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from captainron :
If you lived near by, I'd be too distracted to do house stuff... :-)
from captainron :
If you wouldn't mind, forward yoru current email address OK?
from captainron :
Man� Well first of all I�m glad your back. I�ve missed you. You�ve always had a nice big spot in my heart and you always will. With that being said, you were right in your remarks. You knew how I�d feel about the present situation. You deserve better� Staying someplace just for the money isn�t the right thing. You deserve somebody who cares about you and that loves you back. Life is too short to be in the wrong place> But you already know all that, so I won�t preach. Just know that if you ever need it, you�ve got a shoulder to lean on any time. Oh and BTW, you can only get to notes if you have a profile. Feel free to drop me a note any time. Love you Ron
from good-lace :
Hey girl. Just found your note. We're gettin along, but nothing is normal here, yet. Don't know if it will ever be. I think about you often. Drop a line whenever you get a chance.
from good-lace :
Hey sweet girl. I've missed you like mad. I hope my head is cured enough to keep me coming back. You're all pass-worded in. Let me in!!! goodlace@hotmail or goodlace@yahoo. I check both on occasion :-)
from el-guapo :
Congrats on getting some sweet sweet bootay!
from captainron :
Oh Kels, not again.... Please feel better soon. Sometimes bad things do happen to good people.
from el-guapo :
eh, I avoid those things like the plague. Not pretty scents but those party type sales things. They scare the bejeezus out of me for some reason. Actually any kind of sales things makes me run the other way. How are things otherwise? I'm glad you are going to get a chance to see the little guy soon, that should be a lot of fun!
from captainron :
Kelly Jean, I like that. It fits... Ihope life is treating you well, you deserve it. Ron
from el-guapo :
hey sweetie, i saw the korean ladies saturday night. I tried to work my stuff with the sugar momma but they aren't hiring anyone. Sugar momma works there every day and the only other bartender besides those two is the other lady's sister.
from el-guapo :
Next time we go to that bar I'll give you a call and you can come with us. I got to warn you though, I know one of them treats their workers like shit. I tried to find the entry but one time there was hella drama at her other bar. Glasses were thrown and a knife was pulled. Being non-korean you would probably have to put up with a lot of shit just from them, let alone the Dirty Old Men that will be at the bar.
from el-guapo :
HAHAHA, I know you would like that. It's true too, I know that the person who gave that advice is really a vet. The little whore cat isn't my problem so there is no way you are getting me near her with a q-tip. I say whoever owns her has to do her. Or you can let her borrow your new toy.
from el-guapo :
Is this just a recent thing or does your roommate say that it happens all the time? My friend Brandi has a whore cat that is always yeowling and rubbing up against stuff but it's not in heat. It's just always done that. If this cat is really in heat and you want it to stop then you can just take a q-tip and help the little gal get her rocks off. This piece of advice was given on a message board by a vet too! Don't be too rough, just rub around the outside and stuff, no deep penetration is needed.
from c-h-a-o-s :
It's just hard, white plastic. What do you think?
from symbiotic :
i need your email address.
from captainron :
He was right about one thing, you aren't as special as you think you are, you are way, way, way more than that. Don't let the jerks of the world get you down Kels, they are not worth the time spent wasted thinking about them. Keep looking forward and someday you'll find what and who you want out of life. Ron
from captainron :
Congrats to you too. Don't spend the whole budget on batteries :-)
from el-guapo :
hahaha, i'll have to bust out the iBrator commercials that I have on discs somewhere.
from symbiotic :
you'll have to let me know if the rabbit is worth it. i've thought about getting it, but it's so expensive.
from captainron :
Usually being alone is still better than being where you are not wanted or don't want to be. Make the best of it Kels and have a wonderful Christmas. Ron
from el-guapo :
thanks for the text message this morning.
from captainron :
{{{{{hugs}}}}} Wish you were closer, I'd take you to lunch :-)
from captainron :
Awww, sorry you aren't feeling well. Wanna be sniffle buddies? :-)
from good-lace :
I can never get used to the games people play on the internet. I used to think that by the time the internet got "old" and the initial users grew-up, that the bullshit would stop. But, it seems that players are players, and the internet just broadened their fucked up world. I'm sorry that ass wipe got Danny involved. That's about the lowest a person can go. God don't sleep, I say. What goes around, comes around. Your sweetness makes you such an idiot magnet, but then the idiots tend to take sweetness for weakness. Then they're caught everytime.
from captainron :
I love you Kels :-)
from el-guapo :
Blah! Poocake has been saying it for quite some time now, this internet thing is something else. It has opened up a whole new can of worms. Information is out there now about everyone and that information can have drastic effects on people's lives. I know that a lot of the hurt that I feel in my situation comes from information that I would not otherwise have if it wasn't for it being posted on the internet. You start to ask yourself if ignorance is bliss but I find it hard to accept just not knowing when it is so easy to know the truth.
from symbiotic :
thanks for calling today! what'd you go to the emergency room for?
from symbiotic :
happy birthday a few days late! i hope it was good and you got lots of good presents.
from symbiotic :
i have notes turned on! they're just still on my old acct. name (monica1110)
from el-guapo :
myspace has been wonky lately
from el-guapo :
I was out in Turlock but things came up and I had to come back home.
from el-guapo :
I'll poke around and see what I can find. I thought I had an old 56K modem laying around somewhere.
from el-guapo :
I'll try not to embarass you too much with my monkey moves. Where are you staying on Saturday night?
from el-guapo :
I didn't find a guest list on the website for 1015, but i'm down anyway.
from el-guapo :
Considering the high probability of BS when people write stuff like what IslandGrl wrote back to me, I'm trying to avoid the temptation to look at her myspace and friendster profiles.
from el-guapo :
ack
from captainron :
I'll keep my fingers crossed you and btw, it wasn't my feet you smelled.
from el-guapo :
That is real shitty about your living situation hun. I hope it all works out for the best. Like I've said before dont overlook Turlock as a place to live. It's cheaper than Modesto and probably Manteca. It's as far away from Modesto as Manteca is too. I'm going to be in the area on the 14th for my best friend's birthday. Wish you the best of luck with your new friend.
from el-guapo :
Thanks for the offer hun. I actually have to go to a couple of birthday parties this weekend so I won't be home much. Actually I'm going to be busy for the next 3 weekends. I was going to invite her along for a few but now I think I'll just stop initiating any contact or offers to hang out. If she wants to kick it with me she'll have to let me know, if not then I guess I am free to do whatever I want.
from el-guapo :
How the hell did I never know about that restaurant?
from el-guapo :
sawwy :(
from captainron :
Kels, the web site for the picture is down. :-( Btw the new work email is Ron@designers(removethis)groupint.com Sounds like you had fun at the slides and after. Happy Hump day!
from el-guapo :
hey, is mya a petite brunette from Oakland?
from el-guapo :
Yeah, it probably won't be a good idea for kids to be near the camp site. There is going to be a lot of drinking and some of the self-invited people are most likely turn it into a smoke fest. I didn't know Little D was back.
from el-guapo :
Hi Kellybelly, The Funk is putting on a big camping trip up to Lake Berryessa this Saturday. As with most things put on with The Funk it will be big and overblown. He says he is taking a generator, karaoke machine, and way more food than is necessary. I wasn't planning on going because some of the guys that are going are creeps and I prefer not to be around them, but if you and your friends want to go let me know. He has two big lots at the lake so there should be plenty of room.
from good-lace :
Kel, the dude admitted to being a dick. Take it for face value. "Scum" is used generically by bottom dwellers who don't have the ability to articulate hurt feelings. He wanted more, you didn't. Simple as that. Chalk it up to further education. Oh, by the way, congratulations on school. You're kicking some serious butt.
from el-guapo :
Congrats on the whole school thing and good luck on your exam. I loved my philosophy classes in college. My friends are having an "adult" bbq/swim party on Saturday in Turlock. "Adult" doesn't mean naked hanky panky, just that no kids are allowed.
from captainron :
The difference between school then and school now is before you had to go, now you are going because you decided to. It makes a world of difference. I coasted through HS, but absolutely destroyed college. I was paying for it damn it and I was going to get As. And so I did and so will you. Love ya me
from good-lace :
What a chicken shit bastard your room mate turned out to be. I can't believe he's putting you through this drama and isn't even decent enough to tell you why. Girl, you do run across some ass-wipes.
from captainron :
Awww. I am so sorry.... Your string of luck lately has been like mine, all bad. I'll try and send some good vbes your way. Hang in the lady.
from captainron :
Why do you need to move Kels? What's up?
from good-lace :
Kel, did I miss something? I thought you had moved in with your parents. What's up with that?
from symbiotic :
babe, that sucks. what's going on??
from el-guapo :
Crank isn't going to help anything hun. That's a shitty situation to be in. Check out Turlock for a place to live, it's just as far from MJC as most of Oakdale and it's still cheap.
from nocompromise :
i don't get it, you just moved in. why do you have to move out now?
from el-guapo :
sorry I didn't meet up with you guys last night. I spent the night with IslandGrl,
from captainron :
I really can't understand why anybody would ant to hurt you on purpose. I just don't get it.
from laura-diane :
hey hun, thanks for leaving a note. un: diaryland pw: password
from el-guapo :
KELLY LOOK AT THIS! http://forums.vwvortex.com/zerothread?id=1356262
from symbiotic :
hey! i emailed it to you at nakiebutt. email me at monica1110 at diaryland dot com and i'll send it to you.
from symbiotic :
oh fuck! i forgot that i was even hosting that for you. do you need me to email it to you?
from el-guapo :
honey, he's going to see a lot more of that living out there. I swear those squirrels commit suicide. Whatever you do, do not swerve if one of them runs out on the road in front of you. That goes for all the other small animals that are out there like rabbits, racoons, cats, dogs, and frogs. It's better to plow them over then swerve and end up in a ditch with a piece of fence post poking in one side of you and out the other with barbed wire all tangled up in your hair. The only animals that you want to swerve for are horses and cows, and believe me you'll see a few of those on the side of the road with their feet sticking straight up in the air too.
from captainron :
What kind of person thinks suffering animals are cool?
from good-lace :
I think it's totally under handed for a real life person to spy on our diaries. It has made me dummy up because I "think" someone is spying on me. Pisses me off.
from el-guapo :
our weenies make us stupid sometimes. watch this and forget about boys: http://servinitup.com/videos/240z.mpeg
from c-h-a-o-s :
new username/password. peace/mercutio.
from el-guapo :
hey, the moldy oldies are driving down to san simeon again next weekend, wanna go? HAHAHA. Actually I don't know if I'll even have my Vette back that weekend or not. :(
from good-lace :
I always wondered how some people could be stinking and not smell themselves. I can't imagine that I could smell like ass and not know it. Just grosses the fuck out of me.
from symbiotic :
i just found this website www.nami.org and they have local chapters, so i was thinking you could get in touch with them, and they might know how you can work with the school sys. to get danny proper care. http://www.nami.org/Template.cfm?Section=Your_Local_NAMI&Template=/CustomSource/AffiliateFinder.cfm&State=CA
from symbiotic :
in a regular case, i would totally send a letter and withhold rent. but we don't have a lease, so technically, i don't think i can withhold rent because if i did, she could kick us out. although she couldn't really kick us out because without a lease, squatter's rights can be used, but it's all very complicated. it's not that she's trying to be a bithc, i don't think. she just barely understands english. i've got to find out if my roommie is going to be aroudn next week during the day and leave a note threatening to move out or somethign if this is not taken care of soon.
from bobrules :
Man...that Danny kid is cute. Hold on to that one.
from el-guapo :
It was a broken sink so they decided to shut the water to that pipe and fix it after everyone leaves. People were going apeshit after I let everyone know.
from ilovemy240z :
No... mine usually don't have any smell at all. They're usually just loud, like foghorns. But lately, omg! It's enough to make ME gag, and they're comin outta my own butt. lol
from good-lace :
...and my farts smell like roses. Silly girl. Doesn't all farts stink?
from el-guapo :
Don't we all need some of that?
from el-guapo :
can i pick up my sunglasses tonight or tomorrow morning? I don't know what i'll be doing for my vacation but if the weather is nice it will involve a lot of driving.
from ilovemy240z :
Yeah, and maybe a diff room, too. Gahhh. Sorry I wasn't there.
from good-lace :
I went into opti at 8:37 Central Time (my time) but I won't be around later. Maybe we should try contacted whoever we're still in touch with to do that like on Friday or Saturday night.
from el-guapo :
I'll get my thong ready for frolicking on the beach.
from symbiotic :
love the yugioh! what a great mommy.
from c-h-a-o-s :
passworded now. username "tied" password "up"
from el-guapo :
Don't feel like a failure, hun. You have to do what you feel is best for the both of you and there is nothing wrong with that. Kids always act "better" around the grandparents. You might want to look into different resources outside of Kaiser. There may be some county services but one place most people don't think to look are local universities. The psychology departments almost always have services available free of charge in the name of education and research. We have two world class universities within driving range, Stanford and UC Berkeley.
from el-guapo :
I'll let you know how it is tomorrow. I hope it's cool. For some reason I keep having a feeling that it will be filled with people who are more used to hanging out at bars than a club and will act accordingly. I hope i'm wrong. Your gay friend will have to find someone else to dance with though, I only dance with gay men at the company christmas party.
from good-lace :
No one could ever understand that little community we had. About 2 weeks ago Sam and I went into Opti and we just freaked out at the ignorance of the people. Pol did pop in and Phantom. It was so cool to see them, but it'll never be the same. My surgery is March 12th. I'll let you know the results as soon as I can. I'm scared shitless, girlfriend.
from good-lace :
Oh my God, Kelly. I absolutely appalled at the way they are treating Danny. Doesn't anyone in that school have any fucking sense? The thought of your baby in hand cuffs makes me sick to my stomach.
from el-guapo :
I hope that kaiser doesn't deny the weekly therapy sessions. If they do there are always county resources you could look into. I wish you the best hun.
from good-lace :
That just really sucks. I feel so bad for both of you. There must be an answer.
from el-guapo :
damn, being a kid who holds the detention record at Julien Elementary and was the child they invented "in-house" suspension for I would like to offer some advice. Of course you are going to be upset about the suspension and whatever the "reason" it was for, but what is more important is finding out the real reason for the suspension. On the outside I was a fuckup for no apparent reason, but the truth was that I was really mistreated by my peers and in my opinion by the adults at the school who should have prevented it. In my eyes I was in a no win situation and as a kid that's a hard thing to come to terms with. Of course everything I did was only making it rougher for me but no one sat me down and logically explained it to me. No one talked to me about how to turn things around for myself. Danny is a bit younger than I was when i was getting into trouble so it might be harder to get him to understand that things can change for the better.
from ilovemy240z :
Oh, and plus, I think that the Yahoo maps estimate is way off. It says an hour and five minutes to Merced from Mariposa, when really it only takes me 40. Hehe. So I think I could do Turlock in an hour. Remember, I don't drive like grandma. (Or a Monkey behind the wheel of a 'Vette. Haha.)
from ilovemy240z :
You're a sweetheart, xoxo. Who needs a job though when I'll have unemployment? :D I can't work AND go to school, that would be too rough on the Danno.
from el-guapo :
I was just letting you know because you said you might go to school in turlock (csu, stanislau?) and driving from mariposa to turlock might get a bit tough. You would probably be able to swing a job, school, and a nice apartment in turlock.
from ilovemy240z :
Luis... I mean I don't WANT to rent anymore. I want something to call my own. =) Dee, wow! Cool! I think he meant four years of school total, I have no clue. That's still four years I'll be investing in my education. I can't wait!!!! Hehe
from good-lace :
You don't need a 4 yr. degree to be an R.N. You need 2 yrs. in collage for maths and sciences. Then 2 yrs. in nursing school, where you also get on the job training. My best friend is an R.N. and that's how she did it, and she's making about $80,000 per year, and that's not over time:-)
from el-guapo :
turlock is a pretty cheap place to live. My parents rent out their two bedroom house with a huge back yard for like $400 a month. If I could find a very nice job there I would move back and live like a P.I.M.P.
from celestine :
hehe...thanks...I might just do that sometime.
from celestine :
Thanks for letting me know the password, Kel. I know I'm really slack about updating my own diary, but I still read yours (and Dianna's and Sam's etc.) regularly. I wish nothing but the best for you and Danny. You're a terrific mum and I know that you'll find a way to help him. There's plenty of parents out there that don't even CARE...so you're already ahead of the game *hugs*.
from ezi :
puzzles and books are my nephew's favorite toys (he's 2)
from ilovemy240z :
Hey guys, it's been locked up! Email me for the password if I haven't already given it to you...
from el-guapo :
I hope everything turns out alright for you and Danny. I know how much it sucks to feel all alone as a kid and how much of a difference it can make to have even just one friend to play with.
from ilovemy240z :
Thanks for all the support, guys. *hugs*
from ezi :
I hope you and your son get the help you guys need.
from good-lace :
A 6 yr. old threatening to bring a gun? They have gotten so out of hand with their "standard procedure" bullshit. Danny really just sounds frustrated. You're doing the right thing by bringing him to therapy. What else can a parent do? I absolutely hate the new school operating procedures.
from princesscris :
Hey! I thought this might help you understand WHY they would take a threat from even a 6 year old seriously. I am not, however, saying that this is what your son would do, so I hope you're not mad at me for it. http://search.csmonitor.com/durable/2000/03/02/p2s1.htm
from el-guapo :
heeheehee
from ilovemy240z :
What a jackbutt! (this is the New-Kelly [TM], trying not to curse, lol)
from el-guapo :
He sent me an email letting me know that he would like to punch me in the face. The only place my email address is readily available is from diaryland so I figured someone here knows him or something.
from ilovemy240z :
Not offhand, why? A few years ago, when ex-roomie #1 was starting shit, she had some guy talking to me on AIM, pretending to chat me up while really he was just pumping me for info for her. His name was Eddie. And then there's my ex-fiance Eddie. But beyond that, have no clue. Why?
from el-guapo :
is this email address familiar to you? [email protected]
from captainron :
{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}
from el-guapo :
if they were Asia Carrera posters I would take them, but I'm not a big fan of Jenna Jameson. I like Bridget the Midget too.
from princesscris :
Hey! Glad You're Back!
from el-guapo :
humping frenchies is a low that we should never stoop to.
from princesscris :
Happy New Years sweets!
from el-guapo :
I should have gone with you to 1015 or the DNA Lounge. GlasKat was soooo ghetto.
from el-guapo :
that does look like a good show at 1015. I was looking at that one or the one at the DNA Lounge with Miguel Migs and some other kick ass DJs. I'm going to the GlasKat with my friends though. Have a happy and safe new year!
from ilovemy240z :
YeeeeeeHAAAAAA!!! She's back she's back she's baaaccccckkkk!!!
from dirtygirl :
hey chickey. i'm over on livejournal now under the name "thedirtygirl" - thought i'd let ya know!
from el-guapo :
Happy Holidays Kelly! I wish you and Danny the best.
from el-guapo :
the chick who makes out with me when she's drunk but doesn't acknowlege it when she's sober? My co-workers get a big kick out of that too.
from symbiotic :
you're fucking hilarious. i used to have this fantasy when of getting a flat tire and having a handsome stranger "help me out." total porno material! i find sometimes that when i take ritalin or diet pills, it helps with my depression. you may want to try it since your prozac isn't working anyway. oh, and i have a friend that i think is on effexor (that's the really strong one, right?). she's really addicted to it (like if she doesn't take it, she can't do anything and i think she gets physical side effects as well). her dr. put her on a way too high dose, but still, use caution.
from princesscris :
Good Lord Child!
from princesscris :
Hahaha! Meeee? Sent to threaten someone? Hahaha! If you really want to get your money you better find someone more threatening. I'm probably the last person capable of doing this job lol. I'm such chicken shit it's not funny.
from princesscris :
Maybe you should have someone with a bat deliver that letter to the stupid whore! Hee hee maybe then you'll have your money that same day!
from ilovemy240z :
I know! Isn't that crazy shit! lol. I'm ok, just really sore and annoyed. The car is ok, just a buncha paint scraped on the bumper where her car hit me. Thanks sweety. lol. Glad you got a laugh out of the ass part. I was SO embarrassed, especially since this guy I'm working for wants to go out with me. He's the one I was going to rent the two rooms from in Warm Springs before Frankie moved back... and so goes the story... lol...
from el-guapo :
oh my god, on the one hand I am totally concerned about how you are after the accident and how your car is but on the other that pants ripping ass popping out is hilarious! You can't pay for that kind of entertainment. Hope you feel well soon.
from princesscris :
Same in the end is the best song on the s/t. But my favorite will always be DON'T PUSH. But overall, anything by Sublime rules! (In case you haven't figured it out they're my favorite) Thanks for all the notes. :)
from el-guapo :
things were going great until her ex-boyfriend called and played the cock blocker. He made a big stink and threatened to cut off their friendship so she wanted us to be "just friends" for his sake. Fuck that. The details are here: http://el-guapo.diaryland.com/thirdwheel.html . We have spoken on the phone and we were even going to go out again but she faked big time ane now I don't even bother wasting my time calling her.
from el-guapo :
damn, tiny wieners get no love...DAWG. :P
from princesscris :
hahahaha! Go 'head and get your Kool-Aid smile on girl! :)
from princesscris :
Hola lady. Thanks for the invite. You're much to kind. We'll see if things settle down once my semester ends at the remedial school.
from el-guapo :
ok
from ilovemy240z :
No, NO, silly!!! This just happened on WEDNESDAY. lol. Besides, do you know anyone named Christine? How COULD that have applied to you? lol.
from el-guapo :
uh, i hope that next to last paragraph wasn't directed at me. I never expected anything on that weekend other than to hang out with a cool chick who like cars as much as I did. I probably should have made it clear that my new policy (which I will never actually stick to no matter how much shit I talk) doesn't apply to those who are fortunate enough to already be considered my friends. The friend door is pretty much closed now though to those that aren't already in.
from el-guapo :
pregnant chicks are hot, but not in a weird fetish porno type way or anything.
from el-guapo :
i never popped a boner when doing crunches. I used to get hard when I did squats though. That would have been a good time to have someone drop to their knees in front of me, although that would have also resulted in my crashing to the floor with 380lbs of weights on top of me. :P
from el-guapo :
jager schnitzle with spaetzle and a giant mug of Spaten! mmmmmmmmmmmmmm
from symbiotic :
my mom makes something like that only with chicken and it's called spaetzle. you make the dumpling stuff and run it through this thing that's kind of like a colander and out plop little noodley things. it so good.
from symbiotic :
so, i generally stay out of other people's parenting things. but i was on ritalin for 12 years, and if there's any way to deal with the add without that, please try it first. also, there is a new drug out called strattera (look it up on webMD to find out more about it) that seems like it's turning out to be a pretty effective non-stimulant based adhd treatment. my two cents as someone with ADHD. i understand it helps in school when alternative teaching methods aren't possible, but if you end up having to use a stimulant-based treatment, please try to use it sparingly.
from princesscris :
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from el-guapo :
yes kelly, you are the only girl who has been in my car while on the freeway who has not bitched about me driving too fast. I will correct my mistake in the next entry. There is a really cool guy who cuts my hair here in fremont. He is very good. You might want to call him and ask him how much he would charge for a straightening treatment. If you want i'll give you his number.
from el-guapo :
David Morales is spinning at Ruby Skye this Saturday. I would go but I have a date, but it should be an awesome set.
from symbiotic :
i'd die if i had to get up at 430 every morning.
from symbiotic :
i was wondering what you were doing up at 530. do you have to get up that early every day?!
from good-lace :
Happy Birthday, Kel. Sorry I wasn't online sooner to wish you a proper happy day, but the sentiments are the same. Congrats on your new apartment. I hope you find peace within.
from el-guapo :
go shawty, it's yer birfday! geez, I know so many people who have birthdays this month too. I'm going to be one broke ass fool. If I would have known your birthday was coming up I would have made you a special el guapo birthday card like I made for the poocake.
from captainron :
Happy Birthday Kels, I hope this year is lots happier than the last. {{{{Hugs}}}}
from princesscris :
Feliz Cumplea�os!
from miabogard :
monica told me to tell you happy birthday. Well, go party like it's your birfday. Oh, and I'm not a scorpio, but I know a bazillion of you guys too. Birthdays that I'm givin' a shit about this year: oct 26th, nov 3rd, nov 5th, nov 10th, nov 11th, nov 15th, nov 18th... others.
from symbiotic :
happy birthday lady!
from el-guapo :
i have to go to New York, sorry Kelly :(
from el-guapo :
blah! that totally sucks that she is married...for me at least. yeah, there are some smokin' hot indian chicks. people just don't know. I am down to help you move but I might be shipped off to New York for the weekend. I'll know later today for sure.
from el-guapo :
is your new neighbor hot?
from el-guapo :
more Z lovin: http://forums.vwvortex.com/zerothread?id=1081855
from captainron :
She thinks I'm wonderful :::happy dance::: When things get the most jumbled up for me, I make a consious effort to step back and put some time between me and the turmoil. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. {{{hugs}}}
from symbiotic :
kel, you can't take care of the whole world. what he's doing to fuck up his life is what he's doing and what he's going to do, no matter how hard you try to stop it.
from captainron :
Um, Kels, he isn't the only one who makes hasty decisions. You change tracks faster than the bullet train.
from el-guapo :
I had a great scheme for getting your stuff back for way less than you owed but I guess it doesn't matter now. I was thinking that you could have someone you knew bid on your stuff. Just tell them which storage shed or locker was yours and then they could show up to the auction and maybe even tell the other people there what was in it so they wouldn't bid. I don't know if it would have worked though. oh well.
from el-guapo :
ack, I'd help you out but i am going to be so broke it's not even funny. I had to return something today just to make sure I didn't have to live on $40 until the next payday.
from el-guapo :
lil g and me are friends, with sometimes benefits. No benefits the other day though. That's ok, i'm not the type to feel that someone has to give it up every time just because they have before.
from dirtygirl :
Hey chickey. Im confuzzled.. have you always lived in San Francisco? I was thinking New York for some reason. Ya know.. I came about two seconds away to movin there but then the job I had fell through. Ah well, you know you're the lesbian love of my life.
from captainron :
Not lovable? You're the one of the most lovable people I know :-)
from cdghost :
enjoyed reading it
from good-lace :
Good Gawd Girlfriend. Do you really need this much drama in your life? :-) It's just been one thing after the other for you lately. Lesson learned: When something is hurting that bad it's not normal. I'm happy you went to the hospital. That could have been really bad. A girl I worked with had a stroke at 22 yrs. old. She's fine now, but it was hell for her in the beginning.
from good-lace :
I'm so happy the test is negative, but what's up with boob milk? By the way, I think Frankie is one smart dude. Doing the nasty is the easiest part of a coupling. It's all the other stuff that makes the difference between a booty buddy and a relationship.
from captainron :
Please take care of yourself Kel... Love ya me
from el-guapo :
leaking boobs are icky and mesmerizing at the same time.
from princesscris :
It's a bird! It's a plane! No! It's Super Kelly to the Rescue!
from captainron :
Awwww, you can be my nurse any time
from good-lace :
If you want to know about out of body experiences, read anything by Elizabeth Kubler Ross. Freaky.
from captainron :
<sigh>
from ilovemy240z :
Bwahahahah!!! You're too funny. =�
from el-guapo :
kimona wannalaya, that's a good porno name. of course you would have to somehow convince people that your were asian, "me squeezy you rikey!"
from ilovemy240z :
Ooo Oooo Oooo! That's a fairlady Z!
from el-guapo :
SEXY ---> http://www5a.biglobe.ne.jp/~satotats/zhp/zgazou/c.jpg
from el-guapo :
that isn't The Funk but The Funk told me about that dude. He just snatched that kid right up. I missed the news story on the accident, apparently it was on channel 7 or something.
from captainron :
Thanks!!! Love ya Kels
from ilovemy240z :
lol... not just old drunk people... old drunk DANCING people! I thought that was SO cute!
from el-guapo :
if you want to see old drunk people just to go my friends bar across the street from Chabot, or go to my grandma's house.
from nocompromise :
I'm sorry. I know I fucked up. I shouldn't have eaten that much sushi. Dammit, I KNOW I FUCKED UP, BUT YOU DON'T HAVE TO CHASTIZE ME! My stomach already did! LOL (I know you weren't writing about me in the first place, I just thought this would make you smile...)
from jme-reviews :
Hi I just started a new review site named jme-reviews. If you would like to have your diary reviewed please check out my site! Thank you ! -jamie-
from captainron :
You certainly do attract some losers Kel. Sigh... Hopefully the right one will come along soon. I hate reading about the hurts and not being able to do anything about it.
from princesscris :
Good grief!!! This is the party you invited me to?! Hella drama! LoL I'm not sure I'm down for parties of that sort. Sounds scary
from el-guapo :
hey, what kind of pizza do you guys like?
from chub :
regardless of the fact that the party had such a foul turn, I had fun hanging out in the aftermath. My toes are happy. I have a mohawk now... just got it... I feel like telling people. Its awesome.
from good-lace :
I wanted to ask you this yesterday, but then I got rudely interrupted by a disconnect. Where in the fuck were the men? How can a "man" stand around and watch a couple be physically violent? I couldn't have just watched either. I understand what you did. That would be me, except he would have gotten some round house kicks to his guts.
from el-guapo :
http://forums.vwvortex.com/zerothread?id=986498
from captainron :
God Kels, sometimes your life just breaks my heart. I've said it before and I'll say it again, man you need better friends. You deserve better friends. sigh...
from chub :
So is the party still going stong or what? I got a couple of friends that hopefelly won't flake on me. I have to pass out demos at a show for part of the night so I might get there late. And you'll have to come up to me because I don't know that well what you look like. I'll make sure to cean my ugly ass toes and feet thouroughly before coming over. ok bye.
from ilovemy240z :
Hehe, I know it was a lot. No one said you hadda read the whole thing! ;) That's mostly just so I can go back later, read it, and laugh. We talk like such pigs. But really, we're not. And anyways, YES, I agree... Sam is a lil hottie. I'm SO going to enjoy making him smile at the party. Boy NEEDS to smile. I'm going to paint his toenails green! Yayyyy! Can't wait!
from symbiotic :
damn, girl, that was way too much to read. sam is HOT.
from princesscris :
Hey girl. *Hugs* I hope you cheer up soon.
from princesscris :
French is fun, I highly recommend taking a course. Ohlone (as remedial as it might be) has a pretty good French teacher. Actually that's how Chucky and I met. He's pro. I'm moving on to Italian at (the also remedial) CCSF.
from captainron :
he was right about one thing, you are beautiful :-)
from ilovemy240z :
Woooohoooo!!!! I'll have to register tonight
from el-guapo :
Hey, you should see this thread over at the VW Vortex: http://forums.vwvortex.com/zerothread?id=969397 . It's about 240z's. Believe it or not they love 240z's over there and they are always posting sweet pictures of restored ones. You can also meet some fellow VW owners as you might be one yourself soon.
from ilovemy240z :
Hahahaha, I know dude. Fucking retard. I was like, I told you. I TOLD YOU! I took some pictures of the peeps there taht night before drama happened. I should be able to get them loaded tonight or tomorrow night so you can put names with faces.
from crackheadred :
like the person before me said...thats fuckin hilarious...who puts the jack on the FLOORBOARD?? my question is...was his foot stuck the whole time that they were waiting for AAA?? if so.thats even funnier...HAHAHA
from el-guapo :
that's so damn funny that his foot got fucked up. You know whenever I change a tire I slip the old tire under the sideskirt or somewhere else. That way if the jack does slip the car will fall on the tire before crushing your foot/leg/hand. What the hell was he doing UNDER the car? Oh, if you buy that VW then you can be a part of the Bay Area VW crew (of which I am not officially a part of yet. They are just as rabid at the Corvette guys but they are not senior citizens. Good times!
from princesscris :
You're so very welcome. Have a good weekend lady.
from good-lace :
Get ye ass to the doctor, pronto! Besides, misery loves company, and man am I miserable *tears*
from ilovemy240z :
BTW, that was between August and October of 2001. ;)
from ilovemy240z :
I appreciate that you guys worry about me. *hugs* It really means a lot. But as far as Frankie, I've been where he is. I didn't call ANYONE to clue them in on SHIT. I was too busy worrying about what I was going to do. The only peopele that saw me were my parents. Ok, and my one friend that came over to help me pack up my apartment when it was timefor me to leave. I dissed the guy I was dating, because I did not have time to think about anything except where I was going to live, how I was going to take care of my kid, and how I was going to get my car fixed.
from symbiotic :
i agree with D. no matter what frankie was going through, he could have called you. don't fuck up what's going good for someone that doesn't have the courtesy to be as nice to you as you are to him.
from good-lace :
You have such a big heart, but don't let the guy who left you hanging (Frankie) ruin what you've been working on with Shaggy. I know I've told you before, but it's worth repeating, there is absolutely no excusable reason that a person cannot give another person a courtesy phone call, short of being in a coma.
from captainron :
{{{{hugs}}}} You need better friends...
from el-guapo :
i'm with you on the more people leaving the bay area thing. the more people that leave the better my chances are of being able to have a decent life here. I just need rents to drop a bit more and then I can move out on my own and never have to share a place with anyone again. Then it's naked dance party at my place every day!
from ilovemy240z :
Haahahhahah... you're funny. ;) What hormones? =�
from captainron :
Girl, you need to disconnect your hormones from your brain ;-)
from captainron :
Hmmm, I hope you never get done with me :-)
from symbiotic :
hey, i moved my gold account to my new diary, so you have to change the name in the pic on your diary to symbiotic.
from captainron :
With you around I just can't understand why somebody would be interested in anybody else.
from ilovemy240z :
Haha, I KNOW! I just noticed that shit! Arrrrghhhhh!!! Andrew needs to suck my butthole! He sure put a hitch in mah giddy-up.....
from symbiotic :
KELLY!!!!! you have to figure out a new way around the busy server.
from ilovemy240z :
I'm Henry the 8th I am, Henry the 8th I am I am... I got married to the widow next door, she's been married seven TIMES before...
from bobrules :
Thanks for the note, Kel. I'm glad SOMEBODY likes my hair. As for the unestablished Christian idea, it's a nice thought. Lots have people have tried it and it rarely if ever works. Usually, the Christian ends up being dragged down instead of the other way around. I'm all for witnessing, but a relationship isn't really the proper place for it. Even in my relationship with Carly, with us being billions of miles apart, religion was always an issue. Even if the Bible wasn't clearly against Christians dating nonChristians, it's just not a good idea. In almost every case, it will cause problems.
from good-lace :
I've never been around horses much, except old nags you rent for a day to ride trails. then I took a vacation in Dallas, and my friend had Tennessee Walking Horses. I found the beauty and power of riding them to be breath taking, even though I couldn't walk for a week;-)
from captainron :
Sorry about your horsey.... Animals become members of the family too if you let them. Sorry your mom was such a putz.
from ilovemy240z :
Nooooo, babygirl, it's not pissing me off. Don't even trip. ;) *hugs* Love ya
from good-lace :
By the way, you really need a guestbook because these little notes get out of hand fast:-)
from good-lace :
I have to tell you that the ONLY reason I was worried about you is because you immediately start talking like you have these big expectations. I've seen you do that over and over again, and get hurt over and over. You are a romantic, and your hopes hang out for all the world to see - meaning the potential guys. Most guys run from that because they don't process relationships like women do. It's not right or wrong, just different. I would never expect you, or anyone else, to approach any situation with a bad attitude, because you'll be guaranteeing failure. On the other hand, love and relationships are not dependent simply on a positive attitude because you can't control the other person's assumptions from their own baggage. All I ever wanted is for you to find a life partner, but I question your gung-ho approach to every guy with potential. You don't need me to tell you that true friendship without expectations, is where true love is found. I really wish you the best, but I get the feeling that my fear for you is pissing you off. I guess the people beside you really can give you the best advice. I'll shut up...for now :-)
from el-guapo :
tiny ezi is not my real sister :( she is my adopted sister. i wish she was my real sister though. then i could pull her pigtails and fart on her head.
from good-lace :
See? There ya go again with your honesty. I NEVER let any guy know that he tickles my fancy so quickly. Keep 'em guessing, and keep 'em coming back for more. The game is called "hard to get, and worth having." *Hugs*
from ilovemy240z :
Ron - *hugs* It's good to know that people worry and care. ;) BTW... sailboat racing? I'm jealous. Don't make it sound so much fun, or I'll be picking up another hobby I can't afford. Hehe
from ilovemy240z :
Dee - I responded to you for the most part in my entry. ;) Yes, my nature is honest in that at times my heart is - like you said - on my sleeve, but the good thing is that I don't hold back when it's brutal honesty either. I'm going to make a printout of the entry I just wrote and have him read it this weekend.
from captainron :
Yeah I care and I worry, but you're a big girl and only you can know what is and what isn't good for you. I hope this all works out. I really do... You deserve happiness and all the other good things life has to offer. Happy Monday
from good-lace :
You absolutely win the prize for wearing your heart on your shirt sleeve - "out there" for the taking. Your entry is so full of hope and excitement. I'm guessing your honest nature just doesn't allow you to hold anything back. I get scared for you. I want you to be happy.
from ilovemy240z :
Ummmmm, hmmm? What am I doing that is trashing my system? I haven't been drinking, smoking, or having sex. *shrug* Just taking care of me and Danny. ;) No worries Ron, I'm ok. But it's sweet that you care. Thanks. :) *hugs*
from captainron :
It's none of my business, but shouldn't you maybe taking it a little easy? maybe get in some rest and stuff? Cute hair or not, trashing your system really isn't a good idea... I worry
from symbiotic :
you don't owe him any explanation unless you want to give him one.
from captainron :
Well, I just wanted to say that you are the best Kel... If there is ever anything I can do for you just ask and if it is possible, it will be done. Love ya! me
from ilovemy240z :
Girl, you have no idea. Were you a reader of hers? She wrote for so very long and she's so... almost unshakeable.. it would have taken a HELL of a lot for someone to scare her off. Fuckers. She won't even answer my email now. I hope she's ok.
from good-lace :
I'm so pissed off that someone chased TranceJen away, and boy, do I ever understand. On a lighter note, you seem to be doing so much better. Keep your chin up, and don't ever stop searching for the 'right' things for your and Danny's happiness. *hugs*
from captainron :
I'm so sorry too Kel.... Sigh... I have no idea what to say here other than that I'm so glad you are OK. Damn.... {{{{hugs}}}}
from celestine :
I'm so..SO sorry, Kelly. :*( *hugs*
from good-lace :
Fuck, Kelly. I just booted my computer (11:30 pm with dye in my hair), but I'm going to try to gather my thoughts for you. Don't be in a hurry to tell him. Just focis on getting yourself better.
from ilovemy240z :
No prolem schweetyheart. ;) That's what d-landers are for! Well, you can definitely stand up for yourself. I hope you change your mind. She needs to know that her behavior in the workplace is unacceptable, regardless of how she knows you. I've tried getting my mom in trouble for harrassing me at work. lol. =D
from ezi :
Hi. Thanks for the note and words of advice. The harassment has been going on since the first day of work, but I do not speak up because not only do I have a hard time sticking up for myself, but she's said a lot of things to intimidate me. We've talked about her offensive ways, but even that she mocked. Plus, we live next-door to each other and I do not want to get on my neighbors' bad side. It's so much easier to sit there and take it. Enough about me, I liked your 'relieving shit' metaphor. (PS I think minimum wage is just under $7)
from ilovemy240z :
Yes sweety, so far doing 96% better. ;) No up-chuckies since they put me on the reglan, although yesterday was almost a bad day for me. I slept all day, almost got sick last night, so I just took my meds and went back to bed. *hugs*
from good-lace :
Are you doing better with the up-chucking? You seem to be *crosses fingers* Hope you and Danny's Easter was enjoyable. Oh, and I'd much rather clean someone else's house, but as the Captain said, the commute is a bit much hahaha
from ilovemy240z :
lol, thankee.. I wonder if it's been flagged yet? *giggles*
from el-guapo :
heehee, I liked that CL post.
from ilovemy240z :
Haha, no no hun, I'm talking about the shitheads that live within a 20 minute drive. They ALL suck. So don't feel bad! Something must be wrong with me... I'm really loved by people that are a thousand miles or more away. *sigh*
from captainron :
I don't mind hanging with pregnant ladies, but the 3000 mile commute, just to clean might have been a bit excessive... {{{hugs}}} me
from ilovemy240z :
Ummm, in case you haven't noticed, I haven't been at work in close to a month... so now that I don't have a phone for you to call me on, I take it you've tried to call me? And no, I'm not getting emails at work... try sending to [email protected].... like the link on my diary says.
from nocompromise :
hey dudette, how come ya haven't gotten back to me??? are ya not answering e-mails anymore??? WUUSSSSUUUUUUUUP?!?!?!
from el-guapo :
haha, it didn't bug me.
from celestine :
I had to have one of those internal ultrasounds a couple of months ago, too. The guy doing mine was really cute as well...and there was NObody else in the room while it was being done. I was getting all hot and laying there trying to think of anything other than what he was doing to me and praying that I wouldn't actually "get off"...lol. I wrote a diary entry about it at the time.
from symbiotic :
sorry things are going so badly. :( hugs.
from good-lace :
I don't know. I just keeping thinking that hot wax would piss me off. The ice I can deal with. It must just be me *sigh* Sorry you're in the up-chucking mode again. Poor you :-(
from ilovemy240z :
WoooHOOOO!!! hehe. THanks for the advice hun. I'll def use it! Want me to let you know how it turns out? lol
from el-guapo :
try this, handcuff him face down and then run your tongue all over his back, arms, butt legs in small circles. It will drive him crazy. Or you can do the candle wax thing first and then use the ice cube in small circles. He will squirm like a worm.
from ilovemy240z :
lol, don't even trip cutie... it's not like it was really worth my fucking time or anything. ;) *huggles*
from el-guapo :
damn girl, I wish I could go have a nooner.
from good-lace :
Thank you so much for your kind words. I guess you know this is really kicking my ass. I'm so hurt by the senselessness of the murder. I'll write more about Daniel when I can think better. Thank you for your offer. I am going off with family every night, but it truly helps to know someone is there for me. You take care of yourself. You are in my daily meditations and prayers.
from ilovemy240z :
Thanks babes, I hope so too. But I'm having a nasty feeling that they aren't.. I jsut wrote my entry about the unisom and b6... and the nausea is rising fast.. and I need to hold this shit down for 45 mins for it to dissolve. If it becomes bad enough... well, I will cross that bridge when I get to it. The kicker is, HG usually lasts to 4-5 months gestation, not 2-3 like regular sickness.
from good-lace :
That is so freakin' unbelievable. I mean how sick you get and how fast. I though morning, noon and night sickness was pretty terrible, but you don't get a respite at all. I hope the meds help you this time. Man, that sucks.
from ilovemy240z :
Good morning to you, too dear! How are you? ;)
from princesscris :
Just wanted to say Good Morning!
from symbiotic :
" but this is still ME... so why should I believe things will be any different." things can be different if you make them differnt. after all, if it's still you, that means you have the power to change them. you may as well give this guy a chance. he seems nice enough. if it doesn't work out, just rmember, it's because of him, not you.
from good-lace :
I knew you were kicking your own ass worse then anyone else could, and that's why I didn't go there. As to the rest, I'll try to write you later. Keep your chin up, and don't make any rash decisions about the boy yet.
from captainron :
Happy Monday {{{{hugs}}}}
from ilovemy240z :
Hehehe, HELL YEAH! ;)
from symbiotic :
right on! yay for figuring that out.
from princesscris :
Hey lady I'll burn you a cd! But you need mroe Dj Encore in the mix. Engelina is an angel!
from el-guapo :
hey, thanks again for the offer. I'm sure I'll be able to figure out something. I tried to edit your guestbook entry so that your phone number wouldn't show up but I can only delete the whole thing. Hope you don't mind.
from captainron :
Is there anything we can do for you Kel?
from symbiotic :
wow! i'm glad he is being so supportive. :)
from el-guapo :
The one on the corner of Fremont and Mowry? Yeah, I know where that is. I can't go anywhere though until I either get my VW back from the shop or get my Vette issues resolved. I should be good by this weekend though.
from celestine :
I don't know what to say either...so I'll just send you a {{{hug}}}.
from symbiotic :
you know, he can't really think you're stupid for getting pregnant. he had the choice to use a condom too.
from el-guapo :
I can't drink coffeee. It makes bad things come out of my but at the speed of light. I don't know where Bay St is off the top of my head but I know pretty much all the major street in Freakmont.
from ilovemy240z :
Thanks guys, but I'll be ok. ;) Love you!
from good-lace :
*Hugs* I'm at a loss for words. Damn
from captainron :
Oh Kelly... sigh Not exactly the best timing is it? Hang in there girl.
from el-guapo :
damn girl, condoms maign, condoms!
from good-lace :
I do forget to check my notes. God, I'm so sorry to hear about Mike's little brother. I pray to God they can cure him. One of my bud's has had leukemia for about 8 yrs. He's 30 now, and still in remission. The treatment today can cause miracles to happen. *prays*
from good-lace :
I love your new layout. It's so much easier to navigate. Cool beans.
from symbiotic :
hey, you don't have to make a link to me. i don't really do designs much anymore.
from symbiotic :
hey, i fucked up the older link. i forgot to put the .html after it.
from indigoangel9 :
it was a typo. it should say OUT OF the radiator. but it's said and done. they signed the papers for an aztek. they wanted to get rid of the sunfire anyway.
from indigoangel9 :
ooohhh trust me, i know my parents aren't gods. :) and i also know my mom's probably wrong about the car (it wouldn't first the first or even million time she's been wrong about something). the problem is we don't know what's wrong with it since a mechanic hasn't looked at it. i got it to the rapair shop just in time for them to put it on their lot and lack up the doors. her way with dealing with it is to think up impossible excuses, but we'll have to wait until monday to see. maybe we'll be new car shopping this week. thanks for the info :)
from symbiotic :
i'm not mad at you, silly. if it's cause i got offline right when you did, it's cause i had some work to do and was about to leave my office.
from symbiotic :
i can host an image for you. email it to me at work.
from jenne1017 :
Thanks for the guestbook entry and the support. It's so hard to separate family and bad things, you know? But I am trying...
from captainron :
Damn, I shouldn't have read that... Way too many sad memories... and yeah his vet was wrong... Mine not only let me hold him, he left us alone afterward and said to stay as long as we wished, even showed us the back way out so we didn't have to walk through the waiting room in our grief... Poor Bob...
from good-lace :
Dates are so special. Sam and I have a "date" every Saturday. It used to be dinner and a movie, or going sit out on the lake front, or anything else that is different and/or special. Now we can't eat out because of my diet, so we cook together first, then go out. I don't want to lose that specialness. It's worth the effort.
from good-lace :
I get the feeling you're enjoying the single life, nothing wrong with that. Play it by ear, and don't close any doors. "He" will come along. I've been running the streets for the last couple of weekends, but we'll talk real soon sweets. *Hugs*
from captainron :
Aww, if I could put hugs in a box, I'd send you the biggest ones OI could give. Damn, you deserve the best... Why can't it happen sooner
from symbiotic :
tape it to the toe next to it. that will help it heal properly.
from ilovemy240z :
Well, the bitch s dead... she died last summer herself, so I dunno how much more she can gt that she hasn't already gotten. ;( Thanks for the note though, luv. When are we gonna chat? *hugs and kisses*
from good-lace :
I'm so sorry you guys lost the case. All I can say is God don't sleep, and she will get hers. The Bitch.
from shutupmom :
hey nakkid butt. were like soul sisters. i brought with me some window markers with the intent of taggin every goddamn window and mirror on the west coast and saturday night we went to the arrow bar and fucked up the entire bathroom. crossed out penises and feminist quotes. hell yeah. i got your #. i wrote it down. i'll give you a call once i find a calling card or a phone with long distance on it.....p.s. im here until the 10th
from dem0nchild :
OH! and...I think Jay's either 30, or older than that. Saw it in one of his surveys...
from dem0nchild :
hey! I actually sorta knew who you were... from reading Jays profile, then clicking on your profile, I saw the thing about him being best friend with your son. so I figured you're probably really close to him. But anyway, good guess on the age...
from sezza :
hey thanks for the info, I'll be using those words. ;) And if you read my diary I just hope it doesn't bore you. ~Sarah
from ilovemy240z :
Thanks Sezza! ;) I've read a little of yours, will def read more later. ****** Dee.. have you seen American Pie? lmao. It means "Mom I'd Like to Fuck"... what they called Stifler's Mom? Hehe ****** Wooohooo *hugs* Thankee Ron, I needed that. My day is getting better, headache be damned. =� I love you guys!
from captainron :
Awww, I'm sorry... I hope the rest of your daay gets better {{{{{hugs}}}} Love ya
from good-lace :
What's a MILF? My guess - Mighty Intelligent Lovely Female ;-)
from sezza :
Hey I really like your diary, it's a good read. Just thought I'd let you know that I added you to my favourites. ~Sarah
from shutupmom :
I'LL BE LETTING YOU KNOW. SOMETIME BETWEEN FEB. 1ST AND 10TH.
from shutupmom :
yeahyeahyeah. i'll ask tim what he plans to do. i think hes thinking of renting a car and driving somewhere i forget where but i know its south. so i'm gonna keep in touch with you. is that cool? how old is your son? cuz i got me a nephew whos 4 that sounds like his soul twin.
from good-lace :
Done. I just sent it to NakieButt.
from good-lace :
Nope, it wasn't the bitch asking for forgiveness. I don't think that girl ever fessed up to doing anything wrong in her life. I just sent you a big ol email to your work addy explaining who it is. I didn't have your home one handy.
from ilovemy240z :
Monica... dude, I WISH! lol. Maybe I'll relent and meet up with him this weekend after all. Sick and all. I'm intrigued. That and I'm bored. lol. Thanks Mary! Yeah, I figured it was the Feria. That was the other color I had been thinking about doing... as I said, I was stuck between Chocolate Cherry and Blowout Burgundy. *sigh* Dee, I know, aren't they wonderful? Hehe. I love him SOoOOOO much, even though he is such a brat sometimes. I feel sometimes like I should be carryin around a freaking roll of duct tape or something. Custom fitted straight jacket. lol.
from symbiotic :
ha. he's stalking you!
from indigoangel9 :
yeah, black cherry kool aid. i was afraid of it at first, gut i've learned to not judge new hair colour within the first week of having it. it takes about a week for the colour to really settle. when i first did i was really afraid of it, but it's growing on me (no pun intended). it was feria chocolate cherry if you want to try it. ~mary
from good-lace :
OMG what a cutie you have there. I've always said God made kids so cute so we wouldn't smash them! Enjoy him while he's little. Little kids, little problems. Big kids, big problems. Amen!
from crackheadred :
thanks for leavin the note..thats cool beans that u work on ye own car...so do i..used to be cuz i couldnt afford to have the shop do it..now its cuz i love it (still cant afford it) hahaha..go look at m aol page.then click the car pick...it'll take ya to my cars page...see ya
from ilovemy240z :
Awwww!!!!! {{{{{{{Group Hugs}}}}}}} You guys too. ;) With friends like you, how could I not!!! Love you guys! =�
from good-lace :
Move over Capt. Ron ;-� I hope you have a wonderful 2003 Kelly {{{{hugs}}}}}
from captainron :
I hope you have a wonderful 2003 Kelly {{{{hugs}}}}}
from good-lace :
Having fun is a good thing. Losing site of the game plan is a bad thing. Keep your wits about you.
from ilovemy240z :
*hugs* Hey, guys.. don't worry about me. This is what I do, this is how I heal. ;) I'm dealing, trust me. Is it a bad thing that I'm being all, "I'm cute, but you can't have me" with the barflies? lol
from good-lace :
Kelly, you know that anything that easy to lose (or get) isn't worth having, right? He did you a big favor. It's fortunate you didn't invest another minute in a person who is just playing around. I don't think he didn't want you, I think it's more a matter of he don't know what he wants. The last thing a person needs is to love someone who plays the life game like a roll of the dice. "Let's see what (who) comes up next." Don't even take it personal.
from captainron :
Awww Kels......... Sigh {{{hugs}}}
from good-lace :
Being kind to you, and taking care of yourself are usually the start of good things. You can't share with others what you don't have yourself. {Hugs}
from captainron :
Too late, and... you so are... Happy Tuesday
from ilovemy240z :
Hmmmmm, that makes sense, Laura. ;) Someone else suggested that I could be a phonesex operator, which would have the bonus of being able to do my second job from home (when my son is ASLEEP, lol), so I'm trying to check that one out first. If not, my dad's an alkie, so I'm sure he could recommend places for me. lmao. And Dee, OMG... just slap some whorish ensemble from Frederick's and call me.. well... lol. 200K a year??? Dammmmmnnnn.
from good-lace :
I watched a special on HBO last night, and one of the hookers at the BunnyRanch Brothel in Nevada said she makes $200,000.00 per year. Made me sit up and take notice ;-0
from laura-diane :
hey, i bartend at a strip bar. you can make money doing anything in the business with that if you're cute. if you don't think you could dance, maybe try to be a cocktail waitress or a bartender. sometimes those girls leave with more than the dancers -- at the club i work at, anyways.
from captainron :
I wish I could help Kel. I really do... But I'm soon to be unemployed with bills up the wazoo... Sigh... {{{{{Hugs}}}}
from ilovemy240z :
Monica, does it make your turds stiff, too? Ron, I just made a dermatology appt for tomorrow. Keep fingers crossed. And don't say that... you haven't seen how bad they are. =|
from captainron :
phew!!!! What is that smell????? On the plus side, mere blemishes can't hide your beauty. it goes too deep so don't stress. Happy Hump Day!
from symbiotic :
it's probably the soy. it makes me fart a lot.
from ilovemy240z :
lol, thanks Ron. *hugs* Yes, I have an idea, don't worry. ;) I'll be a-aight... I'm already recovering by leaps and bounds,... really. Pon is just a retard boy, who's ass I plan to kick if we ever kick it again.
from captainron :
OH Kel... Why do I spend half my life these days wanting to give you a hug and trying to make things better.... DO you have any idea how special you are... No, you don't... Your picture of you doesn't match... Your a good mom and a good person and a good friend who lets herself be taken advantage of. You're pretty and smart and funny and ANY guy would be DAMN lucky to have you, so until you find one that wants to treat you that way, I say FUCK THEM ALL (and not in the literal sense :-) Love ya me
from captainron :
Awww {{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}
from ilovemy240z :
And thank you, I know you would. ;) Don't worry, I won't. I'm pretty much solid in what I want to do right now.
from ilovemy240z :
No hun, I mean more specific... as in IP address and domain name... I seem to remember seeing that IP address on my hit counter, but there's no way I can check back to before the 20th to know for sure. ;)
from captainron :
Well some of those hits are me. I ready you every day, but you already knew that. You are like the sweetest person I know here. If you were closer, we'd keep you entertained until Mr. Right comes along. Until then, hang in there and don't get caught in the rebound. Happy Tuesday!
from dekar :
Dee, I am also humbled before you. You have no idea how long I've been trying to figure out how to say those exact words to people! Something I mentioned to Carly a little while ago, it's strange how there's so much that each of us really knows, but it takes someone else to say it for us to realize it......cool!
from ilovemy240z :
I kinda thought about that, but I'd rather it be a closed sort of thing. I don't want to see pictures and be all sad because I want more kids that I can raise myself right now... lol. And trust me, I'd definitely think about it too much. So I'm requesting that it be a "closed" donation. The app is like 15 pages long!!! Whoa.
from ilovemy240z :
You're right, Dee. I have been humbled by your good azz whooping. And you'll be happy to know that I have a friend at work that's going to tell my mom what I did if I don't get a doc appt asap to get my shiznit checked. Ugggh, which I was going to do anyways, but I can't imagine what my mom would do if she found out I've been SO stupid. Seriously, I can't get over how stupid I've been.
from symbiotic :
i thought about selling some of my eggs. but then the idea scared me too much. you might think about finding a specific couple that wants them. sometimes that can pay more and you have some control over who is the parent of your offspring.
from laura-diane :
laura / always735 just to cut down on certain people that were reading. sorry!
from good-lace :
OK, here's why I didn't butt in quicker. I've been shopping alot, and dealing with rodents, but other than that, I'm making arrangements to come kick your ass for trusting him (the squirt... Oh NOooOO, oops, sorry;-) so fast. You have got to stop worrying about finding someone to share your life with, and you have to learn how to sit back and chill when you meet a gut with potential. Stop getting caught up in that wonderful, infactuation feeling in the beginning, it fades so quickly. True love never fades, it just evolves to the next level - good or bad. Become friends first, with NO ulterior motives, then let nature take its natural course. You have to stop investing so much of yourself in "potential". Stop "seeing" a future. Stay in the moment with the guy - what will be, will be. You can't 'make' anything happen. It just does. You deserve so much more, Kel. Did I kick your ass enough? Love Ya, Dianna
from ilovemy240z :
I'm bored.
from ilovemy240z :
Thanks you guys. I know. He's like the gum stuck on my damn Mary Jane... and you know, maybe I should tell him about his nipples. lol. Nahhhh.. let him wonder why chicks get weird when they suck em. I'm surprised Dee isn't chiming in here... she totally hates the sort of shit he pulled on me. ;) *huggles*
from captainron :
Even though it feels awful, in reality it was a good thing. Now you know exactly what you were dealing with, a creep. You'll find somebody who deserves you Kel, it may take a while but you will. You are too special for anything else. {{{hugs}}}
from symbiotic :
man, that sucks. sorry babes. if i was there, i'd kick him in the head for you.
from ilovemy240z :
LOL, yes, actually, I do! And they're a size 10 from the BOY'S department. lmao. (in case you're wondering, I am also the proud owner of Power Puff Girls clothing article from the girl's department in size 14-16X. lol)
from captainron :
You have PJs with the feet in them? Way cool, even with a green face.
from ilovemy240z :
You come to my door, and I'll show you the floor in a way that it's never been shown to you before.... ever had rugburns, Beavis?
from dekar :
Where have I heard that before? :\
from ilovemy240z :
Damn, Beavis, I'd love to... but but but... you live so far away!!! lol
from dekar :
Bah! Stupid people and their mute, non-informative ways! Speak, dammit, speak! he really could've said this sooner, I'm sure. He seemed very sure of what he thought in that e-mail. What a bummer too! Afterall, you were really giving this your best! If I were you, I'd be running at full-speed with my wee-wee out and peeing all the way into an electric, barb-wire fence.....not...that...I...want to give you any ideas or anything. So, you're a free woman now, huh? And I just happen to be a recently free man myself! *Butthead voice* Uhhhh.....are we gonna, like, do it now? *Beavis voice* Heh, heh heh, heh.....Yeah! Score! .....boioioioioingggg.....
from ilovemy240z :
LOL, I know. It's all good.
from captainron :
I'm really sorry Kel... You deserve better. {{{{hugs}}}}
from good-lace :
Ya know what I can't understand, the silence. Is it just me, or has the world turned so wussy that a person can't just come clean with the other person? These were always my thoughts on a relationship: I like you; I like you, but not 'that' way; I don't like you; I love you; I hate you; Suck my dick! I mean, what's so hard about saying what you mean, and meaning what you say? Why do these guys always have to keep you guessing? It pisses me off. Just be an effing man already. *phew* I feel better. I hope you do to. Love Ya Kel
from ilovemy240z :
Yeah, yeah, Mattie, that one! That one! Thanks guys. =) *huge hugs* I feel better already. Love you too, all of you. And yes Mon, you really haven't signed in a while, but then, I don't think I've signed yours either in a while. I think we've been mainly just emailing each other. lol.
from symbiotic :
hi! damn, i haven't signed your notes in a while.
from captainron :
{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}} We still love you Kel
from dekar :
Smile Though your heart is aching Smile Even though it's breaking When there are clouds In the sky You'll get by If you smile Through your fear and sorrow Smile And maybe tomorrow You'll see the sun Come shining through For you Light up your face With gladness Hide every trace Of sadness Although a tear May be ever so near That's the time You must keep on trying Smile What's the use of crying? You'll find that life Is still worth-while If you just smile That's the time You must keep on trying Smile What's the use of crying? You'll find that life Is still worth-while If you just smile
from ilovemy240z :
LOL, I'm going to have to call that and check. ;) Sounds like something good for cheering me up. At mom and dad's house tonght. Wish I had been home to talk to you guys! =D ahahhhhh, lol, just checked, thanks guys. Hehe. I'm gld you explained that, I would have been like who the heck was that, coz I already know what Ron sounds like. So, what night ya want? lol. Tonight would be nice, I pay $20, Danny compensates for the rest by offering teh free comed relief I've raved about so much. Love you guys!
from good-lace :
When you hear the guy with the accent on your answering machine applying for the babysitting job, it's just my crazy husband calling to mess with you *LMAo*
from ilovemy240z :
Goddammit, I know that I don't! Well, not in that way anyways, not yet. Give me a freaking break here, Jay! It's hard to explain, alright? If he were just my friend, I would have said it and meant it, understand? It doesn't take me long to love my friends, and especially when they're hurting is when I tend to blurt it out, and like I said this is ahrd to explain, but I'm glad I didn't say it because then the whole world would have been like, omg, she meant it that OTHER way because he's her man. That's not true. I hate seeing people I care about fret like that, and I hate being so goddamn helpless about it, and you know what, why am I even explaining this? Dammit I wish I could just go back to sleep. =( So I've now had time to analyze it, and that's all it was. And like that other thing I mentioned, I'm glad I held my tongue. I'm not stupid. I'm not a little kid. Ok? Who wants to come over and get drunk with me tonight?
from puppydogeyes :
heyheyheyheyHEYHEY, WAIT A MINUTE... the "L word"??? you didn't say anything about that. now i REALLY think you're moving too quick with him, Kel...
from good-lace :
Kelly Kelly Kelly *shaking head from side to side* Don't you dare drop the L-Bomb on that guy, or ANY guy after such a short time. You can love the way he walks, and talks, and kisses, and eats, and drools, and farts, etc. (Get the picture?) but you absolutely CANNOT love him, the whole person, until you've seen him (and anyone) at their absolute worse - under intense pressure, scared, angry, jealous, sick, unsure, etc. Infactuation (which feels exactly like love) is fast and furious, but true love is slow and patient, and takes time to develop. You are such a romantic, and so in love with love. You deserve the best. Give yourself a break, and give yourself a chance at the real deal. You can't MAKE anything happen. Be patient, baby girl.
from good-lace :
Oh shit!!! I didn't come online at all yesterday, and I missed your birthday celebration. *sniff* Will you forgive me? I hope you had a wonderful time, except for your damned car. Love Ya Lots, Dianna
from dekar :
*sings* Happy birthday, happy birthday! Whoop-dee-doo, whoop-dee-doo! Open up your present, OPEN UP YOUR PRESENT! Just for you, just for you! Hmm.....*strip*
from ilovemy240z :
Thanks guys! ;) Love you!
from celestine :
Happy birthday!! *hugs*
from captainron :
:::singing::: Happy Birtday to you Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday dear Kelly happy Birthday to you...... and many more. :::claps:::: {{{hugs}}}
from captainron :
Sorry you got blown off Kel... BY the way any time you need a sitter, just pack the kid on an east bound plane.. Um Hmmm maybe that won't work. Hang in there.
from ilovemy240z :
I know! No kidding! You know what though? Like an adult, I called him back later and apologized for biting his head off. Me being cool and mature about it will make him feel worse than anything. And he knows he fucked up, he even said so. I said, you know, I'm understanding and stuff when you have things that come up... but it's like you don't even give me the chance to understand when YOU DON'T TELL ME. He feels me on that one. And sister, after the way I blew up at him, and then explained it later, I'm not thinking he'll pull that one again anytime soon. He better NOT anyways. lol.
from good-lace :
That's the #1 No-No in my book, don't EVER blow me off without a courtesy call. Don't people understand that no excuse is good enough for being insensitive and rude?
from celestine :
Eeeek! I've been unmasked!! Hehe..I KNEW that you hadn't forgotten who I was...you mentioned my NAME in that entry :-).
from ilovemy240z :
LMAO, damn girl... glad I could help! Hehe. =� Oh, hey... told him I got ahold of Rick. He read the entries I wanted him to read. I think he finally understands now. =)
from good-lace :
My hubby told me he so enjoyed talking to you last night. I wish I wouldn've been here. And, he gave me that hug like you said, but it turned into .... Thanks *wink* Lova Ya!
from ilovemy240z :
Awww, I'm glad you guys liked it. *hugs* I miss the good old days when one coul log on at nearly any damn time and find some homies playing around in there. Celestine, I don't remember you, was there a different name you went by in Opti?
from good-lace :
*OMG* You have really brought back the memories. That was such fun and exciting times. Remember how Sam and I went into the room under different names and kicked Nina's ass? LMAo I wish I had my ICQ log to show you how bad I kicked Rick's ass too. (I probably forwarded it to you at the time anyway.) He was one of the "good guys" gang, but young and confused. Your situation taught Sam and I SO much about the online hypocrits. That's when we backed off too. Thanks for the memories, sweetie. Love Ya, Dianna
from captainron :
You have the sweetest voice... It fits
from celestine :
*Teary eyed*...I'm all nostalgic now too, dammit!
from dekar :
Not that it was intended for any specific purpose but for you to write it out and enjoy the nostalgia, but thank you for putting in the Love Stories Installment 5. I swear, as I was reading it, I could easily have replaced some names and taken most of the story to fit my own situation and your comments on the experiences have given me a lot of thought. You rock, babe, and you didn't even know it! ;)
from symbiotic :
coool. it's all fixed now :)
from good-lace :
You don't know if you came??? *LMFAO* I don't even want to know ;-0 *high five* Like I said, don't assume, baby girl.
from symbiotic :
:)))))))))
from good-lace :
Damn, that Captain Ron is so smart :-) and absolutely right. EVERYONE has baggage...good, bad or indifferent - it's there. May I give you some advice? Don't assume anything. Let him know you're there for him, then back up. The next call is his.
from symbiotic :
awwwwwww. poor baby!
from symbiotic :
ditto to what ron said. if a little baggage scares him away then fuck him, he wasn't worth it anyway. but i have a feeling it won't scare him.
from captainron :
Everybody has baggage Kel... Nobody goes through life unscarred. Some peoples hurts are right out there for all to see and some are down deep and hidden behind doors with ginat locks, but they are there. Anybody looking for someone without problems is going to look for a VERY long time. From what I know of you, you are definately worth any extra effort that might be needed. You are special, always remember that, OK?
from ilovemy240z :
Girl, I have NO idea. :| Hopefully I'll remember to ask him tonight. Hey! I tried to call you last night when I was on my way to his house. ;) You STILL need an answering machine.
from symbiotic :
weird. he's a gemini too. aren is a gemini. what is rob's bday?
from captainron :
OK Unfortunately in love as in life, there are no guarantees. Doesn't mean it won't happen. I hope this is the one, but even if it isn't, it's a lot closer than where you were.
from ilovemy240z :
LOL, yeah, you can say that again.
from captainron :
Unfortunately in love as in life, there are no guarantees. Doesn't mean it won't happen. I hope this is the one, but even if it isn't, it's a lot closer than where you were.
from ilovemy240z :
Ron, I know I'm all these things, and damn right my perception has been skewed. All these years I've settled for less, gotten used to what less had to offer, and always dreamed about what else could be out there. Now that it *appears* that I've found that something else, doesn't it make sense for me to be scared? It's easy being with assholes. To a point you become numb because the depth your feelings go is really limited. I'd rather be with a straight up asshole than to think someone is completely different and have them wind up still being an asshole. I thought Casey was different. That really fucking hurt. If I had guarantees that Rob is honest to God what I think he is.. and if I had guarantees that he's going to like what he sees once he's seen everything, then I wouldn't trip a ALL. Monica knows what I'm talking about. Monica always knows what I'm talking about. There's always a rational explanation as to why we shouldn't feel a certain way, but we still do, because to us.. there may be a different rational explanation as to why we should feel a certain way. GOD I hate dating. lol
from symbiotic :
i know exactly how you feel.
from captainron :
I wish for jut an instant you could really see how special we think you are. Some how the view from your perspective got skewed. You deserve to be happy and you deserve to be treated well and you are the best. So knock it off, quit the worring and see where things end up?
from ilovemy240z :
you are so fucking cool too, you know! ;) *bear hugs*
from symbiotic :
you are so fucking cool.
from ilovemy240z :
I know! Doesn't he though? Oh girl, it's cool, I'm chillin. No worries. Hehe. I'm finally starting to relax a bit. It's just a little unnerving at first when you're used to certain things (not necessarily good for you) and you're coming to know that there are other ways that things are really done out there.. not just in the movies. I hope things keep up this way, know what I mean? ;) God it would be wonderful to find someone that I can have more kids with and grow old with. I think that's what most people really want in life, I don't understand why so many play games. It's never made sense to me.
from good-lace :
OMG This guy sounds like he has potential. Just chill, little sister, and let nature take its course. *Hugs*
from jenne1017 :
those were all quite nifty facts!
from captainron :
Useless facts, I think not. Just goes to show what I've felt all along. You are a super person and I'm glad to have you as a friend.
from good-lace :
All the arbitrators I've met were always lawyers (I think). Having a good lawyer makes all the difference in the world. As the younger lawyer I used to work with always told me...all he had for sale was his gift of gab.
from ilovemy240z :
Good! Will you adopt me?
from symbiotic :
dude...i'm probably gonna have kids. just maybe not my own. i plan on adopting a couple and fostering a bunch. i've wanted to be a foster mom for a long time. anyway, i had prementrual hornies last week. now i have the menstrual hornies and they're soooo much worse.
from ilovemy240z :
Dee - Are arbitrators always other attorneys? Because this guy is an attorney, too. I dunno much about the law, obviously, lol. Monica - Well, I'm glad that yours seems decent, too. Man, our run of bad luck has to have ended, don't you think? PS.. I will consider it a CRIME if you don't have kids... you would be the most kickass mom... your kids would love the shit out of you. But, then, of course, you'd have to give up rolling. Just not on grassy hills. ;) Ron - Thank you. Dammit, I need the damn hugs, so you just bring 'em on. If Rob wasn't so damn busy this week... Ohwell, I've been giving them all to Danny, and he's just now starting to complain! lol
from captainron :
Why is it that every time I read yoru diary i get the urge to give you a hug? It's a good thing you are so far away or I'd probably be arrested by now for serial hugging ;-)
from symbiotic :
yay! i'm happy for you that he seems to be an actually decent guy.
from good-lace :
I'm happy the other 2 attorneys are ass wipes. Arbitrators usually don't like those kind. Giving more attention to your side is a good sign. Cry if you need to, it don't hurt, and may put more light on the painful situation. I've witnessed many arbitrations, but never needed one myself. It's a nerve wrecking situation. {{{Kelly}}}
from symbiotic :
hey babe. i had sooo much fun this weekend. looks like you did too. yay for us! how much do we rock?
from ilovemy240z :
Ok smartass, lol, what would you care to wager on that then? This one is worth the wait, I'm sure. *blissful sigh*
from captainron :
Wow, you life lately is like a freaking soap opera. You stay safe OK? Two or three months huh? Want to place a freindly wager on that? :-)
from ilovemy240z :
LOL. Thanks for going out of your way to survey for me. ha. I wanted to know how long though! =D I'm still trying to play this very safe, but let me forward you our exchages today after our ride together. My heart just totally melted and I got tears in my eyes, girl. GOOD tears. How long has it been since THAT? Too long. Too too long, dear. Love you Dee!
from good-lace :
Okay, sweets, I just did a quick survey of 3 guys, and they all answered basically the same: Anything you have to work (wait) for is appreciated more, and anything that comes too easy, is just that, too easy. (Not exciting) Hmmmm Okie dokie guys :-)
from ilovemy240z :
Damn, you guys have no faith in me! lol. That's it.. I'll make it to like two or three months... you just wait and see!!!
from captainron :
My guess is that by the time I got the batteries mailed and you recieved them, they would already have become irrevelant :-) Good luck in court :-)
from symbiotic :
for the most part, i think me and aren have emails all started from about 5-10 emails. and we've known each other 3 months. we just keep replying to replies. but we change the subjects and we crop the old emails off. so they look kind of new.
from good-lace :
*singing* Take it easy. Take it eeeeasy. Don't let the sound of your own wheels drive you crazy. Love Ya Girl.
from captainron :
Skiiing is so much fun... You'l have a ball. I'd love to teach you, but A you are 3000 miles away and B you are much better taking a professional lesson. You'll learn a lot more and save tons of wear and tear on what ever relationship you have going on at the time. Trust me on this one.
from ilovemy240z :
I know, but... you know what I'm saying? How many times has a guy realized he was lucky to be spending time with us? lol. Thanks for listening, sweety. ;) I already told you what I'm going to do. Next time I see him. Just keep your fingers crossed that I won't lose these balls I have temporarily grown before then. lol. It took me all the rest of the weekend to cultivate them.
from symbiotic :
please woman. you are good enough and he is sooo lucky to spend time with a girl like you. just take it slow so you don't get scared. that's what i would do. it's good to be with a guy that's actually good enough fo you.
from ilovemy240z :
*huggles* It'll get better Ron. Just hang in there. =)
from captainron :
I'm tired too. Seems I only sleep an hour at a time lately. I wake up, look at the clock and go back to sleep. It isn't cutting it. I'd love to take a nice platonic cuddling nap right now. I'm not sure the boss would approve. The distance thing could also be a problem. I hope the rest of yoru day goes better. Me
from cometle0pa :
hey...everything's okay (well, i'm alive and all :) ) but i had to change the password again. it's username: tiny, password: tim. sorry i waited so long to let you know! :)
from captainron :
if I had a million dollars If I had a million dollars I'd buy you Z :-)
from symbiotic :
ooh. if i had the money to give you that, i so would. and of course, we both get 25 spankings.
from ilovemy240z :
I didn't want Danny to see me and get scared. But they ALMOST spilled over. And then I was kinda choked up all day, especially when I went to go pick him up.
from good-lace :
You didn't cry? Damn, when I brought my son to school for the first time, the teacher had to run me outta there because I couldn't stop the water works. The realization broke my heart :*(
from symbiotic :
i was just thinking that! but considering we both like girls, i dont' think i'd need a penis. at least not a real one.
from captainron :
If he turns out like you, he'll be pretty teriffic.
from captainron :
Wow those people have to put up with a lot of shit huh? :-) I hope life is treating you well. How's the job searh working out?
from good-lace :
You made me laugh my ass off. Nookie twice a day, and 3 times on the week-ends, until I run his ass outta here *phew* Two year honeymoons? Love ya Lots, Dee
from ilovemy240z :
I just spent almost two hours typing a freakin update, woman! lol. Sooo.... freakin read, woman! =� *slobbery kiss*
from monica1110 :
freakin update, woman!
from monica1110 :
the stupid things some girls will do. i don't know why girls don't realize how much better than guys they generally are.
from ilovemy240z :
Haha! No kidding. Well, we don't really.. not anymore. I have higher expectations now, you know. Not that Reid wouldn't be a good catch, he really would be. I think I've probably known him too long though. Same as Matt. LOL. She usually picks some REAL losers... I swear. If they look cool and treat her like shit, the girl thinks the guy is a god. About a year and a half ago, she was dating some loser (Jonah was still a baby) that was 24, no job, no car, lived with parents, and rode his skateboard when he wasn't trying to get Bekah to be his chaffeur.
from monica1110 :
damn girl. once again i am thankful that me and E have COMPLETELY different taste in guys.
from ilovemy240z :
She is only like that when she has either been drinking or is on something. That's why it is so apparent to her close friends and family when she has been abusing shit. I just didn't know that she'd get like that from TWO beers. Sheesh. Trust me, sober and clear headed, she is not the smartest, but the sweetest girl. She's even offered to co-sign for my car so that I don't have to try and figure out how to get a huge down payment to get the financing approved. And we talked about some other things, too. This is really the first time we have not gotten along since living together. She's pretty easygoing.
from captainron :
Your friend sounds like a real prize. Are you sure you want to be roomies? Sounds like she is pretty insecure. Of course your ravishing beauty could do that to some people. Happy Thursday!
from captainron :
There is nothing run of the mill about you lady. You are definately a custom person in an off the rack world. Be patient and don't settle. You'll find your prince and when you do your life will be more wonderful than you can imagine. Things change, and while all change is tramatic, it is not necessarily bad. Sometimes it is necessary. I wish I could have joined you on the swings...
from captainron :
Good luck on the loan, appartment and ear infection. Sounds like not the best of times. Hang in there. Lost of us here love you. Ron
from ilovemy240z :
Bah. Maybe it was just stress. Honestly, girl, I'm really trying not to think about it. And when I do think about it, all that comes to mind is that I should not have called him at all, out of respect for his space maybe, I did not think he would freak out like that... and I guess tit just really wasn't all that it seemed to be. *shrug* Anyways... I ain't trippin... getting a new car, should be driving home with it by Monday night at the latest. There's a pretty sweet '99 VW bug at my dad's friend's dealership that is totally loaded... and they're letting it go to me for $13K. Mmmmm. Can't wait to go road trippin in THAT. LOL. Hmmm, oh yeah, and I have a date tonight. It seems there are a LOT of crushes from high school that I've been running into this year. Heh. So what's to be upset about? While I am upset that I thought he'd at least have some decency to call me and say, "I'm sorry, this just isn't working for me" or sending me an email to tell me to fuck off.... I'm no going to assume that he is just busy and still wants to see me... not with the activity he's had lately on Match.com and other places. *shrug* I'm not assuming SHIT. I'm spending time with friends and my son and doing a little shopping and with the way my heart hurts maybe just a tad now... at least it's such a small hurt that I can pretend that it's not there... and just enough that I'm glad it didn't go on any longer if this was how it was going to turn out. BTW.. have I mentioned that my parents are almost done getting my childhood home ready to be put on the market? Which means I need to clean out my old room... and I'm finally being forced to do something with that wedding dress that's been hanging in my closet since before I broke off the engagement to Rick. You know, some things should just have to stay the same forever. *sigh* I wanted to just leave everything in this house, get married, and move away. And be able to snoop in my old stuff and have misty watercolored memories every five years when I come back to visit. Ahhhggggg. I've been typing too long... thinking too much.. same ole same ole. You take care, girl. :D As usual.. I will survive. It would take way more than any man could do to get me down. Bwahahaha! You know me well enough to know that, in the least, is true.
from good-lace :
I got so pissed off when I read about the shabby way that over-grown child snubbed you while you were in his city, but the more I think about it, the more happy I am that you found out his true value before you had more time invested in him. Chill and be patient, baby girl. Good things come to those who wait. You will get yours! *prays for the flippin bladder infection* Love Ya Lots, Dee
from captainron :
I wanted to say something here that would make you feel better, but I really don't know what to say other than hang in there Kelly. Good things will come. You are too special for them not to. You really are you know...
from good-lace :
P.S. Hey, don't you ever forget, Melanie Griffith got the guy in the end :-)
from ilovemy240z :
Haha! Yeah, but I do dumb things ALL the time, Ron. At least I'm not dumb AND blind though... I accept my faults as are... to do otherwise would cause major and incessant unhappiness.
from captainron :
Sometimes even smart people do dumb things :-) I am the poster boy for this phenomenon.
from ilovemy240z :
Heh.. thanks for the roots, and the compliments, but now... if I really was so smart, would I have gotten myself into a sitch where I'd be praying for a bladder infection because of the other possibility? LOL! Nahhhh, it's cool, I'm good enough for myself and my kid, and that's all that matters. ;) It's just that I am such a weirdo and it's hard to find someone that I click with, that doesn't annoy me. But then again, I thought I clicked with Eddie, too, and it took a really long time for him to annoy me. Who knows? Maybe once I'm in town he might want to at least see my mug for dinner or coffee, which I don't expect but would be nice at least. Heh. I've had days before where I wanted ME time too. I had a lot of those days towards the end of the chapter in my life that was Eddie.
from captainron :
Not good enough for him? Ha... You are sweet and warm and caring, smart funny and beautiful. It thats not good enough for him than nobody will ever be. Mother Teresa is dead. If you were the girl next door, I'd never get any yard work done :-) {{{{Giant hugs}}}} BTW This may be the first time in my life that I've actually rooted for somebody to have a bladder infection. Seems like the most favorable thing to do. The other possibility doesn't look like it would be the best option right now. Good luck. me PS, the blue on blue is really hard to read.
from good-lace :
I'm so happy you got settled in here, sweetie. Please be careful about who you give this addy to. (Did I hear that somewhere? lol) The last thing you need is some ass wipe bringing you down. Love ya, Dee
from ilovemy240z :
To put a better definition to the way I feel... I feel like Melanie Griffith's character from that movie where she was a prostitute that fell for a widowed dad. I think it was called Milk Money.
from ilovemy240z :
Thanks Ron. *hugs* No... I'm not a very innocent person and I think he'd be doing just fine for himself if he blew me off. I would totally understand. The reason why Rich's comments stung so bad is that he did have a point. *sigh* Casey deserves better. I'm not exactly the girl next door. =*(
from captainron :
I hope it all works out Kelly.... You deserve it. Unfortunately, like me and the current job situation, even though you hope for the best, sometimes life serves up a big old crap sandwich. If he blows you off, then he was never good enough for you in the first place. Hope you are feeling better. Ron

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