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from fireflyez76 :
I'm sorry sweetie.. much love to you *hugs*
from dukkha-tanha :
OKay, this entry made things clearer for me. Speaking as someone who married a guy with more baggage than Samsonite, I have to say, this might not be such a bad thing. Trust me on this one. That ex? You don't want her to be part of your life. If he's part of your life, then she is too and trust me! It sucks.
from kayrayne29 :
That's what friends are for! :-D
from kayrayne29 :
You don't have to tell him. I've got the exact same thing, have to go in every 6 months for pap smears, and I've had to have the biopsy, and the colposcy, and the whole surgery, being under anetsthetic (spl) thing. Not fun, but not life threatening. You may have a high chance of cervical cancer, but this is why we have pap smears, to pick it up before it becomes anything. You will now get the best treatment around for it, because you're more at risk. You'll be checked more often, and they'll keep an eye on you. Basically, if anything DOES show up, you'll be ok. HPV is nothing to get worried over, and it doesn't make you a 'slut'. I only had to sleep with one guy, unprotected (in a long term monogomous relationship mind you), to get it. And he didn't know he had it, and he doesn't have to tell his new girlfriends either. You'll be ok, and you have the widest range of knowledge out here to help you! :-)
from sensualistic :
Good for you and Dad. I'm happy for you. xoxoxo And miss you!
from dukkha-tanha :
Well, for what it matters, I like reading about your job. Never mind the fact that you're entitled to write whatever you want in your diary and screw what everyone else thinks. But, you knew that. Anyway, yeah, I wonder shit like, "Gee, how many subs can work for a big company like that? Must be a ton". Is today result day? I'm praying for good news for you. And, it's Friday, goddammit, and an Irish drinking holiday at that. Well. I know what I'm doing. =)
from sensualistic :
I know it was and I'm sorry. Your side of the G thing when I ask for it is always harsh. And I'm not saying I said below because you can be harsh, I said it knowing I can always say it no matter what. You know I love you and I'm always going to tell you what I see. Same thing you do for me. But if it pissed you off I'm sorry. You know I wouldn't say something to hurt you.
from sensualistic :
I have to say this. I think it's because we haven't had many conversations in a while and I'm able to see from a bit of distance but it came clear a few weeks ago. You are a damn strong woman, have had millions of bad shit happen to you, every few months you need to overcome something and almost always do. Always. It might break you down for a while but you always find the strength to pick up the pieces, put them together and move on. BUT. The tiniest thing from your father reduces you to nothing. STOP LOOKING FOR HIS APPROVAL!!! You're harsh with me with the G situation. Now it's my turn. Your pattern with men starts there. The smallest, tiniest ounce of affection he throws your way prompts an entry. The smallest thing from men prompts entries too. And he is the biggest male to reduce you to a sobbing mess. And you know this. STOP LETTING HIM DO THIS TO YOU!!! You've overcome everything in life. Stop hurting yourself and bending over backwards to please him. I know he's done a lot in the last while, I know you two have been working on a lot of things but the pattern is still there. Like I said, we haven't been able to catch up with a lot of stuff so I'm seeing it only from your entries but it's like a neon sign, I need his approval. No you do not! Stop stop stop! And I love you :D
from sixelasauce :
I am here to offically award your Dad with the "Best present from out of the blue" award. He has also recieved the "Thoughtfull parent of the year" award. Talk about being kick ass!!! The awards ceremony will be held in our collective minds and the award trophy will be in the form of hugs from daughter. (what a sweet daddy!)
from sensualistic :
'find a roommate and get out on your own'. that's not the same thing. sorry, random thought there.... anyways! what the hell are you talking about? or WHO are you talking about? what's happening in april? did i miss somethign? has my wife radar dropped? i'm confused. what happened?!?!
from grovermatic :
I try to avoid the attitude of "everything will all be better once such-and-such happens...", but I can't help but think things will improve somewhat if you could find a roommate and get out on your own. It'll happen. :-)
from dukkha-tanha :
I can see how you're going to miss him. I wish I had a halfway decent relationship with either of my brothers. =)
from dukkha-tanha :
If your grandmother and mom have half of the strenghth that you do (and I'm guessing they do), they are both going to come out on top. And grandma is going to be rich, apparently. Too bad for the way it had to be done, but still those docs and that hospital need to step up. I get so pissed when parents trash the other parent to the kids. ANd step parents, too. God knows I've got kids with stupid ass parents who *need* to be trashed, but I bite my tongue for the sake of the kids. I've always thought that when they're grown, I'll tell them the shitty stuff, but now I am thinking twice seeing that it is still affecting you as an adult. Take care. =)
from dukkha-tanha :
Well, it sounds like your mind is focused on something "positive"(?) to keep ya from obsessing about the other problems in life. A bedsore in 2005? WTF? Anyway, take care chickie. =)
from sixelasauce :
i love you..you are special to me...deal with it!!
from dukkha-tanha :
I love you sweetie. Your brother's advice is very good. He's in his early 20's? Doesn't sound like it, he sounds older. And your dad! Can I just say "!!!!", cuz I can't think of anything else. And yeah, the person you wrote about was #1 of my three guesses.Take care. =)
from dukkha-tanha :
To tell or not to tell? About the other guy? No? Except, didn't he get a little jealous and pleasantly possessive the time when you were with TGIWTHSW? As far as your feelings, I say that you feel what you feel and there's no use denying it to yourself or him. Lay your cards on the table for him, at least. If that ends it, then at least you were able to express yourself to him. That would be better than ending it without saying anything. That whole "closure" thing they make a big deal out of. That's my two cents. Also, I, for one, am totally speculating as to who this other encounter was with and I've narrowed it down to one of three people and I'll bet one of them is him. And I wouldn't kick your ass. Mostly because I think you could mop the friggin floor with me. ;)
from sixelasauce :
you are a naughty little sauce...i love it...all you need is a backrub and some sweet sweet lovin, no worries small one
from sensualistic :
I'm so happy for you! You're free!
from dukkha-tanha :
YAY! Good for you! =)
from divacowgirl :
Congratulations!
from whystinger :
email me if you need some help on the title. I am not familiar with the rules in your state, but may have a contact that can get some info. You can also apply to the state for a "duplicate" title. Some states can be a fucking pain in the ass with the titles. Georgia is like that...
from divacowgirl :
It took me over a year to get the title from my finance company. I threatened them all over the place.
from dukkha-tanha :
Congrats! You should be so proud of yourself. You've paid it all off and come out on top, that's awesome. =)
from pissymystic :
That has happened to a few of my friends, and I get brown stuff at the beginning and end of my period as a matter of course. ALL our doctors have said it's nothing to worry about. *hugs* Glad you finally started--late periods are horrendous.
from sixelasauce :
hope all goes well munchkin
from sixelasauce :
when I was pregnant with my 2nd girl...I did not know I was untill I was 5 months along. I had a light period. But I am crazy like a fox and weird things always happen to me. You obviously are stressed out.
from dukkha-tanha :
Stress WILL delay your period. I know this because a few years ago, my period was late and I could not recall any pregnancy causing activities, so I looked into it. Just forget the fact that after a month with no period, it turned out I WAS pregnant. So if it goes too long (like over a week), I'd buy a test. But you're probably not, anyway. =)
from kryptonite13 :
Um dreaming of being pregnant sometimes means someone is about to pass away...but not always. I know I dreamt I was pregnant and not a week later did my grandfather pass. But then again its not always the case. But I now dread dreaming of being pregnant.
from whystinger :
Probably the worse thing about my computer burning up is that I cannot chat with you... that really blows. I miss you and hope all is well.
from sixelasauce :
I just can not believe that bullshit! What is wrong with the world today? To top it all off, I hear people are actually BUYING milk in a store...not milking it at home. What are people thinking???? ;)
from lovelydaisy :
I'm sorry things worked out that way. I hope things can get easier....people just suck. And my ex can't figure out why I don't want to make many friends.
from sixelasauce :
love your grandma!! i am broken hearted... please come and see us!!! we love ya!
from dukkha-tanha :
She wasn't just a cat! For as much of a pet person that I am NOT, I can totally understand how much it hurts to lose a pet. Especially a pretty little kitty like Jade. Hugs and crap and I heart you! =)
from kayrayne29 :
Jade lives on sweety... Remember my pure white kitty that had that little black spot on the top of her head? Binky? We found out her birthday was the 16th of September... And she soooo looks exactly like Jade... Gorgeous..
from whystinger :
We think alike sometimes... I usually only truly want a blow job after a shower. Just seems better... Maybe I just want to make it a better experience for her, so I get more bjs...
from sensualistic :
YAY for Grandma! Big hugs now! :D
from whystinger :
Never mind, I JUST GOT THE GREAT NEWS!!!! YAY!!!!!!!! I will say a few prayers anyways...
from whystinger :
I will say a few prayers. I hope all turns out well, and for some reason, I think it will. She has beat the odds before and has a very strong will. That is one of the most important things. Please drop me a line to let me know how she is doing, IF YOU HAVE THE TIME. If not, I will catch up.
from dukkha-tanha :
Take care, sweetie. I'll be thinking of your grandma. =)
from sensualistic :
Big hugs lady for your gramma tomorrow
from whystinger :
I need to get a new computer and read you here more... What the hell makes you think I DIDN'T show her the list... Hell, I have made her her own copy - really. I also made me a copy so I can see it each day, so I work on it or else. We chatted about it at dinner after I picked her up at the airport. I have been thinking of you and wondering how you have been. I did glance at your entry here and think it is good that you put some of your energy into your work... Maybe a break from the man search stuff... After all, KERM tells me that if I leave Honi, I need to stay away from dating for a while... I sort of asked the experts... they seem to feel (for me) that I need to stay away for one month per year of marriage... Yeah, I'm gonna stay away from women for a year? I will give it a while... Still deciding what to do. I did find I missed her a bit and I still think if we straightened things out, I could be happy. Maybe I'm nuts. I miss chatting with you. HOpe all is well
from sensualistic :
*raises hand* can I come too?
from ericg :
OMG, your excuse was the worse because it was for real. :( Get well already.
from peasantwench :
Just so I know how much to thank my country's socialist health care system... How many months of BC pills is $30? In Canada, I pay $30 for 3 months. (Actually, after insurance, I pay $8.25, which I then get back from tax exempt dollars from my health spending account at work, but anyways...)
from thebugprince :
You know, my friend's father is a doctor and he tested his daughter's blood and found avian flu antibodies. That was a month ago! So, not to spread fear, but it appears to be here and no different than any othe flu or infection. Bahh. Also - new password please?
from sensualistic :
yay! for expensive bodies!
from applerobot :
that's one hell of a trailer! cool photos!
from dunkin86 :
i watched it on t.v. I'm so jealous!
from icyjewel :
Wow, great pictures! That's so awesome you were able to go to the game. I bet it was so much fun! I saw the end of it on tv. :)
from pissymystic :
I feel for you, darling. I'm sick too. In the body as well as the head, now. :)
from icyjewel :
I'm sending big huge *HUGS* your way. I'm sorry you had such a rough night.
from shedid :
Hey, I never got your new password. You can IM it to me for privacy reasons :) (Say Hi Beth) Please?
from pissymystic :
Good.
from fiestada :
Sorry, man. Boys are, as always, crap. Unappreciative crap.
from dukkha-tanha :
Boys are stupid. Men, too. I'm sorry he turned out to be a schmuck, too. If it's any consolation, even the ones that make a commitment and marry are stupid, you just have to live with their stupidity. Pardon me for being biased against men right now. But they're stupid. =)
from pirategirl :
Aww. Wanna come over this weekend? I'll be there. We can drink something and watch something.
from sensualistic :
Whomever did shoot you down clearly does not know you well enough to know that when you want it, you go and get it. You give me a few possible years and I may be there with you.
from catpewk :
This link should be able to answer your visa questions: http://www.ukvisas.gov.uk/ Just click on the link that says 'Do I need a UK Visa'
from divacowgirl :
Geez, I'm gone for a weekend and all of a sudden you're moving to another country. Thats what I get for not checking in every day
from catpewk :
There is a whole immigration thing you will need to go through if you want to work over there. If not, then you can stay for six months as long as you can support yourself for that time.
from mozangeles :
Wow, you know, I am going to pretend that your note did not have a the least bit of touch of biting sarcasm, which was completely unwarranted if true, considering that I was just trying to be helpful, seeing as I looked into moving abroad once.
from mozangeles :
Of course, you could always just marry a Brit, too. That is the 4th option I forgot. :) xoxo - me
from sensualistic :
Maybe it's not sadness. More like a black cloud hovering over you. But it will be gone soon. As for moving, if you come here we are SO LIVING TOGETHER!!! And damn it woman, school starts for me in January!!! How can I move overseas? Go, set it up, and I'll be over in a few years :) Actually I'd have to make sure school here actually means something over there, I'm not sure. I think so. We're the baby of the UK so I'm pretty sure. Hmmmmm...
from catpewk :
Hey kiddo. Will you please send me the UID and pwd again? I dont know what the hell I did with it...
from whystinger :
I think your letters to your Dad (and Janet) were very good, well thought out and not too harsh, just right. I don't know the whole situation, but I feel you handled it right. I am a bit disappointed with your Dad (sorry) because he doesn't see you for the jewel you can be and are.
from dukkha-tanha :
And it sure does rain a lot in jolly old England. =)
from mourninmoira :
have i every told you how amazing you are...well you are and nothing anyone can do will change that.
from sensualistic :
I liked the entry about Brit Boy. I kept going awww and smiling. I hope he's what you really want, not just online but in the real world as well. Sounds like he's turning out to be. Get your passport woman! I need to go to work now. Take me to London when you go! :)
from sensualistic :
excellent letter to your dad. i hope something is gained out of it.
from meatballiz :
wah. i don't have the password for this diary. =( <3
from dukkha-tanha :
I just read this. I'm sorry for this, I know it's not my fault. The only way you'll be able to deal with this is therapy, I suppose. Amazing what parents can do to their kids and not even fucking be aware of it.
from mozangeles :
I really do apologize. It is evident that I really know nothing of the situation with your family, and I think that my comment illustrates that. Had I known the history, perhaps I would have been a lot more sensitive. I do apologize for that. I was trying to relate to the situation, I guess. I could imagine my father getting all riled up and saying a bunch of really hurtful and irrational things that he does not mean if he ever stumbled upon my diary. But I imagine that he has not done to me what your father has done to you. I apologize; it was inconsiderate of me! xoxo - me
from mozangeles :
That is really unfortunate that your father feels that way. Although, I have to say that I think that most fathers would feel that way if they stumbled upon their daughters' journals. I know that my dad would be humiliated and disgraced. He is very old world Japanese, even though he did not grow up there. Not that it makes it right that his wife snooped, or that he even made comments as he did. I am sorry. :( xoxo - me
from sensualistic :
post what you just wrote, email and all into chickpea!!!!
from whystinger :
Let me stick my dick up Janet's ass, no vaseline... I hate her, but there was a Janet in my life that wreaked havoc on me. I finally got in and read a bit. I am sorry I haven't been here in a while. I hope bro is safe. Hopefully you get tons of books. Let me know if you need more, I'll raid the shelves. About work, YEAH BABY! Do the 401K and cram into there till it hurts. I was about 21 when I got my first 401K, and only put about $1,500 in it. Twenty years later, it has grown to about 30K. God, I wish I had kept putting into that one. If I had, it would have been awesome...
from applerobot :
oh man, i can't believe it....!
from dukkha-tanha :
My lord, can it get any worse?
from fireflyez76 :
OMFG--- Where do I sign up for the lynch mob????
from pirategirl :
Want me to kick her ass?
from scrappergirl :
Oh, man. I don't even have words to express how pissed that would make me. My blood is boiling just reading about it. Man, I want to come down there and smack her around myself.
from dukkha-tanha :
I hope you either a) start feeling better and people who suck will leave you alone or b) have the opportunity to bitch smack someone really, really hard. =)
from scrappergirl :
Your brother is in my thoughts. As much as it sucks, keep remembering that *things* can be replaced, *people* can not. Hopefully that will give you a tiny bit of comfort. ♥
from pirategirl :
I was thinking about you and your bro when I watched the news.
from icyjewel :
I'm glad that your brother got out of New Orleans and is safe. I'll be praying for everyone down there.
from scrappergirl :
May I have your password? I used to read, ages ago before you locked (found you from Jamie's diary if you're curious). :) Ro
from fiestada :
I'm sorry to say that I think once you have the flinch, it doesn't go away. It's been years, but I still have mine.
from sensualistic :
I'm here babe, and I know. It will be finished with. You know that.
from justamephit :
*hugs* Poor girl - that sounds immensly stressful. Relationships with family are always so complicated.
from mozangeles :
We are here for you. Everything will work itself out. I heart you. xoxo - me
from applerobot :
thinking of you xx
from dukkha-tanha :
You're thinking that way because of that pattern! You've never known anything else with him, so now that things are good, you are expecting him to abandon you again, albeit in death. I have had abandonment issues in my life due to my mom's death, so I can clearly see them in you. I am praying that he comes out okay. It's time to put your faith in God and trust the cardiologists to do right by him. At least it's a cath and not a quadruple bypass. And even in the case of a bypass, the odds are in his favor. Not that any of this is of any comfort to you, I'm sure, but I'm trying. I'll pray for you, too, for your peace of mind. Take care. =)
from ebokian :
Fuck, I hope he's alright. I'll be checking back over and over to look for the next update.
from dukkha-tanha :
I hope everything goes well for your dad today. =)
from mozangeles :
I will be thinking of you and praying for you to have strength and for your dad to make it through this safely. You are in my thoughts. I heart you. xoxo - me
from fiestada :
TITS & WHISKEY!! TITS & WHISKEY!!
from fiestada :
So like I said; you're visiting WHEN? Don't make me stalk you in several internet forums.
from sensualistic :
I think I just had a surge of estrogen or something and decided to write in my diary. Sorta like what you had run by me earlier in the day (that would now be yesterday as it's 3 in the morning). Read my entry. Tell me I'm beyond fucked up. Why do I do this to myself? Am I waiting it out for something or am I squashing my potential happiness in hopes of that something? I don't fucking know anymore and I shouldn't even be awake right now. All's I know is I feel extremely emotional right now so I should probably stop rambling in your notes and go to bed. And I love you because you are my rock when I go stupid like this. :\
from drmz-of-him :
I work for the cell company up here...if I thought a phone would work for you from here, I would send you one. =( I hope you get things worked out! Go scream at him...it won't change anything, but it might make ya feel better! Love ya, chicky!
from divacowgirl :
You so deserve all this sweetie! I'm happy for you.
from beeonkah :
Im lazy when it comes to emailing, but can I get the password please. beeonkah@hotmail.com
from catpewk :
I think Quincy embodies what you think you want in a man. Or what you think you're supposed to want. Either way, it isn't what you really want. Unfortunately, what you do want is at odds with what you need. Fortunately, the two will coincide over time :)
from mourninmoira :
i know..its all so hard sometimes. thanks for the words.
from justamephit :
Thank you so much for the note and your thoughts, sweetie. Me and mine are all safe and accounted for, thank God!
from dukkha-tanha :
Happy Fucking PMS! ;)
from divacowgirl :
Have the milkshake
from tiragem :
I understand what you're going through with your grandmother - mine went through the same thing - she has diabetes and hypertension, had a stroke, lost her voice and all movement on one side of her body. Recently had her leg amputated. But she's still strong. If your grandmother is as resilient as you present her, she will get through this as well.
from dukkha-tanha :
Unbelievable. I'm glad that nurse is not taking care of her anymore, for her sake.
from icyjewel :
My heart goes out to you and your family. Stay strong, I know it's hard, but it's best for both you and your grandmother to have you there for support. Sending prayers and thoughts your way. *hugs*
from divacowgirl :
you SO deserve to hear that stuff from your dad, you're a great daughter and deserve much more than you get.
from dukkha-tanha :
WOW.
from grovermatic :
I have head to toe goosebumps and a lump in my throat from reading that. I am so so so so happy for you, and wish I could give you a huge hug right now.
from ebokian :
HAAAAAAPPY BIRTHDAY, BEEYOTCH!
from tiragem :
Hope your grandma gets back up to where she was before. And it's always great to like what you're doing. Kudos.
from icyjewel :
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. *big huge hugs*
from icyjewel :
I'm so glad you like your new job!!!! :)
from kryptonite13 :
D's car...Im too paranoid with how I keep my car boobie trap for car thefts. My tag board was working when I checked
from dukkha-tanha :
Hey! I think I know that chick you were chatting with! Hope Grandma is still doing okay, I mean, you know, as well as she can be. =)
from dukkha-tanha :
I always thought it was "don't call me daughter, not fit to". You learn somehting new everyday. Quite a project you'll have fixing that relationship up. Your dad's still young, maybe he'll get his head out of his ass someday. I can't believe I think 46 is young, but anyway. I can so see why you've got issues with men. What a night. And your bro! Shit. =)
from grovermatic :
Like I said when I first talked to you... Cupid caps your ass when you least expect it. Cliche, yes, but self-fulfilling over and over again. :-)
from ebokian :
Wow. Amazing photos. I envy thee.
from dukkha-tanha :
Loved the pics! The kids were most impressed with the polar bears, and I had to show those a few times. The job? Holy crap, how bad was it? Sean, eh, no surprise. Get what you can from him while you can! ;)
from lilfoxyvixen :
Miss you!
from xeran :
Bored with Toronto already, eh?
from icyjewel :
Have fun!!! :)
from icyjewel :
Sending tons of hugs, prayers, and thoughts your way right you. You definitly need them.
from lilfoxyvixen :
Hallejuah! If that is not spelled right, oh well! I am feeling cunty today!
from icyjewel :
Hey girl, just wanted to let you know that this is my new place. Sorry for all the confusion!
from dukkha-tanha :
My gosh I was all "congrats" in my other note, and forgot to add about your grandmother, hoping she'll be okay. =)
from juli-anne :
Congrats on the job!!!
from dark-cowboy :
Ok ok...probably a good idea...I will add some shrinkage.
from dark-cowboy :
...just my two cents....sorry couldn't resist! LOL
from dark-cowboy :
Good Lord! Since when did life, friendships, and relationships especially have to be about money? If ya have more, it just means you are accountable for more and should be a more generous soul. I could care less if my friends are rich or penniless; they are all welcome here. And besides some of the best gifts I've ever been given have cost the least.
from lilfoxyvixen :
I hear ya! I hate the fact you are not on AIM anymore *sniff*
from dukkha-tanha :
Just had to comment re: abandonment issues. I had big ones myself, but they are possible to get over. Ten years ago I had a completely different mentality than I do now. Now my abandonment issues are: "How can I abandon this person?". And I did it without therapy! (Now there's an "pro-therapy" argument if I've ever heard one!) =)
from grovermatic :
What a unique idea... the photo is beautiful. I'd be surprised if you don't win a place in the contest. Our county's park system is also holding a photo contest, entries taken until October. I'll have to pop off a few and see how I do...
from fiestada :
Private entries? I've never done that...whatchoo mean? But I HAVE completely spaced out on the name & password necessary to read you...could you resend?
from sensualistic :
15 DAYS!!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
from dark-cowboy :
(I accidentally posted this to myself lol) Was that also the same night as your personal and erotic puppet show...and Link?? Hmm..funny I thought you stayed a bit longer cuz I flipped to it to watch...oh well..
from dark-cowboy :
No dear, "Franken-thumb" is proof that I'll watch anything. There was alcohol involved...lots of it....I promise!
from pirategirl :
The office in DC is hiring. So is the office here. Look for Venable on the interweb.
from dark-cowboy :
LOL...I forgot all about that featherduster...now people are gonna wonder WTF! I didn't say I was getting the flag...I am trying to keep it simple. If I did a flag, it would be something like the Texas State flag. But no worries there.
from meatballiz :
yay i get a shout out! haha, i just hope that the title of that entry weren't for the individual shout outs you gave (bitch, bitch, bitch, bitch, bitch!) fuck it, we're all bitches in our own way. get rid of all these dicks in your life and cross over permanently! <3
from damonjones :
I am glad things are going so well for you right now. Maybe some people mellow out with age which seems to be the case with you your mother. Enjoy these wonderful times as these are your wonder years. lol
from evilestone :
Diaryland had a major server crash, that's where your stuff went.
from herdarlinsin :
I want in to read your journal. Pretty please?
from lilfoxyvixen :
yaaaaaaaaaaaay, juniper is baaaaaaack!
from mindlesspop :
i'm with ya on Nanny 911. i got sooo excited when i remembered it was on tonight.
from damonjones :
Our parents have set such a fine example for us that I am suprised that we turned out as well as we did :)
from dukkha-tanha :
Okay, now I'll say how I was absolutely cracking the fuck up about the car chained up. It would have been out of line to say that yesterday. So..is your dad cute? He sounds like my type. I kid, I kid (or do I?). =)
from mandito2002 :
CrAzY! That was kind of childish of him to chain your car up like that. Hope everything is sorted out soon - so sorry it's taken me forever to read your diary. I was so far behind. *hugs* Thinking about you and keeping my fingers crossed for you. Call if you need to talk. :)
from dark-cowboy :
Woah! How did all this escalate so fast? Or am I just that much out of the loop. I knew you were moving out, but I didn't realize it had gotten that vitriolic. Guess I need to really spend more time chatting with you or calling. Sorry you are going through all this!
from dukkha-tanha :
Remind me never to piss you off. Also remind me to contact you when someone pisses me off and I need ideas for payback. Hope you are feeling better after the other night. =)
from dukkha-tanha :
=( I'm sorry. Really. Even though it has nothing to do with me, I can only imagine. Out of everything that has been fucked up about my life, my daddy has always been there for me, and I'm sorry that you haven't had that in your life. But you are still wonderful no matter what. =)
from thebugprince :
I too have been bad at reading my faves - selfishly absorbed in my own anguish. I feel for you. Life finds a way. I'm sending good energy your way.
from mindlesspop :
oh my god. i neglect to read diaryland for two days and all this happens. i know everything seems really scary and unsure right now, but i have faith that things will turn out okay. hang in there, hun :)
from dark-cowboy :
Hope you feel better soon from that.
from mandito2002 :
If I die, it's your fault. xP
from sexycreature :
Oh yes, behold the buzz. Love the buzz.
from damonjones :
I am glad everything is going so well. Congradulations on scoring the job. It must be an exciting time for you.
from dark-cowboy :
and I am buzzed along with ya...couldn't wait and bought an americanized bottle of the green fairy (which by the way has made it to the states..so far so good)...congrats on your job! I am happy for ya.
from tiragem :
I glanced through the notes that you got from other diarylanders. They seem to echo each other, so I will not add to the reverberations, and choose instead to remain silent. But I will compliment you on your photography. I envy your talent.
from xeran :
I have to agree with Phil. I know you don't want the headache, but you can't delude yourself for ever. It will only cause pain in the long run.
from dukkha-tanha :
You are just begging for trouble, hon. I'm just saying! I know whereof I speak. =)
from dukkha-tanha :
You need to go over and read my diary again, Miss Thang. You'll re-think that whole going bareback thing. ;)
from sensualistic :
But it's soooooo much fun! Look at me, happily serving customers since 1997 and I'm as chipper as they come!!! ;-) (SHOOT ME NOW)
from whystinger :
I hope you hook up with a new job soon. I am behind on my reading, so sometime you'll have to fill me in. Maybe you should try photography... At my employer, they have just announced BIG CUTS and several of us have been offered "voluntary severance packages." Gee, I can volunteer to leave the company and be un-employed. I thanked them but politely declined. Still that makes one uneasy. Be well.
from sensualistic :
You will get there baby. But if not you know our shack in the woods is in await ;-)
from dark-cowboy :
I know I did and I was wrong for it back then. I'd like to believe I've both grown up and opened up a bit more since then.
from catpewk :
"If he really wanted me he would have fought harder for me." with Love, kiddo, I ask - fought against whom?
from damonjones :
Good luck with your interviewing. I hope you get one of those jobs that you are applying for.
from thebugprince :
Dogs are pack animals and need to be around their pack (you) all day long. Most of us have lives and work and stuff and so we need to be away from our animals for some period. Cats can handle this but dogs can't. It's a really hard trade off. My ex only work 30 hours a week and came home every lunch out Scotch's needs (our dog). Don't feel bad if you decide to giver her up. It's a hard but humane choice if you can find her greater company. Don't feel bad.
from thebugprince :
Okay, I give up: which diary did you suggest I find? I checked all profiles and a few entries of most of all your faves and I can't find the poly.
from sensualistic :
that entry is actually cute. cause you know how much of a pain in the ass they are but you know you love em. or maybe it made me smile because i was given a flashback to my childhood? anyways. thanks for the note. point taken & understood. big hug now!
from damonjones :
Thanks for the invite. Enjoy your me time you seem to be working too hard for a lady of your age. I tell you divorce makes parents lean more on their kids than maybe they should anyways enjoy. :-)
from dark-cowboy :
God..it is about time that landlord got his act together. I am happy for ya that good things are happening there..that reminds me...gotta renew my lease....
from dark-cowboy :
Well it sounds like you had a fun and eventful evening. Hope your holiday plans all go well. So glad things seem to be going well for you these days. :)
from peasantwench :
Just a thought... Old Navy has come to Canada at last and I've noticed that they have a really good selection of office clothes going up to at least a size 20. When it comes to interview clothes shopping, it may be worth a look. I know the office pants I purchased there are super comfortable and look great. I bought 2 for the price of one pair (that would have needed hemming) at Jacob. Good luck with the job and life and stuff!
from sensualistic :
Take that chance and start the life you want. Thanks for the hugs.
from pirategirl :
I'd totally offer you a place to stay, but I don't know what the rules are about dogs here. I mean, we have a fenced in yard and stuff, so there's that much. And Lola could maybe chase the mice?
from lilfoxyvixen :
awwww... sorry you have to go through all of this... but know you have a true friend in Tennessee, and if you ever decide to come to "these here mountains" you are more than welcome... :) Chin Up!! Luvs and Hugs, Me
from sensualistic :
When I was at my Mom's, I kept some personal items, gifts he actually bought me. He was stupid enough to let me keep the wedding rings too "incase we ever decide to use them again" is how he put it. I sold those babies for $45, took Hockey Boy out for beer and food and fucked his brains out afterwards! Also threw out every single thing the idiot ever gave me months ago when I knew I'd be moving. The only thing I actually own from him are marble book ends... and for the books I couldn't do it! But it's good starting over, brand new, no connection to the past. It might take you a long time and you might be a bit empty for a while but eventually you can look around at everything and know you did it all on your own.
from impetuousme :
i love reading YOU every day too. althugh i should admit, that i read your other one more often since it's not locked. and thank you, for the compliment. it makes me glo like nuclear waste.. and that is SO out of the blue, and i thought you'd gone away. and WTF is all this pouting about your hair? it looks great. seriously. god, girls are SUCH a mess. heh. wake up, you have a MAN, and are happy.. remember????
from drmz-of-him :
I still think you're totally sexxxy and absolutely adorable! Hair, no hair, short hair...you're beautiful! Love, me
from whystinger :
New haircuts are always an adjustment for the wearer... Trust me on this one, you look GREAT still. I had to flip back and forth several times before I could see much difference. I don't think most could tell you had it cut. AMI had very long hair - to her ass and she used to get it cut every so often, an inch or two "to keep it healthy, cut off the split ends." The first time I thought I hated it, then realized after a day of two it was still long and sexy. Just like yours still is. When I read the entry, I thought "oh shit, she went to a pixy or something." I was relieved when I saw that you still look great!
from sensualistic :
You know you're guess is actually right. Men are attracted at that time and they have no idea why. Deep down we're just procreating machines ;-)
from whystinger :
Funny, but while in this profile, I learn we are both Concrete Blonde fans... I thought of you the last few days. While in Roch, I found some things I wanted to photograph. I wished I brought one of my cameras. I went to the store and bought a disposable and went out tonight and shot some pics. I wonder if they will mean anything to anyone but me. I hope you are well. Next time we chat, we should talk about photos. You KNOW I love your photography. I am not at my pc, so maybe I can find your online album and get a pick me up.
from lilfoxyvixen :
Welcome to the love and monogamy club girlie! ;) luv-- me
from firecrotch :
And so you shall. There is going to be an online store as well. My roomate is going to set it up for me. So at the very least, you'll be able to see what I've got! ;)
from ebokian :
Poe tay toes! Boil em mash em stick em in a stew... boil em mash em stick em in a stew poe tay toes... boil em mash em stick em in a stew poe tay toes! poe tay toes! Ahem, sorry.
from dark-cowboy :
Too funny about Gollum and Sam on Poe-Tay-Toes..now I have that damn convo running through my head! And btw, you have been and are right. I know it. Just not always easy to see.
from lilfoxyvixen :
You have come alot further than some.. When you figure that out, you have to love yourself first before you can even think of somebody loving you.... You got it down pat! I am still figuring that out.. Me
from meatballiz :
oh yeah, emala_311@yahoo.com ;)
from meatballiz :
email me a fucking password you wench! <3 <3 <3!!!!!!!!
from xeran :
No you weren't toasted, you were WASTed. :-D
from sensualistic :
you should always leave to appreciate what you're missing. or something wisdomish like that. god damn it woman i miss you!!! but happy you had a chance to relax. now hurry up and get your ass home :P
from impetuousme :
thanks for the post, and just wanted to wish you good times on your vaction, and good luck with the new potential bf and i'll be waiting to read about the while thing when you get back (or before if you DO decide to update while there) either way, i'll be here.. regardless... as always... k?
from catpewk :
$25,000 is at least $500/month if you're lucky... Just FYI :)
from mindlesspop :
oh my god. okay, not only have a i been craptacular at updating my own diary, but i've been horrendous at keeping up with reading other diaries. please please please hook me up with a pw and all that jazz (glossedATgmail.com). i miss reading your entries like no other. also, we MUST have a meal together sometime soon - my schedule is a little wacky during the workday, so if you're available for a dinner or sometime during a weekend, just let me know! :)
from impetuousme :
yeah, i know about both SA and SLAA, both just cartons and reams of unending fun and games. AND you can almost always pick up a date afterwards. sigh. oh, and sorry to hear about the PMS situation. on the other hand, it IS Friday, so there you have THAT.
from sensualistic :
stop doing doubles!!! :p
from thebugprince :
Nola is beautiful. Congrats. I'm sure in a couple of days she'll be calling you "mom."
from impetuousme :
thanks for the post.. and well that DOG is gorgeous.. wow.. can i have it? no really. a beautiful dog. truly. and those eyes. I can see why you fell in love. wow. man. i am SO jealous. fuck. but way to go YOU.
from lauralgood :
I enjoy this side of you. A lot. It does complete the person doesn't it? Oh dogs. I can tell you you will be very very happy with one. I could not live without mine. But be warned when you want one...another follows. hugs and kisses. Love laural
from impetuousme :
third of june huh.. i'll have to remember that... but also, what you wrote ... about "asking for it" EVERYBODY asks for it. makes someone else angry enough they want to hit... that's life. what is NOT life, is somone actually DOING it. the problem here is not with YOU, it is with the asshole that thinks he can get away with it. i'm glad you're strong, but i am worried you think you could ward off a full grown man if he chose to not stop, as the man the other day you wrote about did. you can't. you need to accept that. any man, large or small can rape you if he decides he wants to. you need to accept this, or something like the other night COULD wind up like that. please, be more careful? please. life is fucked up enough with THAT happening too...
from sensualistic :
you do more than most. i could really use that hug and would more than love to give back.
from sensualistic :
babe i don't commit incest. :P
from whystinger :
I can somewhat understand what you felt with Magic - Honi pulled that with a Betta after mine died after an illness (I still can't believe I was that attached to a FISH!). If she did that with one of the cats... I think I would have lost it!
from ydwtk :
good insight -- sometimes walking away really DOES work! :)
from dalyrical1 :
hey love. no, you're not crazy. i think that our relationships with our parents do effect our relationships with other people...both friends and lovers. at least, i know they have effected me greatly. and no...my flaws aren't all my parents fault, but hot damn...they sure didn't help me any.
from impetuousme :
hi, me again. thanks for clearing that up. but what about the restaurant? also, whoever "thebugprince" is, must have lost their perspective. 23 year olds have prowess??? oh my GAWD, if you mean they cum in three seconds and leave you red faced and expectant, then SURE. Hello? It's guys OVER thirty that go the distance, remember?
from thebugprince :
Thanks for the compliment. I don't see what being 23 has to do with what you find attractive. Although I can easily imagine that 23 year old boys are slightly less in charge of themselves than 34 year old boys. Especially since you've been craving stability and honesty in your partners. I guess that's a tradeoff - 23 year olds have the sexual prowess, 34 year olds have eschewed much of the bullshit and know better how to communicate what they want and don't want. 23 year old guys do "impressive things" because their minds and bodies are boiling; 34 year olds achieve based on years of being burned to become learned.
from impetuousme :
huh?????
from impetuousme :
i'm all for some sort of magic on a first date, and bailing if it isn't there. life's too short. also, if you're on today today that is. T and I are going out to dinner and are bored as shit with all the places we go. You got any place in Reston you'd recomend? Not Herndon, though. We're too lazy to drive more than a couple of minutes. thanks. :)
from dalyrical1 :
good luck tonight, bunny!!
from sa-land :
Oh honey. I just read about Jade. I'm so sorry.
from sensualistic :
do not fuck the date! be a good girl and make him pay for dinner, open your door and be a gentleman. then fuck him on #2 or #3, depending on the goods. you don't need guys that are going to make you feel uncomfortable. wait. WE!!! not you. we. xo
from impetuousme :
yeah but how's your brother??? did his place escape the flooding???
from whystinger :
I have really wanted to leave you a heartfelt, meaningful message but it isn't coming out. I just wish I could give you a hug and be there for you. I read about it and was bummed out pretty bad. I then saw her picture and couldn't believe how beautiful your cat was... I have noticed that because of what you are going through, I have spent more time with our cats. Pets are so much more than pets, they are parts of our family. I am glad you did get some closure. She is smiling a little cat smile down on you. You have much compassion in you, even if you deny it. You are a sweet person.
from saladwhore :
Oh, it IS the same as losing a best friend, it's sooo hard, especially at first. I am glad that bringing home her ashes has helped you feel closure, hon. Something like that really can help a lot. We buried my bunnies (we lost them 3 months and 1 day apart) out by our patio and the following spring built a flowerbed there. That's helped me a lot too. We call it the bunny garden, and there are bunny statues and decorations everywhere. This year we've been blessed with lots of wild bunnies who play in the bunny garden and that has just brought so much joy to the final resting place of my bunnies. It's such a significant exhibit of the circle of life, you know? In time I'm sure you will find a suitable tribute for Jade as well and hope it will bring you the same peace and joy that I have found in my garden. :-) You'll always miss her, and that's OK. It just means she was a very special and much loved cat. Thank you for giving her such a loving and caring home. I know she had a good, long life with you. I wish all animals could have that. You did a *great* job taking care of her. *many hugs*
from lealoo :
I'm so sorry. I just sat here and read your entry and cried. (And ate a huge slice of Boston Creme pie, but sadly it didn't help.) People just don't understand that it's not losing a pet, it's losing a best friend. Well, when you're ready for a new friend you know where to find me and my pride. We'll have two litters ready to go to new homes in January, and you can have first pick. I know another cat could never replace Jade, and it's probably something you don't even want to consider right now. But I wanted you to know that when you're ready, you can let me know.
from impetuousme :
i'm so sorry...
from ebokian :
*hug* I'm so sorry about Jade. It's horrible that things like this have to happen. Blah. It'll get better.
from ydwtk :
~crying with you~
from mindlesspop :
i know :( *hugs*
from crowhihs :
I am so sorry for your loss. I wish there was something more to say.
from saladwhore :
*big comforting hugs* You are so brave.
from sensualistic :
♥ baby. i love you and you'll get through this. remember she's not in pain anymore.
from lilfoxyvixen :
Big hugs.... me
from dalyrical1 :
thing is...i didn't think i was going to say it. i never thought i would have the courage to really know whether or not he gives a damn...but when he said he did...something inside slid and clicked...love finally clicked...and i'm not afraid of him or it anymore. whether we are together or not...even if i never see him again, it will always be love...and i'm glad i figured it out.
from whystinger :
don't lock us out, just take a sabatical for a while till you feel the need to write!!!! I still luv ya!
from ebokian :
No! No locking up! I read you, as i'm sure lots of people do. You're like one of the 3 diaries I read.
from impetuousme :
mmm... shitty day. your entry made me smile anyway. thank you.
from sensualistic :
I read you. :)
from saladwhore :
Ummm, I read! I understand though, I took most of the summer off from writing myself, I just got bored with it and things. Now I just do it when I feel like it, since there's no rules regarding daily posts. ;-) And damn those hurricanes! It's *nuts*. Some friends and I have decided mother nature is a democrat and she is hella pissed at the Bushes. She's trying to kill Jeb before he can throw another election. *snicker*
from chevydarling :
I read you and you damn well know it! =p But its ok if you want to lock up, coz I know you love me and will give me the password...unless you're locking and not writing. Then I'll be sad! *le sigh*
from thebugprince :
You are so right. I think I have a masochistic side or I wouldn't have asked her. But if she didn't have a sadistic side, she wouldn't have dangled the question in front of me like that. Besides, I think she wants to get back together and have an open relationship. No thanks.
from saladwhore :
Here's what I was playing with for my friend: http://templatestr.diaryland.com/index.html I'm still playing about with those images a little, I think. She likes it, I just wanted to make sure we had your OK first...
from neko-carre :
Thank you! I'll check her out. :)
from saladwhore :
Uhhhhhhhhhhhh . . . I sent you an email with some autumn images. And I sent it only once. But my email flipped out and I think you got 12 copies of a very large, image laden email from me. I AM NOT SPAMMING YOU! God this is embarrassing. I am so sorry, this has never happened before. *kicks the CPU*
from lilfoxyvixen :
awwwww... I love you too Sugar Cakes Me
from lilfoxyvixen :
Sweetie, I understand, I am too tired of being "alone". If we lived closer, we could have each other and we wouldn't have to be "alone" eh? ;) Chin up! Hugs, Me
from redspitfire :
You go! As far as the religion thing. I grew up in church and I quit going when I became an adult. I did go back, but on my terms. At some point I realized I wasn't going because I believed in anything, I was going because it was what I was taught to do. Whatever you believe, it has to be real to you personally. Otherwise you're just going through meaningless motions. It killed my parents that I stopped, but I feel a lot better that my beliefs now are my personal beliefs. They're not there because someone told me to think that way.
from saladwhore :
I'm sorry it's been so long since I got back to you after your kind and generous offer to make an autumn template for me. I am speechless! Thank you so much, you're just awesome to do that for me. Let me know if you want any specifics or anything. I had some ideas of my own, but I'm willing to see what you come up with! Thank you again, I so appreciate it! :)
from catpewk :
Sorry about your difficulties with faith! The only thing I can tell you is that all religions ultimately lead to the same source. Just lead the best life you can, based on what you think is right and wrong - not what some book or preacher tells you. Don't get tied up in possessions and money. You can't take them with you. Sex and Love are good things to experience. The feelings they bring you will stay with you after you die. Assuming there is a life after death. If there isn't, then it doesn't really matter, does it :)
from sensualistic :
that's why i've never fully believed in god. there are too many contradictions and everyone picks and chooses what they want to believe in. it's hard to keep faith of something you don't know about.
from mmeanaya :
I hate when people post stupid shit in my guestbook...sounds like things are kinda rough for you..keep your chin up girl!
from ydwtk :
tough -- but healing -- to have a conversation like that. Good for the soul, and the emotions! Good for you for getting it all out. :)
from ydwtk :
((juniperhexum))
from impetuousme :
Yeah.. yeah YEAH the fuck YES... a spiritual enama.. .just what the doctor ordered.... i am very nearly BEGGINg you to go do it... and then.. write ALLL about it.... i can go camping vicariously THROUGH you.. how COOOOOOL!
from catinasnit :
I saw your name on BOXX's site and read your notes. I once had a Lilac-Point siamese cat named Jade -- Loved him so much. I thought I was the only one who believe our pets (and maybe humans) came back to us in other forms. I've never actually voiced my opinion to anyone, so I'm glad to know I'm not alone out there. -Megan-
from dalyrical1 :
i swear we are the same person...i swear it with all that i am. you are better than all that...and you were right to say what you did. i don't know what to say that isn't cliche, so i give you this... *big ass hugs*
from impetuousme :
camping might be a good idea for you. get away to the mountains. leave your dad, the stepmonster and everyone else FAR behind. plus, this time of year, is perfect. you know? head out someplace so far from anyone that you can't even hear another voice. man, now I miss camping. fuck. heh. anyway, i hope YOU get to go at least.
from s-m-r :
Thanks for adding me as a favorite. As soon as things settle down, I'll catch up on your journal. You take it easy. --SMR
from redspitfire :
And you will be.
from dalyrical1 :
it wasnt much, but it made me cry...because i know EXACTLY how you feel. i want to be the parent mine never were...and that's just...a fucked up way to feel. why is it parents never realize the harm and long term damage they inflict on the children?
from ebokian :
Hope everything's alright. :( If you need a random distraction, Kepp and I are here.
from xeran :
Wow. Complete sentences, proper grammar and accurate spelling. Sex really DOES make you smarter. ;)
from impetuousme :
yep, on the corner of Baron Cameron and Hunters Mill. Check it out. It's awesome. I even went on an elephant ride there once.
from saladwhore :
Awwww, I just saw your comment about me. Awwwwwwww... How *oddly* appropriate it is! Thank you again!
from saladwhore :
I am so impressed that you "got me'! (I get some strage looks sometimes.) Yes, I know Jade will always, somehow, be with you. You'll know it, you'll feel her there. I made a garden for our 2 house bunnies who've passed on, it's right outside my bedroom window so that helps as well. I made stepping stones for their graves and I have a statue of an angel holding a bunny out there too. It has become the Bunny Garden and in the evening, the wild bunnies come out and play chase all through my plants. It's just very cool, seeing the flowers thrive and the bunnies playing . . . my departed bunnies live on through all of this. (And there are photos in my diary if you care to look, second to last entry I think.) I love your diary, I am adding you to my favorites if that's OK? The being single stuff rocked! And thank you for the template offer and help and everything. *big grin* I hope I'll come up with something that does your design some sort of justice . . . . I'm not nearly as talented as you, though! Thanks again!
from saladwhore :
I am so sorry to hear about your dear sweet cat. I lost a pet (a house rabbit) to cancer 2 years ago and watching him go downhill was very, very hard. You are wise to know ahead of time how difficult it will be. Everyone is different, but the thing that most helped me through that time was knowing there would be more bunnies in my future that I could care for and give a good home to as I had to Wilbuhr. It might sound weird, but I knew he was OK with that too. It's almost a tribute to him in a way. I have two little girl bunnies now that I adopted from an animal shelter near me and one is so much like Wilbuhr I wonder if he's communicating through her somehow. Well, enough weirdness, but my point is - it's hard and horrible, I've been there and I understand. *hugs* And thanks for the link to the design site - there are some really pretty layouts there that I like a lot. Would it be a problem if I used the orchid layout but with different photos/colors? (I'm wanting to do something autumnal.) I would *of course* give you full credit for the design, but if you prefer I not do that just let me know. I understand. Take good care.
from ydwtk :
Sorry to hear about Jade. :( As for your question, I would choose to endure the pain . . . but others' mileage may differ.
from mindlesspop :
oh dear...i'm so sorry to hear about Jade. i don't think there's anything harder than having to make that decision. unfortunately, i'm all too familiar with the whole cat-loss concept, so if you need to talk, i'm here for you.
from impetuousme :
well DO get up there and feed the ducks. and the geese too, they are VERY hungry. If you haven't been over there in a while, it might depress you to know that Lake Anne is in trouble. Nobody's going there anymore. Spending money. The place is starting to look neglected and abused, and there's just not much going on. So, get on up there, spend your extra change, tell all your friends, becasue I'd hate to see the whole place sink into the shit. Anyway, nice memory. Although, wasn't it SCARY walking across the lake? It couldnt have been very thick ice.
from kryptonite13 :
*le sigh* I hope ur cat is well, makes me think of mitzi my dog, when its her time im going to be an effin mess, I'll have to take off from work. damn now u got me all teary-eyed over here thinking about mitzi *sniff* I must go get a kleenex.
from saladwhore :
I just had to leave you a note about your layout - it's just beautiful! I have the hardest time finding layouts I like, that are clean and simple and easy to read and naviggate, that I could easily change the colors and images myself . . . so yours really impressed me! I clicked on your design link only to find it takes me to . . . you! So, well done! I'm envious. Also, I hope your cat is OK. :-(
from catpewk :
Don't mean to scare you sweets, but My best most favorite Cat (Misha) started yowling just befoe throwing up. When we took him to the vet they discovered he had FLV. If you have any other cats you should separate them and then get tests done on all of them, just to be sure...
from ebokian :
Awwww! Jade is so pretty! I looked at the picture before reading the entry and had NO idea she was that old... she looks like no older than 5 years old. I hope all is well with her.
from sensualistic :
awwww she's so cute! i hope it's just the thyroid thingie :)
from blulinepaper :
Dude, if I saw a car driving around with no visible driver I would just assume it was a Transformer. Then I would cheer like the big geek I am.
from impetuousme :
hey you. sorry it's taken me so long to post here. First of all, i just LOVED that you got up and drove to Ocean city and photoed it at sunrise. This is just so awsomely cool, I cannot begin to write just how MUCH so. Second, I am sorry to hear about you and your dads business closing. I'm guesing it is/was in Reston? This must really be a big kick in the ass emotionally, and then some. I'm just so sorry to hear this is happening to you. Thirdly, I am also sorry to here about your Grandpa. As you know, I've just recently gone though something awful, regarding older family. I hope things are better for you. i don't recomind ANY of that. ANd finaly, I just wanted to say, that Princess Bride, just happens to be one of my alltime favorite movies. And I MEAN it. (anybody want a peanut?) And thank you, for your comments, and I hope YOU are keeping your fingers crossed, your eyes open, and some faith that you too, might find that "one true love."
from sensualistic :
Lovely pictures. Now *I* hate you :P
from ydwtk :
I'm impressed! You're a very good photographer! :)
from mindlesspop :
"Not Ocean City where every white trash redneck motherfucker goes." - HAHAHA! I'm going to think about that whenever I hear the people at my office make the biggest deal about going there.
from ydwtk :
. . . and good to hear you're recovering better health! Make it all they way back soon. :)
from ydwtk :
It's amazing how people often get only what they are willing to settle for . . . raising your standards could have incredibly rewarding results!
from xeran :
Thanks for caring. Um, how do I put this? . . . My fingertips are getting mighty bloody.
from thebugprince :
What a bizarre coincidence, our two accidents. Here's another one: you mentioned 30 minute meals - I know Rachel Ray. We worked together in Albany, NY before she was hot shit. Although the accidents are much more of a coincidence.
from impetuousme :
thank you
from ydwtk :
congratulations on the driving skill!
from blulinepaper :
Uh, damn! Glad to hear you're still up and kickin'!
from dalyrical1 :
oh my goodness!!! honey!! i am so glad that you are ok!! whoa...you go with those mad driving skills girl!
from mindlesspop :
eep! you're not online for me to answer the message you left earlier! at any rate, you most certainly can use my name - i'm honored, by the way :) your book will be fabulous...you've got a great way with words and interesting thoughts to share.
from dalyrical1 :
aint nothing wrong with that sweetie...not a damn thing.
from catpewk :
How do you find the time to keep up two distinct diaries??? I'm glad there's some more piccies on this one - keep on keeping on!
from blulinepaper :
Oh no! Please don't hurt her! I'll pay you what ever you want you have her returned safely to me! Wait...You slept together? Are there pictures?
from krugerpak007 :
mmm, of course I saw your note on Sam's site and had to come and check you out, and I realised that I know you...So just a quick note to say that I am glad I found you here and I will be coming back. Hang in there and let us know what happens...But hang in there because your online readers do care. Really! xoxox
from impetuousme :
ok, well let me just get past the blushing here and hopefully, I will think of some intelligent response. Ok. Fuck. Ok. Amazing note? You flatter me girl. Thank YOU.!. Anway, I AM glad it brought you some comfort, and for that you are most assurdely welcome. And I AM sorry to hear that your real world readers/friends let you down when you so obviously needed a kind and caring ear. I hope that changes for you. Somehow. And soon. Also, I have found myself thinking of you when I find myself in familiar surroundings lately. When I rode to Northpoint the other day, on my bike. I wondered, does she shop HERE? Or over at Lake Anne, or at the Town Center, or driving under the new Herndon Parkway, down Baron Cameron... or most often, when barreling down the bike trail. The one I can never rember the goddamn name of. The XY&O path, that goes where the railroad used to. I ride that thing east to Vienna, and west to Sterling. And see so MANY strangers. Some friendly, some, not so much. And wonder, if any othem could ever possibly be YOU. Heh. Strange huh. Anyway, I hope THIS day is working out for you, and that others are being nice. That your dad somehow manages to pull his head out of his ass, that your fuckmeister makes you cum seventeen hundred thousand times, and that you find something, somewhere along the line, that makes it all seem worthwhile. And, if I see you on the bike path. I'll be sure to smile. And wave. And say hi.
from impetuousme :
Well, here's the thing. At pretty much the same moments you were reading my posting, I was reading YOURS. And then, I went to your post notes page, and sat there, and wondered if I should reply. And then, I didn't. Instead, I went to check my e-mail once more before getting offline, and there was diaryland, notifying me of YOUR posting. And for just a moment, I felt weak. Because you HAD posted, and I had not. And see, the reason I did NOT, was because at the end of yours, you asked the question, "What the fuck do I do?" and my inclination was to answer. But, the problem is, I am SO consistently full of shit, that anything I would have written would have been so wrong it would have been more than absurd. So, I wandered away, and felt that life was letting you down, and no one seemed to care enough to help. And I was weak, for not believing that in 45 years I could not have possibly learned a single fucking that that I might offer in the way of ASKED for.. advice. Even if, as only one of the crowd. The truth is, I don't know what you should do. I don't know what I should do, or anyone else. I don't know why anyone should ever do ANYTHING, when all it ever does is leave you with a shitload of remorse. So, I apologize for not answering. For not consoling. And I DO sincerly hope you find a way to extract yourself from beneath the mighty weight of the stepmonster. And, thank you, for YOUR kind words, and for reading my shit, and for making all KINDS of sense. Truly. Thank you.
from impetuousme :
you DO make me smile.. here on a monday morning.. no small feat... and I, also white, did in fact KNOW all about Rick James... being all like in the loop n shit... so. there you go.. anyway, sorry to hear of your dad and other things... dragging on your mood... i hope it doenst get you DOWN.. and... since on friday i hadda get all moody writy and so forth, today i thought i'd start off with some humor... heh.... or perhaps thats in the eye of the beholder... anyway.. the weather in reston... i s FREAKY... you know??? AUguust??? hello.... get your ASS out in the fine fine day...
from dalyrical1 :
lol....don't feel bad...all of us in the office found out one by one and one by one you could hear folks calling out at their desks "I'm Rick James, Bitch!!" in fact, it was the was the first thing i said when i heard and the person that told me just looked at me oddly. he's an older white guy that knows nothing about it...so i took him to the site and schooled him. he damn near pissed himself tee hee. RIP Super Freak
from herdarlinsin :
Youre an amazing woman. *hugs*
from impetuousme :
p.s. I wonder if you noticed that the obscure link in one of my postings earlier was to YOUR other site???
from impetuousme :
hello.. hellOOO... yeah, who knew that getting laid without the hellish blemishes of commitment could make a girl so happy.. ok so yeah, i DID see you now claim to own one another, but yeah.. RIGHT.. you know? mk.. so yes, i DID post 3 times yesterday and three times today, and might quite possibly do it AGIAN today.. since i just do what i feel an shit.. .and.. yes we HAVE added each other to our friend list, so that must mean something.. and now its YOU that has ME freakin.. so yeah.. i SUPPOSe it's possible that we have at one time or another ocupied the same general space... and come to think of it, there probably ARE many times, what with the various festivals and whatnot... and the relative small ness of this particular town.. and the way it it IS.. and so forth... mmm.. just damn fuckin interesting if you want the honest to shitsky truth... so, i guess we'll be doing THIS, now.. at least till I piss you off or soemthing.. heh.. .sorry.. feelling a bit cynical about my own specail place in the world today... anyway... maybe next time I'll put all this in your Yahoo dealie so the mugwarts and imposters won't come track us both down and kill us where we breathe... think? ta ta dear...
from impetuousme :
hey again, sorry for disapearing, but i was out of town for several days.. anyway, yeah, wierd to read someones journal when the references are local... and yeah, like YOu said on mine.. the shit is almost scary.. or was that erie, sorry i foget... anyway, i see you are happy.... WTF? heh.... sorry... it IS good to see you writing happy things for a bit... and I'll keep reading, and hope you do the same... big smiles all around.
from sensualistic :
As crazy as our lives are I am really fucking happy that I know you now. And that we always lean on and help one another when the other is losing it. You damn well deserve that happiness!!! It's coming out in those words. You can feel it. You are happy.
from ibepiglet :
Thanks for caring and showing your support. I am stunned by the outpouring! And it really helps in times like these to know that you're not the only lunatic on the plant! ;-) Thanks. Really.
from frail-fairy :
Thanks for the note - I am going to see how it goes! It's not easy as we were so close before - we never even argued, but one ting happens and it over shadows a long and enjoyable relationship! I don't even feel like I know him anymore! He's a stranger to me!
from blulinepaper :
Man, that is pretty good deal! And I think I'm qualified to speak on car troubles.
from mindlesspop :
you may love me, but i adore you!
from impetuousme :
yep yep, the lurking phase is definitly over. I am here now, out in full view. And you are most welcome for my having left a note, and now I thank YOU, for returning mine. A very pleasant exchange so far, don't you think? Mk, so yes, I too live in the wonderfulness that is Reston Virginia. Have done so going on about five years now. Before that, I lived in Silver Spring, or was it actually Kennsington? Not sure. It was just for a little while. Before THAT, I lived in Gaithersburg for several years. So, yeah, I'm thinking we know all about the same local shit. Like the sniper, for example, the shit HOT ass summer weather, the high COST of living, the annoyance of the beltway, shopping at Giant and just all the other crapiola (and that's not even getting into the 'skins) that goes on round THESE parts. Anyway, yeah, I like your site, and will continue dipping back into your past. Amazing you've been at the journaling so long. I find your story interesting, your family tantalzing and your relationship history both thought provoking and tear jerking, to say the least. Also, I find your blunt way of describing people and things quite entertaining, and find YOU just simply irresistible, (yeah, just like the song.) So, now here we are. A pair of local yocals, running across each other on the net. I suspect that InvisibleDon has a lot of Virgina people listed on his links, since he found ME by searching that way. Anyway, if you would like to e-mail me, please feel free. Sometimes posting on someones notes is more stressful for some reason. This little box and all. Anyway, take care, and I will most certainly be reading, and more than likely, popping up now and then.
from pirategirl :
Shit shit! I'm sorry, baby, I'll fix it. I love you. I'm sorry. I'll make it up to you, promise.
from impetuousme :
hi, i found a link to your diary on Invisibledon a few weeks ago and have been lurking a lot since then. i figured it was time i posted something in case you have that deal that let's you see who is visiting, and wondered if i was too weird or timid to say something. so, hi. p.s. i like the way you write and i think you have just one hell of an interesting life. p.p.s. i think we live in the same town.
from almost-grown :
you need to talk to me and impart some of your wisdom on breaking up with someone you were desperately in love with... you seem to be making it far better than I am...
from blulinepaper :
Hey, when cheating makes me grin and laugh out loud on a Monday morning, it's allowed!
from pos-ses-sion :
Hi! Yes, Susan Tedeschi is amazing. I've only recently (about three months now) become familiar with her music and can't help but be a bit envious that you've been able to hear her sing live. What an incredible voice she has!
from blulinepaper :
Ten more days, ten more days, ten more days...
from redstarhelix :
that was a really awesome thing to say to him. very very sweet.
from sensualistic :
hugs baby.
from pirategirl :
I think brothers do incredible things to piss us off so we don't fall in love with them and live with them forever. Like mine with his insensitivity to my pain right now, I could punch him while he sleeps. But he'll be the only one I miss when I'm gone. XO, lady. You've got my number if you need it, even though we both don't like to talk. Maybe I'll be on extra Vicodin and can be silly and loopy.
from sensualistic :
who's that featured in your yahell profile??? why it's me!!! *blush & giggles* (pssst below, canadian men are better ;-)
from ydwtk :
surely you have no reason to think Canadian men are any better than USA men! :)
from tornshadow :
you're a beautiful woman...
from ebokian :
Hey Tovah, love the tattoos! They came out great.
from maskedmofo :
Thanks a bunch!!! I can't wait to get it finished!
from autumn-kitty :
Oh wow. Found my way over here from Xeran's notes...lovin' it. I figured I'd answer your question: an Aggie went to Texas A&M, and Longhorn (Wronghorn) went to University of Texas. It's a bit of in-state rivalry.
from kryptonite13 :
You know I would clocked the shit out of her...LOL, I wouldnt have stop u, probably instigated it (hehehe) Told u "Move Bitch" will do that to u..lol. You forgot Track Meets, Swim Meets, LOL...Just messin with u...
from pirategirl :
Dude. I'd totally help you move.
from almost-grown :
should you ever need to chat or anything i'm always willing to listen. I know I dont drop notes much but I'm still reading you constantly.
from lealoo :
I love those posters! Haven't been online much lately, sorry. We'll chat soon, I miss you!
from everoboto :
Dude, are those your boobies in the Boobie Bra?
from pirategirl :
I understand and hold no grudges and still love you. XO
from ydwtk :
maybe the zeroes (naughts?) will be even better than the nineties -- the jury will be out for a few more years . . .
from sensualistic :
good for you baby! you deserve it.
from mmeanaya :
sorry about your dad... yeah.....i contacted ebay..it's pissing me off. i think i've lost my money.i've also contacted paypal and who knows from there......grrr..
from lealoo :
Love you sweetie! Everything will be fine with your dad. I'll keep him in my thoughts though.
from invisibledon :
have a great weekend !!!!
from fireflyez76 :
I call it low-va-nox LOL My mom had to be on it when she was bed ridden. Only I got to jam that little needle into her hehe >:) Lookin' good there T!!! :)
from lealoo :
I love that first picture of you. You look all.... snarky. Yup.
from redstarhelix :
yes, i cringed my way through the unrated version.
from girlygirl83 :
*HUGGS* I hope that your life gets better soon! I know how much it sucks to have your life going in the shitter.
from everoboto :
Nice Amazon Wish List. If you eventually get that Fondue set, let me know how it is.
from lealoo :
'Coco' is a cats name. Jeez.
from sensualistic :
very nice!
from mmeanaya :
I LOVE LANEBRYANT BRAS!!!! After Fredericks discontined my favorite bras I switched to LB....btw.....I love that last bra on you! it's sooo purtie!!!!!!! anyhow....take care dearie!
from pirategirl :
Yeah. I guess it is wierd. But if I keep my eyebrows tweezed, it could be worse. But bleaching is a pain in the ass.
from thebugprince :
That's a cool picture of the rock at Naucet beach. I was once pulled out by the undertoe and dashed against that rock, if it's the one I'm thinking of.
from thebugprince :
Happy B-Day T! I'm envious of your trip to Cape Cod.
from girlygirl83 :
Hey, I just wanted to tell you that I hope that you have fun on your trip and happy Birthday!!!!
from whystinger :
Cool frogs or toads or whatever. We are getting lots of baby "rain" frogs here. Not exactly spring peepers, but these cool light green frogs with sticky feet that piss like a racehorse!!!!! Love the pics. Must have been gentle to pick up something so small and it thrives on your finger:)
from hot4jester :
Re: Ugly... I know how you feel.
from lealoo :
I'd LOVE a copy of that Chicago print!
from sensualistic :
Cool. I knew that was quotable ;-)
from ydwtk :
Most of the time when a bank does Me wrong I just ask them to correct their mistake and they do. If they don't, they lose My business -- like this one is losing yours.
from whystinger :
I am sorry you were down. Certainly glad to spread cheer. You are one of my most favorite people!!!
from almost-grown :
Definantly ditch the bank. You've seem to have been screwed over by enough people in your life without giving hard earned money to a bank just because they cant get their shit straight.
from redstarhelix :
i really am sorry T. what you're going through sounds horrible, and i have a better understanding as to why you wanna get the hell out of there.
from whystinger :
By the way, I think I want to add a counter to the template. I may have to have you walk me thru it. Was good to chat with you today!
from whystinger :
You know that I think you are a beautiful person AND that you have a very nice body! I am sorry that your Dad was such a clod when he was talking to you. Remember, I thought you were beautiful before you decided to lose some weight and you will still be beautiful. I do applaud your working out to improve your health. I do think you are awesome and am proud of what you are doing. You are a sharpe young woman! And I typed this without too many mistakes!!!!
from xeran :
Yes, we are dating. We are meeting this Saturday. :P
from everoboto :
I don't think guys think to tell women they're pretty. Body image and the like are not on their minds, so they can't understand what it means to a women to be told that she is pretty. Women, on the other hand, always compliment each other because we know the value of a compliment.
from xeran :
How forgetful we are. When a certain someone sent me pics of her at Halloween, I recall stating that I thought you were VERY pretty. Not just pretty, VERY pretty. But I guess I am nobody. Or a chick.
from liquid-mojo :
Personally, I think you are damn sexy...
from redstarhelix :
you're not ugly in any sense, if that helps at all.
from almost-grown :
having a studly chisled pool boy named Raul sounds heavenly. But you forgot the most important thing. He cant speak a word of englis. This way you dont have to deal with the annoying relationship details and he can be used specifically for sexual gratification. Plus the fact that dirty talk always sounds better in a foreign language.
from almost-grown :
just visiting and thought that i'd leave a note saying hello. enjoyed your diary and will probably stop back by.
from redstarhelix :
i think Apple is an awesome name.
from everoboto :
I'm a little confused: why exactly is Erik Estrada your inspiration to save money?
from hibiscus101 :
New England in a few weeks it may actually decide to stay summer weather lol. Im in maine, let me tell you if you move to New England area be prepared to hav a jacket and a snow brush in your car at all times.
from sensualistic :
i know where you can move! :P
from everoboto :
Good lord, those cicada bugs are annoying! I never really noticed them in Brooklyn, but out at my grandma's house in Long Island I see them all the time. At one backyard party, I swear they were suicide diving into the food. It was disgusting.
from sensualistic :
good to hear baby, good to hear!
from ydwtk :
the nose ring doesn't show in the chi-town photo! :(
from everoboto :
Those photos from Chicago are great. I dig the nighttime ones. Thanks for enlightening us to the Prayer Booth feature.
from m0nique :
Hello, was just wandering threw . Nice place you have hear. Drop by sometime.
from mmeanaya :
men....sigh......You deserve so much better. Good to hear that you got your groove on! heehe!
from frail-fairy :
Oh shit hun! I'm sorry! You know I am here if u need to chat!
from sensualistic :
Didn't get an email when you sent that note! Nope, no blaming. Not as if you forced me! lol, and it was worth it too ;-)
from everoboto :
I am cringing right now of the thought of you having to return all those things and to different stores, too! Ack! I have issues returning stuff. See that shirt with the oil stain? Well, either it'd become pajamas or it'd sit in the bottom of a draw for all eternity. It's not that I don't WANT to exchange/return and get the proper item or money back, it's just that for some reason I have an aversion to do it. I'm glad you're not like me!
from kryptonite13 :
Hey, Im glad ur going to the gym now! Now u know why I damn near live at the gym/working out, the High afterwards is well worth it...also FYI: working out on ur period helps ease cramps, bloating and can sometimes speed up a period...Trust me I know, how long have I been doing sports?? yeah I thought I'd let ya in on that little secret :)
from sarahsundae :
two things: your layout is beau-t-ful and i'm sorry you got your period on "your" day
from everoboto :
Yeah, AOL totally sucks, sucks, sucks. Don't ever use it for browsing. And yes, in regards to my bathroom, there's tile on the walls, floor, and ceiling. The tiles on the ceiling is what I loved most about it.
from everoboto :
I can finally read your typeface, but I have problems kicking on your links. I go to click on it, and it moves, and bunches up. I wanted to really read your entries about going to Brookdale, but the font on that entry is unreadable. Did you take those photos? They're gorgeous.
from sensualistic :
doesn't anyone talk to you anymore or am i just stalking your notes? i had the same problems with templates in netscape. they don't like anything but fucking times!!!
from sensualistic :
update frequency = stress level!!!
from sensualistic :
i think that way too sometimes, i feel wrong if someone says they'll do something or help me out because in the end i know it will just have to be me to fix it all, when i let someone else do it for me they never do it correctly or at all. it is a combination of asshole boyfriends/tough life!!!
from sa-land :
I have to say "romantic" is not the first adjective that lept to my mind but I suppose it could work in a strictly platonic sort of way.
from peasantwench :
Man, in Calgary we're just getting the tulip stems rising out of the earth. We're due for a few more snow storms before the flowery pretty part of spring arrives. Your pictures and gorgous and make me jealous.
from signomifly :
Absolutely LOVE your layout girl!!! Too cute! =)
from exhorter :
oh hell yes it was worth it... i just hope its finished by friday!!!
from ydwtk :
yes you were in a terrible place in your life -- and the hurt lingers . . . but you have come a long way from there, baby! Crying it out is part of the healing. So is being proud of how far you've come since that night! :)
from mmeanaya :
nice peektures hon...and I hope your grandpa is doing okay..take care!
from tom-seb-jak :
STAT!
from redstarhelix :
HftH is an awesome movie, and i think anyone who has been lucky enough to get away from their family (for more than an hour) can relate. dont stress too much, families are supposed to drive you crazy.
from hibiscus101 :
beautiful pictures.
from lealoo :
I'm sorry about your Granfather, Honey. I hope he's alright.
from neko-carre :
P.S. LOVE your newest layout. And I'm sorry about your grandpa. Very sad news. :(
from neko-carre :
Aw! Thank you about your Oskar comment! That IS a lovely picture, innit? He's such a supermodel. :)
from ebokian :
I'm sorry to hear about your Grandfather! Hope everything's okay.
from pirategirl :
How could I drive through VA and not take a side trip to visit you? That would just be mean, and I'm not mean. XO
from peasantwench :
http://www.diarytown.com/bannercritics/archives/000281.html <-- Given your thoughts on her, you may enjoy this...
from lealoo :
WTF?!
from pirategirl :
I don't use the term douchebag enough.
from ydwtk :
I understand going emotionally numb when faced with shocking news . . . I also understand emotionally distancing oneself from family members who have hurt you. Neither is out-of-bounds socially unacceptable.
from redstarhelix :
awesome layout. that pic is beautiful.
from ydwtk :
nice new layout! and your Prince will show up when it's time. :)
from exhorter :
god baby why is it we always seem to be going thru the same things at the same time? xoxo
from ebokian :
heehee. I don't know how my picture turned out like that, but I love it!
from redstarhelix :
glad you're a little more at ease. even if you had to quote shakespeare, the end product was worth it.
from ydwtk :
"What is the point of this entry? Nothing. Just me emoting... getting it out and remembering that I have feelings." -- that's what a diary is for, come to think of it! :)
from sa-land :
The new job is going well so far. It's a small team so that helps. I'm going to get to do a lot of different stuff that will look good on my resume later so that's good. Thanks for asking!
from exhorter :
"Tim was good enough to get me back into the dating scene, but not good enough to be my man. Not strong enough either. But enough about him." I think you made your point. Listen to your heart.
from kryptonite13 :
hmmm...I'd play my cards and see what happens, but keep my wall up 24/7 with him, start things slowly...and see what happens, Look at it this way in the end you should have no regrets. But if the fucker acts like an ass again, I'd tar and feather him and leave him behind...DOnt ask me why I believe in second chances, hell even thirds but its that human part of me...Bleah, neways thats my wisdom for the day :)
from redstarhelix :
it all goes away with time. keep your head up sweety.
from brittanya :
Hey, I added you too my buddylist. I love your photography.
from hibiscus101 :
Pretty Layout! I Love Spring!!Yay!
from ebokian :
Thanks for adding me as a favorite! Glad your back is getting better.
from redstarhelix :
love the new layout. the pictures are wonderful too.
from exhorter :
so pretty! stupid me was thinking that was outside until i saw the greenhouse. yes, i am a moron at times
from ebokian :
love the new design!
from everoboto :
That's the problem with pain killers. In the beginning, they make you feel wonderful. Then, when you get used to them, the awe wears off, and you're hooked on them. You can't win.
from mindlesspop :
i <3 you for using the word "henceforth" on my notes page. i absolutely want to venture into the dining world with you. my schedule is pretty flexible on weekends, so whatever is good for you is probbaly good for me :) we'll hammer out some plans soon!
from redstarhelix :
congrats on #500.
from exhorter :
you sound good :-) i'm sorry, i'm not feeling very creative for words today...
from b-anca :
The usenrname is beeonkah and the password is sweety if you care to take a look at my real drama.
from redstarhelix :
hope you're right on murray winning, he was so good in lost in translation.
from kryptonite13 :
WHOOO-MUTHAFUCKIN-HOOO!!!! I see my evilness is wearing off on you!...I swear what you did is EXACTLY what I would have done!!! IM so proud that you did that and made him look like an Ass, aint nuttin better than seeing a man look like a deer in headlights!! the only difference is you walked away while I wouldve swung on him..and u know I wouldve have..Looks like my "talks" helped. VIVA LA MALDAD!!!
from redstarhelix :
sorry about the pain, but happy you had some sort of resolution. and thats a good song isnt it?
from lealoo :
If your nose piercing does become irritated make sure you DO NOT use peroxide on it. I use to pierce ears when I worked at this small jewelry store and I can't tell you how many people turned a little irritation into a full blown infection by using peroxide. It says right on the bottle not to use on puncture wounds. Did they give you something to use?
from xeran :
It appears to me that you want miss being in a relationship, not the person you were with. You imss having some to care for and care for you. But you didn't have that with Tim. You SHOULD re-read things. Maybe you'll see them in a different light.
from ydwtk :
"It would be nice if Tim would tell me to fuck off or tell me something through email. Then I'd know where exactly things stood." ---- he already did! just re-read his last IMs and e-mail. Do you really want more of the same?
from everoboto :
Lookin good, girl!
from lealoo :
That looks SO cute on you!
from pirategirl :
I think that's a good tradition. Displacement. Focus on the fleeting pain of the tattoo, then revel in its awesomeness when it's done. Good idea!
from redstarhelix :
their album comes out at the end of march. maybe you'll let me send you another song or two sometime. i have more.
from redstarhelix :
so much for my complaining about my week. im really sorry you're having a tough time. anything i could do anything to help?
from peasantwench :
Hugs babe.
from fireflyez76 :
Oh hon I'm so sorry about your weekend! I'm so pissed at that boy right now I could... well lets just say he'd have to ice 'em! *really really pissed off face* hugs to you!
from americangeek :
well, no one thought calling forn tot would be very interesting i guess :(
from americangeek :
I think it was called towson commons or something like that
from tiragem :
That party sounds cool. Definitely don't sound like the parties I get invited to... Maybe I know the wrong people... And I hope that everything works out with your debts at work. *fingers crossed*
from xeran :
At least console yourself in the fact you saw a doctor. At my last annual check up, the INTERNIST is the only one other than a nurse who saw me. And I got charged full price.
from lealoo :
Wow. Those flowers are beautiful. I adore snapdragons.
from xeran :
Seems he DID learn something. I'm so happy for you. I guess I'll let him live. For now.
from redstarhelix :
yeah, i gave her the out she needed. and she didnt do anything, well, except for sitting around my apartment bitching about him till 1 am...
from redstarhelix :
the server i was using for the music was overloaded. should be back shortly, when i can egt it up and working correctly again.
from everoboto :
I'm trying to figure out what the MBNA America thing is about. Who's bill is it?
from xeran :
Did you just hit a "milestone", like 15K miles? If so, then most cars are SCHEDULED to have the light come on, EVEN IF NOTHING IS WRONG! But it costs $75 for the dealer to just LOOK at it. Yeah, it's a great big SCAM. Still, it might be something important. Just trying to help you look on the bright side.
from mindlesspop :
185 is totally possible by july. especially as the weather gets nicer, you'll be more inclined to hit the gym. if you remind me to go jogging every morning, I'll remind you to go to the gym ;) oh yeah, we need to set up another lunch date, missy.
from redstarhelix :
and here i thought you abandoned me. like the layout of this one alot. and it sucks how addictive the tattoos are doesnt it.
from hibiscus101 :
omg! yum!!!!!!!!!
from lealoo :
Oh It's so perfect. Really beautiful. I can show you how to widen the text table if you still need to do so. I'll talk to you later.
from ibepiglet :
I refuse to use explorer except at work because our network only has it. Netscape works with 95% of what I view. How DARE Microsoft dictate to me what browser I use! No way. Pluse, Netscape does things that IE doesn't do, and does them well!
from peasantwench :
WAIT! There are more diaries of yours I can read?? How did I miss that? You may have noticed that I've been benignly stalking your for what, more than a year? And I want more! (Wow, maybe I should drink less coffee. I sound scary.)
from firecrotch :
delete the note. I have no clue how to do that. and i seem to be too stupid to figure it out for myself.
from rougereviews :
Okay, cool. Thanks for letting me know.
from neko-carre :
I was surprised to discover that I really liked locking. It felt really liberating. Not only did I stop worrying about being found, but then I knew that the people who stuck with me really liked me and I didn't feel the need to "advertise" my diary anymore. I hope it's good for you too. (I know what you mean about moving/changing names. It SUCKS!)
from lealoo :
Hey! Nothing wrong with "Bumfuck Massachusetts"! By the way, I have a new aim name. Lilyloobelle. just so you know
from peasantwench :
My grad quote was, "Some day we'll look back on all this, laugh nervously and change the subject."
from strippedraw :
i searched frantically for school closures! i still get like that, even when not in school. childhood attachment hehe
from sensualistic :
sorry! ok now
from mindlesspop :
thief! oh well, that's okay - i stole it from some random livejournal :D i'm so excited for our lunch!
from ydwtk :
piscicide!
from tiragem :
Visiting them once a year is often enough. I don't want you to die from a stroke. It sounded pretty bad. Happy new year, chica. Hope it goes well with your new guapo.
from everoboto :
What a fucking horror show your holiday was. Jeez, you need to cut those people off asap. Glad your back home where you belong. Have a great new year, and beware of hidden pork. \m/
from tiragem :
It does sound a whole lot like "fuck" doesn't it? The first time I heard "7 words" I was blown away. Then I went online and got the lyrics and was completely disappointed. But it's still a cool song. Merry Christmas, and since I won't be hearing from you until next year... Happy New Year. Hope Santa doesn't dig into his bag of coal when he stops at your house.
from tiragem :
I can't believe your mother did that to you! That's fucking ruthless. I'd be ready to fucking kill something... Ah anyways... I learnt several things today... I learnt how to look for a good contracting job (I honestly would have gone for the cheaperst)... and I learnt how to spell "Chanukka" (I would have tried it Harnica)... But I want this to be a fair exchange. "Concider" = "consider". Happy Chanukka to you too.
from fireflyez76 :
Hope you have a wonderful Chanukkah Tovah!! :)
from strippedraw :
damn someone beat me to the offer, i can host too if you'd like ;-)
from lealoo :
Hey, I can host your images for you until you get Gold if you want. Let me know.
from invisibledon :
Happy Holidays -2003
from girlygirl83 :
Hey girl. I would totally help you move if I lived by you. I bet that it's hard to deal with Ryan. I hope that you have a good day!
from strippedraw :
oh an IKEA list too??? i'm gonna go talk to my mom, i swear we're sisters ;-)
from maskedmofo :
Thank you for listing my diary among your favorites. It made me feel all warm inside!!! [[smiles]]
from tiragem :
I agree. Fuck is a very versatile word. Everyone should use it more often. And if you think that the drivers up there are bad, you ought to take a little road trip down here. The drivers in this fucking country... I don't drive, but they make me want to flip them the fucking bird ... even when I'm in my school uniform. I bet the Principal, Mrs. C, is gonna like that one when she hears about it. Who knows? She might give me an award for it.
from neko-carre :
Aw, thank you so much, Tov, for your nice comments in my Notes. That made me feel so good. Especially because I've felt particularly blick lately. Thank you again. And I can't wait to hear the CD! Yaaaaay!
from ydwtk :
ryan reaps what he sows -- as do most of us.
from strippedraw :
god damn baby we even have the same brother! he does that every year with christmas presents, that is just too funny. you know, he blames me for dropping outta HS cause as he says "well you used to get me up every morning for school, and as soon as you graduated you stopped doing that and i stopped going to school so in the end, it is your fault" uhhhh right ;-) PS thanks for the card!!! so cute hehe
from justamephit :
Hey, this is a gorgeous layout. Purple is so your colour. Glad you like my dark and deary one :) I've been quite crap at keeping up with diaries recently (kinda down and depressed, I guess) but I'm finally catching up. Just wanted to say I'm still here, still reading and I still adore you - looking forward, in fact, to getting through your backlog because reading you always uplifts me. (ps - your guestbook hates me and will never let me sign it *huff*)
from missclimaxxx :
Sorry I'm just now getting to you to make comment. Just wanted to let you know that if you change your mind about getting reviewed leave me a note or email me. I don't bite that hard ;)
from kryptonite13 :
LOL....I was afraid the goblins were going to take my little sister away after watching that movie, oh and Land before time, I can still quote that damn movie, I swear my little sister watched it everyday after school. Awww the memories... Oh thanks for the card :D
from lealoo :
That picture is incredibly beatiful. I'm very jealous.
from mindlesspop :
we MUST get together after the holidays! we are horrendously long overdue for a hang-out! oh, when you get the chance, email me your new address so i can send you a holiday card - they're super cute. snowmen and everything :D
from peasantwench :
Come on, this is me. Uncurable voyeur. I must know all so I can stalk you ahahHAHAHAHAH! Um, no. I'm sorry. I think end of semster stress is getting to me...
from strippedraw :
yes yes we are living the same life! just a few minor details thrown in for a difference but essentially i think so. although you're getting it way more than i am. damn you! ;-)
from ydwtk :
sure -- sign Me up for the new diary. :) Nice layout change! :)
from lealoo :
Title of your last entry.... hysterical!!! Anyways... I wouldn't mind reading your LJ. I've got one too incidentally, but I rarely ever update. Well, I think you know my email. By the way, GORGEOUS new layout.
from everoboto :
After that shopping bullshit, I wouldn't get Elyse anything. And why don't you just get her and Brian one 'couple' gift and save yourself the time, money, and aggrievation. Good luck with the shopping!
from tiragem :
About your entry entitled "I'm afraid"... I just want to say that you have it all right - you don't need to feel any better by what people's words. It is something that only you can deal with. It's very cool that you can see your handicap. Now all that's left is to see how long it will be before you tackle the problem. Kudos to you.
from americangeek :
that holiday bug has bit me too it seems too early though... btw, I'm at work now :)
from everoboto :
I, too, had a similiar crap day at the job that I like. It must be something in the air.
from tiragem :
I know I'm going to sound insensitive here... but... I just don't understand how people can have as much feelings for pets as most people have for other people! I just don't understand... People are just different I guess...
from everoboto :
Ooh, Jade is so adorable!!! She reminds me of my "niece" Selena.
from rainy-daze- :
wow, the layout looks really good. I very nearly chose that one but instead I took the Paul Frank one. I dunnow why I'm telling you this. Lol, sorry. I'm mad! xxxx
from strippedraw :
so pretty! ok i'm trying really really hard to catch up to you in the archives, i hate reading ppl in the middle, plus reviewing, plus catching up with a new read in someone else's archives and with my busy schedule it's crazy!! so i may not comment with new stuff cause i can't read old and new, too confusing but someday soon i will be in the present!!! all i have to say is what a difference between you 2 years ago and now, i'm so anxious to keep reading. that's it, i'm gonna book a day off and just read you damn it!!! ;-)
from kryptonite13 :
Yo who the hell was at the Bowling Alley?, If they were broads from HS, you know I'd remember them
from hadassah :
Cool pictures.
from everoboto :
Hey there, cats get bad breath from tartar build up, just like humans. Giving them hard food helps with that. If it doesn't you should maybe brush her teeth (there's special kitty brushes and paste for that). If it still persists, it could be a rotten tooth or a problem with the gums. Your vet can give her a cleaning and check up. I have one cat with tooth/gum/breath problems, and once a year I bring her to get her teeth checked and cleaned.
from everoboto :
I understand why you're frightened, and I'll be honest, it's going to take you a while to trust again. But if someone worthy comes along, don't turn them away because of what you went through. If you do, then that means you'll be letting someone else--your ex--have control over you.
from hadassah :
Give it some time sweetie, I understand how you feel. My ex is a total asshole and I have found it hard to trust or even want to love another man. If you ever want to chat let me know k? Take care
from everoboto :
Hey, if you're happy with the way things are going, then that's all that matters. I guess you just have to make sure you really are happy. Don't sell yourself short, but I guess you already know that.
from strippedraw :
i'm slowly creeping thru your archives and it eerily sounds familiar...
from hadassah :
you make me laugh. Gotta love it!
from tiragem :
I don't think your spelling errors are sufficiently numerous as to warrant a disclaimer - your spelling and grammar are pretty good actually. And I see what you mean about time flying... I was thinking the same thing about my lil bro Joel - I remember when I used to change his diapers and feel frustrated about always having to make his bottled milk... Time has some pretty strong wings...
from frtnckiervw :
You got it. :) I sent an e-mail to the image host asking for the pic so I could host it myself, but so far no response. I'm expecting one though, because she instructed all who wanted the images to e-mail her. We'll see what happens! Anyway, glad you liked the review.
from frtnckiervw :
Hey Tovah, your review's up.
from everoboto :
Is there an emergency animal hospital you can take her to? Maybe you should do that if you think she's really sick. I hope she gets better soon.
from invisibledon :
Happy Halloween 03
from hadassah :
I added you to my favs.
from hadassah :
Hi there, I can so relate to your entry today Oct.29 My brother was killed in a car crash 3 yrs ago and I was the one who found him. His shoes came off too. I still think about that day alot. Anyway if you ever want to chat let me know k? Take care
from fcukinreview :
Hey you requested I cant find our link and if you put up one of our buttons it might not work, put the link up so I can find it please then get back to me..
from everoboto :
I just had to come to your site after you wrote that funny stuff on LeaLoo's comments page (about diary pet peeves). So, I'm reading your 100 Things and I get to #34 "I own several pornos on dvd. None of them have a plot and there is very little dialogue, if any." I'd like to know the names of these please, because I don't need or want any plot or dialogue in my pornos. Thanks. And, nice site. I dig it. \m/
from tiragem :
That was a very cute entry about your cat, Jade. I have a cat myself, and am always amazed by the intelligence these animals have... even if they usually use this intelligence maliciously... sweet entry... and it's a terrible thing when families drift apart like that... I have a vague idea of how you feel...
from fireflyez76 :
I have to admit I was one of those completely callous people who over used the word "retard". That is until TJ was pronounced with brain damage. Now that word just eats at me. I'm very sorry about Jake :(
from liquid-mojo :
Um yeah, I have a slight tendancy towards masochism too when it comes to being reviewed. As for pets I used to raise an eyebrow at people who made a big deal out of thiers, that is until my family dog got lost. I'm still probably not going to gush like some people, over my pet, but still, I do have a newfound appreciation for my dog. :) As for my entry there's not too many ways one can respond to it. Most of the questions I have posed are of the rhetorical, unanswerable variety. I certainly didn't mean for it to have a negative effect on you though...
from lealoo :
We had a cat named Jadoo (she was grey and feather light, like a shadow) who lived to be twenty. We adopted her when I was two years old. Up until about the last year of her life she was incredibly healthy, then she went downhill pretty fast. I held her when she had to be put down. She's buried inbetween some rose bushes, right next to an ancient grape vine. We miss her, but sometimes we feel like she's still around.
from lealoo :
I completely agree with you. I can't stand either of them. Especially the Princess. Ugh.
from idiotreviews :
your review is up. Thanks for waiting so patiently! http://idiotreviews.diaryland.com/juniperhexu.html
from mindlesspop :
you called my professor a cocksucker in my guestbook! thus providing me with reason #245168416351651 why i love you! (p.s. if this same message shows up twice on your guestbook, signmyguestbook kept sending me an error message when i tried to sign it. grr!)
from ohsoprecious :
Like you said my diary is open to the public but why are you so pressed to critique something that doesn't affect you??
from bluntviews :
hahaha, aww...I both love and hate when that happens.
from bluntviews :
Changing your font is very simple (I'm surprised you made your page but can't change that you silly goose). I don't know what format you use, but if it's just run of the mill HTML you put <FONT FACE="Verdana">text</FONT> - or if you're on a style sheet, just find where it says the font style and replace them all with whatever font you want.
from cheekyreview :
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from quitenasty :
Heya, it's Justamephit. I updated the review to reflect the changes to your layout. Welcome to Quite Nasty's Amazing. Congratulations.
from americangeek :
actually I was saying 4:14..... 4/14 is my birthday.... but thanks anyways! :)
from tiragem :
Oh my God... I saw the signs... And I thought them odd... But I never guessed. Still, I feel honoured that you would tell me. Thank you.
from invisibledon :
thanks for the post card you are way too cool
from tiragem :
I used to lose my entries a lot to shit like that, too. That's why I pre-write my entries in MS word now, then copy and paste them into the diaryland box thingie. Works wonders. And you have no right to feel guilty about your quality as a person if a man hits you. No one has any right to hit you no matter *what* you did.
from tiragem :
Umm, hi there. Read a bit of your diary... let's see... SEVEN bras in HOW MANY months??? And secondly, I don't know who you are. But judging by your sometimes deadly encounters with animals, I'm guessing you're not an animals' rights activists. I'll be back to see what murder will happen next. A dog's committed by you. Or yours committed b a horse. Interesting diary.
from neko-carre :
Tov! Hi! Great to hear from you!
from ibepiglet :
You are entitled to feel sad and lonely. But you did NOT do anything wrong. Don't put that on yourself.
from invisibledon :
Have a great holiday weekend 8/29/03
from thebugprince :
Congrats on your 2 year here. Mine's coming up in September. Thanks for cheer on my Screing The Man.
from soandsotgs :
hey i found this link and thought it was funny.... since you are a member of the homestar diaryring i thought you mmight enjoy it too tell me what you think http://www.outpimp.com/?x=165657
from ibepiglet :
Hey sweetie, your guestbook is broken (or maybe you turned it off?) I just wanted to say I'm proud of you moving and hope you are settling in ok.
from xnataliex :
haha yeah that's where we're going. i live just south of baltimore. we aren't so much worried about our food getting eaten as we are getting eaten alive by mosquitos, but i am excited none the less!
from invisibledon :
whoa the b-day is coming up soon
from cutething :
gosh, there i was thinking * i* was a cute thing. hee! thank you very much for your notes.
from cutething :
yeah, i know. but other people tend to make a big deal out of really minor things. like i said, i mock.
from raevyn808 :
I've got a couple of recipes that call for pineapple if you'd like 'em. Of course, they're all for desserts. =) Pineapple-carrot cake, pineapple upsidedown cake... I'll ask my mom for ideas as well.
from peasantwench :
Yay! Office wenchs unite!
from golfwidow :
No, he never responded, and he or someone like him deleted the two tech support messages I had left. That's why I wound up writing my own "little" disclaimer.

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