messages to alwayslolita:
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from chasha :
Don't know if you're still here, but I'm back and letting my old peeps know. -CRbE
from hissings :
could I have your password so I can check out yr diary? I really like the OZ quote in your profile. :) xoxoh
from ezeeminhas :
Hi Lolita''- just dropped by to say hi cuz its been a long tyme u knw hope ur doin fine- hope to hear frm u soon bbyez
from ezeeminhas :
did ya read ma new articlez Lolita? do lemme know n comment plz
from ezeeminhas :
Hi Lolita how u doin just stopped by to say hi!!!!!! have a nice tyme
from sin- :
oh! thanks so much for letting me know *hugs*, i was wondering from time to time how things were going for you. i'm still here (with a mirror of sorts on LJ) but thinking about moving on to greener pastures....
from sin- :
Your diary has been locked for ages... I miss reading it.....
from ezeeminhas :
Hi Lolitaaaaaaa been a LONG TYME U KNOW HOW U DOIN? ciao
from ezeeminhas :
Interesting? haaaaaaaaaaa It's a long long story ov gettin into ditchez n goin topsy turvy ova humpz mate. Life teachez u everything, n mine is as messed up as yrz lolz. Well i dun ve any financial probz ba then thts not the only thing ya need, i guess u need lyfe in it's true sense n ya seldom come across the real lyfe or may be u r sleeping by the tyme u do lolz. N all ma lyfe has given me iz "wings" n im happy to a certain extent God Bless ya n stay in touch. Have ya read ma diary ? specially the lost treasure? Ciao Ezee
from ezeeminhas :
Hi, Thanx for that link dodo. I lyke yr diary, really, its kinda different, a bit lyke mine. N btw ve ya gone thru mine ? U write beautifully, i tell ya its lyke ur sitting ryte infront ov the reader. God Bless yr fingers with wht u type lolz Ill b waiting for yr reply Ciao Ezee
from ezeeminhas :
Hey Lolita, I tried peepin' inside yr diary ba cudnt. Anywayz if uve tyme just walk thru mine. Nmaez Ezee n im a writer n the rest u ll get to know in ma profyle. Ciao
from nessiegurlie :
hey, i just clicked your banner. i love your openness. hope to see you on one of my books soon. have a good (if there is really such a thing) summer. peace!
from donkeylady :
Hey chica! you locked your diary. Are you OK? Opal
from plume :
Never look back.
from plume :
Rich sounds nice. II hope it'll be something good.
from plume :
Hah, at first I thought you said "He IS rich". Now that wouda been sumthin. But good luck, maybe it'll be a match.
from exiles :
Hope the match things works out for you. This sounds like it could be a good fresh start for you.
from saudades :
Or at least- could I have the password to your diary. And don't kill yourself, girl. Come on. You know life has more to offer.
from saudades :
Hi Maile. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder recently, and I don't know what to do or how to feel. Can you help me? My e-mail is [email protected]
from plume :
If you kill yourself the world will be a worse place. I hope something good will happen soon, so you don't have to think thoughts like that. At least I have almost a year to try and talk you out of it. Heh. When life is at its worst then you can count on it getting better. It goes up and down, so when you're down you know you'll be heading up again. You will.
from shrty16 :
hi alwaysslolita i love the hawaii diaryring i am moving there next year so thanx!
from exiles :
i did go to the quarter and it was pretty lively. I didn't go to Jax brewery, but I will look out for it since I am planning on going out the not this weekend but the weekend after this weekend. BTW, can I get password for your diary? Hope things are going better =)
from plume :
If it wasn't because you're already the biggest contributor to my panties-on-heads page then I'd ask you to show them off there haha. Your hair looks good, missus. Sorry you had to password the diary. But there you go.
from alwayslolita :
i have locked my diary. if you want the password leave a note.
from erlenweg6 :
can I get your password? :-)
from exiles :
can I get your password. Promise not give any advice. =)
from red-jade :
requesting password
from plume :
free porn is the best kind! I would settle for free love though.
from exiles :
did this Korean guy speak "good english"? I think of this scenario and it makes me laugh thinking of you trying to have phone sex with someone who doesn't really speak english well. THat would be frustrating, hehe.
from exiles :
I remember feeling exactly like this during the last Chapter in my life that was Viva. I wondered what all this was for. There really is no answer to that question, but once you are ready to move forward things hopefully get better. We all move forward when we are ready. We all hold on to things, god knows I do. My move began when I started to focus on my own life and do what I could to change things. It might take a while but I think if you hang in there and when you are ready do things for yourself. My relationship has shown me how sentimental i am and i have missed so many people who are no longer in my life. I am greatful for the time I had with these people. I realized there will be more hearts to touch and get attached to. And they too will one day be gone. Even in death we are forced to ultimately let go of others and eventually our own life. There might not be any record of our existance but it doesn't mean it never happened. I finally realized my life means a great deal to me and though It can't be imortalized i am going to be happy with the time i have. That is why i stopped thinking about wanting to no longer exist. I hope you find something of that sort for yourself.
from plume :
I wish I could take your pain away. But I'm not god. If I was god the world would be a better place. Ah well I guess that's blasphemy. I just figure, it's not that complicated. Love=good, pain=bad etc. If I was all-powerful I'd make everyone happy. And I'd start with you.
from plume :
Oh yes, I forgot to say.. you make me wanna be a lawyer. Badabing!
from plume :
Ooh Jenna! I like Jenna. I like her little spit-hanging-from-the-dick schtick. But there's nothing like closeness, no. Just lying in bed with Skye and even doing nothing, that's better than a 100 porns. ---I bet I will outlast you in the virginity biz. I'm still technically a virgin. Maybe we should make a pact. If we're still virgins when we're 50 then we'll hook up. Hah. I'm sure it'll happen for you though. You're the hotness, some guy will wanna hit it. Yo. I really have stop trying to speak hiphop.
from plume :
You should try and find the Lost set! Wherever it may be. Nah, I guess they have stopped filming for the season. Too bad. Maybe one day I'll go touring hawaiiiii
from plume :
Oh yes, I replied to you in my guestbook with something about the domain stuff, although I probably confused more than cleared anything up. When you get a domain you need to point it at your webspace.In theory you can sign up with a free service like geocities. Then you set up alwayslolita.com to point to "www.geocities.com/alwayslolita". But it'd be better to get a real webhost instead of a geocities type one. Anyway, I don't know how you set up your domain in america.. But I'm pretty sure that íf you look at the website where you can register your domain then they will have some information about it. Another idea would be to go to google groups and search for something like "how to register a domain". See what other people have written about it. As for WordPress, it's very simple to set up. It takes a 2 minutes. You just need to be sure that your host support php and mysql. Then you need to set up a mysql database on your webspace (I know it sounds complicated, but it's really not when you get to it). And then you download the wordpress stuff from their website. And follow the instructions. It's a bit more complicated to make your blog look good. It's not even in html, it's in php. Even the simple design I made took a while to get done, because I don't know anything about php. But there are a bunch of free themes you can use, so you might be able to find a design like that. And then customize it a little with some trial and error, that's what i did... ....okay, here I go again wíth confusing you probably. But anywaay, should you decide to go through with it then I'd love to help any way I can of course. Bearing in mind that I'm no expert and I don't know anything about the American domain stuff. And bearing in mind that I suck at explaining stuff. And bearing in mind that it's now past midnight and I really need to get to bed. Feel free to ask me again, if there's anything I can help with.
from erlenweg6 :
Bukowski also said, "What matters most is how well you walk through the fire." of course, he really had a train-wreck personality.... hang in there....you will find your way. (((hugs)))
from exiles :
hey thats is you and I don't think the revealing entry about yourself makes you any less of a normal person. If anything I am sure a lot of people can relate. I would say that your recent just shows someone with urges and is acting on them. Hey everyone wants something. And honestly someone isn't always around the corner to give it to you. Hey phone sex or internet sex is probably better than meaningless in person sex. The risks are lower and you're totally in control. To be honest it probably is good for you on some psychological level. And as for being a virgin, well I think it means something different to everyone but it does mean something. I would just say don't take it for granted and try not let being on or let what anyone says about being one bother you. For me I didn't care for that whole label so in that sense I was glad it was gone. I was lucky that it was meaningful even if the person it was with is no longer someone I'm with. After losing it, I would have really regreted just losing it, just to do it. You know what I mean? Anyways, happy hands...i mean hunting. =)
from plume :
*hug* I wish I could make everything better.
from exiles :
thanks for the suggestion for resturants. I will have to try those. I tried that whole other diary thing. It is ok, but for me it's weird, I miss writing in my old diary with my diary friends that remain. So I decided to do both, but I write more in my diaryland diary. You'll be missed if you leave diaryland, but I understand the need for change. Glad to hear you're doing better. I write for the Brigade but I submit a lot of my stories to the Guardian. I got 2 stories in so far, which is exciting for me. Yeah, if I come home it'd be interesting to meet in person. Coffee and movie sounds nice. BTW, I had T-mobile wireless for a while. It isn't bad. Not blazing speed like cable or dsl but good enough for small amounts of websurfing. I think the reception would be a lot better in Hawaii. If you have a cell phone, well look at how well it has reception and it should give you a good idea of how well it will catch. The problem I had here is that T-mobile doesn't work on post and while in Maryland it had bad pockets where there was no T-mobile. I heard Verizon had good service.
from plume :
"what if"s suck... But the sun will shine again. I'd follow you anywhere. I have thought about getting a plume.com myself. Or plume.dk if the com isn't available. But I don't have a credit card to pay for the domain and I don't know how to set up a script so updating would be as easy as dland. Maybe some day. *hugggs*
from exiles :
I'm really happy you have such great friends nearby. You are very lucky, not everyone is so lucky to have friends like that. I really do hope things are getting better for you.
from herdarlinsin :
I stumbled across your dairy and read yoru current entry and cried. I dont know, but I hope youre alright.
from exiles :
Each withdrawal might seem like a cut, but sometimes it's the best way to allow for things to mend. I just say that because I sometimes take people's withdrawals personally and allow for it to hurt me. In many ways though, that space given to me allows for me to heal. Perhaps you still feel things can be fixed, and maybe they can, but you can't fix things all by yourself. If the person you love pushes, you have very little if any say. So it's best to take the situation and do what you can to accept it. That is of course, just my 2 cents about it. I really do hope you are doing better.
from plume :
Maile.. *hugs you tight*. I don't know what to say. I hope so much you'll be okay. Smoking doesn't matter, weight doesn't matter, joe doesn't matter. Only matters that you'll be okay, whatever it takes. I just noticed your alt text to the "pass me a note" button and it made me smile. You're a good person and I want you to be okay. I'm really glad that there were someone to help you. I wish I could help you. Stay strong and let people help you and get through it all. *hugs hugs hugs*
from exiles :
I was wondering why you hadn't updated for a couple of days. I'm not sure what to say really. Pain is something we all deal differently with. What is hard is that we can't help the people around us who are tormented with issues life throws at us. I am glad you are alive and survived this ordeal. As always you have my support. Please keep writing and please keep trying to work all this out. Take care of yourself ok.
from plume :
You are not wicked. Only in the good sense. Why do you say those things :/ ...Is there anything I can do? I think you deserve happiness. Life is unfair, a lot of the time. Just have to get through the bad parts. You are overdue for the good stuff. Don't hurt yourself, it would hurt a lot of others. *Hugs*
from plume :
YOU CAN DIE FROM BLUE BALLS?! Uh oh.. I'm in trouble. Oh well, I'll live I guess. I hope you'll get yourself some tasty Joe. I'm sure he can't resist you either. ... Wouldn't it be funny if you could smoke Joe? Well, I think there's some American slang like "smoking c**k", but I doubt that involves lighting anything up.
from exiles :
i hope joes thumb doesn't hurt as much as mine does. Odd coincidence with these thumb injuries. Someone I work with has a broken hand and sprained thumb as well.
from exiles :
you know i haven't ever seen early pictures of you. You have lost a lot of weight. You look very different. I understand about the Korean head cause I have that too.
from less-than3 :
yay for bipolar-ism! you rock. i'm new to your diary, but i love ya already! xox :)
from poetichealth :
*hugs* i sympathize with u over the lost of ur grandpa . . . i hope u feel better, sweetie!
from plume :
Sorry to hear about your grandpa. He looks like a movie star in that picture... I'm sure you can handle it all. And don't worry about talking too much about joe, if you talk about the things you care about then it'll never be boring. ..... if you ever stumble across the set of LOST then try and steal me Evangeline Lilly's bra. I'll be everso thankful.
from poetichealth :
u can do it!!! just take a step at a time, don't get ahead of yourself.
from plume :
He can't resist you. Just work your magic. And now for something completely different. Hawaii? Can you go to the set of Lost and steal me something?
from exiles :
even in theatre i find this to be true, that asian men can't be a romantic lead. I've tried out for so many roles and instead i got the comic relief. I got offered a few of those roles. As far as the new roommate situation, i get what you're saying. I am somewhat weary of the whole thing. I'm just going to have to be more careful that i don't fall into old habits. At the same time I guess i just need to be positive about the whole situation.
from plume :
woah. I'm going to fix up some voodoo mojo to get you and joe together in happiness. I'm sure I can do this. At least I'll send you good vibes.-
from beautifulwoe :
I just found you, and you SO rock! I love your postcard idea! xoxo, Woe
from exiles :
That was an odd message that guy left, and damn...I looked at his photos...he's got a big member.
from poetichealth :
ur teacher's mean! i hardly ever talk during class, usually when i half to. i don't sing loud in front of others either, which makes mr. nelson *chorus teacher* mad. haha. i'm me, though, tht's my exuse!:D
from poetichealth :
:) being stupid is fun though . . . muah ha ha!
from plume :
I'm sorry you're feeling down. I wish I could pass some of my newfound happiness over to you. But things will be ok. Somehow. Life will find a way.
from poetichealth :
i can relate - if u ever need anyone to talk to, i'm here, k?
from candoor :
last year I pretended to be an automated Valentine's Day message... this year I don't have the energy... but Happy Valentines Day anyway :)
from ophelias-cpr :
Thanks for the survey on bipolar. It meant a lot to just blow off steam then wilt in the vapour like us BPs do. Thanks again, Ophelia xxx
from candora :
I love your writing... just want to curl up and read... wish there was better news, but still, love your writing.
from xoxo-designs :
http://xoxo-designs.diaryland.com : free diaryland templates + free custom templates
from exiles :
Yeah I'm trying to be less anti social. I just want to go out there and have some fun without overthinking it and making it harder than it has to be.
from plume :
I wish I was a mysterious person from hawaii. A lot.
from exiles :
sorry if that sounded like some lame fortune cookie, I did mean the sentiment but i just read my note and i felt like a fortune cookie.
from exiles :
love found seems like the greatest feeling. Love lost is equally affecting if not more so. Time really is the only really course action, although I know it still hurts. The only advice I can offer is to focus on your life and getting it somewhere that will put your mind less on what you don't have and what you have and have power over. Love will creep back into life again in some form or another. Hang in there.
from plume :
*hugs you tight* life is complicated. Feelings. I have had problems with feeling worthy of Skye for sure. It can be hard. Of course now that's not so relevant in my situation anymore... The complicated things are worth fighting for though. If they're complicated then it means they matter, they have importance. I can't forget about Skye, if I could then it would mean she didn't matter to me. I still want her. I can't let go of her.. well of course you can't cling on forever, but ... complicated. Yes. Well there's hope for us all.
from exiles :
sorry to hear your relationship didn't pan out. I hope you find what you're looking for one soon.
from exiles :
i took that gaydar test and i got 75% not as good as you but not bad. THose lesbian ones were a little tricky. the guys were easy but some looked liked the same person taken at different times
from hamiltonian :
Its good your feeling well tonight
from exiles :
Oh Yeah for you !. This is great. I am really happy for you!
from candoor :
happy new year :)
from exiles :
Lousiana, well Fort Polk any way is sure not like Hawaii when it comes to the New Year. Well hope you have a Happy New Year!
from plume :
happy new year :)
from pink-circle :
If you want to know more about the circle, feel free to visit our about page: http://pink-circle.diaryland.com/about.html. Thank you for your interest. ~Pink (To enter the circle, simply join the diaryring called "circle")
from plume :
I think you're cute and sexy. Too bad I'm taken eh :) hehe. You rock wit da pics! That was awesome! Would you mind terribly if I put them on a page in Plume? Okay the collection might only ever include you, me and Stine but I still think it's fun haha.
from exiles :
i have been tempted to tell my friends my diary address but i figured like you mentioned it make me feel more self conscience. Maybe you might need to pass word protect or start a new one.
from exiles :
Yes, i'm at wonderful fort polk... wonderfully boring. Serious your family is here. I don't know whether to feel bad for them or if they are happy here, happy for them. I think if you want to be a recluse this place is awesome. If you want to run away from the world and just stay in a room. It's not so bad but i have only been here less than a month.
from exiles :
not sure i've ever heard it called a chong before, hehe.
from pink-circle :
{Circle Invite} On behalf of the circle, I invite you to join our writer's group. I have noticed your shown interest in poetry/writing. If you are interested, please note back. :) ~Circle Counsil
from plume :
I miss the gym. My new workplace hasn't got one. And after work I'm too beat to go anyway. I need to get buying some fitness equipment. Slave to the burn.
from moodymama :
holy shit, maile. that is AWESOME! you should post an updated pic or something. :)~~
from moodymama :
lol @ "stalker behavior". ask him to the bbq already! i think i'm like that too...not happy unless i'm suffering somehow. i never know what to do or how to react in the calm. ((((((((((((((((((((M)))))))))))))))))))))
from plume :
I wouldn't mind breeding. Hmm, maybe in January.
from exiles :
seems like everyone in hawaii is always naked on halloween. i wish i could've been there in hawaii
from moodymama :
you do sound cute on the phone. :)
from moodymama :
neener, neener...i'm darker than you! :)
from plume :
11 hours of sleep? Mmm. I gotta try that.
from plume :
Okay, here's my patented strategy for talking to strangers in the gym: Step 1: Look down on the floor. Step 2: Don't say a word. Step 3: Hope they don't notice you. ...Hmm, maybe it's a little flawed..
from plume :
I haven't had a tan in hmmm... 20 years. Probably. Sometimes when I'm working out and all sweaty I think that I seem quite tanned, then I get outside amongst people and I feel ghostly white again. Oh well, in time I will learn to enjoy the sun I'm sure. Hooray for self-induced christmasses!
from plume :
I like your journal too! But anyway... Hehe, the beast. I bet he'd like that. Maybe I'll change my name to The Beast. Kinda like The Rock, only less silly. Slightly.
from hamiltonian :
I like your journal!
from plume :
on behalf of the male readers I hereby demand more sex and violence! Ah okay, shopping will do. I was looking on a Danish dvd shop site thing and wondering if there only was one season of Family Guy? Or maybe they just haven't released more DVDs yet?
from plume :
darn, you're making me want to buy family guy dvds now. I actually thought about it when I bought the new simpsons set. But there are so many things I want to buy. Must... not.. spend.. fortunes... I still say Futurama are the best DVDs ever, the commentaries are hilarious. I love DiMaggio. Such a loudmouth funster. Haha.
from plume :
That's outre! Haha. What is adult swim? I have heard that before recently, I thought it was a very dirty form of synchronized swimming. Hmm.
from plume :
we should be gym pals, I could spot you. Okay, I have no idea what that means, but I'm great at spotting things. I think. I missed you!
from exiles :
I am sorry to hear that you are feeling so down. I wonder though from what I read, maybe you'd be a lot happier moving in with your family? I hope you feel better
from moodymama :
i'm glad to know that you're okay. i didn't want to bother you while your family was there (when i was in hawaii). you sound like my mom did today...she was talking about hating being home when she's all alone. (((((((maile)))))))) i sent you an invitation to an MSN group today. i hope you join but if not that's okay. but i hope you join. :)
from plume :
In my hackneyed opinion Futurama is worth it for the commentaries. They are friggin kewl, m8. It's like getting 4 whole new series of Futurama. If you like that sort of thing.
from exiles :
Hi maile well I'm sort of back online. I got the t-mobile sidekick, perhaps the best thing I've ever bought. It allows me toaccess the internet and do all the things I couldn't do before...well sort of. It is a little slow...kind of like slow dialup but it's better than nothing and it's very portable. Anyways sounds like you've been buying up a dvd storm. I am also sad they canceled Freaks and Geeks.
from moodymama :
why aren't you updating? is everything okay? (((((((maile)))))))))
from crashintome :
happy belated bday:)
from the-book-bag :
Happy (belated) Birthday Mailie!!
from plume :
I was just thinking about leaving a note to say I missed you! And there you are. Funny that.
from moodymama :
((((((((((maile))))))))))))) glad to know that you're not kidnapped and i don't have to watch you on court tv. :o)
from moodymama :
damn. are you still in louisville? you should send me a postcard. :o)
from swordwoman :
Oh, I really are impressed by your being and also your doing (the page). Your language and the flow within it is superb, also the content. A do not have the same personality "disorder" as you, but I have been suffering from depression a long time of my adult life. Now medicating, I tend to live a quite happy life, besides my sometimes destructive thrill seeking... I am a "all or nothing" type... Prosper
from suprgoddess :
hey girrl...it's me em-powered, incognito...heh. :P miss you...so update already. *kisses*
from plume :
The first season of Dawson's Creek was totally the best. Like totally for sure OMG. Hope you is having fun.
from em-powered :
lmfao!!!~~~>hoity toity snob bitch. isn't it great how we can be self-professed bitches??? whoo! just gotta love it. *mwah*
from the-book-bag :
Geez, I'm sorry you had to spend nine hours in the airport! I'm glad you made it to L.A. safely and I enjoyed reading your survey answers. -cat
from runningg :
I hope you have a good trip.
from plume :
I continually get a google hit for "plume" from israel.. I figure it's someone who hasn't bookmarked my site and just keeps googling it. Strange. I bet you'll be getting google hits for "fucking little slut puppy bitch" soon haha. Ooh, Nightmare Before Christmas. That I like. You're the one and only alwayslolita. All the other alwayslolitas are just imitating.
from the-book-bag :
I used to consider becoming a nun, just so I could avoid the whole "romance," "virginity," "sex" problem all together. Three problems though: my beliefs probably excommunicated me years ago; I'm now a witch; and I couldn't stand the thought of THE BIBLE being my only reading material for the rest of my life. I hope you have a safe trip and a wonderful visit with your family. :-D -cat
from moodymama :
have a safe flight home! :o) i'll be on the isle on june 26th. can't remember when i'm leaving but i know i'm there for about three weeks, give or take a day. will you be back by then? hope so. we'll have to do anna millers so i can have some strawberry pie. hope it's in season. or zippy's so i can have their chili with the questionable secret ingredient. mayo, i bet? that's about two days worth of running. it's all good. i want to check out jelly's too. i miss jelly's! so much i want to do. while t is there i think i'll do a tourist-y thing like take him to paradise cove luau. when i worked for pleasant hawaiian holidays, we got to do all the tourist-y things for free. it was so much fun. i'm so excited! hope you have fun in louisville with your family. :o)
from plume :
OR you could send the extra indy set to me! Yes, that's a great plan. Hehe. Or I'll trade you for my super secret Johnny Depp morning ritual DVD. Yup.
from em-powered :
uh...yes...i've had many a public display, but to that i say...hellsbells!!! we're all only fucking human. though i would have been trippin' on mr. dudeydude...or maybe just not sit very close, yeah? heh. and, i need to take my lardass to the gym too...but, everything in moderation, titah. for a good 'n effective workout we must strategize, grasshoppahhh. aww hell...let's mull it over at anna millers... auwee! :P
from plume :
If I could have a film prop I'd want Aragorn's sword. Viggo is the coolest ever. I can't believe I've been in the same city as him. That makes me almost cool too. I'm tired, I must try to keep up better with my diaryreads
from neeyna :
just letting u know...that once again...after a long ass time of being away... i read ur diary...
from runningg :
Hello, I've been reading your diary, I am intrigued by your writing. Just wanted to let you know that you write with elegance -George
from the-book-bag :
I have heard of and own HOUSE OF LEAVES. I bought it before I read an article on Poe explaining the connection between the novel and HAUNTED. I will try sending the link for the wish list to myself, then forward it on to you. Thanks for tip. -cat
from the-book-bag :
Thank you so much for your note and for trusting me enough to let me read your private entry. -cat
from moodymama :
that's one thing i don't miss is that pidgin b.s. that and the local boys sitting at the bus stop calling themselves "gangs". meh. i used to get that itch all the time. truthfully, i don't like it here but i wouldn't want to move back home either. i just like to visit. i wouldn't mind living in seattle or new york. too expensive though. when i graduate i have to move somewhere that has truly screwed up people with lots of agencies for dysfunctional folks. i mean, sc has a lot of messed up people but the state doesn't care about taking care of them. no job for me here, i guess. i just know i'm gonna lose all this weight and gain it right back with chocolate haupia pie, lumpia, and zippy's chili. i just know it! oh yeah, i can't find your number can you send it to me again? i have your address but your number is not written in my phone book. i think i had it saved in an AOL email but i no longer have AOL. i hope tomorrow is a better day for you. ((((((maile)))))) hugs and smooches.
from em-powered :
don't feel too bad about the smokes...i do the same damn thing. but, i say screw it and smoke the buggah to the bone...whoo! i know that itch you're talking about. girl, i could not even stand hearing island music! and my ex is portuguee, so blehhh pidgin!!! just do yourself a favor and don't EVER think of relocating to hicksville, nc. *kisses*
from the-book-bag :
Hi...I'd like to read your private entry, if that's okay with you. [email protected] -cat
from em-powered :
ha! i want one of those startrek devices, too! Make men appear/disappear at whim. Hmmm. And, you just always know girrrl...I will go with you to Anna Miller's in the middle of the night (even in my jammies & slippahs) to friggen eat pie. Mwuaahh!!!
from the-book-bag :
Wow! What a beautiful entry. It's now on my list of favorites. -cat
from moodymama :
lmfao...chunky mcbigbutts. you crack me up. i hope you don't stick with the smoking. you'll regret it. i know i do. (((((maile))))
from the-book-bag :
I think we all feel that way. I feel guilty calling the occurrances of my childhood "abuse" because so many people suffered MUCH worse (including my dad). I hesitate to talk about my experiences because I don't want to detract from people who are REALLY abused. The Mom and Jaci tell me: "Cat, you WERE abused." Oh well.
from plume :
Maybe I should be a plumber. Plume the plumber. It has a certain ring to it. Merriam Webster, that's the site I always go to when I need to look up words because my english flails me. Mehehe.
from moodymama :
lmao @ the tampons. my poor maile. :o)~ they have ruby tuesday there now? cool. i won't be eating there though since we have that here.
from the-book-bag :
Thank you so much for your note...at the time, I wasn't quite sure if I should post the entry. I'm sorry you suffered such terrible abuse...it always makes me so sad because I know SO many people go through it. I'm glad for you, that you've been able to move past the rage that comes from such a childhood. And I promise, I'll never stop stealing surveys from your diary!! :-D -cat
from plume :
speaking of charisma carpenter in playboy.. http://www.freeforumzone.com/viewmessaggi.aspx?f=8455&idd=15383
from the-book-bag :
I loved reading your answers to the survey. 19 pairs of shoes? Damn girl! You could give my mom a run for her money. :-D
from the-book-bag :
Hmmmmm, I'll have to think about the name thing. For the migraines, I take Maxalt-MLT...that's the only thing that works for me. Not even ice, cold-showers or headrubs help me once a migraine takes hold. Ugh. -cat
from the-book-bag :
I say we start a club. They think we're intimidating now? Wait 'til they see a whole brigade of us marching down the street!! -cat
from plume :
I'm reading I Am Spock by Leonard Nimoy. Haha. I really want his first book though. I Am Not Spock. Hehee. Oh lord.
from moodymama :
hey...i was checking out your yafro and saw your flag! :o) i have an american samoa one. i should post mine too. i'm glad you're gonna give up smoking. i said i wouldn't be smoking for long and i'm still smoking eight years later. meh.
from the-book-bag :
Oy! I forgot to tell you. I added a little something to the bottom of today's entry. I'll spare you the need of having to click on my pages and print it for you here. Coming Soon: A TALE OF TWO...(WELL, IT RHYMES WITH "CITIES") A one act, one woman play by the-book-bag. :-D
from the-book-bag :
Hola! Thank you so much for your note. You made me laugh and feel better. I'm sure things will work out fine with my therapist...I'm just kind of a wimp when it comes to confrontation. A´y carumba! (Did I spell that correctly)? I hope you're off to get some sleep. I know I am. -cat (meow)
from moodymama :
hey...i haven't answered your questions yet because right now i'm too moody and disgruntled with my family. i'd answer them with pissy answers. heh. anyhoo, i'll prolly give ya a ring this weekend. was trying to find your number last weekend and i finally found it today.
from em-powered :
btw...mines is the Old Path deck. created by a coven of 8...passed down and along to me through a friend of the past. i'll upload some cards sometime. they're art is amazingly detail and everything on each carries symbolism... it's funny, cuz when they're flipped i automagically see a story. odd to me sometimes. i hate reading myself. i do you if you do me, girrrl! lol
from em-powered :
wow. finally found this place...whooo! (uh-duh) thanks for your messages girrrl! you make me smile. for reals that linda is a trip. she really liked me and visited a couple of times, so i'll bet she's just wondering whatever happened. i'm wondering if she left anything in my house!!? bleh. i'm catholic...but, never heard of this branch. i'll have to do research. talk latahs! MWUAAH! hele on...
from the-book-bag :
1) When and how did you know you were bisexual? 2) Do you believe we're all here for a reason? If so, why are you here? 3) What would your ideal existance look like? (i.e., What would your vocation be? Where would you live? With whom? etc.)
from plume :
right I almost forgot. Katherine is at dictation.diaryland.com. One of my alltime faves. I'm too tired to come up with 3 questions. Can I ask one? How's the weather? Okay then. Bedtime.
from moodymama :
1)Would you prefer to date a male or a female? And what qualities are important to you in a significant other? 2)Why don't you like children? Would you ever date someone that had children? 3)What's the most important thing that you've gained from therapy?
from moodymama :
what? no update for two days? this is unlike you. i hope you've been super busy and have exciting details to share with us. like how you got sloppy drunk and ran into the hottie from scoozees and had mad passionate sex on the beach. ha! anyway, i hope everything's okay. (((((((((((((maile))))))))))))))))
from the-book-bag :
Just after I posted that entry, Mom came into my office and we talked. We've worked things out to a point. It's going to be a period of adjustment I think, but hopefully things will work out. I hope you can get some sleep tonight!! Let me know how you like READING LOLITA if you decide to read it. -cat
from plume :
I don't think I've stayed awake for 24 hours in my life. In fact I'm going to sleep any second. That makes it 16 today I guess.
from starlight42 :
just wanted to wish you good luck with trying to stop smoking! my boyfriend has been trying for years...I know it's super hard! you can do it though!
from the-book-bag :
I think we should set up an encampment outside the MTV studios, demanding DARIA's immediate release on DVD. -alley cat
from flipmeover :
oh my goodness maile, I have the same recurring dream! I dream that I have a huge wad of gum in my mouth, and I'm trying to take it out, but I can only pull little bits of it out at a time! I keep trying to pull it out, but i can only pull out parts of it. It is so irritating! Weird - we never talked about that before
from the-book-bag :
Hi! I'm glad you "stole" the survey. I can't wait to read your answers! I'm sorry about your mind being floaty lately, I can understand how it feels. We seem to have a lot in common: I have two double bookcases CRAMMED with books. My mom asked me to count how many I have in both rooms once and the total was 632, although I'm sure that number has increased to 650 because of all the texts I've bought since then. I've only read around 150 or so, but like you, I just can't stop buying more. Everything looks so INTERESTING and I just want to read it all! My mom says: "Why do you keep buying?" And I say: "Well, I did that thing you suggested, where I read the first few chapters at the bookstore to see if it's a 'keeper'." (We kind of have a rule, don't buy anything unless you're sure it's a "keeper.") "So, I read a few chapters and I KNOW that I must own and read this book." Really, rather than deterring me from buying, the "keeper" rule system has led to more purchases than ever!! I hope you start to feel better soon. :-( Since you love LOLITA so much, you might enjoy READING LOLITA IN TEHRAN: A MEMOIR IN BOOKS by Azar Nafisi. It's all about this woman and her book group in Tehran. One of the authors they spent a lot of time on was Nabokov. Of course, they read others like F. Scott Fitzgerald, Henry James, Jane Austen and more. Of course, being such a bookworm, perhaps you've already gotten your hands on it! If not, check it out. It's very informative, not only on the texts the book club read, but of the situation in Iran from the late seventies to now. -Cat
from plume :
Do you like futurama? They did a parody of that twilight thing. With the broken glasses. Haha. Good times.
from purex :
Oh my gosh, I thought I was the only little girl that was a pilgrim for Halloween in pre-school! My costume was black though, not nearly as cool as purple. :)
from the-book-bag :
Thank you for your note! I'm sorry you struggle with insomnia too. :-( For some reason, my ambien just decided to take a vacation and trazadone has NEVER worked for me. You know how doctors are though, "I'm right. You're wrong. Living in your body 24/7 for twenty-six plus years cannot possibly compare to the four years I spent in medical school." I also understand the "window." If I don't take the ambien and go straight to bed, I'm up all night. I don't have time to read your diary right now (it's waaaay past my bedtime) but I will definitely be back to take a peek soon. I'm guessing from your name and the fact that you love books that you're a fan of Nabokov's LOLITA? I can't wait to read you journal. -Cat
from dalyrical1 :
dont get me wrong...i do love the book...but i love the movement of the movie too. it was like...you could understand why he loved her...you saw the minute things that attracted him to her...to girls...and you pitied him..and saw it it...and felt the love..and it was beautiful
from dalyrical1 :
great answers!! and i totally agree about lolita...i love that movie and cry every time he goes to see her at the end. i'm reading the book now...and so far...i like the movie better...but that's just because the movies moves faster! lol
from plume :
That was a nice bartender. I can't remember the last time I had dinner outside my house. Well yeah when I visited Skye, but that was vacation that doesn't count. Hmm.
from blue88 :
How the fuck can anyone hate Kirsten Dunst.......?
from plume :
I should get friends to write emails to :) ...Hah, I just saw Julianne Moore in Evolution. That probably wasn't her finest moment Hehee. But I like her though.
from plume :
may god have mercy on our backs
from plume :
I wasn't going to guess more shopping. I'm not psychic at all
from plume :
damn, here I was ready to take pictures of my cock. Now what am I gonna do all night? Teeheee.
from blue88 :
So now, not drunk...I read your diary, (It's amazing how easy a key board and mouse are to operate when your sober.) I liked Lolita the second time around. The first time was in highschool and I never made it through the thing. Thought it stupid really, I kept looking for steamy parts and gave up. Then, when was thirty I re-attempted to read it. And the longing to recreate a lost ( Self seen.) perfect love and destroy someone, and oneself in the process when crossing that taboo. Really affected me and I read the book like a sordid dime store novel about a car accident. Of course seeing the newest movie adaptation with Jeremy Irons and Dominque Dunne (Whew! total babe....) at the same time fueled the imagry.
from moodymama :
you know what? i really hated losing anne, my therapist, when we moved here. she was irreplacable. after much searching, i'd found a therapist here that i could connect with and feel comfortable with. he was young, gay, and had my off sense of humor. i lost him too when he moved to another city with his partner. i need to see someone but i don't have the energy to get to know someone intimately like that again.
from plume :
The guys at work are gonna wonder about my nail polish tomorrow...!
from blue88 :
I don't really knoe about the content but the tarot card images are cool. I'm drunk, this entry really doesn't matter....(I made sure there was a comma after drunk.)
from plume :
*hug*, I promise I'm not a serial killer. I think it's impressive how you write all this stuff down, it's a good way to work through some things. I hope.
from im2evil4u :
Hey thanks for clicking on my banner and for your awesome comment about my photos. I look forward to reading your diary and checking out your photos.
from purex :
Ohhh man.. Sudafed *sniff sniff*, orange juice, and asian guys.. sounds great!
from invisibledon :
Thanks for doing my judgenot survey
from plume :
cigarettes really taste good? It has always mystified me why so many people smoke. There was lots of great talk of smoking on the futurama episode commentary I watched today. Including "So kids don't ever smoke... unless you want to look cool" or something similar. Haha.
from plume :
*cough* excuse me. thong thong thong that thong th-th-th-thong
from plume :
ouch, sorry bout the tooth. I once chipped some of my front tooth off. It still looks a little deform.
from prosti :
I didn't have sex for three weeks after watching Seven.
from prosti :
I was going to tell you to save your smoke for the morning to have with coffee and then...I was reading a day later....so yeah....I'm late. Yup
from plume :
My theory is that the same sex marriage thing doesn't bother straight people, just christian (or religious) people. I'm straight, it doesn't bother me. But my theory is that they're afraid that if we all loosen up and accept such dastardly sins as *Gasp* homosexuality then we will eventually discover that it's silly to run your life by the bible and that we don't need god, at least not as interpreted by the priests in power. It's a revolution, and they don't want that. Does that make sense? ...spies are everywhere. TRust no one. The truth is out there. X-files baby.
from candoor :
Your address probably didn't show up in daisy's comments cuz lolita is one of the words that are censored by some filters and she probably has the filter on for her comments feature. Feel good :)
from plume :
Thank you much! You rock! ...I don't think there's anything wrong with corresponding with people. Like you said, it's not so different from penpals. We could all lock ourselves in tiny little metal boxes then we'd be safe. I almost tried, wasn't much fun.
from plume :
mmm cookies. That incident in the doctor's ofice with the girl sounds lovely, that would make my day too.
from plume :
You sound like an artist to me
from wifemotherme :
I feel the same way about a mans hands and the way they smell after work! I am always trying to hug my husband when he comes home and he always says the same thing "Let me shower first I feel dirty" I love the masculine scent so much more than soap and water. Well from my hubby anyway, strangers just smell stinky more often than not lol
from exiles :
thanks for your help and yeah I'm covering my tracks. It is now complete.
from plume :
maybe when we get bombed back to the stone age and all technology fails we'll use ancient books as currency because they're so valuable. You never know.
from plume :
I must be one of them crazy cat people, what with all the pictures of the jedis hah. I want cats of my own though. And you better believe that when I get 'em I'll be posting millions of pictures. I just know it.
from brutalyoga :
i wish my diary looked like yours!!! nice stuff all around.
from plume :
I had spaghetti for dinner today. If I wanted a religious interpretation I'd go watch Life of Brian again. Hey, I think I'll go wathc Life of Brian again.
from purex :
Bush really does suck.
from plume :
jenna jameson is nice? well how about that. (no further comments). I want my bones cracked too. Oh man I could go for some bone cracking right about now. I always stretch my body and it makes cracking noises. I need to be de-cracked. I've never had a massage in my life, I think my back must be one big knot. I wonder if jenna does massages. hmmm..
from exiles :
anna Nicole just might be legally retarded. On the other question about what happen to widows who remarry, I think if there is a heaven that people probably don't exist as they do now. I mean the ways we think and percieve things I don't believe would work well in Heaven. I figure people would be all fucked up in Heaven otherwise. So I think that in heaven there isn't that one person who loves you that is waiting for you. What would make sense to me is if just generally you are loved and accepted with open arms and apart of that maybe the person who is your soulmate. I guess what I am saying is I think the laws of individuality sort of change up there. I think an aspect of what makes that person unique exist and is embodied but I think people aren't how they are on earth...otherwise I think it'd be a test to stay in heaven without fucking up due to human nature. THat is just my take on it, I may be wrong. But no matter what anything says, even the bible, we really won't know all these things until we've died.
from exiles :
plumbers and mechanics...you'd think they make a killing...but if you were to be plumber, do you have the plumbers crack for it, hehe.
from plume :
Hah, I just looked at my previous note and thought "Aw lola? I never wrote that. Someone stole my name and left a note". But then I realized that I had written that. So there. Anyway. What I wanted to say was that if I sat in an empty theatre and someone came and sat in the seat next to me I would freak out. I'd probably run out.
from plume :
aw lola, I like that one! And in general that moblog thing seems fun. I like it. It makes me want to get a camera phone myself. Too bad I hate cell phones hah!
from exiles :
i like your new pics you've been posting. It's really cool to get visuals added to your normal diary!
from exiles :
Well I am selling and giving away all my furniture and houseware items. The rest like my comics a stuff well I have to condense it all for storage at my parents. I have a lot of crap. If I get a chance I am going to post some cool stuff I own.
from plume :
the camera phone thing seems fun hehe. I like it. Documenting the day. Also I'm going to start calling you Hotlips I think :)
from plume :
camera phones are stupid! But I bet they're fun if you have them :) ..I'm not too thrilled about the camerafication of the world though. I'm glad kids didn't have camera phones when I was in school. It's a whole new level of bullying that will be possible. I've already seen it on the telly. Kids taking pictures of other kids in the locker room. A great big dweeb like me, I woulda been all over the net. And not by my own choice like now. ... I like the one where you're making the horrible face hahah
from plume :
I don't know when CC wil be in PB. Inside sources says she's shooting right now. Oh boy! And don't worry, you haven't seen the last of DOOL! Indy 4, hmm well I guess it's a bit dangerous. Can if capture the magic? Probably not. I have always wanted more though. More of everything. "Every good thing comes to an end" or something like that? Nope, give me lacklustre sequels and I'm happy.
from exiles :
haha, you know what I read that comment on your deviant art posting and I thought to myself, aah that isn't much of a compliment if it was one. You must have been thinking, "Gee thanks"... right. It's funny you mentioned that in your entry, I thought the same.
from plume :
nice watercolour. I wish I could paint. Or draw. Or run a marathon while typing out a novel. Anything, really. I like the water.
from plume :
Hey I like Ed too. And I have fond memories of the abyss. good times.
from exiles :
please email me the pic when you get it, i wanna see...hehe. I'll give you my personal gaydar reading...hehe.
from plume :
hooray for gyms :) ...hey my coach is kinda sexy too actually.. naaah, better not go there. Let's all move to Canada, they have snow there right?
from plume :
sexual jedi kitties indeed. I tells ya. The world is a strange place. But I'm going to go sleep so it's all good. Here's hoping for some coach coming your way.
from exiles :
you're right about there not being a lot of great talent on American Idol. It's pretty mediocre this season. I am so happy this one girl got tossed out tonight though...it was that Britney Spears wannabe. She was so full of herself, and if she won I would have stopped watching. Now I want Scooter girl to get tossed, she's so annoying. I'm glad you sound you are in better spirits. You're right that there is nothing wrong about liking your sisters coach. Like you said though, she's nine. She'd probably say the same thing if a friend told her that they thought your dad was hot or something...just the age. Just hope he's not gay, hehe. There is always something right...
from exiles :
I understand how exhaustion can affect how you feel emotionally. I really wish there was something I could say or do that would help. I just hope you can find some power within yourself to make choices that can help you. I wouldn't say I've licked all feelings of sadness and depression in my own life, but I have found ways to help myself deal, I hope you find your way there.
from plume :
I wish I could help :-/ ... there's plenty of oxygen to go around. I can think of plenty of people that are less deserving of it than you.
from exiles :
I should've profread the last note... I meant to say, I thought Hawaii helps perpetuate the stereotype. Not sure what I meant to say with the I didn't part...
from exiles :
Wow that sucks, having to clean out rotten food out of the freezer. Re: American Idol, well I think Hawaii's worst was the least awful of all the locations. There seemed more mediocre talent and a few good people in it. I was also curious who had the best voice as well and was kind of bummed about not seeing that person. Thank god Hawaii didn't produce another Scat Girl or that Chinese guy from San Fran that's all I have to say. You're right about the stereotypes being annoying...but I didn't Hawaii perpetuates it and supports that to get people to come here as well. On a more positive note I think it's nice to see more movies using Hawaii as a backdrop instead of focusing just on the fact that it's hawaii. Cause those films suck and it made hawaii look bad. I thought Punch Drunk Love did a great job of using Hawaii in a good way. Wow this is probably going to be a long note.
from plume :
ick. I can almost smell it. I had a rotten sort of smell in my room a few nights ago.. luckily not on the scale of a whole fridge or freezer or anything. But still. It's a disturbing smell.
from plume :
Hey, I remember young guns.. I liked that. Actually I think the sequel was one of the last movies I saw in a theatre.. before things went downhill. ...if we went back to olden times then I think I'd start wearing a dress. Oh yes. I'd make a lovely woman. Just a little mascara and lipstick and I'm set to being a housewife.
from plume :
I have never had much desire to grow old.. I'm afraid of dying though.. at least the things involved. If humans had an off switch I would have been long gone I think. I guess it's good that it's not that easy..
from plume :
lend me some sugar! wheee
from exiles :
So what is this private entry i keep reading about...can i have a password for it? I hope everything is going ok with you. On another topic, yeah glad to hear improper singing doesn't just bother me. I really wanted her to suceed and just sing to her true potential. I don't know her but to a fellow performer I just wanted to see more confidence and projection.
from plume :
Hey hey hey, that sentence almost sounds like it's boring to read me! You should put in a paragraph break between my link and the boring part :) Hehe. I saw a thing about big fish today, now I want to see it too. ...thanks for the password. Oh and I don't have to pay for the reva center no. Of course someone has to pay, but that's what the social services etc are for. I like our system. We may pay a lot of taxes but then we help each other out. Or we try to. It would be easy to be selfish and say "I want to pay less taxes and the the homeless and weak can just go *bleep* themselves, that's not my problem, I'm strong". The strong should take care of the weak. And in some ways I am weak. But this will help me get stronger. And when I am stronger I will pay my taxes and help others. Aw, it's all about the love. Or something like that.
from exiles :
glad you're back. Yeah Big Fish was good. I didn't think it fit necessarily a typical Burton film, but what is ever typical with that man. My friend and I felt the film floundered somewhat in the middle and seemed liked it was going to be fizzle out but the ending seemed to be a surprising payoff. It's not my all time fav Burton film, but it stands in close distance of them.
from plume :
I never write poetry anymore... but then it was always stereotypical teen angst anyway. I guess I have shrugged it off my shoulders. Anyhoot, I'd like the pass for the private folder of course `.)
from plume :
I propose we start a petition to move all mornings so they start later on in the day. I like your idea of heaven. Sounds good to me.
from exiles :
Hey i miss reading your diary. Come back soon ok!
from plume :
hope you had a nice new year. I always wanted to be harrison ford. Hey, maybe there's still time..
from exiles :
Well your alienation from your homes works itself and you find a place you feel comfortable.
from me-undaunted :
boo hiss boo. you're locked! hmph.
from alwayslolita :
oh yeah. i just realized that because i'm locked some of you may not have my email address. so just leave your email address in my notes or guestbook and i'll email the password to you.
from alwayslolita :
sorry. i'm having technical difficulties and i needed to lock up. if you want the username and password email me and put 'diary' in the subject line so that i don't think that you're spam. i'm going to be selective as to who i let in so if you don't get an email back from me don't take it personally. i will still be updating however
from plume :
I think there should be leash laws for copyright nazis... but aaanyway. Of course you're allowed to click on days you miss on the candle, no worries about that :)
from wench77 :
I didn't "attack you", I said it is ironic that you have a copyright notice on your site at the same time you are extolling violating copyright. And now you do it in your own entry. You say you would be happy that anyone copy your stuff and give it out for free, at the same time that your copyright button on the very same page says in very legal language that no one has a right to copy your stuff in any way or give it out. I mean, one or the other. You can be against copyright laws, but your complete lack of consistency is like me speaking in public against leash laws for dogs while insisting all my neighbors respect leash laws. Read your own button if you cannot be bothered to read the link I sent you.
from plume :
Hah. I should ask KODA if they have a job opening for her. I think she would fit in right well there. If she aggravates you then I suggest you ignore her. Otherwise I suggest you pound on her like a dog on... dog food? I don't know. That's a good idea though, how about a mix cd of plume.diaryland.com. I'd be thrilled if someone spread that around haha. That's my advice and I'm sticking to it.
from exiles :
I wasn't sure what that last paragraph of your entry meant until i started reading your notes. I hope you and your diaryland friend come to a better understanding. Stuff like that sort of comes with having a public diary I guess. On another note, I don't know whether to be happy or sad for you, regarding your little visitor. Most girls I know would rather not have that monthly visitor, but I know you don't get it as often.
from wench77 :
Hey, I'd pay, hell, I'd sell tickets, to see you defend your view of copyright in a court of law. By your reasoning, I could make a mixed cd (yes I have a burner) of parts of your template and a mixture of your entries here and there (take orders for people's favorites), despite your copyright notice, and I could offer them as "free alwayslolita mixed diary cd" on my site to the public who reads my diary. Cool! Please write well, so I'll have more to choose from. And according to you, I don't even have to tell you, let alone ask for permission. I wonder how many of my friends would like cds of parts of your template to use for free. Hey, make mixed tapes or whatever, but at least know that it is illegal. But it is not even the illegal I care about, it is just theft from creative people, and it devalues their stuff and their right to say who uses their stuff and when and how. Please read the information at http://whatiscopyright.org It is called copyright because it means the right to copy. It is not called sellingright, or even copyasawholeright. No. No one has the right to make a mixed book of my drawings (cuz you cannot go to amazon and buy that mixed book, you'd have to buy many separate books) and give it out for free. Anyone who creates anything in physical form (written word, html on a harddrive, drawing etc) has copyright...valid internationally by all signatories to the international law. It is not necessary to register it anywhere. Reproducing it without written consent of the creater is theft of copyright unless it is portions reproduced in order to comment on the original (ie reviews). Please don't put any more justifications on my notes until you inform yourself. It's one thing to speed and know you are speeding, and quite another to publicly state that speeding is ok and legal as long as you are going to a wedding or a bar mitzvah. It's just pointless to argue with someone who doesn't know the law. And that is why I find it ironic. You want people to respect copyright of your stuff but you don't seem to have any understanding of what it is, or what constitutes breaking the copyright law.
from plume :
I can't comment on the crack issue but I love hey ya :) ..you were close to winning. Unfortunately I made a mistake, I haven't heard Headstrong. Dang. It was Dido instead.
from exiles :
guestbooks suck, I tried to write you there but got rejected. Here is what I wrote earlier and saved: hey maile. I just got back and was reading your diary. I think to answer your question about the ring, I think it all depends on the meaning. Of course not everyone has oodles and oodles of money but I guess anything just out of good heartedness is a great gift. It shows the person is thinking about you. Of course if it was something that just happened to be around at the time, and really didn't need any thought than, i can see someone getting mad. BTW, glad you're reinstated at Deviant Art. It probably was out of error. Also, I hate those girls on Rich Girls. THats the kind of thing, I often feel people outside the US sees, and I know it'd probably only make them hate us more.
from wench77 :
Hi! I'm not going to get into the copyright thing again. You can look it up elsewhere. Deep sigh. Though I am thankful you don't love my stuff, cuz I wouldnt sell many books if people copied it and gave it out for free instead of sending their friends to the bookstore. Thanks anyways about the cd thing. And why is it that he gave up all for Islam? Aren't there Islamic musicians? Velly strange. But it is great music for a rainy day... many songs I know by heart. :) Actually, I may go and put Tea for the Tillerman on right now... thanks! I forget how much vinyl I actually own!!! Do you have records too or only collect cds??
from plume :
ooh I loved Big. Of course I was Small when I last saw it. Hehe. i like Tom Hanks. Best Guest Star on Family Ties ever. I think.
from wench77 :
hiya! I like Cat Stevens! Used to listen to him alot when I was young, and found it fascinating how he renounced all that when he became Buddhist or somesuch. I also looked at the copyright button statement on your page. Isn't it a bit ironic to offer to make copies of something copyrighted by someone else when you put a copyright button on your page? I think it's cool to make copies of the cd for your brother and yourself since you bought the boxed set, but to offer to anyone is really a bit ironic. ps, isnt it a pain when cds dont work? I find it also ironic that they get us to give up vinyl and cassettes in favor of cds cuz they are supposedly forever and all, and then half the time they don't work. I have cds of my artwork I've burned that won't read anymore after a year and they havent even left the house. Grrrr. technology!!
from wench77 :
and thanks for the note too... yeah, I do like my neighborhood. It is close to downtown, but feels like a small town, cuz people walk to shop, eat at neighborhood restaurants not chains, and you see the same people on the street all the time. And it is not scary talking to strangers. I love Montreal cuz people actually look at each other. I used to live in a suburb in a small city, and strangely Montreal is a large city but more friendly and less scary. A wonderful place.
from wench77 :
hey, thanks for doing my threeof survey! MMM green tea icecream! I wanna be stuck at your house!! What is arroz con gandules?? ... i dont think avocados and guacamole are the same food! I think it is very possible to like one and dislike the other... I have a friend who hates raw tomatoes but loves salsa! go figure! :)
from plume :
well that was quite odd. But I'm glad you're back. They must have realized that deviantart isn't the same without you :)
from wench77 :
hello! i got here by clicking...via surveys and srch4balance... i think she did a mentally ill survey, anyways somehow i ended up here instead of going to bed. I like what you said about worrying about what other people think of you being egotistical... that's funny... i used to be so painfully selfconscious and shy then realized it was the most self-centered thing... cuz of course it means you think everyone is focussed on you and not other things (like themselves!! ) ... that helped me a lot. I'm bi too, but just bisexual and I ride a bicycle and bilingual (english and french). My dr told me I'm on the "normal side of bipolar" ! :) which is a relief cuz depression runs huge in my family and is always a fear ... a yawning pit beckoning when times are bad. anyways, hi! and bye!
from plume :
I done made the private thing work, neat. Thanks for letting me in. I can't believe deviantart. What rotten hobos. You didn't get any explanation? Well if things don't get cleared up I could comment somewhere somehow. Although I doubt they would pay attention to some random note if they don't even answer emails. Rotten rotten.
from exiles :
wow, that really sucks, getting banned from your deviant art site. Well I hope it all gets all cleared up. Doesn't sound fair.
from chasha :
I was able to get an extra t-shirt. I need to know where to send it. I sent you an email at your diaryland account with my email addy on it. If this is not mail you check, let me know. I don't feel comfortable posting my contact info on this.
from plume :
Yes that was kind of odd, the sex scene. But you know, they gotta catch the teenage audience. Or something. I haven't seen the 3rd one of course, I imagine I'll be okaily entertained, but I'm sure the world would have survived if they only made the original. ..I think the walks have been a great idea so far. It's good to get out and about, even for a little while.. ...thanks for the memail, I will check it out very soon. It's bedtime now though. Wooh.
from chasha :
Even without the Electoral college, half the time somebody concedes before polls close even in California. We need a 24 hour voting day that has the same actual start and end time.
from exiles :
tell me you've finally gotten your battlecat.
from crashintome :
you have to tell me what you think about the dave CD :) sorry i haven't commented much lately.. i am always reading though :)
from plume :
Hehee. Well I was just going to do a few Plume style shows. But then I figured what the heck, I had nothing to write about anyway. Might as well make a whole entry of it to annoy the burgeoisis. Or that other one. Private entries eh? I have never heard of the like. Might I request a vip access thing?
from onewetleg :
well, thanks so much for taking my survey! love, jj
from plume :
Alien and the Indy trilogy <-- mmmmm! Credit to you for naming the jedi kitties :)
from plume :
luckily I don't have to rake all them leaves. Phew. I will have more jedi kitty pictures, you can count on it. Unless they use mindwill to prevent me from photographing them. But I doubt that will happen.
from exiles :
you're funny...hehe, masturbating daydream, who does that? I like to day dream too, i can't say i don't do both kinds though...to much info, eh? You sound like you are really happy and I really am happy for you, it's been really nice reading your diary lately, not that it isn't always =)
from plume :
I was going to suggest sending that guy a mailbomb, but I guess someone beat me too it, and creatively. I actually thought those church names were real at first. It wouldn't surprise me to see a j3$u$ r gr8 church.
from plume :
well actually there was a little recap so I have a general idea how he lost his arm :) but yeah, me wanna see them. I have wanted to for so long, it's ridiculoso.
from plume :
hah I wonder why it never occured to me to leave notes instead. Oh well. I can't believe you have the exact same irrational fear. That's spooky. Let's never get in a car on a harbour together, we don't wanna tempt fate. ... I guess I knew what a swiffer sweeper was after all hehe. We have something similar at the barn actually I think. Oh well. I got your email, haven't responded yet. But yes, your middle name is excellent, very good :)
from invisibledon :
hey in your answers for my no really survey you said to sign here if I wanted to see what number 30 asked you if you had - I would like to see and you did all the other surveys too - massive thanks and I enjoyed reading all your answers
from exiles :
I don't think there is anything wrong with finding love for the things we loved as kids again. I had the original battlecat when I was the kid. I always wished it wasn't so stiff and was more maleable.
from ncrebel21 :
Whoa, 9 She-Ra action figures? You hit the motherlode. Speaking of action figures, I wish I had kept mine. I had He-Man, Skeletor, some of the anonymous henchmen, the castle Greyskull and He-Man's cat....good times, good times...
from chasha :
I have a friend working on the campaign here. I can see if he knows how to get one to you.
from ncrebel21 :
Thanks for taking my survey! I feel the same about today's sitcoms. And She-Ra counts :-) (Speaking of She-Ra, I used to watch He-Man/Masters of the Universe and had all the little action figures....gee, that sounds a little more pathetic now that I typed it out...hehe)
from invisibledon :
thanks for doing my invisibledon survey- good answers too I enjoyed reading them
from exiles :
I love 80's toys, i think it's so cool you're into that too. I laughed for Real when I read your "Khan!!!" Thanks =)
from exiles :
thanks for your words of encouragement. BTW I have been watching a lot of I love the 80's Strikes back. It didn't make me cry but i understand about the feeling of nostalgia and perhaps happier times...
from chasha :
Yeah, the Kucinich folk are a bit unorganized. Again, try not to let that reflect on your view of the candidate. Any candidate that has strong backing from members of three parties (Dems, Greens, and Libertarians) is something special.
from exiles :
That Jenna Jameson sex toy doesn't sound to appealing, but the things that turn other people on will never stop to surprise me.
from saudades :
HIII! I got your mail! I have been up to here with NEWSPAPERS, literally! But I am awaiting your CD! What a nice, beautiful present! I'm awaiting ;) But don't hurry, take your time and THANKS FOR THINKING ABOUT ME!!! You're so kind and nice!
from exiles :
that is happening to me too, my guestbook isn't notifying me too!
from exiles :
Well I'm glad you are feeling better, sorry I would have written earlier but I have been out mostly. I do hope you can work all this stuff out somehow.
from exiles :
About that angst comment in the end, well maybe you should write about it and turn it into TV show called Maile's Creek, sorry I am a twisted mood. Trying to spread the thread. No seriously though, I understand a lot of what you mentioned, about needing to feel reaffirmed of your gifts and abilities. I don't think you are alone in this. We all deal with this differently and it affects all in it's own way. I often think that for a guy I'm pretty needy. I hate that about me though. I know my life is perfect for a guy who doesn't have anyone who wants to go somewhere and be somebody. Well I'm rambling as usual. Take care ok =) Here's an reaffirmation... you're a great artist!
from saudades :
MAILE! Thanks for your note, dude. Yes, indeed. Ok, here's the deal. That books sound splendid! Read it! and then you lend it to me, OH, and the most important: MAILE, that DREAM -- Oh, my God, how I wish you were on IM right now!! And why does your guestbook not work???
from exiles :
Hey, I have to say again how great I think your art is, and it is really cool that you are drawing again. I hope it is helping you find some happiness in your life.
from exiles :
ok I am going to note you cause I typed out a guestbook entry and it got rejected. Any who I wanted to tell you that I got a chance to check out your art and I really liked it. I know that I don't really know you and what I know of you is what I get to percieve from your diary and our few chats, but I what I am trying to say and I believe said it better in your guestbook is that your art seems very you. I look at your art and it's essence seems to reflect what I already able to percieve of you. Ok way to overcomplicated, there is a compliment in there though. My 3 fav's were Johnny, Lucy Lui, and Abstract1. I love how you really captured Lucy Liu's look in your portrait of her. And liked how you used other Celebs like Gina Gershon and Isabella Roselini. Anyways in Summation...hehe...I just wanted to tell you I liked your work. =) I can be such a windbag, and take so long to get to the point.
from saudades :
maile, since your guestbook doesn't let me sign twice in a row so soon, i am going to leave you a note! ok, well, in the old days they didn't have psychologists and psychiatrists diagnosing malaise with all those label names. i don't it's possible that you go schizophrenic. i know because i have had the same thought before, that i was showing signs of pre-schizophrenia two years ago, but i found out that pretty much it just doesn't work that way. when i was younger i had OCD, i was never diagnosed but i had had access to psychiatrists, that's what they would have said. sometimes those professional only make things worse with name labels. if there is one thing that someone has told me is my psychologist, he told me that my problem was not going to go away with an anxiety pill, and that i was the only one who could take the problem into my hands basically, so that's why i prefer psychologists. i know you have more a concern because being bipolar, i don't know what that is like, but just wanted to reassure you that i don't think you can develop schizophrenia. i studied schizophrenia for one of my biology term papers in high school and wrote a ten page final paper on and went through a lot of case histories, and people who are schizophrenic don't have the ability you have to live a day to day life. i have had the same problem that i can't fall asleep after heavy, heavy days. maybe we can talk about it on IM sometime! i wish my computer wasn't messed up so i could IM you. i would send you a copy of my paper because it's.... something else, what a catatonic person, for example, lives like... it's sad. :(
from funda :
inspiring, I wish you well in your journeys.
from priscillar :
Of course...Lolita is my FAVORITE book! I like the 1997 movie much better, and yes, I believe it is more faithful to the book. I think I may watch it again tonight before I fall asleep! :)
from priscillar :
You love the 1997 version of Lolita, too??!! Oh my god it's one of my favorites (and that's saying a lot). That's so awesome. Jeremy Irons and Dominique Swain are just so perfect in it.
from blueindian74 :
Hello! I am sad that you've never heard of snickerdoodles, much less, tasted one. This is the recipe I've always used; there are many variations out there, but this is a true snickerdoodle. Best served w/cold milk! Enjoy... Snickerdoodles 1/2 c. butter, softened (NOT melted) 1/2 c. shortening 1 1/2 c. white sugar 2 eggs 2 tsp vanilla 2 3/4 c. all purpose flour 2 tsp cream of tartar 1 tsp baking soda 1/4 tsp salt * Cream together butter, shortening, 1 1/2 c. sugar, eggs & vanilla. * Blend in flour, cream of tartar, soda & salt. * Cover & chill dough (at least 2 hours) * Form dough into balls (about a rounded teaspoon size) & roll in cinnamon-sugar mixture (2 tbsp white sugar & 2 tsp ground cinnamon) * Bake 8-10 minutes @ 400 degrees on ungreased cookie sheet - but WATCH CAREFULLY, all ovens vary & these are tempermental cookies (much like myself!) * Remove immediately from baking sheets onto cooling rack. You should go ahead & make your first batch now, no sense in putting it off.
from blueindian74 :
Just want to touch base, say hello. It's too humid to go outside so I plan on catching up on my diary & reading others. I think I'll make snickerdoodles! Life in fast lane...
from neeyna :
u seem like an interesting person...
from exiles :
Hey thanks for your kind words. Believe it or not it made my day. Sad huh? You're right about it taking time. Despite all the bad things and how awful she comes across there is something great in her, there is something to love, that's what makes it so hard. Anyways thanks for the note.
from hawaiibabe :
Good Morning, Thanx 4 the note. Im Alex its nice to meet u Maile. Im 23.and the youngest of 6 and the only girl. (dont worrie about rhyming)
from hawaiibabe :
Hey, I wanted to tell u to IM me sometime so we could chat. I read ur info and saw ur from hawaii so we probly have alot in common well g2g peace
from blueindian74 :
Oops, I forgot... Happy Birthday! Enjoy your mid-twentys, I hear they are good years!
from blueindian74 :
Hey, I just want you to know that I relate to you on so many different levels it's crazy, but I feel that if we were to have met in the past, we would not have been likely friends. I don't mean that in a bad way, it's just that I lived a shallow & rather empty existence for many years. I was in total denial of my 'true self' so people like you, who seem so self aware, were not the type of friends I sought out. But today I find you interesting & am amazed at our similarities despite our apparent differences. If you have any advice for me or any pearls of wisdom, please feel free to let me know... I'm working keeping this diary consistently & checking my messages... but there's still room for improvement, (always) but I'm getting my groove on, one day at a time. Talk to you soon, Julie
from saudades :
Happy Birthday again! Love!
from saudades :
Yeah, I know! I wish she'd be writing still, or in lapenseuse even. She just up and left! :(
from saudades :
I would have cried had my brother not been sitting next to me in the theatre! If I'd been alone, I would have cried like mad. What a beautiful, beautiful thing to say.
from saudades :
Oh! While I was writing the note below, I was trying to remember the other part of what you'd written in the note, Palestine and Israel, remembered as soon as I posted. Yeah. I have a friend who is Palestinian who was personally beaten up by thugs from the Israeli police. And irony of ironies, Palestinians have to, (Yellow Star of David wise anyone?) carry their IDs all over the place. Yeah, I just can't understand how a) some Israelis like to ignore the blatant pushing of an already inhabited land 's people to the ocean like lemmings and how b) some Palestinians have been all their lives living in such repression, resenment, and hate that the only answer they can find is to go blow themselves and a bus (cafe or store, whatever) up. I get sent all these photos of dead Palestinian INFANTS smashed to death all the time, it is horrible, from the Anti War Coalition of the university, I am just like oh my god. I know, like I said, it's the epicenter of the global earthquake. That's how I can put it. One more story, my Palestinian got beat up when he was trying to apply to a Hebrew-speaking university; people can't work, women can't reach the hospitals to give birth, when the Israeli gov decides it's time landlock. A people whose young people are born from the very beginning with no hope... it's no surprise, sad to say, that suicide bombing is going on, even though I find it horrid and find no justification of it, it is still not all together a mystery why they do it considering not only the brutality and violence but the feeling from birth that there is absolutely no hope and no redemption and no nothing but being marginalized and oppressed to death. So, anyway, this friend told me that he had another friend whom the Police thugs came at and started beating up, because they wanted to see him cry. But he wouldn't cry because he was laughing all the time, so they gave him such a trashing , and he wouldn't cry, they almost killed him. They were like, "&*%&*@%, cry you &*$%&^$, cry!"
from saudades :
Bueno, Maile, a la hora de la verdad yo ne he leído el nuevo testamento entero!! I always thought Mary Magdalene had been a prostitute at some point?? I haven't read the whole New Testament. It wasn't until this year that I've developed a lot of interest in reading it, before I saw it more as a chore or obligation to understand the religion and the lit. Now I see it as super interesting stuff. So in my own knowledge of Mary Magdalene I'd paid too much attention to rock opera ("Jesus Christ Superstar"). ;-) So, actually in the essay by Barbara Thiering, which I think is entitled "Why I Believe Jesus Was Married" - Dr. Thiering says he married Mary (of?) Bethany who some scholars, including herself suspect was Mary Magdalene. I personally am just very curious about what was really going on at the time, so if you have that essay you wrote, I'd love to see it. :D Did you check out the link on Camila O'Gorman? She and her husband (though not recognized as such in the time) are really quite the personas, I have done a lot of research on her. I even saw the 1986 (?) Argentine movie: Camila. So, I'm def interested in hearing more! E-mail me. I am going to change my IM sn because I'm not too pleased with some people who have my sn and whom I can't block b/c they'd find out through others or such, you know. So I am changing my sn on IM, I'll let you know. Thanks for your really flattering comments, I am humbled. I just thought it was too good an e-mail to not save it at least somewhere ;-)
from exiles :
I'm not sure if it's the fact that he's a Republican or the Senator from Utah that gives him such a huge stick up his ass. I don't know if I ever got a 150,000 lawsuit I'd die laughing, cause I would truly go insane. Hopefully no one looses it because of this asshole, and takes out a city block or something like that.
from saudades :
Hi Maile! How are you???? I've been a little sick. Thanks for your note, I like getting long long notes (and leaving them too, as you must know). Yay! I am glad you are thinking about that suggestion of studying some more Spanish, yeahr I know, having someone to talk to always motivates . I fyou want you can talk with me on IM : ) Yes, I will translate to Spanish when I write in Norwegian, thank you. Love, Ana. I loved your entry! I signed your guestbook about it, and linked it from my site.
from saudades :
Yes! You know, the key is to make it a discipline, get committed against one's will! I would be doing that with German right now were it not for the trip. No, they haven't let me know. I'm hoping they'll write tomorrow, if not I'll just be wondering if they got the application
from journ-proj :
hi. thanks for the inquiry. as soon as a journal comes back to me, it'll be scanned and uploaded into the journal project diary for everyone to see. (there is talk of copying each page and creating a replica journal for each person who participated, but we haven't decided yet.)
from saudades :
Hi, thank you. I am so happy to know someone is reading! Thank you! Anyway, yes, at the beginning of the summer I was planning to go to Argentina with my friend (who is also a friend of my mom's), but now I am applying to be part of a program in Mexico, a village called Xilitla in the central state of San Luis Potosí with a program called Youth for Peace and Sustainable Community, but I haven't heard from the yet even though it's urgent that they reply because it's at the end of this month. So, by Monday they should have gotten in touch I hope. ¿You were in Juarez? That's awesome! I don't think you ever told me you'd gone to Mexico. I went to Tulum, in the state of Quintana Roo in the Yucatán península to see the Mayan ruins at Tulum, but that was only one day. It was beautiful, though. Because when I was walking throught the streets of the beach town near Tulum, I remembered so many Mexican television programs I'd grown up on. I remember that I was walking by a shop when all of a sudden a Ricardo Arjona song (he is from Guatemala, but he went to Mexico to sing) came on. I was like, "Wow!" I wouldn't stop talking to the tour guide. LOL.
from exiles :
You do know he man and she ra were bother and sister right? It would be cool anyway if they got together, hehe. I'm all for unique forms of love. I also had cringer who turned from cringer to battle cat. A little secret was I also liked She-ra even though I was a boy.
from saudades :
oh i knowww! i adore that movie , me too! i have read the novella it's based on, and it is such a good story, it's by senel paz and it's called El lobo, el bosque y el hombre nuevo. Both the book and the movie are such good things. I know, the friendship they develop and the whole story is very moving! Both of them are cute to me ,too!! :-)
from amalthea23 :
holy crap, congrats on being the first one to get the last question of my survey right. you rock!
from crashintome :
i'm probably the one without balls you were referring to. sometimes, i just get seriously emotional. and everything does seem so "here and now" to me.. i'm feeling so weird these days, i don't know why.. but i'm trying to shake it off. love ya maile.
from epiphany :
Hi, thanks for signing. I probably stated that "boys are easier to teach than girls" with way too much brevity. No, there are no studies - the evidence is all anecdotal and definitely doesn't translate for all. But, in general, I find personally that I am able to relate with young male students more easily than female. This woman I was speaking to about it, said that if a teenage boy is caught doing something, they will stop and say, "Oh well, I got caught." If a girl is caught, she will say, "Oh my gosh, it wasn't me," and then go and gossip about it for weeks without letting it go. This behavior is probably more typical of the school I'm in, which is 75% female, so the male students already have that to deal with. Then, African American females are the group of young people that have the highest self-confidence, so that probably makes it tougher to "back down" to a teacher. I'm definitely guilty of being a little stereotypical here, but, in general, in my personal experience (and Boston Betty's), boys are a little bit easier to teach than girls - certainly not in every case, but as a vague generality. Hope this helps (and hope this doesn't make you think I'm sexist or anything... I really do enjoy my female students just as much as the males, just whenever I have a "problem" in a class, it's generally with a female student).
from apexsensatin :
Thanks for taking my survey.
from toshchaya :
Your diary is lovely..I'll be frequenting it! :)
from exiles :
Food journals not a bad idea. I know what you mean by it being a hassle. My ex roomie Stacy did it and oddly enough it was the first sign of the end. But it was also in my eyes her key towards self empowerment when it came to her own weight loss. But as they say different strokes for different folks. So how is post AI Maile?
from yellowpetal :
thnx for taking my surveys. =) yp
from exiles :
Thanks for the advice, it's not easy being bi especially for a guy who likes girls. Well AI's countdown is nearing and I didn't get to watch last nights show. I taped it but was spending time with my beloved. Love has turned my life upside down. My schedule and routine is so out of whack.
from exiles :
Well if Jewel was lampooling, she did too good of a job. I thought the video was rather obviously bad if you take it literally
from exiles :
Hearing about you talk about your therapist almost makes me feel like wanting to go out there and get one myself.
from exiles :
Wow, this belated b-day party sounded like the party from hell or something. Do your close friends read your diary or something? I don't give anyone my diary address nor do I tell them about it. I like to post my pics but I have been thinking maybe thats not a hot idea.
from babyisblue :
I LOVE THE QUOTE IN YOUR PROFILE!
from sprhrgrl :
So this all makes you bi cubed then? (wanders off dancing to le tigre)
from froot-punch :
Hey. I really like your diary. You sound EXACTLY like me talking about those purses!!!! Oh...and love he weatherpixies. I had to get me one!!!!
from allilee :
hey. i joined ur ring sum time ago and put up the link for it on my diary. now due 2 my new layout the diaryring doesnt look as good. do u mind if the link is not up or wuld u like me 2 quit?
from sweetliz2000 :
Nope, no link to my notes page from my diary. I really should make one, I'm just so damn lazy. One of these days while I'm busy not doing my school work I'll get around to it. I've lived on the Big Island my entire life. Bleeeeeeech. :) I love a lot about this place, but my life would be nothing (not to mention SOOOOOo boring) if I stayed here. The stuff available here simply isn't for me. Thank you so very much for your note! It made me very happy (your email did too!)! I'm horrible at emailing people back or returning notes, so I better keep going now that I'm started. I love the arts.. I am involved with as much theater as I can be (mainly acting, although I have assistant directed, produced, and stage managed as well). I homeschool (well, correspondence courses), so I'm basically limited to community theater. I also worhip photography. I used to be much more into drawing/painting, but I've gotten too lazy for it (I'm starting to disgust myself!). I think that you should definitely check out photography. The things that you said about it in your latest entry.. they just sounded like something a great (or someone who at the very least ENJOYS it greatly) photographer would say. I checked out that mirror project page. It was REALLY interesting. I loved looking through it! I've taken so many pictures of myself in the mirror before... I found the page so fascinating! This really is getting too long now, I should stop. :) Thanks again for your note and email!
from sweetliz2000 :
I really enjoy reading your diary. So, are you in Hawaii right now? I live on the Big Island.. *sigh* I think that you've got great taste. I also agree with your political views.. Take Care, and good luck! -Elena
from aspencologne :
Hey! I appreciate you're unending zeal for life. Recently I bought another case of Aspen in your honor when I was at the Walgreens on Government. It smells soo good. Keep up the entertaining writing. At least now I know that I am not the only miserable bipolar virgin in BR!! hehe
from kyousha :
Heh, your cards are a hell of a lot better than mine-- wherever yours happen to be. ^___^
from kyousha :
It seems like you like tarot cards- I havn't had a lot of time to read a lot of your entries, but do you have them yourself?
from heavenlyging :
HI there. THanks for your note. Yes, I did like 'The Life of David Gale'. Very much in fact. It made me think and Kate Winslet was gorgeous and amazing in it. I keep meaning to write about it in my diary! Take care, Alison
from crazysoul :
I just read the latest entry of yours and I thought I would comment... in my opinion... everyone is creative... before you give me a shocked look here's my theory. You are creative in anything you do. The way you walk, the way you talk, everything. Nobody told you that you HAD to talk the way you do, you were creative, picked up words from other people, and put them together. You are creative in your voice infliction, what you say, how you say it, the way you dress, everything!! You may think you can't think of anything original, but just by being you, you ARE original!! You are your own creative human being!! You just gotta know where to look. Now that I have scared you enough, I will go. :0) I like your diary though...
from ravenly :
Wow..I'm speechless. Your writing is truly unbelievably reeking of talent and of a gift that needs to be spread around this world. You've opened my eyes ;)
from dasauce :
Keep Plugging. You are doing well. Four hours between meals is a normal (excuse me, did I say the N-word? Hate that word) thing. From now on, I refuse to treat'cha with lolita-kid gloves. Grin. Hey? I wonder if they purge in Ethiopia? Which reminds me of that Mariah Carey Quote (see if I can find it.) Ah, there: "Whenever I watch TV and see those poor starving kids all over the world, I can't help but cry. I mean I'd love to be skinny like that, but not with all those flies and death and stuff." --Mariah Carey
from dasauce :
Who am I? Frigging Dear Abby Sauce? But you are welcome. --DatSauceGuy
from dasauce :
Hang in there. It's worth it. Promise. --DatSauceBoy
from exiles :
You know me, I just love those gay coming of age stories. Actually I really loved Beautiful thing because it really got me turned on Mamas and the Papas music.
from raven72d :
Once upon a time, I did teach History both in BRLA and at Fort Polk...
from prostituee :
Thank god you signed my GB. Eating/purging is hard for people to understand. If you talk about it, their response is basically no response...ya know? I read your profile. My neighbor is bipolar and going through a especially high time right now....
from exiles :
Sorry to hear that Hawaii has been a harbour of such ill feelings for you, perhaps you should look into moving to a new place where you can also get good Therapy. It will cost more though and I understand that too. Well I hope things are going well with you. Take care ok!
from raven72d :
I had a friend from Leesville who ended up as an attorney in NYC... And I once taught classes at Fort Polk in a program LSU ran... I'm one of those adjunct/part-time people...
from raven72d :
When were you at LSU? I'm trapped in BRLA... However did you manage to escape?
from stealthkitty :
Yeah, I love Coach bags too! I already have a little one that I bought in an insane spending fit in the fall. I might get a bigger one I can use for work too. Either that or I'll go really bling-bling and get like Fendi or Louis Vuitton. Eee.. I love purses. Thanks for your note, I think things will work out okay on this end. XoX stealth
from seanandjacob :
There's so much to read, but I'll read it all because entertainment is what I live for. I live your life through your words and I am greatful for that. Please visit us at SeanandJacob.diaryland.com, because, It's lonely here, send a note my way.
from battlestaar :
fear is the mind killer. fear will follow you around if you let it. ask yourself - "what is the absolute worst thing that can happen to me". The answer is Death. Because it is the end. And one day we will all die because we are human. Thus the worst that can happen WILL happen - whether we sit and hide and cry or whether we get out and live every hour of our existence at full speed. It is only our death that gives our lives focus. So our choices become what WE will do. We can only control ourselves. we cannot control anything else on this planet. The goods, the bads, the uglys will come our way, and that is not in our power to control. It IS in our power to decide how to respond. And I choose to laugh cause it feels better. And it pisses off the bads and uglys cause they wanted me to cry instead. Love..............
from crashintome :
Your doctor and mine should be friends! When I read the thing about the caves, that's the first thing I thought.. sigh. I hope therapy goes okay. Maile I just know things are going to get better for you, I just know it.
from aglaia :
Hey, life may look down at times, but please never say "I want to destroy myself" again! There is too much good in every life, no matter what you're going through, because it's there, you just can't see it.
from bodymindsoul :
remember "nakedthought"? ;)
from stealthkitty :
oh, and good luck on the GRE. I took the last paper-and-pencil one back in the day. It made my brain hurt, but it turned out okay. You'll be fine, I'm certain.
from stealthkitty :
Hey you:)
from jraynmaker :
Hi... I'm a newcomer here, but was intrigued by your bipolar survey and that led me to your page. Which I really enjoyed, by the way. It's good to find other bipolars around ... and other artists. See you around, I hope. J
from soopafreek :
I'm a bi-polar 2 (rapid-cycle) and while I loved that I lost weight and smoked less on Wellbutrin, it seemed to increase my anxiety level. Now I take Paxil and gained weight back and smoke too much again. However, I can get past the crushing anxiety and actually leave my house every day, which is a really good thing. BTW, a good psychologist/counselor is worth his/her weight in gold. Keep on looking. I've added you to my buddies list. :)
from blugurl :
your writing style is fabulous, I enjoy your diary--will read more when i can devote time.
from sharontate :
Hey there! I was just browsing around diaryland and found your diary...really funny and a little heartbreaking. We share a common love of Stephen King and Ayn Rand...and I HATE Julia Roberts too! Anyway, I just wanted to say hi and tell you that if you want to stop by and read my diary, feel free! (sharontate)...p.s. I joined the "I Hate Julia Roberts" ring...good stuff!
from dysenchanted :
Hi maile! wanted to let you know that I found a healthy diet plan online yesterday. I just started it. It's free, and you can track your progression, and it's based on the food pyramid. You print out daily food logs, and at the end of the week you imput them into a chart online. I am also doing the 1600 calorie one. That means you need at least 5 servings of fruit, 5 of veggies, no more than 5 servings of protein/dairy, and 6 of carbs. Also "fats" are limited to 3 servings a day, and sweets/extras should be no more than 75 calories per day. There's also a chart that tells you serving sizes of all of these above things. Try it. It's my second day, and I already am feeling healthier. Here is the linky.... http://www.mayoclinic.com/goto?topic=HWP -dysenchanted let me know what you think, and if you want to try it, we can encourage each other. Motivation is important. :)
from phatgrrl :
its weird how that people can have similar problems/influences (all the bi's) but be so different. its also funny that some people think that they are weird, but really they're normal to others. I wonder who thinks *I'm* normal....
from serenmilani :
you really bring pride to us bi's, girl. thanks
from neurotic-one :
I'm searching for Jadedsoul49 and you have her on your favorite list and was wondering if you knew why her diary isn't listed any longer?
from adaveen :
Just wanted to say hi, because I've never met another half and half who is bipolar. I totally understand how you feel. You know misery enjoys company, so it's nice not to feel so alone.
from castigada :
Gracias for answering my survey so imaginatively! I hope you enjoyed your chicken parmigiana.
from dannyp :
Ugh about your eyes... try getting something from the doctor, also try getting more sleep and dont get water in them!
from dysenchanted :
maile- please email me your address... I wanna get you something from your wish list. :)
from swimmmer72 :
good point about getting to know people from their diaries on a different level than person to person. some feel the freedom to express themselves, and as a reader, get some great insight that their friends probably don't.
from swimmmer72 :
i admire your expectations and desire to keep your standards high and avoid mediocrity. keep the faith, AND your standards high. it will pay off. by the way, after 4 colleges, 6 majors, 170 credit hours and 20 years, i finally graduated from college with a teaching degree. i'm not using it anymore, but although the path has not always been straight or even forward for that matter, it has been worth every pain in the ass curve life threw me. i didn't always realize it at the time. don't give in.
from bleachboi :
You sound hella interesting!,just stopped by to say I luv your style your diary rox.
from swimmmer72 :
hi, i just started a diary of my own and was checking out others for ideas when i stumbled onto yours. well...it sounds like you have alot going on and i only read a little bit. you are a very interesting person and i hope that you have better luck with all the shit that seems to be going on. you go girl
from sood :
That message on your profile for OZ is amazing... It's painful to think of all those that have hurt us, but how quickly we forget the pain and long to have them back! ~sood
from nakedthought :
i hv a new dland project, maile. it's called saturday-8. pse join when you have time. thanks. love you :)
from nakedthought :
from praiseandrew :
raise the praise for andrew!
from gaytales :
Wow, those were some pretty heart wrenching words you wrote today. I started to cry...hey listen...everyone on DiaryLand thinks that I am this big huges "FAG" which of course I am but I mean they think I am evil...they think I go around causing havock in people diaries...when in reality it's Wingd-Pony going around mocking to be me and I am about to have a nervous breakdown and just give up on DiaryLand ...do you have any advice? I mean how can I expose the truth? Or should I continue to be all depressed about the whole situation and sit back and watch?
from susanna24 :
just wanted to say hi...i'll continue reading your diary now...
from nakedthought :
keep in touch, maile. and thanks for signing my "lovebook" :)

from donkeylady :
I'm sorry you're sick. Sick and tired. Or as Marc Almond would say, sick and tired of being used and abused! Echinecea tea. It works. Opal
from mionnay :
I really appreciate your signing my notes, so I am returning the favor. Your diary is simply lovely, and I always enjoy reading your entries, especially your rants. Keep up the good work!
from grlhollywood :
This is my first note to someone, but I felt the need just to drop you a little word or two... this is mainly because I happened on your page and wanted to let you know that I kinda felt like I was reading my own thoughts. So either we're both insane or we're both the norm. Anyways, hey hey, and I gathered from your mention of packing your going on a trip, so travel safely.
from nakedthought :
i hope you don't mind as i put yr pic in my cast page :)
from nakedthought :
maile, i've received yr xmas card & postcard today. thanks! :))
from nakedthought :
i got yr xmas card and i've put it in my diary a week ago. i too major in "children's psychology" have a happy new year! got my card?
from nakedthought :
thanks, maile. i got ba degree in uni. btw, i just made another new ring. pse join :P it's "birthday" ring. happy new year!
from nakedthought :
thank for leaving me msg in my guestbook. i took yr quiz and i just know that your name is pronounced "my-lee" :o) i just changed my layout again today ;o)
from marzipan1026 :
Merry Christmas, dammit!
from marzipan1026 :
Sad and funny stories to be sure, but when all was said and done...it was us screw ups from the apartment building who cared for that man in his last days...not his family. I guess it was just one of those places where you are all so dysfunctional that you form a new family to cope. He was one of our own, weird or not...(although the tampon incident will haunt me for all of my days--priceless!)
from nakedthought :
maile, i just made a ring. it's QUEEN!!! join my ring, pse? thanks ... :))
from iamsearching :
You are correct, I did jump the gun, and for that, I have apologized to Sadie. As far at 'chewing at it's corners in a seemingly polite, yet rabid manner', you will not be able to understand my reasoning until a complete stranger has taken your layout, or your words (that you have put your heart, soul & hard work into), copied them, and presented them as their own (and for clarification, I'm not reffering to anything having to do with this matter). You are a loyal to your friend, which I admire and respect, but maybe you should have gotten her response to the situation before attacking me. She, at least, had the good grace to include maturity in her response.
from angstrom :
hey there! welcome & thanks for joining my SHAKIRA ring. rock on!
from hevbell :
Thanks for signing my guestbook and the nice comments about my pictures :) I don't know about me being a good photographer, the scenery up north (of Scotland..) is so lovely, its hard to take a bad picture!
from hunterrick :
hey there- I take it you watch Oz too, huh? Oz Rules!
from amalthea23 :
hi, and i added my entry twice accidentally on the closet, it's the cherry, but for some reason, one of the two has stuff cut out...please, stop my pain and delete the shorter one...!!
from stellamaris :
hello dahling :) 'tis i, the great ninjabitch, but under a new alias. just thought i'd let you know i'm back. *hugs* p.s. your journal still r0cks.
from jennsnovel :
I think that we have done some reading of one another! JJ---well I don't know him and don't want to. He is harassing us, but once he was ignored, he stopped. But thanks for the concern. And coming out is very empowering...no matter what we are coming out about!
from smilingme :
I was looking throught all the recently updated diaries. I found your's and then I remembered, when I was a Diary Reviewer..I was the person who reviewed you. :) Great diary.
from girle :
Do they have netzero in Puerto Rico? I'd hate to have you gone! Perhaps you can get one of those "700 Hours Free" aol thingies if they have a dialup for Puerto Rico...
from rockaction :
whoa!!!!! you have alot of notes gal.. Rockaction
from cerebrate :
I just found your diary and I want to hug you. ((((you)))))
from sheherazade :
thanks for letting me use your button!... and i'm glad you made the multiracial ring. i was just waiting for someone to make one when i found it. :-)
from sheherazade :
hey, i was browsing through rings when i got to your diary, and noticed you have that cute diarytag button. could i maybe borrow it to put on my site to link diarytag too? you should tell jenn, if she hasn't seen it already. it's a lot nicer than a plain old text link! ;-)
from bratz :
hey thanx for the guestbook entry & advice. I basically know how to change the colors n stuff on my layout, but I'm diggin it the way it is right now so I'ma just leave it. (plus i'm lazy like that:)~ but I appreciate your help & encouragement! ^_^
from nakedthought :
i miss you ... where hv you been? did you get my yahoo ims? hugs, c.
from girle :
Tell it like it is, Maile! (I think I just needed an excuse to "say" your name) ~Girle
from jadedsoul49 :
damn girl...you struck such a nerve with today's entry that i must address it in mine, as soon as i gather my thoughts. that was just powerful stuff. you rawk, girlfriend!
from jadedsoul49 :
hrm...i quit the 'im not a haole' diaryring today...is it me, or does that title sound a bit racist? oh i don't know...i think too much...i mean, i would be a tad offended if someone started a 'im not a samoan!' or an 'im not black!' diaryring. i'd be thinking, "so what's your fuckin point?" heh. told you i think too much...
from jadedsoul49 :
whoa...that was a long entry...are ya feeling manicky or what? :o)~ are you still in hawaii? hrm...
from irishcrm21 :
i couldn't sleep and i saw your diary in the insomniacs webring. i thought i'd check you out and i liked what i saw. keep writing! oh and your google searches were crazy!
from girle :
I live in Illinois and go to Bradley U. Oh, your entry from today 9/15 I think today is...how heartbreaking..I know that 16 year old all too well. But you know what? After a while, I just said fuck it. If I feel like I have to change myself for someone, then they aren't the one for me anyway. Eventually, I found that person and it's nice...but it's hard up until then. Quite hard.
from nakedthought :
thanks for the first entry at love-mail :o)
from boyrepellant :
excellent taste in authors--if you are ever on AIM it would be interesting to talk to you. please read my diary and give me your feedback.
from nakedthought :
how are you, maile? :o) btw, just read your last entry and yes, i envy you! mine are only 34B! :o)
from unt0uchabl3 :
Nice diary, really liked it, pretty awesome, i give you props.
from daemoncess :
Hi, I just read your entry about coming out of the mental illness closet. I'm a young schizophrenic and I write little bits in my diary about how my illness affects my everyday life. Here's one about the psychosis. http://daemoncess.diaryland.com/Diarypg02.html My diary is a weblog though so it will be moved down the page if I update again before you get to it. *DaemonCess*
from nakedthought :
thanks. you're just one of very few people who really can respect honesty. thanks for always being my friend.
from connie-w :
get well soon, maile!
from naiveheart :
Hey, nope I don't take any pills. I have too many for my diet thingy that I couldn't care less. Although, I do get pissy sometimes without my chocolate. LOL! Well, have a nice day. *hugs*
from naiveheart :
Hey, I don't know what you mean by mentally ill. I think I'm alright. I just get depressed and Brant claims I'm bipolar. I just think I have mood swings, but if you still want I could join, and tell me what you would like to have as an entry. Thanks. Looks like we have the same deck! And I'll link you. *hugs*
from naiveheart :
Hey there, I came across your site from the dland Divas. Anyways, I noticed the tarrot cards on your page. The star, High Priestess, Temperance... LOL! I have that exact deck at home. I just looked and was amazed. I was wondering if you scanned them yourself or if you got someone else to, or just found them. I'd like to show those pictures on my diary if you don't mind. As an entry, not as a link. Well, any help would be useful.
from leopardray :
Hi there... didn't want to clutter the g*book with another entry from me... besides, I don't really know the difference between what the g*book is for and notes are for... I'm a dork. ANYWAY, the point is, I loved your last entry about nostalgia and what you miss. I can totally understand, as I miss a lot of those same things, down to venturing to Wal*Mart at all hours of the night! Haha... and the college stuff, and the high school stuff... I read that, thinking of how often I had said many of the same things to myself. And it is just this year that it finally set into my brain that you can't go back. But you know, you've got those memories forever. And what's the present for? Making new ones. :) Keep on keeping on. ~Sadie
from broken-glass :
you rock, that's all i really have to say. very brave, very powerful diary.
from leilei49 :
yeah girl, just come hang wit da locals for a little while and you'll feel much better :P
from leilei49 :
just wanted to congratulate you on your graduation! :o) ::turning green with envy:: sending some aloha your way, lei
from ginni :
Hey, I changed my html for my closet entry... now it's http://ginni.diaryland.com/closet.html. Love, Love, Love, Gin
from dyinginside :
Hi. I'm the new girl :) Nice to meet u all.
from theheroine :
I have an entry that could possibly be used in your project: http://theheroine.diaryland.com/2.html :)
from ninjabitch :
relax, dahling. relax. breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out...and so on. or maybe you should masturbate.
from haley :
Hey. I've been reading your diary for a while now and I think that you have done an awesome job with it. Keep it up!
from iamopposite :
tahts totally cool. I like ur diary its neat. I found it through random. http://iamopposite.diaryland.com is mine check it if u want!
from ninjabitch :
hehe. thanks for the welcome back. you rawk, womyn :D
from haloofcurls :
a couple of days ago, one of my friends sent me a message over AIM telling me she had a big problem. she said that she thought a friend of hers was seriously contemplating suicide, and dropping hints about it. i did the first thing that i thought of to do, after she told me that he refused to get counciling... i sent her a link to the entry in your diary that made me start reading it in the first place. and she passed it on to him. and i think it helped a lot. just wanted to let you know that.
from chasha :
Hang in there. The fact that you are aware of it will make it a whole lot easier to get under control again. -C
from chasha :
Sorry for the extended absence. I never quite understood 'star power' either. Although I can see where modeling would suck big time. -CRbE
from stealthkitty :
Woo-hoo! You were the first to sign my guestbook...thnx! Hang in there with school...I know it can be horrid and anxiety-provoking, but you have a hell of a brain. Be kind to yourself!
from saudades :
Hi Maile. I just wanted to remind you you are great, and I love your diary for its thoughtful opinions and stories, your open-mindedness and insight. And I also am not keeping up with work until graduation. Just one more month, ay, you can do it! Go Maile!
from stealthkitty :
Just wanted to say how much I enjoy your diary. You are an amazing writer with interesting perspectives on life.
from sterling4 :
I'm very fond of you already...I've read a few entries and am going to respond to "coming out of the mental illness closet" in my next entry. Ciao!
from skittlzchik :
WOW! I can never write as good of an entry as you can...I don't put much thought into mine, I just write whatever I feel like saying. Oh well, no one reads mine anyways...
from ciaobella :
Now I'm stalking your analyzer too.... I am jealous of how many people signed yours!
from hardrain :
Thank you so much for your kind words on my analyzer. Us crazy bi people need to stick together ;). The support really means a lot to me. ::hugs::
from dramabear :
Hi I'm a fellow diarylander. You don't know me, but I wanted you to know that you are an extremly intellegent person. I've copied numorus paragraphs from your diary. and this is the first time I've read it. Your definetly a fav. of mine now. Thank you for the pleasure of reading such true writing. ~*sarah*~
from ninjabitch :
Lolita, dahling, math teachers are like, the flying monkey creatures on Wizard of Oz. Bleh. I was totally surprised about how my dad reacted, he usually doesn't let anyone step on me like that, you know? Ah well. I think he was just so taken aback by how the teacher acted, he didn't know what to do. Ah well. Anyway, thanks for the comments :D You rawk, womyn. Keep up with the diary, I love it.
from hardrain :
I remember feeling some of the same emotions you are feeling when I was missing a week of school at a time. I kept telling myself that I could have done it, that I could have gone to school, but I didn't. Then came the hours of sitting in my room, beating myself up for something that I couldn't control. Just be honest with yourself and the people around you, and ask them for help.
from hardrain :
Thank you for all your sweet comments. :) You are not pathetic either! Anyway, love ya lots.
from erin :
k well i don't even know where to start. i have been reading yer diary for a few days now, and its almost scary the same situations you are dealing with. i too am bipolar, and i haven't had my period in about a year and a half..same fear that perhaps it is cancer or i can't have kids, so i never went to go get it checked on. your diary is really interesting, so many emotions and fears that i too have experienced, its comforting to know i am not alone. but then again, i'm bitter and mostly hate filled when it comes to others.
from jaywhy :
YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK.......NOt really, I love you dollface. Anyhow Just a quick snaky hello and how are you....la la la, I love the black line idea, thats pretty neat.
from xeyli :
That doesn't make you a shitty friend. You just weren't feeling good. Besides, I just was messing with you about walking me to my room. I know you don't like stairs. That doesn't mean you can't come over when I cook stirfry though.
from jeni54 :
lolita is one of my favorite movies as well!!
from faery :
your diary is so incredibly amazing. wow. keep up the good work.
from virgincherry :
I love your diary. The layout is beautiful.
from jaywhy :
Look what i did!!!!!!!!!!!
from halo16 :
I read you off and on, and i always mean to sign this to say i love the way you write, but unfortunately i have a bit more to say. Moving entry on the 18 year old boy. My heart goes out to you becase one month ago today (jan 27) my friend and teammate from the high school soccer team shot himself. It will get better soon, but there will always be a twinge of saddness there. It serves as a way to not forget somebody that makes an impact, even a very small one, even if that impact was made from his death itself. I'm rambling now so I'll leave you now. *hugs*
from plume :
That was a very moving entry.
from haloofcurls :
tarot cards are beautiful. you are beautiful. and i love the way you write...
from hardrain :
I could live off of Waffle House hashbrowns and chocolate pie...think I would gain any wait. Naaaah :) Yeah, Chocolate isn't good for dogs, but my dogs didn't eat enough to affect them..bad dogs. Oh, and I like the new color scheme on your layout, very nice
from xeyli :
If you don't wanna go to N'awlins, we don't have to.
from jaywhy :
I LOVE YOU FOREVER
from chasha :
Don't change it (unless it's for different cards or something). Your Fem. Theories thing sounds interesting. Keep us posted about what you learn.
from jaywhy :
LO LEE TAH......
from hardrain :
Me..a mother.::shivers:: not if my kids turn out to be anything like the hellions I babysit :) Thanks for your comments though, it was very sweet of you. After reading your comment I pulled up some vet sites and started studying muscles and stuff, which I haven't done in a while, so thanks for giving me that little boost :)
from elagabalus :
Talking to Mika on the phone and she told me to tell you that "Meca Leka Hi, Meca Hiney Ho" and such is from Pee Wee's Playhouse. Genie said that and Pee Wee repeated...enjoy.
from jaywhy :
Hey, I wanted to call you at home.....I have your presents i'm sending em tuesday...i finally finished those purses! Whew. ANyhow hope you're alright love ya!
from hardrain :
::runs and hugs maile:: your back!! It's amazing how long a week seems in diaryland time..I swear it seems like you've been gone a month. heh, don't worry, I'm not a stalker, just someone who has no life and looks to wonderful diaries instead :) When you think about how horrible it is to be around your parents, just remeber you made it through the first part of your life..so at least you know it won't kill you...well..nevermind :)
from xeyli :
Mele Kalikimaka!
from reality :
loved your christmas party story.... stop by sometime :)
from chasha :
Lane Bryant Rocks!!! Ever notice they always have those deals running, requiring you to go there every few weeks?
from chasha :
The credentials needed depend on the state you live in. In CA you need a masters in a counseling related field, but in other places you need a bachelor's and some sort of certification. It never hurts to have the masters, though.
from xeyli :
We gotta deal with what life dishes out to us. If it's haupia, you either swallow it holding your nose or you toss it aside and go get something else, eh? You'll find what you're looking for, just like one day I'll find what I'm looking for, too.
from eveninghaze :
Thanks!!!! For the comment. Love ya! Jenn
from eveninghaze :
Good Luck on the finals... Although I might be a little behind on that. I'm to slow. :)
from amberle :
You should never be lacking love, you are to beautiful of a person for that. ~amberle
from anea :
You write so beautiful. I totally understood what you were feeling like by reading your diary. Keep on going girl :)
from hardrain :
good luck on finals!!! I have my fingers crossed for ya, although it's making it rather difficult to type :) I know you'll do great!
from Jennx :
I understand everything you ment in today's entry... I agree with you there is nothing wrong with it.
from lolita880 :
I notice so many similarities... they go beyond our names. You're quite the writer. Peace. ~Lo
from mireillie :
Just noticed you were a Dreamer, at least so sayeth the Spark, and um, well, um, I guess...I just had to say, "Hi from the Artist." There I go again, giving myself a scorching case of analyzer embarrassment. Heh. Bye.
from Jennx :
Life is just a bitch! Isn't it?
from xeyli :
Fixed your image for you. Hope you don't mind.
from yosei :
I love Maya Angelou!
from amberle :
Doesn't all the random stuff that happens in dreams blow your mind? well, I'm off to read the entrys I missed in the last week, just had to share my slightly simple dream thought. ~amberle
from merilily :
Oh, hun, you're such a sweetie! I'm typing entirely with my right hand, so if there are any typos in this, please forgive me! I really appreciate you caring about my hand, you and hardrain (plus pischina) seem to be my primary support group, it's awesome! Well, I'm going to go now, and i'll talk to you later!
from allygattor :
Ooolala... Je'Tamie!!!
from jaywhy :
PS....I love you Dahlin!
from pischina :
Oh PLEASE don't pressure yourself to graduate in May!! You know you're STILL in the race, even if it takes longer. But no matter what, I'm still at the sidelines, rooting and cheering for you. Just make it to the finish, it doesn't matter how fast. Yay MAILE!!
from zerom3ph :
ever watch that show about the pickle enshrined, what-everyone-thought-was-a-methodone-clinic, art gallery while wondering about the true meaning of the word, _____ ? nope, i didn't either... i was eatin puddin.
from waterlily :
You referred my page at the very top of yours! How very cool is that? I'm all honored and stuff. :) Thank you, Maile, you made my day!
from kittay :
hi hi hi! I just came to thank you for signing mine...yeah so I'm a little slow, but still. Hehe...I'm just shy. So I finally get to tell you that I've always loved your tarot theme here...it's so neat. And you seem to have good tastes, musically etc, too...now I'll just smile and shutup before I start sounding all stupid ;}
from waterlily :
I'm so glad to hear that stuff's working out for you! That's a great philosophy... slow down if you have to, but always stay in the race. I need to remember that myself sometimes. All the best!
from chasha :
First of all, I love the cards you scanned. What deck is that? It is amazing. Do you read Tarot? Drop me a line at [email protected]
from allygattor :
Thanks for the support Maile...
from waterlily :
For the record, it's very hard to kill bettas. :) I enjoy your diary -- keep up with it most days. Take care.
from pischina :
Yes! Yes! Bring on the Pretty Colors!!! hee hee heee
from jaywhy :
Girl you are a ROCKSTAR! I LOVE YOU!
from hardrain :
Wow, I got linked twice in one entry..I feel special :) Thank you so much for the comments on my analyzer page, they gave me that warm fuzzy feeling..not -that- one you perverts. So basically, you rock!! ::hugs::
from sporkboy :
Heyhey...Leesville huh? Lake Chuck myself...though I live in San An, texas now...anyway, always meant to read up on you seein' as your name is in a few of my frequented diaries...I think I'll stop by again...:-) Keep yer chin up, the world spins differently for all of us y'know..--Skitch
from elagabalus :
Ever tried philosophy? Seriously. I have found the intense scrutiny of humankind by prominent thinkers to be nearly theraputic in its own sense. When you read about the possibilities of existence, non-existence, loss of identity, decreation of the ego, and whatever else...you get to allow a sense of how your own epistemological process works. Its a centering feeling. Grounding. I'm not making miracle promises, but philosophy therapy is a new branch of science opening up. Quite interesting. Kirk Out.
from mireillie :
Analyze, analyze, analyze! Feel better soon, hun.
from Allygattor :
I can also sign twice in a row!!!!!!! Thanks for the comment!!
from Allygattor :
Hey Sweet Child! Yeah I'm talking to you. I think your sweet.
from merilily :
Hey everyone! I know who the 'I am slowly going crazy person...1,2,3....' person is--but I don't know if he wants to be known. I'll ask him and get back to you! :-) Lolita, I hope you're feeling better! I'd e-mail you but neither my hotmail account nor my outlook express is working correctly. Grrr. Well, hopefully, I'll be able to e-mail you soon! :-) love you sooooo much!
from xeyli :
Now that I think about it, that whole "I am slowly going crazy 1, 2, 3..." thing... might've been our Air Force friend Chawan-cut boy. I don't know exactly what made me think it's him.. but it's possible.
from amberle :
Oh man, I have been meaning to do this for a while. I have been reading your journal (linked through hard rain?) for a while, and I must admit that I feel myself getting hooked. As soon as I mess around with my html again, I'll link you. Oh, and thank you for reanalyzing me, it means a lot. ~amberle
from jaywhy :
I feel like we haven't talked in ages, dont you? HOpe you're doing alright lady!
from zarajade :
COOOOOOOL Diary. I am returning the favour and analyzing you }:> melikes diary...me be back...
from Jennx :
Keep it all up and you'll do fine. :) I enjoy reading your diary every day. Keep up the writing and I shall continue the reading.
from hardrain :
That guy below is becoming really annoying, he's done that on a lot of analyzer pages. Anyway, I wanted to thank you agian for putting the banner on your page. Also, hang in there, I'm sure you'll graduate in May!
from oval-opal :
Hey, I like the pics on the top of your page very much. Fairy tale style is cool :)
from alwayslolita :
Okay who the hell wrote that and why?!
from jenifer012 :
I got SO excited, I thought that Jen link at the bottom of your page was for me...lol. No seriously. I had to click it 3 times. But it wasnt. Well duh, you know that, it is YOUR diary, right? LOL. Well thank you bunches and bunches for signing and reading me....AGAIN...You made me smile! =0)
from fattitude :
I'm here loving you again.
from abbywilliams :
What to write... what to write... Ah... yes thanks for the compliments and I look forward to reading your diary all the time. Love, Abby.
from xeyli :
Hi. I'm here. Leaving you a message. Keep hangin' in there, 'cuz you're gonna graduate soon!!
from frozensoul :
Holy cow I didn't realize until now that my entries were gone! Oh well. I still love your diary. :o)
from youlearn :
And I though I was the only one who could totally mess up something computer related. Well, I love your diary, as I'm sure everyone else has already said, but it never hurts to repeat it. Just hand in there and things will work out.
from jaywhy :
Great talking yesterday woman....sorry it took me so long to leave a comment....i will fill you in later....Love ya!
from pischina :
All our Lovin's GONE! *SOB* (((LOVELOVELOVE))) Now you are Re-Loved! And thanks for being such a wonderful person!
from abbywilliams :
Bob... bob... what on earth are we going to do with him? Deleting everyone's comments... Well LOVE YA!! :) Thanks for signing my Analyzer... Doesn't look lonely now...
from hardrain :
We'll all have to get Bob for this :) well, I'm the third to write on here, three's the charm right!! Okay, love your diary, as well as you yourself. Keep writing!
from merilily :
yay! you were the first to sully my *new* analyzer page...so now I'm being the second to add some comments to yours--at least bob apologized on yours---he forgot me...*sob* I love you even though you don't have any gloves/mittens/etc...but my hands are beginning to cramp with cold so I have to end this now! :-) I love your diary, and I love you (yes, I really do---it's a tad quicker than I usually take, but...) Keep being your wonderful self--and now I'm off to finish our conversation on AIM...

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