messages to xo-liesl:
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from raven72d :
so amny diaries abandoned here... it's good to know some people are still writing.
from limes-sugar :
(1) Yes! Good for you for doing it. I love the strong way you severed ties. Sometimes that is exactly what is needed. Stay strong! (2) Um, strawberry rose jam? YUM.
from limes-sugar :
I am so sorry you are going through this, but it is so good to have you back on dland. Your posts sound strong, in spite of what you may be feeling! :)
from lostasyou :
Putting you on my list, because I'd like to be nosy and read more x
from anticrew :
again with the lock? you gotta let a girl in, man.
from dizzigemini :
http://dizzigemini.diaryland.com/021029_40.html ....love is a dog from hell, and loving an addict is just that, hell. This I know, personally. Addicts love one thing, the high, the drug. And--there--is--no--compitition. Time heals all wounds. It takes time....this too shall pass. Reading the entry was a flashback to my past, to a guy *I* supported, clothed, shoethed, fed. 120k spent on him. And just like an addict would, *promise* to pay me back when could, and when his grandma died, trustfund appeared..... he dissapeared. (I didn't know he would-be entitled to a trustfund until a year before he received it). Millions he has, and won't give me what he promised to pay back. My *stripper* money. All the lapdances and private shows, all the d*cks I had to jackoff. I was hella angry for years. But then a female friend pointed out, tho he was/is an addict, he was more like a "kept man", a gigalo. I mean, s*x was daily, couple times a day even. (Takes meth to keep a guy hard+high.) So, I think of him like a whore now. I don't know what that says about me, I mean, I sell myself, yet he did me real dirty. Its not about the *money* its the principle behind acknowledging what I sacrificed..... like that in itself ment nothing to him. And a decade has passed since, and he is still high somewhere in LA. Karma is a bitch and I hear L.A. is karma's playground. Its just. I'm over it. I give up on men, they are strange. And I'm attracted to addicts and alcoholics. I mean, to quote C-Bukowski; "All Ive ever known are pill freaks, alcoholics, whores, ex-prostitutes, madwomen. When one leaves another arrives worse than her predecessor. Dont ever bring a whore around, I tell my few friends, Ill fall in love with her. Yup. I would have effed Bukowski. Yup.
from anticrew :
hey liesl, hope that your absence means you're doing well over there in PST-land.
from isky :
Really enjoyed reading your diary:) I hope you write more xx
from limes-sugar :
i would like to know when mercury will be OUT of retrograde. And why some people don't seem to be affected, but i can give you a laundry list of shit that has gone wrong or just. isn't. right. or fair. I'm pretty sick of it. Perhaps this is just a rough patch, as you guys are separated right now and that's hard. Try to think of it as a hump, not the end!
from limes-sugar :
oo i've missed you. and your writing/Writing! :) I hope you update more! I'd love to hear about your adventures. xo Limes
from limes-sugar :
aw its been so long since you've updated i don't remember the password! :( would love to have it again if you're cool with it. hope all is well!!
from anticrew :
abandoned! (maybe?)
from avere :
The way you write is extraordinary. I miss reading your entries. Would you send me the password? [email protected]
from anticrew :
knock, knock...can you slide the key under my door: anticrewATgmailDOTcom
from fa11 :
I don't know you, but I can tell you this- it will get better. It will. It will. It will.
from anticrew :
mark epstein: thoughts without a thinker.
from avere :
Even though I'm a girl, I'd probably marry you just for the privilege of hearing you talk forever. You are an amazing, amazing person. You've got star twitch inside you.
from limes-sugar :
goodness, i couldn't agree with you more about tuesday. it was a little magical! :) Have so much fun on your trip to Africa! xoxo
from bbbrett :
I've been poking my nose back into things lately and I have to say that it's good to see that you're still up and around. Ridiculous to think that it's been a number of years since I've been on this site, but I don't remember things being so rosy the last time that I checked in. Good to see you're good.
from anticrew :
liesl's falling in looooove!!! woooooooooo!
from heartracer :
fucking WONDERFUL. xo
from anticrew :
oh liesl, you're so much stronger than you give yourself credit for. you need to not just believe that but FEEL that. and i have no other reason for saying that other than i love you and I believe in you.
from heartracer :
i'm still checking in all the time, sending thoughts and all that. i didn't forget the care package, either. all at once i am slow and busy and we were robbed recently so that makes everything crazy. in any case, i hope you're alright. lots of love, xoxox
from russface :
Hello! I went to your diary upon reading your name in the recent entries box. I liked it. I hope to add you as a favourite even though I just read your most recent entry. I'm crazy busy. Can you tell from my rambling? Middle East. Live there in Dubai. Total crap scene, albeit livable. Best thing about being there is being able to go to Africa, etc. without the long flight. People are ok but my hometown rules over Dubai kind of like Austin ruled 15 years ago. I'm rambling again. I had a girlfriend bust up with me who had a cat named Liesl. I hope you check out my diary. xx
from mmmfactor :
gosh i feel like im reading into my own mirror of hurt feelings. *hug* you're going to be okay, faith darling.. faith.
from limes-sugar :
I think there are definitely phases! The good thing is, after the crying phase, it gets better. ;) I am thinking of you.
from heartracer :
jesus, liesl, your writing a lot of times just blows my mind.
from vla :
I am a new reader to your diary, but god, girl. your writing is so beautiful. and I have so so so been where you are right now. I just hope you know, you're handing this all so well. feeling all of this. and that's the most important thing, I think. to just feel it all and move through it. take care.
from heartracer :
your words are on fire. your heart is on fire. i just wanted to say i read these words and feel for you. if you wouldn't find it too creepy, send me your address at jetlovesjadeATyahooDOTcom. maybe some liesl-love mail would be nice in shitty times. i don't know. hold on. xo
from limes-sugar :
Hi there. I have been reading your updates and really enjoy your writing. I am so sorry you are going through this, although I have no doubt it will all be for the best later. Don't you hate when people say that? Sad but true. When my bf of 4 yrs and I broke up, I did the same thing, let myself sit with the sadness for a while. It was really good for me in the long run, I think. Patty Griffin's song "Top of the World" is a good addition. Anyway, take care of you, and I am here silently supporting!
from starscream77 :
I have no idea who you are, or anything like that. But a lot of the things I've read from you (I was just browsing random entries from people) really reminds me of me and what I'm feeling and trying to figure out. So..good luck I guess, best wishes be with you.
from heartracer :
sending love. that is all. x
from jerrbear :
(4/5/08) Did you just lock your diary in the last five days? I want the password dammit.
from heartracer :
noooo! i want to read! hope you are well. xoxoxoxoxo
from anticrew :
totally not abandoned. i'm scared of the new format!
from anticrew :
This is the, by the far, one of the healthiest things I've read from you in a while, Liesl. And by that, I mean, I don't feel like you're hurting or you're aching but you're actually healing. I wanted to add something to what you--just as 'from the bleachers' perspective: could it be possible that associate love with nurturing? As in, when you're able to nurture your dude (ie. always being the one taking them out to dinner/always trying to get their attention etc), that's how you develop your feelings of love and attachment? And, perhaps, the reason why Mr. SK is not as easy to fall for is because he's not fulfilling that traditional role? I dunno...what do you think? Also, I want you to promise me something here. The next time you feel a freak out coming on and think you want to run from him, promise me that instead of running, you will turn to him and say: "Dude, I'm feeling scared for XX reason." and start a dialogue with him. I think you're an incredibly sensitive and intelligent soul, Liesl, and I'd hate to see you not give this guy--but more importantly, yourself--a chance at what appears to be a very beautiful and meaningful relationship.
from lildebkitty :
So now you are locked? Can I have the key?
from broken214 :
I have often felt that we are living in Hell. Reminds me of a Stephen King movie I once watched wherer one of the character's bluntly said "We are dead, and this is Hell." Just wanted to drop you a little note and say hi. Ciao.
from lildebkitty :
Weddings and Marriage are all about the dress and cinderella . Being married is different than being in a relationship. Because you know that you each are that serious. It is kinda like dating vs. after you have had the talk and know you are in a committed relationship. Or the difference between dating and living together. It is just a higher level of committment. I may be one of the stupid ones though so maybe you ought not listen to me!
from heartracer :
i swear if we lived in the same city i'd ask if you wanted to get coffee or something. still reading you, just not writing at diaryland these days. xoxox
from jerrbear :
My Penny had a mustache such that I would occasionally call her Hitlerina. How about "Schicklgruber"?
from anticrew :
someone googled your first and last name and found my diary. (i have never used your last in my diary, by the way). they live in mount vernon, NY...just thought you should know. weird, huh?
from anticrew :
i thought you said locks were for pussies? dont be a pussy, open up.
from lildebkitty :
I don't think it is selling out, I think it is growing up and being responsible. You can still be the person you wanted to be, you just take a different path on getting there. I don't think you could sell out you have too much of a soul to do so!
from bettinas :
That was really beautifully written, although tainted with sadness. You can do it--you will get past him. You have to.
from anticrew :
dude. grannies. weird.
from anticrew :
Dear Liesl, Can you please do me a favour and just stop. STOP. Stop giving yourself such a hard time. There's nothing wrong with being sad about Aught or missing him or missing being in love with him. It shows that you're still sensitive to love and all the affectionate emotions it creates in you. If you woke up one day and were over the whole thing, without any cookie crumbs of emotion, THAT would and should be a cause for serious alarm. You don't need emotional ultimatums, you'll heal when your heart is good and ready. And for the record, anyone who knows how they want to spend the rest of their life at the age of 23/24 are called Norms. They're the people who end up with nervous breakdowns at 35 and cheat on their spouse with the babysitter or the pool guy. Can you really imagine making plans now for a life that has at least 50-60 more years to go? God, I want to take you to a state fair, drag you on a roller coaster and just scream with you with cotton candy stuck all over my lips to: Live your life freely, enjoy it with a ferocious hunger and when things strike your fancy, try them out and see if they're your bag. There's no rush.
from bettinas :
Some day something will be invented to make sensitive, artistic types absorb scientific fact. Until that, I will continue to be amazed that you even attempt things like microbiology. I love science as a concept but the, well, science behind it is so hard. Also, if I ever have a baby, I really want you to be my doula. Especially after this week's New Yorker article about childbirth. (Oh, shush, I know you read it too.)
from anticrew :
hi. could you please get undead and like, fast. why/when/who/what are you doing? this inquiring mind would like to know. i mean, shit, i'd send you an email to make sure youre alright but SOMEONE didnt read their last note! HMPH!
from anticrew :
will you send me your email address. i was just about to send you a gayspace message but youve gone and disappeared. [ifightdirty-yahoo-ca]
from bettinas :
That's totally an Anne of Green Gables book. I can't figure out which one, though--I think Anne of Avonlea? From when she goes away to school?
from bettinas :
Well, my dog thinks he's people. Does that count?
from manchmal :
Hey, Liesl. I'm changing my password (again). I'm emailing it to your diaryland address, but if you don't get it and still want to read, email me at [email protected] and I'll send you it. Emily
from anticrew :
stop psyching me out, man
from bettinas :
So I pretty much think you're a genius, and we should found a midwifery/arts consortium somewhere where we don't have to drive cars or be around other people.
from anticrew :
Weeeeeird! I just wrote you the longest gayspace message EVER!
from anticrew :
all things considered, i found being busted for the period-stained panties the unsung comedy of this entry, liesl. you having to explain this item to the fuzz maybe not so high on your funny-o-meter.
from lildebkitty :
I love reading you, I love what you live through, I love your agony, your anger, I love you happiness, your accomplishments. I love how when I read what you write I feel like I am sucked through this monitor and I am right there. I absolutely cringe at some of your politics but hey I am older and from Texas and atleast you are educated and well informed with your politics! Wishing you happiness!
from manchmal :
The good thing is that you are one of the smartest people I have ever read. And so you have that. And I think maybe some day you can write a book, or a poem, or tell a story, because you have lived through this and are living through this and you are very smart.
from manchmal :
Omigod, Liesl, you're only 23??? Whoa. From your writing, I seriously thought you were like 30. Really. I mean, it's mature...and your assessment of the A. situation...also mature, and grounded, and honest. But girlfriend you are YOUNG yet. I am actually at the near-30 mark, and wishing I were 23 again. You have at LEAST until 27 or 28 to get your ducks in a row. :p
from jerrbear :
Yay! I don't have much but I can offer you HPV. :o
from jerrbear :
Eat the cookies already! And try the drugs. (Except for Wellbutrin, don't try that.) They work really well for a lot of people.
from bettinas :
The first part of your entry reads like a transcipt of what I was talking about with my therapist last night. But I am getting better, L, without drugs, for now, but with dealing with my issues and forgiving myself and trying to explore what is at the core of myself that makes me act in certain ways. You can, too. Do you have a good talk therapist? hugs to you.
from manchmal :
It will go away. And I think the best way to make that happen faster is to try to fill the hole with whatever artificial shit you can, even if it is people, without making any lifetime commitments. I dated a lot when my long term relationship ended. Then I came home and cried about how much I hated everyone on the planet except the ex. But eventually that feeling of being valuable came back. I think you're right: that's the first step. But I promise, it will go away.
from anticrew :
fuck the jinxsies. even feeling it for a second is amazing, liesl. soon you'll be swimming in it.
from jerrbear :
Drama sucks. And...if you're not sure about someone, just don't move in with them. Yet.
from manchmal :
Oh, I know this part really sucks. I had a six year relationship, and it was in MY HOME TOWN, and when my boyfriend ended it, he not only took the social circle, but he also moved his new girlfriend-cum-wife and her kid to this town. It was so, so hard...to see them, to hear about them, for like a year, even a year and a half. And then it wasn't so hard, gradually, after that. I think I even forced myself to go out with them and watch them together, and then I slowly started to get over it. But it's awful when they won't leave. I'm sorry. I admire your healing process, for what it's worth. Emily
from sunfillsair :
for whatever it's worth: i always read to the very last word. sending you "i *will* be okay" thoughts. take care.
from anticrew :
i'm asking you this question earnestly, liesl: why are you in any relationship right now? there are just so many unresolved emotions and hurt and when i see you trying to juggle someone else's feelings (like alex), i want to scream at you: but who's doing the juggling for you and your emotions?? it's very convenient and easy for me to say, 'aww hey man, why dont you give up the dudes and solo up for a bit til you can do some real healing' because i dont know what those relationships do for you or what they're repairing inside of you. i just feel that you need to be with someone right now--even a parent, ANYone--who knows how to love you unconditionally, so that they can help you build yourself back up. i love you, girl. you can do this.
from jerrbear :
"Waste-smeared paper." Niiiice.
from manchmal :
hi, hi. hi hi hi. So I'm locking up for awhile. A while. userid: dog; passwd: fur
from sunfillsair :
oh, liesl. i wish i could do something to make you smile. but please, regardless of the "bad" things (ie, things that make you FEEL bad)... remember not every outside action is testament, perhaps just a reflection of this disquiet right now. shedding skin. push forward - love yourself, and the rest will, eventually, somehow follow. right now never lasts forever.
from bettinas :
I saw some pictures from Scott's trip and A looks raw. Moral: Scott is cool, A is lame. Also: come visit me. I live five blocks from Scott.
from sunfillsair :
thank you!
from anticrew :
i think i know who duder is. god, he needs to settle down. make him smoke pot or something.
from roxychick456 :
i love everything you write, it's always so true.
from bettinas :
This is one of those times I wish I could call you and we could go have tea. Or coffee. Or whiskey. Or anything, but just so say we can raise our glasses and say "welcome, new year." I'm going to visit you soon. Dammit.
from jerrbear :
Yeah! Get. Better. My boss is going to Tahiti next week. I wish she would stay there.
from anticrew :
being part of a unit. there was a time when that's what i thought i was apart of. i so clearly felt the transition of being someone's daughter to being someone's partner. i felt cheated and abandoned and most of all defrauded. i spent years building what seemed to be a home with someone only to find no one in it. it's all stuff and nonsense.
from inkedgal :
yes, i am getting awesome. -jdb
from bettinas :
You ever come online anymore? I'd love to have me a liesl chat....mcswigb
from myhips :
period shits?!
from bettinas :
Big hugs and love to you. You'll be fine, because you're wonderful.
from sunfillsair :
you're strong, dear liesl. even after all the pain, you'll stay that way. just saying. much love to you.
from anticrew :
cities are more incestous than all the cousins in the royal family.
from anticrew :
Liesl, I have been reading you on and off again for awhile now and never knew if it was okay to write or not. There are times when you would update and my heart just sank because I could relate to some of your pain and I just felt so awfully for you. But I didn't know how you wouldve felt if I commented, so I erred on the side of caution and didn't say anything. And I wanna say: I'm glad that a certain someone isn't in your life to not appreciate you anymore but I'm extremely saddened that it has to be this painful. THAT being said, I'm also retardularly--yessss, retardularly--happy that you're into new things and new people (!). Awesome, dude. Just awesome. Love, Rhonda
from bettinas :
Please allow me a moment to feel very indignant on your behalf. I just got an e-mail from one of my bestest friends in town and he said he can't hang out tonight because he is taking one austin barrrrrber to the airport tonight. Asshat was in town? I'm so confused/relieved I didn't go out this week, because I just wouldn't know what to say to him since I like you more. That's all. Are your ears burning?
from bettinas :
This is too little too late, but I'm sorry about your grandmother. It will get better. On another note, if you move to Taos, you'll only be about 4 hours from me, and we could run away to the mountains all the time* *with good food and good wine, of course.
from lildebkitty :
I am sorry for your loss. What a beautiful woman she was.
from heartracer :
what a beautifully bittersweet peice of heart... she sounds wonderful. i'm sorry for your loss, and hope as time passes you feel her moving with you through your life... in a new way. thinking of you, really. xoxoxox
from sunfillsair :
dude, whatever happens... it's priceless right now. that's what counts. enjoy it. i can tell you are and that's good because you're getting to revel in things you deserve massively. cheers! xox
from manchmal :
a prom!!
from bettinas :
Your ability to evaluate yourself and express that evaluation is truly amazing. You're a smart cookie, darlin'.
from sweetjulep :
everytime i read your updates it's like a window into my soul. I really do empathize. I'm sorry that we're going through this, because really, they're the shit and we're the catches, but it just seems like we get stuck with the mourning while they just...move the fuck on. i don't get guys at all. it's so confusing--this hating his fucking guts and wanting him back at the same time...I'm sorry.
from junkromance :
hey there, my love life hit the fan the same weekend as yours. I'm sorry. What can I say, head up, back straight, middle finger raised, C'est La Vie. I hope you feel better soon. -junk
from lildebkitty :
I liked you calling him Austin better. I live in Houston, and well I don't care for total assholes who have no regard for your feelings being called after my hometown.... I hope he does burst into flames, it is easier to mourn someone when they are dead than when they are alive and you have to see them with someone.... wow that sounds psychotic, that isn't how I mean it, I think you understand...
from bettinas :
Oh, and underneath this snarky exterior there is most certainly a deep belief in the cosmic shit-- once upon a time I was a hippie and some of that stuff stuck..xo
from bettinas :
I got chills reading your entry. What an asshat. Seriously. You're better off without him. Thanks for your note; I don't know what's going on, but I feel incredibly uncertain and sad. I love you too, darlin.
from bettinas :
He is behaving incredibly selfishly and being downright rude. I guess there's no such thing as an easy breakup, but something smells fishy. When you said your friend said A is on a bit of a coke bender my radar went off like crazy, because who behaves selfishly and doesn't feel the need to explain himself? Someone on a coke bender, or maybe someone with a coke problem. Just a feeling I have...who knows if it's true. In any case, you deserve better.
from jerrbear :
"He wants to not worry about anyone else. He wants to pursue his goals without the added burden of someone else's needs and wants." That sounds pretty f*cking clear to me. And horribly, unbelieveably selfish and rotten. I'm so sorry. I tried to go into my current relationship with the realization that I WILL be hurt, but I doubt that'll help much when the time comes.
from jerrbear :
I am so sorry about Aught that rat bastard. You deserve better than him. If only I weren't taken... ;)
from lildebkitty :
Oh sweet lady my thoughts are with you. I am sending you all the strength and positive energy I can. If you ever need an ear I am here.
from sweetjulep :
My heart is bleeding for you :( My boyfriend of three and a half years recently told me he didn't want to move in with me - three days before I was going to pack up and move my things from Boston to NYC. Then, after about a month of telling me that he didn't think he could get past all of "this," never explaining what this *was*, he decided he simply didn't want to be with me. Boys SUCK, and I'm so sorry. I don't want anyone else, either. It's all bullshit.
from bettinas :
What. The. Fuck. (hugs)
from heartracer :
perhaps the last thing you want is words from a stranger but i'll risk it to tell you that i'm sending you good thoughts. and i hope it doesn't sound too trite. take care, liesl.
from manchmal :
Ugh, I'm sorry. That would be hard, is hard. I don't know what I'd do. I don't know if I could forgive. But one thing: he did finally tell you, and after this amount of time, he really didn't have to. I'd have been more suspicious if he came home and immediately told you, I think. I mean, I'd be more suspicious of his really wanting to be with me (where me = you). In this case, though, he obviously has been feeling bad and wants to make things right? No? He could have kept it to himself forever. I don't know. Take care, you.
from bettinas :
Your entry made me smile a lot because it reminds me so much of why we are, like, soul twins, or something. Even though I am a homeowner, I still have things like that--our neighborhood is really nice (probably too nice for us, truth be told) but we have the one skanky house on the block. They actually painted Looney Tunes characters all over their garage, and always have cars parked at weird hours (meth, anyone?). Thankfully their garage is on the alley, but I still have to see it every time I drive to my driveway. Grrr... lots of hugs to you, dear Liesl.
from bettinas :
Happy, happy, happy birthday!
from lildebkitty :
Happy Happy Birthday Loverly Lady!!!!
from manchmal :
yes, yes, happy 22. shit, I thought you were older than that. :p
from heartracer :
happy birthday!
from bettinas :
Ditto on Time Traveler's Wife and the white tea phenomenon. I have white tea and ginger lotion, and much like I check the ground for signs of spring tulips, I check my own skin for white tea benefit. Synchro dude.
from equivocalady :
you make domesticity actually sound fun.
from jerrbear :
The St. Francis is at the corner of 24th and York in the Mission. One block east of Bryant. I just like having somewhere where you can get a chocolate shake made from actual chocolate ice cream. It's real close to C's house. *** I like special brownies but they always put me to sleep. They kind of sneak up on you and it's darn near impossible to calibrate the dosage correctly. I do intend to partake thuswise when I get a week off in March though. Good luck on the job interview! *** And I know I've said this before, but you should get a goshdarn guestbook because this notes page takes forEVer to load. Partially my fault I admit...
from mathyou :
Mac is coming on so hardcore right now. Have you seen OSX Tiger?! They never stop!
from bettinas :
Oh, Liesl, honey. I love you and I'm thinking of you.
from lildebkitty :
I am so sympathetic for the whirlwind of emotions you are going through right now. I can understand your need to share and your need for privacy, but have you talked with Aught about it? Your choice to do so or not, but he might be there to comfort you. If you need to talk I am here.
from roxychick456 :
i sorry about what happened... is it okay to just want to hug you?
from anticrew :
i know i havent written here in awhile, but listen, i'm sorry about what you went through over the thanksgiving holidays. there must have been much more anxiety than what you're detailing here. quite frankly, i have no idea what you've been through and i have no words of advice to offer you. i just hope that you have a good support system and good people around you who care about you and that you can lean on when things get too scary or too crazy.
from bettinas :
Hug that adorable puppy for me. Happy T-day.
from mathyou :
Yes. I'm jealous. Every night, I pray to little baby Jesus that my dick will bleed, so I can jam cotton up my urethra and talk about it online.
from lildebkitty :
I am so very glad you found him, I would have been manic. Hope you don't leave the country, Bush isn't so bad, he has to have the the house and senate behind him to do anything. It is always such a shame that people don't remember that when they critic. Congrats on the puppy!!
from sweetjulep :
Yay that you found your puppy! It _was_ a miracle, but more importantly, you were a wonderful puppy mommy - and you fought to find your dog. I'm glad this story had a happy ending.
from jerrbear :
Congratulations on finding Cyrus!!! I guess pits are a hot enough commodity that they're worth stealing now. Those fuckers.
from jerrbear :
Welll, I was clicking around looking at people's profiles, and just as I had decided to search for people in Oakland, my "buddy list" link turned red, signifying that SOMEONE had just updated. I clicked on it and no one was there. "Huh", I thought and did a search on Diaryland people in Oakland. Guess whose name was at the top of the list, i.e. most recently updated? Yours. That's why the wild accusation. You voted for Bush, didn't you? DIDN'T you??
from jerrbear :
It's 6:12pm on 11/4/04. Did you just write an entry and then delete it? Don't DO that! >:(
from sweetjulep :
I'm so sorry to hear about your dog. We had one of our dogs stolen once (and one dog stolen despite the fact that the other found her and kept hanging around - oh, but they didn't want both of our dogs...just one of them). I didn't realize that it was so common for pets to be stolen, but at least one of my friends has a similar story. It makes me sick that people would do that. I really and truly hope you find your dog, and that the bastards who stole him rot in hell.
from bettinas :
Taos is seriously one of the most beautiful places in the world. The sky does swallow up a lot of pain. There are also mountains with trails, gorgeous scenery, and a pretty cool art scene once you get past all the crappy coyotes howling at the moon. Plus, there are lots of hippies there. Ooh, and famous people!
from mathyou :
Liesl, I apologize for my distance from the D-land. Much is happening, but I feel an inability to write. I run too much. Tons, even. I'd be running twenty miles right now if it weren't for Hurricane Jeanne turning my street into a river that can not be forded by Honda Civics. Also, I know this much about landfills because I have a Bachelor's of Science in Packaging. Last semester, I took a course on packaging and the environment where I learned all kinds of insane things. You thought I was making that up?
from bettinas :
Come to New Mexico! It's the land of my birth! I can teach you its strange ways and we can be so close to each other it will be like killer crazy road trips every freaking weekend oh my god YES! (that is my selfish response--I understand that's a huge deal and I wish you the best)
from bettinas :
Okay, freaky lunar hippie child, what have you done with Liesl?
from mathyou :
So Aught quit being vegan? He's not even vegetarian? Where was I? Also, it doesn't matter if something is biodegradable or not when you just throw it in the trash anyway. Landfill environments do not allow decomposition. In fact, the way most people can tell the date of a landfill is by checking a newspaper in there. A head of lettuce can still be recognizable after several years in a landfill, compared to just weeks in the fridge. No shit!
from bettinas :
I hope your kitty gets better and that the first vet you went to has his skin removed and reapplied inside out.
from lildebkitty :
I am so sorry to hear about your kitty. I truly hope he gets better, I fed my cat pedilite instead of water when she got sick to keep her hydrated, you might try it. Hope all works out!
from lildebkitty :
Missed reading you for awhile...so glad you didn't quit your job! She sounds like a power trip bitch!
from jerrbear :
Are you using IE for Mac or something else? I've had problems deleting my IE (for windows) history; do you actually go back and check to see if the history went away like it was supposed to? Also, there are keystroke logging programs readily available now. If your company is spying on you they should warn you (in the employee handbook or some such), but as an employee you have basically no expectation of privacy. In Windows I hit ctrl-alt-del to see what's running in the background; if you can do that with a Mac you can at least tell if they're logging your keystrokes. Also there is the handy autocomplete feature which can screw you. If you put "x" into your address line does it instantly pop up with "xo-liesl.diaryland.com"? Be paranoid, be very paranoid.
from bettinas :
I saw this and it made me think of you:http://www.theonion.com/opinion/index.php?issue=4035
from myhips :
dude. girls who are drunk all the time have the best taste in music.
from myhips :
duuuude she told me she dumped kindle?!??? whatever man, she's trouble. she's WEIRD.
from bettinas :
SO BLISSED OUT. Isn't it wonderful? Now if only our damn plumbing could get their act together.
from myhips :
hahahahaha you know kriistal! yeah she calls herself Tai now. her real name is barbara dawn. i've known her FFFOOORRRREEEEVVVEERRRR because when she was 18 she conned her way into living with me by telling me that she was friends with the faint and the make up. oh lord, how foolish. are you talking about kendall or whoever? i was supposed to meet him last night but then i flaked on them. now that she's back in town i feel sorry for her because no one wants to hang out with her and her husband is dying of cancer. and oh yeah she's CRAZY. want to see naked pictures of her?!!
from jerrbear :
How can you *not* keep an innocent crush on the side? I just figured I did because I am nominally a guy and guys are jerks, right? Maybe it's an evolutionary backup system so the pressure of your real relationship doesn't kill you. E.g. I don't mind staying at home all day as long as I know I can walk out the door whenever I feel like it. Or maybe you're a jerk too. ;)
from myhips :
to answer your question: yeah, i keep crushes on the side. like five million of them. truth be told, i have a crush on probably half of the people i know. i can't help it. people in san francisco are all really good-looking. i flirt like crazy when i'm out with my friends and i still fantasize about former people i've dated. i don't admit to alot of this though. thankfully most people i have crushes on know sean (or know of him), and if they don't- i'm totally not ballsy enough to ever cheat on my boyfriend or take one of my five million crushes seriously. so... i guess crushes are alright as long as they're innocent and go nowhere.
from myhips :
let me know how the iRabbit works. i saw it in goodvibes a few days ago, and it looked like it does the job. i'm in the market for a new vibrator but i'm scared to buy anyhting pricey if it doesn't work well. that, and the thought of sticking a rabbit or dolphin or unicorn or whatever up my twat seems creepy.
from myhips :
it's not me who's getting married, but i like being dramatic about that stuff. we've been talking about it. but i don't think i ever want to be someone's wife.
from manchmal :
Yes! I fucking HATE yuppy fucks who think, somehow, that gentrifying a neighborhood is "authentic." Down with authenticity. This is like the rich population in my neck of the woods turning this downtrodden town into an "art commune." Death.
from mathyou :
Shut up, lady.
from jerrbear :
Sugar-free chocolate? NO. But if you want a random fat guy to buy you a beer sometime, email jerr bear six six six at hott mail dott com.
from bettinas :
Our arrangement is simple: huge crazy hardcore kissing parties are fine and light making out is permitted if it is in the name of Party Patrol and not Sex. Anything else is not okay. His band makes out a lot to shock people, and I'm hardly going to stand in their way. Nothing serious, and nothing that we wouldn't feel comfortable telling each other is the rule. But I've never taken advantage of this.
from jerrbear :
Give us a description and I'll keep an eye out for him. :(
from bettinas :
Six degrees of separation, my friend. Okay, so my sister's best friend in college and my idol while growing up passed away a few years ago. His older brother David wrote Proof, and Jake Gyllenhal just finished shooting the movie version of the play. You-me-Ben-David-Jake. It's that easy. Now if I can just get tickets to the premiere, you will be my date.
from jerrbear :
Welcome back. Nice tattoo, now let's see the rest of you. ;)
from occipitalobe :
Lady, I first saw Party of Helicopters in Ann Arbor like four years ago. Midwestern indie rock is largely overlooked by the coast-worshippers... This is Adelaide were better. And yes, the lobe is up and running.
from mathyou :
I wanna see your tattoo.
from elvisload :
how refreshing it is to hear someone say... i wanna go home...i'm tired of smelling funny and smelling people who smell funny... this is why i don't travel... i mean... only travel if ur rich... and then... why travel...? so sick of people talking about the amazing time they had abroad... ya ya ya... foney jerks... anyhoo... how refreshing...
from jerrbear :
You say you have The Plague? I prescribe liberal doses.
from mathyou :
Uh, I've never been outside of Northwestern quadrisphere, so I don't have much to say about that. But I will say this: You should buy "YOU FORGOT IT IN PEOPLE" by BROKEN SOCIAL SCENE because I've listened to it non-stop for the past month.
from bettinas :
Middlesex is sooooo good. You're in Prague right now--my sister will be there in a week. Why am I not in Europe this summer? The sentiment remains the same: 1)jealous 2)wishing you love and happiness on your travels.
from obscuritron :
xoxo the two below me are right and time will pass sooner than expected. so, please try to enjoy your time. i know you have it in you to have some fun!!!. i love you.xoxoxo
from manchmal :
I agree with betina...you will be mad at yourself if you miss the boy all the time. I've taken too many trip like that. You must sleep! Sleep will make things better. And if not, find some absynthe. :)
from bettinas :
Have a great time, and please don't spend the whole time missing a boy--you'll see him when you do, and you both will have seen so much that you'll have that much more to talk about. Enjoy where you are....I wish I was there with you!
from bettinas :
Jesus Christ Liesl I love you. You're so brave.
from myhips :
nope, i never got waxed. i thought about it a bunch of times but kept chickening out. sssoooommmmeeeddddaayyyyyyyy....
from bettinas :
You're going to Europe? 1) I AM SO JEALOUS 2)Congratulations. p.s. You seem to be really open with Austin, and that's really all you can hope for. Good luck--the right thing will happen. Let's hope he realizes what an idiot he'd be to lose you.
from manchmal :
I'm going to be original: Happy Birthday, you!
from bettinas :
Happy Birthday! Yay! I am so buying you a virtual drink.
from myhips :
happy birthdayyyyyyy
from jerrbear :
Happy Freakin Birthday!! Woooooo!!! and many more.
from myhips :
crises
from bettinas :
Summer fun is just around the corner, I guarantee it. I see great fun in your future.
from stare--girl :
Give your dog up for adoption? I dont like it. Dont. I dont know why you would be giving him up but think about it really hard before you do, I don't want you to do anything regretful. And go to El Zarape on 23rd between Mission and Valencia. On special nights they have spanish drag queens lip sync latin pop and they always give you chips. On another note I might need to meet you for real (if it's not scary) and have some beverage's of the nonalcoholic sort so I can ask about your doula gig. You dig?
from myhips :
why are you giving chas away? can you tell me a little bit about him (age, breed, demeanor, etc.)? my mom and stepdad have a nice place in morgan hill with a yard and everything- and their house has been empty ever since my beloved childhood dog died last year. they talk every once in awhile about getting a new dog, but they haven't been "ready" yet because my dog's passing last year was kind of a shock. i can't promise anything but i could talk to them. they are good attention-givers.
from bettinas :
Wait a minute--is Aught making you give your dog away?
from myhips :
go to the lucky 13 some weekend (on market near church)- i'll probably be there. being 21 is SWEEEEEEET. food tastes better, the sun shines all the time, and you find candy in your shoes and underwear when you wake up in the morning. good going!
from sweetjulep :
I was once at the supermarket standing in line when an old guy behind me reached across me for a magazine, brushing my left breast in the process. I swear I almost kicked his ass in my mind, but, like you, was left pretty speechless at his audacity. Just thought I'd share so that you know that you are not alone!
from myhips :
hahahahahahha dude i totally thought i'd sent you the email ([email protected]) informing about the new diary. yeh bitch add me as a favorite! hahaha i totally thought you knew!
from bettinas :
I don't really know how to respond to that entry, except to reiterate what I have said in so many of these notes posts. Liesl, I fucking love you, and YES YES YES. I KNOW. Oh god I know. Now let's have a steak dinner and drink a bottle of wine and sing sloppy songs to each other.
from manchmal :
I have the same dismal feeling when I come to my keyboard, too. I sit with the browser opening trying to think of URLs to type. It's sad, very sad. I was an internet dork way back in 1994, playing online, and meeting some really cool people. Alas.
from myhips :
where did we all go? livejournal. ugh.
from obscuritron :
i'm still here. i continue to read your diary, i just find i don't have much to say anymore. i keep thinking i'll be back when i have something to say, but it just hasn't happened yet. xox danielle
from bettinas :
Yay, doula! It sounds like you've found something you really love. Yay, Liesl!
from iamemilie :
I've got my fingers crossed for your mommy. I hope everything turns out fine.
from curlykue :
i was thinking about your diary and how i'm so addicted to reading it and realized that it would be awesome if you wrote a column for a newspaper. because it would be loved. I know it. but you will also be an amazing doula i have a feeling. if i live near your work area when i'm ready to have babies, i want you as my doula like nobody's business. -kt
from mathyou :
Feel free to come over and clean any time. Although, if you came to my house, you'd probably drop dead at the sight of my kitchen. So save the kitchen until after you're done with the rest of the house. Thanks.
from design-doll :
omg i loooove to get my clean on as well!!! man, i am seriously considering going out to buy that machine right now!!! dammit liesl!! oh well, i loved this entry- i could envision your entire house- great great great- i am curious about advice with the no sugar thing- i have gotten much healthier the last months- but my prollem is still sugar- how did you start and where did you get your info from it??? have fun cleaning... you should have a party, i'd be so down!
from stare--girl :
Aww...man I used to go to Dave's. The waitresses were bitches. Awesome. I think you should open it back up. You know you'd have a ton of business with the veggie idea. Isn't Michaels out of business though? Anyway, I used to work in a 24hr veggie diner in Santa Cruz that is remarkably similar to the one you talk of opening for yourself, it was really a great place but a bit of a problem child sometimes. I reccomend talking to the owners and getting some feedback from them. If you're interested let me know and I'll hook up a little info for ya. I would totally go eat at Daves again (so would my dad, he went to Oakland Tech and used to totally hang out there) and I don't even live in Oakland anymore. Good Luck
from jerrbear :
A cool idea and I would certainly be a customer. I would invest if I had more than $200 in savings. Be warned that the restaurant business is treacherous, mainly because you're using tomorrow's receipts to feed yesterday's customers. Or so I am told. I never went there, but Dan told me many times of the waitress with the beehive hairdo who called everybody "Hon". Are you going to get a beehive hairdo?
from bettinas :
That is a killer idea. I love it.
from bettinas :
I swear it's like...you....are....me....And we're going to be just fine. I fucking love you.
from raven72d :
What's the story with String Theory and you?
from raven72d :
So... you're a most literate and articulate serendipitous find...I'll be reading here again.
from anticrew :
ps. where is it written that people in love aren't supposed to have differences? as perfectly matched as you are, you're gonna have different instincts and different attitudes towards things.
from anticrew :
start a livejournal and keep ALL the entries private and locked--learn from me. it's too hard to write things down on paper and if he finds it, he'll be WAY hurt and that's not fair. i'm not gonna give you advice about what to do b/c i'm sure you don't wanna hear it but talking to him is the only way that you will feel better. if you keep things inside and bargain with yourself that 'in the end it's worth it', you'll end up feeling like a martyr for this cause called Love. as for europe, it's hard to say what to do. if you can really afford it without any financial hardship, why not. being away, as corny as it sounds, can really give you alot of perspective. but if it's causing you too many worrisome thoughts over your relationship, don't go. i know part of you wants to give 110% and you should let yourself do that. and writing about your frustrations with him doesn't make him an asshole by default or tarnish all the good things he's done for you. if you're frustrated with your relationship then that's what will come through in the writing--the frustration. but like it said: livejournal and keep it ALL as PRIVATE entries. ALL of them.
from design-doll :
i loved your honesty in this entry... don't forget about yourself liesl... i say, go to europe... things always work out, i'm a believer... and post pics of your new hair!
from bettinas :
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! Oh, I'm sorry. I thought you said "if I have some time off this summer?" HA HA HAH AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA (But still, Prague would be fun.)
from anticrew :
where are the pictures of your hair, missy? also, i felt really awkward for sending you that postcard after learning about your rocky road with aught. i just wanted you to know that i was happy for you and wanted the best for you. now hurry up and show those pictures, slut.
from jerrbear :
wait, is it 'new' hair? like from llamas or what?
from jerrbear :
ooh, i want hot pics of long-haired liesl, PLEASE!
from bettinas :
Sounds like growing pains to me, honey. I think you can do it. (cheering from the corner)
from bettinas :
Yay!
from jerrbear :
I'm not sure why you feel you could only give two weeks' notice. At my job-before-last I gave a month notice and my boss was incredibly grateful. I spent a month training my replacement and had a whole month to shop around for another job. And the new job is almost always happy to let you start a little later. They're just glad to get someone so conscientious.
from bettinas :
Oh my. There's a lot in that entry that I want to respond to. First of all, to answer your question, yes, every relationship goes through phases of massive discontent. You and I have talked about the whole responsible-vs.-rockstar thing before, and it can make it difficult to understand the other person's point of view. But the bad stuff is almost always more than made up for by the good times--the kisses and laughter and sense of being loved and loving someone else. You guys jumped into the living-together thing quick! It's natural for there to be bumps along the way. But I hope you don't beat yourself up about it. I wish you were online so we could talk about it....but by the way "the horrible music he listens to?" Tee. Hee. Hee. Hang in there, lovely.
from stare--girl :
HI. My cat's name is Steve. I feel like maybe you need a volunteer to take the homeless kitty off your hands. Do you? I would like to help find him a home if you need me to. P.S Don't tell anyone you saw me here.
from mathyou :
Knock knock.
from bettinas :
Here's the plan: While our boyfriends go galavant around the hardcore world, let's you and me go to Paris! Or Vegas! Hell, anywhere would be fine!
from bettinas :
You have my most sincere sympathy. Yowch.
from occipitalobe :
I think I hate you. In fact, I'm almost positive.
from jerrbear :
yum. no sex ever again? you are the perfect candidate for wifehood. please write. love, jerry p.s. desitin for diaper rash.
from uglykatey :
oh man. with a vagina like that its no wonder why aught is sleeping with those six other girls.
from bbbrett :
That was... surreal. It's not very often that I'm made happy to be a man, but... yeah. That did it.
from uglykatey :
where did you goooo? come baaaack
from sweetjulep :
my friend studied to be a midwife in Austin. She says it's the most rewarding and beautiful thing she's ever done. :) I think it's gross - I saw pictures, but she never looked happier.
from occipitalobe :
Guess who might be talking to Clorox next week about a job in Pleasanton, CA. Give up? Sounds like Cat Milk Line...
from occipitalobe :
I'm alive again.
from uglykatey :
good. its not worth holding onto people who are willing to treat you that way.
from bbbrett :
Applause to you my dear. Hold on to him. I've mostly given up on finding anything like that, which is when (or so I'm told) it will come up and bite me in my well-fed ass. People may be sick of hearing it, but it's a great reminder that it does happen. Saves a little hope even for a hardened soul like me. As for the job: every one of 'em has someone like that. I suggest spreading a bunch of glue on their chair. But that's just me. I'm very much into sophmoric humor. I can never end these notes. I'm just gonna stop cold turkey.
from bettinas :
Hey, I'm thinking of you. Happy New Year and good luck with everything...especially the eating thing.
from bettinas :
Oh, sweetheart. I'm so sorry. This is going to be hard on you. But you're on the right track. I think the best thing you can do is let him be selfish, because this is one of the hardest things he's facing. Let him talk about it or not talk about it, and know that he cares about you, but right now he might not be able to let you know. Call me if you're in Colorado. (719)227-0190.
from bettinas :
Can I get a what what, a holler, and a triple amen for the not fitting into a category thing? The part that sucks the most is the fact that since we all were little punkers once upon a time we felt truly defined by a category. And as we age, that becomes more nebulous. I think that most people aren't as obsessed with fitting into something, and I also suspect that all those fashionistas, hippies, metalheads, and other similar pigeonhole-able creatures feel that they don't fit in either way. In any case, let's raise our glasses and toast our inability to follow cult mentality.
from uglykatey :
i don't know dude. matt's all stinky. i'm not so sure if i'm in favor if stinky hippies. but yeah, he is hotter. and gavin does that annoying thing with his thumb when making speeches.
from anticrew :
i'm just gonna come out and say it: YOU ARE GETTING SICK BECAUSE YOU'RE A VEGAN PUSSY!
from bettinas :
If you would like a vacation, please come visit me. I promise that my town is not very exciting, and we could lie around and read PG Wodehouse to each other all day.
from bettinas :
The problem comes from the fact that the socks are all different textures and lengths, but oh well. Also, I have been toying around with getting Dia de los Muertos calacas for a couple of months now. Damn you for getting them first!
from uglykatey :
thanks girl. that was very sweet of you. i'm so scared of sounding like a total pussy in here but... yeah. my emotions are all over the place. there's very few people out there who i care about and would do ANYTHING for... and to be hurt/lied to for months by someone like that just makes me sick. i hate it when i'm not tough enough. anyways i appreciate your words and thoughts, and i'm sure i'll be back to talking solely about my vagina/being drunk all the time in no time.
from jerrbear :
Tempeh, bleagh.
from bettinas :
AWWWWWWW!!!!!
from bettinas :
Girl, if anything like that ever happens again you get his stanky ass out of bed and make him CLEAN IT UP. Oh, and EW.
from occipitalobe :
You are never online anymore. I'm putting out an e-search for your e-body, and I'm having an e-funeral for you if nothing shows up soon.
from obscuritron :
i love you honey, call me later.
from anticrew :
no, no. you're not bringing me down, i'm just feeling for you, girl. that's all. seriously, i've become so bloody sensitive these days that it's totally retarded. it's like i'm mother theresa identifying with the whole fucking world, and i gotta tell you, i hate it.
from jerrbear :
So it's ok for him to have done it with someone else but not you. What a double-standardizing a-hole... I'd rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints. Sinners are much more fun.
from anticrew :
oh and by the way, your entry makes me want to fucking cry because i understand EXACTLY what's happening and i know how you're feeling and i wish i had a magical answer for you. just keep trying to show him how much you love him and how much you want to be with him. oh man, i'm serious, my throat has a lump in it and i'm getting all sad. fuck.
from anticrew :
oh my fucking god. what the fuck. are you living my life now and then writing it to me so that i can sit here at work and nod my head up and down like a pigeon? maybe it's not my place to say, but don't go away if you don't have to, liesl. time apart sometimes has a way of making it easier to be away from someone and i think you guys need closeness not more absence from each other. oh man, i want you guys to work. spend the weekend with him and do something really gay together and make him something sweet that involves pictures of you and pictures of him and hearts and a combination of numbers and letters and characters that say something like "L+A 4evuh". and NEVER tell anyone i told you to be this gay because, you know, i'm too punk rock to have even one feeling. i love you!
from bettinas :
I really don't know what to say, but all I can think is that he's really lucky to have someone like you who is so in touch with her feelings, both the good and the bad. You will grow together, and (at least in my experience) those conversations where you question everything can make things stronger than ever before. Hugs.
from anticrew :
oh, me too! me, too! it's like you love him but you're afraid of him because he's being so nice to you when all the other boys were mean. it's not even a matter of trusting him because you know you do, and yeah, you deserve someone being nice to you but there's still it feels like he's posing this weird threat. but he's so nice it's not a threat, at all so what exactly is your problem? oh, me too! oh liesl, just be open with him about how you're feeling when you feel it, that's about all i can say. i have too much in common with your dilemma to offer you anything in the realm of 'advice'. sigh.
from anticrew :
but liesl, i haven't filled out a survey or joined ring in MONTHS! i dunno. there's a very distinct possibility that i'm being a paranoid idiot and saying rash things. bah! [ps. and just to reinforce what i said below in broken grammar, be nice to aught or i will mail you anthrax and give you a reason to complain, y'heard?]
from anticrew :
Dear Liesl, This is what I wanted to talk to you about when I came to visit. Oh Liesl, TRY-oh-TRY to not think of Aught as an extension of the boys that came before him. He seems to really like you and he I'm sure he means it when he says he Loves You. Every time a relationship panic attack hits and you think your relationship will be over, just BREATHE and tell yourself you're being a dork. When you're about to make a sarcastic comment about something sweet he's done for you, MAKE yourself stop and MAKE yourself say/do the opposite. Seriously, condition yourself to think the best of him because he's not giving you any reason not to think otherwise. Just don't end up like me all sensitive to other people now when I shoulda tried harder before but I couldn't back then because I'm all old and stubborn and used to being alone and when some boy is nice to me and insecure about trading feelings with me, I worried over myself and not him and he's end up being totally fed up with me at the EXACT moment when I was finally ready to be the sensitive idiot I am now. And what good are all these dumb feelings now when I'm alone again and old(er)? Listen more closely to the voice on your right shouler, I think it's saying: Don't fuck up, Liesl.
from occipitalobe :
The Family Guy. It's when Brian has a coke problem and he's sitting at the table talking all this crazy intense shit, and then Peter drops one of the funniest lines in the history of television. The line is also funny to say in the theatre during the intense intimate death scene in the last Matrix. Goddamn that movie had some gayness.
from occipitalobe :
You know what I haven't had in a while? Big League Chew.
from equivocalady :
fantastic.
from anticrew :
You weenie, of course Canada has Halloween. The french call it L'hallowe'en and they say "tric ou traite". I haven't had time to respond to your email because I've been working late trying to avoid my life. I will write you this weekend and I will do it because I WANT to, okay? LOVE LOVE LOVE Rhonda
from bettinas :
Ding ding ding ding! It WAS a shout out to you, and I'm so glad everything's okay.
from bettinas :
One of the few highlights I remember about Austin is how unbelievably nice his dad was. Is he still that nice? It hardly seems possible.
from uglykatey :
mmmmmm. boys. hey you should meet up with me and becky and rhnda and kristin later this week.
from bettinas :
Okay. I ran in to you at a show in San Francisco, you date AUSTIN, and you've been hit by lightning? If I were the kind of person who would type "WTF?????" then I would, but I'm not, so I'll just say: "Whoah."
from anticrew :
you stole that from ebm. she's my friend's friend.
from anticrew :
Dear Liesl, I have decided. I would like to have a very deep and very long discussion with you about this entry when I come to visit. Deal? Love, Rhonda
from uglykatey :
hehhee... not jezebel, but close
from bettinas :
Liesl, dahling, you are not pathetic. You are just heart weary, and there's a big difference. Besides, your entries have not sounded simpering. You've got a good thing, and it's moving fast. This probably isn't the best advice (since it comes from me---a happily "married" woman), but sometimes things aren't too good to be true. Go with it, have fun, and if he has any sense whatsoever he'll be making you roast beef sandwiches in no time. It's about time you got some of the love and respect you deserve.
from occipitalobe :
Christ, Liesl. That's fucking sick. I was told I wrote too much about drinking, so I've been trying to mix it up a bit, but shit. You nasty.
from anticrew :
i wanna be the first to say it here (and i am!): i'm really happy for you liesl! yay! be good to each other and have fun and lots of sex to punk rock records--oh my god, tell me you've done that! aaahahha, you have, haven't you! ahahahhahaa
from occipitalobe :
Hahaha. You said "a little BUTT hurt." Hahaha. Something you're trying to tell us, Liesl?
from bettinas :
Well, I can't see you in the nuddy-pants cuz I'm not a SG member (although Melanie is???), but I do like Justin Timberlake a whole lot too, and I don't care who knows it. That's why I'm posting this on the Internet. I LOVE JT!
from anticrew :
uh, you smoke, right? would you like canadian cigarettes or are you brand-loyal?
from uglykatey :
yess'm. +n its hott.
from uglykatey :
omg. i just saw your boobies. + that is hot.
from bettinas :
Okay, you HAVE to tell me your suicide girls name. Is that what this is? Curiosity is scalding me right now! (not that i'm a freaky nude stalker or anything...)
from uglykatey :
japan, yes. hot boys might be there. except i need them tall too. and forget about france- they STINK there. i'm thinking norway. that seems clean and tall enough.
from stare--girl :
Okay I'm ready for our date. I have a test on Monday but that night and for the rest of the week I'm free so let's do it. Coffee and the Golden Gate. I'll look for your number but just incase I can't find it, mine is 7146555062.
from anticrew :
first of all, you werent gonna die because i'm not coming down there to attend no funeral. secondly, i wanted SO badly to answer you slept with 17 sluts etc. AND the question about your dog was a TRICK! Chazz was a derivative of Charles who your dog is named after. YOU CHEATED!
from uglykatey :
oh crap! i only got a 50!
from occipitalobe :
You're the one who dissed on me for offering you Tylenol or Motrin. Get off this! I ain't sendin' shit... OK. Whats your address again?
from occipitalobe :
Poor little lamb. Don't you wish you had someone to send you drugs now?
from anticrew :
dude, it's not JUST that he's working there 8 years after the fact. it's also wondering how many years previous to your meeting him has he worked there. yikes. dude might have a 10 year pin stashed under the counter. also, i will look for XS tshirt for you, slut. if i had boobies, i'd wear tittie tops, too!
from jerrbear :
I used to work nearby, and if you go to Happy Donuts in the morning, you'll meet Happy Donut Boy's parents. The curse of the family-owned business...
from bettinas :
Who's your best friend?
from anticrew :
dear liesl, i'm happy you found a nice boy who you can be excited about and who is worth being excited about. but i hope you still keep your calendar and home open for Rhonda-lovin'.
from occipitalobe :
Liesl is one hot lady. Look at that rack. Only fault: the said that Liesl is pronounced Lee Sul, not Lee Zul. Sorry. Different Liesl.
from occipitalobe :
man. i need to go on a date.
from bettinas :
Woo-hoo!!!!
from uglykatey :
that was the best date i've ever heard of
from anticrew :
hhahahahaaaa, you made out so hard that a boy swallowed you and that's why you can't update! aaaaahahahaha
from occipitalobe :
you will never get to me.
from anticrew :
bitch, where's my countdown?
from sweetjulep :
just out of curiosity, what _is_ the end of that limerick?
from anticrew :
Liesl, don't be retarded, girl, of course, we're having a sleepover! I don't look too pretty in the morning but you won't judge me, right? You get to see how the Magic happens. Tomorrow I gotta lay the law down with my manager b/c I'm gonna miss the West Coast special they got going on. PLEASE let her say YES so I can get the time off! CROSS YR FINGERS!
from rickybigstar :
And simply click onto "older entries" to read my diary...I would greatly appreciate your opinion, good or bad. Thanks again.
from rickybigstar :
I'm sorry, I should have explained earlier. I would like to invite you to read my diary entries, and then would appreciate any feedback, negative or positive. Thank You and have a nice day.
from rickybigstar :
"So I just pace back and forth thinking aloud to myself, like a madman with an erection... And I was thinking I wonder what she thinks or how she feels about me? What if Im just wasting my time thinking about this girl because, Im not attractive enough for her, or I drink too much for her tastes? I curse too often or, maybe Im just too quiet? What if I have an odor about me that Im not aware of, or I walk with a limp because, sometimes Im not quite sure of myself? What if there is a stain on my shirt from everything that Ive been through in my life, and only other people can see it? What if I laugh at her jokes too loudly or, I look at her too often when I think shes not looking? What if she spots a weakness in my faade that I thought I had covered? And it turns out that, she saw right through my plastic guise and wasnt interested."...Junkromance's written words from an excerpt in his diary. The "Diary of a Madman".
from uglykatey :
okay, so.... where do i go to get waxed? i mean... oh god this is going to sound bad. i've never been to a salon before. never had my hair or nails done. the last time someone other than me cut my hair was eight years ago. can i just walk into a salon and be like "hey, let me take off my pants and you can take care of me" or should i make an appointment? are there special wax-only salons? and do you reccommend anywhere inparticular? are they even called salons, or something else? god i'm so lost. and i REALLY don't like having hair around my asshole either.
from uglykatey :
waxing? huh? wouldn't that hurt even more? and can i wax that myself or do i gotta go someplace and get in a weird position and cry my eyes out? what the hell? please inform me. i'm so lost. i've never waxed anything before. i just hate this damn pubey stubble.
from bbbrett :
Lady, I would like to spend more time with you too. Of course, by more I mean that I'd like to get to meet you someday. Especially after seeing Amelie and The Big Lebowski on your never-gets-old movie list. Really. I'm touched. Could just be that I'm having an emotionally charged high-riding week, but I'm oddly touched. Hopefully this little thing takes off and I'll get to vacation out your way. I'll be needing a guide.....
from uglykatey :
i LIKE LIKE you too.
from bbbrett :
(moment of silence for Bronson, and all the others...) OKAY! YELL YOUR HEART OUT! Sorry about the earthquake thing. I read about it in three different diaries, looked for it on the news, and then realized that earthquakes in California AREN'T news. I'm stoppin' in because when I finish the deal, my book's getting published. I'll be needing a road trip to break my new car in on, so I'll be heading out to California to deliver copies. I'll let you know when it happens. Now I'ma get back to my happy dance of a fool!
from bettinas :
Ah, Liesl--we will always be e-friends, and real friends too. I'm sorry you almost fell off the toilet. You see, we don't have earthquakes out here in Colorady.
from equivocalady :
awesome. i was at the gym, actually. it sounded like someone fell off the treadmill.
from bbbrett :
I can't speak for the general public, but I used to date a girl who's big thing was where we did it. I never would have let her talk me into a courthouse, but the elevator in J.C. Penny's did get held up for about ten or fifteen minutes one day. Since nobody ever uses it, nobody ever noticed. So yeah, it does happen. Oh, memories....
from bettinas :
I don't have a first-and-worst, but I do have an ex from my darkest darkest days who I actually formally never broke up with, and who is very probably crazy now. I actually thought that he was the lead singer in that band that played before the Lovemakers, and it really freaked me out, because I have nightmares about running in to this guy. Urgh. I'm sorry. Also, I dressed up as a hipster coke-addled fashion fuck for a theme party last week because of your entry. Love!
from uglykatey :
just try to convince yourself that your first and worst is going to marry phyllis diller. it will make you feel alot better. it makes me feel better already.
from jerrbear :
If you are naked, it *must* be hott. Heh. Exes suck. I live in terror of running into Crazy H again someday. Fortunately she and her husband got evicted and moved down south a couple of years ago. I assume they are still down there, because otherwise I would see her at least 2 or 3 times a year...
from occipitalobe :
Fuck the hipsters! Fuck the pointy shoes! Fuck the euromullets (unless you're in radiohead, in whick case you're actually artsy enough to have earned one.) Fuck the mothafuckin rockabillies! Last but not least fuck the coke!
from kittyslave :
so when are you coming to visit? we could roam around town and kick the shit out of every boy we see...i need a partner in crime.
from bettinas :
Hey you--after the initial shock of meeting you at the show on Friday, I spent the weekend at a wedding and with my friend Michelle. I am so sorry we didn't get to hang out more. Next time I come to CA I'll bring someone's cell phone so I'm not such a wandering freakazoid leaving long messages from stinky payphones.
from stare--girl :
Leisl I'll show you my boobs when I get to the Bay Area. That is if you're still there. Are you leaving or something? What the hell is going on. Everything's coded or I'm really thick. Is this just foolery beacuse your trying to evade the fame of being a suicide girl?
from equivocalady :
wait, what? i thought i was gonna get to meet you while miss bettina was here...damn that.
from dfourever :
Fuck London...Fuck up Toronto. Rhonda is guarenteed to be way more entertaining than all of Europe combined
from cf188 :
She said to do it, so here it is: Fuck London, Fuck Up Toronto (and spend three days fucking up the 514, which is where all the really cool Canucks live)
from chadmuska :
Fuck London--Fuck up Toronto! now!!!!! miss rhonda is the best!
from xmasface :
Jeezus, what're you waiting for?! Book it now!
from anticrew :
liesl, i'm gonna save my money and come and visit you all. knowing that i will be an hour from him will only test what little restraint i already have from calling him. and being in a city i don't have much interest in will only remind me why i'm there and make me depressed and stuff. i don't want you spending a week with me being all glum. so i blew $330 on some dumbass. so what. i will me way more happier blowing even more cash seeing people i've always wanted to meet. besides, when i rationalise out, i've blown more money on dropping courses at university. i warn you, though, i might make lots of misandryic comments. but i don't really mean them but it will feel good saying them. uh, know what i'm saying? oh shit! here's a stream of consciousness idea! why don't you come to toronto if you can't get a trip out to london? seriously? it's WAY hot here and summer in toronto is amazing. AND we could heave ho to Montreal together for a few days. you don't have to see you-know-who because montreal is so fun that it wouldn't matter. and there would be all these frosh people there and the whole city will have that pre-university buzz. oh and you can use your REAL i.d. at the bars. legal drinking age in toronto is 19 and in montreal is 18. oh and your u.s. green will go FAR in canada. oh and don't exchange it in america. i work at a bank! i get the best cash exchange rates! oh man, now i'm all excited! come and visit me and meet all my weird/funny friends. come! come! fuck london! come!
from anticrew :
are you sure? don't build me up b/c i'm all depressed and can't afford to be let down. i'm already having second thoughts about my love affair with americans.
from kittyslave :
oh yeah...and in this new fabulous apartment of mine, there is a picture of you in a frame. yeah. for reals. so basically you HAVE to come over.
from kittyslave :
COME VISIT!!! QUICK! HURRY UP!!!
from uglykatey :
no fucking fair! i want to meet bettina!
from anticrew :
i was totally checking out "youth in revolt" at the bookstore on monday! i saw Oakland, thought of all my bitches and then wondered whether or not i should buy it...should i? hahhahaha!
from bettinas :
Youth in Revolt is one of my top five books. Ever. Have you read the sequel: Revolting Youth? One more reason why we are meant to be...
from uglykatey :
oh my god! the flower shop/aquarium/bonsai outlet on clement street is like my FAVORITE place EVER! did you see the scary eels and the fishes where you could see their brians sticking out of their heads? i LOVE that place!
from occipitalobe :
i was wondering the same thing about you. do i have your SN wrong? redcassette.
from occipitalobe :
Sorry, Liesl. Tell him you've fucked bigger stars.
from showdown :
i don't know what you should do... you sound like a sucker for the boys like i am. forgive and forget... over and over even though you shouldnt... yeah. anyways i found your diary randomly and thought i'd say that i had a look.
from stare--girl :
Thanks for the offer. I just might take you up on it.
from stare--girl :
Hell yes we can hang out. I will initally be couch surfing. Mostly at Willows house in Oakland and my other friends in SF. When I get a place I'd like to be in the mission but it all depends on fundage and availability. I am seriously counting not only days but hours until I'm finished.
from equivocalady :
aaarrgh. amen is right.
from kittyslave :
dude! you need to get drunk with MEEEEEEE. come visit. i just moved into the best apartment Ever!!! i need ikea liesl...like bad. for reals. you know there isn't one here? what the fuck. but anyways, the point is that you should drink with me...cause i'm really fun. yeah. k bye.
from obscuritron :
you are fucking hilarious...i laugh out loud. dude. xo danielle
from anticrew :
man, you're a let down. you never said which boy it is you got with. Mr. Fuck Buddy or Mr. Too Hot. Details, Liesl, are the fruits of life...so munch on and gimme some
from bettinas :
You are hilarious.
from uglykatey :
hahahhhahaha
from stare--girl :
good luck with all that dear. Sounds like you'll have an eventful evening. I will be dancing with you at 1984 in a month and a half. I'm very thrilled.
from anticrew :
whaaaa? You're SLEEPING with him? Whhhhhaaaaa'????? IS EVERYONE HAVING SEX BUT ME? OOOOOOO!
from kittyslave :
what? who is it? is it ME who likes him? HAHHAHAA. do i have to fly down to SF and kick your little ass? dude! you are so funny. you have drama squirting out of your ass...like you need an enema. holy shit. why do i keep talking about ass? can i keep a straight thought? ok nevermind. i'm going to bed. i'm so tired i've become stupid...
from anticrew :
hahhhahaa. it's just me! we are psychic. i ask, you deliver. and what the fuck, liesl? seriously. this dilemma of yours, like, what the fuck? is that some sorta sick joke because that is what this bitch call's BAD muthereffin' Luck. i woulda sewed my vagina up by now.
from anticrew :
will you tell about the date already. jeez, louise, all i ever do around here is beg, beg, beg for the crumbs off the table called Your Life. now give it up. all the filthy details. if you're getting some, i wanna know because i'm nosey and i haven't touch dick in like 2 months or something.
from equivocalady :
wooooooo!! onward and forward! sushi is an aphrodesiac (? i almost wrote "afrodesiac"). i swear by it.
from anticrew :
hahhahahahaa, fool, you know me! You know how I stupidly look look at CA as all beach and that LA is as close to you as the corner store. I'm so used to Americans being ignorant about Canada's geography, I never thought I'd see the day where me and the Americans have something in common!
from bettinas :
Please don't go away. Whatever happened was between you two and has nothing to do with us. I do understand if you want to have some space. And if you decide to start a new diary (hint, hint), please let me know where it is so I can continue to read about fabulous you!
from equivocalady :
don't go. please don't go. I like having you on MY friends list. and so do all the others. i understand what you're talking about, and if you need to take a break, then do. just don't stay away too long.
from anticrew :
"This is my diary and I can't even write what I feel here anymore" -- amen.
from anticrew :
"member" as in "paying member"? or "member" as in "Sister"?
from anticrew :
how come stare--girl can see pictureS and i only see that main one? what's going on? everytime i click i get this notice that it's "members only" to see those pics. what up wid dat?
from stare--girl :
you're so cute. Is there a pro shoot going up soon or are you strictly on the amature tip? Regardless, I thought the pictures that are there were cute.
from luna-chik :
just sayin hi cos i read a few pages from time to time.
from stare--girl :
I looked and I cant figure it out. I have only seen glimpses of you in Melissas diary. Give me a hint.
from anticrew :
i would be NO company in CA, Liesl. i just can't believe it, you know? i spent all that time trying to be with him and planning a future together and now i feel like every other girl who said she was in love before. by it ending in a few hours it feels like it diminished everything that's transpired between us for nearly a year. because it wasn't supposed to be like everyone else's broken hearts, it was forever. we said it all the time and we meant it and we made love promising it to each other. and now i'm alone. not just geographically but in my heart. my fucking heart is totally alone and i have no one to hate or something to blame. i just have to be alone and get through the hours.
from obscuritron :
thanks...i love you too.
from kittyslave :
come visit me...
from bbbrett :
Thanks Bill! But I may have lied about actually hand delivering copies of it. However, if you buy one and send me the receipt, I will come to your door and read it aloud for you. And if you buy a second one for a friend, I'll get some people together and put on little skits pulled straight from the pages. I'm all about the promotion. I'm kidding. If this bastard actually sells, I intend to fly to California (because that's where a number of my readers seem to congregate), throw a big party and hand 'em out as door prizes. Something. I'm just babbling again. Wish me luck!
from anticrew :
bitch, please. you turning your diary into a survey thing or sumptin? because, seriously, i'll kill you.
from stare--girl :
dude you fucking did it. I cant wait to see it you sexy little bitch. I'm going to search for your ass right now.
from bettinas :
It's true. I'm having a tough time and it makes me feel weak and silly and self-indulgent. But I'll get over it, I'm sure. We'll see.
from uglykatey :
ditto to what rhonda said!!!!! which one are you?!!
from anticrew :
you did SG? I want the link NOW!
from equivocalady :
hell yes. tomorrow night, late. let me know tomorrow if you're still down.
from anticrew :
I'm back from party which I never went to. I ended up just talking with my friend all night and eating french fries and drinking coffee in the park. I'm so Old man styles, girl. I am writing to let you know that I'm happy we talked and I'm glad I got to know you on an anti-internet level and I'm writing to let you know that you totally have a CA accent and I think it makes you hott. Love, Rhonda
from anticrew :
where the hell are you?
from stare--girl :
man friends are totally overrated. Screw it and get a good book. I'm sure it's all a blessing in disguise.
from kittyslave :
wait a sec. you were driving in your thong??? HAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
from anticrew :
if his last name is Carman, then yeah. i haven't talked to him weeks! i'll ask.
from anticrew :
if his last name is Carman, then yeah. i haven't talked to him weeks! i'll ask.
from anticrew :
HHHHHHAHAHHAHHAAHHA i was just talking to h-man today about paris hilton being a whore. awesome. i love being right. and ewwwww! why did you talk to that nerd? i woulda pretended like i didn't even remember him. i wouldn't bee all, "Huh? M--t? Wow! I didn't even recognize you. How are things? Really? That's great. I really wish I could talk but I gotta run." Ick. It would seriously piss me off to talk to some nerd for even 1 minute. That's 1 minute that I could've been sipping ginNjuice and smoking a cig in the warm CA sun. fuck boys.
from bettinas :
Hey lady. I'm going to stay with my good friend Michelle, but I definitely want to see you. For Riz-eal. e-mail me with phone info? Ack, but I don't want to post my e-mail here for fear of spam...
from equivocalady :
oh pumpkin. don't go to an early grave over any of this. you hold out for the people who can love you the right way, that's so smart.
from bettinas :
Aw, shoot. You'll always be on my faves. Even if you are in some weird new club.
from anticrew :
You know what? Work does that you. Sucks your time like that. Work to finance your passions.
from bettinas :
You can totally come live with me while Aaron's gone. However, I fear my ability to be witty, etc. is primarily alcohol-induced and seldom rubs off on others. If, however, you want to lie around with my kitten and experience dry heat, my house is the ultimate destination!
from bettinas :
Dear one, I've asked Mlaire already, but Aaron's band is coming to your town this week and really needs a house show, party, etc. to play on July 4. Do you happen to know anyone you could ask? Thank you, and much love.
from dutchfist :
absent but still thinking of you. I love you, still.
from uglykatey :
HEAT SEEKER! GO TO HELL YOU HOT WEATHER ASS KISSER
from manchmal :
oh, I like your writing. So, I'm reading that survey thing from jerrbear. IUDs hurt? bad? People are coercing me to get one, because I hate pilleffects. I am writing about birth control. Jesus christ.
from chadmuska :
i was here. i'm leaving you this note to imform you as you requested.
from obscuritron :
i love you bunny.
from design-doll :
nerdy geeky spazzy people always stick together... love your writing liesl and your name :) yeah, it's strange being out of college... i keep thinking i'm going to have an all-night paper, or study session or something... but nope! hehe hope you are well.
from equivocalady :
baby, the npr can NEVER be turned up loud enough to drown out pure stupidity. when it feels itself losing ground, it just shouts louder. such is the climate of my office. and i have a ghetto blaster with super bass.
from pseudoclaire :
BUT I WANT A CIGARETTE!!!!!!! JUST ONE! PLEASE!! just kidding. its not so bad.
from anticrew :
But But But I'm not a Briton. And I don't do the scag. And I don't own a Cheap Trick tee. And I'm not white. And I don't have a big nose like she does. And....and....and...oh suck it up, girl, I'm more rockNroll than that junkie any day of the week.
from bettinas :
I just realized, all of the sudden, that I have no ability to study or be intellectual anymore. It was slow coming. That's okay; I'll just eat a bunch of cheetos and sit in front of the boob tube for the rest of my life.
from obscuritron :
so it's down to four? WHAT ABOUT ME?!!!!! thanks a lot.
from barbye-gurl :
cool diary
from bbbrett :
Kisses, kisses, kisses galore! I hope that does it for you.
from obscuritron :
why didn't you come to my show? i'm sad.
from bettinas :
You know what's really strange? I had a dream last night about spilling a taco all over the backseat of new car. Cheese, lettuce, little diced tomatoes...
from uglykatey :
nooooo!!!! not friendster!!!!!! spawn of all evil!!!!! nooooo!!!!!111
from equivocalady :
but liesl....i would love to be at this par-tay of the entry addicts, but do i have the credentials? i'm sporadic and shit. i have a proposition: let's be each others therapist!!! think of all the money we'd save, and i'd tell you exactly what you wanna hear.
from anticrew :
oh, just ADMIT IT! you want me to buy you a tshirt, don't you!
from jerrbear :
Oh oh can I get your autograph I love your song I love you aaahhhhh!!
from anticrew :
HOLY SHIT! There is a band from San Fran called "Liesl's Wet Dress" and they're playing up here at NXNE. Oh my god, tell me you know them and that the dress they are referring to is totally your Monica Lewinsky one!
from gotmedown :
ok i'm interested, where can i see him on melissa's page. i got the directions but no map. it's just that i'm nosy, and your interesting. snaps or something.
from kittyslave :
if it makes you feel any better, it's like 200,000 degrees Here...and if you move to sacramento i'm gonna kick your ass. it smells like fucking cow shit there...what are you thinking????
from equivocalady :
it's the curse of the graduate. every flem glob you cough up is a mark of honor and triumph. like mucusy gold, baby!
from bettinas :
Happy two decades, darling! I am there, in weird, freaky, stalker-liker internet style, but there all the less. I'll see (and meet) you soon!
from sweetjulep :
Happy Birthday! Hope you feel better, though. Being sick on your birthday is tough.
from kittyslave :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! omygod, you're not a teenager anymore...where has little liesl gone? i'm just kidding. please imagine me eating all your cake in my mind as i serve drunk fucks at work tonight.
from persimmmon :
Hey- Stumbled onto your diary while I should have been working. Congratulations on graduation. I'm an ex-punk myself, (which sounds so ridiculous I can't believe I just wrote it!) and found your reference a while back to not even fitting in with them funny and apropos to my own life.
from uglykatey :
hi liesl... i don't think i'm going to make it to your party on saturday. i'm anxious to get out of here asap. but i hope you have a happy birthday and congratulations again on graduating!
from occipitalobe :
Damn, girl. That shit's all true? My own e-rebound, and I had no idea. Congratulations! Since I'm an older man, I can send you booze. When I get to Philly and start making loot, I'll buy you a big-ass bottle of your choice and mail it to you.
from equivocalady :
damn, liesl, i got all choked up. you have everything to be proud of.
from uglykatey :
wow... that is truly amazing. congratulations liesl!
from bettinas :
Damn girl. That's a pretty amazing story, and I still can't believe you're getting your BA at nineteen--hell, I can't believe you're nineteen. I'm thinking of you today!
from anticrew :
conGRADUATEaltions...Liesl! We'll celebrate rockNroll style when I come to visit and you know i WILL. Hearts, rhonda
from sweetjulep :
That was a beautiful story. CONGRATULATIONS! :)
from jerrbear :
ok, I got confused. <:/ first graduation, *then* birthday. But my woooo stands.
from bbbrett :
Congratulations lady. On everything.
from jerrbear :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! WOOOOOOO! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
from anticrew :
I love you and Melissa equally but I'm a bit more afraid of Melissa than you--I think she MIGHT be able to beat me up if I called anyone other than her my American Girlfriend. Liesl, I seriously had SO MUCH FUCKING FUN last night, I wanna puke! I've been smiling all day. You think we could tag-team Kevin if I came to CA in August? I woulda hooked up with him if (A) you hadn't forbade me to hook up with them (B) I didn't just break up with you know who just before the show. I was so sad for a long time because I felt that we were gonna break up and then the night was so good it made me feel so special when I most felt like shit. THANK YOU so much, Liesl, I love you.
from jerrbear :
three hands? how would *that* feel?
from kittyslave :
baskin robbins totally still exists...and you should get the biggest ice cream cake they have. like an ice cream wedding cake!
from anticrew :
Hey baby, you think I can go and hang out with your friend now? Because I seriously would like to get drunk with someone right fucking now. And my place is pretty small. My bed could fit me +1 and I don't think my brother would want anyone bunking with him tonight--although, he might swing that way. Do California boys like to cuddle because my brother is a cuddler!
from anticrew :
Buy tickets? What's that? I haven't bought tickets for a rock show since 1999, Liesl. I called Keith to ask him if he's going tomorrow night but I haven't heard back from him. Usually, I just go with him and it's no problem because he's a rNr journalist or I ask the promoter and clear it with him ahead of time. Since I haven't made contact with either of them, I would really appreciate it if you put me on the list. And I tried on my new California tshirt on that's a size SMALL--you hear me? Size SMALL!--and it's too big! What the fuck? Am I shrinking or something?
from the-escape :
IF YOU HAVE ANY INFOMATION ON ANDRIA OWEN, LIVING IN CALIFORNIA. PLEASE CONATACT ME: [email protected] [email protected] [email protected] learn why: http://the-escape.diaryland.com
from uglykatey :
i might be going out of town on saturday, but if i don't then i would love to go to your birthday party. i'll let you know in a few days incase i need directions and stuff
from uglykatey :
"chin stigmata" is a great name for a heavy metal band. i'm sorry that you had such a shitty night- i was going to go and i would have hung out with you outside (the tongue + groove makes me nervous) but i have the flu. wahh.
from anticrew :
That blows. I thought it was an international number--it's just a cheesy transCanada one. And Question: The tshirt you're wearing in that picture with Chazz, does it say "Brooklyn"? Because if it does, I TOTALLY have a blue one with Brooklyn written in pink. If you click on the picture at the bottom of my entry and sort through the photos, there's one with me and my folks and I'm wearing it!!!
from bbbrett :
I wanna go! I'd be RSVP-in' like a mofo if I could get me ass out there! (And yes: I'm a touch Irish, even when I type.) Since I am a forgetful bastard with a memory that can't remember which cupboard we keep the glasses in after three years, let me wish you a happy birthday now. And a big congratulations on reaching the end of the tunnel that is school. I'll be looking forward to reading about all of the good things that are going to happen for you. (Do you ever reach a point where you just don't know how to end a note? I do. Quite often actually.....)
from anticrew :
Liesl, I'm not sure if this number works from the U.S. or not call it and let me know: 1 (800) 352-8515. I'm extension # 5266. It's 3.19 pm my time right now which is 12.19 pm your time...I'll be here for another hour or so call me!
from pseudoclaire :
WHAT AM I, CHOPPED LIVER?!!??!?!?!!!!! i rsvped soooo long ago. hmmm.
from kittyslave :
ok, i'll continue to be your secret girlfriend...but you're gonna have to put out Way more. :) and hello!!! photography IS art!
from bettinas :
I can't come to your party, but I'll be there around August 16th. Can I crash on your couch?
from scarydoll :
hey - i read some of your diary cause Rhonda linked it on her page. You are terribly interesting.;)
from kittyslave :
ahhhh, i'm famous. posting my pictures without permission eh? you could at least link me!!!
from anticrew :
liesl, i talk about meeting you so much that hugh is getting jealous. don't you love it? i really mean it. nothing but nothing will stop me from coming to CA. i'm aiming for AUG 13-18th. this is, of course, is subject to everyone else's schedule. i'd also like to see a kick ass rNr show when i'm down there. and how far is venice beach from you?
from kittyslave :
you sure you want me as a roommate?! i think i shed more than chazz...hahahhaaaa. i got some awesome photos, i have to email you...as soon as i have time to scan shit in. is chazz having jenn withdrawals?
from pseudoclaire :
TWO THINGS. one. get an effing guestbook. im sure you have some idea of how fucking long it takes to wait for this fucking page to load....TWO. where did the countdown to rhonda go? i am shocked and appalled. shocked and appalled my friend.
from anticrew :
a certain someone is coming to toronto on may 19, you want i should walk up to him and throw a beer in his face and say: How come you never called Liesl, shithole?!?!?! I think it would be hilarious and yourself? Because you know I would totally do it...what are they gonna do, kick me out? Who fucking cares.
from anticrew :
metal, the cemetary and Liesl sweating--can you get any more romantic than that? You know how many guys who've listened to and idolized TSOL's "Code Blue" are now having a succession of pitched tents becaue of you? For shame, girl, for shame!
from bettinas :
I answered your essay question in my diary, but as soon as I posted, I realized that in some ways, the islands come together here on diaryland...at least in our weird little circle. It's so funny how much comfort I get from these pages and imaginging the faces that fit in front of these minds I know so well. Some of you probably know me better, or at least differently, than my best friends...which leads me to the question, what if JD Salinger had a blog?
from anticrew :
I read Salinger too, babe and YES I had a theory that all people were islands who would, from time to time, merge with other islands. Fuck it, I think I'll write you an email about it.
from anticrew :
I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU DON'T HAVE THAT CD YET! If you don't get it by Friday--fully one month since I sent it, I will burn another one for you. I'm sad, though, I took my time with the images and stuff.
from pseudoclaire :
you worked the bowling shirt in rather nicely.
from anticrew :
I really need to download a map of CA b/c I imagine you all live in the same damn neighbourhood. Di you know the entire population of Canada lives in your tiny state--I'M NOT KIDDING! I checked flights already and it'll cost me around $500 which isn't too bad but I don't know which airport to go to. My aunt always tells my family to go to Orange County when they visit but I'm thinking I should go to another airport or something. I dunno, I'll worry about those details next weekend. The only way I wouldn't be able to go is if I have a midterm around then and I won't know for sure until I get my summer school syllabus....so cross your fingers!
from anticrew :
Liesl, I'm sorry about your friend. I know what you mean about junkie friends. One of my old highschool mates became a heroin addict and I was so disgusted with her that I couldn't standing hanging with her. I always felt bad because even up to today, I don't know if she's dead or alive. It sucks. I'm sorry, girl, I am.
from bettinas :
Reading that made me feel better. Hurrah for anonymous friendships!
from anticrew :
Fuh reals, Liesl? That must be why you have such fantastic breasts. Your last name made me think you were German. Girl, I won't apologise because it's like this: I make fun of everyone equally...I mean if you're gonna be an asshole, why be so exclusive about your bigotry? It's best to just spread that shit around!
from occipitalobe :
Heard it. Not a bad one though. What's the difference between a truckload of toaster ovens and a truckload of dead babies? Give up? You can't unload the toaster ovens with a pitchfork. There it is. The worst joke I've ever heard.
from jerrbear :
commanded? no good deed goes unpunished.
from anticrew :
i sent your CD at the same time as everyone else. i don't know why it's taking so long--i'm very annoyed by the sluggishness of the US postal service!
from anticrew :
liesl, save your dosh and take that fidee cent CD back--wait for my mixed CD...trust me! besides, i can burn you the whole album and it's way more special coming from me rather than the industry
from occipitalobe :
This penguin was driving along when his car started making noises. So, he pulled over into some garage to get it fixed. "What can I do for you?" "Idunno. It started make this weird noise." "Alright, I'll check it out. It shouldn't be too long. You can just wait around here." "I'll go grab a bite to eat, and I'll be right back." So the peguin walked across the street and he saw a Dairy Queen. He ordered a large vanilla cone. He got it all over his beak and flippers and shit. He's a penguin, ya know? So then the penguin was all full and on his way back to the garage. "What's going on with my car?" "It looks like you just blew a seal." "No, this is just ice cream."
from bbbrett :
Cooler than you? You put yourself down on that one. No worries kid. I promise to wear a big frickin' happy hat every time that I read from now on. Assuming, of course, that there is a "now on". I'm in a better mood today, so there's just smiles all around.
from jerrbear :
ARRGHHH! NO! Nonononono!
from bbbrett :
Do what you need to do my dear. But promise that if you go, you'll stop in and drop me a line from time to time. My heart's been breaking for you every time that I've read lately, and to be quite frank, I usually just can't get myself to care about strangers that much. If I had the means I'd be at your side just to try and lift your spirits, if only for a day or two. In the meantime, I promise not to ever sound so serious again. It's just not me, ya dig?
from whitepills :
No diary deaths please. I realize we're not really actual friends or anything, but I care about you. I guess it's kind of in that way you care about the poor dead thing on the side of the road. It's not like you can't go on living without it, but you wish that it were still living in the world for you to enjoy. If your diary leaves, I will miss knowing about your crazy little world. Not to mention you've got the best grammar, spelling, and punctuation of any of my favorites. How can you want to throw THAT away?!?!
from roxychick456 :
I feel ya about the pill, when i used to take them i got sooo sick feeling, I wanted to try the shot or the patch but wouldn't that just extend the crappy feeling? hmmm
from anticrew :
Take pictures for me! Me and Sarah--my nemesis--were supposed to go to a skate competition last summer and my exact words were: "You bring the condoms, I'll bring the whiskey."
from pseudoclaire :
i call you every day. therefore you are not a ghost. cause i dont call no ghosts baby. and also, ghosts are not rock star magnets, like you. so there. YOU ARE NOT A GHOST.
from stare--girl :
OH....MY....GOD!!! I am also a ghost. I know exactly what you're talking about. People often walk right into me. They try to run me off the road and sometimes when I talk they walk away without an utterance. I hate that shit. i'm sorry you feel this way.
from anticrew :
I'll come over and make you hot cocoa, Liesl! But how bout we keep things platonic and I buy you one of those electric foot massage thingees? And we hang around in our PJs all day and tell really bad jokes about penises and stuff. Deal?
from pseudoclaire :
hahaha pee. you had pee hands. yum!
from jerrbear :
"Boys are so fucking confusing." What's confusing? He wanted some. He got it. Toyota.
from bbbrett :
I'd consider myself a lucky man regardless of which option you choose. I mean... one would be, like, A LOT luckier than the other, but I'll take whatever I can get right now. Thanks.
from manchmal :
good diary...why oh why would you move to Ohiowa?
from anticrew :
#01 - Don't feel bad about having feelings for the dude, Liesl, you just make it harder it on yourself. GREAT sex with someone that you're attracted to but have no control over seeing = hard to get over. Got it? #02 - I love that you're secretly Asian because I'm 1/8th and that means we're like sisters! Wait til you get my pkg and you see what my last name is!!!
from shamsi9 :
i used to like to say things. now i like to not say. but i know how you feel.
from bbbrett :
Hey now! I understand you're not in the "best of places" right now and all, but take it easy on us Ohioans! I mean, yeah, most of my family is true-blood hillbilly, and I complain about all of the frickin' morons that I have to deal with on a day to day basis, and the time I finally go on a blind date turns out to be at the heart of a hilljack mixer... You know what? Nevermind. You're right. I'm gonna knock out a couple of teeth and buy a tractor.
from bettinas :
Mlaire showed me a picture of you and I didn't think you looked asian. I did think you looked hotttt though, and so now I am officially intimidated.
from anticrew :
PS. You ain't 'boring and stuff'. And what the fuck is "shit-hole"?
from anticrew :
Liesl, I am NOT kidding you. I was sitting on the edge of my bed listening to The Donna's "I Didn't Like You Anyway" before I left and I thought: "I wonder if Liesl wants a room-mate?" I swear to god, I had that fucking thought and then you sign my guestbook and tell me to visit?!? I love you, girl!
from jerrbear :
If you haven't already, read today's (4/18/03) Jon Carroll for a possible career. I bet it pays well. http://www.sfgate.com/columnists/carroll/
from shamsi9 :
true punk rock love, ay? sounds nice.
from bettinas :
Would you like to have a drink with me?
from pseudoclaire :
hahah liesl shithole. oh man. okay. you should not feel bad if you want to have a drink. this is not just my opinion because me and the bottle are in love. its more about this. you KNOW you dont have a problem. so do whatever the eff you want. your life. your body. and some doctors even say wine is good for ya. i sure think so. hardy har. oh and who is the tattoo boy you want to ask out?
from stare--girl :
Dear Liesl Shithole, Yo dude! Does Ex-B know you have a diary on line? I bet it was him. I would have searched high and low if I was him. I'm possibly the nosiest person in the world so I can relate, and anyway that shit seems to happen all the time. Sorry if it stirs up trouble.
from shamsi9 :
you are a special magic baby
from lildebkitty :
damn girl, it took along time to catch up on reading, seems I have been gone way too long!
from sweetjulep :
If you take over the world, can I have Antarctica? If not, I'll settle for Austria.
from bettinas :
You rock.
from jerrbear :
you don't need luck you will kick that test's ass. good luck
from pseudoclaire :
girl. i love you...thanks for the help. you rule a very specific part of my world.
from whitepills :
I had a friend once tell me she didn't believe in dinosaurs. I was a bigger dork then than I am now. I got all 'roided out and for hours, tried to site reasons they had to exist. It's really hard to convince a girl once her mind's set. But I'm sure you know that.
from uglykatey :
holy crap! how did that happen? i totally took that from my friend becky's livejournal, thinking it was some livejournal survey that was going around, but it was actually yours. very strange. there's alot of people out there in the internet answering your questions you know. and yes, you and melissa are invited to my birthday party- except i don't think i'm having one this year. i'm going to be overloaded with work that weekend, and its on easter. but if you guys want to come over and quiz me on economics while we eat jellybeans and dye eggs, then that would be super.
from design-doll :
sounds like life is good for you liesl... and did ya get my cdee too? i also wanna know what you thought of my zine exposed... k have an even better day.
from stare--girl :
if I'm getting any kind of credit for you hooking up I want to know what the fuck happened. Stupid little blank's.
from whitepills :
Yeah, um, I'll bet you can figure this one out. I'm so (blank)ing confused. But, it was entertaining nonetheless. Sounds like the party was good. Oh yeah, and I think you were wearing an outfit very similar to the one Jess wore out to dinner New Years day. And you're right, srtiped tube socks and Chuck T's look really good with a skirt.
from pseudoclaire :
HAHAHAHAHA! that was the best entry ever. i was cracking up! im pretty sure i was the only one that would be cracking up, however, being that it would make no sense to anyone but me. hahah oh liesl. love!
from bettinas :
Liesl- I've been neglecting you, but not in spirit. I've really been (blank)ing a lot of (blank) lately. I'm not sure how I (blank), but I (blank) it might be (blank). See?? Isn't that annoying?
from anticrew :
LIESL! Did you get ACTION? Girl, you need to give up the details!
from robroy :
Fuck Elvis Costello. That Weezer wannabe. Wait. i think I got that mixed up. I like the Chuck palahniuk influence i see in the narration of your diary enties. And after seeing your profil I would like to say: all hail Chinaski! (Those who don't get that reference should look it up.)
from design-doll :
omg that entry made me fall off my chair............. hi :)
from uglykatey :
ahhhhhh!!!! she put "i want you" on there?!?! fuck dude. thats going to make me depressed for the next week. aaahhhh!!! fuck!
from curlykue :
hey, just to be curious, whats you major?
from pseudoclaire :
hahaha! pact, my ass!!! oh man!
from pseudoclaire :
who in the eff are you fucking?
from anticrew :
"I doubt a perspicacious broad like you has any trouble deciding who's who": Guess who said that to me when we first met back in august? And he was a year YOUNGER than he is now. Liesl, I had to look it up! I nearly raped him!
from jerrbear :
she won't say exactly how she found me, but apparently she was just browsing around d-land and found a link to me. I thought there were like 100,000 diaries, what are the odds? but without a job she can just surf all day. I wasn't watching the sitemeter very closely. She did 200 (!) page views Monday morning. I was stupid; if I'd called myself "scarebear" she probably wouldn't have clicked on it. Poo.
from bbbrett :
Please... don't talk about that. I still haven't come to terms, and I don't think that I will until I'm in my late seventies. Meaning that I'll be ready to meet him in the hereafter. So, not until then.
from stare--girl :
you know I'd like to say "yes I am considering it! I'm fucking hott!" but in reality I'm totally shy and probably couldn't get naked in front of a photographer. If I did every picture would look like a deer in headlights.
from anticrew :
If you don't graduate you can be like me who has to take a summer school course b/c i changed a minor to a major and now regret it b/c although in the long run it looks pretty, it means i'm wasting my summer fulfilling requirements whilst i'm in dire need of NOT being in school any effin' more!
from stare--girl :
i tried to go to nofaux but it's under construction. I don't mean to say that all the suicide girls look nasty infact most of them are quite hot. I love that they are all natural and have realistic bodies. That fucking rules. i was just expecting it to be less bushy you know. Like girls with their hands up the cooch against a white wall seems not so artistic. Shit though I'd do it if I could wear panties. Are you still considering?
from whitepills :
I was aiming for a smile. You have to graduate. You see, if someone who's actually intelligent can't graduate, what hope do the rest of us have. Okay, forget that you attend Berkeley, and I'm gonna be graduating from a community college.....you get my point.
from uglykatey :
oh shush you'll graduate
from whitepills :
Well, if you don't graduate, at least your diary is old.
from stare--girl :
so I just got back from the suicide girls web site and I thought the pictures would be less nudity more artsy hot chick stuff. I'm not a member so I could only see the teaser page but it was kinda nast. Do you have a membership so you get to see pictures of the other girls? Are they better? I'm wondering if they're all coochie shots or what. Tell me tell me tell me.
from uglykatey :
hahhahahahaha that is the BEST idea. where do you get diaphragms anyway? i mean, do you have to get them from the doctor, or could you buy them at the drug store or on the streets? because if i ask her for one ahead of time then her face in my coochie won't be as big of a surprise.
from shamsi9 :
you are so cute!
from anticrew :
whatever, liesl...you're cute and you know it! besides, do you know just HOW much it bugs me that you look out on an ocean EVERY fucking day and enjoy warm weather? today it's all gloomy and overcast and miserably cold. once i graduate, i gotta get outta here.
from anticrew :
where's the picture of your sunburnt back? you're all being classicly girly and teasing us and shit.
from stare--girl :
just what the fuck is going on here? I don't like the tone of your latest entry. Yes I know I'm a paranoid bitch but what's purple and what's black? I'm sittin here all worried and shit.
from anticrew :
Liesl...where are you?
from shamsi9 :
i thought about doing that-stripping-when i lived in phoenix. i don't think it would bother me, but it seems a little dangerous
from freyja :
Hey, I don't know you other than peeking in on your journal, so feel free to tell me to fuck off if I'm totally out of line. hm. To make you feel better. I came out of college (BA) with 20,000 debt, plus another 5,000 on my credit cards from paying for books and stuff. I made 8 bucks an hour at my first job out and lined up a second job. If your credit card debt is unmanagable, you can always go to the credit agency places and they'll help you negotiate that debt. For that matter, joining the peace corps or certain volunteer programs "forgive" your student debt. Anyway. I'm an actor living in L.A. I don't know if those bald numbers help. I know a ton of people who do stuff on the side, and I haven't seen it ever pan out to anything good, and in fact, when something terrible did happen (he got her alone and was pretty sadistic -cigarette burns everywhere, and I do mean everywhere), he proved he'd given her money and she got slapped with "solicition" and a police record, plus she had to drop the charges. It was awful, but he'd given her cash or at least put the offer out there, and there were witnesses and it qualifies. Plus it always seemed to rear its ugly head in casting, we'd work and find someone great and then, whoosh, a rumor and that was that, they were out and it was that one little thing that people needed to get rid of THAT actor and go on to the next. Just my two cents, like I said, I'm completely unqualified to be throwing advice your way being that we don't know each other. I've slept on every friend's couch, even in my car a couple of times, etc. etc.and turned down simliar offers and honestly, never regretted it. Something about your post just nailed me hard in the heart and I felt compelled to blurt.
from jerrbear :
Woo! Don't do this guy unless you actually like him. But if you do, get the money *up front* & (cliche) Be Safe. Really $7K is not a lot, doesn't the average American owe twice that? Maybe I made that up. But balance your checkbook, dude. Or butt-balance it. Heh.
from anticrew :
Dear Liesl...I'm sorry I've been lazy writing you back--I don't mean to be. I just haven't been feeling very witty these days. I have lots of worries on my mind regarding graduation and I don't even wanna get into them EVER. But I saw something that totally lifted my spirits and made me laugh. I wanna go to Chevy's and hang out and eat lollipops, too!
from stare--girl :
How is it that you now this man well enough for him to make this proposition? Did he say or hint at the fact that he actually wants sex? i have heard of friends of my friends who have been in this situation and gone for it (the hanging out, not the sex) and i think it worked out for her fine. Some guys are just really wierd and want a sort of trophy to show off. I'm by no means advocating you selling yourself out but it could be lucritive. In a way you would be taking advantage of him right? Hard call. Debt sucks.
from pseudoclaire :
no problem. i knew that insight would solve all of your problems.
from pseudoclaire :
amoeba pays nine an hour. hahahaahah.
from stare--girl :
Alright lovely, weve got a grand total of nine, count em nine people who would like to exchange music. I find this very stimulating. If all works out properly you should create your mix and make eight copies of it, send those to the addresses I will provide and soon receive eight different mixs. Claire, EQ, and Bettina dont have access to CD burners so they will be making tapes. If you still want to take part send me an E-mail with your address or P.O. Box # and Ill get them out to everyone. Im thinking this trial run doesnt really need a theme but if you want to make a make out mix in honor of Claires recent booty call I think it would rock. My email is [email protected]
from stare--girl :
no baby no.. I wanted you all along. Shit baby. Do you have a CD burner?
from jerrbear :
"Ana" is anorexia & "Mia" is bulimia. D-land & the web in general is crawling with "pro-ana" sites, as they call them. I have read a lot of them & they are sick sick sick & not in a good way. Odes to beautiful ana that go on for pages & pages. I am already working on my wish list. Anybody want to buy me an asian bride?
from stare--girl :
booya! be in the CD exchange. I said do it. I know you want to.
from bettinas :
I ate a really good roast beef sandwich last night. And thought of you. I don't have a gold membership, so I can't make a survey, but here are 5 things I would genuinely like to know about you. My answers follow. 1) Do you have a job, and if yes, what do you do? I work for a liberal arts college Summer Session office, where I coordinate 15 international programs, an arts festival, and about 70 on-campus courses. 2) What is your dream job (possible dreams only)? Working for NPR. Or executive director of a major symphony orchestra. 3) How tall are you? 5' 8" 4) Where did you grow up, and do you wish you had grown up elsewhere? I grew up in Albuquerque, NM. Looking back, I'm glad, but I wish I had the chance to live abroad more when I was young to learn languages. 5)What foreign countries have you been to and do you wish to go to? Spain, Brazil, Mexico, Canada, Argentina, Panama, Uruguay, and Paraguay. I would like to go absolutely everywhere. I'm not kidding. Everywhere.
from pseudoclaire :
holy mother of god liesl he is on his way over right now. girl. its 2:12 am. i am gettin some tonight. and where the fuck are my pictures? oh man. i love you. -melissa lynn
from uglykatey :
i don't know why, but the first three paragraphs of this last mlaire/vaccuum entry sound dirty. i think i have a sick mind
from artfisher :
hows life, i thought about paris the other day also.
from bettinas :
Aw, shucks. I didn't know I had a ranch named after me. This is sweet--a character on 6 Feet Under, Absolutely Fabulous, and a ranch! Now all I need is my own salad dressing. Word.
from pseudoclaire :
yes i was there. you saw it. i got hit on by a hot 21 year old. he followed me out to my car and tried to make it look like an accident. he almost shit himself when he found out i am old. oh man. good times. how was that burrito?!?!?!!?
from uglykatey :
oh god. if this war escalated to the point where there were no men left- that would be really really nice.
from stare--girl :
alright I'd really have to see your hair to give you a proper consultation but with that said I think it would be fine to get extensions with four inches of hair. You wont get the look of a long flowing mane because your hair will still be visible but there great for that in between stage. Get a mullet like mine. I could only handle it for two days but I'm sure you're tougher than me. If people are telling you no there probably saying no to the braided in type. I had a weft glued to my head. Those are easier to manage when your hair is short. And also get real human hair! Make sure you check for that, the other stuff is horse hair or plastic and it looks like shit. By the way what are the hotel sex rules?
from shamsi9 :
i loather her as well-musically-i did see this director's commentary on the movie "magnolia" and she was in it...she seemed like she could hang, she's just such an anoerexic drama queen. the ype who'd sell you down the river to blow your b/f in the bathroom of a hojo's just so she could tell you abt it w/her mascara running down and sobbing-fuck her!
from stare--girl :
sorry....i guess i'm a big lame-o. Actually, yes i know I'm a big lame-o but I still like her. And you like me so that makes you lame by association. Ha Ha!
from obscuritron :
hey somethin's up with you diary, if you hit the "Previous" button it transfers you to the Diaryland homepage, same thing happens when you try to access any of your entries from your archive page. what's up?
from bettinas :
Hey, what happened to your old entries? Now I can't stalk you anymore???
from anticrew :
Hahaha you caved and bought Fiona Apple! I love it! I will write you soon!
from shamsi9 :
my own sweet girl--whoever said that is a liar. and i bet if you look at them, they failed you a thousand times and you turned from them once out of habit, self-preservation-you are NOT a mean person...and i've been told that too and it took me YEARS to realize that that was a projection-the FACT that i would never tell someone else that they are mean means i'm NOT mean, meither are you...give it a minute. and i love you.
from jerrbear :
I got there through his banner and first tried to fill it out around 7, but when I submitted my answers they disappeared. Twice! So I might have found it first, yo no se. and the vanished twin thing is probably from my 1/31 entry. I am my own evil twin, mwahahaha...
from pseudoclaire :
yikes! oh man girl, sometimes you blow me away.
from uglykatey :
yeeoowch! that was motherfucking RIGHT ON! i loved that!
from shamsi9 :
i feel that awesome power! self-determination!
from shamsi9 :
well, at least we're on to new frontiers of asshole-dom.
from stare--girl :
okay i came home last night and read your entry and wanted to write so many things but they all came out wierd and stalkerish sounding cause I was drunk. now I am sober and I want to recommend something to you. You may not go for this type of music and generally I don't myself but I once found myself in a situation much like yours and listening to Tidal by Fiona Apple made me better. The lyrics on that album are bitter and angry but a bit therapudic at the same time. So if you can bear a little folky chick rock or whatever it is listen to it and let me know if it helps at all.
from shamsi9 :
i feel that ex-b is an ass. don't defend him. i'm entitled to my opinion.
from stare--girl :
you rule
from pseudoclaire :
awww! you called me little moo! you are so sweet. im not sad now. i miss you though. call me, baby!
from shamsi9 :
i'm gonna be 29 and i've never made 33k in a year. cheers!
from uglykatey :
what i mean by that is it feels like my asshole is on fire and i don't know why
from anticrew :
oh yeah...i heart becky hirschfeld and you should, too, liesl...she's so sweet! why just last week she had pink eye--that's the cutest thing i've ever heard...pink eye? hahahhhaa
from anticrew :
i had to back read your entries today...fun in the ravine? tossing vomit in the toilet? working out with mom? liesl, baby, you're so punk rock--i heart you.
from shamsi9 :
i missed vince vaughan? i suck. i saw costello and it was ok...i don't think that's his forte...i like him when he plays a set and warms up.
from uglykatey :
MAYBE YOU AREN'T MY FAVORITE ACTRESS BECAUSE YOU ARE MEAN IN MY GUESTBOOK AND BECAUSE YOU SMELL BAD, BEEEOTCH. SMELL YOU LATER, LOSER!!!
from momma3 :
I stumbled upon your diary and thought I would let you know I was here...sorry you are feeling ill!
from uglykatey :
hahahhahaaa. becky is one of my best friends and i copied the survey from her livejournal. she's done lots of theater and independent movie things, so she's my favorite actress. you haven't heard of her? psshht whatever
from uglykatey :
vaughn and costello and ferrell had better host good. my hopes are up.
from stare--girl :
first of all.. what's up with 'niggers'? second of all it sounds like you had a really fun day and I'm happy for you but jealous because mine was nowhere near as exciting.
from bettinas :
I was bored at work, and I read the beginning of your diary, and I just wanted to tell you: don't ever think you're not an artist, because it flows out of you. Inspiring.
from bettinas :
I want to hug you.
from stare--girl :
i'm glad your flowers made you feel better. Yes lets make sweaters and when i return to Oakland we will compare them. That will give us about 1 year
from uglykatey :
yeah i was gonna post something but then i deleted it, so it looks like i updated but i didn't. sorry about the shit with ex-b. i can relate. blah.
from shamsi9 :
burritos are good
from stare--girl :
saddly I only know how to knit scarves as well. I tried a hat once and it turned into something other than a hat but I'm not sure what exactly it was. I make my cat wear it sometimes. We should both get patterns and try to make sweaters for next winter. And about your entry, it'll happen, don't just settle for any shit that comes along. Stare Girl
from shamsi9 :
i know you don't want feedback, so i'll just say i love you in my non-romantic, could-never-be-your-life-partner-and-have-never-met-you way
from jerrbear :
If I were well-adjusted, I think I'd have to kill myself. If you're different, it's in a good way. A pox on these vague pleasantries! If you're still single & lonely in ten years, let me know & I'll leave C, shave my beard, and move in with you. But you have to be nice to my cat.
from shamsi9 :
waddling, tuxedo-ed, flightless birdies
from stare--girl :
Hey I know how to knit. Can I join your circle? I make kick ass scarves.
from uglykatey :
ooooooohhhh i love "i want you". he did that one live when i saw him in berkeley last summer and it was intense because he sings super-emotional when he's live. he has alot of songs like that, that make me want to cry. isn't elvis costello great? he's the best!
from jerrbear :
yeah, that's the place, you got me. It's under new management now, they sell some pothead stuff.
from uglykatey :
shit.... i didn't even realize that "i'm gonna go make myself throw up" sounded bulemic. oops. i've always been fascinated by bulemia and i think i show it off in weird ways. i have felt like i have to throw up all day though. but as i am unable to induce my own vomiting, i'll just have to wait until it comes out naturally and then brag about it. the pact sounds like a good idea. i made a similar one with myself a couple years ago and it was lonely at first, but after awhile it made me feel alot better and much more independent. of course now i've been with whatshisname for over a year, so i have no right to say anything. but anyways, i'm gonna go have sex now. maybe it will even make me throw up and i'll sort of kill two birds with one stone. unrelated- you have no idea how left out i feel by having never fooled around with "reed" (i still HATE that name), so if you or melissa or stare-girl still have his number, one of you should post it so that i can give him a holler and be all like, "sup." you have a good night, liesl. love, melanie
from jerrbear :
you is already cool
from shamsi9 :
you'll figure a lot of stuff out and you will then explain it to me
from pseudoclaire :
ill trade you half a joint for a few o them vicodins!! ahh, sweet opiates.
from uglykatey :
you and mlaire both had reed? what the fuck?! thats so weird and juicy. i've alwqays had this idea to set up an internet site where you register people you've dated/slept with, and it sets up a weird network of people and eventually turns into a six degrees of kevin bacon type deal. like, i've indirectly fooled around with alot of people i know (twice or thrice removed, etc), but i never bother tracing the steps or documenting any of it. that would be interesting though. internet people could feel like total sluts.
from bbbrett :
Well, I just had to read, given the plug from Anticrew and all. I'm glad that I trust her taste because it was definitely worth the time.
from anticrew :
you what i told my boyfriend about you, liesl? here's a quote: "Ohmigod, Hugh, I swear, she is THEE sweetest girl on Diaryland...I can just tell!" And you know what, baby, I'm NEVER wrong!
from uglykatey :
we should all go to the same bar on the same night and see if we can pick each other out and tell who's who
from obscuritron :
i was just thinking about this same idea and then i logged on and there it was right there on your diary screen. it's weird how this happens so often with us.
from pseudoclaire :
YOU THOUGHT I WAS MID-THIRTIES?!!?!? now that is just mean. hahahaah
from bettinas :
Silly, my name is Bettina. As in, B-E-T-T-I-N-A. And my last name starts with an "s." So, BettinaS is my diaryland name. I talk about being creative, but look at me for the love of god. I'm ashamed of myself. Although I also like the plural "bettinas" because sometimes I feel there are a lot of me, that certainly come out in fictionalized diaryland fashion. I might send you a picture too, if that wouldn't shatter the illusion too much.
from curlykue :
roast beef sandwiches are the best. i too have been searching for the perfect roast beef sandwich and as of yet have not found it. mmm. i must go find one now.
from jerrbear :
of course that is the straightline, and the punchline is, "That's not important. Now in Section 12.2, we express the curvature in terms of the unit tangent vector..." Hilarious.
from whitepills :
Welcome to what I went through for a month and a half with Time Warner Cable. I hope you have better luck getting your DSL than we had with Roadrunner.
from shamsi9 :
feel better gosling
from anticrew :
i WAS worried by the hiatus but i figured you were moving so you needed time to assemble all your stuff. i hope your move went smoothly. you should visit a spa and ask someone named sven to rub the tension outta your shoulders--you deserve it!
from anticrew :
Oh! Me, too, Liesl! I would move you. But, like, I don't have a driver's license just a subway pass--would that be okay?
from bettinas :
If I were there, and if I had a car, I would feed you grapes while I moved all of your heavy stuff with my newly buff arms.
from whitepills :
I wasn't too concerned. I was just wondering when I went to the people who have me listed as favorite. I was just thinking, "Hmm, I'm one less than a couple weeks ago."
from uglykatey :
hahahahahhahahahaha i totally thought that you were telling me to write about "amsterdam art on university in berkeley" and i was like, "what the fuck does that mean?" yes, mr. rogers died of cancer. its sad, but then again it was about fucking time. he was old.
from whitepills :
I'm no longer a favorite. No big deal. Just curious.
from xgutterx :
mr. rogers died this morning. know what else happened? i stumbled across your journal. and liked it. two mind-altering things have happened.
from shamsi9 :
i don't like him. mark me.
from shamsi9 :
i'm not grossed out. it just seems really painful.
from pseudoclaire :
oh my GOD. oh god. thats all i can say.
from anticrew :
ok liesl....what band should i NOT have insulted? because you know that i will kiss your hurt feeling and make it better.
from whitepills :
Did I stop being interesting?
from anticrew :
if you promise to be my punk rock girlfriend, i will HAVE to break up with hugh immediately and begin the greatest love affair of my life, liesl--loving you. so like...can i squeeze your wheels now?
from uglykatey :
ooooohhhh i like your shirt alot!!! where did you get it?
from bettinas :
I never thought of you as having a torso before. To me, you are kind of a bubbling mass of words and meaning. Now I realize you are a person, with far bigger boobs than me. Color me intimidated.
from anticrew :
oooo! i wanna squeeze your breasts...shit...i mean, wheels. yeah, i wanna squeeze the "wheels" on your tshirt.
from kittyslave :
shutup bitch. you just wanted to show your tits. come on, admit it.
from shamsi9 :
how often do you have to do that?
from uglykatey :
dude, pubes ain't nothin but trouble. the fistfight is ON!!!
from jerrbear :
for me? awww <3
from uglykatey :
smell you later
from kittyslave :
me = stupid...who are you talking about???
from anticrew :
oooooh.....hang in there liesl--i love you!
from shamsi9 :
when you're crying yourself to sleep, remember i do this too and don't feel so bad.
from shamsi9 :
are you gonna be living alone? how many rooms?
from shamsi9 :
and i'm actually using it if there's another band with the name i picked. how do you feel about that? i'll send you recordings then you can decide?
from pseudoclaire :
tyler
from obscuritron :
i've learned that anything with your name in it is a good band name!
from shamsi9 :
luck. i want a boy of love too.
from bettinas :
I wish I had comp lit homework to do---did you know that was my major?
from shamsi9 :
i like to have a dance party by myself...do i get the money? sorry to hear about your desk...lalalala
from lildebkitty :
I agree with the who Valentine's Day thing, Told my guy please if you have to get me something, just get a card or better yet make one, show me you love me when they haven't marked up the cost of jewelry and flowers some other day, then I gave him a break, said hey you always pay when we go out tonight is on me....SO LADIES, if you love your man you should do the same and quit looking for cheesy flowers and diamonds
from uglykatey :
the "is that all there is...." song is on dance hall at louse point! wooo get that album!!!
from uglykatey :
hey... if you're going to get a pj harvey album, i'd like to recommend "john parish & polly jean harvey- dance hall at louse point". while not as commercially successful as pj harvey's other albums, this one is much more beautifully written and passionate, as well as much more consistently interesting than alot of her more well-known albums where she sings like 3 great songs about fucking or being a woman, or a song about a woman, and then gets really boring the rest of the time. and thats my two cents about pj harvey. i am sorry about what happened to your desk.
from shamsi9 :
I.LOVE.YOU.SO.MUCH.
from anticrew :
Liesl, you can totally shack it up in Canada with me! I think you'd make a fucking amazing room-mate since girls are usually less lazy than boys and they smell better. I'll go Parka shopping for you right now....
from shamsi9 :
v-tines is an evil lie. lalalaa!
from kittyslave :
girl, don't you know the #1 rule is you Have to pee after sex? bladder infections fucking suck. one time i drank so much water that when i peed in the cup they told me i didn't have one. i had to wait and go back another day before they would give me meds!!!! aww, it was horrible. good luck. and cranberry juice doesn't do shit once you already have one, that's all about prevention. but you probably know that.
from jerrbear :
Cranberry juice. And thanks for the day off. <3
from shamsi9 :
me three. and they told me the sixth sense wasn't scary and i'd be fine. freaked me out. lots.
from anticrew :
hahahaha i read the exorcist when i was 15 and it fuct me up for a year afterwards.... especially the part with the crucifix: "FUCK ME! FUCK ME!" ewwwwww.
from bettinas :
You are so cute. Are you trying to flirt with me? It is unacceptable that I live in Colorado, but it is nice to see mountains, even if I never go to them. Besides, this is just a post-college urge to nest. And who's Matthew?
from anticrew :
like whatever, liesl...i, like,totally answered that survey ages ago...and "Huey" is the name of my boyfriend's DAD!!!! hahahahahaha
from uglykatey :
A) in my opinion, being okay with space in a relationship is really good. and this way there won't be too much awkward new relationship valetines day bullshit (unless thats your thing). and B) i LOVE the new roots album. so there.
from pseudoclaire :
neat!
from bettinas :
Is there anyway you could take one of them new-fangled digital pictures of the desk? I have a vivid image in my head, and I must be rewarded...
from pseudoclaire :
stop giving a shit. seriously. you will NEVER have fun if you care. the only thing that matters is your own life. let everyone elses shit mean as much as it actually does. NOTHING.
from anticrew :
LIESL!!! check this out: http://members.swappingtons.com/item.phtml?n=17043
from jerrbear :
I know. Actually, my time ran out, and, though I'm sure they would have turned it back on if I'd just asked, I went back in and bought the small packet of 6 Hostess miniature chocolate-covered donuts. Then I asked. In our culture, products or services provided contingent upon our buying other products are usually considered "free", but I don't consider them so. I still had to pay, right?
from uglykatey :
eewwwww... if i had almost gulped a moth down i would have started freaking out and brushing my teeth and barfing. moths seem really gross, like the wings and stuff- those would be horrible to get in your mouth
from anticrew :
liesl, i totally hate Zeppelin but I totally love you so you're forgiven. I also love Massive Attack and I recently got a Swappington's of Queen's of the Stone Age--which I have to get used to...what I'm REALLY trying to say is--who is "dead and gone"?
from bettinas :
My boyfriend swears he doesn't like Led Zeppelin. I think he's lying, either that or he's a terrorist. Stupid un-american terrorist boyfriend.
from sweetjulep :
THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I have to make an extension of myself for my Visual Arts class, and extra arms is fucking BRILLIANT! I wanted wings, but was hard pressed for materials. Arms are perfect.
from shamsi9 :
email me, let's scatter dirt...
from jerrbear :
Holland oats are especially nutritious.
from jerrbear :
Damn, she beat me to it.
from uglykatey :
will you marry me?
from shamsi9 :
if i were a guy i'd be saving for the ring.
from anticrew :
Liesl, I'll paraphrase this rockNroller I interviewed: "Basically, I'm too poor for therapy, so punk rock has become my therapy instead."
from shamsi9 :
nice. i love your life too.
from whitepills :
Hmmm, vague I am. Drunk I was. Yoda I sound like. Anyway, yeah, I was a little intoxicated. Basically, I meant that whenever I read you, you seem challenged but incredibly strong. In a few recent entries, it just looks to me like you're not being a brick wall so much. Damn, that doesn't make any sense either....oh well, I never claimed to be a good writer.
from anticrew :
i love you liesl and i think that's all you really need, ok, baby!
from whitepills :
Damn, anything I try to type comes out wrong. Anyway, it seems you've found a guy that just might turn out to take your breath away.... no matter what happens.......feel.
from kittyslave :
of course you wouldn't hesitate to turn that bitch down. he didn't put out and you just remembered what it's like. hahahahaaaa.
from kittyslave :
YAE!!!! it's about fucking time...shit.
from bettinas :
you go.
from uglykatey :
aaaawwwwwww!!!!!!!
from shamsi9 :
nice. you are psyched. i live through you.
from anticrew :
liesl, i would like totally jump up and down with you screaming "i love boys!" "i love boys!" because i, too, am in my pajamas and that just seems like a pajama thing to do...oh yeah, i love boys!
from pseudoclaire :
nothing cures a broken heart like NEW BOOTY!! ps he asked me for my phone number hahaha. hahahahaha. hahhahaha hHAHAHAHAHAHHA.
from xo-liesl :
Not at all. I left your note up here and responded here because I felt like it was maybe an issue other people might have too and I didn't want to censor any dialogue about it. You can always feel free to tell it to me like it is, cos you're my best friend. And I am a big old bigot. haha.
from obscuritron :
i wanted you to think about it, no intention of a changed answer. mabye i should have just talked to you about it instead of posting it here, but my hand pressed done! before i really knew what i was doing.
from xo-liesl :
No intention to offend. My answer stands as it is.
from obscuritron :
liesl, i'm trying not to be so pc, but the term "overweight" is pretty offesnive to a lot of people. i think your answer about scented candles can be construed as offensive. i was sorta' offended.
from jerrbear :
freckle fetish? I have one of those too! Also a glasses fetish.
from kittyslave :
i CAN NOT believe that neither you or jerrbear watched saved by the bell. what the fuck did you do with your youth?!!!
from bettinas :
I finished school almost 8 months ago, and I find the frequency with which I use words like problematic to be in itself problematic. Hang with vocabulistically gifted persons and you too shall have downright PROBING conversations, full of carefully crafted rhetoric, wit, and (if the peeps are pretentious)maybe even a bit of dramaturgy.
from anticrew :
liesl, i hate diarrhealand....everytime i add a new diary it shuffles the other diaries around and duplicates them or deletes some! of course, you're my other, other evil twin!
from anticrew :
holy shit, liesl!!! "habit-forming"? why do guys have to be so effin' cute sometimes?
from uglykatey :
from a lifelong mixtape reader-intoer: hmmm... he has a good variety which is nice, but it sounds far too kitschy. i would proceed with caution because it sounds like he's a cool dude but possibly dull/tasteless
from pseudoclaire :
seriously though. who the fuck IS this dude?
from sweetjulep :
yaay for you! he sounds dreamy ;)
from kittyslave :
aren't you a rising leo? that's good shit.
from lildebkitty :
no joke...what music??? Also I am totally excited for you...you must write all the DETAILS your fans out here want to know!!! hehehe
from anticrew :
what everyone wants to know is: what music did hot coffee boy put on your tape?
from jerrbear :
"scenester hell", "appropriately excited": exactly the kind of asshole behavior women love.
from maxoverdrive :
bad little pussycat, you don't even need to try.
from lildebkitty :
sorry liesl the raiders sucked ass...GO TAMPA BAY!!! I made $500 on that game I knew the Raiders would be bulldozed. But on a higher note it took you no time at all to get over the boy and for that I am so proud of you, dark tunnel with no map, but you found the way...and you are soooooo a hippie disguised as some punk rock chic....hehehe xoxox
from pseudoclaire :
'dear mlaire' , oddly enough, was somehow missing from the beginning of that last there entry. ill let it go for now. but i expect that shit to be up and running again in the am. ps: i loves me my raiders.
from uglykatey :
GO RAIDERS!!!
from pseudoclaire :
the strokes could kick your ass in a bar fight.
from jerrbear :
I was trying at 3 am and I was what the fuck? I'm glad the D.O.S. was temporary. I think Mlaire's hiatus is temporary also, unless...is she really handwriting entries in a paper-type BOOK? How last millennium of her. :(
from obscuritron :
yeah i've been having that problem the last two days with fastonliners.com i'm gonna' take it off my diary now. let me know if the links are still being wonky though.
from bettinas :
Sheesh. I barely stumbled out of bed at 8:45 and I feel like I'm going to have to spend the whole day convincing myself to go to the gym after work. Can I have some of whatever you're having?
from uglykatey :
i know what you mean about the "i am my own grandmother" thing. today in the checkout aisle at the supermarket i bought a women's day magazine because the cover price is only $1.99 (what a steal!) and it had articles about how to organize/file things and how to prevent vericose veins. i've been reading it all night. i don't get it.
from lildebkitty :
tuna...YUCK
from kittyslave :
don't talk shit about librarians bitch...and fuckin a, jerrbear keeps saying what i want to say. what the fuck?!
from jerrbear :
librarians are hot
from kittyslave :
fuck YEAH! k, take notes. tell me what to buy.
from jerrbear :
yeah, pilates is cool too, in spite of its lameass name.
from kittyslave :
aw, don't be scared of yoga. shit girl, it's awesome! i just started up again last week and i feel SO good. seriously. it makes you horny though. be prepared to search for some cock. you release all those toxins, you lose all that tension...you have more energy and what do you want to do when you have energy? well fuck of course. hahahahaa. oh god, i gotta stop.
from kittyslave :
fuck the waiting shit. go get laid.
from sweetjulep :
I heard it was half the time that you dated the guy that you are "healing" BS? Maybe. It did take me over six months to get over my last real relationship before Jeff. We dated for a year and a bit. It depends on the person, though. After one two year relationship, I was completely ready to date. I waited a period for his sake, but honestly? I was ready to date another guy that day.
from uglykatey :
daaaaaammmnn, girl
from kittyslave :
holy shit liesl, i want to kick your ass! you are not allowed to think you're old...what the fuck are you talking about? all those things you talk about never doing...do them now. geezus. you're making me feel like a goddamned grandma.
from lildebkitty :
i hate mondays....takes me forever to catch up on you......you seem to be doing so amazingly well, I am PROUD of YOU!!
from uglykatey :
aahh i hate the berkeleyish mentality too. i really shouldn't have gone to that protest... it was all just weird "i'm totally liberal and open-minded!/ don't talk to me asshole" type people everywhere. it was a fucking peace protest and everyone acted like a snob. it was weird. oh and i like your tattoo alot. its the indian from the tootsie roll pop wrapper, right?
from sweetjulep :
could you include a link to the penguin article? i can't find it anywhere on the web.
from kittyslave :
i am rubbing off on you, holy shit.
from junkromance :
Actually I'm not a big star wars fan, but I agree, the dark side always makes an appearance. You know what would help you get over this Reed guy is a voodoo doll of him and maybe a b-b gun. And of course a clothes pin to the groin would be kind of funny.
from junkromance :
neighbor hood I mean
from junkromance :
I was just in the neighbor and I thought I might say hi and that maybe your last boyfriend is just on the dark side of the force. I'm sure he was no Han Solo. And thanks for welcoming me.
from uglykatey :
oooohhhh i LOVE taking baths and feeling like a girl.... good idea
from kittyslave :
Ooooooh, feelin sexy eh? now go buy a cucumber. HAHAHHAHAAAA
from anticrew :
omigod! my 19 year old totally bought me the new Missy cd!!!
from kittyslave :
oh yeah, and don't be afraid of the berkeley rep kids. i used to wait on them All The Time when i worked at spats. one of them, god, what's his name...i bet he's still there. god fucking damn it, he used to date one of the girls there and i forgot his fucking name.
from kittyslave :
you don't like cats? fuck dude, i pretty much can never talk to you again. hmmm, i do remember that my cat hid the whole time you were here. how can you not LOVE cats?!!! you suck liesl. by the way, move into the house, and yeah, buy a vibrator.
from sweetjulep :
you should move in. fuck him, fuck what he thinks, and move on with your life.
from pseudoclaire :
do not base life altering decisions on him. if the house is awesome, fucking move there. he does not own albany. he does not own that house. and he does not own you. you dont owe him any explanation. i think it sounds rad. and as long as it doesnt share property lines, i say fuck it.
from pseudoclaire :
hahaha. you are funny. what makes you think that was directed to you? i just got all bothererd cause everyone was being all serious. i read diary after diary of boo hoo and i just wanted to laugh. sorry if i bummed you out, it was general. not pointed. hardy har har. love you, -claire
from lildebkitty :
I don't think you sound like a dirty little hippy at all....in fact I take great offense to that, there is nothing wrong with being spiritual, and those little gifts to your heart will help because you have impowered them to do so simply by thinking they will. Your mind is such a powerful thing, if you think negative thoughts negative things happen, and vice versus with positive....now WHO sounds like a dirty little hippy?? hmmmm?
from jerrbear :
sumtin funky happening to yer diary. it said you had updated but then it linked to an old page and when i clicked new it went to another old page. and when i clicked former it sent me to the main diaryland page. I don't think Andrew's figured out all the bugs yet. Yet.
from ricebowl :
thanks for checking out my little newborn diary! i really like your writing. i wish i had more time to read, but w/ no home puter & a little kid, free time is virtually nil. the thing you wrote about the cars outside...like, your ear is perfectly attuned to that one familiar engine, i know all about that shit. thanks for the support. the scabb is on the way out; it's just a rent-paying sitch @ the moment. well,i'll catch up w/ya later!!!
from kittyslave :
dude! the boy is not fucked up because he's 30, he's just fucked up. don't judge all boys that age based on your dumb motherfucker. that's the kind of age i want because that's almost my age...and i happen to know numerous people that age and i like them. you are so jaded.
from pseudoclaire :
stop talking to him. he sucks. bad. he is almost as bad at being a human as i am at giving blowjobs. haha. i crack me up. i love you. and i do not love reed. even a little.
from sweetjulep :
i know what you're going through with this break-up. i was with someone who i thought was the love of my life (it's a complicated story, actually), and it took me a good year to get over the "ripping my heart out and having it bleed" feeling before i could move on. The good news is that even if it takes a long time, you'll feel better about yourself, and that's what's key. Then you can either find someone who's unbelievably better for you, or maybe even win the other guy back. If you can't remember why he's a jerk :)
from kittyslave :
all i gotta say is i'm disappointed that you updated while alias and the practice were on. hello?!! it's sunday night...do you not know what you should be doing? anyway, it's over now so i guess i'll go buy a cucumber.
from pseudoclaire :
we dont notice any time pass. we dont notice anything. we walk side by side to every class. teacher thinks that i sound funny but she likes the way you sing. ....in case you hadnt noticed yet, the white stripes kick some serious ass. admit it. its okay. i wont tell anyone.
from kittyslave :
i like that song...and can i please punch you until you realize he is Not a prize, was never a prize, and will Never be a prize? You're probably mad that I just said that but really, i think someone's gotta say it.
from kittyslave :
you think you won the prize? hmmmm. let me redirect you to older entries where you talk about how unhappy and frustrated you are, when you were actually 'dating'.
from jerrbear :
it's my opinion too!
from bettinas :
I'm always hesitant to begin offering a listening ear to a stranger (it seems so sordid), but I read your diary and I enjoy it so. You will get through this, but you also have every single right to bitch about it every minute till then. I'm a fan. He's a dork if he's not.
from justenough :
thank you! i <3 your diary as well
from obscuritron :
i didn't tell you congrats on the phone earlier...but i mean it...i am so proud of you...oh and thanks for joining my ring.
from lildebkitty :
You go girl!!! I woulda drowned, in fact I have drowned in the exact same situation, I ran screaming from a class ( cause I was a drama queen) cause I was so freaked by all the "good" actors who went before me!! Congratulations on sticking to it and owning the damn molnologue!!
from curlykue :
thank you. i started reading your diary today and it is lovely as well. lovely in that you are a good writer and i have this love of reading good journals to have that peak into someone's real life and real emotions. thanks you. ps. goodluck with all of your trouble.s and fall in love with a new amazing boy. ooola i love love.
from kittyslave :
your note made me laugh so hard! read the name of my entry. hahahahaaaa.
from kittyslave :
you need something to do for 3 days? oh my little clean freak friend...please come over and clean my house spotless. it is so gross you would probably throw up, and i just don't have the motivation. hahahahahaaaa.
from sweetjulep :
haha! that totally made my day.
from jerrbear :
makes me feel better too! the feeling of total superiority, ahhh
from pseudoclaire :
you erased my last note!!! jerk!!!! ps. it sounds like fun to be those girls. they were laughing right? and they obviously have enough money to get coked up all day. rich punk rockers=fun!!! didnt you get the memo? this makes no sense you are probably outside waiting for me. we are going to marios. my underwear are fresh from the dryer. im done bye! -claire
from pseudoclaire :
dude, it keeps getting better. youve got shit to look forward to. i swear, every year it gets better. who are these jackasses saying it starts to suck around 30? i almost cant wait. and being 19 is rad for other reasons. dont worry about it. just have as much fun as you can. love you. -claire
from lildebkitty :
it is so nice to feel like you are smiling, I am clueless to your age, I assumed 25, but assumptions are bad....I too understand the need and want to heal people, realizing we can't and they won't let us is some of the most painful steps we have to take when we are nuturers (not all people are). When I read your writings, I feel like I am reading parts of my past and future spoken by a much better writer than myself, keep your head up!
from lildebkitty :
I agree completely with your therapist, but I may have some different insight for you, being I am on the brink of 30 and have had some serious heartbreak, and truly hard lessons, you are not the only person in the world who places their self worth on what others think, EVERYONE does to some extent whether they admit it or not. The thing that I can tell you to the question of why do people leave for no reason, or what you really mean why don't the people I love, love me back? The answer is so simple, you are just to involved in it to see...These people do LOVE you back, it is just they are more messed up than you and they leave because of their own baggage, and their own needs, that have absolutley nothing to do with you doing something wrong.... One day you will realize that when someone loves you, you can't make them stop loving you, they may get mad and leave but they don't stop loving and longing for a reason to come back.... This guy whoshallremainnameless...he treated you like the dogshit he accidently stepped in, he is not worthy of such a prize as you, it hurts that he is not worthy, but it doesn't change the fact that he is NOT worthy of someone as beautiful and special as you are...snap out of this downward spiral, YOU ARE BETTER THAN ALL OF [email protected]!!!!
from kittyslave :
oh shit, maybe i should have emailed that.
from kittyslave :
of course what your therapist said could be true, but a few things you said stuck me...like how you judge yourself based on what others are thinking of you...and i think that has a lot to do with age. i don't mean that you're young and immature, just that you haven't experienced enough to learn who you are, and maybe you haven't dealt with enough heartbreak to teach you who you want to be. when i was your age i felt the same way as you do now. i was very affected by what people thought of me, and especially of how certain boys felt towards me. that was all that mattered. one day you'll wake up and realize that the only person you'll have to live with your whole life is yourself. somebody said that to me when i was 19 or 20, somebody older, and i thought it was fucked up and selfish...but i think it was when i was 24 that i found myself feeling exactly the same way. as you get older things change, and different things become important. it's ok to feel this pain, it's important for you to feel it, in order to grow. you know?
from kittyslave :
a potion!! oh you are a genius. where can we get that??? hahahaaa. by the way, noticed you said 'please don't email me' to artfisher. i got a good laugh out of that.
from lildebkitty :
I randomly stumbled on your diary 3 days ago, I have spent those three days reading every entry, yes I have no life.....anyways just wanted to let you know how much I enjoyed peaking into your life, if you were a man I would swear I had a crush you are truly captivating. I was wonder with as in to music you seem to be if you had heard of the Mare Wakefield Band, you might like her stuff, she is local to Oregon (actually from Texas) and sings alot about HWY 5 that I saw mentioned in your writings! I hope you get the strength and courage to pull yourself out of the downward spiral you are on, please know I am thinking happy thoughts for you!
from kittyslave :
cat power is on life insurance commercials? omygod. by the way, can i copy all your feelings and paste them in My diary?
from kittyslave :
hey, you're stealing my song bitch.
from uglykatey :
new years does suck. i hope 2003 turns out better for you. but seriously, date girls. thats where we all make our mistake. we fall in love with boys and then get lonely on new years when really they're just dumb versions of girls with yucky smell and no titties. come on who needs that shit
from pseudoclaire :
me? dumped? hahahahahahahaa.
from kittyslave :
i hate boys.
from pseudoclaire :
umm.....that would be NATIVE AMERICAN giver. oh and also, im so sorry you are hurting and i wish there was something i could do for you. i love you girl.
from jerrbear :
No! not another blonde, brunettes are hot hot hot!
from artfisher :
slow down buddy its Oregon not Daytona
from artfisher :
liesl i cant add favorites. help me please. love art
from sweetjulep :
i know how you feel about the whole self-destruction thing. sometimes it's just torture that you can't escape your own mind.
from artfisher :
You are awetistic, whenever you see something cute youre like aawwweee
from artfisher :
You too!
from shamsi9 :
onetime i had a mac makeover and i looked like sideshow bob when the lady was finished with me...here's hoping you have better luck
from pseudoclaire :
dude. you erased the diarreah entry. you suck. ps chicago was amazing.
from pseudoclaire :
whoa, artfisher is gettin his anger on. sweet. at any rate. that kitten is on ammo-dots's diary. and its so cute it makes me want to throw my computer out the window.
from artfisher :
yeah right, dont fuck around. If you want me to say something nice read an earlier entry
from kittyslave :
pink lighter=gay. hahahhaaaa. see? that must have been the problem the whole time. it's like an after-school special.
from shamsi9 :
i think anger is ok and healthy and part of letting go/grieving.
from jerrbear :
thanks liesl, I appreciate it, and yeah, we do need to see a counselor. also, pink lighter = gay. that is all.
from kittyslave :
she told you what shotgun voidlock is? fucking bitch. anyway, i was going to tell you that you need to be angry...it's a part of the healing process. let it out. you're allowed to be pissed silly.
from pseudoclaire :
fuck yeah it is. ps he kisses really, really good. and his bed is very comfortable...
from pseudoclaire :
shotgun voidlock is a stupid saying that us antioch kids came up with. you know, someone says 'shotgun', to sit in the front seat. but if someone says 'shotgun void-lock' it means you have voided out the original shotgun, and locked a position for yourself in the front seat. its really lame. but funny as hell to say to people that actually said it at one time. kinda along the lines of 'icy' hahaha. the funniest part about it is that kids in antioch STILL to this day, say shotgun voidlock when going to the car
from jerrbear :
for god's sake if you don't generally like cats don't get a damn cat. get a rat! this has been a public service announcement.
from kittyslave :
you've never felt better...i can tell. you've just found a woman and become a lesbian. heehee. i love you liesl.
from sweetjulep :
You don't need him.
from kittyslave :
um, i love you? don't move to montana, just become a lesbian.
from kittyslave :
don't stop writing. please? i love you for driving 10 hours in silence. i love you i love you i love you. i'm glad you got back ok. it doesn't seem too fun to go back to 'real' life. boys suck...but i say fuck it, write it out girl. if he can't accept you for who you are then he's really not worth 2 pennies. that would be the ideal...i mean i feel the same way as you. start a secret diary. it'll make you feel better.
from shamsi9 :
shit.
from artfisher :
one day your prince will come. Check the frog on the couch for a crown. Sincerely, Art Fisher
from kittyslave :
hee hee... you're at my house. i love liesl. me too (claire here)
from kittyslave :
don't become jaded or bitter...but if you do you can join the baded jitter diaryring when you turn 26. heehee. k, not funny. HE SUCKS liesl. he's a stupid piece of shit. i've never liked him because he's a fuckin snob who's stuck on himself...that was always my impression. am i allowed to talk shit now? FUCK HIM. this is not you, this is what happens when you get involved with fucked up people and think that your love will change them. am i right? stay strong. no boy is worth falling to pieces over...hahahahaaaa...oh what am i talking about? you have venus in cancer!!! oh no oh no oh no. one thing that would've made you feel better...Never Call Me Again, not 'you don't have to call me if you don't want to'. stand up for yourself. tell him to fuck off. sorry, i'm getting carried away. i hate boys.
from jerrbear :
I made that same biggest mistake six years ago, but I made it even bigger by moving away with her to another state where I didn't know anybody. Worst six months of my life. Him doing it by email a week before xmas proves it was a mistake and that he's a jerk. You have every right to be angry, but be glad you're not as stupid as I was.
from kittyslave :
oh liesl, i'm so sorry. as much as i'm always telling you to leave him, i still feel so fucking bad for you. it was a weird situation. at least it happened now instead of later. i won't try to make you feel better...just feel sad, get it out. it's the only way. i'm here if you want to talk.
from obscuritron :
i love you.
from kittyslave :
liesl, re-read the end of your last entry. if you really feel that way then you know what needs to happen. above all else, you need to think of You. is affection really worth all this? for 3 months you have questioned and wondered...how much longer can you do it? there are other boys out there, boys who can give you the same thing, and also treat you like a Woman. he seems to be more of a friend, and that's fine in the beginning, but in the long term, be honest...you have to know that you're settling. this isn't enough for you, as much as it hurts.
from kittyslave :
what are you talking about? he's about to dump you!? come on, are we making up little scenarios in our head again?
from shamsi9 :
i'm a read em, just not now
from kittyslave :
wow, i read the whole thing. before i read it, i was sitting here crying and feeling sorry for myself. now i look at my life and think shit, what am i so sad about...i have my whole life ahead of me. awww liesl, you done good girl. i liked your kansas writings a lot.
from kittyslave :
oh geez, you sound like me. i hate flying! i can't get on a plane with anything unsaid, or any bad feelings in the air. it always makes me think of how short our time actually is and how all the dramas we think are so important are really pretty silly.
from obscuritron :
the rain pours like rivers flash flood warnings at 4 a.m. i had to ring my clothes out...i miss you in kansas......xoxo-danielle........p.s. i started a ring you should join if you want, and you don't have to put the thingy up on your page if you don't want to: </P> http://members.diaryland.com/edit/rings.phtml?ring=photobooth </P> call me when you get in.....
from pseudoclaire :
fuck yeah, go and make out with ryan. hahahhahahahha
from jerrbear :
Glad I'm not the only crazy one around here... I think that test is f**king alarmist; like it calls you a narcissist if you say you think that your needs are more important than other people's. That's just being honest.
from kittyslave :
hey, you have a mac right? can you read my diary? it's in the process of being changed and yesterday claire couldn't read it.
from kittyslave :
at least you're not dependent. that's good.
from kittyslave :
ah girly, it will all be ok. you're at the end of school, you're tired. you don't want to be the whiskey type. then you'd be like me and struggle with sobriety and learning to deal. ahhh liesl, keep your chin up. take a bath.
from shamsi9 :
kick ass general foods international coffees can take anyone's life over, don't feel bad
from whitepills :
Best of luck this week. I must say I don't envy you. Sorry! If I lived in CA as opposed to here, I'd be more than happy to help you drown away your memories Saturday. Good luck!
from pseudoclaire :
and yeah im okay. just hung over and tired.
from pseudoclaire :
someone that doesnt care DOES NOT buy people ipods. even if they dont spell yer name right.
from pseudoclaire :
yes i can l-i-e-s-l i pay attention. cause i care.
from jaxzimmy :
well i can completely see where u are coming from with the spelling thing...I mean ya that would be kind of annoying...so you have a good point - JAx
from pseudoclaire :
if it helps you feel better, he spelled x-mas wrong too. or maybe that doesnt help you feel better, the fact that your pseudo boyfriend is dumb and illiterate. hahahahahaahhahahaha. just kidding. ps. you are spoiled. what with your ipod and all. me=jealous
from pseudoclaire :
if it helps you feel better, he spelled x-mas wrong too. or maybe that doesnt help you feel better, the fact that your pseudo boyfriend is dumb and illiterate. hahahahahaahhahahaha. just kidding. ps. you are spoiled. what with your ipod and all. me=jealous
from jaxzimmy :
Jeez an ipod!! thats insane...wow but ya, what are you gonna do when he just hands it to you...oh well, now you have a wicked sweeted out gift, and you know that even if he cant spell your name, he really cares about you...a whole hell of a lot. - Jax
from kittyslave :
you should just let him be your sugar daddy. hahahaa.
from jaxzimmy :
Hey, awesome to hear from you, thanks so much. I love reading your stuff, and will continue to check in. Thanks - Jax :)
from obscuritron :
i clicked on your banner today!
from uglykatey :
dude, i totally just got to your diary by CLICKING ON YOUR BANNER!!!!
from kittyslave :
whoa.um.whoa.shit.listen. i'm coming from the outside, and it's a given that i'm not there to know anything worth anything. but girl, i read your diary. you are not getting what you want. and really, it doesn't sound like you will. i say this in regards to all that you've said yourself.
from pseudoclaire :
holy. shit.
from uglykatey :
ack! fire is gross.
from pseudoclaire :
WHAT makes no sense?!?!?!?
from kittyslave :
i saw your banner today...sorry, i didn't click on it
from split-lip :
just wanted to tell you i stopped by and your layout is cute... and i feel for the girl in the thong too. :)
from facepunch :
CLICKCLICK> cute diary.
from kittyslave :
doesn't get naked with you 'Anymore'? Hold up. What'd I miss? Anyway, what's up with the ex?
from kittyslave :
the world can't revolve around you...it's too busy revolving around Me.
from pseudoclaire :
girl, delete the email
from addieplum :
squid fried, and smothered in teriyaki sauce, is all the rage in jersey. in pennsy though, they like the octopus.
from peth :
My sock monkeys just can't get enough of that Breakfast Blend. I am on a squinting mission.
from whitepills :
Currently enjoying your diary. I'm only up to July 15 so far, but if writing is your passion and intended profession, you've got at least one fan already.
from kittyslave :
Yeah, it should have came first. hahaha.
from kittyslave :
oh you poor poor girl. think really hard. they have an important use.
from kittyslave :
you are so funny. funny. funny. funny. there should be a manual, and free donuts. i wish i had thought of that. hahahhaa.
from uglykatey :
i was joking about the bulemia thing (har dee har har) although i did have a strong urge to do it when i noticed that a pretty girl from mtv was doing it. girls with big asses rule. you should join the girls-with-big-ol-asses diaryring... its the one in my diary with the black ladies in the thongs that says "junk in the trunk"- although i'm not sure that it would go along with the aethetics of your diary.
from thelid :
Enjoyed your diary. My name is Liesl, too. :)
from kittyslave :
and really, why don't you have a guestbook? all the cool kids are doin it.
from kittyslave :
by the way, check your email.
from kittyslave :
what does it change? well, i never liked him. i've always thought he was an asshole. but now i can see it differently, cause he's probably like me.
from kittyslave :
he's a cancer? oh shit. that changes everything i've ever thought about him. and that's good for you...your venus is in cancer. huh. fuck. that's weird.
from kittyslave :
Dude. Listen. If you haven't had sex yet it's not going to happen. Something is really really weird about that. I'm sorry but maybe he was right, maybe you're supposed to be friends.
from uglykatey :
ooooooooohhhhh. duh. well don't worry about it
from uglykatey :
eeeek!! i didn't mean to remove you- i'm sorry!! i like being in entry-addicts! i was fucking around with my template all day and all of my ring logo thingies were removed so i put some back up real quick without paying attention. i must have completely skipped over entry-addicts. don't worry about adding my thingy to your template, its not a big deal- especially because most people aren't named melanie so it doesn't make much sense. but anyways, thanks for bringing that to my attention- its back up!
from freyja :
thank you!
from kittyslave :
"Jenn can hang out with the Boy and the ex (and she isn't getting any action from her "Boy" either) and the ex is only pissed that his name is in lowercase letters."...Hahahhaha...
from kittyslave :
boys always like girls who swallow...the act turns you into a porn star or something.
from kittyslave :
wait a minute...you guys spend the night with each other, go shopping for kitchen supplies, eat breakfast...and you're not gettin any action? NEVER?!
from uglykatey :
okay, i joined your diary ring as you asked. now you should join my 'melanie' diary ring. its for people named melanie, or people who know or have heard of someone named melanie, etc. because i just started it yesterday and the only person who has joined sofar is a 12 year old girl who really likes sponge bob.
from pseudoclaire :
you are fucking great. that entry was fucking awesome im gonna type 'fucking' two more times and then im gonna go. cause i am fucking tired. and i am fucking sober. later.
from kittyslave :
ahhh...very cool entry. i was going to write today about what I've wanted to be when I grow up, no joke. that's weird.
from kittyslave :
Yeah, fuck other people's feelings...just say to yourself MeMeMeMeMe and everything will be fine. haha
from pseudoclaire :
i really like the arithmatic entry. you are neat. love claire.
from kittyslave :
i can't believe you haven't updated...you are the queen of updating. what's wrong?
from kittyslave :
you should see him, just to see how you feel when he's there in front of you. our hearts and imaginations go wild when someone is away, and you can forget how it really is. it's good to know, to remember. And hey, just because he's gone and seems to be having lots of fun, doesn't mean he is...he's probably a typical boy who hasn't even begun to deal with the loss of you. (it sounds like he wants you to tell him to come back...also typical)
from kittyslave :
Here's another good remedy to try if you're getting sick: Traditional Medicinal Tea...combine the echinacea & breathe easy, then add honey. Oh yeah baby, it's the best.
from obscuritron :
that's the stupidest thing i've ever heard you say...keep writing.
from smellyfinger :
Come on knock on your door. We've been waiting for you. Now make me laugh at the fact that I'm in love with my water bottle.
from pseudoclaire :
sometimes reading your diary is like reading my own. for real it is frightening how much alike we are. wow. i ran into martin tonight and talked to him for a while. i don't know how to feel about that. it would be safe to say i am conflicted. aw girl, sunday nights are the freakin worst.
from pseudoclaire :
hi!! i know, he totally sucks huh? what a jerk. god hes hot. okay so what are you talking about with the jack and the kessler? maybe im just tired right now and as a result sorta dumb. yup me dumb dumb.
from pseudoclaire :
from here, i can totally see how awesome you are. and that means something.
from pseudoclaire :
aww. okay. i'll write something just for you. lemme get in a nice little funny mode and i'll be right with you. im sorry the boys suck right now. you are right they fucking suck. fucking boys and their penises.
from pseudoclaire :
oh girl, you are so dead. bring it. im totally gonna pull your hair and scratch you, i might even break one of your fingernails, don't think im kidding!!!
from pseudoclaire :
It's not just college kids. There is a similarly small ratio of non-jackass to jackass in the rest of this disappointing population. it makes me want to puke or maybe move to another planet.
from pseudoclaire :
and it occurs to me that we havent even met
from pseudoclaire :
seriously, you are one of the funniest people i have ever met. Yes, i totally want to get some of that alien booty. that is all.
from pseudoclaire :
and he's cute. did i forget to mention that?
from pseudoclaire :
alright girl, that's it im totally gonna kick your ass.... we all need a lil somthin to obsess over now and again don't we? Plus he flirts real good, and i mean REAL good. he totally wants me. hahaha love claire
from obscuritron :
i can't see your tea bags on my computer at home...i don't know why! i just thought you'd like to know.
from pseudoclaire :
braincloud!!!!that's from joe Vs. the volcano. hahhahha
from pseudoclaire :
no way, i don't mind. i think that is the first time ive ever been quoted. its weird to read it again, its like reading something someone else wrote, but i totally remember feeling all of that. I saw that guy a few weeks ago and all i could think of while we were hanging out is 'oh thank god he dumped me' hahaha im going to the bar now. buh bye -claire
from pseudoclaire :
okay, we are officially at the one degree of separation stage. I know shay (did i spell it right?) e mail me. i don't want to post anything i have to say. I was at the beehive show.. it all correlates to my recent entries. [email protected]
from pseudoclaire :
holy shit girl, that sucks. I takes someone really fuckin strong to do what you did. Be proud of yourself.
from pseudoclaire :
hi!! man that sucks.....i have had the same problem with the beverages, usually its a beer that im trying to drink incognito style in my car down at ye old gilman street. If you open your car door, check out where the latch catches when the door shuts, there is a thingy sticking out that is PERFECT to use for a bottle opener. And you are right, 7-up out of a bottle tastes like ass, for sure.
from obscuritron :
hi
from obscuritron :
you don't even know how inspiring creative unique brilliant artistic and most of all mesmerizing you are...i love you i love you i love you...
from obscuritron :
your heart and words are beautiful. i love you.
from halftrak :
Hi there, no news, just wanta say Hi, I love you and miss you a lot. We had dinner with Donnie Camarda last night (Chip's away in China) and he says Hi. He's such an interesting person, I hope you get an opportunity to get to know him better now that his every waking moment is no longer consumed in building their Amway business. We're talking over how we could collaborate in a real estate venture of some sort. Hernan and I have decided to sell the 41st St. property, provided the market isn't cooling off so fast that we can't get our target price for it. The Alameda house deal is "stuck" at the moment, we may have to bail out at the end of the month if the seller can't get their shit together. Mom has convinced me to start the wheels moving to relocate Benny, which I have a pretty good plan for, hopefully having him out by Sept. 1. Do you really think another Cal student would tolerate living that far from campus? Probably your favorite tenant would move downstairs after we renovate, and I think I'd rent her upstairs place for $895 (she's at $975 now). Are you and Shay on a more sound footing this week? Are you checking Starving Starlet, or reading these notes? I really would like to know which is the best way to send you mail. Hafta drive home from Sacramento now, hope your throat's better. Love, Dad.
from halftrak :
Hey there: I left a "house-keeping" message on your e-mail earlier today. Are you still checking starvingstarlet? If not, please let me know. Chaz has gotten really friendly with me, calm (sort of) and inviting me to play, rather than just hitting like a hyperactive shark. Work beckons, must run. I love you and miss you every day. Dad-
from obscuritron :
i didn't hear the phone ring this morning...probably because i didn't go to bed until 5 am as well...oh i wish i had though. didn't wake up until 1 pm today and looking foward to a leisurely saturday filled with flea markets and playing cards. i miss you terribly...more than you know. i love you more than hot chocolate and the sound rusty swing sets make.
from halftrak :
"but no one was home..." So what'm I?! Chopped Livvah? It was a hoot to hear from you yesterday. I almost didn't answer the phone, no caller ID, too many people calling demanding stuff, but because it was after hours I decided to take a chance. Read your update this evening, don'tcha HATE waking up in your clothes with the lights on? Still, it's kind of cool to spend a little time bonding in the cliched collegiate way, and you need to have done it a time or two for your college experience to be really complete. I remember sending Elsie dancing drunkenly off to bed, waving her arm over her head crying out "Play on! Play on!" Ya gotta do it at least once. Time to go home, just wanta say "Hi!", and I love you. XOXO, Dad-
from obscuritron :
i love i miss you.
from halftrak :
Hey Bink! In desperation to find your NOTSORECENTLYUPDATED THEREFORE OFFTHEDIRECTORY diary, I actually signed up for diaryland. If I were to actually start entering my daily thoughts and activities I could probably create a cyber-black hole, sucking everyone's consciousness and intelligence into the void of my BORING EXISTENCE. I could go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on...all about nothing! Sort of a Seinfeld redoux. Hey let us hear about you. I loved the Tate, the building was sort of cool, not the "tour de force" of the reviewers' gushings, and the exhibits were really engaging. Hope you got there and found it interesting. Check the (I think it's called the) British National Library, just off Trafalgar Square, which I recall as at the south end of The Strand, but don't quote me on that, to see if they still have any remnants of the original manuscripts exhibit we saw, maybe a room dedicated, it was fascinating. Or not. I miss you a metric ton, hope you're still pumped. Give us an update! You can leave a message on MY diary if you want, my user name is halftrak, but just reading your updates is great for me. XOXO, Dad
from obscuritron :
laying in bed, staring at my blue walls, and the paper umbrella mobile that i just hung up...just like yours. i think about you all the time,liesl i don't think you'll ever know how much i love you.
from obscuritron :
Hey schmoopie!!! this is my username...not that other name on your page...i love you.

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