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from papotheclown :
Clown Rainbow Orgy would make a solid band name. Not a band that would ever be successful, but a band maybe made up of high-schoolers who are conflicted about what kind of music they should play. I imagine they would have bad sideburns and worse tattoos.
from papotheclown :
So very true
from the-grey-one :
your happy place sounds amazing
from papotheclown :
Your mom sounds awesome. And I wrote your last five notes. Look at that.
from papotheclown :
Your mom sounds awesome. And I wrote your last five notes. Look at that.
from papotheclown :
I like that catchphrase. I'm gonna steal it.
from papotheclown :
Well damn.I am sorry to hear that's how it went down, but am very impressed by your reaction to it. Stay strong and compassionate. I'm rooting for you.
from papotheclown :
That was a beautiful post. Just beautiful. I am happy for you.
from papotheclown :
Let me be another one to say read Alan Watts. He very quickly became one of my heroes.
from whystinger :
Loving one's self is important, very important. Hugs
from whystinger :
Thanks for the password. I have been too busy traveling for my job to even read Dairyland, so I have a lot to catch up on. Wow, you have been through a lot. Hugs. More comments as I read up and catch up.
from cloudy-night :
Glad to hear you're feeling better.
from cloudy-night :
Wow, you are really going through a lot. I honestly don't know what to say, I never invest in other people out of the fear that they may one day truly leave me. This may not mean much now, but I think the bravest people are those who open up their hearts and welcome all the good and bad things associated with love. I hope that you heal and although it may take a long time, it will eventually happen. Sorry for the heartache you're going through and I truly think you're handling it very well.
from the-grey-one :
Thank you for the password. I'm sorry for what you are going through. I send those awkwrd internet diaryland kinda thought-hugs your way. <3
from papotheclown :
Hey, thanks. You are pretty cool yourself
from papotheclown :
Very well said.
from the-grey-one :
Loved your latest! (The beginning and the end)
from whystinger :
Good advice in your entry dated 1/7/16, truly
from whystinger :
You quite smoking again! Keep quitting until you are where you want to be. It took me numerous times quitting over the years until I quit for good, even though I sort of fell off the wagon a few years ago.
from the-grey-one :
slosh really is a fantastic word.
from cloudy-night :
Sorry to read about your wisdom tooth, can you have it extracted? Hope you feel better.
from dangerspouse :
Was Eric Fromm particularly noted for writing in the present perfect tense? I must have missed that. Probably because I don't know what present perfect is. Huh. (But I did appreciate his quibbles with Freud.) Yeah, epilation does tend to make one sing the blues. On the other hand, my back has never been smoother. Hang in there. Your sweater rocks.
from cloudy-night :
It has also taken me a long time to learn things. And fact is, I'm still learning. Don't worry to much about what was, think about what is or will be because all the things you did or didn't do made you who you are today and I have to say, she is pretty damn awesome!
from cloudy-night :
I'm so glad to hear you're enjoying your time behind the wheel, can't help but be a little envious. I hope everything is going well.
from cloudy-night :
Glad to see that lasik helped you see things more clearly. Quite honestly, I'm scared to do it myself because I don't know the long-term effects, if any. Glad to see things are clearer for you (no pun intended)!
from cloudy-night :
Ouch, he must have been the world's biggest a**hole! I felt that from way over here.
from msafire :
8-31 entry could alternative been called "Why YOU should ONLY date a writer"
from cloudy-night :
Hey! I've been reading your entries and after reading them I don't know how to comment. So I just sit back and enjoy it for what it is. I know things are going well for you and I hope they continue to get better.
from cloudy-night :
You're a kind person, you know? You genuinely care about people and the things that go on around them ( and yourself). I'm sorry, I haven't gotten a chance to look at any of the documentaries you've posted up because if it concerns you, I know it's good to look into them. I didn't want to respond until I've checked them out, but I wanted you to know that I see why you're concerned. The events that are occurring are horrible and CNN and HLN seems to glorify it to me somehow - which I know isn't true, it's just how I feel when I watch the news. Later.
from msafire :
I am so enjoying self indulgently just lying in bed today for a rare change and discovering your BEAUTIFUL art work and lyrical writing that captures the essence of emotions. Thank you for sharing ! You ask how one writes poetry to capture emotion, yet it reads to me as if you have done just that.
from stardumb :
ancient pointy rocks? lol, yea def gotta see that... other than that, stop by anytime. i'll do the same. xxo
from the-grey-one :
i viewed it like that for a while myself. eventually further reflection revealed more to the story. as it tends to do! ah well, ah well.
from the-grey-one :
i used to have a pair of scissors in my pocket when i walked to the store alone at night. i was probably 10-13 or so. the store was across the street, but.. i was awfully scared. still needed the junkfood fix though. i was already such an addict in the making.. hm.. thought provoking entry, thank you.
from stardumb :
i clicked on ur name because one of my good friends lost a sarah to addiction/overdose inevitably. i guess u wouldnt be surprised if i liked the art in in it, and the longlore forelorn, crimson acidic attitude with something of spunk and sauteed in spice it woulda made me more aware of why i put saudia arabia in my prayer list. take care. well done. xo
from papotheclown :
Thank you for your kind words. I am writing all of this out because it helps me, but it is kind of wonderful to know that my story can help others too. As a side note, I love Simone De Beauvoir and Milan Kundera a lot as well.
from cloudy-night :
I only read as far back as "resigned to be heart broken" and all I can say is I'm sorry. I'm sorry that you're feeling the way you feel. It is often said that people rather have been in love than never to have been in love at all. But I believe that idea manifest over time, when those cuts in a person's heart become scars and they can live with those scars. Not that you need my advice, but go through the motions. Feel, regret, long, etc. It will be alright, in time I'm sure. I hope that things can go back to how they were for you both, but since I haven't read back far enough, I don't know the reason things ended the way they did. And I also read, "In case you haven't noticed". I really abhor the injustice of it all. The pain, the suffering, the dictatorship. Nothing that they've done seems democratic, but I never been a lover of politicians. Even the purist politicians can lose their principles if what they seek means a lot to them. It's a story old as time itself, sacrificing one's soul to ensure no one else suffer when all the while, nothing changes. Back the the previous, I know you're hurting and I hope that it stops soon.
from cloudy-night :
You locked your diary? I understand, sometimes you just want to keep things to yourself. Drop me note every once in a while and let me know how things are, okay?
from the-grey-one :
aw dang, you're all locked up.. are you offering passwords perhaps?
from cloudy-night :
It is strange, how the thought of losing someone was adore can cause us to become panic stricken. It's a good feeling though, it's not easy to find someone that we know we can't live without. So you like nutella, eh? I never had it, but I know of it. Guess it's because of the gnutella story. I also wanted to mention that it's wild to rediscover yourself and to know that everything you believed to be true isn't quite the way you thought. Good to acknowledge it.
from cloudy-night :
I always thought you were awesome, but after reading your latest entry - you are beyond awesome to me now. I am bad with words, so whatever happens to exceed awesome is what you are!
from cloudy-night :
I really think that love is something that can last long after the honeymoon phase. I haven't really been in love, but I believe that there are cycles pertaining to the whole idea of love, but what do I know? And I think it is awesome that you both wrote a list of what you like about one another, that is very sweet.
from cloudy-night :
It is good to show your thanks. Acknowledging the good things we are given makes all the bad things that may happen seems like little to nothing.
from cloudy-night :
Sometimes it's best to keep things to yourself until you confirm whatever it is you are hesitant to tell.
from cloudy-night :
Instinct, fear - I know them well. Every step I've taken, I took in fear and through faith, I ignored my instincts to turn back. But only a few times, I wish I would have ignored my instincts a lot more when it came to the things that I wanted. Sometimes, the fear is the only deterrent when it comes to you and your happiness.
from loveherwell :
this may sound weird, but i've been reading through a lot of your entries tonight and i got to where you put up your soundcloud link, and just... wow. that cover of "for no one" is beyond beautiful.
from cloudy-night :
I hope you find your Italy.
from darthuae :
"It's more okay now to admit to hardcore fetishes than to say you'd like to be in love." - couldn't agree more (actually your whole entry made more sense to me than any of the feminist BS i've been hearing.) i'm also angry at the kind of man who thinks my saying "no" is a mere suggestion or cry for help. that somehow, in the back of his deranged mind, "no" is a "yes" in burqa.
from cloudy-night :
You're welcome and I agree with what you wrote in your latest post, had to read it twice because I wanted to make sure I got it and I got it.
from cloudy-night :
I'm so sorry...
from darthuae :
habibti, let me in please <3
from the-grey-one :
"so what if some of the people there make you literally physically ill? vomit on them" i bust out laughing when i read that. so perfect. that one is going to stay with me for a while.
from judging :
I'm not dead... yet :)
from cloudy-night :
I just read your note and I agree that my reasons for adopting an eff you attitude isn't justified. And to be honest, it won't stop me for caring any less. The problem with caring adequately is that it can't be done. There isn't really a middle ground. Either you care or don't care or you care too much or not enough. But I guess just caring is adequate, right? It's better than caring too much. I did want to comment on your entry, "no longer my soapbox". It takes a lot of effort to let people you see in the real world to read your personal thoughts and all, but it's bad for business too. You would've been better off making a friendlier blog for them to read. I've done it and it's irksome, but it makes them happy.
from swallowthkey :
for all that she tried, i don't think she ever understood the value of living things. also in general she just had a penchant for throwing things, at me especially. all gifts of potted plants will be well received, especially if they are not airborne.
from lanienaked :
i think the problem is the level of stupidity in a person. i see many people who are average that i find stupid, yet i know they will lead a normal average life and teach their children those normal average traits. i feel surrounded by idiots on a constant basis...
from integrating :
LOL. I kinda don't know what you're talking about, but I quit cigarettes in Nov but have taken up smoking an herbal blend you have to roll yourself. Every herb is chosen for it's calming effect. $6 a bag. I don't know if they have Planet K's where you are but that's where I get them. :)
from integrating :
2012-02-26..again, I really enjoyed reading that.
from integrating :
2012-02-23....very beautiful entry
from dinahsoar :
Thank you for your note. I have been especially drawn to Rumi lately! And you, too, huh? I recently bought three volumes. One is love poetry and there are commentaries by Coleman Barks ... who I find to be an amazing writer. I usually skip prefaces and introductions (I know I shouldn't), but his are really well written ... funny and passionate and insightful! Oh ... and Rumi's great, too! lol
from darthuae :
i found a rooftop we could sit on and watch the planets twirl/speak in arabic if the right words fit/fall in love with strangers just to touch their knitwear/collapse indecently in a confronting culture/love love love and not leave in broken shoes/use the pockets of our trousers like chest-boxes that will hold everything but treasure/i found all this through words and my husband's death in '69 (this is me trying to tell you that i love you too).
from infinityfye :
I'll have to agree. If only to leave, quickly, because it smells. An what the hell is your (the world's) problem with Mary Poppins? Don't take your hate (duh) for Julie Andrews on poor Mary Poppins. You're just Angry she never pops-out at your house.
from infinityfye :
Party pooper
from kateness :
"there's no trick to feeling full except knowing what you have" - thank you
from darthuae :
"and then I learned that sometimes, all my bravery amounts to is annoyance." i feel this way a lot like my insides just want to slowly and painfully drizzle out of me because i've been pretending (or even genuinely showing) strength. i love dh lawrence too, i've only ever read the virgin and the gipsy and i wish i had the book with me now but someone borrowed it forever and i guess that's why we have memories or some shit like that to keep us always on tip toes and remembrance of things/people/places we no longer have (? i think).
from infinityfye :
Were you in Egypt during #GanzoryTimes?
from darthuae :
my body's so bourgeois too it turns on itself and points.
from darthuae :
oink oink indeed.
from darthuae :
aw honey, you don't know but i do a little chair dance every time i see that you've updated. you're one of my favourites on here! your diary: brilliant, educated, funny, sexy, individual, honest! are you in egypt at the moment? hope everything's alright around you, i don't trust what the media's saying! love x
from darthuae :
i'm so twitter-oriented these days that i almost wanted to star your 'sagacious gender and relationship Q&A' entry. fuck. how do you do this, i'm stuck in line of blurry beauty! thank you? i'm sorry if i sound super lame, happens whenever i find treasure on here.
from swallowthkey :
reading it over this morning made me realize how comparatively small and trivial all my issues are right now, which helps in a way. sometimes it's good to realize you're just being melodramatic.
from swallowthkey :
all my support to you and yours in egypt, may you be successful in your aims.
from infinityfye :
(no u)
from dinahsoar :
God, I love your writing! You are one of the realest persons I know (and, really, I don't know you).
from dinahsoar :
Hope and wish and dream! I applaud your spirit!
from infinityfye :
A whore and a bitch? Sweeeeet! Listen to Milanku: Convalescence
from dinahsoar :
"... so they could recognize their own insides in their own echoes ..." Your writing is astute and very moving.
from swallowthkey :
for what you wrote today, thank you. i really needed to hear that.
from dinahsoar :
I love your "open letter to Rut"!
from dinahsoar :
Wow! Theologian AND writer! I'm so glad you resonated with the Imago poem. Imago is such a strong and sometimes "stealth" pull, so compelling! Have you ever read Harville Hendrix' book Getting the Love You Want? It talks a lot about the Imago and even has ways that you can "graph" your relationship patterns & determine your Imago. He even started a program teaching therapists "Imago Therapy".
from i-lost-sarah :
dinah, i wish to hug you :) infinitye-- i've never read the scarlet letter! (burning in shame), and it's funny you should mention homicidal Johnny and his recreational drugs-- bumped into the prick a few days ago, and he is assuredly NOT hot!
from infinityfye :
Oh and "maybe they've just learned the trick of pulling people in knowing they'll never be closer"; that's a pretty awesome trick. Until you start doing "recreational" drugs or start thinking that Johnny the Homicidal Maniac is hot.
from infinityfye :
The Scarlet Letter: Nathaniel Hawthorne. You guess the - famous - quote.
from dinahsoar :
I don't think you're nuts. I think you're amazing. And I really liked "Random Act of Like".
from i-lost-sarah :
enduring part i've got down-- learning part not so much :)
from infinityfye :
Disce pati
from dinahsoar :
Thank you for your note. I'm touched that you are touched by my poem. I loved your entry and deeply resonate with " ... so many things she can't forget and never wanted to know".
from dinahsoar :
"Lovin' & crazy" being the secret recipe to make humans you want to hug ... that is just one of the most profoundly true statements I have ever heard. I have felt that way my whole life ... always gravitating to the love and the crazy! See ... you read my mind again (and, no, I am not accusing you of being psychic ... you're really funny, too!)
from sunnyrain828 :
You're a pretty good writer. I like.
from dinahsoar :
I love your diary! You are an insightful, lucid and witty writer.What you wrote about shyness and the whole process of discerning insides from outsides resonates. Rehabilitating "shyness" and "crying", rather than making it an enemy to conquer makes me feel understood. It is like you have never met me, yet can read my mind.
from i-lost-sarah :
infinity ya 7abeeby, finishing five minutes in five minutes ysawy gareema ded al ensaneyya.
from infinityfye :
Is it legal to finish five minutes in five minutes?
from isky :
Don't go, I will miss your beautiful cynicism xx
from isky :
I really enjoyed reading your diary. Your writing style is awesome:)
from i-lost-sarah :
infinity--they were heavy and that was all i had :)
from infinityfye :
umm, why not a full pack?
from infinityfye :
username and password plox!
from darthuae :
thanks, love. your words make my mind go aha aha (the disco 'aha' not the 'i get it' aha).
from wtng4lezlie :
Passwords are such easy things.
from infinityfye :
Oooh! Touchy. I really wasn't pushing any buttons, it just so happened I have a binary brain that is designed for extreme workloads and has multithreading, so I was reading your diary while reading this "http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=emo" (check No.2), which is a little more or less my idea about emo. By the way if I clled you emo one more time will you make another entry with me in it???
from infinityfye :
Kundera = Milan Kundera??????
from darthuae :
mmmm mmm mmmm mmmm
from infinityfye :
This was actually intended at your previous entry, but you updated as I was writing this, strange huh? so this goes for this one too. Not that I don't care, which I don't -or do, I don't know. And I (adopting Ben Stiller's voice as Derek Zoolander in the movie -obviously- Zoolander) "really really really" don't want this to sound the way it is going to, but since it is going to anyway I think it is safe to apologize in advance. However, as I'm very well aware that I cannot comprehend your emotional state, or rather emotional "?malestrom?" that you are in, I do tend to believe you should laugh when I say it. In either case it doesn't really matter because I "really really really" can't help myself... EMO!
from infinityfye :
It is not your neck you would be risking. More likely your pride.
from darthuae :
whoa. you made my heart pound with that entry. and not delicately.
from darthuae :
i like that too. and i like the fact that i can make apposite shiny masks from your words - masks that help me deal with the world... (was that a stupid thing to declare?)
from infinityfye :
First of all it is called swine-bloody-flu, when people say N1H1 I instantly transition into a day dream where Iran fires an N1H1 rocket at us! Second, If your age fits into this equation "25<= x >=19" then it is only the norm to see people getting "hitched", next thing thing I know they'll be calling me gay for not getting "hitched", or worse; a pedophile, or even worse; a hermit. However, I do wonder why anyone who is about to get "hitched" would bring up the subject of other people getting "hitched"?
from infinityfye :
Huh?
from infinityfye :
"He that waits upon fortune is never sure of a dinner."
from infinityfye :
1. Be proud of wasta. Afterall, women can't drive. 2. Name the five different kinds of chocolate. (locally available please!) 3. I'm convinced sex has ancient medicinal properties and I'm more than willing to be somebody's... "sex-partner"? If you have one have them contact me please. 4. I won't lend you, but I'm willing to trade it, for your air conditioner perhapes?
from infinityfye :
Well, if he looks like hasan then tell him to shave and get a haircut for crying out loud, although I have to admit, I love the idea of a lesbian julia roberts. P.S. All metal singers are gods, except for the ones that wear tights!
from darthuae :
welcome back to the land of diaries. escape is now futile (or optional). glad you're back, though.
from infinityfye :
What sort of punishment ought you give hosting sites that bail out on ya?
from infinityfye :
You haven't updated in ages. "Why, god dammit, why?"
from darthuae :
i do seriously hope that 'wants' sound better happening than written down--but they do sound pointlessly beautiful!
from i-lost-sarah :
thankies, bitching in a somewhat eloquent form is the only thing i can do :)
from raven72d :
vur' fun entries...
from elliestuff :
I really like the title of the last post. Really, good writing.
from raven72d :
snow globes? i do love snow globes...
from darthuae :
hope you got my email :)
from darthuae :
i know a lot of people who'd most definitely brag about being elitist to everyone they encounter. anyway, that doesn't matter. glad i stumbled across your dland--it's really a good read (if you don't mind, that is.)
from darthuae :
so, mad is the new general stereotype? sounds about right. in that case i don't think i want to be mad--gotta have more craizee than that. can i safely judge that you certainly do not sound like a philistine? (compared to a lot of people i've met before.)
from darthuae :
the entry titled "in betweens"--it rummaged through my memory, took parts of it off, and then subsided astray. maybe you should say "you're welcome" more often (i feel weird saying it myself) because sometimes you just deserve it - why deprive yourself from that human right?
from dreamgirl457 :
Hello everybody, I'm so siked bout diaryland and if anyone could add me that would be cool=)
from darthuae :
really, thank you for that entry.
from deepest-blue :
Just leaving a note to say hi. Like your writing and can relate to some of your stuff. Hang in there xxo.
from infinityfye :
All that, next spring? "Wooow", or "Riiight" I don't know, you choose.
from infinityfye :
Whenever you feel physically incapable of eating this much fat (do you really think this is much fat?) in one sitting, I'd recommend suicide.
from infinityfye :
You're willing to be patient and to keep it to yourself. But can you? Tricky! Tricky!
from infinityfye :
"Credulous at best your desire to believe in angels in the hearts of men"
from ah013 :
Happy birthday :) - Abba
from infinityfye :
Rage is... erm, eh. Good.
from infinityfye :
I tend to think that Kiss Of The Dragon is Jet Li's worst movie ever... But I love Bridget Fonda so it'll have to pass.
from infinityfye :
The sith? You know Star Wars, the Jedi, The Sith and the God Father. Total and thorough knowledge of all 3 is the way to have your wisdom become truly coherent with the life currents of the universe. It's every shallow man's dream.
from infinityfye :
I don't think that your grand mother is now free, not claiming that I know her, but we are what we decide to do, and as they say, or HE says ; "Innama Al A3mal bel Ne'yat"... and one never knows what these people's intentions are, until you really know someone... hmm... anyway did you turn to the dark side? are you sith?
from infinityfye :
A wise man once said; "A conservative, is person with perfectly good legs, who however, have not yet learned to walk"
from infinityfye :
You know... you look like you need a vacation. Don't take life too seriously, you'll never get out of it alive. Besides It's easier to put on slippers than to carpet the whole world.
from soft-fairy :
Do NOT hate yourself. You are a wonderful person. Hate the world if you want, but dont include urself in it *hug*
from soft-fairy :
Do u ever sit on msn? Never was i able to fetch you on the right time *rolls eyes* I'm in sunny Cairo these days, just moved here. Trying to adjust *taps own self*
from infinityfye :
Hmm, now I wouldn't know about plotting a web of lies as it's strictly a girls' thing :-P but yes you're true, the more complex the most likely you'll forget and more likely you'll be caught. But. when you do get caught (so I hear) the most likely you'll come up with this almost perfect lie that'll get your plot up and running again... or so I've been told.
from soft-fairy :
Talk about having sadistic genes. Bwaah!
from infinityfye :
So the Israel peoplez have sadestic genes, "If Hezb-Allah wasn't so cowardly as to make a base of it's operations in civilan-populated areas there would have been no civilian casualties" says the Isreali counsil in the US. 179 dead all but 13 of whom are civilans and over 600 wounded. But bear in mind that this is not new to Israel, but you also have to keep in mind that the "first strike" Hezbolla's. But what manifested Hezb-allah's move, do they really just want to negotiate a prisoner exchange? The Disarm? No, The disarm conditions by the Lebaneese government were for Hezbollah's war division to integrate into the Lebanese army and become part of the government. While an Egyptian envoy in Israel were negotiating a prisoner exchange, the negotiations failed, why? Mubarak says negotiations were successfull, until a "third party" interfered. who was that third party... also, a couple of months ago Mubarak said "Iran is interfering in Iraq, and may be funding some of the gurellaz there" he was attacked by all the so called opposition parties and other Arab countries, when infact it was true, and that third party was Iran. In Nasr-Allah's speech yesterday he said adressing the Lebanese, more like "his" lebanese "don't worry about what gets destroyed we have <<friends>> that will give us money to rebuild... blah blah blah". Iran is acting like a superpower and wants to have some control on the region, I think Iran thins they've got the russian and the chineese behind their backs. Israel can't just launch an attack on Syria or Iran, but as with all sadestic people, they have to kill somebody.
from infinityfye :
Anger is good, anger is the easiest way to let go. And the most effective one too.
from infinityfye :
you're welcome.
from infinityfye :
Seems to me that you're just an anarchist
from infinityfye :
When people obsess with "death", they are actually obsessing with life. It's life that is concrete, not death, it's life that you have not death, it's life that you know and think you understand not death. You are here and you do what you have to do, and sometimes you get to do what you want to do, and if you're really really lucky; what you have to do is what you want to do. It's good to believe in Karma... but I believe in a 4-5 to drop the drama.
from infinityfye :
Non realistic????? Damn... you certainly set some new definition for real with the "Stockholm syndrome"... who exactly is kidnapper??? what about Genophobia and you get to score with your prof. or Arad 2... maybe But'n'Ben A gogo's Senga... but really it's insulting to insult alchohol.
from infinityfye :
You quote Dr. Evil and name your belly... wow!
from infinityfye :
You maybe going schizo, but it's more likely you're trying to waste as much time as you can before you actually get to writing.
from infinityfye :
In truth, everything that actually matters seem to turn up after you get to the point where nothing matters.
from infinityfye :
that's any birth certificate of course not just yours...
from infinityfye :
I recently discovered something important too, if you look at the back of your birth certificate you'll read something that sounds like: "dull-witted, annoying people tend to be incredibly successful. So try to be one"
from infinityfye :
No I'm not even close to being an ecelctic. And I haven't seen any manifesto limiting each individual to a certain type of music.
from soft-fairy :
Does your msn address actually work? Or do you sit on it sometimes? *laughs* Cause we never seem to get hold of each other! Cheers.
from infinityfye :
Someone important - or famous- - probably both - said "You can't wear one mask to yourself and another to the multitude without the two mixing up together". What exactly are you talking about: Death Metal and Vanessa Carlton?
from soft-fairy :
"Love is not synonymous to attention, but the perception of love/being loved--at times-- is exactly that." Even Dante’s version of unrequited love becomes tainted when lovers start counting the days before crumpling someone else’s bed sheets. Most relationships have lost their consecration with boyfriends and girlfriends adopting pleasures outside the institution that initially bound them together. Falling in love has become a huge gamble with many people condoning extra "marital" behaviour as a sign of the times, a time that brings with it maniacal highs and miserable lows. The race to get into a relationship also brings with it a special brand of torment all of its own, the kind that has parents vying to find that perfect match for their more than perfect offspring (or so they like to think) by crushing a million hearts along the way. Matrimonial hopefuls are always looking for bigger, better and richer and if exhibit A doesn’t live up to their expectations, they move onto sample B and so forth until they find that big, fat reserve of unlimited power and bounty from which they can devour the fruit of their labour through fake smiles and pretence...
from soft-fairy :
Haaaaaaa! Kamikaze barbie, eh. Nice. Very nice. Hehe. Thankyou so much for ur kind comment, but no, i dont write professionally. I tend to write when im angry, you know, it comes out easier and quicker. Otherwise i can stay hours pondering in front of a blank paper. Il keep reading ur diary sarah! Logically yours.
from infinityfye :
Failing lots of things, only because I woke up these final exam days and couldn't get anyone to change my pitiful mind that insisted on not going. I'm really tripping here with this "fail my people" thing, where were you born? Egypt?
from infinityfye :
I don't know about being intelligent, I think we agreed I'm not the handsome intelligent type? lol thanks anyway. you're not the only one failing though, but not in arabic.
from infinityfye :
I would gladly give you mine if I didn't have loads of assignments and software to design and document. Oh wait, I forgot... I don't do assignments. You want it?
from infinityfye :
well, if by "one of those days" you mean a red eyes, bad hair day then maybe it's the story of my life. but if you mean one of those days where everything turns light years worse than what you hoped it would be when you were thinking "What could be worse?", then this this is definitly the story of my life.
from infinityfye :
Maybe, but I like to think of my diary as an incantaion of punishment. Evil? lol I don't think so, I'm the first true, probably the last and maybe the only, evil entity in the planes. do you know the saying "Heaven won't take me and hell is afraid I'll take over" that was made up to describe me... " I am the embodiment of all creations' ills and my purpose is but a simple one... to annhilate all that is unworthy, all that is but a reflection of my self... or drink the world's entire supply of liquor" :P
from infinityfye :
So you only use the diary to whine about stuff??? Hmm, I haven't heared anything about any Ivy team prick... but you can certainly remind any ivy team prick that their white asses were beaten up by the egyptians at the bearing point world rowing cup regatta in lucerne switzerland. okay so it was in 2004 but still.
from infinityfye :
Ah and how lucky I am to stumble upon this great diary of yours, there is a number big enough; "Infinity" that's me. Fye... Infinity Fye. Err. well I don't know about feed back the next morning but I certainly would like to be ading feedback everynow and then, what say you?

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