messages to bipolargirl:
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from bacon-bits :
I don't know if you noticed my comment on your other blog, but awhile back I sent you a message congratulating you on your new house and saying that I'm glad to see you're doing well.
from acornotravez :
Are you still updating?
from velvet-heart :
Welcome back. But how am I supposed to see your picrure when I can't even begin to know where to look hmm?
from bacon-bits :
Welcome back and congradulations! *hugs*
from babykanu :
hey girl, happy new year! i miss your updates! i hope everything is okay! love ya! ::HUGS::
from velvet-heart :
Happy New Years love. May this new year bring you more happiness than your last and may you have a greater learning of more things to come. Much love, Huggles
from bacon-bits :
You're welcome. Hope you had an awesome birthday. I noticed you added me to your yahoo messanger. Well, I got a notice that you did anyway. I haven't seen you online tho. If you're using yahoo messenger, hope to see you soon!
from bacon-bits :
Happy Birthday!
from neon7c :
that's one of them...can't wait to hear from you!
from velvet-heart :
Thank you miss... I really needed that today- especially today.. *sigh*
from velvet-heart :
Marrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!! Come by and see me ok???
from bacon-bits :
Welcome back... missed you much
from neon7c :
you sound so good, hon. i'm so happy for you. good luck on the slam! :)
from bacon-bits :
I take it that you are completely abandoning this diary. I wish you the best in the future. Do you still use any instant messaging software? I do have MSN AIM and Yahoo. I'd like to be able to keep in touch. If you don't want to give me this information thru D-land it's alright, just e-mail me at [email protected]... Hope to hear from you soon.
from babykanu :
hey grrl! i miss ya! (i used to be xbabygrrlx) how've ya been? i really miss reading your diary! i hope you are doing great! ::HUGS::
from sponge22bob :
Thanks so much for the 'key' to your diary :)-oh and yes I did write Black Blood Red Wave and I'm Always Wrong on my own. I actually thought they were bad, and didn't even really try to make Black Blood Red Wave a poem, but ir sort of came out that way :D. And thank you SOOO much for the compliments and everything too! And I'm so glad you are finally able to write down your rape. It may sound wierd but somehow I can relate...for years I've always had a feeling that I'm going to be raped someday...0_o. Pleasant thought right? ^_~...well wishing you the best and sorry about that black out! Since I'm way over in WA we weren't affected at all! Well, hope you have a good day! ~Melanie
from bacon-bits :
I live in the country. There aren't any street lights and such to get in the way of the stars. I just like to lay out on my trampoline and stare up at the stars once in awhile. Seeing as I had nothing else to do, thats what I did. I also listened to some music later. My cds and my small stereo still worked since the stereo had batteries.
from bacon-bits :
always good to know you're alive and well
from neon7c :
yeah. it was thru an online personals ad...and we met in person for the first time at roy rogers...craziness. but it works. so we go back and enjoy some of that deep-fried goodness every month.
from sponge22bob :
Oh yippie skippy! Thank you so much, I missed reading you :(,lol. My e-mail address is: [email protected] also [email protected], but I check hotmail more. Thanks!
from brer-rappit :
hey thanks for the notice on that wild man and his dreams to bring peace via the banjo. it's good to see stuff like that. yeah the convention is pretty fun, but i'm going to be glad to be on my "home turf" next week... things out here are just kinda... wierd... *
from straysparrow :
Boys are weird like that... I've never really figured out why (Your vision for your peace group sounds great by the way). Sparrow
from raven72d :
I didn't realize your diary was p/w-guarded now...
from raven72d :
Thank you... Thanks much.
from brer-rappit :
hey! thank you for your well wishes and your good vibes. my grandma is actually bouncing back pretty well, thanks again. i do have sum music of ours laying around but currently we're recording whut we hope is the final run on the actual record. i will let you know when it's done and i will of course send it your way. thank you again for your kind words and good vibrations. - rappit
from glowcircuit :
your back on mine, just knowing that your there, makes me feel better, thanks glow..............
from glowcircuit :
sorry for being late, but thank you for your reply, my email is [email protected], hope to hear from you soon, and happy days glow.......
from neon7c :
[email protected] [i'm hiding from spam, so don't tell anyone! hehehe] xox
from brer-rappit :
thank u for all that u do... ! ! ! !
from bacon-bits :
Just as a little side note... my own parents are 9 years apart in age, but in this case my dad is older. But you're not going to let gender be an issue, I'm sure. If the man can be older why can't the woman?
from bacon-bits :
I do not think you are a dating whore. I've read ur entire diary on the night I found it and I've been keeping up ever since. I know you better than that.
from bacon-bits :
Your not a bad person because ur attracting to two guys, regardless of age. I agree that age doesn't really matter much. I mean your all adults capable of making your own desisions. There is an age concern when it's like 15 year olds and people alot older but that isn't the case here. You will have to make a choice between them or pick neither but thats your choice and you'll have to make that one on your own.
from neon7c :
i will keep you posted on radiohead. i forgot to bring it with me yesterday [duh]. i'm sooo happy that emogrrl is back...i hope she's okay.
from bacon-bits :
Thank you. I hope so too. But it seems like it's much too unlikly. I dunno. I guess I just don't know what the hell is going on. And I'm sorry to hear (read) that things didn't work out with Niko. But I suppose it's better you end it now than him later. "When someone's ego is that inflated, you have to occasionaly deflate him just a little." --- Dr. Pulaski, Star Trek: The Next Generation Episode "Peak Performance"
from bacon-bits :
I'm glad you value this online friendship. I do as well. I am also glad that you understand me as well. Few people do. You're welcome, and also a big thank you from me.
from bacon-bits :
You quit smoking! GO YOU! and good luck with Niko.
from bacon-bits :
No problem, big hug back to you
from tropicalmist :
You are so good to me-*smiles* Why?
from bacon-bits :
Trust me, you are not as fucked up as you think. Actually I figure I'm more fucked up then you are.
from xbabygrrlx :
im unlocked again but i update more at the new diary lies-undone.diaryland.com
from xbabygrrlx :
but you can have a password to the xbabygrrlx diary, and your password shall be happy. (happy) ok have a super duper night! ive missed ya lots! your diary is one of the best babes!
from xbabygrrlx :
hey grrl! i locked my diary because i have a new one. its lies-undone.diaryland.com check it out!!
from bacon-bits :
Thanks for the password. I have now caught up with the entries I have missed. Good job with the poetry contest.
from brer-rappit :
[email protected] --- is my addy if you wish to leave the "key" under the doormat - brer rappit
from untame-able :
I miss you.
from lilchrissi :
I found you thru my moms diary- hahah! Shes gonna be so pissed! O well-shhhhh-Sammi
from bacon-bits :
It's quite alright. I hope things get better soon.
from lilchrissi :
unlocked now- sorry
from brer-rappit :
i miss seeing into your head! i wish i could get a PW to your diary, that is if i'm allow. thanks - brer rappit
from lilchrissi :
Its okay- and thanks for your note- I love it- I lost the password to your diary so all I can give you is a note and an empty ghostly hug filled with a lot of emotion that you can never feel. *hugs*
from bobsquared69 :
no worries. i hope things are okay
from ms-ashlynn :
I hope youre doing alright. I miss reading you.
from bobsquared69 :
I miss your diary terribly and wish you would send me a password... If not, drop a line just so I can know everything is alright... much love
from bacon-bits :
Since I haven't received a password I'll assume you aren't sending me one. I hope everything is alright.
from xbabygrrlx :
hey there girl! just letting ya know that i miss you and your diary lots since you locked it! pleae leave me a note some time and let me know that you are doing okay! miss you lots!
from lilchrissi :
Thanks doll...but umm one question...erm never mind. I'd just rather not say. Email me ok? Or if you'd rather, I can email you.
from lilchrissi :
Could you send me your password please? You are making me miss out on the most ingenious words ever! :)
from lilchrissi :
Nooooo! you locked away your beautiful words.. I miss them and you *sniff sniff*
from neon7c :
your password for me didn't work. *sniffle* miss you ever so much, dahling. xox
from bacon-bits :
Your locked :( I hope things are alright. If you don't mind could you e-mail me a password at [email protected] please. If not its ok but I'm missing ur entries.
from lilchrissi :
Hey I was hoping to talk to you today...major meltdown here...*cries* oh well...my life totally sucks and its about to get worse....
from xbabygrrlx :
eeek! you are locked! i hope everything is okay! if you need anything, you know where i am! *HUGSHUGS*
from emogrrrl :
first i was locked, now you are. i hope you are doing alright. let me know if i can help at all
from neon7c :
ack! you're locked!!! i hope everything is okay. email me at [email protected] with a password....please? :) xoxox
from daisypainter :
Yeah drivers license! Yeah Dan! Yeah!
from lilchrissi :
I loved your Hugged Entry, its beautifuly well spoken and softly embracing me. Only thing is; is that I can't forgive my father for what he did to me and is still putting me through. ::huggers:: hon. Hang in there doll. You're awesome too =D
from lilchrissi :
Okay I did lol but your ass wasnt there, mean ass.. all you have is a Hellooooo...lmao. :Hugs:
from lilchrissi :
yes yes I did lol I went back and fixed my messed up words too lol..how are you this bright and ugly day?? lmao
from lilchrissi :
I guess I did find you Lol But I can't remember how. Bleh My cerebial muscles aren't working right lol...wish I knew how I found you.I can't even see a place where I signed your notes, or guestbook. Crapper..remind me again please...Huggles
from z0tl :
i filled out your survey and you gave me a coupon to use if i wanted to come back for free and read a few entries. *hands over the coupon* i'll be in the basement reading... :z
from jsupergurl :
hey i know exactly how you feel...my bipolarity is the most controlling factor in my life...
from daisypainter :
I love your life. I know that sounds weird, but what's even weirder, as I was reading your diary, I could have sworn I was reading my own. Anyway, hang on, girl! You are an amazing person.
from ms-ashlynn :
Ive never seen Amelie. Ive wanted to, but I somehow havent been able to get my hands on it yet. This is the second movie that youve told me about- Vanilla Sky (which i finally got to see last month before i had to rush off) and Amelie- I hope I can see it soon :).
from raven72d :
Great photos!
from raven72d :
Busy... but okay. Learning a lot at a new job...
from raven72d :
How's life?
from neon7c :
*smooch* you are very welcome. it's my favorite song on that cd. :) and if not for you, i wouldn't HAVE the cd. so thank u.
from brer-rappit :
many many thank-yous from me you u. thanks for adding me to your favorites list, your one righteous person... yess indeed. thanks again for checkin' my brier patch out... hope it didn't warp u 2 much.
from nameless01 :
hey i just found your diary through a banner and i really like it and feel like i can relate to a lot of the things you say. keep it up and have a great day!
from emogrrrl :
you are using the banner i made for you at diaryland. cool beans! :)
from brer-rappit :
jolly good romp through the mental pathways of a fellow person. i rather enjoyed your diary. i fancied it so much that you now have a place on my favorite diary list. it's a long tyme coming, it's a long way down, it's long division, CRACK and divide. TAK!
from raven72d :
How did you end up with a license suspended for two years? And... do write. I hope you'll like my journal-- and I rather think you'd be interesting to know.
from raven72d :
What were you doing in Greece? I did love those photos... Now-- as someone else at Diaryland who's a long, long way out of high school... let me say that you're a delight to read. I hope you'll come by my own site and browse... And I'll be reading things here again.
from ashes2dust :
Where are you living? The photo on your layout hits too close to home (but where is home?). Please. No more mystery. Steph
from failinbeauty :
Love your diary. The black and white you have on the template is gorgeous. Good stuff.
from feyindie-1 :
Just cruised your site. You make me laugh.. Keep up the journey, you can enlighten us. In all seriousness, all is good. Tahnx
from bacon-bits :
Thank you for the hope you feel better note. That is, however, a futile hope.
from glowcircuit :
Hey thanks for the note, the week was more like a surreal nightmare than anything else, and thank you for reading. I have found myself captivated my the endless complexities of you life, stay strong. glow....
from sponge22bob :
Thank you for the positive feedback on my poem :)- I'm planning to send stuff into three or four places(I'm planning to send that one to for sure 2,maybe the third one). The places are: Edlee music(I've written some stuff for that),Iliad Press,famouspoets.com,and poetry america. Once more,thanks for everything. Hope you feel good. -Melanie
from jinx1 :
It's not mine. It's a German-English translation of Ramstien's Kokain that I posted cause I was bored and couldn't sleep. Bet you weren't expecting that. Thanks anyway though. :)
from lefaive :
there's some footage of the pow's at ogrish.com.
from me-me-meee :
He made me have a faint memory of what sex is.. cause you know. Its been so long that I forgot. lol
from emogrrrl :
at times like this i feel as if you are the only one who could possibly understand me.
from sampsman :
hey, feeling a little to lazy to write an entry. But I though I'd let you know a couple of my friends have invited to go to Cleveland next weekend to check out the museum (I think the big one). Anyway, just thought I'd tell you so you know I really am not that afraid of the wonderful metropolis on the beloved lake.
from kimyadawson :
oh that would be sooo cool. the zip is 10549. he will love it!
from sponge22bob :
No problem for signing your guestmap:)...like I said,love those things! Also,I did have fun with the fairys ^_^.....I'll check your diary in a sec.
from emogrrrl :
i wish i could go with you. i need to get away.
from jinx1 :
I'm just glad you took it as flattering. Many people would consider it an insult, something I only considered after posting. Genius is the ability to regain childhood at will -Kermit the Frog.
from sampsman :
hey thanks a lot. I didn't drink any cafeine yesterday or Sunday, and I slept well last night, so I think the detox thing is already showing its evidence. Its the alcohol on the weekends that will be a bitch to quit, but I have some ideas of how to spend my time constructively. I wish you the best of luck with the show, go easy on your partner, I'm sure he had the best of intentions. Just tell him subtly he did something wrong by suggesting he try sending out the info earlier next time around. I know it may not benefit the current artist being featured, but if it help in any future shows, that may be more important.
from emogrrrl :
hey, maybe taking a break is the best thing for you right now. my body is begging me to take a break from everything, but i just can't at this point in time, because of my insane work schedule. it sucks. i nearly forced myself into a damned near panic attack yesterday.
from jinx1 :
You're 32??!!! You don't seem it at all. Not only do you look young, you think and act young as well.
from bacon-bits :
I, also, always take you seriously. The only time I wouldn't take you seriously is when you're joking -Derek-
from straysparrow :
Hey there! Thanks for your message. I'm still new to this whole place so I'm figuring it out as I go. I was really intrigued by your diary because one of my closest friends found out she was bipolar a couple of years back and she often talks about wanting to connect with others who have lived through what she has gone through. I passed your diary on to her to have a read. It looks great by the way. I am definitely going to have work on my layout once I get through this thesis stuff and have a little more spare time on my hands! Anyway thanks again! Sparrow
from emogrrrl :
**hugs**
from emogrrrl :
thanks for not thinking of me as a freak or something. it was a pretty traumatic experience. the only reason i have it locked is i know my mom reads it, and it would hurt her feelings to see it on there.
from jkookz731 :
i actually found this cheat code for the sims, you dont have to spend any money to buy anything. so my house now has a few additions and a big screen plasma tv. i rule. :)
from sampsman :
I've actually considered Cleveland since it isn't far from here and I have a cousin who lives there. I'm not exactly sure how things will pan out here, so if you have a contact, that'd be great. To me, it's like reaching for straws in the dark, but if I go through with this I need a couple of back up plans. My only other back up plan is stand up comedy, and I ran out of good jokes about two years ago. e-mail: [email protected]
from emogrrrl :
awesome pics!
from emeraldtiger :
hi i thought i'd just pop in and say hello since i started reading your diary. it's excellent, and i hope to learn more about your condition through your journals. i've found diaries here that deal w/ some sort of disability or illness given my own experiences w/ a chronic illness. well take care of yourself.
from a-splinter :
thank you so much for your birthday wishes. No. I am not from Scotland. I am scottish "by association." My father is Scottish. He emigrated to Canada many years ago. He just became a Canadian citizen a few years ago.
from xbabygrrlx :
thanks for the spell! you are very kind!! :)
from sampsman :
thanks. Speaking of radio ownership, the stations (AM and FM sister station) I work for were owned by the same family for 78 years. Last year, Media One from Cleveland bought out the owner, who was losing money. Things went from bad to worse once they got their hands on the station. They cut our news department in half, and have giving us hardly any money to budget for local programming. All they care about is the bottom line, so they can present the station as a neat, moneymaking machine, and sell it to a larger campany. I hate this new system, I wish I was born 40 years ago so I could enjoy what I've always wanted to do.
from emogrrrl :
pierogi! you are my new polish princess :) (ever had halupki?)
from emogrrrl :
:)
from bacon-bits :
Your welcome and I'm glad therapy went well. Get it all out of your system. -Derek-
from emogrrrl :
good to hear. tell your mom i said happy bday!
from bacon-bits :
Good luck with the therapy. I hope you see a day in the near future when Chris is completely out of your head.
from ms-ashlynn :
Thanks for being my friend too. Things are looking good for you. im happy.
from spoonbender :
yikes, military. yikes in general. i like your page. the end.
from sampsman :
I think there are well over 50 million men in this country who are in the closet. I am one of them. I am a drama queen. Funny how we're never very good at hiding it. But just ask us, and we'll deny everything, from the temper tantrums remeniscent of a ten year-old to the subtle yet mulitfaceted question: "do you want a boyfriend?"
from xbabygrrlx :
esterhazy? i know people in esterhazy! small world, i tell you! and yes, i have heard of "heartland motion pictures" that is so cool! wow, we HAVE to be related.... somehow!! haha!
from magda1ene :
hey. i saw in your profile that you are bipolar, and my curiosity was piqued. i was diagnosed a few months ago, and i am still kind of new to the whole thing. so i started reading and was relieved to find so many similarities . . . i guess i was afraid that some of the things i have been experiencing were part of some ominous, incurable personality defect. i also read somewhere that the average bipolar person gets off their meds seven times before they really balance on it and everything returns to some semblance of "normal." so it's comforting to know that i am not alone, and you gave me that. i just wanted to say thanks.
from untame-able :
She's a lot lot better now, thank you. It helps.
from sampsman :
just wanted to wish ya good luck tonight. I'm sure you'll do great.
from emogrrrl :
that's fucken bullshit. why would anyone say something that cold to you. i think a diaryland beatdown of this mofo is in order
from gemini-tiger :
oops! There some typos in my last guestbook entry, cuz i was typing quickly...here is the corrected version...sorry again! I'm feeling like a typing goober!!! :) "i was afraid i came off wrong with my last guestbook entry and i think i was right in thinking so, so I apologize...it's easy to come off funny or alittle tilted in typed words...and certainly while your response seem to address some of my own issues, it almost felt like a rebuttal - that's what made me feel like my intentions were misunderstood, so with that said, i apologize. i guess if anything, what i was 'trying to say" was that i identified with the fact that it had a powerful impact on you to address it with an anniversary note. words just seem to get in the way." sorry again. fingers got in the way that time!
from emogrrrl :
good luck girl. no matter what happens, i'll be here for ya :)
from trinnytrin :
hey--I'm bi too, which seems like no biggie to me at this point, i mean i am off meds and feeling pretty balanced even though things kinda suck. i think that bi poles are more creative and interesting as long as they're not manic-manic people make me uncomfortable. anyhow, just wanted to thank you for being so upfront. oh, and by the way, doesn't kimya dawson rule??!! ;) xo Trin
from ms-ashlynn :
hey, thanks for saying that you liked the new layout- i found it somewhere, and fell in love with it- I think its me too. You should do a 50, or 100, or 200 things about you. Its like you remember the silliest little things about yourself, and its cool to read about them later. Anyways, good work and good luck with the business.
from sampsman :
Wow, you should get a job with the Ohio Visitors Bureau! Seriously, I know cleveland is a hell of a town, my comment "mistake by the lake" was more of an inside joke I have with my friend Megan (who is a talented metal sculptor). To tell you the truth, the city is only two and a half hours from where I live, and next to Toronto, it is probably the most happening town within three hours from my current residence (even better than Pittsburgh). Would I move to Cleveland? Hell yeah I would, but I'm afraid I'd get my ass kicked when if they find out my dirty little secret - I'm a steelers fan (shhh). - sampsman
from me-me-meee :
I just had a thought. It never occured to me before now, but did you know that this is Carla, aka bi-n-proud? There's a lot of people who don't realize its me since I moved.
from emogrrrl :
yes. i am absolutely against war at this time. especially now that they have found wespons in iraq. i don't think iraq is going "play" as nice as they did the last time. i also have this odd feeling that saddam and osama are in this "destroying america" thing together. i am a repub - but i am thinking of switching honestly. bush is slowly destroying this country every day. i don't know that i like him. he was in scranton today (scranton is 20 minutes from here) discussing the doctor crisis in pa. doctors are leaving the area left and right because insurance premiums have gone too high with all of this medical malpractice bullshit. there are talks of putting "caps" on how much victims of malpractice can get - like other states have a 250,000 cap. the lawyers in the area obviously HATE this idea. and therein lies the problem - which is why bush came to scranton. I don't really know what he is going to do - if anything to put in place the "cap" people would have to vote on it as a referendum in the next election (only after it passes the state house or whatever). we are talking years here for relief. i don't see why bush coming to pa is going to fix anything quick. as far as the contractors - i didn't hear anything about that yet. i'll be sure to watch the WNEP news tonight (i don't always catch the news at night) and see what the story is. i'm kind of curious myself :)
from me-me-meee :
Well, I tried to join the ring but I didn't join fast enough or something and I didn't get the promised email. I was feeling a bit manic that day and got into shopping fever so I bought it, but I woulda bought it for you even if I wasn't manic. I'm glad you liked it. No worries about getting back to me. I'm just happy you're happy with it. I'm reading Fast Food Nation right now, myself and it rocks. P.S. I think you're pretty cool yourself!
from lovely-freak :
thank you!
from bacon-bits :
Excellent brownies indeed. That was a good one. -Derek-
from ms-ashlynn :
*hugs* dont you wish there was this great big arrow that would blink and make noise when the right one came along?? and a big X that would sit squarely on the faces of the nonos..I do. Take care of yourself sweetie.
from xbabygrrlx :
i admire you for sharing your stories, for being so open and honest. one day, i hope i have the courage to do so myself....
from sampsman :
thanks for the message. I must admit, a lot of your entries are extremely thought provoking. It takes a lot of courage to reflect on things in our past that are difficult to think about, let alone write down. Thank you for giving us a glimpse into your life. What this world needs is more bipolargirls.
from eternalcalm :
you have been linked @ http://eternalcalm.diaryland.com/read.html. take care!
from openthegate :
just dropped in to say nice diary
from sponge22bob :
I vote, "Catch Me If You Can". I haven't seen it yet,but we will soon. It should be out where ever you are,it's been out since Christmas Day over here,and all around America I think.
from emogrrrl :
i sent an email to your account listed at diaryland. I did up a crappy banner for you for clix, check it out. oh and btw, thanks for the bday love :) when is yours?
from untame-able :
Thank you for your praise, and I agree. It's so nice to have someone to have intelligent conversations with, even over the internet. :-D
from xbabygrrlx :
yup, i survived the whole fam-damily! LOL! i like cheese too. happy holidays!
from ms-ashlynn :
*HUGS*
from ms-ashlynn :
No, I have never seen vanilly sky. I will rent it soon. Thanks for your nice comments, i make a lot of mistakes i know, but writing does make me feel better. And he was the real thing i was just too silly to realize it.
from untame-able :
Anytime, and thank you. Support is always appreciated
from xbabygrrlx :
thanx for the note! the meds i take are remeron, topamax and depokene (that ones an anti-convulsant...not sure why but it helps me with my bipolar). my doc tried me on effexor, but that didnt do a damn thing. i love mazzy star. i like the song ride it on. she rocks! and yes, things are much better since this weekend. i remembered to take my meds, so im doing MUCH better! and YES, we bipolars MUST stick together! take care and stay real!
from untame-able :
Just thought I'd leave you a note telling you that you're loved. A lot. Smile!!
from sponge22bob :
hey! thanks for adding me to your fave list and to your links! I'm honored! lol,that's crazy that your meds cost that much! Mine cost about $10,but they don't even work! Plus,i don't even take them. Not like anyone CARES! hahaha...are you really bi like ghostie thinks? lol, no offense or anything,i'm just wondering. I have at least 2 mental illnesses,so don't blame me for being stupid! hahaha...i'm going to go watch cartoons! *skips* *trips* *laughs* *gallops* *dies* *giggles*
from ghostie :
I like bi girls because when girls kiss other girls it is really sexy! Seriously!
from sponge22bob :
Hi, you probably don't know me, but you've been on my fave diary list for a few weeks now (well,at LEAST 2,lol), and I just wanted to say that I'm an addicted reader to your diary, and every time i see it's updated, I check it out. I have depression to, but I'm not sure it's bipolar. I'm also a friend of camuijrock19. She rocks doens't she? lol, well contact me if you can, just wanted to let you know. your an awesome person, i mean lookat all these notes! lol, i wish people liked me like they do you :(
from bacon-bits :
It's my birthday, and yours too. Happy Birthday. And I'm glad everything is going so well for you now. -Derek-
from mixup :
Hi -- just took your survey. Good one.
from neon7c :
ooooh. definately email me his pic!!!! :) once i actually get some of john, i'll email them to ya! :)
from neon7c :
hey hon, if you need anything, email me, ok? i'm here for you if you need.
from neon7c :
oooh. boy updates. you gotta love it. :) but honestly, i can't possibly rock as much as you, m'dear. you rock supremely.
from architect :
Hey kiddo, looked at your wishlist. So much good stuff! Wilco, Robbins, Palaniuk, Vanilla Sky, Steal This Book! Great taste c! If you send me your address by e-mail, then expect a tape full of Tupelo and other great stuff. [email protected] architect
from neon7c :
ps - did you head they're making a movie about sylvia plath? gweneth is playing sylvia...
from neon7c :
coming from you...that is the best compliment i could get. ((((HUGS))))). thx sweetie!
from kimyadawson :
charlene, i will send the stuff tomorrow. will someone be able to give them to you in the crisis center? at least the book. i wrote a little book. i think it will help.
from proofrok :
hey-you may know about this site, but thought I'd share anyway. Go to http://bipolar.about.com and click on forums. Read the message boards. There are some very good people there.
from sampsman :
thanks for your comments. I appreciate them. I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. My grandfather had terminal cancer. I lived with him growing up, he was my first roomate... and even though I wasn't there when he left, I know everything was still alright. "Charish the time you spend with the old, for your future memories will be more valuable than gold" . . . or something like that. - J
from architect :
i *will* make you a tape, it'd be full of kickass rockanduhroll... if you can give me some kind of a neutral address to send it to. i own far too many CDs. love your work.
from aphro-disiac :
why is there a pic of an MRT station?
from kimyadawson :
email me [email protected] i would like to send you some stuff i think you might like.
from blueeyes87 :
yummmm... that food sounds yummy!
from proofrok :
I think I'm an idiot. I left the note meant for you at someone else's site altogether. C'est la vie...thanks for adding me to your favorites. I enjoy reading your frank journey into yourself and through this life.
from bi-n-proud :
Your banner caught my attention and I thought I'd drop in. I haven't read a whole lot yet, but I plan to. I wanted to say I'm sorry about your dad and the breakdown. You are NOT fat, though, even in the pictures on your photos page. Good luck with the lawnboy, and if all else fails, it sounds like he has a nice chest so you'll have something to look at.
from mbenigni :
Never signed another journalist's guestbook before, but it's hard to ignore a banner at the top of the screen reading "BiPolarGirl" when you share that fate. (Well, I suppose I am better described as BiPolarMan...) Haven't had a chance to read any past entries but saw immediately that we have more than a bit in common. I thought I'd say hello. Perhaps I'll write again when I've read more and have more to say. For now, best of luck to you.
from emogrrrl :
Hello, I think that I maybe have bipolar disorder, but my doctor doesn't seem to think so, he just thinks i'm depressed. Is there anyway to know for sure. I figured you'd probably have some good advice. Thanks, Michelle
from sampsman :
dig your entries. especially "Magnolia, Part 2." Simply Gorgeous, since I've had a similar experience. Thanx
from pthm :
i miss reading you, but i'm knowing, and i'm hoping that life is just going so well for you that you are too busy, and don't need to write here. love and light.
from architect :
Thanks for *your* kind words again. I'm in love with the diary. It's just phenomenal. (and you're on my profile.) keep going, never give in or give up, only give out.
from is-this-me :
Hey there, I am so glad things are going so well for you. You sound truly happy right now. Keep up the Great attitude, it fits you well. Bye for now, Sappy
from pthm :
yeah, one of the next tattoos i really want to get is just a simple solid black outline of a spider, no details, about the size of a quarter on my head, so that you could only see it if i shaved me head, i don't know why though, not yet anyway.
from architect :
Wow. I just found your site through the members newly updated directory. You're ruddy amazing. I just want to offer support somehow, so many of the diarists here have been broken. Just to let you know I love your work. Make waves with the poetry etc. You've got talent. Oh, and I love Coupland and Magnolia too. Check out my profile. You're in my prayers. architect
from is-this-me :
Love the new design. Reminds me of the Bart station in California....made me think of home. Bye for now, Sappy
from myxsecret :
i love damien jurado.. and that song.
from be-my-heroin :
thank you so much for your support. you are such a beautiful person. hugs and stitches - - - jen
from mnemonia :
You managed to find the perfect thing to say. Thank you.
from myxsecret :
i'm doing pretty good. i finally can check my email and update my diaries! i still have entirely too many things to unpack and organize. i've been avoiding my "issues" like the plague :) i have to catch up on reading your diary. i hope all is well with you.
from untame-able :
Yes, it is me, I am making a clandestine diaryland hit from the library. Thanks for the kind note, I will be fine. I think the worst thing is not having diaryland to force my emotions onto now. For that I actually have to break out my paper diary, which is goregous but under-exposed for me. Well. I have to leave, but keep me in your prayers. Or thoughts. Whatever
from pthm :
tattoo is healing nicely now, i'll try and get a picture of it available for viewing somehow... if you want to know what is up with stasha contact me privately through email
from xnotlikeyoux :
thanks same to you
from pthm :
you do rule
from untame-able :
I haven't left you a note in ages, so I decided to drop a line. I miss you when you dont' update and hope you are feeling ok. Get a hug. Love!
from pthm :
i was glad to see you posting again, but very angry when i read what brought you back. i wish there was something i could do to make it better, i honestly do, i hope things get better soon, you deserve better.
from pthm :
you haven't updated in a week, are you okay?
from untame-able :
I really feel that any guy that feels that he has to give up a part of himself to feel whole, really need to get back to himself and discover hiss own true beauty and wholeness. Which is what I try to do but rarely succed. Merci for the note, it is nice to be understood when for the most part I feel as if I am speakng in a different language most of the time. I do not plan to relinquish my hold on peter for quiet a while, he is far to big a resource for me to refuse. Good night and sleep well, ma copine.
from pthm :
sorry, I kind of ignored your request... when I write something, like, when I need to express myself, and get something out, that is enough. say for instance, in a letter to someone, so if for some reason it turns out the letter doesn't get to it's recipient, I don't care, I let it go. and i'm good. so I do still have that email I set you, but I'm just not that big on it, or what I said, but I'm thinking I may incorporate it into a post in my diary. but i'm all right, i'm pretty good, and I see that you really are on that path too, keep yourself going, know that no matter what it feels like, you are a powerful, wonderful person capable of anything, keeping flying.
from quickening :
I am touched by your words to me. I have never be confident in my creativity and it is very nice for others to reaffirm that. I'm also glad that you enjoy my diary and that you can relate to me. I definitely know how it is to run out in an anxiety attack, and how to close yourself off. I have gone though times of agoraphobia. It's great that you have a close family to help you though the touch times and share the good ones with as well. Take care and thanks again :)
from untame-able :
thank you for your note. I really enjoy reading your diary and try to send you good healing energy and love whenever I can. Love 'n light, Stasha
from katiebella :
Hey! Thanks for your note. It was definitely a comfort since I am in one of those all over the map places right now and feeling literally crazy. I don't know... sometimes I feel like when your moods are changing quickly, even if the extremes aren't as far apart, it can be more maddening than being either stricktly up or down. I can definitely relate to what you said about some people viewing you one way and others another and it is good to hear someone articulate that feeling. I have mad amounts of reading to do for tomorrow, since I haven't had my shit together at all this week, but I managed to read a bit of your diary and really liked it. I will definitely be back when I have more time!
from pthm :
hey, after you wrote that note in my diary, i went straight to your's. i wrote a long email to you, never knew if you got it, i still don't but basically, i get a lot of new strength from you. i'm manic, but at the very low end of the spectrum, i guess i'm lucky. you've had it so much harder, such horrible things i will never be confronted with, but you have the strength to go on.... yeah, thankyou for your words.
from smash-bleach :
thanks for joining the stop the war ring.
from greengrl :
Wow. That dream was brutal. There's a diaryring called "the survivors" you might want to check out. I belong as well. It's for survivors of rape and abuse. Hang in there...
from alphahelix :
hey bud, check this out. http://www.dreammoods.com/commondreams/teeth.htm
from alphahelix :
what's up? this outpouring of your thoughts, etc, is impressive, and i like it a lot, maybe we could converse by email...feel free to drop by my inbox at [email protected] or you can send me yours sometime soon. -peace
from alphahelix :
hey chica, i searched under "dream interpretation" on yahoo. i don't know if this bit of info applies directly to you or your life situation now, but whatever. keep writing :) -alphahelix LOSING TEETH Dreams about teeth falling out are quite common and can mean one of two things. The first is to do with having children. The other thing it can indicate is that you are in a situation where you cannot assert yourself. For example, if you work for somebody who is overbearing and your right to be assertive is not catered for.
from alphahelix :
hey again. i think that was such a cool thing of you to do. while it's awesome and totally unexpected in our day and age to display pure generosity, it's also sad that so many people would have just looked the other way. i wish there were more people out there like you, who see paying $2.99 for a pie as such a small and simple way to really help out a stranger and make their day brighter. life is full of unexpected trials and tribulations, and showing kindness is one of the noblest traits of all. kudos to you, and i hope things continue to look up. au revoir.
from alphahelix :
hey there, liked reading your journal. i'm the same way with getting high, i love to smoke pot. but what i've found is to find what you really want to be doing, what you really want to experience, and let that consume you. i know this seems a little contradictory if you read my journal entries, but oh well. i'd use drugs to fill some void inside myself, because i felt so empty and had no one to relate to or trust in. then i found my boyfriend, jared. other shitty boyfriends give "guys" a bad name, but jared makes me rethink the entire male population. he and i occasionally smoke together, i know, but i've realized what i'd really been looking for this whole time was a human interaction, a human moment or the intimacy of another person. my friend melissa once said: "to fight the nightmares, you must live in your fantasy." i like to keep that in mind day to day. i just realized how long this is: apologies. just wanted to offer a word of solace, peer to peer. keep up the journal entries, when i write i find it incredibly cathartic. later, alphahelix.

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