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from chickpea981 :
ya best be keeping me informed lady! I dont think I have your current email addy. :( you know mine though.
from x-plicity :
May the food in the kitchen and the warmth in your bed be plentiful and all your troubles mild. Happy St. Patrick's Day!!!
from whystinger :
Oh my God! Your entry could have been written about Honi by me... Except I am 46 and she is 51 going on 70. Can't tolerate noise and shit like that too... Since she can't drink due to meds, she won't go out... won't stay out... Never wants to walk down the river at night, where I think it is romantic and she just wants to go home...
from second-love :
I often feel the same way about my hubby too. We are so diff in so many ways...and its frustrating when i feel like we live on diff pages all the time. Its hard when you do love them but just dont feel that continuous "click". It is a phase though... and we BOTH know it doesnt generally pay to ADD to the trouble *wink*
from x-plicity :
Oh, hon. I'm sending good vibes your way so that things will work out. You need to be happy, and if that means making hubby take a leap off the bridge once in a while, that's what needs to be done. You do stuff for him all of the TIME! He should give a little as well. Even if it means being in a crowded noisy place for a little while. *hugs* X
from whystinger :
Your employer may have had rules, but like you pointed it out, many times it is just an emotional thing. Several of my clients do dismiss their employees that turn in notices like that - sort of like a jilted lover, don't you think? Some are just paranoid, thinking you will steal them blind or poison employees. Still, I think for others, it is a power trip, a control. "They can't leave me, hell I'll fire 'em..." You know it was sort of shitty, that is why they gave you the severance pay, so enjoy the vacation, or help a friend and make money... I am happy for you and your new job. You are truly an achiever, especially about being happy about learning new skills, that is great.
from second-love :
OMG... i cant believe they DID that??? You give notice and they fire you????? HOW FREAKIN FUCKIN PROFESSIONAL!!! Well this will be a GREAT change for you! Im so excited. Lets talk soon! xxoo
from dangerspouse :
Woo hoo, a new paying gig that might actually allow you to rise above your station! I sure hope a tsunami doesn't hit and wipe it out before you start. ;)
from x-plicity :
Congrats on the new job, hon!!!!
from whystinger :
I am puzzled too. As far as the dream, that is a hard one... YOU ARE PRETTY, as I have seen your pictures you post. NOw I hope I haven't dropped my drawers so that you won't chat with me anymore... I wonder if someone was looking to attend a "Tart Party." Maybe he/she was just looking for pretty pictures ;)
from whystinger :
Well, I did as you suggested. Tonight I asked aher about defining what she meant by initiating sex... I was not prepared for what she said. She simply said "you need to tell me you want sex... oh, and that you are serious and not joking..." That surprised the shit out of me...
from whystinger :
I thought about it some more... My initiate consists of begging and pleading... Hers consists of saying "come on, are you hard yet, climb on..." Just kidding, LOL ;-)
from whystinger :
Thanks for the two notes. I am cognizant of the different definitions of "initiate" between men and women, but I think some things have changed. I used to be the one who wanted foreplay, not her. She has worked hard to change me and perhaps I have changed. I also think I may have lost sight of how to initiate, which comes from being turned down so much, getting frustrated and angry. Some of it is because her health is somewhat poor, so she really doesn't feel like doing it. Some of it is her weight, makes her not feel good about herself... Of course (and this goes for you too, I guess) I still am very attracted to her and if she is overweight, fine, I accept her for her, not worrying about her weight... I do need to focus and keep the talk going. I am still surprised by her comments. "I didn't think you were serious about making love..." Heck, men get "acceptance" from their wives by getting sex... Its true... Thanks again.
from x-plicity :
So he's NOT a sancho...yet. *wink*
from whystinger :
I am sorry you are ill. I do hope you are feeling better, or will soon. As far as for picking the wrong friends, I don't think it is you. You seem to be a people person and you make friends easily. You are trustworthy and assume others are and they should be, but too many folks are too into self-gratification these days (not just masturbation) and easily betray those who are trustworthy. It happens to all of us and because you are a more caring person, it affects you more, especially since you wouldn't really consider doing it on purpose to someone else...
from x-plicity :
What did the bitch do? You want me to cut her?
from x-plicity :
by the way! Happy V-day! *heart* X
from x-plicity :
OOooh! Diva has a Sancho!
from x-plicity :
I have a shiny red nose too! Here's to sexy, Shiny, Red noses!!!!
from x-plicity :
It's not you, Hon. People just don't know how to value friendships and confidances anymore. Thanks for the update (I was beginning to worry) and hope you feel better. *hugs* X
from whystinger :
Thanks for the update. Please let me know where you are so I can keep reading. I couldn't get a message through yahoo... Be well.
from lettynow :
WellI just looked at your lcation info and you are closer than i am.. But they are called the LA derby dolls, if you google it it shoudl come up. The website addy is http://www.derbydolls.com. They are out of LA.
from skibigsky :
By all means let me know your new domicile!
from nilliem :
What would I do without a Diva Cowgirl?? I'd love to know if you move.
from whystinger :
YOu must be overwhelmed... still no updates??? Pretty please?
from whystinger :
Hmmm, you must be an OA and busy... Come on, I miss reading and hope you and your family is well.
from x-plicity :
I was lurking about, thought I would say Hello!! *hugs* X
from onewetleg :
Ach! those photos were great! thanks for sharing!
from second-love :
Im not your kids... but *HUGS* anyway :)))
from x-plicity :
WOW!! Letting your head pop off would be a BAD thing!!! Hang in there toots, You got steel balls. You can do it! *hugs* X
from x-plicity :
Nice ass!! *grin*
from whystinger :
Thanks for sharing the pics from the Tart party. I did like your costume, the hair worked well and I LUV the fishnets!!! I wish I could get Honi to get out and do some fun stuff. Ya look good Gal!!!
from bindyree :
Just a quick note to say Happy New Year and to say how glad I am that I have you on my Buddy List. ♥
from alwaysmuted :
Are you really from Bakersfield?
from second-love :
yes...you have feelings for someone else... and yes, it IS YOUR issue. I had to find a way to balance all that in my life and when i finally did, all the anger that i was sending out towards BOTH of them just melted away. Am i still frustrated at times?? YES!!! Am i still angry at times about my situation??? YES!!!! But when i finally accepted that this is my life, that i have these feelings and they arent going anywhere, that i love BOTH of them, and that my situation is one that isnt going to change anytime soon... it got much easier. I CHOSE this (and so did you)... now we have to live with it xxxooo - hang in there diva :)
from second-love :
Man... those lyrics are PERFECT!! Who is that song by??
from lettynow :
I know everything you said in your note is true and that's what scres the crap out of me... He's an old School Mexican Guy full og Machismo. I really don't think he will ever forgive me. But the Catholic in him will never leave me, so this is it.
from x-plicity :
Cheater!! *grin*
from bevanandjen :
Hey Diva, been forever since I stopped by, hope you are well. Jen
from second-love :
Did you just say "bugger"????
from onewetleg :
oh, by the way, that sounded like a disclaimer. your entry, i mean
from onewetleg :
my random holiday greeting. loves to you, dear. love, ~JJ
from x-plicity :
Great guest entry!!! I love it!!! Thank you so much! *hugs* X
from lettynow :
thank you
from ms-turner :
Whoa, a ten year old had women? I fear for your sanity when he's a teen.
from remingtons :
How was your dinner?
from x-plicity :
Have a great weekend!!! *hugs* X
from ms-turner :
Hon, if you've got a catalog I can check out, send it to me!
from whystinger :
I am sorry to hear that your booking went awry. That sucks. As for Einstein, is it the girlfriend or is it also that he has been going there for a while and sometimes kids just don't like change. Bribe him with all their techie stuff... Hopefully they let you go visit. That may help hook him...
from bluemeany :
Hey! I am a total ass for neglecting you so! This is what happens when I run out of space on my buddy list; I lose track of people. Please feel the love. And tonight I will eat some Easy Mac just for you!
from lonelylatina :
11/30/05 - thanks for the note and i do appreciate the time you took to update :) are things weird with you and your coworker/friend that caused the drama?
from skibigsky :
Hey, you updated - that says alot! And as for the ads that Andrew has been running? I've been running Anti-Ad Banners, just because. And big hugs. Just because.
from remingtons :
I am really sorry that you are so sad. I wish it could get easier. My confession to you: I've spent a few night enveloped in the music of Ms. Apple.
from whystinger :
Hmmm, will i remember all? I just sort of got caught up on reading you. By the way, excellent breasts! Sorry to hear about Einstein's teacher - that was too damn unprofessional. In fact, that is worse than just unprofessional. The work deal was pretty bad too. I get some of that shit, but I see more if it and I just don't understand how some people can do that - it jsust seems hateful (and I can't type) Congrats on taking the Yoga. It has helped me quite a bit. Don't overdo, but try to keep up with it a bit. I PROMISE if you have a good teacher, you will have less pain and it will help you and give your life a great balance that I just can't describe. Although I have missed several weeks of classes, so the next few classes I attend will make me stiff the next day.
from skibigsky :
Being able to explain sex in a way that people don't get embarassed or feel like idiots is an art form. Just think of yourself as saving the world, a small group at a time. Seriously. And Happy Thanksgiving.
from amb1valent-k :
Ah - I read the start of your profile..about home being in the North..missed the meaning of LaLa. Sorry
from ms-turner :
Chocolate... chocolate and a bottle of whiskey and a bout of sex. Dr. Turner's orders.
from second-love :
Im the President of the wacky hormonal club... wanna be the vP? Happy Thanksgiving, hon *hug*
from chickpea981 :
POP!
from ms-turner :
Thank you for the invite, too bad I don't live in CA...
from chickpea981 :
damn woman!
from clarity25 :
Hey, thanks for your kind note over at Meany's place:), Have a good thanksgiving!
from amb1valent-k :
Why thank you! Excuse my poor geography, but are you anyway near San Jose?
from second-love :
"King Tut" hahahaahahahhahahaha LOL too funny
from remingtons :
I plan on having a steamy diary, but I am still a normal guy, and don't need to be constantly entertained with the in's and out's of you ... in's and out's. Plus; Cowgirls are sexy.
from hissandtell :
If I were Einstein's teacher's principal, I would certainly want to hear about that astonishing little encounter; that is beyond the realms of acceptable. Also, don't be concerned about the tit shots - it's perfectly understandable that your friends would want to record those spectacular puppies for posterity. Swoon! Love, R xxx
from domcouple :
The Better question is where is the woman that lost the Bra. There is a woman out there with no support.
from whystinger :
DD-cups in the road! Talk about speed bumps...
from hissandtell :
Road kill bras? Gracious! (I bet the Main Roads Department grabbed them to use as traffic cones - you know, Jean Paul Gaultier in reverse...) Love, R xxx
from hissandtell :
Wlcome back, doll. It all sounds positively sublime (except for the icky bits). So many of my friends say Prague is the nost beautiful city in the world - I'm looking forward to seeing all your photographs. Love, R xxx
from whystinger :
I am jealous... Visiting Vienna and Prague!!! and getting serious sex at home... Same old same old in my house... I have had lots of contact with Europeans over the years and most of them were tourists. I generally found them to be rude as hell. Remember, this was BEFORE the '91 Gulf war and the current action in Iraq. It may just be the cultural differences. Lots of my old customers were Italian, Polish, Russian and German immigrants...
from x-plicity :
Did you experience Prague through and Absinth haze?
from pissymystic :
Welcome home!!!
from lettynow :
I'm lost how'd you end up in vienna? Any how i can't wait till you upload photo's!
from whystinger :
I hope you don't quit... did I sent that before? What do you word do you hate? Tits? Fake tits? I used to hate the word, or rather dislike it. It was used mainly by the "guys" and not around the women. Funny, I hear more and more women saying it. Hell, Terese tells me about her uncle hiring women. I asked aout that and she says "Uncle Danny jes likes big ole titties..." I prefer boobs, sounds a bit better. Trivia? I head that tit should actually be teat, but pronounced as tit...
from hissandtell :
If we don't get to chat before you head off, please accept my wishes for a wunderbar trip, liebchen! (Also, eat many sachertortes on my behalf, and promise you'll dress up in old curtains and run about the place singing and hanging out of trees waving at cruel-lipped men with big shiny top boots and flexy riding crops. Oh, wait; that was Salzburg, wasn't it?) Much love, R xxx
from elliemay23 :
Awww...Vienna. I love their sausages. Tee hee. KIDDING. You have to visit a couple things while you are there. 1)St. Stevens (or maybe it's Stephens) Cathedrial. They have an excellent catacombs tour (if you like that kind of thing). 2)The cemetary where Beethoven, Brahms and numerous other greats are burried. It's beautiful. Oh, and there is this little pub somewhere...you'd have to have someone tell you where it is...but it is in the same building where Beethoven lived when you realized he was deaf. (It's a cool story...just trust me.) Oh I hope you take a ton of pictures. It's absoutely beautiful. Are you staying in Vienna the entire time or will you be taking day trips to places like Salzburg? Sorry...I'm trying to relive my past through Miss Divacowgirl. I hope you have a wonderful time. (and if you can...go to Salzburg. After all...that is where Mozart was born and the Sound of Music was filmed.) Have fun. xoxo, Ellie
from x-plicity :
If you were to leave, you know some of us would have to stalk you. You're one of my favorite reads! *hugs* X
from x-plicity :
You're a good person and one day the girls will get theirs. Karma isn't something people should mess with. *hugs* X
from whystinger :
see you are selling "toys" in notes... what would be a good "non threatening" vibrator I may be able to get to use on Honi. I think she is afraid of the bullet shaped ones, afraid I will ram it up her ass or something silly like that. I wonder if MsTurners vibrating cock ring would help Honi... Ah, well, maybe I would be better off remarrying...
from ms-turner :
Prickly pear? I'm all ears (or rather, eyes) what are the details?
from whystinger :
Glad you are better and glad you guys screwed yourself silly!!!! I am envious:)
from second-love :
WOW good for you!
from x-plicity :
Sassy Diva!!
from maxsmom :
so glad you're feeling better. i did check every day while you were MIA, but (obviously) didn't leave a note. my husband has one of those blackberries, i call it a crackberry because he's completely addicted to it, too. also, have you heard about the "blackberry prayer"? it's when every other person in the room is engaged with the outside world, but the crackberry addict has his/her head bent checking e-mail.
from x-plicity :
Glad to hear you are feeling better. Damn, I would have loved to see your long hair. No pics?
from x-plicity :
Feel Better. *hugs* X
from whystinger :
I hate nasal spray and have to use them myself occasionally... they do suck. kudos for taking the kids out of school for a while... That will be some fun for them and YOU! Hope you guys enjoy the visit
from elliemay23 :
Heck, about once every 8-10 weeks my mom would take me out of school for a day just so i could go shopping or something like that with her. She never took me to [email protected] though. That bitch. he he he. xoxo, Ellie
from whystinger :
I have a touch of arthritis in my knees too. Never really had problems till I hit forty... You can hear 'em poping and creaking up the stairs... I found out (researched) that by strengthening the knee muscles, it supports them better and less pain... found special exercises, but they are a pain in the ass and the regular w/o exercises seem to really help (and the yoga too). Shoulders were a surprise because they hurt so often and I had begun to lose movement. After exercising, I now have NO pain and restored movement. Only have trouble if I don't exercise for a few weeks now...
from whystinger :
Long hair... covering the breasts... Why you little tease, I have a good image in my head now... Hope the meeting went well and you weren't too bored...
from ms-turner :
Women are COMPLAINING that their man goes for an hour? Holy crap, if they don't want him, send him my way. As long as he knows foreplay! :-) I've got longer hair too... and I'm just to damn lazy to do anything with it. Airdrying seems to work out well, just carry a brush with you to get the tangles.
from bluemeany :
Oooh, I so much want porn star hair! Right now I have schoolmarm hair, and it is Ucky.
from second-love :
Girl......... you need to get laid :)))))))))
from elliemay23 :
After reading that, I'm picturing you singing, "Don't you wish your girlfriend were hot like me?" I think porn hair suits you. I once was told I had porn fingernails. (Long, french manicure) I think if you'd put the two together LB would be in trouble. xoxo, Ellie
from x-plicity :
Wow... the diva now has porn hair!! What's the world to do?! *hugs* X
from chickpea981 :
Hahaha you said SEX weeks! Fruedian slip? "I have to have mine rushed because I leave in sex weeks!!!!" I love you.
from onewetleg :
you two are really cute. hehe! tell me again what oa is, please. and oh, i'm getting some tonight and you aren't. :P
from lettynow :
Whats with teenagers and jumping out of moving cars! Anyways you guys are so cute!! Were you in my hood this weekend? What's you think of good ole fontucky??? That's what we call it.
from nilliem :
And thank you...for adding me! Moonfaerry was the person who sent me your way.
from bindyree :
My goodness, what a pretty baby you made! Einstein is lovely, just like his mom. :)
from onewetleg :
sounds like a great party. happy belated. ty for your comments at mine. a hug is just what i need right now. maybe a little kiss, too. :) love ~jj
from second-love :
Good GOD <thud> im collapsing from exhaustion at all you do... not ANOTHER one to add to the fray :)
from lonelylatina :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! YAY! have a good one diva.
from x-plicity :
email me your address ([email protected]) so I can send you a birthday card!! *hugs* X
from gumphood :
23! well you must be hot then, and you can't blame a guy for being interested. thats very amusing.
from hissandtell :
You're a cruel woman, doll. And here was I all ready to ask what you used last night. x
from x-plicity :
Sassy!!!!
from second-love :
YOu GO girl.. HOT HOT HOT
from g-ladon :
Was hoping to learn the name of your "other" diary. I really enjoy reading your entries. You can e-mail me: [email protected] Have a great weekend.
from lonelylatina :
wow! hot mama :)
from x-plicity :
Yeah, I expected the Diva to have a great rack. No surprise to me. *grin*
from hissandtell :
Those are *your* bosoms, baby? Seriously, I thought they were Heidi Klum's. They're utterly sensational, but then again I'd expect nothing less from an aging goddess/sex bomb who carries prophylactics in her handbag! Love, R xxx
from witchful :
"Other"? Give up the goods, please!?
from chickpea981 :
take a picture of sleepy boy, create an external email account that not connected to your name, send it in an email to everyone including the boss. "messengers are bad, but I guess sleeping is okay?" Then again, don't listen to me. I'm on job #5 this year
from whystinger :
Thanks for the link to Cavenders... I need a new pair of boots... Last ones are still really nice, but too small... Bought on a trip to Wyoming... I had hoped to see a pic of your ass in the new jeans;) Have a great trip... to Bakersfuckingfield!
from whystinger :
Why are y'all down to sex once a week? My sympathies... I know exactly how you feel, I am lucky if I get it once a week. Why don't you call my wife and offer to trade husbands... I wouldn't mind...
from x-plicity :
Wow...if my sig. ot. ever forgot to put money aside for my birtday, I'd throw a big hissy fit!
from skibigsky :
'Once a week' *sigh. With the husband's physical issues at the moment, it's all been, ah, solo. Which sucks. Big time. (And so now I'm even more depressed. Especially since it's not his fault, and I don't even have anyone to blame!) But I'm totally with Hiss. A household budget? Oh man. We tossed out the word 'budget' about a week after I moved in. To dare suggest that you take money for your birthday out of a household budget? Feed him fried mush for a week, and then tell him it's because you wanted to treat yourself, and something had to be sacrificed!
from hissandtell :
You have a household budget? Oh, seriously, he needs a good slapping for that. I suggest you immediately forget about domestic crap and set up a rival substantial Hairdressing Budget instead, and stick to it. Or, don't stick to it, and simply abuse it capriciously if you'd prefer. And what kind of training was the fellow seeking? Gracious! Were you wearing your boots and toying with your whip over the pappadums and raita, missy? And finally (I think, at least), you don't need a licence (or even a penis) to be a sex goddess, as you well know. All you need to know is how to break all the rules and all the hearts, doll. (And sometimes all the furniture.) Much love, R xxx
from hissandtell :
Divapie, are you still writing in your other (locked) diary, or is it closed for the season? Please let me know if you're updating and sharing the password. Love, R xxx
from whystinger :
My wife is still stuck in the "sex is sticking a dick in her vagina stage (at 50). WHy don't you trade husbands with my wife...LOL
from onewetleg :
oo comments are fun. you should make them all quotes from the person's diary. when something makes you scream laughing or says something that just makes so much sense it hurt, make that the comment. ok, im done telling you what to do now, go do what you will. oops, i'm still doing it. i'll just go. thanks for the congrats. did you know, that i say 'jazz hands' in real life? its a wonderful gesture and a great expression. love, jj
from hissandtell :
Yes, I agree that many young girls lack sexual education. My high school and university students - despite their bravado - always seem to have an awful lot of startlingly obvious questions to ask. And yes, of course I'm impressed you've been up fucking since the wee hours! Me too! (It's not quite 7 am here...) (Ahem - Orgasms: Why it's important I have ONE?) Oh, and you poor darling. Lockjaw is most definitely not fun. What a bugger. (So anyway - I am indeed looking forward to the development of your syllabus, darling.) Love, R xxx
from x-plicity :
I need an education when it comes to sex too. I'm so clueless sometimes! Um...you keep needles in your EARS?! That made me cringe!!!
from x-plicity :
You're not a stupid girl. The heart just kind of does things to us that makes us a little unstable. I wish I could give you some advice that could help, but all I can give is my *hugs* and my thoughts. X
from second-love :
You are an "AWESOME, at times confused, but overall just like the rest of us", girl. And i cry like a baby on the phone all the time - thats what we DO... so what! I know all the confusion you are feeling right now - the desire to run instead of deal, the STRONG desire to just do whatever you can do to NOT feel all the crap. I guess all i meant today was that i PACKED the "emotion" away and what was left was all the feeling. I didnt know that they COULD be separated. THAT is what has helped me. The emotion is what screwed us all up all the time. I still FEEL everything for him, for us... but i can somehow control it all better (or at least it seems that way)... hang in there XXXX000
from onewetleg :
it was fine, sweetie, thanks for asking. how was yours? (see how hard is that?)
from elliemay23 :
How am I supposed to get details if I don't know what your other diary is? xoxo, Ellie
from witchful :
Hey, what instant message program do you use? If it's AIM, I'm thepalegypsy if you ever want to say hello. :)
from hissandtell :
Oh, silly, of course you can talk about butt plugs every day - I do! And I swear - if I had the choice of getting lucky (heh - I just accidentally typed "licky" - hehe) or hanging out with you, I'd do my very best to combine the two... Love, R xxx
from x-plicity :
*hugs*
from chickpea981 :
You bet your sweet ass thats a weird combination but you know it's exactly what you'd want if you were in prison. *muah*
from hissandtell :
I understand that the dubious pleasures of grocery shopping are greatly enhanced by the addition of a butt plug and a tiara (and possibly even some lightweight nipple clamps) to one's normal domestic-goddess apparel. Not that I'm speaking from first-hand experience, of course. Love, R xxx
from x-plicity :
I think I need to get edumacated....what's a but plug? I know!!! How Naive am I?
from second-love :
Hey i liked the "crack" but thats just me :)))
from banefulvenus :
Nice pics! Loved the tractor boy! ha ha
from onewetleg :
nice pictures! your cleavage rules!
from bluemeany :
You are awesome! That was a magnificent tractor. I think I need to go look at it again.
from hissandtell :
Wait ... I'm confused. What were your spectacular bosoms doing in your teeth? (Wonderful photographs, darling diva - especially the gratuitous one.) Love, R xxx
from onewetleg :
i had a similar problem yesterday. co-worker didn't want his salad so i took it an put it in the work fridge. yum! salad for dinner! i got off the bus at the grocery store and went in. hm what do i want to eat? salad? aaaa! i left my salad at work over the weekend! i was so mad i bought a tv dinner. blasted memory.
from hissandtell :
What a bugger. I guess if you can't accept his thoughtless cakey-theft with a song in your heart, and forgive him his fucking rudeness, you'll just have to punish him by eating something of his. Or something. Love, R xxx
from x-plicity :
...I want to be a toy whore....
from heidiann :
I think we should definitely get together for lunch or coffee or booze or whatever it is normal people get together for these days. =)
from ms-turner :
The garter belt is being busted out with the corset during his trip home, so I'm just forgoing all under things and jumping his DCU-clad ass in the back of the car. There are times I love having an SUV.
from whystinger :
Sorry to hear about the TMJ. AMI had TMI and I remember while we made out, the jaw would pop and crack... Cool vacation trip pics! Gotta have evening party lights on a travel trailer. Is it yours? If so, COOL!!! I am envious!
from moonfaeryy :
Thanks for adding me to your list! I'm looking forward to going thru your archives! Awesome pics by the way, love the redneck oven shutter!
from ms-turner :
Hell honey, come to Ft. Stewart. We buy sex toys like nothing else. At least the girls in my circle do... save for 2 frumpy women (they still use the little girl voice to talk about sex, it's creepy). If you head out this way, let me know, we'll set up a party.
from hissandtell :
What do you mean I didn't put out? I ALWAYS put out on a good date, baby! (Especially when I'm drunk.) Okay, here's my favourite barnyard joke for you: Q. What did the rooster say to the hen? A. I'm going to fuck you then. (Because, you know, it's all over in two seconds - oh, never mind.) Love the photos, darling. Smooches, R xxx
from bluemeany :
That is the sexiest tractor I have ever seen. I think I need some alone time now.
from lettynow :
Looked like my kind od vacation... I shal email you!! For other details.
from iambucket :
of course, like many others I am sure, I found you thru chez hiss! Loved the pics of the rolling castle, especially the nighttime one showing the large candle compliments of "Off", lol. Being a minnesotan, I FULLY understand the importance and necessity of such adornments! Bucket
from lettynow :
I hope you start feeling better!!
from second-love :
I'm with ya. I'm just done... pass the barbed wire.
from skibigsky :
"Great, he's not confident and I have to drink." You've summed up my life in a nutshell! Not to worry - we WILL all get through this. Beats the hell out of me HOW, exactly, but we will survive!
from elliemay23 :
I READ IT!!! I READ IT!!! Yep, I'm complaining...I don't know why though. It's not like 29 is old. I guess next year will be the first anniversary of my 29th birthday. Have a good day. xoxo, Ellie
from x-plicity :
I have a question. It's a sex question. I have trouble achieving the big O during oral. Always have. Mike is really good at it, but I still can't...you know. What should I do Oh All knowing Diva?
from hissandtell :
I read it too, darling! And time alone to masturbate is always fun. Actually, even time together to masturbate is fun: especially if that rubber-suit and pirate-costume-thingy is happening. But perhaps I should just try and get some sleep now. Love, R xxx
from second-love :
I READ... and i can relate :))) I would die without my electronic friend :)
from nicim :
Hi Diva. Got to you through another friend here. try [email protected] for a nice template. She did mine (for just a few dollars) and I love it. Try www.clubphoto.com for pictures. you can make albums others can see - free unless you want platinum status. I like that site better than Snapfish, which is another one. (or just use the software that came with your camera...you can keep the albums right on your own computer, and some allows you to SEND the albums to other people - but you can't share them with the world). PS: I used to do parties for VIP (Very Important Playthings). We may have something in common!!
from arc-angel666 :
8 and a half inches? Big Deal I'm only shy 5 and a half from John Holmes now that's a big man :-) I can't figure what's all the talk about Butt sex, it was only a thumb? The opening I talked about was the Vagina, okay maybe their Clairvoyant and are talking about my next entry :-)
from x-plicity :
What does a master do? Is it one of those kinky things I'm totally naive about?
from skibigsky :
Big hugs to you on the suckage-ness of the week, and happy thoughts to you about the other, ah, opportunties! *grin
from second-love :
Im excited for you... good luck with your new business!
from witchful :
Hey, I just wanted to let you know that if the thing that worried you about that IP was the amount of time the person spent on your page, it might have been me; I have been reading your archives. :)
from x-plicity :
No Smut! Damn! *giggle*
from onewetleg :
yeah, photobucket, that's what i was going to say you just load the photo from your puter and it gives you the code then you stick it where you want it. it's free up to 500 images then you pay $25 bucks for unlimited images. i use the hell out of it.
from elliemay23 :
I recomend photobucket. It's free and easy. You just cut and past the tag into your entry. Easy-peasy-jap-an-easy. (ala Shawshank) That's what I use and it's great. xoxo, Ellie
from skibigsky :
Thanks for the email - I really appreciate it. As for fat cats... Hmm. I may have to post a picture of my Maine Coon. Talk about FAT!!! I swear, he weighs like 25 pounds. He certainly weighs more than my smalled poodle....
from hissandtell :
Please may I make obsequience at your feet and lick your whip, O Dungeon Diva? Yep, that is pretty fucking cool indeed, and it sounds like the perfect job for you, darling. Have a wonderful vacation and eat and drink yourself silly - get full all the way up to pussy's bow, in fact! Love, R xxx
from second-love :
Hmmmmm you and G sound so much like 2 other people i know :)))) Good luck on the "job" and get that cat a girlfriend!
from ms-turner :
I'm sorry sweetie. When Jonathan died, the news was everywhere. I had to watch my brother face death at such a young age and these vultures in three piece suits shove the grief of family and friends into the faces of everyone else. I considered it par for the course that I didn't break a camera or the nose of one of the schmucks during the funeral and graveside service.
from elliemay23 :
That is sad news. We just marked the one year anniversary of our officers death and I still can't believe that it happened to one of our guys. I'm not fond of that black band either. xoxo, Ellie
from chickpea981 :
I'm not sure pathetic is a big enough word to describe him
from lettynow :
I m adding you..
from x-plicity :
You must bith while using your PMS powers! It's always very satisfying.*grin*
from elliemay23 :
Thanks, I appreciate it. I'm sure it will be fine too, but I'm still a little nervous. I dreamed last night that they couldn't knock me out. UGH. Have a good day. xoxo, Ellie
from bevanandjen :
I haven't left you a note lately. Just wanted to give you some emotional support. I am glad that the case went relatively okay. (((hug)))
from chickpea981 :
I have a habit of leaving diary windows open for hours on end - its possible it was me
from ms-turner :
Christian Bale is the only Batman I've been willing to drop the $8 on. Let me ride in the car, and I'll do him whenever he wants. :-)
from skibigsky :
eesh. Doesn't sound like it was a whole lot of fun, but it does sound like the judge had a pretty good perspective on things. And it's not my fault that I've traveled around a lot - my parents are nomads (heck, my Dad went to Malaysia 2 years ago for a friend's wedding, and then 6 months he and my Mom went to Cyprus for another friend's wedding). These people LOVE to travel, and dragged their children through most of the free world. Of course, now that I have no travel privileges, If it's not within a day's driving distance, and doesn't have good skiing, I don't go anywhere!
from hissandtell :
Yep, it sounds rough, darling - but it also sounds as if the judge had a bit of an inkling of the sordid intricacies of such things. What a huge relief it must be! Stay strong, live well and keep us posted. Love, R xxx
from ms-turner :
*sigh* Between ex-wives and ex-girlfriends, a wife never gets any peace! Sorry I haven't been commenting, but I was worried I'd spend an hour spewing about the horrible people that seem to be EVERYWHERE! Hang in there honey, only 10 more months, and then you'll be down one worry... That which doesn't kill us only pisses us off. :-)
from x-plicity :
I agree with Chickpea when she says J ans sis are spoiled little shits. Hang in there, I'm praying for you.
from chickpea981 :
you know, reading all the drama between you and hubbys kids has left me not wanting to comment at all lately. It's nothing personal to you but I think sometimes I just instantly side with the kid in the situation because when it comes down to it, how much is really the kids fault? Add on to that the fact that I had a fucking cunt for a stepmom and a lunatic for a mother and again sometimes I think I just instantly side with kids. So this note doesn't entirely have a point other than to say I do read but I just refrain from comment because I'm afraid it will be all emotional and have nothing to do with you. Plus, I think J and sis are completely spoiled little shits and I feel like a hypocrite for that too. Does any of that make sense? Oy.
from x-plicity :
Hang in there!! You're a strong cookie!!!
from x-plicity :
J needs a LOT of tough love.
from ms-turner :
Sleeping Beauty is my favorite Disney movie as well. I've got one of the original posters, from 1959, framed on the wall in my office. :-D And a Princess Aurora bank of course!
from supermom3604 :
Thanks! I don't think that's it either, but I think I'm still going to keep bugging the doctor. I mean, the kid has lumps on his neck. It can't be normal.
from second-love :
DAMN *shaking head back and forth*... when i hear stuff like that it makes me glad my step-daughter ran back to her moms and never came back. It hurt like hell for a long time but i think its easier now *hugs*
from skibigsky :
I completely understand the college thing. While the Ph.D. Has finally started to pay off (well, sort of), I got mine because I wanted one. Not because of some great career goals, or any of that crap. I got one because it was on my 'Life's To Do' list. If you ever want moral support with the school thing (well, anything else, too, but being a former professional student, I can really provide support on the school thing), feel free to drop me a line. I'm cheering for you all the way!!!!
from second-love :
yeah... its nutty and its exhausting - but im finally in a place where i just dont worry so much about what his problems are in regards to me. I really have too many other things to be stressed about, so maybe my priorities have finally fallen into place? Glad you are back :))))
from bevanandjen :
All right, all right. Here is my question: if there was one person in your life that would just disappear, and not the ex-bitch, who would it be?
from supermom3604 :
Wait, I do have a question. How did you find out about Einstein's congenital defect? Lukas has all these lumps in his neck that the doctors have been dismissing as swollen lymph nodes, but they've been there for over a year. Should I be more concerned?
from skibigsky :
Okay. So I just wasn't paying attention. (That often happens when I'm reading diaries when I'm supposed to be working....) What is the one thing you feel you must accomplish in your life before you die?
from x-plicity :
*homer simpson drool* Mmmm....Tostitos....
from secondwife :
Woah - so much going on! Kudos to you for calling J; I hope it all turns out okay. I think that all that you've gone through with your husband's girls shows how great a mom and step-mom you are, so I don't see your ex holding that against you (not that I can predict these things, of course).
from x-plicity :
What's your favorite snack food? Please describe it in detail! *can you tell I'm starving?*
from elliemay23 :
Are you OK? You haven't updated in a while and I just wanted to check on you. xoxo, Ellie
from arc-angel666 :
Hi Diva: Your 100th! My last entry was number 69. So how did that dream work out for ya? :-)
from hissandtell :
Oh, doll. It sounds like there are a lot of people around you at the moment who need a damned good flogging - or a few good sharp pinches, at the very least. Now, you don't have room for just one more in your foursome, do you? I'd be verrry interested...especially in the pirate and that rubber suit. Love, R xxx
from second-love :
Well...i think you know how i feel about having an unlocked diary. Of course, i am doing something things that warranted really protecting myself, but i dont think i would want to risk ANY of my stuff getting "out there". I'm sorry if some people have not been kind. Fortunately, i have not had to deal with that happening... so locking is definately something to consider. What are the benefits of keeping it UNlocked? Hang in there *hugs*
from x-plicity :
Reading your last entry reminded me a lot of Vince. The way you couldn't do anything for himself and when I asked him to do something for me he would raise a fuss. It makes you wonder how much of value you really are. *hugs* Sweetie.
from second-love :
I share your pain over the "petty" stuff. My hubby drives me NUTS when he does the EXACT same thing! Which account do i use to buy milk??? pffffffffff how long have we been married??? 15 years???? get a GRIP! Am i your mother??? hahahaha i understand :)))))
from supermom3604 :
Ugh. I feel the same way, like I have two little kids and one big retarded one. It's pretty sad when I have a meeting one night out of 365 and he calls me three times asking what to feed the boys, where the diapers are, and what they're supposed to wear to bed. Uh, food, where they always have been, and how about pajamas? I'm sorry you have to deal with the same shit because I know it makes me tear my hair out!
from x-plicity :
Who doesn't dislike their spouse once in a while. There are always going to be times that you can't stand hubby, but just remember all of the times that he made up for it. THe way you right about him sometimes, it's obvious that you're still really crazy about him, even when he's being a jerk. lol *hugs*
from chickpea981 :
$250? that's it? Damn yo. I spent $120 on myself alone at the toy party I went to. And I know other folks walked home with some $100 g-spot vibes. Also, hey man! You've all read the shit I've gone through to get to this good piece of ass! I'll trade you the dog lover, the committment phobe, and the liar if you would prefer.
from second-love :
Yeah... damn that chickpea!!!! she puts the rest of us to shame. OUr weekends sound similar... everytime i thought i might actually have some "fun" - some kind of work got in the way - it blows. Hope your week is better!!
from second-love :
hahahaah you DEF need sex :))) Glad to have you back... i was also getting worried - but i know how that goes... ive been having more than my share of the deep dark recesses of the soul. Its hard to get motivated about anything. *hugs*
from x-plicity :
Honey...you need to get laid. *grin*
from x-plicity :
Me time is the best time. Enjoy, hon. You deserve it.
from elliemay23 :
Woo Hoo....You're back. I was starting to get a little worried about you. I'm glad you're feeling better and I'm sorry the exbitch is still giving you hell...even if in smaller doses. It still sucks. I was going to start a recipe a week but I only did one because you were AWOL. Now I can start again. Hope you have a good day. xoxo, Ellie
from chickpea981 :
Thank you! Thank you! I wish I could take credit for them, but alas I cannot. 95% of them are song lyrics or movie quotes. They are so much easier to use than coming up with my own useless description. I stole the idea from a friend of mine. Glad to see you are okay. I was gonna send you an IM last night but umm... someone got my attention instead.
from x-plicity :
I'm glad to see you're doing alright. I was getting worried! *hugs*
from x-plicity :
Harems are so much work. *wink*
from arc-angel666 :
Yeah Baby A Camo Truck! It has a Blinking light Trailor Hitch, big Bosom girl mud flaps,Elk Antlers on the hood and a White tail deer's tail on the tailgate. AND Vibratin passenger seat for the Ladies...Yeah Baby!
from x-plicity :
Have fun, Sassy!!!
from x-plicity :
It's hard when there are more then two people involved in a marriage. *hugs*
from ponfarr :
I definitely think you should start a sex diary. It's very therapeutic. Plus I am looking forward to reading it! ;)
from therertimes :
Very cool
from arc-angel666 :
Good Morning: And I do hope it is a good morning for you. It seems those are in short supply for you. Sorry to hear of your troubles and worry. I wish there was something I could do for you. Have you thought of beating the Ex senseless, it would certainly make you feel better...but then again you'd have to go to jail...but before they come and arrest you, you could be the attending Nurse which would offer you one more shot at her before you go to the gray bar hotel. Sorry my solutions seem to bring short term relief :-) Honey hang in there Life will get better.
from therertimes :
Hiya hiya! I haven't read any of your entries yet.. will tho to be nosey :) I saw a comment you left in chickpea's note sections.. about clit creams n' seling bullets... do you do the fantasia home party kind of stuff or do ya work in a store?
from x-plicity :
I want to write something supportive and wonderful that will make your day....I just don't have the brain to right now. So, how about a *hug*?
from radiogurl :
Hey, if you find any of that mind- and body-blowing sex without all the crap associated with a "relationship," mind sharing how you found it? I don't think I'd want it all the time, but there are definitely those days...
from second-love :
I've been there and i totally understand...and i know asking you how i can help WONT help, so i wont ask... but im with ya... *hug*
from true-diamond :
Hi I know what you mean about getting a new job. I'm currently looking 4 work myself. I like the learning new things stuff. Guess that makes me kinda dorky too. I like your diary. Have a good day.
from bevanandjen :
When I went to editing school, I learned that until recent times the exclamation mark was called a shriek. That makes me use it rather sparingly. Call it a shriek and you will too.
from x-plicity :
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from elliemay23 :
Oh my. Vienna is wonderful. We spent 2 days is Salzburg (where Sound of Music was filmed) and 2 days in Vienna. It's one of the most beautiful cities. If my scanner wasn't a biotch I'd send you some pics. I don't know how in to classical music you are, but you can visit the cemetary where many of the musicians are burried...Beethoven, Brahms, etc...Oh, and there's a pub there somewhere (can't remember where exactally) that we ate at that was Beethovens home when he realized he went deaf. Anyways...pretty cool. I hope you get to go. It's wonderful. xoxo, Ellie
from elliemay23 :
Hey there. Just wanted to say hi. Oh, and what part of Austria are you going to be visiting? I was there a few years ago and I loved it. Have you been before? Have a great day. xoxo, Ellie
from skibigsky :
Oh yeah. (Kicks self.) Take care of yourself. Really.
from skibigsky :
Damn. I'm SO glad that Mr. Volatile and his Ex don't have kids. We ended up with the poodles, and all hence all the child support, and she is effectively out of our lives. (Well, not really, but that's another story.) My thoughts are with you more than may come across here.
from x-plicity :
Holy CRAP!!!! Relax, take deep breaths and try not to let the exbitch and brood get to you. *hugs* Feel better!!!!
from bootsnbuckls :
Like many of us have said here . , take a deep breath, you'll survive. We all have..and people will continue to make it through things like this. The better person will persevere. Hang in there hun.
from hissandtell :
Oh, darling, I'm so very sorry. You know she's grasping at straws - like all desperate people do - and that the ludicrous claims she's making are simply frivolous and vexatious, and will not be taken seriously by those authorities who deal with these sort of whiny childish "she said/she did" incidents on a regular basis. But when you say the damage has already been done, it really makes me sad. I can completely understand how hollow and exhausted you feel, but I want you to remember that that's all part of the game plan whenever evil people take this kind of action. If you can't be bothered fighting because you feel cowed and beaten, she's not going to have to prove a thing. Oh, I'm sounding obvious, I know - but I hope you can find enough fight in yourself still not to acccept this unfairness and bullying - NEVER to accept it. Go to ground for a while and lick your wounds until you can regroup, and then come out biting and scratching so the poor foolish bitch doesn't know what's hit her. Love, R xxx
from bevanandjen :
Hugs to you. Keep your wits about you. take a deep breath and it will work out okay. :)
from x-plicity :
Just keep a cool head and let exbitch make herself look bad. Continue with your own filing, or whatever you call it (I'm stupid about legal shit) and she what seems more resonable infront of a judge.
from second-love :
When i say "i understand" you KNOW i do! ITs a tough, tough situation and so unfortunate that everyone cant just work harder at making it a BETTER more positive situation. Obviously the ex has only one agenda... and thats sad - and look what she is teaching the girls!!! There are just no winners in this situation. Hang in there girl... ill try to catch up with ya on the IM later *hugs*
from elliemay23 :
Ick. I'm so sorry. I don't really have any advice though so just know if I were there I'd give you a BIG HUG!!! ((((HUG)))) xoxo, Ellie
from secondwife :
Ugh, how sad. I'm so sorry you have to go through this and I hope you are able to find strength somewhere. I know you can be strong!
from supermom3604 :
I'm sorry. How horribly unfair. Hang in there and we can only hope that since it's all lies, the courts will figure that out.
from second-love :
been there, done that... i can totally relate... hang in there girl
from x-plicity :
Dear God, Please make Exbitch a bird. So she can fly. Far, far away. Amen.
from second-love :
ahhhhhh yes... the divided mind and heart IS the killer. You are SO right!
from x-plicity :
You're an excellent mom and an excellent wife! *hugs*
from elliemay23 :
I'm glad to see that you have not washed away in all that mess out there. I'm also glad that you and hubby are doing much better. Have a good day. xoxo, Ellie
from arc-angel666 :
Thanks for the well wishes I am feeling better. And I missed you too. I was thinking of you today. You being a Cowgirl and me a Cowboy (okay a TV and Film Cowboy) but I do ride and well I might add. I remembered that You and I might go riding someday..well, A horse got stuck in the mud out here in Malibu and you came to mind...Me and a beautiful Red Head two horses and stuck in the mud...Hmmmm...wonder what that means? See I'm feeling a lot better :-)
from arc-angel666 :
Thanks for the well wishes I am feeling better. And I missed you too. I was thinking of you today. You being a Cowgirl and me a Cowboy (okay a TV and Film Cowboy) but I do ride and well I might add. I remembered that You and I might go riding someday..well, A horse got stuck in the mud out here in Malibu and you came to mind...Me and a beautiful Red Head two horses and stuck in the mud...Hmmmm...wonder what that means? See I'm feeling a lot better :-)
from x-plicity :
It's hard when some people are more serious about something then others. Espcially when another human being in distress is involved. I would go crazy with frustration. *hugs* Take a long nap.
from second-love :
Oh i couldnt agree MORE! Why cant people just take their responsibilities seriously!?? For those of us who do... it can be VERY frustrating. Hang in there... i too woke up quite aggitated today. *sigh*
from second-love :
It seems as if we are ALL going through a bit of contemplation... looking at our lives, re-evaluating what matters and what is important. I'm with ya girl!
from chickpea981 :
take a teeny tiny little dab of vicks vapo rub and put it right in your nostril. If that doesn't make you breathe through your nose, nothing will!
from hissandtell :
Awww...when I first read your entry I thought you said you were considering trip to AUSTRALIA in October, and my heart went pitter-patter. (And I suppose technically you did kill off the ex-bitch's boyfriend, since by virtue of your husband falling in love with and marrying you, he's dead to her evil grasping claws and evil manipulative mind now - emotionally, at least.) Hope you feel better soon. Love, R xxx
from second-love :
ahhh i HATE being sick. I use Afrin for the stuffy part... LOVE that stuff and would be dead without it!!!! Hope you feel better sweetie and that your bookings work out!
from x-plicity :
Feel better and at least get a little rest. *hugs*
from x-plicity :
Big *hugs*!!!!!
from hissandtell :
Well, my first score was 565, and I wasn't sure how to feel about that. So I re-took the test and changed a couple of answers from "already have" to just a plain "yes" and lowered it to a still-respectable 515. As breathtaken1 said in my comments, though - "I didn't realize most of that stuff was considered kinky. I thought that was what you are SUPPOSED to do!" Love and smooches, R xxx
from deardevlyn :
Welcome, thanks for checking me out and making me a favorite.
from onewetleg :
My Hotlanta Kink Test score was 545! ha! welcome back
from x-plicity :
Missed you!
from x-plicity :
People can be so petty sometimes.
from supermom3604 :
That is exactly why I hate working in an office full of women. At least you are far more mature than the rest of them.
from hissandtell :
Oh, darling. This doesn't sound like you at all. Maybe the extra workouts will help balance things out and send you rolling back into waves of frenzied desire? Having said that, I do know first-hand what killers stress and exhaustion are for passion, even in goddesses like us - and things are sounding less than wonderful for you and your husband right now. Keep fighting and don't let the evil ex-bitch get the upper hand, but remember that living well is the best revenge. I'm thinking of you and hoping everything gets back on track very soon. Love, R xxx
from ponfarr :
Actually, I think I started reading because I was interested in an intelligent woman's perspective on dealing with her husband's bitchy ex. Then I just got hooked. :) Hope you enjoy reading my diary, I think it's going to heat back up a bit next week if things go as half-planned.
from elliemay23 :
I can totally be a bitch. I think it's our God given right as women or something. Have a great day. xoxo, Ellie
from arc-angel666 :
Thanks for the note and well wishes. I think its a staff infection from surfing right after our first heavy rain storm. Nasty stuff runs into the Ocean after the first big storm and I know better but the waves were nearly perfect...anyway I'll know soon. Today I learned no VD of any kind which is nice, no HIV or AIDS which is good. But I know what the Doctors are thinking, when I was younger I had Acute Lymphocytic Leukemia and they freak every time my White blood cell count goes up, plus the Bloody noses have them sweating a bit...but I really don't think thats it. I remember every bit of that hell and I don't feel that kind of feeling at all. I told the one doctor today to have a drink and relax that I'm fine, which made her laugh. Anyway the Waves have been huge again but the water is still really dirty and I think I've learned my lesson so i'll stay out of it for a while. So where is this place where the women are skanky? :-) One more question Your Hubby ask about Anal Lube?
from heidiann :
Hi! Bitch magazine is so completely bad ass. I think everyone in the world should have a subscription! Their website is http://bitchmagazine.com/ Let me know if I've created a convert. =) Also, I lived in West Covina for more than two years and never even knew there were CLUBS there.
from x-plicity :
I have a pair of Hottie pants! I use them for belly dancing. I have this practice skirt that is just a bunch of fabric strung together and when the back piece moves you can see it. LOL
from jewel8 :
Hi, I'm a new reader and thought I should say Hello. "Hello" I hope you don't mind. Can't say my journal is as interesting.
from intimacies :
Like the name :-) Just found you and I think you're a keeper. Mind if I add you?
from x-plicity :
I know what you mean. Abe's wife has been reading my diary almost everyday. It's frustrating.
from second-love :
Hope you get over this crud... i know my little one had it for more than a week...hang in there!
from x-plicity :
Can you live with me? I need some good food around here. Budget Gormet gets old after a while. *grin*
from krugerpak007 :
When I had my nose pierced I suffered from sinus and used to sneeze all the time. My nose ring would go shooting out of my nose and everyone would end up on the floor looking for it. Lovely! Feel better honey! xoxox Kathy
from elliemay23 :
Isn't it amazing what men will try and do while you're sick...not to mention what they ask for from time to time. "Honey, it would be sooo nice if I could get some oral pleasure." Don't they know how hard that is to do when you can breathe through your nose. xoxo, Ellie
from krugerpak007 :
Honey, feel better and take care at work, take it easy! xoxox
from krugerpak007 :
Sorry I have been such a bad diary friend! I can imagine how crap it was to read his words. men. i will never ever understand them. At the moment they simply repulse me. You are sweet, and I am glad you are physically feeling better. Take care of yourself and I promise to try and catch up more. I have been awful. xoxox Kathy
from hissandtell :
Oh, doll. It sounds like you need to take a bit of time out to do wild sex, have some rest and get some pampering to feel fabulous again. Then you can come out fighting and roaring, and not even dream of taking on board this sort of shit from other people. No one should have the power to make you feel this crappy about yourself. Honestly, just hold your head up and fuck 'em. Love, R xxx
from arc-angel666 :
Hi and thanks for the notes. I'm fine and so is my home. Fire Department escorted us on the road to our individual homes. They let us check our homes, property and pack up stuff we needed. Apparently we can't use our little road for a day or so. They said only one home has any damage. Most of us put in huge storm drains about 5 years ago, then of course we had drought for 5 years but I am so glad we did! Fire Department said we can go home Thursday. Since you live here in Southern Cal. You know there were 38 people just north of me that were killed in the Ventura landslide. The Sun's out but there is still a lot of flooding going on in Orange County. Sorry to hear you aren't feeling well. Smile Honey. Your face is way too Pretty to have a frown on it :-)
from supermom3604 :
It was probably a combination of the stress, the exhaustion, and a migraine. I hope, anyway. I did make an appointment with the doctor, and hopefully he will agree. I hope you didn't hurt yourself walking into the dresser!
from x-plicity :
Feel better!!! *hugs*
from secondwife :
Sorry you're sick and sorry you and your husband are going through this stuff with his girls. I really think he's doing the right thing by going each Sunday, as tiresome as that might be!
from elliemay23 :
I sure am sorry that you are feeling bad. I hate being sick. Hope you get better soon. *big hug* xoxo, Ellie
from supermom3604 :
I hope you're feeling better soon. I hate being sick.
from second-love :
Can you PLEASE tell me what "OA" stands for...i have an idea or two but im not sure... drivin me NUTS *grin*... and thanks for the note... did i apologize??? I didnt mean to if i did BUT i just didnt want any of my true buddies to think i was dissin em cuz i wasnt!!! *grin* (generally im not a big 'apologizer' hahahahahhah)
from dangerspouse :
Hi DC - I am so sorry I forgot to respond to your request for a recipe. I'd like to say I was swamped with Important Adult Duties, but in reality I'm just an airhead. Look for an e-mail shortly. Good luck in the new OA position!! :)
from krugerpak007 :
Just wanted to say good luck for your new position and wish you a wonderful 2005 bringing you everything you need and want and only good things! xoxoxox Kathy
from hissandtell :
So do you have a biohazard stencil lying around the house? Seriously, I'm sad to hear your visit with Ms E was such a letdown. As you say, all you can do is keep fighting for her until a judge decides otherwise - or not. I think you're magnificent. (And obviously you're an alchemist with a pot roast, too: not to mention a girl who knows exactly how to get the most out of a spare minute or ten.) Love, R xxx
from supermom3604 :
Aww, thanks for the plug. And no, I haven't taken down my Christmas decorations. Who knows when I will get around to it now. I'm trying to avoid anything potentially upsetting to Lukas, so they will probably still be up in March!
from x-plicity :
I'm so sorry to hear about E. She's at that age where everything she does is for a selfish reason. I wouldn't be surprised if Exbitch had somthing to do with it as well. *hugs*
from arc-angel666 :
Your a Preacher's Daughter? Oh my! One of the most outrageous,increbily wild and tremedously satisfying sex and one of the sweetest relationships was with a Preacher's Daughter. Thanks for the New Year wishes and the supportive note I appreciated it.
from x-plicity :
Happy New Year and I'm glad yours was nice. *wink wink*
from hissandtell :
Tote bags? Did you say "tote bags", diva? For carrying sex toys around in, do you mean? Ooooh. I'm off to amazon IMMEDIATELY to check them out. Love, R xxx
from second-love :
ahhh yes... they always want US to spill our guts but then they dont return the favor! sounds familiar
from g-ladon :
Sorry to hear you got stuck with all the work and taking care of everyone, they could of pitched in to help! Not the perfect getaway...I'm sure you're calling on Calgon to take you away...lol. Santa owes you big time :-), maybe you'll get a romantic evening and pampering? Have a good day. LADON
from second-love :
WOW... i can see you got NO rest!!! Im sorry that your holiday was not more relaxing. I often threaten to completely boycott christmas and just go on a cruise. I swear i WILL one of these days!!!! hang in there girl!
from x-plicity :
happy Christmas!!!!! *hugs*
from bevanandjen :
got my Christmas card yesterday! thanks Diva! Merry Christmas!
from x-plicity :
I hope things stay steady through the holidays with Hubby. So G is still reading you? Interesting...
from x-plicity :
*hugs*!
from hissandtell :
Oh, darling. You poor doll. I wish there were something I could say or do. Just know that I am thinking of you and hoping you can work it all out. Love, R xxx
from bevanandjen :
hang in there, diva. I'm behind ya.
from chickpea981 :
As much as we soemtimes write for other people, when it comes down to it our diary is OURS. Don't ever feel sorry for expressing your burdened heart. If you can't express it to people around you then do so in the diary because that way you will get support somewhere. All your readers, myself included, love you so no more apologies for letting it out!
from secondwife :
I'm in no position to give advice as I have only been married and a step-mother for (almost) 5 months. I guess I just want you to know that you're not alone in your feelings and also that reading your diary has helped me. I hope you're soon feeling better and that things work out. You're an awesome mom, step-mom and wife!
from second-love :
I TOTALLY understand where you are at. John and I also had so much pain over his daughter that i can never go back to feeling like i did about him when we first met. He did too many things with her that i didnt agree with and without consulting me even though it affected me. This is what makes it so hard sometimes to continue in a life where you LOVE them, but the feeling is just different. You cant trust them like you used to and they arent that safe place anymore. I feel your pain sweetie and i TOTALLY understand. Lets try to hook up on the IM again sometime this weekend. I will look for you :) *hugs*
from supermom3604 :
((HUGS)) I'm so sorry things are not going well for you now. I don't have any advice, but I will be thinking of you.
from x-plicity :
It's hard when your safe zone is no longer your safe zone. I went through that with Vince. The sad thing is that it becomes almost impossible to ever get those feelings back. YOu really need to make Hubby understand what's going on before things become unfixable. *hugs*
from dangerspouse :
Hey diva, thanks for the sweet note! I'm really lovin' going back though some of your entries - I have a lot more to catch up on. Oh, and I happen to have a good source for liquid nitrogen by me if you decided to give in and let The Genius have it. Keep havin' those happy dreams, babe!
from elliemay23 :
You crack me up. xoxo, Ellie
from hissandtell :
Couldn't you get a bigger freezer?
from x-plicity :
Get some sleep! *hugs*
from hissandtell :
Shit, I enjoy your entries, diva. They're always such a refined balance of snark and dry good humour. And of course, now I'm left wondering: What gift do you have planned for the ex-bitch (presuming you can walk at all by then)? Love, R xxx
from x-plicity :
I was wondering what had happened to my favorite diva. You need to take a small break or you're going to run yourself completely ragged.
from g-ladon :
I'm just starting out here at diaryland. I have read a few of your entries so I'm adding you to my list of favorites. Have a nice day.
from hissandtell :
Hey, I just tried googling "redneck girls pickup trucks sex toys". I had you specifically in mind, of course. Love, R xxx
from arc-angel666 :
That sound like a lot of fun Carroling and feeling you up lol. I use to frenquent Pananma Joe's...do the Loomis brothers(Rick and Steve) still own it?
from x-plicity :
He sat on your lap and felt you up? Wow! *naughty naughty*
from secondwife :
Hi and thanks for your note! I had no idea anyone else was reading my stuff...just needed a new, clean place to vent. I can't believe I managed it, but I read all your entries today at work (backwards). I think I might just update again. It's nice to know there are others of us out there. Cheers!!!
from arc-angel666 :
OMG! That's YOU? Jesus YOU don't remember me? Stop and think? Stockton 5 years ago! Blondish brown hair one green eye and one yellow brown eye. I had the ripped six pack stomach with the scars from the War and the big ...., Just kidding LOL. about knowing you not the big lol. You do have a sexy look on top of those good looks and lovely red hair....said the spider to the fly lol.
from hissandtell :
Love the photo! You look very, very naughty. That's all I'm saying. Love, R xxx
from irishdream :
Maybe the holiday can make things better...
from arc-angel666 :
You love getting dirty? Well, heck Honeybunny you can come play in my mudpuddle anytime lol. Honest to God the little boy in me given the opportunity will always play in the mud, climb a tree and go exploring anything thats fun. My Father refers to me as Peter Pan. He said you can't stop getting old but you my son have proved theres the possibility of never growing up lol.
from second-love :
Im here... ALL the LONG weekend. Lets hook up on the IM if ya get the chance!!! Or email me!!
from x-plicity :
Things are always hard when it comes to the realizations of a relationship going south. If you ever need anyone to vent to, you know my e-mail address. I'll try to log on the im today if you need to chat. *hugs*
from arc-angel666 :
Sweetie I am so sorry to hear of your first guy (Idiot CJ). I am impressed by the way you turned out after hearing of your first experiences with men. Your friends being murdered, your first boyfriend leaving then dying and then the jerk CJ. There are so many men that victimize young women, having those as your first experiences I must say I admire you for turning into the great person you are. I don't know what you look like but by your words you must indeed be beautiful. After the Army I told myself I would never be involved in violence ever again. Unfortunately that turned out not to be true. I have been in a number of situations where I couldn't stand by and watch someone beat a Woman or a Child. I have never hit a Woman nor have I wanted to, I will kick your(any man's) miserable worhtless ass if you attempt to do it in front of me. The sad thing is some woman are led to believe they deserve this kind of treatment. I was involved in a situation like that, this is the short version. There was a circle of people watching this idiot beat his girlfriend and no one was doing anything. When I entered the circle and saw she was bleeding from the mouth and nose, down on her hands and knees, and then he kick her in the stomach, I went insane. This idiot was 6'4" she was 5'5" and I'm 5'11". I have been in the Martial Arts most of my life, fought all over the US and Europe and have always felt it had a calming effect on me and it comes in handy in times like that. To shorten the story I broken his left eardrum, his nose, fractured his left Orbital ridge and socket, torn is upper thigh muscle from the bone. When I had him on his back, and his face showed nothing but terror I ask him if he thought his girlfriend felt that way while he was beating her? With and open hand I slapped him across the face in a display of complete and total disrespect. I wasn't going to hit him again but i wanted to terrify him as he had gone to his girlfriend. In my softest low voice I told him there was a sweetness to pain and he should lay back and enjoy this as much as I was going to...he started screaming (mission accomplished), thats when someone grabbed me by the hair and pulled, I spun out of it and apparently my face had a bit of an evil look and I had taken an aggressive stance when i realized it has his girlfriend. She jumped back and crossed her arms over her chest in fear and sobbed for me not to hurt her boyfriend anymore. I have to say I was amazed. I left confused and swore I'd never do that again...oops there have been 3 other times...I just can't stand by and let that happen..period. I swear to you I'm not a violent man, I am a pacifist to the point of surrender then I won't stand by an allow violence to happen to me, my friends or those who can't defend themselves. Sorry about that I get a little weird when it comes to women and violence. Well Cowgirl I thought you were special before but your going into the hero category, you have come a long way. I have met some incredible Women here at Diaryland, and you are certainly one of them. Good Night Cowgirl
from arc-angel666 :
Sweetie I am so sorry to hear of your first guy (Idiot CJ). I am impressed by the way you turned out after hearing of your first experiences with men. Your friends being murdered, your first boyfriend leaving then dying and then the jerk CJ. There are so many men that victimize young women, having those as your first experiences I must say I admire you for turning into the great person you are. I don't know what you look like but by your words you must indeed be beautiful. After the Army I told myself I would never be involved in violence ever again. Unfortunately that turned out not to be true. I have been in a number of situations where I couldn't stand by and watch someone beat a Woman or a Child. I have never hit a Woman nor have I wanted to, I will kick your(any man's) miserable worhtless ass if you attempt to do it in front of me. The sad thing is some woman are led to believe they deserve this kind of treatment. I was involved in a situation like that, this is the short version. There was a circle of people watching this idiot beat his girlfriend and no one was doing anything. When I entered the circle and saw she was bleeding from the mouth and nose, down on her hands and knees, and then he kick her in the stomach, I went insane. This idiot was 6'4" she was 5'5" and I'm 5'11". I have been in the Martial Arts most of my life, fought all over the US and Europe and have always felt it had a calming effect on me and it comes in handy in times like that. To shorten the story I broken his left eardrum, his nose, fractured his left Orbital ridge and socket, torn is upper thigh muscle from the bone. When I had him on his back, and his face showed nothing but terror I ask him if he thought his girlfriend felt that way while he was beating her? With and open hand I slapped him across the face in a display of complete and total disrespect. I wasn't going to hit him again but i wanted to terrify him as he had gone to his girlfriend. In my softest low voice I told him there was a sweetness to pain and he should lay back and enjoy this as much as I was going to...he started screaming (mission accomplished), thats when someone grabbed me by the hair and pulled, I spun out of it and apparently my face had a bit of an evil look and I had taken an aggressive stance when i realized it has his girlfriend. She jumped back and crossed her arms over her chest in fear and sobbed for me not to hurt her boyfriend anymore. I have to say I was amazed. I left confused and swore I'd never do that again...oops there have been 3 other times...I just can't stand by and let that happen..period. I swear to you I'm not a violent man, I am a pacifist to the point of surrender then I won't stand by an allow violence to happen to me, my friends or those who can't defend themselves. Sorry about that I get a little weird when it comes to women and violence. Well Cowgirl I thought you were special before but your going into the hero category, you have come a long way. I have met some incredible Women here at Diaryland, and you are certainly one of them. Good Night Cowgirl
from second-love :
Another thing in common... i too am a california native... born and raised. I've never lived anywhere else. Thanks for sharing all that... i've never done the 100 things list either... always meant to... prob should :))))
from krugerpak007 :
I can so relate to you. Maybe you need a little break. Away from everyone and everything...Some "you" time. Come to Israel!!! Feel good. Kathy
from second-love :
Amen sister... my point exactly!
from x-plicity :
He turns down sex?? You're kidding, right? That can't be healthy! I say time him down and make him your sex slave! I'll even lend you my whip!
from onewetleg :
condolences on your associate passing away. 21 people for tgiving? i think you should start calling them and assigning side dishes. see you when you get back.
from krugerpak007 :
Hope you feel less stressed out. I would go with the eggs dammit! Take care! xoxox Kathy
from second-love :
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh cant wait to hear about it :)))
from second-love :
Sounds like we are in the same hellish boat... we NEED that weekend!
from chickpea981 :
Yes. Uniform and restraining order. She violated her own contract by saying she didnt want him there. Fuck that shit.
from x-plicity :
Daycare Bitch must die!!!!!
from chickpea981 :
"you know you wish you ate with me" - I TOTALLY didn't even see the word WITH there... your mind is intoxicated, mine is dirty.
from second-love :
ahhhhhhhh i too had a bottle...errr ahem... glass or two of shiraz last night... mmmmmmmmmmmm LOVE a good shiraz :)))))))
from x-plicity :
Intoxication....movies that don't make sense....needing to get laid....we have SO much in common!!!!
from second-love :
ahahahaah well... as you can see - im NOT doing it very well. some days are be better than others. And the only reason i am making it work is because i love him and i loved him FIRST. It has been the one constant in my life. I have never considered anything but monogamy before he came back into my life a year ago...and he is the ONLY one i would even consider straying off that path for. But that is because of love - not sex. *hugs*
from onewetleg :
gawd, what a mess. telling her she cant see her boyfriend is a sure way of making her try her damndest to see the boy no matter how bad he is for her. if you don't want her to see him invite him over for dinner and be his buddy. then she'll hate him. hey, it worked on roseanne. good luck, my friend.
from second-love :
I can relate to so much of what you write. We are definately swimming in the same pool. Its so hard to be a step-parent - you really have no rights and most of how you feel is overlooked or disregarded. Its very depressing and there is little that can change it. Its easy to give up... we sorta did. We stopped trying to get Johns daughter to come here or have any kind of relationship with us. She didnt seem to want to and her mother was always so difficult. She never really cared what was the best for N... it was what was the best and easist for her. So now we live our lives with a hole. Its like a death really and everyone suffers. But there is suffering and hardship both ways so which is the best??? I wish i knew that answer.
from x-plicity :
Thinking about you, take care!!!
from second-love :
Im so sorry... my thoughts are with you!!! *hugs*
from supermom3604 :
I'm afraid of the up escalators too! I always feel like I'm going to tip over backwards. I hold my breath the whole time!
from x-plicity :
Belly dancing isn't easy, but once you get it down it's amazing! What's the deal with the ex's anyway? They're all psycho!!!! Wait...I'm an ex...
from second-love :
You feel like something is missing??? huh... i have no idea what thats like - good god... that IS my life
from supermom3604 :
I know what you mean. I don't know what that says about the state of our marriages, but I know what you mean. Huh.
from arc-angel666 :
Hey Cowgirl: I thought you said you turned on your email thingy? I promise I sent it again. Here's my email [email protected] email me and I'll send you a photo, heck I'll send you two, its a shame you could have used them on halloween to scare the kiddies lol
from arc-angel666 :
That's a good looking boy and I'd definitely keep him away from that crazy lady. Nice looking Burrito too. So when do we get to see your wondrous face? Hey I showed you mine and you only had to spend a week in the Hospital lol.
from second-love :
Yes, and i agree with you. But Sam does not read my diary. It only got complicated when I let him into my diaryland world and in contact with a couple of people i have gotten to know on here. He has NEVER read an entry - he's way to analytical and sensitive. I would be explaining and re-explaining to him "what i really meant" blah blah blah...So i really was only doing it for him and for us. But im feeling better now about just putting those certain very personal entries in a private folder. EVeryone on here has really been wonderful and THATS the main reason why i decided to open again. I realized how important all your feedback really was to me. Thanks for your note!!!!
from elliemay23 :
THANK YOU!!! xoxo, Ellie
from supermom3604 :
First of all, my GOODNESS is he adorable. Second of all, WTF? We have talked about caregiver issues in the past, but that woman sounds bent. It's a good thing you're getting him out of there. Nice job keeping your cool. I tend to, um, not.
from second-love :
Thanks... i will keep in touch. Your life is SOOOOO much like mine. I WILL still be reading and leaving notes - and i will try to post now and then. Hang in there. The life we chose as "second wife" and "step mom" is a hard road - but CAN be rewarding too. *hugs*
from arc-angel666 :
Oh my! Funny how things found on people's floor says mountains about them.. the two you it says nothin but good times...well at least at the Queen Mary lol. Before things turned for the better for You and your Hubby I had written a quite interesting note to you along with my Photo. Fortunately you didn't receive it (WHEW). It was meant to cheer you up not cause more trouble. So in the spirit of long and happy Mariages, and your Hubby may not find the humor in my missive and being he's a cop! I shant send the note but I will send the photo lol. You can hang it outside your door. Being its Halloween it could scare the B-Jesus out of the little ghoulies. I had no idea the Queen Mary was such a great marriage counsulor? lol
from second-love :
Im SOOOOOOOOO sorry. I can so relate to your frustration. That is basically what happened with us - and you DO have to be prepared for them to not come back. They WILL feel more allegiance for their mother as she know how to manipulate better emotionally... and they WONT know or appreciate everything their dad has done for them probably for years. We have not seen my hubby's daughter for 2+ years. I would imagine that she wont "get it" until she has kids of her own. Hang in there. *hugs*
from hissandtell :
Hello - I'm enjoying your diary very much and looking forward to reading more. (And your taste in music slays me, btw!) Love, R xxx
from arc-angel666 :
Hey there Cowgirl: I had no idea your feet were so big! Didn't Know you were a redhead either. So just how accurate is your son's painting of you? And how in the world are you able to make your hair look like that? If your diaryland email is working I send my email again. Since I now know what you look like (thanks to your son's painting) its only fair I send you a photo. You know what they say about women with big feet? They wear big shoes lol. I have big feet and super thick and wide also (4E's) and I have big hands (size 12 1/2 ring). What exactly does that mean? Oh yeah I forgot I wear big shoes and gloves lol.
from arc-angel666 :
Hi I sent you an email via your email at Diaryland, did you get it?
from second-love :
I wish i could offer some bit of uplifting advice or even a funny joke to lift the spirits... but im afraid i am lower than low myself. Hang in there.
from krugerpak007 :
I am sorry you are going through such a hard time. I can only imagine how you must be feeling. I have nothing helpful to say I guess, just that I hope you do feel better and this gets sorted out. xoxox Kathy
from supermom3604 :
Your husband sounds just like mine. He never yells, and he ALWAYS walks out when it looks like I might have a point in an argument. Gah. Men. Can't live with them, and killing them is frowned upon.
from arc-angel666 :
Hey Cowgirl: I'm sorry today isn't much better. I wish there was more Comfortman could do for you. Have you tried using his handcuffs? Slip them on him, once he has been secured threaten him with his own police mace and tell him to Friggin pay attention. Hey pal your wife the woman you are suppose to love and cherish could use a little of that right now! Start acting like the guy I first met, who promise undying love, the one who said he'd always stand beside me no matter what. Look Mister don't make me call Comfortman...he is willing to cater to my every whim and need. Comfortman recognizes that I am intelligent, caring, loyal and a drop-dead gorgeous,resplendently beautiful, elegant, highly desirable, sensual Woman who would appreciate her bell rung every once in a while. He also believes its okay for me to make an intrusion into that idiotic sanctum of indifference you all to often retreat into, AND wake your ass up. Remember me? The one who bore your children takes care of them and the house, brings comfrot and love to you, stands by you, deals with your other children and finds the time to work, you do remember me don't you? Alrighty then I could use some help, a little respect and a huge pile of love right about now. If not I will go where I can find those things..like at Comfortman's house in Malibu....Allow me to inject at this point there is something you should no about Comfortman. As far as Loving goes ...what he lacks in size and technique he makes up for in speed and he's selfish in bed you know chicks dig that LOL. Now that had to make you smile, just a little? lol. I'm playing kind of. Some of the things I mentioned above he should pay attention to, you deserve all of them. If worse comes to worst, I can always set you up with Comfortman, he's a friend of mine Respectfully Michael
from arc-angel666 :
Hey Cowgirl: I'm sorry today isn't much better. I wish there was more Comfortman could do for you. Have you tried using his handcuffs? Slip them on him, once he has been secured threaten him with his own police mace and tell him to Friggin pay attention. Hey pal your wife the woman you are suppose to love and cherish could use a little of that right now! Start acting like the guy I first met, who promise undying love, the one who said he'd always stand beside me no matter what. Look Mister don't make me call Comfortman...he is willing to cater to my every whim and need. Comfortman recognizes that I am intelligent, caring, loyal and a drop-dead gorgeous,resplendently beautiful, elegant, highly desirable, sensual Woman who would appreciate her bell rung every once in a while. He also believes its okay for me to make an intrusion into that idiotic sanctum of indifference you all to often retreat into, AND wake your ass up. Remember me? The one who bore your children takes care of them and the house, brings comfrot and love to you, stands by you, deals with your other children and finds the time to work, you do remember me don't you? Alrighty then I could use some help, a little respect and a huge pile of love right about now. If not I will go where I can find those things..like at Comfortman's house in Malibu....Allow me to inject at this point there is something you should no about Comfortman. As far as Loving goes ...what he lacks in size and technique he makes up for in speed and he's selfish in bed you know chicks dig that LOL. Now that had to make you smile, just a little? lol. I'm playing kind of. Some of the things I mentioned above he should pay attention to, you deserve all of them. If worse comes to worst, I can always set you up with Comfortman, he's a friend of mine Respectfully Michael
from elliemay23 :
By the way...I was just reading your profile...I love The Quiet Man too. I didn't know anyone else had ever seen that movie. xoxo,Ellie
from elliemay23 :
Gee...was it that obvious? He he he. Hope your evening gets better. BIG HUG!!! xoxo, Ellie
from second-love :
Oh yes.. believe me... i know. And i am always the one to argue that kids just need to learn how to deal with lifes changes. I always tell my kids "just learn how to play the game...". Sounds negative somewhat, but is REAL life. Ultimately i am with you when it comes to the step child thing and i too gave my stepdaughter things her dad or mom didnt even think mattered. And i know what you mean about how they want you as long as you are writing checks... i've been there for all of that. Its just a bad situation all the way around and especially THESE days... kids just really learn how to manipulate at a very young age. Hang in there... :))))
from elliemay23 :
Hi there sweetie. I'm so so sorry that you are having such a difficult time with your stepchildren. It must be terrible for you. If I were there, I'd put my arms around you and give you a great big hug. xoxo, Ellie
from onewetleg :
wow, that was some note. lucky you! heres hoping that you mom keeps getting better and your kids grow up and have kids just like them. love, jj
from arc-angel666 :
I was drivng along minding my own business when all the sudden I spied a distress signal. Mind you I didn't want to be a superhero and a comfort to women, I didn't wish for this I was chosen. I'm not Superman, I wear boxers he's a briefs man. Batman I am not, don't look good in pointy ears and the idea of a leather black mask is unappealing. Wolverine, okay the knivey things coming out of the hands could come in handy for cutting food and such but taking a pee, could be hazardous and the skunk hair color is a big no no. Spiderman once again the ski-mask ain't happening although I have the package for tights,but blue and red please. So Honeybunny your stuck with Comfortman.......Okay okay a lesser know super hero but a hero just the same. And since I'm here and you are in need..how may I help you? I have long strong but gentle arms that will hold you, a soft but deep tender voice that that will remind you that you are so terribly important to so many and how sad the world would be without you in it. I'd point out what a beautiful woman you are and just how appealing you truly are, and if no one here really appreiciates you then I Comfortman will whisk you away and you will become the Wonderwoman you truly are and we will live in that tropical paradise of Bakersfield and rescue others in need. You of course are over whelmed by the attention of a superhero and fasinated by my offer. You slowly, lovingly look into my eyes and realize I have one light brown eye and one green eye and then you see my long flowing super thick beautiful hair and like all women get all pissy and say your a man and you should have pretty hair like that! I being a super hero take a position of stern Umbrage...Jesus tap dancing Christ nobody diss my hair! You comment what kind of a superhero has two different colored eyes and long girly but really pretty hair? Its then you realize how important your man is to you and your family. Being a smart woman also realize this can be worked how and you need to tell all involve that you are a kind caring person that has feeling too. And point out the fact that you won't tolerate disrespect but are concerned for everyone and are willing to work this out and tell all involve this is the last time. Then you turn to me and tell me you aren't after all in need of a superhero but point out I have nice package, then call me a fag I in turn call you a hag but great looking. Pissed off I return to my Monster electric powered Truck and head for Bakersfield where I'm playing in a band that does rap/elevator music called Stark Naked and the Car Thieves. Seriously I sorry to hear of your troubles, but Honeybunny get a good night's sleep the sun will rise, you'll look in the mirror see that lovely face feel that sweet heart and touch your kind soul and trust me the world will right itself. I hoped I made you smile a bit and took you away from your sadness for a while. Respectfully Michael aka Comfortman
from second-love :
Living as a blended family is no picnic. And often no amount of love can help overcome the anger. I had a close friend tell me rather bluntly once that both my kids AND my step daughter did not ASK to be in a blended family. They had no choice. They just had to accept it. WE had a choice to first get divorced THEN to remarry. So while their "bad behavior" may be inexcusable... so is the fact that they had no choice in how their lives would be disrupted by our marital discontent. WOW!! Wake up call. I'm not saying that the little bitc#$#S arent manipulative OR difficult, but i guess it just helped give me some perpective. I've been there hon... am STILL there. My stepdaughter decided we were just too dispicable to live with because of all our "rules"... so off to mommy she ran and we havent heard from her hardly since. And of course her mom perpetuates the hate and anger... i know your frustration AND hurt. I live it every day too... *hugs* (and glad you are back)
from pattymelt :
i swear you would have figured it out! it was SO freaking obvious!
from second-love :
Have an AWESOME weekend! Sounds like you're gonna! *smile*
from arc-angel666 :
Hey Cowgirl: Contrary to popular believe some actors can actually ride. I have played a lot of bad Cowboys, actually I only play bad guys lol. I can ride, use to have a horse and saddle, all my own gear and I'm a fair roper. So where do you ride, actually where do you live? I read you were in Santa Monica, Malibu aint that far. Listen as far as your son and agents are concerned, if you are serious let me know and I'll steer you in the right direction. There are alot of agencies that are looking to make money off of their new clients and not their talent. There is no way a first time visit should cost you 2500 dollars. Its true most agencies will have you go to their potographers for headshots and recommend you to an acting coach or schools but not for 2500. Most creditable agencies will help you get started and not bankrupt you. In your last entry you mentioned bookings, what type of bookings? Are you an Entertainer or being booked at the local Police station? Now I read my buddy Dangerspouse's response to you, please excuse him he's in Radio and as we all know Radio Guys are a scary crew, unlike us wonderful, responsible and caring actors lol. I keep hearing about these pictures of you...where might they be? Unlike the Radio crowd, we actors would never make a scene and expound publicly about said photos, Rest assured as an actor I will drool in private lol. Handcuffs HUH? Cops and Robbers, yeah Baby! Hey borrow the Hubby's uniform and come arrest me!
from supermom3604 :
Awwww, thanks for the compliment. I actually think I'm quite boring. (((hugs)))
from x-plicity :
I'm so proud of you! Taking on the fitness life even though your foot is still crap. Please be carful! *hugs* Dre
from dangerspouse :
Hah! I finally tracked you down! Sheesh, took me long enough, huh? Anyway, I'm enjoying your new place, and I'm glad to read you still have nice boobs. Nice pic of Mr. Blue - how 'bout posting a pic or two of him in action? Just, y'know, so I can show my own wife what their for....yeah....
from pattymelt :
but i am trying to LOSE weight not gain! i want it off! if i gain any more NONE of my clothes will fit! (not to mention how pissed i will be having been down 25lbs and gaining it back this last 4 months!)
from arc-angel666 :
Its shakin, your bakin, beds rockin, your rollin and finally the earth moves....oh yeah now that's a Earthquake I can Appreciate lol. Good for you Honeybunny.
from radiogurl :
Thank you for the note! I am hoping to get back here and read your diary, too. I skimmed through last night but the way I was feeling, I didn't really get very much out of it. Not your fault, I just shouldn't attempt to read it while I'm sick.
from second-love :
I can SO relate to all that step parent stuff. It was EXACTLY the same way with my stepdaughter. I ran myself ragged making he feel part of the family and it was never good enough... we send HUGE amounts of childsupport every month (nearly $800!!!! for just her)but she never has anything cuz her mom is such a loser. She's nearly 17 now and we never even hear from her. She wont even come here anymore. I finally had to give up...i can REALLY relate. Oh... and thanks for your note!
from onewetleg :
w00t!w00t! the gravy train stops here. take care my friend.
from arc-angel666 :
Okay OKay, after reading your latest entry and hearing the treatment you received from other family I give in Neil's Okay (God that hurt to say lol). Sorry to hear about the ring and such. That was very nice of you, you have tried, they weren't interested, so its their loss. You certainly don't have to put up with disrespect. Enjoy your great life with the hubby. So did you feel the quake today?
from arc-angel666 :
Never! I shant I say! Neil's real name is Neilly the I is silent, Nelly! He is an ugly woman with and smokers voice, Cracklin Rosie my Ass he is Cracklin Rosie lol.
from arc-angel666 :
Okay cool, You throw panties but he puts them on!
from arc-angel666 :
Thanks for the kind words. She meant everything to me and it has taken a very long time for me to look on that day(9-19) as a day to remember her and not a day of darkness, that statement is a bit strange because the fact is I think of her every day. I enjoy Country music also but Neil Diamond? Afer reading about you and your perspective on life I was thinking damn this women is near perfect...well that was until Neil...LOL. Thanks again for your kindness Respectfully Michael
from bevanandjen :
I just opened up a whole new world for you, didn't I? Food on Amazon. The sad thing is being a Canadian, I can't order it. I can't order apparel either. I can order Books, DVD's, CD's, and that's about it.
from arc-angel666 :
Upon closer inspection your husband is indeed a police officer. Sorry, I was a tad tired last night and on occasion my mind can overlook a word or two.
from arc-angel666 :
Hello Divacowgirl: Interesting diary, although I'm a bit confused, Your in the medical profession, a police officer, and sell a certain type of toys, tend to children and a household, your busy, where do you find the time? A read your conversation with hotfortennis or what ever his name his, its times like this I feel a bit embarassed being one of the external apendage members of the human race. There are a few of us maybe six that on occasion can carry on a civil conversation. As males we are required to carry on as idiots, buffoons,and jerks in order to maintain good status in the International Order of Real Men. I myself am guilty of such behavior, but try to keep it at a minimum, just enough to maintain by Guy Card. My name is Michael and I'll visit here if its okay?
from krugerpak007 :
It took me a while...welcome back and thanks for the comments. xoxox Kathy
from elliemay23 :
What a whippin that conversation must have been. Have a good day. xoxo, Ellie
from redsirenbody :
Hello. Thanks for adding redsirenbody. I hope that all is better for you today. L
from second-love :
we have that freakin "low income, after school, mostly 'non caucasion', 'we need to raise those test scores'" childcare too... TICKS ME OFF!!!! So i get to pay $140 a month for ONE child to be "watched" after school for 2 hours a day - while the rest are gettin free, city supported care. WHATEVA! *grin* (glad you are back...)
from bevanandjen :
Howdy my dear, glad to see you back. Do the racing stripes make you go faster?
from coldooze :
all righty. there ya go. let me know if anything irks the hell outta ya and i'll change her up for ya. i did your older page in the same fashion, as it were. thanks for letting me play around with it. love, jj
from second-love :
Thank GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from onewetleg :
aye, lassie! i suggest letting coldooze designs finger around in your template for a few minutes. you just might like it... so glad you're still among us. love,

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