messages to thepeachtree:
(click here to add new message):

from anna-popcorn :
I hope you are doing well, my dear.
from raven72d :
do update...
from rhetoric :
it seems that in times of loss it is best to focus on what you can do for others. maybe it is backwards but at the one time in your life when it is completely understandable to be selfish, to give, i have found, helps to pull you out of yourself. the grief is not escapable, but perhaps you can find ways to mellow it. i'm sorry i missed your note.
from anna-popcorn :
Honney, I'm so sorry i missed your note. I hope you're okay. I can't imagine what you're going through. Just know that what he wants from you is to LIVE. Live for him, and the people who love you.
from alethia :
Deep breaths. You're not alone, even when you feel like it. It's hard to feel other people through grief.
from nessus :
I'm so sorry, what you're going through right now.. I can't pretend to know what it's like, but I have lost immediate family at a young age and it's horrible and I know there's nothing other people can say to mitigate it. Really hope you are about to get through this.
from samcorday :
hi......i saw your note. i'm worried about you. and i know you're hurting,but just breathe http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6VbAJZvZGMc&feature=relmfu
from raven72d :
I've just read your last few entries... You aren't alone here. I'll be reading along and elaving notes.
from raven72d :
More than happy to leave a note. Hope you're not feeling too isolated--- and that the weekend goes well...
from igotsprung :
I was online last night but I didn't see your note till right now. I guess what I would tell you is what people said to me when I felt like you do -- and I didn't believe them -- the old, "Hang in there; it will get better." So, hang in there -- it will get better. You can't replace him, but you can and will find another person who is irreplaceable to you. You will meet people and do things you can't even imagine, and you will feel happiness that you can't imagine right now either. If you need someone to talk to who isn't going to get hurt/freaked out that you're feelings suicidal, you should try e-mailing the Samaritans (www.samaritans.org). After my husband left me I e-mailed them more than once. It really helped.
from loveherwell :
I'm really sorry for your loss. I know that it's difficult to think that you have to keep living, it feels unfair. But you said it yourself--he wants you to move on. The best way to honor his memory is to get through this. I'm wishing you luck.
from gonzoprophet :
and i'm sorry if any of that overstepped my bounds but i was reading your journal before you left me that note. i might've said something unprompted, lmfao but i noticed you said you dislike pisces so i figured i'd leave you alone. but i guess the serendipitiousness of it made of felt like i needed to say precisely what i felt, whether it might be inappropriate or not.
from gonzoprophet :
you might feel like part of you has been ripped away. and it has. but that doesn't mean that you're not still a whole, worthwhile person. there's beauty in life still. there's meaning and joy in the future for every person. it would be a true shame to let this moment's intense darkness take away all of that light and happiness waiting for you in the future. a stranger loves you.
from omfggwtf :
haha! it's not actually london, just pretty much outside. but it's not weird ;) x
from omfggwtf :
haha oh god, i have no memory of sending that note! but thanks for letting me in ;) i'll be reading. and thanks for that aha, drinking problems away is always the best way ;) x
from omfggwtf :
just from stumbling on your profile and seeing it i'd like to get into your diary, sigh! seems interesting.
from jonathan :
Loyalty has brought me crawling back to Diaryland ... because there are no f*cking adverts! I just like the space and the people. I have some holes to plug to claim I've been up here for 10 years. I'm an obsessive diary writer ... I thought at 13 this exercise might serve a purpose. I fear I am just gathering notes ... that I will research sothing to death. And that death will end it. An agent, therapist, 'partner' ight make something of me ... but for now I live up my inclination to be the Jackson Pollock of writing ... without the cigarettes.
from mizlizzy :
[email protected] - if you want to talk.
from mizlizzy :
I am sending you a hug; I wish I could give it to you in person because it seems like you need a good one. Hang in there, you can come through all of this and on the other side, you will be okay, and you will still be a wonderful person. You just lost the path, that's all. You can find it again. It is never ever too late. You can live the life you want to have. You just have to paint a picture in your mind of what you want to be like, what you want your life to be like, and what kind of people you want to be in that life. Then, just like a jigsaw puzzle, start putting those pieces together. Baby steps...I know...I've been where you are. And that's how I know you're going to be better than okay.
from hibiscus101 :
that's good to know:)
from hibiscus101 :
sorry about the break up. *hug*
from wyndspirit :
Sorry to hear about your cat. I lost two of mine close together last fall, including my Himalayan, my own furry pillow, my "special" one. It gets easier, but not better, if that makes any sense.
from peachyhaye :
Hey Jess. I am so glad that you pulled yourself away from Dylan. He was a crazzzzy jerk! You deserve way better than that!! I wouldn't worry about men.. When the time is right the perfect man will come into your life and treat you like gold. And it'll happen, you're a beautiful person and deserve the best. Don't settle for someone who doesn't deserve you!!
from mizlizzy :
Hi hon, I just read your short entry today and I just wanted to send you a hug, and to tell you I am sorry you seem to be going through some rough times. Can I say something? This Dylan...I think you could do much better than him, he doesn't seem to be treating you the way you should be treated. You are a special, beautiful person and I think you could find someone who sees those qualities and wants to adore you for them. If you are breaking off with Dylan know that I totally support you in doing the healthy thing for yourself. You're still very young and there are lots of options for you!!! Keep in touch!!! Love MizLizzy
from navydude83 :
Hey I know its been forever since we talked but get me on myspace.com/techy05
from peachyhaye :
Hey Jess! I am so sorry about crashing your car!! And I DO care!! And I AM SO glad you didn't die!! Really! How are things with you other than the crash?
from kristi85 :
I haven't read for quite a while now, but I was thinking of you today so I had to go back to the history about a million years ago to find the web address... and here I am. Love you darlin'. I hope you are doing fantastic! Katlyn is almost 2 now and we are expecting her little sister, Karyn in just 7 more weeks! You take care now, email me anytime - it's still the same. Or come and chat with me at http://kristiw.chatango.com or check out our family web page at: http://mysite.verizon.net/vzep910z/
from peachyhaye :
I still read! And yes, the Brew does ROCK! Ya!
from eddie420 :
Now I have become a member of the infamous Diaryland!!! yay!
from dahchronic :
no one uses diaryland anymore and it saddens me. muchly. *sigh* by the way im sorry i was boring today, im usually not boring. but for some odd reason i had no energy at all. I feel terribly and wanna make it up to you. so come over for a free show tonight ;-) --Angela
from dahchronic :
dude, i just had to register to leave you a note and im PISED. yeah thats right, p-i-s-e-d..PISED. and all i wanted to tell you, was z was zena warrior princess, i had the last one lol. we rocked that game tonight, we conquered it...we kicked its flippin ass. sorry im a picky drinker and a lightwieght! DUDE BIG FUCKIN TRUCK GUY AND HES A TROOPAH;-) -yeah thats right. <3Ang<--
from rustedhalo :
I read you, love. <3
from tarted-heart :
hi Jess, I still read you, I have been since my um, 1st diary I think, I'm now on my 3rd. I still enjoy your diary as much as I used to, but you don't read me anymore :-( oh well, my diary sucks anyway, teehee. Have a good one!!
from peachyhaye :
Jess, I still read. :)
from mizlizzy :
Thanks for the "Hi" earlier, Hi back, sweetums. Haven't left messages for each other in a while, let's not let it go that long again. ***HUG***
from rustedhalo :
you were right..ainslie is crazy.
from rustedhalo :
Jessica. I *heart* you.
from martianstar :
keep ya head up dahling!
from masala- :
Heh! It's very clever finding his dirty movies. :) I hope he's embarrassed as hell...
from intact- :
i really love your peaches wanna shake your tree.
from amber87 :
We're back, but prolly not for long. Just wanted to say "hi," and y'know, it's ok to feel good. I hope you do some day. ; )
from martianstar :
Light up, light up As if you have a choice Even if you cannot hear my voice I'll be right beside you dear.... -Snow Patrol - Run
from kristiw85 :
Hey Jess! Email me sometime! It would be really great to hear from you... [email protected] I mean it... you better email me!!! :) Love you hun and miss you too!
from jennyserwylo :
quit smoking! do it! do it now! or else i'll...leave taunting notes! quit now! do it! (good luck with that...it's tough, but it can be done. and once it's done, it's amazing!)
from kristiw85 :
I know that you didn't ask me, but maybe the only person you are disappointing is yourself? Jess, the reason people "seem" to get so mad at your decisions aren't because you are a failure, but because they know you aren't. I know you are a success. We all make and have made mistakes in our life... but that doesn't define who we are. You are such a brilliant light, don't let yourself put out that flame of passion that you have for life, love and happiness. You are a great person; don't let anyone, including yourself, tell you otherwise... You hear me?!?! I love you!
from hamfan :
now that I think about it life isn't really like an unshapable ball of clay, in a way we can shape our own lives but have almost no controle over outside influences.
from kristiw85 :
Hi Jess. This is Kristi... I miss you. IM me sometime. Love ya.
from rae-babe :
I had to pay for 3 mail order classes to graduate on time. They cost about $100 a peice and were easy as hell. I used my tax return to pay for them and my grandfather helped with the rest. That's always an idea and hey it's got to be better than taking two night classes and driving yourself into insanity w/ your busy schedule. Just an idea ;0)
from amber87 :
i'm waaaay behind in reading but i will catch up. I'm just not around here much anymore, but i think about you sometimes.
from martianstar :
darling, make something happen. forget about having someone make you happy. because they can't. you make you happy. having someone around only means that you can show your happiness more often.<p> you are a great person, just hold on. it gets better. maybe not tomorrow, but it will get better.
from intact- :
that was nice to read<3
from chickenabuse :
oh boo, please don't give up your dreams because of this. your school is but a speck in the world and will soon be behind you. trust me. first semester of my senior year I had a horrible voice teacher who made me feel as if I had no talent at all. but I went on to other things and people who saw just what I could do. you're right, high school is a brown-nosed popularity contest and should not stop you from persuing your dreams. you're as big a star as you think you are.
from red-savannah :
Well, eff them for not giving you a better part! I think 'Various Roles' should steal the show!
from intact- :
im bacccccccccckk!!!!!! add me !
from laven-muse :
so cool jess. amy and I weren't even a part of your halloween, huh? nice. and nope, it wouldn't have been the same as seeing it on video with us.. because they're just so much cooler.
from xsicpleasure :
I read and I love you
from red-savannah :
I'm still here reading you! :-)
from martianstar :
i read ya girl, just finding the time to read and reply is rare. hang in there.
from laven-muse :
I still read ya baby. :)
from tarted-heart :
Hi Jesso, I still read ya, always have. I hope you've been ok these days. I've moved my diary now, you used to have me listed but I didnt hear from ya after I moved. Doesnt matter though, see yah later :-)
from hipyriceater :
Woot! Woot! I'm back, and I want you to read me. I love you, goodnight. (Oh, and Chrys and I just broke up, that's another reason I had wanted to talk to you, but that's ok. I love you none the less)-me
from red-savannah :
Hey darling! I was in Gardiner, Maine on Wednesday at Ainslie's Place, it was a gas station/convenience store/pizza place-I thought of you and blew kisses! Maine rocks!
from my-uhuru :
hey baby! I want your new diary address, private or not. SOO... you better give it to me. love you, babe. NICO
from theatre-geek :
Goodbye. *sniff*
from theatre-geek :
Well, leave if you must. Try to keep a paper journal if the online thing doesn't work out. I will miss your diary! Let me know if you decide to start another blog somewhere else. *HUG*
from rae-babe :
Sweetie, if men suck so much why would you want to die for one? He's an ass hole and you know it. So what. You've got better people to be around and better things to do with your time than worry about some hormone enraged, crazy, sex-driven little boy. They think with their dicks and if you take a gander down south every once in awhile you'll see the proof of that statement;0) Forget that jerk and move on with your life because you can't be happy until your secure with yourself and you can't be secure if your thinking about how you've been mistreated by losers (and they are losers--wait 10 years and see what they do with their lives--beleive me you'll know they are losers).
from martianstar :
i know all too well how you feel concerning the entry written on june 16th...feel free to talk to me via IM anytime
from theatre-geek :
I'll say it again. Men? Suck! Yes, they are jerks. Yes, we mature faster than they do. He probably appeared to know what he was doing, but he didn't. You do not deserve that kind of treatment. I know what you mean about hearing nice things from men. I am still a sucker for a kind word. We need to learn how to build ourselves up and not rely on a man to do it for us. (Look at my entry for today to see how boring my life is! It's good for a laugh.)
from theatre-geek :
Whew! That was long! What a great time waster! It was one of the better surveys I've seen though. I was reminded yet again that we share the same b-day. :-)
from nutty-nikz :
*hugs* i hope u feel happier soon, u shouldn't be so down on yourself hun, i bet your beautiful and who cares whats on the outside, its whats on the inside that counts. U think people are judging u because u are "fat", well i sorta know how u feel with the exception that i'm too skinny...but ive sorta learned to not to listen to comments, whoever says or whispers nething about u, its cos of thier own insecurities. Your a lovely person from what i read in your diary, u should enjoy life and ease down on the worrying hun. XOXOXO
from theatre-geek :
Nothing wrong with asking for gas money. Since I am always the one bumming rides, I always offer gas money or something else like a meal in exchange for a ride. Looking back on the whole high school mess, I can tell you it will get better. Soon, you'll be done and you'll be moving on with your life. All of this shit you're going through will just be a dim memory. Try to pick out the happy moments and focus on those.
from amber87 :
hoping things go awesome. I'm saying goodbye to d-land. xxo
from theatre-geek :
I am curious...what ARE you going to be spending your money on? Inquiring minds want to know!
from theatre-geek :
I'm glad you're thinking about the future. Just don't let those thoughts keep you from enjoying life right now. If you want to be successful, you will be. You know what you need to do.
from theatre-geek :
I know what you mean about cleaning other people's places. It's so much more fun! Good luck with the job search. Just put on a smile and shake hands. Do your best to promote yourself and then walk out confidently. That's all you can do. Thanks for posting those jokes. They were groaners, but I like it when there is humor in your diary. :-)
from theatre-geek :
I know what you mean about cleaning other people's places. It's so much more fun! Good luck with the job search. Just put on a smile and shake hands. Do your best to promote yourself and then walk out confidently. That's all you can do. Thanks for posting those jokes. They were groaners, but I like it when there is humor in your diary. :-)
from theatre-geek :
No, your mom doesn't realize what she is doing to you. Just this morning, my mom brought up some old stuff that she thought I did wrong way back when. I just ignored her. Sometimes, you just have to let things go. Realize that your mom has a lot on her mind. Yes, she's a bitch. She doesn't know what a good daughter she has. You are doing the right thing. it is up to you to be the more mature person here.
from red-savannah :
Long time no note! Break a leg at the concert tonight, I'm sure you'll be great! :)
from amber87 :
i'm sorry i'm not around here much anymore. I really believe you will find your place, a good place. I don't know why its harder for some ppl sometimes, but i think about you.
from chickenabuse :
Doll, one day you will look back on this and you'll find none of it is really that important. The other day my little brother, who is in high school, was going on and on about stuff and it hit me, I spent four years worrying about the fact I didn't have this in my life, the teenage boy I mean. The best way to get through the day is to just realize that this is just a drop in the bucket compared to the rest of your life. You'll make it, I promise. Oh, and most girls are evil. They're mean to each other because they're all horribly insecure.
from theatre-geek :
Regarding MST3K: Ask around or check your local video store. A lot of the old episodes are available on video. You should definitely watch it.
from theatre-geek :
This may sound stupid, but believe me when I say that this will all pass. This phase of your life will be over before you know it. You may feel like crap now, but it won't last forever. I imagine you will do good in school, get into a good college, move away, and then you'll be able to start all over. Freah. With none of this crap to drag you down. Just hold on. THIS WILL PASS.
from martianstar :
at least you don't share a car with your dad like i do... that and it's a white minivan
from theatre-geek :
Sharing a car sucks. But, it's better than having no car at all. (trust me!)
from theatre-geek :
That sounded like a LOT of fun. Well, except maybe the yelling. But, friends take each other for granted. I need to stop doing that with my friends. You don't realize what you have until they're out of your life.
from theatre-geek :
You love them. Some animal owners do not love their pets. For some, animals are just a psssing fad. You will make sure they go to a good home because you love them. They are lucky little guys.
from theatre-geek :
Your closing quote was great! It's fun to be busy isn't it? Just make sure to take time out for yourself.
from theatre-geek :
Sounds like things are coming together. Be sure to include prom pictures when the time comes.
from theatre-geek :
Please explain those numbers to me. I am not familiar with current ear piercing technology.
from theatre-geek :
You could just go to the prom with your girlfriends. Or not at all. You could arrange another outing for those who simply don't want to bother going to prom. GEEKS UNITE!
from theatre-geek :
I hate it when people try to talk to me when I'm eating my cereal. My hubby and i get along pretty good with that though. He hates trying to hold a conversation and eat at the same time. So, we eat our breakfast in silence. Oh, and SPIES SUCK!
from science-boy :
Thanks for the note! Glad I could make you smile! And thanks for adding me as a fave! I'm am going to check out your place. Thanks for stopping by!! Have a great day, s-b
from theatre-geek :
I am glad you are taking a step forward by yourself and making the effort to contact him Go ahead! Call him or stop by and then I want to know what happens!
from theatre-geek :
Cool idea! Songs! I should try that with people I know and see if they catch on.
from theatre-geek :
I am glad you decided not to return "evil for evil". You are wise. Perhaps your friends will notice that they made an error in judgement when they see how nice you are to them. You are a good friend.
from dreamofblue :
don't talk like that. you definitely need to get out of that house. get a job and an apartment, move in with a friend, just get out. you're obviously not wanted. no one deserves to be treated that way. *hugs*
from theatre-geek :
My advice to you is...get help! You do not need to be living in that environment. I know there are shelters for people like you who are physically or mentally abused by their parents. There are places you can go. If I were you, I would call a local support line, and get out. You do not have to put up with this! You have been putting up with way more than you should have to. I admire you for sticking to your principals and not letting them tear you down. My heart goes out to you. Please don't let this be your last entry.
from treewillow :
Hi there, I am so sorry your mom spoke to you that way. I hope and pray that she really didn't mean it. You just have to be strong, and try not to let her get you down when she speaks to you that way. Which I know is very hard not too. My thoughts and prayers are with you, hugsssssss
from amber87 :
We did it! (no, we already did that! I mean, we did it!
from theatre-geek :
It makes me nervous to have people I know in the audience. I'm glad your dad was there.
from theatre-geek :
this may sound silly, but have you ever tried meditation? It might be just the thing if you can't go anywhere. It might help you get more grounded and in tune with yourself. Just a thought.
from theatre-geek :
Wheeee! NEW LAYOUT NEW LAYOUT! I like this one. The links are all in one place. I can see all the text. Very nice. Is there a way you could adjust the little box to fit your entry? Yeah, sometimes directors can be bitches. Just nod and pretend you hang on his every word. In his world, it's all about him.
from tearyeyed003 :
hang in there! feel better. and smile.gimmie a call if you need to talk to someone. -Angela
from amber87 :
i wish i knew what to say. I haven't been around here much lately. I'm thinking of you. I believe in you.
from faded-souls :
bad people get what they deserve and good people get to shine and find their happiness. You are a beautiful good person, and more a person than he will ever be.
from theatre-geek :
Damn it...don't listen to him. Know that you are better than he is. He only says those things out of ignorance. To me, he sounds like a sorry excuse for a man and he is taking out all his issues on you. You do not deserve this. You are special. This phase of your life will not last forever. I promise.
from theatre-geek :
It'll be okay. Really. Try taking a walk. Get out of the house. DO something productive to distract yourself...from yourself. You'll feel better. It won't be like this forever.
from peachyhaye :
Jess, cheer up!! I LOVE YOU!
from kdcnirvana :
hey Jess! just wanted to let you know tha I still read your diary haha. that sounds like a bad thing though. Well anyhow Jess I love you! and you are a beautiful person inside and out dont ever forget that! maghen*
from theatre-geek :
I'm with ya! I overdid it a bit on Saturday and now I'm paying the price!
from amber87 :
Great pics! And i read your diary! It's just i've been busy & like that lately & i haven't been around d'land so much.
from peachyhaye :
Jess, you aren't a local fat girl! You're a pretty girl with a beautiful personality! You need to be around positive people so you are positive about yourself. =) I read every one of your entries, so don't think that people don't read it anymore.. because I do.. unless I'm not a person, maybe I'm a pig? Well, it's all good. I think I am going to send you a new picture of me because the one of me that you have is super old!! Well, I love you and you're pretty and you need to be happy and we need to all have a movie night like last summer. We can cheer eachother up! :) Love, Haley.
from faded-souls :
Hey jesso, I always read you, every single entry, i just usually leave guestbook msg's. anyway, just to let you know, I hope it cheered you up *hugs* :-) btw I loved the pics :-D
from zeroregrets :
Ani....mmmmmm....i love her... Love yourself and keep the glitter alive! Glitter+Dasies Bri
from theatre-geek :
Earlier performace and they didn't tell you till just then? That really sucks! But, you're a trooper! I gues you just have to do what you can and hope for the best.
from rockchick07 :
3/16/04. Hi. My name's Nina (rockchick07.diaryland.com). I just started reading your diary and I like it...I enjoy reading I mean.
from theatre-geek :
3/16/04 "dress reversal" That typo took on a whole new meaning! Yes, my life seems like a bad sitcom sometimes too. I think it would get cancelled after only a few episodes. Maybe not even that.
from theatre-geek :
3/15/04 When you binge...you BINGE! I understand how you feel. I did much the same thing last night myself. I feel like absolute SH IT today. Why do we do this to ourselves???
from amber87 :
Ani's kewl. But i love to hear what you have to say! (I have lyrics in mine today, but they're the super-creepy ones we used before curtain.
from theatre-geek :
3/8/04 The whole cellar? Wow...that sucks. But, the ninja turtles might still be okay. They are plastic after all.
from theatre-geek :
Have you heard what they're trying to do? Changing KFC (we all know it stands for Kentucy Fried Chicken) to Kitchen Fried Chicken? I haven't been there in ages, but it just seems weird.
from theatre-geek :
A seatbelt belt! Cool idea. I have seen them in some off the wall stores. I want to know how it turns out.
from theatre-geek :
Rest is good. Enjoy your free time! :-)
from theatre-geek :
Coffee in moderation is okay. It's the caffene withdrawls that are a bitch. Just drink it when you need it. Not all the time.
from theatre-geek :
Gay night! Wheeee! Hope you have fun!
from theatre-geek :
2/26/04 How did the auditions go??????
from dreamofblue :
good luck at your auditions! i know they'll love you! *hugs*
from theatre-geek :
2/24/04 It won't be like this forever. It's okay not to have a guy right now. I didn't date until college. It's okay to just experience life now and not worry about meeting Mr. Right. He will come. I promise. Besides, at this stage, most guys are JERKS. Wait for them to mature a bit and then see what happens.
from theatre-geek :
2/20/04 Just remember that starvation weight loss will not stay gone. Don't deny yourself. When your mom fixes that crap, just have a one cup serving and push your plate away. Fill up on fruits and veggies and drink plenty of water! In the end, you have to do it for YOU, not her.
from vividdreamer :
Oh my. I LOVE me some Ani, especially that song. Reminds me of my college years, volume blasting, singing along with tears streaming down my face. Sorry your mom is being...however she's being.
from theatre-geek :
You are a good friend to help this girl. She probably thinks no one cares. She's not right. You do!
from xsicpleasure :
You should name your car something ghetto and pertaining to you in some way... like... Jessizzle... or... Kind Sir...izzle. :O) I love you babes. Congrats on the HOT car ::wink:: -Amos
from cutiepie1983 :
Yay!! You have a car!! I wish mine were back from the mechanics already! But yay......I'm soooo happy for you..~Nancy~
from peachyhaye :
you said you are*** (messed up, sorry)
from peachyhaye :
You are not any of those things you are. You're a beautiful, strong and sweet person. Don't put yourself down, you're awesome! *Haley
from andwebreathe :
Yes, I know. It's because I actually had spilled grapejuice on my socks, because I'm the HUGEST clutz ever. And now the phrase is "grape-juice stained socks" you can use it too if you'd like :D ha! ♥
from peachyhaye :
Good job on your review @ usareviews! 98! Woohoo, Jess! :) *pat on the back*
from xsicpleasure :
Hey babes. It's Amy... that sucks about that Sarah girl... :O( Sounds to me like she's not a good friend or someone you should have confided in... but I'm sure you knew that already. Well, I still love you and I'm always here for you... and I just so you know, if you don't already, I would NEVER do something like that to you. -Amizzle
from red-savannah :
Congratulations on doing so awesome in your musical!!! :) I bet you brought down the house!
from usareviews :
Your review is up! http://usareviews.diaryland.com/thepeach.html Thanks for your patience! ~Nancy~
from theatre-geek :
2/5/04 I don't know. Maybe you are conditioning yourself to get sick at those times. Maybe you are putting too much strain on your body (your "instrument") and your system wants to shut down. As if to say, "You've pushed me too far! No more! We're getting sick now!" I knew a lady who would get cold sores every time she knew she was going to have to get her picture taken! It was because she got nervous.
from theatre-geek :
2/2/04 Maybe you just need to get away. I know you love him, but sometimes those we love can hurt us the most. Being with him is not helping. Maybe you need to decide if you want him as part of your life at all. What do I know? I have never been in your shoes. Just remember there are people in your life who love you. *HUG*
from jennyserwylo :
what is that song that you put in your diary? i really like the lyrics....
from peachyhaye :
Jess, I am a reviewer now! Isn't that cool!? I'm really excited. :)
from theatre-geek :
1/30/04 But LEOS are the best. :-) From one Aug. 18th girl to another.
from theatre-geek :
1/26/04 Aww...that IS a nice thing to say. Put that quote on a card and paste it somewhere you will see it. Like on your bathroom mirror, or in your car. I can go for months on a good compliment.
from my-uhuru :
I'm doing it, Jess. I'm getting an abortion. I want you to read my diary. I need you during this.
from amber87 :
well, ok, except i know we're different in a lot of ways, but what she said about love is true. And about you & beauty.
from amber87 :
dreamofblue already said it. ; )
from theatre-geek :
1/22/04 I'm glad you are realizing this now instead of later. Who knows...there might be another special someone out there just waiting for the right moment to ask you out.
from theatre-geek :
1/21/04 I repeat what I said in my previous note. Play it cool. He needs to know he's not the only thing in your life right now. Keep your options open. Ask yourself if you would still like him if he hadn't shown an interest in you. I know its hard to see the forest through the trees. Just don't let yourself fall head over heals for someone who may not be able to reciprocate. Boy...I leave long notes.
from faith5by5in :
Just letting you know, my new username on Diaryland is MarineBoi. Hope you come check it out sometime. Luv ya. Ta.
from theatre-geek :
1/20/03 Hmm... After reading your entry, it seems he is still quite involved with his ex. My advice? Don't get too attached to him right now. He might be using you to make her jealous. Maybe she knows about you. Maybe she's trying to hold onto him. You shouldn't put all your eggs in one basket. Be open to other relationships. Don't let your life revolve around him. He has some nice qualities, but it seems he can't be with just one woman. You have to ask yourself if you're okay with that.
from dreamofblue :
i may not have ever met you, but you are one of the most beautiful people i know. i can relate to you so well and all i can say is just wait a little longer. love passes no one by. and there are definitely some things we'll never understand {like joe!}. just hang in there and remember, we all love you! *hugs*
from theatre-geek :
1/19/04 The comment about his ex...maybe he doesn't want you talking about your relationship with people who wouldn't understand. I hate guys who kiss and tell. Perhaps he was just trying to protect her feelings. He sounds like a great guy. He looks in all the right places. He's looking at YOU. Not at all those imperfections that you see in yourself. He sees YOU. The whole beautiful picture. Relax. Let it be. Don't stress about the whole thing. Live life. He needs to know that he's not the only reason you exist. Thanks for sharing it all with your faithful readers. :-)
from peachyhaye :
your kiss sounded very sweet. Jess, you aren't making too much of it. I would do the same thing if I were you. and don't think down on yourself. YOU ARE beautiful. People have to see you for who you are. You are a beautiful and amazing person and if Joe doesn't see that then he isn't very smart. I hope he sees that you're beautiful so you're not so hurt. I love you! Be happy!!!!
from starlight42 :
well, if it was a good kiss, then at least you can say your first was good. Try and think of it that way. I think it sounds kind of romantic.
from dreamofblue :
boys are the best modes of confusion. don't look into their eyes!! look away!! hehe. i'm joking, but i know what you're feeling. *hugs*
from theatre-geek :
The little right angled frames on each corner...they need to encapsulate everything instead of letting your design overlap. For instance, the word "rings" is crossed out. If you make a long entry then, it spills over your design and makes for a messy page. Pehaps if your design would let you make your entry any size you want and adject to fit the size of your entry, it would be better. Sorry...I'm just anal retentive. You can completely ignore this. If you like it, that is what is important. -From the Peanut Gallery
from theatre-geek :
1/16/04 I know that sullen feeling. It will pass. Go MAKE something happen! Start a project! Alphabetize (sp?) something! :-)
from theatre-geek :
Just looking at your new design. It needs lots of work. Stuff is overlapping all over the place. Please be kind to those of us with smaller screens!
from red-savannah :
Woo! Congrats on driving by yourself! My parents were super strict w/ my driving, too-and I'm the oldest, go figure!
from amber87 :
well......................!
from theatre-geek :
1/12/04 You never know what will happen. ;-) Just play it...cool...
from theatre-geek :
1/8/03 You should be commended for coming back into it after you have been sick. People get sick. If you practice at home and know all your lines and music and don't have to look at the book, your teacher will know you did your work. That will be impressive. Directors always like it when their actors come on stage prepared.
from red-savannah :
Hey sweets! Sorry to hear you're sick-I used to get sick EVERY year like clockwork right before my high school's drama club musical. I used to go to practice and drink throat spray-gross! Feel better soon!
from theatre-geek :
1/7/03 I'm glad you're still reading! :-) I just noticed that I wrote "to to" in my last note. I meant "or to".
from theatre-geek :
Damn...what a hard ass! I guess his only choices are to re-cast you to to whip you back into shape. I do hope you get better soon. I hate missing theatre because of illness.
from amber87 :
happy 2004!
from theatre-geek :
1/2/03 Take it easy...yes, you were up early!
from treewillow :
Hey there, I hope you start feeling better soon. It's not fun being sick period, but to be sick over the holiday's just seems that much worse. Take care, hugsss
from theatre-geek :
12/29/03 Your mom had no right to act like that over a subway sandwich. You were not the one at fault.
from chickenabuse :
Thanks for the words. Look up darling, things get better. :)
from cutie1083 :
Happy Holidays!
from chubbychic :
Now that you mention it, one of those Intuition razors would be perfect for a lazy butt like me! Awesome Idea! Thanks! *hugs*
from faith5by5in :
Shoot, the whole nyquil and stuff to get high/drunk...I had some friends who did that. I remember I tried to over-dose one time and took like 2 bottles of tylenol and drank a whole thing of Nyquil. You're body feels light and stuff. That's as far as I've gotten high, and it wasn't on purpose. I sucked at being a high school student.
from theatre-geek :
Check with your image hoster regarding the picture. Does DL host the image or it it hosted on another site? Maybe the creator just decided to pull it from their collection. Who knows. I am sorry to hear you're not feeling well. Sometimes my body rebels and keeps me in bed when I'd rather be out doing stuff. I wish I could control when I get sick. But, sadly, that is impossible.
from dreamofblue :
you're so beautiful, sometimes i just want to hug you! :-)
from jennyserwylo :
i think that you're too smart to develop an eating disorder. from getting these glimpses into your life, you seem like a very intelligent person, and i think that's why you 'coughed a little'. eating disorders are scary, scary things...yea, it'd be SO great to be able to loose a lot of weight in a relativley small period of time...but the stuff it does to your body both physically and mentally...bleh. you seem like a very intelligent girl who has a great head on her shoulders, knows what she wants, and what she is about...it'd be sad for you to throw that away and potentially harm yourself. i know its soooo tempting sometimes...might relieve some of the 'too full' feeling from a big meal, or maybe possibly make you look a bit thinner for going out that night or whatever...but it's an addictive thing that is really dangerous...i'm sure you've heard this, researched and read this before, and i'm sorry i'm saying it again...i just dont want anyone to go down that horrible path...really though, you're too smart to let yourself do that i think. and you know what? loose weight for yourself. not your family, or guys, or directors or strangers...yourself. yes yes, you've heard this all before i'm sure...i have too...and i HATE it when people say it to me...but its really what one has to do...god...i totally understand hating diets. i really dislike the fact taht some people can just eat a bag of chips and ice cream and cookies and it's totally okay! damn them. but you know my theory? all us heavy people will be sooo thin by the time we're in our late twenties, and all the thin people will have those cookies catch up to them and gain weight by their late twenties. i can dream, right? now to go soothe the emotional baggae i have with ruffles and dip...god this is a cruel problem i have...
from treewillow :
I am sorry for all that you have gone through. If they are your friends, they should accept you for who you are, not what you look like. I try to teach my son this. I tell him it doesn't matter if one is white, pink, purple, black, green, orange, fat, thin, in a wheelchair. We are all the same on the inside, and it's that which counts. I am not sure if this means anything, but I think your a wonderful person, and I would love to have you as a friend. Please take care, and try not to be so hard on yourself. Hugss
from theatre-geek :
I have a lot of large friends. I love them. I wouldn't want them to be any other way. They are happy. Me? I admit my self image is screwed up. I will never think I look quite right. Work on the inside first. Then, focus on the outside. It doesn't matter if you're fat or thin. Being a generous, loving, happy, large person is so much better than being a thin horrible person. I want to hang out with those who make the world a better place regardless of their frame. I am not one to talk about how to deal with weight issues, cause lord knows I have issues. I care too much about what people think about me. That is wrong. Try to ignore your mom if you can. The next time you feel like throwing up, log onto DL and write an entry about it instead. It might help.
from red-savannah :
Families can be real asshats when it comes to things that they see are 'wrong' about us-I really feel for you, it's such a bad way to feel-I've felt that way about my weight and looks since I was 7 years old, and believe me, I am very, very tired of it at 23. Geez! That's 16 years of this! I remember my aunt always scolding me to 'Watch those calories!' and 'A moment on the lips, forever on those hips!' What a bitch she was! Oh, and if you lose weight by making yourself throw up, there's a good chance you'll get caught because it eats away the enamel on your teeth, and you don't want to get busted for that-trust me.
from cutie1083 :
I don't believe everything horoscopes say...I'm a Scorpio and I'm not selfish...or rude...eh, nevermind, lol.
from mark-a-heart :
Boys can be sooo stupid sometimes. I swear. It's like you just want to STAPLE there lips together. lol haha CAn you jsut image that... seeing all these boy's have staples in there mouth. hmm interesting. :) <3
from cutie1083 :
Thank you for your note...it's nice to know that someone cares.
from mark-a-heart :
haha the tipping your waiter at Denny's (was it Denny's?) is the greatest thing... I should do that. <3
from dreamofblue :
thanks for the note, you really made my day. and don't worry, you weren't being mean, just right. i love your diary! *hugs*
from theatre-geek :
12/9/03 GOOD LUCK! I wish I would have had those opportunities in high school. Well, I did, but I was just too shy. Let us know how it goes.
from dreamofblue :
congrats & good luck on the solo! :-)
from theatre-geek :
12/8/03 I did a lot of suff behind my parents backs when I was younger. Inflicting pain on myself was not one of them. I have adult friends who do this. They have explained to me why they do this. I understand why they do this, but I couldn't do it to myself. I get depressed, but in the end, I can't bare the thought of inflicting pain on myself. If I ever reached that point. I would call someone. Anyone. There are people out there who can help. Strangers can be easier to talk to than one's closest friends. I'm rambling again. Do it if it helps, but call someone before you do.
from theatre-geek :
Oh...thank you! I'm am feeling rather ripe now that you mention it. Wait. Was that a compliment? Or an insult? Are you trying to say I'm smelly? *sniff sniff*
from theatre-geek :
12/4/03 I hope you get the chorus solo! *crosses fingers*
from theatre-geek :
12/2/03 You know, the best revenge on people like that is just to enjoy life. When she realizes that everything is not about her and that you are happy, she'll wonder what the hell is going on. You won't care, because you'll be out enjoying life!
from theatre-geek :
12/01/03 Wallowing is no good. I have been doing that way too much lately. Yes, you do have to WANT to change. I have to keep reminding myself of that. (I hate the mall too by the way.)
from theatre-geek :
11/28/03 I had a cool dream last night where everyone was wearing costumes. I think we were watching thr RHPS. What a silly dream. Yes, it is disheartening to wake up from a really good dream and be slapped in the face by reality.
from sbspsd :
Hi there. This is Sepia Reviews. We�re currently looking for reviewers so could you help us out by reviewing for us? It�s a diary a week or so - nothing heavy (more if you can!). Let us know, alright? Thanks in advance!
from theatre-geek :
You will get it. It doesn't matter how many times you have to try. Just relax. Take your time. Don't freak out. Impress them by being calm cool and collected. :-)
from theatre-geek :
Email me at [email protected] for the password to read my soon to be private diary. :-)
from red-savannah :
Miles Davis is sooooo cute! He looks exactly like my cat, Angus! Meow >^..^<
from theatre-geek :
11/21/03 Thanks for the compliment! It made me feel good. I feel bad that I haven't been updating this week. There are so many things going on right now, it's hard to process it all. I will try to put in a few words soon.
from treewillow :
Wow, that's great. Congrats, and I hope all goes well and that you get the part.
from theatre-geek :
11/18/03 I am glad you got to hang out with your friends. I like the getting honey at Denny's idea. Must try that. You never know, maybe your gravelly voice will give you a sultry Macy Gray quality.
from peachyhaye :
jess i love you and dean is an assfucker and i will kill him for hitting you. he better not ever do it or again or he'll have me to answer to. I <3 you!
from theatre-geek :
11/17/03 Don't forget...you have friends at DL. We can't be there physically to help, but maybe writing it down will help a little bit. It helps me when I can get everything written down. Don't harm yourself. Remember, you can choose how you respond to them. You can choose how you feel when they act like that.
from amber87 :
i wish i knew what to say. Forget it all & be amazing at your audition. Love yourself. Accept cyber-hugs from strange girls. Know that's it's gonna get better & you wanna be around when it does.
from cutie1083 :
I'm sorry you're having such a hard time right now...hope you feel better soon. I don't know you personally, but I do know that parents have a way of fucking up their kids...so don't let your mom's words do that to you. You have a great diary; it's obvious that you're a good person, so don't let her or anyone else tell you otherwise.
from neshachan :
Hehe, don't worry, I won't steal your band name. ^_^
from theatre-geek :
11/14/03 I hate that when I can't remember my important dreams. It's always the alarm that snaps them out of my head. I sleep on my hand a lot too. Often when I get up, I can't feel my hand for a few minutes.
from theatre-geek :
11/13/03 "rock my socks" That's the second DL person who has said that in their diray. I'm glad to have rocked your socks. :-)
from theatre-geek :
11/12/03 I totally agree with the comment about schol being a slice of filth. Ugh. I hated school. Of course, there were a few bright spots like Drama class and choir. But, yes, school sucked big time. On the up side, it is such a small bit of your life. It will be over before you know it.
from theatre-geek :
11/10/03 I have been there. I hate being the odd one out when doing stuff with couples.
from peachyhaye :
Yeah. Voltaire is the same guy I wrote about in my paper because in honors english we had to read a dumb book of his lol
from theatre-geek :
11/4/03 That poem reminded me of my life in Junior High and most of High School.
from fireflyez76 :
Don't worry too much about failing your first time... I did! Firstly, I nearly hit a pedestrian because the idiot instructor waved them on without telling me *ass* and then while parallel parking I hit another car *whoops!* I drove off so no biggie right? LOL Learn from it, practice and you'll nail it next time ;)
from theatre-geek :
Don't sweat it. I had to take mine twice because the person who taught me how to drive wasn't the best driver herself. No one cares how many times you have to take it. You'll get it. I know you will.
from mojo1915 :
Hello there! I hope you have a very fun halloween and you don't get thrown up on by a salamander. Take care ~Jesse
from theatre-geek :
I can' t wait for the pics!
from intact- :
i feel the same way. =) i just came back to diaryland i took a break and im adding you because you seem interesting and we both veiw things the same it seems. xo. take care.
from amber87 :
don't spend all $25 dollars at once! ;)
from theatre-geek :
WHOOO! I love snow days!
from olive-hue :
congratulations, sweetie! ROCK!!!
from amber87 :
I hope the results 2morrow are great for both of us. My life has just hit a new level of random weirdness, but it's a good one, i *hope*
from theatre-geek :
Reporter: She did it, ladies and gents! Yet again, thepeachtree has amazed us all with her professionalism and grace under pressure. Oh! Here she comes now! Let's see if we can get her to talk to us....
from cutie1083 :
I left you a note earlier in your guestbook...a note that apparently was not lacking a typo and a loss of memory as to what day it is today. For some reason I thought it was Thursday...woke up late, I guess. But I'm glad you had a good time TODAY:)
from pattymelt :
i'm glad you did well...have a great weekend!
from theatre-geek :
Parents. Ya love em, ya hate em. Sometimes they surprise you. GOOD LUCK tomorrow! I will be silently rooting for you. Post as soon as you can and let us know how it went. *HUG*
from fireflyez76 :
I've been reading your entries right along even though I don't post. I can't believe your mom treats you that way. I'm sorry but she's ignorant. You seem like a great well adjusted young woman, and I would totally adopt you! Just keep your chin up and rise above. You can do it, I have faith in you! *hugs*
from amber87 :
I was gonna post a note & be all positive, but what's this note below about going? I hope you're staying at d-land. i would miss you terribly.
from faded-souls :
i'm really sorry you have to go, it sucks you have to leave because of something like that, i'm gonna miss reading you alot, I hope one day you can come back, I really do, it wont be the same. I wish you all the best for the future, and I hope you can fufill your dreams and be forever happy. *hugs*
from theatre-geek :
awwwwww....cute kitty.
from perceptionss :
I hope you have better dreams and longer naps. Take care =)
from cutie1083 :
Thanks for your message...I've been feeling a little crappy lately and it's nice to know that someone out there doesn't think I'm completely wrong at all times. I'm just afraid of going back, you know? I'm barely getting adjusted to who I am now, so I worry that everyone else won't understand that I've changed. But anyway...I liked your message (and I didn't mind that it was long; the longer the better), so again, thank you:)
from theatre-geek :
It was good that you wrote though. Even though you locked it. I know things will get better.
from rae-babe :
One question---Where is your picture?
from niap :
oh yea and i know what you mean about Judging CD by its cover. That's how i discovered Beth Hart.
from niap :
Jann Arden is awesome. Now i have the urge to listen to her again. I haven't listen to her in ages. =)
from theatre-geek :
10/01/03 Nice long entry today. Thanks for the link. When your mind wanders, just head on over to DL!
from amber87 :
cherry-flavored rubber band kewl!
from theatre-geek :
I liked the rubber band story.
from theatre-geek :
Just remember...you DO have friends who care about you. Even when it may seem like no one else does. It may seem weird to say this, but think about your mom for a minute. I know she made you sad. But, what is going on in her life that made her treat you that way? She might have some serious issues she doesn't feel she can share with you. I get so mad at my mom sometimes, I could slap her. But, I try to remember that there is a reason why she acts the way she does (even if I don't know why at the time). I just try to be there for her while she is mad and be silent when she says some things she doesn't mean. Then when she comes out of her funk, I'm still there. Sometimes we let out our aggressions on those we love the most.
from windshadow :
*bighug* That is so wrong. She's your mother, for chrissakes! I hope she wakes up and gets a clue.
from theatre-geek :
I know this doesn't help, but I am 29 *gasp* and I STILL go through that. When they say they can't hang out say, "That's cool. Hey, I've got some time free on (insert day and time here) next week. Wanna hang out (or name some other activity)? Make it sound like you'll fit them into your schedule. You have to be proactive in your attempts at friendships sometimes. Not all of us are those charismatic magnet type people. We have to work to form relationships with people. It will take time, but the friends you make will be lasting ones. As I get older, I find I have lass and less time for a huge social circle. I make the effort to spend time with those who mean the most to me. I'm going to shut up now. *steps down off soapbox*
from theatre-geek :
By the way...I just read your review. WAY TO GO! You tell it like it is.
from theatre-geek :
Occassionally, a movie hits me like that too. Sometimes, I have to remind myself, it's only a movie. I tell myself, "Don't go there" if I feel myself getting to wrapped up in what's going on on the screen.
from amber87 :
i was looking at the review thingy below. I'm so not going to ever get mine reviewed, cause they'd just tell me that i have no layout & i don't proofread most of my entries. But maybe i should do an entry that's a review of diaries i read. Maybe i won't, but if i did, you'd get a top review!
from rougereviews :
Your review at Rouge Reviews is finished.
from usareviews :
Hey... This is Lindsey from USA Reviews. You just requested a re-review from us, but I just wanted to let you know that you already requested one a while back and you're still on the Pending list. I was just informing you that you've already re-requested. Maybe I'll get to your review soon. :)
from amber87 :
I think we choose who we are now, like right now when we're alive, & i have to work a bit on who i'm suppose to be. And if you have friends & you like who you are inside, then i think that's all very kewl ; )
from cutie1083 :
Thanks for signing my guestbook...your message made me feel better. I wish I had something more intelligent or elaborate to say, but all I can think of is...thanks.
from kitten42 :
please go here http://ttcvoting.signmyguestbook.com/ and vote for design # 10 if you do i will love you forever and link you everywhere thanks!
from dust-settle :
hey, just clicked on through your banner. great design on your template. take care.
from whatveidone :
one more thing do you know any cool backgrounds or where you can find stuff like that...for my Diary. Thanks!~ME
from whatveidone :
hey Jesso it's me...whatveidone. Anyways thanks for the notes that you left me and I amreally excited that you got yourself a present. Everyone needs to reward them selves every now and then. Just for putting up with all our own shit. I hope you are ready for school. I still have to read a book (Huck Finn) and write six pages of notes on it. I am such a procrastinator. Sorry, I couldn't stop babbleing. Best wishes! ~Me
from cutiebabe10 :
hey i appreciate your note u left me~i really do.I do speak my opinion and I'm not afraid to be too honest.I know I must have gotten a little harsh~but preps' lives aren't easy and all so I think ppl should cut us some slack too.I luv how u were honest and u pointed out what u liked about that entry and what u didn't like~sum ppl left me notes that were great and sum left me sum and they were quite pissed lol~but yes I will keep on being myself and i will try my best to love all people around me.thanx again
from back-drifts :
oooo, I used to have this layout ages ago with one of my old diaries. *ahem* anywho, your diary is lovely! you've got great taste in music and movies, and a cat named miles davis!! that's so cute. :) cheers.
from theatre-geek :
I hope this makes sense. They don't tell you this anywhere in the instructions, but you are supposed to actually write a description for your categories (ex- Today I saw:) on the "change your template" page if you want them to be prefaced with anything. If you don't, you can enter text, but it won't be defined at the beginning. I believe there is a spot you can click to change the fields on your "add an entry" acreen, but it will just help you remember what to put there and has nothing to do with what actually shows up in your entry. I put this HTML on all my current entires (don't forget the spaces before the </b> or it will look funny): ------------------------------------------ Today's lunch: </b>%%option1%%<br><b>Today I saw: </b>%%option2%%<br><b>Today I'm wearing: </b>%%option3%% ------------------------------------------ You might want to add some extra <br>'s in there to make each entry stand out. Click on the "help section and FAQs" and it has a little bit in there about the 3 options.
from crazywicked :
thanks, i guess. i suppose things always do get better, i just have luck like that. he asked me back out.
from krisdru :
hey hunny, thank you so much for being there and for your encouragement. I hav been doing much better now that Chris got home. Don't worry about your brother and Willie going to college, you can only grow from hard experiences right :) You are awesome... One of the closest friends I have ever had. I love you. Thank you for all the notes and new friends. You bring more to the lives of those come into your life, than you will ever know. Thanks again. :)
from katy-bug :
Woo, Jesso! I'm totally jealous you got to see Ani in concert! Just how awesome was she? Anyway, you're too kind in all the right ways. If you're ever in Texas, we'll get some Starbucks together. Be beautiful, peach.
from downtown18 :
hey jessica. i read ur diary and u are fine the way you are. ur a good person and a good friend. just because some people are what society views to be acceptable does not detract from who you are as a person. ok? remember that. you are who you are and be proud of that.
from miapiglet :
Im sorry your dad made u feel bad. I struggle with eating problems, and I have problems with my weight all my life. I know how it is to feel bad. Please never give up on urself, and if you do want to change yourself and "start jogging," please do it for you, and no one else. Much love, miapiglet
from nicolua :
happy birthday, chica. love you
from krisdru :
I love u so much jess, dont you forget it. I updated my diary... if your in a good mood don't read it. I am a little stressed out. I will be okay though. I hope you had an excellent time at the ANI concert. love you.
from theatre-geek :
For the record-- Your dad's an asshole. I don't know the guy, but for someone, ANYONE, to do that to another person...even if that person is their child...is wrong, mean, spiteful...it pisses me off just to think of a FATHER doing that to his daughter. If I were there with you right now, I would take you out on the town. We would get pampered. We would get pedicures. We would be waited on, people would hand us chocolate and rub our backs. *sigh* But, I will be there in spirit. We can be pissed off about b-days together. I am jealous of you because you are younger than I am and you have a long time to worry about the big "3-0"! ;-)
from vividdreamer :
What the fuck is up with the guestbook situation? Mine's not working, your's isn't working...Andrew seriously needs to get his shit together. ;-) Oh, and now for the whole purpose of this note--you DO NOT suck, and don't let people get you down. (I know that's hard as hell to do, but give it a shot.) *Hugs*
from amber87 :
Guestbook's seem to be having their own private blackout, so i'm noting. It's possibly you're in a bit of a slump, but you do *NOT* suck at life!
from hipychik :
CHICA! read this, http://gabba.diaryland.com - the "very special person in her life" is Travis, and the "friend that seems to be nice" is me.
from hipychik :
hey beautiful! just wanted to leave you a little something to say hi.
from theatre-geek :
Heh Heh. Dreams are weird aren't they? I've had those pregnant dreams too. None quite like that though. My dream pregnancies always have a logical (however weird) explanation.
from chubbychic :
oooo, You like Sarah Harmer too! Rawk on!
from pattymelt :
i'm really sorry about your friend. it's never easy. you're in my prayers....
from nutty-nikz :
Aww i'm praying for Oliver hun, i hope he makes it :-( poor thing, just think positive and keep your fingers crossed. Mine are. *hugs* xoxo
from thesunhurts :
Hey, a Jag-Stang is a guitar that was designed by Kurt Cobain. It is my favorite guitar, if you know anyone who has one i'll probably buy it. Sorry about only talking about that but i g2g.......keep rockin!!!!!!!
from lillix08 :
Gorgeous layout! I keep changing mine cos I can never quite find one that suits... me.
from nutty-nikz :
hey! Just wanted to say i know how u feel especially when u say "Whispers turn into thoughts that stay in my mind forever. I remember every hurtful thing, anyone, has ever said to me throughout my entire life" that's exactly how i am. It's not something that can be helped though i suppose ya just have to get on with it. Hope you are okay, always stay smiling, think about all the happy things in life n then u can't possible frown. Nikki xox
from mojo1915 :
Hey Jesso, That's really cool that you named your cat Miles Davis. Have a good night/day. ~Jesse
from bubbastud :
Jess, I just wanted to thank you for being in my life and being there for me. You are a beautiful woman no matter what anyone else says, and even though you say to forget about you, I know I will never be able to! If you ever need help of just someone to talk to, Im always here for you. I love you so much!
from iopeace :
Hey. Weird but I really relate to your story (July 2 entry). The same thing actually happened to me, and I think I will write an entry about it -- I'm inspired :p power to the underdogs.
from theatre-geek :
Yea for the underdog! You go girl! Way to stand up to those bitches! I say, fuck em! You have the right attitude. When someone calls you a bitch for standing up for yourself, take it as a compliment.
from katehackett :
You have a very weird diary :O)
from funnyfrog :
Aw man, thats so funny, your barbies didnt want to have sex but you made em. Woo Hoo. I never did any of that i dont remember, i was a lego kid, lego men cant really get down and do the nasty ya know. AH HAHA.
from myhorizons :
Your diary is pretty, and your writing is excellent :)
from foxgallagher :
i forgot to add - I have a design site. Not great, but it's in the works. If you didn't already find a new template you might check it out: http://foxdesigns.diaryland.com or http://foxdesigns.tripod.com (I do the building/storing on tripod).
from foxgallagher :
Eating mini collie - fun. Tasty. MMMmmm. If you do it, ship me a bite. :)
from yvette18 :
Jessica, we have no choice but to put her to sleep. Our lease on our house is up, and the owners want to move in. The apts that we are moving in do not accept pets at all. We tried seeing if any shelters would take her, but since she is half pitbull, it has been hard placing her because they discriminate against those dogs. We have not had the money to put an ad in the paper to see if anyone wants the dog. We are now out of time, and have to do it. We don't really want to. My sister is devasted because she has to get rid of her dog, and have to put her to sleep. Please do not think that we are being cruel. You do not know what our situation is so please do not judge us.
from mojo1915 :
Hello. I hope you have a really good day! :) -Jesse
from kincon99 :
hi my name is conrad and i am looking for some gay pals
from mikeygal :
sorry you had a shitty night. my whole family is at the potter festivities at the BandN. I didn't want to go. So i have been really bored tonight. don't feel down on yourself. My friend (who is really hot always says) If you don't think you are a BAD ASS who will. You are a bad ass you have personality or people would read your journal people wouldn't care what you had to stay if you weren't interesting ya know. don't be so hard on yourself I feel the same way but you just got be like I am a bad ass and Fuck everyone else. Know who your real friends are and get a small group together just girls. Order a pizza drink some wine if you are old enough talk about guys watch some movies and laugh. That is my advice. well I am off to look at shit on the internet I am sooooooo bored. Much love mikey
from krisdru :
I may seem: moody but I'm really: just a redhead People who really know me think I'm: moody, and redheaded If you knew me you'd probably think I'm: moody My days are pretty uninspiring, except for: when i moody In the morning I: am moody I like to sleep: with Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday which makes me less moody If I could be doing anything right now I would: be sleeping with Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday *wink* to be less moody Money is: something that helps my mood swings One thing I wish I had is: control over my moods One thing I have that I wish I didn't have is: my bad mood... all the time All you need is: good moods All I need is: sleep with Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday... *wink* to put me in a good mood If I had one wish it would be: to sleep with Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday... *wink* to put me in a good mood. Love is: an example of a good mood If a demon crashed into my window I would: tell it to leave me alone cuz i am in a bad mood If I could see one person right now it would be: Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday, naked, cuz Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday, gets me in the mood *wink* I live for: being in the mood *wink* I dare you all to: get a husband, and get in the mood *wink* I dream about: being in the mood, with Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday, naked I daydream about: being in the mood, with Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday, naked Number of girls you have made out with: 0 Number of boys you have made out with: 1, Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday Number of drugs taken illegally: 0 What pisses you off the most: when Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday is not in the mood Number of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday, on a good day, when i am in a good mood... or on a bad day when i am in a bad mood. Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday gets me in the mood, when i am not in the mood to be in a mood. Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday is so sexy. Number of CDs that I own: Im not in the mood to figure that out for you Number of piercings: 4 Number of tattoos: 0 Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: 0 Number of scars on my body: not in the mood to count those either Number of times a person has made me scared of what they could do to me physically: 4 5/17's Number of things in my past that I regret: things i said while i was in a bad mood Last book you read: Lion the witch and the wardrobe Last movie you saw: Master of Disguise Last phone number you called: work Last show you watched on TV: Lethal Weapon II Last song you heard: Social Burn - "Everyone" Last thing you ate: Oatmeal Raisin Cookie Last time you showered: yesterday Last time you cried: Friday, June 13, 2003 Last time you smiled: Just now... Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday ... is a stinky man.... Last time you laughed: about 2 minutes ago... Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday, let one.. i mean really let one go Last person you hugged: Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday Last person you kissed: Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday Last person you had sex with: Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday Last thing you said: Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday Last person you talked to online: Brolly from nodeka Last person you talked to on the phone: Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday Last thing you smelled: Chris, my husband of 2 months last friday Love ya Jess-O Miss you lots, email me sometime!!
from navydude83 :
Hey, I added a survey page if you want to go ahead and fill it out.
from mikeygal :
Hey Babe, Thanks for the notes. I am just about to leave to go to the JT concert. OH just even thinking about being in the same room with him. PASS OUT PASS OUT! Anyway, you should so rent Queer as Folk I love it and what girl wouldn't. If you can get past the whole gay thing. The guys on it are totally hot I have all 3 season on tape. I am trying to save up to get them on DVD cuz they are really expensive like 80 bucks a season or more. Go to Blockbuster and rent it watch it alone or with your girlfriends. You will be hook. My favorite is Brian Kinney played by Gale Harrold. He is so yummy I always talk about him in my entries. He is so my role model he is strong, business savy, and doesn't give a shit. Well I better go cuz the concert is about an hour and a half away so I am going with my sis to bum around in Sacramento for a few hours before my date with JT. "Aint NO body love him Like I love him" haha j/k have a good day. Much love mIkey
from niap :
thanks for the note. means a lot really. and yea it is sad..lol
from mojo1915 :
Hello, I am Jesse. I don't know you, but I hope your day is wonderful. :)
from tasukitoad :
Mosquitos are the bain of my existence! Argh!
from erz :
I love good times that happen by accident. Poor Skippy, though!
from anorexicsoul :
Though less than random, I return the favour, and wish you a 'Happy Random Guestbook Signing Week'
from mikeygal :
I don't know what is scarier how alike we are or that I know that "I am right on top of that Rose" is from the the movie Don't Tell MoM the Babysitter is Dead. Dishes are done man. hahaha ... thanks for the note you are tooooo sweet!
from ascs-angel15 :
just wanted to say two things..about the friendship I completly understand. I don't know if you could tell when you wrote I sent you the note. And secondly, "hiding behind a conrete wall?" I guess you must have seen me, and no I didn't see you.
from thepeachtree :
Theres no way dollface, theres no way.
from ascs-angel15 :
I havn't read your diary in awhile. Can you belive it? But I know your depressed, and so am I. It's like, so many times I miss you but we fight over the stupidest things, so i know we won't ever be friends. Your one of the only people Iv ever truly felt comphtyerbale with. And no matter what you say, there are still some things I have never told anyone. Your prolly wondering whats up with this message. I can't really explain it, I'm the biggest shit I know thats all. I think me and Adnrew broke up. I don't think were going to make it anymore, and I feel suciadal. i just want to end it. and its the first time I could acnodlege things. I guess I'm writing this to you because in a way you kind of understand what I'm going through. All my other friends are so happy and clueless to everything. I have acne SEE I admitted it. And i'm the ugliest thing in the whole world. It fucking makes me feel like somehting no one likes. I hate my life. In a way I really don't want you to IM me or leave me a note. I feel dumb. I just wanted you to know how i felt. i'm just in a place where i don't think i'v ever been. i miss you missing me as a friend. i know that you lost all contact with me. thats so cool you can do that. sometimes i wish we wern't so stubborn. you were someone i could really talk to. i'm such an idiot. please delate this note after you read it.
from krisdru :
I have my notes turned on, I would love to have you help me out with my layout. You are too sweet. Sorry I haven't called. Can you give me your email? I don't have it and I only have a few days left of school. That would be bad. I have your Ph # but you see how horrible I am with that. Love ya! Kris I miss you, give me your email!!! ;)
from diamond-road :
I really like your layout... I'm sorry about your great-grandmother. I can relate to what you're going through. You can't cry because you didn't know them, but you're sad that you never knew them. And I, too, couldn't wait to move out of the house...
from diamond-road :
"It all felt like a scene in a movie as he turned his head, and our eyes met for the first time. I looked into his eyes. He looked into mine, and for a moment, time stood still, our gazes fixed on each other." Wanna know what happens next? Walk with me down diamond-road!
from hypergirl69 :
hell yeah! high forever. plus im gonna have extra so whenever im in the dumps...hells yeah
from mikeygal :
Hella funny entry about the girl that fell on the bus. I have had those moments. Well ALOT of those moments but you must laugh at it and move on. Next time the circus midget yells out embrassing remarks just tell him he is late for his meeting at the Keebler factoy!! much love
from amber87 :
of course, what i put in your g'book would be more convincing if i didn't just write an entry about breasts ; )
from krisdru :
Hey JESSO!!! How are you sugar cakes!! You will have to email me or leave me a note at MY diary and give me the scoop on Blake... What up? :) I am just chilling and I now have a diary and I'm just waiting for a devoted reader... that sounds wierd, I want people to read my diary... hmm.. any SMACK GOD... what is wrong with people!! Love you chica! Kristi
from nutty-nikz :
halo!! thanks for adding me to ya buddy list, your now one of my buddies too! WoO WoO! When you find out what medication your uncle used to gain 30 pounds let me know...i SO need to try that stuff! lol keep smiling xoxo
from hypergirl69 :
i would add you to my buddy list but i am quite fond of rocks if you know what i mean...
from whoyeah :
Hey - the mysterious Jesso...I want to thank you for being the first person to leave me a note! I hope you liked my diary and my archives...check out my Night Before Christmas Ghetto Style...I wrote it myself. Lata!
from boogeyman-- :
once again.. i ask who are you? have i met you in a previous "life"? Back when i had a three word name? Rather than just the one? Or are you some passer by who stumbled somehow onto my sick and twisted diary? A response will be well appreciated. BoOgEyMaN
from niap :
yea you're right independent isn't such a bad thing. in fact i think it's a great attribute to have. i just think that how i became independent sorta overshadows it. lol does that makes sense? anyways thanks for leaving me a note. =)
from amber87 :
btw, i added you to my favs in my profile!
from nutty-nikz :
oh dear, yeah i think a protest would work but even then if your mum still refuses to take you shopping act as if you've given in to her, put all your dirty clothes on, make your hair scruffy etc and when your mum sees you then maybe she'd freak n bring u shopping. lol thats the only other idea i could think of.. =oS
from nutty-nikz :
BoO! thanks for your note before...notes are always appreciated ^;^ by the way i've checked out ya diary & it's well wicked!! x
from boogeyman-- :
hmmm... curious... you're new.... but obviously not enough to not know that i need a nap. Who are you? BoOgEyMaN
from tornlace :
thank you so much for the wonderful message .. i like smelling like fruit juice myself :)
from hypergirl69 :
yes it would be greatly appreciated if you could help me. my diary is so blah and i want it to be so not blah lol
from van-ish-ing :
....thank you...i love it too...but i was actually thinking aboutgetting a new one soon...so if your at all interested in using mine then give me your e-mail and ill send it to you when im done....later....~ashley
from rae-babe :
Ahhh, I love that feeling of anticpation. It's the most fun to be learning about someone new and to be falling for them. The very best part is when you realize they share the same thoughts and feelings. And the first kiss is always so perfect. I revisit those thought every time I need to be cheered up. Good luck. I hope you to catch eachother. ;0)
from erz :
and likewise, I've been here.
from usareviews :
hey! Your review is up at usa reviews!
from vividdreamer :
Hey you...I'm leaving a note, per your request. And, while I'm at it, I'll say that not ALL teachers are assholes that need to be kicked in the head. I'M a teacher, after all! Just move on down to Louisiana and maybe you can be in my class. (Except I'm going to teach elementary next fall...so that would be a problem.) ;-) Take care. *hugs*
from usareviews :
Hey. :) You requested a review at USA Reviews, but you forgot to put a link up to us. I know it can be a pain sometimes, but it's just a rule. Let us know when you've got one up and we'll be more than happy to review you. :)
from rae-babe :
Ooooooh, Someone's gonna get in trouble ;-) Did your teacher go completley off her hinges yet? It's so fun to be bad >8-)
from lightfallsup :
thanks for joinging the cunnilingus ring, home is an eleven letter word.
from borrowmymind :
in nameless's defense, i she did read your entry about your crapassed day. how else would she have known about your nonexistent typing skills?
from tasukitoad :
Gee, thanks for that *great* guestbook entry, it was just so, what's the word, indepth, wow, it really made me think! HA! Did you notice the sarcasm!? 'Cause I sure did!
from namelessgirl :
spell check? no? okay then.
from zlosergirl :
my name would be Lillia. Or Constance. Or Aristean. Or Alecticia.
from safari-youth :
kind of upsetting how mental illness is fashionable/chic imagery
from vividdreamer :
Hey there. You signed my guestbook...now you're in trouble. You're interesting, and I like interesting people. Plus, you remind me of me a few years ago. So I'll be back. (And back, and back, and baaaaack...) ;-) Take care.
from z0tl :
i am ever so impressed by peach trees who can manage to taste like orange juice. exquisite!
from ouvrelesyeux :
Hey! thanks for adding me to your buddy list! :)
from zlosergirl :
you don't know what your talking about, because im leaving you a note. i love you and i dont want you to be sad, and please don't kill yourself! who would i have to get pissed with at mr. bailey during study hall?? i love you jess, don't do anything stupid.. because you DO deserve to live. you may not feel like it right now, things are tough, but once you hit the bottom, the only way to go is up, believe me, i know how you feel. they may not be the same sequence of events.. but i definitely know. i love you!!!!!!!!!! *huge hugs* please don't let me lose you!
from zlosergirl :
I LOVE YOU! *hugs* *hugs* *hugs*
from zlosergirl :
I love you Jess, get better!! And don't kill yourself.. otherwise i'd have to kill myself.. and then angela would kill herself.. then amy.. then haley.. and so on and so on.. so don't do it. Cause I love you and I'd miss you in study hall!!!! I'll get you some good drugs. We'll have a hell of a time! *Kisses*
from faultyfool :
NO CARLS JR IN MAINE?!! *gasp* how could I survive out there?! x_x
from elevial :
Hey Jess, it's Jenn. I found her diary. What kind of shit is that? Oi... Well, just wanted to let you know. BTW: I'm starting a new diary: beanz17, I'm going to work on it when I get home, if my dad isn't on the computer. Thanks for letting me know about Nicole. I left her a note, if you want to read it. I also left a comment under yours on her "what drugs can do for you" or whatever the fuck she named that shit. When will she learn? And for the record, you're not a bitch, and I'm certainly not a slut. I wunder what she'll do when she gets back? Do you know if Angela has a diary? I need to talk to her and she wasn't here today. Well, catch you on the flip side! Fuck, I need sleep....
from zlosergirl :
hey. i'm not really a poet. lol. i just try. but i think i suck.. eh.. it's all from the heart, baby, all from the heart! =) I love you Jess!! IM me sometime.. zlosergirl on aim!
from faultyfool :
Heylo... you left a note in my diary a few weeks back and now I'm getting back to you. YAY I finally took a look at your diary and read some entries. Thx for the comments about my friends... its nice to knoe a stranger is actually reading my diary. BUt yeah... haha I read your story about getting Donald Duck fired... =/ funnie ass shiet. Anyways, continue on wit the writing. :o)
from hipyriceeatr :
Here's a little bit 'o sweetness IN your note! WOO! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! -nico
from hipyriceeatr :
Jess, I'm sorry. I was sick. I miss you SOOO MUCH! I LOVE YOU!!! Forget about what Colby said, he's an asshole. I love you :-) Can't wait until you get home. FEEL BETTER! LOVE YOU! -nico
from hipyriceeatr :
hehe... it's just NICOLE, it's just ME! who cares what I think right? haha... WHO CARES WHAT EVERYONE ELSE THINGS TOO! frig them, chica. RAH!
from hipyriceeatr :
dudette. don't pull shit ok? eat eat eat. fuck people. people are fucking stupid. I love you.
from thepeachtree :
Hey jess, your a loser so you have to write in your own diary. Hang in there pal. *punches yoru shoulder*
from twentyone :
try to hang in there and welcome to the world that is diaryland
from eskape :
Hi there. Thanks for the guestbook signing, no one really signs that guestbook or leaves me notes anymore. I love your layout, I like the colors and I hope you can get your stomach stapled, so you can feel better about yourself - even though I think you are fine the way you are.
from aiden-moon :
Hey, thanks a lot for the note! Welcome to Diaryland, your diary has a great start to it.
from radiokarma :
hey thanks for leaving a message. what do mean by juice box? oh and your design, I like it a lot. it's really nice and clean
from glistenen :
thank you for the kind message on my diary!
from hipyriceeatr :
what the beef? you've had this diary for one day - no not even, maybe like 7 hours, and you're already getting notes from strangers. no one ever leaves me notes anymore. no one ever reads my diary anymore - and those who definetly don't leave notes. i'm jealous, you whore... ;-)
from renigin :
Hi. I like your diary's design.

back to thepeachtree's profile
recommend this diary to a pal?

Other diaries starting with the letter:
a b c d e f g h i j k l m n o p q r s t u v w x y z

Back to Diaryland

Recently updated
News
update April 6, 2020: Sorry, we just had 8+ hours downtime due to a server problem. Restoring from backups took soooo long, but everything is back and no data was lost. Ay yay yay! Anyhow, hope everyone is well with the virus stuff.

Sign up for paid membership if you want!

Users online