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from silverluna :
wow. thanks for the message. didn't think you still read...
from fake-angelic :
hey, just wanted to say that i like yr diary. take care of yourself yeah?
from fightn4life :
I don't know what is going on yours is the forth dairy I have read tonight were people are unhappy with weight issues. Me too. I have been at battle with my weight gain. I have been making myself go Yoga and cutting in half what I used to eat. I know how you are feeling and I feel sad with you. Don't give up on yourself and up chucking is not the answer. My thoughts are with you...just know you are not alone. Sandyz
from fightn4life :
This new guy and your new attitude sounds like it just might work out. I am so happy for you. Sandyz
from defaults :
hah. i guess it's meant to be. glad to have you back too, love.
from julymalaise :
Ireland's awesome!
from fightn4life :
I think your new obsession leaning towards healthy food is a wonderful idea. You are too young to put booze in the center of your world. I can say that because I am just an old fart. Loved your entry and best of luck with your new goals…I’ll be on the side lines cheering you on. Sandyz
from julymalaise :
You got that right? And you live in Ireland? That's totally awesome if you do!
from julymalaise :
Wow, I am so very glad that you have something you look forward to everyday, it's cool. Hope everything will work out for you. Yes, keep walking, walking is great exercise and it keeps you in shape and plus sometimes it is just fun taking a stroll instead of being stuck in a dust car sometimes.
from fightn4life :
You should not be ashamed because of your past thoughts…you should look at your past thoughts and actions as learning tools. If you had not seen one side of the scale how could you realize that there is the flip side. Every thing we have done in the past makes up who we become today. You are much wiser and open minded. You are unbiased and sound as if you are or already have become a beautiful soul. Take that information and feel proud of how you are today…this moment. Let your yesterdays go. Sandyz
from xxholding-on :
hi i saw you were online and i really wanted the vote from diaryland towards a contest i joined. It's a coach marketing contest and i need as many votes as i can get, please help! http://www.brickfish.com/Pages/PhotosAlbums/PhotoView.aspx?picid=975395_34070543&pid=2767347&scid=452
from fightn4life :
Never give up...never-never-never. Everything is possible, I believe this. My thoughts sre with you, Sandyz
from julymalaise :
Thanks for adding me, and I will add you.
from julymalaise :
Wow, I like the diary, may I add?
from fightn4life :
I am so glad to see you back and posting. You sound as though this move might have been a good one…besides if we come to terms with who we are and feel comfortable about it how can it be called a bad move. I say that as I have been in three states from your last post and moved about six times. I think I may have finally found my stride. So good to read your entry, welcome “home.” Sandyz
from chalkstain :
it's great to have you back, uncensored again. my computer died an awful horrible death just after you gave me the password for this username, and being stupid i never saved any passwords to get into any locked sites. i felt like too much of an ass to ask again. really though, this place has missed you.
from silverluna :
thanks for letting me know. I feel special. :)
from bantenhut :
Hey julie! Good to see you back, can't wait to read whatever you have to say next!
from silverluna :
By the way, did you know your most recent entry is dated 09.11.04??
from silverluna :
sorry for all those notes. I got one email today. thanks. ^_^
from silverluna :
I wish I had your username/password. I don;t know if you sent me anything...
from silverluna :
I wish I had your username/password. I don;t know if you sent me anything...
from anainsight :
Hey there - I had a MAJOR system crash a few days ago and I lost the e-mail with your username and password - would you please e-mail it to me again? zippityfeets (at) yahoo (dot) com. Thanks!!!
from silverluna :
heylo. can I get a user/pass too? I miss reading your diary. chilechick316 at hotmailDOTcom
from chalkstain :
done. thank you, love.
from fightn4life :
My computer went black when the hard drive fried. I lost user name and pass words. I am groveling for new ones. :) Sandyz ozarkdrm@gmail.com
from jehsika :
um...username/password, please? If not, it's okay...I understand the need for privacy. it would be jehsika at msn dot com
from chalkstain :
any chance of username and password? if not, it's okay. but might i just add, please?
from anainsight :
Hey there, could you please e-mail your username and password to me? zippityfeets (at) yahoo (dot) com. I would appreciate it a lot - haven't been able to see your updates lately. Hope you're doing well!
from chalkstain :
it sucks that you're not updating here anymore. damn you me love, damn you.
from bantenhut :
hey! i just noticed you're online right now. what do you think of this new DL layout? i'm liking that it's less girly. anyway, it's 4 am in texas! and i'm moving to blogger too, slowly but surely. my screenname there is keenjane, if you're interested. have a good one!
from mirrors-lie :
How? It's called Bulimia. ;-)
from chalkstain :
i went to the dundrum shopping centre recently enough for the first time - it's actually got amazingly few decent anything's. and yes, uggly boots, what the hell!?
from chalkstain :
i'm getting the gears now, finally. it's the starting and stopping that screws me up, i'm still terrified of junctions, traffic lights and roundabouts. evil!
from stepfordtart :
Hello dear! Thanks for adding me! Shall I do the same? OK then. s x
from fightn4life :
Loved this entry, I too think back on yesterdays, I do recall them all, (darn it) wish I could forget some of my past. They say it takes every step we take to get right here where we are today, hum…sounds right. I am unclear what I plan to do in my tomorrows and Lord knows I am a long way from 18. I'll figure it all out one day at a time, (this is not my suggestion for you) Sandyz
from luxelady :
thanks you for your sweet thoughts...it means so much...
from anainsight :
Hey there, thanks for your sweet note. Congratulations on your big swim - sounds like you really did well. I could never do it, that's for sure - anyway, I'm thinking of you and Guinness and Dublin. (((hugs)))
from chalkstain :
oh love love love. when he performed that song right in front of me, i could've sworn i felt the world's heartbeat. that song is everything.
from anainsight :
Hey there, thanks for your sweet note. My little Kika has gone to the Rainbow Bridge to wait for me. I just miss her so much right now it's awful. Maybe she will make friends with your friends' pets while she waits for me to come for her.
from chalkstain :
god, there's so much i just haven't written about. i really need to get myself going with writing again - properly. well, as of june, i've pulled out of my deferral to the course in UCD. i was really looking forward to it, english (which i LOVE LOVE LOVE), psychology and philosophy. but i went ahead and pulled out anyway, unsure of what i would do instead. just so i could be close to home, safe, near everything familiar. i eventually applied for a year long photography course in waterford, but later i found an ad in the back of the local paper for a psychology degree course in waterford. i've been accepted for that now instead, so i'm gonna live with a friend there. it's much closer to home and i know so many people there, i doubt i'll feel lost at all. i'll miss getting the chance to continue studying english for now, i'll miss dublin and etc. but it's for the best. ah well - here's to hoping you fucking LOVE studying in ireland. and fair play on swimming in the irish sea - i haven't braved it at all this summer shamefully
from anainsight :
I know EXACTLY how you feel about work. I have the same problem, it's like it's a killing depression to be stuck in a job you hate. I would prefer to die. I've had this problem nearly all my life. You say there's only one thing that you are meant to do - read, write and research. Well, at least there are opportunities out there for you to do that. About all I'm good for (or was good for before I got sick) was singing and making music all day long. When I got sick I lost even that. So I am good for nothing now, I'll be lucky to find even a brain-killing job. I'm with you all the way on this one. (((hugs)))
from anainsight :
Hey there, hadn't heard from you in awhile and was wondering if school had started yet. When do you actually get to go to work? I know you're looking forward to that. Hope it isn't as hot over there as it is over here. It was 100 degrees today here in Atlanta but even hotter in a lot of other places. This hot weather sucks out loud. Well, gotta go, just wanted to say hey.
from anainsight :
Hey there, thanks for your note. I had problems withdrawing from Effexor and Buspar, I had all the hallucinations and headaches. But I made it eventually. I think I'll do OK here because I was taking twice the normal dosage of the cymbalta and reducing it by half seems to have made me feel a lot better. So hopefully I won't have the same problems like when I was coming off Effexor. Hope you're enjoying Dublin, although I understand that it must be frustrating for you not being allowed to work just yet. At least you have the gym and you can get all ripped! :)
from hedgehoggy :
What a delight! Normally, I don't tinker around in Diaryland anymore but your gym-life description was very funny. I'm a gymrat and proud but your description of things in yours was funny as well as informative. You'll notice that gyms will vary in things such as the atmosphere but it's the people that leave a long impression. Nice mid. My girlfriend hates it when I run because my ass leaves me. Something to spank, no?
from fightn4life :
Wow, I have done that…back when you got a little diary with a key I would write about my childhood ramblings. I was a disaster of a speller (Was?) LOL I have 6 years of diaries written years gone by, then I kept journals now Blogging. Wow, change, and I love change. Music is a passion, listening to writers lyrics is like a peek into ones soul, when I write poetry it comes deeper than I can explain, like the purging of ones thoughts. I love it. I enjoy your entries, Sandyz
from anainsight :
...COLD!!! (Sorry I hit the enter key too soon). anyway. hope you're doing well. peace!
from anainsight :
Hello from Georgia - I was just wondering something. Don't know if you're a Harry Potter fan or not but I was wondering how the release of the new book went in the U.K.? It certainly got hyped enough here. I'm still only on page 29 whereas everybody else has already finished the whole thing 2 or 3 times. Oh well, I'm an idiot. anyway. Just wondering. Congrats on winning the race, btw, but that sounds like it was AWFULLY
from sadistiksoul :
silly girl. step outside yourself.
from anainsight :
OMG, you are so fecking right. I effing HATE cigarette smokers and their noxious fumes. And I'm certain they have no idea how bad they smell because they have burned all their taste buds away. Doesn't take but one whiff and my dinner (or coffee, lunch, whatever) is ruined. Fortunately, the no-smoking regs around here are pretty strict, but you know where is the worst place to run into it? Outside the door in the hospital! It's supposed to be the healthiest, cleanest place around and yet you can see all the doctors out there puffing away whenever you walk out the door. And they have the nerve to twitch me about my weight. I've always wanted to say, "OK, I'll lose weight if you'll quit smoking." But I don't have the guts. Oh well. peace!
from chalkstain :
you and your heart of gold. i'm glad you've found your place.
from fightn4life :
I loved this entry because it made me laugh, you are refreshingly honest…I love that. You look adorable in your glasses; if some one finds the other pair then you have a spare. No harm in that. Sandyz
from anainsight :
Hey there, thanks for your note. I'm glad you like my template, I love it! Have your pets finally made it to you? Hope they are adjusting well. I know exactly what you mean about your glasses being a part of your identity. I had my identity smashed last October when I was switched to bifocals. I can't walk or drive with them, all I can do is read. I hate them - I'm going to get new ones with my OLD prescription! This time I'm going to get RED ones. anyway. Whatever's been making me so crazy dizzy is not my blood sugar, because every time I check it it's normal. Don't know why I'm feeling so skewed. Glad you got your identity back. peace!
from fightn4life :
What a beautiful entry, I so needed to read that today. How awesome is that opening a world at the moment you need a little reminder. I have locked my diary due to my world going through life altering changes. I would be happy to share my new journey with you, scary as it feels at this moment, if you so desire. Leave me a note or e-mail me at ozarkdrm@ritternet.com and I will send you my username and pass world. Sandyz
from fightn4life :
I read your list twice, how fascinating. I will look forward to more interesting facts about a place I know so little about. Enjoy your dream, of course you're not nuts, you are living. That is what we are here for. Have fun, oh...before 6pm. :) Sandyz
from chalkstain :
wow it's awesome that you finally made it here to ireland, i'm psyched for you. and congrats on getting into ucd, i start there in september too. good stuff. good luck with everything... and take care ♥ (formerly known as cheekyash)
from anainsight :
Way to go! I knew you could do it, esp. after I read your play, it was awesome! Say hello to Guinness for me :)
from vintagepearl :
Have a safe flight and outstanding time Jules! Be sure to write, I have an undying passion to visit Ireland someday. Drink one for me! <33 take care
from anainsight :
I think it's exciting that you're going to have a new start in a new place. What about Guinness, is he going with you? I hope you'll still continue to update because I'll love to hear about your adventures in the emerald land. I loved your play, by the way, it was awesome yet gripping at the same time. Don't stop updating, and enjoy your last days in Texas! peace!
from raen :
OK, comments weren't working for me. I'll try here: First, Happy Birthday! *crimson confetti later discovered to be flaked blood* Second, great pic! Always wanted a floor like that. Third, get packing already! Ireland awaits! :D
from anainsight :
What in the world were you testifying before the texas legislature for? I'm really curious. I'd love to know what your book's going to be about, too. anyway. Please don't give yourself any more heart attacks. peace!
from silverluna :
you were in tampa and you didn't tell me?
from anainsight :
Hey there, hope you're doing better. I see that you've locked. If you're willing to share the password with me, please e-mail me at zippityfeets (at) yahoo (dot) com. please delete this note after you do so I won't get spammed. thanks!
from herdarlinsin :
You are hilarious chick.
from bantenhut :
you too, how funny to meet in person like that! see ya thursday!
from anainsight :
Get well soon!
from vintagepearl :
Good luck, Jules, you can do it!
from anainsight :
Merry Christmas!
from anainsight :
Congratulations, you now have a B.A. and a bright future as a playwright, if you so choose. That is so awesome. peace!
from anainsight :
wow, let me know when you get this produced for the stage. I'll be in the front row. that was wicked awesome. peace!
from vintagepearl :
CONGRATULATIONS!! :)
from anainsight :
I am learning a very difficult lesson; that I can't control hardly anything and it is making me crazy. All I can do is just breathe. Breathe, sweetie. peace!
from anainsight :
How long is it before you are finished with school? I can remember so well those last 6 months or so, when you're SO tired of it and all you want to do is get out. Even if it was more than 20 years ago I still remember it. anyway. I need a maid to clean my house too (giggle) Hope you get your to-do list done. peace!
from fightn4life :
"Bevo XIII dies at 22" was a wonderful entry...thank you so much for sharing an awesome life. Sandyz
from cheekyash :
yeah, i graduated when i was sixteen, i could pretend to be a super brain or just tell the truth. i started school a year early 'cause they needed as many kids as possible so they wouldn't have to fire a teacher. and i skipped fourth year. it just worked out that way. weird, now i'm the one having dreams about you. and your cat. hehe, it was damn strange.
from bantenhut :
Go longhorns! I saw one of your banners for the first time today. Woot.
from cheekyash :
just found out that 'the wind that shakes the barley' doesn't come out here in shops until the thirteenth. maybe it will come out over there too after all (?)
from cheekyash :
i haven't seen it yet, but it's definitely got itself a space on my lengthy 'must watch' list. and actually, i've never even heard of the idaho cafe. but, i have lived in a small hole all my life, a small town in co wexford. there's nothing here, and i never leave. i'm working on it though :) hope you're well.
from cheekyash :
hehe nice. dublin eh? i'll see you there ;)
from anainsight :
ha! Sorry I made you dream you got diagnosed with diabetes. It's not a pill, it's a shot, kind of like my insulin shots but a little bit different. Supposedly it's supposed to be a real miracle drug. anyway. Next time I write an entry don't dream about it (XD) peace!
from cheekyash :
i think ireland's had much more practice than most places. i've lived here always, i think i'm allergic to the sun. hope you're well.
from anainsight :
...I got rewarded because EVERYTHING on my list was on sale. Milk was $1.19 cheaper, dog food was 2 for $1.00 instead of .69 a can. I saved at least 10 bucks, and got to stock up because things I usually buy, like wheat thins, were buy one get one free. So virtue was its own reward. I waited until it got dark and there weren't but a few people in the store. I go to the Publix rather than the Kroger because it's smaller and it's quieter. Some of the things are a little more expensive but I don't care, it's worth it - and some of the things are cheaper too, so it balances out in the end. anyway. What do you need help with? Whatever it is, DO IT and you will be rewarded. Do you need to do laundry? I have about two loads which need doing, so that's next on my list. Take care and take yourself somewhere besides classes this week. I will be thinking about you. peace!
from anainsight :
Hey, guess what? I did it - I made it to the store. And I GOT rewarded because absolutely EVERYTHING
from anainsight :
OMG, I just read your last entry and it's like so TOTALLY me that I don't even know what to do. There are so many things that I have the same problem with. I need to go to the store, I need a lot of things, milk, turkey meat, granola bars, bagels, fruit, vegetables, etc. Lots of things. The floor needs vacuuming. I need to do laundry. I even need to wash my hair. But I don't do any of it. I can't stand to go out of my house to the mailbox, much less the grocery store. Thank goodness my little dog has a doggy door that she can go out. I only walk her in the evenings when we go visiting. I can so relate to your last entry. Maybe we could help each other? Send me a note and give me a swift kick to go and DO WHAT I NEED TO DO. And I'll help you too. Sorry, I just couldn't resist commenting on this entry. It's too much like me. peace!
from cheekyash :
i have to say i am just about in love with waterford also even though it's only a fifteen minute drive away, i should be sick of it. nah there are no easons in waterford as far as i know, it's just simply called 'the book centre'. i don't know if you'd know it, it's in the dead centre, just in a square among a lot of other shops. i really had no idea people from out of ireland ever really even ventured down to this end of the country, let alone loved it :)
from jehsika :
I know that sound, the sound of that sound. Your words on the screen translate to a sound. Buzzing Brain. Buzzing brain and a craving for seclusion. You've gone into diagnostic mode--"Don't bother me...I'm thinking." Anyhow, that's how it usually goes with me, YMMV.
from youdontknome :
Um I feel like we're the same person. I totally could have written that last entry about staying in bed. In fact I might have.
from sex--boy :
Your diary's really interesting.
from geoff-only :
I live in the UK and so have never seen the Today Show. But this meredith vieira bitch seems completely ludicrous. Have her committed. We have similar people over here trying to entertain us on the television. Oh how they fail.
from vintagepearl :
Haha, nice. I have to see that movie.
from vintagepearl :
Congrats on getting up that early! That's crazy! Your a beast, Julesta! Where's that "I believe diversity is an old, old, wooden ship built in the civil war era" quote from? A bunch of guys in my class repeat it all the time. <3
from vintagepearl :
You did a blockquote! Looks nifty :)
from vintagepearl :
You can change the colors to whatever ones you want, of course. Loveeeee.
from vintagepearl :
blockquote {background-color:#DC0061; color:#FFFFFF;padding:2px;border:1px solid #000000; }
from vintagepearl :
Helllooo Julesta. The layout was premade, so it had a built in HTML blockquote tag. To use it, all you have to do is <blockquote> and to end this blockquote </blockquote.> I'll post the tag which is in my diary in a new note. You put it somewhere near the top, not sure if it matters where, mine was after the bold, italics, and underline tags.
from jehsika :
Your positions may be replacable...YOU are not. You are the only you, as rediculously Mr. Rogers as that sounds it is TRUTH. I said it, so it must be true. Do not live for your positions. Live for what you can learn from those positions. I am not making a bit of sense am I. I feel very esoteric today, I'm suffering a sinus infection and hopped up on cold medicine. Don't disappear, I would miss you.
from anainsight :
Just wanted you to know I read your entry yesterday and that you wanted to disappear. I understand that, and I know you don't know me from Adam's housecat, but I would be very sad if you did. You're very honest and open, and that leads me to think that you have the power to overcome all this. anyway. Just wanted you to know that I am thinking good thoughts for you. peace!
from anainsight :
hee, hee, I thought EVERYBODY knew what Wally World was. It's Wal-Mart, and Wal-Mart sucks OR Wal-Mart rules, depending on what kind of mood I'm in that day! peace!
from vintagepearl :
Haha yeah. Personally I might throw in a couple birds.
from vintagepearl :
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from hattaway :
Hey! Noticed you are at UT/Austin and swim... Do you know Kacie Hattaway? She's my neice. That might be a stupid question; I realize it's a huge school. Just curious. laura_hattaway-at-hotmail.com . Hope your foot heals quickly so you don't have to buy a Hoveround just to get to classes...
from cheekyash :
feel better soon
from lonelywife :
well, i just found your diary. i think i needed to! ireland....the best place in the world! guinness and dublin...please give your pets hugs from me! not crazy, just a lonely wife trying to survive day to day happenings. hope you are well. and i hope that you don't mind that i added you to my favorites. take care, lonely
from vintagepearl :
Thank you :)
from vintagepearl :
Julesta! (I think I should call you that from now on. It's a pretty cool name, not gonna lie.) I wish we had Starbucks up here. It would greatly contribute to my coffee addiction and make my life easier with a broader selection of coffee shops. Because Starbucks rocks. Yeahhh.
from anainsight :
Thanks for reading; I don't feel so alone anymore. the picture of you & Guinness is SO CUTE!!! I wish I could post a picture of my little Kika on my site. anyway. Thanks again. peace!
from cheekyash :
i've never actually seen the one where grace got married, i always missed it. other than that, i think i've seen the majority as well. ireland, yeah, it's been raining here now for just about three days. relentlessly. heh, no place like home. anyway, hope you're well. don't overwork yourself. give the animals a hug from me ♥
from cheekyash :
University College Dublin. That's where I'm headed too heh. I could deny the fact that America affects us all a bit too much here, but that would be lying. I don't even know what real 'Irishness' is. Good luck anyway darlin.
from anainsight :
hey there, I got my meds changed too. I have to go back on Trazodone which sucks ass, but I'm going to do what she says. Hope the adderall doesn't bug you too much. peace!
from anainsight :
If you had schizotypal personality disorder, you wouldn't be seven months from graduation, and you wouldn't care to have Guinness, or care about the things you care about. If I were you I would take that test with a grain of salt. My therapist told me to. I still can't sleep. I hope she won't put me on trazodone though. Maybe if the adderall doesn't work, you can try Abilify. That seems to work OK for me. Now if I can just get my nights & days back on track. peace!
from youdontknome :
I've been reading your diary, and I like your new layout. That's all :)
from anainsight :
YES! finally I saw my therapist. I see my doctor on Monday. Hopefully then I will be out of this funk. Give a pat to Guinness for me. peace!
from anainsight :
I was very interested in the Personality Disorder test. I took it and I scored "Moderate" for every kind except "Low" for Obsessive-Compulsive and "Very High" for Avoidant. I don't know how I should feel. I decided not to cut & paste it in my journal, maybe I will some other time. I'm going to take a page from your book and fill out the survey you did earlier today. anyway. Hope Guinness is not too uncomfortable in the heat. peace!
from vintagepearl :
Yeah.. It's been quite nice here lately, weather wise. I've been having a good time latley but I'm stressing over stupid things, like enough clothes and I really need a haircut, it's been awhile. The cleaning and food making and organizing - bah. I hate all of that, haha.
from vintagepearl :
Luck with all, gorgeous, I know you can do it! How've ya been lately?
from jehsika :
oh darling girl, I do know how you feel. Try not to think too far forward (I know how hard it is to do, even as I'm typing it). Just think about the next hour. Or even just the next five minutes. Your new layout is great by the way, you know I love mischievious eyes.
from anainsight :
When I was in school I had many times when I felt the exact same as you do now; however at the time I lacked a therapist and a dietician and a support group, and I graduated on time. You will, too - I have faith in you. peace!
from raen :
Why in the world were you left to teach/work/grade yourself, and all alone? That's crazy. 8-O
from anainsight :
Whoa! My therapy appointment is 10:00 a.m. and if my calculations are correct, that's the same as 9:00 a.m. for you. So we will be in therapy at the exact same time a week from tomorrow. Funny stuff. Not only is my therapist out of town but also my psychiatrist who supplies the medication. Late summer sucks. Oh well. peace!
from raen :
Whoa! Pink! Eyes! 8-D "Sometimes it feels like somebody's watchin' me..." (Sorry, I just woke up and can't form decent thoughts yet.)
from anainsight :
Guinness is for sure the 2nd cutest dog in the world (next to my toy poodle of course) but what breed is he? He kind of looks like a Jack Russell but I'm not sure. I wish I had a camera so I could post pictures of my little baby and how cute she is (Smile)
from wistful-blue :
Clicked your banner, was skimming your "About Me" page - from your pic (just my pers. opinion) you look quite a lot like Jennifer Morrison ("Alison Cameron," HOUSE, M.D.) -cat
from camera-girl :
Clicked on your banner and here I am. That pic of you, is it taken in Ireland? Looked a little bit like Cliffs of Moher. Been in Ireland twice and I loved it there! Thinking of it makes me wanna go back. :-)
from anainsight :
hey there, I think that is awesome that you're going back to swimming. I gave up my music when I was at my sickest. It took a number of years for me to be able to go back to it - fear of failure, fear of the judgment of others, etc. But now I do it just for me and it's all just for fun. The competitive streak is gone. anyway. I saw your banner that "life still sucks after rehab". That is so true. anyway. I hope you continue to enjoy your swimming. peace!
from anainsight :
hey there, thanks for your sweet note. I really appreciate it. Keep on thinking of me, the actual funeral service is Thursday. Right now I don't think it's actually sunk in yet. I expect it will get worse before it gets better. peace!
from vintagepearl :
That's good in a way. Hairballs to those people who would make you feel bad, they no not anything, because they're DUMB. At least you get to ignore your birthday. My parents hog all the ignoring on mine, haha. Cheers to you too! Goblet. Gee I love that word. "Goblet." Say it with me now!
from vintagepearl :
Haha, thanks. Yeah, I've been wearing stuff lately "just in case" and I started this morning, I got up and did my regular routine - up, glasses, sweater, beeline to bathroom, pee - and I started! So I was like "Yes!" and then I continued my regualities. I hate those unprepared moments, and then you're like "Sheiteeeee". But I'm pretty good in bad situations like that. Heee.
from vintagepearl :
How was your birthday might I ask?
from jehsika :
breathe baby girl.
from vintagepearl :
HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYY!!!! WOOOOHHHHH IT'S YO BIRTHDAY YAAAAA! Mucho entertainment on your bday, don't party too hardy dear.
from vintagepearl :
Ah, the price of putting your face on Diaryland. If you want free image hosting, photobucket is good. Until you reach your limit. Damn me for taking large amounts of photographs and saving them to photobucket. Damn me.
from vintagepearl :
Random message number 2093: Heyyyy.
from vintagepearl :
Your face is back! x)
from vintagepearl :
Thanks for the noteee! Heehee, I miss your face on your diary, ha haaa. On the bright side, you could write up your life, sell it on the market, and make tons of money. Because the public loves drama. I'm thinkin of doing that when I'm older to earn me some money. Sell my life. It'll be a one hit wonder. Hearts.
from vintagepearl :
Just a note to say hello and I care. You're a remarkable person, and I am glad I stumbled upon your diary one day known to the past. Good luck with all you face, love.
from cheekyash :
Beidh tú ceart go leor, cailín. Beidh tú.
from anainsight :
It sounded like your next to last post you were feeling overwhelmed. I sure do know what that's like. When I dropped out of graduate school I felt exactly the same way, only I was in such bad shape I couldn't even articulate it enough to put it into words. Keep on writing. LOL about your next entry, btw. peace!
from jehsika :
In re: entry of 21:59 on 10.04.06...I have no advice this time, only commiseration, if that is any tiny comfort, to know you're not the only one...because I am feeling exactly the same way right now. Exactly.
from vintagepearl :
It was still scary.
from vintagepearl :
Oh, never mind. It was a ladybug. It was hard to tell in the dark.
from vintagepearl :
I was almost just killed by a moth.
from vintagepearl :
Hearts.
from vintagepearl :
I love the pictures!
from vintagepearl :
Have fun in Ireland! I'm going to go someday, haha maybe I'll see you there! I'm part Irish, along with everything else on the planet. I'm even one sixteenth Native American. :)
from vintagepearl :
Haha, yeah. Thankssss :) Glad for your support! Yeah, no time at all! Where has it all gone? Much love for you!
from cheekyash :
Hey, just a strange outta the blue message from somebody you've never even heard of. I think I found your diary from clicking on a banner, forgive me though if I'm wrong. But anyway, been keeping track of you every now and again. I live in Ireland actually, never been anywhere else in my life. I seriously have no idea what everybody loves about this place, it's only okay. Well sure anyway, have a great time when you get here. Aisling
from anainsight :
I loved your entry about your pet. I have one about my little toy poodle. She is my constant companion. She spends every spare moment she can get draped across me. She licks me on the face as often as she can. She sleeps in my bed. Everything I cook she gets a little of. I talk to her all the time. I honestly don't know what I would do without her. I believe I would die. Give your kitty a pat for me. peace!
from vintagepearl :
I love the poem under "I am". Tis a lovely.
from vintagepearl :
Thanks :) Yeah, I've been trying to act like everything is normal lately. Well, back to the way it was before. I still haven't met with a counselor, but I'd rather meet with the assitance guy at school, friends have said he's helpfull. I've been thinking about talking to him or this lady, and asking them to send a note to my parents telling them I'm already getting counseling, so I don't have to go to the place. That's what I was scared about, the counselors telling them what I think is going to be confidential. That's what I hate about being 15 and in the states, haha. I guess I'll just see where things go, and that dang light at the end of the tunnel is dangling over my head again. Talk to ya later!
from scotvalkyrie :
Thank you for adding me! In fact, I should go find a llama to talk to. I haven't done that in a while, and I'm afraid that the Hubster has usurped my llama-whispering.
from vintagepearl :
Thanks :) I really want to leave here, it's so bad and damaging, but the people didn't believe me. I know I'm not the worse off in the world, and I'm not beaten everynight, but four bruises within the course of two school years? There's emotional abuse, no doubt, and it's awful here, but no one is listening. I really don't know what to do, I should be able to stick it out though, I'm leaving right when I graduate and moving in with someone until college. *Hugs back*
from qjan :
I ate 3 oranges today... Well, actually they're clementines.
from jehsika :
Ah, yes, the mind does keep going after the keyboard stops clicking...too true. I'm trying not to let my imagination run away and just enjoy the moment. Cheers shug!
from vintagepearl :
Thanks for the quote by my diaryname! Many of my friends on here have a tendency to find quirky little things I've typed and use them as quotes. It's enjoyable to me, thanks again!
from vintagepearl :
I loved that entry. I spend so much time in the mirror, trying to perfect myself as to be accepted by others. Some see me as popular, but the majority of people I talk to daily aren't my friends, only acquaintences, and there is a large number that despise me. No one can truly understand how it is to hate yourself unless you've put yourself through hell, trying to make things better. The interesting perspective "troubled" teenagers have.
from vintagepearl :
Thanks :) Did you get out of your situation? My dad hasn't hit me much, but the memories are so bad, and the verbal and emotional abuse gets so overwhelming. My stupid guidance counselor hasn't even offered any advice or support, he's usually just like "I don't know what to say" or "I'm not sure I can help you with that" and I'm thinking, "You're a freaking guidance counselor, you're supposed to know what you're doing!" But alas, all is fair in love and war. Okay, that really made no sense but it was the first quote that came to mind, teehee. My social studies teacher has helped me out a lot, he knows everything that's going on and is giving me good advice. I'll talk to ya later, dearie, hope you're well!
from jehsika :
Hey shug, thanks for taking my silly little survey and especially for adding me to your favorites. I look forward to reading more of your diary.
from jehsika :
self-acceptance of what you are now is NOT acceptance of defeat. You can accept yourself as you are now and still want improvement, still grow and change and evolve. I thought I would always be that small (inside...whoa I was so not small outside), pathetic person married to a jerk who ignored me, I thought this is my life and it always will be. But I did change. it really is okay to accept the situation in front of you for what it is and still work to improve it. Geez I sound shrink-ish and I HATE shrinks, though I could probably use one. For what its worth, what I've read so far in your diary...I think you're great. Some of your entries really make me think and I love that.
from fairy-kill :
Hi hun, you seem really fun! I like your whole set up. So I just figured I'd tell ya sweety. k bye hun. -manda
from vintagepearl :
Hellloooo. You seem like an awesome person, someone who I could talk to without feeling an annoying vibe that compells me to throw something. Heehee. Note me back if you want! My name be Jill.
from the-clan :
BB: My sister is perpetually recovering from an eating disorder, too, or so she says, even though she hasn't had a relapse for about a year, I think. She says you never really get over it, but the important thing is that you keep trying. Oh, and Longhorns kick ass! I went to U.T. once, way back years ago. Ok, I'm just rambling now, sorry.
from dragprincess :
Good for you. I've also done the whole life change (recovery from drug addiction) and talk about having your eyes opened. One day at a time.
from silverluna :
hey. I don't know why you can't see my diary. Can you at least read it?
from my-lost-muse :
awsome banner even better site. gl with you're new rules.
from candoor :
without that conservative beginning, there'd be nothing to rebel against :)
from silverluna :
mmm...the woodlands sound hauntingly pleasant. I'm afraid to got here now because I may like it...lol, and I loved Ramona when I was a kid too. I think I read all the books...
from silverluna :
tis true: Backstreet's back...
from silverluna :
Where are you, J-Gal? I miss reading about you...
from silverluna :
Hello j-gal, just wanted to send a note from one fellow writer to another. Dont worry about the 19 year-old boredom thing. I didn't even realize how fast time flies. One minute I turned 18, then I was 21. And as I was just getting used to be 21, I turn 22. My 23rd birthday is coming soon, and I don't think I'm ready for it. I'm rambling, so this is what I really want to say: Get ready for the ride...
from sunnflower :
Good banner. Short and sweet (and pink!).
from the-regret :
I'm intrigued by your diary. brilliant
from babay7 :
hi.
from punkgurly :
I have too much time on my hands-- Translation Results by SDL International -- Hé the newspaper, I write in French today! As you can see, I am very bothered. I regret that my friends not not the can read, but they do not speak the French often. Oh well, has today been very entertainment. I am gone to the church and have eaten with friends. Checkmate called on me to the telephone. I require myself if it can speak the French as me? In any case, I have just observed Red Mill. This is the better film on the planet Earth. "Come what can.. I to like you to my day dying." Of such beautiful expressed words. "The Diamonds are the better friend of a girl!" tehehe. In any case, I am short of the French to express you, if to the to review for the moment. I like you all. ---Bonheur---.
from punkgurly :
carrie reads this too
from babay7 :
hey jules-- i havent seen the friends episode... do ya think u could keep it on ur TIVO? if not thats k... ttul! *jaime
from babay7 :
hey BABAY! heh-- dude, the news F*IN rocks! F-a-doodle-doo! heh... man that was funny... make sure to stay away from the herijuana... (LoL) anways..... chat lata ho! :) ~$~/bAbAy\~$~
from punkgurly :
hey jules! this is carrie! i think its RAD(my only word) that yous got a diary! i love to read ab your day cos it so...different! like you! yay! aight just thought i'd drop ya a line cos i aways love getting notes! cya round! (((.CaRRiE.)))

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