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Hey..guess what..I finally saw your note and..etc. you can check it your self. Gone. Stay your creative self, all the best in your writing and then some.

from stepfordtart :

Huzzah! What a splendid entry. Put a big smile on my miserable old face, it did. Many congrats to you and here's to the rest of your life - may it be astonishing! s x

from bliss-sad :

It's so hard to let go of "the one you could be with if...." I hope you know that you're incredible; settling for any less than someone just as spectacular would be a shame. You deserve the whole world.

from stepfordtart :

Thanks for your note - just read your latest. WTF?! Think he just earned himself a punch in the face. s x

from stepfordtart :

I think you were right to kick him out. Sometimes I'd like to do that too "Bugger off, I want the bed to myself and I want to pick my nose and try on every outfit and leave stuff on the floor and read a book and generally NOT HAVE YOU HERE. Come back on Friday." but, as I am married, I understand that it may be frowned upon. ; ) s x

from stepfordtart :

'writs'?? *writes. s x

from stepfordtart :

Yay for the end of exams! Oh, and that poem might work as a lyric with a bit of tinkering, know anyone who writs music? s x

from stepfordtart :

that first paragraph made me feel a little bit sick. Good luck with that stuff, it sounds like it sucks. s x

from stepfordtart :

Im sure its no consolation, but L feels exactly the same over the loss of his ma (5 years ago last week) and I am sure I will feel just like you do when my mum isnt here any more. May you find peace. s x

from bridgecity :

Moths lay eggs in cotton clothing and when the larva hatch eat holes in the clothes to escape.

from fairybones :

thanks for the note, sugar! it was really encouraging, and i'm so glad to hear from someone who's been in a similar boat. if i believed in karma i'd definitely be of the opinion that it's come back to bite me in the arse right now, considering all the times i've strung past boys along until they started to get a little too heavy in the lovey-dovey department for me that i'd have to cut them loose, and they'd be all, "what! but i thought you really liked me!" i think the only thing i can do to keep sane is to just relax and go with the flow - i know he cares about me and i know that he knows i care about him, and that's good enough for me right now. we'll see though! thanks again for the kind words, you're a doll. <3

from stepfordtart :

My husband and I run a monthly open mic night - something of a busman's holiday for him but its great fun. Word of warning: dont date musicians. That way lies damnation (and financial ruin!). s x

from stepfordtart :

STEWART LEE!!!! Id been trying to explain who is is to Jooj but I couldnt remember his bastard name! I knew it was something to do with Lee but I thought that was his first name and I was making a, frankly, pisspoor job at describing him (kind of drunkish like Dylan Moran but not Irish and wearing a tie and a little bit fat but not porky and quite nice looking in a dishevelled way and a bit grumpy but not vile with it...See? I am crap.). Thanks for that. *texts Jooj* 'It was Stewart fucking Leeeeeeeee, not Lee-something-or-other. DUH. Love mum xx' s x

from stepfordtart :

Im not a big fan of Simon Amstell on Buzzcocks (Im more a Mark Lamarr girl!) but I bought the stand-up dvd for Jooj for Christmas. Ive watched some bits of it and its really pretty funny - much better than I was expecting. Im not easily offended either (and I didnt see the show you sere referring to) but I bought the Frankie Boyle dvd and when I watched it I was all hahahahahaha...OH...actually, thats not nice. Bit disappointing really. We've got an unwatched Lee Mack calling us from the shelf at the mo, too. He makes me laugh in a strangely old-fashioned way - like Morcambe and Wise but with knob gags! s x

from acornotravez :

I like your diary, is it ok if I add you to my faves?!?

from annanotbob :

You're a fantastic writer - don't under-rate yourself xxx

from a-z-a :

[email protected] :)

from a-z-a :

i'd still love to read your diary.

from a-z-a :

lock'd? :(

from katzendreck :

(=pfirsich)Oh no,not me!!!! OK,I�m gonna write something tomorrow I guess

from pfirsich :

Everything is going "tits-up",haha,what an expression.Did you make that up? So funny.You imagine a woman or doll swimming on a river on her back only the tits are showing above the water....only would that be a good thing cause it means she�s floating...

from myhappiness :

You've been tagged, read my diary ;)

from itineration :

I remember reading about Huck and the Negro going down that river on their hand made raft, sailing to some place more free. And I don't know when they realized it or when I realized it, but it became clear that in their search for freedom they lost sight of the fact that they were truly free. The search for freedom is freedom. If you seek to be free you are free.

from pfirsich :

Oh,luv your diary!

from pfirsich :

Hahaha,how can you be so wild!!?

from annanotbob :

Fantastic all round!!!!

from pfirsich :

Please,not PACEY!!!!!

from dmentor :

thanks for your note, it made my day :)

from annanotbob :

Thinking of you and your ma and sending lots of good wishes (prayers even, tho I don't really call them that). If I can help with the english c/w just give me a shout. Love and a big hug xxx

from dmentor :

hey hey :)

from razor-wire :

it feels weird using diaryland after being with myspace for so long..... I am glad that you feel a bit better now ou have partied. Whenever its needed you know where i am

from myhappiness :

Hey, I like the peter-pan-parker. All right, made me smile. Thanks.

from cloudscapes :

I read that last post, and at the same time I'm listening to a playlist of Ray Charles, Johnny Cash, Stones, Beatles, Floyd and Hendrix. Now that's real music ;)

from hedgehoggy :

Oh, do catch a peak at Ginger Snaps. If you loved Dog Soldiers, you'll lust for this one as you wish to tear everything to fucking pieces. Jolly good time. Boys suck. But then again, I am a boy. Boo on me.

from annanotbob :

Aw, babe. Wish I could come and give you a hug. This will pass, you know. Big love and lots of respect, Anna xxxx

from cloudscapes :

You are such a smart-cookie sometimes, you amaze me.

from annanotbob :

Aww - welcome Phil xxx

from hedgehoggy :

Thankee for the add. I'm full of politics, vigor, and sex that I have no idea what to do with myself. Life to me is just fun til some idiot decides to ruin it with ignorance and keeping me from expressing myself. Pubic hair? Well, if ya want to let your voice out, go for it. All I must say is that my ex said it best: "It's gotta be neat and tidy down there."

from annanotbob :

Thank you for your kindness. Happy new year sweetie xx

from cloudscapes :

I'm sorry to read about Lewis. Some people just can't tell when they've got a good thing. Keep you're chin up though, you never know what's around the next corner. I spent eight months heart-broken and miserable, and then the most wonderful girl just walked into my life completely unexpectedly. You're a safe girl, and I mean safe in a good, rare, way, not in a boring way. You're smart, open minded, and mature. You've never posted a picture of yourself, but from things you've said I'd guess you're pretty good looking, so you've got a lot going for yourself. The only down-point I've picked up from your writing is that you're fairly determined to stay laid-back all the time. This is very cool most the time, laid back people are a pleasure to spend time with - but you have to show enough emotion for people to understand how you feel and to learn about you. Showing emotions implies a certain level of trust and vulnerability, which is necessary for a two-way relationship. Feel free to tell me to f*ck-off if you don't appreciate my advice, but I am only trying to be a friend. I'm totally on your side, Lewis is a jerk! You're the super-cool stoner-girl. :) Peas and love. Krizzy.

from gumphood :

thanks for the url.... sorry for the books!

from girl4thegame :

Hey girly this is Spunkyhottie but the real me can i add yo again?and i'm so sorry about lewis~Cheyanna~

from annanotbob :

xxx

from annanotbob :

Hope you feel better after that rant, but have a big hug anyway, you lovely thing xxx

from itineration :

let him know ahead of time that you're a heartbreaker.

from annanotbob :

Well done you xxx

from gumphood :

thanks for the comment. I think you are right about guys.

from razor-wire :

Aww hun I am sure it`s nothing, and he`s just being a boy and can`t see that it might seem neglectful. You know where I am if you ned to talk or whatever. I got tomorrow off so if you want I can hang. (Hug) Luv Stacey

from annanotbob :

Ah! Nice. Some of my best mates have been/are totally different and we just manage to enjoy the bits we like and ignore the rest. Some of them are indeed christians too and I even manage not to hold that against them. Have to keep my gob shut, but that's probably good for the soul or something. Hope you have some good times though and hurrah for half term, love xxx

from annanotbob :

They're all fuckers. If I see any of 'em I'll smack 'em hard. Well, I probably wouldn't as I'm a non-violent-stoner-granny, but I'd grrr at them. (Sorry, bit wasted, got cross on your behalf) xxx

from annanotbob :

Well I hope you're feeling better girlie, sending you mountainous good-health-vibes xxx

from annanotbob :

hey - check this out: National Novel Writing Month whoops, thought that was the web site - google it - I'm gonna give it a go - how about you?

from annanotbob :

Happy birthday xxxx

from annanotbob :

Just had to write and tell you how fab I think you are - you restore my faith in teenagers as sentient beings. That Zoe is probably struggling through her life with a tiny fraction of your intelligence - hideous having stupid bosses, but has to be done sometimes. I also have to say this, but don't be cross, I'm a teacher remember: those are study periods, you bloody girl, not frees!!!! If you take them as frees you'll never get through all the work! Sorry, had to say it, love xxxx

from itineration :

hey, tarnia, i need to let you know something: iloveyou.

from gumphood :

I was thinking, I hope those are diary names. Yes, I still think that I am interesting, but my life will be getting more boring. I mean once you have kids, come on, 20 somethings will have a much more exciting life than me!

from gumphood :

as we grow up I swear we get more boring

from annanotbob :

I'm not really clear about what writing has received a response that's done your head in, but a) you're a writer, girl, don't ever doubt that, and b) publications have their own ideas of what they want - being turned down may mean you're not right for them, or that this piece was no good for them, or that they've got enough stuff for the next 10 years... I don't know enough to be sure in this instance, but DO NOT GIVE UP WRITING or you may have to cope with an irate old bag on your doorstep demanding an explanation. OK? Now, get writing. ps sorry to be so bossy, but it needed saying.

from annanotbob :

Thanks for that - so far so good... Glad Mrs Muse is back too xx

from gumphood :

I just think it was interesting how you talk about men, and their relationships with their egos. I almost think that sometimes when women are attracted to men, they have to hate them or be jealous of them in some way. Thats a french concept though.

from gumphood :

I might be wrong, but I am assuming that you are British. I find your diary interesting and your take on men fairly fascinating. Anyway.

from lifeasme66 :

Just wanted to say hi and thanks for the note and the add! I really like your diary, I want to read more... and I will, when I get the chance! It sounds like you and I have a lot in common =) **HUGS!!**

from annanotbob :

Good on you girl! Well done!

from iknowyoulied :

Thanks ^^ DO you mind if I add you on MSN?

from annanotbob :

Hope you have a great party xxx

from spunkyhottie :

Hey i like love that song now it like rocks!!!~CHEY~

from missy-17 :

hey whatcha up to, me nothin just keepin on checkin your diary and readin it, gotta say it is that really interesting!!! =)

from iknowyoulied :

Woot, that's cool ^^

from iknowyoulied :

We have a lot in common, and I like your diary ^^ Mind if I add you to my favourites?

from spunkyhottie :

Hey its ok we all have those days where there is just no space!!:)~CHEY~

from annanotbob :

Thanks for that - it's powerful stuff to get good wishes from a real person, especially one called stoner-girl - stoner-granny wouldn't quite work in the same carefree way would it? Somehow it brings social sevices into mind, but not to worry. Me and him have known each other for 35 years, so it's ... dunno what it is, but I can feel we're approaching some sort of resolution. Thanks again and a big hug, xx

from missy-17 :

i doesnt seem to work!!!! well if you can you can copy past the pic and email it to [email protected]

from missy-17 :

cool!!! so do you by chance have any pics anywhere or something

from missy-17 :

hey i signed your gest book if you dont mind, i love your diary so much!!!

from spunkyhottie :

Hey i hope that ypu have fun with your friend!!~CHEY~

from spunkyhottie :

Hey you really do rock so dont thank me at all!!You are really good i love your stuff to the max email me sometime!~CHEY~

from spunkyhottie :

You like rock at writing keep it up i love your stuff and may i add you to my fav diarys???~CHEY~

from annanotbob :

You are a great writer. I met Anne Fine once and she said to just read as much as you can and write every day - you go girl!

from gerg69 :

Hang in there, it gets better. <---Oh god what a load of crap that was. Eh I've been in your shoes before. Boy you got some big ass feet. From this last entry I think I know exactly how you feel. It doesn't always get much easier, but you know it can't be this crappy for ever. RIGHT? Is that any good? Probably not. But, the hugging and not getting it ... personal space thing.... totally understand that. You aint the only one toots.... Be well.

from itineration :

you spelled dyslexic incorrectly.

from itineration :

keep being tarnia, but don't be afraid to change. it's the easiest thing in the world.

from itineration :

we spell it hertz here!

from dmentor :

:)i've already asked someone else's help. But THANK YOU anyway. You really are a friend. 'Miss talking to you thou. ;)

from dmentor :

i was thinking if i could ask you a favor..

from itineration :

i'm drunk!

from hinkadaloboo :

the whole cut-tin off the foot thing is a bad eye-de-ya.how the hell could you walk? you wood prob-lee need a peg leg...and thos are spend-dee...oh! and you wood have to change your name to pete. so everyone could call you peg leg pete. -hink

from dmentor :

be strong girl, don't let everything get back into you. You're brilliant, you're strong, you're smart. You're much better than yielding to it.

from itineration :

thanks for deconstructing our weak sex.

from itineration :

you too miss never online.

from digitalsoap :

Don't people write short notes anymore? I haven't said hi in a while, so I thought I should do that cos I'm still reading. Hi!

from itineration :

here. well. i am not depressed. i am going to tell you what i told another girl. she told me i should try to get published. she told me that i was depressed. here is what i said, basically: bored but free. right now, i have no responsibilities. a job is a job, all work is honorable. you can write short stories, you can paint, or you can shovel shit. it doesn't really matter. i'll spend my paycheck on the same things no matter what. the problem with getting published is that there's this thing called ambition that i really don't have the time for. i'm not depressed; and boredom and loneliness, well, they're growing into what i consider close friends. they are here for me. we hang out and play solitaire together or, sometimes, we play with the hamster, clean the house, lay on our backs on the living room floor while the sunlight slowly engulfs us. life is good and i love it. of course i hate work, but i like the paychecks. and of course girls are just as difficult as ever, but i love the adventure and the challenge. smoking hurts but it gives me something to do and cancer, well, it's just something to look forward to. i mainly just write online now. anyone who wants to find it, can. personal publishing is what people call it. i call it maintaining my sanity.

from nobodies15 :

Hey great 200th entry. Your intellegence shows in your ability to logically present elements of your past and explain their effects on your present behaviour. It made me think of my biological father (who i haven't seen for 9 years) and his side of the family, to which I have no affiliation. I to largely act like nothing affects me, and don't let anyone in easily. Thanks for the good reading and keep up the great writing!

from cloudscapes :

I really don't know what to say. I just wanted to let you know that what you've written made me feel very strong emotions. A mixture of emotions to be sure. You're a strong girl. Please don't let the walls seal you in. Be well. CJ.

from dmentor :

That pondering of yours is really deep. Honestly, i often think of the world and other people the same way too. And about your friend, who knows someday he'll finally come to his senses?...maybe what he really need is a quality time alone. That way he'll be able to contemplate on what really matters most in his life. Some people can't seem to have that chance given such amount of attention like you give him. Other's on the otherhand are actually aware of how they're being stupid and selfish but don't bother to change because they're loving the attention. Any of the 2 reasons, the only solution is to ignore him for a while to make him think. And don't worry about what the outcome may be later, you're not alone girl, you'll never be. I'm sure there are a lot of people who's life you touch in a special way not just him. Keep on writing, you're good at it. And btw, wish i could see you in that prom dress too ;). Enjoy and have fun!

from dmentor :

A friend of mine should read that entry of yours. I find your way of using blunt but honest words effective.

from dmentor :

Empty like a used well. Feeling is a sensation she know not of. Drained and dry, she is.

from itineration :

call me anytime, even when i tell you to bug off.

from itineration :

i miss you, when are you coming back?

from nobodies15 :

I love those lines in your diary by Queens of the stone-age. I wrote the exact same ones in my diary a while ago, but couldn't remember which band they came from. So thanks for reminding me :)

from reallyhuman :

Haha. I just skimread your entry while stoned off my face, and I misread "Last year I was walking blind, going wherever my legs would take me. But my eyes are open now." to "Last year I was waking blind, going wherever my eyes would take me. But my legs are open now" I really am fucking stoned. Anyway, no no no, I don't know anyone called Rory or Luke. Well I do know someone called Rory kind of, but it's spelled Rauri and he's 2. Have you noticed though, that with people called Annie... well it is a certain type of person who has that name. Annie is a name that you either suit or you don't. You don't get normal people called Annie. They're all a bit odd.

from miracledrug :

hi, I found ure diary thru someone else...i'm just surfing trying to find cool reads that are about interesting things beyond 'poor me' and 'i want to die' cos that's how i am sometimes and it gets old. lol anyways, i like that song u put up...its really cool. xx

from reallyhuman :

Nah 16 is a piece of piss. Wait til you have to hear the word "UCAS" in every single lesson. Eugh. Just thinking about it makes me cringe.

from myhappiness :

Hey, seriously, thanks for the advice. But its just..I can't let her win all the time, you know. And I love my beard, you know.

from shyhairxshy :

particles are shiny.

from cloudscapes :

you have a new reader.

from hanna1 :

I was bored at work until i came across your diary, very cool. Couldn"t stop reading for hours. So cool. keep it up. Take care stoner-girl.

from digitalsoap :

If you want to see spun-out, watch episodes of H&R Puffenstuff. They all must have been on acid and LSD. And if they weren't...no, they must have been. Nothing else can explain it.

from criminal-- :

dude, you're just fucking beautiful than ever. (ingore this note but had to say it)

from mornglory :

nice strategy, you're better than ferris bueller! (don't forget to lick your palms)

from myhappiness :

Hey, you know, you're as sweet as you ever was..no matter what.

from ruby--sky :

hey, i just thought i'd let you know that reevo is officially gone and this will be my new home. love always, star xx

from mornglory :

be ice cold like andre 3000 of outkast advises and you'll be fine : )

from reallyhuman :

i know. it's just that there are spliffs everywhere these days. i get into college and within 10 minutes i've had at least one, usually two spliffs, then in the break of my first lesson there's usually a fucking spliff. After college, that's when there are unlimited spliffs. All my friends fucking smoke.

from digitalsoap :

I'm going away for a "Fear and Loathing" week with some friends next week. It's going to be interesting. Just have to remember to take my fly swat.