messages to catz-eyes:
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from mostlydead :
A decade is a measure of time. As is a lifetime. As is a moment. May this moment measure up to your expectations. Hopes. Dreams, even. Or at least be more pleasant than cat guts.
from ehays :
Knock knock. How do I get back? xoxo
from requiel :
Where are you???? I miss you!
from bamstroker :
i miss your words and hope very much that you're doing well. *hugs*
from wildrose1 :
oh gentle reader, I had thought about you the other day and said a special prayer for you. I stopped by and was heartbroken to see you hadn't written in so long. I was also excited and proud to see that you had faced some of your demons of old. My prayer for you is that you let go of all those ghost one day and walk completely free. You are loved beyond your own ability to understan. I pray that you one day know that. I want that more for you than anyone else I know. Love Telisa
from wildrose1 :
oh gentle reader, I had thought about you the other day and said a special prayer for you. I stopped by and was heartbroken to see you hadn't written in so long. I was also excited and proud to see that you had faced some of your demons of old. My prayer for you is that you let go of all those ghost one day and walk completely free. You are loved beyond your own ability to understan. I pray that you one day know that. I want that more for you than anyone else I know. Love Telisa
from wildrose1 :
oh gentle reader, I had thought about you the other day and said a special prayer for you. I stopped by and was heartbroken to see you hadn't written in so long. I was also excited and proud to see that you had faced some of your demons of old. My prayer for you is that you let go of all those ghost one day and walk completely free. You are loved beyond your own ability to understan. I pray that you one day know that. I want that more for you than anyone else I know. Love Telisa
from angel-prince :
A secret so rich with intricate flowers, gems and scripture Its colours declare the glory of the divine Its Symbols contain the wisdom of the ages For those who read the secrets of the grand design. Here I lay on a bed of earthly gemstones, Filled, blinded, fear, tangled, lust and love Consumed by this new world filled with vision I cannot define In my arms, I hold to me tightly my Angel Boy Lover With Blood Tears in our eyes Above us our scripture and our story Imprinted in the stars Footprints in clusters of Diamonds across the Sky A pathway lit eternal Beneath us we sense the mystery of the grand design Immortalised by the crying voices of an army of angels Singing our Song Bidding farewell from behind Emerald gates and crystal archways Farewell for all time to their Angel Boy Princes, With the blessing and the glory of the divine And their promise to us in Golden tears staining Marble faces To discover in Mortal time Their gifts to us The secrets of the Grand Design….
from hissandtell :
Just wanted to tell you I miss you, darling Jay - you were one of the few consistent, sane and optimistic highlights of my buddies' list. Good luck, and please let me know if or when you decide to come back. Love, R xxx
from ihateshoes :
I met a man the other day that looked JUST like you, had an accent I would imagine much like yours and it made me miss ya. I hope to here from you sometime. I tried catching up on your life, but in true from, my lil "pen pal" of sorts rights a LOT in each entry. From what I gathered though, you have a prince of sorts that I always promised would come along. Granted he's flawed, but I forgot to tell you princes are still human:-\ my bad! Well darling, I truly miss you and love you with all my heart. drop me a word or two at my hotmail (lovethypenguin@hotmail.com) or AIM me. Okay... that's all I have, behave, be good and just be. I miss ya. ~Kyle~
from the-cad :
Hey Catz-eyes, me and a friend a sarting site and we want to raise the cash for hosting, etc, and I was wondering if you get money for the ads on your diary? If so how can I get ads as well? Glad to see you back on diaryland, The Cad
from the-cad :
I miss your diary entries... Will you come back to D-Land..?
from emeraldblaze :
still love you. Thought you might want to know.
from wistful-blue :
I look forward to whatever you have up your sleeve. :-D Love, cat
from wistful-blue :
I'm so sorry lovey! The Biggest Blogwhore nomination was supposed to be a bit of a joke! My REAL nomination was Most Inspirational Blog...but I guess that didn't pan out? Damn! :-( Well...you *do* have my vote you knoa, no matter what category you're in. :-* Love, cat
from kenzie12 :
Hey Jay! Thanks ... I disabled that and now I can see your entries ... :P xoxo!
from wistful-blue :
LOL Of course I "forgive" you! You know I was just messin wit' ya. :-) I really think they should retitle that Blog Whore award, 'cause when I read it I thought, "Jay does a lot to promote his diary...I just wish the title was a little more flattering." Oh well. *Hugs, kisses & love* -cat
from bamstroker :
merry christmas to you, sweetheart. *hugs*
from kenzie12 :
Thanks for the note Jay! :) At your diary, I can't get to the entries, but I can see the picture. (Maybe I'm crazy ... but can you tell me how to read the entries?? :P) And Merry Christmas!! I can't beleive it's tomorrow!!! :D xx-Kenziee
from wildrose1 :
Merry Christmas Jay!!!!!! ((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))
from kenzie12 :
Jay!! I'm back!! I was going to check your diary to see what's up, but I can't get to it because my computer is so insane that it won't load. But I can see the picture. So what's going on?? Basically, I got a Xanga, because then all my friends could read it cuz they had one too, but who wants their friends reading things that sometimes will be about them ... needless to say, I have three people burning mad at me. So, I've decided to come back! :) I missed it here, although I basically don't talk to anyone but you ... ahah. :P xx-Kenzie.
from the-cad :
I like that vegetarianism quote very much. I also took the science test a while ago and I got 8/8, but it's not fair on you because i am in eighth grade and guessed a few of the questions. I found a quote recently which I like a lot. It's "When I give food to the poor, they call me a saint. When I ask why the poor have no food, they call me a Communist"-Dom Helda Camarra. Feel free to use it if you desire. Hope your neck gets better soon. The Cad
from the-cad :
Thanks, man, Zelda made a new account, so we don't need to worry anymore, but thank you anyway. The Cad
from the-cad :
I'm glad to hear you got back together with Jasper, it' sounds like you really like him. Cheers, The Cad
from the-cad :
I'm really sorry that you broke up with Jasper, Catz-eyes, it's horrible when stuff like that happens. I'd leave some advice but I'd feel like a complete wanker, you know, 14yr old trying to tell somebody twice his age what to do when a relationship breaks down. I hope you sort things out for your self, man, you're a really great guy. The Cad
from ehays :
OMG! Glad to hear you're okay. xoxoxoxo.
from cdghost :
lemme see you 1,2 step
from the-cad :
Cats-eyez, Zelda can't log in to her account. apparently emails sent from her computer get forwarded to ' cool_chick19782@hotmail.com. '. Do you know how to fix this or even what's going on? Thanks, Chester
from ehays :
Congrats!!! Wonderful news. I would have left this in your comment section, but my puter's having issues .... ahhh well. Best wishes, and give my luv to Jasper.
from kenzie12 :
Hey Jay. I got the link wrong. It's www.xanga.com/kenziexxkiwi I think. Well, that's all. I'm actually really happy with it, they're giving a free premium trial for 21 days over here ... but I'm new and dont really understand what that means anyway. :P
from quick-view :
Hi, I saw that you were on a waiting list at one of the review sites for diaryland, and I thought I'd tell you about my review site, Quick-view! It's a little different than most review sites, but you will definitely get a review within a couple of days. Hope to see you soon!
from the-cad :
thanks for the offer of fixing my picture, do you want me to e-mail it too you? Also, you're new diary picture is cool.
from kenzie12 :
I am keeping a journal elsewhere ... www.kenziexxkiwi.xanga.com :) My friend Pina wanted me to switch because apparently Xanga is awesome. :P I like it alright. xoxo, Kenziee
from kenzie12 :
Hey Jay! Just wrote to say I'm leaving diaryland ... thanks for being so nice to me ... :)
from the-cad :
If you have time please read my current entry (or Ghost's Of The Civil Dead) it's pretty funny, I think anyway. Hope things are OK with you, The Cad
from the-cad :
Do you know who qwlghl is? They put me on their favourites list but they're really creepy. They left no info about themselves, do you know how to find out about them? cheers The Cad
from wistful-blue :
As you may (or may not) know, you and Cat (killsbury) are the apples of my eye, the crown jewels of my empire, my bestest of the best friends here at D-land...which is why I've listed you as a "Guest Poster" for my diary. I would be beyond CHIFFED if you would do me the honor of composing an entry for my humble little page, but please know the task is not obligatory. Just an open invitation to grace my diary with your dazzling starletness anytime the mood strikes you. Love, the-cat-in-the-hat
from the-cad :
Did Aardman studios really burn down? That's awful. Hope things get better for you cashwise (at school today someone stole all my CD's, worth about $500) Cheers The Cad
from kenzie12 :
Hey Jay! I was going to write you a looong time ago, but my computer's busted, and I'm checking on my email when my parents are out on theirs. I confess. Lol. 30 emails in two weeks. It makes you feel loved. lol. I almost like not having email, because then when you do have the chance to check it, everyone misses you SO MUCH! (Even though they see you at school a lot!) I miss reading your awesome entries, Jay, so I hope I can get my internet back up! See you! xoxo, Kenzie!
from wistful-blue :
B-but...even SKINNY girls look bad in suspenders! I don't even want to IMAGINE what I might resemble! *Shivers* :-D *Hugs, kisses & love* the cat-a-log
from wistful-blue :
"Big, mush-hearted-type-person"?! LMAO You must have missed my "f(uck) t(he) w(orld)" entry just preceding the latest. :-) -cat
from the-cad :
Thanks Catz-eyes, you were exactly right, Zelda called last night and explained that she was feeling very frustrated because of her current means of mobility. Thank you for the note, it was just what I needed. Also i didn't cut myself and I don't think I will ever again. Cheers, The Cad
from ava-reborn :
Thank you so much for your note! It was really helpful to hear a male perspective. You've made me feel tons better! xxx
from wistful-blue :
Possible clue to WM's nickname: ash_s842 wrote, "well apparently it's because he had a bad attitude during university...apparently.....;)". (http://imdb.com/name/nm0589505/board/thread/25383532?d=25393723#25393723) -cat
from wistful-blue :
I gotta agree with you in your opinion of Oprah...for once, I was trying to be diplomatic. LOL It's a new thing I'm trying when it comes to other people -- even those I have *EXTREME* issues with, like Dubbya. Geez! Even now I have to say: "Okay Cat, *breathe!* Stop wishing someone would get a shotgun and take Bush out. That won't solve the problem...it will only leave the US with Cheney as president until 2008."
from ehays :
Thanks for the tag hon! Now I have something to do while at work ....Yippie! I'll post my findings later today. Luff you tons!!!!
from wistful-blue :
Hey! I know who that eye belongs to! You just cat-greened the color up, but it's still easily recognizeable as WM. :-)
from wistful-blue :
Oh darlin'! Am *positive* you will appreciate the homoerotic image featured on the fansite (www.wentworthmiller.org)...top of his pants unbuttoned and everything. :-D Love, cat
from kenzie12 :
Hello Jay!! Dont worry, Im sure you are much younger than my Dad, he's like 54. It's pretty messed up, because my sister (she's 26) is dating a guy (Bruno) older than my Dad. Creepy!! Pretty messed up, but I cant complain, because he's pretty rich, and he lets me ride around in his car when I see him. So Im good. And shallow ... And yes, I averted my eyes in that entry. No worries. I would like to know what cherub means? :P lol. And I DO listen to 80's music once in a while. Mostly Dead Or Alive & Duran Duran, but still. So Im going to update my diary now, hope you had a great day. Mine was pretty good, since we made up random songs while we ran around the track in Gym. "In a canoe! In a canoe! In a canoe!" And me & Greg completely ignored our english teacher to talk about CSI. Fun fun. see you!! xoxo, Kenziee
from wistful-blue :
ROFL Just because of the nickname "Stinky?" Although like you, I do wonder where such a name came from...rancid BO? *Shivers* Wentworth doesn't LOOK like he smells badly; then again, neither did Clark Gable and rumor has it, his breath REAKED. *Bleh!* Thank you for so generously turning over a possibly odiforous fella to me. Mighty white of ya! :-D Love, catbert
from wistful-blue :
LOL You are *TOO* cute and way too charming...I say ol' "Stinky" (can you believe that's WM's nickname?) should be yours, not mine. :-D *Hugs & Kisses* Love, the cat-a-log
from wistful-blue :
Beat ya to creating a "wentworth" ring too. :-P Although, I suppose you could do a "w-miller" ring...which would probably be better than what I set up. :-) -cat
from wistful-blue :
No way am I willing to share! LOL Do you have *any idea* how rare it is for me to find someone worth crushing on? Besides, you've got Robert Sean Leonard, Matthew Fox, Josh Holloway, Chris Evans, and that's just a handful! Nah-uh. This one's mine. :-P :-) *Hugs, kisses & love* -cat
from wistful-blue :
Well of course we're going to worry about you, you silly fellow! She's the quintessential "Mom" and I am the quintessential "Worrywart." :-D It's really cute though, out of the blue she'll say: "Cat, how's Jay doing?" I'm often taken aback, only to realize: Oh yeah, I've told Mom about my friends Jay and Cat. Hehehe. Well that, and I'm used to *her* memory being a little "absent-minded-professor-iish" most of the time. All right, I'm off to read today's entry from you...to see how you're doing. *Hugs & Kisses* Love, cat nip
from wistful-blue :
Have been worried about you lately, but I didn't know if you were in Hermit Mode and not to be contacted or whether checking in would be all right. Even Mum's worried about you. I hope you're managing to cope... *Hugs & Kisses* Love, cat
from wistful-blue :
Yeah, I guess updating is necessary since everyone seems to forget that I exist when I don't. :-P
from kenzie12 :
Yah, Warrick & Greg are prettay hot! :) But Gris is my favourite, not because of his looks of course ... Have you seen the episode where Sara asks him to sleep with her?? Oh it was so great! Ill recreate the moment!!! Sara: Will you sleep with me? Grissom: *looks shocked* Sara: I mean, so if I wake up in a cold sweat you can tell me its just empathy ... And then it was all awesome! I didnt see the rest because me, Claire, Allie & Julie had to go answer the freaking door. But its awesome. Thanks for your advice on my diary. I really like this layout too. Not complicated, no annoying picture-loading and complicated stuff. Phew! Ttyl! xoxo, Kenziee
from kenzie12 :
Yep, joined your ring here too. I love CSI so much!!! :P Maybe not CSI: MIAMI as much, because of Hocaine! Hes always going "Yes ... yes." (You know, constantly repeating himself) Then posing randomly. It just makes you laugh so hard! So I really like the original one! With Sara, Gil, Warrick, & MARRRG! :) My sister, my friend, and her sister and I are addicted to it! :P OH! I forgot the point of this note: On my diary, when I added the link for a-csi-fan ring, it moved the little boxes down away from my diary ... I dont know much about html, except for when I take it away, the whole thing is fine! What do I do????
from hissandtell :
Oops. Close brackets. x
from hissandtell :
Ha. Thanks for the note about scaring the cat, doll - glad you got the double entendre. Sometimes I wonder whether anyone other than other Australians actually gets Australian humour! I get so many notes from people who take things literally, and miss the irony, that it sometimes gets me down. (But then I think, POOR SAD LOSERS! and make that "L" sign on my forehead with my thumb and index finger and stick my tongue out like Muriel to the South African swimmer, and just soldier on, on behalf of my country... Love you, R xxx
from wistful-blue :
You: "wow... you're family is seriously f*cked up!" Me: "Hello, perhaps we haven't met. My name is Catherine 'Addams' and I'm a fuckin' weirdo." LMAO Dude! How do you think I managed to become such an oddball? This *points to self* was not created in a vacuum. LOL The really frightening bit? Morticia and I are about as close to "normal" and "sane" as you're gonna get. *AND* this is just her side of the family; I don't even go into my father's collection of Lunatic Fringe Family Members! (I'm afraid anyone who reads me would say: "No way! You're making this up. It's *impossible* for anyone to have *that many* crazy relatives." As for Hell-oScam -- I can't seem to install the comments system in such a way that each new entry gets its own, "fresh" comments box. I've re-installed AT LEAST 10 to 15 times and I still can't make it work. I didn't have this problem before, so I have no idea how to solve it. Must go pass out now. *Hugs & Kisses* Love, crazy cat
from bamstroker :
hello there! you are such a sweetheart *hugs* i saw a pic while surfing your site a while ago, and it must be pointed out that you're pretty good looking yourself :) btw i am being slow on notes, but i'm still reading!
from the-cad :
Nice poem, I like E.A. Poe too. Have you read 'The Black Cat' ? It's one of the few scary stories that actually scare me. Hope your well and having too many nightmares, The Cad
from justamephit :
WAAAAAH!!! Horrible horrible spider-centric entry! *runs away screaming* I hate spiders too!
from wistful-blue :
I'm not pissed so much as I am...frustrated and even more than that, so saddened and heartsick over someone who I see trying so hard, contine sabotaging and thinking such *horrible* things about himself. (Oh my gods! *Mock horror* That sounds just like someone else I know...someone I've known my whole life...someone I call, "Dad"!) :-) I promise Jay, it's not anger...it's saddness, but that's *MY* responsibility, *NOT* yours. Yeah...I have this little problem of "letting go" when it comes to the people I love; something I need to work on, obviously. So help me, if there's one thing I do before I die, I will learn to stop interfering, and accept the people I care about as they are! (Feel like I should add a "damn it!" for emphasis). :-) I'm working on a recap entry as we "speak." Geez man! I had no idea so much crap could accumulate in just a month!! I love you Jay. *Hugs & kisses* Give the familiars a few strokes for me (:-D) Love, cat
from candoor :
donation done here too... I'm not getting all my emails, but working on fixing the paths that bring them to me... life is fun today... as for the lonelies (and much love to you for noticing and caring), they are always with me (like old friends) and inspire as much of my writing as anything, but rarely do they bring be down too far cuz hope is my life preserver and so far, I seem to have an endless supply (hope I didn't just jinx myself :)
from nicim :
donation done - and i am so glad you got to see Grey's Anatomy - and it only get's better. our second season starting in September - can't wait. (you are SO FAR behind us!!!!) Kisses....N
from hissandtell :
Donation all made, darling. And again - congratulations. Much love, R xxx
from missy-17 :
hey i am new so look me up!!!
from loner-blues :
Um, am I wrong? Aren't you supposed to be, you know -- here? I'm all signed on to YIM and AIM, but I don't see you. I hate being in different time zones! BUGGER!!!
from candoor :
wake up! (that was for me)... ah, ok, the phone just rang and woke me and so, here we go :)
from nicim :
hi honey - how ya doing with getting the bloggie thing ready? need any more ideas? XXOO N
from candoor :
I've been loving your past week of entries (yeah, I should tell you that more often :)
from loner-blues :
Easy there big boy! :-) Don't want you bursting any gaskets. :-) It might take a week or so to set up...so no wanking allowed about how long I'm taking until *NEXT* Saturday, deal? ****HUGE HUG**** Thank you for being so excited about my return...it's nice to know my presence it welcome. :-D
from loner-blues :
Hola kimosabi, just wanted to let you know I still have my notes page open for replies to my ever-clever comments (http://members.diaryland.com/edit/notes.phtml?user=loner-blues). Toodles. -cat
from loner-blues :
You never answer my notes anymore. :(
from nicim :
hello angel. well, i've been getting Microsoft errors galore (a link to www.robert something) when opening your site -now I can't get in at all. ????? you know how much I miss you!
from liviasgarden :
Hi there sweetness, I don't know why that's happening for you, but since I'm getting notes and emails from others who have read it, I suspect it may be on your end somehow. I don't have a blogger account anywhere. That's the end of my internet knowledge LOL I hope all is well with you, and as always, I wish sweet dreams for you. HUGS!
from icedmilk :
No, a text link is fine. If you want to make a button that rocks too:) Thanks, and I'll get you on a pending list.
from bamstroker :
:) *hugs* also, on scientology- did you know it was created by a science fiction writer who made it for the sole purpose of seeing how much money he could make? they actually have quotes on him saying one of the best ways to get rich is to start your own religion. i've heard a lot of crazy shit about it, there are a lot of sites set up that have personal accounts from people who were involved in the religion and were stalked/threatened/drugged, etc. and there are memorials set up for people killed "mysteriously" (believed to be murdered) not to mention that scientologists believe in some kind of weird alien plot and members of the cult go through "cleansing" sessions... the craziness is neverending, i tell you. and tom is sadly misinformed and spouting very ignorant comments and katie holmes looks like she has been brainwashed! i read that there is a period of 16 days where she completely went missing and people say that's when the scientologists came in and screwed her up.. and supposedly she cannot be alone and someone from the scientology center is constantly at her side, and you see her in pictures everywhere. i think the "relationship" is a scandal and that tom is gay. lmao i'm sorry i am rambling and i know so much about this crap, but i'm on a gossip community and tom is our favorite topic lately ;) this stuff is quite screwed up.
from bamstroker :
i'm so sorry! i don't remember the email, so i apologize. i'd actually be thrilled if you read my diary, i think you're really wonderful :) i emailed you the passwords. sorry again!
from bamstroker :
i have not been reading as frequently lately so forgive me if you clarified this in an earlier entry- but i know you and i have both had major depression, so were you as offended by tom cruise's remarks as i am? "there is no such thing as a chemical imbalance" and all that crap he fed to poor brooke shields? i hate that man, but did end up seeing the movie, btw. i have heard from many people that their theatres laughed at the ending and some even booed during the last twenty minutes, but the first half of the movie is very good and suspenseful. figures batshit crazy scientologist tom is in an alien movie ;)
from nicim :
seriously - the site looks ok in your Firefox? If so, I shall have to flay the ignorant ones on yoursite.nu who slam me for appearing incoherent in their oh so much better than IE browsers (fie on the rascals). Perhaps they simply do not understand my brilliance. (after multiple glasses of white zinfadel tonight, I don't understand my brilliance either) *kisses as always dear Angel*
from loner-blues :
I have NO IDEA what you're talking about. O:-)
from loner-blues :
It wasn't me!! It was Robert Sean Leonard!!! LOL
from the-cad :
Man, you rock, The Cad
from f-i-n :
funny!
from loner-blues :
AWWWWWWWWWW!!! Why are you ignoring my obssess--er, suggestion? A little sex might do you some good. :-D Love, hugs & kisses: the cat asylum
from loner-blues :
No, The Fury is still my former aunt's name. Medea is her oldest daughter's pseudonym. Not like any of them deserve to have their identities protected though...but I do *that* for my mother and grandmother.
from ehays :
Hey Sweetheart. Hhhhmmmm, was reading my email and I saw I had a note ... KNEW it was from you. You're always there to lend support and strength. I don't know about any one else, but if they were playing "It's a Wonderful Life" and you were the main character ... well, I for one would have a much sadder life without you around. I appreciate the huggles and the wisdom you give me ... maybe I will go have that drink after all. To toast my friend. And tell him how much I'm gonna miss him! Damn it! luff you Angel. Erin
from nicim :
hi Angel. ok - banner #2, but slow it WAY down. I got dizzy trying to figure out what it was saying. white on white indeed. PS: what was the name of that place you talked about a few entries ago where you registered your site and had already gotten a "review". can't remember and your site loads SO SLOWLY now don't want to go back through the entries. *hugs and kisses* as usual!! (oh - and i'm gonna borrow the Edna quote sometime soon!!)
from candoor :
still crazy after all these entries and I shall return :)
from loner-blues :
You're a nut! :-) (And I mean that in the most positive sense of the word). *Hugs & Kisses* Love, the cat burgler
from loner-blues :
*NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!* Gods in Heaven, Hell and everywhere in between...I remind you of Joey Potter?! ACK!!! Jay -- baby -- I'm getting too old to pull of the melancholy, chick of angst business. That's it, I'm going to have to give my swan song and call it a day. :-) (And yes, Katie -- if she really goes through with a marriage to Thom CrOOZE -- has dubious taste in fellers. Maybe he dosed her with some doctored kool aid?)
from liviasgarden :
http://middlebury.net/mayone/ Search for "Pintos". There is only five of those horses! Thank goodness, I thought I was going mad ;)
from krugerpak007 :
Have a good weekend sweety. I approve of your "10"! Take care! xoxox
from stuthesheep :
Hiya, thanks for taking the time to leave that note - I am now going to spend a large part of the afternoon reading some of your entries, I like the ones I've read so far (although that horse picture hurts my brain) Take care
from morbidalily :
Dearest catz-eyes: I have been reading your journal now for a few months but I have never taken the time to tell you how much I truly enjoy it. How dreadful of me! I apologize for my negligance. I do enjoy your writing greatly. Sincerely Morbidalily @>----
from loner-blues :
You great big, nocturnal emissioning cad you! :-) LOL Fine! Be that way then. I guess I'm still tagged. :-P :-)
from loner-blues :
I'm sorry Jay, but I guess my heart or head just isn't in the right head space for a "funny" entry right now. I'd love to fulfill my "tagee" duties, but I can't...so you should probably pick someone else. Again, I'm really sorry and thank you so much for thinking of me first when it comes to pervy jokes. :-) It really does mean a lot. Love, cat
from loner-blues :
Pardon, but I'm not the one constantly making note of attractive male actors in my diary...nor am I the one having wet dreams. :-) In fact, I haven't mentioned anything of the sort for quite some time now.
from jellehbelleh :
Meow!
from betchy :
well. Wizz is not exactly what you would call unblessed in the huge teeth department, so anything he gets his mouth round, e.g tongue, neck, nipple etc pretty much gets bitten. which is ok, but sometimes hurts. anyway, i dont think the skin is broken or anything, but it is really big. it just kind of looks overstimulated. i'm guessing its just swelling. anyway, thanks for the concern honey, i will keep you posted!
from requiel :
Thank you so much for your note, your kind words brought tears to my eyes. *hug*
from loner-blues :
Oh yeah?! Wanna have a duel do ya? A wizard's battle? And for the record, I'm no more a fan of American "football" than I am of what the rest of the world refers to as such. Sports nonsense I tell you, boring as all hell. While I'd be more than happy to "spin your wool," I'm sure there are plenty of lusty lads down under who are just dying to have a go at the task. :-D
from plume :
mewling dead infants... now I'm scared!!
from loner-blues :
Yeah...somehow I imagine you might enjoy wearing an asshat. LOL :-)~
from loner-blues :
Update? UPDATE?!! Are you crazy? LOL Just kidding. Well, sort of...I've kind of made a ginormous commitment to Project X for the months of June (and I convienently went and forgot all about it, so I've done nothing to prepare). Am trying to cram what should have been at least two weeks worth of prep into three and a half days. I'm not even sure if I'll be able to keep up with *reading* people's diaries, let alone updating mine. (Which is why, one of the things on my to do list is to write as many entries as possible before June 1st. Yeah right). So, maybe I'll see you as I limp across the finish line around midnight on June 30th...if I haven't taken my cyanide pill by then. :-) Ever the optomist I am.
from nicim :
no, not my birthday - I'm a Pisces, a little fish always swimming in circles. Ben is just a procrastinator and just getting around to my gift which he has promised me for two months. *sigh*. Last year I got it in December, so I shouldn't complain! Hugs and kisses
from loner-blues :
LMAO No Goofus. You send forwards infrequently enough that it's not a bother, not to mention the fact that most of your e-mails are PERSONALIZED letters. Besides, if I had a problem with them, I would simply ask you to stop sending. :-P :-) So no worries mate. Love, your straight wife
from the-cad :
Thanks man, if I get checked and stuff and get any operations e.g. open heart surgery then I have a 70+ life expectancy. Also my dad says in regards to my heart, there is nothing abnormal and the woman who wrote the article has more serious cardiac problems than I. Still it's bloddy scary, Cheers, The Cad
from loner-blues :
I know you'll probably read this yourself (if you haven't already) but the quotation made me think of you: "How beautiful maleness is, if it finds its right expression." -DH Lawrence
from loner-blues :
Perhaps I should say the hymen of your ass? :-D (Yes, I'm being cheeky).
from loner-blues :
Philisophical hymen my ass. :-P
from the-cad :
Hey man, thanks for the tip, I couldn't find where I was supposed to change my older entries thingie, but Zelda said she would help me, sometime. I'll let you know if we still can't fix it. I suck at making computers work. Cheers, The Cad
from the-cad :
Oh, man, my older entries page is dead. Do you know how to make it regenerate? Hope stuff's treating you well, The Cad
from loner-blues :
Bu--but I thought you WERE the Golden Winged Dildo of Pleasure. You're crushing my dream by telling me I was mislead? ='(
from nicim :
Let's see - Dad saves young boy children from impending disaster, despite his handicaps....and you decide to find another way out instead of accepting the easy way of giving up. *thunderous applause here* by george - I think you've GOT IT!!!!!
from nicim :
i just love fri the 13th. and the 13th floor of a building. and a baker's dozen. may the force be with you.
from nicim :
*kiss* so glad to help a little. now just one more teensy tiny itsy bitsy thing. demand that your doctors get OFF THEIR AS*ES and get your medications squared away so you stop having nightmares. You can google for side effects of everything you take. (ps, some of the depression and other symptons may be due to these too). Damn socialized medicine.....kiss kiss kiss kiss - honestly no more motherly advice (if you ever want to email me direct, let me know)
from loner-blues :
I miss you. :-(
from nicim :
Hey love, you know me and my insistent persistency in giving advice. I don't think we ever stop missing them, but the "how" can change. There are stages of grieving. May I suggest - Google for them, read up, even (can't believe I'm saying this) find the best possible book about them. Once you figure out where you are - you can learn how to move from one to the next without paying a fortune to a therapist who will tell you the same thing. My dearest friend has only recently moved through the final stages and her One and Only passed almost ten years ago. She was so angry with him for so long for leaving her. Sound familiar? *hugs and kisses*
from loner-blues :
Well I'd blame the compliment on Travolta's bad eyesight but he wasn't aged back then so...I'll chalk it up to being more attractive in my earlier years. :-D
from loner-blues :
It would be a race darling, to see which one of us could drive the other batty first. (My money's on me, but hey...) Awww...you'd marry me even sans the dangly bits? Hot damn! Being butch has finally paid off! Seriously, I couldn't believe it when I got Armageddon: bloated, bad dialogue, even worse acting and Steve Buscemi's character loses his marbles...one out of four. :-D And of course it HAD to be a movie with a villan the size of the state from which Dubbya heralds, no? Oy vey!
from liviasgarden :
Thanks for your sweet note. Many hugs in return :)
from loner-blues :
You're too sweet, you know that right? :-* Love, cat-a-log
from ehays :
Hey sweetie! Am probably going to screen House of Wax tonight, so I'll let ya know what I think. It's good to know I'm not the only person watching for THAT reason. *snort*. NEwho, it's bedtime for bonzo. Night :D luff~Erin
from krugerpak007 :
Just wanted to try and drop by to say thank you for all the comments you have left me. You don't know how much they are appreciated and what they mean to me. I will try and catch up with your diary at home this weekend, and I just hope you are well dear. Lots of hugs and kisses. xoxoxox
from nicim :
So, I'm Uncle Quentin in your quiz. Whoever the heck he is. Don't think we ever got the series in the states, at least when I was a kid. I fear I shall have to be content to quiz out as someone who appears to be a feckish be-spectacled fellow that no doubt namby pamby's his way around the world in ancient archeological digs (oh, never mind - that's Daniel in Stargate:SG-1) *giggle*
from ihateshoes :
Dear my little Aussie, I was thinking about how often I used to talk to you the other day. It turns out that I am at the ripe age that I am giving youngins' as they say here in America, advice about what it's like to grow up gay. It made me think of you and our long chats about what I was to expect and the sometimes cruel but more often than not beautiful world we live in. God, you were such an inspiration for me, and I know you scoff at the word inspiration but truly, you were a source of wisdom and caring that I think everyone should have at least once in their life. If I had one wish for you, it would be to obtain all that you deserve in life because you truly are a beautiful person inside, and yes, out. I hope that prince charming find you and shower you with chocolate and back rubs;) I mean come on! Isn't that all you need in life? I hope to talk to you sometime soon in the future. I am always on AIM: lovethypenguin and check my email like 1000 times a day. Best wishes and thinkin about ya, Kyle
from loner-blues :
Oh thank you Jay! I'm so glad you liked it! :-*
from loner-blues :
My sinful entry is FINALLY up. I apologize for it in advance...it's not what I *wanted* to write, but at least it's honest. :-* -catbert
from loner-blues :
This diary's not locked. I locked winsome-blue because I *think* I'd like to keep writing there, but I'm not sure and therefore, what's being written there is pure and utter crap. Really, very bad stuff. I put in an entry at cats-corner because I can't bear to lose the name. (After reading "galaxy" -- formerly "galaxyrabbit" -- once a name has been out of use long enough, if someone is willing to pay a fee, they can obtain the name). Plus, I'm trying (enormous emphasis on trying) to design my own layou and I need a place to test my efforts so everyone doesn't have to bear witness to my HTML/layout fuck-tardedness. Since I don't trust Diaryland to allow me to lock up temporarily, I figured why not use the old diaries as testing grounds instead. I'd forgotten that people still had them on there lists. Woops. It probably won't work anyway (the designing my own layout thing), but I really loved the name "cats-corner" & "winsome-blue"...both feel like a better fit than this name, but I doubt everyone could handle another jump so soon. I just want to make sure the names are still there if I ever want to go back. And I'm so glad you like the quote I found for you!! Yay! I read it today and immediately thought of you...so I thought it would be the perfect "comment" for your diary. :-* Love, cat-a-log
from loner-blues :
Okay...now I know how to approach the sloth entry. I was going at it all wrong -- trying to be funny and mask what I'm really feeling, when the truth is, I can use everything that's going on in the entry. I know how to write it now... Thank you for being patient with me. I lurve you, you saucy little tart. Love, the cat-a-log
from ehays :
Thank you, sweetie, for the lovely note. It was a beautiful ending to a crap day ... and the hug was sorely needed. I appreciate so much your reaching out and giving me a bit of luv. {{{Jay}}} Hope I can do the same for you when you need it. Bless you, and I thank god for you. *smooch* Erin
from the-cad :
Reliable sources have recently informed me that "If he can't sparkle, he may learn tonight" is actually "If we can sparkle, he may land tonight". I hearby claim the former as my own quote. Chill man, The Cad
from loner-blues :
The net needs more of YOU, you lusty tart! :-P :-D Say, do you ever use your Yahoo!Messenger program? If not, I'll make sure I sign on to AOHell when I feel like talking...maybe I'll get lucky again and catch you on. :-) -cat scratch fever
from justamephit :
Oh darling, I loved you Lust entry. I'm sorry I gave you such a challenge but you, err, rose to it magnificently xxx
from the-cad :
Hey, man. "If he can't sparkle he may learn tonight" is actually a line from a Bowie song (Starman), though I came up with "Glove is a many fingered thing" myself. The Cad
from jarfness :
hehe, I doubt I'll start posting in the old one in a hurry, that's what this one is for. :p And yeah, I'm great, even though I haven't been updating. *sigh*
from jarfness :
lol, for some odd reason I only /just/ noticed that you're still linking to my old diary from your profile. :-\ lol, you can remove it if you want, it's dead anyway. :-)
from loner-blues :
ARGH!! See, that's why I don't tell people when things are f*cked up! They "fret." It's bad enough that they have to deal with their own problems, they (YOU) don't need petty sh*t to further clog the filters.
from behindthelad :
sorry to grumble mister but 'jay gets buffed' wasnt exactly what I hoped to find ;) Actually, truth be told - Ive never watched even an episode of Buffy! Oh and well done on your lust entry - steamy stuff m8 - dripping in sin - lovely :)
from vintagedeath :
Your welcome.
from loner-blues :
Now what kind of a Sloth would I be if I didn't try to wait until all the other sinners had their entries up before posting mine, hmmm? There is a method to my madness, but I promise, whether or not Goddess Hiss and The Devlyn have theirs up, mine will be posted before the weekend is over. No need to worry about me, I'm fine. :-) Enjoy your Buffy-fest!!! I love HUSH! (Partly because it's the episode in which they introduce Tara). *Hugs & Kisses* Love, cat-scratch-fever
from loner-blues :
Not to be morbid or anything (and not that I plan on kicking the bucket anytime soon) but I've made Mom promise that if/when I croak, she is to mail you any/all of my quotes notebooks, as I can't think of anyone else who would properly appreciate them. (Reading your "Thought For the Day" is what prompted me to let you know of this arrangement). *Hugs & Kisses* Love, the cat-a-log
from hissandtell :
Ha - I was just reading how St Thomas defined lust as "misalignment with God's procreative purposes". Talk yourself out of that one, darling! Love, R xxx
from loner-blues :
*Chuckles* Ahem, if I recall, this whole thing was YOUR idea my pet. :-D And didn't you want a challenge? Besides, you know you're a lusty little tart, what with your wet dreams of late and all those blokes at the market tripping over their own feet just to get your attention. I'm actually having a hard time with this...so mission accomplished: I've been challenged as well. *Hugs & Kisses* Love, catbert
from bamstroker :
aww i really feel for you hon. just wanted to give you this: *hugs*
from wildrose1 :
I just knew you would get lust. (((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))
from loner-blues :
By what time (or date, rather) would you like for us to have our "sinful" entries posted? -catbert PS: Thank Goddess I got Sloth...a sin I know something about! :-)
from justamephit :
Yes I know ... I was originally going to give you Pride because I thought your self-esteem could do with it but behindthelad's need seemed greater than yours =P And some of the other sinners suited certain sin so well that it was all quite a complicated juggling act. I hope I've lived up to my task. I think lust will do you well :)
from justamephit :
Hello my dearest. Today, I am here in my Goddessly Capacity *cue lightning storms, chicken feathers and an impressive guitar riff* It's all right you don't have to kneel (much). Let's sin, baby. Actually, you were one of the hardest of the sinners to choose a sin for - not that I'm trying to imply you're full of sin or anything. It's just some people were very obviously one particular sin =P But in the end, I decided to aware you everybody's favourite sin ... lust ... because I think you'll do it justice. ;) Have fun!
from plume :
Haha thanks. My number one rule is "don't step on ants". What have the ants ever done to me? Anyway, walk in good health buddy :)
from liviasgarden :
Perhaps you've noticed, but the deadly sins ring image seems to have disappeared. That happened to mine, so I changed the html slightly and it resubmitted it. I wouldn't bother with Andrew about it as my email is still not fixed :( I hope you got the one I sent from home.
from loner-blues :
BTW I am a complete fuck-tard. :-P :-D And don't you forget it!
from loner-blues :
Hey, I have NEVER EVER claimed to be nice. Everyone else seems to think I'm some sweet little angel. :-) I can be a real bitch when I want to be...you're the good cop to my bad cop ya know. As for the ring...ME???? I must come up with the final member?!! Oy vey! Okay...I've got a couple of ideas...would like for it to be a male, make it more interesting. So the search begins anew. :-D
from loner-blues :
How about a diary ring who's soul purpose is to take up a collection for a hit on Andrew? :-)
from loner-blues :
Hello my favorite Dark Fae, well seems bossman is holding my diary hostage by not letting me unlock. Was making some changes last night and didn't want everyone to see what an HTML fuck-tard I am, so I locked up temporarily, only to find I COULDN'T unlock once I was done. ARGH! Now I'm starting to get annoyed. Anyway, until my journal is "released" -- USERNAME: fucked. PASSWORD: over. Appropriate, no? And I chose those *before* this happened! :-) :-* Love, cat-scratch-fever
from behindthelad :
You're probably the first person to tell me my slip of the tongue was amusing! Please send the yanky ebay links :)
from candoor :
in my previous note, I meant note, not not... and now that that is cleared up (luckily I did not write not instead of now as I occasionally do), I hope you are feeling better... soon :)
from the-cad :
Thanks for your encouraging note, man. I hope you get better soon, The Cad
from hissandtell :
NO! darling! Not at all! No, I was just pouting out loud about how the gorgeous cat got 561 mentions in your diary, that's all. Sorry if I confused you, possum! I guess I should have explained my little sulk... Love, R xxx
from loner-blues :
Oh now it's on big boy! I'm going to have my revenge for this whole "camel syrup" business. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAA!!!
from loner-blues :
Thank you so much for sending everyone MY WAY to find out what camel syrup is you damn wanker! :-) The things I do for you...
from loner-blues :
Thanks? Why should you be thanking me? I haven't done anything. O:-) :-) Told 'em about the "camel syrup" eh? I suppose that's what I get for ruining your breakfast. Hehehehe. :-* I love you Jay. *Many, many, many, many, many hugs and kisses* Love, catbert
from loner-blues :
Consider me your Buddha. LMAO :-*
from loner-blues :
Please! You think anything can gross ME out? I used to watch the surgery channel for fun! I picked scabs on my legs for years just to watch myself bleed! I still tear the skin off my own fingers and leave enormous exposed raw flesh that make people who see my hands shiver with disgust! Amateur. LMAO!!
from loner-blues :
Terrible idea...I happen to know someone who's already on the case. :-P :-) *Love, Hugs & Kisses* to you, my sweet friend Jay.
from candoor :
when insecure moments strike, a simple not can be a beautiful gift that feels just right... and when everything feels secure and wonderful, that same note is icing on the cake of life... thank you for being here, for sharing, and for caring :)
from darkmoonwolf :
Yeah, I've had quite a few bightmares that involve myself and Jurassic Park actually. They're not very fun... >.<
from emeraldblaze :
good gosh! those are quite the questions! well I have some big final to prepare for tuesday, but I will get to your questions as soon as I can! (hugs)
from darkmoonwolf :
You posted on my diary to thank me for joining the nightmares diary ring, so I just thought I'd tag you back and say you're welcome. :) I have my fair share of nightmares now that I'm pregnant. They are a WHOLE lot freakier than before, lol. It's a whole different brand when you're preggers...hehe
from the-cad :
Hey, can you tell me what btw means? I'm not that knowledgeable when it comes to netspeak Cheers The Cad
from wildrose1 :
you have been the only one on my list able to update. I got all mine posted this morning. The server was just too busy, hehe. Brenda Walsh, really? nah. (((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
I can not update and I am going crazy. I am thankful to be able to at least read yours. (((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))
from the-cad :
Yeah man, use the qoute as much as you want, The Cad
from liviasgarden :
That was a truly Awful dream!! *Hugs and hugs*
from emeraldblaze :
OK have have taken a look at the questions that you ask and I'm please to say that I became enamoured not frightened so if you are still willing to ask a few questions then fire away!
from plume :
cutest kid ever hehe. thanks :)
from emeraldblaze :
there are worse things ... oh that sound like I didn't care. I do care and I get the general impersion that this will be a good thing for you. Why? I have no idea, just one of those gut feelings that I get from what you wrote! I'm sorry that I haven't left you a note in awhile. I have hit a random anti-social funk. I'm sad that I wasn't fast enough to ask for a interview I'd love to post one on my site so that my other pals get in on the action. Oh well BLNT *hugs*
from wildrose1 :
I think I got the interview posted. I am not too sure as I can't view my own diary. I hope they haven't lost my soul in writing during this entire melt down. I was surprised to get your diary up. I did post in my other site too. If you wanna view it there just email me and I will send you the link. (((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))
from loner-blues :
I think, for once I'm going to trust my instincts and not talk about the tarot reading in my diary. After all, how can I ever expect other people to respect my boundaries if I don't do so myself?
from wildrose1 :
I am glad to hear that you are feeling a little better from the flu thing. I love your notes and I am so blessed to have come across you in life. You enrich me in many ways. Thank you for the linkage or pimping me here, lol. I will get right on those answer starting today. I want to give them the thought each one deserves. Be well. (((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))
from loner-blues :
If anyone is worth changing bits over my friend, it's you. Now don't go arguing with me because it simply won't do any good. :-P No worries though. I honestly don't know how you fellas put up with those wrinklies and while I can't even touch femininity with a ten foot pole, I'm also no where near butch. I'd never make it as a boy, let alone a man. As for the tarot reading, I'm DYING to share what I learned with you, Cat, Mephit, Monica (ilmomof3), and several other people who read me...but there are also plenty of people who think things like that are bs. I respect their right to their own opinions...but I wanna share dammit! :-D Maybe I'll write post it as a private entry. I'm also a bit unsure of how much I want to share, you know what I mean? (I'm thinking you probably do). BTW: You're not a dumbass. I should have said something nicer like "silly boy," but I feel close enough to you that I thought: "He'll know I mean 'dumbass' in the most loving way imiaginable." *Hugs* -cat
from loner-blues :
LMFAO Gender reassignment for ME dumbass, not you. Um hello, you're gay and I'm pretty sure that ain't changin'. *Hugs & Kisses* -catbert
from wildrose1 :
I think you made the right choice in persuing justice. I believe that you were best to let it go. (((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
The boy next door sounds like an angel. ((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))
from loner-blues :
Yeah, I'm gonna get you...........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
from loner-blues :
I answered your questions...sorry it took me so long but they were damn hard! (http://loner-blues.diaryland.com/050315_59.html) -catbert
from wildrose1 :
((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))
from heathyrmarie :
Thanks for the welcome! I'm new to DLand, so I'm just learning my way around :) Feel free to stop by my journal at any time! I'm on my way to read yours :)
from loner-blues :
Notes are back on...sorry for the wig out. Having a hard time right now. -cat
from loner-blues :
Take your time coming up with the questions Jay. I'm taking a bit of a break anyway and my notes page will be closed for a while. -cat
from loner-blues :
I've been thinking about your answers to the questions, especially the one about how chronic pain has changed your life. I've lived with it for so long, I never stopped to consider my own attitude. My whole life, I've been very careful about letting people get close to me (physically as well as emotionally) and it never occurred to me until I read your entry, that I may even cringe when people get to close. What is it they say? 80% of communication is non verbal? I've had plenty of people cross that invisible barrier and slap my shoulder or wrist, or poke me and it hurt. Which made me shrink away from physical contact even more. I wonder, have I spent the last twenty-five plus years giving that "push off" vibe? Shit, now I'm crying. What a fucking pussy I am. Stupid Cat. Thank you for making me think Jay. I do love you. -catbert
from proudnerd :
Inteview me, please :)
from loner-blues :
But of course there was thought put into the qvestions for you! Didn't think I was going to make it THAT easy did ya? :-D Take all the time you need to answer them. *Hugs & kisses* Love, catbert
from loner-blues :
YOUR FIVE QUESTIONS: 1) Which character from the Buffyverse do you most identify with and why? 2) Why are you so forgiving and compassionate towards other people and not yourself? 3) How is your life different now from what it was before you dealt with chronic (physical) pain? 4) If you were told you could change one thing about yourself (mental or physical), what would it be? ("Everything" is an unacceptable answer). 5) Tell me everything that is good/positive about Jay. Not what OTHERS think or have said, but what YOU think.
from loner-blues :
True...which is exactly why I didn't care much for the film. Nor any of the works by the Marquis de Sade. Yech!
from betchy :
you are correct! it is indeed Wyclef. dont worry that you googled. i promise not to tell. love you x
from loner-blues :
And yes, I suppose gas could be awkward if you were with folks who can't accept that we all do it. I didn't much care for the movie QUILLS, but I did love Geoffry Rush's line: "We eat, we shit, we fuck." :-D
from loner-blues :
LOL You're scared of lil' ol' me? Much to my disappointment, I'm NOT overwhelmed with requests. *Pout* Which is why I was so happy to get your note! I'm going to start working on your questions asap, but I promise I will do my best not to ask you anything you'd be uncomfortable with. If you want, you can go over to urasmajor's notes and check out the questions I left for her. *Hugs & kisses* -catbert
from wildrose1 :
((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))
from loner-blues :
You'll NEVER guess which "Desperate Housewife" I am. I'll post the results in my next entry. :-D *Hugs & kisses* -catbert
from wildrose1 :
(((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
from loner-blues :
I've missed you too! *Hugs & kisses & gopes* Woops, my bad. :-D
from wildrose1 :
I am so glad you came back. I have missed you in your hiatus. I also agree with Lorelia. I have said the same things to you many times. Has it ever occurred to you that we see the true Jay and maybe you are choosing to see yourself in the wrong light. You are wonderful and your sweetness amazes me. You are a strong man. I know so many that whine and give up in the face of much less significant obstacles. (((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))
from justamephit :
*much with the huggage, tea and sympathy* God, that entry was really harrowing. Please take care, gentle writer.
from wildrose1 :
I have no glue, nor tape. Can I hold you together with a hug til you are strong on your own? ((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Jay, I once took a hiatus and it did not help. I think that our minds tell us to run because it is therapuetic to write it down. When you look back you will see how much you have grown. I know how it feels to want to run. I fight that urge almost constantly. I promised myself to update daily. My diary is the only place that is all mine. Being treue and honest there may be painful at times, but I owe it to myself. Please don't give up. If it is too hard to continue on this site with so many real life friends reading it move to somewhere else. Jay this is your life only you can contribute to it. You are here for a reason, you have something to share. I wish you peace. No matter where you go please don't lose my email addy. I cherish you and want to keep in touch. I want to hear when you finally receive your victory. Cuz hun, its coming. you are far overdue. (((((((((((((((my.treasured.friend))))))))))))
from peteypuke :
don't give up okay? if not here, then somewhere - just don't give up.
from wildrose1 :
oh yeah with a name like bubble butt I thought thias entry was all about me. I know I am so vain. hehehehehe((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Jay, I adore you. I am so glad you were lucky again. You have a purpose and it's not completed as of yet. That is why you have an angel watching over you. I think you fail to see what an inspiration you are to so many. You have such a good heart and loving and most would be bitter. You are a treasure. Thank you for you google contibution. I love it. You are a wonder. ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
hun you rest I hope you feel better soon. ((((((((((((hugs)))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Jay, I hope you have good luck in finding a flatmate. (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))
from thecrankyone :
Happy Birthday!! Hope it is a great day for you, it sounds like it is mostly so far!! Everyone deserves a good birthday!
from wildrose1 :
Jay I sent all my friends here to wish you a happy b-day today, much like you linked me. hehehe I mention this because I know you are behind so when you see it you will laugh. Thank you my friend. ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
I was getting worried about you. I am glad you updated. (((((((((((hugs))))))))))
from loner-blues :
Thanks gorgeous. Although I'm choosing to think of it as Quirkyalone Day instead, since Valentine's Day without a sweetheart for the twenty-seventh year in a row, is just too depressing. *Hugs* -cat
from candoor :
Happy Valentine's Day, dangit! ( I am deterimined :)
from wildrose1 :
you watch all my favorites. I love the CSIs, the law and orders and desperate house wives. I adore mythbusters. We have the best tv. hehehe (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))
from krugerpak007 :
I hope your birthday turned in to a huge, lovely surprise, that you were spoilt just the way I would spoil you if I was there. That your are feeling happier and better. Thinking of you honey. xoxox Kathy
from loner-blues :
Thank you so much for the compliment Jay! You're very sweet. To be honest...I sobbed my way through the entire writing of that entry. Was not a pretty sight, lemme tell ya. And of course you may use the quote! You never have to ask. I love collecting and sharing them, so if I've ever posted one you like, consider it yours. :-) -catbert
from wildrose1 :
On your birthday I will have my surgery. Well actually although it is on the date of your birthday here your bday will already be a memory for you. I hope things look up soon. I hate that you are feeling the blues. ((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
from krugerpak007 :
Wishing you a very Happy Birthday and many many more sweet Jay. Love you. xoxox Kathy
from redbeads :
Hello. :) Thank you for leaving me a message, my first. It was really sweet. Your dream seems intense. It actually felt like I was in the dream while reading your entry, weird. :) Anyway, have a good life. Buh bye.
from wildrose1 :
Jay, nothing seems substandard here. Mine seems substandard to me lately though. hope you get to feeling like your old self.(((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))
from cats-corner :
I don't know if you're angry with me, speaking to me or not...if you are, I have a new diary called "loner-blues." -cat
from wildrose1 :
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from betchy :
ah, my darling Jay, i opened up my notes page this morning to find a note from you and my heart soared! you always cheer me up. anyway, about crabs. i once had a guy spread it round the whole of my town that i had crabs. people used to make claw gestures at me and allsorts. it was written on toilet walls and in a small town that is very humiliating. the worst part? i never even had them!!! although my friend Shelley caught them off the same bloke 4 times. so anyway, i didnt get laid for quite soem time as you can imagine, and was getting a bit frustrated. finally i got a guy to come hoem with me, but i could see he was nervous. i was like "look babe, i havent got crabs" he was all "how can i be sure?" so i dropped my knickers and said "because i've got no fucking pubes!" i had shaved them all off, and my area has been a hair free zone ever since. you should try it. now my dear, you are going to say something lovely about me to put in my "what my diary says about me" entry, arent you? because as one of my favest faves i would be devestated if you didnt. love you always xxx
from wildrose1 :
It has to get better better, has to. (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))
from imaginarix :
Thanks for the welcome!
from justamephit :
Don't really have much to coherent to say other than that I am very very much enjoying reading your diary. Charging through the back entries this quiet afternoon like a word-hungry rhino :)
from wildrose1 :
Jay, Sometimes I wonder how it is I read my very thoughts or exactly what I need to hear in someone elses diary. I find this happening often in your diary. I was in the process of re-evaluating whether to keep up with my diary here. Yesterday my world shifted and hurt very deeply. But that is my own entry. I was sure that if I kept my diary it would certainly be changed. Evoloved. Seems I am experiencing a lot of growing pains lately. I thank you for the invite. It means a lot when I see all the names on your favorites list that you chose me to write. I love your diary and if I were to describe it to someone I would call it a story of strength and inner beauty. Lessons of encouragement and inspiration. Thanks for giving me what I need to continue on here a little longer. ((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))00
from liviasgarden :
Many thanks for the invite to wallow in sin ;)
from wildrose1 :
Jay, I understand what you mean when you say that we sometimes forget about details of our own lives. As I read this I recalled how when My stepfather was arrested that I had a nightmare of different abusers or people who had harmed me morphing into him. I hadn't thought about that nightmare in years. BTW. You speak of summer there, it's freezing here. hehehehe((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Jay, I hope you feel bnetter soon. Careful with meds, they are weird. I need an Australian dictionary. 'Get A Dog Up Ya.' what is that? All I know is you are bloody ripper. hehehe loves ((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Jay, is it safe to drink while on all those meds? True at least it was a simon free dream, especially when you saw him. I bet you were totally freaked. Why wasn't he jailed? Have a great trip. You deserve it, leave all your worries behind for a while. ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Jay, Please don't ban me from notes, lol. Maybe I should have emailed you. I just remembered 2 thoughts. Forgive me I am on pain meds still. Yesterday I read 2 drunk entries. I just thought I would note that. And I love todays quote I will be borrowing it. Thanks love. ((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Jay, I am forever saying how I admire your beautiful heart and spirit. You are foprever saying you don't see it. Just calling Danny on the error is yet just one example of it. I know calling him was not easy for you. You will go to work because you are all the time sacrificing a piece of yourself to do right. I admire that. I am vengeful and bitter at times. If the world had more people like you we'd all be better off. I don't know if you ever saw the quote I put beside your name on my favorites list. I believe in it. I believe that your trama in life, your pain is so that others will be encouraged to hold on to their dignity no matter what. I strive to be as beautiful a spirit as you. I mean ecvery bit of this from my heart. I wish you could see it. (((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))
from mysticjessie :
Hello! I thought I'd leave another one. If you ever wanna chat, send me an IM on yahoo. My screen name is mystic_jessie18. Feel free to talk to me whenever you please.
from wildrose1 :
OK buddy 2 quotes today does not excuse you from a quote tomorrow. I am dying to see what song I am. Probably something silly yet depressing. Have a good night hun. (((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))
from mysticjessie :
I like your look for you account. Very unique!
from wildrose1 :
I have been doped up since yesterday. Was hard to read entries due to it. I missed diaryland ttoday though. Is it weird for you writing about Dex knowing he'll see it. I feel I censor cuz certain people read sometimes. Makes it hard. I try not to. ((((((((((hugs)))))))
from rainy-daze- :
hey don't feel silly. I get most of my help from www.funkychickens.com (I think). It's a fab site with all the HTML help you need to get started. After that I experimented and practised. You could try using microsoft front page.. xx
from confusedpain :
Hi! I'm a new diary for survivors of anything. If you've survived, you're welcome. We're an anonymous diary where you can come to vent, and no one has to know who you are unless you want them to. We also have a feature where you can become a regular member. If you plan on posting more than once, you have the option of having your name under the members list on the entry pages. All you have to do is leave a note and I'll put you in.
from wildrose1 :
Jay, I keep you in my prayers, hun. Somehow I hope that these nightmares are a way to work out all the hurt and fear. I keep hoping that something good will somehow come out of it. I know the worst things I ever had to deal with always led to the biggest blessings. When I look back on my tragedies I see that those are the time I grew most. I hope that is what you find at the end of this horrible, painful place. mucho love (((((((((((hugs))))))))))
from betchy :
honey that dream sounds awful, try to think good thoughts all day so you dont get one like that again. thinking of you x
from wildrose1 :
Jay, it is super cool that you are ending the day as I start mine. I always read your diary first thing in the morning. Some how I know if you made it through the day, I just might have hope. Hope you have a great day when you read this in the morning. As I will be going to bed then. hehehehe ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Jay, I believe I am undiscovered goddess. Acording to your quote it must be true. Love ya. (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Jay, you are out numbered, though I don't know cats corner, I must agree you are the best. Leaving you out numbered :P I wouldn't beat myself up over the fact you didn't assume the4 worst in someone. I always jump the gun and assume the worse in everyone. It goes to show haw kind and loving you are. (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))
from cats-corner :
:-P You suck! Even though YOU, YOU, YOU are the better person! Neh! :-* Love, cat
from cats-corner :
Hehehe...let's get into a huge debate over who's the better person. I say YOU. And just to head you off at the pass: No you!! No Jay! YOU are the better person! No you! No you! No you! LOL As for the sashimi, oh darlin' much like reading your diary entries, I could never, ever get tired of eating raw salmon. :-D Love, the cherub
from wildrose1 :
2).“Make visible what, without you, might perhaps never have been seen.” ~ Robert Bresson. I did this made visible what would otherwise not have been seen. I love your diary. You give me hope. I would love to visit Market because it seems so contrast to anything I have ever experienced. All that said, I don't think your diary is funny. It mad me mad someone would think it was. I do think some of the expressions you use are smile worthy. I love sarcasm. Your still the coolest cat I know in Aussie. (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
ahhhhhhhhhh no quote again!!! I question the state of the axis of earth when I see no quote.mucho love ((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Jay, I had something clever to say and totally forgot it. lol. I will take the quiz I hadn't yet as I was afraid to. I am weird I know. Thank you for the sweet email. Have you seen my entry called "tribute to you" I really would like you to read it. I wrote it to all my diary friends and what I wropte to you seemed to come out the most hmmmm not sure of the word. Go check it out and maybe let me know you read it k. ((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))
from montana74 :
Thanks Jay for the note, the fires in the hills are out now (thank god, we live up there) but the one on the Eyre is still burning, and 8 people have died so far. Seems the whole world is trying to self distruct at the moment. Take care xxx
from wildrose1 :
Jay, Your nightmares scare me. YOU ARE NOT BETTER OFF DEAD! That is a demon lying to you. I think part of your dream means he does have you held back and tied down. that's sad, because you are a beautiful person and I would like to see you at your fullest potential. I will continue to pray for you. I know you'll overcome this. ((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))
from montana74 :
Hey, thanks for the welcome. I had a look at your site, it's cool. I am currently taking a crash course in self taught html, I work in IT, but never had much use for it before. xxx
from requiel :
Oooo...I love the new look!
from wildrose1 :
Jay, I will be taking this and linking you. I loved zhoward The Duck, lousy lover but quite entertaining. BTW. I shut George Carlin (pirated) off to readf you cuz I was laughing so hard at your responses that I couldn't hear him. You are a tad indecisive, today. But I still love ya, ((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Jay, Sometimes what we consider to be charity is actually a gift. I believe that Bubbles is giving you a gift that will in turn be a gift to her in the end. She wants you there and your presence would be a gift to her. Accept it and have a great time. I hope while budgeting you squeezed your internet connection in. I don't want a lapse in updates. In one of my entries yesterday I did a tribute to all my favorite diarist. I proof read them and yours was very different from the rest. I hope you read it, as I meant every word. I hope it lifts your spirits. mucho Love (((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))
from jellehbelleh :
I like the Jaselle story...egotistically because it's my name, just spelled differently. I know what you mean about horrid dreams that plague you, I get them all the time. Hang in there.
from true-diamond :
Hi catz-eyes, Because you didn't elaborate in your most recent what made your week a hard one, all I can see say is I hope things get better for you soon. I too am dealing with major past/present issues, which is why I began my journal in the 1st place. I'll be sure to "read again" soon. Hugs, True-Diamond
from absinthesigh :
Thank you so much for joining the Joss Whedon Diaryring! "Every day's a negotiation and sometimes it's done with guns." - Joss with love, ophelia
from wildrose1 :
I like the new banner. ((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Jay, I think my note site is broken can you note me next time you visit me? I hate to think that I am just not loved. I can't imagine no one wanting to note me. (((((((((((Jay))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
hey Jay, You have been ion my prayers and will remain there. I know you have a purpuse if nothing but to encourage others. (((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Jay, I wish you luck with the job thing. I fear someone discovering my diary, that knows me. Have a great day. ((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))
from requiel :
Happy New Year Jay, I desperatly hope this year will be wonderful for you. You have been through so much, you deserve it. *hug*
from candoor :
merry happy new year :)
from wildrose1 :
Jay, you may use that idea, my blog is your shopping center. hehehe. I am already thinking up questions for you. Thank you for the good wishes for the holiday. (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Happy new year hun. I have 24 hours still. Hope you find peace love prosperity and joy immeasurable in 2005. ((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
OMG. I just want to wrap my arms around you and hold you while you sleep, to give you the sense of security and safety you deserve. (((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
Jay, I debated filling this box with much deserved compliments but decided against it as I don't want to make you squirm. When I compliment you though, I expect no response, just take it and know in your heart I don't ration them out very freely. Just to those who earn them. I took the trasy test, and at risk of you looking at me oddly I will day I got a 40%. I thought I was classy. You linked me so you know what that means. You linked me twice in like 2 weeks. I like that, thank you. Also thank you for your kind words in my notes. I took super heroine quiz and you'll have to stroll over and see the results. Thanks for the quote, lol. BTW, I have a damn sexy pancreas and you should see my kidneys, mmmmmmm. (((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
you threw me all off. No quote, Jay. I so look forward to the quotes. J/K I love the survey may I take it if I link you? I will ask everyone to visit you. I knew you weren't trashy. ((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))0
from wildrose1 :
Jay, I have this same survey I got it from the bloop site. I liked your answers. (((((((((((hugs))))))))))
from jarfness :
Hi! Merry Christmas! :D
from betchy :
my dear sweet Jay, i just wanted to come and tell you to have a wonderful christmas and New Year. i am off work till next Thursday now, and probably wont get a chance to update in between. love you loads and loads and will be thinking of you tomorrow (xmas day). love you xxx
from wildrose1 :
I wish I could hold you close and wipe away your pain. I know how hard it is to face the past and our own dragons. Everytime I feared I wasn't ready for battle I was victorious and I pray you will be too. This is my yahoo messenger if you want to chat hotsweettrail. You don't have to face it alone. ((((((((((((((Jay))))))))))))
from xpermanent :
no problem <33
from wildrose1 :
thank you for the info and the link. maybe someone will finaly read me. lol ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
I was starting to worry about you. I missed ya I guess. I love your quote at the end today as I have just recently forgiven someone who attempted to destroy me long ago. Forgiveness make you feel good inside. Where do you find all these great quote? ((((((((((((((((((Jay))))))))))))))))))))
from anti-lies :
Thank you for keeping us listed for so long but unfortunately we are now closed ♥ Good luck with everything, Jay
from wildrose1 :
I hope they figure out who did this to you. I don't understand how someone can think something like this is funny. My heart aches for you. ((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
from betchy :
oh man, i am so fucking angry that you had this done to you Jay, its a bloody good job i am on the other side of the planet, let me tell you!!! you ain't their victim though, so donr hink that. you might be a victim of this pathetic, immature prank, but you're not THEIR victim. they must be complete twats to do something like that. do they not think of the consequences? they could kill someone for fucks sake. i have had my drink spiked before and i was ill for days. my mum was sat at my bedside crying her eyes thinking i was going to die because no-one could figure out what was wrong with me. but stupid people like them dont think of those sorts of consequences. they really must be the lowest of the low to find this kind of thing amusing. i really hope you are ok, and i am so sorry this had to happen to you. you have been through enough. thinking of you, love you lots xxx
from wildrose1 :
I am sure reliving that all was hard. I sense strength in this entry. reclaim your stand and be strong. (((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
hope you feel better. ((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
from wildrose1 :
I think you should have the faith to fly again. (((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))
from themoodswing :
"...I really hope that Karma kicks this guy in the balls good and hard.." Oh the amount of times I've thought and said those words! Alternatively I dream about cutting off those said balls and hanging them from my rear-view. It just makes you feel better, doesn't it? ;)
from anti-lies :
After all this time we are finally open ♥ Feel free to add an entry whenever you wish
from wildrose1 :
maybe the injured bird is a sign. The injured bird is being loved by you. How soon before you say, +oh God this is not worth it?" You won't and maybe Perry won't either. Breathe. (((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))
from avalonte :
That's fantastic!!!! I'm sooooo happy for you!!! That's the best news I've had in ages!! Seriously!! Of course there's still a little fear present. I'm not sure that's a bad thing, to be honest. Isn't it that ounce of fear that acts as our protector? Stops us from being a gullible fool? It even adds to the excitement perhaps? ANyway, take care of yourself, enjoy the present, don't think too much about the future! Just take it as it comes! And it sounds like it's coming well!!!! xxx
from betchy :
ya ya ya yayyyyyyy!!!! how cool, you got some. i am really pleased for you, not just because you got some hot sex, but because Perry sounds great, and you seem really happy. i hope things work out i am sure they will. love you lots chick xxx
from girlinshadow :
You're very sweet Jay. Thank you. -Shadow
from slidesorter :
unfoutunate enough to say that no its not being kind and it all is bad but it dosn't matter it's all the same in the end
from wildrose1 :
Hoe it works out with Perry. I like the tone of this entry. (((((((hugs)))))))))
from betchy :
hello my gorgeous boy, i have missed you loads, because i keep not being able to get in to your diary, and that makes me sad:( have you seen any of my pics yet? and also i am having a hard time with my friends right now too. its really shit. i wish everyone from d-land lived in weston so i could hang out with them. they support me a lot more than my real life friends do!
from wildrose1 :
hey Jay, I wanted to tell you I was on like 900 mg of lithium and they upped it to like 2700 I think and stopped monitoring the blood count. I stopped taking it and my bi-polar is just part of me and by grace I don't hack a head off or a wrist. Anyway my point is keep on them to watch it k. Seems these doctors can be a bunch of knuckleheads or careless. ((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))
from slidesorter :
hey thought i would check in with you again wow alot has been going on in your life sory i missed so much(ill have to go bak and read the last entries i missed im still writing and sometine ill write you out another one) later
from wildrose1 :
Hi, I came across your diary through the csi ring. I like yur writing and even went bac to read some of the old entries. I see I need to take a free afternoon to read more closely. I am curious as all heck as to what happened. I will be back to read more..... (((((((((hugs)))))))
from jadedwings49 :
You're very welcome. Thank you for your compliment! I'm really hoping that I do, and thanks for that as well. I hope things are going well for you now. Take care.
from bamstroker :
i have another friend who reminds me of you. he is amazingly intelligent, kind, a good friend, a decent person- and he has the most ROTTEN luck it seems. the worst things that could happen to a person happens to him literally on a weekly basis. i think it is that he is in the wrong place (a big city) and i pray that i'm right, and he'll move and be treated well. as for you, i really do wonder why these kinds of people have come into your life. you are so much better than them and i'd figured they would be intimidated by your good nature. stick with the people who are true friends, and try your best to trust new people- but, it's hard, so i don't think you should give yourself high expectations. after all, a lot of people DO suck, and sometimes it takes a long while to find more people who don't, but they are out there. i hope you know i'm here if you'd ever like to chat. :) *hugs* xoxo.
from betchy :
oh babe, i wish you would find yourself a nice young man, and learn to trust them!
from betchy :
i am glad you enjoyed it. i wish it was an exaggeration, but sadly it was not. still love you loads babe, from the pom with panache with poise x
from blindessence :
Hey, CSI is awesome! I haven't seen NY yet, but I'm sure I will soon enough. Loving Miami though and just the "regular" one is awesome, too. And thank you very much for your comment on my diary! It means a lot!!!
from hissandtell :
Hi doll! Please forgive (and forget) how utterly pathetic I have been about keeping in touch with you, my favourite Boy from Oz. I did want to pass on this excellent website for your enjoyment: http://www.sixgunner.com/scrimshaw/history.htm - so now you know how, you can first catch your walrus (or sperm whale, if your prefer), then sharpen up those cold chisels and get carving, okay? Love your work, baby! Smooch, R xxx
from betchy :
yessss!!! i'm back in baby!!!
from proudnerd :
Hey I just wanted to say thank you for your diary. I'm going through an unbearable time now (the circumstances of which I can't describe because it would disclose my identity) and reading your journal, with such honest, lucid, self-aware descriptions of pain and its effects, was quite inspirational.
from emeraldblaze :
Hello sweetie. I hope that you are more well by the time you read this comment. I know it has been to long since we spoke last. I need to work on talking to you more. You have become such an important part of my life, that I think about you even when I'm not online (gee I hope that doesn't make me sound creepy) and I worry that I have/am losing the/a friendship with you. This isn't to make you feel bad; I just know that most people don't bother telling others how they feel, as it might upset them, so the meek Blaze that I am is trying to fix that in myself. Moving on to the other reason that I wanted to say something to you today, in reading your past entries, I wonder if you wanted to consider other forms of treatment for you pain. I don’t know how much you “believe” in this stuff but … you might want to try reiki or take a look at it as an aid to the treatments you are in now. Maybe I’ll write you an email about it later. Oh one last thing, I do hope that you are enjoying you supergold upgrade *wink* ta’s Blaze
from betchy :
hey gorgeous, i am over my poorly tummy now thanks. i havent been able to read you fro about a week because your page doesnt load for some reason :( i really dont know why. i am really missing you! so if you were wondering why there is a lack of notes thats why. i guess i will just have to keep trying xxx
from cats-corner :
Hey Jay-man! Thank you so much for joining the Inner Worlds and BVTS-Angel diaryrings! I think I'm in love with you. :-D Want to be my gay husband? Pleeeeeeeeeeze? Preety please? With a cherry (not me sadly, because you wouldn't be interested anyway) on top? :-D -cat-a-log
from cats-corner :
Hey Jay, I just wanted to let you know that I will no longer be reading my "notes" page, so if you have a comment or want to reach me, best to send an e-mail. I apologize if this causes any inconvienence for you. Youre are the bestest and the cutest! *Hugs* -cat
from cats-corner :
No way in hell are you a hack! No! No! No! You're writing has such a familiar, welcoming quality...not to mention a delicacy and beauty that I could never match! How about this...one day, when we're *both* best sellers, we'll do a joint book tour of Australia, the U.S. and Europe? :-D -catbert
from requiel :
I adore you!!
from cats-corner :
Hehehe...you're very sweet Jay. I would be flattered if you lifted "fives and sevens" for your own entry, and would love to read your responses. I think I'm still blushing over your lovely and generous compliments. I'm not the only one who ought to be published you know...there is this amazing writer I know of who lives in Melborne, Australia. In fact, I believe you already know him... :-) -cat
from betchy :
hello lovely one! havent left a note in a while, so sorry, its a nightmare trying to fit everyone in on d-land when my boss is watching like a hawk 24/7. bleaurgh! anyway you might not feel like the company of others at the moment, but i wish you would come over here and stay with me for a few days, i would surely be able to cheer you up and take you on a wicked night out. and i know some GORGEOUS men that would just love you! *mwah* love you lots my little pumpkin xxx p.s why has my site dissappeared from your list? kisses *mwah mwah mwah*
from jaykay617 :
thanks for the note! also, thanks for the best wishes on my engagement!!
from bamstroker :
thank you so much for the note, you are so right. and i have to admit, i can't wait until i feel at peace. your words mean a lot. and, i have to say i 101% agree with bubbles- you ARE brave and i am proud of you! if i were you i probably would have had a panic attack on the spot in front of him and had to be hauled away ;) you put up a kick ass front, honey. don't think you're weak for getting upset over something everyone in the world would be deeply hurt because of. you handled yourself in such an impressive way and i hope one day you will feel proud of yourself, because i was blown away by how you handled that situation. and i think one day you'll be so over all of it that you'll be able to laugh in his face, because you're so much better than him it's not even funny, and he doesn't deserve one second of your time :) *hugs* hang in there, you are doing wonderfully! xoxo.
from cats-corner :
You're very sweet Jay, thank you. And here I was feeling like yesterday's entry was amoung my lesser efforts. :-) *Hugs* -cat
from betchy :
love you jay. thinking about you xxx
from betchy :
man i hope you are ok! my babe if i saw simon (or knew what he looked like) i would kick his head in! because i am actually a ninja on the sly. then that disgusting piece of inhuman trash would be sorry, because i am harder than a box of nails in a steel can! yeah i am!
from cdghost :
dude, that dream about you being glued scared the bejabbers outta me..
from raven13420 :
Hey, I got to your diary from mine cuz I am a huge Robert Jordan fan myself. Good stuff! Later
from girlinshadow :
Awwwwww thank you so much for adding this diary to you l really appreciate it. Just to warn you though...this one is likely to be much darker than the other...if you decide to stop reading because of that, I understand *completely*. You're a stunningly wonderful man...*sigh*, no more than ever, I wish I lived in Australia. Oh well...maybe someday. Who knows right? *Hugs* -g.i.s. PS: Good thing the middle word in my diary name didn't start with an "a," then my acronym would be g.a.s. *Shudder* :-)
from betchy :
how great must you have felt when your ex makes a less than graceful entrance, and you are the picture of poise? thats my boy!!!
from insane-whore :
You're very welcome ♥ And thankyou for your comment about my diary *Blushes* I like to keep my diary simple
from emeraldblaze :
Everything that you write is good. Even if you made a post that only said "Today was a day, I don't feel like sharing" it would still be wonderful. I bet that at least in a part of your mind you thought about the things, you felt you should write, but didn't. IMHO it is more important to acknowledge your thought and emotions then to make sure others are aware of them. i'm not sure if that came out right. All I know is that you are an inspiration to me, and all you have to do, is put what you feel you can. good thoughts to you, and massive mental hugs!
from betchy :
i do like a drink i must admit. the best bit was waking up at 9:30am yesterday morning, and starting on the vodka and orange straight away!! ye ha!!
from betchy :
hello my babe, how is you? please get it together with mason he sounds like such a cherub pie!!! and you know that i am always right! (hahaha) hope all is ok, and you are feeling happy within yourself. things seem to be going ok for you so i am pleased. love you lots speak soon xxx
from bam-stroker :
she (bamstroker) went on a catz spree and then showed me your diary as well! you are indeed a good writer. the aftermath of your suicide attempt was inspiring. i remember once being in a therapist's office and her asking, "do you think you'd ever try to kill yourself?" and i said, "no, i have too much to live for." and even though things get bad, i said that with a smile on my face, and i know there was a lot of truth in it. your entire saga of that period in your life, felt like that moment. anyway, have a nice day :]
from bamstroker :
awww thank you for the note *hugs* have i told you that i love your diary? i went on a catz-eyes spree once and totally read like one hundred entries in a row. you should be a professional writer, your style is addictive and you are a profound storyteller. i mean that. i wish i could tell stories so well. some people have a knack for it and it's always such a pleasure to listen to them. you are talented & a wonderful person. thank you *hugs* :)
from insane-whore :
Just dropping by and wanted to say that I love that photo of the two dogs and I know how your speed episode was because I did Crystal Meth and it was shit... It effected me as little as it would have a person who had been using for years. Anyway, I hope you can keep off the drugs because it only f@#ks you up in the end ♥ Take care *Yells, "Gay Australian's rock!"*
from requiel :
I hope you are feeling better sweetie. Drink lots of water and orange juice. *hug* I think sometimes when people give gifts for no apparent reason it's because they are trying to reach out to you and they don't know any other way to do it. You need to realize your worth. Just because YOU don't think your are beautiful doesn't mean that other people don't look at you and see more than you do. Look at yourself with more than your eyes and see what's in your heart. *hug*
from betchy :
hello gorgeous boy!!! i think a privates folder would be a good idea because if you leave then i will be MOST upset! and i expect to have access to it aswell! i think that you did the right thing giving back the C.D. if you dont feel right about taking it, then you dont feel right, you cant help it! me? i would've kept it, but that is because i am greedy and selfish and love C.D's!!! hahahaha. anyway my babe, take care love you lots *mwah mwah*
from cats-corner :
I *completely* understand about you not being able to write back. Please don't worry about it at all. I just want you to take care of yourself, okay? *Hugs* -cat
from betchy :
honey i love you so much! and the reason that you have been feeling dark is because i havent been on line right? yeah i know, but you can feel better now because i am back! ha ha! please dont leave diaryland i may go into orbit. there is nothing wrong with locking your diary. i didnt ever want to lock mine (mostly because i am an attention whore and want to be listed as a fave by EVERYBODY!) but, i had to. but by the time people found my diary i was addicted to diaryland and couldnt bear to leave it! and dont you dare leave it jay, please i just dont know what i will do! *breaks out into a cold sweat at the mere thought of it*.
from cats-corner :
*Jumps up and down* Oo! Oo! I'd TOTALLY be willing to relocate to Austrailia so I may open a bookstore with you Jay! (Ouch, I think I pulled something with all that jumping up and down). :-D Love, cat-scratch-fever
from the-book-bag :
This note is the hardest to write...it's time for me to leave Diaryland. I will continue reading your diary though Jay. You are a wonderful, sweet, amazing man. Please feel free to e-mail me anytime you're so inclined. *Hugs* -cat
from the-book-bag :
I just wanted to let you know that I left the note at the bookstore today. I forgot to write it before I left, so I ended up ad-libbing the content. I did my best to maintain the spirit and tenor thought. I only hope the person who found it was as sweet and appreciative as you. *Hugs* -cat P.S. Why do I always feel like signing my notes to you with "cheers mate?" :-)
from krugerpak007 :
Haloscan is giving me so many hassles lately...Just wanted to drop a note and say hi. I am so different to Danny you know. When I am sad I have to talk about it, or to the direct person causing it, or to someone. I feel so bad for him. But you are so great with your cooking etc. Have you tried to talk to him or is it a lost cause do you think? Anyway thanks for your e-mail, and I hope Heddy had a good time at her Birthday, although with you around I am positive that she did. Take care and have a good weekend. xoxo Kathy
from betchy :
thanks for that e mail, that actually happened not too far from me!!! soryy about the way things are with danny at the moment, it must be really hard for you. you dont like to see him hurting, but at the same time, you cant make yourself have romantic feelings for someone. babes, i hope it all sorts itself out. and one more thing. yu-gi-oh? whats wrong with you? it sucks eggs! pokemon, jay, pokemon is the way to go. now i never ever want to hear filthy yu-gi-oh language ever again! understand? hee hee love you x
from the-book-bag :
I apologize if my last e-mail freaked you out or put you off in any way. I swear I wasn't trying to hit on you. Oh geez, this note makes me sound more pyschotic than if I'd just said nothing. Shoot me, please? -cat
from the-book-bag :
For me, the divine Mrs. Rabbit has too much boobage. I'm one of the few women on earth who is perfectly happy to be a B cup. And despite being bi, I can't say extreme tit-wattage does anything for me when it comes finding a woman attractive. (You must remember however, that I'm a freak. :-D) Of course, I get the feeling you're a saucy number (just like Jessica) so I can definitely see you channeling her in your next life. -catbert
from the-book-bag :
That IS freaky. You wanna know something even freakier? I've always secretly wished I could be an eloquent, gay Austrailian man! Okay, maybe wanting to be Cate Blanchett is first on the list but you're a close second. :-) -cat
from betchy :
ahhhhh, danny loves you!!! he made you a beanie!! no-one has ever made me a beanie!!! that is like, the sweetest thing ever! dont you have any feelings for him at all??? has anything ever happened between you? and why does celeste not like you? answers to these left in my notes page please!! do you have any questions for me?? i have been a bit boring of late!!!! never mind, love you babes x
from betchy :
honey, how do you get that googled thing?? i want to know if anyone gets my diary when they google!!! i dont know how to get it though :-(
from thecrankyone :
Thanks for the sweet B'day wishes.. I'm sorry to hear about your mother, but it sounds like your dad and step mom are trying, and they are aware of her "games".. ((hugs))
from plume :
well done, you win :)
from betchy :
i am so glad that you have got such an understanding dad and stepmum. i feel better knowing you have people like that around you. leave me a note soon my sweet, love you x
from anti-lies :
I thank you for letting me know about the error ♥ It should be fixed shortly
from anti-lies :
You are very welcome. I look forward to reading what you have to say ♥ Wishing that life is being kind to you also
from anti-lies :
Feel free to drop by and add an entry anytime ♥
from bloodyjuliet :
Oh, a novel ^.^ Wonderful! I'm going off to read it now. I'm excited! Yay! Take Care, --Jenine
from betchy :
glad it worked. love you jay xxx
from betchy :
ok. you are not allowed to be sad!!! you will smile when you read this note. the mere mention of the word smile makes people smile, so when you read it you have to smile. the word even looks smiley, so please let me know if you smiled when you got this. i bet you did xxx
from betchy :
oh. my. god. i cannot believe that freak show text you!!! what an absolute tosser!! i am shocked by his behaviour, shocked!!! apart from that it sounds like you had a good weekend. that was sweet of danny to buy you that c.d. i had a bit of a mad one, but what else would you expect?? leave me a note soon, lots of love xxxx
from thecrankyone :
Thanks for the lovely message. The quote in my profile is from an episode of M*A*S*H an American Sitcom from the 70's. Its from an episode where one of the chubby nurses (Kelly Mcnimara) reads Hawkeye (Alan Alda) the riot act, because he ignores her, the minute a good looking nurse comes in the room.
from betchy :
glad i made you chuckle, and can i say that your entries have been a lot more upbeat lately. i guess you're feeling happier, which makes me happy!!!! i am so glad. anyway hope you are ok, i wont be on d-land again now until tuesday, so have a good weekend, and be sure to include lots of news about mason!!! xxxxxx
from betchy :
lisa is just pa-the-tic!!! yeah she is i am soooooooobeyond cross with her i could cut off her hair and sell it to a russian hair-buyer. i dont know if they exist but i will find one. then i will send her to tunisia, and exchanger her for 100 camels. i've always liked camels, and i am sure they are far more loyal than that fat flob. can you tell i am mad!!! i may well have found the name angus cute, if the owner of the name didnt look like a drug dealer!!! its cute for a cat. not so cute for a gap-toothed imbecile, who though "do you and your friend want to come to mine for a jacuzzi? we could all kinky together" was a successful chat up line. what a life i have at the moment. honey, i really like the sound of mason. is he cute? is he nice? i like his name and for some reason like entries where he pops up. i have taken a shine to him. not sure why. love ya bundles x p.s thanks for the e mail xxx
from krugerpak007 :
How are you? I know I owe you an e-mail. And by the way, I can't wait for the secret you have been working on!!! xoxox Kathy
from betchy :
thanks for the explanation of what a possum is!!! if there are any creatures we get in the wilds of england that you need a description of be sure to let me know!! xxx
from betchy :
you are just such a heartbreaker arent you!!! all these guys falling in love with you! serves you right for being so gorgeous x
from emeraldblaze :
it has been a time since I left a note for you. I was having one ofthose if you thought some thing you should tell them days. So I wanted to let you know that I started thinking about you at random today, I don't think That I have ever been so glad to know someone. That must sound odd since we only know eachother through the bias writings of our diaries. If you need anything ever, let me know and I'll use all the power in me to make it happen for you.
from requiel :
Thanks for the note! I have started reading your diary as well. The cats are adorable! I'm trying to talk my Hubby into getting one. It's been a bout a year since ours died. :(
from betchy :
oh good, i am glad that your not cross!!! did you have a read of it? i dont know what a possum looks like!!!! are they nice? love you x
from hissandtell :
I really enjoyed reading about your possum-chatting, darling. They are the cutest little things, aren't they? I love the way they have embraced suburbia with their opportunistic little paws. And I actually thought you may have had some kind of fleeting emotional or spiritual epiphany through your marsupial interaction. You do sound lighter and happier! Love, R xxx
from betchy :
hey sweetie, listen i just came across a diary at random brokenmirror, she writes all this poetry and stuff about suicide. i left her a note recommending her to read you, but i thought you might relate to each other. the diary is fascinating, i have added her. i hope you dont get mad at me for doing this, but i really think you might like the diary. i hope you dont think i am being out of order, just thought of you when i found her. bit worried you might get mad now atch!!! hope you are ok, tell me off if your cross and i will never do it again!!! love you x
from slidesorter :
here this one is new i'v worked on it to long so its yous now here it goes Love leads me not to fear for there is nothing in life to fear but ones self hope that you like and thanx sooo much for the note really got me working again :)
from betchy :
heeee-eeeeyyyy!!!!! whats the new project then?? i am intrigued!!! thanks for the analysation of the dream. maybe your right, i dunno. i do worry about that boy!!! glad you are ok, let me know what the new proj is soon ok? love you x
from betchy :
babe you have the most awful dreams!!! i dont know how you sleep sometimes!! are you any good at knowing what dreams mean? because i had one last night that my sister amy wanted to try heroin, and fenton was going to score some for her, and no matter how much i begged both of them not to, they still went off and got some, and he let her do it. hmmmm dont know what that means, but it was nasty. hope you are ok my little chickerdee, when you going to leave me note to brighten up my day? lots of love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from bamstroker :
hello sweetheart- yes, i kind of went on a diary ring splurge there haha, what can i say i have some lonely nights. i read through your entries and i've fallen in love with your diary so i am adding you to my list. i also read about your suicide attempt and can't tell you how happy i am that you made it through and things turned out better in the end. good luck! whit. love xx.
from betchy :
HEY BABY!!!! glad your feeling better sweet pea, i missed you for those few days!!! just read your review, and its pretty good!!! i sometimes have to wait a while for your page to load aswell, but its always worth it, because there is always so much stuff to read. i love you!!!! well this is just a quickie, because i think i mught actually have to do some work soon. thats not on is it? speak soon luscious **mwah mwah**
from slidesorter :
ok got another one Darkness A veil af blackness covers everything swooping over and swallows it to be caught in this submurging blackness seems faitfull but i do it any way thanx for the note glade you like. when i think of others ill let you know k? :)
from avalonte :
Found you through Betchy. Love your diary. Have actually been reading for a while, but just got round to adding you officially to my favourites list. Who was the Neighbours actress you bumped into? Anyway, take care of yourself. I hope you're feeling better soon!!
from krugerpak007 :
You left me the sweetest note ever. Just when I needed it. Thank you so much! I hope you are feeling better! xoxox Kathy
from over25revue :
your review is up, sugarboogers.
from slidesorter :
may you get better may the sheets get no wetter From the tears that i dry from each little eye may you nose stop drip dropping may you be about and hopping i cry out to you for your feeling blue the skys are now gray with each passing day get better soon Hope you feel better soon sorry couldn't think of an ending for this hope you like. Don't be down long please can't stand another day without an entry its awesome. feel better:(
from krugerpak007 :
Hi honey. Are you feeling any better? Thinking of you. xoxox Kathy
from betchy :
oh, sweetie, am so sorry you dont feel well!!! i really hope you feel better soon. just keep bloeing it all out instead of sniffing it in, that makes it stay longer. feel better honey bun xxx
from ehays :
Hey Jay, Just felt the need to write based on your response of the email Molli left. I'm going to have to be on Molli's side on this. You are a beautiful person, and the courage you display daily is an inspiration. Don't think you aren't courageous - courage is merely the fact that you feel fear and continue anyway. In my eyes, you definitely qualify! One point in your post has me quite confused. In what way, shape or form do you think you are a sham or a fraud. You are representing yourself as who you are, and what you feel and think. That doesn't seem like sham or fraud to me ... although I can understand the reticence of accepting compliments. I usually go the opposite route and insult myself. I think it's a safety feature I've built into me. If I do it first, then it kinda takes the edge away from everyone else. I know that's a weird kind of logic, but who ever said I was logical was dealing with a short deck themselves. :) Anyway, am gonna split now and try to catch up on a few things. Take care, and don't let the pissants get you down! Luff~E
from betchy :
i will try my hardest to support him if it does go that way again, but i will do everything in my power to make sure it doesnt!!! thanks again for you kind words. speak soon darlin xxx
from betchy :
well thank you very much!!! you are always so nice to me **bless you**. well the fenton thing. oh god, basically, he used to be a heroin addict, but he has been clean for ages. he went to prison because of all this bad shit, but when he came out he was like a different person. he was so positive and determined to sort himself out. well he told me that on wednesday last week he relapsed. he smoked a pipe of crack, and a bag of heroin. he felt terrible, and promised that it wouldnt happen again, but i've a feeling it may have happened again last night, but until i speak to him today i dont know. anyway, i want to say to him that if he gets back on it i'll have nothing more to do with him, but that isnt going to help him. he will need support, and as his friend i have to be there for him i guess. i'm just so incredibly dissappointed. i'm not even angry, just sad. never mind. hope you are ok sweetie, big hugz for you xxxx
from krugerpak007 :
you are pretty damn special yourself. xoxo K
from plume :
Hehe thank you. Some day I'll learn Russian.
from hissandtell :
Well, how dizzily flattered am I? Thank you so much for your lovely note and kind words, darling. I'm enjoying reading through your, ahhh, back entries (yes, yes, that old joke) very much, and looking forward to finding out more and more. And I simply must tell you that I'm Sorority Slut Barbie, too! Snap! Love, R xxx
from betchy :
well thank you, i am glad that you are glad to have me back!! i think what you said about the sean and amy situation is right. although i love my sisters more than anything in the world, i do feel second class to them they are so gorgeous!!! i will try that diaryring, not sure how to copy and paste, but i will figure it out!! thanks for inviting me!!! oh, and i think mikey sounds like a real sweetie. that e mail you wrote summed things up perfectly. good luck with the book angel, lots of love xxx
from for-you-only :
So, are you in the circle, or are you not? Your in the diaryring...
from ehays :
Hello. Thanks for the lovely note! I really appreciate that someone else can understand what I'm trying to say. :) I'm going to have to rent Donnie Darko. I promise I'll let you know, 'k? All the best, E
from in-my-life :
Thank you for completing my survey. Your thoughtful responses made me curious about you, so I checked out your diary. Loved it! I'll be stopping by again.
from o-jasmine-o :
Welcome to the Complex Ring. I'm sorry it took me so long to approve you!
from betchy :
hey you, havent heard from you in a couple of days just checking that you are ok. leave me a note soon ok babe, have a good weekend xxx
from banefulvenus :
Wow, I thought your banner was amazing, and your site is even BETTER!!!!
from betchy :
you are the biggest babe in the whole world, you leave me the nicest notes. i love it when i see i've got one from you, because you always have something lovely to say. ye ha!!! i really do think that setting up a review site of review sites is a good idea, and i would slate easyreviews!!! no, i shouldnt say that really, i dont want to be accused of not tking critisism (although it wasnt even that, thay were just plain nasty). i think your review from them will be ok though, because they seem to like diaries that have feeling in them, which mine obviously doesnt!!! they will love you i'm sure (how could they not) over25review is great though, its done by onewetleg, she's the one that changed my template for me, but she isnt nasty at all, just tells it like it is!! and she loves me, so i love her back!!! your review will be great i'm sure my darling!!! and i'm not at all sad that they said i suck, not at all (wipes away tear). speak soon !!! xxx
from over25revue :
ooh, i thought betchy was scottish! im such an ass! of course i would be glad to review you. i will put you on the pending list right now.
from betchy :
you are most welcome my sweetie. my life is ok at the mo'. you know me though, even if it was shite i would find a funny side to it. i got a really dreadful review from easyreviews. they absolutely hated me and slated me. wowza's!!! i never knew i was that bad. got a pretty good one from over25revue though (except they said i was from scotland). i hope that you are feeling okay sweetie, millions of hugz xxx
from betchy :
oh my god. OH MY GOD!! i am stunned. i can barely even write this because i just cannot believe those awful things. i have just finished the last of the entries you recommended to me, and i am so shocked, and disgusted, that i cant believe he is still roaming the streets. babe i am so SO sorry for everything you have been through, and wish that i had discovered diaryland earlier on so maybe i could have been here for you in some way, however small. never hesitate to leave me a note if you want some comfort, ok. lots of love xxx
from vaaylin :
That picture in the top left hand corner is absolutely phenomenal. Just for the record.
from betchy :
i just read your latest entry, and i am going to start going through your archives later, but, oh my god, i cant believe he did that. i really just cant believe anyone would do that to you, you're sucha babe!!! i will leave you a note when i have read all about it properly. think of me before you go to sleep babe, they might still be nightmares you have, but at least they will be amusing ones!!!! take care babez, hugz xxx
from betchy :
ooooh i could bloody well shoot that simon for making you feel so bad!!! just read the e mail, i think you should send it!!! let him know what a complete and utter freak show he is. one thing though. i'm not too clear on what exactly it was he did. i know it must be awful, but have been going through your archives and cant seem to find it. tell me the name of the entry its under and i will read it. i really do think you shoulf send him that e mail though. make him feel guilty. why should he walk around without a care in the world while you have to harbour all this pain and distress. send it honey. leave me a note later o.k, hope you had a good weekend, speak soon, hugz xxxx
from bloodyjuliet :
Teehee. Yay for the hopeless romantics of the world ^o^ But yeah, Justin Timberlake is way to overrated, I find. He can't even sing that well. Heh, I prefer talent over rock hard abs anytime :D take care.
from betchy :
do you now what? i just want to give you a great gig hug, you are so lovely and you have made me feel really good about my diary. i am sooooo glad you like it so much, and just for the record, i LOVE yours too. and babe, believe me, you put loads of feeling into your writing!!! yours almost brings me to tears sometimes, i feel like i know you almost!! thankz for the congratz for resisting temptation, it makes it all the more worthwhile when people tell you well done!!! anyway gotta go, as i am not doing any work at all!! naughty!! speak soon, hugz xxxx
from mistresslink :
how about this one: yes in bavaria, where the sheep seldom wear spectacles!
from ginko :
hey doll thanks for joining the ringaddict diaryring!
from mistresslink :
thanks for joining the criminal intent ring.
from enigmawolf :
Hehe thankya much. Glad you enjoyed it and the catnip is excellent ;) Thanks for reading my diary, lol it makes me feel special when people do that. I just found yours through a banner and its pretty spiffy! ^-^ ~ Peace out!
from betchy :
yeah for sure, you should come to weston, and i could take you up manhattens!!!! and everyone would be like "who is that handsome stranger with becky??" it would be sooooo cool. glad you like the diary, and glad it cheers you up. i dont like to be too serious in my writng because i am not a very serious person!!! by the way, i think if you cried in your sesh with kim, that is a good sign, it means the wall is starting to come down, and now you can start recovering (that is not just random crap, i speak from experience) hope you are ok sweetz, hugz xxxx
from survivorguru :
Wow dude, your unbreakable huh? You can make it through anything. Your diary is cool too
from bloodyjuliet :
Hi there. I'm just writing you a nice note to tell you how much I enjoy your diary ^.^ You have a very nice writing style and I hope you don't minc if I add you to my favorites ^^
from betchy :
allo, allo, allo, just to let you know i learnt how to do a link, so i done one to you!! yay!! just reading about your brushes with death, you sure have had a few close calls mate!!!! i love your diary so much, i feel like i know you, because you remind me so much of my friend terry (if you read entry "auntie flo" terry is in that). not lookswise, but the way you write and things you say and stuff. how fun!!! anyway, hope your o.k loadsa love beckz xxx
from betchy :
hello again thankz for adding me to your faves!!! i like being called a pom with panache!!! i think i will refer to myself as that from now on!!! anyway just wanted to say thanksz, now there is 8 whole people that like me!!! yay me!! take care, hugz beckz xxx
from betchy :
hello. i came across your diary because i noticed your username, and as i love cats, i thought i would have aread. oh my god, i love you!!!!! i am adding you to my faves, and i am going to read you every day!!! havent read all your entries, havent had time yet, but will go back through the archives for sure!!! read me if you get a chance, my diary is totally different to yours, but i hope you like :-) dont judge me on my last 2 entries though, they are a bit boring, you will have to go back a bit to get to the good stuff!!!! anyway, had to tell you how much i liked you, take care, hugs, beckz xxx
from banefulvenus :
great banner!!!
from cdghost :
stumbled across your words and enjoyed reading them
from emeraldblaze :
*hugs* I feel gulity for not having the strenght to write you somthing in depth and helpful. I hope mental hugs will fill in for me, for now. If I ever get my messed up life in respitable state ... I'll write better things to you
from emeraldblaze :
I have no "good" reason for leaving this note. I just got to thinking about you today, you have this parallel with parts of my past. I just wanted you to know that some little aficionado in Canada, couldn't stop thinking about you, on march 25, 2004.
from emeraldblaze :
hey handsome! I wanted to leave to a note to let you know that I'm still around. I did get you e-mails and your notes. I havn't had the conviction do anything about anything so that is why you haven't heard from me. I hope to be writing you soon.
from emeraldblaze :
You know the funny thing is that, I had done one thing that shocked me today, and then I came home and read your entry. I said something nice and honest about myself out loud to people I didn't really know. If little things like this happen, I think that D-Day will be about living the way I deserve. *MAWH* take care you.
from emeraldblaze :
*hug* i don't know, for some reason I wanted to give you that. take it easy.
from jarf :
My diary is temporarily locked. User/pass is guest/guest.
from emeraldblaze :
Gee I want to be able to send you "snail mail" I think you need to e-mail me and we can set that up *wink*. well I have no idea if I will be able to hit the right day, what with the international date line and all, So right now I want to wish you a happy (or similar) Birthday. Be well and much love to you.
from emeraldblaze :
I just wanted to send a big hug! I'm not sure how I'm doing, kind of and up down thing. I hope things change soon, this is geting to be to much. I wish my mind would make itself up.
from emeraldblaze :
I'm having a bad night, and a rough time finding suport. I just hope you are having an ok night/day. sorry for this vauge note, I'm just looking for somewhere to turn
from emeraldblaze :
"A cat will assume the shape of its container." ~ Unknown
from emeraldblaze :
thinking of you as well!
from emeraldblaze :
forgive my running away, I didn't mean too but my net died *sigh* I just got it back, people dont be madits not my fault
from emeraldblaze :
I'm so glad I no longer have to hate the name ryan! I'm sorry that your body isn't handling things as well as you might like, but things are changing and you are being a fantastic insperation to me. it's been a long few days for me so I'm going to have to make this short. best wishes
from emeraldblaze :
Ok I didn't want this message to go with my other post, it just doesn't fit in the same area. as I was reading your latest entry, I was thinking many a thing. (I love that about your writing, it makes me think). Anyway I was thinking about how up down I have been the past few day and what a tough go I'm having of it, and while reading this entry this huge part of me went all "nuts" and I didn't care about cost, time, lack of important details. All I know is that I wanted to rush to the airport and jump on a plane to see you just so I could sit next to you and hold your hand, not talking just giving hugs, sighs, and suport. That must sound spooky.if I had the reasonable means, I'd do it in a heart beat. You desearve so much. I just wnated to let you know what I was thinking. I hope I didn't spook you out. Good days!
from emeraldblaze :
of course you may use that quote. And you answer your other questions, That poem that about tomorrows, was sent to me as a random quote didn't say who wrote it so I have to guess anon. as for the eyes I went looking for images and ran across it.. I go to so many places, but if you want to use it you may.
from emeraldblaze :
you latest entry reminded me of a favourite quote of mine (well taht and I have had other things on my mind that had me thinking about it) I just wanted to share that quote with you "Absence is to love what wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small, it enkindles the great." -Comte DeBussy-Rabutin
from emeraldblaze :
you write so well. I used to think, at one point, that I could write too. Ah but how the times have changed. Feeling a bit down today, it was nice to hear that you have some ups in your life. I hope sleep found you. have a good day
from emeraldblaze :
I loved our chat this morning. I was somthing else. I hope I didn't keep you up too late. just wanted to drop you a note.
from emeraldblaze :
wow! After reading that note, I don't make a lick of sence outside my head. Forgive this complex fool.
from emeraldblaze :
oh you are a sweet silly dolt! thank you for the words you left me, on a day I needed them most. I don't know you, in fact I have been only reading your "life" for a week now, and yet there is this huge part of me that wants to fly the 18 hours to see you and hug you and chat you up. That said You frustrate me! you manage to say the perfect mix of words to a 20 year old canadain, to soothe her... and yet you are being such a GUY in your life. Look at all you have done in the past week or so. If I thought I could change your mind, I would tell you to gather all of your thoughts and just tell him. I'm not saying it would be easy, I'm saying that is the smartest thing. Not that I REALLY know, but I have the hunch, he knows, better you tell him.
from emeraldblaze :
I love your name. I didn't read many of your entries, but I did click on a few. I have to say I like what I read, you seem like one of the few people that take the time and put what you want to say, deeply, creativly, and intelagently without being overly verbose or dramatic. Well done, I just thought you should know.
from tastral :
hey hay its tony! spring cleaning on boxing day????? are you mad?!!!!!!! looks like you had a peaceful xmas day - but what about presents? or did im iss something? before i go reading ur previous entries let me just say that its fan-bloody-tastitc to read your journal again! x
from sinnerboy84 :
Howdy, I'm glad you enjoy reading my diary. I absolutely love hearing from people and what they think. Many thanks for the encouragement and support.
from ihateshoes :
Hello Kiddo! I didn't update but I got your note and thought I'd say thanks. Where've ya been? Your never on when I am. I'll have to switch my routine up and talk to ya sometime. hahaha. Peace to you my friendly aussie. Love ya. ~Kyle~ P.S. this is the first night I haven't gotten to talk to my Luis in a long time. I miss him.
from greenson :
Hey thanks for the note. I thought the entry was pretty cool myself. I felt like I neede to get something out with a few of my "friends". Laters! ~~Mark~~
from ihateshoes :
You must cheer up! The world loves you bunches! You should smile because millions of turkeys can't now. :) Love ya Jay! ~Kyle~
from jarf :
Hey, interesting diary you have. I enjoyed reading it. Do you mind if I add you to my favorites? ~ Matt
from ihateshoes :
Okay, Wow! Your life is much more Exciting than mine! You have a great talent for telling the stories of yourlife which amek me jealous except for the whole hangover thing. Can't say I have ever wanted one of those, then again, I doubt you have ever wanted them either. :) Anywho, I thought I'd leave you a note and tell ya I am chipping away slowly at your entries (there's a bunch!) and.... yeah that's about it! Thanks for the compliment on my writing. Oh! and I am lovethypenguin on both Yahoo! and MSN messenger. So stick me in your thingy (wow that sounds so... dirty) and yell at me sometime, call me your dirty little so-and-so... or... ya know... whatever you want. hehehe Have a good night or I guess cheers, sense you are from Australia. Damnit I've written a lot again. ~kyle~
from greenson :
Hey man! Thanks for the note! I really do like reading your diary! I'm glad u you like mine! =P Take it easy! If you have AIM or Yahoo, then IM me sometime! AIM: bloodwngs YIM: brak642
from dyingangel83 :
Hi, thanks for the words of encouragement; appreciate them. =) My diary entries are not a total representation of me though. I only wrote them when I was feeling down or depressed, with a few, occasional happy entries. :) Anyway, thanks so much for reading them. Huggies, Albert
from greenson :
Hey fellow gay diaryland user! I read an entry and was completely astounded by your writing style. ^.^ Keep up the great diary! By the way, I really like your profile and the things you listed as favorites!

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