messages to yelayna:
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from danddteacher :
Isn't Chicago great?! It was the first show we saw when we went to NYC in August. I'm glad you had a good time here in the states.
from ava-reborn :
An update!! At last!! From errrmmm, what's your name again!?!?!?! Seriously great update!!!! Almost makes up for not hearing anything from you for sooooooo looooong!!!
from chakra-chick :
I'm so so so glad to read an update from you sweetie! I really missed you so incredibly much! Can't wait to read more of your updates! ~smooches~
from katm6 :
Hey you! I thought we'd get an update since you left me a comment. Hope all is well. Will send an e-mail.
from kelsi :
I hope you had a great weekend in NYC! And that bathroom floor looks fabulous.
from katm6 :
Oh yeah, honey, it's that damned cold here. I'm in Detroit, but that just means we get the weather a couple of days before New York (although they get lake effect snow which means more than us in Detroit, Thank God). I have never been to NYC or Broadway but I would think that unless you're doing a matinee show that the glitter shoes would be FABULOUS!!! Just bring a very warm coat/jacket, hat, gloves, scarf, etc., but even though it says -4C (I'm assuming Celsius) that doesn't include the windchill which can get down to 0F and that's so not fun. Besides, better safe than sorry in having too much winter stuff than not enough! Have a great time! I'm so excited for you!
from danddteacher :
I swear we're living the same life on 2 different continents! Well, except that right now you're having luck with men and I'm not, but the whole sex as a weapon thing? I'm soooo there with you!
from ava-reborn :
I'm just so happy for you! You deserve all the loveliness you're having with Dave! Thanks for last night! We have to do it again soon!!!
from wildrosie :
Isn't that the greates expression? You can use it in public, and it is very inoffensive! As for Dave, is he a Cancerian? He sounds like Zeb, too much drinking, which covers his insecurities. That and the suggesting that you would be better off with someone else, to which you are supposed to respond, "NO! I like YOU! Not him!" I am very proud of Zeb though, he hasn't had a drink since Aug 30, and he has been almost completely dry since the end of April. It's been very hard, and i don't know as how I would go through it all again, but it is nice to have my sweetie in his right mind all the time! As for feeling like a slut: as long as you use protection, and get checked regularly, do as you like. Just be careful!
from katm6 :
Sometimes we just need to slack at work. You'll snap out of it. Do you think Dave drank too much because he was nervous about meeting the folks? I know I would have been. And you're right about Him. He's being selfish and you don't need that. He'll wait years for you? WHATEVER!!!
from danddteacher :
OK, you didn't tell me that Dave spends money on you and takes you shopping! Good grief, he sounds good! *L*
from katm6 :
I'm so so so happy for you!!! I'm glad "it's" over and that you're letting Dave do for you!!! You give me hope, girl!!!
from chakra-chick :
Yes my dear-you most cerytainly deserve to feel special and 'shiney'...enjoy every second of it! Have a lovely weekend. ~smooches~
from danddteacher :
Yes, you DEFINITELY deserve to enjoy yourself for a bit. I'm glad you're ok and things are going well. I'm just curious - how much of an age difference is there?
from ava-reborn :
Sorry, just re-read her post and realised she was saying not to meet the kids!! Duh!! My mistake! *hugs*
from ava-reborn :
Glad you're alright! Sounds like the best thing to do, taking the grand instead of involving the police. You'e probably get nothing that way. Believe me, I KNOW!! I know what happens when drivers without insurance get into accidents!! Nothing!! Long story as to how I know! But trust me!! As for Dave, you're doing the right thing! Please don't listen to "katm6"! By all means, continue and enjoy your realtionship with Dave, but DON'T meet and involve the kids until you think you might be around for a while. Young kids get attached quickly and it can screw them up big time! You know where I am if you want a chat! I'm 5 minutes drive away!! xx
from teachin-usa :
Oh! Are you sure you're all right? So glad it wasn't more serious. Actually once a guy totalled my car- I took the money and went to Honduras to learn to scuba dive. Glad you like your new wheels!
from katm6 :
I see no reason to jump the gun re: Dave and his kids and long term. Take things as they are now. There's a lot to be said for being comfortable with him and being able to just sit companionably. And although normally I'd be saying avoid dominant personalities, I have a different perspective right now and think they can work out, if they are only used for our own good - if that makes sense. I'm feeling as cryptic as Heeland Lass' last post! ;-)
from chakra-chick :
Hi love. Glad to read something from you again. I missed u! Can you believe it? I *still* havent received your package...Seems like you just gonna have to bring Thorntons goodies to me in South Africa! ~smooches~
from katm6 :
Hope all is well with you...
from katm6 :
I'm not so sure that most women want to be swept off their feet. Sure, it sounds nice in books and movies, but in actuality, it's a little scary. And a single red rose is so cliche that it makes me think that he might not have an original bone in his body. Now, a bunch of daisies or wildflowers or something like that? Much more imaginative than a red rose! *gag*
from danddteacher :
You know, it might make sense to talk to you. You're far away. We'll never meet. You don't know the people involved. Hmmmmm....
from danddteacher :
You've not posted in a while - everything ok? Hugs from North Carolina!
from heelandlass :
Oh Sweets, I'm sorry I've been out of the loop - thanks for emailing me your password, that made me feel really honoured. You just keep doing what you're doing, at the moment nothing you do is right or wrong, you're finding your feet again and that is both exciting and terrifying. But mostly exciting. Think of all those boys. Think of all that flirting and eyeball tennis in pubs. Think of all those butterflies in your tummy and feeling like you're living your life for you and only you. You're gonna ROCK!!!!!!!!!!
from danddteacher :
OK, the guy bought you a rose - it doesn't mean you have to marry him tomorrow. Calm down. He's just showing you that he had a good time. And it was 1 rose - not 5 dozen. You'll be ok. Keep having fun. If he's not said, "I want us to see each other exclusively" then you have nothing to worry about. As for Dave, if he's slept with someone else, stay far, far away. You're better off without him. Keep your chin up, girl. *hugs*
from kristoli :
Quick note to say that sometimes streams of consciousness is the only way and dad's are the best! :) Oh and chin up, you are doing great.
from danddteacher :
Sweetie, I'm sorry things are so rough. Good for your dad, though! And about attracting men who are attached - I'm there with you and it sucks.
from moonfaeryy :
You have all your DLand friends to support you...it's going to be okay. You feel icky right now because you've stepped out of the rut you were in, and it is scary territory. You can survive!! Also...the quote that you have running at the bottom of your page, is one of my favorites from Anais Nin. I actually cross-stitched it and have it hanging in my room! Good choice of quote for the day!
from ava-reborn :
Sorry I've been such a stranger!! I've been a bad bad diary friend!! I'm so sorry things are so poo at the moment, but I'm really pleased you've made this decision! It's seems the right thing for you! Of course it'll be strange and a little bit scary being on your own in the flat. But that will pass!!! Trust me!! And remember, I'm only a five minute drive away!! If you need company, you know where I am!!! *hugs*
from chakra-chick :
Hi sweetie! I'm so sorry that you're feeling so out of sorts of late...wish I were closer just so that I could give you a massive hug and let you know that you did indeed do the right thing. Can't belive how strong you were going out with him...I would've broken down completely! You go girl---just take it one day at a time and don't try to rush the healing process...let it happen naturally. Lotsa hugs and kisses... Faz
from wildrosie :
OK, May I have the password, pretty-please with sugar on top? wild west rosie at yahoo dot com. Thank you sweetie!
from moonfaeryy :
Thanks for the password...wow...I haven't been reading you long enough to know fully what is going on...but it sounds like you have made the best decision for you. I understand the whole making you feel guilty card he is playing. But you can't let it get to you, which I know is easier said than done. It will get better as time goes by! Good luck with your new future...where ever that might take you....
from kelsi :
Good luck, and get ready, kid, your life will be amazing.
from teachin-usa :
thanks for the password :)
from moonfaeryy :
hey Yelayna...I see you've locked up...if you are willing, I would like your password. Thanks much! I hope everything is [email protected]
from danddteacher :
Thanks for the password. And I'm one of those people who think this is a good change - that didn't seem like a healthy situation for you. Keep your chin up!
from heelandlass :
Jings! Where to start?! I have been wondering where you've been lately, sounds like you've been all around the houses - if you're locking up, don't forget to mail me your password. Hope you're okay Sweets. Big Love x
from wildrosie :
OK, yes, you were brief but informative, but there are questions begging answers! Hopefully all is truly well, and I hope you are doing OK. Hugs ~Rosie~
from danddteacher :
Wow! I think you need an award for saying the most in the fewest words!
from danddteacher :
I have to admit, Strictly Ballroom is one of my favorites!
from hissandtell :
You day sounds sublime, darling - the ocean, otters, peacocks and sunshine. Wonderful photographs! And I'm sorry you're feeling a tad threatened and thinking of locking up - please do let me know the password if you decide to go in that direction. Much love, R xxx
from danddteacher :
How was Take the Lead? I'm kinda torn on whether I want to see it...
from ava-reborn :
Thank you so much lovely! Your support is appreciated! If you meant what you said about if there's anything you can do, well, a drink would be good!!! A night out with you would do me wonders!!!! Any chance???
from clarity25 :
Thanks for your last note, That was really comforting. I can understand your feelings and reservations regarding this new girl. It's not irrational, I'm sure I'd be feeling the same way. Or perhaps we're BOTH just irrational. At any rate, her appeal will fade once the newness of her presence fades and things will return to normal. I hope you're having a good weekend:) P.S. That Lambrini sounds GOOD!
from chillier :
I'm surprised how many ladies out there can relate to my no drinking girls problems. And by the way, I'm taking you up on your offer to drink with me should you ever cross the pond.
from ava-reborn :
Great news about your mum! Sorry about your aunt though, lovely. I'm glad you had a good weekend. You deserve it! I hope you're feeling happier soon and that your iron tablets help your tiredness! *hugs*
from danddteacher :
I'm glad I'm not the only one who has a weakness for shoes!
from geeked-out :
haha I can't tell you how many times I've done that same thing. Luckily you can delete them.
from geeked-out :
well it's 5pm here...But then again I did just wake up. SO I know mine is screwed up.
from geeked-out :
Singular Girl the link was wrong. I just fixed that so you should be able to download it...I don't know why it wasn't working for you. I can try e-mailing them if you want.
from geeked-out :
You mean the songs aren't downloading for Rhett? Or you just don't think the other two songs are good.
from clarity25 :
Last night while we were packing a few more things in boxes, we found that old card you sent me ages and ages ago with that gift. We had used a portion of it right away, than put the other half back in the card for safekeeping. It was forgotten! When we found it again, I cried out "woo hoo! Lets party!". So we rushed off the the Irish Pub. It was exactly what we needed last night because we were under so much stress. Thanks Yelayna. See? That gesture that might have seemed small to you a long time, was the gift that kept on giving. Thank you.:)
from chillier :
Really girly girls kind of intimidate me - like those ladies at makeup counters in department stores. I always assume that they can somehow see better than anyone else how flawed I am - that my makeup is bad, or wrong, that my clothes aren't fabulous enough. I try to be nice to them so they don't hurt me, but deep inside I'm really just scared. I like my girlfriends down to earth and loud.
from clarity25 :
I didn't sleep well last night either. In fact I missed you online in the chatroom by a few minutes. I only slept 3 hours, I've been anxious lately as well. Worrying about the move. I know what you mean about financial struggles to. I hope today went well with the new girl:). Keep us posted. I'm thinking about you and hope you had a good day.
from danddteacher :
New pajamas always make me feel better. *S*
from remingtons :
Hey there. I would really love for you to send me an email. [email protected]
from danddteacher :
I'm there with you on the whole internet friends and waiting for e-mail thing. Today it's jerked my emotions up and down and up and down.
from geeked-out :
Yeah the Picard song is awesome. I have a couple more Star Trek songs but that one is by far the best. You're the Captain You're entitled. I thought about mailing myself to you along with the CD. I'm so jealous of your location it's not even funny.
from geeked-out :
I didn't realize anyone else in the group was on diaryland. yay. I'm glad you received it and I'm glad you like it. Somehow a bunch of foreign music ended up on there. I guess I was in that kind of mood when I made it. I haven't received any of the others either I'm kind of disappointed about that. I look forward to your mix in April =)
from wildrosie :
Hmmm, yeah, I'd probably go for the off shore stuff. Though Romania was pretty grim the last time I went there. If this job thing works out with Zeb, maybe he and I could take dancing lessons. But I am glad that you are feeling better sweetie! ~Rosie~
from heelandlass :
I'd be leaning towards the contractor/offshoring thing too...the way the worlds set up now, people are needed with experience of volume recruitment and client liason across a number of different national sectors. You'd be able to work almost anywhere after a few years experience in this kind of thing..America, Australia,Canada. I'm jealous!!
from wildrosie :
Well sweetie, at least you aren't alone in how you are feeling. And trust me, not having the money to pay for even your utilities or food really, really sucks. So no matter how much suckage the job has, at least you get nice things when you come home. Hugs darlin'~Rosie~
from clarity25 :
I'm so sorry that you're feeling down and that you've been having a rough time lately. I'm here if you ever want to chat online or E-mail. I sincerely hope things get better for you soon.
from katm6 :
And it's nice to know that I'm not the only one who can eat a whole pizza! It's now Lent, so I have to be good. The strange thing is that although I go to church, I don't consider myself to be all that religious, but I'm able to do things during Lent that I can't do the rest of the year. 12 years of Catholic school?
from katm6 :
I totally understand how you were feeling, because I'm right there with you. Plenty to do at work, but so don't feel like doing it. Actually I'd like to take a week off and go lie on a beach in the Virgin Islands and sleep and drink and read. Getting away from Michigan in February (March) should be made into a law!
from betchy :
grrrrr you arent in a good mood are you???? well heres a happy hello to cheer you up!!!
from clarity25 :
I know what you mean about the flat, That's kind of how Eric and I have been feeling for the past 3 years. This place, although comfortable and nice was never home. I guess it just takes time. Thanks for your caring notes!
from ava-reborn :
Hi lovely. I can relate to what you said about the flat. I have the same problem. A choice of warm but mouldy or unmouldy but cold! Great! How are your wisdom teeth now? I hope you're feeling better soon!
from heelandlass :
Aye, fish balls! Doesn't sound quite so nice when you put it like that!!! Enjoy the weekend xx
from chakra-chick :
Thanks fo the info on the toffees! I think I will arrange with you to get some and post them to me because 'Thorntons' will probably charge me an arm and a leg to have them deliver me some! Lovely weekend to you and Laurence sweetie! ~smooches~
from clarity25 :
I hope you had a good Valentines Day, and I relate to your feelings about the holiday. It's a silly commercial holiday that makes everyone feel kind of down because there is so much pressure and expectation involved. Eric and I couldn't really do anything special. I was sick and we're incredibly broke. But just being together is enough.
from wildrosie :
Happy Valentines Day Sweetie! Hope the night goes better than the day. Hugs and Love ~Rosie~
from clarity25 :
THat must have been stressful to discover that Laurence had been reading your journal, so often and knows so much. I can understand why that would make you uncomfortable. Even if you suspect it, it's weird having the person say it to your face. I hope everything works out, I'm sorry you haven't been sleeping well lately, Neither have I. I hope you have a good weekend.
from heelandlass :
I'd forgotten all about Pam Ayres!! Did you know she's touring? Saw it in the paper the other day. Anyway - thanks for your recommendation. I wrote the poem down, but was too pissed to recite it!! xxx
from elgac :
Things don't have to been seen or felt the way your taking them. The next time you feel blah, look at it from a third point of view, and sometimes it can save you from the loss your feeling.
from heelandlass :
I read in one of the Sunday papers that 23rd January is officially the saddest day of the year. I don't know anybody that wasn't pissed off yesterday, so don't beat yourself up about it too much. And as for the flirting thing - girl, you need to embrace that side of your personality. In no way does it make you a bad person. Basically - you wouldn't flirt (consciously or unconsciously) if you weren't feeling positive about yourself in some way. If you were doing it in a desperate attempt to get male attention then I'd be worried, but you were doing it in a 'at this precise moment in time I feel quite good about myself and here's all my charm and wit because I have heaps of both and I'm not scared to show them' kind of way and that's GOOD. You've been through so much shit and losing weight has been a key thing for you and it's helped you to find a place where you like yourself (remember how happy you were about the cat suit?) and things at home are a bit rocky yet you're still doing okay. I do it myself so I shouldn't be giving this advice, but basically - you treat yourself really badly sometimes. The things you say about yourself are awful and if a friend spoke to you that way you'd question if you wanted to have them in your life, wouldn't you? So what if you flirt? Everybody on the planet flirts and it's a healthy and fun thing to do. It's definitely NOT something to beat yourself up about, so PLEASE give yourself a break, Sweetie...... you're doing great. January is a suckie month, it's inevitable you're feeling this poo. xxx
from clarity25 :
I hear you on the negative inner voice, and feeling out of it. Especially on Mondays. I really hope tomorrow is a little better for you.
from danddteacher :
Gosh, if only you knew how many times I've had that exact same inner discussion with myself, which always ends in, "I'm worthless." Ugh.
from clarity25 :
Ugh, I feel old too. :)
from danddteacher :
I'm so impressed by your 101 in 1001! Good luck!
from wildrosie :
If you speak any Spanish at all, get the subtitled version of "Like Water For Chocolate". I have both versions, as it is one of my all-time faves, but the Spanish version is subtly richer in the dialog. They do not translate everything in the dubbed version, and a few nuances get lost. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. ~Rosie~
from wildrosie :
Thanks for the pat on the back. Actually, I am the sort that can just put them down, Zeb is amazed that I can do that, as he is having a hard time this go round. He used to work as a bus driver in North London, and he drove people to and from a hospital that had a large cancer treatment center. He actually stopped once before, because of what he saw there. People still smoking with holes in their throats, legless from the blood clots, it wasn't pretty. I am extremely proud of him, and my wish today is that your Aunt will miraculously get the clue, and the strength to stop before it is too late. 53 is far too young. Hugs and love ~Rosie~
from clarity25 :
First of all, I'm sorry for the row you had with Laurence, and the struggles you two have been through. Sometimes it helps to take a break from eachtother and just step away for a very short time. It causes a couple to appreciate each other more and when you are in each other's arms again it means so much more. The problems that are unimportant fade away and you go back to the core of your relationship. The thing that is holding you together in the first place. I just hope things work out. As for your last note. What are you kidding??! I love that purse, I wasn't joking! I carry it with me everywhere and use it to hold all my change, always... ever since I first got it. I was crushed that it was inside the purse when I lost it. Gifts always mean so much to me and I really treasure them. I don't just say it, but I really do. Plus, I love butterflies and you just nailed what I liked!
from monkey-king :
Hi, just dropped in after your note. William Goldman wrote "The Princess Bride," not Goldsmith. In any case, nice site, and happy hunting!
from claritynew :
"Hoist by her own petard" LOL!, thanks for your comforting words.:). It was truly appreciated.
from claritynew :
I hope the exercise class ends up being fun for you. I know what you mean about nervousness after being bullied into doing something by a friend that you're not 100% comfortable with. I went to a ballet class with a friend in College. It was so so so awkward. Ballet definitely wasn't my thing. haha:)
from chillier :
Yay tacky American Christmas decorations! Oh seriously I hate the inflatables too... But I live at the mercy of my Irish landlord who has the tackiest decorations on my street. I can't decide if he is trying to be tackier than the Americans, or if he is too drunk to tell how many decorations he has up. Anyway...Happy New Year! Best wishes for 2006!
from clarity25 :
First of all, thank you so much for your beautiful E-mail, thank you for being there. That meant a great deal to me and I was incredibly touched. Times have been so difficult lately and to know that I can reach out and contact you in a time of need is reassuring, comforting and truly wonderful. I can't thank you enough or tell you how much I appreciate it. I want you to know this goes both ways, so if there is anything I can do. NEVER hesitate to reach out and let me know. Okay? promise? :). I'm sorry your christmas was so stressful, I know how it is to be the sober one trying to pull it all together while everyone around you is drunk and thinks it's all so very funny. You just want to snap, throw up your hands and say "screw it!!". I'm glad things got a little bit better though and you had some fun. I'm sorry for the relationship issues you're dealing with concerning Laurence. I think every relationship has their down times, moments when the passion dims and everything feels kind of hazy + confusing. I hope you are able to work through it and reach a point where you are very happy together. Good luck in the upcoming year and very special New Years wishes to you + yours. --Love, Clarity
from betchy :
hello you! sorry that your feeling a bit crappy, but hopefully the break will make you feel a tad better. bosses who make you feel like shit are just soooo not worth worrying about. i had a line manager once that would literally shout it from one end of the office to the other if i made the tiniest mistake, yet wouldnt even pass comment at all the other good stuff i did. they get their comeuppance in the end though. anyway, enjoy your break and have a lovely Christmas xxx
from ava-reborn :
Off for 10 days??? Can we get together?? Even for just a coffee and a muffin in Princess Square? Let me know lovely. Have a great Christmas!!! xxxxx
from clarity25 :
Thanks so much for your last note and also for having Laurence share some of his advice based on his own experience! I truly appreciated that! I know we'll get through all this and I hope that Eric will make that phone call sometime in the next few days. I don't want to push him. But Laurence offered the right perspective, It's best not to have expectations and just take it calmly as it comes. Hope you are having a good night!
from heelandlass :
Hello ya drunken bum!! I laughed my head off when I got your last note, but mostly I was jealous. I was sitting drinking a cup of tea! Of course I'll add you to the MSN thingy. I have to warn you though, I'm not on it very often, I've taken it off my puter at work as I never did any work when it was on and I'm only on the computer at home sporadically. However, I am very much looking forward to our chinwag!! I'll email you. xxx
from clarity25 :
First of all, thank you so much for reaching out and leaving me that kind note. That was really helpful, I've just been so confused lately and you helped me put things in the right perspective. I guess, everything will fall into place. Secondly -- LOVE THE JAMES BOND CAT SUIT! It has this whole tomb raider quality to it and then you have long beautiful blond hair! ack! jealous! Glad you had a fun night, you did look stunning.:)
from wildrosie :
Whoo Hoo! You looked HOT! Congratulations, and enjoy the champagne.~Rosie~
from katm6 :
Nice picture, girl! Champagne at the office? Oh, that does sound fabulous! I love champagne!!!
from hissandtell :
Oh, darling - I'm so sorry you're feeling sad and confused. All I can offer in the way of advice is to trust your instincts, and try not to let things like big beautiful brown eyes sway what your heart truly believes. Much love, R xxx
from therertimes :
I miss you dolly!
from katm6 :
I don't know about nail marks from scratching someone's back through clothes looking like bare back scratching. I'd be highly suspicious as well...and I have to say that although Dickey corroborates his story, I'd still be suspicious because don't men have a tendency to stick together on things like that? I realise it depends on the man, but still...good luck, dear. I hope things get better!
from clarity25 :
That was so sweet what you wrote, I really value your friendship online as well! That made me all mushy and happy inside because I related with what you wrote. I hope you feel better soon and I'm sorry about the nail marks. That IS a bit fishy..oh boy... I wish I had good advice, but I really don't. Just hang in there. Things will get better. --Love, Clarity
from ava-reborn :
Oh lovely, I really don't know what to say. Don't want to be negative, but it really doesn't sound good! Really sounds like he's cheated, and I think you know that, as much as you try to find explanations to believe otherwise. I think the fact you haven't confronted him shows you know he won't be able to convince you otherwise and then you'd have to face the truth. But sweetheart, hiding your head from it doesn't stop it from being true. You NEED to talk to him. And you need to do what's right for you! Don't put up with it just because you're scared of being alone. And anyway, like you said, I'm only round the corner!! Call me!! Call me!! We can do coffee, a drink, a film, dinner, whatever! Don't be scared to ask!! A few drinks while slagging off men would suit me down to the ground right now!!! lol!! *hugs*
from wildrosie :
Oh. Oh Dear. The fingernail marks seem a bit fishy to me. So does the whole coming over but where did everyone actually sleep thing. So you have the choice to make...can you cope with the knowlege that he is a cheating dog, for the sake of the bennies (whatever they may be) or do you take Nicim's advice, and Don't Waste The Pretty!??? Don't look at me! You already know I'm no earthly good at this sort of thing. But I do hope you feel better tomorrow darlin'. ~Rosie~
from heelandlass :
Ooh and thanks for the note about the yahoo thingy. I promise I will look into that, when things are a little less hectic xx
from heelandlass :
Hello sweetypops! Thanks for taking my survey, I'm enjoying reading all the answers. And - glad to hear the WKD came out of your fella's shirt. I'm truly a housewifey type chick. Sort of!
from ava-reborn :
A night out might help!!! Thanks for your lovely note! I really appreciate it! Nice to know someone cares about me when I don't!
from ava-reborn :
Oh Vanish is a miracle worker isn't it!!! And you don't need to feel lonely!! Not with me only a 4 minutes drive down the road!!!!! If you're feeliong lonely let's go out for a drink!!!! Or a meal!!!! Or a film!!!! Whatever you fancy!!!! *hugs*
from katm6 :
I have to ask...what's WKD?
from heelandlass :
Try 'Vanish'. You can get it in all sorts of formulas - the spray one is good, as is the dry stick thing. It gets red wine out of cream carpets, so I'm pretty sure it will get cherry WKD out of white cotton. And you can wash white shirts on 95 degree washes, give that a go too - but make sure you don't have any other colour in there....and let me know how the chicken parcels go!
from cheeky-kiki :
Ooh, another vodka fan! My personal favourite at the moment is Wybrowa Rose Petal vodka, it tastes like turkish delight! Im living in the Midlands at the moment, but have just got back from living in Cardiff, Wales for 3 years. There was a great vodka bar there called Moloko's that used to make thier own vodkas, I remember one in particular that was made with strawberry puree, yummy!
from teachin-usa :
Great idea. Seal the smell in - yes!! I'll check it out. It also sounds like a fun thing to do...squirt squirt...expaaaannnd.
from gabriela83 :
Sure, love reading it by the way! Sorry mine is locked but I can send you the info anytime, if you want. Much love, Gaby
from heelandlass :
Haha! A future telling sausage ring finger. I've heard everything now!! And I'm going through a coffee thing like you at the moment. It's great. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
from ava-reborn :
Yay for caffeiney goodness!!!! Sorry you're missing your grandad. *hugs*
from pissymystic :
*hug* Just thought you could use one.
from gothyangel :
hang in there hun, no matter how shit things appear, weither you've eaten yourself silly or things sinking with you and L, just hang in there. withthe food don't beat yourself up over it, remember that it happens occationally, pick yourself back up and try not to do it again, if you ever need somewhere to get away from it all I have a spare bed...
from clarity25 :
I'm sorry everything is so difficult for you right now and your mood is dark. We all go through times like this, it's hard to keep things in the right perspective when it feels like everything is falling apart around us. But it will get better, Yelayna, Have faith in that. Sometimes a good night's sleep helps. I hope things get better for you soon. I'm thinking about you..
from ava-reborn :
I love that song. Oh sweetheart, I'm sorry things are so crap for you at the moment! I wish there was something I could say or do to make things better. I really hope things sort themselves and that your'e feeling happier really soon!! *hugs*
from teachin-usa :
A good night's sleep should really help. You're not a failure! A big hug and Canadian bonfire for you. One step at a time...what else can you do? This too will pass.....
from ava-reborn :
Never apologise or excuse yourself for being honest and open in your diary! Our diaries may entertain people, but that's not the only, or even the primary aim! They're there for us to vent, whine, and talk through what's going on in our lives and our heads! And it's actually more interesting to read an honest display of confusing emotions than a vacuous, though slightly amusing account of someone's day! And if it helps, I completely understand the whole food and eating issue! I don't think it's something we ever get over, but just concentrate on the positives! Look how well you've stayed in charge for so long! Forgive yourself for slipping occasionally! You're fighting a powerful beast! As for the slow weightloss, the positive there is that the slower it comes off the more chance there is it'll stay off! *hugs*
from teachin-usa :
I loved the entry. So honest. And we all can relate to it on some level I'm sure.
from wildrosie :
Look at it this way, you have LOST half a stone, you haven't GAINED it back! And maintaining weight loss is the hardest thing in the world to do darlin'! You know, sometimes I think my body NEEDS to have a binge, something in our primitive European peasant past says that if we have enough food to binge, then we aren't going to starve, and therefore we don't have to hold onto the weight. So yeah, though I agonize too when I binge, I realize that I will be having another lovely poundage drop in a week or so, because my body feels secure enough to do so. Did any of that make sense? I also used to be a size 24, 5'1" gal. I've lost 75 pounds on the "Just Shut Mah Mouth Diet". I can eat SOME of anything I like...I just don't eat ALL of everything, and I think twice before I have it! I don't count calories or carbs, and it seems to work for me! Good luck sweetie! ~Rosie~
from clarity25 :
First of all, thanks for your caring note. I really really appreciated it. Second the line "Lord. I’m getting more and more Bridget Jones" had me cracking up. I was actually thinking of making a Bridget Jones style entry at some point for fun (v.g.) Also..inviting over the folks is the surest way to get the house in order. It worked for us too..unfortunately that only happens about once a year, so the flat is generally trashed most of the time. ugh, It reminds me I have to do some cleaning again this weekend. I hope you're having a good night.
from teachin-usa :
Sounds like a lovely meal. Mmmm. I could almost smell it. Yum.
from heelandlass :
Hurrah!! Sounds like your holiday was exactly what you needed. With a tan to boot. Tops! I missed out on the traditional celtic skin when they were dishing it out. I'm supposed to be pale, pale, pale with dark red curls right? Nope. Pink. And a bit red in the sun. Boo. Boo to us not being given our stereotypical skin. And curses too. Welcome home!!
from chakra-chick :
Glad that you are back and that you had such a great holiday. Can't wait for the pics and update about it! ~smooches~
from ava-reborn :
I'm so glad you had such a good holiday!!!
from aidawrites :
thats exactly what i need to hear...and do. it just wouldnt be so damn hard if he wasnt so extremely beautiful. *sigh* i need will power! lol im going nutty.
from clarity25 :
I understand fully your desire to leave or move to a new address. Once other people from your life find it or "trolls" start emerging. It makes it less therapeutic to write things out and just stressful. I know exactly what you mean, which is why leaving in the beginning of the year is essential for me at this point. It's sad, because I enjoy updating my journal and in the beginning it felt very safe. But I would miss you:), Hope the stress eases up for you, take care!
from pissymystic :
I wish I had something more helpful to give you than a virtual *hug* and the knowledge that I'm reading and I care. But I will have to simply hope that it helps somewhat.
from therertimes :
I'm over on LiveJournal these days!! Username there is impishflair, but my entries are all locked, have to be on friends list to read 'em.. if you make a pseudo account up and lemme know the name you use there, I'll gladly add you!
from clarity25 :
I'm glad your parents are alright, I hope you have a good weekend.
from chakra-chick :
(((hugs))) So sorry about everything that has been stressing you out lately --- I'm glad that there has proven to be some light at the end of the tunnel. Thinking of you and sending plenty of positive thoughts and prayers your way. ~smooches~
from clarity25 :
I'm so sorry about your mother being hospitalized for chest pains and your fathers nose bleed. How stressful! I hope everything is okay. I'm glad to hear things are going well with you and Laurence though. Thinking about you and sending positive thoughts your way.
from wildrosie :
Sweetie, Thank heavens your Mum is smart enough to get herself into the doctor, and she isn't being, "I'm fine, it's just a wee bit of pain," like Mums everywhere often do. (Yours truly included, just ask QueenOfRats!) I will be thinking good thoughts for you and your Mum, and here's a few hugs too! ~Rosie~
from heelandlass :
You're not being dramatic Yelayna. It's a very horrible and frightening thing to think about at the best of times, never mind when she's had to go into hospital. It's easier said than done but try to take everything in bite size pieces, otherwise everything will completely overwhelm you. Deal with your own stuff first and then you can be there for other people who need you. Most of all - hang in there. At the very least, you know you can do that. xxx.
from ava-reborn :
I really hope your mum is ok! I'm sending well wishes her way, and yours!! *hugs*
from clarity25 :
I'm so sorry to hear about your friend losing their job:(. I can understand the feelings you expressed.
from ava-reborn :
Thinking of you lovely! I know that desire to just get so blind drunk nothing else matters! You know where I am if you need me! I'm 5 minutes away! *hugs*
from heelandlass :
Hmm, no murdering that I'm aware of, anyway. Mwaah haaah haah. Thanks for your note, that person is seriously doing my head in at the moment. Hope things get better with you Sweets. If all else fails, at the VERY LEAST you're down to a size 14. Hurrah! xxx
from wildrosie :
Try some cranberry juice darlin', it sure helps me when I'm having those sorts of problems. ~Rosie~
from ava-reborn :
You poor thing, you sound like a mixed bag of emotions, but I'm sure it has a lot to do with sleep deprivation! But I'm really happy for you about the size 14!! Go you!!! Thanks for your sweet note lovely! xx
from gothyangel :
gah at work people... My rings are family, LJ & marvin, friends, closer friends, scene things... Oh I've started just recently to update on here too.. *hugs*
from clarity25 :
Sorry the raise wasn't all you hoped for. I know first hand the frustration of misleading raise information..it's very annoying and discouraging! As far as my rings..I'd have to say, Eric, My family, my friends, and.. I guess painting and eating sushi. (haha) I don't know. I have to think about the last two rings a bit more. I'll get back to you on that one. The first line of this entry had me singing that police song..
from chakra-chick :
My parents, my sister (she's above my head), friends, chocolate and praying. I'm so sorry that you are going through a rather confusing time sweetie...hope everything turns out for the best. ~smooches~
from ava-reborn :
I had trouble filling all 5 rings! K is above my head. And you urge to go wild sounds like it's a pull from commitment. Not so much a fear of it, just a bit of a wobble. *hugs*
from teachin-usa :
ok. My rings- children, animals, plants, stringed instruments, cool water. Sorry you are getting the shaft at work. You should really ask them to clarify and say it's not what you were led to expect. If you don't speak up you will not get ahead $$ wise I think.
from clarity25 :
Congratulations on your raise:)! I hope you have a good weekend!
from ava-reborn :
My msn is [email protected], if you ever fancy chatting! By the way, my friend was moaning about someone in a flat in your road having a row the other night and keeping her awake! Wasn't you & Lawrence was it??!! Take care lovely!
from ava-reborn :
Hey, we're going to Thorpe Park on Friday! Have fun!
from teachin-usa :
The photos tell it all! Hilarious.
from hissandtell :
Gah. One of the most embarrassing conversations I ever had with my mother was over cystitis. I had an attack shortly after - well, you know - and casually mentioned it to her (how naive was I?) - and as a result learned far more about her than I ever cared to know! And, ooh, Brighton! Quadrophenia! Mods and Rockers and the Who and Graham Greene and Queen! Enjoy the rock and naughty postcards, darling! Love, R xxx
from hissandtell :
Oh, darling - thank you so much for that hilarious link to the saucy pink fluffy thing! I'm still chuckling. You don't mind if I link to it (and to you) in my next entry, do you? Love, R xxx
from clarity25 :
I love those shoes he got you, very classy and pretty. I understand why you want to stab those awful co-worker girls that are making laurence insecure with their stupidity. I would feel the same way! I hope your father's surgery goes well.
from ava-reborn :
Thinking of you today. I think you're right, you don't stop missing loved ones you've lost, it just becomes a little easier to cope with. What is your dad having done? I'm thinking of him too! *hugs* all round!! I love those shoes!! They're fab!!! Good for you wearing to do the housework!!! You're my new hero! That chocolate orange vodka sounds gorgeous!!! Did you see the armed police at Reading station? We saw them today. Very exciting! Oh, was that fabric shop "Fabric Land"? Near the old cinema, along from the wedding dress shop, not far from Blockbuster. I love that fabric shop!! I could spend hours in there!!
from yelayna :
80.42.235.52 - 22.00 ish
from kelsi :
"I am going home to wash, dear readers. I am going to love it." Ha ha!
from therertimes :
Oh yes, I am here :) I've been writing in LiveJournal sine March though~
from heelandlass :
Thanks for that - I looked up the sight and it did make me chuckle. Quite a lot of my friends got hoff e-greetings!
from ava-reborn :
Sometimes it wouldjust be nice to have a man, a lover, who could be our best friend. And by best friend I mean someone to which we can talk about our exes. Our missed opportunities. Sometimes we would liek to talk about the man that got away, without meaning we'd rather that than what we've got now! We just like to talk about it! We want our man to be able to accept we have male friends, and exes! As for your lack of weight loss, it's just a plateau! You haven't been doing badly! It's just a natural thing! After a long time dieting, you hit a plateau! Simple as! And the other woman who has lost almost as much as you in less time, well she's more likely to put it back on!! It's a proven fact that people who lose lots of weight in a short space of time, put it back on! And the slower you lose weight the more successful you'll be at keeping it off! So remember you're the "winner", not her!! Lots of good wishes for your dad!! I hope it all works out! And don't you fret about moaning in your diary!! It's YOUR diary!! It's what people expect! If they want pure, happy smiley entertainment, they'll go to a comedy site! People who read your diary care about you, warts and all! *hugs*
from clarity25 :
I hear you on the children issue, Eric initially wanted 2 or 3, I talked him down to one. As for figuring out where you're going and exactly what you want from your relationship. That will come in time, everything will fall into place.:). Life has a way of working out like that, I think at one moment you'll just KNOW. Also sorry to hear about your nightmares. I'm having second thoughts about seeing "War of the Worlds" now..haha, take care:)
from aidawrites :
wow you have lost a lot of weight. congrats! i guess weight watchers does work. I also dont get why people swear at small children. it pisses me off because my father has a dirty mouth in front of my little brother. anyway, i think we both had very busy weeks last week, lets hope this one is a little calmer :)
from chakra-chick :
Hi sweetie! I have missed you...glad to hear you had a nice week. Thanks for tagging me...I will try my best to get to it soon. Have a lovely weekend. ~smooches~
from ava-reborn :
Ooo, yeah, I love that Indian!! I used to use it regularly!! I'm glad I've finally found someone who thinks the same as me about Brad Pitt!!! I thought there was something wrong with me! I will try to take up your challenge in the next few days! Have a good weekend lovely! xx
from procrasto :
ooooh. And we ALL need to se ethe before and after pictures!
from procrasto :
Hey you... I WILL do this. But maybe in a few days. I just did one of those meme things... People get drunk on purpose? For shame...
from f-i-n :
sending virtual hugs
from kelsi :
I've been thinking about you today. I'm glad you're okay and your friend is okay...
from clarity25 :
It's so horrible what's happening, It's on all the stations here in Germany. I've been watching the news most of the day..
from heelandlass :
It really is scary shit. Tony Blair made a statement saying it's looking very likely that it was a series of terrorist attacks (no shit) and he's on his way back to London. My pals have confirmed they're okay now too, so I guess it's someone else's turn to be heartbroken today.
from heelandlass :
I was just away to leave a note for you - I'm sure your friend will be fine. A lot of people are at home and a lot of the phone networks are overloaded at the moment. I can't get hold of my friends either. Any idea who's behind this? Edinburgh is fine as far as I know, no bomb scares (so far) and the protesters are still stomping round Auchterarder so we're okay for the time being!
from teachin-usa :
I suspect they would like to be Wellies but are not officially. No buckle and were inexpensive- like nine dollars. My son's red ones are adorable. Thanks for the link- that was quick!
from teachin-usa :
Hi Yelayna. Thanks for the note. How will I know if I've got a Wellie on my foot?
from hissandtell :
Hi, doll - thanks so much for your note at my place (about my banners). I'm sorry I've been so dreadfully rude in that it's taken so long to get back to you - now that I'm back home, I'm catching up on your recent entries as we speak. (Of course, I feel I should drink margaritas and talk like Captain Sparrow in your honour while I'm doing so...) Back to reading, now. Aaarrrgghhh, me hearties! Love, R xxx
from heelandlass :
Ah, I reckon flyering on the Royal Mile is something we've all done - a rights of passage or something. It's the 'entertainment' that bothers me. Or the lack of it. Do I sound jaded? I bloody do! Must go immediately for a stiff drink.....
from aidawrites :
yeah i know its weird, he's a hunter, so he kills them.
from ava-reborn :
I know how you feel. I have lots of lovely memories of my nan when I was little. She died when I was about 6. The last of my grandparents to die. But she actually suffered from dimentia for a couple of years before she died, and my mum seems happy to destroy all my good memories by telling me all the mad and viscious things she did but of which I was unaware, being so young. I wish she'd just left me with my fond memories.
from ava-reborn :
Yay, thanks for that link! It's comforting to know I'm not the only one ready to strike up a revolution!!
from gothyangel :
hugs and kisses you, sometimes the long way to get things off your chest is the only way...
from clarity25 :
Nothing wrong with getting drunk:)..well not in my book anyway. Also I know what you mean about feeling emotionally skittish lately. I was like that this weekend. Thanks for your kind note about my private entry. Unfortunately a lot of the people at the exhibition suspected it was me and directly asked. I denied it..even though Eric was standing right next to me, wearing his wedding ring and when I lifted my arm, my shirt raised exposing my tattoo. but whatever. haha. Good news is that I sold the painting..a number of people asked to buy it. Sold it to the highest bidder..I didn't want to initially, but we needed to cash. Hope you had a good weekend!
from ava-reborn :
The break in the weather is very welcome isn't it! I was the same yesterday, we were sitting having lunch in Princess Square when the rain and thunder started! At first I thought, good, then I remembered my bedroom window was wide open! Have a good weekend lovely. x
from clarity25 :
I really liked your previous entry, I love how you opened up and wrote out your thoughts and feelings. It's really therapeutic, We hide so much inside, but when we step outside of ourselves we see that nothing we do is really so strange, it's just that we've been conditioned by society not to express it. Does that make any sense? Anyway, I know what you mean about the role playing..Eric and I do that too. It's fun, I also related with a lot of the things you wrote about. Also, there's no harm in enjoying being flirted with..I know the feeling of nervousness mixed with intrigue.
from witchful :
Congratulations to you for beginning to come to terms with all that. I know how scary it can be.
from ava-reborn :
Good for you for getting that all off your chest. You're right, these diaries are incredibly therapeutic. It gives you a chance to go through all the stuff in your head, while at the same time feeling like you've told somebody! Everything you said made perfect sense. It's great that you understand yourself so well. Oh, and I LOVED your Milli Vanilli quote!!! That made me smile!! I needed that!
from clarity25 :
Hey, I checked out the actress that you mentioned resembled me in the film. I saw some shots of her in the film premiere party. No, she's WAY too pretty to be me. She looked like a supermodel! (I don't know how she looked in the movie however, maybe they drugged her and gave her bags or something..haha) The previous comment was more on the mark, If I were to pick one person..Britney Murphy would be the one. But I'm flattered that you would compare me to someone so beautiful!:) (thanks!). I'm sorry your struggling right now, with your feelings for Laurence and other yearnings inside. I can understand that..life can be so complex. It's rarely ever simply black and white. But you know, we'll never judge you for your past. I've read a good deal of your archive over the past year and there's nothing that I would ever judge you for, nothing that I didn't relate to. Okay..I'm rambling. I really should be working right now.
from chakra-chick :
Thank you so much darling. That really does mean the world to me.
from ava-reborn :
Do you imagine Clarity as looking like Brittany Murphy? I do. I'm sorry things aren't great for you. I know how it feels. I often feel guilty for feeling so low, when I'm not suffering the crap that a lot of people do. *hugs* I wish I could do more! I'm still up for chips at your local, Dorothy's!!! x
from chakra-chick :
Sweetie, thanks so much for the mention in your latest entry- that really did make me feel so special! I'm glad that you are finally in your new flat. I'm sorry about the fight with Lawrence- but I'm sure making-up was lotsa fun! (wink, wink, nudge, nudge). Glad that with the bad, there was some good, though. Have a splendid day dear! ~smooches~
from clarity25 :
Yeah, that Clarity chick is always having one problem or the other..I hope noone leaves her any bad notes either *wink*, thanks for the shout out and your concern. Things are so much better. You're truly wonderful. I'm sorry to hear about your row with Laurence. That sucks, I hate fighting, It's so emotionally draining and upsetting. Hope things got better, also congrats on your audition. I'm nervous on stage too..but it sounds like you did well, despite your nerves and fear. I'm sure you'll do wonderfully:). Hope you got your internet up in your new flat and your enjoying your new nifty pad. Have a good weekend!:)
from ava-reborn :
Awww, Yelayna, thank you so much for your comment!! It made me cry! You don't know how much it meant to me! You're so lovely! You've cheered me up some! So when's the housewarming!!! Or maybe we could just meet down Dorothy's for some chips!! lol! Have a great weekend lovely! *hugs* xx
from ava-reborn :
So how was your first night lovely? Hope you're feeling at home! When's the housewarming??!! xx
from heelandlass :
Hah, we must be cosmic! Good advice to Clarity there! I hope nobody leaves her shitty notes, if they do that would be fucked up. I don't know why people feel justified in doing that. I know what you mean about sounding all internet stalkerish, but sometimes you end up really giving a shit about these people even though you'd walk past them in the street! Fact of life. Thank you for YOUR note! xxx
from kelsi :
Local raw honey can be used for allergies: take a spoonful in the morning and at night, and if you have a stuffy nose put some up your nose. Supposedly, after a month of doing that, your allergies (plant-related allergies at least) will be gone, or something like that.
from heelandlass :
Hi! I just read a note that you left in Clarity25's private folder where you said something about how the entry (the one with K) had you totally captivated and you were leaning further into the screen to read it and all that kind of thing - you are so right, my heart was racing and i was THIS close to the screen. I think it's great that you caught that and passed it on to her. Well done you!
from clarity25 :
Moving into a new flat IS exhausting! I felt for you when you described all the aches and pains involved. It's such a long process! But it's so rewarding in the end:). I'm sorry to hear about your sisters breakup, that's hard:(. But it's good that she has you to talk to.. Thank you so much for your last note in regards to my private entry! That really cheered me up and helped me put things in the right perspective. I felt much calmer after reading what you wrote and realized that it's not a big deal. I'll talk to Eric about it tonight, he'll most likely laugh it off..(I think). It was just so.. I don't know. I can't even describe it. K. is just acting so weird right now..but it will all be resolved.:) Thank you! Happy Friday! Enjoy your first night in your new flat!
from ava-reborn :
I'm so excited for you to be moving in to your new place. Is it tommorrow? Fri 10th? Have fun, and enjoy every second! When do I get my invite? I want to come over and inspect whether it's good enough for you!! Well, the fact you have the best local chippy in the area is in its favour!! By the way, I was in Curry's the other day. We could have walked past each other! *hugs*
from aidawrites :
Thanks for your advice. I think you are right, I need to think long term :) Thats why I emailed the lawyer and told him I wasnt going to be able to join him. He must be mad because he hasnt emailed me back, but oh well! I miss the feeling of moving into a new place and everything is new and pretty, you must be having that feeling even though I know you are overwhelmed with so much stuff. I hope everything works out with your sister. Her bf sounds like a schmuck ;)
from paperchains :
hehe no that was one of the very few tuesdays that i wasn't :( but a load of my friends were.. did you think you saw me? people keep thinking they saw me recently, i'm starting to think my double has moved into town... so what brought you to the upin arms then? x x x
from clarity25 :
That's great news with your new flat! There's nothing more exciting then moving into a brand new place! I'm so sorry about the situation with Laurence at his job, how awful and stressful. You sound amazing at the strength you had when handling it and being there for him through his hard time. Thank you so much for your last note, Your words were so encouraging and really what I needed to hear. I've been getting alot of negative responses regarding my desire to donate my kidney to my bestfriend, from family, friends and Eric. Just thank you.. for being there. Hope you're having a good day.
from betchy :
ah, i love drunken men ramblings, although they tend to be better when watching Men Behaving Badly rather than when you are trying to sleep!!! thanks for the comment you left earlier also, it was much appreciated x
from clarity25 :
P.S. I'll send you an E-mail later on today
from clarity25 :
I loved the pictures from Paris! So beautiful!. Also agree with your rant on the hooded sweater ban. (It's not right at all.) Thanks so much for your last note, by the way:). have a good weekend!
from aidawrites :
I like the political you! I have random political rants too, they are necessary once in a while. Very cool pics of Paris. I would die to go there! You are so lucky ;) And cute pic of your man!
from chakra-chick :
Awww...I'm so happy for you sweetie. Things certainly seem to be looking up for you with Laurence. Best of luck darling. ~smooches~
from betchy :
aww, thanls sweetie. i'm sure my Mum will be ok (i hope anyway). but thanks for the well wishes x
from aidawrites :
Sounds like you and your boyfriend are doing quite well. Good luck on the new moving arrangements :) how exciting and wonderful for you. have a great weekend!
from clarity25 :
P.S. thank you so much for your last two notes, btw:)
from clarity25 :
Glad to hear you had a fun Bank holiday:). The beach has the exact same effect on me, so you're not a dork at all..or maybe we both are! LOL. I haven't been to the beach in ages though..I miss it. Also I could relate to the "Green eyed monster" emerging when that Beci girl texted him. As you know..I'm the same way when it comes to things like that! I don't want to be, but I can't help it. The feeling just kind of washes over you! Congrats on the two of you moving together! It will be wonderful, I promise you. I had the same thoughts when Eric and I first started living together. Oh and when we moved to Germany, the first thing his Guardian mother did was buy us a washing machine too! I felt so overwhelmed by the gift, but incredibly grateful too! It was one of those necessary things that we truly couldn't afford, although we tried to protest and acted like we didn't need it. haha.."pride".. Have a good weekend!
from aidawrites :
I guess there is the possibility that he hasnt checked his mail, but its unlikely. The more I think about it the more I convince myself that he is a jerk for leaving me wondering. Anyway, you need to update! :)
from chakra-chick :
Thanks for that note love - think i will be doing just that! Totally my sentiments - a little goes a long way. Last night, ad-hoc guy gave me a glass heart on a silver chain and told me-"I brought you my heart"...I thought that was really sweet. Laurence does that for you? Wow! You are one lucky gal! Now you are giving me ideas on how to train ad-hoc guy.... Have a lovely weekend sweetie! ~smooches~
from aidawrites :
I was catching up on your last few entries and came across this line you wrote about your bf. "sometimes I look at him and he is so damned attractive I don’t know how to breathe." how beautiful was that? i had to do the "awwwww" outload and people at work looked at me funny. heehee, but nonetheless, it would be nice to feel that way about someone. :)
from ava-reborn :
Fingers crossed! But I'm sure you'll be fine! But get you and your paranoia! Scared you might be barren, but scared you might be pregnant! You're neither! Ok! Trust Auntie Avalonte!! As for the scrunchie thing, you're right! Claire's are crap aren't they!! Cheap thin things. Boots often do some good quality big chunky ones. A bit pricey but worth it. I know what it's like as I need a scrunchie that eats 3 Shredded Wheat to hold my hair!!
from aidawrites :
Thanks for the kind words! I really hope he gets some help soon. I've tried contacting him but i think he is ignoring me because he knows im just going to nag him about it. I guess he doesnt want me to bring reality to this problem. In his eyes he has it under control. Anyway, we'll see.
from chakra-chick :
Awww...so sorry about Foxy! Hope that she gets sorted soon. Hope your weekend with laurence went well. ~smooches~
from clarity25 :
Thanks for your last note! and thanks again for the butterfly purse, I use it all the time now! As for showing my breasts for money.. oh this makes me sound so dirty..but yes. I would. I mean, When you think about it, it's kind of funny. We have these two lumps on our chest, mammary glands to be exact..their intention is simply to breast feed our future children. Yet, these TWO lumps cause such a fuss with the opposite sex. All you would have to do is lift your shirt and get money? Well..why not? Although I've never had this proposition before, so I don't know what I would feel if it actually came down to it. But it wouldn't be my morals stopping me..just my self-consciousness, I think. Have a good day!
from chakra-chick :
Thanks so much for all those questions! I'll get cracking on them as soon as I can. I'm glad that your car will be well soon - believe me, I know how much we get so dependant on our cars. That story you posted was briliant - I'm sure if it was right of me to laugh at some pf the descriptions? Especially the one about the butter on the bread! I'm really looking forward to the 'date' tonight - hope it does indeed happen. Thanks again for the great notes sweetie! Have an excellent weekend with Laurence. ~smooches~
from chakra-chick :
Awww...so sorry that the parental units are being so nasty with their comments. It's strange that they know just which buttons to push, hey? Best of luck with the car- hope it gets sorted. Feel better... ~smooches~
from paperchains :
Aww thank you :) I've applied for psychology courses, which mean good grades :( I've decided to put my insurance choice as Swansea, but I'm kind of torn between Leeds & Manchester for my firm choice. I think I'm swinging more toward the Leeds side now, but I only have a week left to decide :O scary... xXx
from clarity25 :
I loved your description of your tango outside with laurence. It really captured the feeling of love, letting go and being in the moment:). I hope you have a good Easter.
from therertimes :
enh.. no bother... for the best I think.. she was/is a wee bit (okay a lot) mentally unstable... smokes, drinks.. etc etc.. some things are better left up to Nature for deciding
from therertimes :
you give the bestest virtual hugs ~nods~
from therertimes :
You're all black n' blue.. yum!
from pisceanlore :
I dig your snails. Very cool. And I guess I'll join the club and say happy belated birthday while I'm at it.
from avalonte :
Pooo!! I forgot to wish you happy birthday didn't I!!! Sorry lovely!!! Happy belated birthday wishes to you!! As for the "Meh" business, have you regressed to being a 15 year old?!!?!!! Anyway, hope you're feeling better soon and that your body starts behaving! x
from aidawrites :
Happy (late) Birthday! sounds like youve been having some amazing, wild and exciting times! Paris sounds wonderful, how i envy you! LOL Oh and congrats on the new job :)
from clarity25 :
P.S. and Happy Belated Birthday!!
from clarity25 :
Glad you're back, congrats on the job too! Paris sounded amazing! I'm glad you had a wonderful time, sorry to hear about the stomach virus though. Look forward to seeing the pics!
from aidawrites :
i've enjoyed your diary, and look forward to reading more. my password is pittbrad and my username is aida. ciao for now!
from avalonte :
Glad you had such a great time! I've missed you! Congratulations on the job!! That is fab news! And I'm proud of you for standing up for yourself over the salary! Good for you!! Any news on the flat?
from chakra-chick :
Hi sweetie! It's great to see you back again - I've missed reading your diary. Glad that you had such a wonderful few days. I can't wait to read more... Take Care ~smooches~
from pisceanlore :
Hiya. Thanks for the note the other day. I think I will go on that site, just for fun. Oh, congrats on the house by the way.
from procrasto :
My sweet sweet Yeleyna. I thought NOBODY would get the Kula Shaker one. Good for you... and as for Shed Seven, they were doing Oasis rock before Oasis were. "It's getting better all the time, I've got my wings and I can fly....."
from avalonte :
I know, snow at last! So what was the argument with the phamacist about? You didn't actually say. Was it the morning after pill? Is that what made you ill? Yuk. Poor you. I remember taking it once. It made me really sick! Good luck with the flat! x
from chakra-chick :
Ooohhh! How exciting. Don't stress yourself out sweetie - it'll be fine. *smooches*
from avalonte :
Exciting news about the flat. My friend used to live in Wayland Close! Oh and the local chippy is quality!!
from chakra-chick :
Hiya sweetie. Thanks for the note! Well, I have only read; "mort", "guards! guards!" and "soul music" and am in the process of reading "equal rites" now. He's brilliant, hey? I know what you mean- the hardcover books are really pricey here too - I prefer to scour the flea-markets and 2nd hand book shops for novels. By the way - great news about the flat...I'm excited for you! All the best... ~smooches~
from clarity25 :
That's such exciting news about the flat! It sounds wonderful! I love that feeling of anticipation of moving into a new place. When you walk around and see it bare, imagine your own furniture in it and envision where you'll hang your pictures..etc. I'm glad to hear your Valentines Day went well. And hey you posted my survey! cool! Yeah, for Everyone that got Acid Burn grumbled about it, But personally I loved her character in Hackers and I love Angelina Jolie. It's not a simplistic cut-out character. There is more depth then meets the eye.
from chakra-chick :
Hi dear. Glad to know that at least one of us had a nice Valentines Day. Wow! You a Terry fan too? Well, I only just got introduced to his great books, but I am really enjoying his writing - he's brilliant. Enjoy your further sweetie! *smooches*
from avalonte :
I know how you feel about that song!! It means so much to me too!!! Good luck with the new job prospect!! (Oooo, as long as it isn't AT "Prospect"!!) My fingers are crossed for you!
from chakra-chick :
Hi dear...good to see you back again. I'm really glad that things are going so well for you right now! All the best sweetie! *smooches*
from chakra-chick :
Thanks for the comment luv! I know what you mean about the whole butt thing. I hate my butt, but the guys just love it! Have a great weekend dear!
from kelsi :
Aww, thanks for the offer! but I'm going to renew soon, I'm just waiting a few days for some money to roll in and then I will. :)
from clarity25 :
Try not to regret the past too strongly concerning the baby issue, it's easy to go down that track. But remember, it's all behind you now. Everything will happen and does happen exactly how it's supposed to. There's a reason for everything. I should really write more about this in an E-mail instead. Anyhow, Good luck with the move and with Lawrence. Change in any form is scary, But hopefully it will all turn out for the best. I'm sending good thoughts your way:) -love, Clarity
from avalonte :
Oh, and by the way, the no robots tag only works if it's in the head section of the actual page. It doesn't work if it's in the content. That's why you can't do anything about search engines finding your profile. Nothing you can do about that I'm afraid! That's why I'm opening up under a new name.
from avalonte :
Ah, I thought you worked in our branch. Oh well, we're going to Showcase in the next few days, so yeah, we will be over that way. Take care lovely.
from avalonte :
What a mixed bag of emotions you are at the moment lovely! Positive, sad, worried. It's all there. I hope it's only temporary. Don't worry about the baby thing, it will happen when it's supposed to happen. Please don't regret what's past. It was meant to be, and that's that. I can understand you thinking "what if" but it's unfounded. You'll be stuck with a brood of ankle biters soon enough!! It'll happen! It might not wait til you're married with your own place though! So, like you said, be careful what you wish for, it might happen before you're ready!! Have a good week, lovely, and if I'm passing the office I might pop in and get them to let you out of your cupboard for 5 minutes! xx
from kelsi :
Ha, no, they don't give us alcohol! I wish! You mean apple cider? I just looked 'cider' up in the dictionary and I guess it IS supposed to be fermented apple juice, but, I don't know, this isn't alcoholic, it's basically just apple juice heated up, with maybe some spices in it. I just read your comment, I don't know why it took me so long but I just saw it tonight for the first time. Maybe I should be getting more sleep. And yes, I measure the hours at work like that too. ♥
from pisceanlore :
Hiya. I'm getting into London on Feb. 22. My lady friend lives on the north side, around Friern Barnet. I've never been up in that area, so I don't know much about it. Most of my time there was spent around central London. The way I see it, you shouldn't move into a place with no soul. Vibes and feelings are very important, and you should go with your gut on that one.
from avalonte :
Yeah, I did know she was your aunt. K & I came to see if you were in work yesterday. We didn't go in, we just walked past slowly! Didn't see you, obviously, as you weren't there! Came home and read your diary entry saying that you'd taken the day off again! Hope you're feeling ok now lovely! Don't feel guilty about not feeling so devastated about the Tsunami. I think it's just an English thing. I don't know anyone who's particularly overwrought. Yeah, we feel sorry for everyone involved, and think it's tragic, but we just don't get so emotionally involved. We are also bombarded constantly by "good causes", I think we've all hit overload. Comic Relief, Children In Need, Band Aid. Then every time we go into town there's those swarms of fluorescent-vested, clipboard-weilders championing yet another great cause! Like you said, shit happens! And we're hearing about more and more!! Each one is just as sad, but the more we hear about the less impact they have on us. Anyway, have a great weekend lovely! xx
from avalonte :
Thinking of you. Hope things are a little less crap & stressy! What's going on with Tikki? I nearly popped into see you at work yesterday to see if you were ok!!
from clarity25 :
50 lbs! congratulations, seriously! that's really something to be proud of, man if we lived closer I would pop open a bottle of champagne with you! Well..just imagine me toasting you!:)
from avalonte :
You've got to 50lbs??? Do you mean you've lost 50lbs?? Otherwise, are you actually just a 9 year old child with mature thoughts and precocious writing skills?!!! Hehe!! Good luck with finding a room. When you said about the man and dog, it brought to mind this guy I know. So, if he's old, with greyish/white hair, and walks with a stick, and has a german shepherd, run, run, as fast as you can!!!
from procrasto :
50lbs! Good Job!
from avalonte :
Haha, love the comment you put about me on your profile! By the way, you may notice I've deleted some of your notes on my notes page. That's because they said where you lived etc, so I took them down in case some freaky stalking weirdo out there reads them!!
from chakra-chick :
Thanks so much for that dear! You are so sweet to offer. I will let you know. Have a fantastic day further. *smooche
from therertimes :
~laughs~ There will be no dismantling... you goof
from therertimes :
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from clarity25 :
"It's not even as if you live in some sort of drug dealing crime ridden den of iniquity and behave like a slut" !!!! THAT line had me cracking up so hard. Thank you for reaching out and writing that note. It meant alot to me. It's funny how just simple words can either lift your day or shoot down your self-confidence down to absolute zero. It's always the insults that stay in your mind over the years and the positive remarks fade away. It's the harsh things in the end, you always end up believing at your lowest points. Anyhow, as for your parents not having faith in you in and your abilities. You'll show them girl! You have the right attitude. Hope you're having a good day!
from avalonte :
Hehe, maybe I shall just walk into Romans one day and surprise you!?!!
from avalonte :
Haha, I used to be an estate agent!! So where abouts in Bracknell do you live? Maybe we could meet up sometime! I had a dream about you last night! I dreamt that you just recognised me on the street and started talking to me!
from pisceanlore :
You're not missing a lot by not having been to the States. There are some great things here, but the politics and all that really bring everything down. I spent 5 weeks in London last summer for school. The only times I left the actual city were for daytrips to Stonehenge, Leeds Castle and Rye. And I'm heading back there for a week and a half at the end of Feb to celebrate being done with school.
from avalonte :
By the way, where do you work? I just noticed in my stats that someone from Romans estate agents read my diary about an hour ago. Was that you?
from avalonte :
Haha!! *cough* me too!!!!! *cough* What part are you in?
from avalonte :
Hope being back at work isn't too yucky!! Also I hope your mum feels better soon. It's an up and down process. I remember what it was like for my dad. Just think what her body's gone through. There's bound to be bad times during the healing process. The recovery takes a lot of the body. I hope this low point goes quickly though! xx
from procrasto :
A better year? 'course it will me ol' butternut! Happy New Year to yer!
from kelsi :
Ha ha... glad you got some of your sparkle back. It's funny/sad how you can lose it and not even realize it's gone. Happy New Year!
from pisceanlore :
Hiya. Thanks for the note, it's comforting to know I'm not the only one going through all that. Whereabouts in the UK are you from? I'm not a great world traveller, but I have spent some time over there across the pond. Happy new year. -t
from avalonte :
One of my new year's resolutions is to drink more water, too! I love your list of things. We share a few things! My number one destination to visit is Salzburg! There and Russia! I am determined to see the Northern Lights one day. I'm completely addicted to Maroon 5 at the moment. (So much that I even thought I saw Adam Levine at a roundabout this afternoon!) I love Anastacia as well, and Katie Melua! (Except that DFS ad is making me hate CRAZY!) Anyway, Happy New Year lovely. I hope 2005 treats you and your family better!
from avalonte :
Thanks for the note, and for adding me to your favourites! I'm so glad to hear you mum's doing well! It's such a scary thing to go through, I remember. I hope things between you and the new improved Laurence go well! I agree that the whole concept of "dating" does seem very American! I hope it works out! What are you doing for New Year? Going anywhere special? Have a fab one!
from poisoncat :
Hey! Thanks so much for the note. I've just become slightly bored with this place now. I do have a diary at livejournal though (my user name is elimabel) if you do fancy a look. Take care! And have a great new year! :)
from chakra-chick :
Hi there! I'm glad that you are back. I just added you as a favourite, and then you stopped writing. Glad that your Mum is doing OK. Your situation with your ex is almost the same as mine...I can definately sympathise with you! Oi...men, hey? Hope you don't disappear for so long again...I love your writing! Take Care (",) Farzanah
from kelsi :
I hope things are going well for you and your family.
from avalonte :
How are your mum and dad? I've been thinking of you.
from avalonte :
I'm sorry your mum has to go into hospital. I know it's really worrying, to say the least, but I just wanted to give you a little comfort. My dad had a quadruple bypass many years ago. It was a similar situation, after the angioplasty they said he wouldn't live 3 months without the op. So he went in immediately for the bypass surgery. It was a terrifying time, but he came through it fine. It's such a routine op, more so than it was in those days. I'm sure your mum will be absolutely fine! Where is she going? Will it be Harefield? Anyway, try to have a relaxing weekend. Try not to worry! *hugs*
from clarity25 :
Thank you so much for your kind note. I'm so sorry for everything you're going through right now..with both of your parents in the hospital and the stress of worrying about them. I wish I had the right words, you're in my thoughts. I'll be praying for your family, and hoping that you feel better.
from clarity25 :
An update! It was great to see that little link with your name on it red for the first time in months. I'm sorry things have been so stressful for you, and I'm also sorry about your pregnancy test experience..that must have been so horrible, (actually I have a story of my own from the past to share with you. I'll write you an E-mail later this week.) I hope things improve:) you're in my thoughts! It was great to see a new entry and know you're still around!
from clarity25 :
Thank you for your kind notes and your support.. just being there..thank you..
from kelsi :
They're not like shooting stars, they're like big beams of light, like people shining flashlights up into the sky. Wispy beams of light that move around. Hard to describe the experience, I guess. You'll get to see them someday. :)
from kelsi :
The northern lights are really cool, kind of surreal. They're only white here, but I've heard that they can be colorful farther north. Seems like I'm always drunk when I see them, which makes them even more surreal. ;)
from clarity25 :
Sounds like things are looking up! oh and I'm jealous about the laptop! How cool must it be to curl up in bed with the laptop, type up an entry, shut it and fall asleep.
from procrasto :
me too. And judging from your update. Good for you!!
from sillysub :
Heya lovey... I'm back :)
from clarity25 :
Hey again, Just wanted to tell you that your last entry had me cracking up. stuffing your tights in your bra! lol. I love the adjectives and words you use to describe your experiences.
from clarity25 :
Thanks for the note and Congratulations on the new job opportunity!
from clarity25 :
I'm truly sorry to hear about your Nan, That's so horrible, And I wish I could find the right words to express my sympathy for you in this situation. I can tell you that you're in my thoughts and I hope everything turns out all right in the end. I understand what you mean about the dramas in your life and your desire for them to calm down. I know the feeling. Sometimes it's all so overwhelming, it's difficult to sort out and handle. It comes in waves, but eventually it calms. Thankyou for your note and your offer to send books, That's so sweet. But you have enough on your mind, my reading interests can wait. just take care of yourself. It's strange reading through old entries isn't it? You see yourself changing slowly, evolving. The situations you encounter in life shifting and all the old emotions come back to surface when you re-read your experiences. I had that this morning when I put together my About me page. It's so strange. Well, I'll have my fingers crossed for you with the potential future jobs situation. Good luck and I'm praying for your Nan.
from kelsi :
Yelayna, what are bollards? I just didn't understand that whole part. Yelayna, thank you for the comment, and all the other comments/guestbookings, thank you. But what are bollards? You English, with your English!
from mrs-roboto :
black iron cats with the reflective eyes????!!!! Oh my what I wouldn't do for a set of those!
from clarity25 :
I understand your fear of getting a proper office job and being stuck with it all your life. I can relate, In 2 years I'll be leaving my current job and have to look for a new one in the states. I wish I could just change jobs every few years for the rest of my life, because I'm terrified of being stuck behind a desk in the same office forever. I know that I'll have to find a stable job, to buy a house and support kids and all. I just can't keep hopping around. The future of serious adulthood is looming in the horizon and to be honest, frightens me. oh btw, I have similiar issues with high blood pressure.
from sillysub :
oi! things are good for the time being.. things being life, love and work... locked up cus i ain't got a thing to say lol
from clarity25 :
Hey, Thanks for the note. I hope you're having a great time in Rome. You're so lucky, I hope to travel to Rome at some point in my life!
from shutters :
i love you.
from clarity25 :
Hi, thanks for the questions. I have a few for you, but first I just wanted to tell you that I love your writings. They just flow and when I read them, It's like listening to a good friend describe their day, with all the emotion and slang..I smile, laugh..find myself thinking "yes, exactly" or "oh no!" Very engaging.. Like bridget jones with a twist. Okay as for the questions. 1.) If you could wake up having gained one ability or quality, what would it be? 2.) If you could invite 3 people to your house for dinner( famous actors, writers, artists, singer..or relatives..etc) which three would you invite and what would you serve? (my favorite question to ask) and the final question, a little random, but 3.) when was the last time you stole something? and why haven't you stolen anything since?
from gothyangel :
*kiss* You know where I am hunny... if you ever need me I am here, I even have a spare bedrom now
from kelsi :
Thank you for the words of encouragement. It's hard to be positive about things when your brain is being irrational. :| I think your idea of computer tutoring is a good one... put up some flyers and I'm sure you'd get some business from it. Good luck! :)
from poisoncat :
thanks for the message. I'm still alive, but just having a little bad patch and leaving diaryland for a little while. Hugs for the message of concern though!
from sillysub :
Thanks doll!
from jerem :
cheer up, luv! you should read MY lastest entry if you want to read about bd luck. haha. hope your vacation is great!
from sillysub :
<kisses> thank you!
from kelsi :
Happy birthday! :)
from poisoncat :
You and I - we both need 'Me Time'. So many of the things you've listed as reasons why you're miserable, seem to be reasons why I am miserable too. I was about to say "hope you feel better soon", but because I feel just the same, I know how pointless saying it can be... *hugs anyway*
from procrasto :
Yah-Leyna...haven't been around forever...thought I'd swing by and check yer oot! hmmm. In summary **ahem - clears throat** New Job = good. Miscommunications = bad. I thank you! yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....
from poisoncat :
Thanks for the message :-). I haven't died, I just thought maybe I'd leave diaryland, but now I've decided I will stay. Huzzah.
from sillysub :
lol... I have no idea sweetpea.... order the stuff I guess. And I deleted 'em all... way too many for my liking *nods*
from sillysub :
But just like Jesse James, he's gonna go down in flames... hopefully while still wearing his underroos!
from sirkeljerk :
Glad you were getting wet to the stories sexy. It is the only reason to write...rar!
from sillysub :
Lyrics from New Found Glory's Black and Blue ... whatever that is. I just like the colours.... lol
from frozen-vodka :
*drool* I am so very jealous! I can't wait for Friday!! Manhunt!!
from sillysub :
Hmmmm... how about sending him a postcard from the wisdomme page - and when he goes to collect it, he can take a look around at rest of the website, if his curiousity has been peeked... i used to have a fantasy to take the sweetest most darling vanilla boy... and poke around in his psyche, unleash the Dominant in there and create this super wonderful Dom... lol... but that ain't gonna happen to me anytime soon!
from starwheel :
Hi there - was just wondering if you could help me with something. I was searching for information/lyrics on a song on Google and believe it or not the only hit I got on my text was your diary! Where do you know "In the town thier lives a Butcher and his name is handsome John Brown" from? It's driving me crazy! email: [email protected] (that's three underscores between the works) hope I here from you...(only if you want of course). Cheers, Holly (Hamilton, Ontario, Canada).
from sirkeljerk :
Good to hear from you, sexy. And thanks for the info, have to say, the though of you wearing a thong and getting worked over has brightened my day. Hope the inspiration hits you sometime soon, I've been waiting :)
from poisoncat :
*more hugs* I hope whatever's wrong passes soon!
from poisoncat :
*hugs* I hope everything goes well for you. Damn ex-girlfriends! Just remember - it's you he's with now. And also : *extra hugs* for all the stress over the 'girly' problems. Damn doctors too! Grrr!
from sirkeljerk :
Oh, Boo-hoo, so I just have to wait, cock in hand for days and days...only for you my dear, only for you
from sirkeljerk :
I wait with bated breath for that solution. And, your boyfriend is a lucky dog.
from poisoncat :
Thank you for the good luck! I just hope it goes as well as your day with Mike did. It sounds like it was perfect! I'm all nervous/excited/sick-to-my-stomach-but-in-a-good-way about tomorrow... Oh, and make an entry soon! I want to find out what else happened! (Argh! I have just accidently sent this message to myself! I think I deserve a slap across the face for that one...)
from poisoncat :
I think I've een scarred for life by those Disco Squirrels.... But in a good way, I think. They certainly woke me up anyway.... *hugs*
from gothyangel :
Hiya foxy! I hope your having fun.. tehehe We are going to have to meet up again soon!
from raven72d :
A beautiful name, yes... And a lovely image at your layout... Thoughtful writing as well. I'll be reading you often.
from toshchaya :
Lovely image you have on your template, and is your name Russian? Yelayna is a beautiful name....
from procrasto :
Wheee - it's hockey season!! Them thar on my page are 1. Ron McLean - hockey anchor extraordinaire (hosts Hockey Night in Canada) 2. Don Cherry - hockey pundit extraordinaire (canadian hero) and 3. the logo for the Montréal Canadiens. See it was season opener last night for the Canadiens - also known as the Habs - and it was being shown LIVE on Hockey Night in Canada. See? xx
from hyacinthgirl :
hi! scrabble747 has moved to hyacinthgirl.diaryland.com. cheers!
from poisoncat :
Thanks a million for the lovely card and sparkly present! They certainly made me smile : you really are very fantabulous indeed! *hugs and glitter*
from procrasto :
allo allo sweetie! I'm sorry I missed ya in the UK...my schedule was wicked! Anyway - I've ben catching up on entries and you think that Ms Sillysub is as loverly in person? Not so. She is moreso. (K - that is my one and only compliment - ya Numpty)... **whoosh**
from poisoncat :
Aww, thanks a bunch for your niceness! I am feeling much better now and I'm even smiling! (shock! horror!) Also: I love your new layout and I'm ashamed to admit that I know hardly any of the English national anthem at all. BUT, I do know all the words to the Only Fools And Horses theme tune - so I think I am half-way there...
from sillysub :
<laughing>... gives your co workeres something to see... serves them right for gawking over your shoulder!
from sillysub :
Hmmm.... I'm not sure where the monkey has gone to.. not really up to lookin' for the code in pervious entries. Maybe I'll get some dumbass to do it for me. <laughs>... these are the kinda days i wish i had a male servant. Durrr...
from sirkeljerk :
Don't I wish that I could show you that my, er, touch, has many possible uses...
from sillysub :
durrr... something has happened to my lovely design... hrmm.... (p.s - shoulder length dark brown)
from gothyangel :
oops sorry for the spelling in the last note.. I've just finnished the get out and am knackered
from gothyangel :
At the moment S&S isn't happening, but there are other places! Some sound very nice and I bet he wouldn't freak quite as much as you think if htere are soem more noraml people around
from gothyangel :
ok I never realised that I called you when you were writing your diary.. you just said you were thinking about me.. now I am scared.. and OMG... he is so so so so cute... no wonder I haven't met him yet... I'd drool all the time!
from sillysub :
lol... we're not tucked up in bed... we'reonly five hours behind in time ya goof ball...
from sillysub :
geez got disracted by the hotness of your boy, originally came to say weeeeaw! lloky us updating at same time - you got one of those fancy IM programs? lets giggle and gossip
from sillysub :
damn girl... your boy is fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine
from sirkeljerk :
Damn...Hot! <<and then he moved on>>
from sirkeljerk :
That's It! The word innocent is now in three straight notes on my page. Something is seriously off kilter. I want answers!
from sirkeljerk :
Hmmmm, I question the veracity of all these innocent looks. *looking deeply suspicious, yet somehow horny*
from sillysub :
mmm okay girly... for you i shall keep it.
from sirkeljerk :
This suprisingly familiar someone...do tell?
from sillysub :
awww... you're gettin all growed up <sniffle>.... my little girl!
from gothyangel :
WOW hun, that is so smart.. much better than mine! although I have to admit.. if you want to read my recent stuff see http://www.livejournal.com/users/gothyangel I'm sending you big hugs hunny
from gothyangel :
Hiya hunny... I feel so bad that Ihaven't spoken to you for ages... Me thinks I'm being a bad friend all round... love ya hun I really do.. Big hugs!
from procrasto :
YAY! Lena. I will drop you a line if I get anywhere near a compooter. Actually I should do, cuz I have to work for 3 days over there which will be jolly fun... so the upshot is - I'll be in touch! Wheee!
from katehackett :
YAY! Aglet!
from sillysub :
dah, wine sounds good!
from sillysub :
<smacks self in the head> get it together kim! i meant sirkeljerk!
from sillysub :
<laughs>... isn't sirjerkel a doll?
from procrasto :
You lucky that someone loves yer enough to send wee notes. Oh - and I am going to Peterborogh, cuz I have a friend there...someone I went to Uni with. see? see? Does Bracknell still have the crappy Bracknell Bee's?
from sillysub :
I'm supposed to take back the comment about Pro wearing panties. I ain't gonna. And yup, my diary got a hair cut - infact, got them all cut. I was feelin' like a big spender - even though I didn't pay a cent.
from procrasto :
I go....London/Cardiff/London/Peterborough/ Edinburgh/Aberdeen/Edinburgh/London....Paris...Montreal... *phew*
from procrasto :
3 weeks baby!! The UK visit begins... where are you? *stalk stalk* maybe a UK DL melee??
from sillysub :
"too". Cuz dat procrasto guy.. he no like whips. he no like chains. he like panties. wearing them. lmao
from sillysub :
Procrasto is going to lose his Montreal tongue soon. Googly moogly... anyways, I feel most special knowing what a fortnight is. And answer to your sis and mom? Take a family trip to Tower of London and introduce 'em to good ol' Henry... heard he's lookin for new wives. Dead or alive. Me? I wouldn't marry him unless I had two head.
from poisoncat :
Thanks for the hug. I appreciate it, as I am currently floating about in a bewildering state of confusion... Also, I think you should definitely go for your 'switching industries' plan - you certainly sound passionate and sure about what you want to do. Good luck to you!
from procrasto :
Oh...and that particularly gorgeous creature is still mine!! ;-)But you may still visit...
from procrasto :
Si tu veut visiter Montréal, tu dois apprendre un peu de la langue français. In Windsor you can remain with hickville English. *sticks tongue out at Kimmy* ♪Éééééééééééé♪...ooh wait - I've discovered something new and exciting entirely by mistake...♀↨☻♪♂▼
from sillysub :
I have a pressie for you!
from sillysub :
You're in like sin, buddy!
from procrasto :
Oh my. "Stars and sunlight and perfectly formed sentences". I have to use that. How absolutely beautiful. Awwwwwwwwwww. I wish I'd articulated like that Friday night. Bwaaaahahahahaha. Anyway - enough gooeyness. Back to the League of Evil...*clears throat* Mwooo.......
from sillysub :
Weeeeaw! New ring new ring! My computer chair just descended. Ha. Okay anyways.... yay for us, the two swishiest swankiest women in lurve. And hey, you can be canadian too if you want cuz like... we share that whole commonwealth thing. Put "u" in our words like colour & favourite... have Boxing Day & Bank Holidays...
from procrasto :
Ms Yelena. I am glad to have been of service. I think we should form a ring of "evil consipirators!! Mwooohaaaaahaaaaahaaargh...
from sillysub :
<maniacal laughter> evil woman! pure evil! i wub it
from sillysub :
Ohhh yes, clapping definitely goes along with weeeaw!... although Roman says I souund like a sick donkey when i do it...
from sillysub :
I have a new noise to show my excitement... ready? Ok here goes <ahem> Weeeaw! Weeaw!... like it? Thought you would...<kiss kiss>
from kelsi :
So I'm finally responding like years later... anyway, I apparently have trouble with abstract thought, because it never even occurred to me that I could just buy tampons there. Genius! Thank you! And thanks for the other notes/guestbook things. :)
from sillysub :
Googly moogly, woman! Are you suggeting I fly to the UK and by my two year old son a vodka soaked slushee? Ah ha hah a. You brits are so swank.
from sillysub :
Canada apologizes for the creation of Celine Dion.
from lostwithzeal :
thanks for the encouagement, or discouragement rather. I'm still weighing the pros and cons, but I promise that whatever happens, I will run away if I even suspect I might run into Celine Dion.
from sillysub :
Acrylic nails are swish? Well heck they be expensive too - dollars spent on acrylic nails maintenance in the five months I've had them:$135 (tip not included)... after tip, easily $200. It's insane. But they don't break. And Roman thinks they're swank. Which I think is like swish.
from sillysub :
<snickers> You said "wanker".
from sillysub :
I read a cool article on the capitalization of people's names, when it comes to D/s... it's pretty good, Maybe I'll post it one day on my diary for you. It's worth a read. But not today, cus I had to write about pee. Yup - pee. 7.23.03
from poisoncat :
Thanks a million for your message. It's good to find out that I'm not the only one that is(or thinks she is) 'falling' for someone online. I felt daft about it before - but have since discovered that there are many other people in the same boat as me. Anyway, all is well with the situation at the moment and I am surprisingly happy withe life! *hugs*
from shutters :
it's not would you like to spend the rest of your life with someone - it's could you? being honest? and also, could you hack it if you didn't? being honest? only if the answer to the first is yes and the second is no have you made your decision. xxx
from gothyangel :
There really is no need to be scared of me!!! I am lovely... Oh and I really need to speak to you about Saturday night...
from sillysub :
Hey! No tappin on the fish tank! Gaaaah!... Anyways.. what the hell ever happened to our dancing monkey? Ooo Ooo monkey? Monkey come back. Maybe we need to find a girl-illa for him. HA! Get it? Girl Gorilla? Yea okay I never said I was funny. And New York! What a city. I waved at the Statue of Liberty for you.
from poetdali :
just read all your entries...mmm..i'm new at this but you have definately inspired me. I wonder how long i will be at this...anyway..just wanted you to know that you have inspired me to send my first entry..thanx
from phoenixtease :
Thanks for joining the sparkly diaryring! :o)
from gothyangel :
yo changed my discription... wow I am a sparkly angle.. all glittery and stuff.. I am sorry I was in a funny distant mood tongiht I was just feeling really odd... Then again is that new for me... nope!!!
from jerem :
Hey, we updated our diaries at the exact same time! how kooky... How tall are you anyway? Email me the answer! [email protected]
from jerem :
You rock my world. And you said "curiouser and curiouser"... that means you rock my world again. And plus you are practically perfect in every way! :o)
from jerem :
I watched "Goldmember" last nite and I thought of you! tee hee! (Farzsha, farzsha! You know, hello muzsha, hello farzsha...)
from sillysub :
That jerem boy is awfully weird. I think it's the California air. Ha. Yes girly, I'm still alive.. and quite well. Still an unclaimed brat...*grins..* But hey guess what. I'm going back to New York. Oh yes. Start spreadin' the news bomp bomp ba da da
from jerem :
Woah I'm the first person to leave you a note since... ME! So what is it exactly that is starting to make sense? Girl-girl?? ooh that is sooo yummy... You know what, your reading is bubbling over on my Meter of Kewl. You're in the red. Let's trade pics! luv, jerem
from jerem :
LOL @ felching! I wonder if anyone has ACTUALLY DONE IT?? Anyway, you are tall, british, and you like Robbie Williams and the Dandy Warhols = you are officially on my favorites list. p.s. Anyone heard of a dirty sanchez???
from tuze :
I know what felching is.....unfortunatly, I wish I was in the dark on that one.. YUCK!
from tuze :
oh my gosh, Im getting my first corset next week! *shivers up my back* This is too weird. Im calling an excorcist , and this time i mean it!
from tuze :
Drive it on over here, I'll give it a wash anytime....night or DAY! Ya babY! Tuzeys nocternal carwash!
from faeryspark :
I just noticed that you have added me to your favourites. Thanks so much! Your journal is lovely.:) I am sorry about The Smelly Graham. We have all been there sweetie...
from tuze :
Your purple prose? It that what he says? LOL you're unbelivable you're so unbelievable *shakin my groove thang*
from tuze :
`Yelayna, you came and you brought me a turkey. On my vacation away from workie!
from tuze :
we are on at the same time again!!! you got messanger er somthin??
from tuze :
You can have him!*LOL* oh wait, no you can't , but we can share! *wink wink*
from ikebadu :
tuze is having some WE "heart" IKE made up. She says maybe even with my picture on if im lucky. if you ask her maybe she'll give you something.
from tuze :
Thanks baby! the scrolling marquee was really easy! This is a good site too http://www.cedesign.net/help2j.htm
from tuze :
what is the html you used to put the picture of the lady on your journal. I'm not going to use the same pic. i can't figure it out though. DOH!
from tuze :
BIG HAIR RULES! You should visit texas or somewhere country music is popular (I don't know where that would be) You'd be the belle of the ball
from tuze :
i love diamond mine and bounce out on shockwave! me & Kyle are going to go squirl fishing this week and bring the video camera with us.
from tuze :
Oh my god...I don't actually live in Windsor.....I live Just outside it in the next town!!!! I think im gonna pass out! This is SO WEIRD! *thunk* (is the sound I make as I hit the floor)
from sillysub :
stressy? *laugh...* are you making words up again?
from tuze :
We both woke up with a sore shoulder...on opposite sides of the earth AT THE SAME TIME?OH MY GOD!~I am totally getting the heeby-geebies. I think I need to call an excorsist, and I'm totally serious this time!...
from sillysub :
hola chiquita! yup yup i'm back! woooo! and i haven't been keeping up, reading when everyone updates.... so i'll take the time today to do that..... and if i have anything left in my little fingers to type, i'll even do an entry...*laugh...*
from sillysub :
*laughing...* that tuze girl is my r/t best friend... next time i see her, i'll show her the right way to do the dance... yes.. i've been quiet... so many thoughts running up about in my head... i suppose writing them down would be a good way to sort them out eh? kinda like spring cleaning....
from tuze :
The monkey dance Here's your chance to do the monk...ow ow ...do it baby! do the monkey funk common and do the monkey funk! I don't have a buzz yet....oh wait.....*gulp*....nope still nothin
from sillysub :
yes yes... 24-7... when One wants that, it shows He's real & has good intentions... thats what i mean by knowing He's a Lifestyler... as opposed to some kinky perverthead
from sillysub :
and as for your "problem"... i had the same problem... someone from work had my diary addy.... so i closed kimmyfunk altogether, which is why i've got sillysub goin now... *shrug..* if you can trust the guy there's no need to worry.... but if he's mouth of the south... thats when ya worry *laugh...*
from sillysub :
i'm thinkin He's a Lifestyler babe... He isn't there for the sex.... Its the Life He's in....*shrug....*
from sillysub :
yea! dance monkey dance! go go go! huzzzzah!
from sillysub :
heh... if anyone were to leave a note in here i'd kick 'em.. this is MY place to write dammit *laugh....* just kiddin'... sorry to hear about yer cough.. must be feelin' pretty crappy eh? boo! boo to the yucky feeling!
from sillysub :
ok so that's steven, i've got a story for you but its too long to leave in here so i'll just make it into an entry *wink...*
from sillysub :
erm... i know that your diary knows who steven is.. but who is steven?
from sillysub :
alright, i'm goin with the rhinestones... you've convinced me... and huzzah! is that an english word? cuz i've said it before, but didn't know it was used world wide...*laugh...* neat-o....
from sillysub :
wooo! i told you they had those rhinestone things! and now, you gotta test 'em out.. wear them and see if they're worth buying...*laugh...* and y'know i always have something to say, and today it's as to you wanting it to be the same in person as it is online.. chances are it's gonna be the same, if not even better... i've met with two Doms in realtime that i've met online, and both were fabulous people. And the one i'm with know, LT is amazing.. a little goofy at times, but that's ok with me, seeing as how i love to laugh.. once you get over the nervousness, and remember that He's just as nervous (if not more!) as you things will go good.. and being a big beleiver of SSC, don't forget your safe call girly!
from sillysub :
ahh... hope you didn't think i'd go changing diary names and not tell you! *wink...*
from kimmyfunk :
seamed stocking you say? it must be a Dom fetish cuz i've got the same instructions..*laugh...* i dunno about them Doms sometimes... and really... i had the same thought you ddid "where the hell am i to find seamed stockings?" then i went shopping and they seem to be all over da place... heck i even found some with rhinestones as a seam... weird eh? so just go to some sort of adult clothing store (adult as in sex not sizes!) and you'll find 'em there..*wink...* have a good day!
from kimmyfunk :
that monkey is the bestest thing in the world of html animation...*laugh....*
from kimmyfunk :
*giggling....* monkey's lookin good! and thanks for the title code! it worked!
from kimmyfunk :
*hugs...* yuck i hate that jealous feeling... and the word.. jealous... such an ugly word....*shudder....* i think that you need a dancing monkey to make you happy... just copy this little code into your html, moneky appears and you laugh.. all better... ok.. the code: <*img src=http://www.theunholytrinity.org/cracks_smileys/cwm/sfa3/mfight.gif*> just be sure to delete the * or it'll never work...
from kimmyfunk :
hello there! how long did it take me to figure out you had me listed as a favourite? *laugh...* i'm not the most observant person in the world... anyways i came by read a few things.... hope you don't mind if i give you my two cents about being trained by an older Dom.... i haven't been in the D/s lifestyle very long.. maybe 6 months.... but i have come to realize that the older Ones is where it's at... i do believe age comes with experience... and lets face it.... anyone our age (you 22, me 23) who is Dom is in it for the sex.... which is fine..... if that's what you're looking for... i imagine from your writing that sex isn't all you're looking for.... not necessarily looking for a 24-7 relationship but something more than sex... so yea... age doesn't matter... i'm crushing on One who has a son the same age as me...*laugh...* so age definitely doesn't bother me... it may bother O/others, but screw 'em..... so long as you're happy, and safe.... head over to alt.com one day and look me up in the chatrooms.... i'm Parkers_alice.... talk to ya soon ....*wink*

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