messages to wind-up-doll:
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from etc-whatever :
schoolwork becomes a distraction. constant motion, constant activity, keeps you from feeling lonely. but in those moments between class, or right before sleep it's hard to keep from remembering how good last summer was. how good our friends were. see you during xmas break.
from etc-whatever :
i always stop at your site when i update. but you never do. i wish you would. i like to know people are still o.k. (and by that i mean not dead, because clearly one is usually not completely o.k., especially when updating diaryland).
from rosebynename :
I miss you. And reading your diary. And knowing things about you, other than the most basic things that one gets by asking, "How are you?" And I'm not kidding or fickle or saying this now and not meaning it later. Because I still think we're friends. If I'm wrong, please correct me, but I think we're still friends, and that's because I feel I can still trust you with anything. And I want to hang out and do friend things again. Because, like I said, I miss you.
from chibi-kami :
Oh you know. That stupid crushy rock.
from chibi-kami :
Senior year really brings out the largest spectrum of emotions.
from etc-whatever :
dear allie, i just want you to know: i love you. i wish we were better friends. if you ever need me i'm here. please know that i mean that.
from chibi-kami :
Mmmm. I don't know if I'm thinking of the same person. But before I try to give you some insightful advice, I think talking about this would do you much better.
from chibi-kami :
H*ll yeah. Sorry, I felt like swearing in agreement was appropriate here.
from chibi-kami :
Hmmm. Prom eh? I think...it would have been nice, but would I really have gone? Dances aren't my thing. I'd rather be asked to go do something on Prom night. But it's all the same really...I understand what you mean. Though I'd probably never admit it in person. Yup.
from i-havnolover :
that's a pretty shitty stage of life. but it doesn't really make a difference
from chibi-kami :
Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. (Sorry, it was necessary to have my expected reaction.) Anyways, I can't say that I'd agree with you there. I guess in a way, I'd "like" to be kissed, but I would seriously never let it happen. So then...I guess I don't.
from chibi-kami :
Pssst. Secretly, I do too. Though I guess it's not "secretly" if I tell you now. And then we have to talk about the question of "when"....*goes into her own ramblings*
from i-havnolover :
xanga and myspace are a pair of villinous sick diseases that have tanited my very soul. it's an obsession
from rosebynename :
And I'm glad you have somewhere to vent your feelings, as well. "I just want you to know who I am."
from wind-up-doll :
Tuesday, May 31st, 2005- 5:39 PM-- This is thoroughly frustrating. And by this, I mean the bad attitude I seem perpetually stuck in tonight.
from chibi-kami :
If I'm one of the people you think are going to get worried, WELL, let me tell you, I'm not. It's not because I'm Satan and I want you to become a cutter or anything, but rather, I sometimes get that feeling. Except I never think about cutting, it's usually about suicide. I know I'm never going to commit suicide, but I still think of it a lot. But I can't talk about it because people will start dishing out comments like "We love you, don't do that" or "If you ever need anything I'm here for you." It's just not what you want to hear.
from chibi-kami :
I don't know if you actually meant for anyone to read that last entry, but I did. And I think that posting on diaryland is smart, because no one else will read. I hope I'm not invading by commenting...if you ever read this comment anyways. ---- As odd as the situation may be, I suggest that you don't say anything. This isn't one of my "wise" advice segments, rather, it's what I've been doing for a while. I actually detected the same problem a few...months back. Now that I think about it it's been a long time. But it's been working for me. It might seem like you're just running from the problem, but I've evaded it for months. Do what you feel is right to do.
from i-havnolover :
xanga has become complicated. i haven't given up. yet.
from i-havnolover :
yes. i do wash windows every week. it is not fun. my mom fired the cleaning lady
from nightingale- :
I'm never having children. And the future scares me, too, but less so because of the previous statement. Think about it- kids suck. But you don't. And that's why I love you.
from chibi-kami :
Yeah, actually, I've thought about the concept of having children before. Yeah, not cool.
from dreamynight- :
im glad you liked it...
from i-havnolover :
of course they are. i may have had this under terrible conditions, but i had the time of my life.
from leep4life :
I'm a punk rock princess...dancing in a life-induced fantasy of harmonic tasting colors.
from leep4life :
I'm here in spirit, Allie. And, I'll never let go...
from wind-up-doll :
Frankly, I'm feeling a bit cheated- I come home, expecting to have to do a lot of catch up reading and I find no entries from Himadhari or Emilie, Thomas claiming he's leaving, (Sarah being in Arizona), Kate being in Duluth, and just a bunch of crap. Well, welcome home Allie. *(I hope this didn't sound too self-reliant, because I was trying to be really whiny. I was working on that over vacation)* -ab
from leep4life :
Word, Benson, Word.
from nightingale- :
Happy
from nightingale- :
Birthday
from nightingale- :
Fool!
from nightingale- :
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
from i-havnolover :
oh my... morp is coming up. i can feel the anticipation building...
from i-havnolover :
mmmmm. dancing... i feel so deprived.
from chibi-kami :
If by tofu you mean Indian Cheese, I agree with you. NUM.
from dreamynight- :
you were amazing...everyone thought your were so good, at dancing. friends like you guys are what made my party so special. thank you so uch. i loved you present, its exactly what i wanted. im going to get all my friens (everyone) to sign the bowling pin! you'll be the first. im so happy that you wont every believe it. we all need to dance more often. thank you so much once again for making the celebration of my birth, something so simple, into something so special and unforgetable! i'll talk to you later, cuz we have sooo much to talk about. bye ~with love, peace and now happiness *wink*!~
from wind-up-doll :
Scratch that. Everything's content once again. Only now both of my legs are sore. Less sex might be a good idea.... wait- who am I fooling?
from wind-up-doll :
I want to scream- and I for sure don't want anyone to say "sorry" for me. So don't.
from dreamynight- :
pleasant...who knows....i sure dont!
from dreamynight- :
yes a dream...OR A NIGHTMARE...or just a pleasant dream... i just dont know...you pick...oh and could you tell me...just so i no which one...*wink* ~with peace and love!
from i-havnolover :
mmmm, non non. je suis le vixen
from leep4life :
Good to see you were thinking of me. Everything went amazingly fantastic - no need to worry. I'll probably do some HodgePOdge this summer. And, I just visited the Vietnam Veterans memorial in the company of a 7 and a half year POW of the North Vietnamese...it was something else.
from i-havnolover :
mmm, thank you very much. much the same here. it's weird doing things the other way around. normally, you meet people, know them, then talk and commuicate over the web. somehow, we've switched it around.
from wind-up-doll :
I just saw one of the funniest diarys I'd seen... ever. http://porktornado.diaryland.com/ make sure you go to the link about the cute story about the lion and cute thing too. Enjoy-
from i-havnolover :
tommy is the name of the album that the song is from
from i-havnolover :
i know how that goes. my heart goes out to your friend. the key is optimism. "glass half full" type ideas.
from rosebynename :
Thank you, but I believe he's solved the problem for both of us by seeking the affection of yet another. I appreciate your support- hopefully you will get as much in this, your time of need. Sweet dreams.
from nightingale- :
Allie, as justified as you are in your view on this assignment, I don't think it's to fill the human need for gossip- none of our English teachers seem to condone war, violence, or hurtful actions in any way. Perhaps they're just trying to make us realize firsthand what a horrible- and real- experience war is. Although I do agree with you on one point- making these people relive it every year for an assignment is just cruel. Alright, onto the touchy-feely part of the note- I'm sorry for all the death you've been having to experience as of late. But perhaps, after all of this is over, it will build on your knowledge of how fragile life is and help you to live life to its fullest. Tell Lauren and her friend('s dad) that I'm sorry for what they have to go through. And I'm sorry you do, too. Unfortunately, it's part of life, but that doesn't make it any less painful. I love you, and you can always rant to me, if you'd like.
from i-havnolover :
wait... what happened?
from chibi-kami :
You know, I've come to see that on your notes page, I'm the only one that's extremely violent about her notes. But neh, what do I care? Anyways, personally, I would've recommended inflicting pain on him in a different way, like throwing darts at his picture or something. I know you own darts...and a dartboard in fact, that you could tape a picture of him on. Hmm...goodness.
from nightingale- :
Oh, Allie. Remember you have the strength and friends to help you get through this tough time. I love you.
from i-havnolover :
well. now that i know you... here is me. i don't have any allergies that i know of. though once i got a rather bad case of hives, cause unknown. i like to laugh at things that aren't particularly funny. i take joy in life's simple pleasures, and life's huge moments seem to pass too quickly. i don't believe in regret, in any form, but it's a hard credo to keep. i love chocolate, music, and art (and if possible, all three combined). i am convinced i'm bipolar. i never fail to have extreme high and low mood swings all in one day. i'm a big fan of coffee. fresh ground only. i've tried collecting things, but my lack of commitment towards anything has made it impossible. i'd like to think i'm charismatic, but i've never been on the listening side of myself. just these few words are sufficient i hope.
from i-havnolover :
easier said than done
from wind-up-doll :
It wasn't the homework. It actually wasn't anything- except that horrible feeling.
from nightingale- :
I love you, Allie! Just remember- don't let the stress get to you. In the grand scheme of what you're doing with your life, that last piece of homework is miniscule. Feel better, dear one!
from i-havnolover :
fifield. kate fifield
from chibi-kami :
I feel what you're feeling now every Sunday.
from i-havnolover :
maningless? hardly. i know sarah, and our cunning (hem hem) banter hasn't lessened. oh well. maybe you're right. we can communicate through art. something we both seem to have an interest in. i wait for the next masterpiece of allie benson.
from wind-up-doll :
Kate is figuring me out. This is very bad. Probably inevitable, though.
from dreamynight- :
note on my note page for you...
from i-havnolover :
seriously, what art period are you in. you're the one who keeps getting perfect scores and i'm either there or just behind. she hung up your contour line thing. perfect 10, i was at a 9.5. who are you?
from i-havnolover :
that's all life has ever been.
from nightingale- :
No, I definately remember. Because I was there.
from nightingale- :
GAH. You and your reminiscing...hey, you know the middle-aged guy I waved to at Har Mar? And you got all freaked out? He was from Hodge Podge. Oh, dear Apple Man, how I miss thee.
from chibi-kami :
I'm confused...did you keep picking your toe until it like...died? 'Cause why would you need to wrap it in kleenex?
from wind-up-doll :
An old entry of mine, coming true now, might answer some questions- "A letter from far away", first section. Oh, and both of you last two notes writers- rock on!
from i-havnolover :
still rockin. rockin as ever. you're allie benson? what art period are you in?
from leep4life :
Benson - you're a cool kid.
from chibi-kami :
You know...we should've really put together one of those flippy-charts. *sniffle* I DON'T WANNA GO!!!
from chibi-kami :
To be honest, I've never heard the song; not that that comes as a surprise or anything. But hey, you know, I think the best way to vent anger is to yell REALLY REALLY LOUDLY. Well...it's what I do when I'm not out there killing people anyways. Then, I sit down and watch T.V. and I feel better.
from dreamynight- :
*hug*
from rosebynename :
Fantastic song. Well-suited for your recent entries.
from nightingale- :
YOU'RE irritating!
from i-havnolover :
thank you
from etc-whatever :
shakespeare was splendid!
from nightingale- :
PHrame? PHrame?!? What the hell is PHrame?! Not that I'm annoying you about this again...but I am. And I don't know about Hitch- it really just looks like another bad date movie. But, if you HAVE to see it...:/ *heavy sigh*
from nightingale- :
Is the punch line, "Shut the Uruguay up"?
from leep4life :
Because, Allie, no one flakes out on one of my friends. Yo!
from i-havnolover :
actually, i didn't go, and i was glad? yeah it was creepy. but not crazy obsessively or anything
from i-havnolover :
he speaks every year
from nightingale- :
Won't you show me everything you know?
from i-havnolover :
sorry. typo
from dreamynight- :
love you allie....ooo we need to talk
from wind-up-doll :
The dance party celebrating the below mentioned achievement rocked. Two word songs are amazing; Big Balls, Whip it, Hey Ya!, Love Shack. 'Chemistry' is helping me on my "cool down".
from wind-up-doll :
That's right, bioches, I REACHED LEVEL 22 ON TROGDOR!!! (the game) 1937 points! And I can still feel my fingers! Eat it!
from nightingale- :
Are you kidding me? You're all ABOUT hormones! Hey, Allie, you know what word makes up the first half of "hormones"...
from dreamynight- :
i love you allie...we should talk..tomorrow!
from leep4life :
Get control of yourself, woman! Allie: you're the man, with a little bit of Whoa! beforehand.
from nightingale- :
Thanks.
from nightingale- :
Precalc is for suckers. And I'm glad Friday was good for you- the Round Table set-up was amazing. Especially for those sitting across from us...muaha.
from i-havnolover :
mmmm, merci
from leep4life :
Allie: You'll have to explain yourself.
from etc-whatever :
yes. i admit i have been chasing the dragon in candlit dens. like johnny depp in from hell. where bilbo is evil.
from rosebynename :
I can only try to live up to the standards set by others, such as yourself.
from nightingale- :
Ahh, alright, it makes sense now...(oh, and Allie-) DON'T GO INTO THE LIGHT! Feel better. Love, Me*
from wind-up-doll :
a sort of by-the-way... I'd like to update that there was no breakdown... nor was one needed, somehow. I've again ridden the rollercoaster of my emotions and am back at normal- though very tired. Wahoo! Here comes another hill in the track!
from nightingale- :
Yea, you said "It's amazing" in the note you left for me, but I have no idea what you're referring to. So, that's that. I love you, Allie! And your wad of twenties!
from nightingale- :
I usher every Sunday they have a show running...and I'm not dead in a swamp somewhere. Which happens more than you'd think. It's amazing, indeed. (What is?)
from nightingale- :
*there and I
from nightingale- :
Hey, when did you go? I was actually there on Sunday (matinee showing)...I was ushering. I'll be really mad if you were there I just missed you! So mad I could mock you for pretending to know who you are (Moulin Rouge-wise)...
from nightingale- :
...bitter and betrayed by your lover, whom you're now going to pay what you rightfully owe?
from nightingale- :
Yea, I guess you could call it a romantic comedy. And what do you mean, you're a toned-down Christian? *gasp* Are you in LOVE?!?
from i-havnolover :
thanks so much. it means a lot to me that you care. also, beyond the bonds of words. there isn't any way to say how much i appreciate the people who support my mom and our family
from rosebynename :
Your notes are always so heartfelt and sincere, every time. I'm glad that there are people like you in the world- the rest of us would be lost without you.
from rosebynename :
I see where you're coming from and I understand your point- if joy without pain was possible, surely we wouldn't ever need (or at least want) to feel pain. But we're living in the real world, and while high ideals are good and noble, they simply don't work. In some cases, perhaps, but to say that no one deserves or needs pain simply isn't true. I've tried creating a pain-free utopia- all I got was a stabbing wound when I realized it could never exist. Peace.
from nightingale- :
I'll answer the question fully when I'm good and ready, Benson.
from nightingale- :
Yea, I also felt bad about that, but saying a nice farewell to Mandy seemed necessary. Although neither one of us knows her that well, it was just the principle of it- sort of a symbolic gesture, if you will. You can't not say goodbye. (Yea, I went there- double negatives. What of it?) It's just like saying, "I don't know you, but you're a good person, and here's to all of the goodbyes you should have." And I love you, too.
from rosebynename :
Perhaps there is a certain extent to which people do not deserve pain, and there is certainly many cases of unecessary pain, but through our pain is how we learn and grow. Without pain, we wouldn't know the joys of happiness because there would be nothing to contrast it with. Pain, while at certain times may seem fruitless, always gives us something to develop on in the end.
from nightingale- :
Cute. (And thank you!)
from rosebynename :
I've also heard that anger stems from hurt, so if you're asking me if hurt is the most common of all emotions, I would say yes. While I would guess most of it to be deserved pain, much of the time it is also self-inflicted, because humans are juvenile beings who want to feel self-pity where there is none to be felt. Just a thought for the day...best wishes.
from nightingale- :
Anytime. Oh, and by the way...I'm interested to know how you found that quote from my diary. Did you go through my 1072348729473 entries, or just choose a random one? Either way, I'm impressed...impressed enough to copy you *cough choke*
from nightingale- :
I_love_you.
from leep4life :
Just breathe...Time is only temporary
from rosebynename :
And suddenly the diary name unravels itself. While I say it in every note, I'd like to repeat the phrase of "Thank you", because with you it seems I just can't say it enough.
from i-havnolover :
mmm thanks for the help. things are good, i suppose. it'll all roll out right
from nightingale- :
Pshaw. (said with contempt)
from nightingale- :
Yea, I wasn't about to waste my precious time like that. Oh, and I'm glad you weren't on a drug trip when you wrote that note, because I don't talk to people who do drugs...and don't share any with me.
from wind-up-doll :
I had actually entered it six times, by the way. Way to not count al of them. (though now there's only one)
from wind-up-doll :
Okay- my internet was spazzing out. I haven't been able to get onto this site for TWO WHOLE DAYS. I didn't know if it registered that I entered this or not... I saved it elsewhere just to make sure I'd be able to post it later if necessary. Good to know you're checking for any entries you missed ;) . (oh, and right now my computer won't let me see yours or Himadhari's entries- they're too newly written, I believe. Confusing) -me
from nightingale- :
The fact that you recognize the problems in the world and are grateful for how good your life really is show that you're more sensitive and caring than you give yourself credit for. Allie, I think you're amazingly thoughtful and you should never question how giving and considerate of others you really are. (Oh, and I really liked this entry, too, but was entering it three times really necessary? (Jk, I love you.) (But seriously.))
from leep4life :
Smile
from rosebynename :
They are elegant, and I would hardly describe myself as you have. I doubt you would either, should you find out my true identity. Nonetheless, it is a pleasure to recieve such heartfelt sentiments from one such as yourself. Best wishes.
from nightingale- :
DID I fail, Allie, DID I? You left that note on my page twice in a row. Who looks like a fool NOW?
from wind-up-doll :
I'M GOING TO EXPLODE! NO MORE STUDYING! I CAN'T READ NO MORE!
from rosebynename :
I remain anonymous to protect those around me, so as not to alarm them to my juvenile troubles. Thank you for reading, and for your elegant words. It's good to know that, although you may still question my identity, you care enough to read and comment. Thanks.
from etc-whatever :
study Function: verb Inflected Form(s): stud�ied; study�ing intransitive senses 1 a : to engage in study b : to undertake formal study of a subject 1 : to read in detail especially with the intention of learning
from nightingale- :
Thank you. Alright, let's see if you can get this one- "You must hurt him to save him." I think that's from a movie you've only seen once...
from nightingale- :
I love you. Please don't fall apart.
from nightingale- :
Allie's movie highlight: "Ow, you hit my ear!"...It's almost like it should be funny.
from rosebynename :
(I also read all of your entries ;)
from rosebynename :
Yes, I realize that, I know it's not completely true, I was just expressing how I felt at that moment. As tainted as it was, it was also quite liberating.
from leep4life :
I'm sorry I missed, maybe you missed that part of my entry. But, you're still an amazing person, Allie. Paz~leep
from wind-up-doll :
true true. Fight Club continues to be an amazing movie, for those of you that missed it!
from nightingale- :
Sorry, I just got your message- will be calling you in a bit! P.S.- Brian's actually quite nice, but he can be a jerk, depending on the circumstances (and who's watching. Ugh.) Love you ~Sarah*
from etc-whatever :
no i am not a pedifile. perhaps if you hadn't quit orch you would understand. (because orchs=enlightenment). and the 'baby-kissing' was referring to the politics of the gay nineties.
from nightingale- :
Come live with me, Benson!
from nightingale- :
As if I'd be anything other.
from wind-up-doll :
You know, you're right.
from nightingale- :
Oh, but I didn't. Shaun did.
from nightingale- :
Curse you and your willingness to look up quotes!
from nightingale- :
I usually don't. (*audience does a collective, "Oooh!"*)
from i-havnolover :
geometry and algebra 1. she's ok if she likes you. but if she doesn't, she's a right bitch. how depressing
from wind-up-doll :
Thank you. I will! (have a good life, that is)
from nightingale- :
Beauty queen of only eighteen/She has some troubles with herself/He was always there to help her/She always belonged to someone else/I drove for miles and miles and wound up at your door/I've had you so many times but somehow I want more/I don't mind spending everyday/Out on your corner in the pouring rain/Look for the girl with the broken smile/Ask her if she wants to stay a while/And she will be loved/Yes she will be loved/Tap on my window and knock on my door/I want to make you feel beautiful/I know I tend to get so insecure/Doesn't matter anymore/It's not always rainbows and butterflies/It's compromise, it moves us along/My heart is full and my door's always open/You come anytime you want (Then it just repeats the chorus which starts at, "I don't mind" and ends with "she will be loved"). I hope that was helpful. Have a good life! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
*sniffle* We all saw it coming. It was inevitable. Anyway, I'll try my best to recreate the lyrics here, in case I get them wrong so somebody else can correct me. (They'll be in the next note...)
from wind-up-doll :
It appears that our dear friend chibi-kami is no longer. I can't go there- even if I'd like to. Tonight is a night of mourning. I guess 3 months of non-use does the trick. If she'd only taken a spoon full of sugar...
from nightingale- :
Your title makes me laugh. I'm sorry that you have so much going on, especially after I noticed that TOH was one of those things. *shrugs* We're single-handedly saving the world, as my babysittee(?) likes to say. Oh, and if you want the lyrics for that song- "Beauty queen of only eighteen, she has some problems with herself" etc etc- I can give them to you. Rock on! ~Sarah*
from dreamynight- :
i love you!
from wind-up-doll :
Wow. I strongly desire (need) for someone to leave me a note. Go ahead, please do.
from wind-up-doll :
I had a lacrosse game at 8 this morning- was supposed to be there at 7:30... Mommy said we had to leave at *shudder* 6:45... Dad switched that to 7. That was frustrating. We won though! :)
from nightingale- :
Huh, that's kind of interesting...I had a dream last night where he married Emily Swora. I don't think those two could be more different. Oh, and Mr. Moore was there. And he was fantastically friendly...okay, I take that back, they're both really creepy. I can't believe you were up at 6:30 this morning. Freak. (Kidding, I love you. Although you should really throw around wedding vows less.) Loves, Me*
from wind-up-doll :
indeed.
from leep4life :
Creepy...
from wind-up-doll :
gah! Two months? It's SO SOON! Well, happy new years to everyone anyway.
from etc-whatever :
funny i got that wrong... TWO months and sixteen days!
from etc-whatever :
happy new year allie. thanks for trying to make me feel less alone slash more of a conformist. kidding, thanks, really. three months and sixteen days. hooray, or as we say back in the Renaissance HUZZAH!
from i-havnolover :
oh it is. it is.
from rosebynename :
We both know the answer to that (believe it or not). Anyway, thank you for the note, they always make me happy to see.
from i-havnolover :
obviously
from nightingale- :
If you really want to give your old camera a good home, you would give it to me. ;) Haha...kidding (?). Anyway, I'll definately be seeing you sometime soon, a.k.a.- tomorrow. Mmmhmm.
from i-havnolover :
oh. i know. i'm obsessed with that song
from nightingale- :
Allie Benson, if I wasn't convinced that you were the greatest person alive before, I am now. You are the greatest person alive (and I hope you know why.)
from wind-up-doll :
Happy Holidays, all!
from leep4life :
Thank you for watching, and for the compliment - I wrote the speech while other people were giving theirs'. ~leep
from wind-up-doll :
apush update: #1: I can't concentrate worth crap, and am going to fail this test, #2: I PUT A PICTURE OF A GNOME ON MY BOOK COVER!!
from wind-up-doll :
um... it was earlier on my notes page?!? Right- the time when I was writing entries on the notes page instead of the entry place, or whatever. I'm confused. -apushgoo
from nightingale- :
Wait...when was that? I don't remember...*cries because she realizes she just made her memory loss absurdly apparent*
from wind-up-doll :
What?
from i-havnolover :
yea. umm... heavy
from wind-up-doll :
Wow. I really enjoy reading my old notes. Behold the beauty: "You know, we could all go crazy-backwards and perminently post our entries in the notes area.. but then my beautiful layout would be wasted. Like Sarah was this afternoon. Boy, what a crackhead!" Wow. It's sheer poetry.
from nightingale- :
Yea, you're lucky we talk to you at all. ;) (I love you, too.)
from wind-up-doll :
Sorry for crushing you Sarah. I've already forgotton what I did. And Thomas- I must say, it's always exciting to get notes from you.. but this one was a bit less optimistic than usual. I would agree that life can be tricky and people can betray you... but "keep your secrets" "you will betray and be betrayed"? My advice to you, Thomas Leeper: Do try to forget those who have hurt you- but don't be scared to trust again. Thanks for notes, people. That's the whole point of diaryland anyway. -bnsn
from rosebynename :
Hah, I'm trying.
from nightingale- :
Wait...joke? Oh man, you had me going there, Benson...right up until the point where you crushed me.
from leep4life :
In high school, loyalties are fragile. You will betray and you will be betrayed. You will try not to look back, you will find yourself with eyes in the back of your head. Life is tough and rarely worth the fight. Take it easy. Always have a triad of friendship. Keep your secrets. That's my advice. Paz~leep
from wind-up-doll :
Emilie said she had an A minus, but I suppose that that might be an updated grade. My mom had sent an email to Osborn, and she sent one back saying that I was 'right on track' with an A-... I don't know what's up with her. That WAS a grade out of 36 though- as opposed to the out of 30 on the grade sheet. I bet all of our grades are looking up. *curse the whole idea of few points!* Oh, and did you see that Times chose Bush as the 'person of the year'? Oh, how our world has sunk. A new low. On that happy note... -allie
from nightingale- :
No, Victor and Anthony have the 2 A's...unless *gasp* ANTHONY WAS WRONG?!? My entire religion...crashing...around me...
from wind-up-doll :
Some sad news; On the top 10 list for worst cities for dating in- Minneapolis-St. Paul, MN was number three, (#10 being the most bad). How sad. Well, it's the city's fault. Not mine. -ab
from wind-up-doll :
Well, one is Emilie's- but it's crazy. I think that she might be doing to seperate quarter grading blocks. I don't think she's running it through the semester. Too bad she didn't tell us- or have it in the syllabus... wait- THERE WASN'T A SYLLABUS!
from nightingale- :
Yea, those math grades kinda suck. There's only 2 A's in our class- TWO!! And neither one is Emilie's! I think we should talk to her- these have to be wrong. Or ask for 1034098 points of extra credit.
from wind-up-doll :
More concerned about math at this point. Don't worry about me worrying about diaryland.
from nightingale- :
Don't worry about it.
from wind-up-doll :
See- that's EXACTLY why I love/hate this new background.
from nightingale- :
Sorry, I'm back- I had to go move my ego. It was getting in the way.
from nightingale- :
Yea, it does seem rather depressing, but the color scheme is nice, and I like the title ("Every bit of ink a reminder of you") because I know it's about me, so I feel flattered. I mean, who else
from wind-up-doll :
I fixed the "too many stupid buttons/not enough 'notes' buttons" problem. Now I just have to deal with the depressingness of it all... depressing beauty, for sure, but still depressing.
from wind-up-doll :
Right- I thought a new template might be fun- and I found this one while I was about... I'm not sure about it though. It seems a bit too depressing- even the happy entries are sad... but at the same time, it's a much better look than the painful colors of orange and red from the Beatles one. I might change back- main reason- because there doesn't seem to be a "notes" button- and I don't know how to make one. (and there are a bunch of completely useless buttons that I don't want) Meh. We'll see- it might change back soon, I might find a new one. Plus, that girl's breasts are way too big- it would get me down every time I saw the entry page.
from wind-up-doll :
*double sigh* Yes, you should call. (yes, I mean to be horrible)
from nightingale- :
That's why I told you it was misspelled. Yea, we could call...I suppose...*sigh*
from nightingale- :
http://www.mnartists.org/article.do;jsessionid=C45D6E0CAED5E0FBAC73DBC5B30218B0?rid=53576 Haha, crazy Jaron...
from nightingale- :
Oh Allie, you seem to let that skitzophrenia (sp?) get to you far too often. P.S.- Love you.
from wind-up-doll :
To Thomas and Emily Swora: (I thought this was creepy, seeing as this story was actually one from speech last year) The Tiger, the Brahman, and the Jackal was first performed by the Hodge-Podge Players in the Twin Cities, Minnesota on June 12th, 13th, and 14th, 2003.�� It was directed by Jaron Burdick with the following cast: THE FARMER Emily Swora THE TIGER Kevin Whitby THE HUNTER Thomas Leeper THE BRAHMAN Justin Anderson THE BUFFALO Sandy Carlson THE SACRED FIG TREE���� Katherine Juul THE ROAD Carl O'Brian THE JACKAL Katrisa Bohne
from i-havnolover :
don't i know it
from wind-up-doll :
oh man, those comments make me want to shoot my computer... just to put it out of it's misery.
from nightingale- :
And I also knew that you found sexuall, with two l's, attractive. Which is why I wrote it like that...on purpose...*ahem*
from nightingale- :
Yea, Sophie- I was actually talking to Allie, and it really, really did sound like you were referring to me as sexy. And thanks- I always knew you couldn't keep your sexuall attraction for me in forever.
from rosebynename :
Thank you, your sentiments are truly appreciated, but I don't know if you can tell me that I'm important when you can't even tell me who I am. Still, it was a truly beautiful note, and I sincerely thank you for it.
from etc-whatever :
i meant that sarah takes sexual pleasure out of her sadism, not that i find her sexually attractive. sexual. werd.
from etc-whatever :
both, of course. why choose only one? tears in any form are... orgasmic? oh no, thats le carrot. i mean, what?
from nightingale- :
Ooh, which one? They're all so deliciously...delicious...*ahem*
from etc-whatever :
i probably did steal it at that. i do have to beat you at something by getting my license first and this seems like the best way to do it. and i want my witness to cry. a lot. with a wet and knarled hankerchief (can a hankerchief be knarled?). and i want this hanky to be monogrammed in the corner. and i want to begin all my sentences the same way, while weeping in an overly gushing manner.
from rosebynename :
I can only try.
from nightingale- :
*gasp* Say, Benson, speaking of Como...I have a brilliant winter break idea. Brilliant.
from nightingale- :
The fact that it's worth it makes it all worth it...*boo!*
from wind-up-doll :
Not entry worthy, no- but here is a little comment- Sarah is a bad influence on me. Today I saw JJ sleeping peacefully on her bed. I snuck up to her and spooked her. She jumped! It was fun, until I felt guilty. oh, Sarah, how do you live with yourself? *boo* Oh, man, it's totally worth it though.
from wind-up-doll :
Actually, you can grovel for horrible spelling mistakes- it's just that HORRIBLE word describing a big ego- that's what you shouldn't apologize for- that is- you shouldn't apologize for the use of it before. From now on though *wacks newspaper in hand threateningly*... This week better be over like it says it will be.
from nightingale- :
Oh wait, we're not supposed to apologize...well then, what I meant was...you'll get yours, Benson. You'll get yours.
from nightingale- :
Sill?? What the heck is sill?! I think I was trying to say, "shall"...sill?!? That's pretty bad. I apologize.
from nightingale- :
Boom? Ou est la boum? Yea, I should probably talk to you guys then, eh? Well, I sill. In good time, my friend, in good time.
from wind-up-doll :
Yes, sincerely is allowed! See, I was trying to say that I don't want to see it anymore (by the way, Sarah- you've got a reprimand coming toward you. With the speed of light) and also explain that I don't want you guys to apologize for using it- it's a very educated word, but it makes me want to punch something very hard. Don't feel bad or something. Just try not to use it. Try 'I don't have that much of a hugely enflated ego' or something. Just not 'that word' *shudder. (After the reprimand- Sarah- that sounds like THE BOMB in a non- boom sort of way)
from rosebynename :
Sincerely sorry. (Is the word "sincerely" allowed?)
from nightingale- :
Yea, I have an idea that I think would work with you, me, Lisa, and Himadhari...fun stuff. Werd. We'll chat.
from nightingale- :
Do you realize you wrote "egotistical" in big, noticable letters? Has your mother reprimanded you yet, or do I have to?
from wind-up-doll :
I think I may have to ban the word "egotistical" from my notes page. Don't worry- I don't think anyone is- or at least not people writing in here.. so you're safe. And, more importantly, whenever I see that word, I want to shoot my computer screen. NO MORE USING EGOTISTICAL ON THIS PAGE. FROM NOW ON, ANYONE WHO USES IT WILL BE HARSHLY REPREMANDED (by my mother, to make it more threatening)! Thank you.
from rosebynename :
Thank you. And I must agree (with your second note...I'm not that egotistical.)
from wind-up-doll :
Wow. How could anything be more amazing? I am lucky enough to have fight club on TV tonight... oh man! The only problem is that if it weren't on, I'd be getting a bunch more done. Oh, the glory of Fight Club.
from wind-up-doll :
Right. As I think I may have mentioned before- I have really change-y sort of emotions. When I feel a particularly odd one or a particularly strong one, I tend to write about it... and then it usually leaves shortly. No worries. Just moody moods.
from nightingale- :
(P.S.- I love you, Allie! Emilie's birthday is Dec. 18th, and we should throw her a party...since her parents obviously aren't going to give her one. I think you need a de-stressifier...maybe a little bit of bonding? Don't fear Lauren's friends, they're just as cool as they were last year, and although they've changed, it's probably for the best. Don't get depressed, Allie- we all love you! End P.S.)
from nightingale- :
y'd lk t thnk!!
from leep4life :
Smile. It's lovelicious!!!
from i-havnolover :
eh, typical.
from wind-up-doll :
Y n't a vwl. I cmpltly ndrstd y. I'm hd. (ahead)
from nightingale- :
(tks a brk frm vwl drppng wr)- Does y count as a vowel? And why would you say something without vowels, only to follow it up with the missing letters? Doesn't that completely defeat the purpose? (brk vr.)
from wind-up-doll :
This already happened, I do believe. Oh, and Sarah, I'm going to start a dropping vowels war with you now- let's see who understands what (the exeptions are clearly words like "I" and "a" or whatnot)... I'm gng t bt y vr th hd wth a stck, nd wn ths wr. (I'm going to beat you over the head with a stick, and win this war.) T'S N! (IT'S ON!)
from leep4life :
Allie- I want you to train in on how to use the light/sound system in the theatre. I'm not sure what exactly that will involve, but Adam has offered to train people. I'll get back to you.
from nightingale- :
1t d03s m@k3 ]s3ns3, ~it's <just> h@rd^ 2 r3@d. L00k* (b3tw33n) th3 {lin3s.
from wind-up-doll :
�I'm ashamed @ your (disgraceful) use of punctuation! �I [had thought that] [I] had made it clear that all punctuation (used) must make (some form) [of] sense! �Why must you stress me so? *(grumbles)*
from nightingale- :
()H !A*11i3, 1 don'''t ~th1nk^ <Y_o+u w@nt m3 2 d0 %T#@t!!
from wind-up-doll :
ah!
from leep4life :
Yes - I'm assuming you're talking about Kate's monologue from the final scene, but anything from that play is probably fine. There is a day we'll have to work on it sometime, I don't know when. As my lackey you will do my bidding and learn from me - be at practice on wednesday. As should all extras.
from wind-up-doll :
Ow. My brain [on drugs].
from nightingale- :
P.S.- Downstairs.
from nightingale- :
You mentioned the characters that were "school-related". What about the ones outside of school? Aren't you the opposite of those? Well, then again, you really are a drunken man disguised as a mischevious princess, so I guess those two aren't a far cry from reality. And it's a good thing that you don't (not) want to live through us, because that makes me want to not (not) kill (torture(mutilate(destroy))) you (the drunken(transvestite(girl(man(princess))))) you are(n't).
from wind-up-doll :
by the way- is the upstairs or the downstairs the family room?
from wind-up-doll :
good for your family room?
from nightingale- :
Oh Allie, I wouldn't have expected anything- oh, I'm sorry, I have to go, the seventh horse of the Apocylpse just rode into my family room.
from leep4life :
Hilarious. Mr. Moore is my personal god. I'm happy that you're reffing - it's the thing to do. And you can never do anything wrong...because the most important seven words in your work are: "If in the opinion of the referee..." It works for everything. Peace, ~leep
from wind-up-doll :
That's so exciting! Himadhari, you've got some explaining to do! I hope you called him Tony at least once tonight) Meh. I finished my english book today- what more is there to ask for? (Lord of the Flies is one disturbing book- in a sort of wimpy way) (makes me [almost] want to be a vegetarian).. We should all get together this weekend- seeing as Saturday and Sunday are still waiting to happen!
from nightingale- :
Well, come to think of it, my old loincloth is rather...I'm not going to finish that sentence. Well, Allie, thank you for your commendation (is that a word? I think not.) and, on behalf of Himadhari (who doesn't have a working internet right now), I would like to inform you that she is going to Sadies...with Shaun! WEEEEEEE...it's awesome. And even though I can't be with you physically, know that tonight- my soul is with you. *dramatic embrace* Have fun!
from wind-up-doll :
Oh no! *puts away knitting needles and freshly made loin cloth* Well, I guess that you won't be getting a Christmas gift this year! *sob*
from nightingale- :
"When elephants battle, don't butter cabbage on my back and make me a loincloth."
from nightingale- :
...yes.
from wind-up-doll :
I don't know (is there something in your eye?)
from nightingale- :
Psst...Allie...how, exactly, do you plan on getting to the run-through tomorrow? *wink wink*
from nightingale- :
Ooh, she got you there.
from why-lime :
oh yeah allie? well... WOOF WOOF!
from nightingale- :
notes?)
from nightingale- :
leave yourself more
from nightingale- :
you
from nightingale- :
(Hey, Allie, why don't
from wind-up-doll :
(since Sarah's British)...
from wind-up-doll :
(oh, snap)
from wind-up-doll :
Yes, I fancy some grey poupon with my calendaaaar. Yes, I'm much too good for common calenders. I demande my calendaaaar NOW! *said in snooty British voice that sounds suspiciously like Sarah's*
from nightingale- :
Apparantly your education is still in the dark ages- calander?!? C-a-l-e-n-d-a-r. (Oh snap!)
from i-havnolover :
those were pathetically terrible pictures of me. i must have been drunk
from wind-up-doll :
Meh. The quote was random- I just searched for "random quote" on google. This was one that was there. When I read it originally, I thought it was 3/4 of you life. Yup. I am not excited for another week to start. Curse the calander! (though if we lost the calander, we'd be back in the dark ages, fo sho) -allie
from nightingale- :
Oh Allie, don't fret- Ricardo, your Latino lover (with the natural rhythm) shall be back from his drug run soon. I mean...no, that's what I meant. Oh, and if you're already three parts dead (by fearing life/love), how many parts are we made up of?
from wind-up-doll :
Yeah, like I would even dare destroy precious memories- be it in note form or otherwise. It's staying on this notes page- like every other note before it. *tear* oh, the beauty of history... *hop* *fan*
from leep4life :
Like anyone didn't know! And you can delete notes on your page, so don't worry about it. Meow. *Smack! Click!*
from wind-up-doll :
Oh man, I swear, she IS a stalker! I JUST posted that last one- SHE'S FOLLOWING ME (I say as though she weren't here.. though I know she's just hiding around the corner) (Thanks, Thomas, for exposing my full and legal name *wink* to my stalker) (I think the *wink* threw everyone off there) (perfect) (STALKERS!)
from i-havnolover :
heh, i'll pin it down some day. some day...
from wind-up-doll :
Mmm, gurl, you better believe it! (assuming that that's a pleasantly surprised sort of astounded as opposed to a "I'm astounded at how low you've sunk" type of astounded) (maybe you could specify?) (yes, I am actually somewhat concerned- you best tell me what you meant by that, Thomas Leeper!) *snap snap* *poof*
from leep4life :
Allie Benson, you astound me.
from wind-up-doll :
There are actually at least 5 forms of Allison in my grade, and more in other grades. So, though it's a good try, you've got the wrong person for now. Congrats on spelling my name right!
from i-havnolover :
quite stalker-ish. creepy girl. anyhow, i see this girl in there who i used to know and her name is allie. thats all.
from nightingale- :
Mmm...self-destruction...*snaps to* Yea, TOH is a party, I'm not going to lie. Salsa is Saturday, YMCA on Lexington, 7-10, only $2 to get in ($3 for two people- bring your Latin lover) and there'll be a professional instructor there. And such. The display is in downtown Minneapolis during store hours, and I think it actually starts today. Hmm. Well, I don't think this weekend will work, so we'll talk. (Oh, and by the way, you're hilarious. I laughed out loud at one of your comments, and my mom thought I was laughing at her and got all happy. It was sad.) Love you! ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
No, I don't go to the bathroom between 5th and 6th hour, though I do almost pass by one. Yes, it seems stalkerish. Yes, I know you included the knife (Sarah), which was the whole (well, maybe that's an exaggeration) point. I don't know when Salsa night is. I don't know when that exhibit is. If you want me to say yes or no to the above, I need details. Oh, and I am excited for TOH. I have way too much to do with too little time- why am I here? Oh yeah, because I'm self-destructive with time management. -allie
from nightingale- :
P.S.- Didn't I already include the knife?
from nightingale- :
Yes, Kate- yes it does. I mean, I'm talking to Allie...*cough* Yea, I'm taking the PLAN. What, with the whole not-taking-PSAT thing, I felt bad. Damn conscience. OOH, Allie- do you want to go with me (and hopefully others) to the Snow White display at Marshall Field's? I think I'm writing an article on it, but I want to go anyway, so...get back to me. I was doing nothing with the Spongebob, you didn't see anything. And yes, you SHOULD be excited for TOH. Come to Salsa Night. Shh, don't question- just do.
from i-havnolover :
not to sound stalker-ish (i'm a very surroundings/people attentive person) but do you usually go into the 2nd floor bathroom by the stairs between 5th and 6th period? i think i know who you are.... does this sound as freakishly creepy to you as it does to me?
from wind-up-doll :
Is anyone else taking the PLAN this weekend?
from wind-up-doll :
This has been such a short and eventful weekend. I need sleep.
from nightingale- :
Impeached but not destroyed. I don't think you're overreacting, Allie, I think your concern over the fate of our country/world is perfectly valid, especially after so many states voted to pass a constitutional ban on gay marriages. I'd like to know what the requirements for being "legally incompetent" are.
from wind-up-doll :
I don't know- I think Bush is going to kill me... I don't exactly abide by his religion. I believe that he's going to go "God" on our bootays. He'll smite me to make the world safer from thought terrorists, with the ultimate goal in mind to make God's job easier. Go ahead, Bush. Smite me. Then, at least, you'll be impeached.
from nightingale- :
Yes, and I'm going to remember that your note was written before you had knowledge of the impending apoclypse and not be angry. P.S.- Don't die.
from wind-up-doll :
NOTE TO SELF: Don't be crushed by election results.
from nightingale- :
*jumps*
from wind-up-doll :
*hug*
from nightingale- :
Of course. Your last entry, however, was a change in the winds indeed. Happy Holloween!
from wind-up-doll :
That's what I get for playing video games in my youth. (I hope that made sense to you)
from nightingale- :
Yes, I believe that's the feeling you get right before you drive yourself off a cliff. This, of course, happening after you steal a car, but before you die, a car-stealing, underage driver. Shame.
from wind-up-doll :
Yes. On another note- I wanted to officially announce that I woke up at 1:40 PM today. Oh man! Yeah, and I don't think that it was a natural wake-up... my mom opened my door- I think the sound woke me up. BAH! I'm confused/proud... but I must say that I have an entire paper and 4 source journals to write in these two days... I feel sort of screwed.
from nightingale- :
Oh, did I, Allie? DID I?
from wind-up-doll :
I almost feel like Sarah took over Himadhari's account... and Himadhari's brain. I thought we established today at lunch that Himadhari WASN'T having erotic dreams (and the like)...
from dreamynight- :
I hope Sarah takes her clothes off, because I am Himadhari, and I like naked people and sex. LOTS of sex. 'Cause I'm Himadhari.
from wind-up-doll :
by the end of the year? I take it that you will be unveiling that you have become a man ( physically ) and are only going to show it off when you moon everyone on the last day of school- CLOTHES ARE NOT YOUR MASTER!
from nightingale- :
Or we'll make a choice for her. Oh yea. (P.S.- I'm pretty sure that the WOW(s) will be revealed by the end of the year, but we'll see how it goes. OOOOOh yes, we'll see how it goes.)
from wind-up-doll :
Wow, I either need my english teacher to teach us how to do the things that she forgot to assign which are apparently due on thursday, or else she needs to die. I hope she makes a choice soon.
from wind-up-doll :
Oh, and I may or may not have a name. Either way, you can call me "weirdo". (or maybe it's just that I don't want you to know that my name is Georgette...) (weirdo for short)
from wind-up-doll :
I'm so glad that "twilight zone" ended! Oh man, I was nervous.
from nightingale- :
Feel
from nightingale- :
the
from nightingale- :
Love.
from nightingale- :
And yes, Chuck McAllie Benson- yes I can.
from nightingale- :
Her name is Chuck. Chuck McAllie Benson.
from i-havnolover :
do you have a name? or will i know you as a diary forever?
from wind-up-doll :
Welcome to the twilight zone...
from wind-up-doll :
http://www.comics.com/creators/wizardofid/archive/wizardofid-20041022.html is the website where you can find the actual comic mentioned in my entry.
from wind-up-doll :
Can YOU feel the love tonight? Huh? CAN YOU?!?!?!
from nightingale- :
Oh yea, Allie? Will you? Huh?!? (I'm sorry, don't kill me...feel the love?)
from i-havnolover :
yay for freshmen
from i-havnolover :
plain old first of course.
from i-havnolover :
she read it. we're all good. she decided to come to the football game.
from wind-up-doll :
Do I ever? (think, that is)
from nightingale- :
I thoroughly enjoy the seasons, just autumn a whole lot more. It's delicious. As are you. (Don't think about that one...at all.)
from nightingale- :
As are the rest of us. I didn't go to the psyche, psychosis, going psycho thing. As much as I wanted to, it was $35 and I hadn't talked to you about it, etc. etc. I'm sad that we missed it. Apparantly it was really good, but difficult to watch, so maybe it's good that we missed it. And I'm fairly certain that if I ask you about my inner psyche, you're going to destroy it somehow. We'll see how it goes. P.S.- "I know my life isn't 'perfect'- but it is." What kind of sense does that make? Loves, Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
It's apparently spelled "psyche".. I just recently saw it written down, and I got really excited, because now I know how to spell! Off to shower- not terribly excited about that. Too bad. Oh, I expect notes from someone soon- I'm starting to get sick of writing to myself. -brutice
from wind-up-doll :
Oh, and by the way Sarah, I have a sort of odd question that maybe I shouldn't even ask about directed towards your inner psychie. Yeah, it wouldn't be a ask-in-public sort of thing- and I still don't know if I should even go there- it's sort of your business. Yup. That's all. -�nola
from wind-up-doll :
I just realized I managed to totally forget to think about that guthrie lab production- did any of you get the chance to see it? If so, how was it? Right. That is all. More APUSH now.
from wind-up-doll :
So yes, you took the pSAT? Or is this just a convenient use of "camoflauge" and other "quoted materials"?
from nightingale- :
That's because I was camoflaged. P.S.- Your house. P.P.S.- That wasn't a question.
from nightingale- :
Good luck with that. Oh, and I think the 'summer' "group" ("'more quotations'") thing is an excellent idea.
from i-havnolover :
oh i know. its awesome
from i-havnolover :
yeeeeeessm i did. man, all those people who preach moral values must lose all of it when sex is involved.
from wind-up-doll :
Is that a challenge? *concentrates hard* *eyes roll around, start banging my head against the wall*
from nightingale- :
Your profile, it refers to you being happy when people think you're funny. Psh, see if I ever give you an epileptic seizure again...
from lula-neith :
yes. it's a very small and mad world. i wish you happiness. i hope you don't mind if i check out your diary now and then, too. i am pretty active on my livejournal. it's been a bit more user-friendly. at livejournal.com, i'm under lula_neith. peace, Lula.
from wind-up-doll :
Thanks for reminding me? I'm so confused! *eyes roll around in sockets, and starts to bang head against wall* BAHHHH!!!!
from nightingale- :
Allie Benson- you are hilarious. In all sincerity, you are hilarious. (And happy. You are happy.)
from nightingale- :
P.P.S.- the web address worked, the clip didn't. Boo.
from nightingale- :
Weren't the British dressed in red, not camoflauge? P.S.- Leprechaun.
from wind-up-doll :
you should all visit http://www.princeton.edu/~ccaro/mist_or_ghost.html it's crazy. I hope that works out.
from wind-up-doll :
Paranoid? No! *runs to corner of room, looks for camoflauge* THE BRITISH ARE INVADING!*
from nightingale- :
A) I did, by some miracle of God, understand your note. B) My brother did his homework on our computer, and I found it in our documents folder. C) The ... represented the parts I cut out about my dad, mom, and dog, which I didn't think anyone would care to read/would give stalkers more clues about my family. D) You're paranoid. Cheers.
from wind-up-doll :
Check as in 'okey-dokie'
from wind-up-doll :
Check.
from nightingale- :
Yes, it was a mis-step...into a pit of unforgivingness. Yes, I am trying to be a jerk. Actually, I didn't really care. Feel free to say whatever you want on my notes page. Just don't let it happen again.
from wind-up-doll :
I feel like I made a mis-step with the note on your notes page about a new topic. I'm sorry. That was crappy of me. Forgive and forget?
from wind-up-doll :
Since I see him so much when he isn't avoiding me anyways...
from nightingale- :
Uh, well...I'd be guessing sometime this weekend. Ya know, like BEFORE it ends. And Joey's avoiding you. Not really, but I wish he would, because then people might forget that he exists.
from wind-up-doll :
Well- than it's not really at the Guthrie, IS IT?!?! You LIED to me! How could you? *sob* I think I'll beat someone now... and on a completely unrelated subject.... where is Joey? I'll be checking my calender.. seeing if I can try to squeeze something in- it's free, or cheap, is it not? Give me a preferred date- then I can turn it down and tell you the one that I want. I don't want to seem COMPLETELY unfeeling. -allie
from leep4life :
Psychosis! word...
from nightingale- :
October 13-17. Except it's at the Guthrie Lab, which is in Minneapolis and not by the other...one...*ahem* Indeed.
from wind-up-doll :
When would this be?
from nightingale- :
Shut up. Ooh, do you want to see another one? I bet you do! It's called "Psychosis Some Random Number". Well, you know. Anyway, it looks exciting and thrilling and slightly skitzophrenic. Come on! GIVE INTO PEER PRESSURE!
from nightingale- :
I asked my mom if I could go to a performing arts school. She said no, she doesn't think I'm capable of deciding what I want to do for the rest of my life yet. Much grrr.
from wind-up-doll :
see your freaking notes. Duh. (I thought I'd make this one a bit easier after the last one being so trying and all)
from wind-up-doll :
see the title. doi. (pronounced doy)
from nightingale- :
*gasp* Guthrie play? Word. Wait, which one is it?
from nightingale- :
Are you sure? *claps her hands* So, what did you want to ask me, Allie?
from nightingale- :
Yes. Just...yes.
from wind-up-doll :
wait- we had an agreement?
from nightingale- :
First of all- Lauren's coming home? AWESOME! You should just skip the race. Second of all- it's feces. Third of all- I thought we had an agreement, Benson- you never bring up that experience again, I never kill one of your family members...again.
from nightingale- :
I concur.
from i-havnolover :
this is a coincidential phenominon. not exactly amazing in the way of physichal appearances, but most definatly treading in the realm of the twilight zone in every other possible way.
from wind-up-doll :
*sheep*
from leep4life :
baaa!
from wind-up-doll :
)
from wind-up-doll :
HELLO! CLONE! EXACT MATCH! (so either she isn't your clone, or you do look exactly alike. Make up your mind.
from nightingale- :
Well, my clone doesn't look a whole lot like me, so calling her adorable really doesn't say anything about myself. Otherwise I probably wouldn't use the word "adorable".
from nightingale- :
Yea, the chant was a little depressing. Quite depressing, in fact. But, you have to admit- our class sucks. We really do. I mean, if you compare our class to the seniors and juniors this year, we're like the Barbies and Kens to their Etch-a-Sketches and Koosh balls. Come on.
from leep4life :
Actually they have lists of everyone's first hour classes. And, I've heard good things about D'Castellanos
from nightingale- :
Actually, we are currently going to D'Castenellos. No more gardens of olives. Shame. Anyway, I would swoon for you, if you weren't so out of my league. Although I'm sure if I REALLY tried...this note is going nowhere. Thank you.
from i-havnolover :
???
from i-havnolover :
i actually didn't write it. its the opening verse for whiter shade of pale. its a song. i only wish i could regurgitate something that brilliant.
from wind-up-doll :
If going with the "Lisa Barnes" crew, they're doing Olive Garden- though I don't know exactly who that crew is. Well... I don't really need to know. It's easier this way.
from nightingale- :
I'll go, I'll go. But you better promise me I'm gonna be hot. Otherwise...*punches palm with opposing fist* Yea, it'll be a good time. Ooh, let's go to dinner! Mmm...delicious.
from leep4life :
Spanish is my homeboy.
from nightingale- :
Please do so forcefully.
from wind-up-doll :
yes, it was quite the fun paper. One and a half hours of sleep is not my bag, baby. What ev! (felt the urge to write that overcoming all sense) *now feel urge to punch self in gut*
from nightingale- :
New dog- Joy! (Hah, I almost wrote "Joey" there...which wouldn't be entirely incorrect...) Yea, Drama means nothing, so don't worry about that. However, the English paper will kill you. Ah, Allie, we knew ye well.
from nightingale- :
Oh, will you, Allie Benson? Will you really?...so, this has become another Note from Sarah to Disregard. Huzzah. Oh, but getting another dog sounds like fun! Especially if it's a hideously deformed one!
from wind-up-doll :
I'm torn- you might be being bitingly sarcastic, or just innocent. But judging from experience, I will go with the former, and say, "bite me, sarah". Yup.
from nightingale- :
(Sort of.)
from nightingale- :
(That was referring to the end of your last note on this page and my page. I should try to be less confusing. Sorry.)
from nightingale- :
Yes, well Allie, now you know the reason for the restraining order.
from wind-up-doll :
Yeah, when nightingale- down two notes ago said "this girl needs to not contact me" I got a little bit confused. this happens when people leave notes referring to other note pages- though I totally understood Thomas' reference to the other note page- perhaps I'm just a little slow on the uptake, you know? (oh, and yes, I would agree she shouldn't contact you- seeing as you've already made one stalker on the internet. Plus, I don't read her diary, so I don't know how unstable she is...) Yup, I'm thinking of you when I say I wouldn't have told her your address if you had warned me earlier. *wink* -allie
from leep4life :
it's the former of the two guesses you made. And, you neeedn't worry, all will be well.
from nightingale- :
I'm sorry, but this girl needs to...not contact me. Anyone up for building a secret, underground bunker to evade this virtual menace? Actually, building an entirely new Internet would be better...yes, yes...we could call it the Sarant. And it shall be delicious.
from nightingale- :
Mmm, sleep. A rare delicacy.
from wind-up-doll :
Wow, I want to kill anything coming in the way of sleep right now- and that includes APUSH, my parents, my GPA, biology, english, math (ha, like I'd even work on it), and APUSH!!!! Stupid test.
from nightingale- :
Read my notes page. I'm out on a limb, here.
from nightingale- :
Muaha, our master plan to yoink Emilie out of her anti-Diaryland shell worked! (I realize that "yoink" isn't really the best verb, if a verb at all, but I are not articulate. Hmph.) In response to your last entry: Word. Up.
from chibi-kami :
STOP HARRASSING ME. ((I'm not mad or anything though. I'm touched that you care. *sniff*))
from wind-up-doll :
Why can't I just be satisfied now? I cannot leave this site. I wish someone had something profound they would update this very instant... and I wish I had expended all of my profound feelings on the last. Ahg!
from wind-up-doll :
Thank you. And the point of my note was going to be this: It seems like a really bad sign when you can do homework better, faster, and easier when your parents have left you all alone in the house. They're gone for an hour or so (taking my place at school), and I get huge amounts of crap done. They come home, turn on the TV, talk loudly, make food... there is nowhere to run! I can hear everything in my room anyways. The kitchen was a nice change for that short amount of time. Well, now that they've been home, I have finished near to nothing, and have yet to read english again- but I was so going to start about 2 hours ago- WHEN THEY CAME HOME! Arg! Who knew that parents are actually detrimental to studying...
from i-havnolover :
huffa!! wonderful speech. i completly agree. this thing with gays being disgusting is ridiculous. we are all people, and you shouldn't be treated unfairly becuase of who you want to take to bed. hats off to you.
from wind-up-doll :
Leeper: Things are pretty good. I mean, a little crammed with homework. We've been having more new food recently (since Lauren left)... it's generally very good food. Oh, and I just came out of the shower. Sarah: Thank you very much. I would say don't think about the past or regret things too much, but whatever. Um, yeah, I'll be around (*occasionally*) if you want to tell me the rest. All: I hope your school years are going well, and that you don't hate your teachers/classes/lunch hours. (well, none of US could hate our lunch hour- because we all have me in it!) love, allie
from nightingale- :
I've just been thinking of everything I've never said. Did I mention I love you? There were a few other things I wanted to tell you, but I don't know if your notes page is the best place to do it.
from leep4life :
I didn't really need to know that. But, oh well. How's the Benson, besides your showering habits?
from wind-up-doll :
clearly too many? I don't get it- what brought on this *sniff* sentimental feeling?
from nightingale- :
(but should have).
from nightingale- :
I wonder how many times I haven't told you I love you.
from wind-up-doll :
I hope you all notice that Paul is back. I have redone a bit of my background- I was considering changing it all together, but *shudder* that just wouldn't be right.
from wind-up-doll :
That day was crappy. Well, things are good now. Yeah, I don't know what I wrote about- but thanks for responding. Yup. -allie
from nightingale- :
Wow, if Mick was raped, it would make so much more sense. Sad, but true. I think that her urge to hurt herself was reasonable, because her emotions were so strong that not taking it out on herself would be like providing herself an emotional/mental breakdown on a silver platter. I'm sorry that you should feel so lonely, and I know that this isn't what you mean, but I hope you know I'm always here for you. Not quite what you were looking for, I'm sure, but I'll try to help. Let's find you a man! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
The note was muchly appreciated, as always. Yea, nobody seems to acknowledge entries...but I'm glad you do. You're always so considerate *pinches your cheek*
from i-havnolover :
i feel like you hold a tender place in my heart already
from wind-up-doll :
the alternative to speaking being? Yeah, I already responded on your notes page. Good.
from i-havnolover :
do i know you? speak please
from nightingale- :
As always. Oh, and you're listed as plaid because that's what you remind me of. Duh.
from wind-up-doll :
I'm getting this odd feeling that maybe you're actually writing BOTH of those diaries... stalking yourself. I see now sarah, that you clearly are having some disturbing psychological fit and you're taking it out on my notes page. Now that was just wrong of you. Tisk tisk. (don't you love how the blame is now on you?!)
from nightingale- :
How about we don't feed personal info to my stalkers, mmm?
from i-havnolover :
ha. more or less
from i-havnolover :
apparantly i'm just like her in more ways than one
from wind-up-doll :
*smiles* thanks, Sarah.
from nightingale- :
Yea, I'm not sure if telling people to compare your note to the real thing is such a good idea. You should try going for a shorter term in the institution, not a longer one. However, I was impressed, I'm not going to lie. Way to twist reality. Oh, and I just wanted you to know- if ever I've had an awkward relationship with an entry, it was with your last one. Congrats.
from wind-up-doll :
I'm proud of my stalker note for Sarah. I mean, I had to be decently creative to make it work. I thought the "I are freaking out" gave an appropriate creepy feeling- bad english scares people. Yeah, so you should all go read it. Oh, and you can compare it with the real thing... you might be surprised to see just how accurate it is!
from wind-up-doll :
sept 6, 2004 Who is writing now that the server could be busy? Someone needs to be beaten. Well, I essentially wanted to say that 1) I can still feel the helium in my throat 2) Sarah has my conditioner, I believe 3) I have a horrible burn that I feel subconcious urges to scratch 4) I need to finish apush notes, and reading the second section 5) I can't do my math, because I still don't know how 6) there are alot of quizzes coming up soon 7) it was cool to see thomas and himadhari in the hallways even though I didn't get to have classes with them. 8) the floor isn't a good place for me to sleep- I can't bend my neck one way without pain 9) I don't want school tomorrow 10) I'm stalling for time before apush 11) I'm sure that school this week is going to be a living "hell" persay... complete with satan in 4th hour! 12) happy birthday sarah 13) I found no man at the state fair- I feel cheated 14) cross country is going to be super hard 15) my shoulders are emitting heat waves, but my hands remain cold and clammy 16) I'm going to miss summer :() (yes, it's mouth is open- it's eating!) Indeed. Love you all. Rock on, summer of 2004! - child benson the third
from nightingale- :
Yea, he was there like, when we got to Deluxe, so he probably would've been gone by the time we walked through the gate. He's sneaky, jumps around a lot. I need to go eat chocolate. Love you! ~Sarah*
from rosebynename :
Thank you for your note, and your care, but I doubt my soul will ever be able to be shown completely. After all, we're all wearing costumes, some just fit better than others.
from nightingale- :
Maybe. Yea, I suppose this poem was a bit more morbid, but I really didn't mean for it to be extremely dark, and I liked how it turned out so I didn't want to change it later. Don't worry, I'm not suicidal, it represented something else dying. Like your mom. (No, actually, more like a part of me, like...well, I can't tell you. That's the mystery and intrigue of it all.) Oh, and the entry was in parenthesis because I like it that way. So eat it. I love you!! ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
No- I did shave my knees. What kind of weirdo puts rouge on their knees? Maybe a weirdo like you?!?!
from nightingale- :
Gonna SHAVE my knees? What the heck?!? "Gonna ROUGE my knees and roll my stockings down..." Geez. Geez. *sigh* But I love you all the same. Oh, and chain letters don't influence me in the least bit. Sorry.
from wind-up-doll :
I like how it went from sort of tough to pleading in a cute way. Well... yes. I'll be showering now... gonna shave my knees and roll my stockings down (and all that jazz). -ab
from nightingale- :
Okay, I spaced out in the middle of writing my last note, and I realized that it's completely hypocritical. I mean...wait, what was I writing?
from nightingale- :
*sigh* I suppose you can still come. But don't think you're getting off scotch free- you have to work for my love. (Yea, I did invite Lyssa, but she might be going up to her cabin. Grrar. And I don't have tickets, but I would be willing to trade money for ride tickets. Or love. I have a lot of that. *adorable smile*)
from nightingale- :
That's not true, I love you. But that doesn't change the fact that I'm going to have to kill you. A) You're going to the State Fair. We had an agreement. B) You sound like you're planning on having FUN. C) It's the only way I'll become president of the hut. Well, can't say you haven't had a good run. Sleep well...
from nightingale- :
GAH! "Oh look, I'm Allie, and I like to spend the last day before school with my parents, having oodles more fun than Sarah ever will!! MUAHA!" ...No one likes you.
from wind-up-doll :
I'm a single child now...
from leep4life :
I'm glad you enjoyed - that's not the right word - my entry.
from nightingale- :
Wait, was that like you said it, or someone told you that? Or someone said that to you and you're reusing it? Or you're amazing and trying to keep a single thought in my head for any length of time ends up looking like this pointless run-on sentence? Meh...come home. ~Sarah*
from leep4life :
Hola! Come back, no one updates their diaries very often and you always do, but now you're not home and yours lays unupdated. Sad state this is. Meow~tjleep
from nightingale- :
P.S. Come home. I miss you. My throat misses your cold, clammy fingers of death. It's mutual, I'm sure.
from nightingale- :
GAH, go choke on anthrax. No, don't, just kindly refrain from mentioning school. Ignorance is bliss...BLISS I TELL YOU!!
from wind-up-doll :
Goodbye! I'll see you all at school, I'd bet. -allie
from wind-up-doll :
Yes, the phrase "love" is often misused... and it has sort of decreased in value. This makes me sad. It seems like any form of caring is a form of love... just in a smaller way. Anyways, the phrase 'love' isn't used to hurt people... so I don't mind it so much anymore. Yeah, maybe I should have formated it and made an entry, but I'd rather not. Anyway.. I hope to see you soon also. I want to know what labor day will bring (and when). It's just possible I might be able to make it back. Oh, and I must say that my possible state fair days are VERY limited.. so if labor day was being state fair-ized that would be incredibly cool... assuming I could come. I don't want to leave you... *tear* How was the cast party? How was the food? And most importantly... how was the human sacrifice devoured? -abby
from nightingale- :
I'm not saying it's not good, just often misused. Yes, I'd like to steer away from this dd complexion, but at 3 in the morning, certain thoughts seem to get written in here in a most distorted way. WHY MUST YOU LEAVE US AGAIN, ALLIE BENSON?!? I love you...*tear* Hope to see you before school starts, if that's at all possible! ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
Wo0t to that.. oh, and I like the use of "love". It's good, even if you think it's not. -ab
from nightingale- :
I swear, as soon as you enter the realm of Diaryland, your emotions are slowly sucked away. Write that entry quick, before they're gone and your computer explodes!!...I'm sorry, that wasn't funny. I'm sorry, Allie, for everything...it's not fair, what's happening with Person A, at least from what I know, which isn't a whole lot. I sincerely hope you and him/her can, at the very least, be civilized with each other. In a perfect world, they'd see you as the amazingly caring person you are. Love you! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Why yes- I do enjoy chocolate. Sorry, I forgot why I came to leave a note...oh, about the tarot and such. Right, well, welcome to the ring of fools. (Such it shall be called, for it is named.) We have quite the joyful time together, as you can imagine. Oh, and I changed my diary description because it was getting old and it made me sound all dark and mysterious and deep, three things which I am not. So, there you are. I love you, and chocolate is good. ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Well, you can inform your mother that she will soon be dying in her sleep, as to prevent you from going up to your grandparents' cabin. Haha- no, seriously, don't. I have no doubt in my mind that she'd hurt me. Severely. ...I love you (and all of your family members!!) ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
Ohh! When you fellow 07 children get your schedules, PLEASE post them on my notes page! I don't get my schedule until the 1st... and I want to be able to know if you guys are in my classes! Pweaze! Love you all (even the non 07 children)! -allie
from wind-up-doll :
Yeah, so my mom says she's going to "smack you down". When I asked her why, she said "because I'm in the mood". ANYWAY, I am scheduled to be at my grandparent's lake cabin over labor day weekend, though depending on the time, I might be able to make it. See, my family takes "labor day" quite literally. Hard manual labor... taking out the dock and moving all of the incredibly heavy outside decorations in to the "boathouse". Yeah, so we'll just have to see. Do I really have to call you? I don't like the phone that much. Oh, and it sounds like my brother's birthday party is happening on the night of Friday, seeing as it's his last day at home. I probably can't go to the cast party. :( Things just aren't working out like I would hope. I'll tell Thomas not to pick me up, I guess. Well... there goes my social plans. -allie
from nightingale- :
I don't understand this "unless it's already full" business. You ARE NOT busy on Labor Day. Not until you talk to me, you aren't. Remember that.
from nightingale- :
Well, I hope you and 'person A' end up in happy terms together. Because that didn't make it sound like you were getting married. Honestly though, I hope you can help this person in their tough time, and not completely deflate yourself in the process. Have strength, Allie! Your country needs you! ~Sarah* (Oh, and don't worry about seeing me- I don't really like you all that much. OH, call me about Labor Day, though. Yea.)
from wind-up-doll :
What I wrote about in this past entry- about 'person A'- it's just so much harder because I have so many other people I want to see... like you people. Yeah.
from nightingale- :
Yea, I was really trying to avoid that. Anyway, I don't think "Bug Juice" qualifies as the type of cheap, morally degrading reality shows I'm referring to. Although, it is cheap and morally degrading, it's just not as repulsive somehow. And that's how it's going to get to me...the TV executives know just how to get to me...~Sarah* (isn't my name! Because I'm not horribly paranoid...shut up!)
from wind-up-doll :
It's almost as though you are now the one -dramatic pause- apologizing?!?!?! (for the typo, of course)
from nightingale- :
What kind of idiot says, "...the last paragraph was just apologize."?!? apologizING. Right.
from nightingale- :
GAH! Allie, you're so nice sometimes it makes me angry. Although it's something that I'd like to see more of, you're always so apologetic if you're afraid you may have offended someone. For example- one of your latest entries, the last paragraph was just apologize. Don't. You're speaking your mind, and if people are offended, they can deal. Although, if you were to say something like, "Sarah's a selfish jerk, why don't we all go stone her to death", I may object a little. But just a little. It makes me happy that you were so sensitive to the plight of others. The state of beggars always worries me...is that their REAL child? (Hah, not like that...you know what I mean.) That's why people love you. ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
Okay! Okay! I'm sorry! *does that 'defensive sorry' hand/arm hands up sort of thing* It was a very good sentence. Who knew you'd be so upset! *surprised sigh* Well... yes. -allie
from leep4life :
That is a perfectly acceptable length for a sentence. My dad once wrote a letter to the editor that was just one long sentence, followed by a sentence fragment. Your mom read it and liked it and called him about it. Odd.
from wind-up-doll :
Well... that was quite the note. Impressively long, to say the least. I would just suggest a few more periods in sentences like the following: "Our foreign policy needs to emphasize human and worker rights, environmental sustainability, an end to corporate-funded terrorism overseas, offering aid to impoverished nations in order to finance health care programs for the underclasses, internationally-competitive and affordable education, and improved agricultural practices in order to assist countries in domestically producing sufficient food resources to feed their people (or opening channels for these countries to purchase foreign foodstuffs to fight malnutrition and starvation)." Yeah. It's a bit long, don't you think? I'm not actually trying to attack your note or something- just poking fun at your ramblings. Anyway, thanks for the note.
from leep4life :
Religion and money. I find it ironic that your entry was about those two things, and solely about those two things. I wouldn't worry about beggars - a lot of time they're scamming people, but if in fact they are actually begging for their survival - then we must make a solid effort to end poverty. You talk about having wealth, you symbolize the United States. The United States, by several means, steals wealth from poor nations and exploits the poor (especially workers) in the developing world. We do this by way of poor decision-making in our purchases and lack of regard for the well-being of the people of the countries we work with. We should be reaching out: Two fold plan: buy american made products or from companies that pride themselves on living wage jobs and environmental sustainability. As well, look for companies that are seeking to keep wealth in the countries from which raw product is derived. For example, many North African countries (some of the largest crude oil exporters in the world) lack refineries to be able to domestically turn crude oil into usable fuels for their own people. Our foreign policy needs to emphasize human and worker rights, environmental sustainability, an end to corporate-funded terrorism overseas, offering aid to impoverished nations in order to finance health care programs for the underclasses, internationally-competitive and affordable education, and improved agricultural practices in order to assist countries in domestically producing sufficient food resources to feed their people (or opening channels for these countries to purchase foreign foodstuffs to fight malnutrition and starvation). The ideas you present are stunningly thoughtful and clearly reflect some greater understanding of global concerns. Clearly, your seeing them with your own eyes makes the problems real and will hopefully lead you to assist in positive global change. Keep it up.
from nightingale- :
No, it's actually my cousin. Yea, I was actually really proud of my brother. I had imagined him in a situation like that before, and honestly thought he would drink until drunk. Sometimes, he surprises. But not today. Today he was a total jerk. Well, win some and lose some. You make me smile all over. ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
Wow. I just made up that whole military thing... I only assume it's not your dad- that it's someone else in the extended family. Right? Anyway... food is delicious. Love you!
from wind-up-doll :
well.. not to mention that this guy was CREEPY... I must say that he is my brother's age. It would be like making out with my brother in some way or another- and I don't dig that whole incest thing.
from nightingale- :
I like how a lot of that entry related to food. Mmm...food...*drools* I don't understand, Allie- why didn't you jump on Graham? The whole "I really want to make out with someone" thing, right? ;) No, I'm glad you didn't. I probably would've shot myself. Thank you for saving my life.
from nightingale- :
Yea, it's not about my brother. It is about a family member, and you got the military part right. You're pretty good at this game. But no, Joey doesn't recieve much attention in my diary. :( How sad.
from wind-up-doll :
I missed you too! Sadly I've seen Witness a few times- I don't like it much. For some reason it just seems really boring even though it's got the suspense and all. Whatever. I'm glad you like it... I've seen it once too many times. Love you! -allie
from dreamynight- :
witness is a god movie...well i liked it! hey we missed you when you were gone...:(
from wind-up-doll :
*disgruntled misbelieving sounds*
from dreamynight- :
my dear...the play is cancelled...there are no rehearsals anymore
from wind-up-doll :
I'm going to go away from my computer now. Chat tomorrow. Sleep now.
from wind-up-doll :
*shudder* NAAAHAHHEAHOHEAOI *has a heart attack/seizure thing* Sarah responded and confused me horribly!
from nightingale- :
But not even baked goods can save you now!! ...oh, who am I kidding. I'd give into baked goods anyday. We'll get together, chat, eat more junk than we should...it'll be a good time.
from nightingale- :
AHHHH!! ALLIE'S HOME!! You have no idea how happy that makes me!! So happy, I could use an excessive amount of exclamation points...!!!!
from wind-up-doll :
I think I just saw a "Baby Back Ribs" commercial for Chili's featuring Mike Tyson- yes. the one that bit the other guy's ear. Wo0t! Allie's home! I can tell all sorts of crazy stories if I ever get to talk to anyone. Peace out. -allie
from wind-up-doll :
Wow. I feel like I'm high or something when I read your notes, Emilie.
from nightingale- :
Allie, you're hilarious. Diaryland IS an addiction, rehab centers soon to come. However, it's probably one of the safer ailments. I mean, if you don't consistently read the same diaries over and over and start to develop skitzophrenia. Have fun along the Danube. Take plenty of pictures of giraffes for me. ~Emilie
from watercolored :
Thanks for the addition doll, I'll have a look around your place if that's all right.
from leep4life :
note ~leep
from wind-up-doll :
And I expect some notes when I come back! *turns into an ego waffle and rolls away on it's oddly stiff sides*
from wind-up-doll :
Oh, and that is ATOMIC time- so it's right. *1:40 now* Love you all, allie
from wind-up-doll :
I'm shutting off my computer now- 1:39 PM. Have a good week. Don't cry too much about me being gone! Love you all!
from wind-up-doll :
I'll be leaving tonight, but I was thinking I should ditch the computer in the safe or something. I think this is goodbye... :( Love you all! See you sometime after the 13th!
from nightingale- :
Hah, oh Allie...poor, sweet Allie...pretending she's going to "Europe" or something...no, but really- don't.
from nightingale- :
(No, but seriously, though.)
from nightingale- :
(Hah, I kid.)
from nightingale- :
Well, if you were trying to get Emeril to stick it to them, then maybe BAM! would be appropriate.
from dreamynight- :
wow you do write to your self...interesting...come on and we could chat...hmmm whats that!
from wind-up-doll :
I'm all psyched to stick it to the young kid on bugjuice tonight. Too bad he won't be able to hear me.... but that way he can't fight back! It saves us both the trouble of having to listen to a whiny kid feel sad that he just got burned. *oh, the sick twisted workings of my mind*
from wind-up-doll :
I thought of a way to stick it to all of those young kids that have been kissed... gaze in awe at my following stick-it-to-those-young-kids-that-have-been-kissed-line: *mocking tone* "Oh! That's so cute! You can count all of your kisses on your fingers? *chuckle* I can't. Oh, cute little tween romance." BAM! or so I hope that is the onomatopeia that my bash makes. *you can't count no kisses on your fingers!* *don't try to prove me wrong*
from wind-up-doll :
Well, la te da! I'm going to support Allie's english. meh.
from nightingale- :
actually, I think it's right the way it is. Your use of "manner" and "matter", not your heterosexuality. But that can change...oh, how it can...Muaha! Love you~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
And I did notice that it should have been "matter" vs. "manner"- "to the truth behind this manner"
from wind-up-doll :
q, bb. q. Oh, and I'd go out with you too, Sarah. Nazi's are not my masters... but my heterosexuality is my master. Sorry.
from nightingale- :
Anytime.
from dreamynight- :
i agree with you, you title of "Never Been Kissed" well works for me as well...
from wind-up-doll :
Thanks Sarah. Thanks.
from nightingale- :
No, Allie, you don't overanalyze. Well, to say that would be incorrect...we all do. You just don't do it as much as most. I realize my last note implied it, but I didn't really have any other way to end that note. It was kind of a weird one. Loved your biking entry, by the way. And as soon as school hits, we're finding you a man. Believe me, I'd go out with you...if I wasn't afraid of what people might say. Damn Nazis. ;) Love you! (but not like that!) ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
2 entries again. Read both... because I won't know if you only read one.
from wind-up-doll :
I'm not saying I'm not guilty of that fault. I admit. Readily. I overanalyze all the time... but that's to make up for the times when I underanalyze.
from nightingale- :
Indeed, overanalyzing is a downfall of many...*ahem* yes. This note is done. ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Allie, you're always so caring and patient and understanding towards everyone. My last entry was not about you, don't worry. In fact, I think you're one of the people who understands me best. Thank you for all that you have done and are trying to do. I love you! ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
I both think of you when I read your entries as opposed to "think of her"... and I wanted to remind you that you mean the world to me.
from dreamynight- :
thats very sweet....wait what do you think of when thinking of me of course?
from dreamynight- :
oho ok....well then...
from dreamynight- :
i say nothing of sarah in my enteries yet both you and her...think of her when you read...
from rosebynename :
Thank you. I've also enjoyed your diary, although I have neglected putting it on my buddy list. You're amazing. (And vibrancy is a word.) -Rose
from nightingale- :
Allie, you're not egotistical. If anything, you're simply human, with your own thoughts and feelings to defend. I mean, if you didn't, people would walk all over you, right? You're not egotistical. (I just had to say it again, because I know how much you like that word. ;) Love you ~Sarah*
from dreamynight- :
something i like huh...i see nothing...nothing i can do that is...and no one do do anything with....and i do understand...i do
from wind-up-doll :
Oh, and I remain firm on my strong dislike of the word "egotistical". I just want to kill it. *stabs air with a fake dagger* Ah! Take that!
from wind-up-doll :
See, that is very true. My problem is that it's not only in my diary. That's what bothers me. Sometimes I am just so insuferable (or I consider myself so). For example, I wanted to take back the whole movie theater I-feel-selfish-and-want-to-sit-in-the-middle-syndrom thing. That's the sort of thing that bothers me to no end, because I don't see it coming, and I don't do it on purpose. It's just one of my less 'desirable' personality traits. Ugh. yup. Luv, allie
from nightingale- :
As egotistical as you think you sound, aren't all diaries egotistical, to some extent? Then again, to talk about someone else's emotions in a diary would be presumputious and annoying. So there you are. Love you! ~Sarah* (Oh, and Europe? When did you plan on telling me this...again?!)
from gothsmurf04 :
hey im milena im almost 14..how old are you?
from nightingale- :
Thank you.
from nightingale- :
You're always wanted. Sort of like "I want your bod"...but I sincerely hope you don't wear that stuff, because my brother does, and it reeks of cheap, egotistical 12 year old boys. I love you! ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
Love you too.
from dreamynight- :
hey....i love you! truely!
from wind-up-doll :
Thank you? Well... I don't suppose you'd want to give me that password... because after you locked your diary, I sort of got too lazy to ask you for it. Thanx
from dreamynight- :
i miss thee....come online and talk to me......please!
from willyloman :
I realized recently that I just sort of FORGOT to add you to my buddy list and as a result, I just NEVER read it. I started reading again, and let me just say that you rock. You rock hard.
from nightingale- :
Well, unless their customers were masochistic. Sorry, I'm leaving now...
from wind-up-doll :
Totally Tiffy. Plus, strippers can't be cutters... well, they could, but it would creep out the customers. No need to worry. Love you!
from nightingale- :
Oh Allie, I hope you never get the urge/actually cut yourself. Or become a stripper with the name Tiffy. Amber, maybe...
from mesabrina :
I love The Beatles, too! OMG that stripper thing is so funny.
from nightingale- :
AHHHHH!! I had that song stuck in my head this morning! GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!
from nightingale- :
Hey, I made that comment before "toh" existed, alright? I was being old-skool, yo.
from wind-up-doll :
No way. They're toh. Really toh.
from nightingale- :
Soul patches are hot.
from nightingale- :
You think so, do you?
from dreamynight- :
i was just tired and sick of the world...you know one of those days
from wind-up-doll :
You're so perceptive. Wow.
from nightingale- :
Yea, I'm pretty sure that the grave of the unknown soldier just had to be reopened so the body could be examined a second time. (The first medical examiner sucked.) I hope that all made sense to you. Love you dearly! ~Sarah*
from chibi-kami :
*sniff* I wuv you too!
from wind-up-doll :
Ok... enjoy your time away from this site... and internet all together if possible. It's amazing what can be accomplished when you abandon internet. Love you always. -agent agent
from chibi-kami :
Darling, ((*shudders as she sees herself using that word*)) I didn't have TOO MUCH to catch up on. But I might also say, I have anti-technology feelings as well. They usually last...three months. Diaryland, isn't somewhere I want to be anymore. Maybe it will be...but not now. I feel like I can't talk about anything anymore. All I can type are the feelings that I have after I've thought "Can my friends know this?" It's not the same. You aren't reading my inner thoughts, your reading my thoughts that have a big, red "APPROVED TO BE READ BY PEERS" stamp on it.
from dreamynight- :
haha yes you did!......hehe
from dreamynight- :
thank you darling...i'm not planning to leave any time soon...and my world would be nothing without you.... -bb
from wind-up-doll :
There are two entries up.. I just can't help myself... I needed to keep writing!
from nightingale- :
NEVER!! *kills herself before becoming Canadian* Oh, and my entry wasn't so much fueled by angst as supressed anger. I'll let you know if anyone needs their face pounded in, though. Thanks. Love ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
I'll come gladly! Oh, and who knew that our friend 2 notes down was (and is) Canadian?! Eh?
from dreamynight- :
now that the 71st is over....i invite you to my 72th birthday!
from nightingale- :
Hah- that note had three "eh"s!! I'd say that's about three more than needed...eh?
from nightingale- :
Eh. *shrugs* Not as devious as I would've liked. Although, if we're going to start talking about BAD INFLUENCES...*nods in your direction* eh...eh!!!
from wind-up-doll :
The speed limit was 65. I accidently pushed the accelerator a bit too far! Only innocent law breaking here!
from nightingale- :
*gasp* What, Allie drove over the speed limit? (Because, wherever you were, 70 mph was definately over it.) Pol-ICE!! *she screams*
from nightingale- :
Don't worry, John Travolta got his- he grew up to be old and creepy. Like the, "I wouldn't let my kids hang around him for too long" creepy. Muaha.
from wind-up-doll :
Oh, and one more thing... I DROVE 70 MPH TODAY!
from wind-up-doll :
By the way, I updated twice, I hope you all get to read them both... I prefer the 1st to the second... enjoy. (oh, and I'm back home again) -maurice (some people call me the gangster of love)
from nightingale- :
Yea, I made a Gilligan's reference- what of it? And I kind of did hear about the coconut radio..being as I brought it up...(?) Anyway, I hope you have a fun weekend and I love you. But can we get a new chain? This one's starting to get rusty. (I'm delicate.) Love, Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
Well, since I'm as cultured as I am, I recognise that Gilligan's Island reference, but what's it doing on MY notes page? No one was talking about Gilligan's Island here... must beat someone.. oh, and I'll be leaving early tomorrow morning (friday) so I hope you all have a good weekend-ish time! P.S. gopher girl, (aka sarah) make sure that you get on those errands. (please, I'm the gopher.. just can you do it for me? Thanks! I just had to pull the chain that happens to go around your neck... and mine.) Love you all! -allie
from nightingale- :
I know, it's almost enough to make one wonder...if the Professor can make a radio out of a coconut, how come he can't fix the boat?
from chibi-kami :
^^ Awww...so much love.
from nightingale- :
Well, I love you, too. In a non-de-valued sort of sense. Right.
from nightingale- :
Want me to shine your shoes while I'm at it?
from wind-up-doll :
Good. (?)... anyway... Himadhari, I have yet to get a jail pic of you from this last year... and I want one! k... see ya all.
from nightingale- :
Oh, don't worry- I will.
from wind-up-doll :
It's ok sarah.. it's impossible to compete with my superior intellect. Many a person has had nervous breakdowns just THINKING about trying. Don't feel (too) bad.
from nightingale- :
No, they were both switched. Hah, I still win! *looks happy for a bit, then starts crying in shame* Love you! ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
foolish sarah.
from wind-up-doll :
do you mean from "meat" to "bread" instead of the other way around?
from nightingale- :
YES! The line has been changed from "bread" to "meat"! It's so much less dirty (and easier to say without breaking up)! Well, until we speak again ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
I read that last note and started laughing in my odd flemmy way... and my dad asked me if I was hyperventalating... how sad.
from nightingale- :
I'm surprised you caught that- and after only one day! (No, I would not like any of your "meat". Sorry, Allie. Honestly, though, could he have made a dirtier line?) Love you! ~Sarah*
from chibi-kami :
All I have to say is...YES.
from nightingale- :
See, I always wanted to get kidnapped as a child, too, but I thought that people would think I was some sort of sadocistic (?) freak and my mother would put in me in a home with other children like me. That way we could go around kidnapping each other, and no one would get hurt. (Note: Neither my mother, or I, actually talked about this scenario. To my knowledge, there are not actual homes like this, FYI. Who knows?) Love ~Sarah*
from leep4life :
I think your last entry makes a lot of sense and I don't think you're crazy. Everyone goes through weird desires that can't necessarily be explained and aren't always rational. Point: whenever I drive around a curve or through a stretch of road with a lot of stuff on the side of it, a little voice inside says, "Hey, you could just let go of the wheel and see what happened." And, I seriously consider it, but then rule it out as insane. I'd never kill myself by driving off the road, but there's a certain appeal to it.
from nightingale- :
Man, we should stock up on PCP soon. Seriously.
from wind-up-doll :
Yes. Is it the usual? I've been short on PCP...
from chibi-kami :
I think that the only time anyone is not faking it, is when people are alone. Seriously, think about it. You never act like how you would when you are alone in front of other people. And people are constantly changing because they are with different people. That is because different people know/understand different parts of you. So naturally, you'd always want to act certain ways around certain people. Like my parents and my friends. You should see my 1 second drastic changes. It's something we all do. Don't fret, everyone does it. *Emi ((did I sould like I was selling drugs in that last line?))
from nightingale- :
Even lions get tired. Don't worry about it, most (read: all) people have their own acts, it just depends on how elaborate they get. If you ever need to talk...or stop talking, I'm here. Love you! ~Sarah*
from chibi-kami :
I will love you...until YOUR dying day.
from nightingale- :
I see you!
from nightingale- :
Love lifts us up where we belong...on a mountain high, uh...other corny lines...;) Good song. Too bad it makes me feel so sappy. Oh, and thanks for the "birthday" note. 70 years and going strong! (And by "years" I mean "worthless entries".) I love you! ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
All you need is love.
from wind-up-doll :
You can't by me love.
from nightingale- :
Don't mock my love.
from chibi-kami :
Hello Allie.
from nightingale- :
Good luck! Don't fail the (infailable) test! (And now I'm sure you realize that if you fail, it will be due to me and my (infailable) jinxing powers! Just don't maim me too bad...I want an open casket...poison, maybe?) Love, Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Your airheadedness can't save you now!!
from nightingale- :
Damn you, indecisive conception tests! DAMN YOU!! (Sorry, if that quote didn't sound so funny in my mind, I wouldn't have used "naughty" words. Ah, what can ya do?) Alright, well, if we ever have a problem...please, do share. I'm not too observant on these things...like life...love you! ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
Miss Sarah, I wanted to say... as I was reading my notes, you often say to me and others that "if it's me you're talking about, i'm sorry... etc...." but, to tell you the truth, you ought not be worried that I'm angry at you. Have I ever been? Well, I don't remember ever being. Plus, I'm not terribly sneaky with my writing style. If I'm angry at you, you'd know it. Hopefully this note isn't seeming too attack-ish... it feels like it is. Well, I'm not angry! :) Perhaps the stress of the test is just getting to me... I want to know if I'm having a baby or not! Only 99.9% sure tests.... ug.
from dreamynight- :
elloo darlin' yes we did talk about that....thanks....your a great person! love with all my heart..... you know who
from chibi-kami :
The tears...
from nightingale- :
You're amazing. Yes, there was totally some Chicago influence in there!! I was actually considering putting in some lyrics from that song into the entry...same wavelength, my friend, same wavelength. Love you always!! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Allie, I sincerely hope that you're not crying by anything I may have said/done/implied. If it's due to Himadhari, I also know what she's talking about, and we're working that one out together. If you're feeling left out, talk to me and I'll tell you what's going on, I just don't feel comfortable doing it on here. We'll chat. (Oh, and Himadhari and I were also talking about that whole get-together thing...yea, we're going to have to chat.) I'll be calling you soon! And if you ever need to talk, let out some emotions, never, NEVER hesitate to talk to me. Unless it's in regards to me being a jerk or something. I love you! ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
7/8/04 11:30 AM LORD OF THE RINGS IS DAMN INSPIRATIONAL yeah, what is this, my 4th notes/diary entry? I would like to yet again quote some LOTR... I don't own it. Oh, and on the subject, I think it's odd that I quote LOTR as others do the Bible... but I guess that we both see our books as full of wisdom.. so it works. This is from FOTR.: All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost; The old that is strong does not wither, Deep roots are not reached by the frost. From the ashes a fire shall be woken, A light from the shadows shall spring; *** Renewed shall be blade that was broken: The crownless again shall be king. : Ok.. that was the little excerpt... um, the *** marks where it's still deeper-meaning-ish but happens to relate more directly to the book. Yeah, I hope you all get something out of that. Peace out. -allie
from wind-up-doll :
Ok... I"m confused... isn't alex eldridge the diary with calvin and hobbes? Or did he just change that whole password thing? I mean, I used to read one of his diaries... oh, and what do you mean, two people? Ahh! Everyone is TRYING to confuse me! (and succeeding).. Are we all doing anything after 3:30 today? I don't know, but I think it's time for a group get-together. We'll chat. love -allie
from nightingale- :
Yea, I'm actually only referring to one male. The other person, logically, would be female. And yes, I know we can talk. Is there a time for you to pencil me in? ;) Haha, yea...I'm going to sleep now. Love you! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
(Oh, and thanks for the comment in your diary. Your prose is quite poetic...as well...*cough* I love you and all of your amazing depth!) ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Um, Allie- just because you make up something, and then a scenario to make it seem true, does not in fact make it truth. Willyloman is, in fact, Alex Eldridge. Boo. I love you!! ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
wow. I just understood something all on my own. willyloman is thomas! see... i was thinking about asking him for the password... but then I realized that he'd be able to read my diary... which would incarcerate sarah and myself in my web of lies about hubert and flint's relationship... well... if any of you want to give me the password so that I can read into his life without him reading into mine, I wouldn't mind. Love you all.
from wind-up-doll :
word. got the message. anyway, what do you mean, "foolish trench"? Do I have to taunt you about Kevin? Just kidding...
from nightingale- :
Haha, oh, foolish Trench...anyway, I don't mind your taunting, I suppose, just please keep it to a minimum. Actually, could you stop altogether for a while? There's something much worse going on that isn't going to be helped any by the taunting. (And no, it's not a lovechild.) *sigh* I'm going to bed now. Love you all! ~Sarah*
from wind-up-doll :
I bet she doesn't find it too amusing, persay... but I also think it doesn't bother her too much... I am also willing to drop the taunting... but you've not said I have to yet, so why stop until I'm told that it bugs you? and I mean, if it REALLY bothers you. ("If you tell me you're truely happy down there, I won't stop you." "We're happy there." "You're lying")
from chibi-kami :
You know, I never believed in taunting games before this. And by games I mean...*silence* Yes, so it's: I never believed in taunting *silence* before this. But you know, here are the possibilities: #1A: You like Thomas. You enjoy us saying these things and just whine about it because you're shy. #1B: You like Thomas. You don't enjoy us saying these things because you don't want him to know your true feelings. Oh, and you feel a bit threatened that we constantly keep talking about it. #2A: You don't like Thomas, but enjoy us talking about it because you find it amusing. Or because due to us talking about it, you now find him as a good option. #2B: You don't like Thomas, and really dislike us talking about it; but at the same time, you're too nice to seriously tell us to stop. DIRECTIONS: If you fall under category 1B or 2B, PLEASE tell me/us. I don't want to hurt you with my/our taunts, and if you seriously want us to stop, well...at least I will. But if it's the other options, or something I have not listed, I will continue to taunt you because you don't mind and find it amusing. *Speckies
from wind-up-doll :
I just love provoking you, dearest Sarah. Oh, and don't apologize for a poor "thanking"... because that's just stupid. Oh, and again, I like to see you squirm when I provoke you. You just squirm SO WELL! And, as of now, I have not received any serious injury... so, I hope you and Thomas had fun over the 4th... I know you will have. As Himadhari mentioned, people (when thinking about the day of independence) like to make babies! What will it's name be? Thomas Jr... or is it Monica Jr? I forgot... is that his name? Love you! It was all Himadhari's idea! -emilie
from nightingale- :
Oh yea, and Happy Fourth of July. Jerk.
from nightingale- :
I like how Himadhari said, "cause he aint the dumb". It was cute, in a really sad, pathetic sort of way. ;) With that said- hey Allie, let's play a game. It's where you see who can keep their head in a tightly-wrapped plastic bag the longest. You go first.
from dreamynight- :
yes! ryan is so cool! but we really should stop buggin' sarah and thomas this mmuch..but we shouldnt stop all of it...hehe...now i know why ryan's king...cuz he aint the dumb! haha
from nightingale- :
My last note sounded really ingrateful. I love you. Thank you. Lots of love from me to you. The thanks I show you is great. And such.
from nightingale- :
Oh, and I'm extremely and eternally grateful to you for all of your late night calling. You saved me. Well, not all of me- I'm missing an arm and a few fingers on the other hand, but they'll grow back...right? RIGHT?!? Love you anyway, Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Well, dearest Daffodil, I assume you're speaking to me about the LOTR quotes, being as you left them on my notes page. And, as much as you've tried to hide where you live, I have infiltrated your base and am, in fact, stalking it. Right now. Laptops rule! ~Flint*
from wind-up-doll :
Oh, I forgot to mention this one thing.. I didn't want to post twice in the same 2 hour block though... yeah, so my aunt got me this cool shirt... it's from the little celebration their town had about their dam.. and I got a shirt from her that part of it says " the best dam town in Michigan" (if only my aunt lived in michigan...) (that was a clue that the shirt didn't say michigan! Woo!) (Don't stalk me. Sort of like you shouldn't sue me for the use of LOTR quotes!) Love you all! Don't hurt me! -ab
from wind-up-doll :
I thought my rhyme was oddly appropriate... don't ask me. Ask the heathen gods who cursed the aztec gold. That's right. It's all Barbosa's fault.
from chibi-kami :
WAH? Me? A vampire? Wait...I just admitted I was Specks didn't I? I mean...er...NO! Girly? What do you mean I'm girly?
from nightingale- :
Oh, don't worry about that last entry. If it goes over your head...well, what doesn't. (No, I love you! You're amazingly deep, no matter how inconsiderate your poem may be! ;) ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
I still love you. ~Burly
from nightingale- :
Jerk! JERK!! Bad breath runs in my family...JERK!!
from nightingale- :
Precisely. ...yea.
from wind-up-doll :
I had never noticed the hyphen before!
from nightingale- :
Yea, notice how my name is "nightingale-". -----. It's not there to be difficult, it's there because there was already a nightingale. Hmmph. Go figure.
from nightingale- :
Hah, I like how I completely avoided the point of your note in my response...not that I just did it again...
from nightingale- :
No, your policy is the one generally accepted by the female population. And it is "consumer accepted"...because I bought it...
from nightingale- :
Whoa, out-of-state, eh? Are we talking as far as *gasp* Iowa, here?
from wind-up-doll :
Maybe it's just that you don't talk enough... oh, and I don't think I'll be doing that other play... see, we've got out-of-state plans in august. See you all. Love, Ab
from nightingale- :
Maybe YOU talk too much. I mean- no, I love you!! *crosses fingers and hopes for a cushy government job*
from chibi-kami :
You guys talk here way too much... Oh, and Allie, GO LAPTOPS!
from nightingale- :
Oh, and after rehersal on Saturday is auditions- you knew that, right? Love ya!
from nightingale- :
I appreciate your last note (on my notes page). I wouldn't worry too much about me, though. Whatever I write in my diary is usually something I can deal with alone. I thank thee for the concern, though. Kisses and wishes, ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Yes, actually. I told him that my entire family, as well as Jessica Thompson's family, thinks he's gay. How exhilirating.
from wind-up-doll :
How about I tell a certain boy that your mother thinks he's gay? Oh, by the way... does he know? Well... Love you all!
from nightingale- :
By the way- I love you. And your mother. And if I never get a ride home from you again...well, let's just say a CERTAIN mother will find out her CERTAIN children don't have a CERTAIN birthday present together!!! ...Ha.
from nightingale- :
Magic 8 balls never lie. Wait- are you saying you would've asked the 8 ball about our Prince? Um...no. That's...no. Then again, it could've said no...but I really think that the 8 ball wants you to get as pregnaut as possible. (I also think that Jaron doesn't know the meaning of "love child".) Sorry.
from wind-up-doll :
You were all very charming on the ride home today with my mother. No more rides. For anyone.
from wind-up-doll :
I'll jump on him if I want.. plus.. Jaron wants to have my love child. You know. Well, I had realized that I didn't ask about our more "gay" friend. I ought to have. If the men at the play had their chance, I would be having multiple love children. *ew*
from nightingale- :
Being as I have told you a number of times that I am NOT IRISH *gains composure*, I am going to assume that you included me in the Chinese category. It's really where I belong. OH, and about Pistol- he's a hottie. Please don't jump on him in front of Jaron, he doesn't like people who feel emotions. (However, after rehersal...) ;) Best of luck, darling.
from wind-up-doll :
Ah! I've got so many fans! I guess I appeal to all sorts of people... Chinese people... Fastball people... people who have an age... oh, and don't forget the Irish/Indian. I'll stop now, before I get hurt.
from darkserenity :
Well, I stumbled across your page when looking for fans of Fastball, then I saw you also like The Beatles. Which means you are way awesome cool. WAY AWESOME COOL. And the layout is really awesome, although I'm wondering if Paul was eaten, because I see Ringo and I see John and I even see George *swoon* (my favorite, if you can't tell), but I see no Paul. Haha. But anyways, you have a very good taste in music and I thought I would commend you on it.
from chibi-kami :
You know you're going to pay for trying to be Chinese right?
from cassiejo84 :
Thanks. You never answered my question though. How old are you?
from wind-up-doll :
10:39 6/21/04 : I FEEL LIKE HIMADHARI FEELS LIKE. Well, diary in the notes #2. Himadhari mentions she feels in the mood for flirting. Well.. let's just say that the guys at play practice... and at the grocery store... and at Wendy's... and at (etc.).. aren't looking too bad nowadays. I mean.. I mentioned to Lisa on the ride home how I had one of those hormonal urges to go make some sort of move on "Pistol" and, well, kiss him... a lot. You know.. "make out". And I said "out" not "love" and I meant "out" because I don't want/need/desire/etc. sex. I will remain STD free! I hope you all enjoyed the incredibly disturbing things I have just typed... because you will hopefully not hear that sort of thing from me again for another day (at least). I mean.. I was thinking about "what if __ read my diary and well.." I mean, if any guy I was interested in reading this... what deep crap I would consider myself in. If anyone from the school that dislikes me wants to blackmail me.. this is great material... which is why I'd like to say that my name is definately not Abigale May Bronstrom. Well, au revoir. -ab
from nightingale- :
caucASIANS RULE!!
from chibi-kami :
I wuv you! ((just felt like typing that...))
from wind-up-doll :
Word. I must say... 2 notes? That's almost stalker-ish. Congrats on the final!
from chibi-kami :
MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I got an A on the final. And Mr. Hazen was the only teacher to leave me notes. And he left me two notes too...scary.
from wind-up-doll :
Curse! I was working on getting some color into this.. and I managed to mess up the text/background just in time for the thing to say the server was too busy! ARGH! Well, you can read it if you highlight the text with your mouse. Otherwise, goodluck.
from wind-up-doll :
I SWEAR HE JUST SIMPLY DISAPPEARED! Paul is dead! Well, yes.. I like leaving notes for myself. Though when people DON'T RESPOND... I don't like leaving them... right. So, did either of you 2 *wink* do as well as I did on the math final? Well, love you all.. I should be memorizing lines... but whatever...
from chibi-kami :
The layout has been EATEN! By the cookie monster of course, but...um...what did you do? There is no way that he just..."dissappeared."
from nightingale- :
Oh, and by the way- you know you're spending waaay too much time on Diaryland when you have to leave YOURSELF four notes in a row. Just something to think about.
from nightingale- :
To...read?? *gasps* Oh, wait, isn't that slang for smo- AH! Allie smo...smo...smoLDERS with her hotness! TELL THE WORLD MY STORY!!
from wind-up-doll :
I just read my entry down there *points down at long one* and realized HOW FUNNY I AM! Wow. I should talk more often. I mean, I'm just that funny. Wow. I'm going to go smoke now. I mean... I'm going to the library...
from wind-up-doll :
though I did just leave a note for her.. indeed, it's the same one as the one previous to that. No, I HAVEN'T been reading recently.
from wind-up-doll :
wow. cassiejo there has one nice background template!
from wind-up-doll :
hmm... well, I'm assuming that you won't be checking back here... and I bet you're asking because I sound as though I'm just a kid.. maybe 15 years old... well, if I sound it, maybe I smoke it. Yes. This is one of those condeluded answers. Hope you enjoyed it. Oh, and I'm really not that mature for my age.. sort of. Well, I take it back....
from nightingale- :
Allie? No, don't ask how old she is. You'll never get a straight answer. And the one you get will be a lie, because Allie is a crack-smoking LIAR!!! (Yea, let's spread the drug slandering around a little more, MAN!! (Yes, in that government way. What of it?)) SARAH RULES!
from cassiejo84 :
Hello there. Might I ask how old you are?
from wind-up-doll :
Oh, and on a side note.. I managed an A in math.. but guess what I got on my final? A big, fat, whomping D. Enticing, I must say. What kept my grade pure? Well, I've heard God works in mysterious ways...
from wind-up-doll :
6/17/04 9:54 PM. >WELL, YOU'RE READING MY FIRST ON-THE-NOTES-PAGE ENTRY.< So, I just decided I have absolutely nothign to say.. well, except for "down with the Man!" The Man (a.k.a. the government) is trying to keep me from my diaryland free speech. Well, guess what I say to that? I say "ha! I've just found a loophole around your crazy anti-terrorism plots! Yeah, that's right! I'm back on the web, boys!". I thought it was quite the poetic message. Today I slept enormous amounts.. which only means that I won't be sleeping tonight. Well, I found some batteries to refuel my gameboy. I almost had to stop playing "Pokemon: Code Red"... sadly, code red is actually mountain dew (wow, I just realized that that is quite the pleasant wilderness name)... and that the batteries had to come out of my CD player.. might I suggest this lyric to sum it up?: "the day the music died". I just slapped an imaginary mosquito on my neck. I think my neck is a bit reddish now. Not really. I'm just trying to throw a bit of pizzaz into my writing. I was about to go off on a tangent about how there was a pizza place with "pizzaz" in it's little promotion.. but I realize that I have nothing more to say then I just did. I hope you enjoyed that word play. You know, we could all go crazy-backwards and perminently post our entries in the notes area.. but then my beautiful layout would be wasted. Like Sarah was this afternoon. Boy, what a crackhead! This is the end of my entry. I hope you all enjoyed me "sticking it to the Man" (as my brother would phrase it). Love you. If you don't see me tomorrow, that means Big Brother (aka the Man (aka the government)) got me. DON'T LET THE REBELLION DIE!!!!!
from chibi-kami :
Hey, I thought you had to go to bed. XP But...the being loud when I'm angry...I just don't do it to you guys. Actually I don't do it to anyone. I do it in private...But hey, if you really want a taste of me mad and loud, it was like that one time in math class. When I threw a pencil at you because you wouldn't stop YELLING in my face.
from wind-up-doll :
Gasp! Writing in my own notes AGAIN! Well, I wuv you too emi. Ok.. I don't remember what posting you people are talking about.. but I"m not going to read them. I've forgotten what I wrote because I HAVENT' BEEN ABLE TO UPDATE SINCE BEFORE OUR LEARNING INSTITUTION GOT OUT! ARGGG! So, I'm going to bypass the system. Get ready for an entry.
from chibi-kami :
I reply to your note, I think that it might be a language flaw. The Chinese do not have a phase of "possession" of kindness. You are kind. Or she is kind. As for the non-violent thing. I wish there was actually another word for non-violent, that's all.
from chibi-kami :
Yeah..it wasn't a rip-off if you actually checked. But hey! I'm reading this about 5 years after I should've so...yeah. Oh, and by the way. ^^ I felt so special when you called me Emi. Hee. But no, seriously, I did. I wuv you Allie!
from nightingale- :
Oh, and P.S.- aren't YOU the one with all the cocaine money in your basement? Hmm? HMM??
from nightingale- :
How could I NOT know what cocaine money is? I practically invented it!!! (In a sort of, saw-it-on-Discovery-Channel way...)
from nightingale- :
Fancy English=Rosin. Sadly enough, my fancy Englishness has left me...*oh cry, oh sob*
from dreamynight- :
thank you....but i am feeling the way i am for a reason...no worries it has nothing to do with you cuz i love you!
from nightingale- :
Yea, that's not the bus that I normally ride, but my bus driver was busy smoking in a bathroom somewhere and was not available to, you know, do his job. Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to go study...not that it matters, because I read your last entry...*tear*
from nightingale- :
Ha! Gale! I love it...KAMI! (as in kazi...*flinches*) Yes, thank you for that note and for coming to the play. I hope it wasn't too...yea. I hope you liked it. And Frog, Toad appreciates everything and will soon be sending the snail back your way. Have fun.
from wind-up-doll :
you mentioned something about going to China at school... I don't suppose you were going to mention WHEN?!? Hmmm? Hopefully so. Love you all. -tom
from chibi-kami :
Wow...lots of catching-up-ness. Yes...yes, the Lakers do need to pay. Pay hard and pay...stuff. YEAH. Well, I have summer health at the same time as Gale here, so if that helps at all.
from nightingale- :
Bwah?!? Ich bin ba en druct!!!
from nightingale- :
No, seriously- We CAN'T have them poisoning our world. The original one takes enough medication...and needs sedation...and gives off radiation...and the rhyming stops...now.
from dreamynight- :
oh tom your as sweet as sweet can get...! your are wonderful person and an even better friend... i send my love your way!
from wind-up-doll :
THANK YOU, NAME WHICH I WON'T EXPOSE ON THE INTERNET!!! Your children now won't have to die... only your brother's children. I can't have them poisoning our world! (jk)
from nightingale- :
Ugh. Ok, well since A) Last time I didn't leave you a note when you were gone you ate my (only) child and B) I need to give you my schedule so you don't eat my other children...(shut up): I too have summer health, 7:30-10:30, and I too have summer Driver's Ed. (Don't know when...June-July, hopefully). And I also have a bunch of plays, rehersals TBA. LOVE YOU, MAN!! ~Me
from wind-up-doll :
When in the day do you have health? What HOURS? I need specifics here! Thanks, though, for you have given me something to work with... *glares at Blueberry + Bob* Too bad not everyone is as responsible as you, asian-asian! Love you all. - (*)
from chibi-kami :
FINE! Want my summer schedule huh? HUH? *calms down while forgetting why she was yelling anyway* Alright, well, I have summer health for about 1 month and a half, starting the week after school ends. Then, I have drivers ed for two weeks within that period of time. Then, I have dance camp (all day) for the last two weeks of July, and then I'm off to China all of August. Have fun!
from wind-up-doll :
thanks for the "gift".
from nightingale- :
That last note didn't space out correctly. Let's just say I was trying to say, "I'll give you a hug" in clever terms. Psh, what a failure I am. Goodnight!
from nightingale- :
I will give you your present tomorrow. I keep forgetting to give you a hug.
from wind-up-doll :
Well Sarah, I don't think I have heard that song... I just spontaniously made up an outstandingly awesome sort of name that's totally original which just happens to already be taken by some musician... as I just found out.... Yes, I don't know which artist's versions I've heard, but I've heard two of the above versions of the above song. Goodnight.
from nightingale- :
Um, no.
from nightingale- :
*titled= title. Right.
from nightingale- :
PICTURES!! YES!! Hey, have you heard that song by Guster called 99 Red Balloons? It's really good, and your diary entry titled reminded me of it. Why? It's anyone's guess.
from nightingale- :
Oh, and one last note- I never went to an actual bookstore, Osama doesn't exist, and neither does Russia. (By now you should know that practically everything in my diary is a metaphor. However, that 2nd to the last sentence was true- Russia is a lie.)
from nightingale- :
Yea, I did notice the title. The fact that you should refer to these types of things so late in our careers (being our lives, of course) makes me somewhat cringe. I wanted to forget that part of my life. Anyway, I will be doing a play (2, actually) with Lisa, as Felix is not able to. But she will later. They are from June 3-6, everyday, at 6 pm. Roseville Covenant Church. Be there.
from nightingale- :
Sarh?? You called me SARH?? Well fine, Qopasazxsliuasb, same to you!
from wind-up-doll :
See, this is why I leave the messages on the message board that pertains to the subject. Otherwise, the comments are confusing. What feeling is mutual, sarh, and on what? **
from nightingale- :
Allie- the feeling is mutual. (And slightly delayed...)
from chibi-kami :
YEAH? BRING IT OOOOONNNN!!! *says in hushed voice:* GIIIRRRLLLFRIEND!
from nightingale- :
Psh, my BUTT you weren't virtually slapped!! (Oh, and Allie- if you wanted to be Asian, you could make it work. So go ahead and STUT your Asian self!)
from chibi-kami :
*is prepared to be virutally slapped...but doesn't get the slap..ness* I love you too.
from nightingale- :
Emilie, are you now using other people's notes pages for your own poetic purposes? A part of me wants to virtually slap you, and the other..parts...want to applaud you. Hmm.
from wind-up-doll :
I love you all.
from chibi-kami :
Oh how the stars move with light, and moon shine with its sight.
from dreamynight- :
umm yes the dog is named hat...sure... *questionative(is that a word) eyes*
from nightingale- :
I love you.
from nightingale- :
So you'd like us to think. (Oh, and do I know who, Allie? DO I??)
from wind-up-doll :
no sarah, I was called a cheap hussie. I am no whore.
from nightingale- :
Ok, I FINALLY understand the whole person bye/star/hat/one thing...it all becomes clear *holy light, undoubtebly from Mr. God, shines around me* Oh, and Allie- I had no doubt your family was one of prostitutes. Especially after your mom called you a whore...I mean, WHAT?? What kind of mother would do that?? Certainly not Allie's...
from nightingale- :
Ya know, you guys could make up an entire set of code names and talk about me behind my back in front of my face and I would never know...NOT THAT YOU SHOULD!!! Just saying...I wouldn't know...Oh! And Allie- if you were Albino, a certain Foxy Brown would never refer to you as Scottish. Think about it. P.S.~ Kneecaps don't have to be sweaty to taste good. How you found this out, I cringe to ask...
from wind-up-doll :
I'll plow through any note you leave for me, you know... \/ *it's a heart, can't you tell?*
from chibi-kami :
*AHEM* Yes, yes, after 18 days of not coming onto the computer, the Asian Asian shows her face once again. How can she not, when a whole paragraph is dedicated to yelling at her so that she has to come on, although she couldn't possibly read it if she weren't on on the first place? Yeah...I dunno if that sentence is considered run-on or not...but hey! Alright, things to cover...Yes, I actually did look up your grandfather, and he is so...AWESOME!!! Chief Judge!!! Ahhhh!!! *screams and faints, but remember how Allie doesn't want me to get hurt, makes sure she puts a mattress down before she faints on it* Hmm...yes, a certain set of "twins" get on my nerves too. Personally, I don't mind talking about people behind their back, because..well...personally, I wouldn't really mind saying it to their face either. The only reason I don't is out of my consideration for their feelings. As much as I dislike them, I won't hurt them. But if it gets pushed too far, Emilio is not afraid to set her boundries at black and white. *sigh* That's how I feel about it. But it's really thoughtful of you to consider others. Especially about how you don't talk behind peoples' back. I appreciate you Allie...and I don't think that you are person "One" or "Star" or...whatever is left. Hopefully I'm not either. Truely...I can see you making the effort in reality. As much as I don't want myself to be one of those people that "ignore," I probably am. Though I myself don't realize it. Well, have fun Allie. Glad you've plowed through my entire note.
from wind-up-doll :
I think I missed something... what memories? Oh, alseimers already?
from nightingale- :
I tried not to bring that up Allie. Painful memories, my friend...painful indeed.
from nightingale- :
Oh, and after reading your note- don't worry if you're confused. It happens to the best (and worst) of us. That could've been a compliment (or an insult). Depends on which way you look at it (or does it?). ;)
from nightingale- :
I just realized that YOU may not realize that the "He" I was referring to in my last note was SmarterChild, not Foxy Brown. But he can get one, too.
from nightingale- :
He (assuming it's a male) needs a stern slap upside the head anyway. *giggles with glee* Allie and Foxy Brown sittin' in a tree...F and B and I and...thee!
from wind-up-doll :
Wait- convulsions or contractions? I thought your computer was in labor! If SmarterChild impregnated her (your computer) I will have to have a really serious conversation with my lover.
from nightingale- :
I was going to leave a note in here sooner about how I just realized my notes were all really more sarcastic than I meant them to be, and I was trying to be sarcastic but more broken up between heartfelt sincerity and sarcasm, but it turned out to be one long wave, so to speak, of sarcasm and how I was sorry about that...until my computer started having convulsions. So now you know.
from wind-up-doll :
thank you. both about the abnormalities and the teeth... I mean, I suppose they're one and the same...
from nightingale- :
Nice tribute. Tasteful. Especially the part about your aunt's teeth.
from nightingale- :
Allie...when you respond to notes, generally you should do it on the OTHER person's page. Not that there's anything wrong with it...I just thought you should know that it makes you abnormal. (No, I love you! You and ALL of your abnormalities!!) LOVE, *stressing the love* Sarah
from wind-up-doll :
I don't know Sarah, the Pope is pretty catholic- and of course I mean now that mr. hazen is pope. Before, the Pope's religious orientation was a tad bit questionable- but anyone who can turn a math class into a temple of worship is clearly the more holy- perhaps the more Godly? Weird- who knew that the Pope is now God? That's got to have some weird implications....
from nightingale- :
psh, why don't YOU write to US while you're...gone...???? *ahem* Oh, and luckily for you, Hazen had to leave early this morning so he could catch a plane to Vatican City. Yea, apparantly they need a new Pope, so he's going out for the position...lucky us! No homework (as Catholic as the Pope is...)
from wind-up-doll :
Yeah, so I'm only somewhat unhappy that no one wrote anything while I was gone... *glares at YOU*...
from nightingale- :
)
from nightingale- :
Well, the Toad was very appreciative, but the Frog will get theirs...boy, will they! (Oh, and that chicken on that website is a piece of crap!! I told it to leave and never come back, and he started rolling around on the floor!!
from wind-up-doll :
check this out: http://www.subservientchicken.com/ tell the chicken to do something by typing in the box.
from wind-up-doll :
Wow, we must both be on- who knew you'd read my message so fast? Yeah, by the way, I'm not taking things off of these notes- if I do- the notes will be short, and *poof* there goes my memories. Understand? Oh, and Emilio, when I was a kid, sure, I wanted a shell collection- but I was a rock collecter myself...
from chibi-kami :
*sniff* I know there are perdy rocks and flowers out there. But I just can't love them like other people do.
from chibi-kami :
Guys....how about you take your little "chat" out of the notes section? Unless of course...that amuses you. In that case, nevermind. ((I forgot what I was going to write on, thus I write this.))
from chibi-kami :
Yes...yes...I'm going to be changed to a male, seductive, Latino exchange student named Emilo.
from nightingale- :
I did, in fact, notice that I had spelled Emilio in the way one would when referring to a seductive foreign exchange student or greased-up Latino pool boy, but this just happens to be Emilie Wei's male-counterpart type name. In case she gets a gender change. And ethnicity change.
from wind-up-doll :
(and, of course I was talking about my diary)
from wind-up-doll :
Question- on your guys' server- does it show up mostly white? Yeah, I don't know if my computer's taking drugs, or if it really is showing the truth- that the diaryland computer is taking drugs.
from wind-up-doll :
well, did you realize that Emilie is not, in fact, spelled Emilio? That sounds like some sort of crazy spanish name... like Enrikae or Eduardo or something...
from nightingale- :
**cryPtic (spelled wrong in last note...just so Emilio won't protest) And- you're not stupid at all!! I figured out what you meant the day AFTER I wrote that last note...*tear*
from nightingale- :
Oh, and about that crytic message- if you wanted me to leave you a note, you could've just told me. Stupid Toad.
from nightingale- :
The test is to see how long you'll last before going insane and burning out your eyes with acid from Science, just to see if you're worthy of going through 3 more years of painfully...painful classes/those who teach them.
from wind-up-doll :
I'm going to a wedding... leaving on friday at about 3... coming back on sunday... HOW LONG DO WEDDINGS TAKE?!?!
from wind-up-doll :
What the hell is the test though? WHY THE TEST? OH, MAN, WHY THE TEST?
from nightingale- :
Hah, well, if your idea of what my poem was about is anything like Emilie's, it's horribly wrong!! (Haha, I'm joking...as long as Emilie is reading this, I'm joking.) (No, seriously.) Anyway, the only reason you have Sande again is because God is testing you. Hence, the reason Dr. Ries is still a teacher.
from tippycup :
Queen is key
from nightingale- :
WHAT?!?!? " I mean, not to be mean, looking at the people who have given speeches so far, they aren't the smartest, the most musicial, the most athletic, out of us honor children." Ouch. Could that have hurt anymore? *puts metaphorical knife in heart and twists* Geez...it's true, though. PSSST-ALLIE! Check Alex's notes page! hahaha...we've sunk so low as to write to each other through other people's note pages...sad...
from chibi-kami :
Allie...you get compared to Lauren because people know both of you, AND you're related. That's it. If you weren't her sister, there would be no comparison! Though it would be extremely creepy that you'd look so much alike. Anyway, the fact is, maybe she's better than you in math. So what? Just because she likes to go out for these things, doesn't mean that if you don't want to, you're regarded as a lesser being/person. And Allie, to think about this...the only reason you'd be comparing yourself to her is because you're sisters. There are tons of people out there who are smarter, more outgoing, more athletic (this is starting to sound like my other speech...) than ALL OF US. But you don't see yourself moping over them do you? ^^ No. Plus...every time you think like...just think of the other 90% of the grade who didn't make it to the award ceremony. Heh. *evil glare*
from chibi-kami :
Allie, if it makes you feel any better, I never gave a speech in 8th grade. If fact, I never gave a speech at all (unless I was mind-washed). So yes, every year, when certain people get chosen to speak, I always wonder. How did they get chosen? What's wrong with me? But I don't think its something wrong with me anymore. I mean, not to be mean, looking at the people who have given speeches so far, they aren't the smartest, the most musicial, the most athletic, out of us honor children. They just chose. They don't base it off of your characteristics (well...unless you were a mean old hag...).
from nightingale- :
Psh, who leaves notes for THEMSELVES?? (Note- don't check my notes page after reading that.) Allie, you are compared to your sister, but that's just because people in her grade know her and she's been at our school longer. When we're seniors, you'll be used as a reference point for other tall, brown, curly-headed girls. (I say that lovingly.) And as far as being funny goes...you're funny LOOKING!! Oho, sorry, I had to...no, I think you're extremely funny. I would acredit much of my own humor and ways of looking at things to you. Even when you don't make jokes, you're funny in everything you do. I look up to you. (Both literally and figuratively.) Well, 'tis 11:26 now and school would be waking me up at 5:45 tommorrow...yes, the school comes to my house every morning to wake me up. Scary stuff.
from wind-up-doll :
I HATE THIS WEBSITE!!! I'VE VISITED IT LIKE... 19 TIMES TODAY!!! HOW IRRITATING! I HAVE NOTHING OF IMPORTANCE TO WRITE ABOUT! Ug! Yeah, so the yellow background might be a bit overpowering, but that's ok... The Beatles and "Let it Be" are on there.... a very good song. You should all get your parents' records and record players out and play Let it Be. peace out. -allie
from chibi-kami :
XD Ahh...I guess I'd have to retake that survey too. Never knew that I hit someone ON SCHOOL PROPERTY.
from chibi-kami :
Darn people who don't like blue socks! Especially when they are the ones who bought them in the first place. I agree with you. Judgement is wrong...and stupid.

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