messages to onthesix:
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from legolass :
hey :-) if you ever update on here again... password me! i can't remember it and you've probably changed it by now anyway lol! and the book 'the lovely bones' was written by alice sebold :-) xx
from skinnylizzie :
Hey, you updated! But when did you lock up?... :( (by the way, hope you had a good birthday!)
from leggierox :
Hey, I'm doing what I probably should have done ages ago, and locking my diary - username: username, pw: lainy (pleasedelete this note once you've read it =) Cheers! love Lianne x
from the-moo :
hehehe going to go read that now WOOOHOOO little you zxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from skinnylizzie :
I LURVED IT! What a way to start my day! It's possibly the best present I've ever been given! Puddle of drool has taken over my desk. I saw the...lungy one and the dirty side of my brain took over. Filth! But ohhhh, he's so worth it... Thank you! xxx
from the-moo :
hehehe *hugs* funny you!! xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Ha, you see, that is why I love you - Joe Cole was indeed looking rather fine! Why can't you live in Newcastle so we can go and see matches together? Everybody else looked at me like I'd grown an extra head when I said that! And Rooney...hmm. I wouldn't say no if he offered to buy me a present, but that is all I would ever want from him, God bless his monkey-boy socks
from mortalveins :
*hug* Hair looks great btw. L xxx
from shithappened :
love the hair girl looks grate been nice to meet up some time
from skinnylizzie :
Ooh, I lurve the new hair! It's an amazing colour :). And I'm sorry that you've felt so shitty recently, I shall keep my fingers crossed that things pick up v soon for you (small ray of sunshine: don't forget our good friend Mr Lampard is appearing on TV tomorrow night in shorts!) xxx
from the-moo :
glad you've updated!! LOVE the new hair and hope you continue this upwards out of the sadness journey and that every single day is a little bit better than the day before!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from skinnylizzie :
Heh, doctor's visited :). Thank you for your note, it made me laugh. And I really hope that you're feeling a bit better now too, I don't like it when you're sad. Don't forget I'm here if you ever want to whine to anybody! (or lust over Frank Lampard...talking of him, he looked fiiiiiiine last night!)
from leggierox :
Exactly, I second moo's note - so many people care about you, more people than you think =) Hope you're feeling ok, love lianne x
from the-moo :
you do exist you so much so exist to me and you matter too!! I don't really know what happened and I'm on my way out now but pelase email me and let me help somehow!! I'm here for you!! YOU ARE FABULOUS AND WONDERFUL AND THE WORLD NEEEEDS YOU!! don't forget that!! ok?? love you xxxxxxxxxxx
from the-moo :
meeeeep birthday!!?!?!? I didn't know I am crap I'm sure you will have mentioned it and everything!! dammit now you have to have a late birthday AND christmas card!! :-p xxxxxx
from jenoline :
Thanks sweety. Unfortunately nothing's changed at all on that front but I love you and thanks for always being fab! mwah xx
from the-moo :
aaaw lovely girl *hugs* bless you!! xxxxxxxxxxxxx
from skinnylizzie :
Eeesh, that's nasty, poor you. Hope you feel better soon! xx
from the-moo :
greetings!!! I know just how you feel about the christmas thing and not quite the dad thing but I've been pushed out of my dads world a few times and I know it hurts like a bitch!! I'm about if you wanna email me and chat about it lovely *hugs* love you tons and tons and tons SERIOUSLY lovelovelove xxx
from the-moo :
howdy.. *hugs* every single person I know who has moved in with someone has had this exact same problem.. when Gareth and I got married we gutted the entire house and decorated it together it cost us a little over �1000 but for the amount of stuff we did that's nothing.. it took ages though!! AAAGES!! even little touches will make a difference!! I know how you feel though I felt really displaced when I first moved in because it had been GAreths house.. haha now though.. after lots of work.. it's definately OURS!! and I LOVE IT!! xxxxxxxx
from clairecav :
Aw, your entry made me cry! And people rarely move me that much :) I'm still sorry for your loss, but the funeral sounds as though it was lovely and your grandpa was obviously loved a lot. Um, that's all I have to say really. Adios, amigo xXx
from the-moo :
oh hey there you're back!!! *hugs* I missed you!!!!!! tons and tons and tonsest!! xxx
from leggierox :
Hope you're feeling better, love Lianne x
from the-moo :
Love you xxxxxxxxxxxx
from mortalveins :
Only just read this. *hug* I'm really sorry. Take care... Lins xxx
from the-moo :
hey lovely.. it's a normal part of grief to be confused and numb and even angry.. death is a horrible horrible part of life but unfortunately it's something that ALL of us will have to face at some point in our lives. It makes it worse when it affects the people you love too... no child wants to see their parent so hurt and it's all so hard to understand and deal with. just let yourself be sad... if not it'll make it harder later.. grieve and remember and cry... it's perfectly natural to cry *hugs* and I'm here if you need a shoulder!! I don't have your mobile or even your email address but I am here ..ALWAYS! maybe you should write down or tell someone your best memory of him.. and let the good parts live on. He was lucky to have been so loved by you and I'm sure he knows it!!! love you tons and tons honey xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from soffs :
*hugs*
from real-lies :
I'm so sorry love. Let me know if I can help at all. Xxx
from dozydormouse :
I'm so sorry sweetie. I'll be thinking of you.
from clairecav :
Oh, I'm sorry about your grandad. *Surrounds you with love and hugs and such* xXx
from the-moo :
aaaaaaw I am absolutely devestated for you.. I truly truly am.. I could cry myself just because I so much don't want you to have to feel this!! oh honey.. email me please.. I am free to take emails and we can chat and I can try to help somehow I am so sad that this has happened to you... aaaw honey *hugs* I have nothing to say I'm sorry. here for you.. come find me *huuuuuuuuuuuugs* loveloveloveloveloveloveLOVELOVELOVE all for you xxxxxxxxxxxxx
from chakra-chick :
I'm so sorry for your loss my dear. My prayers are with you and your family. (((hugs)))
from skinnylizzie :
You should, you should! So many nice young men for the taking! ;) (ooh, your cat is very cute as well, I meant to say the other day but as I have a brain like a sieve I forgot)
from the-moo :
there is one on the way complete with awful silly pics!! I'm just really busy at work and not good at using the mac at home.. I am sorry I do love you though.. I LOVELOVELOVE you xxx
from clairecav :
Ooh, I love your new kitty-witty! I get mushy over animals, I apologise. But really, she's so cute!
from the-moo :
aaaw I'm glad you got an adult cat... they really are lovely rescued adult cats because they appriciate your love more and it's so sweet! kittens can be afected by being in a shelter because they need so much to be handled at that age if they're going to be cuddly cats!! aaaw and she is a beautiful beautiful girl!! all of our cats are rescued (3 from shelters and 2 from a BAD owner) we love them all dearly and also.. I am happy to keep you occupied while the mrs is away... *hugs* xxx
from the-moo :
*huuuuuugs* xxx
from skinnylizzie :
BECKI! Thank you for the lovely note, I was indeed in good old Geordieland (and still am, in fact) and enjoying the first flush of second year studentdom
from real-lies :
really? shit. It's still honestly & then okay. If you can't get it to work with that then urrrrrrrrm try kicking your computer?? H x
from the-moo :
also.... you have the BEST handwritting!! teach me teach me... mine is cack xxx
from the-moo :
yaaaay you know our diaries are so similar sometimes it's cool.. you're another me.. but with faaaaar prettier eyes!! oooooh preeedy eyes! *hugs* stupid ben want me to have him kneecapped honey? *more hugs* xxx
from the-moo :
*waves hands in air frantically* ooh OOH me me I do pick me pick me!! I do!! xxx
from dozydormouse :
Of course I do sweetie.
from leggierox :
*crosses fingers* aw bless I hope the kitty feels better. Also, the circle line is a bit up the creek the last week (there's always one line...), so I feel for you, but London by night is fantastic, especially by boat =) Next time you're down and have nothing to do, drop me a line =D Glad you had fun and love the pictures!
from the-moo :
aaaw I will pray my socks off for that poor little kitten!! It's so sad when they're ill because they're so helpless and they don't understand and it makes me want to cry just tihnking about it.. poor little thing! anyway... you're beautiful and your eyes blow me away!! yes I am very jealous and you'd better watch out missy beacuse they instant you stop looking.. I'm stealing them! yep indeedy! Glad you liked London me and our smokey capital don't get on because it keeps stealing my friends.. my best friends! GRRR!! *hugs* xxx
from jenoline :
thank you sweety!! it IS still wonderful. Happy happy me!! thanks for the call:P xxxxxxxxx
from the-moo :
I get hiccups all the time... you can borrow one of my kittens if you like!! xxx
from the-moo :
YAY I love that I've found another diary hwo takes as many stupid photos as me!! lovelovelove it and aaaw at your kitten bless it's little fluffy paws!! you should update more often.. because I love you xxx
from the-moo :
aaaaaw I think maybe somehow you have seen someone elses pictures and mistaken them for mine *hugs* I love you for saying nice things to me though and OH MY GOOOOODNES!! kitten for you!! I can't think of anyone more worthy of sweet fluffty kitten love and I can't wait to see pics of you and your new babyfriend!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from real-lies :
your hair is fabulous-o. && I love your eyes xxxx
from leggierox :
I is loving the hair colour ;)
from dozydormouse :
Love the new hair!
from clairecav :
Ooh, your eyes are fabulous! And the rest of you is fabulous also, but your eyes especially so!
from the-moo :
aaw hello newfriend I'm glad you heart you sometimes I think I shall heart you all the time!! You are so lovely and you mentioned me in your diary and everything and that makes me feel all bouncy and loved! The colour looks so much better on your hair I just look the same as before until the light hits me then I look like a GING (no offence to gings I do love them a lot) *pets gings* I have no idea where you get this mistaken impression that I'm nice to look at but I do at least try to be interesting!! I LOVE your photo's you have GREAT skin and beautiful eyes and I really am so glad to have you onboard my online life... you are so much exactly what I love in a person and *hugs* have a hug! you make me smile xxx
from the-moo :
HEY YEAY!! you know I was feeling really sad until I just found that comment.. thank you for making my day *hugs* I'm off to check out your diary now!!! xxxxxx
from skinnylizzie :
Sigh, isn't he delish? We have very similar tastes in men, don't we? I only wish more of my friends shared the same fantabulous tastes as us so I wouldn't get a look of disgust every time I bring up somebody's name!
from leggierox :
Haha love the pictures =D
from skinnylizzie :
Haha, girl, you're mad! (and also v pretty, I especially like that white skirt)
from skinnylizzie :
Damn, is NOTHING sacred, Adam?! Mwahaha, yes we have, but I am not going to go into that here because I know he'll read it and then he'll have two things to beat me for :)
from skinnylizzie :
DAMN YOU GAFFER. (please don't beat me...) Hmm, he does wear a lot of dark clothes, doesn't he? I was looking for a colour to reflect his changing style and I feel pink really brings out the colour of his eyes. Honestly, I should do all his clothes shopping for him! (oh, and I'm glad you agree!)
from gaffor :
Yeh, I hope he doesn't read this either! Would be awkward. Mwahaha. I kinda realised I would get one for my birthday. Any prezzie is always much appreciated thankyou.
from skinnylizzie :
Whoa, that pink shirt was MY idea! I dragged him all around Grimsby town centre looking for a pink t-shirt, and the ones I held up against him looked sweet! He's getting one for his birthday whether he likes it or not, hehe (oh boy...I hope he doesn't read this or I'm going to get beaten)
from dozydormouse :
Hugs would you like to join the bitter old cynics club? I am a founder member.
from gaffor :
I don't hate you! I positively love you! And thankyou very much for the kind message about my diary. Really is appreciated, you are too kind.
from leggierox :
Hey, I don't hate you...
from skinnylizzie :
Yeah baby, happy! Definitely worth those 5 35p calls I made to achieve it...
from skinnylizzie :
Boo nanny nanny on Eugene! Nah, he's probably my second favourite, but I have always had a weakness for that lovely 70s dancing, slightly stupid Geordie, just don't ask me why. Oh, and 10% eh? ;)
from dozydormouse :
Hugs because I have nothing more constructive to say.
from leggierox :
I know! I Was grinning with glee for hours afterwards =D
from leggierox :
When you first noted me, I wandered across to your diary and returned the favour. I also had a good nose in all your extras etc, and found the photos...you're absolutely gorgeous!!! I have no idea what you're on about, because if YOU'RE ugly, what hope is there for the rest of us?!
from skinnylizzie :
Oh chicken, I know nothing I say will make anything better. But you really are one of the prettiest girls I've ever seen and to me you're a truly fantabulous person. Lotsa hugs, just shout if you ever want to bitch and moan, that's my speciality ;) xxx
from dozydormouse :
Don't be daft he loves you for you as you are. And if he should decide he doesn't then he doesn't deserve you.
from legolass :
sorry for being harsh when i say this - but dont be a fucking idiot. and i'm only saying it because i love you *hugs*
from dozydormouse :
Hugs. One of those days when you should have stayed in bed! That knee looks really sore. I hpe today is better for you.
from dozydormouse :
What's up sweetie. It doesn't sound so good?
from skinnylizzie :
!!!! What's happened?! Hope you're okay, whatever it is...
from leggierox :
Yay! Thanks - I think the luck worked, because I actually had a vague idea of what to do for the majority of the paper =D AND I never have to touch maths, even with a barge pole, ever again *happy dance*
from leggierox :
Hehe cheers. I keep getting overexcited/dreamy everytime any one of the artists come on the radio or TV - it's amazing! Although I suspect you lot at home will get a better view lol.
from leggierox :
Nope...I think I maybe overdramatised it a little bit lol. But it's a huge-ish decision which will affect the people cloest to me. One of them to be precise...ooh getting all cryptic again =D
from dozydormouse :
Tis only a couple of days. Only a man would worry about less than a week with no sex. Even the nice ones have one track minds. As for debts it's always good when another bites the dust. Only 2 left now student loan and mortgage and they are a bit long term. You'll get there. Hugs H xxx
from leggierox :
I saw bits of the F1, thankfully all the bits where you could actually see him ;) And noooo missed Top Gear because someone called for me, and I couldn't get them to call back. Missed half of the Hamster's DB9 film =( But saw the bit from the doggy onwards. Hello?! TAKE THE CAR!!! *ahem* =D
from leggierox :
=O I is loving the black "bumpy" dress - it's fantastic. One of my prospective prom dresses is a bit like that one...nice =)
from leggierox :
Wow! You read through my entries? *feels honoured* I'm reading backwards through yours at the moment =) I was so excited when they test drove it - was bouncing up and down the sofa at the time. It's absolutely stunning...and the noise it makes is fantastic too =D
from leggierox :
DB9!!! Woo! I sat in the driving seat of one at the Motor Show last year (after queuing for half an hour with all the other wannabes =P)...beautiful thing, it is. Plus I bought a poster and got an official Aston Martin...carrier bad =D
from gaffor :
Thankyou for the kind note, everyone who accepts my oddness is always appreciated. I will become an avid reader of your diary.
from jenoline :
just to say I wub you beckiboo, what you said early was really touching (*told my mummy about it*) and Jennikins wubs Beckiboo! Hadley and Haydn Fat and Fit :P
from kerrang-girl :
Much love for Tobey Maguire. <3 'The Lovely Bones' was written by Alice Sebold. Tis one of my favourite books. :)
from mortalveins :
DUDE! COLCHESTER!!!! Once I'm back- not for a while as I failed exams and such so need to resit, but once I come back we MUST MEET UP! lins xxx
from skinnylizzie :
I stand by what I said in my last note - if we ever meet we will be a force to be reckoned with! You say the sweetest things, my lovely, you've left me with a warm happy glow that even shopping doesn't give me sometimes! *huggles* (huggles? Oh dear, I'm so bored that I'm starting to make up words!)
from leggierox :
Hell yes go for it! Shall we do introductions? Hi I'm Lianne, 17 and slightly unhealthily in love with a number of people, namely Mr Hammond =D
from leggierox :
And I just saw the Jensen Button photo. Jaw still on bedroom floor ;)
from leggierox :
=O You love Richard Hammond? And Jensen Button? AND Coldplay? *tackles into a huge hug* I love you too!!! =D
from skinnylizzie :
So glad I'm not alone in the toilet humour stakes!!! You know, I think if we ever met, we would be dangerous...
from jenoline :
you suck donlkey cock. how-s that for more notes?!
from skinnylizzie :
Phew, I think you're brave for even starting med school. I was fine with animals' innards when I did a few months' work experience at the vet's, but I think anybody who even considers a career in medicine is so brave. My mum's a nurse and even though I know I'm hugely biased, I think she's a saint for doing what she does :)
from legolass :
ok! hello :-) now you leave me one lol!
from mortalveins :
Hello! :) Lins xxx
from dozydormouse :
Good for you. It's always good to realise the futures better than the past. BTW if we are on to sex it's 2 years and 9 months since I last got any. I'm deprived and you are not. Think yourself very very lucky.
from skinnylizzie :
Hello! Here's a note! Glad you're all happy, those fuzzy, knowing that you don't want to go back to those times feelings are the best :)
from skinnylizzie :
Well, I haven't had full sex for two years...I haven't exactly been, er, left out in the cold though! And I completely agree about the waiting for a decent guy who means something. The one guy I made the mistake of sleeping with was the biggest mistake of my life, he fucked me over in such a huge way. Possibly another reason why I'm a born again virgin! Damn him. Right, I'm going to apologise for this note now, because I'm a bit drunk (bloody vodka!)
from pogo83 :
<3 you are incredibly beautiful!
from skinnylizzie :
Girl, a cold shower? I had to be escorted there by my flatmates because I was dribbling so much I nearly short-circuited my laptop. Can't believe I missed him playing tonight as well! Gah, those thighs... Mind you, Orlando's Nipples of Wonder needed me. Oh, and for some reason I happened to be looking at your profile a few minutes ago - Alice Sebold wrote 'The Lovely Bones', it's one of my favourite books too :)
from pogo83 :
*huge hugs* xxxx
from skinnylizzie :
*sobs* I wish you had too! I'm gutted! GUTTED! I'm really sorry about the guy at work, it must be such a horrible feeling *hugs*
from chakra-chick :
Hi. I hope you don't mind, but I'm adding you to my buddy list. You are 2 days younger than my younger sister. Your diary is cool...
from skinnylizzie :
Sob, alas, I was hard at work Saturday afternoon, and nobody would come with me to watch two of football's finest men be celebrated all afternoon. I had to content myself with pictures. How did the date take the lusting?! (also, I'm so glad that there seems to be a few of us in agreement of the Mourinho thing, phew)
from jenoline :
Well, I've liked him since he was in Sweat in 1995 so NER. He's mine :P
from clairecav :
And that's obviously OBjections... I am moronic, sorry.
from clairecav :
I've been meaning to add you to my favourite list for AGES now, so am finally getting round to it, if you have no bjections! You have one rather fabulous diary, m'dear.
from dozydormouse :
Hugs. In my experience most men aren't worth the trouble and the majority are not worth mucking up your nice clean sheets so to speak. It sounds like you are well rid of teh pair of them. Hxxx
from legolass :
ella kittens (ill explain why i locked later, its nothing to do with lee lol)
from dozydormouse :
Ow. I feel for you I really do. Have you tried a hot bath with bicarb and salt disolved in it that sometimes helps. I had a bout of repeated UTI's about 5 years ago. It was hell but the baths and drinking loads of water and cranberry juice helped. Much sympathy and virtual hugs heading your way.
from skinnylizzie :
Aww that sucks, I hope you start to feel better soon :)
from legolass :
lol who the heck is andrew?
from jenoline :
That's good cos I miss you too :P xx
from legolass :
i definitely have you added right....all i can think is that i got a new address and you blocked it not knowing? i've been going by [email protected] for like 6 monthes now, try adding that!
from jenoline :
You miss me or you miss ben!?
from skinnylizzie :
Oh, you will never be alone in screaming over Frank Lampard! I fully intend on repeating my actions for tomorrow night's match (as if I'm at home...and they're back in Newcastle...the injustice!), which may indeed involve pissing off a few sweaty old men in a pub as well, hehe :D
from legolass :
just one question - where the hell were you on easter monday to have NICE weather? havnt seen that stuff in a while! really need to talk to you becks, why are you never online? i swear you must have blocked me :-(
from jenoline :
for the record i was stone cold sober when i posted that entry... *starey face from msn* xx
from skinnylizzie :
'would be make'?! Damn my idiocy.
from skinnylizzie :
Man alive...that kind of experience would be make my life completely complete. He is so fit it's untrue, I've fancied him for a while although not nearly as long as you ;). My only claim to fame with him is seeing him play Newcastle a couple of weeks ago and he is as fit as...a very fit man. I am so insanely jealous of you it's untrue!!! And your 20 year old self is ridiculously pretty. If you want ugliness, I'll have to show you a picture of my 13 year old self (before hair straighteners were invented) - it'll make you laugh, if nothing else! But yeah, Frank Lampard...sigh. I snogged a Frank Lampard LOOKALIKE once...if only it was the real thing :)
from skinnylizzie :
God, aren't the paint boobs just so very WRONG?!
from skinnylizzie :
Hello, thank you for the lovely, lovely note! I am here to return the favour and tell you that having read through a few entries (and also discovered through your 100 things that you like woo-woo cocktails - I'm also an avid fan, hehe!), I too lurve your diary and am definitely adding you to my favourites :D
from jenoline :
I can figure that D is Dan of Brighton but who the mootherfahook is A and where is he from and who is he!?! You're such a studette it's not fair!! :P What's the deal, sometimes I don't understand what you say and this is one of those moments, please explain!! Jenniferrrrrous p.s yes, my niece is adorable!!! xxxxxxxxxx
from dozydormouse :
Hugs. Sounds like a bit of an ops moment. Youc oudl always have a convenient migraine and do none of the things.
from legolass :
oh oh i do wanna know!! do you still use the [email protected] address? if so, why are you never online!!!
from legolass :
lol did you do something really bad while drunk? tell me!!!!
from dr-bitch :
I saw that your diary was one of the most recently updated ones and very much enjoyed reading some entries. Please tell that idiot who spoke about weight to go to hell. Later. --S.
from pogo83 :
What a kn0bhead. GRR. Ignore him. You are really pretty & most importantly- a nice, kind person. *loves you loads* x
from jenoline :
You're far too pretty and should be far too intelligent to even pay this weasle an ounce of attention. As they say in love actually (minus the "to me" because I think it's clear to the world!) You Are Perfect!! Ignore the little loser, he has no idea, and as I recall you've always had and do have an entire harem of blokes chasing you, not that that is a measure of beauty (no blokes chase me, but I am H O T T Hott!!) Love ya Boo xxxx
from dozydormouse :
Hmm and how shallow is he. If he's a friend I'd lose him does he have a clue what he's talking about I don't think so. Any man who thinks you're only pretty if you lose weight is not worth knowing. I think you're lovely looking.
from mortalveins :
Ammended to: actually don't. You're probably waaaaaaaaay out of his league.
from mortalveins :
You're probably one of the prettiest people I've ever seen actually. Screw him. Lins xxx
from jenoline :
Jennikins hearts Beckiboo forever and ever.
from dozydormouse :
Nice to see you're still out there pet. Have decided all men are bastards having had disturbing horible upsetting dream involving the chocolate teapot last night. Every time I think I am over all that it rears its ugly old head again. I digress big huggles and welcome back.
from jenoline :
Ooooooooh how I love my Beckiboooooooo you are my beckibooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. Jen xxx
from cutiepie-nat :
Hey hon. Can't get into your diary - could be I have forgotten the password? Could you let me know please? Misses you xx
from mortalveins :
can't get into your diary- could be to do with the diaryland shuffle around- if so- you need to go to lock/unlock diary and just resubmit the page, and then it should work for everyone. Lins xxx
from jenoline :
dude!!! in the words of billy mack "wank fuck bugger cock shit arse and hole". I cannot believe I missed your birthday. So happy birthday, as soon as I top up my phone I'll send you a text, gah I'm such an absolute shit! dude! i love ya man!! You fucking rool! xx
from jenoline :
I miss you
from dozydormouse :
Big Hugs. Nice to have an update but I am sorry life is so pearshaped for you just now. Will write soon I promise. let me have your Norwich address again so I can post it.
from mortalveins :
Heya... Glad to hear whats going on with you... but not glad to hear everything is so shitty. *hugs you* wish I could make it better, Lins xxx
from underthesuns :
Hey! Glad to hear from you and I hope you manage to start to feel like home in Ipswich. I miss talking to you :( Take care *hugs* Karin xxx
from legolass :
you never rang me *sniff* you dont love me anymore! get in touch soon ok? we'll write you! xx
from pogo83 :
Hey honey! Great to get an update from you, I miss you being online :( I always forget I have your mob.no but I will text you soonly :) xxxx
from soffs :
Yes, the past couple of months have gone quickly, just because I have had such good time (mostly) at my studies...
from legolass :
hmmm so whats going on with ben then? are you still in ipswich? hehe when are you gonna be in norwich, I WANNA SEE YA! miss my fwiend becki :( just now at college *yawn* has ben (your bro) come back this year? i havnt seen him. wb soon xx
from mortalveins :
if you don't want to live alone- it may be worth looking for adverts for people wanting housemates and such. Hope things go ok, Lins xxx
from dutyofcare :
I just got your email from weeks ago!!! I have a new adress now y'see, just checked it to look for an old email, so sorry, am not ignoring you!! MSN is now [email protected] and email is [email protected]. Sorrrrry!!!! *hugs*
from dozydormouse :
Big huggles. Hope it's not as disasterous as it sounds. You know where I am if you need moral support. xxx
from mortalveins :
*massive hug* I hope things sort themselves out, if there is anything i can do, let me know. Lins xxx
from soffs :
Congrats for passing the tests. Great! :-)
from dozydormouse :
OW, ow, ow poor baby. Much sympathy Becki
from dozydormouse :
Good luck sweetie. Will write/ text soon.
from jenoline :
Hmm... it's actually called "Dragostea din tei" and the English can't hack Romanian so the English title is "Mi ia Hii". I hate the English!
from dozydormouse :
Hugs. Men can't live with them can't live without them. You look really pretty in that photo.
from soffs :
Beautiful, you're so beautiful.
from mortalveins :
grrrrr. you're so pretty. I'm not growling in a mean way. Just incase you were scared. ahem. Lins xxx
from typelove :
hello. i saw your link on the online love ring and i was wondering if you would like to join my diary. it's a place for people who are involved in online relationships to write their feelings and support each other.
from dozydormouse :
More big hugs. If I had a magic wand I'd wave it over you and make it better. Sometimes love seems like more hassle than it's worth.
from soffs :
*billion hugs* I know exactly how you feel...
from dozydormouse :
Big big hugs. There's someone out there for you somewhere. It's finding them...but you will one day.
from mortalveins :
*a million hugs*
from pogo83 :
Hmm Becki.. I can't remember if you sent me it and I've forgotten but please can I have your password? I miss reading what you're up to :( Love ya lots, hope you're good xXxX
from jengaroo :
Love. Wub. Hugs. Moo. Love. From Me Goes To You. Wub! xx
from jenoline :
Becki wubbing going out to you, wub ya beckiboo, you're the greatest, take care, and i'm still here, just a bit further away, you can call my number if you need or want wub xx
from soffs :
Why bother? Because WE LOVE YOU!
from dozydormouse :
Huge Hugs. I think I'm already a founder member...
from mortalveins :
I will reitterate the *hugs*. Here is my subs for the club. *hands them over* Lins xxx
from soffs :
*hugs* I'll join the club with you!
from underthesuns :
Loads of hugs from me to **hugs**
from dozydormouse :
Hugs. Wish there was something I could say but as I am not very eloquent tonight I'm just thinking of you.
from pogo83 :
Becki! *hugs* You have updated but I don't seem to have your password.. or [duh] I've forgotten it if I did. If you don't mind me reading pretty please can you let me know it? I miss reading you :( Love ya Bex xx [email protected]
from mortalveins :
(((((becki))))) Thinking of you. You know where I am. lots of love xxx
from legolass :
well for what it worth - i still read. and seeing as you're never around when we ring you anymore its about the only way i find out whats going on in your life so please dont stop!
from mortalveins :
Medicine! wooooooooooo. will you be at UEA? Am glad things seem to be looking up. loads of love. xxx
from little-laur :
Medicine - well done babe! I know it's something that you really want to do and I know you'll be brilliant at it. Hope everything goes to plan. Speak to you soon Dr. Becki! xxx
from mortalveins :
heya, loads of love and hugs. Am thinking of you. You know where I am if you wanna talk or anything. xxxlinsxxx
from dozydormouse :
Hugs sweetie. I wish there was something I could say to make it all better but as it is hugs and I'm thinking of you.
from broken-spell :
did you get my password? I e-mailed it, I think. If not I'll send it again. I started getitng petrified my RL friends would find itwhich stoped me writing so much, so I felt I had to lock, or it lost its point. Hope all is well.
from legolass :
ugh don't you just hate that? the first night alone after they've stayed over - lee and i stayed round each others every night for almost a week in the xmas holidays and god it felt so wrong when he wasn't there :-( and the stupid fuckin snow is keeping him from me now *cries*
from sagana :
happy birhtdya hun! sorry i forgot, I'm dopey. hehe. anyway, hope you had bundles of joy xxx
from silentsophie :
oh my beckybear, happy birthday! someone once told me that every rose has a thorn, well...not this one. may your next year be full with smiles and beauty xxx
from legolass :
yeah i know...he doesn't pressurize me for it but i know i'm messing him around because i told him i was thinkin bout givin him the password and then i changed my mind - so he got his hopes up, thinkin i'd let him and then i didn't lol! he thinks you're gonna let him read yours though....i'll hint to him that you're not entirely happy with the idea lol! see you tomorrow!!!! xxx
from soffs :
*makes a mental note of that*
from pogo83 :
*waves* Becki!!! Ahhh I haven't spoken2u for ages either.. did I ever give u my password, I'm sorry if I was meant to & didn't! Can I have yours please (only if you want me to of course) Do you still have your other diary I'm all confused but oh well. Love ya honey! Bex xxx
from mortalveins :
one- You are stunning- you have the most amazing smile ever and as for "You look like some kind of celeb, while dicknob looks like some kind of street kid off Comic relief", SO RIGHT!! lol love "while you are sleeping" for me its very much a "watch while bbsitting film!" Spk soon love lins xxx
from soffs :
You still look beautiful. Even more so than ever. I mean it.
from dozydormouse :
I love While you were Sleeping but I liked Miss Congeniality more. Sandra Bullock is great although of course she always gets her man. I wish there was an easy answer to your dilema all I can say is if it's meant to be it will happen. HopefullY I'll finally post you that note I wrote tonight or tomorrow.
from silentsophie :
oh my world, i love that film! it is seriously cute, and yes sandra bullock does rock - but never as much so as in miss congeniality
from jenoline :
*proposes again and sends Tobey-engraved ring*
from silentsophie :
oh my darling, i do love you so much. i'd get engaged to you in a nanosecond.
from dozydormouse :
Lots of hugs. Men are impossible sometimes. I don't know him but maybe he wants to help but just doesn't know how. It must be very hard for him to understand if he's never been there. You may find the seeing someone is the best thing ever. The thing is they don't know you so they can be objective, they don't judge neither do they get hurt, upset or shocked like families. Plus they know lots more about how to help you than GP's. Seeing Prof. Lelliott for half an hour just once was the best thing I ever did. Hope it will be the same for you. Lots of hugs and sympathy anyway.
from soffs :
ME! *offers herself to be Becki's lesbian lover*
from mortalveins :
Hey Becki. Men are always moronic fools; something to do with the Y chromosome (missing all the esscential genes that make you female and great)...
from jenoline :
me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me ;)
from legolass :
what the hell, i'll be your devoted lesbian mate (like i'm not anyway ;) i'm sure lee wont mind, he'd probably be turned on by it ;p
from silentsophie :
damn you aly i wanted to be first. pick me, becki, pick me. i can offer you a lifetime of support, hot sex & cookie dough ice cream...
from sagana :
*offers* ;)
from silentsophie :
awwwww awwww awwww awww awwww awww
from jenoline :
great minds alykins my dear, great minds!
from sagana :
lmao jen we just noted at the same time!
from sagana :
Try mailling it, it always gets there eventually even if you get the address wrong. May take longer though.
from jenoline :
Wub to beckiboomeister! (see i can add things:P) Sorry I missed ya hunny, was so like "Muuuuuuuuuuum, can I just pop to Norfolk?" but cos of my Granny's assessment we all had to be there. sorrrrry when will we ever meet?! I'm going up there in March just before I leave for St Etienne... if I have a reading week in Feb though, so gonna race down to ya!
from legolass :
hey becks! just in case you don't think to try it, my password is the same for me as yours is for you :) hope you understand that! luv ya xx
from soffs :
Funny thing that about Christmas, but I heard recently from the radio about Christmas traditions (here in Finland at least) how the master of the house was sort of expected to be a bit pissed at Christmas... as it promised a good year in the fields next year... hmm... just like in any other christian celebration, Christmas also has maintained some old pagan things in it, like eating in excess...
from mortalveins :
hey becki, sorry you're feeling like you are, remember I'm here to listen to anything you want to say if you want. You have my email address. And here is a metaphorical hug to show I care (((((hug)))))
from soffs :
You know, I feel the same about those two songs too. :-D No, it's not slutty, it's just enjoying life. :-)
from mortalveins :
hey becki. sure u can have the password- shall I email you it?
from legolass :
hehehe. i've been having my monthly moment too. it MIGHT be over tonight in time for lee's party. i don't care if it's not, i'm tired of waiting. he's tired of waiting lol!!! it's so funny we're like *grrrrrrrrrrrrrr* no sex since.....monday! gagggh!
from mortalveins :
hey becki-claire, lins here. Last time we spoke you were having a tough time, hopefully things are looking up but thought I'd let you know im thinking of you. lots of love...
from jenoline :
haha you're a fucking nutcase... jennikinsbooboo??!?! is that my full title?!!? Pop 2000 anadins down ya gob that'll sort out the pain for you. And as for sex... well... sheets+mess= you do the math. You can wear both a thong and a white dress... you need a tampon ';) (no shit sherlock) and a bodyform g-stringer. And just keep checking all the time :P you should be safe then!! I have plenty more amusing pics of me if you ever get bored! Will be in East Anglia on the 22nd... maybe we could meet? Jen xx
from soffs :
You are gorgeous... You know, my friend had an UTI early in her pregnancy, she got antibiotics for it, but they never checked whether it actually went away and at the end of the pregnancy (more than 6 months after it was first diagnosed...) they noticed that she still had it... ARGH!
from tech-freak :
*nods in agreement*
from little-laur :
Becki you look GORGEOUS hun. xx
from tech-freak :
Becki....can I have your passwordness pleasey? *smiles sweetly*
from underthesuns :
Once again, congratulations :) I'm very happy for you and also happy that you're okay, it sounded like a pretty scaring experience that you had yesterday! I should start making sure I don't forget my bags/suitcases anywhere, it definitely sounds like a thing I could manage to do ;) xxx
from sagana :
Congrats! Not reading properly I somehow didn't notice at all, but go you ;) xxx
from soffs :
Diary entries need no structure whatsoever if the writer doesn't put it there. So no need to apologise for that. :-P Congrats, once again. :)
from cutiepie-nat :
Just read that you are... ENGAGED! Congratulations me deario, I hope you are veeeeeeery happy! xxxxxxx
from plaidmonster :
HOLY SHIT!! ENGAGED!!! God, I have to read your diary more often... Bloody hell, you're in a different place than you were a year ago, aren't you? Be happy, love; no on deserves it more.
from jenoline :
DUDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDE!! You didn't tell me you're engaged! FUCK ME!! COngratulations you sneaky little madame!! You freaking well deserve this you little lovely!! I hope you two are happy together :D Congrats honey! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from jenoline :
ooh my darlin' you are still alive :P! I'm just dandy thanking you! Been a bit arsey recently and not done much work, but am happy so all is well! And I saw meJenga today so tripled the happiness!! wub miss you dude!! xx
from pinky-angel :
Oh no! you are passworded... when did this happen? (am I way behind the times?) Is it ok if you email me the goods so I can keep up with you? Could you put DIARYLAND PASSWORD in the title so I don't trash it as junk :o) Thanks hun xx
from legolass :
lol i'm exactly the same! when lee had flu, and he was giving it to everyone he came in contact with - i was convinced i was gonna get it, every headache or cough i had and it was like "Agh shit here it comes!" but i never got it (as yet :P) and you know you'll be fine too. xx
from dozydormouse :
Rest assured I do not think you are cheating the system. I had five weeks sick pay from my employer effectively for doing nothing when I was so anxious and I can assure you like you I woudl far rather have gone to work than felt the way I did. And you are not bummingg off anyone this is why you and your family ahve paid tax and NI so you can have the help you need when you need it. Personally I think statutory sick pay is insultingly low anyway. I was lucky as i got my full salary when I was ill. Ask anyone who accuses you of liing off the state if they'd like to change places with you. I think you'll find there are no volunteers or only stupid ones.
from oxsexigurlxo :
I would very much like a password to read your diary. I remember reading it before you put it under lock and key and enjoyed it very much. :-)
from legolass :
hey i hav an addicted to shopping drink mat! lee is ill round my house :( i think he's got flue, my room is now bright pink and i didn't fall over skating once!
from jenoline :
wub.
from legolass :
yay you had a good time!! yay! shame i didn't lol but i'm all better now and ready to show everybody up skating :D god i love skating
from dozydormouse :
I am so glad you had a good evening after the text you sent me. I was really worried for you. Good for Kev seems to know the bit about its not words just being there that helps. Good for you.
from sagana :
Hey, haven't heard from you for aaaages... thought you were moving your diary but you don't seem to have updated the new one so I went back here adn it's locked... let me know what's doing :P xx
from shithappened :
hi sweety i thought i'd leave you a message havent heard from you in a while how are you then if you ever want to text me or ring me you can ring me on this num 07909947130 me and scott are sharing his phone send as a text soon missing you loads littel bit worried coz i havent heard from missing you lots, lots of love luv me
from jenoline :
why don't you liberate your mind, let your colours fill the sky. I say HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY WHATEVER.... It's your life, it's now or never, we ain't gonna live forever :) Good luck mon amour... I love you babbbbbbbbbby!! Whatever the mofo yo do, don't let Matt detract from any potential happiness that lies ahead. WUB FOREVER! xx
from dozydormouse :
Be happy love. Your ex is not your responsibility any more and his happiness or lack of is not your problem. Harsh I know and far easier said than done. Please don't let guilt spoil what you have it isn't your fault. As to the money thing - ring the benefits agency and cry I have found this very effective when dealing with the Inland revenue etc. Usually have recieved a cheque in the post next day. Hugs.
from silentsophie :
hmm yes tricky situation...i can understand how it must be difficult but at the end of the day matt does need to move on & let you be happy, but that'll only come with time. i would give you everything i had if i thought it would somehow help. just thought i'd remind you that i love you ♥♥♥♥♥♥
from dozydormouse :
One more thing to add. Bloody men!
from jenoline :
argh my darling, i hadn't seen this entry when i texted you. please don't think i'm some horrible insensitive bitch, i just care and was worried about you... wub wub wub wub. guys do only text when they feel it's essential...they have this testosterone detector in sim cards that prevents them from sending "pointless messages" which we girlies like to send all the time. but i'm sure there's an even more simple and logical reason anyway, cos, well, you're wubbly! all my wub Jennikins xxx
from dozydormouse :
Don't worry. Men unimaginitive creatures that they are never text or email unless they have something to say. Like meet me at the pub at 8. They don't seem to do random messages like we girls do.
from legolass :
aahhhh you and kev photos!!! yay! i want one of me and lee :( someone get me a scanner! and a photo i havent chopped up for that book! lol! anyway much as you don't give a fuck (and i know its true) i also know this will probably make you feel better - cass and rob are SO not gonna last. we were out with them last night, round lukes house, she like hardly went near him! she was mainly draped all over jam as far as i could see and rob being as shy as he is never said a word (although peter said one for him and she carried on anyway) so yeah basically - relationship made in hell! as is any relationship where cass forms one half :p
from jenoline :
AWW I LOVE YOU TOO!!!! WUB to the power of infinity!!! You know I think (know... :P) you're beautiful, but here it is again, you lovely little beauty bunny stunning on those pics and kev is a little diamond. I wish you luck:P LOVE ME ME ME ME xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (found the internet in my room, think it's expensive, but now we can talk again :P:P)
from little-laur :
Looking gorgeous in those pics becki. *is jealous* xx
from maxxtro :
Woah you're beautiful. You have one of the prettiest faces I've ever seen. Keep smiling babe xxx
from soffs :
Becki love, one thing. You're gorgeous. Really and honestly. You beautiful girl. :) I mean it.
from jenoline :
Don't know much about history, don't know much biology. but I do know that I love you so. Coming your way when I get the cast off. I have your address. I have my car, I have an A-Z of Norwich. I will be there with bells on as soon as my leg is liberated. Don't care if you don't want to see me either. I'm coming. Because I care and I don't know how I can help.
from legolass :
lol dont worry honey, whether or not you give a flying fuck i don't know but rob and cass will not last two seconds...i garuntee it. did u know that now aussie mitch and rachel broke up, me and lee have been together the longest of anyone we know? how weird!
from dozydormouse :
I really wish I had that magic wand I talked about earlier becasue I promise you if I had it you would be the first one I'd wave it over only I'm just me and I can't do magic. xI seriously thought about leaving work and driving east to see you at lunchtime but there's nothing I could do or say to help. Thinking of you as always.
from silentsophie :
would it be unsafe if i hijacked a plane & flew it north west so i can tell you just how much you mean to me? you are really quite wonderful. you werent invited, but neither was i. it was more a "hey im going to the ntas" and "hey me too, lets meet up" sort of thing. i would have love love loved it if you were there xxx
from legolass :
look becks just grab that happiness with both hands and dont give a shit what other people think - like you said its your life, who gives a fuck about anyone elses thoughts on the matter? its none of their goddamn business. lols oz i'm in a pissy mood today. xx
from maxxtro :
I'm so glad you're happy. I know I don't know you particularly well but I hate it when my friends are unhappy and I can't do anything. And I consider you to be a friend and someone I would love to get to know better. I'm happy for you Becki, keep smiling! xxx
from maxxtro :
Oooh go Becki! He sounds lovely. You'll be fine, just take things at your pace. Congrats on the Modship as well, I knew you'd get it :D Love ya xxxx
from legolass :
lol! being a girlfriend....shiiiiite...thats EXACTLY how i felt! so yeah...welcome to my world! its a fun world honestly :D
from legolass :
lol! being a girlfriend....shiiiiite...thats EXACTLY how i felt! so yeah...welcome to my world! its a fun world honestly :D
from legolass :
i noticed you weren't there last night....i missed you :( the world wouldn't be the same without you in it becks and you know it - mine wouldn't be anyway.
from obsessedhan :
& it's not going to help but I just wanted you to know that I love you & that I really should have something wiser and stronger to say but that's it.
from jenoline :
Jenny loves Becki.
from legolass :
nah you didnt miss anything :) i cant even remember who won the pool! i was the only girl again tho :-( hehe wish you'd bin there, see you soon xx
from little-laur :
I'd like the password please, if that's ok. xx
from cutiepie-nat :
I'd love a password please love...
from prettykay :
I would love a password...:-)
from pogo83 :
I know I'll be seen to be jumping on the bandwagon but I might lock mine too.. I just feel I'd write more if I know exactly who has access to it. Anyway, if you trust me with your password I'd be v.honoured and love to carry on reading but I understand if you don't cos I haven't known you as long as everyone else. xxxx
from vocal-magick :
yeah, I'd like your password please. Also thinking about locking mine vaguely, there are some things you just don't want to share with the world. I wanted keeping my diary open to help people somehow but what can I do? Anyway, rambling. xx
from silentsophie :
i know i've said this before, but i'm saying it again, you are more beautiful than i think you know. what i wouldn't give for your talent. thanks so much for giving me something to read every day, something to relate to. you express everything that breaks my heart in ways i couldn't begin to describe and i'm so grateful for it. and i'd kinda love to have the password, so please make me happy
from shithappened :
yer thats very dont let the fuckers that shit on rule youf life your better than that. but you always know i love you sweety what ever happens and you already know that. but hey sweety how you doin i gess yuo read my diary lots have been going on. oww plus kieron rang my fridat night about 11:00 arsked me if he could ring me on the house phone at craigs phone i said give me 10 min then ring me back so 10min turned into an hour so i thought well fuck you i cant be arsked to wait fucking twat and i rang his mobile about 5 times well mabey more and he didnt answer so im going to find out to day why he didnt ring but fuck it and fuck them all of the fuckers... but there you go shit happens lol but i should see you today LOVE YA see you soon luv me -+- ; )
from legolass :
meh i dont know what to say on this one....cuz i dont know either of them like you do! but the period, i guess thats good in a roundabout twisted sort of way lol! actually i'm waiting for mine next week....we were good but i'm still worried because i'm silly lol
from pogo83 :
Hey Beckiboo! Just thought I'd say hiya :D Love the new layout&your photos were fab.I loveURhair *wishes mine would grow faster!* *hugs* Bex x
from legolass :
ai me he's sooooo not worth all this becks....lol i was there, i know! i can't quite think of anything to say...lol "Marge please, i'm counting on you to do something or say something to make it all better!" but I would if i could :( xx
from vocal-magick :
I love you. xxx
from silentsophie :
i met this really nice girl in the co-op last night & she reminded me of you. she had such a beautiful smile, but she had scars on her arms..."out of every girl i meet, no other can compete, i'd ditch them all for a night with you" becki baby, you are so beautiful inside and out. the most beautiful thing is that you don't know it... xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from pogo83 :
*squashes Becki with hugs* Darlin.. I know saying 'I don't know what to say' doesn't help.. I really wish I was good with words. Instead I just have to leave this pointless note to let you know I care, that I cried when I read that because I want more than anything to make everything better for you
from oxsexigurlxo :
You always leave the most wonderful notes for me! Thanks once again for bringing a smile to my face! XoXo
from legolass :
lol gawdammit bax i didnt write that entry to get apologies off you, i didn't and don't think you had anything to apologise for. but when heidi said that you came up to her and said "read this" what was i supposed to think? i suppose i shouldnt have got mad so quick without hearing your side but you cant blame for being upset when i thought you showed her deliberately. anyway we talked about all this earlier, hopefully we've sorted things and i'll try and understand more. and i never said you were a two faced bitch :p NEVER and i do miss you *huge hugs* xxx
from pogo83 :
Interesting! Whenever I look up our name it always just says 'one who is bound' Bound to what?! *big hugs* Bex xx
from jenoline :
do they give awards for longest note?! :P
from jenoline :
:( I wub you hun... i'm going now... off to mcLeeds, I'll try and get net access before the week's out cos I don't wanna not talk to you! keep your chin up, remember, the sun is shining you just need it to shine a bit stronger so it gets through those clouds, just like Karin said... she speaks good words even if she is a little crazy. thinking of you and missing you mucho... your friend, Jen xxxxxxxxxxx (best friend :P ) wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wubwub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wubwub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wubwub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wubwub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wubwub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wubwub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wubwub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wubwub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wubwub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wubwub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wubwub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub wub (ps. Did I tell you? WUB!!) Take care hun, hope things get better for you on all fronts, all you really need is Simon Thomas :D, you know where I am if you want anything (that's Leeds, by the way, but you have my phone number :P), and you know I'm here for you, I care and I don't care how trivial you think something is, just call me ok? I can call you back, I have free minutes :D . speak soon MWAH xxx
from oxsexigurlxo :
Oh honey. I don't know what else to say other than it really sucks when bad things happen to such good people. You are an amazing person. Everytime I write something about my being down, you are one of the first people to comment on it and cheer me up. I can't see why anyone wouldn't value your friendship. Keep your chin up hun. Plenty of people think you are amazing...I can tell by all the sweet notes that they have been leaving you. Don't let a few idiots get you down. You're better off without them in your life anyways. They'll only hold you back from being the fantastic person you are destined to be! XoXo
from pogo83 :
*hugs Becki* I can't say what I mean, not because other people are reading this but because I can't put it into words. I don't even know why I'm leaving this note cos it's pretty pointless... but I want you to know I care. xxxx
from vocal-magick :
*huggles Becki muchly* you have shit friends, and it's crap, cos you deserve so much better friends. Just try and get through this year, try and get better, I don't know if there's any psychological help you can get or anything but there's still your mum :) If I was you I'd get Heidi out so you don't have to put up with that. Stay strong xx
from underthesuns :
*hug* *hug* *hug* *hug* *hug* *hug* *hug* *gives a huge hug to Becki* *hug* *hug* I really hope that you'll soon feel better and you'll be able to see the sunshine behind all the dark clouds on the sky! It's still shining there somewhere for you and by time it will come out again and hopefully shine brighter than ever! Don't give up your hope on this, that day will come, hopefully soon.
from legolass :
come on bex we all know you'd never do anything to intentionally hurt anyone, and thats not the way it even came across!
from jenoline :
as if i'd ever desert you dude! have a bigger bundle of Jenny love for just being totally great!
from jenoline :
�� have mine
from silentsophie :
that 'steals your layout' should read 'steals your heart...i was too busy thinking up layout-colour analogies...anyway you're fucking beautiful, love you kid...
from silentsophie :
oh.my.fuck you remind me of me so much [i can only hope that's a good thing] why do silly boys have to do that confusing thing? anyone who steals your layout should be:- [!]shot[!], [*]tortured[*], till their faces go pinker\blacker\pink-blackier than the colours on your layout. or perhaps they could spend an allotted amount of time in sophie's hurting-becki jail. {&even if there isn't one that exists yet; i'll have someone build it} ♥ x infinity...you're pure beauty & i wish you the best
from underthesuns :
Becki hon, your fics are also so evoking and poignant and truly brilliant! Don't you ever dare to think anyting else ;) Most of them are simply wonderful, don't be too hard on them. They just don't seem the same in your eyes as it's something you have written yourself and because of that you are being more hard and critical on them. They are wonderful, just like everything else on you and I really hope you get to realise this yourself one day. *hug* You simply rule!! Sorry for unintentionally stealing the colours of your diary by the way, I hope you don't mind?
from underthesuns :
Becki hon, your fics are also so evoking and poignant and truly brilliant! Don't you ever dare to think anyting else ;) Most of them are simply wonderful, don't be too hard on them. They just don't seem the same in your eyes as it's something you have written yourself and because of that you are being more hard and critical on them. They are wonderful, just like everything else on you and I really hope you get to realise this yourself one day. *hug* You simply rule!! Sorry for unintentionally stealing the colours of your diary by the way, I hope you don't mind?
from jenoline :
Aww sorry didn't mean to get you all spiderexcited!
from onthesix :
LOL!!!!!! I thought I had a Spidey admirer, and seeing as Rob brought me a Spidey lighter yesterday I wondered if it was him...:blink: Haha, I'm glad its you though! :D Thanks hon...Tobey Maguire is some fit ass! ;) xxxx
from jenoline :
Hello chicken... have just been catching up on ya diary. hehehehe It was I, I am the sender of the Spiderman!! :P I did it about 2 hours before I left for Mallorca to cheer you up cos I knew we wouldn't be able to talk for a week... did it work?! It was just meant to be a nice surprise, I forgot you'd have no idea :P Love ya Jen xx
from jenoline :
To my becki. I think you're the most amazing person in the world. <-- that there is a period, a fullstop. No catches, no sly jibes, no secret giggling behind your back. I wanna talk to you sometime soon on msn or (this is the cool bit... I have 250 free cross network minutes so I can call without saying "this is costing me about �10 now so I have to go!") le telephone {hear that lovely Norwich accent ;) }, just get thine ass in touch wit me byotch! I love ya man, and I really really, truly mean it, I think you're just great, marvellous, wonderful, wunderbar. For everything. ever. big hug. Jennikins. xxxxxx
from vocal-magick :
Which song is it? Might well download it before they start suing us.
from shesuggested :
yeah, that too. and i definitely see where you're coming from. i heard a song a grand total of ONE times, and the only line i remember is "she's a sad girl because it looks alright." and it's pretty true. drama and depression are big these days, and i get caught up in it a lot, despite my acute cynicism for ANYTHING really depressing, lately. no problemo.
from shesuggested :
depression's like that. we like feeling that we're the only people in the world with problems of such horrific magnitude, so we exaggerate them into big squishy piles of angst. i mean, really, where do you think most heavy metal comes from?
from onthesix :
LOL! I have very slight vision, I'm slightly long sighted in one eye and it barely makes a difference except when I'm tired, so it helps when I start to feel fatigued. But I'm pissed at it, and so is my Mum!
from pogo83 :
How can someone else wear UR glasses? Don't it make them dizzy?! Ahh man! Electric 6, I always meant to buy that songI'm a bit late now :o
from oxsexigurlxo :
That Electric 6 song rocks!! I didn't know it had been out for awhile. I just heard it on the radio the other day while in the car with Eric and thought it was hilarious!!
from pinky-angel :
I read your diary a lot, even though I've never added you to my buddies list. I know you have a lot of worries and troubles, which is why I find it so amazing that you can still be so kind to others. The messages you leave me mean a lot to me and I hope that one day we will both be able to find our happiness. Thank you :o) xx
from vocal-magick :
Have read the story before at CF, it rocks. :)
from little-laur :
Becki, your writing leaves me speechless and I can never come up with the words to do its beauty justice. So I'm not going to bother, just going to say it's *excellent* xxx
from legolass :
lol i wonder if that note made no sense again - basically bitch away, it doesn't bother me and i wont say anything *hug*
from legolass :
hey becks lets get one thing straight - dont you EVER hide what you really feel from me! i've written my diary, more with other people in mind than myself, for far too long now - i dont want you to end up doing the same! just write whatever the hell you want about Lee in here (lol bitch away!)and it goes without saying that it goes no furthur than me.
from silentsophie :
i
from silentsophie :
!seriously!
from silentsophie :
want
from silentsophie :
to
from silentsophie :
hold
from silentsophie :
you
from silentsophie :
forever
from pogo83 :
Hey Becki! Love your new layout it's fab :) I know we don't really talk but I have read your diary a few times (I think I got here from Kaylz or someones diary..!) I wish I could write an honestly as you do. I'm not gonna come out with 'I know how you feel' cos I don't and I know how patronising it is when people say that but I do know a little of what you go through.. especially the going out thing :( Anyway, you know where I am if you ever want to talk, can't promise I will be much help but hey ;) Love n hugs Bex xxxx
from vocal-magick :
Becki, you are beautiful. You're not thin, but thinness isn't what makes someone beautiful in my eyes. It's in your face, and it's inside you too. I've never known you be anything but lovely, your writing amazes me, and you don't deserve any of the stuff that's happened to you. You may not be my bestest best mate, but remember you've got Jen who is, and I do still care despite not getting to talk to you much. I hope something happens soon to make you realise just how wonderful your life should be.
from legolass :
ok what i'm about to say is maybe not something i should be saying, maybe i should be putting lee first but i dont. i put you first because i knew you first and right now i know you need me more. and i DO care and you can tell i'm caring because instead of being sympathetic like a fuckin normal person i feel like screaming at you because you will not listen to me!!!!!! i KNOW i can't help...i want to....i want to so badly, and it hurts so much that i can't but it DOESNT mean i'm gonna stop tryin whether you fuckin want it or not
from lastyeargirl :
Size 8 is disgustingly thin. There's nothing sexy about having the figure of a ten-year-old boy. Obviously I have no idea what you look like, but I hope to God you're able to see yourself as others see you when you say those things. You make me worry. But you write pain so beautifully...
from legolass :
lol the basic point was that i'm not gonna tell u how unlikely throwing up is because i don't want to jinx us, and have us do it. and francis does not fancy me or he'd have done sumthin about it ages ago lol! and tough shit if he does :) are you ok after last night with mitch and everything? i tried to be there for you lol, i'm not always the best at giving advice but i can listen! (and talk :p)
from legolass :
when i was little i went through this period of being so afraid of throwing up when i was in bed...i used to lie there and cry, and refuse to go to sleep cuz i thought i wouldnt be able to get to the bathroom in time! i never told my parents though, i dont knoow why. i'm kinda over it now but i still REALLY hate it, although probably not to the extent you do *hugs* im not gonna say how unlikely it is cuz i dont wanna jinx us (i'm very superstitous!) but i'm sure others have told you
from silentsophie :
becki darling, before you disregard what people like ?kate? say, maybe you should look into a mirror and see that you are beautiful. not just outside, inside too. (& i'm not just trying to boost your confidence) you've got it all wrong darling. you rock my socks. [[ always wanted to say that to someone who i think is amazing.]] i read your diary almost every day & although i may not always take the time to say it, it blows me away. because your words are raw and you write the truth. & you still manage to be the best writer on holby.tv. My fics might be sort-of pretty, but yours are !beautiful!
from oxsexigurlxo :
Hey hun. Thanks for the great note. It is really hard sometimes, and I know I'm not the only one that is going through that situation, but it's nice to have people come out and let you know they understand. I promise to keep my head up and keep smiling, if you promise to do the same. :-D XoXo
from vocal-magick :
not forgetting!! :)
from lastyeargirl :
I didn't really watch last year's Fame Academy - only bits of it since David Sneddon was a friend and crush of mine when I was thirteen or something - but I love Ainslie. My signed Keep Me A Secret is one of my prized posessions!
from legolass :
waaahhhh!!! omg i cant believe she did this!! i didnt believe it when Lee told me....she seemed alright when we were havin the pizza!! just goes to show you cant tell i suppose....she's fine now though right? of course she is, i've seen her but how is she? *cries* lol in case u can't tell i'm freaking out and rambling so i'll shut up. and as for you - it so was not your fault, you can't watch her every minute you know! if you were meant to prevent it then you would have..this sounds awful but maybe she needed to try to realise she didn't want to...i hope she realised that anyway. see you soon i'm sure *hugs* xxx
from lastyeargirl :
I think you should enjoy being unique. I happen to think you're wonderful. PS - the new layout is amazing xx
from oxsexigurlxo :
I have yahoo, MSN and AIM, but only use AIM. My screenname is sweetnsexylmw if you want to message me sometime! XoXo
from oxsexigurlxo :
That note you left me was seriously one of the sweetest ones I have ever gotten. Thank you so much! Seriously, I have been through the wringer with guys. When I met Eric, I honestly thought he was too good for me. But I thank my lucky stars every night that he loves me as much as he does. You'll find someone. You just have to set your standards higher and try not to fall for the assholes. I know it's easier said than done, but it's something to at least attempt. I think you used to be on my favorites, I don't know if you still are, I'll check and if not, I will add you. Stay sweet hun! XoXo
from legolass :
lol so i am supposed to be One True Voice's One True Fan? lol i'm sure theres more of us out there....maybe one....lol
from soffs :
I love Becki too! You look beautiful :)
from jenoline :
I love Becki!
from broken-spell :
Hey Becki, just a quick note form the other side of the world. I must admit I was worried becasuse I hadn't heard form you from a while but I dared to check in on your diary and was glad to see you must be fine as you'd updated recently. In fact from the last entry it appears you seem quite happy which I'm glad about. Keep well Vicky xx
from betterthnu :
ur review is up! http://betterthnu.diaryland.com/onthesix.html
from legolass :
goddammit girl dont you just hate it when that happens? the whole 'oooh they both like EACH OTHER!' thing...blah. unless it happens to you of course. meh...i dont know who heidi is but its totally his loss cuz you're gorgeous and fun and kind...i'll stop now. i got my photos back from norwich city (finally) there's one of you and u look sooo good! anyway....i dont fancy you i promise *grin*
from legolass :
oh god becks i'm so sorry....i never even thought about you (or ben incidentally) and the party...i literally invited about 6 ppl from skool because we'd left and of course rupert which was just more cuz he lived down the road than anything. by the way, not that you're interested but he decided he liked Kirsten and didnt fancy me. and you ARE my best friend, please don't forget that, i noticed you changed your comment for me in your profile :( i don't blame you but hopefully we can sort this next week? luv Ella
from talkingtome :
Thanks for filling out my survey.
from the-assholes :
Guess what. I, JC of The Assholes, have reviewed your diary, and rather unsurprisingly it turns out it sucks. If you follow me to http://the-assholes.diaryland.com/030713_94.html, and try not to piss yourself along the way, you'll find it. Have a nice fucking day, asshole. JC.
from some-trouble :
Hiya, please don't feel like a dumbass - you replied afterall :o) I'm doing ok thanks, just very tired at the moment. How about you? How are you doing?
from prettykay :
Thank you so much for your kind words. Every little bit helps me feel better, and it is comforting to know that someone else is out there in the same yet different situation, and that i'm not alone. best wishes, and once again thank you so much.
from prettykay :
this diary is amazing. i love it sooo much, and the new layout fits you perfectly.
from youscareme :
Thanks for the review. I read what you wrote about the font, and the font I use is Calligraph 421. I think it's one I downloaded once upon a time, and so not everyone has it. I appreciate the time you took to read entries and write more and a couple sentences worth about them. Despite the average score, I think this is one of the best reviews I've received. :)
from krazieespy :
sure you can review if you would like. The password is computer. Enjoy I am going to start reviewing too! Pls feel free to email me or sign my guestbook to get ahold of me.
from soffs :
When I was 18 and in love, my mother said to me: "You cannot possibly be in love because you don't look like it." That hurt.
from fleur-review :
No link, no review. Sorry. You may re-submit if you link to us, but you will be put back to the bottom of the list. I don't know why you weren't told this earlier.
from jenoline :
pfff. you're definition of possible love, I tried to do that too...does being excited at the thought of running your fingers through his hair mean you're in love. etc etc, I sooooo know where you're coming from, unfortunately I've done a bloody good job of hiding to myself...hope to speak to ya soon I love and miss ya! It's been a while, soz I've had work most nights this week and when I'm not pouring stale beer all over myself my bitches like to see me. Don't think I love you any less though! *mwah* (}) Msn stylee xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from prettykay :
hahaha, and i just read that you fell in love with tobey maguire also!! i'm a sucker for geeky guys as well, and he has SOME muscles in the movie. ::sigh::
from prettykay :
Thanks for signing my guestbook, it really meant a lot about what you said, and I'm starting to better understand that now. I read a lot of your entries, and I just wanted to tell you that you write beautifully. I added you to my favorites. :-)
from jenoline :
That did help:D thank you (})! xxxxx
from vocal-magick :
Go you gal wit' ya bad a$$ fic... lol it's brilliant! Very grownupilly written, I didn't undertand half the words lol. Reads like a proper adult novel! you needs a fic site...xxx
from jenoline :
I know lots of people bullshit about "truly understanding" how someone feels, but I wholeheartedly empathise with you my darling, reading that stuff about Rob, apart from the fear of vomit, there wasn't a single word that that didn't ring true for how I feel for Dave... because although I've told myself and everyone else I'm over him I'm not, and if I had the writing ability that you do, I could've conveyed my feelings for him in those exact words, statements, etc etc. You wanna talk about it?! Seriously, I totally 100% understand where you're coming from... sitting there, watching him, his lovely eyes, his lovely smile, averting the gaze... damnation
from legolass :
hey becks im going away today....please text me sometime and let me know everythings alright you've got me really worried now!! luv ya xxx
from berry-review :
Hey. I'm Michelle from Berry-Review. Heres the deal. I have two review sites. One called fleur-review. And berry-review, at which you have just requested a review. I've decided that having two review sites is ridiculous, and I will be closing down berry-review. However, you will still be reviewed fleur-review (fleur-review.diaryland.com) Check back soon, and you should be on the pending list there. Sorry for the inconvenience. And thanks.
from vocal-magick :
Join laura's casualty and hollyite diaryrings :D
from soffs :
That's what computers are for... messing up your precious and hard work...
from legolass :
blah ray was makin me SO jealous yesterday - i hate jealousy its an ugly thing, but i swear i couldnt help it and its stupid especially as i have no claims on him at all (as yet) I WILL kill hannah. bitch.
from legolass :
ok fine so it was ben i was writing about....its true though, i flirt with every guy but not him and i swear to god i dont know why. he scares me :s cuz i like him so much but my way of dealin with it is to piss off with as many guys as possible :) im a bad person
from legolass :
ugh. i did the whole 'tell him you're cool with being mates' things with ben, when i obviously wasnt cool with it but hey he doesn't know that ;) and - YES YOU SHOULD FLIRT WITH EVERYONE WHO CROSSES YOUR PATH. it's the best thing you possibly could, you're easily pretty enough to do it and anyway looks aren't what's important its the attitude you have - if you can fake self confidence, they'll never know and then you'll have it for real :D
from soffs :
New layout great! Where's the entry? Why is that box all over the tagboard?
from vocal-magick :
Heya, love the layout hun, although my Mr Taggy is nowhere to be seen, *sob* oh well, hope you're doing good, we don't talk enough. Hang loose moose x
from legolass :
hey now gona read your review :) how r u? missin u hun, we hardly speaked for ages :'( hope u come online soon xxx
from utter-views :
Hey your review is up- http://utter-views.diaryland.com/onthesix.html
from laudien :
Hi! Thank you so much for taking an interest in the site. If you go to the other reviewer's...Heather's...diary, and leave a note there, she can tell you all you need to know. I gave her the password and all, so she's probably changed it, but I'm so glad you want to help and I think she'll be more than happy to let you be a part of the site :)
from utter-views :
Just wanted to let you know that we're open!
from plaidmonster :
I figured out the colors for the plaid background you offered to do so long ago... don't worry about rushing it, but I'd be honoured if you made the plaid for my diaryland background. These are the colors... #993300, #666600, #660000, and #CC9933 ....
from soffs :
If people don't want to read what you, or anyone else for that matter, write(s), it's up to them. Diary is here for US, the writers, not the readers. You can't "critize" a diary like it were a fictional novel. We have to have a place and a right to let out some steam, and frankly, diary is a hella good place for that. So ramble on if you want and don't feel bad about it, you have to let it out sometimes. If people get offended that other people need to let steam and bad feeling out, THEY have a problem, not you. *hugs* I love you.
from plaidmonster :
Stop it Becki, just STOP IT! You are NOT worth any less than anyone else... you're beautiful to me and if I could take it all away from you I WOULD! I've had the same fantasy about the knife and God, I want you to be happy. PLEASE PLEASE be happy. I can't be there to make it happen, and I'm so sorry. STOP talking shit about yourself. You are NOT like that!!!
from legolass :
last i heard she was...i mean i was there with her *giving him evils* :)
from plaidmonster :
You're still TALKING to Matt? Please, tell me you aren't...
from plaidmonster :
PROUD! What am I of you? PROUD! P-R-O-U-D...gimme a P-! Strength, love... I give you strength.
from plaidmonster :
Oh love, are you okay? I've been hit before. I know EXACTLY how you feel. Or at least, I'd like to think I do. It took me hours to drive 20 minutes because I refused to drive on main roads and it took me a long time to get back in the car. I hope you feel okay... physically and emotionally. I love you... feel better... H!L
from plaidmonster :
You need to erase this guy from your life. NOW. I never liked anything about him and for that I'm sorry. I want so much for you to be happy Bex. I love you, ok? You and I... we can do this together, I think. This happy thing? I think we could manage it...
from legolass :
arse monkeys? *dies laughing*
from onthesix :
Arse monkies. Damnit! *pouts* I'm sick of the bloody Tobey one now! *more poutness*
from vocal-magick :
Heya, Laura's right, it does take a while, fortunately I only have like five entries so it took me practically no time. Keep smiling babe x
from soffs :
No idea whne the template is going to change, I've had the same problem when I recently changed mine, the old entries didn't change. My only option has been to change them manualle, just by "editing" them (no need to make changes into the entry itself, just "Edit/delete entries" and just "edit" them, so to speak). Someone told me that Andrew, who runs Diaryland, has a bot fixing it all, but I think it will take years for it to change everything everywhere, so I decided not to wait...
from plaidmonster :
If the devil pays a visit, don't do anything stupid. Love you...
from jenoline :
maybe you need to have Ian instead of tobey!?!
from plaidmonster :
Everytime you mention a song I download it... you have great taste... *grins* Miss you, love.
from plaidmonster :
You need to see "Chicago" whenever it comes out there... It's great. Good clean fun... And I miss you. Funny, but I'm clinging to your diary like it's a person... I'm so pissed that Howard came between us and it's been so damn long that I've gone without "this". The song "My Immortal" by Evanescence will make you cry and you'll know how I feel...
from veerkite :
i hope you don't mind but I followed the link in your profile to this diary. A lot of what you write about really hits home and I was actually crying as I sat here and read it. without launching into something like my own life story - which is something I doubt you'd want to here, but lets put it this way I've been down to the very bottom - I don't really know what to say next. Other than just keep your head up take life each day as it comes. I feel kind of stupid saying this but if you ever want anyone impartial just to completely shout off to things about then feel free to get in contact. I'm mysterious_veerkite on cas files, so just message me or look up my e-mail addy in my profile or something. I don't actually keep a diary online anymore, I just set up the account ages ago when I was thinking about it. I hope you don't mind me having read your diary, and sorry for writing such a long message. Vicky
from canadiandoll :
Thanks for the nice note, I love your sunset template! Gabs.
from phoenixtease :
i can't believe you signed su's diary!
from wire-ending :
i read some of your diary and i really like it. you are a good writer and i am bulimic too so i know how you feel. take care. <33 kate
from phoenixtease :
happy birthday sweetpea x
from phoenixtease :
howdy doody baby! thanks for signing my guestbook; glad you like my new look diary, I'm pleased with it! Thanks for the chrimblie card; I hope yours arrived safely too! I've lost track of lots of stuff thats happening with you, so I think you owe me an e-mail! Although I'm guessing Matt was the bloke hanging off of you when I saw you in town pre-christmas (looking gorge!) Love you xxx
from legolass :
ok if u want a cool design for your diary then clickety click the design link on my diary...it takes u 2 the diary of the girl who did mine, she has LOADS and shes gives em away for free! hang on lemme see if i can find the link to her site where the codes for em are..... http://www.geocities.com/ally_louise_7/rdesigns try that! :) xxx
from legolass :
Im sorry, but you can ignore my e-mail if you want, maybe you're busy I dont know but you can't avoid me forever and Im coming to see you on Saturday whether you like it or not. Anyway, Im guessin you won't be staying over now but you still can if you want. And if I sound really angry and unsympathetic I'm sorry but it shows I care....when Im truly upset I find it hard to show sympathy towards the person :s I'm sorry, I don't mean it.
from phoenixtease :
I'm getting really worried about you sweetie x
from salenam :
hey.. i found ur name from a survey that u took.. and i started to read ur diary, but i couldnt cuz it made me scared... no one should worry so much about how much they weigh, ur perfect the way u r! trust me! no one is ever going to be happy with th way they are, so we should all get over it! i have quite the opposite problem than u, i think im too skinny, it might sound weird, but like i said, no one is ever going to be happy with themselves! dont make urself puke, and 400 calories a day!? thats so bad! im worried about u! u need food to keep u healthy, an maybe u cant help it if ur weigh runs in ur family and if thats how it is, then u'll be starving urself for no reason! please, just dont hurt urself! u'll see through this! let me know how things go ok? by the way, im salena :)
from magicalaqua :
Hey :) Just stopping by to say hello really - how are you?! Love and hugs - Lucy xxxx
from phoenixtease :
*Gasp* First note in this diary!! *Dances around!!* Thanks for joining the dramaqueen diaryring!! xxx

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