messages to amber163:
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from degausser :
They were amazing. I don't know how they ended up doing a show together, but I'm so glad they did.
from se7enchance :
Hello. We've never met, but I randomly clicked on your journal this evening. You have a strong voice. I think you might feel better if you found the time to write more often. Whether it be here, or *to someone*. Either way, I hope you find consonance soon. <3
from degausser :
Hey thanks! I am all for a proposal while sitting in bed. He's displeased because he wanted some kind of traditional surprise proposal, but then he didn't know what rings I liked so I ended up picking out the setting. Then he got drunk and told me how much the ring cost ("You knew that! ...you didn't? Shit."). Then he told me a few days ago that he was making his last payment. I vote bed proposal. It's where some of my favorite things happen!
from degausser :
Amazing most of the time is pretty good in my book :) I'm glad you're happy. I can really relate to your most recent entry, and some of the ones a few years ago. About wanting more selfish life experiences, wanting to wait/wishing you had waited, but also wanting to get married. Doubts are basically my specialty. Im glad Im not the only one whos had them.
from degausser :
How is married life treating you?
from smashley719 :
I was just browsing around, and I saw your name in the recent posts area. Funny how we both just randomly decided to start all of this again after years and years. Guess we are more alike than we realize, even 13 hours away from each other. Love u sissy
from degausser :
Hi! I saw your name under recent entries. I used to be promise-made, love-fatal, loversvanity, etc. Good to see you again!
from sapphire292 :
Yes, and I wrote you one back=]
from sapphire292 :
ohmyjesus. it's so good to hear that. I was seriously worried -sick-. I'm still fucking upset with myself for letting you down. When you figure out what your address is now,let me know, k? I hope our letters can start up again this year, it's going to be a really tough one. I LOVE YOU
from sapphire292 :
=[ i hope those words aren't for me, but i'm pretty sure they are. you mean more to me than most anyone else. i'm sorry i've let you down. over and over again
from sapphire292 :
hey pretty girl how have you been?? i whole-heartedly agree about the boyface longings intensified by summer it's going to drive me insane pretty damn soon i went to the post office today and felt horrible when i realized it's my fault the letters aren't going between us=( my summer would be so empty without letters to and from you really really truly truly i'm really going to need them but i'll send the first, i promise i love you, Amber. so so so much && if you ever get myspace, let me know cause i'm addicted =) love love love
from sapphire292 :
About the dates, don't worry! That should work fine, probably more towards August. In those moments when death seemed to be the most beautiful and painless escape, you were on my mind. When I felt so far from everyone, like I was drowning... knowing you knew exactly what I felt gave me strength. I love you so much. You have played such a HUGE role in my life. I don't ever want that to change. ♥
from sapphire292 :
I wish I could write you a letter instead of this pathetic box, but I'm working on finals right now. Fuck. Will I ever stop making excuses?? I love you so much. Read the letter from Dani. It doesn't make any sense that two people can be so close at one time, and turn on eachother the next. I don't get people. Fill me in on college prep and everything else that's going on with you. I love you and I fucking promise to write soon.
from sapphire292 :
I wish I could come to your graduation. I'm proud of you, Amber. We've made it this far... I love you. So, so much. I have letters written to you that never got sent. I'm getting worse and worse at this. Promise I'll send one very soon.
from sapphire292 :
I really hope you'll consider coming to stay with me. I'm sure we could figure something out that would work super, super well. I love you so much Amber.
from sapphire292 :
Thank you so much for the letter, Amber. I can't even seem to pick up a pen anymore. I'm doing alright, though recently, and even when I'm awake, I've been having a dream that Anndi is hidden away somewhere, and I find her. She's alive, her death was a hoax. She was just waiting for ME to find her. To SAVE her. I want it to be fucking real. It follows me everywhere I go. Tonight I had to leave work early- crying in bathroom stalls. I'm SO sorry things aren't working out with your dad=(. Really, truly know that you can come live with me. I'm really considering moving out this summer, just for a few months. And you and I together would be everything. I should probably write your letter now, if I don't start writing soon I may lose touch with it altogether. I love you so much, Amber. We've made it so far. Here ALWAYS
from wishing-that :
hi! wow i cant believe you still read my diary. whats your username/password??
from locony :
You made it? I love it to bits! I'd like it very much if you gave me the username/password to your diary, if you don't mind too much. <3
from locony :
I'd like it very much if you added me. <3 {{&&they're mostly Panic! song lyrics, cause they're my favorite right now}}
from sapphire292 :
Every day letters are written to you in my mind. Words not so much composed, since every word I ever write to you goes straight from my heart to the paper. I love you Amber. I'm so sorry I've been horrible about writing. Let me know what address you're at, and if it changes. I'm sorry you can't get away, can't run far enough... let's make folding pages our hideaways and envelopes our escapes. Still here, always.
from sapphire292 :
I just wish that there was something I could do. Please tell me if there is. Love you.
from sapphire292 :
I really, truly think you should come live with me. We have far too much extra room. XOXO
from sapphire292 :
Mmmkay. But call me if you need to talk, okay? 1(503)502-4170. LOVE
from sapphire292 :
Love, what's happening? I feel so behind, I'm so sorry I've kept you out since Anndi died, it's completely unfair of me. I miss you so much. If I send you a letter, will it get to you? I need to talk, Amb. I know you're the only one who will listen + UNDERSTAND. I love you. I hope we can go back to holding eachother up. <3
from sapphire292 :
username: never password:sayforever Arg! I have stacks of papers written to you in my journal, I just keep forgetting to send them! Blah. LOVE YOU
from sapphire292 :
Or you could just come live with me.:( I love you. I finally wrote you a letter, now I just need to send it.
from sapphire292 :
Oh, Love... I miss you. Getting letters from you a few times a week and writing just as many. I want to be in that habit again. I can't admit anything to myself right now, I've practically faced nothing- I have no idea where I AM. I feel I've lost myself. Writing to you always helps me find myself. I love you, Amber. Visit me? Love you. I'll start saving little bits of my paycheck for summer. Take care of you and your pretty heart.
from prettye :
oh hey i didnt get u know but i am just returning it so how have u been
from sapphire292 :
I love you Amb. I wish that I could take care of you, but we're states a part- so will you try for me? I really hope that you're "okay", at least not falling too far to forget there is hope. Okay, so that's hard to believe, but... there is..? Arr. I don't know what I'm saying. I'm not really doing very well, I have absoloutly no faith in God right now, I feel so childish for running away from everything I need to be facing head on. I wrote and sent you a letter last night, so you should be getting one of those familiar envelopes in a few days. If you're comfortable with it, can I have the password? I love you Amber. Hold on to what you can. Here always & hoping for Spring Break- -Alana
from prettye :
hey whast up write back hope to talk to u soon bye
from emptygoth :
hey dear! I've moved to death-dolls. how have you been? see you around!
from sapphire292 :
I know exactly what you mean. Everyone who knows what I've "been through" says it's a miracle... what astonishes me is that I still feel like something is gnawing on my heart.
from sapphire292 :
I care!! I do, I do!! I LOVE YOU!!!
from sapphire292 :
Amber:) I feel like we've totally lost touch. I wrote you a letter, you probably got it by now. I love you!
from love-fatal :
i would totally make up sageism, but i'd keep changing the belief system every few days. haha.
from emostars4you :
I love when people read my journal. Thanks for the add!
from love-fatal :
heyy. i've been good. what about you?
from sapphire292 :
I *LOVE* your new layout.
from sapphire292 :
Why did you end up in foster care?? I miss you, and I'm so sorry it's been so long since I've written a letter, if I sent you something- would it not get to you? Send me a letter with a return address, Love. Stay Strong.
from sapphire292 :
Merry Christmas, Doll.
from sapphire292 :
You may feel just as hurt and angry as you did before, but you have come so far, Amb. You are so much stronger than before. We used to talk of how we'd make it through that hell, and we did, we still have more shit to make it through, but we will, love. I love you Angel.
from nyriad :
thanks for the note. you know, i really would like to believe you. all my medicines have me so tired and hopeless; it's hard to try. but at least i don't cut anymore. and i'm not going back to the institution. so i guess i'll drop you a note if this darkness ever lets up, okay? <3
from opolopo :
psw?
from sapphire292 :
I've been carrying around a letter for you in my coat pocket for two days, I really should send that now. I LOVE YOU
from sapphire292 :
Amber, Baby... your locked again:( Can I get a password?
from dead-wings :
hey, you can e-mail one of us (email addresses are on the site) after you pick who you want to do a custom and then the designer & you will arrange it. ♥
from sapphire292 :
Hey hun, if you ever get extra time, would you be interested in helping me with a new layout? It's definately time.
from sapphire292 :
HAHA- trying to imagine Grandma in Hot Topic. FUUUUNY. I've missed you so much. I sit in class and think of you, I just want to scream at the fact that this summer didn't happen, maybe before you go to Thunderbird:S?:(. I love you, Amber.
from candy-sorrow :
I LOVE YOU
from walkingxby :
miss me no longer. [this is promise-made]
from sapphire292 :
agreed.
from miss-stress2 :
Fathers are over rated was beautiful, I really liked that one. There's something about your writting where I don't feel lost to pretentious poetry. Being wrapped up in this fake diaryland is nowadays such an escape I need to thank you for writting some stuff that makes me think or relate to.
from sapphire292 :
How's my girl? I miss you. I've been helping at a kid's camp this week and as amazing as it has been, I'm getting tired- and feel on the verge of tears often. I'm so sorry I haven't written lately, I always forgot when it's MY turn to write. I'm sure that I will either tonight or once camp is over. I love you baby, never forget to nurture that beautiful heart of yours. Love!
from walkingxby :
from xcountrychik :
happy early birthday!! i hope it's a good one :o) you're a sweet girl and definitely deserve a wonderful Sweet 16. <3 Ashley.
from sapphire292 :
:) You are so amazing, darling. I hope this summer works out, with everything I have I hope it works out:) I hope that you get all the happiness you deserve this summer, hopefully that involves me;) Love!
from xso-alonex :
thank you so much for that note you left me... Thank you so much!!
from geeked-out :
Hey thanks for the note...I'm glad someone else knows what sbemail is. Always a pleasure. Thanks again.
from super--me :
hey thanks, that's really nice. if you wanna read more of my stuff i put it in a diary: poetic-lies. thanks again, i'm gonna go check out your diary now <3
from promise-made :
i ♥ you.
from sapphire292 :
you'll be getting a few letters uber-about him. but he's cuter than a wittle baby kitty, he's a cuddle monster and tastes like ciggys and temperary happiness(hopefully a little longer) much love my beautiful girl!!
from f-a-t :
to become a member: leave a note/email me at [email protected] your name, diary url, and email (email optional, if you do not want members or f-a-t readers emailing you). thankies. xoxo laur
from darken-angel :
hey amber, listen i know we have had our "times" and i was in the wrong most of the time and i realize that and i know that sorry wont make a big difference but its something and i dont know how else i can ever can make it up to you. i probablt cant but i wanted to make an effort, because you deserve it. i really am sorry for destroying a friendship, but maybe this time around it will be better knowing that we wont dig our hole and sit there wallowing in everydays depressing sob stories.i really hope we can both find whatever it is we are looking for and have happy times ya know. well listen i better go. again im sorry. yours truly dani
from xscar-mex :
f-a-t is open lovey. =) http://f-a-t.diaryland.com
from andwebreathe :
thank you for adding me ♥
from promise-made :
you are beautiful. ♥
from xscar-mex :
I am not sure, hopefully in a weeks time, depends on how fast the custom temp gets done. =) xoxox Lauren
from razrbladekis :
thank you for the comment..i like your diary and i love the layouts..BRAND NEW rocks!
from sapphire292 :
And I Love You. Bring that Beautiful girl my way, k?
from promise-made :
i love you ♥
from fadedxme :
hey! thanks for adding me, sweets. <333
from agraciana :
impermeable... But shh... donttell anyone!
from xscar-mex :
I run cuttersclub, but I am not nearly as lovely as you make me out to be darling... xoxo Lauren
from kerrang-girl :
Thanks for the note. Yeah, everything is going okay..well at the moment, anyway. Hope everything is going okay for you too! Take care. ~Amy
from mcsrocks007 :
Hey,I saw you liked Motion City Soundtrack and you seem pretty cool so I was wondering if maybe you wanted to join my MCS message boards, http://cmm81989.proboards22.com/index.cgi
from darken-angel :
you know iam very sorry your goin through a hard time. yea soo am i and you arent making things better, i didnt mean for this to happen. but im sure you think i did, and thats fine go on hating me, if it makes you feel better, but i know & you know better than that. well i dont hate you, i hate what you've done to me and cant think anything good about myself b/c you have tore me down to basically nothing. but as of now im taking that power away from you cuz we cant do this to each other. cuz it is killing me. and i want my life back. so im getting it for cody mom dad and even matt even you, b/c maybe then youll do the same. well until we meet up again, ill be praying for you. just let God help you help yourself, remember he is always there. gee i believe you were the one who taught me that. with love dani
from sapphire292 :
i heart you, angel.
from kerrang-girl :
Hey, thanks for the note, I'm sorry I didn't reply sooner, but I haven't really been on Diaryland for a while. I had a great Christmas, thanks for asking. I hope you are well. Would you mind if I could have the user and pass for your diary? I don't mind if you don't want me reading it, but if you aren't bothered, send it to [email protected] ~Amy
from herhalo :
hey.. can i have a p/w?
from iloveurtummy :
lol i thought you forgot about me cause i never got ur password but now i got it (i just now checked my mail...duh lol) and i wuz crackin up laughin at the username and password...good one...you made my day
from xcountrychik :
I weighed myself the other day and found out I lost 7 pounds since Ryan died. I sorta noticed my drop in appetite, but I didn't know I lost that much weight. It's not like I'm starving myself because I don't even feel hungry. I just don't find tim eot eat during the day. Haha. Oh well...I use to be 118 and now I'm 111...I'm content.
from xcountrychik :
[email protected] *sigh* Nirvana!
from kerrang-girl :
Hey! Sorry I didn't reply to your note you left me sooner! Yeah, thank god the Christyn "situation" is resolved. That was driving me mad. Oh and I didn't realise you had locked your diary. Oh well. I hope everything in your life is going okay for you. Take care! ~ Amy
from xcountrychik :
why did you lock your diary? Do i get the priviledge to have the password?
from iloveurtummy :
which diary will u be updated more? whichever one ur updating more, could i have the url or password?
from deepblue3 :
may i please have the password or the new url?
from xcountrychik :
Funny how that is. Ryan was delivering pizza for Papa John's. He grew up in a new town, so he didn't know the roads too well here and he went through a stop sign. An F250 hit the passenger side and spun him around. He slammed his head on his truck window and died of brain damage. I feel so angry towards the fact that the stop sign wasn't seen. The intersection comes up so quickly on you. You can see the skid marks where he realized there was a stop sign and tried to stop. He then realized he wouldn't be able to stop and tried speeding up to make it through. I sometimes wonder if he thought of me through the whole thing. If my face flashed across his mind or even my name. I really hope so. He almost drown over the summer while white water rafting and all he could think about was me and the fact that he couldn't breathe.
from jr-kinsley :
Hey Amber... I know that I couldn't possibly know everything that you are going through. And I am not even going to pretend to understand the hurt you feel. But there are some things that I do know a bit about. And that is that you are never alone. It really seems like Sapphire (probably spelled that wrong) is a really great friend. And I hope that she is helping you through what-ever is happening with you right now. I used to cut myself. It wasn't that I really enjoyed it... I actually hated it. But for me it was more so masking the inner pain and hurt that I was feeling but conflicting it outward on myself. The last time I did it was almost six months ago. But god, how I still think about it daily. Anyways Amber, I just thought that I would send a note and give you my best wishes. Give me a holler sometime if ya feel like it. Keep your chin up girl, 'cause even if the sun isn't shining, you're still facing where it would be. Yours in light, darkness... and everything in between, Juliet's Romeo
from xcountrychik :
how did she die? yea, same goes with songs...i can't get through the ones he use to sing to me or the ones he always wrote in notes to me...one time I went to the cemetary and just blared the music from my car. I stood outside in the cold and just sang along, sobbing. It was horrible, yet renewing. It really sucks when you find the love of your life and have your future planned out with them and this happens. I hate how I look around and see that people STILL take relationships for granted.
from xcountrychik :
I mostly struggle with the drop in my grades or the frustration in still not believing the whole thing is real. I still think it's October. I still write Oct. on my papers instead of December. December 11 was our 8 month and I went to see Coheed & Cambria...both of us considered them to be one of our favorite bands. I got the ticket as a Christmas present and had so much fun....except a lot of the time I had wished he was there, holding me or something. I dunno, no one on here seems to care, maybe it's because no one reads my diary, but I haven't had much feedback from my entries...But hey, if you're ever on AIM when I am, IM me...I'd love to talk to you XCountryChick4
from xcountrychik :
who have you lost that was close?
from xcountrychik :
I've got another Thursday for you: Boyfriend died. Happy. Thursday.
from sapphire292 :
Wow. I can imagine how strong that numbness must have been after so long. In a way I am so sorry, that you've had a small taste of that and will ineveitably be craving it so srongly now, and am also.... well, you know... I wish you luck with that, talk to me, okay? I want to know how every one of your days go:) I will email you as often as I can too, and we will hold eachother.. (up?) I love you Amber, and I am Nothing but HERE FOR YOU. I LOVE YOU.
from iloveurtummy :
lol. yup. :D np. its only the truth.
from sapphire292 :
I love you:) What did it feel like to cut after so long?:S I love you baby, Stay Strong.
from iloveurtummy :
i love ur writing...its so pretty <3
from sapphire292 :
:) Thanks. You do the kleenex thing too??:) LOVE!
from nuntobe :
I know I haven't spoken to you in quite some time, but for a while your diary was locked, so I stopped checking it. I would really love to hear from you, and just know that you are always in my prayers. You are not alone, and I am always willing to help. I know for the most part what you are going through, so I would love to maybe doing something for you. Love ya bunches, and God Bless You. *hugs* ~Jamie~
from sapphire292 :
I love you Baby, I could feel the pain that you do in that entry, and I'm incredibly sorry you have to:( I LOVE YOU ANGEL.
from sapphire292 :
Call me in the afternoon tomorrow if you can Hun. I hope you feel loads better. I LOVE YOU!
from sapphire292 :
I love you, so much. You are so beautiful. I hope to God that you aren't bottling your emotions and forgeting about yourself, you deserve so much. And I hope someday that you will get it. Every word you've ever said is taken straight to my heart, where it's not to be forgotten. You're my Angel:) I won't be home tomorrow, Christmas shopping and all:) Will you call me in the evening though? That would be so amazing to talk to you hours and hours.:) You mean so much to me, there isn't a day when you don't cross my mind. I love you, Amber McQueen.
from sapphire292 :
Really? Yay!! Call me now, call me now!!:D
from sapphire292 :
Tell me about this boy, silly goosel:D
from sapphire292 :
Well, guess what? I don't mind a big bill, I'll call you:) Tell me the best times and your phone will be ringing, and we can talk for hours.:D I love you, Angel. Know that. Believe that. Hold on to that. I can't wait to see you. When the time gets closer, we have to get everything figured out. Such as, are you going to stay with me at my house or should we meet at a motel or something?:D:D:D oooh, this is so exciting. (Even though I still haven't let myself get excited in case it doesn't actually happen) I LOVE YOU ANGEL. I LOVE YOU.
from sapphire292 :
I'm sorry Amber. I wish I could make the center of everyone's lives, they would all be so much happier. I'm still trying not to get excited about this summer, will you stay with me awhile? Longer than a few days. I will need that. I need you.:( I love you Amber. I do. You are the image of what I need in my life. I love you.
from kittyleopard :
hey, this is my new account. My old one used to be jamabama004. Well, just thought I'd say hey, and ask you to come visit!! Cya!!
from sapphire292 :
I'm trying as hard as I can not to get excited just in case it doesn't work out, but, YAAAAY!:D I love you, Angel:)
from iloveurtummy :
thanks for addin me. i wish u best for w/e happens w/ ur rents. :/
from sapphire292 :
Can you honestly come see me in the summer?
from iloveurtummy :
are u gonna add me?
from iloveurtummy :
aww yea thats understandable. :/ i'm sry. do u think you'll ever get over that phase?
from iloveurtummy :
awww yea thats right now i remember how u had that restraining order on ur dad. how's he takin the divorce? or dont u kno?
from iloveurtummy :
awww i'm more then happy for you w/ the whole boyfriend situation. how'd you two end up together? how long have you been together? how old is he? yea i understand what u mean bout the whole trust issue. *sigh* i trusted glenn. he tore me up. so r u still gettin treatment for ur depression n stuff? i am. heh. sry im like bouncin from subject 2 subject lol. oh yea 1 more question. why r ur parents gettin divorced? u dont gotta answer if u don't wanna, its understandable.
from mannas-angel :
hey, my new diary is iloveurtummy.diaryland.com :-) LEAVE ME A NOTE UPDATING ME! :-) :-) :-)
from mannas-angel :
OMG. hey! yes...its who u think it is...AND I'M COMING BACK TO DIARYLAND! i miss u all so so much! i'll be using another diary tho, and i have yet to get that started...so in the meantime...be patient! and if you can do me a huge favor, once i get my new diary and give you all the code, could you PLEASE leave me a note telling me whats been going on? cause it'll just be TOO much to read in ur diary enteries. thanks....I MISSED YOU GUYS!!!
from sapphire292 :
love you amber amber!!:)
from auntchele :
Amber- I'll see you at the pagent and you better be prepared for your aunt to kick some butt, I am VERY unhappy with all of the stuff going on, oh and by the way did you think I couldn't find you on the web, get a grip. For sapphire, you keep sending love notes to my neice and it wil be your butt that better look out, I can find you to!!!!!!!!! You brought this on by yourself and you will have to dig yourself out of it. Do not think that any one here is giving you sympathy because we know the truth, getting attention is one thing but getting people in trouble for no reason is another. You had better ready for me when I come down, because I am your aunt and I will kick yu out of my family if I have to. Beware I am always looking out for my family and anyone that reads this better think twice before sending any letters to my niece. I am an adult and I am not afraid to stand up for my family. Aunt Chele
from captivated- :
You're so pretty amber ^_^
from sapphire292 :
You are so beautiful. I miss you so much already. Your in my thoughts- -Love!
from glennz-bitch :
i just realized i wasn't even on my diary name that you read, so why'd you write back bitching so much if you didn't even kno 100% it was me? damn girl, chill. i just hate it when i get so wrapped up in someone & they leave me. as everyone tends to do.
from opolopo :
i will be looking...
from version6 :
it sucks to hear your gonna close. First Anna now you. I would tell you not to, but nobody likes to be told anything when they are going through a hard time. Well I'll look for you as you said. Xoxo
from scanzilla :
You're cute, instead of cutting yourself you should play guitar. Seriously, you look like you love the rock music, and girls who play guitar are hot. By the way, I rode into this site on a unicorn.
from sapphire292 :
I love you. And I miss you so much. I'm so sorry you can't just come live with me.
from l0nelyheartz :
Can you help me with my diary? I dont know how to make it look good. IM clueless.. please help
from mannas-angel :
Miklle is so pretty. That how u spell the name? I doubt it. She's real cute tho. ^-^
from version6 :
I hope you start to feel better, but I feel you I went throught the same thing last year. trust me it all gets better, if you let it.
from sapphire292 :
I'll be your mommy Amby Boo:) I love you.
from miss-stress2 :
I'm happy to see you back in action.It's just you being in such a good mood(as other dorks would say)well good for you!I'm serious proud that your standing stroung and tall. You definetly deserve all the good things commin to you.Have a great school year and keep up the good entries.bye
from delicaterevu :
hi! your review is up at http://delicaterevu.diaryland.com/amber163.html good job!
from sapphire292 :
Hey! I was going to call you tonight, but it looks like you'll be at youth group- so I'll try tomorrow:) Or.. you can call me:) I won't be home for a few hours in the middle of the day though:) (1-503-662-4717) Love you!!!!!!
from mannas-angel :
oh man i'm so glad ur back girl!
from pinklady018 :
I know I leave them waiting forever. I was going to try and do them on Monday and Tuesday... but as you can see from my diary, I was a bit destressed...wow, now I sound cool. Anyway, I am going to get around to them very soon. I am going to go ahead a review the 2nd person on my pending list while I wait for the link to go up.
from pinklady018 :
Hey! The person on my pending list doesn't have a link up to us... i signed her guestbook a while ago about it and she hasnt responded yet... what should i do? put her back on pending under problems?
from sapphire292 :
I believe you Beautiful. I always do.
from nofaithleft :
hey!! lol. grr the guestbooks are evil bastards!! lol. thanks for signing!! :) oh yes, & hi!!
from nofaithleft :
hey! i locked my diary!! the username is my diary s/n & the password is gc
from ransgirl15 :
oh honey! My mom did the same to me a couple of months back. Im so sorry. I hope you get back soon. |I|Miss|You|[[!!!]]
from sapphire292 :
Before I read your entry, I just want you to know that when I saw you updated, everything else just drifted away. I have been missing you so much, and lately, Really worrying about you. I hope that your doing alright. I love you, and CARE. And yes, there is a differance:) Off to read that gorgeous writing of yours...
from sbspsd :
this is an invitation to be reviewed by sepia reviews. (our review site is located at: http://sbspsd.diaryland.com) request in our notes section after reading the rules and scoring and remember to include the catch-phrase and the word "INVITE". Invited guests have a priority on the pending list. cheers!
from sapphire292 :
I love you! And miss you! I hope that youre doing alright, since you seem to be taking a break from dland:) I love you!
from sapphire292 :
Oh my fucking god. Kick you out??? You can come live with me. And I'm not just saying that. I talked to my mom and she said you could. hehehe:) So it's all set. Our lives seem so alike, well, not our lives really, but how we feel about them and react. I love you! I hope I can find your number, and then I will call. Also, I'll try and find your address and write:) I LOVE YOU!
from sapphire292 :
I know what you mean. If I hear "This has to stop" or "This worries me" or "What are you doing to yourself" One more time I'm going to scream. LOV YOU!
from sapphire292 :
Oh my god. "fix you" I'm so sorry babe. That's not what you want to hear. You need to hear "I'm going to be here through it all and love you no matter what" But, I'm finding, guys just cant say that and be honest at the same time. So I'll say it. I love you Amber, and I'm here for you no matter what you do:) I'm SO worried about that doctor, I really want it to go alright:( I love you, thank you for being you.
from heyjuderevu :
Hey there! Your review is up at http://heyjuderevu.diaryland.com/amber163.html. Thanks for requesting a review :)! ~Jude
from captivated- :
My friends use to make the stupidest jokes up when I said I had chemistry, i can't remember exactly what they would say but when I do Ill be sure to let you know lol
from heyjuderevu :
Hi there! I'm the owner of a brand new review site, would you like a review? Come visit us! http://heyjuderevu.diaryland.com
from sapphire292 :
:'( Let the dreams begin... I'm not gone yet but will be in about half an hour. I miss you SOOOOOOOOO much. (already) I hope you have a glorious two days, ones you will deserve. Don't spend too much of your time hugging the tiolet and cleaning up blood. Your far too beautiful to be seen with tears:) I love you Amber, and wish so much that I could live closer to your radiance:) I LOVE YOU!!:)
from sapphire292 :
I know:( I'll miss you too! Last time I was gone, I missed you so much I had dreams about you:) Well.. you were kidnapped by a truckdriver but what the hell..;) I'm not leaving till later today, and I'll probably be back early Thursday, so it's not That long:) I'll contact you as Soon as I get back. Love you , and I'll miss you SO SO SO much!!
from sapphire292 :
Alana can relate to the last entry:) If there is any way I can make things less... real... let me know:) You know I mean it:) I love you
from dramatizer :
I'm praying for you--Pray to God what is best for you and lean not on your own understandingm but know God and He will make your paths straight! Blessings always, dramatizer
from purplemurdy :
hiya. wonderful diary. found it on a review site. great content. and the layout is awesome. :-D.
from sapphire292 :
I know what you mean, cutting is great. So is Purging. The thing is, people don't know when to stop. They dont understand, so they don't know when enough questions are ENOUGH questions! You can hide being unhealthy, starving yourself, but making yourself bleed- noooo. We will be those insanely happy people- won't we?:) Love!
from sapphire292 :
Oh Amber, what's wrong with me? It doesn't happen often, but when it does- it takes over me. I obsess about food, and how much I take in. It must come out. Or I just don't eat at all. I took meds today that I used to take for ADD that I got off of because it gave me panic attacks. But I took it today because it's an appetite supressant. Stupid me. Tell me I'll be "normal" sometime:( I love you! Thanks for being... Y.O.U.
from sapphire292 :
I love you
from miss-stress2 :
which links do Ichange to my user name.
from miss-stress2 :
Um I kinda need help, how do I use the layouts from the link you gave me.
from miss-stress2 :
Thank you! Thanks for leavong a note and visiting ouu and that link you gave me.
from pinklady018 :
shes only 10? thats insane... isnt there a law about people under the age of 13 signing up for things online?
from miss-stress2 :
while usually I'd do a whole rock,paper,scissor thing but ya know...this just isnt the type of situation for it.I say don't be a mentor if it's going to cause you any un-needed stress or anything negative.Study hall seems perfect, forget about the teacher.Teachers may do SUCH stupidness though there not there to play favorites or whatever they do to piss you off. Study hall seems to be something you'd enjoy and don't let a crumy teacher get in the way.Site is great, you've got the html skillz.Visit my one(which no one really does) if you want.
from sapphire292 :
I think you should take whatever classes make help you learn something your interested in, something that inspires you. Study Hall would give you a ton of time to write, but teachers who hate you always suck. I"m sorry I can't be more help Amber.:(
from sapphire292 :
I'm sorry Baby, you are perfection.
from captivated- :
Love you Amber <3
from xoxokaterums :
Okie, thank you. I'll be adding the link shortly. :0) ~katie
from captivated- :
*sighs* i hate smgb.com anyway best of luck with the situation.
from sapphire292 :
Yeah, I ended up getting two puppies:) Mine aren't to the chewing stage yet, so this is good. It will be hell when it does:) I have to go to bed cause I have volleyball tomorrow morning, but we'll talk more soon. Love you:)
from sapphire292 :
Thanks:) I miss you too. Like crazy! How's Sadie? I hope everything's going alright with you. We'll have to actually talk sometime soon:)
from rockacholic :
well that sucks! and your welcome i love your diary heheh take care hun
from rockacholic :
i tried sigin you gb but the crap wouldnt let me anyway i just wanted to sau great diary i love it
from nofaithleft :
smg.com is being a bitch. ya it does suck about people who steal html. it happened to my friend too, yesterday. someone stole her background & she said she made it. yes, stupid people. thanks for signing my guestbook!!!
from annachan :
hey, guestbook was being a bitch again. hope stitch is doing okay. i'm not going to be online for awhile. just wanted to get you a hey *hug* see ya.
from sapphire292 :
hey, I just wanted to drop you a note and say that I miss you SO SO SO SO much:) How I wish we could ACTUALLY sit face to face and have hours and hours of conversation. LOVE YOU!!
from xoexoh :
I'm sorry darling, not this month. So many new people have applied but we really love your layout, and we will still be reading, you can always try again next month. ♥ xoexoh
from frank-review :
your review will be up as soon as possible. sorry for the wait. really. we ve been shrugging off our responsibilities to have fun in the sun.
from god-lovers2 :
Hey! I just found out that you used to be part of the cutters club! I'm so glad that you've worked through that part in your life. Not that I have anything against the cutters club. Also I want to thank you for being the most active person in the God-Lovesr2 team! You're the only one that's filled out all the requirements of joining. CONGRATS!!! Thanks a heap gal!! :) Chaucee
from sapphire292 :
AAAAAAAMBER:( why is my rings page being such a bitch????? most of them are UNDERNEATH my tag-board and why does my diary always have that "error" message popping up(like yours)?? AH!! Can you help my fix my rings?
from new-review :
your review is up.
from sapphire292 :
I know. I hate it when I don't realize they're her banners, I fall for it and click on them and then want to cut off my hand when her diary comes up. That crown thing on the top makes me want to puke. She seems VERY concieted. But yes, hopefully, puppy today- YAY!
from sapphire292 :
I'm going to kill her.. I'm going to freaking kill her. (Leslie Irene that is) Well, just her banners really.
from god-lovers2 :
Thanks so much for getting back to me! You can send it to [email protected] and if that doesn't work, just put it in my notes. Thanks. :)
from god-lovers2 :
I hope that you are checking up on the updates. I'm really frustrated that not everyone is responding to what I'm putting on the website. I need the mini-bio. please!!!!!! :( Thanks
from kerrang-girl :
Hi Amber. I'm glad you are feeling better about the "other" situation. How do you feel about the girls coming to stay with you. Are you pleased? I doubt you are, but I wouldn't know. Take care. ~Amy
from sapphire292 :
So, Amber, how do you really feel about the girls coming?
from critterchaos :
Amber...grr...i tried to sign your guestbook but they aren't working properly. I just wanted to say thanks. I know my story will be good once it's done. I hope you have a great week. Take care *hugs* :)
from kerrang-girl :
Oh, I don't know what to suggest. What about writing in a "normal" diary? Like pencil & paper if you know what I mean. Do you what people to read it? If you just write it, it gets out of your system. I'm sorry Amber, I really don't know what to suggest. You could use your locked diary. Just try to find something that helps you. ~Amy
from captivated- :
Ah amber! I absolutley adore you.
from ransgirl15 :
sweets- You;re writing is :so: beautiful. It gets to my heart &&&&& I bet to other peoples heart too. Youre a beautiful person inside :&: out [don't ever forget that] I wish you the very best. ♥
from nofaithleft :
somethings up with that guestbook! lol. hey!! thanks for caring, I don't think it will work out. but thats ok, I don't really care anymore.
from kerrang-girl :
Oh, Amber, please don't stop writing. I would miss you so much, and so would a lot of other people. I feel like that sometimes. Like I want to get away from it all. Escape from everything. Sometimes I feel like my writing is all I have to comfort me in some ways. I have a private diary which no one else apart from me can read. It helps me. Maybe if you had a private diary as well, it would help you. I don't know. Just please don't leave. I would miss you and your writing too much. ~Amy
from sapphire292 :
Don't stop writing Amber, I know there's some days when it's all you have. I live to see your name brighten up on my buddy list. Please. I love you Amber.
from annachan :
hey, not sure if you got this message or not... because the guestbook kept saynig i can't sign again this fast... but just in case: hey amber, just wanted to tell you that i reivewed hobbitian11, so i'm on hiatus now at stitch. take good care of it, 'cause yeah, you will, cause youo do when i'm here too. don't feel too depressed while i'm away. *hugs* and i'll see you in about 2 weeks! :)
from kerrang-girl :
Oh, so Sadie is back? Good. I'm sorry I didn't say happy birthday to your sister! :( I know its too late now, but HAPPY *belated* BIRTHDAY to your sister! ~Amy
from god-lovers2 :
don't forget to send in your mini-bio! :)
from sapphire292 :
My weekend is alright, its been differant things than I usually do so that is nice... I don't know... there's a lot going on around me that I'm not letting effect me as much as I could, I don't know if that's good or bad. Hope your weekend is going alright! LOVE!!
from sapphire292 :
If I could, I would make it so memories from your childhood would stop haunting you. I'm so sorry I can't.
from sapphire292 :
You'd go, even though you don't want to? Your so sweet. Usually I don't like the beach either, atleast mine cause it's cold as shit and pisses me off. But.. it sounds good now:) LOVE YOU!!
from paperxflower :
Sorry for the duplicate entries. D-land was acting all screwy and it was an accident.
from paperxflower :
Hey there, thanks for signing my guestbook. I live in Oklahoma, too. So I guess we feel eachother's pain. I LOVE your layout. Evanescence is my favorite band. My screen name is fashioned after the song "Imaginary". I get so emotional when I hear their music, because I can relate to the lyrics more than words can describe. I love their sound, but to me they're so much more than that. Did you see them tonight on that "Pepsi Smash" show on the WB? They did an awesome job. Well, I guess that's all.
from paperxflower :
Hey there, thanks for signing my guestbook. I live in Oklahoma, too. So I guess we feel eachother's pain. I LOVE your layout. Evanescence is my favorite band. My screen name is fashioned after the song "Imaginary". I get so emotional when I hear their music, because I can relate to the lyrics more than words can describe. I love their sound, but to me they're so much more than that. Did you see them tonight on that "Pepsi Smash" show on the WB? They did an awesome job. Well, I guess that's all.
from sapphire292 :
it never is:( That sucks. But, smile, because, next summer- your coming to stay with me:)
from sapphire292 :
not helpful to see Sushil again? I'm really sorry hun.
from sapphire292 :
Don't be sorry hun, I know that right now is just a hard time. But know that I'm still here no matter how much other people seem not to care. I love you Amber!!!:) -Alana
from sapphire292 :
Hey hun. I just wanted to say that I'm still here, and I miss you alot. You seem to be pretty distant from everyone, try not to lose touch with the people that care. I do. I'm So happy for you that Sadie is coming back, that will give you something to cling to:) I'm sorry about Amanda, old friends can be pretty hard to say goodbye to, but sometimes frienships just run their course. Love you, -Alana
from jxpunkxrockx :
im so sorry! i know how it is to have a father that you can barely live with! and i so know what it is like to hear them fighting and your mom locking herself in the bathroom! but usually in my case my mom was getting hurt while i was in the bathroom! when i say hurt, i dont mean physically though. (well most of the time not at least) my dad is a totally different and crazy religion, and that caused a lot of shit to happen in my house hold! (i could go on, but i will spare you!) anyways, even though it may seem that you cant do or say anything in those situations, dont worry about it! i have learned that it is best not to say much or anything...just wait it out..... love always and for fucking ever....
from kerrang-girl :
Oh, Sadie is your puppy. I'm sorry about your mother taking her away. Sorry to hear about your mother locking herself in the bathroom and sobbing like that. My mother used to do that, but I was to young to understand, or ask her why she was doing that. I guess now she was very unhappy (I think she was depressed, I'm not sure.) or it was about her marriage to my father.
from sapphire292 :
I didn't try, a reviewer said it was. But i think that was a few days ago. sorry. thanks:) love!
from sapphire292 :
do you know why my next link is broken? i can't figure it out.
from kerrang-girl :
Thanks for the compliment on the layout. I thought it was time for a change, and I needed something that I wouldn't normally go for, so *voila* white rose layout. I love your layout. Its quite simple, but it works really well, and I think it goes with your diary. (Well, you would know, you made it :P) I like the lyrics too. (which are by evanescence?) I wish I could be bothered to make my own layout, I just haven't got the energy really. Anyway, sorry for wasting your note space here, I really have nothing better to do with my time. I am deprived. :P Oh, if you don't mind me asking, who is Sadie? Maybe I would understand more about your entry, if I know who Sadie is. ~Amy
from god-lovers2 :
Umm...who is Sadie and why did your Mom take it/her/him away? I'm really sorry! :(
from mannas-angel :
thanks for the 'happy birthday' message babygirl :)
from mannas-angel :
hey amber. why'd u guys get rid of the dog? that entry wuz soooo sad. :( neways...i've been busy and haven't been readin diaries, but i'm all caught up on urs. so thas a good thing.
from sapphire292 :
I am so sorry Amber. I wish I could do something. Fix it. Take your pain away. And slap some sense into the people in your life that hurt you. I love you, and am here for you every moment of every day. Don't forget that. I love you, Alana
from jxpunkxrockx :
when you lose certain things, it makes you think about how much you actualy loved and cared for them. She had no right to take that away from you. I am sorry you had to experience that feeling...
from kerrang-girl :
Thanks, Amber. I don't usually tell people about what I used to do, but I'm glad you don't find it weird. Have a good day yourself. :) ~Amy
from kerrang-girl :
I used to throw up a lot. I am really not sure if I made myself do it, it always just sort have happened, if you see what I mean. It used to help me, it made me think about things. That probably sounds weird to you, but its true. Take care, Amber. ~Amy
from sapphire292 :
You throwing up more than cutting? Which one helps you more? Cutting always helps me more because I don't have to hate myself as much or have as strong of emotions. Okay well, I can't think of anything to say so... I love you Amber:) -Alana
from jxpunkxrockx :
it is times that you are alone and you are with the things you enjoy most that you feel alive, and you dont have to remid yourself to breathe, i agree. and i am so happy for you that you found that.
from sapphire292 :
Yeah, I know, I'm sorry. It helps sometimes to atleast have that feeling in your mind so you know what it COULD be like:) LOVE YOU!!
from sapphire292 :
Oh hun, I'm so glad. Just one night of feeling carefree can change so much. Hold on to that feeling with all you have. It's incredible. I'm so glad you could have that.
from sapphire292 :
(posters being made)
from sapphire292 :
Alright. When you come to visit me for a summer, we will post signs all over Oregon. 'NICE BOYS ONLY. Willing to frolic with girls in need of a boy who can make them smile. Cuddlers, Poetic a must, d-landers a bonus:D' Sounds like a plan to me
from sapphire292 :
Black hair gives you the freedom to be sad. It shows the world how you feel, and you don't have to say a thing. Blonde hair forces you into a stereotype. Atleast that's how I see it:) Yes... frolicing. How I wish I could spend my warm summer days in the arms of a sweet, caring yet daring boy. Damn the tears that seem to be tattooed on my face.
from sapphire292 :
I know what you mean. It seems so wrong not to be frolicing around in fields, holding hands with some nice boy, and smiling so much my cheeks are about to break. Summer seems like the ulitmate time to be sublimly happy. But I'm not... and I feel like I'm betraying everything I've ever done. Let go of all my pain and anger as soon as the sun coes out and RELAX.. and enjoy life. Maybe this is just a nother childhood obsession. Maybe I just want the freedom and carefree-ness of childhood BACK. I dont' know...
from sapphire292 :
Whew. *wipes hand across sweaty forhead.
from sapphire292 :
new layout looks beautiful. did you design it? yay! evanescence lyrics:)
from sapphire292 :
that would work nicely for me:)
from sapphire292 :
wow. tainted gave you a good review. i got 29/100. *throws self esteem on ground and stomps on it
from sapphire292 :
hey:) could you help me w/ something? my next button isn't working. when i try it says that error 400 thing. it used to work, but now it's not. do you have any idea why it would do that?
from sapphire292 :
Ok, sorry. I understand not feeling like writing:)
from sapphire292 :
Hey Hun. YOu doing okay? I don't know why but you not updating for 23 hours makes me think somehting is wrong:) Love, -Alana
from sapphire292 :
Good crap. That reviewer was judgemental. I'm scared. I'm pending there.
from sapphire292 :
Saying sorry is an easy habit to get in to:) Just know that I am NEVER, EVER judging you or being dissapointed in you:)
from taintedviews :
You've been reviewed at TaintedViews!
from sapphire292 :
Don't be sorry. Don't apologize for it Amber. It will only make it worse. You've had terrible things going through your mind and your getting them out the best way you know how. :) Love you- -Alana
from sapphire292 :
yeah. I was with kids this morning and they got bored before I did. Erp. Off in my own little world:) Hehehe.
from sweetiepie34 :
Hello I'm from Honest But Sweet Reviews and I was just wanted to let you know that we are back and running and I was just wondering if you would still like a review from us. Sorry for the delay. From All of us here at H.B.S.R.
from sapphire292 :
I'm glad you can be semi alone now. That is always good:) My fourth of July was nothing special. Just hung out with my family. Whooo.:)
from sapphire292 :
Next time I will be brave and let it ring until someone picks up.:) Do you have people at your house? Ack. That's always nice, to have to be sociable. Ugh. :D Love, -Alana
from sapphire292 :
Hey! Today I sat there, staring at my phone willing it to ring. Oh, and that time your phone rand once and than the person hung up- that was me:) Alright- hope that your 4th of July is going well:) Love, -Alana
from sapphire292 :
Sounds like a good idea. New rule: To begin with, NO requesting reviews from stupid impubescant little girls who have no idea what pain and true writing is. Deal? Deal.:) LOVE!!! -Alana
from squishreview :
your review is up. great diary!
from sapphire292 :
Amber, I Honestly think these reviewers have NO idea what theyre talking about. Your writing can bring me to tears, make me laugh and make me feel like I am YOU. (although we are a lot alike:) ) Honestly, they're just a bunch of fake happy people who can't except life isn't all smiles and hugs. Don't let it get you down hun. Your writing is some of the best I have ever seen in my life. -Alana
from sapphire292 :
I love you though:) And Maybe I'll become a reviewer just to tell you how much I love you, again:) I hope that your mind can calm down a bit, that your hands aren't shaking too badly.. and happy things can still make you smile. Always here- -Alana
from dramatizer :
Will your write a profile for the God-Lovers2? That would be awesome! Also, I am going to be working harder at proclaiming the news about God-Lovers2. Since the members are a little limited--I would like some new people to join. That would be so cool. The bio thing can be about your walk with Christ or anything you want it to be [ex:how you got saved and stuff like that]. -dramatizer (also know as God-Lovers2)
from vicki-views :
I dunno... lol... I just did them haphazardly. The other people will get theres soon :)
from vicki-views :
Done review :)
from prettykay :
hey girl, all i can say is wow. i am adding you to my favorites.
from sapphire292 :
Ah yes... the ever worrying Mom. Got that too. They could talk.. heheheh, look at my wishful thinking:D someday!! We've got atleast 3 summers ahead of us when I'll make my way down to Freedom!!!:) Sounds like you like to sleep away thoughts and feelings as much as I do!!!:) Ok, night night:) DO NOT let those bed bugs bite.. I DO NOT want to have to get out my shoe and beat theire tummies black and blue!!!:D -Alana
from sapphire292 :
I'm sorry. I always hate worrying where someone is, and half of the time thinking they wouldn't do the same for me. I don't know, I'm sry:S Alright good, so, Amber is going to come spend the rest of her summer in Oregon, yay:)
from sapphire292 :
What's going on Amber? Tell me everything.. you can email me if you want- or call:)
from sapphire292 :
I WILL NOT make you go away. But I will help you get away:) You can come stay with me. We'll talk about SI and heartbreaking boys. And reviewer girls that need to die. It will be fun. Sound like a plan???:)
from sapphire292 :
Amber and Alana's to kill list: Dea and Leslie Irene. Sound good?
from mannas-angel :
yea that is weird lol. 1st time i ever watched 8 mile wuz in the movies....n we needed an adult pass thinger cuz its rated R, so me n my friend whitney went and im surpised her mom didnt ask mine or nething...but she signed summin so we could go in...and mom thought i wuz watchin sweet home alabama...and its funny cuz i saw soo many people in 8 mile that knew my brother that would tell him n word would get 2 my mom...and when i came home mom wuz askin what sweet home alabama was like, and i wuz all stutterin. im surpised i got away w/ it. n to even top it off....in 8 mile they sung sum sweet home albama song. but yea, after begging, they're allowing me 2 watch it. lil do they realize is, i alreadie did. mwhaha.
from mannas-angel :
lol thas crazy (the whole phone/internet deal)...u better watch urself! but yea, don't worry bout lettin it slip. i won't say nething @ all 2 her. but hey, i have a question. if u cant watch 8 mile.......how can u watch scary movie 1 & 2? or didnt ur mom c those?
from mannas-angel :
eeek maybe im not supposed 2 kno ashley is grounded. :X cuz she said nothin bout it in her diary. but why would she be grounded 4 usin the phone/net too much? i'm sorry, but thas crazy...
from mannas-angel :
whoa whoa whoa...wait. ashley is grounded? uhh... *note 2 person who wrote right b4 me. its not smart to leave ur phone number*
from sapphire292 :
Hun, don't feel bad. I almost broke down tonight too. Remember, this is your way of coping- this is Your way of being Strong. And for now, there's nothing wrong with that. I want you to know that I am 100% here for you. You can even call me, even though I am in Oregon and you are in Oklahoma:) Know that there's nothing differant or 'wierd' about you just because you have chosen/found a nother way to handle the things that get sent your way- You are no differant than anyone else. Except, your more special to me:) Even though, at times, it may feel like we're worlds apart- I am here for you always:) *my Amber Kay:) (1-503) 662-4717. There, now you can keep that and call me WHENEVER you need to:) Love you!!! -Alana
from mannas-angel :
the thing is...i dunno the actual links...or ne of that shit. n yea i kno my diary is fucked up. i left ur sister a note...she always seems 2 help me. *sigh sigh sigh* ill never learn. it'll all turn out fine tho once i find sum1 i can trust 2 log on2 my diary name and fix things up. sumone who has time...and patience w/ sum1 like me..haha...
from sapphire292 :
(One of the reviewers wrote me back!!) Dear Sapphire, First of all, I do not appreciate being told to get over myself. I have taken the time to explain that Dea and I are separate entities, for all that we are best friends. It was uncalled for, espcially since I have done absolutely nothing to you. Amber requested a review from Dea-- if she was not prepared to take criticism in regard to her content, she should not have applied. Our review site certainly doesn't exist to ridicule people or put them down, but we are entitled to our opinions. Dea has my full support. If Amber wishes for me to take the review down, I will be more than happy to oblige. On a personal note, I don't believe that Dea was ridiculing anyone-- if anything, I believe she was upset that your friend was not receiving the help that she needs. She also included a note in the bottom that said that it was "only her opinion" which you are certainly allowed to ignore. I understand that the power of words cannot be underestimated, but we're just a review site-- in this for the kicks. Definitely not to be taken seriously. I hope this resolves any problems you may have had.. Feel free to write back if there's something else I need to address. Best Wishes, Gemma O'Connell
from sapphire292 :
Tell Sushil that you feel betrayed, all of the times he got on your case and now he did it himself. Tell him that you are there for him though and want to help. Encourage him to call you the next time that he feels he need to cut. Tell him that just because it works for you, it may not work for him. And that he doesn't need to find out the hard way that it may not work. I'm so sorry hun. Just try not to feel giulty. NONE of this is your fault, I know your being the best friend you can be to him right now:) Also. we need to keep checking back at that review site to see if DEA (to be said in mocking voice) had anything to say back. harf. pooper scooper dea. Icky. Alright, I hope that your day goes well and I will write more when I get home:) (I'm at my sister's now) Love! -alana
from sapphire292 :
Oh hell yes! I email her!!!!! ARRR!!!! I was SO pissed. I haven't been that mad in SO long, I was SO mad I almost started crying. Oh good crap. Yeah, pissed! Breath, Alana, Breath. Hey, next note I leave will be the email to her. Do you want to see it?
from sapphire292 :
I'm so pissed. I don't think I've said the word fuck this many times in a row in a long time.
from sapphire292 :
Hun, don't ever stop writing the way you do. I saw your review by Dea and I'm writing that bitch a nasty email. Seriously I'm about to go send it. BIIIIIITCH!! I'm sorry, it made me SO mad I want to cram a broken bottle down her dirty little throat. Ahem... was that not nice??? Arf! Sorry, SO pissed. Usually I don't get mad easily but if you mess with my Amber your gonna get it... muahahaha. DIE DEA DIE!!! Okay.. hmm mm... sorry. I hope you don't mind but she's going to know how I feel about this:D I LOVE YOU AMBER DEAR!!!!:D -Alana
from sapphire292 :
Potatoe chips! Yes, much like it:) Throwing up atleast. Cutting I think can be a harder habit to form. because you have to want it so badly. Both you do I guess but throwing up takes over your mind more. Somewhat. Yeah, I'm definately VERY glad I met you:) You've helped me a LOT. And yes, the saying is night night don't let the bed bugs bite, the rest is, and if they do, i'll take a shoe and beat their tummies black and blue:D hehehe.. that always makes me smile. Why is it things (most things) that remind you of childhood always make you happy. Something about memories provokes REALLY strong emotions. Sometimes that can be a bad thing though. Alright, night night! Love, Alana:)
from compendious :
Hey Amber, your review at http://compendious.diaryland.com is up.
from sapphire292 :
don't be crazy- your words make SO much sense to me. It's like you grab them out of my own heart and mind and put them in just the right words For me... your amazing Amber. Don't forget it. ever. I'll always be here to remind you:) Love, -Alana
from sapphire292 :
your so great:D *hugs* love, love, love my Amber:D Night, night:)
from sapphire292 :
Your welcome for 'everything'. Pah. I just hope that someday I can give you some of the strength and hope you've given me. We understand eachother:) Psh. It's nearly impossible to only cut once- am I wrong? I really hope it works for him though. That really pisses me off... people are SUCH hypocrites. I'm so glad I have my Amber:) I'd be so much farther 'down' than I am now if it wasn't for you:) You keep me sane:) Well, as possible as it is for me to be sane:) I threw up again. It was the most I've ever done. It took half an hour for me to stop myself. It's SO addicting. I've made MANY habits worse this week:) Love!!!!- -Alana
from mannas-angel :
awwww you'd give ME a username and password?! me!! awww, im feelin lotsa love now.
from sapphire292 :
Does this mean Sushil is cutting? You have got to be fucking joking me. After all the shit he gave you??? (sorry this pisses me off) Or am I even on the right track? Cause if I am that would suck.. I hate when people get on your case and then go try the things that they look down on you for doing. Correct me if I'm wrong... maybe I took the entry the wrong way. Whatever it is, know you are STRONG. SERIOUSLY. And SO brave. And I love you, and you can do anything you put your mind to:) Love, -Alana
from mannas-angel :
hey babe. im so happy u un-locked ur diary. but whats the difference now? i mean, whoever was telling ashley that shit, could easily tell her it now just like before. i dunno *sigh* i juss....well, i dunno. glad ur un-locked tho. it took me 4ever 2 catch up lol.
from sapphire292 :
My week was good. Very good indeed.I'm very proud of you about the cutting Amber:) I know it will be hard but I'm sure if it's ment to be you will have the strength to make it till then:) I'm sorry about having too much time to think. I hate when that happens. So much. Alright, talk to you later:) -Alana
from sapphire292 :
Thank you:) I don't have gold (wish I did) so I just deleted that entry.. probably better that way anyway:) Thanks!
from sapphire292 :
Help me, help me:S I can't figure out how to lock just one entry and I REALLY need to- HELP:S
from sapphire292 :
I'm glad it went well:) I have writers block too. I also got a sunburn. And yes, painful. I missed you.. had a dream about you:) Love- -Alana
from kerrang-girl :
Hello. I shall miss you and your entries while your are away. Take care. ~ Amy
from sapphire292 :
I will miss you too:) I hope the weather helps you out... and that it is a Very powerful, helpful time:) Isn't it terrible when you think of 'someone' just when you are starting to feel free from those thoughts???? (love) -Alana
from thekey-eliah :
You mean there are people who HAVE TO read your diary? Like required reading for a university course? Heh heh. P.S. I'm linking to you in tomorrow's entry so expect some more traffic.
from neuroticaa :
you're writing a book, eh? do you have anything you could show me, besides your journal since its difficult for me to see, any prose or poetry that you're particularly proud of? i love to help out fellow starving authors. i'll be your most beloved critic <3 (btw my journal is locked - username=neuroticaa, password=upthewall) xoxo
from sapphire292 :
Retreats can be very good. Getting away is always helpful. I hope you find some of what you need. (love) -Alana
from thekey-eliah :
Your one of the few diaries I read here at Diaryland. Stay stronge.
from justenough :
your diary is so beautiful... your words are georgous. </3
from moodyviews :
'ello, its kate from moody views. thanks for letting me know that you changed it. ill do my best to get it done...things are to hellish to describe right now, so it might take a little bit. ill try to get yours done quickly though, cause youve been waiting so long...so yeah. --Kate
from sapphire292 :
I tried to throw up. Wouldn't work. I didn't hate myself enough then. I know how you feel- a picture of the sharp blade in your head.. daring you to dig into your skin. I'm sorry. i can't wait for your book. Honestly. (love) - Alana
from god-lovers2 :
yeah, it's still not working
from mannas-angel :
Thanx for informing me you took me off ur list you lil piece of shit.
from mannas-angel :
Thanx for informing me you took me off ur list you lil piece of shit.
from sapphire292 :
Yay!!!:D A good mood, doesn't matter how long it lasts. Now you know it can happen, that's always a good feeling:) *BIG HUGS* -Alana
from sapphire292 :
Amber. I am so sorry. I know how it feels to feel nothing, to feel like your not even there. But somehow, when your doing fine you still crave that feeling of nothingness. And I'm so sorry about your family. I know what it's like to realize that they seem to care one day and the next it's like you don't even exist. And it's so hard to decide which one you would rather live with. If there is ANYTHING I can do to help, you know I will do it. Don't hesitate to ask. Love, Alana
from god-lovers2 :
Thanks for telling me :) I tried to get in, but it wouldn't work. I'll try later though. Have a great week!
from god-lovers2 :
hey, I missed reading your diary, are you gonna unlock it sometime soon? or if you don't could i get the password possibly? you are a great writer! -Chaucey
from sapphire292 :
Oh hun, I am so sorry. I know how much you must be hurting right now.. with all that you are going through. I am SO proud of you for not cutting, I'm sure the desire is strong, but you are stronger:) I am sorry Amber:( If there's anything you need, or just need/want to talk, I'm here:) Love, -Alana
from gabriela83 :
Hey Amber! Do you think I could get a password to your diary please?, thank you. Love, Gaby
from annachan :
i just wanted to add that, i came off hiatus, cause i noticed that you need some help with everyone else going on hiatus. you know if you really needed me too, i would've made some time to help you take the load off. just don't be afraid to ask, okay?
from nofaithleft :
hey.. i know you already know.. but your diary is locked lol. I need a password. =) Have a kickass week
from stitch-revus :
hey (from anna) you locked your diary! please give me the username and password! :) oh, and i'm off hiatus at stitch, tell me if you want more reviewers.
from god-lovers2 :
Hi! I just wanted you to know that you really are an awesome girl. Maybe I can't judge that right now, but I'm glad you joined along with pokytoes and dramatizer to say we believe in Christ. I believe in you, no pressure. :-) I'll pray for anything you want me too, just tell me. Have a great day!!!!!!!! :) Chaucey
from sapphire292 :
And you know that you will put all of yourself and your effort into that book, and it will be amazing. Because it will be the truth. About everything. It will be a beautiful book, I know it.:)
from sapphire292 :
Ahh.. shut up you! your writing is AMAZING:)
from sapphire292 :
just a lil more to that last message... yes.. i think i lost my favorite knife. Oh great.. the one thing I rely on most and it's not anymore to be seen. Ack. this is probably a good thing:) One good thing right now is my relationship with God is stronger than its been in a long time.:) and hey... your getting me hooked on wishing- that:)
from sapphire292 :
I'm so proud of you for wanting to stop:) But try to keep in mind that if your setting out to find other ways of coping, doing it just to prove him wrong won't be enough. You have to want it for yourself. I shouldn't be talking though....:) I know what you mean about the book, it's best to write about what your feeling at a certain time WHEN your feeling it:) I'm sure what you write will be truly amazing and I'll be the first to buy it:D Love, Alana
from sapphire292 :
Does telling yourself where your hiding your razor mean that your trying to stop or that you don't want to forget where it is?:)
from sapphire292 :
hey you!:D I downloaded the bandages song:) it's great:D hehehe.. look- i think i'm the only person that writes you notes constantly:) erp. sorry:D talk to you later hun!:D -Alana
from sapphire292 :
Is he right in thinking all those things?
from sapphire292 :
Yessum! I think I got my old one again. Sorry for bugging you:) Hope your night goes well, I'll write more to you later:) love, Alana
from sapphire292 :
Hey:) You know how we were talking that one time and you said you still had the html from one of your old layouts i said i liked? (i don't remember which one) well, my layout is being crappy and i need a new one but i can't seem to find one i like- do u still have that old one? dont worry about it... i can go look:)
from sapphire292 :
I know what you mean, how even if you are truly happy, you still feel fake or like your betraying yourself. Happiness seems so far away, and so unreachable. I wanted to tell you how amazing your diary looks too, it's all so perfect:) You've done a really good job on it. Love you- -Alana
from sapphire292 :
thanks for your notes lately:) each one of them means so much to me:) Every time I read your diary I find myself thinking 'this girls is so amazing' honestly. you really are...:D hope your doing alright and if your not, I'm here. remember, we go through some of the same stuff so you can always talk to me:) love, Alana
from mannas-angel :
hey babe. i feel so bad. i wanted to be here on ur birthday and to wish you a happy birthday, but my brother wuz on my msn name for like 99.9% of the day cuz he's a loser who doesnt use his own damn computer, and i didnt get to wishing u a happie birthday until now....neways, hope it wuz good, and im sorry once again...
from htmlaide :
not that remember your birthday is crap... i meant i forget important things (refer to guestbook entry) (From anna)
from sapphire292 :
Ack! Sorry I missed your birthday hun!:) I truly hope this year brings amazing things, and strong relationships that will get you through hard times:) Love you and your writing sooo much:D -Alana
from cuttersclub :
Happy Birthday! I would really like if you could e-mail me an e-mail that we can use to add to our mailing list. Thanks. --Lauren of CC
from moonshine76 :
Happy Birthday!
from elliorange :
Happy Birthday! I hope your days start looking brighter soon. Remember... this is your special day, so enjoy it! :)
from kathiec :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Have a great day... heck, have a great year! Love and birthday hugs, Kathie
from lilchrissi :
Happy Birthday doll!
from sapphire292 :
Is it just me or does it really make you angry that someone still has your heart? Even when you know they shouldn't and maybe even don't deserve it. Grr.. so annoying having your emotions rely on one person. Just wanted to say that again, I know EXACTLy what you mean!:)
from sapphire292 :
Amber, remember that yes, writing those honest words do make you feel so much better but there's no harm in actually posting them:) No one is going to judge you. I admire you for being so brave in saying exactly what your feeling even though you know people will be reading it:) Never be scared, there's no judgment here:) And, if anyone tries, I'll kick their ass:) Love, Alana
from mid-night :
hey i think im goin through the same things as u how do i get a backround 4 my diary can u email me at [email protected]
from sapphire292 :
I feel like I can't be my own person until I move on, free myself of him. But yet, most of me has absoloutly NO desire to move on. Maybe, just maybe.. he'll change his mind. I hate being dependant. -Alana
from howgoesit :
don't you hate/love that?
from sapphire292 :
to the "get out of my head" entry: I know EXACTLY what you mean.
from safetyxpins5 :
6.4.2K3 thanks for signing my notes. made me feel honored. lol ♥ ashley
from captivated- :
LOl I try to make time to update! I swear! lol. I plan on it tomorrow :oD
from sapphire292 :
They would send you home? That's a lot of pressure, and I'm sorry:( Remember though.. as much as you feel like a failure.. you're not. At all. May sound cheesey, but, you'll never dissapoint me- k?:) I hope your trip is AMAZING Amber. I hope it turns out to be everything you've needed and that what you learn there will stay with you your entire life. I know you will touch many lives with all your great qualities and talents. God can use you in SOO many ways:D Love you!!!! -Alana
from gabriela83 :
You CAN do it Amber, I know you can.
from sapphire292 :
I'm sure your speech was awesome hun:) I always feel like things go TERRIBLE, even if they don't:) Thanks for telling me its good not to take him back, I'm needing a little reassurance. Being loved would be nice right now. love, Alana
from sapphire292 :
good luck with your speech hun:)
from neuroticaa :
very rarely do i lock my journal but once in a while i will -- username= neuroticaa, password=upthewall / <3
from lindseyjtjtk :
Hey Amber. :) Yeah, I noticed today that we're the only ones left lol. I'm doing fine with the reviews for right now. I'm out of school, so I've got a lot of extra time on my hands. I can probably do at least one every two days, maybe more depending on what I have going on. Don't worry about loading anything on me though, I'm doing fine on time for right now. :) Thanks though. :)
from kerrang-girl :
Heh, you're now a member of the exclusive club where people like my diary! Isn't it great! Lol.
from chick-n-lil :
Hey. Yeah, I know my older entries don't work...do you know how I can fix them? Thanks
from chick-n-lil :
Hey. I just wanted to say thank you so much for the review. I decided to take your advice and combin some of the links. When you get a chance, please look at my diary and tell me if the navigation looks any better. And what else I can do to make my diary look better. Once again, thanks!
from neuroticaa :
darling. you are so beautiful and young and honest. i wish i wrote like you when i was your age <3 come talk to me anytime! / xoxo
from nofaithleft :
im here in your notes becuz they geustbook won't let me sign that fast.. that was kinda funny when you called sushil a dork! lol. hey maybe you should check and see if your site for Soco is still up?! I'd love to see it! =9
from lilchrissi :
I have tried 5 times- it just won't work I guess I need to just get rid of it for now. Thanks for all of your help. And no I don't think you were too harsh. Thanks.
from lilchrissi :
Thanks for the review. And as far as my email I have tried to fix it- it won't work *Sorry* I have been working on it for like days on end- I just finally gave up on it. You gave me a very thorough review and I am happy about that. I am not hurt by anything you said at all. I just wanted to let you know that. Thanks a bunch for your honesty. I welcome it. By the way I don't like my text box either lol I have a friend trying to fix it for me and I can't take out the huge gapping space between my last 5 entries section I don't know how. Thanks again hon for the great review. *hugs*
from pinkballoon :
Hi :) Thanks for the review. I wanted to mention that I think my layout looks different on my screen. The links are actually kind of a pink-ish purple and the border around the entries is a dotted line, I also fixed the background problem, but as I really don't want to go through each entry to change it, I'll just have to wait for it all to catch up :) Same with the photos link, that isn't supposed to be there. I took it off the mainpage and older entries, but some entries still have it because it hasn't all caught up yet. Anyway, I'll stop rambling. Thank you again.
from lilchrissi :
Otay spanky! :)
from stitch-revus :
(from anna) Hey, I just wanted to tell you that I added the girl on my pending list to yours at stitch. i've been extremely busy and i'm not going to start reviewing until summer starts. I'm going to be giving up reviewing for a lot of places, but I'll stay at stitch, and yeah, i do want you to run it, unless you don't want to, because i think you work a lot more harder at it than i. I will just be behind you, guiding you along.
from poeticstance :
Love the new layout!
from nofaithleft :
you locked your diary?! hmm.. I donno how to read it, if you want me too... lol. thanks for the advice, even though I'm not really the type of person who tells: how i feel when I'm hurt.. which is fuckin stupid.. maybe i should break the habit.
from sunnflower :
You're welcome, Amber and keep up the good writing.
from sunnflower :
You are such an expressive writer - your entries drew me to click back and back. By the way, you are more loved than you know. As a mom, I can tell you that sometimes we do a hundred small things for our kids because we love them but you may not quite see them that way. It may be something as simple as making your bed for you because you forgot or getting you a glass of water with ice when we are really too tired to do it. Sometimes even when you get told that you are loved it is still hard to process. Sending hugs!
from sparklytears :
hey it's Dena from dedications. wow the layout turned out amazing ! anyway, I would absolutely love to do another dedication for you. I'll get to work on it right away and let you know when it's done. xoxo
from howgoesit :
i agree- html does suck! but when you get a layout that you made yourself and really like, it's fun.
from lilchrissi :
Okay, I trust you... I just cant help but worry...Hang in there doll :)
from lilchrissi :
Amber? Are you okay hon?
from sapphire292 :
He woke up? Yay!!! I'm sure he's still very bad but, ONE PRAYER ALREADY GOT ANSWERED. It can happen again! I'm so happy.. yay. Love ya, Alana
from sapphire292 :
I miss your amazing writing hun. I hope that things are getting a little better since you don't rehash stuff every day with a diary. I'm here for you always. And I AM NOT just saying that. Love, Alana
from lilchrissi :
I just placed my last entry for a while. I'm sorry that I have to go so suddenly. But I will be here to check my emails and stuff, so please feel free to leave me a note from time to time. Maybe by some weird chance I will surprise you with an update. They just wont be everyday anymore. *sniff sniff*
from lilchrissi :
I *heart* your dairy. Muah~!
from wishing-that :
hey! thanks for the message! i was a little disappointed by the shopping in the states, but maybe thats just cuz i'm not made of money... i bought a really cute shirt at wet seal and i got some perfume at blue anchor. :P thats all! thanks the message sweet pea! talk to you later! -wt
from howgoesit :
i'm so happy that you were chosen for that trip to romania! i'm sure it'll be an awesome experience for you.
from sapphire292 :
That's so great that you're going to Romania! Maybe it is what He wanted, maybe it will help to get away:)
from fairymafia :
It's okay to remember sometimes. At least your not like me. It seems all I have been doing my whole life is remembering the past and wishing it had been different. Things will get better. I hope Sushil gets better soon.
from gabriela83 :
Hey, I saw the updated daily reads and I don't remember if i left you the username and pw so here they are: usern: gabriela83; pw:sarasota. Much love and hope your friend recovers.
from sapphire292 :
I'm really sorry about Sushil, I will pray for him.
from prowlingleo :
I hope you didn't take anything I said personally, I always worry about that when I review people. Keep it up exactly as you're doing, pay no attention to me ;)
from loveshayden :
your right.. nothin really works anymore.. I really hope life gets better for the both of us!
from bonnie-moo :
Hmm, what a bitch.
from sapphire292 :
It WILL end hun, don't worry:)
from quitenasty :
Your review is complete. http://quitenasty.diaryland.com/amber163.html
from bonnie-moo :
I'm from moo-review by the way.
from bonnie-moo :
Your review is ready. But you didn't have our link on your diary so technically you shouldn't have been reviewed. Seen as though we did go to the trouble of reviewing you though, would you please add our link? thanks.
from moo-review :
Just trying to promote our new review site because we need people to request. Feel free to request a review.
from chaoscritter :
p.s. breathe a word of that email to ANYONE and you shall know my wrath. lol...j/k...toodles.
from chaoscritter :
ohhhh i sooo hate you right now. lol...once you check your email, you'll know EXACTLY what i'm talking about. lol...i hate you i hate i hate you. lol..nah, not really but damn....good trick, amber. :P *shakes his fist at you* I'll get you and your lil dog too. :P Bye for now, amber.
from tiki-reviews :
your review is ready!
from loveshayden :
your guestbook wouldnt let me sign this fast so I'm here in your notes section. i guess we both like to drool! lol. something corporate does rock!
from grace02 :
your diary is really pretty, and I tell yeah if you are like me and you have nothing better to do than read diaries, you will be hooked on diaryland for a long time...JOIN us dear... I think there is a club...or there should be:)
from howgoesit :
and i don't know what it is about your diary, but i recently found it and am hooked. hi! i'm chantal. [if mine is locked, user=howgoesit; password: moo]
from annachan :
i couldn't sign the guestbook... where's the submit button? well, i just wanted to say that this is an interesting layout.
from gbooklayouts :
Hey, I checked the source code and it looks like you have the wrong link up. Try using a .jpg link... or you could simply take it off and link to me with a text link. Also, you must have removed the "Submit" button because when I went to sign your guestbook, I couldn't find it...
from captivated- :
Happy Sunday =) hehe
from honeybunny69 :
i love you amber
from starkitten01 :
Nice diary and layout:o)
from starkitten01 :
Nice diary and layout:o)
from captivated- :
I swear andrew needs to get his damn servers together I can't post in your guestbook or an entry in diaryland, what the hell is this?! Heh just ignore my venting! And thanks for marking your spot on my guestmap inspite of "big head" lol. Do you have one?
from stitch-revus :
You'v been reviewed!!!
from honeybunny69 :
I love you. lol. go natalie imbruglia. lol. thats a mad song. spongebob squarepants. how things. can u plz e-mail me. i keep trying to write in my diary and for sum reason its not working so yeah. soo n e ways. yeah. kyle is an idiot. he broke into a bottle-o. loser. im coming to america with my step-dad next time he goes so i will come and see u. lol. ill just pack ,my pj's and go to america for the weekend. lol. love always, missing talking to you, sig xoxoxoxo
from semisour :
hey! Thanks for signing my guestbook! I got a question though...what did you mean about the paragraph box thingie? I thought I did uncheck it...or at least I don't see where I messed it up. I dunno, but thanks for the comments again! :)
from captivated- :
Ashley is really your sister?
from gabriela83 :
I know you don't update that much now, but happy valentines day for you. Take care! Gaby.
from honeybunny69 :
hey honey, your layout is screwd. Everyone, this girl is a fuck'n legend. read my diary. honeybunny69. ok. Love ya Amber Love sig xoxoxoxo p.s. spongebob squarepants
from incupark :
Yeah, guestbooks suck sometimes. Hm, I appreciate that, though. Hey, didn't you want to have one of the layouts I made for Gendesigns a little while ago? I recognized your screen name and went down and you left a message in my guestbook before.
from captivated- :
Congratulations on your new review site, I hope everything works out and I'll be stopping by to get a review lol.
from loveshayden :
hey, im back in your notes section, cuz something was wrong with your layout. so i couldn't get to your guestbook.. :o( Well I just wanted to let you know, that the picture wasn't showing up.. I fixed the problem with my guestbook layout!! yey! ROCK ON!
from liteningsyrp :
Thanks for the good review. Where do you live in OK? I'm in Tulsa...an I am in high school, hah. I'm a junior.
from primafacie :
hey , thank you for the nice review. My diary layout is based on a series called Serial Expirements:Lain, it is an anime about a 13 year old girl .. it is really neat and the clost the door-open the next (backwards) is from there and also the background picture(which i cant move the text serial expirements since it is a whole picture) and the thing that says Layer(s) is also a part of lain, it is quite an intresting anime... dont know if youre into that, IM me sometime...regretTheKill
from prncsreviews :
your diary has been reviewed!
from diaryreviews :
Hey Amber! This is Alee from DiaryReviews! Your review is up, go check it out. Thanks for submitting your diary for a review. :-D
from saynotacrack :
Jeez, amber, reading your diary, sounds like you have problems with your dad. JOIN THE CLUB dads suck. WOO. Hope maybe you guys can resolve some problems though. ;)
from sum41bitch :
hey this is cortney from losereview id like a password to your diary if you wish to give me one thanks
from honeybunny69 :
did u steal my username or is that just me not understanding this whole thing? love always sig xoxox
from legocastle :
Thanks, I try my bestest, from the bottom of my goey lovin arms of sugar popping doggie treats. ENJOY!
from droptozer0 :
wow oh wow. i have succeeded in life, because i have made someone, who i dont know, have never talked to, and someone i will never meet filled with emotion, caused by my writing. i dont know you, but thank you. your the type of person that makes me smile before drifting into sleep.
from honeybunny69 :
YO amberrrrrrrr, Whats up. Spongebob squarepants. lol. Mad diary love. " you are beautiful no matteer waht they say..." lol. love ya sweetie. love sig xoxoxox
from domifairy :
yeah you do
from saynotacrack :
Its been all too long since evil has truimphed, if it ever has. So yay. Maybe I'll have a happy ending anyways. just with lots of evil everywhere. :-) wheee, writing a novel is fun. anything goes.
from loveshayden :
Merry Christmas!! Have you decided what you were going to change your layout to? I like the one you have right now, but if you want to change it, it's up to you! Do what ya can! lol. Well, I have no idea what else to write.. buh-bye! have a good New Year too!
from hihihihihiyo :
Hi my name amber too
from loveshayden :
hey, thanks for friendly note.. Madtv is awesome, i cried toom when i found out ms. swan was gone! she was my favorite! I hope you have fun @ your grandparents house! I think I might go to my grandparents house for Ney Years! have fun!
from tayce :
you have a rockin' layout to girl :)
from loveshayden :
Hey! Where's your guestbook? I wanted to sign that but.. I couldn't find it so here I am in your notes section.. I love the new layout you chose, it's awesome! Did you check out my new layout? Well it's still Avril but the layout is kickass! c-ya later, buddy.
from droptozer0 :
why thank you. but you rock so much more.
from thislanguage :
i'm flattered. thank you.
from loveshayden :
HEY! I DID HAVE FUN @ KNOTTS! & THE LAST DAY @ SKOOL TILL WINTER BREAK WAS FUN! NICE LAYOUT, & I HOPE YOU HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!! ALLES JAHR! (GERMAN)
from saynotacrack :
woohoo LOTR rocksss! I am a huge fan :-P i am probably going to go watch the movie again, my precious, soon! s-s-s----kristen

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