elipsis :
oh... i would LOVE to believe that. i see so many beautiful creations, though, that become pillars in the system they oppose... managed and marketed and mass-produced in ways that destroy what they should have been. or, i'm just being a pessimist. :) you're probably right.
from heartracer :
i'm glad. ♥
from euphorically :
'the moor's last sigh' is such a fantastic fantastic book.
from heartracer :
this was like an echo for some thoughts i haven't quite been able to put into words. thank you. (this world / 2003-02-06 - 1:45 a.m.)
from starlight99 :
yup, when I was six with the school bully.
from starlight99 :
oooh this is just like the 'I'll show you mine if you show me yours game'! Only not quite as fun :(
from starlight99 :
you said flatmate. In fact, you always say flatmate. In fact, I've never heard you say anything BUT flatmate. Youre really a kiwi hiding under an australian accent, arent you?
from starlight99 :
pifflecakes
from cuillin :
wow, I sure took that as being directed to me, huh? I guess because they were in my comments, so I thought they were....felt baffled and hideous and yanked that entry off. Thanks for clearing that up...the sorrys weren't necessary. :)
from elipsis :
thank you. i love you, too. :)
from cuillin :
sigh...I don't keep a diary so that my feelings can be "corrected". If I feel like venting about how I feel (especially when I'm merely writing about frustration with an ex), then I really should be allowed to do that without someone alluding that I'm self-righteous. Thanks.
from idontexist :
calm down, I didn't mean that Leonard Cohen personally sucks I just meant to say that his discovery of the electric drum machine certainly didn't improve his already winning formula.... anyway what do you know about music.....lol
from eve-elle :
mm yes they are magic. i realised that later on in the evening, after having a cry on the bus and feeling very sorry for myself, and even buying a packet of naughty cancer sticks, then i met up with my friends and realised that i am just a big ole idjit and that they do love me i am not alone blah blah blah and ended having a spectacular night. silly me.. thank you though :)
from elipsis :
if i am ever talked into getting married, you must promise to be there to veto it. okay? okay. :)
from babycupcake :
*hugs back* thanks dear
from heartracer :
i imagine you to be all sorts of wonderful at teaching.
from missmacabre :
You can call my cynical too, but some people just don't deserve to be treated nicely. Some of the most annoying people I've ever met are the ones who "expect" something from you, and if you ask me (which I realize you aren't), there's nothing worse than OBLIGATORY compliments. You're allowed to dislike whomever you choose. Don't let it rule your life the way it does mine! Heh, heh.
from heartracer :
i'm drunk, and i left you a note at my notes page by accident. read there.
from heartracer :
good question. i suppose it would be the kind of the girl that doesn't truly exist [but there are exceptions in certain situations]. but it's just emotions, you know. it's just that feeling where you look around and you know you're disposable to many people. and that's okay but then there's other people who you don't want to just cast you aside because you mean so much to each other... and it's sad that if it were to happen that way it would be due to lack of money and imposing borders between countries. sometimes you meet people you won't cast aside and it might not be the way this is actually happening but i just don't want to be that girl this time.
from heartracer :
i followed kate (euphorically) here and i must say, i find your writing beautiful. hello by the way.
from idontexist :
I should reallly think things through before I post any notes, so good entry keep it up.
from idontexist :
have you ever thought of being a guru, ooh and you can start a religion, ooh if you need any help I have been doing some research on the topic (since I found out religions get tax benefits) ooh and you can have snazzy costumes and we could sacrifice virgins, and drink the sacramental vanilla coke.
from starlight99 :
methinks the tithonus doth protest too much ;) hmmm...*ponders editing profile*
from starlight99 :
you just made a BIG FAT STEREOTYPE you rude bugger! [stabs you]
from invisiblepal :
Yep. This is pretty much it. Unless I just walk out and wander off. Which, since it's winter and dang cold, I'm still hoping against doing.
from missmacabre :
I wish there was something I could say to make the pain go away. But you know me by now; sometimes things hurt for a long time.
from cuillin :
I was thinking, while reading your entry, "and there's that numbing, amazing shock" that comes with those blows, and then you said it. All you can do is forgive. All you can do is realize that they fucked up, and that they know that they did. In the case of my father...who dealt some horrible blows, all you can do is know that THEY know. It haunts them just like it haunts you. They'd rather turn back time. And trust me, it took me a long, long time to accept that and ultimately forgive.
from angel-stars :
I promise it was not you! Your last entry haunted me. It was so beautifully and perfectly written that I can hardly find words to explain the reaction I'm having to it.
from aardbei :
thanks for the suggestion! ( though i'm not sure they have this movie in holland..... you know there are some kick-ass banners around this site? where do they get all that funny stuff! the diary's usually suck though...... i just wanted to tell you that choclate milkshace from mcdonalds has therapeutic values, especially in large portions........ bye!
from aardbei :
thanks for the suggestion! ( though i'm not sure they have this movie in holland..... you know there are some kick-ass banners around this site? where do they get all that funny stuff! the diary's usually suck though...... i just wanted to tell you that choclate milkshace from mcdonalds has therapeutic values, especially in large portions........ bye!
from soap-box :
Dammit, you've seen to the very heart of my evil plan! For this, you must die (thanks for the nice comments though)!
from starlight99 :
oh and also in the phrase to 'forgive and forget' the forgetting is supposed to come only after complete forgiveness, not during. The point is that once youve been able to completely forgive you can move on instead of bottling up the anger and resentment.
from starlight99 :
its uncrashed now, you silly thing always signing out just because it lags :(
from tinyportrait :
I had no idea Jamie Olive was so controversial!! What's he done? I know nothing about this, all stuck in Japan (where, actually, he's pretty popular).
from frozt :
just a pleasure. even tho you don't understand a thing ;) huuugs!
from pedantra :
Thank you for letting me know. I intend to find out which is correct as soon as possible. :p
from cuillin :
It was a short little holiday that I took, huh. I crumbled when I saw all those notes. I agree with your whole entry, but, mind you, we don't want to give the people CHEAP oil. No, 'we' want to still be able to regulate it to death and make a shitload of money off of it....I wish that the US would take some hints from Europe, like the Dutch heroin thing and the lax jails of Norway...but I'm going to shut up now, because every time I talk politics, I get into trouble. "Please, yell at me!" is my middle name. Thanks for your sweet comment. xoxox
from idontexist :
people like you should be locked in tiny little cells with nothing but the entire back catalogue of the Beach Boys playing on a continuous loop for company so you can see the error of your ways, then to make sure you are alright I'd throw in the Monkees back catalogue in for good measure, you are evil and must be stopped
from babycupcake :
hey hun! well thanks for missing me...i missed you too! bunches!
from starlight99 :
hi :)
from idontexist :
NO IT'S NOT TRUE I DON"T BELIEVE A SINGLE WORD YOU SAY, YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT IT The beach boys did surf, I know in my heart that they were true beach boys how dare you suggest such an idea, oh yes on the whole love debate, Love, it's really like holiday time you use it or you'll lose it, I could kick Forrest Gump's ass in an over-simplified cliche contest
from rushlight :
Love is blind. Love doesn't give a fuck about age, race, gender, circumstances, or sanity. It can be an entirely random thing, and it can be so hard.
from elipsis :
okay.. i did my best on answering your charge. it's under "sap." :) have a wonderful x-mas!!!
from starlight99 :
that could be from anyone in NZ with an xtra connection. Since my parents have xtra it most likely was me since I've just been at their place, but if you've gotten that before it was probably my sister. If you knew the IP address I could tell you for sure.
from starlight99 :
I'm sure I remember that entry from your Itylus diary...
from starlight99 :
dude, they're FRECKLES! Not MOLES!
from mechanica :
"mechanica profile - diary comments: A zookeeper with violent tendencies... "WHAT THE HELL?? A zookeeper!?? And jinksy is my kitten? now it looks like i have made a WHOLE diary for my kitten and made up FUN stories about it. PURE GENIUS!!!!! I HAVE SPILT PERSONALITIES!! No, you don't. Shut up!!!!!!!! I'll stop signing now.
from mechanica :
Me star? AM I YOUR SEXY WOMAN!? [loves star]
from missmacabre :
Yes, I suppose you're right. Maybe I was overreacting to the situation, but it certainly came as a surprise to me that she was in contact with other people, but not me. It hurt my feelings more than anything, because I don't know what was done to make her feel that way.
from cista :
I don't really have the words to comment on your last entry, but you are so right about setting up enemies. I like the way you've put it all into words.
from waiting4love :
Unfortunately I had to move my diary. I hope you can come and catch up with me at my new site!! Waiting4love (prev azure-bijou)
from elipsis :
:0) they have all been hilarious... and they make me want to look for a decent picture for you to corrupt (if merrymaking can be called corrupting...) hope your days are warm and wonderful!
from angel-stars :
God Dammit! How did you draw that reindeer?! Or didn't you....you cheating bastard.
from starlight99 :
RAWR! Thats mah sexay woman
from starlight99 :
frig?
from babycupcake :
hey hun! how are you? I'm well sick actually...ugh i know! so anyways, yes you can ask why TJ is wanted by two states and serving jail time....he violated probation here to go to SC and then had to do a lil bit of time while there for drug possession and then violated probation there to come back here. Smart lil moron isn't he?
from starlight99 :
fuck?
from starlight99 :
oh my fuck I look RIDICULOUS!
from eve-elle :
i see you have uncovered my plan to rule the world by stealing the worlds olive resources. crap. now i will have to kill you. which is sad, because your genius was being so well used in the festive decorating of santa ensemble's onto unsuspecting photograph's area...
from starlight99 :
oh fuck me. erm, well I'll have to SEE it first *worries*
from idontexist :
smartarse! why didn't you just pick that guy in the background of the festival scene with the green shirt? you are just showing off now, grrrr
from eve-elle :
god my spelling is awful today...so hungover sorry, i mean parents instead of parnets, whatever they may be...
from eve-elle :
my parnets olive grove has solar power so a little electricity for light but no tv, no video, dvd, no cd player, no computer and no internet. i find i sleep a lot there. just sleep all day and all night... and i wish i realy could see for miles and miles. i wish i did have magic in my eyes.
from forestdream :
Hmmm - true, true, some food for thought. Perhaps putting intefering magically would have made a bit more sense - then again, by doing things for yourself magically, that affects the rest of the world. Hmm. However, I think you may not have noticed the bit where I stated I was always RIGHT! Perhaps a better way of phrasing it would have been "Oh great one, I have noticed a tiny insignificant flaw in your logic." :) I do like your new layout - the penguins are particularly cute and fat.
from idontexist :
have fun at your parents palce, the advantage is that you get free food (that is unless your parents are tighter than a fishes arse...shutup i like that saying) Oh and when are we going to see a photo of you after you hit puberty... that is unless you already have and then oops you look fine then, yes um bye
from cuillin :
i just noticed that you listed one of my entries as one of your 'favourites' -- that means a lot to me, you know. xoxoxo
from cista :
you're absolutely right :) it's part of what I call the yin-yang syndrome. And thank you for telling me about your choice of study - I think it helps.
from eve-elle :
the who ROCK. baba o'riley means alot to me. i think i will always live in a teenage wasteland, in the back of a car, a little bit stoned, driving through the bush at night. and i can see for miles and miles! i can see for miles and miles, i can see for miles and miles and miles and miles!! cheer up.
from cista :
no, I don't really approve of my own attitude towards worthlessness/Best, if I did, I'd be telling all my friends how worthless they were when they failed something - which I don't, of course. I don't know why it is I think my friends are doing great if they get 4 out of 6 points and it's horrible if I get the same result. It's odd. And wrong. But it *is*.
from starlight99 :
dude, take a chill pill.
from cigarettebox :
_
from cista :
yes. that's what it feels like. and I don't think I can change it.
from starlight99 :
I'll never forgive you, ever. Every day my hatred for you will grow stronger and stronger. it'll fester inside me til I'm consumed with nothing but pure hatred, spite and contempt for you. My every waking thought, my every moment of sleep, I'll be plagued by my hatred of such an evil creature as you. If you ever see me, you better run and take cover for my wrath will descend upon you like nothing youve ever known before. oh. I mean...hi sweetie. hangin tuff?
from starlight99 :
pfft. Leave without saying goodbye. Fine then!
from starlight99 :
< broken record>youre too hard on yourself < /broken record> yes, in English there are weird people who think infinitives shouldn't be split, but English infinitives are a joke anyway.
from idontexist :
elegantly, is that even spelled right???
from starlight99 :
I miss you too :(
from cista :
what drinks i do like? well, i recently concluded that my life is all about drinking, whether it's tea or water or alcohol or caffeine. when it comes to soft drink i'll drink just about anything that does not have sugar in it. i hate having a sugar coated tongue. rrr. and now that the vanilla goo is out of the picture... what's your poison? :)
from starlight99 :
gah chat crashed on me. heyyy lookeee the votes for vanilla coke is going DOWN, babyface DOWN! RAWR!
from cista :
vanilla coke reached norway this week. I now know it is what hell must taste like. *growl*
from idontexist :
I would consider stand-up except for the fact that I would have to stand up, it would be the death of me. and also I haven't heard this song you mention oh great one and am right now trying to look for it in kazaa to download, so I can listen to it and think of the ways I could possibaly stalk you
from starlight99 :
flatmate? flatmate? you just said flatmate! ha! I have successfully brainwashed you into using kiwi terminology! But you better not have gone back to pronouncing your As all wrong again. ;)
from damodred :
i'm always around somewhere, it's just that sometimes i forget where i am.
from elipsis :
how do you always know the perfect thing to say? :)
from babycupcake :
hello my dear! Ah so busy are we? Yes me too. I know I know...I shouldn't want the jailed boy. ah but I love him so. Perhaps I should stay single forever and just live in my own little world? The CD you sent has managed to make my friends and I laugh oh so much recently. Imagine a CD being the gift that keeps on giving! Well, I'm off to my job. Have a wonderful holiday! *hugs and lots of love*
from elipsis :
here's a poem for you, who can't decide between stars and clouds: "we used to strain our eyes to see the shapes / of constellations in the spangled night / connecting stars to see what we could make / with darkness, cricket songs and speckled sight / we'd watch the white clouds roll across the sky / shape-shifting as they bumped along the breeze / parades of rabbits, boats and butterflies / dissolving into wispy mysteries / we filter through realities to find / some magic in each person, place and thing / we squeeze our eager minds between the lines / of what we read to find out what it means / if stars are only stars, and clouds are clouds / and humans are recycled carbon dust / we won't find out until we're underground / and know for sure which eyesight we can trust."
from starlight99 :
...or maybe its because you used to have 'guestbook - for outsiders' and 'notes - for fellow diarylanders' on your template. Sheesh. Must I explain EVERYTHING to you???
from starlight99 :
DUDETTE, thats fuckin what. And I don't have notes turned on because I have a perfectly good guestbook in which people can leave messages. I'm not greedy and need both like SOME people I know. Thats the SILLIEST thing I EVER heard in my ENTIRE LIFE, babyface. :D
from starlight99 :
why dont I have notes turned on? Why did that suddenly occur to you. Has it taken you this long to realise I don't? Why arent I sleeping? Dudette, its only 4am. Why am I asking so many questions?
from soap-box :
I've been mulling it over, and I think the whole compasssion over affection thing may be rather hardline. Like, only for extremist Buddhists or something. All conjecture, but considering the Dalai Lama said "Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon," I don't think they frown that much on affection.
from starlight99 :
dude, I missed you online by an hour. Don't tell me you've gone to bed already. You do nothing but sleep!
from soap-box :
Is all affection attachment? In Buddhism, I think yes. Siddhartha left his wife and child to reach enlightenment, for the good of the world . . . I think compassion is more important than affection for Buddhists, because everythng on earth shall pass. And, in answer to your note - of couse, what else are squires for, really?
from elipsis :
hey tithonus: would it help if i sent you a provocative question every once in a while? :) like (for instance): if you had to choose to be either diurnal or nocturnal, which would you choose, and why? (the rest of the world stays as it is). what does that say about you?
from soap-box :
Very, very bad taste : ) No, you don't, but I'm sure I could rustle up a squire for you, to carry your standard, dress you in the morning, fetch things etc.
from tinyportrait :
I'll circle YES, then. Wheee. Notes are definitely very strange, though.
from elipsis :
uh.. P.P.S. works, too. ;o)
from elipsis :
P.S.S. (and aching.. some of them are sad...)
from elipsis :
P.S. I think you might like this... go to www.explodingdog.com (i think) (hopefully it works) (i spent almost 2 hours yesterday smiling like a big dumb puppy) :O)
from elipsis :
ahhhh! more happiness! i'm going to go blind!!!! (*faux delerious swooning*)
from cista :
happy! pretty! shiny! and such :D
from elipsis :
your diary looks so happy now that the happiness is shining through my computer screen and making my eyes shine. thanks alot. ;)
from angel-stars :
Go Abbie! It was a good movie anyway, you must admit. You remind me of *ahem* Cody...yes, I know. I didn't want to mention him in your f-ing notes page but he'd get nightmares too. What's with you men who can't take a little scary movie or two? ;)
from soap-box :
Hehehehe, this is so funny! You, Sio and Sif have all gone to see the Ring and you're all writing freaked-out entries about it . . . hee, I have to go see this movie!
from rageofangelz :
if it makes you feel any better i thought you were a pretty boy :p
from starlight99 :
DIE ITY DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from starlight99 :
WUSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from eve-elle :
sorry i forget to check to see if people write notes, so i didnt read your reply, and here i am thinking, oh god he hates me, i havent been forgiven...what can i do, what can i say?!! woe is me. well, just for the record, (its a broken record, it keeps repeating itself, doomed to repetition for the rest of its life no doubt) im so SORRY! i was always under the impression that you were a guy, from your writing that is, and thought maybe you'd got lucky with a pretty girl, well you did get lucky by just being you. thank you.
from elipsis :
Hmmm.. that's a good question. I think it's to point them out, in the chance that I would receive a response of, "Oh, I didn't realize. Let me correct that right away!" or (in the very worst case), "Yes, I know. I've been doing that for months.. have you really only just picked up on it? I don't like you anymore." That's my guess. Maybe it's just me getting tired of being silent. I don't know. Have you ever felt that way?
from elipsis :
:) I was just writing you a paper letter in response to yours. It'll be in the mail soon. Is that a coincidence, or what?! Have a delight of a night!
from missmacabre :
If I had a dollar for everytime some kid asked their mom if I was a boy or a girl, or every person who accidentally called me "sir," I'd be living large right now. I was once carded for cigarettes and when I showed the cashier my ID, she goes, "This says <i><b>female</b></i>." I wish I could end the story saying I flashed her my boobs. But I didn't.
from eve-elle :
i promise i will stop adding more notes anytime soon, but what is gender anyway huh?!! you know all about the crazy constructed roles that society has given us, cultural scripts and stereotypes about what it is to be a man or a woman, the internet loves gender performativity. i blame the medium not the message! 'blame shifting, not good' says oprah. 'bedtime' says sara. once again, im sorry.
from eve-elle :
lets start over. congrats! who's the pretty lamb?! ;)
from eve-elle :
perhaps i could rephrase pretty to dashingly handsome?
from eve-elle :
oh man! oh man oh man. i am laughing sooooooooo hard. boy do i suck. its just one of those situations where you just cant say anything. i cant say anything because my big fat foot is taking up my whole entire mouth. oh lordy. yeah a big repeat of all the excuses sarah gave below. basically we are both just jealous right sarah?! this reminds me of this time i went to a cafe to meet some friends, and there was this crazy old man and he was wearing bum clothes and stank and talking crazy stuff, anyway i went inside the cafe to join my friends, then a moment later my friend john walks in, after talking to the crazy man outside. sara gets her foot ready, and says, poor thing were you stuck talking to the crazy old geezer outside? John replies, 'Thats my uncle'. there was nothing for me to do except laugh at my absolutely BAD BAD BAD call. thats what happens when you make assumptions..will i ever learn? will you ever forgive me? i know im evil, but i'll try to change! sorrrrrrry. heres my olive branch, okay olive tree, some chocolates, flowers, alcoholic beverages and other forms of apologies for screwing up. did i mention i wasnt wearing my glasses, sorry my nerd eyes? and that my computer creen is crap?
from cuillin :
you DON'T, though! You don't! It was just an unclear picture! ohhhh lordy me...I've really done it this time.
from cuillin :
P.S. My ex-fiance has been called "ma'am" many times in drive-thru fast food places (in the dark, sitting in the car). He has floppy, long-ish hair and delicate, sweet features, which obviously threw the morons (like I was about you) off. He was INCREDIBLY insulted, obviously...again, I'm really sorry, again, the picture was grainy to me and it apparently confused me. ohhhh god. I truly suck.
from cuillin :
I'm so sorry!!!!!!
from cuillin :
"and I'm just going to pretend I didn't get those comments from you or evil eve-elle about my pic. :( " Oh, no. We said something verrrrry wrong, didn't we. It was a total mistake if we did. Your name is ambiguous (like mine), and I'm ashamed to say that I didn't read enough of your diary to know if you were male or female, and the picture was a shady one with someone with delicate features and longish hair that obstructed the face -- I didn't know if it was of you or not. I'm really sorry, nothing malicious was intended....
from angel-stars :
who's that pic of?
from cuillin :
Oh, that great Fairport Convention...Sandy, right? In my late-ish night confusion, I may be...uh...confusing things. I bought my dad a bunch of their albums as bday presents years ago. To echo my beautiful friend eve-elle: who dat purty gurl, eh? ;) xoxox
from eve-elle :
congrats! who's the pretty girl? ;)
from tarabeib :
hm, hi :) long time. hugs.
from missmacabre :
You know, I'm not even sure I know what a Staffordshire Terrier looks like. You'll have to excuse the ranting about animals. But you know me. I tend to rant. Are you suggesting a companion, or just asking how I feel about the breed?
from cuillin :
I needed that comment. I was feeling like such the bitch, even though I didn't make comments to people personally -- I was just stating my opinion, and instantly felt evil for it. You're so right about everything you said. I mean, I've been critiqued and rejected a million times. It only makes me try harder. Thanks again for your insight...which was on the mark as usual. xoxoxoxo
from teenage-girl :
Hey... remember me? I'm back! I've made a few new entries, but didn't get around to unlocking it until now. But I told you that you'd be the first to know when I unlocked it, so.. now you know!
from eve-elle :
you're amazing.
from starlight99 :
*blinks* huh? It takes a hell of a lot more than that to really offend me...
from starlight99 :
ha...ha...ha...yes, I will do your marking for you. I mean, how hard can rating their sex skills be? How can you *possibly* call that hell???
from starlight99 :
you're getting ready for 2 weeks of hell? Should I be offended by that?
from soap-box :
Thanks!
from invisiblepal :
The tag board's are pretty nice and best of all... they're free!! Thank you for leaving me a note, and for the other thing too. Ohhhh... sounds effectively criptic. :)
from idontexist :
fine the next time I'm in the vicinity of yours truly, your ass will be mine, or you could make things easier on me and come visit me so I can stalk you more easily? just a suggestion
from eve-elle :
yeah sorry my guestbook disappeared one day which made me very sad, i lost all those simulated people from actors who pretend to love me and be adoring fans...*sigh*. yes well *YOU* have educated me in the theories of reverse physcology so i am not able to take your reply as a confirmation of my truman like status, but rather as a way of humouring me and pretending that i am crazy, therefore not really in a truman environment. hmmmm...but if the opposite of opposite is the opposite of the opposite i am so damned confused i dont know what to think or where to turn. uh oh, crazy person on the loose....
from idontexist :
what???? someone else is stalking you my love??? I know I have been slacking off in my stalking pursuits, but please don't get another stalker, I can change I know I can. And in your debate over which coke is better, you neglected the diet cokes, diet coke with lemon is far superior to them all, and vanilla coke is far too vanillary, but it is better than regular coke I agree, so yes as always you are right.
from eve-elle :
hmmmm interesting stalking experience. i would have to say i understand your predicament. i think, and dont tell me otherwise because then i would know you are lying, that the movie the truman show was a big hoax to put me off the trail of the fact that my life is simulated and under surveillance!!! i have been gathering the facts and clues for a while now...
from tithonus :
I'm a loser? I won, didn't I? How would you count the votes?
from mechanica :
I agree with STAR. Also, why is the1stnoelle written before and the wonderous light99?? YOU EVIL MONSTER WE ARE THE BEST DIARYLANDERS NOT the1stnoelle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from starlight99 :
oh my god, you are suuuuuuch a bad LOSER!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://feralliving.surreally.com/archives/loser.jpg
from siopup :
i go for diet coke. but vanilla coke is tasty.
from forestdream :
I don't like any softdrink, at all. Nothing fizzy. So do I get vague and random emnity?
from cista :
I've never tasted vanilla coke, but I firmly believe that regular coke was never meant for humans. This summer I developed an addiction to diet coke w. lemon, though.. but don't tell.
from starlight99 :
woohooo! we are way in the lead! I think youre gonna have to accept youve been beaten :P
from the1stnoelle :
vanilla coke? eeew. i'd rather drink dishwater. wait! that's what it tastes like...dishwater! i've been trying to figure it out for weeks...
from ayami :
i absolutely HATE IT!!!!!!
from ranul :
it's shit!
from eve-elle :
hahaha as much as i love eternal enmity, (collecting enemies is a talent of mine) again, i would have to say vanila coke rocks my world. i spent the whole morning searching for some before work. nothing compares. i think all you non-vanilla fans out there need to get out more. smile. its the answer to world peace im sure.
from kate-nz :
my vote is for diet coke. I never drink regular coke and I thought vanilla coke was way way too sweet. (i wonder what vanilla diet coke will be like...? apparently it is coming...)(came here from starlight!)
from soap-box :
Vanilla Coke is so much more fun than ordinary Coke. If there's nothing in the cola-flavoured caffeinated beverage selection but Coke products, I will always go for Vanilla. However, give me half a chance at some Pepsi Max and Coke is left way behind.
from euphorically :
i find vanilla coke has this sticky affect on the roof of my mouth, kinda like how peanut butter sticks to the roof of one's mouth. also, i find it a kinda indifferent drink, its not vanillary enough or cokey enough to be one or the another. personally, i like pepsi better anyway.
from mechanica :
Huh! I sent that bitch Moonie, and she gives star the recognition! PAH. Also, Vanilla coke is fucking disgusting, i have no idea why anyone WOULD like it. Tastes like ass! but i still love you ity, even if you don't accept me on msn.. [weep]
from discotheque :
vanilla coke is great
from tithonus :
Sure thing, Ab's. Just remember, two can play at that game. Score stands at 3-3 - for now...
from starlight99 :
what! who are these people!?!? I've never seen them in my life! I would *never* send others to do my dirty work for me...
from oedalis :
DIE VANILLA COKE!!! DIE!!! -signed on behalf of Abbie- *blows a kiss*
from moonshine76 :
Hi! :) You don't know me but starlight sent me. (I heard good things about you from lots of people actually) Oh and I don't like vanilla coke. I really, really, really hate it. *waves*
from eve-elle :
understand and sympathise the tiredness. i am soooo exhausted. i think i need some tasty VANILLA COKE!!! that would do the trick nicely :)
from starlight99 :
and look, you just made me make up a word.
from starlight99 :
MUST you insist on apostrophsising my name!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
from tithonus :
Give it up, Ab's. The majority has spoken!
from starlight99 :
you're all coke freaks! I'm sticking to the lemon flavoured stuff. It washes the pretzels down well, woman!
from tithonus :
Looks like so far the vote is 3-1 in favour of vanilla coke. I guess it's just superior. :)
from damodred :
ooo, i also love vanilla coke. yummers. before they had vanilla coke out me and my ex would put vanilla extract into our coke. heh
from eve-elle :
vanilla coke is infinitely yummier. mmmmMmmmm. ermmmm..confidence in you? and themselves? no just you. yes. confidence in you. ( i could start singing sound of music if you would like?...i thought not) wish i could employ those wonderful rewriting techniques here now but my brain will not permit it. have a good one!
from starlight99 :
we are at opposite ends of the coke spectrum
from soap-box :
*bows*
from babycupcake :
thanks for the birthday wishes sweetie!! *hugs*
from eve-elle :
i hate rewriting. and even re reading. i refuse. probably why my essays dont score as highly as they could. i dont know....i like the way you just write. have some confidence in yourself. everyone else does!
from cuillin :
"Lonely is an eyesore?" -- did you read the whole entry? It's a song lyric.....take care, S.
from starlight99 :
well. they must take all the water out then.
from babycupcake :
Hey! Yes it made it in time, though it went to my old address. Luckily for me that just happens to be my grandma's house. I even let her have a listen! Being 84 she just doesn't understand us kids and our music anymore! :) There is no rush for the shot glass. It takes time to find the perfect one. Just use that excuse! *hugs* thanks dear
from starlight99 :
vanilla coke hasn't made it to Oz yet? Oh well, you're not missing out on anything. Its sickly sweet and spew worthy. Ugh.
from angel-stars :
Haha, sad to say I've never seen that movie. But don't worry about being overly argumentative - I enjoy it! In fact I think you and I are quite alike in that way, that's what makes it oh-so-interesting.
from angel-stars :
Well I'm fine with things not being in the honeymood period after the beginning - I know that's normal, I was in a two year relationship. I mean at the beginning...if it isn't magical...is it worth it?
from damodred :
actually i've never tried that. i'll have to write it down and mention it to my doctor. it sounds interesting and maybe worth a try.
from x0lulu0x :
yes, "overbearing" rather than "overbeating." thank you. it's from glue by irvine welsh. (great book. great author.) i highly recommend it.
from euphorically :
absolutely, do you want to email me the questions? I will be as honest as i can,. i am pretty excited about seeing what you are doing!
from starlight99 :
*miow*
from mandypandy83 :
You've been nominated! http://favediaries.diaryland.com/020810_79.html
from babycupcake :
I am turning 21 thank you very much! lol which is legal so ha! pwease...i collect them...i don't actually drink out of them!
from babycupcake :
Hey dear! How you doing? I'm awesome I suppose! I get to party tomorrow so its all good. Guess who's birthday is on Oct. 6th!! *ahem ahem* Last year you wished me happy birthday...which was sweet. So how bout sending me a shot glass with my CD this year? PWEASE!!!!!! I'll love you forever and ever...not that I don't already...but it'll be even more! Well lata
from euphorically :
ha, i work tomorrow night. but i would be so flustered and red, its unbelievable. that and we couldn't really talk, i'd have to pretend to be cleaning your table.
from starlight99 :
hey hey guess who doesnt have internet access from home anymore! And has to make do with updating from uni computers! Gah! (oops, not to spoil your excitement or anything)
from euphorically :
soory i didn't thank you sooner, i haven't really been on. i finally finished the fucking sociology thing, and it was very very useful, so thank you! tell me when you are next coming home to balmain and you can come in and have a coffee with me if you like! i think its a great thesis topic, fuck knows i sucked at that transition.
from cista :
in theory, knowing that my paralyzing fear of spiders is ridiculous, should be enough to make me stop being afraid. I wish I lived in theory. :p
from cista :
well, thank you ;) I don't know what it'll come to, but considering how damaging norwegian winters are for me, I think australia might be a good choice. time will tell.
from euphorically :
hey! i was wondering if you could help me a little, or guide me in the right direction. i was wondering what exactly is the difference between hegemony and ideology? what are their roles in the production of meaning? i am mildly confused about the two, but then i have been so slack with my readings, i don't deserve to know the difference. also, what is your thesis on?
from rushlight :
happy birthday to you! haha, now you're officially twice as old as i am. hope you have a good birthday!
from soap-box :
Sorry to add to the pile of notes you have to reply to, but - Happy Birthday!
from starlight99 :
Happy Birthday to youuuuuuu Happy Birth Day to youuuuuuuuuuuu Happy Birthday dearest tit hoooooooo Happy Birth Day to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. :D
from babycupcake :
btw...i wanna stalk u on msn too!!!!
from babycupcake :
hey hun! new house? did someone move? well i have a new apartment too! :) aren't we all just movers and shakers! Birfday...do I sense a birfday?? oh boy...tell me when so i can break out the helium...for the balloons of course! I trust u'll get the CD to me in ur own time...*taps my foot*
from idontexist :
happy birthday, even though it's saturday, I thought I'd get in early, anyway, when did you get MSN, all this time I could of been stalking you on msn and I didn't know, oh well at least I have a new outlet to stalk you, so beware...muahahahahahahah! (that was a diabolical laugh if you didn't guess)
from soap-box :
Once you knew me as Liadlaith, now you can know me again as Soap-box. If you want to.
from hijinks :
i'm fuggledhead on aim so next time you're up at an ungodly hour keep an eye out for me
from patw-21 :
me0w me0w oh dear!
from starlight99 :
'leave out any bits where I sound stupid' well sheeesh, you were supposed to leave THAT part out.
from damodred :
nope i don't think i've seen that movie.
from hijinks :
long time no see, just wanted to say hello.
from tarabeib :
thank you thank you thank you!! :) oh, sorry about that. :| hm, what should we do about that? heh. weell, hope you are doing ok. biiiig hugs.
from angel-stars :
Haha, it's okay, of course you're not bothering me! Well when I say "expectations" I don't mean their looks, I mean the qualities that I know I need in another person for me to be happy. For example, I'm very sensitive and obviously couldn't be with someone who wasn't patient with my moodiness and who'd yell at me for being that way (like my ex, ahem) :) I guess I just mean that I'm not going to settle for someone who I know is emotionally unhealthy for me, that's what I was trying to get at.
from angel-stars :
I've seen Good Will Hunting, but it was a few years ago and I don't remember it all too clearly. But anyway, I do understand what you're saying, but I still believe it's better to have expectations. Because it's not like I'm looking for someone who is "perfect" as in completely flawless, I just want someone who is perfect for me, and that includes flaws that work with my own. I don't know if that made sense. I don't see how it'd take away romance, because if you find someone who fits with you so well, isn't that romantic and great? I don't know.
from starlight99 :
argh. ARGH. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You torment my guestbook with a zillion exclamation marks, threaten me with I don't know what for doing I have no idea what, and then you tell me YOURE confused. WHATS GOING ON????????????????????????????????
from starlight99 :
eh, youre confusing me. You said 'you better take that back or else' Take what back??? I'm puzzled.
from azure-bijou :
ok "G", we'll make a deal...I'll tell you if I find an approach and you'll have to do the same for me....
from azure-bijou :
Thank you....see my latest entry to read about my comments on your note...
from starlight99 :
oy. Don't put me and responsibility in the same sentence, it just doesn't work. Especially if theres drinking involved hehe. ;)
from euphorically :
ha wow, i didn't realise either. come in sometime and meet me, though don't introduce yourself, i would be terribly embarassed and flustered among all those lattes etc.
from liadlaith :
You're a tutor? That's so cool, I kinda have vague plans to do that . . . basically hang around the uni until they put me on the payroll : ) Beats getting a real job.
from raq :
Yesss I heard that Australian girl on TV. Er. mean I saw her video. And I quite liked the song, so I downloaded it. :) Whats odd is, they have her as a "Country music" artist, but her music didnt sound very country to me. Weird. But regardless, I like Aussies ;) So I'll promote her! Hee.
from babycupcake :
hey sweetie! So you think you're going crazy too? And all this time I thought it was just me. Damn. Anyways, I'ma email u my snail mail addy with the pictures in just a few minutes ok? Thanks a bunches! *hugs*
from starlight99 :
you're online and you're not on aim. MEH. Oh well, maybe I should go anyway, I hear moaning. Pift, of course I join in with 'the thing thats causing the moaning' wheres the fun in moaning by yourself? Oh. Yeah ok, theres fun in that too. I should prolly shut up now.
from babycupcake :
hey hun. would u really copy that CD for me? that'd be awesome! now if only i can get this guy i'm talkin about to realize that me having 36C's isn't a bad thing. oh...i got some pictures taken. wanna see one? *hugs* lots of love to ya
from starlight99 :
Oh, you see right through me. Not only do I enjoy listening to it, I often join in. We're rather a close-knit household ;)
from azure-bijou :
Thanks for your comments about Prince Charming...Actually you are right....I make the mistake of "idealising" men all the time...wanting to believe they are perfect, when of course they aren't...Trying to fix that :)
from starlight99 :
If you do the things you're worried about doing, rather than worrying about them, suddenly they're done and you don't have to worry about them anymore. Funny how that works out huh? But don't listen to me, champion of all procrastinaters. As for me freakin mother, yeah it does help writing about it, but then I've been over the whole thing a thousand times before and I'm sick of rehashing it all the time. There comes a time when you just have to let it go and move on.
from liadlaith :
No ; ) I figured it out about five seconds after I pressed the "done!" button. Wish you could delete your own messages ; )
from liadlaith :
*bemused and confused*
from liadlaith :
Thank you!
from cista :
I remember seeing Babette's Feast with my class as a part of our Norwegian curriculum last fall. It left me feeling sort of melancholic. Empty, perhaps. I wore a red sweather that day that I never wore again afterwards, and I think maybe the whole day made an imprint on me. Anyway. It's a good film. I guess I liked it, I just didn't realise before now.
from starlight99 :
heeeee I took that test and got 'Artificial Biochemical Being Intended for Exploration.' Oh yea explore me baby ;)
from unfaithful :
my comp crashed, my aim is OrangeLoni if you wanna chat again. peace
from starlight99 :
baby, you ARE attractive
from azure-bijou :
Thanks for picking up my little error in my diary...I knew I was going to do it...I typed her name out about 100 times and had to keep deleting it...doh....Thanks for letting me know :)
from euphorically :
ooh i think you are right. yay yay yay! wheres the updates of late?
from babycupcake :
hey babe! Thanks for the advice on the smoking. You are right...she would do it just to spite me. Oh the love of sisters! Glad that you are an ex-smoker though. I think its wonderful when people can do stuff like that! Anyways, I'll talk to ya lata. *hugs*
from babycupcake :
hello darling! Don't be so down...I guess if I read a bit more I'd know why you are...but cheer up! After all, you have so many fans out here in the world of diaries! *hugs*
from liadlaith :
Hey yeah, I missed that! Thanks!
from liadlaith :
I hope you feel better *hug*
from euphorically :
what a sad entry. truly.
from elipsis :
you might want to bring something to read, in case you run out of tears before people stop caring about you. a very long book. or three. or more. i won't ask you to be happy... but just enjoy being sad, maybe. :(
from babycupcake :
hello my dear! Don't you ever check your notes!? I was gone...but now i'm home...yay!
from liadlaith :
Jaysus! *hits you upside the head* I knew it was a joke, I'm not *that* thick ; )
from liadlaith :
"And besides, you don't update four times a week!" Eep! Sorry!
from starlight99 :
Apparently so. Hell, you should know, you're a guy!
from liadlaith :
"What kind of diary would it be if you had to read that three or four times a week?" Uhh . . . mine?
from x0lulu0x :
ha. ha. thanks for that! i appreciate it, but i don't know if it's any consolation or not!
from liadlaith :
Must you make me do all the work? I'm a frickin deity! Well, no, I'm a Messiah figure, but still, you're meant to worship me! Honour me! Leave me in peace and figure out your own darn rules for this cult!
from liadlaith :
I don't really know . . . but it's a cult, so I've got to sacrifice something, don't I? I don't suppose it would be very wise of me to sacrifice my disciple, though, would it? So I guess you're safe . . . hey, you're my disciple, you interpret my will! You decide what we're sacrificing!
from liadlaith :
No, it'll be a mobile church, kept in a briefcase - all you need is a flat surface and hey presto! One Sacrificial Altar! <br>Re: Big Brother - no, they can let those guys in, but they have to manipulate the footage they show so none of them get past the first three weeks.
from liadlaith :
Join my cult. We worship . . . uh, we worship . . . me? Yeah, I'm like some Messiah figure. You can be my disciple, my Peter - on this rock, I will build my church . . .
from starlight99 :
:D is what I meant. Just a bit of temporary dyslexia. Make of it what you will...a breast with two inverted nipples perhaps?
from elipsis :
i don't know if i count as someone to talk to about it (not being in "real life" and all)... but i am curious and i do care about you (*and* i have very big, hungry-for-words eyes-ears that love your sentences)... so if you need to unload, please do. i've unloaded on YOU often enough. (or maybe not, considering the once-waning frequency of my letters.. :) umm.. hm. that's all.
from starlight99 :
D:
from damodred :
i know i like nipples. especially my own. i even pierced one of them. hehehe
from starlight99 :
also, silk sheets are not all they're cracked up to be. I keep sliding off the damn bed.
from starlight99 :
yeah, you're over-analytical...but in such a cute way ;) *mwah*
from itsbeenreal :
hey, it's sexisfun. the new diary is itsbeenreal. thanks.
from tarabeib :
you're funny, arent you? now its summer. that sucks. do you have winter now? those things confuse me. in a week i'm going to denmark. get drunk and stuff. oh yeah. i wish could like all the other 15yearolds, drinking all the time. no, actually i don't. i'm a smart girl. uhm, this became a little bit messy. stay cool! pease. hugs.
from starlight99 :
oi...I'm on AIM RIGHT NOW! Do I see you anywhere? NO! GAH! I bet you're out table dancing!
from elipsis :
you made me think about forgiveness, too... and i think that i've never really forgiven anyone-- i always merely find a way to rationalize "what happened" in a way that invalidates my initial feelings... as in, "i shouldn't have been hurt because..." etc. if you can find a way around that... you will have discovered something wonderful. i think you will. i hope i haven't hurt you, ever, but the chance that i may have (ever) makes me opt for forgiveness as something worth working for.. because, well, the chance that i may someday screw up and hurt someone i love and ruin something wonderful gives me enough of a scare to try to prevent something like that from happening to someone i love. or who loves me. or something. hmm.... have a good day, you.
from liadlaith :
Don't try to force forgiveness, it doesn't work. But don't dwell on it either.
from potto :
I really am quite taken with the way you write..it's awfully captivating in its own sense..
from hijinks :
I got out of bed early today just to see if you were in chat and you weren't I could have stayed in bed you bastard, actually my flat mate woke me up but I was hoping you might be online too.
from liadlaith :
Maybe, but I'm not really a grey person. Well, more of a blue-grey person. Hmm . . . it's definitely an idea.
from potto :
not knowing whether it is depression or not is a familiar feeling...~ peace ~
from godisfemale :
Thanks for suggesting "Borges and I" to me. If what I found through google was indeed the story in its entirety, my interpretation of it is in no way comforting, but it is an interesting point nonetheless. So, uh, thanks. :)
from euphorically :
'Babette's Feast' is a good one alright. Oh the joy of foriegn film.
from potto :
thank you for the note..you also have some intersting thoughts going on in your diary...:) I'll be back to read some more :)
from always-crazy :
hi, thanks for noticing that grammatical error on my page, it's quite embarrassing, especially considering the page's message, so to speak. you must have quite the pair of keen eyes. :) thanks again and take care, DiDi
from godisfemale :
Fret not! There's a picture of me with a parakeet on my head in there somewhere!
from elipsis :
hello! i just wanted to say "hello!" and let you know that i've added a new entry to my diary & will be updating on a daily basis... but if you want the interim news you have to write to me.. :o) how's that for a compromise? keep being strange and wonderful... (and i'll keep using dots to imply things that can't be said)...
from teenage-girl :
I just read your new entries, and one of them in particular (May 27 I think) got me thinking, which was a strain since I haven't done it in a while. Oh how I miss intelligence. Anyway I just wanted to tell you that although I enjoyed that entry my head is now hurting and it's all your fault. ;)
from starlight99 :
umm...not really. I was referring to the fact that I'm tired of filing.
from starlight99 :
so, I'm gonna go jump off a bridge now. I should take your parents with me or something.
from tarabeib :
i should? i know... i'm just afraid that it would be something really wrong. i won't survive that. hugs.
from starlight99 :
you disappeared! *glares* hey I got my first real hate note in my guestbook! woot!
from liadlaith :
What about those ones that say "Victoria, I love you, marry me"? What the hell are they for? Did someone really want to marry a Victoria, or are they some vicious marketing ploy to confuse the hell out of us?
from hijinks :
If you scroll up and down fast enough for long enough your page eventually becomes blue, that and my head has started to hurt.
from raq :
You! I was wondering where in hell you were hiding! And no. I have nothing bettr to wish for. Because none of it will ever come true anyway.
from starlight99 :
so thats what your arse looks like on top of aim. What a lovely image :)
from doremi :
get on msn~ haven't talked to you in ages~! :(
from liadlaith :
Yes, go Swinburne! I think . . . I've only read one of his poems - no! two! - the whole way through. And, yes you do, you lazy arse! ; )
from starlight99 :
ahem ahem, Ņun seŮor? °°°Soy una soŮorita!!! Pero, claro, puedes comprar mis amfetamines. °Tengo mucho! Y si, puedes pagar con tu carte de VISA por favor, °necessito el dinero!
from entity- :
I'd actually recommend meditation. No training is really required, just a lot of...um...Self-Force or will.
from liadlaith :
And speaking of laziness, why haven't you replied my email?
from liadlaith :
I like those paintings too! And, well, I just answered your question (check my diary)
from ripetomato :
It's just what I want, not something I'd feel worthless without. That entry was more of an honest fantasy than a life to measure my own against. I wrote about everything I'd want if I could have my way in everything because it made me feel better just to realize some of the things I think I might enjoy having ... at least a few of those things are something I could aim for ... if not "the best" of everything, then at least something I'm content with (all of that stuff is subjective anyway). The fantasizing was intended to make me feel better, not worse, and I did actually find it therapeutic.
from starlight99 :
come to chat babe
from linzmat :
Hey...we're from the same town. I like your diary. :)
from babycupcake :
Hey hun! Its okay that you took forever. I forget what we were talking about anyways. So why the name change? No, I don't understand why. Hehe. I can't help it i'm ditzy sometimes!! Well ciao. *hugs*
from starlight99 :
hmmm so I was going to write in here 'but what am I going to do without my daily dose of Ity?' and then I thought actually now it has to be 'what am I going to do without my daily dose of Tity?' hehe. ;) and yes its who you think it is. I can just see you looking at me with that 'I told you so' expression! Grrr
from liadlaith :
Well, as much as I don't want to be the one who only ever has something negative to say in her notes, yeah. Shrivelling up with age, crying out feebly from a locked room, not exactly the picture of optimism, is it?
from liadlaith :
Em . . . rather depressing title, isn't it? But apart from that, glad to have you back : )
from starlight99 :
Yay I'm the first to sign your notes! er...Tithonus...pleased to make your aquantance mister :)

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