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In reference to last entry- low or high? I am not much of a drinker but see why some do drink. One rare drink and mine is fierce! (HA HA not unusual!) Whichever... hormonally driven of course and this too shall pass, just a temporary phase!

from ernst :

A witch w/a warthog! Awesome. I bottle-fed and raised a warthog of my own, they’re hilarious and maddening and instinctively destructive. She must have been a witch to keep one tied on a lead…

from msafire :

Thank you for the last beautiful entry and guided relaxation moment.

from jimbostaxi :

Thank you for reading and for your lovely note. Sometimes, I’m able to say something meaningful about my state of being. Most times I struggle to get to that point and can’t articulate what I’m feeling particularly well. Happiness or what it is to be happy strikes a chord with quite a few people. I’m grateful to have this place to vent and to all of you who drop in to help me along. :)

from whystinger :

I am sorry that you have endometriosis but I am glad that they did diagnose it. For some shit reason, that is so often ignored or misdiagnosed or the symptoms are not taken seriously.

from the-grey-one :

yay! you’re back : )

from ernst :

A lot of moving parts to that last entry, look forward to reading more and scoping out your back-catalog.

from jimbostaxi :

Welcome back :)

from papotheclown :

Clown Rainbow Orgy would make a solid band name. Not a band that would ever be successful, but a band maybe made up of high-schoolers who are conflicted about what kind of music they should play. I imagine they would have bad sideburns and worse tattoos.

from papotheclown :

So very true

from the-grey-one :

your happy place sounds amazing

from papotheclown :

Your mom sounds awesome. And I wrote your last five notes. Look at that.

from papotheclown :

Your mom sounds awesome. And I wrote your last five notes. Look at that.

from papotheclown :

I like that catchphrase. I'm gonna steal it.

from papotheclown :

Well damn.I am sorry to hear that's how it went down, but am very impressed by your reaction to it. Stay strong and compassionate. I'm rooting for you.

from papotheclown :

That was a beautiful post. Just beautiful. I am happy for you.

from papotheclown :

Let me be another one to say read Alan Watts. He very quickly became one of my heroes.

from whystinger :

Loving one's self is important, very important. Hugs

from whystinger :

Thanks for the password. I have been too busy traveling for my job to even read Dairyland, so I have a lot to catch up on. Wow, you have been through a lot. Hugs. More comments as I read up and catch up.

from cloudy-night :

Glad to hear you're feeling better.

from cloudy-night :

Wow, you are really going through a lot. I honestly don't know what to say, I never invest in other people out of the fear that they may one day truly leave me. This may not mean much now, but I think the bravest people are those who open up their hearts and welcome all the good and bad things associated with love. I hope that you heal and although it may take a long time, it will eventually happen. Sorry for the heartache you're going through and I truly think you're handling it very well.

from the-grey-one :

Thank you for the password. I'm sorry for what you are going through. I send those awkwrd internet diaryland kinda thought-hugs your way. <3

from papotheclown :

Hey, thanks. You are pretty cool yourself

from papotheclown :

Very well said.

from the-grey-one :

Loved your latest! (The beginning and the end)

from whystinger :

Good advice in your entry dated 1/7/16, truly

from whystinger :

You quite smoking again! Keep quitting until you are where you want to be. It took me numerous times quitting over the years until I quit for good, even though I sort of fell off the wagon a few years ago.

from the-grey-one :

slosh really is a fantastic word.

from cloudy-night :

Sorry to read about your wisdom tooth, can you have it extracted? Hope you feel better.

from dangerspouse :

Was Eric Fromm particularly noted for writing in the present perfect tense? I must have missed that. Probably because I don't know what present perfect is. Huh. (But I did appreciate his quibbles with Freud.) Yeah, epilation does tend to make one sing the blues. On the other hand, my back has never been smoother. Hang in there. Your sweater rocks.

from cloudy-night :

It has also taken me a long time to learn things. And fact is, I'm still learning. Don't worry to much about what was, think about what is or will be because all the things you did or didn't do made you who you are today and I have to say, she is pretty damn awesome!

from cloudy-night :

I'm so glad to hear you're enjoying your time behind the wheel, can't help but be a little envious. I hope everything is going well.

from cloudy-night :

Glad to see that lasik helped you see things more clearly. Quite honestly, I'm scared to do it myself because I don't know the long-term effects, if any. Glad to see things are clearer for you (no pun intended)!

from cloudy-night :

Ouch, he must have been the world's biggest a**hole! I felt that from way over here.

from msafire :

8-31 entry could alternative been called "Why YOU should ONLY date a writer"

from cloudy-night :

Hey! I've been reading your entries and after reading them I don't know how to comment. So I just sit back and enjoy it for what it is. I know things are going well for you and I hope they continue to get better.

from cloudy-night :

You're a kind person, you know? You genuinely care about people and the things that go on around them ( and yourself). I'm sorry, I haven't gotten a chance to look at any of the documentaries you've posted up because if it concerns you, I know it's good to look into them. I didn't want to respond until I've checked them out, but I wanted you to know that I see why you're concerned. The events that are occurring are horrible and CNN and HLN seems to glorify it to me somehow - which I know isn't true, it's just how I feel when I watch the news. Later.

from msafire :

I am so enjoying self indulgently just lying in bed today for a rare change and discovering your BEAUTIFUL art work and lyrical writing that captures the essence of emotions. Thank you for sharing ! You ask how one writes poetry to capture emotion, yet it reads to me as if you have done just that.

from stardumb :

ancient pointy rocks? lol, yea def gotta see that... other than that, stop by anytime. i'll do the same. xxo

from the-grey-one :

i viewed it like that for a while myself. eventually further reflection revealed more to the story. as it tends to do! ah well, ah well.

from the-grey-one :

i used to have a pair of scissors in my pocket when i walked to the store alone at night. i was probably 10-13 or so. the store was across the street, but.. i was awfully scared. still needed the junkfood fix though. i was already such an addict in the making.. hm.. thought provoking entry, thank you.

from stardumb :

i clicked on ur name because one of my good friends lost a sarah to addiction/overdose inevitably. i guess u wouldnt be surprised if i liked the art in in it, and the longlore forelorn, crimson acidic attitude with something of spunk and sauteed in spice it woulda made me more aware of why i put saudia arabia in my prayer list. take care. well done. xo

from papotheclown :

Thank you for your kind words. I am writing all of this out because it helps me, but it is kind of wonderful to know that my story can help others too. As a side note, I love Simone De Beauvoir and Milan Kundera a lot as well.

from cloudy-night :

I only read as far back as "resigned to be heart broken" and all I can say is I'm sorry. I'm sorry that you're feeling the way you feel. It is often said that people rather have been in love than never to have been in love at all. But I believe that idea manifest over time, when those cuts in a person's heart become scars and they can live with those scars. Not that you need my advice, but go through the motions. Feel, regret, long, etc. It will be alright, in time I'm sure. I hope that things can go back to how they were for you both, but since I haven't read back far enough, I don't know the reason things ended the way they did. And I also read, "In case you haven't noticed". I really abhor the injustice of it all. The pain, the suffering, the dictatorship. Nothing that they've done seems democratic, but I never been a lover of politicians. Even the purist politicians can lose their principles if what they seek means a lot to them. It's a story old as time itself, sacrificing one's soul to ensure no one else suffer when all the while, nothing changes. Back the the previous, I know you're hurting and I hope that it stops soon.

from cloudy-night :

You locked your diary? I understand, sometimes you just want to keep things to yourself. Drop me note every once in a while and let me know how things are, okay?

from the-grey-one :

aw dang, you're all locked up.. are you offering passwords perhaps?

from cloudy-night :

It is strange, how the thought of losing someone was adore can cause us to become panic stricken. It's a good feeling though, it's not easy to find someone that we know we can't live without. So you like nutella, eh? I never had it, but I know of it. Guess it's because of the gnutella story. I also wanted to mention that it's wild to rediscover yourself and to know that everything you believed to be true isn't quite the way you thought. Good to acknowledge it.

from cloudy-night :

I always thought you were awesome, but after reading your latest entry - you are beyond awesome to me now. I am bad with words, so whatever happens to exceed awesome is what you are!

from cloudy-night :

I really think that love is something that can last long after the honeymoon phase. I haven't really been in love, but I believe that there are cycles pertaining to the whole idea of love, but what do I know? And I think it is awesome that you both wrote a list of what you like about one another, that is very sweet.

from cloudy-night :

It is good to show your thanks. Acknowledging the good things we are given makes all the bad things that may happen seems like little to nothing.

from cloudy-night :

Sometimes it's best to keep things to yourself until you confirm whatever it is you are hesitant to tell.

from cloudy-night :

Instinct, fear - I know them well. Every step I've taken, I took in fear and through faith, I ignored my instincts to turn back. But only a few times, I wish I would have ignored my instincts a lot more when it came to the things that I wanted. Sometimes, the fear is the only deterrent when it comes to you and your happiness.

from loveherwell :

this may sound weird, but i've been reading through a lot of your entries tonight and i got to where you put up your soundcloud link, and just... wow. that cover of "for no one" is beyond beautiful.

from cloudy-night :

I hope you find your Italy.

from darthuae :

"It's more okay now to admit to hardcore fetishes than to say you'd like to be in love." - couldn't agree more (actually your whole entry made more sense to me than any of the feminist BS i've been hearing.) i'm also angry at the kind of man who thinks my saying "no" is a mere suggestion or cry for help. that somehow, in the back of his deranged mind, "no" is a "yes" in burqa.

from cloudy-night :

You're welcome and I agree with what you wrote in your latest post, had to read it twice because I wanted to make sure I got it and I got it.

from cloudy-night :

I'm so sorry...

from darthuae :

habibti, let me in please <3

from the-grey-one :

"so what if some of the people there make you literally physically ill? vomit on them" i bust out laughing when i read that. so perfect. that one is going to stay with me for a while.

from judging :

I'm not dead... yet :)

from cloudy-night :

I just read your note and I agree that my reasons for adopting an eff you attitude isn't justified. And to be honest, it won't stop me for caring any less. The problem with caring adequately is that it can't be done. There isn't really a middle ground. Either you care or don't care or you care too much or not enough. But I guess just caring is adequate, right? It's better than caring too much. I did want to comment on your entry, "no longer my soapbox". It takes a lot of effort to let people you see in the real world to read your personal thoughts and all, but it's bad for business too. You would've been better off making a friendlier blog for them to read. I've done it and it's irksome, but it makes them happy.

from swallowthkey :

for all that she tried, i don't think she ever understood the value of living things. also in general she just had a penchant for throwing things, at me especially. all gifts of potted plants will be well received, especially if they are not airborne.

from lanienaked :

i think the problem is the level of stupidity in a person. i see many people who are average that i find stupid, yet i know they will lead a normal average life and teach their children those normal average traits. i feel surrounded by idiots on a constant basis...

from integrating :

LOL. I kinda don't know what you're talking about, but I quit cigarettes in Nov but have taken up smoking an herbal blend you have to roll yourself. Every herb is chosen for it's calming effect. $6 a bag. I don't know if they have Planet K's where you are but that's where I get them. :)

from integrating :

2012-02-26..again, I really enjoyed reading that.

from integrating :

2012-02-23....very beautiful entry

from dinahsoar :

Thank you for your note. I have been especially drawn to Rumi lately! And you, too, huh? I recently bought three volumes. One is love poetry and there are commentaries by Coleman Barks ... who I find to be an amazing writer. I usually skip prefaces and introductions (I know I shouldn't), but his are really well written ... funny and passionate and insightful! Oh ... and Rumi's great, too! lol

from darthuae :

i found a rooftop we could sit on and watch the planets twirl/speak in arabic if the right words fit/fall in love with strangers just to touch their knitwear/collapse indecently in a confronting culture/love love love and not leave in broken shoes/use the pockets of our trousers like chest-boxes that will hold everything but treasure/i found all this through words and my husband's death in '69 (this is me trying to tell you that i love you too).