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Sounds good. I'd send you my address via nationstates except my state no longer exists, apparently I neglected it too long.:P If you email me from your address i'll send it to you that way. My email address is my real name with 3 m's instead of one, minus the e and n at gmail.com . Got that? ;)

from ivoryfaerie :

Glad you got it:) I sent it off a little later than I'd intended to, but maybe I'll send another with my next bunch of postcards I send out. (might be awhile.. I've done one batch in 5 almost 6 months...) As for WGT, I would absolutely love to go one day, I think it's mostly a matter of finding someone to go with, cause I don't see myself ever going alone. I've got one friend in particular who really wants to go, but he's terrible at saving up money and I just don't see it happening in the near future. :(

from morguecrawl :

I don't think I do have it anymore. E-mail me from the account you'd like me to use at [email protected]

from morguecrawl :

Hey! I know we don't really talk anymore but it's a shame! Both really busy I suppose. But I have a bunch of music I'd love to bounce off of you. I really want to get your opinion on it. Any chance we can get in touch so I can send you a CD?

from ivoryfaerie :

Don't know if you'd be into this.. but my roomate downloaded the pdf file of jennifer government recently so I have it on my computer if you want it. Let me know.

from wateryone :

I wish I had time! Jennifer Government is what got my husband and I into Nationstates in the first place. Max Barry's Australian, which is cool... but also, I really admire soemone who can write a good novel AND create a fantastic simulation game.

from ivoryfaerie :

I can see where you're coming from. I seem to be in the same situation, I haven't been to an industrial night in months and months. It saddens me a bit, but its not like the club is going anywhere. Glad to see you're enjoying the company of babies too:) Also thought I'd let you know I recently finished reading Jennifer Government (by Max Barry). I highly recommend it if you haven't already!

from wateryone :

I know, I just read your diary and felt guilty, I drifted out months ago. But despite the last couple of elections (here and abroad, although luckily NZ's still going strong) I still believe in political idealism, so I hope you keep playing and enjoy yourself (I almost got seduced back when I noticed there was a guy who named the ambassador from his nationstate Sax Russell, my favourite character from KSR's Mars Triology - truly one of the best political fictions around, it made me want to get back into Nation States and live it real time, but I'm way way too busy at the moment)

from wateryone :

I dearly wish Howard Dean was running, I love him! Still, it seems to be going okay. Now that I'm living in Australia, it is depressing, because John Howard was relected last night. Everyone thought it would be a really close race, but in the end he won by a landslide, and in his speech said it was the beginning of a new era. Which is rubbish, because he's just sticking with the same old, same old, being a slave to Bush and not looking to Asia. Anyway, it's pissing me off. I want to move back to nice liberal NZ! :)

from ivoryfaerie :

I'll definitely have to check out the chat forums on nationstates one of these days, but for the time being I think my computer and I are in too much of an unhealthy relationship as it is:P Will definitely keep it in mind though!

from ivoryfaerie :

a- that monkey picture is awesome!! b- ya, I know it'll get easier with time. I just hate waiting for it to :P

from charminggirl :

children have a harder time trying to focus on something small with a whole bunch in the background. it's not uncommon.

from wateryone :

It sounds exciting to me! I am just screaming for the normality of people having babies and trees hitting houses and dictators taking over my region. Moving to a new city is scary, I'd much rather have all the mundane stuff! ;)

from morguecrawl :

I did get the postcard from Frankfurt! It made my day! Sounds like you got to see a lot of great bands and yet again had an awesome trip. Envy, blah, blah, blah. You get it every year from me *L* Glad you're home safe and sound. Can't wait to hear more about the trip.

from ivoryfaerie :

Enough said! If Ronan Harris has been there...;) (He's also from Dublin, originally, where I'm starting out my trip. If I was more the stalker type I might consider hunting down any "Harris" in the phone book... but I'm not. Really...)Incidentally, the dvd is amazing. I ordered it and it arrived awhile ago. I also checked out Slimelight's website... looks like the dress code is pretty much like most clubs here, they're ok with the classic all-black look. I think I'll stick to that. Bright colours and glowsticks aren't really my thing;)... Planning on posting any pictures of the festival? You should..(hint hint)

from ivoryfaerie :

Wow...looks like you had an amazing trip. Nice line-up. Thanks for the info on the club, I'll definitely think about checking it out. I'd actually heard of it before, I didn't realize that it was a goth club though.

from unwittingly :

Sunburn? More like beef jerky; it's already getting to 105+ over here.

from wateryone :

Have a great time! I'd love a postcard, but since I'm going to be at a whole new address in a whole new country, I don't like my chances. :)

from ivoryfaerie :

Hey-hope your travel plans are coming along nicely. Although I'm sure you're already aware, VNV is having a showing of their dvd during the festival which is free to all wgt ticket holders. So you should definitely go.. since I can't maybe I can vicariously live it through you since you'll be writing an entry about it after...right? ;p Have an awesome time!!

from onceknownas :

Okay. Pay no attention to the madwoman behind the curtain...

from onceknownas :

You know, I can delete that February entry if it bugged you as much as I think it must have. It was simply meant as a compliment, however else it might have been taken. Just so's ya know.

from ivoryfaerie :

Have a great time at the festival, and as long as you remember 'gesundheit'(sp?) you'll be fine. (Nothing wrong with wishing good health to everyone you meet...although sexual-attraction wise you might have to come up with something a little more refined)Are you planning on making it over to the U.K at all while you're there? Let me know what it's like, I'm heading over in July and nothing in my guide book says anything about the best i/g clubs. Go figure.;)

from wateryone :

Arrghhh, I completely identify. People at my work print out every email they get, hundreds of pages of reports that will be out of date by tomorrow. My boss will wave an email that she just printed off in front of me and ask if I received it, when I say yes and point out that the email was sent to the full-staff mailing list, she will say 'oh' and screw the page up into a tight satisfying ball and chuck it in the bin, when there is a recylcing bin five steps away. It drives me insane. Not to mention depresses me. What is it about human beings and waste? Do they feel like the more waste they create, the more productive they are being?

from wateryone :

I often wish secretly to myself that I could travel somewhere all on my own. I hope you enjoy it.

from wateryone :

hah. I loved your sandbox story... we had a similar gettup that we used to play on the sides of sandy nz rivers called Sammy Cement. We didn't actually have cement though *jealous* Like you said, no wonder....

from unwittingly :

Fact: your beloved goth girls may not wilt in the sun, but they sure do melt. :P

from deepbluefunk :

you are not a dork but you are a geek--and that's a good thing. of course those girls are interested in you. you are wonderful and smart. go talk to them!!! be brave, honey.

from unwittingly :

Hey, screw you! I like my trashy stiletto boots and sandles. If I ever find the need to run, I'll just throw my heels of doom at the source of danger.

from wateryone :

It's really not that cold here, but it feels cold. My hands and feet are all numb. It's 5-10C in the day and about -1C during the night. It's either crisp and sunny or very windy and very rainy. I guess being near the sea does that. Right now it's crisp and sunny. I do like the winter atmosphere, but in small doses.

from ivoryfaerie :

re: today's entry-And I think you should get an award just for saying that...!

from ivoryfaerie :

Did you see them?? (wolfsheim).. Of course I dreamed of going to see them but that was about all I could do due to lack of funds and time... one day, I can hope... and the map is just incredible, I think all the other regions are totally missing out, cause of the map, and just how great the np people are!!

from onceknownas :

Doh! Just read the postscript - and glad I am that you liked SCM. I don't remember if I sent you one albumn of theirs or two - but if you like, I'll happily send you one other of theirs that I highly recommend - their first one. Say the word, and it's your'n. :)

from ivoryfaerie :

Wie geht's? thanks for the note =)

from morguecrawl :

Re: Space Frog. I don't know if you'd even be able to find a whole album of their stuff. They seem to do a lot of remixing, not much producing. I'm not fond of their stuff though.

from pixiexmagick :

Never again qualities, huh? Maybe I should try that. LOL. It can't be any worse than some of the other things I've tried....

from morguecrawl :

I'm not too sure. I'll get back to you on that. You trust my taste, don't you?

from morguecrawl :

Re: Space Frog. That's because they are a hard house project. ;-) They get no play in YOUR clubs, but they do in mine.

from morguecrawl :

That's alright, I sort of figured. Europe is exciting though and I know how much you love it. Much better than a trip to Toronto. Besides, you're right. Line ups like this happen pretty frequently up here. Next time.

from morguecrawl :

Hey you. Just wondering if those travel plans came together? It's getting close now. Just a few weeks away.

from wateryone :

I have definitely elevated California to a higher plain, and I know that it will not be like I expect it. Except for the odd little swale or valley, tucked away in places I will probably never find. I would love to visit the Sierra Nevada's though, and I know that what will keep me believing in the idea of California will be remembering what it was like and imagining what it -could- be like. You're right though. New Zealand is still so untouched and most South Islanders are so open to the idea of conservation, that we still might have time to get there.. you know.. to utopia. Or a utopia of sorts. You should come to NZ one day.. of course, there is next to no rivet culture.. but there's always room from some industrialisation. And we have cool rivers :)

from ivoryfaerie :

re-girl in the black shirt-what, you mean I'm not the only person who wears black when I go to industrial shows???! Ya, that comment was meant as a joke based on the fact that although I found myself in the photos, I'm hardly recognisable in the crowd of other black-clothed industrial/synthpop fan types. If you really want to know, I'm in the front behind some shirtless dude with my face covered by another guy's hand and fog/dry ice. Ya, I know. I'm a star.

from ivoryfaerie :

Actually, I'll probably be leaving for Europe (if I do go) more towards the end of June-so I'll miss that festival. I'm still looking into any other shows that might happen while I'm there though. No luck so far. And I'm not even sure where exactly in Europe I'll be going yet... leaning towards Ireland but of course if I do happen to find out about a good show in other parts-my plans can change!

from katiedoyle :

ooo...come again on the where the wild things are maze?! kd

from onceknownas :

Re: Favorite Entry - Glad you liked it. You inspired it. Happy Valentine's Day.

from onceknownas :

Re: Favorite Entry - Glad you liked it. You inspired it. Happy Valentine's Day.

from wateryone :

now I have this hilarious image of this incredible reflecting, alcohol imbibing, skiing one man band. I think if you go again, you should go ice skating first and practice your snow plough... hee. that way you won't want to stab the ground so much. Now I want to go skiiing, sans the mirror of course... that would be -way- too distratcing.

from wateryone :

ha ha. I LOVED your firestarting story. That was classic. I wonder if your arms were sore because you were tense and hunching your shoulders and neck and gripping your poles. I've seen a lot of new skiiers do that. Me, I've only been skiiing twice, once downhill, once cross country... but I ice skated for years, and it's a similar principle, so I was okay.

from morguecrawl :

Iszoloscope was added to the bill this week! Along with 4 other projects I'm not familiar with. I gloated at Yann because he was hedging the subject last week.

from wateryone :

*beams* I love ecotopia... it's one of my favourites. Of course, I am obsessed with West Coast science fiction... as you know. And environmental utopia's are my forte. Those Canadians must have been pretty cool. I love how the nurses in ecotopia go above and beyond normal nurse duties... and the way the trains down to tahoe don't have seats... just piles of pillows.

from ivoryfaerie :

on openmindedness--You put it into words better than I could! That's exactly what pisses me off, the people who have never crossed the line, but pretend they have...it's like saying 'I love carrots', even though you've never tried them. (although 'hating carrots' works the same way I think)... On goth nights- you're right, I guess I'll have to go and see... but it was on Fridays for awhile and of course the turnout was great (for Wpg, which is still pretty shabby compared to most other major Canadian cities.)I'm actually considering making it out to saturation bombing, too... depends on my money situation when the time comes.

from morguecrawl :

Leaning this way, hmm? Awesome. I've launched a campagne to convince Carmela she wants to show up that weekend too. Wouldn't that be great? Maybe you should suggest it to her too. ;-) Glad you had fun in Vancouver. I used to have a few scene connections there, but it's been years since I talked to them. Sounds like things are still good there though. It's still only #3 for scenes in Canada, though. Followed by a quickly backsliding Montreal, then, well, you know where. *heh* Here is still #1. Anyways, I hope you can make it! I promised TiK Americans!

from wateryone :

Loved your latest entry and couldn't agree more re: how people from the rest of the world feel about the way the campaigns for a democratic candidate are going. I know that here, we would just really like someone who can beat Bush, but think they all could! and are getting a bit sick of people wasting time arguing over who has the best chance instead of just backing who they believe in the most. My husband, mum and I are hopeful that Howard Dean will be in with a chance... but we'll just have to wait and see.

from onceknownas :

Just read your latest entry in my guestbook, resulting in confusion - because at first, it read that you are a *robotic pig who works with monkeys.* Then I reread it, and it made sense - which wasn't *nearly* as much fun as the first mental image. Oink, Oink - Eek, Eek!

from onceknownas :

Q3:(smartass...) - A: No. Or minimal at worst. Nosy twerp. Re:Today's entry - I have, in fact, seen two people in a cage at our Club - and if I hadn't known more than I wanted to about the sexual history of the two people in question, it actually might have been sexy - however, I did, and it wasn't. And the cage was actually removed specifically *because* of those two people - the DJ couldn't stomach the sight anymore than the rest of us could. (makes face) Now, grinding hamsters... It's statements like that that could lead to people thinking you're a Furry or something... Yikes! Say it ain't so, Joe, say it ain't so!

from onceknownas :

And before you ask, No, it does not make squealing noises, either. Nor does it have pull-up flaps, buckles, or cut-outs in strategic places. It does not purr, it will not chew up your new slippers, and it doesn't require raw meat OR batteries. May be harmful if swallowed. No experience necessary. Suitable for ages 7 and up. 'Never needs winding Never needs winding Never needs Winding.....ZZZZtep right up....' (Tom Waits Fans Only Need Apply) :P

from morguecrawl :

I'm having a hard time NOT going absolutely nuts over this. The fact that bands are still being added to the line up is...well...Synthpop Goes The World wasn't all that sucessful but $45? I think TONS of rivetheads will travel for this show. Sucks that your local show is cancelled but MINE ISN'T! You're right, I do live in an awesome city. Though in 2 weeks, I'll be living in the burbs. I can't drive, but if you wanted, I'd help you rent a car or something? It's only about 30 mins from my new place to downtown, but a cab would likely cost $60 a night. Might be cheaper just to rent something. As for crash space, of course I'll have some. A whole pull out couch, just for you!

from onceknownas :

Q #2 - Answer: No again. And I think it will generally be safe to assume that I have at least a running shot at having the most gutteral mind in any given room...

from onceknownas :

Question #1 - Answer: No. And re: today's entry - if people start 'coupling' in the hot tub - eeewwwww... Nakedness, fine, but swimming in someone else's semen? - hack, ptooeiy. Bleah, even.

from onceknownas :

Dat's da t'ing, shee (that's my attempt at a 20's gangster voice - just drive by, please...) - I also belong to a discussion group out here that is peopled by *the same people that do the LJ thing*. And I already know that I'm not as hip and cool and groovy and up on all the latest music, etc. as the rest of the gang. I rarely post, and as rarely receive any responses of note. *sigh* But, I took the plunge - and I did it. I now have a journal there, as well as here. I'm thinking of it as another writing exercise, in a different format - and my bit to reaclimate back into society. This time, with a human head. Diaryland, however, will remain my own secret hidey hole. My 'being myself' spot. And as long as I have the time to do it, why not, eh? And on a different note, I am planning on sending you a little somefin' somefin' one of these days as a thank you for the discs earlier. It probably won't be music, tho - I don't have ripping software to make mix CD's with. Let's just say - nah, I won't say. (smirk) Not this week, maybe not the next, either - but when you least expect it... *BAMF!* hee-hee-hee...!

from wateryone :

doh.. stuip html.. guess you'll have to cut and paste

from wateryone :

She's my only sibling... we did share a room when we were young, and also every summer on (you guessed it) the West Coast. I think that's where we really bonded, that and once we were both at University. High School didn't suit either of us much and made us both all moody. Summers in the country and university help you escape all that. Here's a fun Middle Earth link for you <a href="http://www.ooblick.com/text/tomordor/">directions</a>

from wateryone :

Claire (Sis) will do anything to punish me. She wouldn't tell me anything, but I was persistent. I would run through everyone in the trilogy, desperate for a flicker of acknowledgement. I would say 'Galadrial! Galadrial has the third Palantir!' to which she would give me her most deadpan expression and say 'Yes Galadrial, Galadrial has the Palantir, She is evil incarnate.' My SISTER is evil incarnate... I tell you. Eventually I dragged all the missing details out of my sister-in-law in Australia and taunted Claire mercelessly with my in depth knowledge of the books. Now she tells me everything :)

from wateryone :

No, really. I read half of Fellowship when I was young, and tried reading The Two Towers after the first movie came out (because I wanted to know what happened and my evil sister wouldn't tell me... 'But who has the other Palantir!' became a running joke in our family) but had to give up as soon as Aragorn started singing. I just have that English Graduate/Librarian knack of picking out essential information and themes and knowing and appreciating books I have never actually read. I promise I will read them though! I miss Tom Bombadil and the Scourging of the Shire just as much as everyone else.

from wateryone :

I actually haven't read the books *hides* My sister is a die hard fan and fills me in on what was supposed to happen... one day.

from wateryone :

I think they'll add Faramir and Eowyn meeting to the extended version. Otherwise they wouldn't have had that knowing glance on screen... which I found incredibly frustrating.

from morguecrawl :

It's really not important. Just frustrating.

from ktdream :

Ooh i like your style of writing and that the website is named "Contours of the soul." Nice.

from ivoryfaerie :

Did you know Walmart actually makes their employees sing some strange cultlike I'm-overjoyed-to-be-a-walmart-employee song every morning before they start work. I wonder if the underpaid slaves in China have to sing it too... (construction, huh.. ya I kinda see where you're coming from.)

from wateryone :

I knew I had to post a photo so people would know what I was talking about. But once you know how to recognise a Dirk Van Erp, you'll notice them all the time. They're in movies and tv shows, I think art directors and set designers all over the world must be in love with Dirk Van Erp lamps.

from morguecrawl :

He AND his logo rock. He's so angry though! He missed Christmas with his family trying to fly out of LA. A trip that is normally 9 hours took him 26! It might be a while before he plays in your corner of the world again.

from ivoryfaerie :

re:tongue fighting- now there's a good pick-up line- "hey, I have a black belt in tongue fighting, care to have a taste?"... hmmmm. No, no stay away from that one I don't think any girl's going to go for that!

from morguecrawl :

Yay! Yann! I'm glad you enjoyed the show. Did you happen to get a look at his new t-shirts? I've been seeing people raving about them all over the net but I've not yet seen one. Did he play the fight song? Or the one with the molotov cocktail sample? I can never remember the names of those two tracks but they're my favourites. I'm glad you spoke to Yann again. You're right, he really isn't stuck up at all and SO talented. I'm hoping that in a few years, everyone will know his name. He deserves it.

from morguecrawl :

So how was the show? Did you go?

from ivoryfaerie :

So here I am, browsing the surveys directory, and I think to myself "I wonder if there's a survey called industrial..." and guess whose named popped up! I should have known.

from ivoryfaerie :

RE:Jack Russell Terriers- If there's one dog with an admirable human quality, that would be it! Cheers to that. Wondering-ever been to/heard of Mera Luna? The Castle Party? (in Poland I think) oh, and the clock thing? Genius.

from wateryone :

I think you should fuck with the clock, just to see if you relationship to time changes. I remember being very confused by time after watching the backwards episode of Seinfeld. I thought that everything was still going backwards and I was reading it that way. Of course, it was going forward again, but I was still going backwards.

from morguecrawl :

Heh. His mp3 section has a track that he remixed called Psychic Warriors ov Unicron by Robot Haus. That's my secont favourite track of his and at this point, it doesn't exist on an albumn. Hey, I asked Yann if he remembered you from the last show in SF and he said he was too drunk *L* but he thought that he might have recalled you.

from morguecrawl :

December 18th, 2003 @ DNA Lounge (Upstairs dancefloor). DNA Lounge, 375 Eleventh Street - San Francisco, CA (USA). This is a tentative date, details are subject to change. Iszoloscope Playing during : Meat club night.

from ivoryfaerie :

Yah, I've heard of Wave Gotik. And no, I'm not a cat person. But since I'm not one of these uber-womenwith the fancy kungfu moves -at all- I have to resort to what I have, when needed. So I guess that makes me a cat-fight person. (?) Sorta. And on the subject of pet-like human qualities, just what breed of dog would you be?

from deepbluefunk :

so if i AM an android, that wins me points, right? contour, i love you. please don't ever grow up.

from morguecrawl :

Well, I don't think making them forget is the answer. I know that from personal experience. It took me nearly 6 months to finally purge enough of what I felt to really deal with the suicide of a friend. However, I also understand that you yourself have a life to manage and as much as you'd love to be the one to take away the pain of loss for these people, they need to understand that no one really has the power to do that and give you a break. Do as much as you can, politely bow out when you can't. They might not understand now, but 6 months down the road, they will.

from ivoryfaerie :

oh, and by the way... Blutengel, live??? WOW. That's all. Just wow. Can I have your memories? (Tristesse de la lune are good too...)

from ivoryfaerie :

re: evil women- hey, I never said I didn't have an evil side, I just said that kid-safe plastic knives weren't my thing. Sharp nails and teeth are all I need, IF you get on my bad side. (for instance NEVER tell me that Ronan Harris is a sell-out...) Oh and by the way, is it just that you have loads of money to travel to see all these amazing groups or do a lot of them come to you??????? Where I'm from I'd still have to travel AT LEAST 20 hours before seeing anything decent, twice a year at the most. (VNV and Laibach are both supposed to be doing North American tours next year... You can bet I'd probably have to travel at least twice that if I want to see them.)Grrrr. What is it with the praries and the [lack of] industrial scene??

from deepbluefunk :

ah when the apocalypse comes, can i be in your TRIBE? i want to be a Contourite. . .

from ivoryfaerie :

yah, kid safe plastic knives... they can absolutly be lethal in the wrong hands... even (and sometimes especially) when they're small and chubby. And goth. But thankfully, in my own, they really are just harmless kiddy toy knives. (contrary to what you may think...see your entry where you say that all girls are pure evil... )yah, I read your old entries too!

from morguecrawl :

Yeah, it bugs me. It bugs me more that I let this happen. I should have put distance between myself and those two months ago. It was getting too much for me, the partying, drama and working. I was really cracking under the pressure. We'd probably still be friends (but not see each other often) if I'd done that. I took too much responsibility for their LACK of responsibility. You understand, I'm sure.

from shesha-ma :

:) i was surprised to hear that I had a message here! I've been writing at a different site now... http://www.xanga.com/skin.asp?user=wifaskia That's where I write, if you cant see the link, then IM me at Skierbnny or email me at [email protected] and I'll give ya the hook up. Thanks for leaving me a note! :) ~Susan

from onceknownas :

I'm not sure which is cooler - all the praiseworthy stuff that you've been doing, or the fact that you have the wisdom to give yourself credit for those things and take pleasure in your accomplishments and abilities. Either way, the fact that you can pat yourself on the back means that you give yourself the positive energy to do more stuff of mass coolness- and it's like one of those perpetual motion thingies - it feeds off itself and just keeps going and going and going... I guess this makes you the Energizer Bunny of Goodness or something. There's a costume idea... Sillieness (sp?) aside, I'm glad to 'know' you, in that internet-voyeuristic-distancy kind of way that this kind of forum provides. Does my heart good. Keep being the you that is you - sounds like you've really got a knack for doing it well.

from onceknownas :

(DISCLAIMER: couldn't get guestbook to work, but if this shows up as a cross pos later, cut me some slack, eh?) First this - I'm sorry about your swooniness. Do you have headaches, also, I thought headaches accompanied ear infections, but I'm a moron about that stuff, so just ignore me. Anyway, I hope it clears up soon - and that you aren't driving forklifts or any other kind of dangerous mechanical vehicles these days.... Secondly, I. Could. Totally. Kiss. You. *mmmwwwwWWWWWAAAAHHH!* And you know *exactly* why. I was expecting, maybe, *one*, and you send me *five*?!? (has been doing the Snoopy Happy Dance all afternoon). I so owe you. Yes, yes I do. And paybacks are a bitch, Grasshopper... >;-}

from wateryone :

One more thing to confirm that New Zealand's landscape must in some ways be very similar to California. New Zealand, especially Otago, where I live, has many microclimates. Apparently its why our wine is so good, there are all these little pockets of land that are perfect for growing grapes in a climate that is actually quite harsh. Of course, this just leads to a monocultural landscape. But maybe apocalypse will change that :) I see this kind of writing as a way to remake the world.

from deepbluefunk :

is it the shadows of fall, or the way the light slants to make them? i've never quite decided, but its still my favorite season. it could also be the smell in the air. . .

from onceknownas :

You haven't updated your journal for a while (poke, poke) - hope all's well you. If it's due to being too busy in all the things that are goodness, more's the better. A little sadly from the reading end, but not begrudgings. Lord, I sound like a hobbit... Anyway, best wishes 'til you get a chance to update again - ~D~

from wateryone :

Sweet. We actually didn't end up going out to the Peninsula, it was raining very hard. Instead we went to see a Chinese Dinosaur exhibit that's in town. Just as fun :)

from insanegerbil :

by chance,i simply stumbled upon your diary thru the members area,it wuz the name that intrigued me.

from wateryone :

Libraries would be good places to haunt :) Hasn't the recall election in California been put off for a while? ... My husband just got summoned for jury duty as well.

from morguecrawl :

Well, it did get me out of work today! But then...I'm paid by the hour, so maybe this is not such a happy thing. And I am under the impression that children deal with vomiting so much better because we don't buy/have to wash our own clothes as small children. So who cares if we make a mess! We get to go relax on the couch after while mom/dad/surrogate robot cleans up after us.

from onceknownas :

Um, 'Polo'...? Or was that note intended for someone else? Quelle good timing, considering it was about the only 45 seconds that I've had internet access for about two weeks. So anyway, does this mean you're ever going to send me a compilation like you said once upon a time? (bats eyelashes) Don't forget - I can always tell Donald to take care of you if you reneg... (See latest entry - all will be made clear). Anywho, hope you're weel and all - when I get access again, I look forward to catching up on your doings and such. Okay, my 45 seconds of fun is up - be good and stay out of trouble - or if you can't, be sure to write copiously about it so that someday I can ready about it.... Cheers, ~D~

from morguecrawl :

Just so that you know, DAFT was likely the musical event of my life to date. Missed you there.

from shesha-ma :

long time. So where's the political help? uh huh...

from wateryone :

I knew you'd like the Gothic terraces. I took that photo on a very grey day, and it looks a lot more ramshackle than it actually is. But give it time. They train station is a very cool place to go, it's on the edge of an industrial wasteland, like most railroads.

from shesha-ma :

yes, men in the woods is a creepy thing. Mars was very cool. I was thinking that I'd need help to find it in the sky, but I was amazed at how bright it was. I'm always awestruck when I look at the sky. So big. And I read an article recently about how we dont live in a universe anymore, now it's a 'multi-verse'. Scary thought that out there there's a planet with the lucky degree to a sun we have. Well, maybe not scary...more like exciting. Ta.

from morguecrawl :

Thank you for the good wishes. I really am not too certain if I'll make it to either show. Yann (Iszoloscope) was in town last weekend and he shoved DAFT flyers down my throat because h e's o n the bill, and since performed on my recent favourite disappearing acts on him last weekend and bailed on breakfast with him, I really should go. But out of the two shows, I think I really want to see Converter the most. I'm not sure if I can handle that much "social" this up coming weekend, especially since none of my friends are going to go with me. We'll see. I'll let you know what the shows were like if I do go.

from shesha-ma :

that sounds like fun. My friends were playing paintball in some woods by their house once, and they saw this guy being led out in handcuffs...aparently he had been hiding in the woods the past few days during which they played paintball. real scary man.

from wateryone :

There's a place near our house where you can play capture the flag with paintball guns. It's in a Pine plantation, with lots of uneven ground and burrows and things. Great fun!

from wateryone :

I just don't understand people who don't count between the lightening and the thunder, I really don't. :)

from raen :

I'm definitely not a morning sex girl. The pussy just doesn't purr in the morning. I'm totally dead down there. Night for me.

from shesha-ma :

yeah. feeling unappreciated sucks. hawk and a doggy eh? Interesting. I was once told that I was like a cat. evil? yes, that was the word. I am evil.

from shesha-ma :

hey, my email is [email protected] you read that? I am so popular.

from shesha-ma :

oh look, a message from me...again! Do you think sometime you could talk to me about the green party? I just know what I've been told...and thats not enough or good enough. You can email me if ya want so you dont have to leave a massive note. Ta.

from shesha-ma :

and I forgot: the nice thing about the darkroom skills is that I never have to worry about taking my 'personal' photos to a stranger to have them printed. Bless the darkroom, bow to it, bow.

from shesha-ma :

:) Oh I would retaliate...fear my wrath. Its all in my name, and since no one has been able to figure it out, I'll just tell you. The hindu god Krishna rides on a thousand headed snake when he's not riding on his cow, and the thousand headed silver snake's name is "Shesha". The suffix 'ma' just means female or 'mother'. So I am 'Shesha-ma' I fight, I'm scary I'm beautiful (tell me snakes arent magnificent) and I've got sharp fangs. I say Shesha is my kind of ride. Forget the cars, I'll take the snake. And I have so many scary cell phone stories, I wouldnt know where to begin, other than I agree with you, they are good for emergencies, but they are also responsible for causing many accidents. Interesting paradox. Anyway, I'm glad I finally found someone who likes a good battle...I tried to have a nice friendly sparring match with someone else, and they took it a little too seriously...So I stopped. bring it. Ta!

from morguecrawl :

Actually, I'm a little worried about my money situation too. I've taken some big steps to cut down my monthly bills but they won't really take effect for another couple of months. I may only be able to do one of the shows, or neither. Razorgrrl (or Alanna), one half of the Toronto Industrial Kollective's managment ran up to me at Darkrave and handed me the flyer for Converter and we gabbed a little about it. She said "I know YOU are going, I just wanted to remind you as I don't recall selling you a ticket yet." Yeeesh. Guilt trip. If I go to only one of them, it'll be that one. And if you come for the weekend, I'm making you go to a goth-friendly rave. No arguements. You can do little stompy dances there. So, the line up will go DAFT/R351570R/sleep/Converter/sleep. Ok? Sound like fun?

from shesha-ma :

I feel weird leaving two notes in a row...hmph.. Wanna hear something weird? I think I'd be attracted to you... well come on, you wear pin stripes, cry to good music, and would take the time to harass me at my drive thru...what more could a girl want? And you were right, Schauspielhaus literally translates to "show play house". Sounds like a kickin trip you had. Maybe I'll have to organize my own sometime. Ta.

from shesha-ma :

ah change...doesnt it just suck all ass sometimes?

from shesha-ma :

Hey, thanks for the note. It may be the fact that its late, or the fact that i've been in wendy's for the past 9 hours, but I dont think I understood part of the note... It's nice of you to help people move. I really understand what a pain it is, and It IS really hard to find people willing to help!

from morguecrawl :

Of course there is and of course there is! I've spoken to my room mate about all of this and she's willing to give you her bed and she'll sleep with me or at one of her boy's places while you're here. Errrrrrm....as for prices of tickets, I think it'll run about $50 Canadian (so about $5 for you. ;-P) for them both. Want me to pick them up for you and you can pay me back when you see me?

from shesha-ma :

considered your advice considered! And dont worry, I'll ask before I take any urns.

from shesha-ma :

I have never voted myself. The reason being because I didnt want to make a decision like that based on the little information I had. Excuses, of course. I never thought about it but I guess the reason most people I know dont vote is because they dont like any of their choices. So what should we do? Vote for someone we 'think' is ok, or not vote? Is that worse than voting out of fear? Ta.

from shesha-ma :

I write you novelles and I'm still a new find? pish Wish I had your luck with fireworks.

from shesha-ma :

When I stayed in paris it was in a tiny pee-on-the-wall place above a mosque..but the bathroom, now that I think about it, was really amazing. Keeping in mind that the 'extra cot' they gave us was a piece of foam, the bathroom was beautiful white marble and tile, no mold to be found, and was largre than the room. The shower itself had room for about 3 people to shower in and not touch once. I didnt really think about that till your entry...interesting. The bathrooms in Oz, on the other hand, were all about consevation. half flush or whole flush? It was all up to you. They however prefered shower doors. In germany, the family I stayed with's shower didnt have a curtain OR doors...that was quite a dance. Sorry it's been a while, work is sucking me dry...my entries lately are a mix of sleep deprivation, muscle relaxers and my own natural inablity to type. Ta.

from onceknownas :

My head's in a pretty bad space. I didn't feel like subjecting anyone else to it. Ironic, huh? That I start to feel like I'm protecting people from me even in my own journal. Welcome to the digital age. Thanks for touching base, though. Be well, do good work, and keep in touch.

from squirrelx :

Thank you for the note! It's always good to hear from a fellow 'Get Fuzzy' afficiando, and I agree with you. That strip is profound. There's as much universal truth as there is humor in the adventures of Bucky, Satchel, et al. Warmest regards, Xtine

from redwood72 :

Alright, I apparently have to set the record straight on this one. First, I didn't end up talking to that girl in Valencia until after you had resumed dancing. Second, I was literally dragged over to talk to her. I was perfectly content to let you have her all for yourself. And it's not my fault she was impressed that I spoke Spanish. You got to watch out for that alcohol affected memory, boi.

from wateryone :

I'm not very good at memories, I crave the physical thing. Even if it's just the dust motes in the light by the window in a dark room the year I was four. I remember them, but it's not as good as being there. I guess that's what nostalgia's all about.

from shesha-ma :

ahh....sober goth boi's head? hmm, well, a goth boi is still a boi, right? Which means, I have no idea what's going through your head. ever. Thanks for the note. When I stayed in France, I was in Paris, in a tiny hotel with pee stained walls and closet like bathrooms. The TV was so bad we got our entertainment from watching the Mosque across the street. It was worth it though, esp when we got to go to a tiny chapel (which was surrounded by guards armed with machine guns) and see the sun set through huge stained glass windows accompanied by chamber music. Ah. (your welcome for the mini journal) Ta.

from shesha-ma :

I confess, I first came to your diary because of someone's description of it, then I liked your name and the other diaries that you have listed have killer names. (I'm a sucker for a creative name) You have kickin taste in movies and books...its rare for me to find people who like the same books and movies and me. (did you like any of the Dune movies...or sequels?) I'll be back for more, ta.

from wateryone :

Nice to have you back. My army brother-in-law taught be to do a spit-and-polish, it's great fun.

from onceknownas :

Hmmm....Well, if you ever get around to it, you really SHOULD make me a set list of electro-ethereal - because it's always been because of other people that I've been introduced to the most memorable music experiences. Come to that, if you should just *happen* to want to burn some tracks to disc - or hell, even just make a mixed tape - dude I would so pay you money to send it to me - I would so love that! S'thought, anyway. And as regards the drinking water for pain relief - I'm all over that. I live in the desert, but I'm from the Northwest - putting loads of my natural habitat back into my system on a constant basis is a lifestyle already. Thanks for the wellness thoughts! Fully recovered and hoping I cajoled you into maybe sending me some musical goodness, I remain - ~D~

from wateryone :

Strip Attack Frisbee! Only in dreams... I heard a guy on the radio today who has an album called 'dreaming music to dream by', but I bet he didn't have Strip Attack Frisbee. Classic.

from onceknownas :

Not to be a bore, but, two queries: a) Which are the entires about your 'similar experience'? Not that I haven't looked (fun pics, BTW), but I'm either dense or didn't go back far enough - and I'm a lazy bastard. Sue me - or humor me? b) Re: music - Any thoughts on 'Collide'? Haven't heard them myself yet, but the word at Club last night is that they're a darker cousin of Claire Voyant. (Still mad that CV had to cancel the ABQ show. Damn it...)

from wateryone :

I'm sure that the earthworms, pipes and bones were inspired by the Simpsons in some way, I can't pinpoint an episode exactly, it's just a feeling. I always liked Grease too. Heh.

from tornlace :

some people have a need to care for someone and the minute they are well the need stops.. your entry expresses something seemingly deeper than that but its probably a tiny part of it.. and yeah women are evil, i know, men might blunder and blast and smash and are "pigs" and all that stuff but us chicks are just plain evil... sorry about that.. :) i hate one sided arguments, everybody is plenty guilty of plenty of things. the reason men take the rap on so much is their "crimes" are easier to point to and put words to- like those that are rapists and dictators.. but sometimes the evil that girls do is harder to pinpoint, write headlines about, thats just what i think.. we all suck and we are all great and we are all just a mess of humans.

from unwittingly :

from wateryone :

I have a dream all the time where I'm sitting an exam, and it's supposed to be an English or Human Geography exam and it says that that's the exam it is on the cover of the examination booklet, But then when I open it, it's Maths or Economics and my pencils keep breaking.

from unwittingly :

ACK! I never got to respond to your latest e-mail! I guess I'll have to keep you in......SUSPENSE. (<--Obscure old time radio reference)

from panzer-kitty :

Actually, the first thing I did was take it out of the package and send it speeding across the kitchen floor after my cats. One tried to play with it. The other two were not amused. But toys! Yay! You're the best.

from morguecrawl :

Yeah, exes are weird creatures. I always wondered who I'd run into from Ottawa in the scene here...never thought it would have been him and I NEVER would have thought I'd sleep with him again. So odd how those things happen

from unwittingly :

Helpless, eh? I think NOT. You're gonna wake up with a certain chili-encrusted lollipop jammed in your mouth! Mwahahaha :P

from unwittingly :

AHHHHH! Where did my favourite diaries go!? I didn't do that! D-land's probably having more problems.

from unwittingly :

I think I'll keep you in suspense ;p

from tornlace :

i will be a boo ghost too, probably one that steals toys and has the pet cats purring for no known reason. i don't remember how i found you.. just saying hi.

from wateryone :

One of my most favourite ideas ever is the idea of institutional knowledge. I was introduced to it when doing some handprinting at university on an old printing press where you needed about 5 people to work things, but there were 8 of us in the group, and one person was there the whole time to provide the 'institutional knowledge' . Since then I've used the phrase on probably a daily basis, you need to have institutional knowledge in libraries, it's the only way we run. Well, that and the British Museum Algorithm. Anyway, hooray for you having institutional knowledge, it is a great, great thing. *wishes she has other institutional knowledge besides library institutional knowledge* blaah

from raen :

Forgive my errors in the guestbook. Even after I re-read it, I still missed them. I'm in need of sleeeep, like really bad. x_x

from unwittingly :

Re: 2/24 -- Boo-fucking-ya! The world needs more independent guys like you.

from wateryone :

nice hint. I know I need to update more often, but I don't have much to say. We're getting a new imac G4 in about a month, maybe I'll have things to say then, from home (instead of skulking around at work and trying to say them surrepticiously)

from morguecrawl :

:-P ptttttttpppptt!! I wish! Heh.

from morguecrawl :

Heh. I love you. Marry me? *grins*

from unwittingly :

Thanks, you. I'd be insulted if _you_ called me the "c" word anyway. :P

from casual-ty :

what is paper crak, if you mean books then I am way ahead of you. I spend 60 to 80 a month on paper crack, and gold plastic crack too. I loathe the moron who created dvd's. Except all of my crack came from the Anime district : )

from casual-ty :

damn you only get paid once a month...and i thought i had it bad...gov really does like to dink around with our cash...lol

from unwittingly :

AWWWW, you're so cuuuuute. Oooghie boogie buugy oo! Ooosh whoo cuuute, you are! Yeees, you are! Awww!! (Worse than a knife to the ankles, eh?)

from unwittingly :

You're so selfish! *sniff*

from unwittingly :

Awwwwww, but D-Land is all about blackmail material!

from unwittingly :

If only it was that easy. :(

from raen :

Heehee, I actually do have some Jedi Master points. ;)

from raen :

I added "The Two Towers" entry to my favorite entries page. *thumbs up* - I'll save my points inside my hollow Jabba with the removable upper body until I get enough for free tickets to the Contour Spoken Word World Tour - like the Henry Rollins Spoken Word sort of thing, only with you instead. :)

from raen :

4 points! The Sleeper has awakened! - Sorry, I'm a total nutcase. ;D

from raen :

Ooo ooo me me! I know! Dune and The Empire Strikes Back!

from unwittingly :

But if I was a fat man, I could sing the "Ass 'N' Titties" song at myself! I guess I'm capable of doing that now, but it doesn't have the same effect coming from the mouth of a female.

from unwittingly :

Eeep! Happy belated birthday to you!

from panzer-kitty :

Thanks for the note, it made me smile.

from unwittingly :

Cheezus Christ, I have an e-mail from you dating back almost a month ago. I should catch up on that, huh?

from unwittingly :

Oooh, it's worse than that; I'm a Leo.

from wateryone :

ah ha.. industrial action, as in union involvement, striking. Not big boots and electrical wire *wink*

from unwittingly :

Awww, that's so SWEET! >:P

from unwittingly :

Rawr, stomp, rawr! :D

from deepbluefunk :

yaay! i'm a porn site! and i didn't say i wanted to get the purple out; i was just surprised it stayed. especially in my 3 year old's hair. btw, i love comic books, have been known to watch demolition for fun, not stupid about robots, and when i choose to stomp, it's hardly quiet. and i would always play chase with you!

from unwittingly :

That's true to a certain extent, but to be frank, these people aren't good photographers. Now, supercilious.diaryland took good pictures of me. It irks me to have such awful pictures available for anyone to see when I know damn well that I'm not that un/non-photogenic (hence my refrence to supercilious). I just have too many doubts even in the face of your very valid points. :\

from unwittingly :

Mwahahahaha >:)

from unwittingly :

Yes, they shit themselves and run away. Fast little rodents, they are. :P

from unwittingly :

....EETIE. (mice leave poo, too. Don't you go trying anything, though)

from unwittingly :

...PS: YOU ARE A SW.......wonderful little man. :P

from unwittingly :

How is it that the very day I'm feeling particularly blue, I receive a postcard from you? How do you do that?

from unwittingly :

One, day when I'm famous for who knows what, it will be done.

from deepbluefunk :

did you giggle when they frisked you, or did you growl?

from raen :

LOL! Yeah, I've had to put the "double-flush" to use before. X'D But right before you do it, you think..."oh man, they'll knoooowwwww."

from unwittingly :

Hon, you're the sweetest sweetie that has ever been sweet, but I think I'm pretty different IRL. In fact, I come off as arrogant, reclusive, and well -- not very pleasant, especially when I'm trying to defend myself against the stereotype I appear to be (and perhaps really am, for all I know). Regardless, I'm glad there's at least one person in the world that still finds me charming after one year. :P

from morguecrawl :

Welcome back! *sends out a huge hug* Thank you for the post cards and I can't wait to hear more about your trip. Hope you're feeling better already.

from unwittingly :

Glad to see you back and THANK YOU for the postcard! That made my week. :)

from unwittingly :

Eeep, good luck and have fun for me! :)

from morguecrawl :

Hey, I havn't heard from you in a while, you haven't responded to my last two e-mails. I'm worried about you. Drop me a note and let me know how you are.

from unwittingly :

PS. Did I at least get you a promotion? ;p

from unwittingly :

Yeeesh, I post a picture of a shirt with the word "SLUT" in bold white letters, and all you boys notice are the tits behind it. :P

from fallensloth :

I'm sorry. That's terrible. I can completely relate. I'm going through something very similar right now.

from morguecrawl :

Do you know where the samples from that Converter song In Hell come from? It has mightily peaked my curiosity. Nothing like a whore house in Hell...

from unwittingly :

Danke, dearie. An e-mail is on the way, I *promise*! :P

from morguecrawl :

Have you heard anything from Dismantled? I've had their first (and only) CD for about a month now and I've only recently given it a good listening to. It's a Bill Leeb(FLA)/Daniel Myer (Haujobb) project. It's really good. If you like, I can send it out with the mix. I only have two blank discs on me at the moment, though I'll pick up some more soon seeing as my burner seems to be co-operating.

from wateryone :

Yevgeny Yevtushenko said in one of his poems that people don't die, worlds die in them. That gives me as good a reason as any to live the way I want to, as much as I can for as long as I can. So that my world won't die. I hate stupid inspirational bullshit, but since a Russian poet said it, and since he said it so eloquently, it feels alright. Take care.

from unwittingly :

Argh, we've been trying to bring Meg Lee Chin here for *ages*!

from morguecrawl :

Ha ha! I knew there was something "off" about the first diagnosis! And this time it was really good news! Your getting better, it won't happen again, and now you have liscense to do what you love best. Welcome back to the world, hun. ;-)

from morguecrawl :

Well, today is a new day. It's finally caught up to me. My moving day. And yes, I'm freaking out. But on the upside, I can easily just jump on a city bus or the subway andgo to a club tonight and dance the night away, then come home (home. heh.) and sleep on my floor. *chuckles* I still don't have a shower curtain...or towels for that matter...

from endless-loop :

Thanks for your kind note. My grandma was diagnosed with this rare degenerative (and contagious) disease a little while ago, and before that she had already been sick, so thankfully her death wasn't as much of a shock. And she was never in any real pain. But it's still upsetting. I should start writing in a journal again; it did do me a lot of good. Thanks again. -Heather

from mecha :

i think that you should stil strive to be a hutt. they seem to have it goin on. i love the layout!!!

from panzer-kitty :

I never really thought about it, but perhaps you're right and I just did find a new location to store my memories. Thanks, it's something to think about.

from unwittingly :

I don't have to be in Canada to go insane...oh wait, you meant the -good- type of crazy.

from morguecrawl :

Yes! Tease! Teaseteasetease! ;-) hee hee, glad you had fun though, even if your hurting now.

from morguecrawl :

I know, I know! I move in in two weeks! But...d00d...now I have to pack.

from morguecrawl :

*gasp* I have a Sag! Excellent! As for your hair, well, whatever you decide to do with it, I suggest one thing. I have TONS of hair products (so much work for so little hair *chuckles*) and the best stuff has always been Bedhead. Look for Bedhead's stuff called Headbanger. It's in a neon orange arosol can. It's spray on wax! It makes your hair feel gross! But it works like you would not believe and it washs out easily, in only one shampoo (unlike some of my other waxes where I'd have to wash it like, three times to get all the crud out). Your hair is too dark for much of my fancy stuff....but maybe look for Ice Spiker's Metallics? Unfortunately, their blue products are just about invisible in dark hair :-( I was most diappointed. But yes, when I make it to California, I will most deffinetly give you a crash course in hair goo

from morguecrawl :

Have you cut your hair yet? :-D ;-)

from panzer-kitty :

Thanks for filling out my survey. Winona Ryder's yummy, I�d also do her. ;) Oh, and the fact that you would be at work while looking at naughty picture would make the experience even better.. it would add excitement because you wouldn�t know if your boss was going to walk by and catch you. Heh.

from morguecrawl :

Sounds like a blast! I want a Goth Naval Battle, dammit! *LOL* Unfortunately, our only option is Lake Ontario...Goths would be com ing out of the water growing 2nd heads and a few more fingers and toes and maybe a tail here or there....

from unwittingly :

YARRRRR, MATEY!

from morguecrawl :

I finished your diary today :-) Now I'm all caught up. Unfortunately, while procrastinating the last two days, I completely missed my friend's funeral in Port Hope yesterday :-( I'm such a shit.

from morguecrawl :

Sounds like you're well on your way to recovery. ;-) Or maybe your old energy level is writing checks your ass can't cash, who knows? Don't push yourself too far, keep things slow for a bit, blah, blah, you hear it all the time. *chuckles* I'm happy you're noticing an improvement, though. That's really good news.

from morguecrawl :

You know...every once in a while you get in really weird moods and they appear in your diary (I dunno, maybe it happens more often than I see) and you say some really weird/funny things. I think that last post was the best though. Made me laugh. ;-) I needed that.

from morguecrawl :

I'm not really gone. I'm in shock over something I saw coming a mile away but never thought would hurt so much. I'm reeling from the stress of having someone's final wishes laid at my feet and on top of it all...I have nothing to say that I want to be remembered down the road.

from unwittingly :

*bloop* A pointless note from an aimless girl who currently does not have two brain cells to rub together to compose that e-mail she wanted to write you. Wow, typing in third person is fun.

from morguecrawl :

Sending you a long distance cuddle> OXO

from endless-loop :

Hey, glad to know you're starting to feel better! Whenever you get your homepage up I'd love to check it out. Anyways, I am off to catch up on some much needed rest. ;)

from morguecrawl :

You are the only person outside of the Ottawa scene that I've ever heard mention Meg Lee Chin. Anyone here in Toronto that I know like her or even know her is because I introduced them to her.

from unwittingly :

My sitemeter does IP tracking, but if someone doesn't want me to know that they read my journal, then I'll respect their wishes. Actually, I'm up to ~3,500 page views and now alittle over 1,000 hits. Yay me?

from morguecrawl :

Dude, you need AIM :-) And I feel the same way about cats! Cute to look at, now go away and leave me alone.

from depths :

I just thought I'd leave a quick note as another 'wishing you well'. I'm sorry you've had so much trouble with your doctors, but I have to admit that if it were me, I would probably have left in tears of frustration, or, if I was in a particularly bitchy mood, I might've yelled at him first. Anyway, what I really wanted to say is that I'm proud of you for how well you're dealing with this. I know it really has to suck, being in pain just if you move, not even thinking about all the things you love to do so much. You're trying to be strong through it all, even if you can't be all the time. I can't really think of any other ways that might help you relax, because you've already listed all the things I do when I have cramps or aches and pains. They do apparently have these heated mat/pad things that can stick to a person's body and stay warm all day that are supposed to help with cramps and muscles, but I'm not sure that would help you, because they seem to be large enough to go entirely across a person's stomach or back. (OK, that's me trying to be helpful but failing.) Of course, if you're going to continue with hot baths and stuff, they have these wonderful 'bath marbles' that are effervescent, and they usually tickle away pain. Tickling might not be what you need though. I'll keep thinking and, well, stop writing.

from morguecrawl :

Good job :-) I told you things would get better.

from morguecrawl :

P.S. I don't have blue hair, or fingernails. But I do have navy blue toenails! *wiggles her toes* The polish is well over a month old though and chipped to hell...

from endless-loop :

Hrm, I haven't been on diaryland in quite a few days before this weekend, so I had a good amount of reading to catch up on. I'm sorry that the pain has come back, I know how it feels to have something look like it's getting better and then suddenly attack you again. Plus with all the other things going on in your life...just be careful with the codeine. When I had my molars taken out, I was given codeine, and the bottle said only take one pill after every four hours. I was following this rule, but one day the pain was simply unbearable and so I took two pills within two hours. About ten minutes later I had to go sit on the couch and basically stare at the tv for an hour. I could not think logically, I could not move, I could not do anything. I could feel my heart beating throughout my entire body and if I so much as turned my head I felt slightly dizzy and nauseous. I looked like some stoner, just sitting there with my mouth open and all. Anyways. Maybe I just have an overly sensitive body, but be careful! That is all.

from morguecrawl :

I watch what I say in my diary as well. Mostly because I don't like certain people who read it, friends of mine, to know how all over the place my head really is, I don't want some of them to know who I'm involved with and the extent of my relationships...I've been considering becoming more honest, but I know some of them may be hurt by it. I don't know if I'm a liar by ommision, but I hope not. I hate liars.

from morguecrawl :

OMG! You know the Galan Pixs! I LOVE The Galan Pixs and I can't find any of their stuff, save the rare compilation ( I recall you mentioning that you have the Flatline Compilation, so do I. Pearl Necklace is my favourite song by them that I've heard, but I haven't heard much. I can't even find their mp3s online.

from wateryone :

While I don't have a physical affliction that has been shifting my moods lately, I have been super-crabby and nasty to everyone. Feeling super irritable and thinking people hate me and have given up on me, I take heart in reading your diary entries when you worry about similar things, even through the pain, you're clear headed and can express yourself, and I really liked what you said about how reading other's uncensored thoughts can help you. I also know how hard it is when you feel you have to moderate your thoughts in your diary for the sake of others, I moderate a little, out of respect, I moderate a lot out of identity crisis :). But when I get past self-reflexive identity issues and write just for me, in a public space, I find it truly liberating. I hope you find a way to write that makes you happy, whether you lock or not. For me, writing's like dancing. If you know what I mean.

from wateryone :

Yes, but you see, I have this thing about efficiency. Sewing clothes only to tire of wearing them feels inefficient and wasteful. I guess I should just focus on the ephemeral experience? yeah?

from morguecrawl :

Oh my god :o( I'm so sorry that your suffering lately. It sounds so awful. Um...also, I feel kinda weird that I'm the only one talking here lately. OI! Other people! Speak up, damn you! I know you're there... *narrows her gaze threateningly* Alright, well, they're on vacation at the moment. Fact of the matter is I come across your diary linked here and there. I'm certain I'm not the only person who reads you. You have the support of other random people across the world besides myself. I know that's a bit of hollow sympathy, none of us can really do anything for you but...I so would if I could! Please hang in there, keep posting, and please don't lock up!

from morguecrawl :

Awww...don't lock your diary. The curiosity alone will kill me.

from morguecrawl :

*gasps* No back alley bars? You know, the first industrial club I ever went to was in Hull, Quebec. It was in a little back alley courtyard, in an old converted victorian house just a block or so off the Hull Industrial riverfront. It was small, dirty, they sold half-ounce shooters and charged full-ounce prices but it didn't matter. I never went there to drink anyways. I went to watch what I lovingly refer to as "wall worshiping". The girls hardly ever danced there. In the Ottawa/Hull scene the male to female dance ration is tipped way towards the men. Anyways, the dance floor at Le Bistro (they served food by day and played cheesy French Canadian folk music)was painted black, skirted in on two sides by walls, and partially on the other two sides by huge speakers which doubled as chairs and tables and coatracks when the place go crowded. The fall wall of the dancefloor was this ugly red brick. When the harder and heavier songs started up, the boys would line up along this wall and dance with their backs to the crowd. *shrugs* I called this "wall worshiping" because that's what it looked like. I don't think it was ever planned, I don't think the guys who did it knew that's what we called it. But it's a memory and I miss it. *s* There ya go, another clubbing story. I didn't have to take a train to get there, but I did have to walk 30 minutes from the Ottawa Bi Ward Market, across the Alexandria Bridge and provincial lines, and through the Hull riverfront which is really creepy at night. *nods*

from wateryone :

not a pleasant experience! fzzzptt crack It always happens when I least expect it. I've tried to remedy the situation by tying my hair back today, and while that makes me feel more puritan, it doesn't do much to prevent the shocks.

from morguecrawl :

Try to grin and bare it, suite-pee. I am almost 100% certain when I say the pain can't last forever. It soundsl ike you have an intresting job, and I hope you enjoy it. Anyways, rest up, rest up because one day in the not-too-far-away, I'm going clubbing in Cali and you may be a spot on the sight seeing tour.

from unwittingly :

Just wanted to wish you a quick and painless as possible recovery. Yeah, I know this note is pretty generic. Pretend I'm saying it in a very unique and interesting voice. :P

from sicktrick :

I like how you give everyone nicknames, Cloud, Redwood and the rest. Particle? *chuckles* I met a guy this past weekend who could pass as a particle *tsks and shakes her head* And to think I took him home with me... *sighs* Ah well...we learn from these things, don't we?

from unwittingly :

The peer pressure was too much for me! :P

from morguecrawl :

P.S. You spelled me wrong. It's morGuecrawl *grins* There's a clubkid story that goes along with that name, btw...maybe I'll write up and entry about it

from morguecrawl :

P.S. You spelled me wrong. It's morGuecrawl *grins* There's a clubkid story that goes along with that name, btw...maybe I'll write up and entry about it

from morguecrawl :

Rivethead? Where? *catches a glimpse of herself in mirror* AHHHHHHH!!! Oh...heh...just me....

from jaimelynne :

i like to pretend im a rivethead. i will never be, but we can all dream, cant we? :)

from morguecrawl :

Hmmm...sounds like you're going to have to get good at the pill popping. I'm sorry that you're in so much pain. Best of luck with finding treatment.

from myriadfacets :

Haha, nerds rule! Actually, I haven't roleplayed in such a long time. I really want to get back into it, but I haven't had time....that's a lie. I have a million and one things to do that have been wanting to be done for such a long time, but I here I am, on diaryland, writing a note. Sigh. I think I'm just destined to be a slacker. -heather

from wateryone :

My Mum used to be a librarian too, I've taken after both my parents. I have to go catch up on you diary now, and worry about how I'm going to get into the building when I start my new job tomorrow.

from razerbern :

Enjoying your reads here. Sorry to hear about your condition. I hope it improves over time. Just hang in there. Also realized you and me have much in common as far as reading material and Star Wars in general. We are also both engineers as well. Guess we both rock, eh? Get better.

from myriadfacets :

Hum, I'm not sure how to word this, but I hope that you feel better soon and the epididimytis doesn't advance into cancer..but, in less awkward news, I'm still on the search for my non leather boots (maybe when I go see Siouxsie in NYC I can stop by a store and pick some up). Not that I could afford them anyways; I'm broke after getting my industrial. ;) -Heather

from fallensloth :

Hello! Sorry to hear about your affliction :(. I'm also sorry that I didn't get back to you sooner. I really have taken quite a liking to absurd minds, via your recommendation. (very much like pitchfork. Gooood). I read your diary whenever possible and it's great to see that there are people like you in the local scene. Thanks, Lee

from depths :

Not really sure what to say, except that I really hope you get to feeling better, and that it isn't any more serious than the epididimytis. Note, I'm not saying that isn't serious, but given the alternative... Anyway, I just hope the antibiotics get to working really quickly so you'll be comfortable again. After all, how can one dance when they're in pain?

from wateryone :

Aaarghh. I so want to play with Lego now. I don't usually build from sets though, I'm more escheresque, upside down staircases and stuff. The goal is just to build the most complex, beautiful, but livable (if you were a half-inch lego man) 3-D structure imaginable. Just call me Gaudi. Good luck for your presentation, I'm sure you'll do fine. Good on you for helping democracy on its merry way too. Jenn (waiting, waiting, waiting. Wish I had lego to pass the time)

from depths :

Hmm, the need for women to stand up close during concerts. I can answer that question for myself, but not for anyone else. 95% of the time, if I go to a concert, I prefer to be up in the stands so I can watch the band, enjoy the show, and not be stomped on. The other 5% is when I go to Def Leppard concerts. On those occassions, I'm drawn to the stage with this gross magnetism. It's the need to be as close to the band as possible, but I guess that comes from having been a huge fan since I was 8 years old? :) Any other time, the mosh-pit folks can have the floor!

from wateryone :

Glad to be back, although I'm kind of sad at the moment, so it's hard to know what to write. I liked your entry about the environmental hearing. I -would- have bitten someone. You had dino's on your tree? *flips back to x-mas entries*

from myriadfacets :

Haha, that's okay. It's not as if I get many notes anyway. I checked ebay and sure enough, they had a couple of jump boots, and one pair that would fit me. Unfortunately, I forgot the vow I made to stop wearing leather. Gar. The only thing I wear that is leather now are my doc martens, and that's until I can find a better pair that are non leather. I could just stop wearing them...but willpower is not my specialty. -heather

from myriadfacets :

Military jump boots? What do they look like? Where can I find them? But, most importantly, are they cheap? -heather

from depths :

You've really had an eventful year, haven't you? It sucks that you might have to be changing jobs soon, but it's nice that you have somewhere to go, isn't it? (Or did I misunderstand that?) As for your resolution (if that's what you called it) about hoping to move past the ex thing, I really wish you the best of luck. Unfortunately, most of us understand all too well how difficult it is to leave behind a relationship that hurt you. It's usually harder to forget those than the ones that were good, but you really seem to be a strong person, and I think you can do it, as long as you keep in mind that there's nothing wrong with having problems dealing with pain, when it's emotional.

from seabound :

Wow, you're right. You'd 'ave been skinned alive if you had crayon blue hair in Texas in '95. Prolly worse had you been in North Texas. I remember I got detention for trying on yellow lipstick at school in '95. I'd hate to imagine what would have happened had the bigger girls seen me before my principle did. Ha. Anyway, have a good holiday.

from autistic :

I have a friend who has a related feeling concerning your Lord of the Rings entry. I can also understand where you are coming from. I also have a lord of the rings entry (http://autistic.diaryland.com/lotr.html), though not nearly as serious :]

from myriadfacets :

Yuck, nightmares suck. :( I can commiserate with you about being out late due to work (school for me) as that's all I've been doing all week. Except, I haven't been making progress like you are. Heh. Ah well. Hang in there ;) -Heather

from myriadfacets :

Haha, yes! Antique stores are great fun; there's always this aura of mystery and intrigue surrounding them. Then again, I could just be reading too much into things, like I tend to do ;) -Heather

from wateryone :

I guess it's a bit of both. I'm like a Henry James character who once said 'how do I know what I feel until I hear what I say?' It works for thinking too. Rain is just so relaxing and ~watery~.

from wateryone :

Ohhh, I SO want to do a tech spec for myself. I'd like to read yours too. Yes, yes. *thinks robot*

from dura-luxe :

Thanks for the nice note at my site. I enjoyed your entry about VNV Nation being overplayed. I guess that in some ways I am lucky that I don't go to clubs. When I listen to music, it's very insular. It's sad not to be able share what I enjoy with other people, but then again...it always remains pure. I will read more of your site when I have the chance. Thanks -- Dura-Luxe

from wateryone :

Or go for a swim in a river at that really sunny golden time in the evening. Unfortunately, my relaxation is over, it's all busy again, it's a good thing I like my work Take care.

from oval-opal :

Wow blinky sure did turn out great!

from wateryone :

thankyou, I dithered as much as I do here. Have a very blinky halloween, I hope it's a cracker!

from wateryone :

Isn't Ms. Trixx just grand? I want us to start a mutual appreciation club of two.

from myriadfacets :

Hehe, yes, I've had lots of slacker nights. My worse one was when I stayed up until 5 am playing this game called bejeweled, online...it was horrendous. I was slap-happy that entire day. I'm hoping this weekend I'll actually start working on this "time management" issue, especially since this year it's starting to really affect my grades. -Heather ;)

from depths :

It's great when someone else reads something that I've written and actually understands and/or can empathize (is that the word I'm looking for?). Are we going to get to see a picture of the Blinky Ghost costume?

from wateryone :

ah, I failed tro express myself. An English degree is definitely not a waste. But I wasted the opportunity that mine provided me with. I have to go have lunch with the English Dept. tomorrow because they've just bought a copy of Paradise Lost illustrated by my great-x6 grandfather, it's like my own mini-possession. I'll email you and explain why in a couple of days. I hope you're feeling good. Don't let the bastards get you down.

from sextoy :

You have no idea how much I appreciate the note you left for me the other day. It was really nice to login and see that not everyone that takes the time to read my diary feels that I'm out of my league or that I should be attacked. So, thanks for the encouragement. It means a great deal to me. On another note, I love the idea of you dressing up like Blinky Ghost for Halloween. What a great idea! Have a great October!

from depths :

I've been reading your diary in large chunks, trying to catch up with all of your entries, but I really don't seem to be having all that much luck. Thanks for signing my book, it's nice to know when people are reading and what they're thinking.

from wateryone :

Ha! My workmates informed me that ol' Des actually comes into the library on a regular basis, wearing freezing works gumboots (whites ones) and a trench coat. Told you he was a serial killer.. Des Boyes for Mayor! I don't have much time to update at the moment because my sidekick's family is visiting from Sydney, but if you do want to link me.. feel free, I'd quite like that. I learned how to catalogue rare books today, so I'm feeling peachy keen.

from wateryone :

ha! construction sites are so grand, you must have been into rivets at a young age :) I used to sit on the bus and gaze at older boys' hands when I was 15. I was obsessed with their hands and the backs of their necks. ~meep~ over and out.

from wateryone :

ha! you're a sweetheart. My next one was going to be about the ambivalence of both being and having a body, but I don't know if I can be bothered. It was going to be quite maudlin, and you always find you feel better in the morning. *waves*

from wateryone :

heh. I opened the National Geographic before work this morning, and what did I find but a feature on Maize Mazes :) Hip hip.

from bunnycat :

I never knew they had this feature here. Why do we need it if we have a guest book? Check out my live journal site too. I update more often there. *poking butt*

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