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from permeation :
speak more often than not.
from portlypete :
By some circuitous route, I just came across your "to be reasonable or to not" blog. I'd agree with everything you said with the possible exception of: "whether there is or is not a god does not really affect us. god or no god, it is still directly experienceable that to be kind to others is more efficient in life. efficiency here to be defined as that which leads to a happier life experience." A happier life experience for whom? I could give you a list of infamous characters (how long have you got) for whom a 'happier life experience' for those they control, is not high on the agenda. Dawkins' brain is indisputably larger than, say, an ants. Does an ant worry about 'the meaning of life' or who / what created it? Most people would only give it a passing thought on the way to thinking about what to cook for dinner. But, if you look down at the ant, and up at a mountain or the stars, occasionally, you're going to wonder how such a complex system as 'Everything' came about. The problem is, can even Marvin, with a brain the size of a planet, figure out how his brain came to be? Probably not. Marvin (and Richard Dawkins) probably like to think of themselves as intelligent beings. But our thought processes are limited by the number of neurons and what-not we possess. Asking us to explain the universe, is like asking Blue Gene/L (a pretty shit-hot computer) to explain how it was made. So, since we can't figure it out, we make stuff up. Some kind of god is a coverall answer; especially if he happens to 'move in mysterious ways'. Canny, power-hungry types soon picked up on the concept of a god as a handy way of controlling the masses. Heaven makes a great carrot, and Hell makes an undesirable stick, fantastic for controlling many millions of people. Being 'kind to others' wasn't high up there with 'lining one's own pocket' and 'ruling The World' though. And, to be honest, it's a system that's worked pretty well for centuries. Many wars have been fought in the name of religion. Sometimes, the same god has even been rooting for both sides. I suspect the breakdown of law and order in many 'civilised' countries is largely due to the wane in influence of The Church. If you no longer believe you're going to rot in eternal damnation with devils sticking red-hot pokers up you, you're more inclined to covet another man's wife, or steal, or murder. So, we'll most likely, never prove or disprove the existence of some Creator. And, you're right, in the long term it doesn't matter. In the long term, we'll all be dead - and then we might get the answer. What matters is that we should know our own mind, and not be led by others in the pursuit of their own beliefs and agendas.
from permeation :
i'd like to send you something in the post. email me your address (twostarsforarms (at) hot mail (dot) com. (Ps, it's not a head).
from erari :
hahaha woops, i guess i didnt make myself clear. --i meant it as a compliment. your writing is out of this world! again,-- a good thing :)
from erari :
your writing is insane. truly. :)
from mordorr :
even at 245 am on a tuesday morning as beatles songs from abbey road echo and smoke escapes my breath your words are hope, that take i guess not only i, to a place of hope at a time so dim, so bleak..that love pure hearts-that light, exists in the darkness in the heart of the world.. and i just thank you for that. really.
from officehours :
bukowski will get me everytime
from artgnome :
I didn't answer the other quiz because, alas, I do not have an iPod *hangs head in shame*
from leehoskin :
Robert Frost said Home is where when you Have to go there, they Have to take you. Just read a book of short essays about "home". Now, I'm asking...what does home mean to you? I describe home as where I feel safe.....
from eloira :
Horrendously belated, but welcome to the Altered diaryring :) Keep up the beautiful writing!
from permeation :
just got back from dallas yesterday - was there two weeks. back in the uk, and weary as ever. so, i was thinking robert, that you've still got that way with your words. the way you've always written about whatever woman you're in love with at the moment still moves like an earthquake. i remember those days. i'm glad to be reading your stuff again. -t
from moonrattles :
Hi. I can't remember my other password, so I'm showing up in some very old clothes... You must have tried to call only a couple of days after I got a new phone...226 0961 (the usual DFW area code). Where are you now? Hope life is great for you. You deserve it. Getting married in April. I can hardly believe it, either, but I think it's the right thing for us. Eight years and all of the troubles; it's been a long, sometimes hard time and we're still together. Miss hearing from you.
from moonrattles :
Hi. I can't remember my other password, so I'm showing up in some very old clothes... You must have tried to call only a couple of days after I got a new phone...226 0961 (the usual DFW area code). Where are you now? Hope life is great for you. You deserve it. Getting married in April. I can hardly believe it, either, but I think it's the right thing for us. Eight years and all of the troubles; it's been a long, sometimes hard time and we're still together. Miss hearing from you.
from diary--user :
Hi. I just wanted to welcome you to the Who's Line Is It diaryring. I have also made some other rings you might be interested in joining, so check them out. http://diary--user.diaryland.com/myrings.html.
from mordorr :
you're absolutely right, and i appreciate the encouragement. i'm not meaning to overwhelm you, but it has honestly been a great while since i've read words like yours. it's reminded me of so many positive things of the past, of the future. there are so many great writers here. your words just take me to a place i feel like i was, before, that i've missed. suppose it doesn't matter how, why. look forward to reading more.
from godzgirlz :
Thanks for joining...Peace
from mordorr :
'and i smile because i'm here and you're here and all of us get to see all of this, get to bounce through it.' every word of yours so articulate with this undeniable truth, not only do you look on at the world as if it were always in bloom, there you are capturing everything in your mind and translating those feelings through words later, in public, so those passing through might read and feel a small part of that magic. and i do.
from boyecho :
i'm thankful for fugazi pointing the way to [here]. else i would have never...
from saggymoon :
i love your banners-- and your title! can't wait to see more... xoxosaggymoon
from permeation :
Good - but you know about the trap. I've tried lately: http://hope-edition.blogspot.com/
from permeation :
Hmm, that's a good question. I guess I just don't have much to say.
from permeation :
Ah, I see. I dont write much at all these days - full stop. Still in England, but I'm going back to Dallas for a few weeks in February. It's been over a year since I've been home so it'll be nice. Are you still there?
from permeation :
Hi Robert. Hope you're well & things. I have recently been going through old entries from sleepystorm & it lead me to wondering how you had been and if you're writing anywhere else these days. I'm curious to see where your creative-head is. Tiff.
from number9dream :
Hope you get this. I just wanted to say hi and miss you and I was thinking about what you you said about Bukowski not looking right until he got old. "Misshapen" has become a favorite word of mine since. I didn't even realize it had infiltrated my vocabulary until I used it for the second time today. Where are you? How are you? Whiskey kisses and beer toasts. I miss you, Rob. Happy New Year.
from eirever :
i couldn't love bts more if i tried. i love that you love them too.
from solarlab :
i had the craziest dream. i finally had a dream about you. i thought that was impossible. what do you think it means? you were a 14 year old boy in the dream. i was so confused. i know, i'm crazy. that's why you love me. xo.
from number9dream :
First time I said what? And yeah, Sarah Vowell is just too fun.
from moretoknow :
And the baby comment was not the correct test line nor was the stick the right length/strength. But I've always loved the dance of people -- I've never been amazing with my words (I am a dreamer not a poet) but I have human interaction down to a science. I've been afforded the chance to watch young and old and the ability to soak up and notice and it's done nothing but pay off. Except when I don't care (which leads to drivel like this).
from moretoknow :
Agreed, completely, but I figured my first response ("Oh my god, I want to have your babies") was a little inappropriate. As was my second ("Ok, if you don't want babies, I'll do anything, I promise I give good..."). I figured the third try was the best of them all. I mean after all, that'd be creepy, no?
from number9dream :
No, that's it. Try again.
from number9dream :
Thinking about you a lot lately, esp. after the NYT article about the best American Novels of the last 25 years. Want to talk and talk about it. Call me. 254 541 6341.
from recieveher :
unlocked
from solarlab :
ok, after that phonecall, i'd say the devilish me for sure.
from solarlab :
the seductress, frail me, needing to believe and be believed in.
from solarlab :
there are multiple me's. i remember that you.
from bonnylisbon :
I think Elliott Smith's death was shadey at best. I kind of almost prefer thinking that he killed himself because really? Who wants to believe that someone would kill someone as fucking lovely as Elliott Smith? AND ON TOP OF THAT, who wants to know that the killer is still walking around? Ignorance is bliss? I don't fucking know ...
from solarlab :
i remember this you.
from annivate :
in my head, you are in los angeles.
from annivate :
i flew into lax the other day, inadvertently... i thought of this journal.
from bonnylisbon :
I thought the same thing about Wyclef when I saw him in the Block Party movie recently. He is just too cool for school.
from sleepystorm :
i've been really well. i've tried to email you, a few months ago, but it bounced back undeliverable. anyhow, i'd like to catch up with you. you know where to find me. twostarsforarms. /tiffanie.
from lipsonmyskin :
true words about wyclef - I must admit, even though I never listen to his music...
from sleepystorm :
shame, that we didn't stay, friends. contact. im not bigger than it is, so i'll say it one last time, and i wont have to say it ever again, because its out there, in the void: we were friends once, something more one time, and now, we're not, and havent been for years that seem like decades, & too little is too little, no matter how late. i live five thousand miles away from the streets of dallas, now, and distance gives you a wonderful, ever-changing perspective on things. i believe now, more than ever, that if you are thinking about someone, it's a nice thing to tell them, so that they know. memories are memories, fading, and long-gone, but we have them, and people appear to us, some more often than others, some hardly ever at all. but if i can, i want to say that i have been thinking of you lately, and i hope you are well, and safe, and happy. no more words. tiffanie.
from lousrose :
i LOVE that you are still here.
from moretoknow :
My girlfriends and I were talking the other night (over red wine and pictionary) and we were thinking about what sort of qualities we want from men. And it all came clear to me this morning that when I suggested "literary" and "well spoken" that there was one person I was thinking of.
from intheory27 :
That was sufficiently incredible. :)
from moretoknow :
Yeah but he's gotten mtv's approval. And we all know that what is now mtv is evil and everything (artist) they touch turns to crap. Well, mostly. Ok kinda. Ok yeah I really like the CD but I cried when I saw it on mtv.
from moretoknow :
God I love that show. I miss it and Wayne Brady (when he was "normal")
from moretoknow :
Ok ok ok. But it's still a really god damned bad movie. By the way, where did Lampoon go so wrong? Some of my favorite movies were those oldies.
from moretoknow :
Oh no no. I hate Dirty Dancing. No I LOATHE it. I think it's the worst movie possibly ever. I'm just addicted to Law and Order (old style) and when he died I cried a little. Not my fault. Old men are cute. Kinda.
from moretoknow :
Wow I laughed so hard it hurt. Jerry would be my personal #1 simply because he has that smile. And he's the "old detective amongst the new detectives" and let's be honest. That's where it's at. I also am so delighted to know that I'm not the only one who knows he was in that crappy ol' disney flick. Man we're cool.
from moretoknow :
I can't help but note that you didn't list Jerry Orbach. The man was on Law and Order for YEARS he's gotta know something about crime (and quick witted insults).
from moretoknow :
The quote listed 21 things. I can/do 16 of them. Approximately 76%. Which is more than I can say for most, I suppose.
from moretoknow :
16/21. Not bad. And think of all the life I have yet to live.
from solarlab :
patiently, solar.
from moretoknow :
The irony begins when it was just yesterday that I thought, that boy hasn't put words as ink on my screen in months.
from sleepystorm :
...because stranger things have happened. tonight i was listening to a world of modest mouse, and the lonesome crowded west always reminds me of when we were friends. so i am saying hello & never expect anything back.
from f-i-n :
beautiful words
from candoor :
Merry Happy New Year and make 2006 your best year yet :)
from opiod :
anytime your ready, i can show you how to grow out your crows feet!
from solarlab :
3 hour layover...
from crazyblueyes :
i really like your diary and i enjoyed reading it :)
from notlikeyoudo :
Such a gloriously happy entry! Your words create a light of their own.
from rainbowfear :
love that recent entry.
from solarlab :
i wish we...
from candoor :
Your way with words is still startling.
from intheory27 :
You seem to use your words like some use their puzzle pieces--I like that the shapes and positions of them matter more to you than the conventional textures.
from metamorpoet :
I ran across your diary tonight. I was lost. In all the words and thoughts and quotes. You float everywhere, no where. And I don't quite understand. Yet I do. Good night.
from moretoknow :
I've found the perfect companion to your writing. A good red zin. A half a bottle on my own (I shared) and after a boy left my side (oh but it was sweet just for that moment to lie on his chest) I find it hard to believe that every woman you've ever met hasn't fallen for you right that very instant. It's not the wine, it's but half a bottle mine, it's the thought that was every woman seeks is what you hold. Keep it locked up, it keeps us on the chase.
from number9dream :
Thanks for your note; I love it. It's hilarious and just like the perfect cookie: hard and crusty on the outside, but soft and delicious with sweet morsels melted inside... And Selina is a tramp. I think "Frank" is Fielding, and Martina is the sanest woman in the whole book. Why do all of his books paint women like obsessed, wanton, sort-of "otherwise" characters? I feel sorry for his wife. It makes for great reading, though.
from moretoknow :
That movie...it does things to people. They see the "they loved each other no matter how much" theme, but they miss the movie. They're too caught up in watching two people (contrary to how they think and feel) in this strange twisted story interact. And in the end they can't even get it. It is a good movie. He is a good screenwriter. And the whole thing does make me cry.
from solarlab :
re: fleetwood mac. i did too.
from moretoknow :
Most days I wish that someone loved me like you love. It's...addicting. (You know I'd be starry eyed and 6, sitting on the floor, hands pinned under thighs, blank face and open heart just watching and wanting).
from moretoknow :
"I tapped the play button and turned right on spring valley." Congratulations. I've always been a fan of words on canvas but never to the point of doing them as real art. I've given away dozens of paintings with words on them but this, sir, this one will be for me. Too many times have I sat down with life and love and a cd or playlist and let it walk me. That was beautiful.
from number9dream :
Would love to hear a little something from your world. I'm still out here, still listening. B
from just-tonight :
i wish you would update. i love reading your diary.
from number9dream :
Miss, miss, miss you. Referred to you in conversation the other day, but had to generalize it. It was a strange experience as in my mind, you are as important as the best of books. Surely they must know. Your work is looking more and more like poetry. I feel I've dried up. Every once in while I read something special and almost daily I remember the "misshapen M&M." I was at Half Price the other day and they actually had both "Money" and "The Rachel Papers." Bought "money" but haven't started it yet. Reminds me of you every time I pick it up. Also found "Hard-Boiled Wonderland." Sincerely hope you are better than best and want to call with all my wanting. Take care, B
from candoor :
still amazing and worth visiting much more often than I do, I clicked you on "Stumble!" before I realized and so now they'll bring me more like you (could that be?... that is the Stumble! promise... it's a webtoolbar thing, the first I ever installed, by accident, cuz someone I love said do it)... anyway, I am loving your writing, again :)
from moretoknow :
It's like opening love (and my thoughts only more eloquent) every time I open the page. Salmon highlighted names shouldn't start such a spark and imagery (this time of a child going down sideways on a slide, only because of the turns ending up completely disoriented and upside-down) shouldn't make me smile. But it does. You are swoonworthy.
from moretoknow :
(as per the most recent kaufman homage) I honestly don't think I could spend a single moment in your physical presence for fear that I might swoon so hard to fall and hurt myself. Heart, hip, intangible.
from moretoknow :
Precisely. And you can always tell a person is spot on when you get that grin that slowly and slyly eats your face.
from moretoknow :
Horrid and perfect.
from moretoknow :
I love you. "not everyone can be november, you know. not the way you mean it, not the way i meant it and here, like always we're trading eyes and spending time watching life go by like a boat we built and now we're in it: here and there and fading (more than anything else)"
from tinfoilheart :
i really like your journal. i found it by mistake - what a happy accident.
from f-i-n :
beautiful
from solarlab :
the um is surprise. and some how you could make me love her. that's the wow.
from moretoknow :
I've told you once I'll tell you again -- write a book and I'll buy it. Hell I'll buy all of them. So few people can phrase words enough to make me understand and most importantly feel.
from solarlab :
um. wow.
from liberated- :
Dear Lightfallsup, I have been reading your diary for over a year now and I love it... I want you to know that I think your writing is beautiful. -mandy
from solarlab :
write me a secret message post. use only references i would know. fleetwood mac. do it.
from bonnylisbon :
How was the date with the keyboard? Do you like Tom Waits?
from wildlotus3 :
jesus fuck why the hell are you so beautiful through your words and why are you not my friend? the fates love to mess with my head.
from solarlab :
outward. in every direction. forever.
from bonnylisbon :
I ask because I tend to be a wallflower, and the things I see and hear usually make me sad. Or, things are so big and beautiful that it feels too big to take.
from bonnylisbon :
Whenever I read your diary I often wonder if you're a happy person, are you? I know that's kind of a loaded question, but do you know what I mean? Generally, are you ok? Happy? Is this too personal?
from moretoknow :
Time moves too slowly here. While I love the smiles I much prefer the blinking lights, bright noises, and ever constant horn honking of the east. My frantic key-tapping will find a home there some day.
from moretoknow :
I fear you're living in the wrong place, then. For the wind is always slow and long because of the upsloped foothills here. And strangers find it rude if you pass and do not smile (let alone ask how they are). And our water is so clean it's better than bottled. The throne can move. Colorado is heaven.
from moretoknow :
It's called a 'man's armchair.' It's tan and soft and sweet. And no matter how I sit in it-it always feels right. I day-dream and sleep and work in it. My throne.
from solarlab :
i bend *and* break. so what does that make me? besides bent and broken, i mean.
from meadowdream :
your niece and i check for updates everyday and have been disappointed long enough. please update. i know you are writing. if you're the Robert I know. Love you. I will call soon.
from bonnylisbon :
Can you update soon please?
from bonnylisbon :
Well, it's one of the nicer troubles anyway.
from bonnylisbon :
I love you!! God, that sounds incredibly creepy doesn't it? What I mean is, I love the things you write very very much.
from solarlab :
this you'll love...the ONLY movie left to watch in my apt is...when harry met sally. even on my death bed, i will brave the cold and get another.
from solarlab :
i will always remember. why strange today? me or the words?
from bonnylisbon :
Hello to you. I haven't been as devoted to my diary as I used to, but whenever I stop by diaryland, I always go to your site. You are lovely.
from find-katie :
your writing and layout are both awesome. keep up the good work!
from wildlotus3 :
I do think the world is a better place with people in it called 'Doolittle'. ok background information of thoughts and vision..mhm. oh yes. ok so Hilda had a child three months before she wrote her slim piece of 'notes on thoughts and vision'. her theory was that more men wrote poetry and created art to make up for a lacking they had in their life, like giving birth. less women created art because they solved life's beauty in child birth and knew the depthness of great wonder through that. Hilda was pregnant by her husband who had split with her after he came back from the war but who refused to divorce her all of their lives. He had numerous affairs before they both broke it off. She in turn moved in with an extremely wealthy woman who was her lover for the rest of her life. She was an interesting woman. I actually went to visit her grave and it was a very moving experience for me as a poet. ill update you with more later. right now this note seems to be getting a tad bit too long. take care <<nisha>>
from wildlotus3 :
H.D. as in Hilda Doolittle. she wrote this little pamphlet called notes on thoughts and vision. let me know if u want background info. its thick so some understanding helps. later
from solarlab :
you know how close hate is. xxx
from wildlotus3 :
i think you might enjoy reading H.D's notes on thought and vision. look it up. its quite interesting. a bit of artistic ideology but definately worth a spin. btw, your writing makes you seem sexy. i dont know you and ur entries speak maybe a false truth, i dont know, but its just an observation.
from solarlab :
sometimes i hate you. but that's my problem.
from iwearhats :
A voice comes on and says go to the members area and read the diary at the top of the list, the one who has just updated. Who do I see but lightfallsup. You once said wherever I go there you are. It made me think of that.
from solarlab :
yeah, henry, yeah.
from solarlab :
this is the you that takes my breath away (re:post thanksgiving posts)
from bedazzledman :
xmas only sucks if you take all the bullshit to heart. my daughter is 6. she doesnt get 1000's of useless 'toys'. she gets love & magic & maybe, if the snowgods are groovy - some snow to make snowcats... cuz snowmen suck too...
from toomuchrevu :
NEW FEATURE! Check the update!
from moonrattles :
Sorry, R. J's sister googled herself the other day and found my diary. She then called her mother, who told J. It was a mini-scandal. Thankfully, it's all over now. The username is "m" and the password is "sitar" though I've been updating on livejournal most nights. I can never get an entry page. Same username. Hope you are well. Love B
from rice-milk :
cant say anything which hasnt been said here before. gorgeous to read, lit up places in my heart and mind tonight.
from wildlotus3 :
there was this entry you had that i think u got rid of talking about needing something and then recieving it. the note is in response to that. but now it makes no sense since u dont have the entry anymore. oh well.
from wildlotus3 :
sometimes we think we get what we need but its really what we want and it turns out unsatisfactory in the end anyway.
from wildlotus3 :
so your into jeff buckly, anne sexton, nabokov, and tom robbins, huh? interesting. i thought i was the only one. i dont need to tell you that your diary is facinating and your writing is wonderful because your plethora of girl admirers have already done it for me already.
from karaokekatey :
Yes, I'm still around. Not quite ready to resurface yet. You know when I will. Take care ♥
from radiogurl :
The comment about using the word Strength as a euphemism for bloodlust? Dead-on right.
from solarlab :
saul williams?
from solarlab :
prelude to a 10th, a sigh before sleeping.
from bonnylisbon :
By the way, I just read "and not before," you're too much for me.
from bonnylisbon :
Please don't apologize, I understand completely. I sincerely mean it though, when I say that the things you write are so fucking incredibly... breath taking.
from lousrose :
pointless. to me. every entry of yours is my favorite :)
from bonnylisbon :
I've given up on the idea that you will write a note back. Once again, just for fun, I love your diary.
from recycledair :
I've been keeping up with your diary since January and I have really enjoyed reading it. I just wanted to know what the author's favorites were. Caren
from recycledair :
what are your top 10 favorite entries of your own?
from damefortune :
My diary is temporarily locked because someone's been visiting it a lot from my local network connection. username/password: kill/me
from xworstideax :
just writing that your diary is beautiful doesnt seem enough because everyone else has said everything else before me. your words are so breathtakingly eloquent. you take these feelings and these words and combine them into what they were meant to be... poetry... embarassingly truthful. i hope you dont mind that i add you. i would love to talk to you sometime.
from vikingmaiden :
When someone has the ability to use the English language in so eloquent, so beautiful, so perfect a way, I simply feel obligated to acknowledge it. You have that ability. I hope you won't mind that I'm adding you to my favorites now and have every intention of hanging on each word you write.
from natinski :
"As long as the music is loud enough, we won't hear the world falling apart" *hugs*
from bonnylisbon :
So I have you on my list of favorites, but I think I have to take you off. I don't think I can continue reading your diary, with a few simple words, you literally break my fucking heart. Every time, without failing, I don't know who you are, but it's almost like the only thing I can depend on in this world, I can depend on the fact that your diary will make me cry.
from shoot-down :
i am so sorry. i hope you will talk again with him. or her. or whoever. <3 sending the best luck...
from bonnylisbon :
I read "that's how" you can't do that to me!! You can't write things that painful and real... well you can, but it makes me be able to actually feel my heart throbbing in my chest when I read it. Can you ever understand what I'm saying to you right now? I don't even know you...
from shoot-down :
you are very welcome. i am just telling the truth, lovely. {♥}lorelai
from shoot-down :
i absolutely LOVE your writing. mind if i add you?
from lime-reviews :
You know we love your writing. That's nothing new. But a certain page of mine (labeled "reviewed") now has a small homage to you.
from solarlab :
that's how. *like* two minutes.
from explodingboy :
@ that's how: Where they Australian? (as in national fondness for alchol)
from sanetwin :
you have a sensual/enigmatic/beautiful way with words.
from smokeshack :
oh lord...i really felt what your friend sent you...i can totally relate.
from smokeshack :
your writing is so gorgeous. i had to give props to you in my comments after adding you :)
from starzero :
i disagree with broyard. or i'm the million and first man.
from aquietboy :
i'm completely entranced by the coaster girl diaries. its funny, because she actually lives here, in ontario as well. except she didn't work in a coffee shop, she worked in a record store. across the street from my record store. and she liked the same songs, and was crazy in the same ways. i always wondered if she lived somewhere else. apparently, on consultation with a friend, she also lives in b.c. and works at an organic food store there as well. i think she defies time and space. i haven't gotten to the end of them yet, but i know that i already know the ending anyways.
from rainbwlollie :
Wow. I ♥ you.
from solarlab :
in reference to "marigold and patchwork".
from solarlab :
amazing.
from raven72d :
Sand the color of moonlight, and just as treacherous... Great image. [Note: the power ballad is, next to anything hip-hop, the most evil of all musical forms]
from soi-disant :
god your writings are beautiful. i can't help but tell you, you're fascinating.
from aquietboy :
i once literally fell into a tom robbins novel with someone. it was absolutely unnerving.
from onyxkiwi :
you my friend, have a positively beautiful diary.
from karaokekatey :
in case there was any doubt in your mind - no you are not a psychopath. The answer is she killed her sister in order to see him again. go figure.
from lousrose :
god i am so addicted to your diary. is there one entry that ISN'T brilliant?
from karaokekatey :
according to him: there is a difference between rock and rock-n-roll. ACDC is rock and everyone else supposedly falls under the latter category because they write power ballads??!?
from karaokekatey :
I don't need convincing. The Stones kick ass! according to him, a rock band does not write power ballads. so that excludes everyone on the list except ACDC (or so I'm told)
from karaokekatey :
oh you have started ww III over here
from karaokekatey :
Thank you for the answers and by no means did I intend to come across as rhetorical. I am just genuinely curious, but thank you again - especially in regards to the whole rock issue. I couldn't agree with you more. I think my S.O. should have a looksey.
from solarlab :
didn't you get the Y2K memo? nerd is the new cool. (and lust is the new love).
from solarlab :
both my dear pirate. you have found booty.
from solarlab :
but i'm serious about wanting the list.
from solarlab :
send me a list of ways i can be cooler. cause, really, you ARE the gospel. oh MAN that smelled like sarcasm.
from solarlab :
liz phair would be much cooler if she was jewish.
from tidal-review :
your review at tidal reviews is up. ♥
from solarlab :
i don't remember anyone saying i wasn't manipulative. and is it still cheating if we both win? p.s. you should trust my pronunciations more often.
from solarlab :
dazed. sleep deprived. grateful.
from solarlab :
i updated. i am mostly online at work. things have been moving so fast. one minute ago i was living in beijing...and now...and now. i don't know what. i just know where. but i really do know where and it feels good.
from solarlab :
do you ever come to new york? if so, one day, drink something with me somewhere.
from karaokekatey :
oooh...I LOVE The Cramps!!!!
from paradoxed00 :
You write breathtakingly well. I'm glad I stumbled upon your diary.
from lazysundays :
new to you...trying to read all i can without getting fired!!!
from darkflora :
wow, you make me really appreciate where I live now. People let others cut in front in lines all the time here...
from stjernesludd :
when it comes to caring about others, it's when people care in the little ways that they care the most. <--- it's true. and it's so good when you realize it, like you got to realize it in that store. it gives you a good feeling, doesn't it? (i once saw a lady like that, too.. :)
from notlikeyoudo :
"allow everyone the freedom to do as they choose as long as they are not infringing on the rights of another human being." Amen to that! I definitely agree with you on this and I'm glad you voiced your opinion on the matter.
from byebeautiful :
you are masterful. i enjoy it. thank you.
from samemistake :
It seems customary to leave a note after adding you to my favorites. Your words make me feel things. Thank you.
from sarahdawn11 :
dear _____. . . thanks for everything. -sarahdawn.
from elisabethann :
it's ok...i understand hectic work...though today has been quite slow and boring...and hilda isn't here to annoy me.
from allaloneone :
That is a great quite but it really isn't true. The truth is without love life would be a mistake, music just helps us get there!
from karaokekatey :
ahhh...thank you for the mention. Yes, without music, life would be a mistake. take care♥
from elisabethann :
i love your writing...it helps me pass the day...i was reading you and forgot that i was in an office and i hated my job, and hilda was standing there asking me irritating questions.
from darkflora :
thanks for the questions.
from darkflora :
haha... exactly.
from darkflora :
thanks for reading my diary. The comment I put for you in my buddy list is from Henry Fool. Probably not an accurate quote, but...I love that movie, and I noticed you do too.
from starzero :
i prefer sunsets
from candoor :
and speaking of subtleties, I tend to leave humongous footprints wherever I go and rarely are they noticed until somebody falls into one and looks around trying to be all nonchalant as they try to figure out just what happened and who is responsible... I sometimes try to apologies but they seldom believe it was me who could have possibly had such an effect on anyone or anything, my obscurity factor being so enigmatically high these days... you are a treasure :)
from sleepystorm :
not everything is about you, robert.
from sleepystorm :
since you like discussing things via notes, then no. its a quote from a ryan adams song.
from sleepystorm :
thought you might want to know..this is in houston.. 06.08 : PLEA FOR PEACE feat. CURSIVE / SAUL WILLIAMS
from sleepystorm :
hey, my hotmail is FUCKED. cant even get to it. an old one works.. (mystressoffolk@yahoo.com) x
from xdarklybluex :
would you mind if i added you to my favorites list? ♥
from sleepystorm :
oh, yeah cause thats fair..
from sleepystorm :
you know what im talking about
from sleepystorm :
i do not
from solarlab :
what it's like. what it's like. is that what it's like?
from solarlab :
what it's like. what it's like. is that what it's like?
from sleepystorm :
im back .ill call you later today.
from mornglory :
thx for that HST quote- i lurve him. plus thx for what you're doing here in d-land. your writing makes me cry sometimes, which can sometimes be a good thing. peace
from karaokekatey :
enchanting. gorgeous. I love your writing.
from dumbmonkey :
All I can hope is that you're writing prfessionally, because I think you're fantastic. I gave the link for "mondays without rest" to an old english teacher of mine to use in her creative writing class...you write the way all people should.
from rainforme :
found you thru karaokekatey. incredible stuff. thanks for sharing.
from paperfriend :
good diary.
from belong :
"the shudder speed of moving things" --> that was amazing.. YOU are amazing*
from soul14 :
your words just blow me away. they are beautiful
from hcatty :
I found you from your banner and thank God. Grace in words and beauty in expression.
from tiger--lily :
Never mind about her being amazing, your writing couldn't be described as anything less. Keep writing. love TigerLily xxx
from incinerated :
Breath-taking.
from ohmyjetsabel :
gasp.
from hallmark10 :
If only all of us had someone to feel that passion with..to where it is returned with no doubts. Your words melt off the page accomplishing such great beauty.
from evolver :
I just had to say -- I think your words are beautiful. "your words..." yes, you might even own them.
from solarlab :
i tried to IM you. the anticipation was strange. but alas, my hands are empty.
from x145 :
you are beautiful, your words follow suit.
from gnometits :
don cabalero?
from throwingjuly :
that was absolutely beautiful. one of those things that you don't quite understand but still it makes your heart beat faster as you read it.
from belong :
are you from colorado? if you are.. i'm so incredibly jealous. one of the most beautiful places i have ever been to :)
from inchase :
3/16/04 That was pure. native sweat! happy pain.
from moonrattles :
When you asked, I thought immediately of rushdie and delillo. I'm sorry I didn't remember winterson. He prob. doesn't quite make it, but try ghostwritten by David Mitchell. It is very good. And Marukami would get an honorable mention from me for the Wind-Up Bird Chronicle, but then, I am prob. forgetting people too. B.
from sleepystorm :
just finished watching the basketball diaries, and naturally, thought of you. x
from sleepystorm :
gb was jacked...thomaz salamun. because he is my heart. anne sexton. because she is my soul. x
from sleepystorm :
Update. x
from quotebook :
Loove your layout! It's soooo cool!
from brokenwords- :
simply beautiful.
from bedazzledman :
solar flares are just the coolest thing. a guy i work with set up his telescope to view the sun and we sat and ate sandwiches & watched the flares leap millions of miles into the stratosphere. it's one thing seeing it on telly, to actually witness it live... is... awe-inspiring. thanks for the note. :)
from erato :
Most certainly rolling. Spreading in all directions, I should hope.
from ktdream :
Know this, I love reading your sweet poetic entries because they're beautifully written. And nice username.
from erato :
And you too, I hope.
from erato :
Lovely to wake to, though it is late in the afternoon. Still, better than the moment between coffee and the first cigarette.
from sleepystorm :
..tell your friends the truth about you, things would be easier. there are no victory boards, robert. only what you cant feel, see, know. if i could tell you why, and about things, i would. but right now, i can not. one day you can understand. x
from erato :
Ah, see, I listened hard enough and caught a vignette of life in your last entry. You are brilliant as the light falling up.
from azriel :
If you're telling stories... well then, I'd like to hear some that are about you. If that's too general (as I suspect it is) then tell us stories that you think made you who you are. Cause, so far, "you" is pretty interesting.
from sarahdawn11 :
in regards to 'oh really-' please tell me who you are.
from erato :
pictures say more than just a thousand words. I hope you enjoy my latest entry.
from erato :
Perhaps we are not listening hard enough.
from starzero :
tines. the prongs on a fork are called tines.
from loungeact333 :
you're a great writer. and you quoted Jeff Buckley the other day. Bonus points for that. Thank you for listing me as one of your favorite diaries. I appreciate it. It only took me a couple entries of yours to realize that I must do the same. So you are now a favorite. Have you ever seen my diary with my songs and poetry? (poem4thedumb.diaryland.com) Unfortunately it has ALL of my songs and poetry, not just the good stuff, so you may have to sift throug some crap and silliness to get to my better writings, but anyway, I'm rambling, so I will leave now. Thanks again and keep in touch.
from solarlab :
i think. somehow along some thread of reality, i needed you tonight. the you i've created holds my head sometimes.
from belong :
that has been one of my all time favorite lines out of a song.. jeff buckley rocks* and also.. as always.. beautiful entry.
from erato :
Beautiful.
from erato :
In you the physics of light become the oscillations of words. I am fascinated.
from bedazzledman :
be careful when you go to sleep... your head may be full, and it mayleak out of your ears and stain your pillow...
from renewedgrace :
Nice place you have here. Will come back later and read more. Until then...write more ravishing entries.
from solarlab :
and thanks for the info. ::i::love::data::
from solarlab :
no. you would know it's me. i take ownership of my wit. and my pen is already gold.
from bedazzledman :
arrived at your door accidently and understood everything. will be back.
from sleepystorm :
missed your message. my phone was dead, car was towed, and my charger was in there, so i couldnt charge my phone. x
from sleepystorm :
hey robert. hi from boston. when we spoke the other day, you mentioned it was 70 degrees or so there...it is 6 degrees here. SIX. frostbite central. and my car got towed this morning, parked illegally outside of josh's house. insane fucking shit! call me tonight. x
from eta-c :
that doesn't make sense
from eta-c :
why did i link you?
from eta-c :
why did i link you?
from eta-c :
hey
from sleepystorm :
(thank you for the gifts. i listened to that KOC cd this morning on my way to work. looove it.) x
from solarlab :
you have an agelessness that i have come to be overly conscious of. as if it mattered a shread, i keep trying to box you into something i can digest. agewise only.
from sleepystorm :
god! wheres the swarm of girls already?! surely, i cant be the only one to sign this thing today? anyways, like i told you before: GIRLS CAN TOO SING ISAAC BROCK SONGS!!! GODDAMNIT! .....sparkles, shimmers, shines.....even with a lisp. x
from sleepystorm :
quick, top 5 albums of 2003. x
from hider :
modest mouse, modest mouse, modest mouse, i got to listen to bits of his solo albulm; it's nowhere near as good as modest mouse but i still like it. i forgot how much your diary cheers me up.
from sleepystorm :
not like i didnt just talk to you this morning or anything, but merry christmas, jerk. love tiffanie, x
from sleepystorm :
why hedonism, you ask? because its a pursuit of devotion to pleasure, & to the senses. if thats not beautiful, then what is? x
from loveisache4 :
i like this [...] alot.
from sleepystorm :
dear robert, i hereby state my claim: i am allowed to be in a bad mood. yesterday, today, tomorrow. it is our right as people to let things piss us off, and then we get over them, have a good laugh, and do what the fuck ever. i am sorry i was rude to you yesterday, sorry that i was such a lousy bitch .. love, tiffanie x
from throwingjuly :
i absolutly agree. some people seem to get their pleasure in life out of ranting about who pissed them off and how, i don't know why.
from sleepystorm :
dear robert, i love normal (dallas). it reminds me of things youve read to me in the past. love, tiffanie x
from sleepystorm :
dear robert: please feel free to update any time soon. love, tiffanie x
from sleepystorm :
why is the weather always changing here? (in our city) x
from mittag :
Hello. I rather like your barren writing style. Like the bones of Prometheus. Please do continue.
from sleepystorm :
..what made you change the little description for me? im glad, i hated the Hum one. x
from solarlab :
my entry today is for you.
from ecappaccino :
beautiful
from pinupandgun :
hey, doll. your page is gorgeous, as is your writing. just thought id let you know. your page is one of the best ive seen so far.
from moonrattles :
Hi. That's all. I love and miss you like an old friend will love and miss you. I am feeling very reminiscent these days. Maybe it's the cold weather, which I tend to associate with whisky. It does not matter. Be well, R. I am thinking about you a lot. B
from solarlab :
yeah. but it already made sense.
from solarlab :
*sigh*
from justenough :
oh my fuck. im mad at myself for not finding you earlier. YOU ARE FUCKING GORGEOUS!
from trekreview :
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from annanaphtali :
you have read kirkiegard??
from powercut :
i looooooooooove that song!!!!!
from literatim :
you're writing faster than i can read.
from scratchvinyl :
god. you are fucking beautiful. and you're a boy. remarkable.
from allaloneone :
thats funny, but not all girls are evil you know.
from lightfallsup :
but that only works if your moral standards involve murder for rep and stuff...
from solarlab :
and if a girl only equals time, then the girl equals money. and in the hood, "money" means good, yo.
from gnometits :
clever boy.
from lightfallsup :
well, no because both time and money are compounding substances which means the more you have the more you get, or seem to get. not that time acutally compounds but so much of it is our perception, and one who pericives a great dela of free time tends to have a compounding perception causing the same effect as the actual compounding of time. therefor a combination of them would require multiplication of involved factors. anyway, it's just a funny funny.
from cozmikgurl79 :
Were you trying to convey that girls equal time AND money? If so, that would be a "+," and not a "X." Therefore, your equation is flawed! ;)
from late-message :
you feel like love
from inchase :
what happens to the new noah... what do you propose? anything pragmatic, or just hold on tight?
from f4sakndauter :
I'd love that.
from late-message :
7.
from moonrattles :
so Josh is in Germany? I keep trying to call him and the answering machine greeting keeps changing. I think the number I have is defunct. I'm glad to read you have an angel. You deserve one. I wonder what it would feel like to be Loved by you. angel is a lucky diety; my best wishes to the both of you.
from sarahdawn11 :
i was going to write something stunning as to catch the attention of a stranger....but....i couldnt think of anything, and i really want the rest of the soda in the refrigerator before my roomate gets it, so....i saw your diary listed on a friends favorites, and read it, realizing he was right to state his envy to your writing ability.
from lesthanjill :
hey--i saw the ataris tonight and they dedicated their whole show to elliot smith, and kris rowe was obviously really freaked out about it, i still feel eerie from the atmosphere of it all...
from lesthanjill :
hey--i saw the ataris tonight and they dedicated their whole show to elliot smith, and kris rowe was obviously really freaked out about it, i still feel eerie from the atmosphere of it all...
from hider :
thanks
from hider :
i found out he died just before i went to sleep this morning but maybe you can help me out with the how...thanks
from cautionary :
god i love the latest entry.
from lightfallsup :
recieveher, what does that mean?
from recieveher :
you're never going to trust me (but i can't try if you're not looking)
from belong :
i know how you feel sweetie :*(
from arina4 :
eat butter... never lose hope in dreams of life and love....te te te ahh ha ha ha.. another one to my collection...
from solarlab :
the object of your desire. admiration. muse.
from pool--shark :
I like your writing. I live in Dallas as well. I will come back to visit again soon. Take care. - J
from solarlab :
i still pretend it's me.
from writer4eva :
I love the diary, and I just couldn't help but notice--903 entries???? Just something to think about if you're a gold member--start a 1000-entry diaryring. That would be way cool.
from moonrattles :
R, you have so many readers now. So many folks to think about. You come up so often. I will say, "but I think I loaned that book to R..." or "R was there and said this about it..." Or, "R was like that too...I miss him a lot." "Who's R?" is the usual response. I am saddened that you are not so ubiquitous to them as your memory is to me. It sounds like you have begun to drink again. I only hope that you are happy. Stay well. Say hi every so often. I am, as always, a bit wreckish. It helps to hear I am not a useless waste of carbon. Thank you for that. I am feeling quite like it lately.. Love, B
from soul14 :
your words are pretty. keep writing, i enjoy reading your words.
from sad-night :
I love your diary and I added you to my list of favorites. Take care!
from dont-stop :
The lady in your banner looks like she has a migraine headache. I hope she feels better soon.
from barenaked500 :
you are...yea, i sound real smart! what i wanted to say was that you have the pretty banners! :)
from barenaked500 :
you are the prettiest banners. :)
from mptkicks :
Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you. Thank you for simply existing. Thank you for dropping a clue (putting up a banner ad), so that I was able to follow it and read your words. Thank you.
from knock-first :
I have learned (the hard way) that longing is born out of hope. Hope in what that person/thing might bring you if only....Therefore, losing hope (hopelessness) is in itself is kind of liberating. Perhaps when the longing gets to be too much, you could try it. I myself am working on that-taste testing hopelessness.
from tokyo69 :
hi lights. i've been reading your diary for a while now. your words to me are what cold cucumber is to puffy eyes.
from zizi :
ok :).
from zizi :
"i have to teach a three hour class at nine am tommorrow."
from zizi :
hello. i enjoy reading your words. just out of curiosity, what subject do you teach?
from talkin-blues :
I like the metaphor. Because where else did we get the seeds to plant our tree but from someone elses fruit ?
from knock-first :
much better
from ursaminor2 :
hey I am moving to a new location, I tried to email you with my new username (I would rather not put it here) but your email doesnt seem to be working. At any rate, you will always be one of my favs....
from exhaust :
He was your favorite? And, if he was, who is now? I started drinking 40 minutes ago, and I wonder if that makes me an alcoholic.
from sleepystorm :
ten dollars for a dose of intrigue.
from exhaust :
PS - Thank you for the kind words.
from sararox04 :
hello there.... i'm sara. and i like what you write... i.m. me sometime (starthegalaxy) i would love to talk to you... <3 sara
from exhaust :
McDiary = A diary that has too many people listing it as a favorite, making the quality of entries lower.
from rainbowhead :
beautiful writings. its hard to find someone who *thinks* nowadays, amdist the frivolty of consumerism and corporate/government mass brainwashings. :o) you have a way with words that coos dove-like in my mind as my eyes wash across the binary..
from exhaust :
Oh my! You're gorgeous now!
from ursaminor2 :
She'll come back. London is dreary.
from ghanima :
I can't believe I have never found you before. How truly, truly radiant.
from uknowuwannit :
your words are capable of expressing things i never thought words could express. not many people have such talent. you've been given a gift, and it's nice to see it being used in such a positive way.
from lousrose :
you really are an amazing artist to keep writing like this. if i tried to capture such emotion and passion with words like you do, i would soon fail and not know what to say. i love people like you who are just filled with things to say and express. use it well because you don't want to get emptied out like me, and some of my friends. keep writing & being yourself. love you, xoxo whit.
from ursaminor2 :
-adding you most deservedly
from literatim :
delighted to meet you, loud and hideous. obnoxious and loathsome, at your service.
from lesthanjill :
your diary is truly addicting... i used to read your diary from my friend's all the time (belong) but i finally had to give in and add you to my favs.
from pillow-wept :
i missed the end of the story, i guess. x
from literatim :
i know that hartley says he based part of their relationship on the one between beckett and joyce, but i always feel as though they mirror ezra pound (henry) and t.s. eliot (simon) more. pound, a literary genius to be sure, and the more apprehensive eliot (pound did cut the first draft of "the wasteland" down to the midpoint "april is the cruellest month" afterall). maybe also because simon did write an epic poem and not a novel. interesting that you say you are closer to joyce in personality as i've read your diary and have yet to notice the madonna/whore dilemma work its way into your writing as it did so often with his (well, simon most certainly could have gotten that from mom and fay though; the former is said with a wink, by the way). at any rate, lovely diary, lovely taste in film, and lovely taste in literature (which, of course, trumps everything as well it should).
from literatim :
very delighted to see that one person in this wasteland has seen the beauty of henry fool. tell me, do you fancy yourself a henry or a simon?
from adelyte :
I got not much to say, but I wanted you to know I came by. I wonder if you are the kind of person who feeds off unsolicited praise or is intrigued by the absence of it.
from facepunch :
...hiya.
from hand-frost :
your profile surprises me (i stumbled onto it when i was checking the diary rings and noticed a don caballero ring, cool.)
from myrahindley :
Yikes Stripes, your writing makes me growl. GRRRRRR.
from aneladdam :
perfect, flawless words which disobey everything i perceive and give hope to everything i believe. You have got my attention.
from funda :
it still amazes me that it can take years to find favorite diaries online, bt then, the things I do not know amaze me even more.
from nachtpracht :
Ok, please forgive me if my writing is a bit unlogical, cause I'm not English. I like reading english diaries though, and yours fascinates me... I'm trying to find out why. So that probably means I'll be following you ;)
from belong :
we're always waiting for someone aren't we? you are amazing*
from samantha-m :
Laugh too much?! I think not! As I often say; [but hardly pay attention to] no pain, no gain. P.S- Nice new layout. ~~Samantha
from lilindamil :
your writing made my heart stop
from stormyclaude :
oh, honey, i'm so sorry.
from pillow-wept :
..on a roll tonight. on a roll. x
from myhorizons :
Interesting place.
from tonightsleep :
you are interesting.
from pillow-wept :
im rather dense tonight. apologies. eyes=blame jeff tweedy. its his fault, not mine. x
from pillow-wept :
but i didnt say anything about your eyes? x
from pillow-wept :
an expression. "blue eyes, not brown"? que? x
from pillow-wept :
nope. i never wear socks. hate the things. x
from mariarilke :
wow, the comment that you left about the appleseed cast on your profile is so right. finally a way to define them. i like you.
from ludicn :
Peculiar how when you finally grasp a concept that you previously couldn't accept, you're able to recognize it's weight in many different areas of your life at once. Growing up I had dealt with nearly perpetual depression and sometimes people would make comments about happiness being a choice, which seemed preposterous to me. I thought no, this is how I feel, I can't just say I'm happy and then I'll automatically feel happy. But I had never been exposed to the idea as a whole until recently. I read about it and with comprehension came a great deal of humility. It's bizarre at first to realize how much control we each have of our own lives. It's upsetting that the majority of the people in this world might never even know.
from stormyclaude :
"wrecking our last justices"...man. that is amazing and beautiful.
from ludicn :
Okay so I figured it out. Over the time I've been reading your entries I'm been somewhat perplexed because I didn't understand it. Sometimes the things you write are complex and extrememly well written and sometimes it's something very simple yet it still gets to me in the same way. This is odd because I'm not normally a compassionate or sympathetic person... so what is it about you that maintains my interest when you're talking about love and loss...? Your strength and intellect come through very loudly on your pages. I often see love being tied in with weakness, helplessness and people who don't know any better. You know the temperment sorter (istj, enfp), where people are either a thinking type or a feeling type... that association somehow was already part of me. But then here you are, your intelligence and profound thoughts and ideas, writing something as simple as "you're never coming home, are you?" As if to serve as an example of the existance of best of both worlds... and breaking my heart on a regular basis, reminding me that I'm alive. Anyhow I like it so I just thought I'd say something.
from pillow-wept :
i wanted to leave you a note (like the ones i told you i never wanted to leave) but nothing coms ... nothing that matters ... nothing that rings true to what it feels like to read you. so instead of saying anything more, i'll say this: .......... - because sometimes, words are trivial. x
from pillow-wept :
..well i suppose if you love that im a sadist, its only fair. :) x
from pillow-wept :
jerk :) x
from pillow-wept :
No. but im out of here in 45 minutes...so i wont complain any more than i already have. its rainy here today, huh? ugh. wish i couldve stayed in bed...x
from disolvedgirl :
I appreciate your opinion, but respectfully disagree. Although the sounds did evolve side by side in their time... To my mind, "Blue Lines" was the first, "Mezzanine" is the best. And I'll give you 3 guesses what my favorite song is...I do remember reading that Massive Attack don't care much for the term trip hop, but who knows if it's true? Anyhow, in reference to your first note, you are welcome. I've been a member for quite some time now. One of the things that makes life worth putting up with. Thanks for the note. Always nice to see that particular eleven letter word!
from pillow-wept :
yes, daydream nation makes my head spin too out of pure goodness. but i adore all the old SY albums (goo, sister, etc) x
from pillow-wept :
(ireallyhateleavingnotesinyour'notes') ...but, when you were drunk, it was what? i didnt get that note? was that in reference to our mutual beer store? x
from lousrose :
ah honey, you never cease to amaze me. i am always reading your words. you're a literary genius. xoxo.
from pillow-wept :
ok yes youre right.. but no [DARRYL]. i went out with the guitarist of that band a coupla times and well ... that would be just weird. x
from pillow-wept :
no no no. i need names of bands ive never listened to. you KNOW i like those bands. damnit! try again. :) x
from pangawang :
totally welcome. today i went on a bike ride for the first time in years and got so carried away that that we went 15 miles before we realized in horror what we had done.
from pillow-wept :
Did you know we are all hydrogen, helium, that we are as curious as astronomy? We are the dust that precipitates when the stars cry. We are as errant, fumbling our way through the darkness with the pretention and insecurity of our years. Mid-trajectory, we have found our distinctive spirit, and perhaps, now, we can go back to living in sidereal again. x
from lilchrissi :
I like yuour diary. And your style of writing. Way better than mine :)
from pillow-wept :
im still making them. stay tuned in a few minutes for photos of complete editions. x
from lesthanjill :
o. my....love your diary...just clicked on someone else's favorites and started reading, and now i'm in tears...maybe i'm just overly emo but-sigh..you amaze me
from pillow-wept :
king crimson? and just when i was starting to like you .... x
from pillow-wept :
hello to you too, R. (today is MUCH more of a musical orgasm than saturday) x
from borrowmymind :
I'm sorry. Excuse that. I was hyperactive. Most of what I say does not make sense anyway, so.
from my51dreams :
I feel guilty for not being "pillow-wept". but I just wanted to say that I clicked on your banner. I loved the diary so I then clicked on the profile. then I saw karate. that's when I knew I had to click on the notes.
from pillow-wept :
'winners never quit' x
from pillow-wept :
no RM on me, nope. x
from pillow-wept :
'on every island' x
from pillow-wept :
(im a girl = in reference to Coldplay.) *and i dont care for any other FF album. x
from pillow-wept :
please! "the colour and the shape" by FF is fucking incredible...!!!! and im a girl - so well, yeah. x
from pillow-wept :
portishead x 2, 764-hero, the catchers, digable planets, meshell ndegeocello, microphones, wilco x2, aretha franklin, bob dylan, built to spill, rolling stones, le tigre, pj harvey, foo fighters, hope sandoval, neko case, nina nastasia, ben harper, cat power x 2, turin brakes, evan dando, jon spencer, 3 mix cds i made, kinks, joni mitchell, beastie boys x2 , bright eyes x 2, okkervil river, pinback, bjork, the who, u2, hives, belle & sebastian x 3, white stripes x2, ugly cassanova, neutral milk hotel, red house painters, arab strap, radiohead x 2, cursive, modest mouse x 4, yeah yeah yeahs, tricky, sunny day real estate, coldplay, billie holiday, nina simone x 2, travis bootleg, pedro the lion, mirah x 2, swearing at motorists, smog. x
from pillow-wept :
sure, get ready. have a good night. x
from pillow-wept :
i like a few songs - but mostly, its boring to me. i guess i just like the older stuff, personally. x
from pillow-wept :
youre going to see john - you dont have time. x
from pillow-wept :
NO! i listened to him this morning.. the new one? yeah - can suck my tits, cause it bores the socks right the fuck off my feet. :P x
from pillow-wept :
HEY! i have a bag FULL of good music, jerk! x
from pillow-wept :
;) ... x
from pillow-wept :
well .. you probably are an idiot...but i'll still take your advice. x
from pillow-wept :
tell me how that is ... cause otherwise i wont go to see it. x
from pillow-wept :
hey! i just wanted to make suuuuuure, y'know? :) x
from pillow-wept :
"some music is better than enlightenment" ... i couldnt've said it better myself. x
from pillow-wept :
Dire Straits? Brothers in Arms? x
from pillow-wept :
..sure, why not. x
from pillow-wept :
oh, i was just listening to built to spill about five minutes earlier .. but i was listening to the carry the zero single, the song "now & then" .. which still always nearly brings me to tears..and im not sure why. x
from pillow-wept :
yeah ... youre right . x
from pillow-wept :
i also love "another side of bob dylan" ... & then 'freewheelin..' of course. goddamn i hate work. x
from pillow-wept :
i couldnt listen to it even if i wanted to..i DO work for Nazis. x
from pillow-wept :
(one of my favorite bob songs...) x
from pillow-wept :
[[and dont ever mention sun ra in my notes again..because thats just NOT fair!]] x
from pillow-wept :
well, then i guess i'll send one to you. x
from pillow-wept :
oh....what a nice little concoction you got there...made my knees get weak! x
from pillow-wept :
ps. do you WANT a copy? x
from pillow-wept :
(true..though, i always did prefer Dean over Frank. maybe its because Dean is my saturday-afternoon-Man..who knows.) x
from pillow-wept :
i just sat down from going to lunch. on my way back, i was listening to bob sing ..."you just kinda wasted my precious time...but dont think twice its alright.." and then i read your entry. just thought it was a bit ironic, if you will. x
from lightfallsup :
is anyone else confused by all this?
from borrowmymind :
family secrets spilling out because of a landscape artiste` hee.
from borrowmymind :
its not because youre gay, its because youre adopted.
from mer- :
ill just keep telling you how much i like the taste of your expressions until you respond
from pillow-wept :
you tore a hole so deep, my leak poured out eventually..........i recalled my fire, and my lack of dawn, my one sided warmth; i just wanted more. x
from pillow-wept :
(i hope not.) x
from phatgrrl :
http://phatgrrl.diaryland.com
from mer- :
i want you to be the second designated reader of my now island-ized diary. no diary is an island, yet i often feel alone, so i find peace through ohm. seriously though. mine doesnt compare to yours. but my thoughts resemble your words like autumn resembles spring. give me your email adress so i can give you a password. i know, im pushy when ive got my eye on something.
from pillow-wept :
...impossible for me to not leave a note after you do an entry entirely with the words of the genius-ness that is jeff tweedy. hi. miss. x
from labeled-girl :
that's, i'm pretty sure, his father asking, talking ... his dad has the reins as far as his writing goes. sorry, i haven't been around (mentally really) for a while. shit's been going down, and i'm afraid i've been going down with it. hopefully, my mind will be back soon.
from thejanechord :
who are you?
from freyja :
as did I, always feeling faint pity for the abandoned shopping carts one would see nose dived into ditches and piles of trash behind the laundromat. So I stopped by, I think I'll be back soon.
from starlight42 :
clicked on your banner...like the entry.
from treekisser :
i always think of you with such a whimsical soft face. With sharp eyes that see everything, every raindrop, every petal. I like to think that you have a sad and desperately beautiful smile. you have a soul like gloriously wild ocean water, crashing and touching everything (everyone) around you.
from treekisser :
"i took a moment from my day and wrapped it up in things you say, i mailed it off to your address, you'll get it pretty soon unless, the packaging begins to break and all the points i tried to make, are tossed with thoughts into a bin, time leaks out my life leaks in....."~ wading in the velvet sea phish today the sun is shinging but i've misplaced my smile, i'll find it soon, i expect it's hiding under a cup of old coffee, or maybe in the chamber of a pipe.. who knows. hope the sun is shining there, hope your smile dances on the corners of your mouth.
from pillow-wept :
().x
from throwingjuly :
it's no longer on your layout...you may still invoke pi, but i can't see it. that's all.
from moonrattles :
Miss you. Think about you a lot. Saw you posted the bends. It was my anthem for years and you know, you never have an anthem that stops being such... Thanks for that little bit of reminder. Saw a band with Melissa at the Saucer tonight. Was driving there around midnight, the peculiar green tint lights on the deserted streets through the trees (an especially nice stretch just East of Cooper) and construction along that crucial intersection. I studied as I drove to, knowing that driving back would be the challenge. It was a good time, a good show. I saw 2 people I used to know and enjoyed the new version of sweet home alabama but felt sequestered in my skin. I kept thinking of when we were there, how everything felt and looked and *felt*. It was a good time; a trinket of a memory valuable only in the best ways..the feel of it as it turns in your hands, the pictures sparkling real and immediate, the wish for another just alike in case it wears thin...I dunno, R. Hated being out, being visible. Had a hard time figuring what to do with myself once home to the sleeping house. There's a bottle of mid-grade whiskey in the freezer and some cheap beer just below. Their uses aren't as good as they used to be. <3 B
from pillow-wept :
(brightness) x
from pillow-wept :
hi! you should say hello more often, silly. hope things are well --- x
from pillow-wept :
..i miss them too. hope youre doing well. dallas was great this week, heh? x
from lightfallsup :
a lot of entries today guys, sorry about that, had mad lingering memories and something to say about them all. (these things start with the rummaging through of old boxes of things)
from belong :
where are you? i miss you*
from copperstars :
i just spent the last 23 minutes reading your diary. i really enjoyed it. 23 minutes is a long time for me to do anything. my friend thinks we were seperated at birth. weird, hey?
from pillow-wept :
yeah, i was referring to the non-update-part.
from pillow-wept :
about my guestbook, youre quite right. but i already feel apart of the witness protection program..as for everyone else, who the hell knows. ive missed your writing lately.
from dervishtoast :
ahh great, you've been very prolific lately! have added you to my aim list.
from wingflapper :
Hey, Qubert is BUBBA isn't he? I hope so. I wrote a note to him. Even tho I noticed he hasn't read since Dec. Anyway, please tell him I love 'em ,ok?
from joshuablake :
umm, eniac released a couple of ep's awhile back, and lots of times they'll put the new version of skeleton crew along with one or two other songs off the new album onto a limited release ep at their shows. the new cd may not be released for a very long time. it just depends. it's pretty expensive to promote and distribute a cd out of your own pocket. they're trying to get it done from what i hear.
from dervishtoast :
wow! you sound like me when i was around 17...used to have online journal proof, but since has been deleted...have any social commentary in essay format?
from endserenadng :
a small story tending to illustrate the uncertainty of the stability within which we like to believe we exist, or laws could give ground to the exceptions, unforseen disasters, or improbabilities. and i want to see you there.
from autumnal :
honest
from solarlab :
lightfallsup v.1.11 is hysterical.
from mudgirl :
Just wanted to say thanks for thinking I'm worth reading.
from starsforarms :
if its any consellation to you...i knew where the name came from. i was a harcords DOH fan growing up. aww yeah. x
from flyinby :
today's entry made me laugh. thank you! :)
from heavenly0ne :
hello. I just wanted to go to all of the quoters diaries. Visit my guestbook or notes page with one of your favorite quotes. I want to do a diary ring showcase in my diary. I want the whole ring to participate, so please submit your entry real soon!
from starsforarms :
you have been upgraded x
from gino-velarde :
You lame. Leave it bitch!
from sistercookie :
listen usually the call that is the final call that makes somebody go over the edge is just another call in a line of calls that would result in the same ending. My guess is the call was from somebody that was telling her about someone or it was someone talking about a relationship. Sometimes a person while being very successful still suffer from temporary or long term mental illness that ends up in their death. Its very sad. It is not your fault because the call may have just come later anyway. When you are there in the darkness of yourself its hard to be rational. Like Kurt Cobain, too many talented people sometimes have their candle extinguished early in life. I am so sorry for your pain.
from superniguer :
supernigger
from superniguer :
i've had a flaw written about
from of-her-soul :
Happy New Year!
from starsforarms :
i wont answer that. it doesnt matter...remember! :) x
from starsforarms :
whew. glad to have cleared it up. i feel like i need to smoke a ciggarette now. x
from starsforarms :
no no. ive never left any entry in your GB like that. i thought you were talking about people leaving them in mine! this is silly, heh. x
from starsforarms :
(yes)
from starsforarms :
youre quite right. (per the critique thing)..but most people are to dumb to realize the effect it could have and they mostly ignore the feelings a comment can provoke. but, on a lighter note, if they had awards for longest notes left...youd definately win! :) x
from starsforarms :
oh come now! i was never referring to you in guestbook entries. in fact, i was referring to a female who gets messages from guys. which was amusing to me at the time. blahblahblah. it dont matter none. and i wouldnt count on critiques to make people open their eyes to other visions. but its a nice war. x
from starsforarms :
i wasnt referring to the outward characteristics of the fruit. the tates comes from the juice that is on the inside. therefore to say "delicious" in reference to such a thing would only indicate i was explaing your words...that seep like the nectar of fruit.
from starsforarms :
youre not a red seedy fruit...i said youre as delicious as the taste of them dipped in sugar. in my book, thats a pretty darn good compliment!! not like you need them though, in your long list of ass kisses...
from sistercookie :
Thanks for joining the Mark Eitzel diary ring. In fact dorknoodle and I saw Mark Eitzel just a couple of weeks ago. He was totally awesome.
from belong :
you're so powerful... :)
from solarlab :
if only you COULD catch all of my tears to collect in one sphere in your palms and you held it before me like an oracle, you give me sight and wings and a place to land...
from sickfreak :
your journal is hella tight.. i liek th way you express your shit....
from of-her-soul :
Happy holidays, xo.
from shamsi9 :
we're all catholic in a way
from solarlab :
you are always so sad and so hopeful in the very same breaths between each landmark. can anyone see you?
from daisy-craver :
never stop
from shamsi9 :
that was sweet
from lightfallsup :
i'm sorry...does anyone know what that means?
from chappuh :
I SAW CAMERON DIAZ AT THE CAR WASH YESTERDY@@@!! SHE SAID HEY MCURK!!!
from solarlab :
god...when you let go. is writing the same as burning, she pushes your arm in the shadows, or the opposite?
from hardcorepunk :
your words are beautiful.
from lousrose :
you are so breathtaking
from shamsi9 :
you matter to me
from zsofia :
whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa? you call me who? okay. rad. im an obbsessive updater. almost compilsive vergin on a habbit that has consumed the only out let a "teenager" (>?) has in life. duder.
from solarlab :
i hear you. it all matters.
from orgasmdonor :
thank you. thank you very much. i'm really glad you enjoy it. you are more than welcum to read whenever you want.
from crapstein :
ahh............. it's kinda refreshing and beautiful.
from shamsi9 :
i don't think those people exist...i think we gain humanity in the humility of knowing how small we are...i think just existing is the definition of nirvana...there is no greener grass, anywhere, you're always where you're meant to be--and that's a doozy!
from solarlab :
if your life is a string of traumatic events, self-imposed or not, you can recover in a sleep cycle.
from starsforarms :
im so very sad to saw im absolutely addicted to felicity. i dont know why. i know this takes away so much of my "credibility" (not that i ever had much to begin with) but, for years now its been my "show". shoot me. its ok though, because i can openly and honestly accept the fact that i know its a lame show... x
from shamsi9 :
very cummings-esque shamsi-likey as usual
from starsforarms :
...just out of curiousity....why would i be a 19th century slave?? x
from solarlab :
you are amazing.
from starsforarms :
uhm. in regards to your question...id have to say "no?" x
from shamsi9 :
word
from starsforarms :
"we spring forth long and dramatic from the womb of a a screaming woman who will love us for the pain we inflicted on her" this is gorgeous.x
from sexfiendgirl :
if you want my password, leave me a note
from starsforarms :
psst...thank you... x
from solarlab :
maybe you could scribe me into the night sky.
from shamsi9 :
amen. i could easily make song lyrics outta that.
from starsforarms :
i think your writing is phenomenal! x
from shamsi9 :
another classic. had one of those too. here's hoping everybody gets that chance.
from shamsi9 :
so. looked up those guys you mentioned...kinda self-helpy...i'll dig in.
from thelastbook :
your diary sucks.
from rose-trees :
that was a really beautiful thing you wrote.
from belong :
your writing brings tears to my eyes. i can not say anything more.
from shamsi9 :
yeah. i heard that song everyday by dave matthews whose work i generally find distasteful and i just can't get enough of that song or video...
from shamsi9 :
how can you possibly write like that stream of conscious? so beautiful. obviously, i think it's all hysterical too but i was just bawling my head off and i feel so much better. i get that from laughing too, but sometimes i have to cry-you are such a good writer i can't begin to express the importance of finding your journal in my life...seriously. that's how lame i am-HA! that's how much cybertimes matter to me...but i didn't understand what the question was you left on my notes thing...you were referencing people i've never heard of for reasons i don't understand-that could almost be an opening line for a movie...HA anyway. thank you. i wish all you did was sit and write all day and all i did was read.
from solarlab :
reading you is like deep breathing, pushingkeymovingme.
from belong :
your entry today touched my heart...thank you for putting into words what i couldn't.
from shamsi9 :
intention affects everything. often more than action. this is the power of prayer, meditation, right thought, etc...we create the spiritual realm which manifests physically, i believe that.
from shamsi9 :
well, i love my boat.even though i'm in it with someone who is not "present"
from shamsi9 :
i think having low self-esteem makes it hard to know for sure, especially if the things you think you're good at are in the arts, because everything seems subjective. i believe i can dance, sing, draw, write, act, and make music. but i know that i can't satisfy a lot of people when i do those things.
from solarlab :
you have weightflowbeautytruth. thankyou.
from solarlab :
you have weightflowbeautytruth. thankyou.
from shamsi9 :
you were a really jaded little kid but that's so good it's insane i believe you but it's hard to imagine a 12/13 yr old wrote that
from shamsi9 :
i disagree with your nick hornby quote, by the by. people are their essences and their essences are communicated olifactorily and you would be best friends with some of your best friends even if they liked brittney spears without irony because you couldn't help it...or at least the friend attraction would be there...but on the sex thing of yours i just read, first of all i like that you don't spellcheck (i just went back 3 times to try to spell "don't"), i think sex is a sacrament, and i know what you mean. i was raised religious and didn't get head til i was 23, didn't have intercourse til i was 25, didn't drink or use drugs..i considered my body to be a temple and prayed three times a day and meditated. even though i "lost faith" for a while, i always knew all that stuff is true, i just stopped believing in my ability to find someone i would love and who would love me and we both wouldn't just run screaming because that fact frightened us so much. still haven't found him, you know. but now i know being promiscuous didn't get me any closer to mister right
from shamsi9 :
po sounds beautiful. i go ahead and talk to my people on the other side. there's a statement in the Bahai Writings that says the Spirit World is "closer than your life's vein" i ask my dead to intercede for me and to protect me, etc...mainly wanted to say that made me cry. thanks. also, i don't think it's wrong to argue--we express love many ways and sometimes we have to get angry with each other in any relationship that means anything...my two cents, i know, unsolicited.
from of-her-soul :
Your entries are always so enticing.
from thejanechord :
no, i was talking about philosopher and explorer. they came down to pick up labeled girl because rock star had to go back home. of course, initially, it was just supposed to be explorer, but philosopher in his infinite wisdom decided it'd be better if he tagged along and ruined everybody else's plans.
from shamsi9 :
i hope you are cute. i will pretend you are anyway and stalk you online. yeah! i love to be obsessed. real life is so scary!
from shamsi9 :
you write your fool behind off. hit me. on the good foot. i gotcha.
from of-her-soul :
Finally submitting to the final caresses of sexual oblivion. It was more than the human mind could bear.
from of-her-soul :
Thank-you for adding me to your favourites. Not to sound ungrateful, but might I ask why? xo.
from thejanechord :
anytime, brother. anytime.
from avoidance :
hi.
from jgstitches :
Thanks for joining the whiskey diaryring. You might want to check the rings page. It seems that you have put some diaryrings in between others. (i.e. %%%%(diaryring)%%(diaryring)%%) It causes only one to actually show up.
from onepinksock :
it all begins to make sense now....excellent entry.
from treekisser :
coastergirl. a beautiful story. they say that it's better to have loved than never to have loved at all. but is it? years later maybe, when you see how much they gave you and what you learned,i suppose. but why oh why does it take so long for the ache to go away? why does your heart have to hit your stomach when you see them? and what of the love you were never able to really hold, to really posess? why do we have to feel this way? though it certianly is worth it sometimes, is it not? sometimes memories of what you shared make the ache go away, if only for a little
from foryourtime :
i met the love of my life over coffee. i think i should like to meet this "coaster girl" character
from unlucky13 :
thank you for joining the bittersweet diaryring.
from ari-stottle :
oooo another sonic youth girlie!!!! and one who read winterson and dostyoevsky ( i once carried brothers karamzov around with me for an entire summer and re-read and re-read it on the rural bus route - that was a kick in the head) i think i found you on the bauhaus ring...not sure. completely wacked out on espresso and paperwork...
from labeled-girl :
guestbooks are down right now. just wondering if you ever read changing light of sandover ... or any merrill at all?
from chochin :
I think yer diary's great, btw. ;)
from treekisser :
fall is creeping around maryland right now. it's starting to soak into the trees? does anyone know what happened to the summer?
from chochin :
okie dokes.
from treekisser :
i'm off to stroll around downtown annapolis with my parents and munch on sushi, however i'd like to talk to you sometime through means other than notes so send me an email or instant message sometimes at plasticsnowflake@aol.com would love to hear more about books you like chances are i've read it (because i'm a dork like that) "But i love your feet only because they walked upon earth, and upon the wind and upon the waters, until they found me..." ~Pablo Neruda
from treekisser :
jeremy irons rather, i'm constantly messing up his name
from treekisser :
it was the first paragraph that always did it for me, "light of my life fire of my loins..." right away i knew i would love it. the movie with domonique swain and jeffrey irons is wonderful as is kubricks version
from treekisser :
just wanted to let you know, i find your diary to be oh-so-wicked-good. truely delicious. can not wait to read more. ( by the way, you have a nice distinguished taste in books, something i that pleases me to see in people. ever read lolita? wonderful book, a personal favorite) ~treekisser
from thejanechord :
i think it's a little bit of both. the anonymity of an online forum gives (some) people the wherewithal to say what they're really thinking, but the fact that they would never be able to bring themselves to say it to a person's face calls into question the courage of their convictions. so i guess they're either really shallow or truly powerful. which, in all fairness, i think may be true about everybody. we're all the same--we're all different.
from chochin :
lol I applied too but I have no qualms over my rejection. I still talk 2 Ness & I havn't bothered her about it. It would have been nice to be accepted but no biggy if I'm not. It's just a page w/ a list on it of diaries. Atleast she told you your writing was good; most rejectees are lucky if she tells them <i>they are</i> rejected. So hey; dont be mad. If you wanna go for the gold or w/e just change yer layout.
from almostgoldsf :
welcome to the henry-miller ring... BTW your pullquotes in your faves list makes me want to dive into each one...
from kstyle :
thanks for joining BE..need your dues by the first, and can you bring pasta salad or dessert to the october potluck? - take care, michael
from chochin :
I know her from d-land. shes most certainly is not 16. how come? ((; if I may ask))
from thejanechord :
wow, thanks for the high praise. i can say the same for you as well. i stopped listing favorites, then i started again, and then i stopped again, but i read your diary every time you update (which is often. quite prolific, aren't you?) thanks for the kind words and i'll try to keep it interesting.
from chochin :
cause she don't care as much bout the boy it seems.
from starinajar :
denied.
from autumnal :
im touched of all the quotes (the one i thought would be the LEAST appreciated or understood you choose for your quote under me... and touched you added me to faves... ;)
from sourgirl-99 :
wow, thanks for adding me to your faves, I'm flattered. Especially since I haven't been updating much, yeah, that's a good word for it. :)

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