Define This! (A Bipolar Romp!)

I am a bipolar biracial bisexual twenty-something trying to figure things out. Read my whines, read my moans, read my bitches, read my groans. Read my pain, read my doubts, read my joy, read my shouts.

"The worst stab wound is the one to the heart. Sure most people survive it, but the heart is never quite the same. There's always a scar, which is meant, I guess, to remind you that even for a little while someone made your heart beat faster. And that's a scar you can live with, proudly, all the days of your life." ~OZ

My favorite diaries:

pischina profile - diary
comments: The first person who ever signed my analyzer who didn't know me first. The veritable queen of diaryland.
hardrain profile - diary
comments: Sweet and kind. I met her thru pischy and she's just the best.
zadie profile - diary
comments: One of my first friends on diaryland. She is awesome and worthy of worship.
xeyli profile - diary
comments: One of my bestest friends, but for some reason wants to trick us into thinking she's boring when she's not.
jaywhy profile - diary
comments: Another very close friend. Her diary is day to day business that's getting ready to become even more interesting with her adventures in Korea.
chasha profile - diary
comments: why did i take her off my buddy list? i can't remember. i think it was an accident. but i'm rectifying the situation now
the-closet profile - diary
comments: My Mental Illness Public Diary
circlesleep profile - diary
comments: The other diary of one of my favorite diaries
waterlily profile - diary
comments: Her layout kicks! Watch out tho, she's in advertising and she'll try to brainwash you.
ginni profile - diary
comments: I love her, I have both her diaries up since she keeps switching between them.
anexperiment profile - diary
comments: Interesting
plume profile - diary
comments: Totally totally asskickin' supastar
Erlenweg6 profile - diary
comments: Fascinating new diary. It reads like a story. Lovely writing.
kerokerokoji profile - diary
comments: One of my bestest friends
marzipan1026 profile - diary
comments: Man, this girl kicks my ass and hates Julia Roberts as much as I do!
ouvrelesyeux profile - diary
comments: french pictures
donkeylady profile - diary
comments: Incredibly interesting. She found me, and I'm so glad.
heavenlyging profile - diary
comments: A new one that I like
mireillie profile - diary
comments: Blanche's sense of humor rocks. Who else would have David's flaming genitalia and a cactus with a phallus in plain view?
moodymama profile - diary
comments: yay!
crashintome profile - diary
comments: A resurrection of sorts
me-undaunted profile - diary
comments: She's great, I missed her
prostituee profile - diary
comments: Very good.
epiphany profile - diary
comments: Very interesting, i found it through a banner ad
exiles profile - diary
comments: Interesting
heidiann profile - diary
comments: something new
stealthkitty profile - diary
comments: Who can lose with a wicked cool name like that?
devi- profile - diary
comments: I just found her, or rather she found me. And she kicks ass.
dysenchanted profile - diary
comments: Purdy
panjandrum profile - diary
comments: i like her
the-book-bag profile - diary
comments: A great read i found via the banners.
ladiscrete profile - diary
comments: something new and french!
trancejen profile - diary
comments: something new and wonderful!
em-powered profile - diary
comments: Another hawaii chica.
whatawoman profile - diary
kakazuya profile - diary
comments: My girl E.
saudades profile - diary
comments: Ana.
journ-proj profile - diary
comments: Sign Up! It's a very interesting project
flipmeover profile - diary
comments: My girl.
prosti profile - diary
mcearstix profile - diary
comments: the coolness

My favorite music:

Tori Amos
comments: Little Earthquakes is still my favorite album. It's raw and pure.
comments: Freddie Mercury's voice had such range. He could hit certain notes that made me want to weep.
Ani Difranco
comments: God she is so beautiful, and i just want to eat her words like a fine piece of pie.
Jason Mraz
comments: I love his lyrical word play. Very nice.
Fiona Apple
comments: As a human she's annoying, as a singer/songwriter she knocks my pants off.

My favorite movies:

comments: This is the 1997 version. It's more lyrical then the Kubrick version. I cry at the end everytime. The novel is brilliant also.
Silence of the Lambs
comments: The movie that made me fall in love with law enforcement. Clarice is strong, smart, and vulnerable. She's real. Hannibal has the sex appeal that only a true sociopath can have.
The Lord of The Rings
comments: There is nothing that I could say about this movie that hasn't been said. I can't wait for the whole lot of them.
Pirates of the Caribbean
comments: How can you not love this movie. I've seen it 8 times. Five of those times were in the theater. Plus there's Johnny.
Fight Club
comments: Brilliant. Edward Norton and Brad Pitt are geniuses.

My favorite authors:

Stephen King
comments: He is literature. Popular and thought provoking. He shows ordinary people in extraordinary circumstances. To dismiss him as mass market trash is a big mistake. Read the subtext.
Sylvia Plath
comments: The Bell Jar was the first book that I read that really spoke to my mental illness. The other is Girl, Interrupted.
Roald Dahl
comments: How can you not love Roald Dahl. I also like his stories for grown ups too.
Pablo Neruda
comments: "The memory of you emerges from the night around me....There were hunger and thirst, and you were the fruit. There were grief and the ruins, and you were the miracle." The Song of Despair
Edward Gorey
comments: He was so imaginative. And had the most wonderful in illustrations to go along with his twisted stories.

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